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real-life-cloud Ā· 1 year ago
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#the sky speaks#hiii i felt like rambling#im so busy lately!! retail job is exhausting and im working with my mom twice a week again#went to a yoga class with her on Sunday that was fun!! hard tho#and AUGGH. Christmas presents.........#i need to draw print and frame 2 pieces#make a blanket#and then when my mom isnt looking i need to organize her recipes. type them all up and print them out and find a like#pretty photo album type thing to put them in i think#i just bough stuff for my dad bc im making too much šŸ˜ž#and i hav other atuff i need to do too#i need to take lucy to the vet. i need to help my mom finish painting the kitchen.#i need to clean out my garden bc i never got to it in the fall. i need to text my friend and plan a gift exchange probably after new years#and FUCK. i need to get stuff for her cousin. i told them id get them a Christmas gift... but idk what theyd like ......#its their first Christmas too!!!!!!!! (theyre an adult but we were all raised in a cult and they only just got out. long story)#so i defo wanna get them smthn#im a little bummed tho bc my friend never texted me for my bday#shes super busy + has memory issues + is not used to celebrating bdays (aforementioned cult stuff) so like i get it but now i feel awkward#cause like im fonna remind her when i do text her and its gonna make her feel bad but like. there is no hiding it#hmm i also need to make Christmas cookies for family n neighbors#and ive always wanted to look into mailing cookies!! i wanna send my internet friends cookies.... but again im so busy idk if i can thisyear#maybe i could do belated Christmas cookies.. new years cookies#on a sadder note ive been feeling very gender (bad edition) lately. especially todya#so weird that my family still calls me by my full name most of the time. and introduces me that way#and at work everyone calls me layn :) which is nice. some of my coworkers r trans too !!#i think i wanna get a pronoun pin for my uniform#but idk part of me wants to always introduce myself as layn and another feels off or insincere in that want. bc ive been helayna for so long#its just second nature to introduce myself with my full name. its less want and more muscle memory#speaking of names. ive thought of adding a new name. tryin one out. its been stewing for a while but i like the name owen#im running out of tags now whoopsie.. but yea theres a little life update ty for reading šŸ’ž
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f4n-im4t0r Ā· 1 year ago
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w1n3bunny Ā· 2 months ago
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chat can u infodump abt phinjeet im intreuged <- hasnt watched pnf but probably should
* UR GIVING ME A FREE PASS TO TALK ABOUT THOZE FREAKZ TOBY ?!??!! I OWE U MY LIFE (sorry this took a while to answer i need time to gather and properly express my thoughtz GAH (also excuze the poor quality of my screenshotz im on a budget))
* this iznt going to be coherent but HERE WE GO
* so a big part of what compelz me about their dynamic iz the fact that theyre essentially on the same level/wavelength , while ofc phineas iz more adventurous and baljeet iz more anxious , theyre equally intelligent (NEEEERRRRDDZZ) and can speak the same nerdy language and truly listen to each other (smth i cant alwayz say for their more popular pairingz with other characterz WGAT WHO SAID THAT WHO SAID THAT)
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* i lov when theyre in sync !!!!! i lov when they get each other !!!!!!!! they sincerely care about each otherz interestz becauze they hav Shared interestz !!!!!!!!!!!!
* they hav a shared interest in sci-fi , theyre both big fanz of an in-universe show called space adventure n therez an episode where they go to a sci-fi convention in space adventure cozplay , tho baljeet iz shown to hav a more Persistent interest in it . in candace against the universe he repeatedly triez to uze thingz that happen in space adventure az solutionz to the gangz space related problemz , even against hiz own better judgement and understanding of science , somtimez veering into just straight up infodumping territory . this pretty much alwayz endz poorly lol , ig hyperfixation beatz logic . mood
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* (HEZ LITERALLY ME)
* at the end phineas makez hiz own space adventure suggestion , and thatz the only one that actually workz out . SAD !
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* they also both lov math n science specifically ! phineas channelz hiz passion into crazy projectz and inventionz while baljeet moreso lovez math itself , and therez an episode where phineas iz shown uploading blueprintz to hiz n ferbz website so baljeet can check the math , which he doez very quickly and then sendz over the updated verzion , and although we only see this once it impliez to me that this iz a regular occurrence to the point where theyve got it down like a routine I JUST THINK THATZ CUTE !!!!! lookit theze nerdz <3333
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* i see them az stabilizing forcez to each other , when baljeet iz freaking the hell out about smth phineas can help him look on the brighter side n realize itz not that big of a deal , or assure him thingz will work out . when phineas iz bouncing off the wallz and not thinking very far ahead baljeet can bring him back down to earth and challenge hiz leadership in a way the otherz dont often do , or correct hiz mistakez if need be
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* and becauze of the way phin needz jeet to check over hiz math , and the way he misspellz time machine az tie machine in ā€œits about timeā€ , i like to hc phineas like . iznt necessarily Bad at spelling or typing , but iz very prone to making obvious mistakez in hiz haste , so itz great that he haz a nerd friend whoz happy to review hiz work n catch thoze for him YAY
* a similar phin hc i hav iz that , cuz of how hard he hyperfocusez on building stuff , hez constantly getting bruizez n scrapez that he doeznt even notice cuz hez too In The Zone . he could be leaving a trail of blood and would hav no idea LOL till someone pullz him aside to point it out (just adhd thingz <3 hez literally me) . everyone else startz carrying bandaidz for hiz sake . baljeet uzez blue onez , which iz why i pretty much alwayz try to draw phin (at least younger phin) with a blue bandaid on hiz hand . im makin it gay , it symbolizez jeet being there for him when hez hurt ..... hand holding ........... hehehehehehe
* i also somtimez draw jeet with a yellow bandaid on hiz noze for similarly gay reazonz . muahahaha
* at the start of "cranius maximus" baljeet freakz out becauze he feelz like hez getting dumber the more he hangz out with phineas and ferb since he iznt studying 24/7 anymore , even tho id argue the experience he gainz through their adventurez iz just az valuable , but i think itz a fun point since itz kinda noticeable how much more actively baljeet seemz to engage in the backyard gangz activitiez az the show goez on
* it most likely waznt an intentional Story Decizion for jeet to start changing hiz mind about the importance of hiz studiez after s1 , but i wouldve liked if it waz actually treated az like . a change , an arc of sortz . like at the start of the summer hez super focused on school and not interested in pnfz projectz , but az he keepz incidentally landing in their orbit n finding thingz they hav in common he gradually becomez part of the gang
* that half-made-up early summer baljeet probably wouldve been completely content sitting around n studying for hiz summer school classez all day , but here he iz coming to phineas and ferb with hiz ā€œboringā€ activity , not even directly Asking them to make it more fun , just hoping and trusting that they Will . smth about that getz me idk . he likez playing with spinning topz , but now maybe smth about hiz change in routine haz made them a bit dull , and he trustz that pnf will figure out smth more exciting (and dangerous lol) to make of them . also just . how much they clearly like each other and enjoy being in each otherz company THATZ CUUUUUTE
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* and OFC phinjeet wouldnt be phinjeet without "the baljeatles" (I ALWAYZ WRITE IT AZ PHINJEATLEZ IM COOKED) , one of my favorite episodez , in which pnf try to teach baljeet how to rock tm since hez accidentally signed up for a rock n roll camp n iz terrified of getting a bad grade . SUCH A GOOD EPISODE which so many of my phinjeet hcz hinge on , becauze THEY WERE IN LLIKE ?!?!?!?!?!? A PUNK ROCK BAND TOGETHER ?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! EMOZ ?!?!?!?!?!?!?! /J
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* THERE WAZ NO REAZON TO PUT UR ARM AROUND HIM LIKE THAT DAWG I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE . i hc it waz at this very concert that phineas had a gay awakening LOOOL . for the entire episode up till the concert jeet haz been very anxious and uncertain becauze he just doeznt know how to Rock , he doeznt Want to stick it to the man , he doeznt want to break the rulez , but now suddenly he walkz out on stage az a completely different , angry and confident person . i can just vividly picture phin freezing up and forgetting hez suppozed to be doing backup vocalz n stuff n ferb haz to like nudge him and remind him hez on stage . dumbass
* and despite all their wholesomeness theyre not above picking on each other (lightheartedly), which iz also extremely important . somtimez itz one-sided since jeet tendz to be the more petty n snarky one , but yk
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* i think therez just . so many little thingz like that that make them such a compelling dynamic to me , n not even necessarily in a ship way , theyre just cute wholesome friendz who like each other !!!! and i think theyre both aro anyway , alloz could never understand phinjeet . thatz a qpršŸ«µ .
* theyre two nerdz who like sci-fi and space and math . they are sun and moon coded . they are puppy and kitty coded . they are a team that cannot be beaten ("they were also referring to ferb there-" this aint about him/silly) they respect each other and help each other whenever they can . phineas haz a little device that receivez holographic messagez from baljeet whenever he needz help (in One episode but SHH SHHHH) . after candace getz abducted by alienz in candace against the universe baljeet iz the first person they turn to n hez immediately like ā€œi assume you will need me to build another portalā€ like he just Knowz . and hez fully on board , no questionz asked
* theyre also super autistic !!!!!!! they both hav episodez where they freak out over a change of planz (in "bubble boys" baljeet triez to take phineas' advice to "seize the day" very literally , by planning out every single second of hiz day and then freakz out when hiz schedule iz disrupted . in "bully bromance breakup" jeet forbidz the use of technology az the gang climb a mountain and phin lozez hiz mind , desperately suggesting ideaz for inventionz n gadgetz to the point where he stopz climbing n iz being pulled along by everyone else while curled up into a ball) , they both hav som trouble understanding tone and social cuez , they both infodump and stim , etc
* imagine: they are stargazing together and infodumping to each other about space . they are huddled up on a couch watching a space adventure marathon and eating popcorn , talking to each other for hourz . phin iz hovering over jeetz shoulder az jeet checkz hiz math on a blueprint . they are doing each otherz emo ass make-up and singing together . they are talking about beez and spiderz . they are dyeing each otherz hair . they are drinking cappuccinoz . they are bickering lovingly .
