#i don’t know how to tag this eek srry

[crystal-pepis]

folie having so many “my memory is terrible” referencing/adjecent lyrics and themes in there is something that is So Personal the entire fucking album just makes me feel emotions i haven’t felt Ever or at least not since i was teeny tiny itty bitty widdol liddol Guy like the entire album is so comforting and nostalgic and i never listened to the full thing until last/this month For Whatever Reason (the reason is i have ADHD and going into a New Album was WAAAAAY too daunting of a task for me so i waited for a very long time lol) but i grew up watching America’s Suitehearts constantly all the fucking time on the Music On Demand channel because that’s what i had easy access to and i thought it was the coolest fucking thing and i was fully in love with patrick and like!!! i’m pretty sure i was always like “yeah fall out boy!!” because i liked them beforehand due to my sister listening to IOH constantly (and i think FUTCT too but i remember IOH the most) but it never Sunk In i think??? (idk i have very few memories of my childhood :D) also my sister liked pete wentz a lot and because i was like “i wanna be exactly like you but he’s Yours” i attached myself to patrick instead because i had to choose Someone Else from The Band my Sister Likes™️ and in the long run that was the right decision because i REALLY RELATE to patrick and he’s such a comforting person (also he’s put his grubby lil mitts on fucking every song i’ve ever loved and it’s always like “oh, he covered this song too??” and “oh he PRODUCED THAT ENTIRE ALBUM/FEATURED ON THAT SONG” and i never recognized it because i have terrible recognition skills unless i’m Hyperfixated for long enough BUT ANYWAY) because pete was My Sister’s i somehow locked away the whole “finding him Attractive hormone” and when i was talking to my sister recentlyish she was like “yeah i don’t find him attractive anymore” which i knew deep down because she hasn’t listened to them in like a DECADE but for whatever reason it Unlocked the Pete Wentz Hot hormone and now i get butterflies when i look at him and instead of being like “yeah :)” it’s more like “YEAAAAAH >:DDDDD” also i took abilify for a while i don’t remember how long (teehee) and the only side effect (i thought) was that it made me gain a bunch of weight but it TURNS OUT my memory is so fucking bad now BECAUSE OF THE ABILIFY and i’m now forever fucking pissed off at this stupid goddamn head med for making my memory even worse i’m already dealing with memory gaps because of ADHD and DID and now i don’t know what’s what anymore and it’s made everything objectively worse and listening to patrick sing about horrible memory really makes me feel like i’m being held by my soulmate for the first time all over again

WOW that was a Lot huh!!! anyway sorry for the long winding rant i really like folie a deux and it might actually be becoming my favorite FOB album teehee