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sorry i can't take this chapter seriously the flying head took me out whekshej
#yuutas domain name also#i know it fits his character but omg let's tone it down on cliché and predictability a little please 😂#i didn't wake up at 5 am for this#i mean i was right about kenny's will but whatever it kinda fell flat#the thing about this being a jjk 0 inverse was right with yuuta defeating kenny and the cursed spirits attack which makes me think about my#rika theory may also be on the right track#but also we just know that having an exposed plan means it won't go this way#this is like who's more op yuuta or sukuna and it's boring and they both need a power down which i really think will come#and seeing sukuna look down on yuuji still only mentioning the soul punch not having the blood manipulation mentioned even though it was#hinted to be yuuji's... he's definitely gonna have a bigger role than just the last punch he has to#there's also the whole megumi thing#sukuna doesn't know yuuta and yuuji's goal was to save megumi to which yuuji conjured a plan#what was defined as yuuta and yuuji's plan doesn't means it is in fact their plan (or just their plan)#the two mcs against sukuna and power of love being the theme makes sense thematically but on god this was lame#anyways hoping for sukuna to take rika 🤞 rika having a second death/dispersal would also be very jjk 0 it just makes sense idk how#but make it happen or i will bite someone 😂#also i didn't comment but geto's body releasing the spirits makes no sense to me unless kenny wanted to emulate geto's attack to the school#and collected spirits for this purpose only but when did he even do that man#again... the stupid head flying was so fucking dumb idk what i imagined but it wasn't that#whatever gege i am gonna wait for next week and hope something interesting actually happens bye#sorry for being a hater but this chapter felt like a bunch of nothing thrown at our face even though the fight wouldn't really have#results in one chapter being who they are it still felt disappointing that just nothing interesting happened after such a long break too#and again.... WHERE THE HELL IS MAKI#there's also that part!!!! neither us or sukuna know what she's up to#maki save us save us maki#jjk leaks#still thinking about kenny's head she was an airplane...... 😂 what kind of cartoon reality was that#absurdism and surrealism in jjk as a theme but also what if something is just incredibly stupid 😭
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I'm trying so hard to keep my chin up but all that is left in me is anxiety and dread. I wish it felt like things would ever get better.
#i wish i didn't have to be online and could just be alone#negative#sorry. it's just keeping me up. it's 5:30 am. if i don't say something somewhere i won't be able to sleep#i hope whoever reads this has a good day. maybe when i wake up I'll feel a little better.
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all black podium for women's gymnastics after black women being cut out of this sport i'm not crying you're crying
#im glad i didn't wake up at 5 am to watch simone and suni and rebecca all not medal on beam#i would have been too agonized until we got to floor exercises
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tease tuesday + wip wednesday 🕊
(i'm smashing these 2 days together because i like to break the rules)
anyway have a lil bit of hoa eddie, uh, getting a hard dick for buck before dinner with his Nemesis
“You’re staring at me.” Buck shuffles forward, a few steps away from Eddie; he smells like mint and vanilla because he used Eddie’s shampoo like he always does and roses, too, that expensive cologne he pays half an arm for. “I am.” “Do I look bad?” No. Not at all. He’s wearing tight black jeans that hug the length of his long, thick legs in a way that leaves nothing to the imagination and a black knit sweater that has his biceps bulging and his tummy poking through and it’s obscene because he’s so goddamn thick that even normal clothes look small on him. Buck looks all different kinds of great and Eddie doesn’t know what to do with that or the tickle in his chest, the heavy heat in his gut. The gold chain with the little sunshine at the bottom sits pretty between his tits, a present Chris got him last year for Christmas that’s a fucking gift right now for Eddie. Christ. He blinks. “No,” he says, maybe a little too fast, but he can’t be blamed. Especially not when Buck looks as gorgeous as he does, in front of Eddie and in his bedroom with a door that locks. “You look pretty. That color is nice on you.” “It’s black.” “Okay?” Eddie bristles. The tips of his ears burn. “It looks good.” Buck fingers the hem of his sweater. “Thanks,” he says, whisper-soft and ruddy-cheeked like he’s embarrassed or something, before looking up and giving Eddie a dazzling smile. “You, uh, look good, too.” And Eddie does. He’s wearing his best pair of blue jeans and a dark green sweater he found in the back of his closet that he knows looks good on him because Marisol couldn’t keep her hands off when he wore it, but he has nothing on Buck. Nothing at all. “Buck—” “I need—” Christopher barges in the room, knocking the door against the wall like he pays the bills. “You guys take so long.”
