#i do get that this is a hyperspecific little experience i have. but i really do think people unconsiously(?) draw from the tone of quacks +

[hexjulia]

i think i might be willing to pay money never to have to hear the word "nourishing" when someone is describing art again. that's a word for soup. unless the art in question is edible but imo only if i'm allowed to eat it and it's filling

[toxintouch]

Hyperspecific Leander Fluff Headcanons:

sleepy time themed bc I am supposed to be asleep

[They pronouns used.]

He loves to bring his partner breakfast in bed. It honestly might be more for him than for them; he loves it that much.

It's not an every morning thing. (Unless??) There's an element of surprise to it - he will sneak away at some unholy hour of the morning to prepare/obtain everything.

He knows all the best hidden delicacies and can always miraculously get something prepared at odd times of the night/morning. He's just a nice, normal guy doing his part to support his local economy! :)

(He'd be more keen on making breakfast (or other meals) himself if he's cooking with his partner. He'd enjoy the domesticity of helping them cook/bake if that's their hobby, or would love learning alongside them if they showed an interest.)

Breakfast in bed tends to happen more often if he was taking care of Bloodhound business all night and didn't get to sleep ("sleep" - does he ever even sleep?) next to them.

Loves being the one to wake them up in general, even if it's not a breakfast in bed type of morning. :)

Getting to see them all sleepy and unguarded and adorable is priceless for him.

Secretly loves it even more if they are slow to wake or grouchy first thing in the morning because that means he gets to dote on them and/or gently coax them awake with cuddles and kisses all over their face.

(If they are really grouchy: 🥺🥺 Is there anything he could offer that might make them more happy to wake up? 🥺🥺 😏)

On that note, he is completely unfazed by morning breath. It simply doesn't exist to him. They don't want to kiss him because of morning breath?? Invalid argument, he doesn't even know what that is.

(He's a morning person. Also a night owl. Also very active in the afternoon. Seriously, does he ever sleep?)

Even if he's staying up whereas they're going to bed, he always walks them to their room. Will excuse himself from whatever he is talking about with his Bloodhounds just to kiss them goodnight.

If he was away and thus didn't escort them to bed and wish them goodnight himself, he'll ask around regarding when they were seen heading to sleep. That way, he knows when is a good time to wake them up! He can't have them undersleeping, after all. (Man's a hypocrite.)

(Or, if they wake up at the same time every day, he'll adjust his schedule to accommodate.)

Crowds his parter when they are doing their nighttime routine. Always trying to hug them around the waist when they are brushing their teeth, etc. They come up from rinsing their facewash off and he's there behind them like a jumpscare.

Endless chatter while they get ready for bed unless they can quiet him down with some form of affection. Chatter will continue as he tucks them in.

Except... as their relationship progresses, he'll stick around on nights where he's feeling more burnt out needy quiet. He'll go in for an embrace and not let go... then transition into a gentle sway. The two of them end up doing a kind of mindless slow dance, if they allow it. Mentally, he's worn out but physically he's still restless. Hopefully they'll indulge him for a while?

Absolute worst at telling bedtime stories. He's too much of a showman. He'll turn the shortest little fable into a sprawling epic. Will act out the parts like he's in a play and/or make tiny magic illusions. It will be an hour(s) long affair. Worse, they won't even notice time passing because he's such a compelling storyteller. Always manages to put a fresh spin on the tale in question.

Has a great reading voice to fall asleep to. But even when he's supposed to be reading off the page, he editorializes, changes the story where he doesn't like the source material -- more often, changes the story to cater to their tastes specifically -- , finds ways to add in anecdotes about random things/people, bring up shared experiences and inside jokes...

If his partner starts playing with his hair, he'll stumble over his words. Every. Time. If they keep at it, he'll quiet down and just enjoy being in the moment for a while.

You'd think he would want to be the little spoon, but nope. Big spoon so he can smother hold them to his heart's content. ❤️

Okay, maybe sometimes he'll be the little spoon. More specifically, he'll quite happily be the little spoon while they are awake - he loves having their attention - but as soon as they are asleep, he swaps to be the big spoon. He likes the feeling of protecting them while they are asleep. :)

He's impossibly good at removing himself from the bed without waking his partner. Doesn't matter how entangled the two of them were, he manages it.

[desceros]

Y'kno. Leo could have taken that little secret to the grave. Woulda sucked to live with it and he'd have deserved some inner turmoil for treating some random chick like dirt. Yet V was naive, trusting and loving enough to let it go if he'd never had brought it up.

But no, he had to clear his guilt. Unburden himself. Dump that shit on her.

And fuck, he's so used to her giving he was probably half-expecting forgiveness for it.

Gotamn, V can't catch a break. One one hand you got a guy you thought you were BFFs with who

a) hated you

b) used you as an emotional crutch for his whole family

and

c) couldn't even shut up about it to spare you the extra heartbreak after literally EVERYTHING ELSE.

And another guy who you thought was as into you as you were into him because he apparently can't communicate about feelings since he's shut himself out from that part of life and you gotta use hyperspecific, robotic wording to not get your heart broken again like you're signing a contract with some fucked up version of the fae.

None of them are putting in the work to mend any of their personal shit and you're the giving type that gets easily taken advantage of, even unintentionally.

Honestly, neither of them are shitting rainbows to be worth all the effort you gotta put in their asses for any semblance of a functional friendship/situationship.

Also

"You weren't part of the family."

U kno what, he can keep it. They're the only people who'll be able to stand him at this rate.

so i addressed the first part of this in another ask re: ableism here but i'll briefly summarize things here.

leo didn't tell viola-chan what was bothering him because he wanted to "clear his guilt" or "unburden himself. dump that shit on her." he told her because she has made it repeatedly clear that she values honesty. i imagine he would have never told her... but keeping a secret felt like a betrayal. so when she asked, he told her. even though he knew it would hurt and change everything.

