#i don’t need a random person arguing with me abt this so

[spacelazarwolf]

I've seen people say that because you don't talk enough about the genocide in palestine and instead talk about the antisemitism in leftist pro-palestine spaces (even though you have talked about palestine before and don't support israel) that somehow makes you a zionist. It's like ??? That's not how that works. Honestly I'm sick of this performative activism where you must disavow anyone Jewish who dares to talk about antisemitism during this time. Then these people turn around and say that they don't hate Jews they just hate Israel

yeah it’s exhausting. i’ve got complicated feelings abt calling it a genocide — mostly bc of the way non palestinian gentiles are just parroting words without actually understanding why people are calling it a genocide, and also using it as an excuse for gratuitous holocaust inversion — but at the end of the day i think arguing a semantic issue isn’t going to help gazans who are dying right now. i don’t think it matters if we say it’s genocide or if we say it’s a precursor to genocide or if we say it’s a catastrophic loss of human life, it’s all just words. what matters right now is not if one single random disabled jew thousands of miles away uses the right word. what matters right now is that people are dying and that needs to stop. and apparently saying that means i’m an evil genocide denier who’s basically a nazi.

and like. it doesn’t matter how many times i explain my position in excruciating detail. it doesn’t matter how much nuance i give and how many personal feelings and insecurities i share, bc it has never been abt if i’m actually a zionist. they don’t care. in fact, it’s better for them if i don’t openly identify as a zionist, because that strengthens their use of zionist as a dogwhistle. if they only targeted jews who openly identified as zionists, the dogwhistle wouldn’t work.

and for the antisemitism stuff, i’m very unsurprised that’s why they’re targeting me. ppl have made it clear that they not only don’t care abt antisemitism but that antisemitism is necessary for their “activism” so they see me telling them not to be antisemitic as me telling them not to advocate for palestinians, and at this point i can’t help it if they’re idiots.

zionism and antisemitism aren’t a chicken and the egg situation. zionism is a direct response to antisemitism in the diaspora, and by actively participating in making it worse and mocking jews for being afraid of the antisemitism we’re facing, you’re doing political zionists’ work for them. i want to talk about this, about the rhetoric i’ve seen used in some jewish spaces and how antisemitism in antizionist movements just bolsters it, and what they can do to instead connect with these jewish institutions and leaders to address the very real concerns jews have and show them that israel is not the solution. but people don’t want to hear what they can do better. they want to hear that “zionists” and “zionist institutions” are all evil groups plotting world domination and weaponizing the holocaust. i might have more success doing this work in irl spaces but i’ve very much given up on doing it here.

[elekinetic]

user elekinetic do you have any tips to spare for outlining fics 😭 i feel like I word vomit any of the concept that I have in my head, and dialogue ,and build off that adding paragraphs as I go and I go so slow bc of it. But ive been trying hard lately to write a list of “scenes” and bullet point the story but yeah.

do you know anything that could help me have an idea of where to go start to finish instead of starting at the random spot I’ve come up with first? I waste so much writing time because I haven’t built a backstory for characters and things like that so i don’t always know how they start the story off, only the situation they’re in. Is that something that could help? Making a list for each character or something? Would love to hear your thoughts thank you! <3

hi! first of all i’m so flattered you asked! to be clear, i am a very slow writer too lmao and i’m relatively new to prose writing, and though in very confident in my understanding of what makes a good story (W screenwriting), i am still figuring out my outlining process. but hey! let’s learn together.

sorry in advance for how long this is. i love talking.

so i basically figure everything out in the outline and write after i feel very good about it. if you have a strong foundation, everything gets a hell of a lot easier. t kind of sounds like your process might be similar to mine, so i’m just gonna explain what i'm doing for my current project.

my key document is my “bible.” i split it up into a couple different sections using page breaks (page breaks my best friend ily page breaks):

pitch/word vomit summary

scene ideas

outline

notes

ok so wtf does that mean.

1. pitch/word vomit summary — explain your concept. bc i've got a film/tv background, im starting off with my logline. (e.g. "after robin learns will is gay, they have a heart to heart in an abandoned video store about insecurity and feeling alone. they learn they're not." sometimes i'll follow that up with a note to myself like, "this fic isn't robin finding out, this is what happens after. starts with her already knowing. will pov, focus on his perception of robin changing. subtly reference toward feelings about mike, dont come out (haha) and say it") then, i write as MUCH of the concept down as i can, like i'm explaining it to a friend. (sometimes i copy and paste rants from dms directly into the document). it can be totally out of order, non-sensical, contradictory. just get as many of your ideas down as possible. you want to be able to come back to this and be like, oh i totally forgot about that. vague chapter summaries, personal notes about themes, whatever you want. i have a list of beats that you find in romantic dramas for inspiration and a paragraph abt ways i want to parallel/subvert s3 of st. just. go ham. 2. scene ideas — this is pretty self explanatory. i take some of the stuff i have in the p/s and flesh it out, or put down new ideas. this is where i'm writing out dialogue in bullet points, or what i want them to be Really Saying. (e.g. "mike: [panics bc he feels seen, tries to flip it back on (redacted) and fails] ") this is for when i can see stuff more clearly or i get out of the shower with a whole exchange in my head. gonna be out of order, a little all over the place. 3. outline — so. this is where you start piecing it together. put the bullet points in order. figure out objective of each scene and what needs to happen to accomplish that goal. figure out pacing, what needs to happen when. this step is where im looking at dialogue and thinking "why does mike say that? why does he feel that way? what needs to happen to get him to this point emotionally?" or looking at scenes and thinking "these are two scenes with people arguing back to back. lets make sure they feel different and give the characters different tactics to get what they want (byler argument where mike is avoiding will vs max argument where max is avoiding lucas. i could use this to highlight similarities and differences in the relationships, but having two scenes with the same tactics back to back might feel repetitive. maybe i move the scenes farther apart or change circumstances. maybe mike and will are having a veiled argument while theyre with a group of friends in a public space and max and lucas' argument is outside max's house.) also asking if conflicts are resolved too quickly, if the miscommunications feel too convenient, if characters disappear or are only around as plot devices. write. troubleshoot. repeat. 4. random notes — everything else that doesnt fit. for me this is literally just taylor swift lyrics (writing the fic vaguely off of a Specific Song that SHOULD BE STREAMED MORE WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE anyway) and links to posts i use as character reference to make sure im staying true to the characters. (remembering will said "i was being a total jerk to el, i deserved it," AND "you're ruining everything, and for what!"/"i wasn't moping!")

i want it to be clear im doing all of this at the same time. im jumping around and pulling new ideas and rearranging as stuff changes. i think the thing that's really hard is that i want to be able to sit down, write the outline, and then move on. but for us scatterbrained writers, you're gonna have to re-outline and readjust like. a thousand times. and that's okay. that's good! it feels tedious as hell but the story is so much better for it.

take your time. let yourself be slow. keep finding holes in your story and fill the world in as you fix them.

here are some more questions i ask myself to make the story better:

What are you trying to accomplish over the course of the story? What is it about? (for the will&robin fic, it was something about feeling seen for the first time.) When you get lost in your story or aren't sure why a scene feels stale, come back to this. is the scene furthering that goal?

What is changing internally for each of your main characters? (yes theyre dating by the end but like. what do they learn.)

Are the side characters people or props? (will pov scene of a party-wide picnic where everyone's talking but will is focused on mike's hands.... where is max's head at in the scene? you don't have to have a super long backstory and she doesn't have to be a big part of the plot, but if she's saying something, figure out why she's saying it. if will is having a heart to heart with el, understand why el is responding the way she is. the scene's goal may be to get will through a breakthrough, but el's circumstances will change in the scene too. figure out how this conversation lands with her. oh, and remember the adults are people too!)

Why is this character saying this/why are they responding this way? (this should answer your "where do i start?" question. start in that random spot and figure out A) why they are there and B) why they are reacting the way they do (see last bullet point).

side note: some of the best advice i ever got was "enter the scene late, exit early." skip the prologue. try starting from that random spot. if it feels like something's missing, figure out exactly what that something is, and go from there

Do the stakes feel high enough?

What do i need to set up to make sure this scene/beat is satisfying as possible? (are will and mike going to have a big argument? oh, so we have to show tension before.... BAM you have another scene to write and your outline is fuller)

i could go on a lot longer but. basically.

i edit while i write. i'm someone who needs a very fucking strong outline and a very fucking clear idea of the story before i can start writing it. i'm putting probably 70-80% of the leg work in at the start so i can focus on making the prose (or script, most of the time) the best it can be.

THAT BEING SAID, this is just the way i do it and i have like. a fic and a half published. im taking my sweet time bc im creatively burned out and this is for fun first and foremost. like i said. i am a Very Slow Writer.

i highly, highly recommend hitting up the ask boxes of writers like @/strangeswift, @/wiseatom, @/astrobei, or @/andiwriteordie. no guarantees on responses bc they are busy ppl with busy lives but i really do think theyre some of the best writers out here right now, and im not just saying that bc they're my friends. abby (strangeswift) and i have been each other's sounding board through a lot of projects and she's almost done with one of her first Big Fics, so its worth asking her about that.

i hope this helps! ah!!