tagged by @daffi-990, @jesuisici33, and @wikiangela mwah i adore all of you!
tagging @callmenewbie, @callaplums, @eddiebabygirldiaz, @eddiediaztho, @honestlydarkprincess, @wildlife4life, @thewolvesof1998, @try-set-me-on-fire, @exhuastedpigeon, @fortheloveofbuddie, @giddyupbuck, @ladydorian05, @loserdiaz, @monsterrae1, @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy, and anybody else who wants to share 🫶🏼
#let me get mushy real fast and say these games really hold me accountable for actually working on shit instead of just#letting it rot in the wip folder#because this fic is nearly 30k and it's only halfway through#and i'm BEGGING my brain to get it finished before the new year my fucking god#and i'm excited to share the WHOLE thing with yall and not just these out of pocket snippets because#eddie is on some other type of level in this and he just gets better every fuckin second i swear#anyway!#i will be back later#am going to take a small nap because i didn't go to bed until 5:30 and wound up waking up at 8:30? what a bitch#tag games
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#mega swampert#NOW they're angry! what about? i dunno‚ but they're gonna tell you!#this mega is definitely *cool*—it actually introduces a significant difference. turns swampert into a big tank guy#which i think is badass‚ even if i wouldn't really take it over regular swampert‚ personally. it really changes the look and vibe#and i'm a bigger fan of the more lanky regular swampert‚ honestly#i'm running on three and a half hours of sleep i'm Desperately trying to come up with something interesting to say here#my bedroom has two big-ass windows in it that let in sunlight so it always wakes me up at like 9 AM sharp#and i went to bed at like 5 PM last night. didn't even fall asleep until like 6. so i'm a little bit wrecked this morning but y'know#this isn't the place to talk about that. this is a place to talk about mega swampert. and here that is!!!
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“Amore et Timore” - King Fernando I “El Animoso”
#*why is it that when I write tags that are genuinely imporant and wordy it always doesnt save UGH#well. ill try and rewrite them.#hahaha I bring you curly haired king Fernando!!(mostly for cofi)#2011 monza gp core Fernando that gripped us all by the throat right?? right????#also i hope that his hair doesn't appear red to you like it did to me on my pc??? its brown I assure you#anyways! historical context for nerds like me:#'el animoso'(the spirited) comes from Philip V of course#it was apparently bestowed on him bcs of his perseverance and unwavering fervor in battle#and is that not the most Fernando coded thing youve ever heard?????#'Amore et Timore'(through love and fear) however comes from Joseph I#whom seb is partially based on but i thought his Latin motto fit Nando way better so here we are#philip v didn't have a motto as far as i could tell so that's why I stole Joseph's#but i do think the motto for the Spanish kingdom fits Fernando's career pretty well?#'A solis ortu usque ad occasum'(from sunrise to sunset) and i think that suits Fernando's 'longest f1 career ever' p well#anyways I sent a sketch of this to cofi the other day like yeah I probably wont finish this#and now here i am on 5 am on a tuesday grinning manically sleep deprived like HERE YOU GO#i think he looks very cute in this!!! i really did a lot of work on his eyelashes...very important detail to me#he kinda accidentally looks like Louis XIV unfortunately#but thats down to his hair I think. it looks a lot more like the traditional wig style from then compared to what I typically draw#but god imagine being seb in this au!!! you get to wake up next to this majestic beast....#seb would have this painting framed over his bed or something. i mean who wouldn't????#f1#formula 1#fernando alonso#f1 fanart#formula 1 fanart#catie.art.#boy king au
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its kind of funny to me that in the comics supergirl kind of occupies the spot for like the edgy superman. which is kind of weird for her typical role as kid sidekick to superman because her thing as a character (at least the versions of her character that i like) is that she doesn't have a reason to help anybody and doesn't like earth. edgy superman. but she's also the kid sidekick. strange juxtaposition