With a sigh, you fold your arms, then look at him. “What does this have to do with what you wanted to talk about, anyway?” “Everything,” Leo says, looking at you with a heavy stare. “Because… I have a confession to make. One that’s… that’s going to change how we are. One I really don’t want to make, but it’s—it’s eating me alive. And I don’t think I can continue being friends without telling you.”

that said. i'm not defending his actions. this is abominable behavior. but it's not selfish. not this time.

as for donnie. i'm going to take some righteous issue with how you're saying this. i've spoken before about ableism that's cropping up around this fic, but so far it's been pretty. hm. things i can brush off. but this, i feel, really crosses a line for me.

your framing of an autistic person needing someone to "use hyperspecific, robotic wording to not get your heart broken again like you're signing a contract with some fucked up version of the fae" is ringing quite poorly in my ears.

as an autistic person myself who has specifically made requests to my own loved ones that this is the exact kind of language i need to have smooth relationships, i don't appreciate your wording.

in symphony, donnie doesn't use the label 'autistic'. but he is. and he doesn't come up to you and say 'hey can i please have his kind of language used with me.' because he hasn't had to do that before. everyone around him has had his entire life to adapt to his needs. but viola-chan hasn't, hence why they have friction and misunderstandings. a large part of this story is the two of them learning to communicate. and part of that, i am sorry to tell you, is that autistic people often need language that can come across as "robotic" and "hyperspecific". so i'm going to ask you to deal with it, or perhaps look for a different fic. i'm not going to change that interpretation of things, because it comes from my own experiences as an autistic person.

lastly, you say "none of them are putting in the work to mend any of their personal shit" and that just?? isn't true??? this is literally just poor reading comprehension. an inability to look past the limited point of view of the protagonist. the entire first arc of this fic (ch. 1-11) is donnie stretching out of his comfort zone to tackle this serious problem he has. the second arc (12-20) is him pushing past things he's never done before so he can heal and touch his brothers again. leo comes to you and tells you about his issues with his sleep, where they come from, and lets you help him. not to mention mikey and raph, whom i assume you're leaving out of this ask since you haven't mentioned them. draxum even mentions, specifically, that viola-chan's presence is making them change. and the way he says it is very specific.

“Blue has been much more lively since you came around, and Donatello is much less crabby. Michael was also telling me you gave him some good exercises for his wrist. I was impressed. I’ve been meaning to ask you to work with Red as well on his trauma response since you seem to have a knack for it.”

work with. not on. i know i'm subtle, but come on.

anyway. this got quite long, but i'm not going to put it under a cut because i want these things to be open and visible. i've had a couple people say some somewhat similar things about donnie's part in this and i'm. getting kind of tired of it lmao. but thank you for reading, and i do appreciate you taking the time to send in your thoughts!!

[wazzappp]

First bit of graphic design I've done in a year and its a fake logo for a hyperspecific AU... don't know how I didn't see that coming honestly.

Ok lets talk about why I went with 'Ghost Fighters' outside of the obvious name pun.

The main enemies the boys face would be ghosts. They are composed entirely of the suffering of people who have passed. The few memories that they have are of their worst experiences, but for the most part they just kind of exist as memories of suffering. Generally these spirits move on after a day or two, but if there is a specific strong attachment to a place or person or trauma sometimes they stick around longer. Someone who was murdered would probably not stick around as long as someone who died of old age.

The general appearance is of an emaciated figure with very few features. They usually have 'ribbons' that extend out of the backs of their heads, the ends of these are sharp and used for fighting. The elongated arms and sharpened two fingered hands with a thumb are also used for slashing.

Ghosts seek out similar suffering in their area. They cant move more than 1/2 mile away from where they died, which gives them a bit of room to roam, but if you live in a place where theres a high concentration of murder they have a higher chance of running into each other.

If they DO. It gets BAD and it gets bad FAST. Ghosts can merge together and so your'e dealing with double the ribbons and double the claws. Their roaming spaces merge which mean that they can find more ghosts to merge with. There isn't really a limit on how many ghosts can merge together. When things like natural disasters happen, you can get large ghost conglomerates and FAST.

It is very rare but sometimes the ghosts will haunt people. People who stay in one space the majority of the time are stuck in the same haunting area as a ghost. All they have to do is temporary move away until either a Ghost Fighter destroys the ghost or it dissipates on its own. If they do end up being possessed you essentially have a ghost in free roam. There really isn't bringing someone back from that.

Generally people cant see ghosts. Ghost Fighters can, of course, but there are also very rare 'psychics' who can see ghosts. Most people cant see them until they start to conglomerate in numbers of 20 or 30. By then it is a VERY large ghost mass and needs to be dealt with. The effects of the ghost can be seen (claw marks in cement, dents where they've been thrown into walls) but generally they go un-noticed by the population.

ALRIGHT. RANDOM FUN DOODLES ASIDE lets talk Ghost Fighter physiology. (it is so so important to me that Roxanne has No Chill whatsoever. SO. IMPORTANT.)

All Ghost Fighters have 'nail polish' with their corresponding color. It used to help them identify each other, but after the rise of nail polish its uhhhhh. not very effective. It's really not nail polish though, thats just the color of the nail now :)

Connection Gems rest on the chest and are embedded into flesh. They allow a Familiar to channel magic through their person! Familiars are a lot like the 'paper flamethrower' metaphor. Lots of power, but unable to use it without destroying themselves. Ghost Fighters allow them a way to express their magic.

EYES. You already know what the fuck it is bro. I don't need to explain myself here yall know me by now but fuck it imma try and find a way to reason it out anyway. Humans aren't really built to contain so much magic, so it shows through in little ways, like shining out of their eyes just a lil bit.

Speaking of which, Ghost Fighters are a little uh. Weird. You know the whole thing with elves? Where they look almost too pretty and the longer you look the stranger it gets? They have that going on. Their hair is always settled just right, their skin is dewy and almost shiny, the light always hits their eyes JUST right. Even bedheads still manage to looks planned and perfect.

SO. When you get a guy like Robbie? Whose attractive to start with but scowls all the time? When he finally DOES smile? Holy Shit. Nobody is prepared for it. Nuclear levels of pretty. Almost hurts to look at. 100 Billion enraptured 30,000 gay / bi awakening.

More stuff about familiars (Eli in particular. Need to think harder about his specific weirdness), transformation sequences, ultimate attacks, and interpersonal relationships on the way. I just. NEEDED. To get what I have so far out there dude. Brain too full. Door stuck. DOOR STUC K.

[uriekukistan]

14, 24, and 28 for the writer ask? :>

hiii el, thank u for the ask and i hope you're well :D

14. how do you write emotional scenes? Do you ever feel what the characters feel? Do you draw from personal experiences?

usually i write from personal experience! actually, almost entirely. writing is a way that i vent how im feeling in that moment. some fics/chapters are just. entirely me processing things that are going on in my life. so that's mostly where all that comes from

not that my life is like. one big angstfest its just that it's easier to express positive emotions than negative ones, at least for me

24. Worst writing advice anyone ever gave you?

this is just my personal least favorite writing advice and i think i say it once every 7-10 business days, but i hate when ppl tell writers not to use the word "said" and then give u a list of 17905894356 synonyms. like it just sounds unnatural sometimes. i feel like i wrote way too much awkward dialogue when i was younger bc i was using these hyperspecific words that just didnt fit.