[twentyfivemiceinatrenchcoat]

ari !! ari i hope u are doing so so amazing n vibing and living ur best life, i feel like i haven’t been interacting as much these days so i wanted to stop by n say hi!! :] and hmmm ive yet to read your best friend’s brother fic but it made me wanna think of an unrequited love between best friend!satoru and you where satoru is the one down horrendous instead (and perhaps you’re already spoken for.. mayb with sugu…. this is totally not ari-specific bait) i would love to hear your thoughts on our special little loverboy not being loved back in the ways he wants so bad )): 🫶🏼 side note if i think abt this pining bestie!gojo too much i get so sad i fear he’d never get over that crush on you even if you were already married to someone else… 💔💔💔💔

LOGAN !!!!! ^ this is me @ you rn……. i am kissing you and biting you gently <33333

I’M DOING PRETTY WELL… flowers r starting to bloom over here which is so nice !!! i’m just kind of waiting for summer ….. i have so many fic ideas that i wanna get to but not enough time :’3 not to mention my neglected tbr………

bUT overall i’m doing well!!! i hope it’s the same for you!!!!! it’s so sweet of u to drop by sniffle…. but pls don’t ever feel pressured to !! i saw that post you made a couple days ago n pls just know there’s never any pressure or obligation for you to interact often and stuff!!!! i’m always happy to speak to you whenever, so there’s never any rush <33 (i totally get it too… i’m pretty sure i have the online status thing turned off which takes off a lot of that pressure so!! i recommend doing that if you haven’t already <33)

BUT OKOK. onto the good stuff!!!! logan…. this probably doesn’t come as too much of a surprise considering the fic i posted but . i rlly love the unrequited love trope!!! >:3 i used to be the biggest sucker for hanahaki aus…. still am……. i need to write smth on it at some point bc i think it’s one of the best things ever created (and it’s perfect for toru let’s be real… the flower symbolism)….. SO. scenarios like this are very appealing to me!! and with bestie!satoru too…….. i have many thoughts >:33 let’s see how long i manage to stay coherent hehe

FIRST OF ALL. the ari specific bait…… you little weasel (affectionate) OK BUT . the fact that it’s Suguru in Particular changes a lot i think. i’ll circle back to that later tho trust 🙏

okay so. overall!! and i’d love to know your thoughts on this logan….. i firmly believe that satoru is the type to love one single person for the rest of his life. he never moves on from them. once someone has earned his love and nestled their way into his heart they’re there to stay. (and i’d argue that it’s kinda supported by canon yk… satoru hanging on to his memories of youth/suguru no matter how much time passes :’3)… so!! yeah!!! i definitely think he’d stay in love with his bestie forever, even if he knew fully well his feelings wouldn’t be returned. that’s just my take though!!!

i thinkkkk the tricky part is just. how satoru feels about it. a part of me wants to say that he handles it decently, that he’s happy just to be around you… but i think it’s also natural for him to feel a little empty about it all. bc he truly is!! a loverboy!!! deep down he yearns so badly for intimacy :(((( satoru is just such a pro at isolating himself and i think it gets worse in this kind of scenario. he loves you but does keep a certain distance i think…. to make it easier for himself and also so he doesn’t mess anything up for you. but he can never keep himself away for too long……

ok so we’re circling back to sugu now. i think satoru would handle the situation a lot better if suguru and you were together. my stsg-infested brain just can’t imagine an au where he isn’t at least a little bit in love with suguru…. and i think seeing two people he loves and trusts with all his heart be together doesn’t bother him nearly as much as it would have if you were with a random third party. there’s this One quote i like from . um….. a voice actor. of a character. in… ohshc 👉👈 AND I JUST THINK IT FITS IN THIS SCENARIO OK…….. :’3

I think Kyoya is very much in love with Tamaki and with Haruhi. He’s very much in love with the both of them. And I think it matures to a point where he would much prefer to see the both of them together than him with either one. Because they make more sense together than he makes with anybody else.

i think that’s sort of how he’d feel!!! there’s a kind of maturity there that satoru has imo. and since he’s so close to both of you, he doesn’t have to worry about being pushed out of your life (which might be his biggest worry in a scenario where you’re together with a random third party)…… so. yeah!!! would it be angsty? yes ofc. but i rlly do see satoru as a mature character, and also often selfless!!! he just respects you and your choices so much :(((

……….. what i will say. is that if you happened to get together with someone who didn’t treat you well. he would Shut That Shit Down instantly <3333 we love angry protective satoru !!!!!!!!

[sminiac]

random jinsik minjae junmin info dump cause i saw xikers w/ barricade mnbgfgffbbbf and HAVE to tell a FF writer abt it and ur my fave🤫🤫

Jinsik

-when he’s interested in someone he mirrors them soooo heavily, he would look over at me then copy what i was doing lol he’s so cute whether it was jumping up and down pointing at each other or him teasingly copying my habit of covering my mouth with my hand when i’m shocked 🥹🥹🥹

-so so attentive to make sure the person he’s interested in is watching,

-and then when he knows he has your attention he tries to show off whether it be little stunts with the mic or a small show of strength bgffghhhbgf

-he’s also… pretty jealous LMAO i was interacting with Hunter and Jinsik looked over,, and saw me only paying attention to Hunter and went 😒 likeee sorry bub but ive paid attention to u all night let me talk to Hunter once pls

-during almost every song&every ment i have a video recorded instance of him looking at me trying to be subtle but it was actually vv obvious lol

-also suchhhh a lover boy🥹 he got to the point where he would just automatically smile when we would make eye contact and he’d get flustered and look away while all smiley.. Jinsik’s future lover ur so luckyy

Minjae

-when he finds someone that interests him he’s such a MENACEEEE

-genuinely so crazy and loves to provoke, he came up to me with the mic and i got scared and backed off then later he threw one of their sweat rags at me and pointed at me like??? 😭

-gets so smug when he has your attention like he’ll smirk to himself when he sees you’re watching him

-also when he’s like in the zone he sticks his tongue out all the way idk how to explain it but it’s crazy (and kinda hot too…)

Junmin

-lord

-def the kinda guy that makes you look him in the eye and put ALL your attention on him

-he would look at me until i noticed him and put my attention on him (then he’d get all happy and smiley) (he’d also only do it when he wasn’t center so i always had to be on junmin watch to see if he was looking)

-also unpredictable ? one moment he would be making direct eye contact and literally licking the air at me (in the middle of covering lsfm ep&tbw) like full on caressing the air with his tongue (which… i don’t know how to feel about😭), then puffing his cheeks out and doing cutesy peace signs to me in the middle of iffy😭

-kinda off topic but whoa irl his eyes are so beautiful… like not gonna argue with a man with big beautiful brown doe eyes! Whatever you say gorgeous 🫡🫠😘

anywayyy that’s just my lil infodump of habits and mannerisms they seemed to have when i saw them!!

Bestfriend ily but… I think you need to know that they’re like.. quite literally in love with you bestfriend.

This is craaaazy oh my god, I’m actually so??? I don’t have words, the way you could’ve snagged any one of them. Jinsik interacting with you has me thrashing around, smiling so hard my cheeks hurt.

ALSO BIG BEAUTIFUL BROWN DOE EYES IM GIGGLING.

[mothwiingz]

Hate to break it to you, but that censorship post was talking about you.

Anti views are authoritarian. Censoring fictional works that contain topics you don't like (in general or a specific representation) or that you find disgusting is authoritarian. Either all fictional works are allowed or none are. Because as soon as you begin excluding certain topics, further topics will be excluded based on others' disgust.

You're jumping through hoops trying to separate the message of that post from proship arguments, but they are the same. It's being anti-censorship even if the content (or how it is handled) disgusts you personally. Delete your reblog if you don't actually agree.

1. imagine being so desperate to be able to romanticize pedophilia that you go out of your way to anonymously send a paragraph to a random kid online lmao

2. im not jumping through any hoops. they said “censorship because you find things disgusting is authoritarian” and i completely agree.

3. when will proshippers learn that it has nothing to do with disgust, it never did, and it never will. idc if people like disgusting stuff. if someones into things i find disgusting, i js ignore it and move on. we can still be friends, i aint judging you, nothing like that.

the problem comes when it causes people to be abused irl. if victims are constantly exposed to content portraying their abuse as fun and healthy and okay, like some kind of just extreme kink, then they will normalize it to themselves subconsciously over time. especially child victims. same goes for offenders. they begin to see it as normal. it allows them to feed into their desires, to justify the horrible crimes they consider doing. and im not making any of this up. this is what happened to me. i was exposed to proship shit and began to see the abusive relationship i was in as just a fun little taboo. he was almost 17, i was 12, and i wasn’t able to cut contact until i was 14. because the content id been exposed to had made it seem normal to me.

im not advocating for censorship. im not saying horrible shit shouldnt be portrayed. nothing should be taken down without a reason beyond “I don’t like it”. but it needs to be shown in a way that shows how horrific it is, and not in a way that makes victims begin to see their abusers’ behavior as something worth romanticizing.

im not going to be arguing abt this shit any further. i dont have time for discourse

[btsbs]

The “Taennie” situation was really weird to me. I don’t really care about either of them & if idols get laid and get it out of their system good for them. But the way it was handled was strange and calculated. And it didn’t seem serious to me. Probably why they never “confirmed” the relationship and let it be all on speculations. And I wonder, why? It’s not like they need the promotion. It does nothing for them. But I also can’t help but notice every time a “taennie” situation was released, it was during some of YG drama involving contracts or messiness.

Lets go back to the start. Let’s assume TH was trying to get with Jennie & that accidental follow was him slacking so he had to make up an excuse real quick. That was December 2021. So, let’s assume they started hanging out organically from there. But it was controlled because the car photo (May 2022) that created the storm was too specific to be some random person that happened to catch them on their way to vacation. Where did it come from? We don’t even know that either. It was also burry enough that you could argue it wasn’t them. Companies would’ve done an statement by then, but they didn’t. It took that other BP member less evidence to confirm a relationship with the actor that lasted abt 3 months. And it wasn’t Dispatch that dropped the pics. In fact, Dispatch never mentioned them. But that’s not random considering they don’t speak on BTS.

The whole Jn “iPhone leak” was fabricated. How come every single photo of them is blurry or their faces aren’t clear. If you happened to have access to her information, you surely would’ve gotten HD pics, videos or messages that proves the relationship to the point there’s not denying. Might you, that whole Jeju trip had “leaked” pictures. That was not a “leak”, it was people from her side. BH made an statement about “postings” that were infringing on their artist and defaming so they would sue. YG did not speak about it at all.

Then nothing about them for a while to the point some people forgot. Just random pics kept popping up, so jn’s “leaked content” was going around for months. So, after a year and a half of the “accidental follow” and exactly a year after the car photo comes the Paris hands walk (May 2023). First, I need to talk about how some people knew something related to them was going to happen in Paris around April (there’s actual tweets). Second, it was terribly staged and on propose. And again, why was that? They don’t need a PR relationship. I also think is crazy how TH who’s probably the most careful and strict member of BTS even agreed to that stunt & even leave a signature. Also, the person that got the signature had a whole V magazine cover like they knew he was going to be there. That was so painfully staged. And the walking was also a bit awkward if I’m honest. It seemed way too staged and not natural. And when that happened I remembered thinking “oh they might be soft launching their relationship” and I was sure the BH/YG statements would come soon but didn’t.