* now lemme yap rq about the aro thing cuz im aro and itz super important to me:
* phineas iz the one whoz more obviously aro coded , most notably cuz of how he never pickz up on any of izabellaz advancez and remainz completely clueless about her feelingz for him , but smth specific that getz me iz the way he talkz about romance in ā€œthat sinking feelingā€ . baljeet freakz out about hiz childhood friend being Pretty now , he wordz it weird like ā€œnow she is ā€¦ a girl !!!ā€ but hez like ten and itz 2009 dw about it
* the point iz , phineas iz like ā€œoh i think what girls really like is romance , we learned all about it in this movie we watched !ā€ . the movie waz titanic , and phineas doeznt think of romance az a feeling or an experience , but az an arbitrary list of itemz from a movie . he thinkz classical muzic , roze petalz , a cruize ship . the ship startz FUCKING SINKING and everyonez panicking and hez like ā€œwow ! is this romance or what !ā€ little guy haz NOOOO idea what the hell romance iz and hez trying hiz best but LOL .
* meanwhile baljeet strikez me az an aro who (in contrast to phineas) iz hyperaware of the amatonormative society around him and feelz obligated to try and fit into it and be ā€œNormalā€ . he feelz a lot of aesthetic attraction , and partly cuz of PHINEASā€™ confuzion about romance , he equatez it to romantic attraction
* he haz like four ā€œlove interestzā€ if u wanna call them that , but theyre mostly pretty shallow or underdeveloped relationship-wize , which i interpret az jeet having Chozen to hav crushez on thoze ppl , misinterpreting platonic and aesthetic attraction , looking at a person like a checklist of dezirable traitz , or just being eazily influenced and pushed into romantic relationshipz becauze of everything else combined with hiz desperation to be ā€œnormalā€
* how i see their relationship developing iz later in their teenz they get together thinking itz romantic , baljeet finally feelz ā€œfixedā€ and phineas feelz like he finally Getz It , but the way the ppl around them perceive their relationship , the way they themselvez only want it to be like ā€œsuper close friends who kiss sometimesā€ , and the expectationz that are put on them to do/be More etc , make them question whether their feelingz are genuine . then somwhere down the line they (separately) realize theyre aro and that their feelingz for each other are actually queerplatonic and kind of both loze their mindz over it (im projecting my own aro experience here , when i first realized i waz aro i had a sorta-gf n i waz terrified that i wouldnt be able to lov her the ā€œrightā€ way or that i waz leading her on , so thatz also what i imagine going through their headz) . till they try to confess this to each other n realize there waz nothing to worry about cuz they were actually already on the same page n then theyre happy silly qppz forever the end
* az much az i like to make shit up n torture theze two to make them more fucked up than they should be , theyre really just . sweet and inoffensive . theyre buddiez . theyre palz . theyre a team . theyre everything to me and they make me phyzically ill somtimez
* herez som drawingz ! az a gift <3
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* this iz certainly not ALL i can say about phinjeet , BUT IM SO TIRED AND THIS POST CANT GO ON FOREVER . so thatz it for neow peace and love <3333
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euclydya Ā· 11 months ago
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HaIIIIII I COPIED aD PaSTED SOME OF THOSE QUaSTIONS BCUZ I CaNNOT REMEMBER LISTS/aSK MEME THIGNS 4 VRY LONG
Are there any activities your system members like to do together? Collective hobbies? Talk about those!
What sort of music do people in your system like?
Does your system have a headspace? Are there multiple of them? What are they like?
How would you describe your system in 3 words or less?
Do you have any cool/funny stories from inside the headspace that youā€™d like to share?
Whatā€™s some advice youā€™d give to yourself when you were first discovering your system?
(SOM OF THESE R THIGNS UOUaLL HaV TaOULKED aBT B4 BUT IK U GUYZ LIEK TaLKIGN aBT THEM SO l l3 šŸ‘)
HEWLLO!! :D
we like drawing and listening to music together!! we also daydream a Lot so generally just hanging out & vibing in the headspace is smth we enjoy too :3c
Our music taste varies tbh!! rn tho we're hyperfixated music-wise on queens of the stone age and that's like. 100% PT & Gideon's faults SJDJDJDJDJSJDJ genre-wise primarily we listen to rock but a fewww of us r into electronic stuff & whatnot!
Yes and yes!! our main headspace rn is Harry's, it's a buncha disconnected-ish bedrooms that we all kinda fast travel to and from. Almost every Skill has their own room or they share a room w others but funnily enough Harry himself doesn't have a room here. then again he barely visits HFJDJSJDJFFJ and our headspace outside Harry's is very large and expansive! rn the main area is a giant meadow with a cave entrance in the distance, and a couple housesā€”the houses belong to Dark andddd.... I think Chase?? idk. whoever the fuck is in charge of the Septic household owns the house but I'm gonna be honest I don't think they ever decided who's in charge AUAISJSJDJDJ. We've got plenty more bits n pieces in our headspace but that's the main layer!
Chaotic, incomprehensive, and colourful! Chaotic bc. Have U Seen Us SJSJDJDJDJDJ incomprehensive because of the word salad and thought disorder shit, and colourful bc of our synesthesia!
HMMMMM,,, nothing much comes to mind as of recent sadly </3
Advice to past self: don't. share this with anyone offline! holy shit. you will make your life hell if you do. dhdjisaiaiskdk
thank you !! -Electrochem
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epicfranb Ā· 1 year ago
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warning: long rant/ramble under cut (i jump from topic to topic a lot)
I need to watch more Sausage vids so i can write him BUT lately I'm so tired from mcyt cuz it's basically the only thing i watch, i wanna read comics and watch shows again i miss it but i only hav minecraf on the brain :( my attention span is GONE (not that there was much in the first place but. I could easily binge an anime season or 2 in under a week. I can't watch a single episode a day idk why)
This is what I'm complaining about?? Really??? If i complained about the actual serious stuff that worries me you'd hear no end of it lol. It's kind of in the background, anyways looming over me (the anxiety) im kinda used to it but it shows itself in the little things that seem unrelated.. like that fact that i can't seem to do the things i actually wanna do anymore. It's called AVOIDING. im scared of failure, im scared of making myself upset, so i start avoiding it even if i like it and wanna do it. It's silly bc in this case it's literally about WATCHING COOL SHIT??? i don't wanna have another kagepro or winx club or naruto on my hands where im so unbelievably upset at the source material that o have this urge to complain about it ALL THE FUCKING TIME but i don't have it in me (maybe i have the skill, but not time and not motivation) to make rewrites for all of them that'd be fucking impossible, especially seeing as they're not exactly short stories or easy to write and structure and REwrite and REstructure n all that.. i have my own fics and stories to worry about BUT I'M NOT WRITING THEM EITHER honestly i thought graduating high school would make me better it made me worse actually. In some ways it made me better. Maybe it's just maturing (a little bit) but worse i mean that 1) I'm drawing way less 2) I'm not developing my original stories at all 3) i don't see comics anymore 4) i don't fucking go outside 5) i don't socialize 6) i rot at home all day IDK im trying not to say that i feel like a failure bc that's not exactly true?.. maybe i don't feel this way cuz im avoiding thoughts like this (im good at avoiding lol) and that's good. Cuz objectively I'm not a failure. I'm still creating, even tho slowly. I think I'm in my transitional point between like.. a worm that i was at school, just creating things with no real purpose, to bring a butterfly who creates more thoughtfully and is able to self express deliberately, because i know what i like and what i want to do now (moreso than i did before at least). Not a fan of an insect analogy but here ya go. Optimistic ending to my little rant at least.
Honestly i wanna do a series of complaining at stuff that i kind of hate-love. I have the most to say about kagepro probably, since i was into that for like 2 years, or maybe winx since I'm into it rn, and it has far more source material+ has a bigger world and now characters.. but i thought about it far less so far (i need to write down my thoughts more..) i really really want someone to talk with about it.. either winx or kagepro, idc. It would be funny to tell about kagepro to a person who doesn't know about it (it's still fresh in my mind... *shudders*) but when it comes to winx I'd rather talk to another fan honestly. So yeah.. rant over bye bye
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nonbinaryspaghetti Ā· 2 years ago
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i was lied 2 abt having $ 2 fix my computer :ā€™(
is ok tho bc i hav plan; sell my nintendi swimch and use the dollars 2 get a whole different mor powerful computer,
and also other things i need, like shoes (my old ones hav had holes for,,, many years, they need replacing since befor pandemy), a new space heater (mine stopped working a couple days ago, very chilly without it),
and last, im getin a soldering iron for electronics (and all the other stuff u need + some stuff 2 practice on) + some other minor electronics repair stuff
once im confident in my skills im gonna fix my old drawing tablet, some other broken things i own, and learn 2 b an armature ā€˜small electronics repairmanā€™ bc its just a handy thing 2 b able 2 do , and mb i can make small $ doing it,,,
also, i recently learned that u do not need a bank account 2 make a paying pal account or 2 make or get $ from it , so the past couple days i been reading all th legal stuff (found at least 3 typos so far) im ,,, gettin thru it, bu omg theres so much -_-;; the main thing has 6 major sections n im on section 3 ;;;;;;;-_- uuuuhhhg
plz root for me, bc when i hav a workin computer +my own payments pal, im finally gonna b able 2 start making $ so i can save up 2 leav this place n live somewhere safer (being allergic 2 ur buildings built in air conditioning during hot weather months is brutal,,, +all th other stuff i hav 2 deal with bc of th ppl i live with,,,)
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childhoodgrave Ā· 4 years ago
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whats dtl about ifff ud like 2 talk abt it i see cute sprites & decide i wanna know things.. hehe the top hat n cape guy gif is in sync w my music hehe
IM SO GLAD U ASKED this game is probsbly my favorite game ever its been a special interest if mine since i was 7 and i dont think its a GOOD game per se bt i love it a lot and it impacted me a lot as a little kid w a mild interest in art :)
so basically the game is a little 2d adventure platformer where u get to draw and design the character u play as. its p clunky and the way ur character moves looks rlly silly bt again this game was released in like 2010 on the ds so its ok .. the game also gave u templates to go off of and use too just in case u didnt want to design a character from scratch
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the story of the first game is abt this world that was drawn into existence by ā€œthe creatorā€ in the book of life. u hav this little sequence where u get to draw the world, and the forrests and the creatures tht wld inhabit it. the creatures tht inhabit the world are callec raposa and they r little fox creature w funny ears :)
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like this guy (his name is zsasha and hes a thief but hes like a bad one who ends up returning all of the stuff he steals and also watching over a little orphan girl who he basically adopts LOL)
in the universe if the game the ā€œcreatorā€ eventually went silent and the raposa lost hope in them ever returning. the world was slowly shrouded in darkness and gradually all of the raposa inhabiting this little village were either lost or left on purpose bc it was slowly falling apart. the game starts when one of the remaining raposa, mari, prays to u, the creator, to come back and help restore her village, saying that everyone else has lost hope but she still believes you can return to her. u can answer, and either say that u will help or you wont, but either way u end up agreeing to help her and she goes to tell her dad, the mayor, abt it. you create a ā€œheroā€ to be the vessel you will speak thru, and thats the character u end up designing and playing as. the game is abt going to various areas from the village and rescuing all of the raposa that are lost there, as well as restoring the village to what it used to be and drawing in bits of the landscape, like the sun and plants and stuff.