#it obviously depends on which comic you're reading#cause like there are completely different versions of supergirl depending on which version we're talking about#there's like 3 different supergirls with 5 different backstories#there's the one where she's a kind of slime goop that mimics the form of a girl--that was matrix#that was the version from the 80s that continued into the 90s--the weird run that had like angels and demons and stuff#god that one was weird#then there was the main one which is kara zor el but she has like 3 different backstories on her own#there's the argo city one which is truly horrible where like she watches thousands of people die in front of her#that one was most recently used in the supergirl woman of tomorrow comic written by the vile tom king at least as far as i'm aware#then there was the pod version (the more popular one) which has two variations on its own#variation one was that she's actually older than superman but got stuck in suspended animation for like 25 years#and variation two where she's just younger than him and i don't know how that works#of course the argo backstory is also the pod backstory they're not incompatible#it does beg the question of which you think is more tragic:#waking up one day to find out everyone you ever knew is dead and gone or watching them all die slowly in front of you#anyway the third super girl is power girl who is super girl except older so she's power girl because they didn't do a 2 spider man thing#this is easy to follow right#oh right and apparently they made a completely new backstory for her in my adventures with superman though i never watched that#because i still have to finish the supergirl cw show which is ANOTHER version of her character where she's 24 instead of a teenager#which sounds like a small thing but it literally turns her into a completely different character#i mean like powergirl is a completely different character isnt she#what was i talking about? right i kind of liked new 52 supergirl at least the first few issues#i really liked the disorientation of “where am i who are these people where's my family” she goes through#shame it kind of sucked#i'm probably not going to finish the CW show by the way. i'll probably give up halfway through season 3 if we're being optimistic
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Lads I'm reaching that point of house-sitting where I'm over it and there's still half a week left
#nat chat#all dreams of starting the day with a nice warm breakfast are out the window#because I spent the first hour of every morning feeding chickens and cats#and by that time am so hungry that i don't want to wait for my meal to cook#and the humidity has been in the 80% range all week#so i wake up and immediately go outside and get sweaty and gross#and last year I told my parents 5-6 days is really better for me because by day 7 i'm having a breakdown#but they just totally forgot that by the time buying tickets rolled around and didn't bother to ask me beforehand#so this is actually worse than last year because it's 7 days AND they're coming home in the afternoon instead of the morning
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I apparently have INSOMNIA now and tonight I didn't sleep AT ALL
#i feel like my brain is kiki tea (the spikes of the kiki hurt me)#not that i slept much during the previous two either. but at least i didn't have to wake up at 5 am like today#that when you can't sleep until at least 4 am (when you pass out) means in fact no sleep#man. i can barely have verbal thoughts
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I thought today was a good one..
#just some vent art idk#vent#vent art#...........................................................................................................................................#............................................................................................................................................#the initial start was unclear#i got ready for my class like usual and my dad's mood was entirely unreadable#usually in these situations i have an internal debate thats goes something like#“is he in a good mood? is he in a bad one? is his eye irritated again? maybe he's still waking up?”#its a 50/50 kinda deal#sometimes he's emotionless until right when im dropped off and he says “have a good day! love you!” in his nice way#today there was nothing#i just got out of the truck and just as i was closing the door i barely heard a “love you” in a monotone voice#i thought nothing of it bc i did some work before class and my mood lightened#afterwards i went to the lounge and they were doing another event thing that offered free food if you did it#the food was greek food so i figured it wouldnt hurt. i got the food#it was awesome ngl and it really made my day better#then dad picked me up....#he was still unreadable but i could tell his patience was low just by the way he was driving#its crazy and kinda sad that i can immediately tell what mood he's in even through the most mundane change#but about 5 minutes into the ride my mind was a racing mess. i kept asking questions#trying to gauge what mood he's in. he wasn't projecting or groaning like he usually does so o figured maybe he's just wanting to get home#to my surprise we didn't immediately gi home: we went to his old work (family owned business)#when we got there I can't describe the relief i felt to be with other people. especially my grandmother#i did some refund stuff while we were there. dad also seemed to lighten up and things seemed fine#but when we got back in the truck it was back to being tense. we still didn't go home- we went to the bank so he could cash a check#but otw there he mentioned his birthday is this Saturday. i said i knew and that I'd be happy to spend the day with him if he had something#planned. bc id loke to spend time with him on his bday instead of my Granny's Halloween party (which i still enjoy but yknow.. dad)#there's an awkward silence and then he just goes “i guess based off your silence you're not interested in what i have planned for my birth-#day?“ perplexed i said ”i am- im just waiting for you to tell me“
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ily bakugou katsuki u are the only thing that hasn't pissed me off today
#today i was basically told that i have to take all of my breaks at work back to back to back within one hour two hours after i clock in#which means that i don't get a break at all later during the night so i don't fucking Want that but i have no other choice because#i'm basically being cornered into doing it by one of the managers who texted my department lead and said i tried to get someone to#cover me for my break at “almost 7 when everyone is going home” which is a fucking lie i asked at 6#who the fuck wants to take all of their breaks in one hour two hours after they start their eight hour shift#i asked for someone to cover me at 6 because i had to use the bathroom really fucking badly and she was like#“why didn't you take them while the midshift was here” the midshift has a three hour overlap with my shift and i have to be clocked in#for at least two hours before i take any breaks at all and i don't want to take all of my breaks at once that soon#ONE HOUR BEFORE MY COWORKER LEAVES#and like we both have stuff to do????#all three breaks two hours into my shift then nothing for the next six fucking hours funniest joke i've ever heard in my entire life#except it's not a joke because it's from a manager so if i don't do this stupid ass shit i could get disciplined or fired#because they don't want to send anyone to cover for me#you know what's even funnier? i am the ONLY PERSON scheduled for these fucking 2-10 shifts except for our full time guy#my other coworkers? 4-10. i don't want this fucking 2-10 shift get me the fuck OFF OF IT#EATS MY ENTIRE FUCKING DAY#i woke up at 8:30am this morning and it still felt like my entire goddamn day was stolen from me because i wake up have time to myself for#about 5 hours out of my whole day then i have to get ready and get my ass to work until the end of the fucking day#tag rant#tag vent#bakugou katsuki#i feel like this is something i should call my union rep about but idk
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listened to too much london after midnight, borrowed reverie from the lovely @eydika and decided to try to get the hang of my lad, dog, uhh this isn't the day i finish a wip or actually stick to my original goal
"so how does this work exactly?" she kicks her feet, shuffles from one heel to the other in soft restless jumps, muscles flexing with every move. "he always passes by this alley to get to his apartment-" dog motions around with a big swipe of his arm she barely manages not to flinch at. "i got that part, why not kill him yourself?" she asks just to say something honestly. 'why watch me do it?' she doesn't ask, she didn't need all the sordid details of what he was apparently into, but standing around him waiting in silence like this, just made her more antsy. "does it really matter?" he asks back. the least he could do, she thinks, is not look as amused as he clearly was. "it's not like you have much of a choice now, right?-" he tries to joke with her, reverie isn't in the mood for that. he keeps going not noticing or not caring. something nags at the back of her mind, she presses her darkly painted lips into a thin dissatisfied line, she has stopped listening to him, she steps closer to him making him pause.
"just to clarify, i don't need your help" she snaps, teeth bared like a viper ready to strike, her eyes a vicious slash of gold in the darkness of the alley. dog holds up his hands in a pacifying manner, beneath the silver zipper of his mask, his sharp teeth glint a clear white as he grins with both rows of them. "you are right, never implied otherwise" his voice is unpleasant, a scratchy sound more akin to the white static of an old radio, it sounds painful. he pulls his cap down, leather on leather groaning at the shift, amused as reverie straightens up, shoulders squared and chin held high, tension lining every single muscle of her body, it must be painful at this point, to be wound up so tightly. she wears it with surprising ease despite the circumstances.
it'd been a while since she last fed, one thing or another making her neglect herself and her needs. big mistake. something moves in the dumpster behind her amongst the trash bags. predator insticts make her head snap towards the sound. before she can consider taking a dive to catch whatever made the noise, dog's laugh brings her back to the present, a cross between a cough and the scratching of a record player.
"what if he doesn't come?" she asks instead, dragging her eyes back towards him, with great difficulty, she shoves her hands in the pockets of her jacket, an old leather piece with multiple holes in its pockets, she always means to get fixed but never does. "he will, he always does" he copies her movement, pushing his hands in the pockets of his own leather jacket, his arms, pushing down until the heavy bulk of it sticks to his bone thin frame. his shoulders hunch inhumanly, every calculated action taken to humanize him somehow undone as he stands too gaunt in front of her. no amount of latex and leather could hide what he truly was. in contrast, in her hunger, she appeared more human, her silver hair duller, her dark skin marred with imperfections mostly reserved for mortals. weren't it for her eyes, a wolf's gold, she could almost catch a glimpse of the woman she was before she was turned.
"show time" he rasps finally, lips cracking into another broad grin. "remember our deal" he reminds her with a tap to his forehead, as if she could ever forget, she huffs annoyed. she watches him for a bit, sees him shuffle into the darkness until only her beast could detect him. one predator cautiously aware of another. she turns on her heels then and follows suit, pressing herself in a corner of the alley opposite him, waiting, watching.
she hears him before he steps into the alley. a slight limp, an arrhythmic heart and lungs that wheeze a little too loudly from years of chain smoking. he is older than she'd like, balding with tiny glasses perched on a tinier nose, like a pug's snout. the name didn't matter, it never did, especially not in these cases. she'd prefer to do this by herself or with rhys or anyone more familiar, she'd prefer to not do this at all, she'd prefer a lot of things actually, but that was the price she was paying for her negligence she supposes.
she is more restless than usual, doesn't wait for long, she moves right behind him when he passes by her hiding spot, blending into his shadow, matching her footsteps to his own dragging ones. shuffling so the high heels of her shoes click tandem to his own. she licks her lips. she has half the mind to just rip his throat out with her claws, get this over with, satiate her bloodthirst and leave. he definitely deserved it if dog's story was to be believed. she briefly wonders if it'd matter if he wasn't, if he just lied to her to make it easier for her to fulfill her part of the deal and she was about to kill an innocent man for his pleasure, a passing thought she doesn't care to give grounds to now of all times. she wonders how she should go about this. make herself known now, let him run like a lame horse? try to lure him into a false sense of security and then drain him before he even registered what she was? simply bash his head in? she wasn't a hunter, dog just told her to do what she usually did. but the issue was, this wasn't what she usually did.
she could still feel dog behind them lurking, moving from one blind spot to the other, using the shadows and the flickering lights of the old lightbulbs above them with surprising grace and stealth for his stature. she expected to feel a certain way at being watched like this. but in an odd sense, it brought her comfort, knowing that if she did snap and her beast took over, he'd be there to make sure she didn't start running around slaughtering others and get herself killed in the process, or if someone was to pass, he'd at least pull her out of there before they were both discovered if nothing else. (wip)
#eydika#och: reverie#ch: dorian “dog” doherty#she is so important to me#this is so boring though but i was just happy i kind of wrote something so i am making it EVERYONE's problem#i didn't make reverie as cool as i have her on my mind#maybe next time#vampire the masquerade#vtm#brujah#nosferatu#.oc talk#.oc thots#.writing#vtm oc#also its like 5 when i post this#i will fill horror when i wake up in the morning since i'll pass out in a bit#but for now#i don want to look at this#no beta we die like men
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ahoy ! guess who almost died today x.x
#⚰️#🧸#w // violence#went for groceries to a not-so-nice area and walked by some people doing shady business in an alley#i didn't really look at them and nothing happened so i just kept walking and made it to the next block before the shots began#(probably a deal went wrong or a rival showing up or whatever. idk)#anyway. i hid in the nearby library with the idea of leaving soon and that's when some random lady pointed out i was bleeding on my arm#it's just a very superficial graze and it hurts a lot but it's not even bleeding anymore#but yeah. almost got shot and / or died buying cookies for my sick brother (and other stuff of course)#so that's how my day went... how about you lads ?#(i'm fine btw. currently buried under soft blankies and with four plushies. it is over 5 am though. and i have to wake up at 7:30 x.x )
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...i've been playing bg3 all day every single day for almost the last week straight. where am i
#💬#put 80+ hours into this in like 5 days i am insane over it holyyyyyy shit#i just started act 2 this morning <3#sorry for the absence i didn't even bother to make a queue lol i'm not joking it's been wake up play then sleep#i haven't had work which honestly sucks so badly but i'm having too much fun gaming to really care atm
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why do i ever assume my family communicates i KNOW they don't why do i ALWAYS fall for this
#this is mostly /lh i promise just#my mother texted me yesterday about coming over Saturday not Sunday to watch go2#and asked if I'd be driving my sister over again (bc im practicing driving stick shift in my sister's car)#so i THOUGHT 'oh clearly she asked my sister too bc my sister ALSO sometimes works Saturdays!#and if she wanted to change the day we agreed on last week then SURLY she MUST have texted everyone who was part of the plan!!!'#i was wrong#i texted my sister to tell her 'hey call me when you're oyw so I'll wake up' and my sister. of course. DIDN'T KNOW#ABOUT THE DAY CHANGE#and she actually DOES work today (unlike me who does not which was my mom's og question)#so she CAN'T do it today#but my mom DIDN'T ASK HER#so now i texted my mom and am waiting for her to wake up and reply#bc our options are 1. hope it rains (bc my sister can't work in the rain so if it rains she gets off work)#or 2. everyone is going to be awake until 1-2am to watch the show bc it's 5-6hours long and we won't get there until like 6pm#or you know option 3. we just stick with the og plan of Sunday#but ill give my mom the options bc idc either way i have to be awake so night anyway#but everyone else watching Doesn't do they're opinions do matter here#anyway#I'm just so tired#this happens EVERY SINGLE TIME we make plans!!!#someone wants to make a change and asks one person and then that person assumes they also checked with everyone else#and they NEVER!!! DO!!!!!!#shh ac
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@people who have a stable sense of self and identity, what's that's like? how's it feel to be beloved by the universe?
#people who say shit like 'i knew i was [insert identity here] when i was 5 or 12 or whatever' i wish i was you#i have been flip flopping on this shit as long as i can remember#and it's not like it's new feelings i'm flip flopping about? it literally like the same exact emotion every god damn time#and my internal idk sense of self really doesn't change much but which piece my brain thinks is important does?#i don't know if that makes sense#like... i would never say that some mornings i wake up and feel zero attraction to women but some days i do think i've made it up#or like some days i think maybe i am attracted to men but i just never want to date or marry or be in any sort of romantic relationship#with a man... i just don't hate dicks and could theoretically have sex with a man... and like some fictional men are pretty.#and i had one crush on a guy when i was like 12... but i also was incredibly jealous of him and hated myself because i was female#and i would never get to be him#but then i'm like does it matter that i don't want to date men? i am not sure i want to date at all?#except i kind of would like to date a very specific tyler of woman in a very specific type of relationship#and i do genuinely think i would love that so much and sometimes i want it so bad i physically ache#but i don't feel that way about men. but the one guy i had a crush on i did when i was 14 or whatever#but also people talk about all these experiences they had as a kid with being gay in the church and how hard it was#and sure i had a hard time but it wasn't very hard to hide it from everyone so like i didn't face a ton of shit other people have#so like does it really count?#maybe i'm just making all of it up and i'm just straight and lying to myself about everything#but i've known i found women attractive since i was very young#and not to be tmi but until i was presented with outside information about sex with men i only pictured myself having sex with women#because the idea of piv sex literally doesn't compute at all in my brain#i genuinely think i would rather die than let anyone stick their dick inside my body#and i used to have legitimate panic attacks about having to marry a man and have sex with him because i felt like i had to#and i know all of this is super super cis centric but i'm going to be so honest. adding in trans identities when trying to figure this out#has only made it significantly more complicated in my brain#and i feel shitty about that but it's true and i don't know what to do about that#and i could keep going on and on about the fact i'm 99% sure i'm stone which also confuses things#because i can find stuff about being a stone butch lesbian but if i am bi.... i have literally never seen anything about being stone#with a man before. literally never.#but also does it matter? because i might be a lesbian since i am very uncomfortable with the idea of romancing a man in any way
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