After that whole situation, nothing more happened just some theories and speculations that they might have been together. But at the same time, I find weird how TH would try to shut down any rumor. For example, people speculating they left the airport together after the Paris walk and TH starting off a live right there in the car and showing he was alone. And so many more instances of this where he would tag or intentionally show the people he is with so there’s not room for speculation. And now we are here. Some Taennie shippers even speculate they broke up back in August 2023 (even before his solo debut) because the patterns did not longer match up. JN would stay with her friends after a tour date while the others would go back to SK so it wasn’t like she was in a hurry to go back. And I believe this to be right too because I think his relationship with the rest of the members was strained for a while and only got back on track by the end of the summer. Jm distanced himself from him for a while and I wonder if that was the reason but then it got better so I guess they’ve moved on.

And I think it’s not coincide that the break up articles came up when the BP renewal was announced and so V’s enlistment date. It was to not longer attach his name to hers in the media. I said since the start, this relationship will end when he enlists. And I was right. They didn’t need to confirm the relationship, but articles of a break up (of a relationship that did or didn’t happen since it was never confirmed) was needed for narrative proposes. The media won’t continue vinculating them on individual articles.

What it’s my opinion? I believe it’s very possible that they had a fling. It’s hard to fight the evidence. Fabricated or not. But I don’t think it was serious enough for them to want to be associated together. I think they were hooking up from time to time and both are hot so why not. JN did act like she was single most times and during her tour it’s not like they were spending much time together. In fact, most of the evidence in the leak photos date to 2022. Not of 2023 if not speculations. I think they naturally ended whatever happened between them since he was enlisting anyways. Most Koreans don’t take relationships seriously if the man hasn’t enlisted yet. JN is young and so is TH. And that’s okay. I wish dating in the K-pop world was more open and they didn’t care about it. But I still think it’s weird that the relationship was pretty much handled as a PR. That’s what makes me think it was real then turned PR occasionally. Some rl couples do it.

And let me not comment on JN posting the pictures wearing the exact same outfit of the Paris video 2 months after it happened. During the time YG was fighting off investors during the contract renewal negotiations and Lisa’s potentially leaving and dating a billionaire. JN knew what she was doing with that posting. It wasn’t a simple little posting. It was intentional. They knew it was going to revive the Paris vid.

I know this is long but, my conclusion is, they dated low key, nothing serious, broke up and it’s over. TH can freely focus on enlistment and she can move on w her own life. I also think there’s something still going on with JN and GD (even while her situation with TH) because there’s so much evidence of this but her fanbase mostly ignores it because they don’t want to associate her with him but it’s very obvious their relationship ( actually confirmed by Dispatch) isn’t as over as fans want it to believe. The most recent hint, GD spent weeks hinting at the concept of JN’s You & Me MV (a song she wrote with him back in 2018).

Are you the same taennie anon from the other day? I only ask because they were making similar points. I’m not sure when or how I became a go-to person for this since I barely commented on their relationship and didn’t even know most of this stuff but. Our boys are gone and everyone is sad and bored so I’ll bite. Let’s distract ourselves with a little gossip and speculation, with the disclaimer that I’m just trying to have a little fun with your ask and don’t take anything I’m about to say that seriously and certainly not as fact.

My biggest question around the whole taennie situation was always why we were seeing it. Relationships in kpop have traditionally not been allowed to see the light of day. Hybe at this point has the cash and the power to hide anything they want to, and they absolutely have several closets full of skeletons we don't know about. BTS are seven desirable guys, and over 10+ years and we haven’t gotten a crumb of gossip about any relationship- except for this? Why?

None of us have the answer to that question, and we probably never will. I don't really buy the whole phone leak/oops it got out theory, because as I noted above kpop is pretty good at keeping things in the dark when they want to. I also don't really buy the theory that Tae and Jennie really wanted it to be out, Tae has always been pretty outspoken about not wanting the idol fame to bleed over into his private life and personal time. I had a lot of respect for Chen from EXO basically being like 'this is my wife we are having a child accept it or move on' a couple years ago but taennie really didn't feel like that. In terms of the seriousness of the relationship, or that they ever really acknowledged it that officially. Hybe's comments on it were basically the press release equivalent of a shrug emoji, so on some level I think they wanted to keep people guessing and talking about it. Which takes me back to my original unanswered question- why was it allowed both to see the light of day in the first place and allowed to remain in public view. From exactly December 6 2021 to December 6 2023.

In my time here, it’s seemed like the amount of people who are really into both BP and BTS is pretty low, despite both of them being arguably the biggest global boy and girl group out of Korea. Both of their fan bases are known for their….intensity and devotion as well. It would make sense from a marketing perspective to try to align these two huge global fan bases and brands that had mostly been at war with each other up until that point. The power of aligning pop stars at the peak of their influence is huge. This hasn’t really been done in the kpop realm before, but it’s been proven to work other places. I was a teenager during the Justin/Britney and Nick Lachey/Jessica Simpson era- they had SO much attention on them it was wild. Neither Tae or Jennie themselves really need the promotion, but maybe it was an opportunity to see if that kind of dynamic could work in this market. Can you imagine the buying power if blinks and army were truly aligned? They’re both already so famous and loved, even if the experiment failed it would be unlikely their reputations would take much of a hit.

It also could have been an attempt at establishing them both more as individuals separate from simply being a part of their groups. I know all of them would love to have name recognition for being Taehyung instead of 'V from BTS' you know, no one refers to Justin Timberlake as being 'Justin from NSYNC' anymore and I think that is aspirational for most members of pop groups. Who are the names of members from NSYNC and 98 degrees that people remember 20 years after they've stopped making music, for most people it's the ones that had those relationships that boosted their celebrity to the point that other non-boyband related opportunities presented themselves. Kpop is different, but also hybe has really been trying to rip a page out of the US pop playbook lately so more things are probably possible than how it used to be.

Honestly, I do not follow BP or YG on really any level so I can’t really speak to any alignment of those activities. I think you’re arguing it was YG’s idea to distract from or promote their own activities, but I have a hard time believing hybe would agree to let tae be involved with anything that didn’t also have significant advantages to hybe. Hybe has kept all of bts on such a short leash, once they reached a certain level of fame they stopped doing ANYTHING that wasn’t hybe controlled and produced. Hybe was trying to take over SM earlier this year, there's no way they were letting YG captain the taennie ship to only their own benefit. Maybe there was more to it, maybe there wasn't. It was most likely real on some level. It was definitely managed by their respective teams as well, but how much so and why we'll probably never know.

[mckenziestownhouse]

ASTROVATIONSSSSZZ!!!! PT TWO

HEY STINKABUTTS! YALL WERE SO NICE ON MY LAST POST AND I REALLY APPRECIATE Y’ALL!!!! LETS GET INTO IT!

idk bout y’all but virgo placements think they’re almost NEVER IN THE WRONGGGGGGG BITCH SIT DOWN NEOW!

if u think CAPRICORN MOONS never ever ever wanna talk abt their emotions??? virgo placements are just as stubborn if not worse

sag moons are cool n all but they have the worst temper(undeveloped are just ignorant i can’t apologize for that) sit down as well stinkabutt

they ALSO snap quick asl if they feel some type of way abt u and are SLOWWWWW asl to get over

ex. my mom n sister have this placement and WHEW! i cannot and will not! they’re firecrackers and can go from enemies to home girls in literal seconds.

i have love for virgo placements(earth placements in general) and am literally surrounded by them but y’all need a lil something strange to chill y’all the fuck out!

cancers are horny man, unprovoked freaks and all. they’ll tell u abt some freaky ass shit they’re either thinking of or their freak ass experiences out the big blue sky.

that one aquarius/pisces dom person yk? they do not care abt any of ur drama bitch they’re in their own Solar system.

when people say u will be around/crushing on/surrounded by the sign that is in your 7th or 11th house..THEY ARE NOT LYING!!!

ex. istg my 11th is in virgo and EVERYWHEREEEEEEE i go i see a damn VIRGO!

i have leo placements and a cancer sun and i wake up in the morning ALWAYS thinking abt how dramatic or chaotic i can be today—it rarely happens though.

i have a FIRM belief that leo placements do not like being around people who can just naturally take the spotlight bc we wanna be in the spotlight. word of advice: PLEEEEAASAAEWW refrain from being jealous of those people, it’s not cool or cute.

cancers are LOUDSDD whenever they’re around their friends or feel they’re inna safe environment.

i feel like leo mercury’s try to adjust their tone or wtv whenever they’re talking to certain people

as a cancer, i hate cancers

ex. i knew 3 people in middle school who were cancers and they weren’t even whiny—they were just dickheads middle schoolers and bullied me for being fat chile!!!! + i have 2 relatives who are cancers and they’re just annoying like…

do NOT be fooled! aries can most definitely be followers! for the right leaders??? oh baby they’re falling right in line, front n center.

aquarius’s love sitcoms, watching youtube, watching old tv shows, they just love watching random shit tbh.

two things a pisces loves to do? be right and argue if someone tries to play w them abt being right!

they’ll get on u too! don’t play!

earth placements will really put u onto the coolest shit tho—it can be literally anything and they’ll probably know a little something abt it

sagittarius’s, scorpios, and air signs just naturally attract people

pisces can have the most EDGIEST humor. it’s not even edgy sometime just fucked up.

water and earth signs are touch-deprived, love-deprived, every-deprived. u name it and they’re deprived from it for sure.

the virgos, pisces and scorpios ik LOVEEEEEEE calling themselves pretty and hyping other people up (PISCES FOR SURE) and they absolutely deserve to

scorpio risings will always randomly leave or end up wandering around like a two year old

earth and water placements will EAT!!!!

air/water placements live for doing the purest/nostalgic shit like pinky promises, making friendship bracelet, watching the TV shows they watched as a kid yadda yadda yadda

capricorn moons and cancer suns can be very nice, mother-like, nurturing, etc. but they will stop that shit if u don’t take their advice and act like an ass!