28. On average, how much writing do you get done in a day?

right now i have more free time than i usually would, so i usually end up writing abt 1.5k across all my wips...but then sometimes things happen and im tired so i dont write that much, or i get really inspired and write 4k for one wip in a day (me yesterday w the beach au)...i try to write a little every day tho (probably will change when im back to full time university)

thank u again for the ask !!

[fandomfluffandfuck]

Your writing turns me on endlessly, it feels so raw and lived in… What fic(s) of yours do you feel is closest to your actual sexual experiences?

Thanks!! I'm honored to hear that

And this is a really fucking great question but I don't know if I have a great answer, lmao.

Immediately, though, I thought of these two ask answers that relate to describing what having a dick feels like just because, I don't know, there's less focus in my writing on the concept of having a dick and what being aroused with one feels like, it's much more about horny atmosphere that isn't so specific, y'know? Meanwhile, these asks are hyperspecific to an exact sensation.

1) About Steve describing what being erect feels like to a chemically castrated Bucky

2) Less about characters and more, just, describing what arousal feels like with a dick

As far as actual fics... maybe any of the ones in my series

"You Can('t) Teach An Old Dog New Tricks"

Not necessarily because of the characters, I was not trained to dom by an older dom subbing for me, for example, but I wrote that fic to be a little more realistic generally. Historocally realistic, yes, of course, that's a critical part of the series. But also, in my life, the majority of my sexual partners have been friends. I take to casual relationships and sex better than love. I think somewhere in my particular queerness there's a piece of the aromantic spectrum--maybe even asexual spectrum--and as a result, I don't fall in love or into crushes easily. My favorite thing about sex isn't traditional sex. I like kinks. I like power dynamics. I like domming (I am a switch, but I generally prefer domming to subbing). I like getting my partners off more than I like being touched myself, which sounds braggy or untrue, but it's not. It's just how I've been since I started having sex. Bucky in that fic experiences some of that--the rush of domming and getting more caught up in his partner than in his own pleasure. Sure, he takes his own pleasure, but there's a lot of focus in that fic on domspace.

Huh.

Y'know, maybe that's why those fics stick out to me as more representative of my experience specifically--there's a lot of descriptions of domspace in that series whereas otherwise I don't write from the dom's perspective a lot. I experience domspace myself. And, from the small handful of times that I've subbed, I don't experience subspace. At least, I don't experience subspace to the same depth as domspace. So, Bucky's discovery of domspace and diving into the pleasure of driving his sub wild reflects to me as something especially true to me.

Also, I mean, that series has a shotgun blast of kinks in it, so, of course, it covers more ground as far as kinks I've participated in in real life than other fics.

Hopefully, that answers your question, lol, I'm not convinced I didn't just ramble on aimlessly 💀💀

[rosykims]

how do you come up with your character backstories? they're all so detailed and well thought out and you always seem to have an abundance of fun and interesting trivia for all your characters as well. would you be willing to give tips to someone who has a hard time coming up with anything beyond like. the basics lol 😔👉👈

WAH THANK YOU FOR SENDING THIS 🥺 i always feel a little embarrassed talking abt my ocs because i tend to start and never stop lol, and theyre all very special to me so its a sort of vulnerable extension of myself in a way. even if im only sharing with them with the lovely ppl who live in my phone its always a little stressful, so i really appreciate that they left a good impression!!

as for tips, i just wanna say as a disclaimer that i am very chronically online. ive also had multiple periods of extended free time in which ive been able to really hyperfocus on certain media and the characters i want to create within them. ALSO, a lot of my ocs ive had in development for several years and theyve just evolved naturally. ashara, for example, i made when i was 19, and im 26 now lol. ik this is cliche to hear, but i rly do think its important to go at your own pace when developing characters and do whatever makes YOU happy, before looking to anybody elses ocs , because we all have different lifestyles and creative processes and whatnot ❤️

that being said, i can def share a few things that helped me! firstly, i always start developing characters based solely on vibes and sensory stimuli, so i'd highly recommend making a pinterest moodboard for them and/or a music playlist! pinterest esp, since its such a great way to start brainstorming and getting a visual idea of what you want your character to look like/embody/represent. its a great place for inspiration in general.

secondly, one of the most important steps in developing any character is motivation. what does your oc WANT? why? what would they do to get it? should they get it? would would happen if they got it vs if they didnt? do they ACTUALLY want it or just think they do? answer those questions and you've already got a pretty solid foundation to work with. another really useful piece of advice a friend gave me several years ago was this: "what is something your character believes in at the start of their journey, that they no longer believe by the end of it?" for example, my warden oc elspeth believes in traditional heroics and black-and-white morality. by the end of dao she does not. theres a LOT to explore between point A and point B.

lastly, when i make ocs its very important to me personally that they feel inextricably TIED to the media they belong to. this is completely optional ofc, bc lots of people enjoy characters they can drag and drop into different stories, which is fine! for me though, i like taking cues from the world around them. it makes them feel natural to the plot, the setting, the canon characters, etc, because it helps me pin down some of their more hyperspecific quirks. there are a few ways to go about this.

the easiest way imo is to look at any major Core Issues within whatever media you're working with. like real life, people have OPINIONS about ISSUES and POLITICS lol, and those opinions are usually influenced by their own lived experience or personal belief system. so if you can identify a few key figures, factions or events in your story, and give your character an Opinion or Reaction to those things, it can pretty naturally be evolved into a unique and interesting backstory. to use elspeth as an example again: "elspeth dislikes orlais". thats a political opinion about a faction. and then to expand on why? "because her family/country fought in the occupation and she loves her family/country". from there we learn she's nationalistic and places value of lineage. then you could say — "she enjoys history and geography because it allows her to better appreciate her country. she cares deeply about all ferelden peoples, and has studied techniques from avaar and chasind communities". and you can keep branching out and expanding from there. and once you've exhausted that thread, move on to a diff one! "elspeth is nervous around mages". why? "because her religion tells her to and shes never thought to question it." why? etc etc etc.

