#i did p good tho im proud of that :3

[immortal-cataclysm]

I BEAT BEDMAN ARCADE MODE YAYYY god i love color 21 its so cool. my beloved bastard man

[faunandfloraas]

Okay so!! Im back now and its journal entry time. highlights of dominATE sydney, in no particular order:

Chan starting the show by stealing the joke from the reporter from the project by being like we're straya kids hehehe

Lee know not really introducing himself but rather just chanting OI OI OI immediately (he continued this the rest of the night

Seungmin started the night by singing SYDNEYYYYY very passionatly and kept adlibbing Sydney into so mang songs for the rest of the night. My fave being "Cause stuff it all cuz I'm gonna go SYDNAYYY"

Han at one point was suddenly laying on the floor being all silly and then chan feigned stomping him ?? And my brother was like HUH lmao

Lee know kept feeling up Changbin (understandable) he also gave changbin the mic during lee knows part, so he had to sing them 🩷

Chan FINALLY saying fuck /into the mic/ after 150 years of me talking shit 🫶

The dad in front of me who honestly seemed more into the show than his teenage kids, perhaps helped by the fact he was smashing back beers- could hear him passionately trying to keep up with Han rapping at one point so automatically I respect him

The girl behind me who went CHANGBIN really deep and evil when she thought it was time for his solo but it was not in fact LMAO

Saw Hannah bahng! Saw Mr and Mrs Bang. They were very smiley, it was cute!

I got to see chan annoy seungmin briefly <3 with my own eyes 🥰

AUSSIE BOY HWANG HYUNJIN!! SYDNEY BOY HWANG HYUNJIN

Innie walked in front of the camera slightly ruining a hyunjin and han lil gay moment and made > :0 this face before ducking. Also him being all My stage Ahhh sexy 😇

Just any and all changbin.

Lee know and seungmins vocal lesson were really on display bc they Made Sure you could hear their voices over the music and I loved every second!

Chan railway was truly An Experience. He had me enthralled. He had my bro enthralled. He had the drunk dad enthralled.

Seungmin thanking chans dad for food LMAO

Hyunjins repeated winks at the camera being met with ungodly roars was totally expected and yet I roared along. Fanservice king if im honest.

Felix and chan being lil gronks together was so funny.... so good. I love them....

They faked it was the end and people did get up to go but I was like NUH UH seungmin was not the last one on that stage they're coming back!! And I was RIGHT and when they did end he was the last one and he ended the night with an evil cackle and it only cemented my love more 🫶

Lee know happy birthday!! Not to be a gay lil thing but I was so happy we got to sing it for him! And confuse him and hyunjin with the HIP HIP HOORAY also im p sure chan thinks its HIP IP lol

I also saw him eat shit and slip a lil which was funny, right at the end of the show.

Also lee know lifted seungmins arm in the air at the end this time! Not the other way around!! He did that for me, I think. Also put his arm around his shoulders- so 🫶 I got chan and seungmin and lee know and seungmin 🫶 my fellas 🫶

All in all it was so fun and the band was amazing too, the light show... such a good night.

And Bang Chan. Well. I love him. Lol. I really kinda do tho. He said I'm chris from Sydney and I was like Yeah! you are!! Idk. Everyone was amazing but he was the main event, maybe bc he's the sydney boy... also the fan event at the end was a sweet little animation and he was the prince and it made me laugh bc I do keep saying he's the crown prince of Sydney.... he's honestly really someone I think I'm quite happy to see representing us on such a big world stage, bc he does really seem to have such a big heart and a lot of love- idk. Christopher Bang. What a fella. His smile is truly like a beam and he was so happy and every time he was smiling, I was smiling, too. I hope he feels proud tonight, lol.

And I still wanna bite seungmin on the cheek 🫶 Suffice to say- best concert to break my many years no concert streak with 🩷 it was a lovely night.

Also felix went from being bone dry to soaked head to toe in about 3 seconds when I wasn't looking 😭

[sh0smile]

P1HARMONY:

TELLING THEM YOURE TRANS

HII this is my first post!! i’ve really wanted to post on here for a while but i didn’t know what to write about. i figured what better to start off with than something i can relate to? i hope that this reaches other trans people as well!!

additionally, i’ll be taking requests for anything people want me to write!! i’d like it to just be within xdinary heroes and p1harmony pls, and i don’t think ill be writing for female reader, but i can do any other gender! thank youuuu!!! <33

PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE let me know what i can fix or improve on about my writing or format, im open to any feedback and i really wanna get better at this!

WARNINGS:

-gender dysohoria

-mentioned transphobia and bigotry (it doesn’t actually happen tho)

-implied ftm reader, but i suppose this could be seen as a mtf as well!

☆KEEHO☆

-will not hesitate to correct anyone and everyone on your preferred name and pronouns, and will absolutely deck anyone who tries to be mean to you

-i also feel like he would totally be the fastest abt memorizing your name and everything and he would never misgender you once (or at least try not to :P)

☆THEO☆

-of course he rubbed it in everyone’s faces that you were the first person he told, but in reality it makes him smile every time he thinks about how you trust him so much

-insisted on cutting your hair, and actually did a pretty good job (everytime you teased him, he would try to cut off a chunk of your hair)

-absolutely the kind of person who will say “you core” and point every single time you guys see anything involving being trans. like literally seeing a transformers poster and out of nowhere he’s going “that’s so you” LMAO

☆JIUNG☆

-he reacts pretty normally, it the minute you leave he’s freaking out, goes and buys you five binders, and then demands you come shopping with him

-“i know i don’t understand this all that much, but you know ill always try for you. im here for you, always.”

-again with if any bigots try to be rude to you, he will in fact go feral !

☆INTAK☆

-let’s be real, bro definitely cried 💀

-happy tears tho, he was so so so proud of you!!

-donates half of his closet to you he’s so cute omg

-“i was going through my old stuff and i found this sweater..do you want it? oh, you do? great, here’s 5 more!! :3”

☆SOUL☆

-“oh, yea, i know”

-he just knows you better than you know yourself???

-but the number one person to go if you’re feeling dysphoric, trust!!

☆JONGSEOB☆

-immediately started researching everything he could possibly do to support you :(

-no bc if he accidentally misgendered you he’s apologizing for weeks afterwards, no matter how many times you tell him it’s fine he’s so precious

-he also probably cried lol

[xx-psych0-rabbit-xx]

Do you have any OCs? feel free to talk about them if you do

What was the first piece of media you engaged with on the internet? Are you still interested in it?

What's something you made or did that you're proud of?