air/capricorn moons been done w life ever since they were fresh out the womb

libra/air placements always have somebody harassing or trying to bully them

ex. 1 of my friends is always getting harassed/bad-mouthed by her teacher unprovoked and it’s so weird.

one thing a capricorn w aquarius and sag in their chart is gonna do is sit PRETTY ASF AND UNBOTHERED

ex. FLO MILLI AND TIFFANY POLLARD!!!

the sign u find annoying MAY be in ur big 6 or u have a lot of that sign in ur chart

ex. i have leo placements and leo suns???? absolutely insufferable

fire placements will say some shit then do the exact opposite of what they said

neptune in 4h are SCATTERBRAINED TO THE FKN MAXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

scorpio risings do be enjoying occult shit

a scorpio and aquarius duo may seem toxic and…it is..but it works :DD

idk it’s just me but cancer in ur big 6 automatically indicates crying when u argue w sb

to any placement this applies to (👁👁) stop explaining yourself u don’t owe anybody shit

u simply will not be able to understand the elements u lack the most cuz bitch u don’t have it!

ex. having 0 earth placements indicates u won’t be able to fully understand why earth placements do what they do, u may find them weird

i believe having a mix of two or more elements gives u the opportunity to connect w any elements

people w 8h, 9h, 11h placements don’t usually have in depth connects w people who don’t have those placements, they just aren’t fully understood

ima continue to get on virgo placements cases every single time cuz i swear y’all be hanging on by a thread and i honestly wanna cut that thread.

[baddiedaddy7]

💚🐸𝙈𝙚𝙧𝙘𝙪𝙧𝙮 𝙎𝙞𝙜𝙣𝙨🐸💚

𝗔𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘀

attention span is not long. may ditch old ideas, if they get bored, or find something more interesting. HAS to win an argument. may think being the louder one during an argument is the way to win lmao. talks in a dynamic way. argumentive. may make a good public speaker. may text too fast, and mess up on a few words. communication style is aggressive(always has to be right, loud, might scapegoat, etc). humor may be childish(fart jokes, butt jokes, burp jokes, just dumb shit in general lol), or humor that involves getting injured(hitting your head on something, tripping, etc). slapstick humor

𝗧𝗮𝘂𝗿𝘂𝘀

great attention span, but may be a slow learner or talker. talks with stability/most likely doesn’t stutter. doesn’t mind staying on the same topic/not changing the subject. like aries, in an argument they will rarely admit they were wrong, hard-headed. arguing with these ppl are the worst, since they don’t allow others to have opinions which is annoying asf(my sister has this lmao, and i have a taurus mars, so you could imagine💀). your mind rarely changes, once made up. not the most open minded. talks with practicality. may type slow tbh lmao, and dry. may also take a century to reply. communication style may be passive aggressive(may not like being straightforward, “i didn’t think you’d pass this class, but good job”, etc) humor may be well written skits, or roasts.

𝗚𝗲𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗶

attention span is fleeting. curious about numerous of things. may stutter thanks to gemini jittery energy. rarely turns down a debate, might even lie in a disagreement to win😃. first to speak if it’s too quiet for too long. type of person to have random knowledge or may know fun facts. talks with wit. types fast, replies fast, just very active on social media. meme user. sends messages in short patches instead of just one big paragraph. communication style is passive aggressive(may mumble under breath, etc). humor may be random. may love puns.

𝗖𝗮𝗻𝗰𝗲𝗿

attention span is good, esp if it’s topics they feel with. may be bias in an argument between other ppl😬. may want to “hug” it out lmao. may like to talk abt emotional topics. talks with care. probably uses emojis a lot. writes paragraphs/in long sentences. communication style varies tbh😭. i’m just gonna do passive-aggressive(backhanded compliments, talks behind your back instead of confronting you) or assertive(expressing your wants and needs, while considering others feelings). inside jokes are your thing, goofy asf with ppl you’re comfortable with. dry humor

𝗟𝗲𝗼

attention span may be short lived. may only talk abt themselves which can be annoying💀. believe it or not, they may take a calm/chill approach in an argument. overdramatic in their speech. talks with confidence. keeps the conversation interesting/not dry. initiator in group chats. usually replies fast. communication style is assertive(uses “i”, knows their worth, etc). playful name calling is their type of humor.

𝗩𝗶𝗿𝗴𝗼

attention span may not be that good tbh(like their opposite sign, they daydream off into the distance). talks with practicality. make sure to fact check, when arguing with these ppl, or they may verbally violate you. very nit picky ppl, and may be big complainers. may abbreviate a lot of words lmao. another dry texting placement, and rarely uses emojis. communication style is passive aggressive(throws shade lmao, may like to just go with the flow, etc). may make fun of yourself to get laughs. might like humor that criticizes/makes fun of things/ppl in general. their humor has some truth to it😓.

𝗟𝗶𝗯𝗿𝗮

attention span is usually good. easy going in speech. talks with equality. can also be charismatic. may ppl please. in arguments, they can try to compromise, and fix everything, even when it’s unfixable. dislikes conflict, and may need to learn to embrace them. may dislike ppl that curse a lot, or are loud. the way you text may be unclear to some. also texting isn’t direct, and may use things like “k” or “nice”. communication style is passive(lacks eye contact, doesn’t want any conflict even though they feel some type of way, etc). another placement that likes well written jokes, and may have a strong dislike for dark/inappropriate humor lol.

𝗦𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗽𝗶𝗼

attention span is attentive. you’re not easy to read, and it can take time to truly know you. you may over analyze and get suspicious over the dumbest things. observant, and might be into psychology. in arguments, doesn’t tolerate dumb shit. can be a bit of a ghost when it comes to texting. tries to get in your business and asks random shit. might not text too much info, since they don’t want ppl to screenshot the chat lmao. assertive is your communication style(considers others feelings, uses “i”, etc) or aggressive(yells, tries to intimidate you, etc). humor may be dark, offensive, and/or taboo/inappropriate. sexual jokes.

𝗦𝗮𝗴𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗮𝗿𝗶𝘂𝘀

attention span is actually good, if they’re interested, if not then it’s non existent. either rlly open or rlly closed minded. you may mistake being blunt for being honest or some ppl may mistake your realness for being rude. talks with rowdiness. in arguments, may be hostile. uses “:), </3” instead of “😃💔” in text. but then again, may use actual emojis a bit. communication style is aggressive(loud, doesn’t consider others feelings, etc). humor may be mocking accents, sarcasm, and/or satire.

𝗖𝗮𝗽𝗿𝗶𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗻

attention span is short, if what you’re talking abt isn’t important to us. fluent in atleast 2 languages, which are sarcasm, and facts. we don’t have time or patience for ignorance. we may come off as standoffish, when in reality we just stick to ourselves or we’re just too honest. talks with common sense. talking is soothing, atleast i’ve been told. i feel like we use facts in an argument more than emotions, but me personally i try to include both(this is my placement :)). probably doesn’t use caps in text. may have a lot of ppl on delivered. reply game varies based on person, only replies fast to important ppl. communication style is most likely assertive(has a backbone, stands up for themselves without being loud, etc). humor is satire, dark/offensive, and/or sarcastic. if you have tiktok, you definitely know abt satire humor LMAO.

𝗔𝗾𝘂𝗮𝗿𝗶𝘂𝘀

attention span is only good if they care. says random things. takes forever to reply. talks with detachment. observant. in arguments, probably doesn’t think of others feelings, and just says whatever. may be harsh in arguing. another placement that probably uses this “<3, :), etc” instead of “❤️😃”. may ghost your messages. communication style is passive aggressive(talks shit behind your back, may not care to confront others, etc). surreal humor, humor is eccentric lol. may like adult animated shows

𝗣𝗶𝘀𝗰𝗲𝘀

attention span isn’t good, since they daydream a lot. might say personal stuff in accident. relatable. great listeners. talks with warm heartedness. cool in arguments, and will stand up for what they feel is right if necessary. another placement that may use emojis a lot. texting may be emotional. shitty grammar. communication style is passive(goes with the flow, bad eye contact/body language, hates drama, etc). another placement that makes jokes abt sex. may joke abt drugs(other ppl doing it or themselves, or ppl acting like their on drugs lmao)

please keep in mind that other things will affect certain traits, like your moon sign. don’t plagiarize, and have a good day🤍

[kat-got-lost]

HEEHEE POLY!FERAL BOYS X SHORT READER TIME

for context this is c!feral boys but it's not conflict au so it's just,,,IRL minecraft I guess?? and reader is maybe 5'2-5'4(also thinking abt doing a tall version of this because head very full)

(this is also formatted kind of weird, it's first hcs of each character seperate and then all together, it's also unedited so deal with the potential spelling errors- :)

feral boys with a small/shorter partner‼️‼️

more specifically, feral boys cuddling with their small/short partner

c!dream:

tall man, very tall man

he adores how short you are in comparison to him

probably teases you a lot, like holding things above your head or purposely placing things on shelves you can't reach so you ask him for help

eventually you find out this is just an ego boost for him so you now go to sapnap when you need help reaching something BAHAHA

BUT, when he's not being a little shit about your height he's very soft

simp

he likes spooning and really enjoys being the big spoon since he feels like he's protecting you but, he also likes to just lay on your tummy and put his hands in his hair

he says "that way if the someone tries to hurt you they wake me up first"

very sweet but sometimes he shifts when he sleeps which leads to him accidentally crushing your lungs

c!sapnap

MMM BLAZE HYBRID SAPNAP TIME

i don't actually know his canon height but I think it's like 5'8-5'10(?)

since he's not as tall as dream therefore the height difference isn't as much he doesn't tease you too much but that doesn't mean he doesn't annoy you sometimes

he likes to do that stupid thing where he lifts his head up and gets on his tippy toes when you try to kiss him sometimes

he's very sweet when you're cuddling though

because he's a blaze hybrid he has the rods surrounding him

now I'm not sure how this would actually work but for the sake of plot he can conceal them and arrange them differently when needed