alternatively, i find it really helpful to find an overlining theme in the type of media im working with/creating. sometimes its easy (baldurs gate 3 has a confirmed theme of autonomy vs authority, da4 will have a confirmed theme of regret, etc) but if its not as clear cut or your designing your own original world, its fine and great to take your own creative interpretation of things and run with it. for example, origins for me is very reminiscent of loss of innocence and war. inquisition is, to me, about personhood and losing it to your own mythology. once you've got a theme it can really help help translate into a cohesive story you want to tell and a character you want as an outlet. and since the character will be thematiclly relevant, you might also find it easier for them to connect to the cast/setting/story etc.

sorry this is so long, but i hope you gained something out of all this word salad lmao. one more thing i want to mention — its also fine to NOT do any of this. sometimes i get overwhelmed feeling like i have to come up with a unique/multi-faceted character every time i go into characterization, and virtually 100% of the time its Never that deep. if you find yourself getting stressed or overwhelmed, remind yourself that its perfectly fine to dream up a simple and straightforward character who makes you happy, and let the rest come to you as your character goes forth into the story. sometimes simplicity is best because you arent held down by the restrictions you've placed on them yet.

sending love, i hope this helped !!!!!! if you have any more questions or just want to chat, feel free to send another ask or slide into my dms ! ❤️❤️❤️

[youareinlove]

I look in people’s windows is a devastating song

i think a lot about how emotional pain is like, so isolating, because with physical pain you can explain how it feels to other people or have a shared experience that others can relate to but with emotional pain it's so hyperspecific that even if other people try to understand they sometimes just can't, or you feel like no one really does. it can feel so lonely to feel like you're the only person in the world who feels the way you do in that moment, which is made worse by things like loss and heartbreak and infinitely worse when everyone in your life is at a different stage than you (single and hanging out, getting married and having kids, etc. and you're in the in between stage). like literally "my friends all smell like weed or little babies." and she just describes that sentiment so well with ilipw with how it feels like you're on the outside of life a little bit

[whatudottu]

Given how the original Season 4 pitch document detailed an episode exploring an alternate universe where Optimus became techno-organic and Elita-1 leads Team Prime, part of me wonders what BETC!Blitzwing’s dynamic would be like with a Techno-Organic!Optimus or a hypothetical Techo-Organic!Sentinel.

On one hand, all three of them would still share the whole “one-of-a-kind model changed against their will” and “lost the two ‘bots closest to them” aspects that Blitzwing would definitely sympathize with, but on the other hand, Optimus and Sentinel have different personalities than Elita and would most likely make different choices than her, with that most likely extending to their potential dynamic with Blitz.

It seems I've written a bit, so I'll just shove this ask under a readmore for ease of scrolling by-

Given what we do see of canon Optimus and Sentinel, even though shoving either of them into the 'become techno-organic' situation is hyperspecific, there's like a little snippet of how they might hypothetically act like. Something something, the way that Optimus to the modern day is afraid of spiders, yada yada how he's got both a hero complex and kind of self-sacrificing, TO!Optimus would probably be so horrified of his own body but would hide it under layers and layers of 'well, i got my friends out' and potentially even 'they wouldn't come rescue me if they knew what i became'. He might only become a Decepticon by obligation because surely being the leader of their little recruit team, Optimus would not be judged kindly for being even partially organic and that may have an impact on whether or not BETC!Blitz can even begin to get friendly with the ex-Autobot. Again this is a hypothetical I could be wrong about this, but TO!OP would be perhaps a smidge bit pitiful, a dash of mournful for what had been, and probably already either catastrophised or legitmised his abandonment/assumed death as 'being 100% necessary' for removing a faulty cog from the machine.

But looking at Sentinel's reaction to organic lifeforms, especially generalised to ANY organic lifeform, if he had found himself getting techno-organic he would probably be immensely self-loathing to the point of being as physically sick a bot can get... which might be a little bit more than a purely biomechanical cybertonian can ever be. Blackarachnia may self-loath, but she had the spurring of revenge to do something about it and perhaps as part of her Autobot studies as Elita-1 might've put more effort into the sciences to 'reverse the irreversible'. Sentinel doesn't much have that, all he had was the Autobot dream, the approval of the Autobot Elite and the Magnus himself, and indeed the very friends that failed to save him (those that failed to understand that Sentinel had indeed lived). I think in comparison to other bots TO!Sentinel would maybe be at the lowest scale of acceptance and would probably be generally just overwhelmed by anything and everything to do with his new body and perhaps the Decepticons he had to rely on, and BETC!Blitz may indeed relate to the foreign sensation (and the ensuing sickness and dyphoria associated) of a new significantly changed body, but perhaps it's the Autobot propaganda that seems to have really attached itself to Sentinel more so than either of his old, scarred memories of his fellows.

So I guess in summation, TO!Optimus would probably be just a little miserable but mask it under 'being a hero' for sacrificing a moldy cog to save significantly more well off Autobots, which Blitzwing may not much interact with until Optimus slips and the fear of himself is truly revealed, and TO!Sentinel would kinda be both an open book on how much trauma his body causes but also equally as loud as an Autobot propaganda holovid, which is generally hard for Blitzwing to approach at ALL because damn BETC!Blitz was an Autobot experiment and highly hates them for what they had done to the body and how it affected the body's mind. Elita-1 would've met in the middle of the to potentially, and Blackarachnia didn't speak much about who she was beyond a in quotes that don't exist until now 'genetic disaster', which is the kind of insight clue that may have originally connected BETC!Blitzwing to the techno-organic Blackarachnia-

[astermath]

-- GUIDELINES ♡

I've been getting some more requests recently and I'd like to put down some ground rules for asks. please read these before you send in a request, out of respect. I will not do any requests that don't fit my guidelines.

+ out of courtesy, a "please" and "thank you" should be included in your request. this may sound a little conceited, but I put a lot of time and effort into my requests, free of charge. the least I expect is some basic manners.

+ I expect anyone who interacts with this blog to be 18+. if you do not have an age in your bio, or are not above the age of 18, I will not take your request and I will have to block you. this is to ensure a safe environment for everyone.

+ I do not write for real people. I will write characters played by real people, but the fics will be about the characters themselves, not the actors portraying them.

+ I only write for characters that are explicitly stated to be over 18 years old. I do not "age up" characters either.

+ I do take nsfw requests, but I do not write; watersports, anal, skat, ddlg, ageplay, petplay... I'm allowed to deny requests if I am not comfortable writing them, even if they're not explicitly listed here. please respect that.

+ I prefer to keep my readers as ambiguous as possible. that way anyone, regardless of appearance, can enjoy my fics. things that can be easily added or changed to someone's experience (such as glasses, a clothing style, tattoos, etc) can absolutely be applied to readers, but I don't really take requests for hyperspecific readers. I can absolutely write for certain personality types or archetypes though!