the villain of the story is a guy named wilfre, who was another villager in the town who ended up drawing in the book of life bc he wanted to create things the way the creator had. he ended up making these big inky monsters and got consumed by them, and when u meet him at the beginning of the game he tears up a bunch of pages in the book of life which get scattered across the land and you have to collect them in order to restore the village.
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so u basically just go around saving villagers, collecting pages of the book of life, and redrawing bits of the town that were lost to wilfres shadows. eventually wilfre ends up like, killing maris dad (the mayor) and then after youve restored a majority of the village you enter his realm and kill him!! yay :)
throughout the game you also meet these two weird npcs called heather and mike. heather is a little raposa girl who has half of her face covered in shadows, and shes mostly mute. shes found early on in the game and is taken care of by another one of the main characters named jowee
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mike is a character u end up rescuing later on in the game, hes p confused and doesnt know how he got where he is, and hes also different from the other raposa bc he doesnt have ears like they do and kind of just looks like a normal human (even tho none of the raposa know what that is and they just think he looks rlly weird)
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in the first game heather is shown to take a liking to mike but it isnt explained why and she doesnt talk to its left unexplained
so yah the first game ends with you, the hero, defeating wilfre. mari takes on the role of her father and becomes mayor of the town, and all of the raposa (+ mike) live happily in the town youve restored. the hero goes dormant because theyre no longer needed and u get a scene at the end of the game w them sitting by the ghost of maris father.
the SECOND game takes place a while after the first game, in which wilfre returns and captures heather at the beginning of the game. he also kidnaps a bunch of the other villagers and transports them somewhere else, and he drains the color out of the village the raposa were in. they end up fleeing on a giant turtle with an abandoned town on its back that appears while the color is draining from the village. inside mari and jowee find another mannequin similar to the one the creator had drawn the hero on in the first game. they pray to the creator for help and thats when u draw the hero u get to play as for that game!! the hero doesnt seem to remember mari and jowee or any of the events of the first game, but they agree to help them rescue heather and all of the villagers wilfre stole.
jowee also has like, this magic pendant that belonged to heather that he found after wilfre took her, which seems to be leading them to where heather is. they use that to navigate the turtle thru the ocean to a bunch of other islands on the world. the second game is basically about traveling to different islands and helping them restore the color thats been drained out of them by wilfre. you also meet these two characters, salem
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who is a villain in the first island u travel to, and sock
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who is a villager on the first island u visit who ends up befriending jowee and traveling with them while they try to save heather.
so ur doing all of that but THEN, halfway thru the game mari is shown to be talking to wilfre, and then she dissapears. jowee assumes wilfre has captured her too, but shes later seen on the turtle again, and rips out a bunch of pages in the book of life the way wilfre did in the first game, and then wilfre appears to take her away and says that shes working with him now. jowee is heartbroken but resolves to get her back as well as heather
THEN, sock, jowees friend from the first island whos been tagging along and helping out, is ALSO revealed to be wilfre in disguise and he betrays jowee and steals heathers pendent, leaving jowee with basically no means of finding heather and wikfre and mari by extension.
so eventually they do end up finding where wilfre is and mari is like ā€œjowee you dont understand wilfre has shown me the truth of our world and who the creator is and thats why im helping himā€ and jowee is like ā€œi cant believe yoy are helping him how could you i cant believe you bla bla blaā€ and so wilfre is like ā€œFINE ill show you the TRUTH of this worldā€ and takes jowee and then the hero is kind of left ln their own for a bit to like wander around the world and try to keep rescuing ppl and such. and eventually jowee comes back and is like shaken up but kind of vague abt what wilfre showed him, but he still decides to side with the hero and the creator and eventually mari is convinced by him to join them again as well
so u fight wilfre again and EVENTUALLY wilfre reveals that if you defeat him basically the entire world will dissapear and thats what hes been trying to avoid by fucking w things and messing with the book of life. so all of the raposa have a bunch existential crisis abt them ceasing to exist if they go thru with this but then they decide to to it anyway bc the alternative is just as bad blah blah and u go and kill wilfre and he does this when he dies which is cool
[the gif was fuckjng broken im sorry but like look up his sprites and youll fjnd it šŸ’”]
and now heather is back!! and her and mari and jowee are all talking about mike and how important he is and meanwhile mike has no clue whats going on and is kind of freaked out by all of this, but theyre all like ā€œmike you need to wake upā€ as theyre all fading out of existence and shit around him and eventually him and heather are the only ones left and they dissapear too
and THATS when you get the ending and find out it was all like a dream mike was having while he was in a coma after a car crash anx this plays while the credits role lol https://youtu.be/Kur0qaYM1jM
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^ they ended up releasing different versions oft he game w a less dark (but still w the whole ā€˜it was all a dream twistā€™) and thats it!!
there was also another game released for the wii that like gave wilfre a girlfriend kind of but i never played it to completion bc it used the wii remotes motion controls to like draw and shit and it was rly janky and hard so i never finished it and most ppl did the same. i kind of rlly want to try playing it again tho bc it was a p cute looking game even if the controls were fucked up
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AND YEA thats drawn to life its a weird silly little series tht i was obsessed w when i was a kid and it still holds a special place in my heart :) i basicaly just spoiled the entire series i guess but if u have a ds or a 3ds (bc the game is backwards complatible ! ) id still suggest like getting a cartidge off ebay or something and playing it bc its honestly a rlly sweet and beautiful looking game and i think a lot of it still homds up even if the controls r rlly janky now
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judehayward Ā· 5 years ago
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lady gaga voice slowly fadin in: ju-Das juda-ah-ahā€¦ frankly i missed this ridiculous depressed little man so iā€™m gna try my hand at playing 2 charas again. the crowd grits their teeth in apprehensive nerves. itā€™s fine itā€™s fine itā€™s all FINE!!!!!!!!! also this is nai btw forgot to say. anyway. ahem. without further adieu.... his intro
he pinterest:
me in the voice of a card magician performing on the street: round up round up pick a pinterest any pinterest!
ta-da itā€™s aesthetics:
lead marbles instead of eyes, a stolen hearse careening down the wrong lane, wearing a faded smiley face sticker on your forehead while receiving a serious lecture, bags under the eyes that are so big they could pack enough clothes for a three week vacation, a cigarette wobbling from your bottom lip as you squint against the sunlight, passing out on a strangerā€™s rooftop, placing sunglasses over the eyes of a biology lab skeleton, gangling around the place like shaggy minus his scooby snacks, saying ā€œfuck offā€ to inanimate objects
about tha Bitch:
ok to start w i wonā€™t lie iā€™ve pasted in an old intro here bc i just hate intros i hate writing them i hate them................. bt itā€™s fine.......................... lets pretend this is all fresh n sexy n new....... bsically this is jst a disclosure tht this isnā€™t tht well written bc itā€™s old n stinky bt weā€™re all jst having fun here. bye
he hd to do community service bc he kind ofā€¦ hd a bit of a breakdown before the funeral of his elderly neighbour who bsically raised him bc her kids rly didnt care abt her they jst wanted her inheritance?? so heā€¦ stole the hearse w her casket still in it n ws jst likeā€¦ drivin around the place sort ofā€¦ tryin nt to cryā€¦..KJJFHSFKJGHKFG i mean. it isnt funny its actually sad bt :/ in a very bizarre n jude way. he gt caught n taken in fr questioning bt her son kind of realised hwā€¦ broken up abt her death jude ws n had a heart n didnt press charges. regardless he stil hd to do community service bc it ws like taken seriously even tho it ws his first proper offence. doin it rly exhausted n depressed him so when he wsnt doin tht he ws just hibernatin in his roomā€¦ā€¦. this ws like 2/3 months ago nw mayb bt... just some fun lore fr u all
in a new development in terms of sexuality i jst am nt quite sureā€¦ā€¦. hes always thot he ws straightā€¦ fooled around w a 90s hugh grant lookalike once n ws jst a bit like :/ my rocks rnt blasted off? bt who knows wht the future holdsā€¦ who KNOWS wht the future holds ladies n gentlemen
born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bcā€¦ they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n henceā€¦. jude was born
they just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hellā€¦. may as well! itll be fine weā€™ll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do
spoiler alert: tht didnā€™t work out
they were ok to him like they werenā€™t abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plans. they literallyā€¦.. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models orā€¦ guidance orā€¦. anything rly. occasionally theyā€™d joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didnā€™t Care one bit
they were both suuuuper into the arts. theyā€™re both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a successful gallery in san fran
as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places withoutā€¦. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of his parents friends were rly damaging too btā€¦.i wonā€™t go into that just yet. it doesnā€™t rlyā€¦need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n itā€¦.is rather triggering so iā€™ll jstā€¦.leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed
bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks heā€™s mozart level gd at composing. i mean heā€™s gd btā€¦ Calm Down Jude. personality wise he acts out sometimes bc heā€™s so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so heā€™d hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isnā€™t a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b.