SO when you guys cuddle he lays you on his chest and has his rods surrond you guys in like a semicircle

does that make sense?? basically it's surrounding you guys so it acts as like a shield of heat??? i unfortunately don't have visuals but pretend it makes sense <3

not only does it act as a protective measure it's just far enough that it emits a nice heat that keeps you and sap warm

he probably tells you home much he loves you and kisses your forehead nd stuff when you're asleep

sweet boy

c!george

MUSHROOM GEORGE 🙏

(quick hc that mushrooms and flowers pop up whenever he's happy or excited)

your guys height difference isn't much but it's still enough to make you look a bit smaller in comparison to him

doesn't tease often since he knows you can tease him right back, but that doesn't stop him from asking dream to put things just out of reach for you so he can grab them

you somehow don't catch on and dream is salty that he got caught with putting things out of your reach so early on and george still does it

ANYWAY

whenever you guys cuddle he sprouts mushrooms nd flowers

more specifically dandelions, so when you guys cuddle you can pick the flowers and make flower crowns

teaching george to make flower crowns :((

he likes laying on your chest so you can play with his hair but he equally enjoys you laying on his chest so he can play with your hair

c!quackity

you guys have like,,,a 1-4 inch height difference (again I don't know his canon height)

he's still teases the hell out of you and you tease him back, but you have to give him kisses after since it bruises his ego

another boy and who likes cuddling with you on his chest

wraps his wings around you to keep you warm and protected :((

whenever he's having a bad day or he's having a nightmare he likes to just curl up into your chest while you gently run your fingers against the feathers of his wings

probably likes to lend you his jackets because they're just big enough for you to have the little sweater paws but not big enough to get in your way when you're doing anything

whispers sweet things in spanish when you're asleep

also enjoys giving you kisses when you're sleepy/asleep

random hc, let's pretend you're part of SBI, you were probably the first person out of the feral boys he asked to preen his wings, so one night you and the other boys sat around quackity as they watched and you taught them how to preen wings :]

c!karl

HES SO SWEET I SWEAR

doesn't tease you at all and instead coos about how adorable and tiny you are

likes to pat your head

his favorite thing to do with you is cuddle while watching movies or shows you two enjoy

will take you on a picnic date and cuddle with you on the grass :(( [or on the picnic mat if you're like me nd don't like the itchy feeling of grass]

he prefers being little spoon but he doesn't really care, as long as you guys are holding eachother

he's like,, stupidly warm????

he's so warm that a majority of the time when you guys cuddle the covers end up tossed on the floor

another very sweet boy who is very nice to cuddle

c!feral boys

literally chaos

it normally starts off with "mmmm let's all cuddle, it would be very nice"

the quickly leads to *incomprehensible yelling*

arguing over who gets to cuddle with who

it normally ends with you getting annoyed, pouting and tell them all to shut up

nothing really ever gets decided, there's no system and normally days like that just end in a cuddle pile of five happy boys and their slightly suffocating partner

but, in long days where you all just wanna crash into eachothers arms and sleep, it's very soft and sweet

you normally crash on the chest of whoevers already in bed which is normally dream

then quackity and karl come in and lay on either side of you while sapnap crashes on your chest/tummy

you all quietly chat and play with eachothers fingers and hair until you all eventuate fall asleep

you guys probably have like, seperate rooms (that rarely ever get used) and one room with a giant bed that you all normally sleep in together

over all, feral boys? 10/10 cuddle partners

[forgaeven1]

*  hob + more random hc about his 21st century career.   thank u to zina for shaking my brain like a salt n pepper shaker.  u let me rant about hob for like 5 mins and now i have all these headcanon that i desperately need to write somewhere.  some details may change with respective partner(s) or plot(s).

•           hob is a teacher.  this was confirmed by neil gaiman.   fun fact: i knew there was a scene of dream walking into hob who was teaching in a lecture hall that was written but never shot ( also confirmed by mr gaiman i believe but i have no idea where it is ) — so i’m torn between making him a high school teacher,  or a university lecturer.  i’m leaning more towards the second because i think the possibilities are insane and probably more fun to explore!

•           so the basis of how hob decides to teach is easy.  one day he saw an open,  free-admission seminar about a war or a battle he once apart of.  he walked in,  mostly out of curiosity,  and instead started to get into a heated argument with the guest lecturer because that did not happen.  the argument led them to argue abt it some more at a bar  —  maybe even fist fighting had ensued  —  but the next day, the professor invited hob into his research team and ...  well. that’s how it began.

•            i might get into it another day,  but hob quickly learn that proving what happened is far more difficult when what he knew and personally experienced ( from his immortality ) could not be proven,  scholarly-wise  —  especially if his old friends are no longer alive,  and there are no manuscripts,  or reliable scriptures,  or written documents that could support events that he knew had unfold.  perhaps even,  this was one of his first venture into an academic scene.

•           with that said,  hob is a very bad academia.  not because he’s not smart.  i simply just think he has no patience to actually annotate every research he discovers.  he still does it,  but it’s slow,  and he’s not anal about keeping his datas neatly or seek for it fervently.  which is why i think he also gets impatient enough to simply forge (qualification) documents so he could get a position to teach.  maybe not at a renowned school though;  hob doesn’t like prissy students ksjdksh

•           hob is a history teacher.  and if i do go down the route that he is a university staff,  i do think he would at least specify the area of history he is in.  i’m torn between him specialising in ancient warfare ( maybe in a period before he’s alive,  simply because he felt like he wanted to “close the gap” for years he didn’t live ),  or an expert of the hundred years war,  or the war of the roses,  or perhaps historical accounts of wwi or wwii.  i might be going more of him for the caroline war (during the period of 100 years war), simply because he wants to mention the black plague;  that’s how he lost his family and village after all.

•           because hob is horrible at annotation,  he has a small research team that helps him organise his research (in the event he is invited to contribute to a study journal, or book, or a full thesis itself etc).  i don’t think hob participate in these long-term,  though.  some researches take years,  and hob is always cautious that,  since he couldn’t age,  he can’t raise suspicion if he continues to be apart of studies like these. what happened if his colleague realise he hasn’t greyed or wrinkled like them?

•           i do think hob still likes learning.  maybe he’s not very good nor has the perfect patience for a scholar’s routine,  but hob finds some sort of fulfilment finally learning why the wars he was apart of had needed to happen.  maybe in a way,  he’s trying to see if his purpose then was worth it.  maybe he will never find the right answer,  but i still think he encounters peace once he does know.

•           hob is a very popular teacher!  he’s naturally charming and friendly,  and he encourages his students to always question the validity of his statements or claims,  which in turn,  easily turns the class into a whole debate session.

[alfredosauce50]

whenever youre free, can you write yandere 2p china headcanons? im just thinking abt him 👉🏽👈🏽

Yandere 2p! China headcanons

Getting together with you was hard enough. But now that you’re his, he can’t go back to being a second choice he’s always been. He’s never letting you go.

Zao doesn’t have a single yandere characteristic by default, but when he does, ooh boy. It’ll take some time for him to deviate from his normal personality and mental stability, but given enough paranoia and infatuation, he will start losing his sanity, then, his ability to distinguish between right and wrong. And the terrifying thing is, he doesn’t even know it. By this logic, he is by far, the craziest yandere you’ll ever have the misfortune of encountering. 

(There isn’t a lot of fanart on 2p! China so have this fanart of Wei Wuxian for visual purposes)

Home life

He’s very into kissing, so much that he’ll sneak some in while doing the most mundane things. When he talks to you, he will hold your waist and fill the brief moments of silence with kisses. In his eyes, having his lips on yours while a conversation happens is being ‘productive’ as he makes the most out of being with you. Before anything escalates, which ends up happening more often than you’d prefer, you’ll pull away and clamp a hand over his mouth. He’ll lick your hand and laugh at your reaction. 

He bathes with you. He could’ve gone with the more economical option of showering, but he’s far from broke. And plus, he can do so much more while sitting down. You usually stay on the opposite end of the tub, but he’ll pull you onto his lap and whisper this in your ear, “Don’t be shy, kitten. This is your throne.” As you sink into his embrace, which ends up hotter than the water you’re submerged in, he will caress your back and make out with you. Once you’re pleading for air, he will pull away and trail a tongue up your neck instead. When you’re with him, he never actually lets you catch your breath, ever. 

Zao is very mindful of your comfort. Perhaps not when it comes to something sexual, per se, but he will always bring you a blanket if it gets a little chilly. If you forget to put socks on, he will put them on for you without asking. Whenever you go out, he will bring a bag with him and most of the things inside are either yours or for you. 

Spoiling you is a given. He can’t imagine a better way to put his hustle to good use--to give you things you want. Even if you don’t ask for anything, he never fails to get you something you end up loving. But there is one thing he won’t ever let you touch. Substances. Zao is so overprotective in all aspects of your life, he doesn’t even like you drinking. He’s a little more lenient on weed, and will let you have a few puffs of his joint. 

He always covers up at home, and will get a little flustered if you catch him indecent. Zao doesn’t wear a lot to bed, like tank tops and underwear, so he isn’t shirtless very often. The only time he doesn’t get embarrassed is when the mood is... You know. And he’s doing you-know-what with you. Otherwise, he will call you a pervert, but really, he’s teasing you more than expressing embarrassment. Because clearly, that’s rich coming from him.

Yeah. It’s not news how big of a pervert he is. Nor is he ashamed of it. Any dirty thought that crosses his mind, he will never fail to relay to you. It leaves you mortified when he tells you what he wants to do to you, in detail, especially when he isn’t being self-aware. Save that for when you get home, you idiot! But the private sphere only makes him even worse. 

He calms down at night, thankfully, and lays in bed with you on his chest. This is where his love language starts speaking to you. Connecting to you emotionally and mentally is how he shows he loves you. This takes place in long, deep, and random conversations, and if not, he will just captivate you in his dark eyes and stare at you endearingly. “What are you thinking about, kitten? I hope it’s something related to me~” Then, he’ll dig his hands through your hair and massage your head as he breathes you in until he gets intoxicated with you. 