+ please be patient when sending a request. I will get to it in due time. if you're wondering if I received your ask or not, you can always send a dm!

+ have a lovely day, and be kind to each other ♡

[manofmanymons]

No one asked but I feel like talking about them so I will

I could go on all day about all the different reasons I really love Miu and Kaito as characters, but I could also do the same for literally every other character. Bc I love the entire cast of Survive to death and have more to say about them than anyone would ever want to hear.

But the main reason these two stand out to me above the rest despite the fact that I wouldn't say they're BETTER by any means is just that...they're so relatable to me, it almost hurts.

Starting with Miu, I'm both a younger sibling and the youngest in my friend group. So like, I'm no stranger to being coddled to death. Even people who I've specifically asked to stop treating me like a child still act like I'll somehow accidentally kill myself if they leave me alone for ten seconds. I'm an adult and literally earlier today my roommate freaked out that my hand was too close to the stove even though I've been cooking and baking for us for the past week. And it's infuriating! I know they mean well and I know it's because they care but ffs it makes me feel like everyone thinks I'm some kind of weak useless idiot. I digress (spoilers for the harmony route) I also know what it's like to have parents that won't believe you when bad things happen to you and try to blame you for things that can't possibly be your fault. I ALSO also know what it's like to have a special interest that means a lot to me but that other people think is weird.

And with Kaito

Boy I don't even know where to start with him

Guess I'll start with saying even though I just said I'm a younger sibling, my family dynamic is a little weird. My sister has always been a bit of a troublemaker, while I was the "so mature for your age" kid, so for as long as I can remember, I've been the one looking after her. I've always felt so responsible for her, and when some shit happened to her in our old town that was bad, well...it kinda felt like I failed my one (1) job. Our parents didn't take her side in what happened; in fact they were pretty pissed at her for getting into trouble. And she didn't wanna tell her friends. So I was really just...all she had. If I wasn't there for her, then no one was. We moved to a new town, she started acting up more, things got difficult. I hated my classmates and my family and I was just so goddamn angry all the time that I was constantly getting in fights at school. It's a lonely experience, feeling like the weight of the world is on your shoulders and no one even notices or cares. And it wasn't until YEARS later that even my sister looked back and was like "holy shit I would've gone insane without you" and even acknowledged that I did a lot for her. So yeah I guess you could say I know how it feels to love someone and want to do anything you can for them even if you're not sure they love you back.

It's exhausting and frustrating and you get PISSED a LOT. Sometimes at them. Especially when they get mad at you when you're just trying to keep them SAFE goddammit why don't they GET THAT. But you don't just stop loving them, ya know? And yeah that makes me a hypocrite considering earlier I said I hate when people feel like they need to protect me, but also my 5 foot 90lb sister tryna go out ALONE with telling anyone where she's going is not the same as me having someone pull a box cutter out of my hands because "sweetie be careful that's sharp"

ANYWAYS

The hyperspecific circumstance of being an edgy 14 year old suddenly adopted into a friend group where people are baffling kind to you and now you have to learn how to communicate with words is just comically relatable like Kaito gives me so much secondhand embarrassment with his shitty communication skills. Like I, the player, understand exactly what he's TRYING to say. But then what he actually says is just so far off the mark that I cringe at the flashbacks of teen me doing the same thing. Like okay spoilers for the wrathful route and dracmon's mega evolution but FOR EXAMPLE

The time he tried to tell Aoi that he understood that she felt responsible for Saki's death but that it really wasn't her fault and she did all she could but he accidentally made her feel 10x worse instead

And the time the sentiment of "please leave so I can go all out in this battle knowing that you are safe because you're important to Miu which makes you important to me and I need to protect you" just came out as like "get out of my way"

He tries so hard to do good but he fails so much at conveying his intentions that it always comes across as bad and it makes me so sad for him because like...MOOD, little buddy.

Even though the violent cringey little bastard that was 14 year old me doesn't exist anymore and hasn't in a very long time, Kaito is just such an intensely personal character to me—to an almost terrifying extent. He occupies a very special place in my heart, even over characters I've loved for years. He's my favorite little guy!

[socialistexan]

Listen, I don't want to get into it too much, because I have Opinions.

But like, I think some people in the community - especially on this website - have totally forgotten or never knew what the lgbtq community even is for. This isn't some little feel-good club where we have to micro-analyize identities and all kinds of bullshit around exclusion and being hyperspecfic around so many things that don't matter.

Like, I'm not that old, but I came out as bi when I was a teen and it was still illegal in the state of Texas to be gay or trans. Being gay or bi was still considered a mental illness until 1987, 3 years before I was born. Being trans was until 2013.

The year after I came out the President of the United States ran his reelection campaign on being not just openly, but vehemently homophobic and won.

The reason so many of us were so happy when the SCOTUS ruled gay marriage as legal is because a lot of us didn't think we'd get to even see it in our lifetimes, and I was in my early 20's.

I came of age as a young queer in a community still scarred by the AIDS crisis, my direct elders were the survivors. I saw part of it play out in my childhood. Every victory was won in sweat, tears, and blood. The word "oppression" means something to me, and it's not "this thing makes me slightly uncomfortable."

It's like so much of that is totally forgotten and now we are so up our own asses with discourse that doesn't even come close to mattering, especially when reactionary forces are still going all out to attack us - particularly trans people - in the legal system and society.

I don't want to assume it's young people with a lack of experience, because I've definitely seen it from people in my age group do this, too. I also don't want to play the "back in my day" card, because I'm glad things are better now. We worked so hard to get to where we are, that things really did end up being better for us, but so much of it was forgotten or treated like ancient history when I'm only 30 and I lived through so much of it.

So much of very online lgbtq discourse is just so insular and convoluted and hyperspecific to a very certain, even academic, experience of being lgbtq.

And I don't know how to solve this.

I think lgbtq people, particularly young people, should be aware of how tenuous our position is, and how quickly we can go back to the bad old days.

[moondal514]

AFTG characters as people at my ballet studio

A hyperspecific meme based on personal experience.