heā€™s rly sarcastic, sleeps around a bit, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone heā€™ll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos heā€™s an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he says. at heart he is jst a very Sad Boy w lots of repressed issues like depression genuinely just does NAT giv him a single break bt he plasters over this w wise cracks n never discusses his emotions ever. heā€™s actually p decent or at least tries to b. heā€™s kind of like tht bit in superbad where michael cera gets rly drunk n makes a toast to women. tries to b? a feminist bt sometimes fucks up n offends ppl n is like damā€¦.. my bad fr :/
he has p bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot
ANYWAY that aside heā€™s at lockwood doing fine arts. he luvs painting n photography n philosophy n all tht. a pretentious fiend sometimes? maybe_so.gif. he isnā€™t rly pushy abt it tho n tends to like.... take nothing seriously bt at the same time acts like he is??? like heā€™s very deadpan in everything he does
ummMMMMmm honestly idk iā€™m blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges on all his clothes. wandering the streets eating frm a cereal box without care in public. heā€™s p broody n scruffy n heā€™s mostly here fr a good time. o and heā€™s That Guy that would die fr morrissey (his vibe not personality bc i hc jude was depressed n shut himself inside all day when he actually found out what a dick he is dfjkfhg) and all that stone roses the smiths etc stuff music wise. HMU FR PLOTS!!!!!! iā€™m down fr anything
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hte-spagheti Ā· 4 years ago
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toyhouse tutorial 101
yo heres a tutorial 4 how 2 upload characters 2 toyhouse cuz its weird n complicated. this is mostly 4 my friends but any1 can rb it xoxo. under tha cut its long as FUCK
step 1 is mouse ovr that submit button n click tha character button. its on tha very top of tha screen
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after u do that u will see this page. lots of fields and boxes very scary. theres evn more if u scroll we will get 2 those
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click thaĀ ā€œchoose fileā€ button under thaĀ ā€œupload avatarā€ box n select tha avatar 4 this character. u can also crop it using tha slider and drag tha picture aroundĀ 
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check out my sexy cursors frm totallyfreecursors dot com. that looks nice :)
now scroll down a liddol and u see all these things. character name is preddy self explanatory, just type tha name. dont worry abt tha next row yet ill make a part 2 4 those this is Basics. u know wut tags do they make ur character show up when u search stuff. idk if any1 actually searches stuff tho so its not rlly important
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this sexy bitch is tha fields spot <3 i usually put stuff liek full name n pronouns in there. press tha add fields button 2 add and tha x on tha lesf 2 delete. u can also click n drag tha blue arrow 2 move then up n down if u accidentally mess up tha order or smthng. thaĀ ā€œfield nameā€ box automatically bolds btw
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this looks good :). u should probably keep it preddy short bcuz of tha way it formats, dont put liek their whole backstory here
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this is tha main text box. THIS is where u put tha whole backstory. theres sum standard formatting tools most word processors hav but its mostly just a huge box u can write w/e u want it. u can also put html code, sum ppl hav preddy fun layouts but thats complicated who cares
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if u made tha character by urself u can skip this part. but if sum1 else made it u gotta credit them. if they hav a toyhouse account pressĀ ā€œon-site creatorā€ and enter their username, maybe ask them abt tha other boxes i dont actually know wut those mean. if they dont hav a toyhouse enter a url 4 their other social media. i made tutorial guy by myself tho so i dont need 2
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when it looks good click create character! u can always come back n edit later dw if its not perfect. tha upload image tab is a mini version of tha next step ill get there in a sec
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so now ur page looks liek this. heres how all tha steps above look on a completed profile
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u may notice evn tho tutorial guy haz an icon, there r no images in their gallery. tha icon does not count as an image u hav 2 upload it separately or u wont b able 2 see it fullsize
there r 2 ways 2 upload a new image, tha top bar under submit, and tha left sidebar on ur characters pageĀ 
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they both redirect 2 tha same menu. step 1 is choose ur file, standard image file choosing thing. toyhouse supports pngs, jpgs, and animated gifs! u can put a caption if u want, most ppl dont
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if you used tha upload image button on ur characters page, tha character will b in this field automatically. u can also add more characters if there r multiple ppl in tha drawing w tha add character button
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heres tha artist credit field. ur own username will b here by default. this is similar 2 tha design credit above, if tha artist haz a toyhouse put their username, if they dont clickĀ ā€œoff site artistā€ n enter a url. i think ur supposed 2 credit if u use a dollmaker but im not sure. u can also put multiple artists if its a collabĀ 
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this is tha watermark field. by default i think it puts a huge ass toyhouse watermark ovr ur nice art so change both of these 1Ā ā€œfull sizeā€ there wont b a watermark. other than that dont worry abt it
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finally, this is tha n$fw warning field. if ur art is a liddol Saucy make sure u put a warning. i dont know tha specific policies that classify whatsĀ ā€œmild s*xual contentā€ and wut isĀ ā€œexplicit s*xual contentā€, maybe check tha rules n tos (those links r at tha very bottom of evry page). theres also a field for gore, and a more generalĀ ā€œsensitive contentā€ field. if ur not sure, just click that and u can put a custom warning. when you mouse ovr tha image tha warning will display
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now we hav an image :) u can look at tha whole gallery by clicking tha button on tha left there, and it will automatically display a few images on tha main profile liek this
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thats it!!! u did it u read tha whole tutorial! this is a very basic thing theres a lot more features but i dont want this 2 go on 4EVR so im ending here. if u hav questions ask in tha forums or see if u hav friends w toyhouse accounts who can help :)
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judememories Ā· 5 years ago
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lady gaga voice slowly fadin in: oOoohohOhoh im in love w judas.... ju-Das juda-ah-ah... i rly missed jude tbh so i decided to bring him in as a second. i hv faith i cn manage jugglin i... ...... .. . have faith. in case u dnt kno it is me (nai) n this is like. the one (1) male chara iv ever managed to play longer than jst a few weeks. truly jst Zee Fruit Of My Womb! bt anyway. jst gna leap right in to the intro. we die like men
he pinterest:Ā 
me in the voice of a card magician performing on the street: round up round up pick a pinterest any pinterest!
ta-da itā€™s aesthetics:
lead marbles instead of eyes, a stolen hearse careening down the wrong lane, wearing a faded smiley face sticker on your forehead while receiving a serious lecture, bags under the eyes that are so big they could pack enough clothes for a three week vacation, a cigarette wobbling from your bottom lip as you squint against the sunlight, passing out on a stranger's rooftop, placing sunglasses over the eyes of a biology lab skeleton, gangling around the place like shaggy minus his scooby snacks, saying "fuck off" to inanimate objects
about tha Bitch:
he hd to do community service bc he kind of... hd a bit of a breakdown before the funeral of his elderly neighbour who bsically raised him bc her kids rly didnt care abt her they jst wanted her inheritance?? so he... stole the hearse w her casket still in it n ws jst like... drivin around the place sort of... tryin nt to cry.....KJJFHSFKJGHKFG i mean. it isnt funny its actually sad bt :/ in a very bizarre n jude way. he gt caught n taken in fr questioning bt her son kind of realised hw... broken up abt her death jude ws n had a heart n didnt press charges. regardless he stil hd to do community service bc it ws like taken seriously even tho it ws his first proper offence. doin it rly exhausted n depressed him so when he wsnt doin tht he ws just hibernatin in his room....... n thts where hes been 2 explain his absence to any of u whose charas had... connections w him Way Back When
in a new development in terms of sexuality i jst am nt quite sure....... hes always thot he ws straight... fooled around w a 90s hugh grant lookalike once n ws jst a bit like :/ my rocks rnt blasted off? bt who knows wht the future holds... who KNOWS wht the future holds ladies n gentlemen
frm this point on i wnt lie iv pasted in his old intro bc. a bich is lazy! a bich is predictable! and a bich! is! unapologetic!