When he gets jealous

He’s the type to get so jealous, it becomes suffocating for him--especially when he doesn’t outwardly show it. So whenever anyone remotely shows interest in you, he’ll keep his cool for the most part, but will get very irritable and clingy. It doesn’t matter how subtle they were, it could’ve been a single glance, even, but alarms will go off. He will pull you into a tight embrace and bury his face in your neck until they leave. You don’t really mind because he isn’t giving anybody trouble, but you do find it cute when he immediately returns to his soft side afterwards. 

Zao isn’t the biggest fan of conflict, even if he’s more than capable of it. Instead, he will gravitate towards his intelligence and cunning to outdo anybody he hates. Stalking is definitely on the table if he needs to get to know someone, then, when it comes down to it, sabotage. He will do anything to keep them busy so they wouldn’t have to see you. And he succeeds every time without you finding out.

Unlike most SO’s, it’s easier for him to get jealous over friends than love interests. He values the emotional aspect of your relationship with him the most, and gets very upset if you bond with people other than him, platonically or not. To make up for it, he demands your attention and ensures the time you spend with him is two times more fulfilling than whoever it was you were with. This is the fundamental reason why he’s more susceptible to getting jealous--literally anybody is a rival in his eyes. 

This is all the more reason to be so much more paranoid and restless than other typical yanderes. 

When you argue

He doesn’t agree with you on a lot of things, so it’s like talking to a brick wall. Objective subjects are easy to get through when it’s straight up facts, but if the topic is about what he can or cannot do in the relationship, save your breath. You will never get through to him. When he feels entitled to something, he takes his own side, regardless of what you feel about it.

Nevertheless, he will do the bare-minimum of leaving you alone in the meantime when you’re upset. That’s how he somehow respects this boundary he just crossed. But a few hours later, he will go back to normal, which means he will be affectionate even when you’re not in the mood. This cues the second phase of the fight. While you’re trying your damndest to push him away, he will corner you, physically and mentally. 

While he hugs you tight, he will force you to look at him while you cry. It’s invasive and suffocating, but the night always ends with you making up with him. Be it kissing or other means. It’s unfair, but no matter what he does, you can’t help giving in to him. And he knows this very well. That’s why he keeps doing it.  

Psychology + When he snaps

He is much more intelligent than he lets on. Even though he already knows you like the back of his hand, he studies you every day. If you asked him what you were thinking about, he could probably guess it. That’s what makes him such an intense lover. You can’t hide anything from him if you tried. Hence, he has a terrifying amount of control in the relationship, and he will use it to his advantage.

Zao is a good multitasker. He can juggle his ‘job’ and hobbies while keeping you in the palm of his hand. There is absolutely nothing you can do without him finding out, and this is precisely how he keeps himself miles ahead of you. 

As everything progresses, he will tolerate less and less. His love language is how much quality time he gets with you, along with emotional connection. Eventually, he will start ruling out the prospect of you having any of these things with anyone besides him. That includes friends, so he will start isolating you from them, all until the only soul you are truly close to is him. Soon, you will have to rely on him for everything, which he absolutely loves. He will make himself the only person in your life. 

As this continues, he will become obsessed with the idea of your co-dependency on him. Zao always loved looking after you, but he isn’t satisfied with that anymore. Being your own person? Hell no. Every single thing you do, he will be in the backdrop. If not, he will be next to you, and start influencing your own thoughts until you can’t even trust yourself. 

At this point, he is manipulating you to accept everything he does. And he succeeds a lot of the time, especially when he’s so unfazed. You start wondering if you should be this unfazed, even when what he’s doing is wrong. 

If one of your friends tries to intervene, he will make sure they won’t see the light of day ever again. He has a lot of connections, and combined with how cunning he is, he can get them to disappear with the snap of his fingers. He will keep doing this until every single person in your life is gone if he has to. 

Zao acts purely on his own desires. It’s his moral compass. Right and wrong will blur together so long as it’s for you, and there’s nothing he won’t do. Murder is as casual of a topic to discuss and do as having breakfast. 

A lot of psychopaths would at least get the thrill of doing something so heinous, but he won’t give a shit. He won’t bat an eye. He won’t feel the smallest shred of remorse and carry on like nothing happened. But what he will feel is satisfaction. 

If you find out what he did

You can cry all you like. He’ll only feel remotely guilty because you’re heartbroken, but it passes pretty quickly when he’s happy with what he’s done. You could try running away too. Try. But he always finds you. It doesn’t matter if you leave the country and go into hiding. He will follow you to the ends of Earth for the rest of his life. What can he say? He loves a good chase. It’s a fun game of cat and mouse he knows he’ll win. 

Every time he finds you, he’ll sneak up to you from behind and whisper, “Are you done, now? Let’s go home already.” If you try to run away again, he’ll just catch you and hold you tight, even while you’re thrashing in his arms. “I can do this forever, kitten. You have nobody else to go to, and nowhere else to be. So don’t waste your energy and come back with me.”

Response to ask: 

Of course :) I’m honored you submitted an ask to me after thinking about him 🤗 He’s definitely one of my favorites! Zao’s gotta be the most fleshed out 2p next to Allen. Since 2p’s aren’t canon, they rely solely on the fandom’s interpretation and ability to dish out content on them. I haven’t seen any proper yandere stuff on Zao, so I think this is a first. And boy, he’s a terrifying one for sure. I feel like he embodies the worst of the yandere trope because he’s into psychological manipulation. Worst isn’t the right word, actually. I believe ‘accurate’ is a better way of describing it. This is what a real yandere looks like. 

[danteinthedevildom]

@levis-little-nuggie said:

The current Thing I'm trying to find throughout the lessons is the brothers each talking to MC about Lilith, and if any of them, asides from Belphie, tell MC that they know MC isn't Lilith, that they don't love MC bc they're a descendent of Lilith. Belphie was very clear about that, and it was amazing and so sweet, but I'm on Lesson 33 and I don't recall any of the other brothers make that same statement.

I know you put this on another reblog but I ended up writin a fair bit so I’m givin it its own post bc this is. Interestin (TM)

Now while I am gonna say “don’t quote me on this”, from my own recollection, the other bros don’t mention not seeing MC as Lilith? Or if they do it’s hella not as memorable as Belphie’s. 

A good story reason for this if the other bros don’t have a similar convo with MC is that Lilith was Belphie’s bugbear. It was bc of her that he hated humans; it was bc of her that he accepted MC initially. All of Belphie’s feelings towards MC stem from their heritage. Without her, he likely never would have cared for MC at all. 

Bc the fact of the matter is, Belphie didn’t have any actual attachment to MC prior to finding out they’re a descendent of Lilith. There wasn’t any time to. He was too wrapped up in his own hurt and hate, in his own revenge plot, to see MC as anything other than a human he could use to his advantage. 

Unlike the other brothers, he only cared about MC bc of Lilith. Everyone else had time to know and care for MC as a person outside of the revelation of their lineage. Finding out their connection to Lilith was likely an added bonus, but most of MC’s relationships with the bros are formed by that point. Their feelings for MC were already strong and decided. But for Belphie, MC was still just a random human he’d been plotting to use and kill to make a statement against the Exchange Programme. 

What matters most, then, is seeing Belphie say it. It’s the affirmation that we’re not just Lilith - or some faint connection to her - in his eyes. It’s getting the closure that while Lilith may have been the reason he came to like them at first, he’s come to care for them as their own person. 

In other words, it’s the active acknowledgement that a fundamental change has occurred in their relationship with him. He now sees what the brothers have been seeing since MC came to the Devildom. 

It’s also why closure with Lilith is given primarily to Belphie over the other bros: the scene where he finally says goodbye to her memory, and the pain and hatred that had stemmed from his over-zealous attachment to it. 

Because while the other bros miss and love her, only Belphie was so horrifically affected by her death as to want to annihilate what he saw as the culprit (humanity). Her memory (and his trauma surrounding it) was still an incredible part of his daily life. 

It was important for us to see these two scenes so that Belphie’s character arc - and the story arc for Act 1 of Obey Me - could come to a close.

It’s less important for us to see the other bros reassert that they don’t view MC as Lilith 2.0, therefore. Story-wise, it was Belphie’s relationship with Lilith that defined/dominated Act 1, so focus was always going to be aimed towards him; and while they each have their own struggles with her death, they all viewed MC as significant to them prior to the Lilith Heritage Debacle in a way that differentiated them from Belphie and MC’s precarious and questionable relationship. Pretty much, we were meant to feel more sure of their relationship with MC because of the time we spent with them over the course of Act 1. 

Ofc I could be wrong, bc my memory ain’t always great, and if the other bros do say this then the above is a good way to explain why Belphie’s conversation is so much more memorable. But I’d almost argue that having that convo with anyone but Belphie would be bad storytelling. 

Bc, in a way, what would be the point of having Levi, for instance, say that he doesn’t see MC as Lilith? He spent the better part of a year seeing MC as his Henry. Of course he doesn’t see MC as Lilith; that relationship existed well before he learnt MC’s heritage, and was cemented enough that he was upset at seeing MC dying just because MC was dying. Bc he cared for MC and that was a kind of fucked up thing to see happen to someone you care about. 

If he suddenly turned around and said that he doesn’t see MC as Lilith, it’d feel... a little jarring. 

Because he’d basically be saying, “I know we had built up an entire relationship based on who you are as a person, but the fact that you’re related to my dead sister absolutely, plausibly might have been more important to me than the friendship we have and the person you are that I’ve come to care for”. 

Especially considering the revelation doesn’t change their relationship in such a staggeringly drastic way like it does between MC and Belphie. In a paradoxical way, it’d actually be kind of hurtful, not reassuring, bc we don’t need that closure from them the same way we do from Belphie. 

I absolutely got ramblin on that, fuck. But yeah. That’s what I can remember and also my thoughts on it from a purely story-based standpoint. I think rather than “I don’t see you as Lilith” convos from the other bros, what’d be better is more “I’m still messed up abt Lilith’s death bc I haven’t been able to speak abt it for millenia; now that we’ve got the ban lifted and I feel safe with you, I want to tell you abt how I feel” convos. Just... things to develop them and give them the closure they maybe didn’t get around the end of Act 1, without accidentally jeopardisin MC’s relationship with them. 