What's something that made you smile this month?

oh my god this ask is ANCIENT i have no idea where it even came from im sorry tumblr user i do not recognize 💔 ill still answer bc its silly

1.i have a couple!! an edgy fantasy story i refuse to pick back up, a group of ocs i repurpose constantly even if they have a main story so theres like 50 versions of them, an old elementary kirby n sonic ocs that were recolors i redesigned n keep around for funsies n a joke rain world oc i think abt too much

2.pokemon n digimon n barbie.all rly close together but pokemon was def first.i remember my uncle downloaded a bunch of pokemon clips for me but one of them was a bloody pikachu amv that scared yet fascinated me but i cant find it again :c probably deleted or had like 2k views n the modern search will never find it again 💔

3.id say my art n if not too egotistical i like to think im p good at media analysis ive made before :3

(not actually apologizing for my ego just saying that out of principle lmao)

4.we adopted a kitty last month n he runs on no brain cells n is comically clingy he makes me giggle a lot.wish hed stop sneezing on me tho its like he aims at me on purpose sometimes

[mg549]

lichen 🌲, frog 🐸, clover ☘, thicket 🌳, n fern 🌿 :]€

lichen 🌲 - what do you like to collect?

ogh Everythinggg. when i say im a maximalist i mean it fr. my most visible collection is my monster high rig (which has 70 dolls currently! theres only 2 more i want but im Saving them as presents to myself for when i pay off my student loan (biden PLEASE come through)) but within the past couple weeks ive also started collecting rainbow high dolls (which once everything ships to me i will have. 31 which. is a lot tbf BUT im really good at finding deals and the average price i paid for one was $13.66 which is crazy since a. they retail for like $30 each minimum and b. ive literally paid more for singular monster high accessories bhgfbgjfdhdf). i also collect mermaid high and zombie girls bc theyre both small discontinued lines and i loooove collecting things that are no longer produced bc its a guarantee that theres an interesting story behind it. some other things i collect are rocks, fossils, halloween decor, and tbh its kinda hard for me to draw the line between “thing i collect” and “themes that if an object has im 100% certain to buy it on sight” tbh fbhfdgbkfd

frog 🐸 - name 3+ things you like about yourself

i love my hair :))) best feature of me. i also like that i can draw/very easily visualize new ideas (i dont think ive really ever experienced genuine art block beyond jst being unmotivated or worn out) and ive been starting to go swimming again (every weekend!!!) and im proud that i was able to do the whole pool in one breath in my monofin. i def wanna improve my breathhold tho its p bad bc of l’Asthma and also bc last weekend was only the second time ive gonne swimming in like. the past 10 years hbhgbfk parce que le dysphoria

clover ☘ - have you ever found a four-leaf clover?

yes!!! ive even found ones with more than four :))) they used to grow in the yard of my childhood home

thicket 🌳 - how close do you live to a forest? have you ever explored it?

unforch i dont rly live near forests anymore 😔ig you could call the trees on the mountains forest-y but the pines jst seem so Sparse that it doesnt rly register as forest to me for the most part jfffgjd. i have gone hiking dans le woods tho. in college i used to live next to a big forest of longleaf pines&i was in there all the goddamn time. before then my old apt had a little patch of thick woods that i was also in as much as possible and did explore, but it was a p small patch and also really Dense with hilly terrain and no paths whatsoever so there was only so much i could do. my old childhood home had woods behind it and i did go in them sometimes but i wasnt rly allowed bc i was Baby. east coast woods rly jst hit kinda different tbh theres literally magic in there tbh.

fern 🌿 - if you were any kind of plant, which one would you be?

hrmmmmmmmm... my go-to plant for characters im projecting on is kudzu so probably that. none of its qualities rly like correlate with me but i grew up seeing it everywhere and the imagery of hot summers where it overtakes everything in sight has always stuck with me...

[fail-boy]

waaaah say hi to her for me!!!!!👋👋👋👋 walking dogs with just music sounds so nice, ive looked into being a dog walker many times before but i cant drive so i wouldn't be able to get to anyone's house >.< (also im scared of small dogs and most people here have smaller dogs...i much prefer bigger ones bc they're nicer to me) i hope the 'za is tasty🍕🍕 as for me...i never have plans lol i mainly just watch videos and try to draw. however i did recently clean up the floor of my room enough to be able to see it and walk again so that's exciting for me :D

also- i have a partner and am polyam too!!!! twinsies!!!!!! ill do my best to flirt bc ill be honest. i dont know how. nor do i pick up on it but ill try my darndest🫡

what music do you listen to??? i listen to like practically anything and everything, just as long as i vibe with the sound. who's your favorite artist!!!!!!! mine is red vox!!!!!! they're a smaller band i found through the lead singers twitch streams and ive loved them for years now :D oh and what're some hobbies you have :0? sorry if this is a lot of questions im just excited!!!!

- 🫀🦷

i didn't end up going! i got too stoned and rescheduled for later this week haha (>_<) i actually don't drive myself i get the bus everywhere but i get that not everywhere has decent public transport, im just lucky enough to live in sydney. i usually walk medium sized doggies like pitbulls and staffies :3 my dog is a little dog he's a pug and he's a very sweet boy he would love u <3

im soooo excited for pizza ive been waiting since i ran out of money last week, i get paid in a couple days and im so excited

that sounds fun tho! i dont do much most days either i usually just smoke and watch youtube videos and thats abt it hahaha. fuck yeah good job on your floor!!!!!! that kinda stuff takes so so much effort im proud of u cutie <3

woohoo!!! twinsies for real!!!!! and that's okay sugar as long as i can flirt back :p

musicwise i listen to lots of punk subgenres like folk punk and hardcore punk i like green day, ajj, she/her/hers, harley poe and pansy division, i like post hardcore like thursday, early mcr, circa survive, and saosin, 90s-early 2000s emo, i like metal too i really like mayhem, cattle decapitation, cannibal corpse, xavleg, dying fetus, ayat, and suicide silence <33333 those r probably my faves but ill listen to anything someone recommends so pls let me know your other favourites!!! ive heard of red vox ill make sure to check them out now!

[brosbeinghomies]

i have been ridiculously afraid of even going near my laptop for the last 2 weeks because i knew i had programing hw waiting for me. because of this irrationally fearful procrastination i had an overwhelming amount of hw to do and lectures to watch. combine that with stress from other subjects and the past few weeks ive been mentslly torturing myself. well today i got a burst of motivation at 2 am and finally did one out of 10 assignments. its not much but it took me over 3 hours and a lot of anxiety and im lowkey proud of myself (even tho i feel like i shouldnt be). just wanted to share that. have a good day :P

[nar-nia]

HELLOOOOOOOOO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FIRST OF all, 6pm was so cute :((( please :((( i keep repeating myself with these but i CANT stress it enough, ur fluffy scenarios are to die for !!!!!!! please!!!!! so.adorable.so.so.so. adorable!!!!!!!!! <3 i loved it !! and hee was so amazing here :((( he screamed comfort and love !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it was so GOOD!!!!! thank u ilysm <333

 SECOND OF ALL, OMG GOMG OGMJKIDSUGBHXHSJ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THE TRAILER ???????// I'M SO ???????? IT WAS SO GOOD ??? THE VAMPIRE VIBE?? THE SHOTS?? THE FIGHTING ?? THE ACTING??? THE CINEMATOGRAPHY?? IT WAS EVERYTHING, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAMAZED !!!!!!!!!!

i'm obsessed!!!!!! and so proud of them this looked like a lot of work!!! im hyped!!!!!!!!!!!! SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!

sorry for screaming :p !! ! i hope u had a great weekend!!!!!! ily !!!!!!!!!

also hee was not much in it but this part !!!!!!!!!!!!!

https://twitter.com/lheesoftie/status/1652695873141497856?s=20

so pretty!!!!!!  alsoo hoon actor tho >> ?? and wonie on a motorcycle wow

                                        -beloved anonie!!!!!!! so excited!!!!!!!

HELLOOOO 💖💖

i'm sorry for replying so late, i was away all day yesterday so i only had time now. but hi <33

i'm really happy you liked 6pm, i really love it too and i'm happy how it turned out. i'm proud of it 😶 and i'm glad you loved hee because he deserves all of it!! i love him so much 🥹

AND THE TRAILER! i have to out myself and admit i'm not the biggest fan but YES. the cinematography was amazing and i'm so proud of our actor!enha. they did such a great job with it. i just watched a bit of the behind the scenes video and i'm just amazed by how much work went into it. they really went all out and now i'm even more excited for this album.

i missed hee in the trailer but hoon was so amazing and did so well, the fight scenes really fitted him (and him on a horse?? just wow).

i hope you had a great weekend too and will have a great week! i love you tooo 💖

[blank1eboi]

so my mom got me into stranger things right. we binged all of s3 today because i'm sick and why not. these characters are giving me brainrot.

steve? gets sillier every scene. what a silly guy. my mom says he and robin look like little sailor babies in their uniforms and i thought that was silly. also? shut up. everyone in this group is a nerd. you are a nerd, just maybe.. not in the same way. ur little car stunt? that poor car but also FUCK YEAH GET EM!

dustin? perfect silly guy and everyone who hurts him makes my blood boil. he just a little guy. he looked so silly in his snow ball outfit. his relationship with steve makes me so happy they r like brothers.

hopper? idiot. silly idiot. why are you emotionally constipated so BAD. at least he is LEARNING how to communicate properly. i'm proud of him. silly guy.

joyce? good mom. im proud of her and she goes through so much shit. i hope she and hopper can properly get their shit together but also kinda not because let me tell u it can be FUNNY. she needs a break i think. give joyce byers a break.

robin? <3 i got so excited when i saw her ace ring my mom had to pause it so i could do a mini-ramble about ace rings. she is also a nerd. she does not act like it at the very beginning of the season but she is SUCH a nerd.

erica? sometimes she can be VERY RELATABLE. very mood and i am happy she is safe. also top tier sibling relationship when she said she believed dustin ab the crazy shit just not that lucas could ever be involved.

nancy? kind of an asshole again but that's ok. she's p chill otherwise and i think she just has too much trauma and isn't very good at handling it. also BAMF. nancy wheeler BAMF and you can rip this from my cold dead hands. her hair looked very pretty this season too. i love her

mrs wheeler? the beginning of the season, that thing with billy? that had me wince quite a few times. icky yucky. but. also good mom at end of it after nancy got fired and just. after the thing with billy she was p cool.

(idk if u can tell but these characters are in ZERO order it's just who is on my mind)

billy? VERY ICKY. s2 and almost all of s3 i had ZERO sympathy for him. then his dad was an ass and when he sacrificed himself because he thought of his mom that was actually like. ouch, but still i hate you. also his hair is ugly change my mind.

max? actually kinda of hated her the first few episodes she was in. like. she was kind of a bitch. she grew on me tho!! and by the time she and el started talking i was happy to see her. she's also. not as whiny as most of the boys in the group so. that was nice and her hair is always cute.

el? able to consistently get on my nerves and make me happy. it's a little funky. GREAT style tho i would steal a lot of her clothes. her relationship with hopper makes me go <3

suzie? did not like, personally, but i wouldn't protest if she showed up again. also if she wasn't annoying and made dustin sing hopper wouldn't have that shit happen to her and i would like her more.

bob? i was sad and i probably cried idr. he grew on me and i think he was sweet. he made joyce happy and he made me happy that he liked to help even when he had no clue what was going on and sometimes his advice didn't work.

mike? whiny bitch. learn how to be a decent friend and i'll give u another thought. why is nothing ever your fault? have you ever considered that it MIGHT be at least partially your fault?? ass.

will? honestly, the kid grows on me. he's always caught up in some shit and its hard to actually get anything from that but what you do get... he mostly seems like a sentimental guy who just wants to play games with his friends. i can respect that.

lucas? if he does dumb shit in s4 i WILL call him out. no hesitation. he is prone to doing dumb shit with zero regard for the consequences it seems. he's at least useful when you need him and can find him.

jonathan? he switches between "oh he's p chill actually" and "JONATHAN WHAT THE FUCK" so. idk. u kno what i mean. he's pretty smart tho he carries the party when they're stressed and i'm proud of him.

um. i think that's it. i started this post the day that i finished s3, got tired and went to bed, and now it is a whole 5 days later and i am one ep off from finishing s4. yay?

[zooone]

mutual love!!!! inspired by @gaytoadwithapopcicle (anon love will come tomorrow,,, ,.,,.,.,.,, im tirired)

@lyssys - oh my goodness where do i even begin. um. the whole reason why im even here???? the whole reason why i love logging onto tumblr?????? the whole reason that im inspired????? uh. hello??? literally greatest person ever. ive said this before but they remind me of mumza and niki... as caring and sweet and open as mumza and as beautiful and empowering as niki!!! the best of the best... huge inspiration for me,,, and im lowkey still shocked that she was my first mutual and she (wonderful amazing beautiful lyss) asked me (rambling bozo) to be moots! but nonetheless it was absolutely amazing ofc!! i worship them soso much. deserves the world <33

@sardonic-the-writer - insanely similar to lyss'- where do i even begin. i used to literally freak out to your amazing writing. again, v v surprised that they (absolutely cool, insanely talented sardonic) asked me (someone who used to reel over their work and inhale it like air) to be mutuals!!! aaa i remember when they first asked,,, i recently hit 100 nd was playing guitar when i saw them ask to be moots! i had to put my instrument down so i caan get up and jump w joy :)) but anywho very very talented! and accepting as well, i dunno how they were able to withstand me and lyss spamming them w scrunkbut /affectionate. also the whole reason i have like half of my mutuals :DD couldnt have done it w/o u man :)

@gaytoadwithapopcicle - MY MANNN!!1!!!!! my pal my guy my brotherein my homeslicicle my bro...... another instance in which i got rlly happy when they asked to be moots!!! like okqoabajwjsjwmwnwbsmdm this insanely cool person wants to befriend me???!!!?!???? i was shocked, to say the least. but toad is so so so cool!!!!!!!!! im exteemely flattered to be their first mutual and i hope i made a well first impression of how it feels to have a moot!! but v v v kind and sweet and respectful!! i feel v safe and welcome in their dms and theyre the coolest absolutely

@harbingerofheartbreak - yet another moment that i was shocked when she asked to be moots (man, i really am a fuckin loser, huh? /pos) honestly one of the most, if not the most, talented writer i know. the grammar they use is immaculate whilst also being still comprehensive,,, the way they show emotion is picture perfect,,,,,, and to say that way she writes stories to flow so well it blows me away is an understatement!!!! if they released a book id be the first to buy /hj,,, but aside from their amazing talent, they're also so so so sweet too! v supportive of others work, and wont hesitate to be the sweetest ever!!! aaaa i love em sm :)) <33 /p

@gh0st-b0ys - a huge issue i have w myself is that i often think im too annoying, by ghostly never made me feel like that. id post something absolutely idiotic, and still get happy when they would like it!! didnt matter what it was, as long as i get a like from them, everything is alright :)),,,, also they said that they idolized me?!?2!1?1?1??1?!3?1!!?2! wtf!?2!?!????????!1!1?! /pos waaa i cant express into words how happy that made me feel.... i idolize people all the time and to know that someone is like that towards me makes it sm easier to get out of bed. and even tho we havent had a lotta interaction between each other,,, i just wanna let em know that theyre insanely cool :Dd

@pebblebrainlovejoy - proud to say i watched them grow 💪💪💪💪 i feel like a proud older sibling whenever i see their blog. i remember seeing one of their newer works (cant remember what it was but at the time it only had like 2 notes) and i thought "this is actually amazing,, this persons gonna blow up, i swear." and they did!!!! and im so so so proud of them!!!!!1!!1 honestly, i love seeing their blog on my dash and it makes me the happiest whenever i do. absolutrly amazing writer as well!!! i respect them not only as a mutual vut as a writer definitely. cant even describe how happy their work makes me,.,,, like its amazing,, i would recommend it a thousand percent to people absolutely <33

[tobi-momo]

Them Congratulating You On Getting Your Grades Up

PAIRINGS: Kuroo Tetsurou x Reader | Iwaizumi Hajime x Reader | Tsukishima Kei x Reader | Bokuto Koutarou x Reader

GENRE: fluff, crack (?), comfort (?)

WARNINGS: none :p

A/N: ok so I meant to write this a long time ago but...it obvs didn't happen ig- this is so self indulgent im- I wrote this bc i recently got most of my grades up from F's to B's and I'm proud so I want to show you guys how they would be proud of you too!!!

the moment you show him your new grades he's pulling you tight into his embrace

He had been helping you with your assignments for months now, staying up late with you on either video call or he was physically with you, comforting you when the stress was too much

But now all that work has paid off and your grade has finally got up, he couldn't be happier for you

His hands hold you firmly against him as you squeal into his shoulder, chuckles of his own seeping from his mouth

“I Did it. Finally,” you breathe out, like a 300 pound weight was lifted off your shoulders

“You did, Baby, and I’m so proud of you.”

You could cry, right now, honestly

You can bet your ASS hes buying you dinner- whatever you want bc its YOUR day

Hes gonna treat you like absolute ROYALTY (more than he already does, obvs)

A calming night with movies and cuddling would suffice too, he thought, bringing a soft, fleece blanket to your figure before letting you make yourself comfortable on his body, laying on the couch

You deserved this, after all your hard work :)

When you told him your grade went up, he just chuckles lightly before waking over with ease, patting you on the head a couple times before sincerely saying, “That’s amazing, Y/n, good job,” with a smile

He hadn’t helped you as much as he’d liked too, but he could see how hard you were working for this.

You had missed multiple calls and texts from him because you were studying, you arrive to school with dark circles under your eyes because of how late you stayed up for this-

You worked so damn hard for this, and you're finally getting what you wanted. He couldn't be prouder

His eyes widen as you topple him onto his bed, yet he wasnt surprised when his arms automatically wrapped around your figure to keep you on top of him, his large hands dragging you up to chest as you lay your head down near his shoulder, his fingers finding a strand of hair to play with while you sigh with content

He missed this

“Thank you, Haji.”

“For?”

“Waiting for me.”

“Of course. I’ll always be there.”

This. mf.

So fucking rude istg AND FOR WHAT

You excitingly told him ab your grades going up, yet he brushes it off

“Just now? Those assignments were easy,” he states

You were kinda pissed. Who was he to treat you like that? After you worked so hard?

But you were also kinda sad. Your boyfriend didn’t recognize how many hours you wasted doing work instead of texting him, how many sleepless nights you had simply doing late math work. He dismissed you like it was nothing

So, you turn around, not saying a word as you walk away

“Hey- wait,” he sighs, his fingers going to push his glasses back. “Good job. I guess.”

Your heels spin you around as your eyebrows perk up in confusion. You couldnt help the smile that painted your face, tho

“Wait, really?” you say with excitement

“Yeah, whatever, just,” he sighs again, turning around without warning before he says, “come on.”

“Where are we going?”

“What’s your favorite candy?”

“Baby! Guess what!”

“What, Kou?”

“I got my grades up!”

Yeahp. Him too. Honestly, this made you feel better, because you two had studied together (a tragic thing, really. You two barely processed a word that the textbooks emitted into your brains. Or maybe they didn't emit at all…)

“So did I!”

“Wait, actually?!”

“Yeah!”

You guys are yelling in keysmashes, piling on each other as you laugh and congratulate each other for your hard work

“I’m so proud of you, Baby!!!” He peppers kisses all over your face and body as you two lay on the floor together

“You too, Darling! Our hard work paid off, huh?”

“Sure did! Now I can be the best volleyball player and the best student,” he shouts with pride

Your loud giggles was your only reply, as your head turns and nuzzles into his side while his hands fixate on your back and your waist, his lips pressing soft butterfly kisses to teh crown of your head

heaven

update💀my grades went back down while i was writing this- hm- gonna go study after this ig

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[literaphobe]

Have you ever ranked your favorite mcc vods? 👀

OOH ok lets do this (here’s my top 5 for s2 just to have a theme)

1. mcc all stars

- i enjoy sheer epic dominance and having the muffinteers just do awesome at parkour tag, sky battle, ace race, sands, and tgttosawaf is AWESOME also they clean swept dodgebolt i do love a good victory ^_^

2. mcc16

- the truth is i don’t really rewatch this one THAT much but i do love it and i love that they were underrated but they gelled SO well and pulled off the back to back, i think every member of this team was golden and perfect even if they aren’t people dream hangs out w every day (w the exception of bad) and i’m glad that dream pulled off impressive plays in parkour tag, tgttosawaf, ace race, and sands of time w that crazy clutch. i SO loved seeing him get that well deserved 1st place in parkour tag, the redemptions in tgttosawaf and ace race and especially after that disastrous mcc15 ace race like he got the fastest lap that event n pulled off a crazy skip!! dodgebolt was so nerve wracking but seeing him win back to back made me jump up and down it was so euphoric

3. mcc22

- this would’ve been higher if not for that tragic dodgebolt because i cannot by principle enjoy something that devastating. but this team was SO good and perfect for dream like his epic speedrun to first knocking jojo and purpled out of the way w three 1st places in a row was impeccable. we could’ve had a new S tier that day but dream said no im gatekeeping and im gonna be S tier AGAIN. knocked inverted space race out of the park and proved that he is unbeatable in that map (and now ace race as we know it is gone .), pulled off first in SoT again (wouldve been awesome if he got the vault and left) and crushed TGTTOSAWAF like u dont get it he beat second place by about 100 points whereas in events like mcc23 for example top 3 were apart by a handful of coins or something im p sure 1st and 2nd unmultiplied were separated by ONE coin anyway yeah… just skip dodgebolt n this is the best mcc evaaaa first place dream RIGHTS

4. mcc pride 2022

- i almost forgot about this mcc before i picked 4th. in reality due to recency bias i would put this and mcc22 above 16 but im just gonna keep everything where it is and well i love a good gay event and i think their parkour tag dominance was crazy and dream’s best in terms of survival, i loved the ace race shenanigans and the HITW dnf finish and seeing dream place that high in HITW was awesome but i felt low key cheated on his behalf for ace race and tgttosawaf :(

5. mcc23

- this has to be recency bias again but this really popped off for me bc dream when he has something to prove is kinda……. like the fact that he did very well in the pvp games all things considered makes me proud of him the fact that he came back from that 40th place in ace race to SEVENTH is hot and come on now… that RSR man

honorable mentions: i am too lazy to explain why the other s2 mccs weren’t top 5 rn i will in another ask tho send it if u wanna know <3

[bisamwilson]

O and P from the fanfic ask game! (Sidenote: excited to read your Sambucky Star Wars au!!)

hi cat!!! thanks for the ask <3 (from this list)

so excited that you're excited for my star wars au!!! i'm perhaps a little unreasonably proud of/happy with that one im ngl

O: How do you begin a story—with the plot, or the characters?

i mean i feel like i'm generally writing about the same two to three characters in most fics so by default i tend to start with the characters? every fic i've written has mostly been in pursuit of hammering out the exact characterization i have for sam and bucky that fits in with what we've seen in the mcu (and same with torres in the sbj fics i've written!)

there are some exceptions to this tho! the one last stop au is a major one; i was reading one last stop in august/september of 2021 and i was like oh my god this could SO easily have sambucky vibes and then i started writing based on having that general plot outline, and it was the fic that launched me into writing in general! the princess diaries au is another good example of plot first; i'd always wanted to write one for a fandom but had never had the inspo before sambucky + i really wasn't sure exactly what side characters were going into each role until i started writing. i'd planned to make sam's arranged marriage partner maria rambeau and have her pair up with bucky's fake date carol danvers at first, and had even written that up till like halfway through chapter 4 before i went back and changed this to ayo and sarahayo!

P: Are you what George R. R. Martin would call an "architect" or a "gardener"? (How much do you plan in advance, versus letting the storu unfold as you go?)

this is almost entirely dependent on how long the fic is! if it's a fic i think is probably going to end up >10k (princess diaries, one last stop, sam takes bucky home to delacroix before civil war au, potential upcoming ghost au), then i've usually got at least a general outline before i start, if not a very detailed list of exactly what major plot points happen in each chapter like i did with the princess diaries au (of course this got changed some in the early stages, seeing my answer above, but it was pretty much entirely finalized by the time i finished chapter 4)

if it's one of my shorter fics, sometimes things just get written down and then they work! the star wars au is actually a great example of this. i truly did think i was gonna be writing a fun little space romp and then it turned into feelings and angst and longing and a short indictment of some of the jedi rules for way of life. the first chapter of renaissance man, two chapters of some invisible string tying you to me, and all of we don't talk anymore got written on discord pretty spontaneously and in one go, so these are also some pretty great examples of "sometimes words just happen"

tldr; this is pretty fic dependent (and often fic length dependent!)

[hematomes]

naos! very glad to see you're back & doing better<3

as you noticed,, I did not get to rewriting that ask after class bc I TOTALLY fucking forgot and now it's all left my head. the only thing I remember talking about is how you're indisputably a sweetheart & abt that poem i mentioned (basically it's not too bad but it does have some violent imagery and it's not exactly Wholesome, so if you feel ok reading it sometime lmk)

in the meantime, here's a little thing I wrote last week. I was supposed to make it into a complete poem by today for a submission, but I didn't have the time:

god is in the blinking lights, she says,

neon draped over her shoulders

like a blanket weaved from the brightest nights in history.

my god, you are so right, i tell her.

keep talking, please, i tell her.

outside a motorbike rushes past in sonic speed

sending newspaper articles flying

like dust inside our bedroom.

speaking of dust & bedrooms, I had to clean mine today and i am so fucking exhausted. i had 0 time for chores and the state of it was simply tragic. anyway, what are you doing today?

~soup

aaaa ill tell u once im good enough to stomach violent stuff yesh <3

zndkz soup the narrator of ur poem, im assuming it's you, SOUNDS LIKE A BOTTOM. loving it. also a giant simp. still loving it. she's clearly worth it

chores are awful i hate them i hate them a lot. proud of you tho

i diiid nothing, tried my clothes on, watched dumb tv shows w my mom and little brother and then s l e p t

[mangomochi-yn]

[volleyball with the aces]

haikyuu best boi aces x reader

g. all around fluff! (and crack :P) wc. 12-17 bullets/ea

contains. bokuto k., sakusa k., asahi a., iwaizumi h., ushijima w., futakuchi k.

bokuto

this hyper baby

the minute you suggest it he’s shouting in excitement

would immediately get ready to serve at you, even stopping practice

((but luckily akaashi stops him to let you gear up))

“whoa y/n you have to practice with me now! youre good!!”

always. i repeat aLWAYS exclaims (with glee) when you make a tricky move like a curved spike or a float serve

laughs when he has to sprint to receive a feign

v v tempted to show off his spikes but doesn’t wanna hurt you (awe bb 🥺)

so he’ll pretend to go really hard but then mid air just like *taps* the ball. asgshgshshdksl

overall super fun and super loud

he literally just turns into a ball of sunshine and youre just 💘💞

10/10 can’t get better than him

sakusa

this boi

ya gotta convince for a while

will be like why? what brought this? you want to get sweaty and dirty? are you that bored?

like bruh 😑

eventually gives in when u tell him u just want to play with him

plays normally for the most part

(he knows you can handle some of his spikes and serves 💪)

but he will lightly tease you with a curveball every now and then

oh and btw you’re geared up to the max before you start like 💯

— im talking knee pads, elbow pads, hair tied up and tight, compression shorts (absolutely NO loose and hazardous clothes), and dont forget double knotted shoelaces

afterwards? i m m e d i a t e shower

you better drink your water in 10secs cause he will not hesitate to scoop you up and throw you in there if you take any longer

all in all was the game worth all the time it takes to gear up and the 1hr shower after?

100% — that small smile he had as he played with you was a blessing in itself

will give you some pointers too after just cause he hopes to play with you more smoothly next time

8/10 ur very clean now. very refreshed

asahi

now we all know how unsure and nervous this jesus is

so naturally, once u ask him he’ll be like 😳 with me? why?

ur like “ur my boyfriend asahi, who else would i play with” 😐

“noya’s pretty fun to play with”

😑 bruh

just act all pouty and mad and he’ll be right on it though

plays softly, very leisurely

it’s as if you two were just.. passing the ball to each other (and it got a bit boring)

so you told him

asahi spike em balls pls ☺️

he laughs but eventually does and right then and there you remember how he is the a c e

1 dive turns into 2, 2 turns into 3, next thing you knew you were rolling all over the place trying to receive (noya’s v proud btw)

meanwhile asahi was having so much fun so ur just like 🥺 dont matter! anything for him!!

“that was so much fun, y/n!” your heart melts at how he beams at you after, he was sweaty all over but somehow he said he felt ‘refreshed’

i think ur confused bby

but anyways 8/10 protect him at all costs or u catch these fists

iwaizumi

like sakusa this boy will be a bit sus

like he’ll say yeah right away but will be like??

when you tell him you just wanna play with him he then turns a bit of a cocky bitch (unintentionally!!)

hes like “😏 oh? i won’t hold back yknow.”

lies.

worse than boku he def holds back

just receives all the time like boy?? wheres that strong ass spike form i fell for? 

the minute you tell him to not be a 🅿️ussy though be ready cause he will get in the zone

— he decided he might as well use this for actual practice 💀

so in the end you’re dead. arms sore.

“we should do this more often babe its fun practicing with you” as he takes a swig from his water bottle shoving it to u after

how can you say no tho when you see that bright ass smile of his and hear his hearty laughter?

you lk regret asking but in the end what makes baby daddy happy — he gets 😪

another 8/10 at least u see the bara arms flex during the whole thing

ushijima

“huh okay”

ya kinda feel bad asking him cause he had to stop practicing but bbys like “no. we can play like you want it’s fine.”

and it’s like... hes playing with a child

(hes also part of the gear you to the max squad btw)

but anyways as he plays with u a few mins in you’re like 👁👄👁 boy what is this mockery

but then before you complain you now notice him gradually amping up his spikes— not just receiving as often any more (oh? 👀)

turns out baby boi was just assessing you it seems. agsshsksjjl what a man 💔

cracks a smile every now and then when you barely receive something while u shout-laugh loudly at him

then afterwards he hydrates u to the max

im talking g a l l o n s

(you got your 8 cups for the whole week now)

then offers to bathe or massage you if you’re too tired cause unlike u hes like so unaffected 😐

like one (1) single sweatdrop on his forehead and thats it

gives you pointers as he massages you too but overall says not to hesitate to ask him if you wanted to play again

another 10/10 baby’s perfect

futakuchi

sassy mf

“are you sure? i wont hold back you know.”

(him and iwaizumi — to the streets!)

((jk just him cause iwa is bae))

he’s still not done at just that btw

“did you want my attention that much 😘 im kinda busy tho” so u hit him with a “nah nvm then”

and this mf hugs you so fast and says he might as well since you asked (smh 🤦‍♀️)

and this boy..

he’s asahi but intentionally

— like why??? are you running back and forth the edges of the court???

“go go dateko!” he fuccin sings as he sees you run to where he received the ball to 💀

— the complete opposite side of where you were btw

will also urge and keep teasing you to try tricky moves on him

*loud fake gasp as you do a curve spike*

istg if you could still walk at the end of playing with him you wouldve drop kicked him instantly

smothers you with kisses and hugs, and offers to carry you home after though so you cant really be too mad 🙄

all in all 7 jelly legs out of 10 (hes lucky u love him)

a/n. i used to play varsity in my middle and high school vbc!! i loved being a pinch server but most of my days i was a wing spiker 😗 did one year as a libero and gave up immediately cause i had no idea how to dive properly (komori pls teach ur ways 🤲) i would literally sacrifice my w h o l e b o d y to receive every time

[my-happy-little-bean]

Blossom

pairings: logan/patton (logicality) (because im trash) words: 2776 warnings: swearing, panic attack, implied toxic parental relationship, mention of an implied suicide attempt, fighting summary: 

blos·som /ˈbläsəm/

verb - to produce flowers or masses of flowers. - to develop in a promising way

Or: the five times Logan couldn’t see the flowers, and the one time he did.

a/n- hello! i hope you are all doing well during this strange quaran-time! i present to you, my first non-golden slumbers flower-related fic (still logicality tho,,, y'all can rip that pairing out of my dead, cold hands :pp). i had a really strange dream last night that had something to do with this concept and hey, you know what i do with dreams :p

i hope you enjoy it ^v^

read on ao3~

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dedicated to the one bit of starlight that always remembers to water my garden 

~*~

1. 

Logan was halfway up the porch stairs when Patton mentioned the flowers for the first time. 

“I’m telling you, Lo!” Patton followed Logan into their new house, carrying boxes behind him. “They were little yellow daffodils, just sprouting behind you as you walked! It was so pretty!” 

“Patton, it takes twelve to fifteen weeks for daffodils to bloom after chilling,” Logan said pointedly, setting his own boxes down by an old, tattered couch in the living room. “Besides, even if there were some growing, I would be more concerned that there is something prompting growth underneath our house.”

Patton giggled, putting his boxes down beside Logan’s. He wrapped his arms around Logan’s waist from the back, going on the tips of his toes to kiss the back of his neck. 

“Our home,” he murmured in Logan’s skin. Logan smiled. 

“Yes,” he said, looking around at their surroundings. “It is...a start.”

“It’ll be more than that soon enough!” Patton chirped, taking Logan’s hand and spinning himself underneath it with a squeal. Logan couldn’t help smile, moving his arm more purposefully to properly spin Patton around until he was standing right in front of him. 

“I’m so happy,” Patton said with a sigh and that lopsided smile; the smile that proved to Logan that he could at least feel love. 

“I am happy that you are happy, dear.” He pressed his forehead against Patton’s and kissed his nose lightly. “Now, we must continue on, or we will be late to the neighbourhood barbeque Janene invited us to.”

“Janene?”

“Our neighbour, remember?” 

Patton made a small ‘ah’ noise and nodded enthusiastically, already skipping past Logan to grab some more boxes outside. 

As he watched him go, Logan sighed; he could definitely love. He could love with all of the love the world had to offer him, for as long as they were offering. He could love the softest, most gentle creature he knew; one who moved with such grace and one whose mind and heart and soul was overwhelmingly admirable.

Yes, he could love him. 

And he loved him. 

- 

“Logan! There’s pink roses on our roof!”

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2.

According to Janene, the whole neighbourhood could see the flowers. 

It was a special kind of phenomenon that no one outside the small town of Khloris ever noticed. But if you had a house on its terrain, you apparently had flowers growing underneath your feet. Upon mentioning Patton’s observations at the neighbourhood barbeque, Janene had explained the rumours that it was the land’s way of “observing” or “understanding” its habitants. Whatever that meant.

Logan found it borderline infuriating that no one had pursued further research on the matter; that people just walked around their neighbourhoods, complimenting each others’ seemingly magical gardens.

What was even more infuriating was that everyone just...accepted it. Embraced it, even. As if it was normal to hallucinate flowers growing on vines across your windows.

He was still unable to see these flowers, if they even existed. And while he wasn’t keen on keeping a sense of distrust between himself and his partner (he would have stopped playing along if Patton shared his same view) he couldn’t help but remain skeptical. 

(He would never admit it to Patton, but the reason he had purchased that rather expensive machine off of Amazon was so he could test the contents of the air in certain areas of the town. It didn’t prove anything abnormal, but it was an interesting experiment. 

He read his findings out loud to Patton one night, and Patton listened to every word.

And when Logan left for work the next morning, Patton complimented the chrysanthemums trailing behind him.)

Still, he didn’t have much choice other than to embrace the absurdity floating in their town. Besides, it was mostly harmless. And, more often than not, it served as the backdrop to some of the most joyful moments they had. 

- 

“Why, yellow!” Patton exclaimed as he greeted Logan on the steps to their house. “Someone has an extra poppy in their step today, huh?”

“First of all, I believe you mean ‘hello’; the standard greeting which is first exchanged between individuals seeing each other,” Logan hummed. Then, he leaned over to kiss Patton’s cheek. “Second of all...hello, dearest.”

“Hiya!” Patton giggled. Logan watched as the spot he kissed flushed a soft shade of pink. “How was work?”

Logan couldn’t help but smile. “It was...very satisfactory.”

“Very satisfactory?” Patton rocked back and forth on the heels of his feet, immediately ecstatic. “Not just satisfactory?”

“Mhm.”

“Ooh that and the yellow poppies behind you! You must have good news!” Patton beamed. “Come, come sit with me! Tell me all about your very satisfactory day!”

Usually, Logan would politely decline, telling him that he had to first shower and prepare dinner as he always did after work. And it was almost second-nature to ignore the ever-growing amount of flower observations from Patton. 

But he couldn’t help but oblige upon seeing Patton rush over to their small, wooden porch swing, nearly knocking into his ball of yarn and newest knitting project. That and he did have good news. Very good news, in fact. 

“Tell me about your day first,” Logan insisted as he sat down beside him, setting his briefcase at his feet. “I would rather celebrate a mutual achievement than selfishly intrude with my singular one.”

“Intrude?” Patton nudged him lightly. “Well, you’re not being int-rude if you do! So don’t worry about that kind of intrusion-confusion you’re on about, mister!”

“...did you eat the cookies Janene sent us?”

“Several.”   

Logan shook his head. “She puts too much chocolate in those, you know. And those pastries surpass the recommended amount of sugar one should digest in a day.”

“I know! ”

Logan couldn’t help but laugh at how starry-eyed his Patton looked. Patton gently rocked the swing back and forth, then lifted his legs to sit cross-legged on the cushions once it gained enough momentum. 

“Anyway, my day was alright!” Patton chirped. “Had a breakthrough with a client today! It’s been a slow couple of weeks, but I think things are looking up!” 

“That is fantastic news, Patton.” Logan leaned his head against Patton’s shoulder, placing a hand on his thigh and smiling. “You’re doing an exceptional job.”

“Aw, Lo!” Patton giggled again. “You’re gonna make me grow peonies everywhere.”

Second-nature. Logan just chuckled.

“Now! We must celebrate you!” Patton lifted Logan’s head off his shoulder and held his hands into his own. “Tell me everything!”

A pause. Logan felt as if he too was holding his breath.

“Well, do you recall that promotion I recently inquired about at my work?”

Patton’s eyes widened. 

“Shut up.”

Logan broke into a wide grin, finally exhaling as he nodded. Patton squealed, practically lunging at Logan to give him a tight hug.

“Shut up shut up shut uppp!!!”

“Do you...actually want me to–”

“No!” Patton gasped, pulling back to hold Logan in front of him by his shoulders. His grin almost hurt to look at. “Never ever ever shut up!”

“Then why did you–”

“I’m excited, you goofball!” Patton brushed the hair out of Logan’s eyes with a small giggle. “Besides, if I’m shushing anything, it’s the guilty feeling in your head that I can hear from a mile away.

(Fuck. He could love him forever.)

“Be proud of yourself, silly.” Patton wrapped Logan into another hug. Despite being shaken around so much, Logan couldn’t help but laugh. “Gosh, you deserve this so so much– I’m so proud of you.”

Logan’s breath hitched. 

“You��” 

Patton drew himself back ever-so-slightly, leaving a mere inch between him and Logan. He smiled. 

“I’m always proud of you, Logan.” He kissed Logan’s nose, sending a rush of warmth throughout his entire being. 

He then looked down at the spaces between each wooden plank of the porch and smiled. 

“Peonies,” he whispered, resting his forehead against Logan’s. “I’m happy too, Lo. So so so happy.”

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3.

“Patton, take a deep breath.”

“He–” Patton gasped, wrapping his arms around himself– “how– I can’t–”

“Patton.” Logan took the phone out of Patton’s hand and held them, squeezing gently. “Patton, let’s sit down, please–”

“Don’t touch me!“ Patton sobbed, pulling his hands back and covering his mouth. Tears rolled down his cheeks and over his hands. He began backing away from Logan. “It’s– I’m a– I’m–”

“Patton–”

“Fuck,” Patton choked out, stumbling past Logan and heading in the direction of their backyard. “I can’t– I need–”

Logan just nodded, carefully catching up to him and clearing out as much clutter as he could so Patton wouldn’t get hurt. He slid open their backyard door for Patton to rush through. 

The cool, evening air hit Logan almost sharply, and he hoped that Patton could feel the same thing. He watched from a hesitant distance as Patton fell to his knees on their grass, folding into himself like a ball and clutching at each strand. 

(He doesn’t need you to make this worse.  "You don’t know how to feel, after all.”)

 “Hey,” Logan finally said. He walked over to the grass and sat a comfortable distance away from Patton. “Is this enough space?”

Patton didn’t lift his head, but he nodded. Logan sighed. 

“...What happens outside your workplace is not your responsibility.”

Patton let out a huge sob; one that felt like it echoed through the whole neighbourhood. 

Fuck. Logan cleared his throat.

“Tell me about the flowers,” he blurted out. Patton lifted his head slightly. 

“The–”

“The flowers,” Logan said again, even less sure of himself. “Tell me what they...what they look like to you right now.”

Patton let out a scratchy laugh. “You don’t believe in the stupid flowers.”

Logan’s heart broke. 

(He didn’t, but he believed in him.)

“Tell me about them anyway,” he said insistently. “I assume they are in our presence, no?”

Patton sighed and, after seemingly deliberating his offer, sat up; his hands firmly gripping the grass they were sitting on. He looked around him, all spacey in that way that used to scare Logan. (It still does, but he at least knows enough about it that it’s not as worrisome.)

Finally, he spoke up. 

“I– I see marigolds,” he whispered. “And– and yellow carnations.”

Logan closed his eyes in thought for a second and then opened them with a sigh. 

“My dear,” he whispered, scooting a bit closer to him. “It is normal to feel grief and disappointment. Those are common reactions to a tragic occurrence such as this. I am so deeply sorry that you have to experience this because you do not deserve this, my starlight.”

Patton curled even more into himself.

“But what is important is that he is still here,” Logan continued. “And I am going to be here to assist you with whatever you need in order for you to cope during this difficult time.”

He watched as Patton took a deep breath; the first one in hours. When he exhaled, he felt as if the air around him grew still and less frigid. 

“I already know with absolute certainty that I will witness you lift yourself up when we make it through this; stronger than you were ever before.” He moved closer to him again. “You did not fail, no – we are simply just trying again.”

A beat of silence. Patton sniffled. “T-There’s purple hyacinths now.”

Logan sadly smiled. A common one with Patton.

“You do not have to apologize.” He patted the space next to him. “I’m here. And so are you.”

Patton sobbed a bit more, but eventually smiled through his tears and curled up in Logan’s lap. Logan held Patton and leaned over to press a kiss in his hair. 

“I got you,” he murmured in his curls. He felt Patton settle into his lap, the tenseness in his shoulders loosening. He ran his hands through his hair, kissing it again and again every few seconds. 

“Forever?” He heard Patton mumble. He smiled. 

“And a little bit after that,” he whispered back. 

And they sat there for a while, underneath the starry skies above them, in what Logan assumed was a sea of yellow and purple flowers. Though, he was never really sure.

- 

Later on, Patton asked him how he knew what each flower meant. And Logan, who would never admit to researching floriography (or to any accomplishment at all), just said it was a coincidence.

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4.

Patton rarely got mad; but when he did, Logan could only assume there were petunias everywhere.

“You–”

“Patton, please, not today–”

“NO!” His voice bounced off the walls and hit Logan in the chest. He shut up immediately. “Just...please– please tell me you’re joking.”

Logan averted his glance. “...I had to speak with them.”

“With your parents?! “ Patton screamed. “Who– who haven’t even bothered to call you in the last, what, five years?! “

“Patton, I–”

“You promised you’d never talk to them again,” Patton hissed. “I thought we agreed that– that it’d be wrong to. Because they were miserable people– people who– who made you miserable.”

He stung more than any thorn ever could. Logan tried to imagine some growing through the floors, as if trying to sympathize with what he could be experiencing. Of course he was angry. What Logan did was stupid. And he didn’t even mention the outcome…

“They’re my parents, Patton,” he said instead. He tried to plant his feet to the floor firmly, but Patton’s pacing made him shrivel up where he stood. 

“They are not your parents,” Patton snapped. His breathing was sharp and quick. “Parents–  parents don’t just tell their kid that they don’t have the capacity to feel– parents don’t kick their kid out of their fucking house and– and abandon them and leave them to be fixed by someone else.”

Logan’s breath hitched. 

“I…” He tried not to let it hurt him, but seeing Patton also wince at his own words made him feel somewhat validated in his pain. Still, he stood his ground. 

“I did not ask you to fix me,” Logan whispered, just as sharply; as if to get him back. 

Stupid.

“Logan.” Patton���s voice was even more troubling when it was quiet. “How could you...”

“It’s true.” (Why was he still talking?!) “I didn’t need you to–”

But he never finished. 

Because that’s all it took for Patton to leave.

-

5.

Patton found Logan outside in their backyard, surrounded by roses.

Roses of every colour; yellow, pink, blue, black, and white. The grass underneath his feet was bright green– in fact, everything around him was bright. 

“L-Logan, what–”

And that was when he saw the ring.

“Patton.” It came out as a loud, choked sob. 

Patton took a shaky step towards Logan, who shakily got on one knee.

“What are you…”

To his surprise, Logan laughed. 

“We– we were never really good at appropriate timing, were we?” 

Patton covered his mouth with wide eyes.

“I called my parents,” Logan began shakily, “because I wanted to tell them that I was going to marry you.”

Patton’s breath hitched. 

“You were right,” he continued, wiping his eyes. “Parents don’t do any of the things you had mentioned a-and I know I broke that promise we made out of good intent but…” He sighed. “But they are my parents. And I wanted them to be part of this moment.”

He closed his eyes, almost shamefully.

“Ultimately, it was out of spite, wasn’t it?” He laughed quietly. “In the end, I just wanted to prove to them that I could.”

“C-Could what?”

Logan stood up from his place and smiled. “That I could feel.”

A wide grin spread across Patton’s face.

“Oh, Logan…” He sobbed, rushing over to hold Logan’s hands. He giggled as Logan’s glasses fogged up from him crying, and he reached over to take them off, opting to rest them lopsided on his head. Logan laughed again through his tears. 

“Patton,” he whispered, looking up in his eyes. “I feel everything with you. I– I feel perfect, unadulterated happiness and love when I am with you. I feel joy, I feel peace, I feel...I feel things that I didn’t even know exist– ”

He held Patton’s hands and took a deep breath.

“I feel everything for– for you.” Logan rested his forehead against Patton’s and broke into laughter as their tears fell to the ground. “I want to feel everything with you– the ups, the downs, everything– for the rest of my life.”

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And as Patton kissed him, Logan watched as a rainbow of colours blossomed around their home.