born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n san fran a lot jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bcā€¦ they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n henceā€¦. jude was bornthey just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hellā€¦. may as well! itll be fine weā€™ll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do
spoiler alert: tht didnā€™t work outthey were ok to him like they werenā€™t abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plansthey literallyā€¦.. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models orā€¦ guidance orā€¦. anything rly. occasionally theyā€™d joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didnā€™t Care one bit
they were both suuuuper into the arts. theyā€™re both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a rly successful gallery in san fran
as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n sometimes pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places withoutā€¦. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of his parents friends were rly damaging too btā€¦.i wonā€™t go into that just yet. it doesnā€™t rlyā€¦need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n itā€¦.is rather triggering so iā€™ll jstā€¦.leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed
bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit, especially kerouac, n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks heā€™s mozart level gd at composing. i mean heā€™s gd btā€¦ Calm Down Judepersonality wise he acts out sometimes bc heā€™s so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so heā€™d hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isnā€™t a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b.Ā 
heā€™s rly sarcastic, sleeps around a lot, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone heā€™ll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos heā€™s an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he says. at heart he is jst a very Sad Boy w lots of repressed issues like depression genuinely just does NAT giv him a single break bt he plasters over this w wise cracks n never discusses his emotions ever. heā€™s actually p decent or at least tries to b. heā€™s kind of like tht bit in superbad where michael cera gets rly drunk n makes a toast to women. tries to b? a feminist bt sometimes fucks up n offends ppl n is like dam..... my bad fr :/
he has p bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot
ANYWAY that aside heā€™s at lockwood doing fine arts. he luvs painting n photography n philosophy n all tht. a pretentious fiend sometimes? maybe_so.gif
ummMMMMmm honestly idk iā€™m blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges along that Dramatic model jawline. heā€™s p broody n scruffy n heā€™s mostly here fr a good time. o and heā€™s That Guy that would die fr morrissey (his vibe not personality bc i hc jude was depressed n shut himself inside all day when he actually found out what a dick he is dfjkfhg) and all that stone roses the smiths etc stuff music wise. HMU FR PLOTS!!!!!! iā€™m down fr anything
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dirtycar-remade Ā· 5 years ago
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idk anything abt ur ocs (im sorry ;_;) so could u give me a briefing? :oc
wahhh sure but just know i have a lot so im not gonna talk abt all of em!! ill uhhh talk abt 3 ā€œstoriesā€ i guess. also gonna put it under the cut cuz its gonna get loongg
first one is legend hunt n its my baby project. its a webcomic ive been workin on for.. fuck like 4 years now? still havent started drawing it cuz i keep on rewritin it n redesignin its characters but basically its abt a group of characters lookin for iconias (one of the kingdoms) great hidden treausre. heres a toyhouse page for it but not everyone is on it yet. abt the characters now!!
first ones julian, hes the main protag. hes half fairy half human n the prince of iconia tho he ran away from it at the beginning of the webomic for reasons i cant get into yet! hes kinda the opposite of a perfect prince, like hes often grumpy n very self concious n can b an asshole if he needs to, he hates lying but does it kinda a lot. hes super flawed but also super fucking depressed but god he gets sooo much better as the time goes on n im SO proud of him.
next one is jaspar. hes from the elossa kingdom n is the captain of the royal guard here tho he never really wanted that job, he got it cuz his father retired. he looks like ur stereotypical knight cuz hes tall n muscular n has a sword but hes such a SOFTIE. hes like the softest character in this whole thing. hes not really a coward but he does get scared easily n he doesnt really like fighting all that much. hes very sweet n kind but also gets distracted suuper easily n tends to speak before thinking first. hes also julians looove interest
then theres pumpkin whos my favorite in the entire webcomic tbh. cant talk much abt her past but i feel like ppl r gonna call her #problematique n r gonna hate her cuz shes a rude female character like what?? how dare she b a loveable asshole. i just KNOW ppl r gonna call her a bitch fdhghfh but anyway ya shes tired shes kinda mean but shes also very caring, shes just kinda done w everything. her n julian hav a lot of similarities which is why they get along so well.
next up is licorice theyre pumpkins familiar. theyre the youngest of the main cast, theyre only 15! theyre very into fashion n make up n like to experiment w their appearance, theyre also veeery hyper. they switch a lot between their human form n their cat form (which is a maine coon kitty!). theyre honestly a bastard but i love them theyre feral
n last main character is elyon! hes pumpkins best friend n ā€œneighbourā€ n by that i mean he lives in a tree house near pumpkins tree house! hes blind n hes an archer. he has a twin sister who has lots of bde n is a lesbian icon. elyon is the last main character i came up w/ so i dont talk abt him a lot but basically hes just very chill but also very protective of his belongings n friends n house n stuff. hes chill tho.
n ok this is already fucking long SO ill b quick abt the other two things, 2nd story is a dnd ā€œcampaignā€ i was plannin to do but it changed to a rp im writin w my gf! its set in the fuuuutuuure n i cant really talk much abt it cuz i dont want my gf to get Spoiled for the plot but its got a cowboy, an emo twink, two whole murder girls n lots of idiots
n last story is just kinda a wip rn, i draw these characters a lot in school cuz theyre supposed to b in a kinda simplified style. its abt angels n demons n ppl n its also furries cuzzzz furries easier to draw. i have a height chart of the main characters i did in ms paint lol so ill just,, put it here
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youmeanlove Ā· 6 years ago
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all of them for yusuke !!!!!!!!!
SCREAMS thank you SO much im bout to end this mans (my wish to keep answers short) whole careerĀ 
update: sorry this took so long i decided to become a novelistKJF LITERALLY its so long thank you soooo much for sending this ask i had a field day
fresh mown grass: what is your f/oā€™s favorite scent? does it remind them of anything specific?
paint is the obvious answer so ofc that but he rly likes the smell of a smoked out kitchen. probably because thats what happens every time he tries to experiment w food but it still makes him happy to hav fun with it
pastel sunrise: what was your f/oā€™s first impression of you? yours of them?
heheheā€¦he thought i dressed really weirdJFJF he was like one part intrigued one partĀ ā€˜wtf ewā€™ but either way boy did he stare at me! for like, minutes straight because he has no self awareness. once we started talking he thought i was um..like, inspiring i guess. that sounds conceited but he just thought i was a cool ā€˜care-freeā€™ model of life! i thought umm..he was very tall and kind of intimidating! i felt bad because the other students shunned him for being involved with his mentor nd thought he could do with like, literally any social interaction. i thought he was really kind, despite being very straightforward w everything! OH and i thought it was admirable how focused on his passions he was
blooming flowers: what is your f/oā€™s favorite part of nature? do they even have one?
the ocean!!!! we went to the beach once and he went ape over how the moon looked reflecting over the water
four leaf clover: does your f/o have any good luck charms or superstitions? do you? do the two of you share any?
yusukes really superstitious actually! unlucky words/numbers and stuff like that. one time he broke a comb on accident and threw it across the room lmao. we both go absolutely ham and wont sleep w/ our heads to the north bc we dont feel like dying young
ocean breeze: have you and your f/o ever traveled together? what is your dream vacation?
hoyah! we dont travel because weā€™re both poor ass art students but we do go to the park a lot! theres some really pretty ones near the schools so weā€™ll go stare at geese and flowers n stuff! we talk a lot about traveling to spain bc sexy
lemonade stand: what is your f/oā€™s favorite beverage? and yours?
yusuke my mans rly likes lemonade but like when its kinda bitter? he doesnt like really sweet foods but lemonade and tea areĀ šŸ‘ŒšŸ‘Œ. i really like cola uwu
fireflies: how do you light up your f/oā€™s life?
hehHEHE U///U show that boy how to have fun!! let himself go and chill out sometimes!! heā€™s always so hard on himself and i help him remember that he doesnā€™t need to be so focused and stressed all the time anymore!! lov that guy
music festival: what is your favorite type of music? your f/oā€™s? any overlap between your favorite genres?
yusuke likes chill out music like classical and stuff because hes a NERD and it helps him focus on work! iā€™m a speedcore rat. we both like swing music because weā€™re gay
pumpkin latte: what is your guilty pleasure as a couple?Ā 
sometimes we drink juice out of the carton and put it back in the fridge because like who has time for cups..nasty nasty. also idk if this counts but weā€™ll take those stupid buzzfeed quizzes for like an hour and judge our results OH we stanĀ ā€˜accidetallyā€™ falling asleep in our day clothes bc we were too tired to change
costume shop: do you wear couplesā€™ halloween costumes? whatā€™s your favorite thing the two of you have ever gone as?
HELL YEAH WE DOOOOO yusuke was like dude remember that time i turned into a mouse can i dress up like a mouse and you dress up as a giant block of cheese and i was like (slaps the desk) absolutely babe
cozy sweater: how does your f/o make you feel secure and safe?
ahejegfahjkgehaheehaejh tall. hes vv straightforward to every1 so i know heā€™ll always have my back if someone does something to upset me! and heā€™s always like Bro You Are So Beautiful Dont Ever Say You Arent Bro I Love You Bro except he doesnt say bro ofc hes Fancy
bonfire: whatā€™s one thing your f/o has done to warm your heart?
ONE TIM OH one time he told me that i was one of the few ppl that never rly seemed like i judged him for not being very good at social stuff and that it made him want to talk to even more ppl and like get his childhood back and im :ā€) also one time he let me hide a stray cat in his dormKJF
ski slope: do you and your f/o play any sports or do any athletic activities together?
lol no we both have an iron deficiency we dont do anything about. we do like to play hand clappy games a lot tho he can beat my ass in slide
snowball fight: how do you and your f/o playfully tease each other?
HONESTLYFKJF we dont tease each other that much bc like. yusuke literally doesnt understand teasing most of the time and i cant bring myself to risk hurting his feelings! i jokingly made fun of his emo bang once and he was like What Is My Hair Bad Should I Get It Cut Do You Not Like It and i was like OH NOOOO!! he doesnt rly know how to tease either but its okay we just compliment each other a lot! no room for teasing in this house
gift wrap: whatā€™s the best present your f/o has ever given you? whatā€™s their favorite present theyā€™ve gotten from you?
OH MY GOSH eheh one time he gave me a winter coat and that sounds lame but it was the best thing to ever happen to me bc i had been talking for like 3 weeks abt how gosh darn cold it was and this poor fool bought me a whole coat!!! raaaaaa!! yusukes fave present i bought him would probably be okay this also sounds silly but a dvd player! he kept buying dvds that were interesting and then realizing that he couldnt watch them anywherejkhf
rosy cheeks: tell us about a time your f/o has made you blush!
hehHEHEEJH okay so at lunch we used to trade so that id give him like food and hed draw me something bc his foster dad be like (whips and dabs) financial abuse but anyway his sketches used to be like scenic stuff or still life or random stuff he happened to see outside while we ate but then one time he gave me a sketch of me!! and was like cause u looked rly nice today i had to draw it and BOYYY WHEN I SAY A BITCH WAS RED!!!!!!!
OKAYFKJF I WROTE WAY TOO MUCH THANK U SO MUCH LEGEND im in love with an anime boy
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hamilton-one-shots Ā· 6 years ago
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Hamilton High School AU 22
Alexander popped the phone onto a charger and waited for the screen to light up. When it did, he saw that the lock screen was Lafayette and a few old friends in front of the Eiffel Tower. He looked happy. At least, he looked substantially happier than the last time Alexander saw him. He sighed and added Lafayette's new number before texting him. [Laf: hey, its alex. marta gavme ur old phon. can we tak l8r? its imprtnt.] Then he switched to texting John. [John: hey, marta gav me lafs old phon 4 now.]
Both were headed back to class after lunch, though Lafayette was more nervous to respond. [Yes, of course, but it will have to wait a while. I have drama and we're talking to John after that.]
[I'm glad to hear that. I missed you. : )]
Alexander opened his laptop to work on something for the debate society, cringing as Lafayette's text tone rang through. 'Salut! New message, Monsieur! Meow!' Even Lafayette now would be annoyed by it. Ā [Laf: it ok. I jus wana tak. Hav fun in drama :)] He hoped he sounded friendly enough. The last thing he wanted to do was panic Lafayette. [John: i talked 2 marta a lot. I feel beter 4 it. Oh! Also took my meds] [...do u thnk Tomas gets angry spels?] [no, ignor tat. It's dum. Jus thinkin 2 much. Bored @ hoem.]
Lafayette was the first to respond with a simple [Thank you, I'll see you then.]
[I'm glad you feel better! Can't have my love feeling too bad ā¤] [I'm also proud of you for taking your meds ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½] It was mushy, but it was John. He was usually like that. At least he was with Alexander. When the second set of messages came through, he frowned a bit. [Jefferson's just a stupid bully. I've known that for a while now, you know.] [Don't let him get to you.]
Alexander sighed. He couldn't blame John for thinking that way after what he did to him. [sry, just didnt tink ne1 cud b tat much of n ass w/out reson]
[I see where you're coming from, but Jefferson isn't like you. He doesn't care.]
John had a point, but... It was worth a shot. He logged into Facebook and pulled up his messages with Jefferson. [dnt b men to laf in drama]
[Anything for you <3 xx]
[dnt do tat. im tryin to b sivil]
[You just wanted to message me, didn't you? ;) xx]
[no.]
[Why? Besides, I'm meant to be working, boo <3 xx]
[4get it] Alexander dropped back to his pillow with a huff, holding the phone to his chest. This wasn't going anywhere. [jus bored. Go bck 2 studyin]
[Yes sir <3 xx] Thomas chuckled and strode into class with Lafayette and Hercules, where Alexander usually joined them, and sat beside the pair. "Smile, Mulligan. You use less muscle."
"When you drop, I will." He shot back.
"Now, now, I've been given specific instructions to be nice to Laf. I plan on following them." Thomas grinned.
Lafayette shifted to be a bit closer to Herc. He didn't feel like starting a fight with Thomas that day and didn't want Hercules to feel he had to. "If you really wanted to be nice to me, you'd kindly fuck off." He smiled, speaking low enough so that the teacher wouldn't hear, but loud enough for Thomas to hear him clearly.
Thomas nodded. "As you wish." And he... actually left?
"What's up with that?" Hercules asked.
"I don't know.. Maybe we should just enjoy this while it lasts."
[Laf asked me to move and I did. That's being kind, right? šŸ˜‰ xx]
[i gess... thnx?].
[Don't mention it. See? I can be nice šŸ’— xx] Ā [What am I going to get in return? Or do I move back to sitting next to them? xx]
Alexander froze, feeling his heart jump wildly in his chest. [wat do u meen...?]
[I mean xx] [Either we start 'getting along' if you catch my drift, I'll play nice. I'll be nice to Laf, I'll be nice to Herc; hell, I'll even be nice to your Johnny šŸ’— xx] [We've just got to spend some time together, that's all xx] [Or I can go find John now. He's probably in the library, right? xx]
[nO] [dnt do that] [pls] He panicked, typing back quickly, biting his lip.
[Then let's hang out. Sit with me in lunch tomorrow when you're back. Then come to mine after school. I'll even drive us. OR I'll get John. xx]
Poor Alexander whimpered in panic. This wasn't what he wanted. Not in the least. [ok] He looked back to his conversation with John. [John, u cnt come ovr 2day. im 2 sick.]
John furrowed his eyebrows and took a break from drawing. [What? Are you sure? I asked Martha earlier and she said it'd be fine if I went over and visited you...] [And Lafayette asked me to come over, probably to talk about what they know.]
Crap, that was right. Alexander almost forgot. [sry, just havn an episod. frekd out fr a sec] He curled up and whimpered. He was scared... And he needed John now more than ever, but he wasn't going to let Thomas come near him, not after what he'd done to him. He had to take care of this himself. He switched back to Facebook. [tomas, im not sure about this...]
[So you'd rather me go back to sitting next to him and start something? Ooh, I know, I could tell him how hot he looks in skinnies šŸ˜‰ xx]
Alexander jumped up. [no dnt] [sorry jus] [pls dnt do nythin] [pls] [tomas?] [thomas] [anser] [o god] [dnt hve dne nything] [pls] [tomas!]
[Chill. Eacker was looking this way so I had to hide my phone xx] This was a lie. Thomas had waited a few minutes before responding purposefully to scare poor Alexander. [Good to hear you screaming my name tho xx]
[stop pls]
[How'd you manage to misspell my name when it's on the screen in front of you? šŸ˜œ xx]
[pannic]
[Aww... don't panic šŸ’— I'm gonna look after you, I promise xx] He looked over at Lafayette and Hercules and smiled.
Lafayette glared back at him. "I'm going to get to the bottom of this..."
"Please be carerful.." Hercules kissed his cheek.
After school, Lafayette took a chance and sat beside Thomas for drama. "Hello, Thomas."
Thomas raised an eyebrow at him. "Since when do you talk to me?"
"I just thought I could ask you for some advice. Do you have any tips for playing Veronica sawyer?"
This sparked his interest. "There's not much to it. She's a high school chick trying to fit in. Sort of a sassy girl next door."
"I see.." He nodded. "And I wanted to apologize for our prank last night. I remember how hard it was for John to have to raise his siblings."
"Forget about it. Lucy's a kid. These things happen." He pulled out his script. "So, are you okay with Dead Girl Walking? Because we're going to have to practice that scene at some point and I don't want it to be awkward when we do." As if he cared. He only had to be nice to Lafayette.
Laf couldn't help but shudder a bit ,though he was able to keep it to himself. "It's just acting. No harm done. I'm sure Herc won't mind."
Thomas nodded. "You're right. He shouldn't."
Before Lafayette could comment on what Jefferson was obviously trying to do, Eacker stumbled in, apologizing for being late once again before announcing their roles. Of course, Lafayette was Veronica Sawyer and Thomas Jefferson was Jason Dean.
"See? You know me. It won't be so bad."
Though, of course, it was the fact that Lafayette knew him that made it bad.
"What scene are you two talking about?" Eacker asked as he passed the pair.
"Dead Girl Walking. Just hoping it won't be too awkward."
Eacker smiled. "Well, nothing like breaking the ice."
Wait, what?
"We're all friends here. We were going to head on stage anyways to practice a few scenes. Why not this one?"
Oh, god, were they really doing this now? Lafayette stood up and took a deep breath before following everyone out to the auditorium. It's just acting.
Thomas was too busy texting to worry.
[i dnt like tis] [im scared] [pls dnt taek it owt on laf] [i jst dnt want 2 go hoem w/ u] [sorry sory sorry] [nything els, u got it] [jus dnt ruin drma 4 laf] [dnt go neer Jhon] [John*] [pls] [pls] [pls]
[No. We've got a deal, babe. I'll behave if you do as I say. Laf's acting now; y'sure you wanna go back on this nooooow? šŸ˜‰ xx]
[nO] [pls] [leev hm aloen] [il b good] [its fien] [il go w/ yu] [srry]
[Good choice šŸ’— xx]
Alexander changed the password on the phone to some complicated pattern before putting it down on the bed... then beginning to tremble. He hopped up from the bed before practically sprinting across to Lafayette's room and launching himself at John. Poor Rosie barely had time to leap out of the way. She hissed disapprovingly as she knocked her paw before returning to her basket as Alexander buried his face in John's chest, shaking like a leaf. He kept his arms wrapped around John's waist in the same vice like fashion he had before when he was scared John would leave him.
John didn't ask any questions. He didn't have to ask what happened. He had a good feeling. He texted Jefferson to confirm his beliefs. [What did you do to Alex? Leave him alone. If you're doing this to hurt me, just come after me instead. If you're not, come after me anyways. Leave him out.]
Thomas chuckled. How cute. But he couldn't respond yet. He got on stage with Lafayette and watched him act as the song began.
"The demon queen of high school has decreed it. She says Monday, 8 am I will be deleted. Theyā€™ll hunt me down in Study Hall, stuff and mount me on the wall. Thirty hours to live. How shall I spend them? I donā€™t have to stay and die like cattle. I could change my name and drive up to Seattle. But I donā€™t own a motorbike. Wait, hereā€™s an option that I like. Spend these thirty hours gettingā€™ freaky! Yeah! I need it hard, Iā€™m a dead girl walking! Iā€™m in your yard, Iā€™m a dead girl walking! Before they punch my clock, Iā€™m snappinā€™ off your window lock. Got no time to knock, Iā€™m a dead girl walking." As much as Lafayette dreaded the scene, he wasn't about to half ass it.
"V-veronica..? What are you doing in my room...?" It was... unclear if Thomas was acting or not. It was either excellent acting ability... or Lafayette had genuinely caught Thomas off guard and scared him half to death. Either way, it certainly fit the role.
"Shh!" Lafayette looked back at Thomas with a sultry expression, grabbing his shirt collar. "Sorry, but I really had to wake you. See, Iā€™ve decided I must ride you ā€˜till I break you ā€˜cause Heather says I gotsta go. Youā€™re my last meal on Death Row. Shut your mouth and lose them tighty whiteys! Come on! Tonight Iā€™m yours! Iā€™m your dead girl walking." He pushed him down to his knees, lost in the role. "Get on all fours, kiss this dead girl walking. Letā€™s go, you know the drill. Iā€™m hot, and pissed and I'm on the pill. Bow down to the will of a dead girl walking." He kneeled down and held his face. "And you know, you know, you know, itā€™s cause youā€™re beautiful. You say youā€™re numb inside but I canā€™t agree. So the worldā€™s not fair? Keep it locked out there. In here itā€™s beautiful! Letā€™s make this beautiful!"
"Shh!" Lafayette looked back at Thomas with a sultry expression, grabbing his shirt collar. "Sorry, but I really had to wake you. See, Iā€™ve decided I must ride you ā€˜till I break you ā€˜cause Heather says I gotsta go. Youā€™re my last meal on Death Row. Shut your mouth and lose them tighty whiteys! Come on! Tonight Iā€™m yours! Iā€™m your dead girl walking." He pushed him down to his knees, lost in the role.
Thomas felt his knees click as he dropped, but it was totally worth it. Lafayette looked an image of perfection and coupled with those lyrics... Thomas felt like he could take him there and then.
"Get on all fours, kiss this dead girl walking. Letā€™s go, you know the drill. Iā€™m hot, and pissed and on the pill. Bow down to the will of a dead girl walking." He knelt down and held his face.
It took all of Thomas' restraint not to go back on his 'deal' with Alexander. Whether or not getting in Lafayette's pants was his focus, he was undeniably gorgeous.
"And you know, you know, you know, itā€™s cause youā€™re beautiful. You say youā€™re numb inside but I canā€™t agree. So the worldā€™s not fair? Keep it locked out there. In here itā€™s beautiful! Letā€™s make this beautiful!"
"Th-that works for me!" He exasperated before yanking Lafayette into a kiss. It was rough and messy... but at least it fit the scene.
It was going to take the power of every god to wash that taste from Lafayette's mouth. It tasted like.. Like.. Jefferson. And he hated it. But he didn't act like it. He kissed back just as roughly because it wasn't Lafayette kissing Thomas, it was Veronica kissing JD. And it was too late to back out then, so he kissed back and continued the song afterwards. "Yeah! Full steam ahead! Take this dead girl walking!
"How'd you find my address?"
"Letā€™s break the bed! Rock this dead girl walking!"
"I think we tore my mattress!"
"No sleep tonight for you! Better chug that Mountain Dew!"
"Okay, okay.."
"Get your ass in gear! Make this whole town disappear!"
"Okay, Okay!"
"Slap me, pull my hair! Touch me there, there, and there!" Lafayette didn't know what was worse, the fact that Thomas' hands were all over him or the fact that he was the one guiding them. At least he got to slap him. "No more talking!"
"Woah!"
"Love this dead girl walking!"
"Woah, woah! Hey, hey! Yeah, yeah!"
"Love this dead girl walking!"
"Love this dead girl! Woah, woah! Hey, hey! Wait, wait!"
They finished out the song in sync. "Love this dead girl! Yeah, yeah, yeah!"
"Ouch!"
"YEAH!ā€
ā€œYEAH!"
As soon as the song was over, Lafayette got off of Thomas and caught his breath, smiling at the class a bit. He knew they did amazing. And he hated it.
Thomas looked like a mess. His hair was sticking up all directions and his face was glowing crimson. Thomas was no virgin, but he hadn't expected Lafayette to carry out the scene so well, or convincingly. He pulled himself to his feet, joining the applause for Lafayette and himself before offering a hand to help pull Lafayette up from the floor.
"See? You're both fine. Nothing to worry about." Eacker chirped with praise. "It helps when it's a friend there, right?"
"Right." Thomas piped back before returning back to his seat with Lafayette. "...so do I owe you a cigarette or...?" He laughed lightly, attempting to tidy his hair.
Lafayette rolled his eyes, holding his arms that much closer against his chest.
When class drew to a close, Thomas put his script back into his rucksack and swung it over his shoulder. "You're a great actor, Laf. Really. I mean that. I'll catch you tomorrow.," he complimented before waving him off and leaving the room, finally texting John back. [/I've/ done nothing. I haven't seen him today. Besides, he's /your/ boyfriend. You fix him xxx]
As Lafayette followed behind him, surrounded by his classmates, he felt conflicted. He loved acting, but it felt wrong doing that scene with Jefferson.
When Lafayette came out of the classroom, surrounded by various other drama members full of praise and compliments, Hercules bit his lip. This was something Lafayette was 1. Obviously passionate about and 2. Very good at. Hercules's jealousy would have to step aside. Instead, he greeted Lafayette with a supportive smile, pretending he hadn't just seen that scene. "Hey you! Someone's popular!" He hummed. "John headed back to yours early to see Alex. Are you ready to go?"
He nodded and faked a smile. "Yes. Let's go." He kissed his cheek and walked home with him.
When John and Alexander heard the pair arriving, the latter froze up a bit. Not only did they have the talk to do, but he hadn't gotten around to apologizing to Lafayette and he believed him to still be mad.
They entered the room and mumbled a few greetings before sitting down, even Rosie leaving the room as she sensed the tense atmosphere.
John was the first to break the silence.
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jvdehayward-blog Ā· 7 years ago
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ok so Hlo it is i the mystical n enigmatic nai, resident manic pixie dirt admin. i missed this judas fiend 2 mch n decided to bring him in bc i honestly jst have...no self control n thats! the tea! u know the drill below the cut is all u need to kno blabla hmu for plots
p.s. idk if this??? will even show bc i literally just made this blog like 10mins ago but smiles at u all anyway n flings it into the abyss
born in sheffield in england, bt they went back and forth between there n NY a lot. they had a place in brooklyn altho judeā€™s mum was a trust fund brat from manhattan so they visited there a lot too
jude was an unhappy accident. his parents never rly used protection bc they were super Liberal n Au Naturel n believed in the pull out method bcā€¦ they were maniacs. bt then the ONE time they used a condom in an effort to b safety conscious it broke n henceā€¦. jude was born
they just kind of ran w it bc they had such a passionate relationship tht they were like What The Hellā€¦. may as well! itll be fine weā€™ll learn to be good parents n love him like normal ppl do
spoiler alert: tht didnā€™t work out
they were ok to him like they werenā€™t abusive or anything like that bt they just found him to be a massive burden n hindrance to their plans
they literallyā€¦.. had sex all day every day n acted like a pair of teenagers. it ws a super weird environment for a kid to grow up in bc he literally had no role models orā€¦ guidance orā€¦. anything rly. occasionally theyā€™d joke around w him or pretend they even knew what grade he was going into but for the most part they just Didnā€™t Care one bit
they were both suuuuper into the arts. theyā€™re both rly good sculptors bt they paint too n they actually own a rly successful gallery in brooklyn. they just opened a second too so theyā€™re doin rly well where moneyā€™s concerned n his mum still has her trust fund too to fall back on
as a result he grew up around a lot of creative n pretentious ppl. the friends of his parents were more present in his life than his ACTUAL parents bc they were always jetting off to diff countries to scout out new pieces fr their galleries n just have a gd time in beautiful places withoutā€¦. the annoyance tht ws their son forcing them to b responsible n look after someone else. tbh some of them were rly damaging too btā€¦.i wonā€™t go into that just yet. it doesnā€™t rlyā€¦need properly explaining bc jude never talks abt it anyway n itā€¦.is rather triggering so iā€™ll jstā€¦.leav it for now tbh fgkhdfgh. basically they just were Not Nice n jude had a lot of bad memories he keeps repressed
bc of how he ws raised he has a p cultured taste. he luvs classic lit, especially kerouac, n p much anything artsy. he can play piano 2 n sometimes gets rly high n thinks heā€™s mozart level gd at composing. i mean heā€™s gd btā€¦ Calm Down Jude
ANYWAY he apped to van patten to do fine arts bc he hoped itd make his parents proud n he got in bc heā€™s rly talented bt they still??? frankly just didnā€™t care. heā€™s got some money from his grandparents now altho thts the extent of their presence in his life so heā€™s kind of well off w money altho he doesnt rly show off abt it or act like it. like he jst wears... flannel shirts n dr martens n doesnt exactly look the part. despite this tho heā€™s p popular bc heā€™s ur typical Pretty Boy n ppl like him for it as well as the fact heā€™s fun at parties bt he stil kind of tries to maintain his Lone Wolf aura
personality wise he acts out sometimes bc heā€™s so frustrated. he tried rly hard to be someone his parents wld care abt by doing wild or stupid things so heā€™d hav funny stories to tell them n tbh sometimes it works n he gets them to laugh w him but it isnā€™t a parent/son bond n it never rly wil b. heā€™s rly sarcastic/condescending, sleeps around a lot, has an overflowing secret sketchbook n if he cares abt someone heā€™ll probably draw them n get rly defensive if they find out abt it fkjgdhfkj bcos heā€™s an Independent Boy without a sentimental bone in his body. or so he says. heā€™s also p much summed up by tht one scene of michael cera in super bad when heā€™s rly drunk n heā€™s likeĀ ā€˜HEREā€™S TO... RESPECTING WOMEN!ā€™ n tries his best to b a gentleman altho sometimes if heā€™s pissed off i mean... he fails n is hideously rude
he has p bad insomnia so he like never sleeps fgjkhfgjkf he always has rly sleepy eyes n rubs them tiredly mid conversation. he smokes a lot of weed to try n compensate fr this n make him tired bt he still struggles a lot. he also has p bad depression so he kind of medicates that w weed too
ummMMMMmm honestly idk iā€™m blankin on what else to say. ull find him smoking weed reading an american classic or gnawing at his thumbnail n getting charcoal smudges along that Dramatic model jawline. heā€™s p broody n scruffy n heā€™s mostly here fr a good time. o and heā€™s That Guy that would die fr morrissey and all that stone roses the smiths etc stuff music wise. HMU FR PLOTS!!!!!! iā€™m down fr anything
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jrbalufbfnzl Ā· 4 years ago
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20.01.19
Smoking in the morning is deadass the death of me. I want to quit so bad for motivation,health and money and also bc i don't want to be addicted to anythibt bc it sucks and i want my creativity back (as if i ever had some ) but overall im just utterly unhappy and lowkey anxious all the time. I also want to stop eating and take pills to sleep all day for it to be painless but i have to ttzke care of my son and my daughter its really hard to be in the middle of smth rlly healthy abd hezling and having all the demons glazing on the other side. I mean i have erything i wabt and need (nice house,two d
of my fav dog breeds,designer shoes i always wanted,all the music instruments i ever wanted, a fire ass computer and i worked my ass off for all that. I swear ill get to work when all my paint stash will be dried n expired. I quit hard drugs a year ago n stopped taking pills to have fun or numb out the pain since months idk how many exactly cuz im actually kind of scared of suffering while i die n shit or havr my brain permabebtly damaged. I have so many projects i cant get my mind to do,i dobt have aby motivation although i actuallu trust in my projects. Except from smokibg thered nothing i can turn into a routine, not even starving or feeding n walking my two children. I lost 1kg and put them back on in a two week spawn i dont have anu motivztion to workout, i canna cut my legs off. Its bot uch but its a lot to me sincr i was 3kg away from my goal wright so thats 1/3rd of the rozd. I relapsed w self harm like a month ago,it was pretty bad but i known worse. Idk what to di w my life and my bf but im focusing on ly life and if he leaves my ass its ok he wasbt the one and its one problem less, ion have any strenght to fight for him i can only passively stay bc i just dont feel like i have anh value to him. But he told me he thought i was pretty this morning and i will journal evrry sweet momebts and compliments to feel safe again. Ion wannz seek for jis validatiob that much but its painful to be w someone n thinking they dont value u or even think youre pretty. Even tho know i hav a bad relationship w my appearence and looks in general. The first toll on my self esteem and when things started to go downhill wzs a yezr ago. We had grrat moments since of course but nothong substancial compared to our first months i think ? I least secually because i was never happy, not even once, xith my body since a yezr. It weighs hevzy. I want to go back to ballet classes so bad aswl. I hate this pandemic for the first time and its not making me bend towards resistznce, i comply and isolate and im just looking around thibkine damn son. V first world problem ik. I have no onr to talk to in the sense of i dont really wanna complain bc thats all ill do. The brain fog thibgy is pretty bad eveb tho ik i recovered parts of my ability to read b focus znd stuff but smoking is bringing me down again i soent so much time fighting the fatigue when i couldve solve things. But anxiety is a bitch so i guess i have to deal with it as well. im grateful that i have a new shrink n a good one even tho it costs money. I have an appoibyment this evening to talk ab surgery to my psychiatrist and well see what she thinks of it bc i wont be able to change her after i comed cleab but well see, if its a hard no im paying for that mf straight up and ill see later for my tooth ? Idk. cant borrow money to this friend no more because im not in good terms w him bc of my bf n im afraid to work bc im afraid thzt he hurts me bc hes bummed about it. Im afraid of vengence where i wish he would aprove,empower me to do it, come w me to protect me and pick me up when im done. Ik its a lot to ask and thts why im even more grateful for my best friends support.
My bfs mom is coming over n i cannot stznd her toxic ass so im staying in bed pretending to sleep. Ik itd disrespectful but i dont rrally care at that point. I feel dead and empty.
I have an unpaid comission work to fo n i have 0 willpower and focus even tho the elements of composition n the composition itself for the drawing are laid down already. First shitty draft was 90% i approved i just dont have aby energy to focus and make it good. Ill to it anyway bc rhe deadlines in a few days.
I hate the phone and how long i spend staring at it
My nails are soft i cant scratch i hate it aswl
Went to sleep woke up m gna sleep again til my appt w the shrink
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skulltula Ā· 7 years ago
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psst answer all those unusual asks!!
so,, man y omg
started 12:24 am
Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? spotify!
is your room messy or clean?answered!
what color are your eyes?brown!
do you like your name? why?ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ i am neutral
what is your relationship status? dating @dreamui!
describe your personality in 3 words or lessanswered!
what color hair do you have?black!
what kind of car do you drive? color?i c an t drive
where do you shop?uhh mostly forever 21 and i used to shop @ wet seal until it died
how would you describe your style?i have no idea tbh,, grunge sometimes and jus kind of whatevers trendy other times
favorite social media accountanswered!
what size bed do you have? queen!
any siblings?8!
if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why?uhh tbh just austin would be nice?? id rlly like to just live in austin it seems like a really good city especially for the south
favorite snapchat filter? dog filter šŸ¶
favorite makeup brand(s)i like colourpop! i only rlly wear highlighter tho?? fenty beauty seems rlly gr8 too ofc thank u rihanna
how many times a week do you shower?i bathe with olive oil and a strigil like the ancient greeks sucker
favorite tv show?cxgf!! or jtv
shoe size?7.5
how tall are you?5ā€²4ā€³ish
sandals or sneakers? sneakers!
do you go to the gym?lmao no
describe your dream dateanywhere w my bb! i really like just going to places like the mall and walking around tbh but ofc restaurant dates r nice?? im not as romantic as id like to b rip
how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment?5 dollars
what color socks are you wearing? white!
how many pillows do you sleep with?none i dont like pillows
do you have a job? what do you do? [looks out the window]
how many friends do you have? uhhh around 15
[this ones too negative]
whats your favorite candle scent? anything vanilla tbh!
3 favorite boy namesorion, adante, troy
3 favorite girl namesquinn, zuri, cherry
favorite actor? ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ
favorite actress? zendaya!!
who is your celebrity crush?zendaya!!!! or arian grande
favorite movie? answered!
do you read a lot? whats your favorite book?n,,, i dont read a lot i dont have the attention span
money or brains? brains bc i can jus,, get money if i make some life changing shit
do you have a nickname? what is it? daizy Ā°Ė– āœ§ā—(ā—‹ 惮 ā—‹)ā—œāœ§Ė– Ā°
how many times have you been to the hospital?i dont keep count tbh!! its not that many tho
top 10 favorite songshoney - kehlaniwait a minute! - willowthe other side of paradise - glass animalsbad decisions - ariana grandeperfect places - lordegravel to tempo - hayley kiyokoveggies - aminewild thoughts - dj kahled but lets be real rihanna owns the ssex - the 1975team - babeo baggins
do you take any medications daily? yyyy i should but its jus for stomach stuff so its not a Big Concern
what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc)dry-average
what is your biggest fear?ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ
how many kids do you want? 1 to 2
whats your go to hair style?short and manageable
what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) small
who is your role model? ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ
what was the last compliment you received?@dreamui gave me a lot in the ask thing she got today!! ////
what was the last text you sent?ā€œhorrifiedā€œ
how old were you when you found out santa wasnā€™t real?i always knew bc my mama didnt want me thinking a white man was giving me presents when it was her
what is your dream car? i,, dont know
opinion on smoking?i dont like ppl tht smoke cigarettes?? at least not the ppl tht smoke them in public non-smoking spaces or get mad when ppl r upset they have to breathe their fuckign shit air bu t ppl tht jus smoke weed r chill but i assume this was abt cigarettes
do you go to college? going to eventually ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ
what is your dream job? elementary school teacher!
would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? suburbs!
do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? hm i havent been to a hotel since i w as like,, 7?? but i dont think i have and idk if i would! ik some hotels r chill w it tho
do you have freckles? nahhh i dont
do you smile for pictures?i try to!!
how many pictures do you have on your phone? 430
have you ever peed in the woods? ye s it was a p mundane experience
do you still watch cartoons? yeah for sure!
do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendyā€™s or McDonalds?crie s i love them both
Favorite dipping sauce? hmm i think maybe honey mustard
what do you wear to bed? whatever stuff i threw on after showering
have you ever won a spelling bee?na h i never entered i was too anxious
what are your hobbies?drawing, playing the sims, making ocs, writing vns that i never finish, cooking, gardening
can you draw? yeah!!
do you play an instrument?yeah! ukulele a little
what was the last concert you saw? uhhh oh god idk if ive been to a real one
tea or coffee?answered!
Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts?starbucks
do you want to get married?yes!! i do for sure
what is your crushā€™s first and last initial?cl
are you going to change your last name when you get married? yeah probably!
what color looks best on you? yellow i think?
do you miss anyone right now? yes my gf!! 怂悜悜(Ā“ļ¼Æ`) 悜悜怂
do you sleep with your door open or closed?open usually bc my mom used to never let us close doors ĀÆ\_(惄)_/ĀÆ
do you believe in ghosts?mild belief i hav mild ghost belief
what is your biggest pet peeve? oh god i dont even know???
last person you called@dreamui!!
favorite ice cream flavor? strawberry rn!
regular oreos or golden oreos? golden oreos
chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? rainbow!
what shirt are you wearing? this fuzzy blue pajama hoodie w bear ears tht i got for christmas
what is your phone background?lil pineapple guy
are you outgoing or shy?shyyy but im good at pretending to b outgoing
do you like it when people play with your hair?n o unless its my gf
do you like your neighbors? i like the gays that live above me
do you wash your face? at night? in the morning?i dooo, in the morning.
have you ever been high? nope!
have you ever been drunk? nah!
last thing you ate? fried rice & chicken
favorite lyrics right nowā€œi like my girls just like i like my honey; sweet, a little selfish.ā€
summer or winter? winter in tx is always better
day or night? day!
dark, milk, or white chocolate?dark!
favorite month? mayyyy
what is your zodiac signtaurus
who was the last person you cried in front of? @dreamui probably!
finished @ 1:17 am to b fair i zoned out a lot
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