[angeltrapz]

oosdkk dude im sorry ur mood dropped too.. i hope u feel better soon <3 but like i wld love 2 hear more abt ur thoughts on Art in general bc Boy Is He Interesting, and also a lil more abt Daniel coming out as nonbinary to his dad (whether he knows Eric is trans or not at that moment skjdfhdskf)! + if ur feelin it just more abt Mallick in general ESP cuz we agree that Brit doesn't make it thru V

djhfjdks thank u sm <3

okay Art first. I genuinely wonder abt him so much, something in specific I think abt is that aside frm Amanda (+ Eric, obviously, but talkin abt disciples) Art is one of the only trap victims EVER 2 be tested twice and it’s like... what’s that abt? Why? as u’ve said b4 it rly depends on how you personally view his character: whether he’s a disciple or not. fr me, both options are equally plausible, n honestly I don’t rly confine myself to either; it sorta depends on what I’m feeling/writing. if we’re talking abt art being a disciple, then the Spinecutter not going off (one of my BIGGEST questions) makes total sense, as Hoffman’s side of the trap was never set up to work either, + Jigsaw disciples have a history (aside from Lawrence) of appearing as victims in other tests/traps. if he were not just another pawn and was in fact a disciple himself, then the Spinecutter was never meant to go off - it was there just to make Eric think it COULD go off/make it look convincing to outsiders. which brings me to ANOTHER question: what does Art know abt Eric? does he know anything? what does he think of Eric?

(lil side note: if Art is a disciple, then I kinda wonder if it’s a lil bit of a Hoffman + Lawrence situation where Hoffman didn’t know abt Art either? just bc he looks so shocked when he sees Art’s face fully fr the first time... that could’ve just been acting on Hoffman’s part but IDK. food fr thought)

personally, I feel like Art probably does know a lil bit abt Eric - at the very least, he’d know tht Eric had been previously tested + failed by John’s rules, but then I feel that he wld also know Eric didn’t rly have a chance in his second test. that is why Art trying so fucking hard to keep Eric alive is interesting 2 me: what is his motivation 2 do that? like he’s been told Eric’s basically just there to get Rigg to participate, he doesn’t have any personal obligation or anything like that. sure, the aim is to keep Eric alive + see if Rigg can pass his “test,” but nobody said anything about grabbing a man you barely know around his ankles to keep him frm hanging himself w a noose made of chains. nobody said anything abt speaking to him so softly, not even raising your voice beyond saying “hey,” and asking him do you understand? when you tell him to keep still and prevent him frm killing his counterpart (which, if Art is a disciple, he knows it won’t, but he still speaks to Eric so softly, so compassionately, doesn’t he?)

nobody said anything abt grabbing him around the waist and steadying him again after being punched by said man. but Art does that. he stabilizes Eric’s feet on the ice as best he can and he keeps his hips straight and he basically says “look, we’re all stuck here, you need to keep it together ‘til that clock counts down if you want us to live, but I’m giving you a choice,” and he presses the gun w the single bullet into Eric’s hands and tells him it’s up to him. nobody said Art had to care but he does, I think, and it’s just like. he really didn’t have to keep Eric alive over the course of Rigg’s test. he didn’t. but he did and I just,, where does it come from? why does he care? this is even going beyond the fact that we’ve talked abt them being together after their test in a scenario where they both survive - I just think that Art at his core is a very stubborn but very compassionate person, whether he wants 2 be or not. like he HAS to know that kind of involvement cld prove to be extremely detrimental but he cares. I feel like that says a lot abt him (even if he does call Eric an asshole a couple times while doing it,,).

plus I also just. I think his reason for being tested (as it seems to be in most cases) is extremely flimsy. he was doing his job. he’s a LAWYER. often times it has nothing 2 do w personal feelings; they’re there to do their job and sometimes, unfortunately, that is defending possibly reprehensible people (in cases like Rex’s & Ivan’s). + John was already upset w him regarding their argument abt the urban renewal group so like it just feels So Very Petty, y’know?? even in the scenario where he IS a disciple, testing him twice seems entirely like John having a personal vendetta against him. Amanda is the only other person to be tested twice aside from Eric, so like. what. is that abt Mr. Kramer.

like I’ve said b4 in dms one could argue that Art is grey morally, bc we never rly see anything of him outside of flashbacks + acting as a test controller in IV, esp given that he... rly doesn’t seem too bothered abt it all? which is fair. but I also feel like the concern he shows towards Eric is smth to be considered as well.

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+ YESS NONBINARY DANIEL I know I’ve mentioned it b4 but for reference, I read Daniel as masc nonbinary (he/they)! so I feel like Daniel wld b pretty comfortable w his identity, he’s never rly had a reason not to be (it’s rly anyone’s guess here tho bc we never see Eric + Daniel + Kate... as a family unit, for obvious reasons), so I feel like he’s vry chill abt it? and in the scenario where Eric survives n is dating Adam, I feel like Daniel wld talk 2 him abt it first (Adam is an adult they quickly come to trust + he’s vocal abt being trans himself so there’s that added layer of understanding - other than his mom maybe Adam might b the first person they come out 2). they’re just kinda like “so I wanna tell my dad I’m nonbinary but like I’ve literally never thought abt coming out what do I do” and Adam’s just like. Aha. bc he knows Eric is Also Trans so like, he doesn’t tell Daniel that bc it’s not his info to share, but he’s definitely like “oh it’ll totally be fine. trust me you have no reason to worry” so Daniel’s just like Okay. I Got This

+ I know I mentioned this in dms but Daniel wld absolutely wear those floral ripped hem skirts over jeans, so I feel like on one of his visits to his dad’s, he just. wears that combined w a completely random niche graphic tee he bought when shopping w Adam (I adore this hc n I am Holding Onto It) n is just like. not super open abt it bc he doesn’t know what to expect? he just kinda waits fr Eric to comment on it but when he doesn’t, Daniel gets nervous n is like “do I look okay?” and Eric’s rly chill abt it, like “yeah! it looks vry cool, vry alternative.” n like Daniel is relieved, of course, but also he’s just like God Pls Say Something so he just comes out w it like “okay this is not working. I’m nonbinary.”

and he’s COMPLETELY SHOCKED when Eric is just like “oh why didn’t u say so? do u have a different name u wanna go by? is Daniel still okay?” bc he wasn’t sure how much Eric knew, so he’s just like “uh no Daniel is still good, he/they pronouns though” and Eric’s just like alright cool but internally Daniel’s just like ??????

n THAT is when Eric asks him 2 come sit out on th front steps w him n is just like. “I don’t think I ever told u this but I’m trans. I transitioned during training in my early 20s” n Daniel is nodding while internally he’s like Adam I’m gonna throttle u. he worked himself up fr NOTHING. he just kinda laughs abt it and Eric is like “are u good?” ‘cause he’s a lil worried but then Daniel just smiles and is like “yeah I’m fine! just realizing I had nothing 2 be worried abt” and it’s a rly good moment fr them. they sit out there together talking abt their experiences for quite a while n at some point Adam steps outside 2 find them deep in conversation + he just smiles n goes back inside bc he cares abt them both so much and seeing them talk like that makes him so 💞💞 (Eric is SO PROUD u can see it on his face)

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ohhh gosh Mallick,,, I spend a lot of time thinking abt him actually. he’s just one of those characters I feel vry connected to (me 🤝 Mallick: Ambiguous Disorder 💕) n one I got surprisingly attached to? hello (he IS one of my f/os)

I feel like Mallick is a very lonely person at his core. the way he sort of clings to Brit (w out the whole like. adrenaline of being in very very real danger w ppl trying to kill u SEVERAL TIMES) somewhat confirms this fr me. this is someone who has no reason to look out fr him, no reason to keep protecting him when their fellow captives hit him over th head w a club or attempt to push him into a bathtub to ELECTROCUTE him, but she keeps doing it and he’s just. in awe of it a little bit? ‘cause she could just let Charles knock him tf out or let Luba push him in but she fights for him, some1 she has no obligation to n met fr the first time literally when they woke up.

the moment they share b4 they stick their arms into the saws to activate the 10 Pints of Sacrifice is so very vulnerable and maybe even a little tender. yes he calls her a monster, yes she calls him one back, neither of them deny it. it’s an admission and an acceptance. they’re monsters, sure, fine, okay. but they are monsters and they are in this together. Brit tells Mallick it’s okay when he says he can’t do this alone. she says okay, okay, it’s okay, we’ll go together. and they help each other secure their tourniquets and they stick their hands in together bc it’s the two of them, literally hand in hand, fighting for their lives n for each other n they’re in so so much pain but they are doing it TOGETHER. I lose it thinking abt it!!! they even have a head bonk moment!!! I very much feel like it has some cinematic parallels to Adam & Lawrence’s moment in SAW 2004!!!!

+ as u mentioned, we both share the thought that Brit likely died since she wasn’t present at Bobby’s meetings, and. I want to touch on how fucking despondent and lost Mallick looks when we see him again in 3D. lights on but no one’s home. I feel like for Mallick, losing Brit was losing the first chance at a real connection he’s had in god knows how long - and for him, that’s just very shattering. he’s been thru hell, he’s watched three people die right in front of him, he sawed his ARM IN HALF, n the person he went through all of that with didn’t make it. but he did. and I feel like for Mallick that’s just like... he doesn’t understand it. but he feels even lonelier than he ever has b4 because the One Person who was there w him thru it all, the one person who could ever possibly understand what happened that night, is gone.

the Mallick we see in V would NEVER sit down n willingly listen to Bobby Dagen’s bullshit abt loving yr scars n taking pride in the fact u survived. he wld hate that man with a passion n I am very much sure of this. the fact that he’s sitting in that chair looking numb and glassy-eyed and silent? Mallick is trying to find some1 to connect to, find a place where maybe he belongs. trying to fill that hole that losing Brit made. why else wld he be sitting there, listening to someone he would ordinarily tell to shove his self-love bullshit up his ass? he’s lost. he’s just trying to keep his head above water and find a way to shore even though everything in him is fighting not to. he’s adrift without her.