Neil: studio cryptid Literally always there, has the shittiest-looking leotards/tights/slippers/point shoes/warm up outfits/etc. but refuses to replace them until they literally fall apart for reasons unknown. Like you could literally gift them a brand new pair of leg warmers and they would still prefer to wear their shitty old ugly ones with holes. No one knows anything about them except for that they show up regularly at least an hour before class starts to stretch and stay an hour after class ends to also stretch. Also is the new kid that’s almost intimidatingly good despite claiming little to no dance experience and makes you feel really bad about yourself as a result

Andrew: the natural that doesn't try That super annoying dancer that just oozes natural talent, but also literally never shows up to class or doesn’t give any effort when they do cuz they don’t really care. Always given lead parts in performances because they’re just ridiculously naturally talented and made for ballet (like perfect banana feet, perfect turn-out, perfect extension, perfect body proportions, etc. the kind of shit that professional ballet schools look for in young dancers and that most dancers work their asses off to get). You would willingly kill to have even half of their flexibility cuz it would still be better than yours

Kevin: the super intense one The one that's been literally dancing their entire life like they want to go pro. The best technique ever, mostly cuz they’re constantly correcting themselves in the mirror and practicing shit like tendus or turns or balances or something. They often get scolded for looking at the mirror too much. Takes corrections from teachers way too seriously and is super annoying as a result, but infuriatingly it all pays off cuz it's completely unquestioned that they should get the lead roles. Also they’re always doing shit like embellishing combinations and showing off in class (i.e doing extra pirouettes when the combination only calls for a double or adding random beats in petit allegro)

Allison: Yumiko girl The one that exclusively wears only the expensive and fancy ballet brands and shows them off. I once met a girl who owned 30 Yumiko leotards and literally couldn't remember a time she didn't wear Yumikos and you can’t tell me that doesn’t give Allison energy. Probably also a brand ambassador for a pointe shoe company (once upon a time I would've said a Gaynor Girl but I believe Gaynor Minden has shut down all of their factories in the US so dancers can't really wear them anymore)

Nicky: the one that never shuts up Always gossiping during class, always has to be asked to quiet down by the teacher. Definitely giggles every time they make a mistake. A fun person to have in class but when it comes to rehearsals for performances they become extremely annoying

Seth: the one doing their own thing Never gets the combinations right and always gets into a fight with the teacher over it. Do they really not remember the combination or do they really just not give a shit? Unknown. Always pisses off the entire class cuz so much time gets wasted over telling them off. On the days they don't show up to class, class flows much better. The sad thing is that they are actually a great dancer, they just refuse to listen to anyone

Renee: the good student Literally the ideal ballet student. Always listens to the teacher and does exactly what the teacher says to do whether it comes to combinations or corrections. The perfect student to have in a ballet class because not only are they a good student, they also mesh well with the other dancers and just make the vibe of the class feel good

Dan: teacher's pet Always remembers the combinations from the week before, so is always called to the front and center to demonstrate them. Is the teacher's pet as a result, whether or not they are talented. If you ever forget your part for a performance, they're who you go to for help cuz they definitely know your part better than you do. Same goes for any hyperspecific details for examination combos. Very clearly has teaching dance in their future if they wish to pursue dance as a career

Aaron: the inconsistent one Either does the bare minimum to not get yelled at by the teacher or dances way too aggressively all the time. There's nothing in-between. If they could reach some kind of consistency they would be extremely good, but they're clearly using dance as a means for something else (whether that be a college application, another sport, or just a way to pass time) and it's very relatable

Matt: male dancer™ Traditionally male dancers always go last when doing across the floor or center exercises because the idea is they physically need more time to do the exercises because they jump higher or do more turns or something. This person isn't necessarily a boy, but this person is always forced to go last because they physically need more time to do the exercise than everyone else. They always take boys' class whether or not they are actually a boy for this exact reason. When doing pas class, they are the one that can do the most complicated lifts 

Katelyn: competition dancer™

Want someone to do acro tricks? This is your bitch. They haven't done competition dancing since they 1st started dance but they can still pop out aerials or do fouettés like no one's business. They have technique that looks a little…off because of their start in competition dancing but they are who you cast for crowd-pleaser dances like Nutcracker's Russian Dance cuz they can consistently pull tricks out of their ass every time

Jean: the emo one Only likes doing the slow exercises that allow room for lots of expression (so adagio and port de bras exercises). Their ideal role is one of the main parts from Giselle. Basically the ballet equivalent of Georgi from Yuri On Ice but not quite so loud

Riko: Black Swan Like the movie (a movie that is objectively good as a psycho-drama but as a portrayal of ballet? God awful imo). The hyper-competitive bitch that will go as far as deliberately sabotaging via injuring other dancers to get better parts. Most dancers aren't like that obviously but there's always one that is and they usually have parents that are an absolute nightmare to deal with too. Literally the reason why the catty hyper-competitive dancer stereotype exists. The vibe is this incident of acid thrown at the director of Bolshoi Ballet

Jeremy: the motivational speaker You don't know how this bitch can possibly be real. This is the one that is always really encouraging to their fellow dancers in class and always finding something to praise them for. If you ever feel down about your dance skills, all you have to do is speak to this bitch to feel better. They're very talented themselves and know it, but they never rub it in everyone else's face. They manage to be humble without making anyone else feel bad about their own abilities

[princesssarcastia]

2021 Harry Potter Fanfic Primer

im here to point fingers at the incredible authors that have enabled my new interest in HP content.  im still conflicted and upset about it, tbh, but for now we’re leaning into the curve.  we’re getting out our shovel and finding out just how deep we can make the hole we’re in.  hand in unlovable hand my beloved <3.  anyway, these fics are wonderful, their authors are wonderful, and you should go read their stuff. if there’s a star next to it that means im losing my mind over it and always will be.

Creatively Maladjusted, by elumish on AO3, 101k  (they also have a wonderful writing advice blog on tumblr, @elumish, which I recommend following if you are a writer) 

A very excellent re-telling of harry’s first year at hogwarts if he were sorted into Slytherin, plus some more not!fic or piecemeal re-tellings of his second and part of his third year.  Harry, in this, has a slightly different trauma response to growing up with the Dursley’s.  He’s a bit quieter, and the signs are a bit more obvious to the people around him, and I enjoyed that immensely. 

Honestly, if you’re going to get sucked into something you have absolutely no business getting sucked into, elumish is the way to go, their fic is incredible. their teen wolf fic is also immaculate, if you’re so inclined. 

Dissonance, by ImpishTubist on AO3, 2.5k (@impishtubist on tumblr)

Set during fifth year.  Oblivious!Harry has always been a delightful trope when well executed, and this is well executed.  Plus, some angst between Remus and Harry over what Umbridge has been doing to him.