+ ALTERNATIVELY, bc the reality of that is just. crushing n maybe not where I needed 2 go, in the scenario where Brit survived + just doesn’t want to put up w Bobby’s bullshit, I imagine them to actually move in together after a lil bit of time getting 2 know each other better w out the pressure of “oh god we’re gonna die.” she kinda helps him build up a sense of self-worth bc GOD it’s practically non-existent n thinking abt possible reasons why makes me sad. she’s definitely just like “no, you do deserve to be cared for and you deserve help when you need it, you deserve good things n to be happy.” she just kinds shuts it down while still making sure to talk 2 him abt WHY he feels that way (she’s not dismissing, but she’s trying to nip it in th bud) n Mallick is just like. huh. bc no one’s really done that fr him before. but it rly does end up helping in the long run, even if it is a very slow pace toward actually getting 2 a place where he recognizes his own worth + realizes he deserves all the things he wants Brit 2 have too. they’re there for each other thru thick n thin and if they made it thru their game, they can make it thru anything.

[synnthamonsugar]

The worst experiences i had on destiny lore r*ddit are not what you’d expect

(Read more, and CW, for non-graphic pregnancy mention)

- Bloody fight about the possibility of Mara/Shaxx. The possibility. I don’t buy into Mara/Shaxx having happened, I’m not advocating for that pairing, but pointing out that some queer ladies like men (or genders other than women) too. Other bi and pan people came to bat for this point, so I wasn’t totally alone, but it’s never nice to get the random reminder that biphobia is the default for a lot of people.

Also people being unable to comprehend that humans don’t mate for life; yes, Sjur was the love of Mara’s life, but (shocking!!!) humans sometimes have interests besides their main partner, and if that partner is dead, or broken up with, there’s no social stigma stopping them from pursuing other people. Also ... non-monogamy exists and is okay too, but I’m not arguing that point to people who don’t get serial relationships.

- Regarding the 7-to-1 or whatever women-to-men gender imbalance of the Yang Liwei (we didn’t get into the 1k or so NB people onboard the ship) I suggested that, as a severely tokophobic (and ???body dysphoric??? but I’m not getting into that here) person, I wasn’t a fan of the idea that they had no many women on board simply for child bearing purposes bc that evokes the idea of them being breeding stock which is skin-crawlingly creepy, and also not supported by the canon since the Awoken came to the Distributary with artificial womb technology which implies that was tech they had on the Yang Liwei. If u can just grow babies there’s no need for a male/female imbalance at all.

I suggested that, instead, maybe they had so many women bc they were better suited to space, long term expedition, or some other social factor. Also like. women who can’t bear children are A Thing but i wasn’t going to argue abt women past childbearing age, infertile women, or trans women with them.

...  and then I got downvoted to hell and jumped by people calling me misogynist for saying that only having women around to bear children makes them “breeding stock”, which is the Projection of the Century. I tried fighting against that point (I AM LITERALLY SAYING THE OPPOSITE) but people wouldn’t listen lmao. This was my *throws up hands* fuck it I’m out moment.

[glitchydyke]

UM I've never played DR i only consume it via your posts but. that funny little angry guy with all the hamsters? for the character ask game :-)

HELP IM GLAD U LIKE MY SCREAMING ABT MY FUNNY LITTLE ANIME PEOPLE

gundham:

Sexuality Headcanon: bisexy KING he kisses girls guys and nonbinary ppl directly on the mouth <33

Gender Headcanon: AGENDER ABSOLUTELY. UR TELLING ME THE SUPREME OVERLORD OF ICE FUCKS W GENDER?? ABSOLUTELY NOT

A ship I have with said character: NO BC HE AND SONIA I’M LITERALLY SCREAMING!!! THEYRE PERFECT!!!!!! THEYRE SO IN LOVE!!!!!!!! HE’S ALSO V CUTE W KAZUICHI i like the enemies to lovers of it all,,, they’re arguing over sonia n kazuichi turns away a little n the sun hits him just right and gundham just looks at his messy hair and the smear of dirt on his cheek from what he’s been working on and has a gay little italicised oh moment

A BROTP I have with said character: HIM AND HAJIME ARE BROS he yells abt magic and hajime sits there like idk what the FUCK you’re talking abt but it seems cool :] OH HIM AND CHIAKI WOULD B SO GOOD AS WELL THEY PLAYS FANTASY GAMES AND HE GETS SO INTO IT W THEM

A NOTP I have with said character: aside from characters i personally see as lesbians i don’t rlly have one tbh?? gundham deserves to kiss everyone

A random headcanon: he knows how to sew and knit and he makes little outfits for the devas of destruction :] he has a little wardrobe for them (it used to b just a box but he decided they needed smth fancier) and he makes little coat hangers out of paper clips and hangs them all up like they’re real ppl clothes

General Opinion over said character: HES SO FUCKING FUNNY I WOULD DIE FOR HIM. HES ALSO JUST GENUINELY A GOOD PERSON LIKE WHEN HE COMMITTED HIS MURDER IT WAS FOR THE GOOD OF HIS CLASS BC HE KNEW THEY COULDNT GO ON THE WAY THEY WERE!!!!! AND HE PICKED NEKOMARU BC HE DIDNT SEE HIM AS A PERSON AND HE DIDNT WANT TO ACTUALLY HARM SOMEONE FULLY ALIVE WHICH. twisted morals there but his heart was in the right place okay 😭

[marshmallowprotection]

Hello, maybe you coukd give me some tips. I send you that ask already but it means ght be deleted by tumblr and it was all messy and ugly.

So I have one childhood friend, we used to do everything together till highschool. Often she was my only friend, like now. We slowly started to distance from each other sonce she has a boyfriend. For all those years I did my best to accept him and all, told myself that duh she is not obliged to spent time only with me even in situation when she spent less and less time with me. Sometime I had a bit trouble to fully accept bf because sometime when they argued she was venting to me and I felt like his is hurting her but she refused to break up with him. Boy eas very insecure, no friends and so on and one day around graduating junior hight school she wanted to break up with him but he said something like he is gonna hurt himself if she will, or just drop out the school. So she wanted to wait at least until he graduate, but she waited longer. Then just after we graduated hightschool she broke up with him like she had enought. It was prolly a mistake but after she vent I said one or two things about him concerning past events and I said 'wow finally'. After a while they made up and she said she just missend him. I promissed mtself I will never comment whatever she tell me about them, unless in a good way.

Well... the point is that I am probably jellous, that she doesnt want to spent time with me anymore. Alway if I ask her out I give her to eventually pick the date, if nit today then maybe tomorrow etc y know introvert way :D And im trying to save this friendship? She is not the person busy 24/7, unless maybe when she is in uni or we count playing games as being busy. I play games too sometime.

Sometime it seems like she tries to avoid me and dont want to tell me anything. One day I was talking to her in cafee and she was just fidgeting with her phone. She didnt even like heck the socialmedia, just switching between random (system?) folders on the phone. When I asked abt it why she doesnt listen, she said she wanted to do sth but forgot what. Another time I havent seen her for months and she alway soent holidays 1 month her bf comes to her (he lives abroad already I guess) and I dont want to disturb them of feel like third wheel and the other month she come to him. So like week before she pnanned to go I asked her to go out next day. She said she cant. So asked another day, she answered : but I go to my bf. So I surprised that its that soon and sad I missed the oportunity: oh really? When? She: on Friday me: but its Monday(?)(no answer) so...? She: ught I know ;;; but lately I dont really feel like going anywhere :(

Well... maybe I'm childish but I felt sad.

I'm also jellous that they even celebrate each others bdays altought she never do that bc of religious reasons and I've always respected that.

Once I asked her what is with us, we barely talk for last few years and I feel like she is avoiding me. She had no Idea what I was talking about, she felt like everything was the same.

I was told to not have much hope or expectations toward her bu maybe try to text her or maybe arrange a meeting once in a while and try not to become bitter.

The other one sait that that how adulthood looks like, we become busier with private issues and so on and I may act childish and selfish, but as far as I know except for time she go to uni or to her bf she is not that busy, definitely not that busy not to have time to meet with me more than once in a whole year (or none) when we live ~20min apart by foot. I dont want to be burden to anyone or feel like third wheel so I dunno what to do. I have problem with finding friends, she was my only one friend (?) for years. I dont trust ppl easly

I wanted to do more things together outside since we both used to or still do soent too much time on the computer but well... you know, together is easier.

Since I have to do it on my own maybe you have some ideas? Thats stupid wuestion I guess since you dont know my environment. Jogging and biking wont work I guess since I dont have proper bike. I wanted to plant some flowers but I was afraid I screw everything up since im kida kid who grow up in the bubble and Im not sure how to do basics and nobody wanted to help me and its too late already... Walk is fine but I prefer places far from road and since I'm not supposed to go to the forest that I love I dont have many spots to go.

I am sorry for long post. Any even tiny help would be appreaciated. I hope thats not much of the problem, have a nice day or night :)

-PineconeAnon

I do think that it's time for you to let go of the friendship. I know that's hard to do but people grow apart and that's okay. It's okay. You'll be able to make better relationships and move forward but you have to learn to let go and keep walking forward. It sounds like you're holding onto this friendship because you want to keep going on like it's the past but...

It doesn't work like that. Change happens. It hurts sometimes but it's not a bad thing. You can reflect on this with time and learn how to be able to accept it. You need someone that wants to hang out with you and relax with you. It's not childish to be upset but it's important to see when people just... don't have time for you anymore and feelings change.

It just seems like you both have a fundamental misunderstanding and if you can't talk that through, then it's not working. You can try to talk about it but it seems like it'd be better to just let go. She doesn't think there's something wrong but you do. If you feel stress around her instead of friendship, it's not great.

But, that's up to you, you know? You decide your relationships what you want them to be.

I don't really have great advice for making friends as an adult. I'm not exactly going out and interacting with people. I can suggest finding a new set of friends online by joining Discords and interacting with the fandoms you're in because that's how I've made friends. It's easier to do that if you're anxious about making friends outside.

Try new hobbies. Take a deep breath. If you want to garden, try it out. You're not going to be perfect the first time. It's a learning process at anything and you have to just try. You don't get to live it if you don't try. You have to consider your limits and reflect on what is going to be the easiest thing to try.

It's never too late.

Try to start small and work your way up.