I would certainly recommend a lot of ImpishTubist’s other hp work on AO3, like Lacuna.

blow us all away, by rexcorvidae on AO3, 23k (@rexcorvidae on tumblr)

In progress (like, updated last week in progress).  Currently in the beginning of Harry’s first year.  Fem!Harry, Indian!Harry.  Hagrid puts Harry in touch with Remus when she has questions about her parents, and they become reluctant, traumatized, angst-ridden pen pals who keep missing each other’s true intentions like ships in the night.  hot DAMN do I love this fic.  there’s hints of the way the dursley’s treat Harry peaking through in her letters, and I appreciated the attention to “hmm, her experience as a girl of indian descent in britain under the thumb of a bunch of white people who like being Normal may not have been gucci”

Definitely comb through the rest of their HP fic, too, I may or may not have gone feral over it.

Where the Heart is, by silver_fish on AO3, 15k (@kohakhearts on tumblr)

Woof.  This one said, “hey, harry was probably SUPER depressed in the summer after fifth year.  like, clinically.  maybe someone should do something about that.”  Fuck yeah.  Then this one said, “that someone was Snape.”  You all know my opinions on Snape; generally, Bad.  But damn if this fic didn’t wholly convince me by the end of it.  I thought it was a very realistic way for Snape to start seeing Harry as a person all on his own, and not a proxy for Snape’s angst over James and Lily, respectively.  The angst is wonderful, the ending is even more so.

*bernie sanders voice* I am once again asking you to read through the rest of the author’s HP fic.  a lot of them have similar themes; there’s actually a great one with Molly that i’m not reccing here, Wonder.

☆Bindings, Bindings, by Quietlemonhush on AO3, 60k (@quietlemonhush on tumblr)

WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS TO YOU HOW MUCH I ENJOYED/AM ENJOYING THIS.  If I had to pick a single fic and say “you, it’s your fault I’m stuck here,” it would be this one.  Anyway Lily in the afterlife is So Very Angry about how Petunia is treating Harry, and how Sirius is rotting in Azkaban, and how Remus is alone, that she literally brings herself back to life and drags James and Regulus with her.  All three of them are there to chew bubblegum and fix everything that went wrong after they died—and would you look at that, they’re all out of bubblegum!  There’s only Fury left.  That inciting premise is very crack, but every moment after that is very much not crack.  Lily and James love harry more than anything, the way a child should be loved; James and Sirius have the epic friendship of a lifetime; Sirius and Remus have staggering amounts of resolved sexual tension and take turns keeping each other in check; Regulus, though he realized that Voldemort and his family were shit before he died, is still unlearning all his racist bullshit and, also, years of trauma.  Actually, they’re all traumatized, but hey: now they have one another again and not a damn one of them seems inclined to let go anytime soon.  Quietlemonhush went, “hey, HP has a lot of Awful people in it, and a lot of Righteous people in it, and many of them are Very, Very Powerful; also, love is the most powerful force in the universe” and i said “hell yes tell me more right now.”  And then they did!

Quietlemonhush writes Sirius/Remus in a way that makes it sooo much fun to devour, so the rest of their HP fic is most certainly worth a look, if that’s your thing.

Rebuilding, by Colubrina on AO3, 113k (@colubrina on tumblr)

Hermione/Draco (*shrug emojis into the abyss* yeah, yeah, like none of us have ever been there before).  Takes place during Hogwarts 8th year, and while the beginning is, IMO, a little unfair to Ron, it gets much better.  Tells the story of Hermione and Draco clearing the air, learning to like each other, having some hormones over each other, and then falling in love.  Also tells the story of Hermione and Theo Nott becoming friends; the story of how every single 7th and 8th year student is fucked to hell by the war and the Carrows; the story of how they start an emotional support group about it and all become friends; and the story of, what the hell do you do with yourself after that kind of trauma?

I’ve been dipping in and out of Colubrina’s HP since before I was even on tumblr; I actually found them in those dark yesteryears when the only fandom interactions I had were on fanfiction.net.  Of such fame as Green Girl, which is an HP fic staple, and has also written a lot of wackier, crackier, and darker things than that.  If you don’t take yourself too seriously, I highly recommend many of their big HP works, though I imagine it’ll press some people’s buttons.  Colubrina’s work really does take up a corner of my mind whenever I’m in an HP mood, and will take up yours if you let it.

☆ all waiting is long, by shuofthewind on AO3, 149k ( @shu-of-the-wind on tumblr)

This is so well written that I can’t stop thinking about it.  It is occupying my mind when I lie awake at night, you know?  It’s one of those.  Hermione messes with something she probably shouldn’t have in Grimmauld Place, so when Sirius is sent through the Veil in the Department of Mysteries, she gets thrust into an alternate universe...in 1975.  Instead of handwaving it away, shuofthewind actually gets into the mechanics of it in a way that makes sense, to emphasize that hermione is never going home.  ever. The world she finds herself is shifted slightly to the left, quite a bit darker, but in a “the author is treating the idea of a society-wide conflict over blood purity much more seriously than JKR ever did” way, not a sensationalist way.  Now, Hermione has to grapple with all her grief at losing everyone she’s ever loved or known, the moral/ethical/magical implications of sharing what she knows about her future in an alternate world, and, you know, a goddamn war with people who want to murder her for being who she is.  This Hermione is smart, and she’s kind, and she’s powerful, and she’s making real friends.  If you hate JKR’s guts I’d go read this right now, because it delivers in all the ways she failed us.  It’s plotty, its got great world-building, and it pulls back the white curtain on the wizarding world to show you that, like real life, it’s multicultural and full of queer people...and the discrimination that comes with both.

shuofthewind write epics, mainly for the MCU, and I’ve read some of them a looooong time ago, so this fic kinda seemed out of left field for me but im SOOOO GLAD it exists.  If you want MCU fic you can sink your teeth into, go for it, but alas, they do not have any more HP fic (.......yet?)

Speak Now [+] Listen Now, by mrsfrizzle on AO3, 33k altogether

Harry reaches out to Remus for support because Umbridge is getting to him with her literal torture.  Remus, being a former professor, former mandatory reporter, person who loves Harry and has since he was born, and all around good man, tells Harry he has to tell someone, or Remus will.  It’s everything any adult looking back on that time in HP canon ever wanted, which is for an actual adult to say “what the fuck, those are literal chidlren” and then do something about it.  Then, a far more dangerous task: Harry trusts Remus enough to go to him about the Dursleys.  Harry and Remus’ relationship develops SO WELL, and there’s a bit of exploration about how Sirius may not exactly be guardian material, because he did in fact spend 12 years of his life getting tortured instead of growing up.  I think I’m actually going to go reread this right now, because it speaks to my id.

they do have some other HP fic which did not appeal to my hyperspecific wants, but may appeal to some of yours.  I think they’re also a published author, there should be a link on their profile page.

chase the stars, by Duskglass on AO3, 101k (@felix-duskglass on tumblr)

When Harry is five years old, a picture of him ends up in the Daily Prophet, and Sirius Black, Terror of Ministry Officials Touring Azkaban everywhere, gets a hold of that issue.  He then, in order: breaks out of Azkaban; crosses the countryside to Surrey; Finds Harry: Kidnaps Harry; Breaks Into Remus’ Apartment; starts processing (or maybe just acknowledging) his trauma from Azkaban, the war, and his childhood; and pines after Remus.  It’s a little plotty, and deals a lot (sometimes through flashbacks) with the specific awful things that happened to Sirius—largely because, after years in the constant presence of Dementors, those are nearly literally the only memories he has left.  It’s a wonder he’s got the strength to love Harry and Remus at all.  But then, maybe it isn’t.

This is a Very Serious Fic, but the rest of Duskglass’s HP work is actually just cracky enough to tickle your funny-bone, while still making you think “okay but why couldn’t we have done that in the first place.”

So!  That’s it for recs, for now.  These are all things I’ve found and read in the last month; if any of y’all are interested in my old HP recs, let me know and I can make a post for that, too.  While I’m still very conflicted about my choice of current fandom, I am not in ANY way conflicted about my taste in fic and authors.  Send these guys some love, read their fic if you’re so inclined, and leave some nice comments at the end of it.

[lindwurmkai]

Tbh I do think people overstate the dangers of "putting all your mental illnesses in your profile" a little and it does have its uses. For a long time, basically my main reason for being on here was to find others with similar combinations of mental illnesses! Putting your triggers in an easily accessible list is so much worse.

These days, the fastest way to get me to check out someone's blog is if they mention being "mostly housebound" or "allergic to everything" because those are more on the forefront of my mind rn. But it used to be mental illnesses and other neurodivergences, as well certain hyperspecific queer experiences.

The only things I've ever regretted making public on this website in over a decade of using it were much more subtle than lists of diagnoses and demographics. They were things people might have picked up on after regularly reading my personal posts for weeks or months. Things that may have left me vulnerable to certain kinds of abuse or being taken advantage of, although I can't say if that ever actually happened because I can't read minds and don't know if the people who hurt me did it on purpose.

Not posting those things probably wouldn't have kept me safe, either. Instead I would have just missed out on a good number of positive connections I made over the years, I would have learned less, and bad actors could have still found out the same information through other channels such as direct messaging.

My diagnoses don't really tell you anything about my weak spots. This post alone, on the other hand, already contains info that someone might try to use against me: I think it's very easy to infer from what I wrote up there that I am lonely and somewhat desperate for human connection. Now that gives bad actors much more to work with than a simple diagnosis, since each person sharing the same diagnosis is still unique. But then you might as well advise people to never post anything remotely personal ever, not even to make a point.

[skypied]

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oH mAn FuCk I have been thinking about this for hours and I am struggling to figure out something to talk about. I really wish I could talk about the long fic I’m drabbling on currently, because my mind has been on my mind that all week. It would have been easier with specific questions 😂

I think I’m gonna have to go with pretty general thoughts and some things that apply to several fics, because I don’t have any long thoughts about one specific I think. Unless I reread all to remember, and that’ll take hours, haha.

(also, this is me emptying my tumblr drafts of a lot of stuff I have considered posting but never done bc they’re all weird )

The official, my-personal-Luberto-cinematic-universe reason I so to speak always make them come several times, and/or Luca has an overstimulation kink, is as simple as being a person with a vulva who knows how hard it can be to get into it sometimes, and has experienced reading fic and the scenes being a little too short, and just beginning to get into it when they come. So I hope someone appreciates that hehehe

I am very anal and love research and stats and spreadsheets and knowing as much as possible and would honestly LOVE to put an anon poll or whatever on my fics to get stats on how many people have gotten off to them  😂 if i can’t touch hearts and parts irl, at least I’m doing it online, that warms my heart honestly.

Of all the 10s of ks of words I’ve written yet my favorite lines are always tags or a/ns like “ Today’s hyperspecific tag is: accidental marriage proposal by cock ring” and “ Not me waiting until they’re balls deep to drop my chubby Alberto headcanon in an attempt to Pavlov condition you into accepting the gospel “ and “alternate title: alberto learns the epic highs and lows of masturbation" and of course “Original Goat Characters”

Me: haha Alberto likes being bossed around in bed a lil :) My overthinking brain: Actually, as a fellow ADHDer who loves in acts of service, theres little i enjoy more than being told what to do in a clear way by someone i love. (My ideal relationship is honestly this picture of Ariana Grande with Pete Stevenson, in which I am Ariana.)

I almost always have to hit the brakes from making them have an argument! I’ve posted some of this in my cut footage posts, but like. They just are so argumentative! I can barely stop them! I really enjoy it, but sometimes it’s like “wait this is supposed to be sexy, I have to stop this now”

Not only am I always up for shamelessly stealing inspiration from a whole range of other places, I have begun stealing from myself. “Oh, wait, this is the same as in that fic, what did I use then?” but I’m hoping readers don’t know my 180k archive as well as I do and can connect the dots (only 90k are published oohhh I have way too many wips to finish)

I think that’s everything interesting I have to say for now!

Wait one more thing, esp since I posted a Cliff’s Edge snippet today.

I’m v happy about it having such good ratings on Ao3, and I know a lot of people are excited for the continuation. But I am struggling because it’s my least favorite fic. There’s kind of a cognitive dissonance for me with where I was as a writer when I started it, and where I am now. Especially with their characterizations. I can barely reread either chapter because I just... Am not very proud of them. I am pretty far along in chapter 3! But it’s so rare I am excited for it, so I haven’t worked on it in at least a month, even when I know I could finish it in a night or two... Sorry! And I haven’t started chapter4 besides two short drabbled paragraphs I had to get out.

I am writing more fishy fucking going forwards though. I’m SUPER excited about the one I did fanart of hehe, with half-transformed Luca x human Beto. Was planning to finish it off this weekend, but I’ve been so immersed in my long fic. (Which I am so excited about and am so desperate to share about, but it’s way too up in the air for that. Just know that I am experimenting and finding the right place to whump Beto into: