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Ahem……. Sorry for a lack of elaboration, but cult au lore dump???? 🥺
I'll give you some fun bullet points ^_^ !!
* Dave consumes children to accept them as sacrifices. Jack actively feeds him. He's working towards making Dave stronger to accomplish an otherworldly goal. Dave also has ulterior motives.
* Jack is at times very theatric when he's manic and likes to make a great big show for his mass. A lot of the powers involved are fire-based. It's very moving to hear him when he's giving a sermon, especially later when he gets gay about it. Bro is very convincing...and passionate.
* Henry is not dead dead. The creation of Dave killed him, but he is somewhere in the Flipside, unbeknownst to Dave and Jack.
* "Hell" is the Flipside. The Flipside works a little bit differently than in canon DSAF and is still largely pizzeria-themed, but there are massive sections of nothing but void, and...other structures. Dave can traverse to and from the Flipside with ease- it is his domain, although he is too young to know how to bend the Flipside to his will. He's just using it to store his illicit substances and stolen items.
* Fully brainwashed people whose souls have been sold/taken have their heads replaced by Jack and Dave with a phone. The phone head symbolizes "in too deep"- a full conversion.
* Jack and Dave have a happier relationship in this AU than in canon. Not exactly happy, but happier. Their proximity forces them to communicate and doesn't allow Dave to ditch his tangerine. "Abandon him before he abandons me" is NOT allowed. Stinky. They also have a place to live, which does wonders for the psyche. They share a bed you guys (sometimes) (Dave is often on the floor).
* Dee's puppet is purple in this AU– dark purple with white stripes and a white face. She died in vain- it was entirely a mistake. Henry had misinterpreted one of his Divine Visions™ and had sacrificed the wrong "violet puppet". ;)
* The commune is a cesspool of sex and drugs. The mass is encouraged to engage in vices. Gambling is very prevalent. It's like a little Las Vegas, if Las Vegas was controlled by a megalomaniac and his powerful pet demon. Not everyone engages in it, but most do.
* Harry and Jack get really really weird about eachother.
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Alr, Anon from prior, Allow me to elaborate.
1:
The reason I questioned PK and WL breaking up was because it seemed "Out of place", for lack of better word, It didn't seem like they were going to break up, WL still loves PK, and PK (in this au at least) seems patient enough to help someone find better ways to grieve, so it doesn't make sense (from my pov, obviously), for him to leave someone over something as simple as how she handles the death of her children, If you really wanted a good, in character reason for them to break up on good terms, you could also just say her mental instability became too much for him, and he left her bc he didn't want to play doctor anymore.
2:
I did not know you intended this au to be a comfort space, Mostly because the whole "He went into sleep, Got beat up by his kid, and his wife left him" thing doesn't make it obvious, so sorry.
and 3:
did not intend him to be a joke character?
Could have fooled me, It seems like the only content that is posted for the au to establish any kind of storyline is either indulgent palegrimm stuff, Memes, Or somewhat descriptive images.
In short, While I hold no blame on you for what you choose to post, this is what happens when one claims something to be serious, but doesn't necessarily treat something like it is serious.
Also, I don't intend the tone nor theme of this to be harsh, Passive aggressive, or criticizing, I just had greatly subverted expectations that somewhat annoyed me, and I enjoy writing long messages, So it wasn't difficult to make.
alright. i tried to be as nice as possible, i really did. when i said i don't appreciate those kinds of comments, it was not an invitation to continue to nitpick my au. you have problems with the way i write my character, that's fair. that does not mean i will explain every single issue you have with it or change it to your liking
i will be blunt. this au was not made for you. this is something personal for me. is it perfect? no. i'm not claiming it to be. it's not meant to be perfect. maybe it does not make sense. i'm not a good writer, it's inevitable that it will have holes. i do this for fun, and i share it because people like to see it. i do not want to "establish a storyline" in a sophisticated manner that is coherent and professional. i'm simply sharing art and ramblings about the characters i love that mean a lot to me. if you're looking for a well written narrative that always takes itself seriously, you're in the wrong place. you are free to scroll past my stuff. you are free to block my blog if it bothers you. i won't hold it against you
this is the last time i will respond to this. i do not wish to turn this into a drama and a bigger deal than it is. let's be respectful to each other and just move on with our lives. i make silly posts about my au, you have your own expectations that were not met by said posts. it happens. life goes on
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♡ TREASURE’S REACTIONS WHEN A ‘FAN’ MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE
treasure x gn!idol!reader | wc :2.2k words | content : possible grammar and spelling mistakes, lowercase intended, idol au, uncomfy instances (implied, not elaborated) | request : hi :dd i just read the fic about the treasure members reacting to their s/o away for tour and i really loved it. and that gave me an idea for a treasure reaction, if you are willing to write it then that would be great! okay so how about them reacting to (idol) reader being uncomfortable around a fan?
CHOI HYUNSUK
🐷the oldest — as well as the leader — of his group
🐷if you were a member of treasure, he wouldn’t even hesitate to hide his expressions, just straight up calling his manager over and informing about the ‘fan’ before pulling you away
🐷but if you were an idol s/o or maybe even a close friend, he’d casually try to approach you, making sense of the situation before putting a smile on his face, trying to sort it out as politely as he could
🐷“y/n has done nothing to you, so why do you have to behave like this?”
🐷but either way, when you are away from the spotlight, hyunsuk would definitely approach you, checking if you are doing okay
🐷if you are feeling down, he’ll do his level best to put a smile back on your face
🐷but even if you seem okay on the outside, he’ll comfort you, telling you it was alright to feel down and not bottle your feelings
🐷“idk what they were talking about, y/n … i mean clearly they don’t know the y/n i know. bc if they did, they wouldn’t say all that.”
PARK JIHOON
🐼jihoon wouldn’t even hesitate to glare at the person who’s making you uncomfortable
🐼like if he had his way, he’d probably whack the living daylights outta them
🐼but since he’s an idol, he can’t really do that — so he sticks to glaring right into the person’s soul
🐼if it continues though, jihoon wouldn’t hesitate to pull you away from the so-called ‘fan’, not caring if he’s about to get into a scandal for being rude or anything
🐼the type to risk it all pt.1 — whether you are his idol s/o, member or even just a really close idol friend, if you are in an uncomfy situation, jihoon will have your back
🐼“if you are ever in such a situation again, just tell me. don’t think much of it, just tell me.”
KANEMOTO YOSHINORI
🐯oof baby tiger yoshinori
🐯whether you be a treasure member, idol s/o or a close friend, his priority will be you
🐯you were standing in front of the cameras, posing for pictures when your face fell upon hearing the comments ‘fans’ made about you
🐯as a trsr member, yoshi would subtly push you behind him, softly asking you hold on for a little longer before giving their leaders a look, quickly pulling you away from the situation
🐯if an idol s/o or close friend, he’d look at you worriedly, gesturing you to move away once you make eye-contact with him
🐯he’d simply pull you into a hug once you are away from the fans and cameras, just patting your back in assurance
🐯no words would be needed for everything was conveyed with the simple gesture of his
🐯“don’t listen to them, angel. you and i both know how hard you worked to get here. don’t let their inconsiderate words pull you down.”
KIM JUNKYU
🐨kluless and konfused koala
🐨legit won't even know what happened until you are cowering away from the cameras/crowd and accidentally bump against him
🐨if you were a member, you’d quietly brief him about the ‘fan’ who’s making you uncomfortable and he’d immediately look at them
🐨and junkyu being junkyu wouldn’t be able to control his facial expressions — just straight up looking disgusted and disturbed before he switches back to his idol face
🐨he’d keep looking in the direction of the ‘fan’ no matter how many times you’d tell him not to
🐨will definitely land himself an article for glaring at a ‘fan’ and somehow have the whole issue about the ‘fan’ revealed too
🐨it’s a win-win situation — esp since junkyu was just totally confused about everything from the beginning
🐨“wah, there are people like them too? i thought it was just in the movies.”
TAKATA MASHIHO
🐹it’s not takata mashiho — it’s takata mime-shiho
🐹literally does not utter a word no matter what happens
🐹if you are member of treasure, mashi will definitely just pull you away without another word, not letting you stay next to the ‘fan’ any longer
🐹but if you aren’t a member, then mashi will desperately keep looking at you, hoping you’d walk away from the scene
🐹it’s not that he doesn’t care — oh no, it’s the total opposite — he cares a lot, but he’s afraid his response in that moment (when he’s too pissed) will be detrimental for the both of you
🐹mashiho is someone who knows himself well, and he knows he’ll go overboard if he intervenes and just prays you will stand up for yourself
🐹but once you are in private away from all the cameras, you will get to hear mashiho just rant and rant — maybe even scolding you if you didn’t act like he wanted you to
🐹“ykw, next time, i won't give a damn about the cameras. i will sock those mfs right in the face. how dare they say things like that?!”
YOON JAEHYUK
🦁angry jae is a scary jae
🦁jaehyuk is one of those members who we can never imagine as the type to get mad
🦁but hey, as the saying goes “calm before the storm” yeah?
🦁jae struggled to get to where he is, and had to constantly prove himself at every evaluation that came his way to make sure he had a chance at debuting
🦁so during that journey, manz has heard a lot of criticism and continued to see the hate even after his debut
🦁usually, he’d turn a blind eye (if it’s for/about him) but when he saw you getting thrown insults — for everyone to hear and see — and see you cower behind whatever you could find bc you were just so embarrassed and uncomfortable, he knew he had to do smth
🦁“who the hell do you think you are to say all that? last time i checked, y/n was the idol and not you. if you haven’t accomplished smth as big as that, you don’t have any right to say all that to them!”
🦁he’d just explode — and reasonably so
🦁yk when you shake a soda bottle and open it, how it explodes all the fizz? it’s kinda like that — jaehyuk kept bottling all his rage and just seeing someone dear to him get the same hate as he did, he just *boom*
🦁“don’t bear with all that, y/n. you’ve listened to enough of it. just take a stand and defend yourself. you’ve worked hard to be where you are, and people need to know that.”
HAMADA ASAHI
🤖ah, the observant one
🤖i feel like asahi is the type to have a mental profile of every one of his members — just for the sake of knowing things
🤖so being that kind of a person, he’d definitely keep an eye out for you, bc he knows you have a bunch of fans who aren’t really anything like the teumes he knows
🤖at first, he doesn’t really want to unnecessarily intervene so he merely stands in front of you when he sees a specific ‘fan’ continuously take photos of you with the flash on
🤖he tries not to mind it, but he sees you awkwardly glancing at the ‘fan’ from time to time and realises that he’s one of the sasaengs he had read about on the internet
🤖once he realises it isn’t an ordinary situation of you being uncomfortable by just any ‘fan’, he’ll make up his mind to pull you away from the ‘fan’ and talk to them
🤖when he figures that standing in front of you didn’t do much, he’ll pretty much approach the ‘fan’, straight up asking them what’s wrong
🤖“is there a problem? or do you just find making people uncomfortable fun? bc yk, fun fact! i find reporting such people fun.”
BANG YEDAM
🦊oh this manz will definitely land himself in an article the next day bc he can't control his emotions
🦊like even if he didn’t show his rage at that moment and beat the shit outta the ‘fan’, he’d definitely show it through excessive glaring or just some gesture which makes it obvious
🦊bc he really can't help it — esp when it comes to you
🦊it doesn’t matter if you are a member or not, he will literally go “what do you think you are doing?” when he notices how the ‘fan’ is making you uncomfortable
🦊has that vibe which screams ‘do you want to fight’ even tho he looks like he can't hurt a fly
🦊so aggressive for no reason — if you meet with him afterwards away from the cameras, he’ll get riled up once like, having needed to be held back by you
🦊kinda mad at you for not exposing the ‘fan’ or doing smth about it, but he wouldn’t say it to your face
🦊even more mad at the world for there being such people in existence bc he feels just terrible that you had to go through smth like that
🦊“i may not be able to hurt a fly, but that ‘fan’, however, i will maim."
KIM DOYOUNG
🐰dobby is one of those “looks like a cinnamon roll but will kill you if he needs to” typa person
🐰tbh he doesn’t really notice you are uncomfortable until it becomes a little painfully obvious
🐰if it’s a case of you being his member, he’d definitely pull you away from the situation and make sure you are okay
🐰but if you are an idol s/o or friend, he’d immediately find his manager (or yours) and inform them about the situation, giving them a blank expression until they take you away from the ‘fan’
🐰uses more low-key ways of check on you — maybe text you if you two are in some sort of schedule/function/event
🐰“hey, you good? don’t let what they say affect you, okay?”
WATANABE HARUTO
🦙will risk it all for someone he knows pt.2
🦙tho ruto has that fluffy vibe to him, he just radiates that ‘i don’t stand for this nonsense’ kinda vibe too
🦙as soon as he notices smth off about you — whether you be his member, idol s/o or just a close friend — he’ll either observe you from afar or approach you to see what’s wrong
🦙and when he finds out, haruto will just straight up look at the ‘fan’ who’s making you uncomfortable, legit just proper glaring at them
🦙if the ‘fan’ comments smth weird — and he hears it — oho, it’s over for them
🦙“what did you just say? could you repeat that?” he’d sport a blank face, looking like he was gonna throw hands
🦙will stay rooted to his place there unless you or his members push him away
🦙if there are any articles about him the next day, ruto is the type to go live — preferably with his members — and just subtly address the situation, letting everyone know exactly why he behaved the way he did
🦙“jeez, who do they think they are saying stuff like that?”
PARK JEONGWOO
🐺the polite version of jihoon + haruto me thinks (?)
🐺jeongwoo would glare daggers into the ‘fan’s soul but have a cheery smile on his face — bc yk cameras
🐺he’d also probably talk to the ‘fan’, kinda giving mixed feelings to anyone watching him
🐺like “yah who are you to say that? you made y/n uncomfortable” with a joking tone but anyone could tell he was being serious
🐺keeps continuously looking at the ‘fan’ until they mutter a half-assed apology and leave
🐺does an ‘okay’ gesture and checks on you after the ‘fan’ goes away, sighing in relief when you smile at him
🐺“you are okay, right? stand up for yourself, idiot. i won't always be there, yk? just kidding, i’ll always have your back.”
SO JUNGHWAN
🐮aw, man this baby is pretty observant
🐮but he has a little trouble acting upon what he feels — bc 1) he’s the youngest, 2) doesn’t want to get into scandals and 3) wouldn’t know what to do
🐮kinda like doyoung, if you aren’t a member, he’d def tell his hyungs or manager about the uncomfortable situation you are in, hoping they’d know what to do to help you out
🐮if you are a member, this super king cow baby will be your bodyguard aka protective wall/barrier
🐮literally will do anything and everything in his power to make sure you won't see the ‘fan’ who’s making you uncomfortable
🐮kinda makes you laugh with the way he’s sized himself up, appearing like some club bouncer as he blocks your direct view
🐮“idk what to do, but i hope for now that just staring at my shoulders will help you out.”
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Ugh, so, I don't even know if anyone is actually gonna read this, and I'm not really the one who would participate in fandom very actively (I was always a passive observer, liking other's people content), but the stuff with the leaks of the extra 8 pages of snk ending has been really bothering me for the last few days, and I really need to get a few things off my chest.
I really wanted to wait till 9th June to form my full thoughts. However, since basically all pages have leaked anyway and quite a reliable source confirmed there is basically no additional context to them whatsoever, I decided I might as well write this anyway and vent somewhere to clear my head so I can finally move on with my life to focus on other things I like and with other important irl stuff. Moreover, since Tumblr seems like a reasonably safe space to do so (comparing to one hell of a Twitter...) I might as well do it here. So, let's go.
So, basically, my main problem with those pages is simply that... you just don't do that. No. You don't release an ending, make people think it's really the end, then say you're gonna release a few additional pages that won't change anything but simply clarify some things, and then, two months later, release these pages indeed but not only they don't actually clarify anything, but in fact, create even more plot holes. Furthermore, as a cherry on top, they change the ending quite completely. If those pages had been included in the original release, most people, myself included, would've moved on by now. But noooo, make us go through this hell again. Great :))))
And as for the content of those pages, well... I can't help but feel they really did quite a disservice to Mikasa, one of my favourite female characters ever. My biggest problem isn't even that she 'moved on' (whatever that means at this point, coz I feel like fandom has been successfully managing to butcher that term ever since 139 has dropped) and started a family on her own because I'm fully aware that falling in love again after you first love died is an entirely normal thing irl. But ffs, we're not talking about irl here; we're talking about snk and Mikasa. And the thing that MAINLY bothers me, is the way it has been presented.
I'm not going to delve into the husband's possible identities, 1) I'm not interested at all in participating in any ship wars, 2) because we don't even get to see his face and sources say we indeed don't get any direct confirmation in that regard. Not that this matters anyway, because we get presented with Mikasa on the one hand staring her own family, but on the other, still continuing to visit Eren's grave repeatedly throughout her life and in the end, getting buried with a scarf on, her dearest remembrance of Eren, and maybe even getting buried next to him (even tho, the latter is still not 100% confirmed, bcs here sources are contradictory, but judging by the general mood of those pages, I'd not be surprised at all if it turns out to be the case).
That makes me think the whole family-stuff was used only to present the passage of time and the fact that Mikasa never fully got over Eren, bcs we don't see the family in any other context besides the visits to the grave. And that leads me to my other question - was introducing the family really NECESSARY, then? Couldn't Mikasa simply visit the grave with Armin, and maybe even with Armin, Annie and their kids? Idk about you, but that would make 100% more sense to me. Also, don't get me even started, how much in the wrong way it rubs me that Mikasa, the character who, as we know, always deeply cared about others, even strangers (Gabi, etc.), would just drag her husband, her children and grandchildren to the grave of her first love on which she had written 'my most beloved, my dear'? Do I really need to elaborate on how WEIRD that is?
But I guess that's on me for believing a male author would write a satisfactory conclusion to the main female character (not Mikasa touring around Hizuru, not Mikasa playing with kids at the orphanage, no! Forced family plot, instead! Take that!)
As of Eremika, aka my most cherished paring ever since 2014... I guess the only good thing in that mess is that at least it doesn't invalidate them. If anything, it validates them even more, because the stuff I've mentioned earlier prove their love was eternal and Mikasa never truly got over it. So, all in all, I'm gonna still cherish them forever. There are still many unexplored aspects of their bond, so I believe we, as a community, have a big room to explore (pls, I'm begging you, explore with me all the possibilities of their four years in the cottage in the mountains, I swear, that sh!t has so much potential it's unbelievable).
As of Paradis getting destroyed, well, that leaves me bitter, even though after doing some thinking, that really might be the least out of place thing in those pages. At least according to sources, it happens when Mikasa is already dead, so at least Eren's wish of giving his friends long, secure lives came true. However, that would be it.
And as of titan's power still being there and some kid apparently finding the source of it... this just screams 'sequel-baiting', AND I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT. That's it.
To end my definitely too long rambling, I just wanna say, I really would have liked to wait till 9th June to publish my thoughts, but as I've said, those last few days have been driving me crazy and I really wanted just to get all of it off my chest and move on. I want for now to just focus on my irl things, like working on my master's thesis and other stuff giving me joy, like Eurovision next week coming back after 2-years-absence due to pandemic. Eurovision is one of the few things that I love, and I intend on fully enjoying it next week, not sulking on those leaks too much. And if by some completely unexpected miracle I get pleasantly surprised on 9th June (even tho I truly doubt it at this point) - that would be only a win for me, I guess.
Anyway, please remember, all that I have written here is ONLY MY OPINION, and if you disagree with anything, that's valid, you're completely entitled to that. I'm not publishing this to argue with anybody, only to clear my head. That's it.
If anyone has read this too long personal rant of mine - thank you, I'm kissing you on the forehead right now.
Oh, and remember - EREMIKA IS CANON. And always will be (no, that one is not up for discussion).
Also, we have that official High School AU, and Eren right now is quietly snoozing on Mikasa's shoulder during another Twilight marathon she made him to take part in, and Armin and Annie are dissing people together on reddit while bonding over their pretentious taste in music. That's canon, Isayama told me after I had phoned him to ask wtf.
PS To think I was almost sure those extra pages will be about Mikasa's reunion with the rest of the alliance... I guess it's time to put that clown make up on.
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Hey this isn't meant as hate (sorry if it does hurt you!! truly!) & it's long so feel free to delete but I think going after other tumblrs for what seems to be (unless I'm missing context) liking a book that you don't & haven't read properly, & having ships & fandom interests you don't like, ... I just don't think it's deserved? Like these are just Tumblrs & they're not TERFs/racists or anything actually bad? I know Lise likes "dark" ships & content but unlike most calls outs there's really nothing on their blog I would call understandably offensive? And I don't know all of them but what has alice or winepresswrath ever done? As for the gayjiangcheng incident, I find it a little surreal you're claiming he threw a fit over you mocking him when I came away from that under the impression that you were the one throwing a fit over fandom hcs bc you were having a very stressful day. Okay, to back away from something that was getting meaner than I intended, I truly think this isn't a healthy way of being in fandom. I see you complaining about "fujioshis" (using an inherently racist meaning that literal TERFs invented) yet tag "mdzs" despite not wanting to interact with book fans, & complaining about fandom tropes like trans hcs, & this is just not healthy! You do have some valid points I'm not discrediting that but they're often very ill-applied! This is the perspective of someone your age: please stop creating fights on the internet & find something meaningful for yourself that isn't inaccurately applying social inequality in places where it is irrelevant. These people aren't hurting anyone, but you are sending harassment their way which hurts them, & you are hurting yourself. I'm very sorry you have experienced transphobic attacks (I have read what posts I could find that seemed pertinent) but you aren't giving others the same empathy. I'm very sorry, I'm sure you are getting a lot of hate rn over this, & I very much hope that you have a really good day when this is all over.
well for starters I'm not "going after" anybody. I'm curating my space, and I clearly state that in my post. I'm not "sending them harassment" either. I don't even want my post to be reblogged because I don't want it to be spread around and cause problems. for anybody. I'm simply trying to make it very clear what environment I want on this blog. I'm not sending any hate, I'm not being rude or aggressive, I'm not encouraging others to do those things, I'm just setting boundaries. putting out of list of blogs that I don't want people who support to interact with me, isn't the horrible attack you seem to be interpreting it as. I don't need a lecture from you about how I should run my silly little blog on tumblr dot com or what you think I've done wrong in my life. I do not know you, and you do not know me. I find it very inappropriate that you're trying to come into my inbox and tell me what actions of mine are unhealthy or what things are making me unhappy. I appreciate that you're not yelling at me and calling me names, but you've still crossed a boundary, and I don't understand why you're spending your time trying to shame somebody who disagrees with you on a fundamental level
almost everybody on that list is there because they ship incest or pedophilia pairings, or have stated that they're okay with people who do. but since that probably isn't something you'd take issue with, I'm not going to waste my time explaining what all of them did and will just elaborate on one person on the list that maybe you'll care about: ky/uhudraws literally gives asian characters yellow skin in their art. they also like h*talia
have a good day
#I'm not going to go into the other things you bring up because a) I've already talked abt them at length#and b) I'm not going to waste my time and energy doing something that will have no impact on you#also no. no I'm not getting a lot of hate over this right now actually#ask#anon#not mdzs
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andrew and neil are switches, don’t you forget it
ok hi here for my (probably) daily aftg rant,,,,so i’m seeing that the majority of the fandom (as far as i’ve seen anyway)--or fics/fanart consisting of andreil doing the do--view neil as a power bottom ?
am i incorrect? are my resources false? idk bout u but so far i’ve only seen like one fic where neil is the top/penetrator (!mao is that even a real word idk but it sounds weird haha cute ok anyway)
and honestly, i have to disagree. i do. i’m not trying to push andrew’s boundaries by saying that neil could top, i’m just saying that y’all don’t give neil enough credit.
liek,,,,,bro,,,,,do you not see the amount of top energy neil mf josten radiates ???? like, yes, we know andrew takes the lead but it doesn’t necessarily mean he’d top forever ?????
( just a proposition, ofc but this is just my opinion based on observations--yet again )
( and tbh i had difficulty trying to figure who was the top and who was the bottom between them when i encountered the first hint of intimate growth in their relationship--to the point where i had to ask my best friend who hadn’t a clue what aftg was prior to (that’s when the aftg rants officially started/ignited) and it took some time/proper discussion/consideration but he first came up with the conclusion that andrew was a sub top and that neil was a power bottom )
as for yours truly, i came to the conclusion that they are both switches (some time after i finished reading).
i mean,,,,,,can you really just look at neil josten--wholly, like his entire personality, attitude (problem !), traits, &c and decide on the spot that he’s a bottom ??? how ??? how the hell do you come up with that ?????
and hear me out, i have evidence/reasons:
one) The Great Riko Roast™️. need i say more?
(if elaboration is necessary:
keep in mind that neil (this literal fucking nobody) burned riko (supposedly the king of exy or whatever the fuck, who cares) to ground on the spot (no script, just his attitude problem (mwah i love him) and pure spite)
again, he burned him to the ground on live television, publicly humiliating riko with each and every word
idk bout u but i am so damn sure andrew found out right then n there that this bitch radiates top energy for fucking sure (or, in his words, isn’t spineless)
neil committing arson via verbal attacks is just---splendid. absolutely mesmerizing. flawless. truly inspiring. gamechanging. glorious.
he’s so rude i love him
anyway )
two) neil can shut up andrew up without having to touch or kiss him. he can leave him speechless. with just his words.
(yes, we know anybody & everybody knows better than to touch andrew but like i mean he wouldn’t have to fight him or whatever) (and he doesn’t have to kiss him to shut him up--though he definitely can--he doesn’t have to because that’s just how fucking powerful he is)
y’all,,,,,are you ready for one of the most amazing lines i believe we all know and love,,,,,
““You have a problem wherein you only invest your time and energy into worthless pursuits."
“This,” Neil flicked his finger to indicate the two of them, “isn’t worthless.”
“There is no ‘this’. This is nothing.”
“And I am nothing,” Neil prompted. When Andrew gestured confirmation, Neil said, “And as you’ve always said, you want nothing.”
Andrew stared stone-faced back at him.
[...andrew had his hand frozen mid-air...(i forgot the rest)]”
if this does not prove dominance to you, i don’t know what to tell you. (HE WAS MERELY SPEAKING AND ANDREW COULD NOT COME UP WITH ANYTHING-- A N Y T H I N G --TO SAY BACK BC IT’S A PERSONAL ATTACK AND HE DIDN’T SEE IT COMING AND THAT’S WHY HE SEES NEIL AS INTERESTING/WHY HE ‘HATES’ HIM SO MUCH BRO I)
hOweVeR
i know that dom bottoms exist (i think so, anyway) or bottoms that radiate top energy/the position (i.e. bottom,top) energy you radiate can be entirely different from what position you really are/are comfy with and that these are just words but that brings me to my following point,
three) (#1 insitgator, he, oh yes, neil josten, yes indeed) his unexpected (and to be frank, quite thrilling) acts of asserting dominance ?????? um ????
(when they were kith kithing next to the kitchen (next to kitchen) in neil’s dorm room) “[neil felt his phone buzz in his back pocket and against the wall it was obnoxiously loud. he already knew it was his daily countdown, but he already knew how much little time he had left. he didn’t need to reminded, especially now...andrew took it out of his back pocket and offered it to neil, pulling away from his mouth. neil took the phone from andrew’s hand and threw it across the living room, not taking his eyes off andrew. andrew watched as the phone bounced off the couch and onto the carpet. neil kissed his neck in attempt to distract him and was rewarded by a startled jolt which was enough reason to do it again. and even though andrew pushed his face away, they were close enough for neil to not miss how andrew shivered.]”
b r o ,,,,,,,,,,,, bro,,,,,,it just--
(when they were alone in the bus otw to that one away game--belmonte, i think?) “[“i wonder when coach found out about this,” neil prompted.
“there is no ‘this’.”
“i wonder when coach found out you only want to kill me ninety-three percent of the time.”
neil retraced his steps and had a moment of realization. before andrew left for easthaven, neil had told andrew to trust him and not ‘neil’.
“it was before you left,” neil started...
“coach doesn’t believe what other people want him to believe, he believes what he sees,” andrew replied...
“are you going to tell them?” neil was referring to the rest of the team, and this was up to him, whether they’ll be out or not.
“i won’t have to. renee says the upperclassmen are betting on your sexuality.”
neil knew that matt mentioned that there were bets on about him, but he didn’t know it was about this.
“it’s a waste of time and money. they’ll all lose. i’ve said all year that i don’t swing and i meant it. kissing you doesn’t make me look any of them differently. the only one i’m interested in is you.”
“don’t say stupid things.”
“make me.” and with that, neil grabbed a fistful of andrew’s hair and pulled him in.]”
dude,,,,,,,,,he can take control,,,,,he can,,,,he can lead, too, but he follows andrew’s because he’s a good boy and he knows how important it is. he improvises and uses what he has and takes control from there. dude. dude.
three) honestly? i think andrew likes it. neil’s unexpected acts of confidence,,,kinda leaves him on the edge of his seat yk,, like doesn’t it increase his percentage? it does, right? cuz ik it did when andrew guided neil to touch his chest and neil emulated andrew’s words, “i won’t be like them. i won’t let you let me be.” (i love them bye) but liek,,,,yeah idk andrew liking neil’s neck kisses/fetish kinda tells me he likes it so maybe this isn’t concrete evidence particularly but i’m still including it because andrew’s a switch, idc what anyone says,
four) i lost my train of thought but i ran out of reasons--on the spot, anyway--so i might come back to this if i do but just to make it clear:
andrew minyard is a switch. (it just takes time, like a lot, but it doesn’t mean it’s necessarily impossible/never gonna happen.)
neil josten is a switch. (he respects andrew’s boundaries and doesn’t push him, he’s fine being guided, but it doesn’t mean he can’t take the initiative himself (and i forgot to mention it but re: when he asked andrew if he doesn’t like to be touched in general or if it’s a trust thing + many more times, before & after their first kiss, i believe, my brain is just empty rn) and i just think that deserves more recognition)
so !!
(this post is a mess, (i always am but today’s just worse) i know, and i’m sorry)
in conclusion,
let neil top andrew !! they deserve it !!
(not that vice versa is bad, but this isn’t either, yk, just saying. also, i hope this isn’t too late to say in the post, but i do not, i repeat, i do not, intend to pressure any content creator--fic writers, fan artists, editors, &c--to create content this particular way only,,,,okay,,,gotta make that unequivocally clear. and i’m not saying andrew topping neil is bad or overrated, because i know that when it comes to them, sex in general would take some time, especially neil topping andrew, but i think they deserve that freedom, yk. again,,,,this is just my personal opinion. no insisting statements here, just wish for freedom to speak my mind, that is all. also feel free to interact if you agree/disagree or both !! i’m willing to hear anyone’s comments or thoughts or whatever !! i hope i’m talking to a brick wall here ahah)
bro brain poop rn
anyway
tl/dr: bro let neil top (not necessarily on top, but that works, too--either/or--or both, if y’all dare ;DD (kill me) (but like srsly) (let neil top) (plz) :))
(also somewhat off topic but might anyone have access to some fics in which consist of neil first getting andrew off ??? i randomly remember it from ms. sakavic’s extra content page and i would like to see what the fandom offers, if y’all don’t mind)
im so mean and insistent on my aftg-related opinions now that i think about it
whoops
#so help me#let neil fucking top#please#it's the character development they deserve#the growth#theyve been through so much#together#please they mean so much to me#you cant just#leave me hanging yk#ok ill admit thats selfish of me but#seriously#let neil top#its not impossible#aftg#all for the game#tfc#the foxhole court#trk#the raven king#tkm#the kings men#andreil#andrew and neil#andrew minyard#neil josten#andrew minyard and neil josten#neil and andrew#bottom andrew ????#a concept
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the bittersweet between my teeth - Chapter 3
Written by: GerryStAmour | Gift for: @northisnotup
Important reminder:
Nureyev is a gender euphoric trans man who has not had top-surgery and does not wear a binder. I use a mix of masculine and feminine terminology when describing his body.
New tags:
Sexual Tension
Mild Sexual Content
First Kiss (doesn’t count bc it’s rex/juno tho)
Making Out
Groping
Chapter Three [Previous Chapter] [First Chapter]
- - - - - Nureyev’s POV - - - - -
Nureyev hadn’t even realized he was walking into the Old Town Cafe that morning until he made eye contact with Benten, who appeared to be completely unimpressed. Rita, however, had beamed at him.
“Hiiii Mista Glass!” she called loudly across the dining room before hissing at Benten, “Pay up, I called it.”
“You took a bet on whether I would come?” Nureyev questioned as he approached the counter.
“I usually only make bets when I’m confident on my odds,” Benten replied sourly. “Guess I wasn’t clear enough last night.”
“Oh, you were plenty clear, Benzaiten,” Nureyev said with a smirk. “I suppose I wasn’t clear enough about my intentions.”
“Here you go, Mista Glass!” Rita interrupted, shoving Nureyev’s usual breakfast into his hands. “Boss ain’t here right now, cos he’s got that whole competition thingy with the other restaurants.”
“Thank you, Rita. You are truly a gem,” he said with a pleased smile.
He sat down at his usual spot and pulled out a notebook and his comms. Since he was so close to finishing the job, he didn’t bother to bring his laptop. It was really only busy work he was doing at that point. Anything for an excuse to stay and fool around with a semi-retired private eye, really.
When the bell over the front door clanged loudly, followed by the near-stomping steps he knew to be Juno Steel’s, Nureyev had had grand plans to ignore the private eye, to wait and see if he would come to speak to him first.
But Nureyev never did have much self-control when he allowed himself sticky things like feelings, and he always did have a flare for the dramatic…
When he looked up, Juno hadn’t seen him yet and he was allowed a brief moment to admire the beautiful lady for the first time in what he realized was two days.
Juno was radiant as always, wearing his heavy boots and a cotton skirt, showing off his muscled legs. The detective’s simple, nearly threadbare wardrobe that he wore to work was something that Nureyev had always found endearing. The idea of being able to keep something long enough for it to show it’s well-loved age was completely foreign to Nureyev.
Then Juno inhaled sharply through his nose and turned to look in his direction, his visible eye wide but his expression completely unreadable. When Juno didn’t do or say anything after a few moments, Nureyev decided to say something to rile the lady up a bit and give Nureyev one of his beautiful overreactions to break the awful silence that was growing between them.
“Good morning, Juno,” he said, and he knew it came out dripping with every besotted thought he had ever entertained about Juno. Nureyev could see it in the way Juno’s expression twisted just a bit as he released the breath he was holding in a gusty sigh through his nose and stomped over.
“Didn’t think you’d come back,” Juno said as he sat down heavily across from him, his tone hard and not even bothering to return his ‘good morning’. Nureyev met his gaze over the rims of his glasses and something ached in his chest at the hurt he saw on Juno’s face.
“I considered staying away,” Nureyev confessed.
“But you didn’t, huh?” Juno supplied with a snort, crossing his arms. “Ben told me you’re a terrible date.”
“Yes, well,” Nureyev hummed, smirking as he returned to writing in his notebook. “That is bound to happen when the wrong date shows up.”
There was a long beat of silence.
“What.” Juno said it so flatly, it hadn’t even sounded like a question. It was a statement of confusion, and one that didn’t even necessarily demand an answer. For a detective, Nureyev figured, asking questions was more of a courtesy to others.
So when he looked back up at Juno, he was nearly winded by how his beautiful face softened with confusion. Nureyev wasn’t sure he had ever wanted to kiss another person in his life more than he did in that moment.
“Yes, I remember handing my second invitation to a clever private eye and paid him a great many compliments that hardly cover my true feelings for him,” Nureyev elaborated with a dreamy sigh. “Yet, when I arrived, it was his twin brother who met me. To say I was confused would be an understatement, Juno, and given that his brother and I barely tolerate each other—”
“Wait, what?” Juno sputtered, shaking his head. “Start over, and without the dramatics.”
“Well, that’s no fun at all—”
“Glass,” Juno warned.
Nureyev shifted so that he was leaning on the table with his elbows. “Juno, I had asked for you to go with me,” he said, straightforward and earnest. “My work is coming to an end soon, and I wanted to have a nice evening with you before I left.”
Juno shook his head in disbelief. “But, Ben—”
“Has nothing to do with this,” Nureyev pushed, reaching across the table between them to rest his hand on Juno’s forearm. “I would like an opportunity to correct my blunder—”
Juno wrenched away from Nureyev’s touch as if it had burned him, and chewed the inside of his cheek. When he stood up, Nureyev reached to stop him but Juno just shook his head and retreated as quickly as he could to the kitchen. Rita made a sad sound and followed him.
Nureyev sat there for several moments, shocked at the turn in the conversation before schooling his expression into something cool and unfazed. He turned back to his notes and stayed at his table for hours, looking back up occasionally to see if Juno was going to return. Nureyev hoped his face didn’t show just how much it hurt when Juno didn’t.
The next two days went about the same way, with Nureyev only seeing Juno for brief intervals. Nureyev began to wonder if Benten would let him off the hook by virtue of Juno completely refusing to see him again.
By the third day, Nureyev was discouraged, though hoped he was fairly successful in not showing it.
He was sitting at his spot in the cafe watching some surveillance footage he had recorded, trying to find the cleanest take for each camera. The idea was that he would hijack the video feeds and loop some pre-recorded footage of empty halls, effectively hiding in plain sight as he snuck in.
As the lunch hour approached, he heard the kitchen door swing open. Nureyev paused the video to look up, and he truly disliked how much it upset him that it wasn’t Juno coming out, but Benten instead. Schooling his expression into a cool mask of disinterest, Nureyev looked back at the footage and hit play.
His work had been put off as long as possible, and it was only a matter of time before O’Flaherty contacted him again. Or worse, called in another thief. But that meant cutting his losses with Juno, which was for the best in more ways than one. It simply made no proper sense being so singularly focused on the private eye at all; they had rarely spoken, and when they did Juno was cagey and suspicious, his moments of openness fleeting and rare.
But those moments were captivating, pulling Nureyev in against the current, and all he could think about was the way Juno’s brow would soften and his jaw would clench just before he chewed the inside of his cheek. He thought of Juno’s smirk and the way it would settle into a soft smile and, even rarer, a genuine huff of laughter at a particularly well-timed joke.
Nureyev wanted to bottle each and every one of those moments and take them with him, but he supposed the memories would have to do.
“Ugh, this is getting depressing,” Benten burst out, loudly and without warning, and stormed around the counter to sit at Nureyev’s table. “What are you doing?”
Nureyev looked at his coffee, and then to his work before asking in a stage whisper, “Is this a trick question, Benzaiten?”
“I mean about our deal, Rex,” Benten said with a roll of his eyes.
“My job here on Mars is ending,” Nureyev replied, closing his laptop and leaning across the table to give Benten his full attention. “I will be leaving shortly after regardless of outstanding affairs.”
“Bullshit,” Benten snapped. “You claim to really care about—”
“I have already delayed as much as I can, Benzaiten. My… client is growing impatient with the lack of results, especially seeing as I billed the work as child’s play at our consultation,” Nureyev hissed. “I would rather not leave without talking to Juno, and I was truly intending to keep to our deal, but I do not have the luxury of time to wait for him to work through whatever he’s feeling.”
Benten rolled his eyes. “Whatever, Rex,” he muttered as he moved to get up.
Something about the tone was the final straw, the constant needling from Benten and Juno’s avoidance and Ramses’ micromanagement becoming too much.
His hand flashed across the table, grabbing Benten’s wrist to pull him back down into his seat. Leaning across the table, Nureyev schooled his expression into something pleasant. “You are a spoiled brat, do you know that?” Nureyev said through gritted teeth. “You’ve pranced through life with this cocky little attitude, all the while Juno probably took every slap, punch, and insult that you earned.”
“Hey—”
“I can see it in the way you hold yourself next to him, the way Juno steps in front of you if it seems you’ve put your foot in it,” Nureyev continued, looking him up and down. “Do you even realize you’ve made him your shield?”
Benten did not answer, only stared at Nureyev with a raised eyebrow, though he did actually appear cowed. Nureyev would take it, and allowed himself one of his work smiles that showed off too many teeth, and not an ounce of kindness to soften the blow.
“You go on and on as if you understand exactly what I am, but I know it was Juno that figured it all out because he’s the clever one,” he continued unkindly and leaned back, watching Benten’s face. “I will say this again, but only because I hope it is repeated to Juno; I have delayed as long as possible, and will have to act soon. Once I have, I’m leaving and never returning.”
Nureyev moved to stand, but Benten held his hand up to stop him.
“Maybe you should stay for lunch today,” he said.
“What part of—”
“Yeah, yeah, I got all that and I’ll pass it on,” Benten replied and rolled his eyes. “He’ll probably come right out, yeah?”
“Possibly,” Nureyev said as he leaned back in his chair. “He’ll at least confirm what I am saying makes sense. I’m not making excuses to weasel out of something I wanted to do.”
Benten nodded, looking hurt and angry, and stood. For a moment, Nureyev felt a twinge of guilt watching him walk away, but it passed quickly when he remembered the constant antagonism. When Benten was gone, Rita scurried over to sit with him and gave him one of her brightest smiles.
“Wow, Mista Glass, I’ve never seen someone talk like that to Mista Benzaiten,” she said excitedly. “He’s a sweetheart, honestly, but I know he’s also really mean when he wants to be, y’know?”
“I didn’t mean to snap at him like that,” Nureyev said, because he thought he should say something like that.
“Yeah you did,” Rita laughed. “And he deserved it for what he’s been doin’.”
“What does that mean?” Nureyev asked, and he jumped a bit at Rita’s explosive sigh.
“What I’m sayn’ is Mista Benzaiten has a lot of good reasons to be suspicious of you, and I kinda agree. We’re both real tired of people hurtn’ Mista Steel, y’know?” She did not wait for Nureyev to respond to her question. “But I dunno, you look at him different and I think Mista Benzaiten sees that, too, but he’s scared. He thought someone looked at Juno different before, and that went real bad for both of them but that’s besides the point—” she took a deep breath and when Nureyev opened his mouth to ask for more information, she continued, “He gave you one of those ulti-whatever’s and you held up your end of it and he’s just sittn’ there lettn’ you fail! Which I said wasn’t fair, and let me tell ya Mista Glass, I was not happy that Mista Benzaiten actually went on that date with you. I told him to come clean, to tell you Mista Steel didn’t understand you asked him out and that going along with his conclusion-jumpn’ was more hurtful than helpful, but Mista Benzaiten was insist’ on talkn’ to you all private-like.”
Nureyev blinked at her, overwhelmed and still working his way through everything that was just said to him. “Thank you, Rita,” he said eventually, and she heaved a huge sigh.
“No, thank you Mista Glass! It's been a long week and these boys are gonna be the death of me if they keep it up,” she vented, leaning back in her chair.
“We can’t be having that,” Nureyev said sympathetically, returning the bright smile she gave him. “It’s safe to assume that you did most of Juno’s digging into me, yes?”
“Yeah,” Rita replied with a frown. It looked strange on her face, like hers wasn’t built for scowling. “I know a thing or two.”
Nureyev chuckled, shaking his head as he said, “Rita, I’ve done my own research into this merry bunch, professionally speaking I mean. I know the extent of your skills. How much have you found?”
Rita’s frown became a pout at the question. “Nothn’. Mista Steel figures ‘Rex Glass’ is a brand spankn’ new alias, so there’s nothn’ tied to it. Even facial recognition comes up with nothn’. It’s very annoyn’.”
“And when did you figure this all out?” he pushed, and Rita laughed.
“Oh, like the day afta’ you started showin’ up here or somethin’ like that,” she replied and Nureyev felt a shock rocket through him. “Mista Steel’s had your numba’ figured out since he saw you at Hyperion Brewn’ or whateva’ they’re called.”
Nureyev opened his mouth to say something but shut it, stunned as he was that Juno would entertain him at all.
The door to the kitchen opened, and habit had Nureyev looking up. Ready as he was to be disappointed, he was actually startled to see Juno leaving the kitchen carrying a plate with a sandwich. He strode up to Nureyev’s table and put the plate down, his expression very serious.
But Nureyev could see uncertainty in the lines around Juno’s visible eye, and it was obvious he was chewing the inside of his cheek.
“Juno—” Nureyev began, but Juno shook his head sharply.
“On the house. Make sure to use your napkin,” Juno bit out before turning on his heel and heading back to the kitchen.
Curiously, Nureyev picked up the sandwich—the same sandwich he had ordered the first time he ate there— and looked at the napkin that sat beneath it. Through the layers, he could see there was something written and couldn’t help the little chuckle.
“Oh, how mysterious, Mista Glass!” Rita cried excitedly. “Secret codes and hidden notes and all that stuff!”
Nureyev smiled indulgently at her and picked the napkin up to flip it open. Written inside were comms details, which he could only assume were Juno’s. A brief note, as curt and surly as the lady who wrote it, told Nureyev to call whenever he was able to talk freely.
“Not very mysterious, nor secret, if the whole cafe can hear you, dear Rita,” Nureyev said teasingly, tucking the napkin away to pick up the sandwich and start eating it.
“Oh! Right!” Rita said with a determined look. “Then I guess I better whispa’ then.”
“It’s best that we stop speaking of it entirely, actually,” Nureyev said with a laugh, making quick work of the sandwich before packing up his things to leave. “I’ll see you tomorrow morning, hopefully.”
“Of course, Mista Glass!” Rita replied with a smile so bright it was likely visible from orbit.
As Nureyev left the cafe, he entered Juno’s information into his comms and made the call. His stomach did somersaults as it beeped, waiting anxiously for Juno to answer.
“That was fast,” Juno answered, his tone flat but the tension was palpable.
“Would you prefer I call back later, dear detective?” Nureyev asked with a warm chuckle, and this earns him a snort of laughter.
“No, this is fine, just give me a second. I’m dealing with the oven,” he said, and Nureyev listened to Juno fiddle with and press several buttons, muttering calculations under his breath.
“Don’t you have an oven that does all of that for you?” Nureyev eventually asked, which was responded to by adorable stammering.
“I prefer doing it myself,” Juno grumbled defensively. “If it does the thinking for me, I’ll get lazy.”
“I truly doubt you’ve ever been ‘lazy’ a day in your life, Juno,” Nureyev all but purred, and he smiled at the shaky breath that earned him.
“Well that shows how well you know me then,” Juno said firmly.
Nureyev laughed as he hailed a cab. “That’s what I’m trying to change, dear detective,” he said, hoping he was conveying his sincerity well enough over the comms.
“Stop that,” Juno bit out, but the tone was pleading.
“Stop what, darling?” Nureyev asked cheekily as he slid into the backseat of the cab, handing the driver a business card for the hotel.
“Sucking up to me.”
“I can assure you, Juno, that is not at all what I’m doing,” Nureyev reassured with a small chuckle, letting his voice drop an octave. “But I’m not opposed to suck—”
“Nope, no, absolutely not,” Juno choked a bit. “We’re not— you said you’re leaving soon, right?”
Nureyev hummed his acknowledgement, his smile turning a bit sad.
“Will you tell me what all this is about?” Juno asked, his tone sceptical.
“That depends,” Nureyev replied cheekily, and Juno laughed.
“Okay, I’ll bite. It depends on what?” he asked, and Nureyev could hear the eyeroll.
Nureyev suddenly felt… something like worry and stress, knowing what came next. It was time to take the plunge and it was terrifying.
“Will you go to dinner with me, two nights from now?”
Juno scoffed. “Like a date?” he asked, his tone mocking and bitter but there was an edge to it that Nureyev desperately wanted to be hope.
“Only if you want it to be, Juno,” he replied soothingly. “It can just be dinner, where we can get to know each other and I will… tell you everything after if you still want to know.”
Juno hesitated for a moment before he took a shaky breath. “Do you want it to be a date?” Juno asked quietly.
“Yes,” he replied without hesitation, and he smiled softly at the little gasp Juno let out.
“Tomorrow, I’ll go to dinner with you,” Juno said after a few more moments.
“Tomorrow?” Nureyev asked, raising an eyebrow at the change in pace.
“That a problem, Glass?” Juno asked with a laugh. “You said you’re running out of time.”
Nureyev smiled, and said, “It’s not a problem at all. Thank you—”
“It’s not a date, by the way,” Juno suddenly said, defensive all over again.
“Of course not,” Nureyev agreed.
“You’re still a criminal.”
“Of course, so you say,” he laughed.
“It’s my job to turn people like you in.”
“Of course, Juno. I am aware.”
Juno let out a huff, sounding almost annoyed that Nureyev didn’t argue any of those points. “Good,” he bit out, sighing quietly. “Where are we going?”
“Let me worry about that, dear detective,” Nureyev said soothingly. “I’ll pick you up around seven?”
“Yeah, okay,” Juno said.
“Excellent, I’ll pick you up from your apartment—”
“I’m not telling you where I live, Glass,” Juno all but snapped, and Nureyev chuckled.
“The cafe then?”
Juno grunted, and Nureyev took that as an agreement and smiled.
“What should I wear?” Juno asked.
“Something nice, I suppose,” Nureyev said as the cab pulled up to his hotel. “But I’m sure you’ll be radiant no matter—”
“I told you to stop sucking up to me,” Juno all but growled.
“And I told you that wasn’t what I was doing,” Nureyev sighed as he counted out some creds and handed them to the driver.
“Then what are you doing, Glass?” he demanded, and he sounded so angry and doubtful.
The impulse was there to continue to tease and flirt with the testy detective, but Nureyev knew it was time for sincerity. It was the least he could offer, and the least that Juno deserved.
“I’m flirting with you because I find you to be incredibly clever, strong-willed and sharp,” he began, taking a deep breath. “You are also very pleasing to look at, and you make the best pastries and sandwiches I have ever had the pleasure of enjoying in my life. And—”
“Okay, Glass, I get it!” Juno shouted, and Nureyev laughed as he got out of his cab.
“Do you, Juno? Because I could go on,” he teased.
Juno laughed at that, one of his beautiful rare ones that lifted Nureyev’s spirits like nothing else ever had. It was a strained laugh, still, but amused nonetheless.
“I bet you could,” Juno murmured, and the tone of his voice was so sweet Nureyev wished he could kiss him. “I’m hanging up now, Glass.”
“I will see you tomorrow, dear detective,” Nureyev said with a smile.
“I won’t talk to you when you’re at the cafe,” he warned.
“That’s fine. I’ll still be coming for my breakfast,” Nureyev replied.
“Whatever, knock yourself out,” Juno grumbled. “I have actual work to do. Bye.”
The comms beeped as Juno hung up and Nureyev couldn’t help the grin that spread across his face as he went to his room.
None of the traps in his room had been tripped, and after a cursory look for bugs and finding none, he sat down at the desk to work on removing any video evidence of himself from around the city. He knew the location of just about every camera in the city by then, having perfected this particular chore for over two weeks.
After that, he started compiling his plans, both in preparation for performing the heist, and also for it all to be organized for Juno to easily read. It was at that point that it properly dawned on Nureyev that the next evening, he would be spilling everything to Juno, and his gut squeezed at the thought.
Nureyev wanted to bolt, to go right then and complete the job and leave Mars forever. It would be the smart thing to do, the professional thing.
But he thought about Juno, waiting for Nureyev to pick him up, wearing that same sad expression he had when he was convinced Nureyev wanted Ben. He thought about how he would join the long line of disappointments who preceded him, and it made him sick to his stomach.
Juno deserved the truth, and what was more, Nureyev wanted him to know it.
-
The next morning, Nureyev sat at the cafe eating his breakfast and reading a book. He had no actual work to do anymore, and no longer had a reason to pretend that he did. The cafe was slower than usual, but Juno still managed to stay in the kitchen the whole time as he promised. If Juno ever peeked out through the kitchen door, Nureyev never caught him looking.
It was just before lunch, while Nureyev and Rita sat together watching one of her streams, when Benten arrived with Mick hot on his heels. Nureyev glanced up just in time to see Mick look right at him and frown. The expression was almost comical because, much like Rita, the man’s face was just simply not designed to hold a scowl.
Mick sat down, and grinned broadly at Rita’s delighted, “Hi, Mista Mercury!”
“Good morning,” he said, turning back to Nureyev seriously. “So what are your intentions with my best bud?”
The question actually took Nureyev by surprise and he asked, “I beg your pardon?”
“He means Mista Steel, Mista Glass,” Rita sighed. “He calls Mista Steel his best friend, but I’m actually Mista Steel’s best friend—”
“You’re both wrong,” Benten called from the counter, where he was reading a magazine, not even looking up at them. “I’m his best friend by default.”
“Well,” Mick prompted, ignoring both of them. “What are your intentions with my best friend?”
Nureyev raised an eyebrow and chuckled. “That is certainly a loaded question, Mr Mercury,” he replied eventually.
Mick made a face, which Nureyev was positive was meant to look a lot like Juno’s deadpan stare, but it just looked silly on his goofy face.
“Are they pure?” Mick asked, the corners of his mouth twitching.
Nureyev let out an actual bark of laughter at that, delighting in the way that Benten’s head shot up to stare at them.
“Absolutely not,” he replied cheekily, his tone almost mockingly flirtatious, though the words did summon some fantasies that had heat pooling between his legs.
Mick’s face broke into a grin while Benten audibly gagged. “Hey! That’s great because my buddy Jay is a catch and deserves to be treated like the queen he—”
“Mick!” Benten hissed. “Focus? Please?”
“Oh, right, yeah,” Mick said, visibly working to school his expression into something more serious and asked solemnly, “Do you like mushrooms?”
“Oh, for fuck’s sake,” Benten muttered, dropping his head onto the counter with a heavy thunk.
“I don’t have much of an opinion on them, to be honest,” Nureyev replied, shrugging with one shoulder. “They aren’t something I particularly love, I suppose.”
Mick was grinning again, and Nureyev was baffled by him.
“Perfect! Cos Jay hates them, like even the smell of them,” Mick said quickly. “There was this one time when I ate this whole mushroom and cheese pie thing, and JayJay walked home because he couldn’t stand sitting in the cab with me all the way back—”
“Mick, c’mon!” Benten groaned, and Mick actually rolled his eyes and Nureyev was certain the man was properly annoyed.
“Okay man, Glass, whatever,” Mick said with an exaggerated sigh. “Do you like Juno?”
“Very much,” Nureyev said without a moment’s hesitation, which brought a smile to Mick’s face again.
“And you wouldn’t willingly put him in harm’s way?” he continued.
“Not if I could help it.”
“And you’re not blackmailing or forcing him to go out with you tonight?”
“Not at all.”
Mick narrowed his eyes at Nureyev for a minute, the silence between them dragging by, before he smiled and shrugged. “Good enough for me,” he said pleasantly.
“Seriously, Mick?” Benten asked sceptically and Mick nodded.
“Yup! Listen, JayJay can take care of himself, Ben. I’m not gonna go around deciding for him what he can and cannot do,” Mick said, shrugging a bit at Rita’s annoyed huffing next to him.
“Did you even listen to anything I told you about what this guy does for a living?” Benten asked.
“Yeah, Ben, but I think Juno is the best equipped for that anyway. But, I mean,” Mick trailed off with a shrug, his face turning properly serious. “Whether I like him or not isn’t what matters, same with you and Rita. Jay makes his own choices, so I say we just get comfy with the lady’s decisions and be ready to clean up after things if we have to.”
Rita and Nureyev stared at Mick for a few long moments, before Rita said, “Wow, Mista Mercury! That was real smart! I mean, I’ve been saying the same stuff and tryn’ to get Mista Benzaiten to see it that way, too!”
The compliment caught Mick off-guard, and for a moment or two he rubbed the back of his neck bashfully. “Gee, thanks, Rita. Trying to protect Jay just makes him more reckless in my experience.”
“God, Mercury,” Benten said with a roll of his eyes. “You can pull that kind of wisdom out of your ass for Juno, but not yourself?”
“I’m doing fine,” Mick replied with a shrug.
“Mick, I literally just saved you from a mugger,” Benten said flatly, to which Mick just laughed.
Nureyev checked his watch and sighed, his heart suddenly in his throat. “Well, I should head out,” he said with a small smile. “I have some work to do before my dinner with Juno.”
“Wait, you can’t just leave without lunch, Mista Glass! Lemme go grab you somethn’, on the house!” Rita said as she jumped up and hurried back behind the counter. She froze suddenly and pointed back at Nureyev with a fierce expression. “And you’re taking a bag, Mista Glass. Or else I’m never serving you anything ever again.”
Nureyev laughed at the threat, utterly confused by it, but not interested in questioning it or the cringes of Rita and Benten.
- - - - -
Nureyev fiddled with the cuffs of his blazer in the back seat of the cab before tugging at his gloves lightly. He was nervous about the upcoming evening, which meant he was nauseated and ready to stop the cab and flee. Though it felt cowardly, he couldn’t actually look when the cab turned the corner toward the cafe, knowing it would be in view.
The fear and anxiety seized his chest, and the urge to disappear rose up like bile in his throat all over again. But he knew disappearing was not possible, and chose instead to flat out ignore their destination until he absolutely had to face it.
The car stopped and Nureyev only had a few seconds to attempt to collect himself before the door opened and someone slid in next to him. Taking a deep breath, Nureyev turned to face Juno and was immediately winded by the vision that sat across the bench from him. It was a good thing he hadn’t looked ahead, because he was certain that he would have actually bolted if he had.
Juno was dressed very well for a dinner he insisted was not a date, wearing a yellow gown with off-the-shoulder sleeves and a belt cinched tight around his waist. Notably, there was a dramatic slit up the length of the skirt, exposing Juno’s entire left leg to Nureyev’s greedy gaze, showing off the lace boots he wore as well as a tangle of flower embroidery on his hip.
After a few moments of gawking, Nureyev met Juno’s gaze, taking in the dark lipstick, the dramatic smokey eye shadow and the crisp black eyepatch. As he stared, Nureyev realized that the detective’s cheekbones, jawline, and collarbones shimmered with gold highlights, and he was desperate to mess it up with his tongue.
Simply put, Juno was breathtaking. He was also incredibly tense.
Juno was watching Nureyev’s face, and had begun to mess with the hem of his dress. “What?” Juno finally asked defensively, biting the inside of his cheek.
“You’re stunning, Juno,” Nureyev breathed, and he couldn’t even find it in himself to feel embarrassed at how easily he was affected by Juno. When Juno dipped his head and smiled softly at the compliment, Nureyev felt like he was in free-fall for a moment.
“Thanks, you…” Juno trailed off, shaking his head. “You look good. Too, I mean. You look good, too.”
The ride most of the way to the restaurant was quiet, though not uncomfortable. At least, the quiet wasn’t. Nureyev, however, found himself utterly distracted by Juno’s bare leg, wholly visible from his hip to his ankle. Nureyev wanted to reach across the bench and touch, to feel Juno’s warm skin through his leather glove, to take off his glove and feel the softness of that thigh under his fingers and squeeze the meat of it.
Several times over the course of the short cab ride, Nureyev had to look out the window to catch his breath and school his thoughts to something less needy. His body was reacting to his thoughts, and it would be incredibly humiliating to soak through his pants before they even reached the restaurant.
“Hey,” the cab driver suddenly said, his voice stern. “I’m not gonna stop you or watch, but it’s a 300 cred cleaning fee if you mess up the upholstery.”
Juno choked as Nureyev’s eyes snapped up to meet the man’s gaze in the rearview mirror. Juno stammered for a bit, saying, “Wh-what!? N-no it’s not— we’re not— there isn’t— what?”
The cab driver just rolled his eyes. “Whatever, just letting you know,” he muttered.
When they arrived at the restaurant, Juno stared out the window and made a noise in the back of his throat. Nureyev couldn’t tell if it was a sound of amusement or something else and that made him even more nervous.
“I said this wasn’t a date,” Juno said flatly, glaring over his shoulder at Nureyev. The cab driver snorted at that, and Juno turned a glower at full heat on him.
“I am aware, dear detective,” Nureyev replied.
When Juno looked at him again, there was something intense in his expression, his visible eye narrowed at him. “Then why did you bring me to the place in Hyperion City for dumb saps to propose?”
Nureyev was tempted to feign ignorance, but this whole endeavour was about being up front and honest with Juno. Lying, especially over something like choosing a romantic venue for a night he wished to be just so, seemed stupid.
“It’s still not a date, as long as you don’t want it to be, Juno,” he replied finally. “I also wanted to make it clear exactly where my interest in you lies.”
Juno bit the inside of his cheek, mulling over Nureyev’s words before nodding. With another firm look, Juno said, “Still not a date.”
Nureyev smiled broadly. “Of course, dear.”
Juno seemed distracted for a moment, his gaze glancing down and locking onto Nureyev’s mouth. Clearing his throat loudly, the detective shook his head and opened his door, slipping out. Nureyev watched him, particularly interested when the movement shifted the dress to show off even more leg as well as a hint of his ass. At that, Nureyev had to take a deep breath to calm himself and was interrupted by the cab driver demanding to be paid.
Juno was waiting for him when he got out of the car, staring up at the restaurant with some trepidation.
“Everything alright, Juno?” Nureyev asked, standing at full height and straightening his blazer.
“This place is expensive, Glass,” Juno complained, but there was something in his tone that Nureyev couldn’t quite place.
“Have you been?” Nureyev asked cautiously, and immediately felt some regret when Juno’s expression darkened a bit.
“Yeah, a long time ago,” he replied with a sigh.
“Well,” Nureyev hummed and offered his elbow to Juno, grinning toothily when Juno accepted it without question. “All of my expenses are paid.”
Juno snorted, allowing himself to be led up the stairs and through the doors. “You’re going to expense a date?”
“Of course not, detective, that would be incredibly unprofessional!” Nureyev said with a scandalized gasp. “Thankfully, as you keep insisting, this isn’t a date.”
Juno looked away pointedly, chewing the inside of his cheek at realizing his slip-up. The urge to spin Juno where he stood and kiss the breath from his lungs was strong, and Nureyev was almost embarrassed by how badly he wanted it.
When they reached the Maitre d’, Nureyev said, “Reservation for Duke and Dahlia Rose.”
Nureyev smiled pleasantly, even as Juno snorted rudely at hearing the aliases, and tugged him along behind the Maitre d’ as she guided them through the dining room.
“Dahlia Rose? Really?” Juno asked with another laugh. “The hell kind of name is that?”
“I’ve used Duke Rose before, years ago, and I figured you might want an alias, too,” Nureyev teased with a wink down at Juno. “‘Dahlia’ was the best I could do on such short notice. Not all names can be as pretty as ‘Juno’, dear.”
“Isn’t it, I don’t know, a bit obvious that it’s not a real name?” Juno asked, and Nureyev smiled indulgently down at him but did not answer right away.
Nureyev took a moment to look around the dining room, noting the number of occupants, potential exits, and possible threats. Once he was finished casing the room, he paid attention to the actual people and with some amusement, he realized that several patrons had stopped to stare at Juno as he glided past their tables, eyes locked on his bare leg and the flowers at his hip.
Once they arrived at their table and were left alone, Nureyev cleared his throat to say, “Our names would only be ‘obvious’ aliases to incredibly clever private eyes, I would think.”
Juno looked away, seemingly startled by the praise, but he was smiling. The reaction of some nearby patrons at Juno’s demure display was completely understandable to Nureyev.
“You’re sucking up again,” Juno accused.
“I’m complimenting you, Juno,” Nureyev said as a server approached their table and quickly ordered them a bottle of wine.
“It’s the same difference,” Juno said flatly, chewing the inside of his cheek.
“Hardly. ‘Sucking up’ as you call it implies some deception, as if part of what I was saying was a lie,” Nureyev began, pausing only long enough to sample the wine their server brought back and approve it to be served. He smiled at Juno’s frown over the rim of his wine glass. “Now, when I say that you are an absolute vision, the most gorgeous and clever lady I have ever had the pleasure of knowing? I am not stretching anything, lying, or teasing. I mean my words completely.”
“Whatever, Glass,” Juno muttered, obviously embarrassed but also somewhat pleased.
They lapsed into silence for a few minutes as they contemplated their menus.
“Ugh, I hate this,” Juno grumbled eventually, dropping his menu back on the table. “Just order me something. My eye’s too tired to read the fancy font. Nothing with mushrooms, though”
“Of course, dear,” Nureyev laughed. When the server returned, he ordered their food and turned his attention back to Juno.
The detective was lounging back in his chair, one arm crossed over his waist while the other held his wine glass just below his nose as he watched Nureyev.
“What’s on your mind?” Nureyev prompted and Juno just shrugged.
“This really seems like your whole… thing,” he replied, though his tone seemed to imply otherwise.
Nureyev couldn’t help the chuckle that bubbled up. “Does it?”
Juno’s eye narrowed a bit, though his expression was kept pointedly disinterested. “You seem born to it,” he finally said and Nureyev smirked.
“Do you think so?” he prompted.
Something shifted in Juno’s gaze, where it seemed even sharper than Nureyev had ever seen it, and then he shook his head a bit. “No. Rich people are white-collar through and through, even when they’re being shady,” Juno finally answered, his tone firm and sure, and Nureyev felt a shiver roll through him. “They rarely risk getting their own hands dirty if they can help it.”
“Good work, detective!” Nureyev praised, hunger settling in his gut when Juno looked away with a shy smile again. “I knew you were very clever.”
“It’s not that hard to figure out,” Juno attempted to deflect.
“Ah, but it is,” Nureyev disagreed. “You’re the first person I’ve known who guessed correctly as you have.”
“Okay, so you weren’t born to it,” Juno pressed, and Nureyev could tell he was trying to move the conversation away from praising him.
“It’s all learned, you are correct. Not necessarily an act, per se, but I had to learn it for the job,” he replied with a smile, allowing it to become something a bit sharper as he said, “Much of my work involves schmoozing with the elite.”
Juno’s gaze locked onto his mouth again, his visible eye traveling along his teeth and he chewed the inside of his cheek.
“So, how did… you grow up to become Rex Glass,” Juno eventually asked, looking into his wine glass for a moment.
Nureyev debated responding, instinctively retreating inward as he was wont to do. But that was counterproductive to what he was hoping to achieve that evening with his beautiful dinner partner.
“I lived on the streets for much of my childhood, until I was taken in by a mentor. I don’t remember much of my life before that,” Nureyev replied, savouring his wine while Juno mulled over his words. “What about you?”
Juno snorted and rolled his eye a bit. “Ma used to work for Northstar Entertainment. Lost her job, and then things were hard,” Juno said with a shrug. “I’m sure you’ve already looked all that up.”
“Not at all,” Nureyev replied with a shake of his head. “I looked up the information the HCPD had on you once, but nothing personal.”
Juno looked completely baffled by his confession. “Why not?”
Nureyev had no good answer for Juno, and had to forcibly keep himself from answering with something witty and useless. “I’m not even sure, Juno. Normally, I would have, but I hesitated with you,” Nureyev said slowly, shrugging. “I wanted to hear what stories you have in your own words, I suppose. Perhaps it’s because I saw you before I knew even the first thing about you. I don’t know.”
“What do you know about me then?” Juno asked curiously.
“You’re a sharpshooter, and a damn good one—”
“Haven’t been a sharpshooter in five years, Glass—”
“No, no, do not interrupt,” Nureyev scolded, and Juno’s mouth snapped shut. “You can’t go from your level of talent to nothing, Juno. I know you’ve been going to shooting ranges weekly, according to Rita.”
“Doesn’t make me a sharpshooter,” Juno grumbled and Nureyev decided he didn’t want to argue with him.
“Regardless, I know you left the HCPD, and that there were some disciplinary notes, but I didn’t read them,” he reassured. “They weren’t relevant.”
Juno hummed, studying his face and seemed to decide, ultimately, that Nureyev was being truthful. “Huh, interesting. So this is honestly a chance to get to know each other?”
Nureyev nodded and laughed. “I have been saying that this whole time, but yes.”
Juno smirked, or at least tried for a smirk but it really was just a small, happy smile. “Oh,” was all he managed to say for a while, waiting patiently as the waiter brought a basket of bread to the table.
“I’m curious,” Nureyev began slowly. “What have you figured out about me?”
“Not much,” Juno replied with a petulant pout. “I’m guessing you’re Brahmese, but that’s not too difficult if you know what you’re looking for.”
Nureyev raised an eyebrow. “And did you? Know what to look for, I mean?”
“No,” Juno admitted bitterly. “Thought your teeth could be used as an identifier, but turns out most of the people on Brahma share your general description.”
They were silent for a few moments, Nureyev mulling over Juno’s words, and Juno thinking about something impossible for Nureyev to parse out at all.
“Did you live up on New Kinshasa, or…?” Juno asked, his tone careful as he asked.
“No one is homeless on New Kinshasa,” Nureyev replied simply, aiming to leave it at that when he realized it wasn’t much of an answer. “I lived on the surface. My family… they either left or died, but I have no memory of them.”
Juno nodded and tore at his bread thoughtfully. “I’m… sorry?” he said eventually, and Nureyev smiled at the stilted attempt at sympathy.
“It’s the past, dear detective,” Nureyev waved it off. “My mentor took me in when I was quite young, and taught me everything I know.”
With another nod, and perhaps sensing there was no good way to elaborate on his mentor in public, Juno said, “My mom wasn’t that great. Ben wouldn’t want me saying it, but she was… she was terrible. I don’t know why he still defends her, but whatever.”
“Perhaps he knew a different side of her?” Nureyev supplied and Juno snorted.
“Yeah, he knew a different side of her, for sure,” Juno said sarcastically, rolling his eye. “She lost her job at Northstar when we were, like, four and she blamed me ever since.”
“Where is she now?” Nureyev asked.
“Dead. She went to Hoosegow after she tried to kill Ben—”
Nureyev dropped his bread knife, which startled Juno mid-sentence. “Excuse me?” he asked, sure he had misheard.
“She went to Hoosegow—”
“No, I caught that part, Juno,” Nureyev said with a weak laugh. “She tried to kill Benzaiten?”
Juno paused a moment before he nodded. “She thought he was me.”
Nureyev blinked at him for several moments before he said, “See, you keep saying things as if they’re supposed to make sense, but they don’t, Juno.”
“She hated me and wanted me dead, got Ben confused for me and had really shitty aim,” Juno explained in a frustrated huff. “She went to Hoosegow and then died a couple years later. There’s really not that much to it, Glass.”
Nureyev wanted to ask more questions, but Juno was visibly tense, his expression tight. Asking more would only spoil the rest of the evening and Nureyev couldn’t have that.
“Tell me about Mick,” he said instead, and immediately the dark clouds around Juno parted. “How does he fit in with Juno Steel?”
The rest of their evening went on like that, with them discussing the lighter parts of their lives and telling stories that had each other laughing out loud.
They had finished their dinner and were working on their second bottle of wine as Nureyev began waxing poetic about other planets. He had been spurred on by the mystified way Juno stared at him over the rim of his wine glass, his deep blue eye catching the candlelight in an almost magical way.
“Wow, sounds amazing out there,” Juno murmured as Nureyev finished describing Neptune.
Nureyev hummed. “It is,” he said softly.
“Have you ever thought about… settling down?” Juno asked after a moment, chewing the inside of his cheek. “I mean, stopping for a while?”
Nureyev thought he could see a glimmer of hope in the detective’s eye, one that the lady was obviously trying to hide or stamp out. For a moment, Nureyev wanted to lie, had it prepared on the tip of his tongue even, to keep that hope alive and see him smile. But Juno Steel would always prefer a hard truth over a pretty lie, which was something Nureyev found that he liked quite a lot.
“No, not at all,” Nureyev said gently. “Settling down for people in my line of work… usually doesn’t involve surviving to retire.”
Juno nodded at that, and Nureyev saw something shift in his expression, but it was so slight that he could not even begin to figure it out. Just then, their desserts arrived and Nureyev started in on his experiences on Venus.
Across from him, Juno shifted in his seat to cross his legs as he leaned forward to eat his dessert. Nureyev barely refrained from jumping when Juno’s foot trailed up the inside of his leg, stopping to rest against his chair between his knees. Nureyev looked up at Juno questioningly, but the look Juno offered him was the picture of innocence.
It wasn’t until Juno’s foot nudged his knee deliberately that Nureyev realized he had stopped talking entirely. Clearing his throat, he continued his story with a shaky voice. When Juno took a moment to lick his spoon just a bit too deliberately with entirely too much bedroom eye, Nureyev’s words stuttered to a halt once again.
“What?” Juno asked cheekily, and Nureyev stared at a spot of cream left at the corner of his mouth.
“You— you’ve got a bit of cream,” Nureyev begins, pointing at the corner of his own mouth.
Juno chuckled softly, as if he was truly embarrassed by such a thing, and wiped his fingertips through the mess before slipping them into his mouth. It was a simple enough gesture, and not even particularly suggestive on it’s own, until Juno’s blue eye flickered up to meet his. The heat in that gaze was intense, and Nureyev could feel the space between his thighs grow hot and damp.
Then Juno hollowed his cheeks as he pulled his fingers out of his mouth with a soft, yet perfectly audible pop.
As Nureyev dropped his spoon onto his plate with a disruptive clatter, a patron at a nearby table dropped something small which made a tinkling noise as it hit the floor. Clearing his throat forcefully, Nureyev picked up his spoon and resumed his story without looking at the scheming temptress across from him, instead watching the other patron frantically scoop what looked like an engagement ring up off the floor. With some amusement, if only to make himself feel better about being far too wet for not even being touched yet, he observed that both the patron aiming to propose and their partner were distracted by Juno.
Juno moved his foot again, slipping it further up Nureyev’s inner thigh, rocking up and down until Nureyev met his gaze again. The brat had an eyebrow raised with the spoon held between his lips, and his expression was molten.
With some alarm, Nureyev considered that he was being tested, that it was some sort of trap. A test was much more Benzaiten’s style, however— he couldn’t imagine Juno pulling the same sort of petty nonsense.
Nureyev knocked back the last of his wine and cleared his throat. “Would you like another bottle of wine, Juno?” he asked, his voice thick as he lounged back in his chair, allowing his blazer to fall open. Immediately, Juno’s gaze gravitated to his torso, tracing where Nureyev’s corset cut off just below his chest. Beneath the corset was just a lace shirt, completely see-through except for two notably solid patches of flowers.
Juno eventually hummed, clearing his throat and scooping up the last bit of his dessert with a shake of his head. “I don’t think so. We still have something to discuss,” he said before smirking suggestively. “In private.”
“Ah, of course,” Nureyev said a bit shakily, swallowing thickly. “We could go back to your apartment? If you would like?”
Juno bit his lip and cast his eye downward, a mockery of shy nerves. “I was thinking we should go to your hotel room? It’ll be quiet, empty… private,” Juno said demurely, shrugging a bare shoulder that all but demanded Nureyev’s teeth to mark it up.
Nureyev watched Juno’s face, trying to gauge how much of what he was saying was innuendo, and said, “Of course. We can discuss things at my hotel as long and loud as we please,” he said slowly, smiling to expose his sharp teeth a bit. “We could get quite heated and not disturb a single person.”
“Sounds good to me,” Juno said, and his voice was strained suddenly, as if he hadn’t counted on Nureyev rising to his bait.
Nureyev made quick work of settling their bill, hardly even looking at the amount before he stood and offered his elbow to Juno. When the detective accepted, he tucked himself much closer to Nureyev’s side, the heat of him warming through the layer of his blazer.
Sliding into the backseat of the first available cab, Nureyev was startled when Juno sat on the bench directly beside him. Looking down, Nureyev swallowed hard as Juno’s bare thigh pressed along his leg, and he shivered when the detective’s shoulder leaned into his side while he smoothed his dress down properly.
Very conscious of the placement of his hands, Nureyev kept them clasped together in his lap as he stared resolutely out the window. However, the scheming lady next to him was determined to make any attempt at professionalism impossible, what with the way he kept shifting his leg against Nureyev’s.
The short cab ride to the hotel was already shaping up to feel like an eternity.
“So, is there a plan when we get to the hotel?”
Nureyev tilted his head just so to look down at Juno, knocked nearly breathless all over again by the gorgeous lady looking up at him. But he schooled his expression, smirking just enough to flash some of his teeth, and Nureyev did not miss the way Juno looked at his mouth, or the way Juno’s own mouth fell open with a nearly silent gasp.
“What do you mean by that, Juno?” Nureyev prompted, saying his name with a suggestive drawl and raising an eyebrow.
He did not miss the way Juno shivered when he said his name.
Juno leaned closer to him, the glorious heat of his soft body flush against his side. “You have a way in where we won’t be seen?” he pressed, his voice low.
Nureyev chuckled and leaned into Juno’s space, putting his gloved hand down on Juno’s thigh near where it met his hip As he leaned even harder against Juno, he slid his long leather-clad fingers down between Juno’s thighs, the head of the lady’s cock mere inches away.
Juno shuddered, tipping his head when Nureyev bent low to brush his lips against the shell of his ear. With a toothy smirk, Nureyev squeezed the meat of Juno’s thigh until he gasped.
“We won’t be sneaking past any cameras, my dear detective,” he explained in a whisper, luxuriating in the gasps and shudders of his beautiful lady. “We will walk in together, keeping everything professional, of course.”
“Professional?” Juno bit out, his voice breathy and dripping with tension.
“Of course, and it should be easy enough,” Nureyev teased, his lips brushing Juno’s ear and for a moment he nearly bites it. “This isn’t a date after all.”
Juno nodded jerkily with a hard swallow, and heat absolutely radiated off of Juno’s face.
Nureyev chuckled, flicking his tongue out to wet his lips, which in turn caught the shell of Juno’s ear. Relishing Juno’s shudder, Nureyev squeezed the thigh in his hand tight enough to bruise, holding firm until Juno let out a soft sound. It was just a quiet vocalization on the tail-end of his sharp exhale, and Nureyev wanted more of it. He suddenly wished that he wasn’t wearing his gloves, wanting so desperately to feel the detective’s soft skin under his fingertips.
“I will erase any footage of us together when we go up to our room,” Nureyev murmured, inwardly flinching at calling it their room, a slip-up he had never made before in his career as a thief. Juno at least did not seem to notice his poor word choice, his head tilted to the side, visible eye fluttering as Nureyev massaged his thigh. It was then that he realized that Juno had wrapped one of his hands around Nureyev’s wrist, holding tightly, but not trying to pull his hand away.
Before he pulled back, Nureyev took a moment longer to press his nose and mouth to the side of Juno’s head, just above his ear. Breathing in the scent of coconut and something else, he let out a soft groan only for Juno to hear. Finally, he released Juno, withdrawing his hand with a teasing slide of his fingertips against his sensitive inner-thigh. At Juno’s twitch and gentle gasp, Nureyev found himself very interested indeed to find out just how responsive his beautiful lady truly was.
Sitting back, Nureyev looked at Juno again and immediately regretted every action he made leading up to that very moment.
Juno’s gaze was molten, his lips parted and his visible eye heavy-lidded. There was a very alarming moment when Nureyev wanted to grab the private eye and kiss the breath from him, to press him back against their seat and swallow every gasp, moan, and pleading word his detective might utter.
Pulling on the reins of his self-control, Nureyev sucked a deep breath in through his nose and turned his attention straight ahead. Next to him, he could hear Juno taking a few deep breaths himself before he settled finally. The tension in the backseat was palpable, and every time Nureyev met the cab driver’s eyes in the rearview mirror, she looked completely unimpressed.
When they arrived at the hotel, Nureyev was still paying the driver when the doorman opened Juno’s door to assist him out of the vehicle.
“Ah, Mr Glass! Welcome back to the Hyperion Hotel!” the doorman said exuberantly as Nureyev stepped out behind Juno. “Would you and your companion enjoy a bottle of champagne this evening?”
“Thank you kindly, Washburn, but this is merely business,” Nureyev said with a pleasant smile, and he did not miss the sceptical tilt of the doorman’s eyebrows at his claim.
“Of course, Mr Glass,” Washburn said with a knowing wink. “Enjoy the rest of your evening.”
With that, Nureyev and Juno entered the opulent lobby with at least a foot between them. Nureyev nodded politely to the associates behind the front desk as they all greeted him by name as well, and Juno made a noise in the back of his throat.
“It’s not, you know, weird that they all know your name?” Juno asked quietly.
“Not at all, my dear Juno,” Nureyev replied with an indulgent smile. “In a place like this, it’s industry standard for all employees to know any guest staying longer than two nights by name.”
“Sounds pretty risky,” Juno murmured and Nureyev laughed a bit.
“This is why I usually stay at little dives if I intend to spend more than a day in one place,” Nureyev agreed. “Employees at places like that are barely paid enough to show up to their shifts, and if you tip them nicely they’ll lie to Dark Matters for you if they have to.”
“Speaking from experience?” Juno said with a snort as they reached the elevators.
“Perhaps,” Nureyev teased with a sly smile, guiding Juno into the elevator when it arrived.
It felt as though the elevator was crawling up the floors after that, and Nureyev let out a sigh. “There are only three cameras on my floor, all of which are situated at the elevator bay,” Nureyev began, his voice low and serious. “One will be facing us when we exit the elevator, so you will have to keep your face low without actually looking as though you are hiding it.”
“Sounds easy enough,” Juno replied, and there wasn’t even an ounce of sarcasm in his tone. “The other two cameras?”
“They face down the two wings. Once we turn down the hall to my room, it will be behind us so it should be a simple thing with minimal risk,” Nureyev answered, and felt something shift in his chest at the curt nod Juno gave him.
“Got it,” Juno murmured, shrugging.
Nureyev was genuinely impressed by how quickly Juno was able to follow his lead as they stepped out of the elevator, keeping his head down by taking his comms out of his bag to fiddle like he was getting ready to call someone. His focus was remarkable, and Nureyev witnessed the exact moment when Juno relaxed again. He hadn’t even realized just how serious Juno had been until they turned the corner and had their backs to the camera.
Gone was the intense look and stony silence, and in its place was the simmering heat from the backseat of the cab again. Their gazes met once and Nureyev was nearly overwhelmed with the desire to pin the detective against the wall and have his wicked way with him right there. When they arrived at Nureyev’s room, Juno leaned against the doorjamb and smiled up at him in such a broad, open way that something ached terribly deep in Nureyev’s chest.
Nureyev was going to insist they talk once they stepped inside, he decided. He wanted the air to be clear between them, to make sure Juno went into anything they might do that evening fully informed. Juno knew he was a criminal, yes, but there was so much more to his job on Mars, things that were directly related to Juno. Nureyev knew he couldn’t move forward with that hanging over and between them.
The lock on the door chimed as it released, and Nureyev pushed the door open. Standing with his back against it to hold it open for Juno, he gestured grandly for the detective to enter. The smile on Juno’s face as he stepped into the darkened entryway from the hall was mischievous, and Nureyev narrowed his eyes a bit in suspicion when Juno did not continue into the suite.
There was no way Nureyev would have predicted what Juno had planned.
Hands grabbed the back of his head and pulled him down, his sharp gasp of surprise swallowed in a hot mouth and smothered by plump lips made sticky with lipstain. Nureyev was a weak man, however, and returned the hard kiss by meeting Juno’s tongue halfway, shivering as Juno pressed his perfect, soft body flush to his.
He was effectively pinned against the door he was holding open, and he didn’t want to be anywhere else in the galaxy. Juno was making delicious little sounds against his tongue as he hitched his bare leg up, seemingly to wrap it around Nureyev’s waist, but their difference in height was too much. With a low growl, Nureyev grabbed Juno’s supple ass with both hands and hauled him up until the detective could find purchase with his legs around his thin waist and his arms draped over his shoulders.
All thoughts of talking things out with Juno first had swiftly flown from Nureyev’s mind, every coherent thought he might have had fled. He realized with some very distant alarm that they had somehow made it all the way through the suite and into the bedroom, as he found himself seated on the bed with Juno squirming in his lap. The detective was whining into his mouth, one of his hands tangled in his loose hair; Nureyev didn’t even recall taking the tie out of it and undoing the braid, which was almost concerning enough to snap him out of his lust-driven haze. Juno’s other hand was on his chest, groping one of his tits and flicking his thumb across the nipple.
Nureyev wasn’t very sensitive there, but he also wasn’t about to deny having Juno’s hands on him.
But Nureyev’s own hands were frantic as well, his desire to touch and hold every part of Juno taking over now that he could. One hand was on Juno’s thigh following the straps that wrapped his leg snugly while the other clung to the golden fabric of the gown at his hip. Nureyev slipped his gloved fingers beneath the straps to squeeze Juno’s soft thigh, and rested his thumb teasingly near the base of a very prominent erection. When Juno shivered, Nureyev pressed into the sensitive spot with a possessive growl, pulling a needy sob from Juno and swallowing it greedily.
Nureyev groaned at how responsive his private eye was and licked deeper and harder into his perfect mouth.
Juno tugged at his corset, fumbling with the clasps as he whispered against his mouth, “Fuck, Glass, been wanting this off you since the moment I saw you in it.”
Hearing his alias jolted Nureyev out of his lustful haze once and for all, and he was struck with the need to tell Juno immediately. He couldn’t allow it to go any further so long as Juno knew him as Rex Glass.
Nureyev turned his head away from Juno’s lips and shivered as the detective only moved his lips to his throat, mouthing, biting, and sucking at the pale skin. “Juno, we still need to talk,” he gasped, moaning and squeezing Juno’s thighs.
“Then you talk, I’ll finish undressing us,” Juno murmured cheekily, and Nureyev could feel his smirk. “Multitasking, yeah?”
“Juno,” Nureyev moaned, lifting his hands to grab Juno’s wrists and pull his hands away from his clothes.
When Juno made a petulant sound against his pulse, Nureyev’s willpower wavered dangerously. What harm could it do, waiting until his desire was sated and he’d had the lady who haunted his waking thoughts?
Then Juno groaned, “C’mon, Rex, we can talk later.” His tone had been teasing, pleading but not demanding, but it felt like a blow to Nureyev’s gut.
That had been the first time Juno had called him ‘Rex’, and he felt sick to his stomach at the thought of continuing. There was an alarming moment where his thoughts swirled around the disgust in himself for letting it progress this far so quickly, and then the fear that came with the intensity of his feelings.
‘Rex Glass’ was a fake name, a fake person, while Juno was so real and beautiful. Nureyev wanted— no, needed Juno to know his name, his purpose for being on Mars. He needed Juno to know him, even if he chose in the end to cast Nureyev aside. He knew, roughly, what it meant for Juno to be in his lap, pulling at his clothes and begging so prettily for more.
He didn’t want to fuck Juno while only offering less than half of himself when the detective was giving everything in return. He didn’t want to fuck Juno as Rex glass, he thought with a soft cry when Juno bit his neck again.
With a gasp of utter terror, he realized he wanted to make love to Juno Steel as Peter Nureyev, more than anything else in the galaxy.
The detective was still working bruises into the skin of his long throat when Nureyev turned his head to whisper, directly into Juno’s ear, “Nureyev.”
Juno froze, and Nureyev screwed his eyes tightly shut.
“My name is Peter Nureyev.”
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tagged by @brontes thank you !! ♡
on a scale of 1-10, how excited are you about life right now? like a 5.5 maybe
describe yourself in a hashtag? #AHHHHHHHH
if you could do a love scene with anyone, who would it be? does anyone actually like to do love scenes cause it seems like it’d be pretty uncomfortable to me
if your life was a musical, what would the marquee say? rolling with the punches
what’s one thing people don’t know about you? probably that i’m actually a mess hahaha
what’s your wake up ritual? bathroom, brush teeth, wash face, contacts, breakfast and then get dressed
what’s your go to bed ritual? bathroom, brush teeth, contacts out, read until i’m ready to sleep
what’s your favorite time of day? depends on the season, but since we’re coming up on summer i’ll go with that twilight time of the evening between like 7 and 9 when the sun is setting and you can hear all the crickets and other insects singing and everything seems blanketed in this otherworldly glow
your go to for having a good laugh? old messages/videos/photos, cracky memes and shitposts
dream country to visit? new zealand
what’s the biggest surprise you’ve ever had? my parents surprised us with a trip to disney once! my sister and i literally cried lmao
heels or flats/sneakers? sneakers
vintage or new? depends, but usually new
who do you want to write your obituary? whoever wants to i guess
style icon? padme amidala (yes a fictional character)
what are three things you cannot live without? family, friends, and good stories
what’s one ingredient you put in everything? i use red pepper a lot, but not in everything. so probably too much salt
what 3 people living or dead would you want to make dinner for? my best friend, my sister, my mom
what’s your biggest fear in life? failing / not living up to my family’s expectations of me
window or aisle seat? window, but only if i know the people next to me. i get up way too many times to bother them if i don’t lol
what’s your current tv obsession? the clone wars :(
favorite app? apple music or messages, bc those are the ones i use most
secret talent? all my talents have long been put on display and used to give me stress lol
most adventurous thing you’ve ever done in your life? moving across the country for school probably
how would you define yourself in three words? perceptive, self-aware, empathetic
favorite piece of clothing you own? maybe my fila disruptors? basic i know but they're very stompy
a must have clothing item that everyone should have? a nice pair of jeans i think
a superpower you would want? telepathy
what’s inspiring you in life right now? art and the people who make it
best piece of advice you’ve received? forgive and let go (but don’t forget)
best advice you’d give your teenage self? stop worrying so much about being well-behaved and fight back. tell people what you think even if they don’t want to hear it
a book everyone should read? everyone has different values and interests so i don’t think i can recommend one book that everyone should read
what would you like to be remembered for? being a good friend
how do you define beauty? beauty is in the eye of the beholder, so it’s whatever i think is beautiful, and also whatever anyone else thinks is beautiful
what do you love most about your body? if we’re talking about features then my eyes, but overall i’ve worked hard to get strong and i love how effortless everything feels now
best way to take a rest/decompress? lounging around and watching something, maybe with friends depending on my mood
favorite place to view art? i guess it depends on what type of art
if your life was a song, what would the title be? keep on
if you could master one instrument, what would it be? piano or saxophone
if you had a tattoo, where would it be? it would be small, just under my hairline on the back of my neck. but i would never get a tattoo anyway
dolphins or koalas? dolphins !!
what’s your spirit animal? i don’t think so
best gift you’ve ever received? probably books that i asked for
best gift you’ve given? i design a themed calendar for my best friend every year and she always really loves that, but also i did something very elaborate for my sister last christmas and she was laughing about it for weeks. the pieces are still arranged in a shrine in her room lol
what’s your favorite board game? clue, or trivial pursuit but only if it has a fun theme
what’s your favorite color? all of them!
least favorite color? there are no bad colors
diamond or pearls? pearls
drugstore makeup or designer? you could hand me one of each and i wouldn’t even know the difference
pilates or yoga? i’ve never done either so idk
coffee or tea? coffee but i like both
what’s the weirdest word in the english language? discombobulate, canoodle, phlegm
dark chocolate or milk chocolate? dark for sure
stairs or elevators? stairs, i hate elevators
summer or winter? both
you are stuck on an island, you can pick one food to eat forever without getting tired of it, what would you eat? just the thought of that makes me tired of every single food in existence lol
a dessert you don’t like? anything fancy
a skill you’re working on mastering? life drawing and general storyboarding stuff, for school and career purposes
best thing to happen to you today? the clone wars finale :((((
worst thing to happen to you today? also the clone wars finale :((((
best compliment you’ve ever received? a few of my friends have told me that i always know exactly what to say, and that makes me happy bc i try very hard to understand them and be what they need so i’m glad it pays off
favorite smell? pine trees and snow on the air, but also sunscreen and the sea
hugs or kisses? hugs
if you made a documentary, what would it be about? honestly it would be about star wars, but specifically george lucas and his vision and how the unique position the franchise is in, where multiple authors and creators are contributing to it at any given time + the disney rebranding + the fact that star wars fans have always seemed to adamantly want to discard lucas’ original intent has led to the way fan circles view star wars now and how wildly different those views can be from what lucas intended
last piece of content you consumed that made you cry? the clone wars finale lol
lipstick or lipgloss? lipgloss
sweet or savory? savory
girl crush? natalie portman
how do you know you’re in love? i’ve only been in love once and it was a very fledgling thing but it was like, they’re always on your mind, seeing them is simultaneously like there’s no ground under your feet and also like there’s no oxygen in the room, and being with them makes you insane just the same as not being with them makes you insane
a song you can listen to on repeat? right now, youth by glass animals, but it always changes
if you could switch lives with someone for a day, who would it be? definitely no one! my life is like a well organized library (even if maybe some books are missing or damaged lol) and i would hate to be dropped into an unsorted pile of books and have to organize all over again
what are you most excited for/about this time in your life? well real life is kind of on hold but my cousins and i just merged our quarantine circles which is a lot of fun so there’s that lol
this is long so i’ll just tag a few: @yensofrivia @daenerystargaryes @elizabethswcnn @kristnbell ( feel free to ignore ofc ♡ )
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Let’s talk about writers and fanfiction
Over the past weeks I saw a lot of writers in my dash receiving tons of nasty anons criticizing their style of writing, writers I really appreciate even if they don’t know me. Then came the plagiarism thing, so i decided to write a few things about the matter (forget my English, is not my first language 🙃)
I have to be honest, a year and a half ago, I thought of fanfiction as a silly thing until I decided to give it a try and read and definitely changed my mind. I have no idea how to write fiction is, the only approach I have about the subject is the journalistic writing I have to do for school and even if it’s different, I get that the feeling of posting something you’ve done can be scary, nerve-racking, gives you a lot of anxiety. Will people like it? Is it a silly thing to post? What if I said something wrong, if I’m misunderstood?
What I intend to say with this, is that it takes a lot of courage to publish something so intimate, something to which you dedicated a lot of time, effort and what you did with love, and also, for free. And I say intimate because I firmly believe that when writing fiction, a part of each writer appears there, a piece of how they are, what they think, their believes. As for example in the last chapter of BTY. I don’t know @balfeheughlywed , we never talked but I read a post recently about how that chapter meant for her to be a love letter to motherhood and it perfectly reflects her intention while mixing it with the story (beautiful chapter btw, I end up crying when Jamie started to talk to their bairn)
When it comes to feelings, many times the way to channel them is through writing. Other times it is through music, painting, dancing, etc. there are a lot of ways to express them, but since we are talking about written stories, let's keep it that way. I think what Lauren did was something beautiful, I’m not a mother but I thought of my mom and what she has been through, and it must have been a terrible yet beautiful experience. Other author I can think of right now is @whiskynottea with Death dreams. Her writing there is so beautiful yet so painful because she talks about things that happens in the real life. I sort of know how it is to live with someone suffering depression and let me tell you, it breaks your heart. Her portrayal of Claire as the partner of the one suffering, and Jamie as the depressed one seems so real, like you can feel what they feel in every chapter, and is a clever decision to add topics maybe not everyone is brave enough to talk about, be it depression, abortion, PTSD, miscarriages, some terminal disease…
Also, I want to comment on the subject of plagiarism. Since the beginning of last year I read OL fanfiction, and I can *shamefully* say that I read a lot, much more than all the books I have on my shelf that I didn’t read yet. And in many cases things are repeated, such as the meeting of the main characters, how they fall in love, the use of quotes from the original books, even the personalities of the characters involved. That doesn’t mean to plagiarize anyone’s work, in my opinion, it’s because within this community, many people think about the characters in a way (i.e. Frank being an abusive sexist who cheats on his partner and doesn’t care), many topics are repeated (Jamie being librarian, Claire being a doctor), what really changes is how each one writes a story based on it, and among everything I read, it's always different, because as everyone is different, so is their writing.
But also, we are in 2019 guys, I doubt there’s something that hasn’t been invented yet, everything gets recycled, so what’s the point in blaming people for writing similar things? Also, what a waste of time to be searching some specific quote of a fic and compare it with another one, i’m tired with only think about it.
For me, writing it’s a very difficult thing to achieve since I suck at words and have no idea how to express my feelings/what I want to say properly (you are seeing that now, haha). But these people out there who week after week transmit magic with each chapter, who write them in such a poetic way, research enough to give a quality content, deserve nothing but praise. If you don’t like what they write, there is only one thing to do, don’t read it. And if you have nothing good to say, it is better to say nothing. There is no reason to be filling their inbox with horrible comments, insults, pointing their mistakes if there’s no a constructive reason behind. Im always saying this but we don´t know what’s in each other lives, so maybe by leaving those things, you��re ruining their day.
There is a huge variety of styles to choose from, so it's a matter of looking for what you like and keep going. There are stories that are simpler to read, others more complicated, with metaphors, more description, maybe more elaborated (I don’t say that the simple ones are bad, but they are easier to read, at least for me, and I like it), some have shorter chapters, others longer. There are about J/C, about secondary characters, one shoots, multichapters, fluffy, angsty, canon divergence, AU... And luckily, the number of people who dare to write their own stories grows day by day, and the ones we already know improves every week, with every new story so, why don’t we go for kindness, good comments, and constructive criticism instead of sending hateful inboxes?
For writers: I can’t express how much happiness you give me every day, how I improved my English since I started reading. Reading every story makes me understand how you write the characters we love (and hate), how you understand them, how can you put them in different scenarios, different eras, in which they are presidents, florists, doctors, professors, businessmen, swimmers, make them go through difficult times, beautiful ones, and that so and all you make them shine. The possibilities you have are immense and I can’t wait to read everything they have to offer, because I’m sure is going to be a masterpiece. I know is easier said than done but it’s better to focus in the ones who really cares for the time you put into this, who waits impatiently for a sneak peak, an entire chapter, background information about your story, pics, whatever. Haters gonna hate and I personally believe it had nothing to do with you, they are just mean people, maybe bored ones who thinks is funny to send those kind of messages and don’t really care if they are hurting you in the process. Keep doing your thing, you are free to do it and there are a lot of people willing to read whatever you do.
Thank you for being brave enough to share a piece of you, of your creativity and sorry for being lazy and sometimes forget to leave a comment, or read the chapters 657946 years later, believe me when I say I do love everything you write and I end up laughing, crying, jumping in my bed when some characters kiss for the first time after a long slow burn, and sometimes completely shooked at the end of every chapter and wanting for more ❤️❤️❤️
@imagineclaireandjamie @missclairebelle @notevenjokingfic @abbydebeaupreposts @kalendraashtar @jmoonrise @sassenachwaffles @lenny9987 @curlsgetdemgurls @bonniebird17 @wunderlichkind @julesbeauchamp @sassenachwriter @ladyviolethummingbird @jack-andthestalk @balfeheughlywed @claryclark @thatsoccercoach @kkruml @whiskynottea @laythornmuse @magnoliasinbloom @written-rebellion @phaedrecameron @takemeawaytocamelot @thefraserwitch @gotham-ruaidh @mybeautifuldecay @mo-nighean-rouge @monigheandonn1743 @suhailauniverse @anoutlandishfanfic @owlish-peacock36 @devaigh @holdhertightandsayhername @dancinginadaydream @crossinginstyle (i’m sorry if i forgot someone 🙏🏼)
I hope this makes sense since I’m writing this with the help of google translator bc I’m tired, sleepy and my English sucks lately 😊
#Outlander#outlander fanfic#outlander fanfiction#outlander fandom#fanfic writers#writers#fanfiction#thoughts#just some sort of love letter to writers#we are all work in progress#so let people be#and create#and express#and among all things#be kind
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i originally meant to accompany this w an art piece but i forgot to finish it so heres the fic for now
wrote this for @taylorearhardts for trimberlydwarves secret santa-- MERRY CHRISM MY DUDE!!!! HOPE U LIKE IT!!! BC I LOVE KIMZACK NOW
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They really couldn’t be friends without constantly pushing each others’ boundaries.
Kim 4:42pm: zack i need ur eyes and opinion
Zack 4:43pm: im not giving u fashion advice unless it’s for lingerie
Kim 4:43pm: ik ur joking but that’s deadass what i was gonna ask
Kim 4:44pm: don’t make it weird
Zack 4:44pm: no hetero right babe ;p
She rolls her eyes at his choice of words, and snaps the picture anyway. Scrolling down her list of best friends on Snapchat, she captions the photo, “no hetero x,” before selecting Zack’s name and hitting send, no pause or hesitation needed. It’s just Zack, after all.
Immediately after it’s sent, the red triangle turns white, indicating that he opens it right away. After all, there are basically no boundaries in their friendship, and if there are, they’re quickly broken, since the two of them run the reckless impulse decision kingdom.
Zack 4:49pm: it’s hot but why pink. why not black ;(
Kim 4:49pm: it’s my fav colour ok. this is lingerie for me not u
Zack 4:50pm: fine
Zack 4:50pm: is there a v-shape version of the bra tho. ur tiddies look flat in that
She grins and shakes her head at his honesty. There are about 8 more pink bras she needs his opinion on, anyway.
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“Anyone seen Kim yet?”
“Nah, T. She wasn’t in bio?”
Trini glares at Zack’s question. “Of course not. Why else would I be asking?”
“Jeez,” Zack says, raising his hands in surrender. Trini was very protective of Kim, for some odd reason. With Kim not there, she’s especially more cranky. “Relax, dude. We can check on her. Who’s free?”
Trini’s about to volunteer, until Jason puts his hand on her shoulder, “you can’t, dude. We’ve got that math test next period,” she sighs, and Jason turns to Billy and Zack, “can one of you?”
Before Billy can say anything, Zack speaks out, “I guess I will!” he says enthusiastically, saving Billy from having to ruin his perfect attendance, “I was already gonna skip, anyway.”
“Are you sure you can?” Billy asks, looking conflicted between wanting to be a good friend and wanting to be a good student, “is it really a good idea for you to skip more classes?”
Zack waves him off, relieving the others of worrying about his grades, “yeah, it’s fine. I’ve got a spare third period anyway, and we’re only watching a movie in fourth.”
Then, he gets up from their shared lunch table to make his way to Kim’s house, leaving Billy to tutor Jason and Trini in the last bits of trig they need help with.
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Normally, she wasn’t one to take days off like this, but her mother called her last night reminding her how she was no longer living up to her parents’ standards, and now she can’t really bring herself to leave her house.
Instead, it’s nearing 1pm and she’s still in bed, listening to her Depression Playlist™ on repeat, while watching her ceiling fan rotate over and over. She can’t tell if it’s making her dizzy, or if her head just hurt from oversleeping.
Just before she can transition from humming along to belting out the bridge of Hands Down, Chris Carrabba’s voice is interrupted by her phone ringing.
Groaning, she rolls over to check her caller ID, and is only mildly surprised to see Zack’s face grinning at her before she hits the answer button.
“What,” Kim says into her phone, sounding irritated.
“Well, hello to-” he grunts, “you too.”
Kim raises a brow at that. “Why do you sound constipated? Did you call me while you were on the shitter?”
He laughs, but it sounds slightly strained, “no. I’m scaling a building, actually.”
Kim tsks, showing her mild disapproval at his risqué antics. “Don’t scale the fucking school, Zack,” she scolds him, “you’re gonna get yourself expelled and Zordon’s gonna murder your ass for taking advantage of your powers.”
There’s a brief pause on the phone, like he’s readjusting his stance to a more ergonomically proper way of climbing, “who said I was scaling the school?”
“What building are you scaling?” She asks, slightly worried that he might be putting himself in danger. Well, as much danger as a ranger can face. “Zack, what the fuck.”
He giggles again, sounding like a giddy school girl, “here’s a hint,” he says, and she can basically see the grin on his face through the phone, “open your window to find out. NOT CLICKBAIT.”
And then it clicks. (ha ha get it) She looks over to her window only to see one set of fingers on the outside sill, where Zack must’ve been dangling from.
“Why haven’t you at least pulled yourself up?”
“Because-” he grunts again, probably shifting his hand a little bit so he can get more comfortable, “my booty is poppin’ way too hard to fit onto the ledge. Let me in, Kim!”
She sighs exasperatedly before pulling the covers off herself to make her way towards the window. Once there, she glances down at the boy still hanging on with one arm, a phone in his other.
He waves at her with the phone-hand, before putting his phone back to his mouth, “so are you gonna let me in, or nah?”
She grins at him and shrugs, “I wish I could, but I have a screen on my window.”
His face drops. “Are you serious?”
“No, I just wanted to see how long you could hang onto that.”
“Probably forever-- I’m that buff,” he says, winking at her, “but someone might see me.”
She reaches over to open the window, but pauses, “to be fair, you’re in my backyard.”
“Kim,” he pleads with her, his voice cracking. “C’mon.”
“Fine,” she relents, but not before dramatically sighing and hanging up, as if all of this was physically taxing on her.
She unlocks the window and pushes it open, watching as Zack pockets his phone and pulls himself up, landing ungracefully onto her floor face first. Despite the fall, he still comes back up smiling.
“So, what’s up, Kimmy? You good?” He asks, while toeing his shoes off before Kim can give him shit for it. He was really the only one of her friends who did that automatically, the other rangers being absolute heathens, wearing shoes indoors. “Why’d you stay in?”
“Honestly,” she sighs, grabbing his hand and leading him to her bed and he lies next to her, like it’s routine, “I’m not feeling the best right now.”
He hums, and she can feel the vibrations from his chest. Then she feels his hand come up to her forehead, and he presses it there for a minute.
“You seem okay, though. Is it a different kind of sickness?”
She purses her lips. They never really hide anything from each other. If they didn’t know something about each other, it’s probably because they just forgot to tell the other.
This time, though, Kim feels a little bit of hesitance.
“Yeah, kind of,” she says instead.
He doesn’t say anything. He’s waiting for her to elaborate.
“Just, y’know…” She clears her throat, trying to decide if this is something she can share with him. “Good ol’ depression, hittin’ me up.”
He’s silent again. Kim feels like she’s finally found the boundary between them that she shouldn’t have crossed.
“Depression?” He finally questions, and Kim holds her breath still for whatever he’s about to say next, “isn’t that just a fancy word for feeling ‘bummed out?’”
Relieved, she feels her heartbeat relax, and grins against his shoulder. “Dwight, you ignorant slut.”
He chuckles at that, and waits a minute before asking, “so, do you want me to go, or can I stay?”
“You can stay, but only if I can paint your nails.”
“Do you have Vantablack?”
-
“Sorry I wasn’t there yesterday. I really wanted to be.”
“It’s okay, I get it,” Kim says, and she really means it. She runs through the combination on her lock again-- it’s a little rusty, “Zack was more than enough.”
Trini nods, and Kim takes that as her cue to accept that they’re done with the topic, and takes her textbooks out of their shared locker to shove them haphazardly into her backpack.
She’s about to ask Trini how her math test went yesterday, when Zack’s familiar voice greets the two of them.
“Hey, Trini,” he says, ruffling her hair, then, “hey Kimmy.”
But before Kim can even get a ‘hey’ out, Zack is ducking quickly and throwing Kim over his shoulder so she’s squealing loudly as he tickles her sides.
It isn’t anything new, the two of them were the most physical and touchy people on the team, but with how loud and obnoxious they’re being, it’s almost similar to how the couples Kim rolls her eyes at in the hallway act when they do major PDA.
Regardless, she can’t care less about her reputation.
“Put me down, Zack!” She giggles, her bag on the floor, now forgotten.
“I will, if I get this one thing wrong,” he promises, and there’s suddenly a mischievous undertone to his voice that worries Kim only slightly.
“What is it?” She asks, despite herself.
He pokes at her side once more so she’s laughing again, “you’re wearing that pink bralette you sent me, aren’t you?”
“Oh my God,” Kim laughs, and hopes Trini isn’t still there to hear that, “fuck you.”
Then the bell rings, but Zack doesn’t even drop Kim-- he just picks up her backpack off the floor and slings it over his shoulder, continuing to carry her to Trini and Kim’s bio class.
She feels a slight pleasure at the confused looks some people give her on the way— the question, ‘are you two together?’ written on their faces.
It’s just Zack, she reminds herself, trying not to think about why she gets a warm feeling from the thought of her and Zack being together.
-
They’re on their way to the quarry, Kim sandwiched between Billy and Trini, while Jason drives, and Zack sits in shotgun.
Kim originally intends to sit next to Zack, who unintentionally ruins that plan by calling shotgun before anybody else can.
She’s perfectly content with getting to sit next to Trini, however, even though she’s recently had a sudden wave of warm appreciation for the black ranger.
After that first period in the morning, Zack had carried Kim from every class so that her feet had basically never touched the halls of their school that day because ‘princesses should be treated as such.’
They were both not shy about touching, but it was the first time Zack had been that extra about their physicality, and Kim found herself grinning wide from how grateful she was that he was trying so hard to cheer her up after her day off the day before.
Finally, Jason pulls up to the quarry, and before she can even get her seatbelt off, Zack says, “last one there has to finally wear black underwear!”
Jesus Christ. What is it with that boy and underwear?
Meanwhile, the other three rangers aren’t phased by this comment, instead moving at a speed that showed no indication they felt threatened by this challenge.
Kim tries to be patient, she really does, but Billy and Trini were moving so slow, and knowing Trini would mind less about the sudden contact, she unbuckles her belt quickly, not even bothering to wait for Trini to exit the car so she can climb over the smaller girl in an attempt to beat Zack to the pit. It’s pretty clear the race is only meant to be between the two of them.
She catches up quickly, the taller boy having tripped earlier on the mud.
“So if I win, what do I get?”
“Me in pink underwear,” he smirks, and trips Kim before running ahead.
-
Zack wins, but only because he had a head start and cheated. Or at least, that’s what Kim tells herself as she wrings the water out of her hair while glaring at the cheater.
“You did me dirty, Taylor,” she says, attempting to unstick her wet shirt from her body.
He grins. “How else am I going to do you, Hart?”
She narrows her eyes at him, and he only shrugs.
They make their way over to the ship, all the while side eying each other, another unspoken race in the midst.
“I win,” Zack says, and then smugly adds on, “again.”
“Um,” she starts, trying to imitate her lawyer mother’s tone in court, “we didn’t even say that was a race,” she points out, knowing full well if she beat him she would’ve said the same thing.
He scoffs, “whatever. Potato, poh-tah-to.”
But Kim is already stripping quickly, trying to change before Zack can. Everything is always a competition between the two of them.
Zack, only now noticing what she’s doing, quickly throws his shirt over his head and makes a grab for his dry shirt.
Kim stops him before he can reach it, though. “Wait, hold up,” she says, only having one leg through her pants, “I think I like you better shirtless.”
If he thinks her flirtatious behaviour is weird, he doesn’t show it. Instead, he flexes his pecs back and forth, “is it because I have better nipples than you?”
Kim rolls her eyes at him, finally finished dressing herself, “no, actually, it’s because I win.”
“Touché, Kimmy,” he remarks, looking slightly impressed.
Then there are sounds of splashing coming through, indicating the others have finally caught up.
“You lost earlier, though,” he reminds her, throwing a shirt on, ineffectively covering his nipples, since it’s so cold down there anyway, “so this Friday? You and me. Black underwear shopping. Don’t forget.”
Kim watches him walk away to greet the others, and is unable to fight the grin that forms on her face.
-
“Can we take a break?” Zack asks, answering Kim’s question about the deeper meaning of Ophelia’s death, “my brain is fried and my stomach would also like something fried.”
“I’d tell your stomach to eat your brain, but honestly, I am so sick of Shakespeare right now,” Kim agrees, cracking her back as she stands up from her bed to stretch.
“Thanks for your help, though,” Zack is sure to say again. Without Kim, it was unlikely he’d even be passing this class, let alone getting a 72.
She chuckles at his hourly need to thank her for helping him, “no problem. But what do you want? You wanna order a pizza or go to Krispy Kreme?”
“I’m not really feeling Krispy Kreme tonight,” he admits, now sick of all the donuts from there. Why the team had adopted that restaurant as their go-to, he’d never know. He didn’t even like donuts that much. “What about Burger King?”
“That’s like, on the other side of town,” she points out.
He shrugs, “yeah, but you got wheels.”
“Well, yes,” she agrees hesitantly, “but I don’t really feel like driving. We can go, but you have to drive.”
“I don’t know how to drive,” he says, and looks at her as if this should be obvious information.
Her brows furrow in shock and confusion. “What?”
“I don’t know how to drive, Kim,” he repeats, “it’s gay culture!”
“Dude, what. I can drive?”
He brushes her off. “Whatever, dude. I just never learned how. Like, how would I?” He questions, “I don’t even have a car.”
There’s a brief pause as Kim lets that sink in. Logically, it makes sense. They’re only 17, which means that they only had two years to have learned how to drive, and between taking care of his mother, and not having a car, it really should’ve been obvious.
“Okay, c’mon,” she says, finally breaking the silence to pull him up from her bed.
“Are we going to Burger King?” He asks, as he follows her to her car.
She doesn’t answer him until they’re in the car. “Yes, but I’m also gonna teach you how to drive.”
“Kim,” he starts, as he buckles in his seatbelt, “you saw me driving my Zord. Are you sure your BMW’s gonna be okay?”
She waves him off while backing out of her driveway, “shut up. You’re gonna make me not want to teach you. Let’s just see how this goes.”
-
Their bellies are full and they’ve just finished their share of mozzarella sticks and King Burger meals and are now in their empty school’s parking lot.
“Okay, so first, you probably wanna adjust the mirror to your height,” she says, the last bit of fries in her mouth, “Jesus, why are you so tall?”
He discards his burger box into the takeout bag. “Maybe you’re just short.”
“Ex-squeeze me, bitch, I’m 5’5,” she states, her hand on her chest in mock offence, “that’s the national average.”
“Whatever,” he says, and he adjusts the mirror so that he can see his rear, “there. It’s fixed.”
“Okay, good. Now start driving.”
“Wh- you didn’t even teach me how to,” he says, looking over at her in bewilderment.
Her voice is calm, and soothing, like a yoga instructors’, “just do what feels right. That’s what I do on a daily basis, if I’m honest.”
“How the fuck do you have a license?”
“I stop at stop signs-- isn’t that enough?”
He shrugs and pushes down on the pedal but the car remains still. “Why isn’t it moving?”
“Babe, you’re still on park,” she chuckles, “switch to drive.”
He looks around at all the buttons on the BMW. There are probably more in there than in his Zord. “What?” He asks, looking to her for some guidance.
“On the PRNDL.”
“The PRNDL- oh!” He exclaims, now understanding that episode of The Suite Life, “the PRNDL! I know some of these words!”
“Yes,” Kim smiles patiently at his childish antics, “now switch to ‘D.’”
“I’m always on D,” he winks.
She pauses, trying to think of a reply to that. “I’m gonna ignore that,” she says, instead, “just start slow.”
He follows her instructions, switching the function to ‘D,’ and presses lightly on the pedal. They’re only moving at 5mph.
“Good shit, good shit,” Kim says, appreciatively, “now try a little faster.”
Zack nods, and he practically stomps on the gas pedal, switching from 5mph to 90mph.
“Okay, wait, not like that, hit the brake!”
But Zack isn’t sure which pedal is the brake— there are at least three pedals, and they’re nearing the school’s dumpster.
“Which one’s the brake?” He asks, trying to decide between the 50/50.
“BITCH-!” Kim exclaims, and then she’s ducking down and hitting the brakes for him.
The car screeches to a halt, just about an inch or two away from hitting the science lab.
“Wow, good save, Kimmy,” Zack laughs, still thrilled from the close call, “but if you wanted to get on my lap you could just ask.”
She glares at him from her compromising position on his lap. “Oh my God, shut up.”
Somehow, Zack convinces her to let him try again, and by the end of the night, they’re blasting One Direction songs and singing at the top of their lungs, while drifting in their high school parking lot.
-
Kim never really lets herself think too much about something before doing it, but for some reason, when it comes to Trini, she’s always second guessing herself.
Needing a little push to help her decide whether or not this decision is a good idea or not, she quickly runs through her friends to decide who would be best at talking her through this.
Her first thought is Jason, but she quickly pushes that thought away. Things were still a little tense between them since they made out at his house that night, even though they talked about it, so asking him for his opinion on this would just ruin everything.
Billy is a sweetheart, but also a definite no. She isn’t sure if she should run the risk of making him uncomfortable.
Then there’s Zack, who… Would make total sense to ask.
Kim 9:52pm: zack can u rate my nudes idk if they’re good enough to send to tr*ni
She throws her phone back on her bed as she waits for him to text back, digging through her closet to find her cutest lacy bra, before throwing it on. It’s her most trusty piece of lingerie, always guaranteed to make the viewer drool at the sight of it.
Her text tone goes off, and she practically dives onto her bed to read it. Zack 9:55pm: only if u finally got lingerie that isn’t fuckin pink
She looks down at her current attire, and then sits up again to look back at her closet. Without having realized it, she’d slowly sifted out the other colours of lingerie she had, and now only owned pink. It isn’t like all her bras are pink, but all the cute ones are.
Kim 9:55pm: fuck
Groaning, she lies back down onto the bed dramatically, trying to figure out a solution. She needs to send these nudes tonight , or her impulse would run short and she’d have too much time to think about it for the next time. Kim 9:56pm: k wait what if there was no lingerie
His reply comes almost immediately after that.
Zack 9:56pm: .... SEND i needed these nudes like yesterday
Grinning, she strips her bra off and makes her way to the bathroom, flipping her Snapchat camera over to regular instead of selfie mode.
She dims the light slightly so it’s less bright, and uses her arms to cover her nipples, while pushing her boobs together, in the way that she knows drives her conquests to call her a ‘fuckin’ tease.’
Once satisfied with how it looks, she snaps the photo, and captions it “will this pic make trini understand im tryna get it?”
As usual, he opens it immediately, but it takes a minute for him to reply.
He snaps her back, and it’s a photo of him losing his shit, captioned “kIM NO ONE WAS READY FOR THAT HOLY SHIT!!!”
She chuckles at his reaction, and he texts her while the snap is still opened.
Zack 10:01pm: Kim holy shit ur hot
Zack 10:01pm: send that shit to trini bitch will nut on the spot!!!
Zack 10:01pm: biitcchhhh god has BLESSEDT my eyes
She throws her shirt back on, and shuts the bathroom light off, all the while still texting Zack.
Trini remains forgotten, and Kim doesn’t end up sending any more nudes that night.
-
It’s finally Friday, or the day that Zack has come to collect his winnings from Kim.
“Kim, are you ready?” He asks, as he balances precariously on her window sill, his butt not quite fitting on it.
Kim turns as he taps on the window again, and she covers herself up out of reflex, scolding him, “Zack, do I look like I’m ready?” She asks, throwing a shirt at the window to scare him.
“Let me in,” he insists, still tapping on the glass.
“No, I’m not done getting dressed,” she says, and turns her back toward him in an attempt to stay decent in front of him while changing her shirt.
“It’s not like it’s anything I haven’t seen before.”
She rolls her eyes at him, but still lets him in anyway, even though her shirt isn’t on yet.
“Thank you,” he says, smiling smugly, and he rubs his backside slightly. The ledge really was too small for his butt.
Finally, she gets her shirt on, and makes her way to her desk where she knows her keys are, only to find that they’re missing.
“Okay, let’s go,” Zack says, redirecting her attention to his hands as he jingles the keys, so that it’s evident that she hadn’t misplaced them. “I’m driving.”
Kim’s grinning, but shaking her head as she follows him to her car, “I knew it was a bad idea to teach you.”
“It’s for a fun surprise, okay?”
“Yeah, I’m sure,” she mutters, locking the door behind her.
-
The ‘fun surprise’ turns out to just be the Victoria’s Secret at the local mall. Kim figures he was just excited to use his newfound skill of driving.
As soon as they enter the store though, Zack’s already grabbing all kinds of black bras from every section, making Kim wonder if he’d ever done this before.
“There you go,” he says, handing her at least 12 bras with their matching underwear before pushing her into the fitting room.
She glances at the first bra he’d handed her, and is surprised. He hadn’t even needed to ask for her size, but he’d grabbed the correct one for all of them.
Throwing on the first bra, she admires herself quickly in the mirror. It’s a lacy black push up bra, with a scallop cut at the bottom of it, so it accentuates her abs perfectly. She probably wouldn’t say it out loud, but Zack definitely had an eye for good lingerie.
She takes one last glance at herself to ensure everything’s in the right place, before stepping out of the dressing stall, now dressed in the complete set of underwear he’d handed her.
“If I send Trini nudes in this, do you think I could finally get it?” She asks, as soon as Zack sees her.
His jaw drops, but then he closes it and nods quickly to agree, “holy shit babe, black is your colour,” he says, still slightly dazed, “you look like such a thirst trap.”
She flushes slightly from his comment, before remembering it’s Zack. “Honestly, it’s everybody’s colour,” she says, trying to brush off the blush on her face, “black is the colour you wear when you wanna get laid-- at least, that’s what it’s like according to 10 Things I Hate About You.”
“What’s good?” he winks, gesturing to his all black outfit. Then his face turns serious again, “if you don’t cop that shit, I’m buying it for you.”
Kim grins, delighted, “hang on, dude, there are like, a million more bras I still need to try.”
Zack sits back down, trying to relax how hyped up he was for Kim, while giving her a thumbs up, letting her know he was ready for her to continue on with the show.
She closes the door behind her once back in the stall, looking at all the equally cute sets he’d chosen, if not cuter.
It was pretty clear for Kim that she could never go underwear shopping ever again without the tall boy.
-
Kim’s in the middle of Beyoncé’s Partition when she’s suddenly reminded that she never sent Trini those nudes the other night.
Without thinking, she gets up immediately to open her bags from Victoria’s Secret, grabbing the matching set that Zack said made her a tease, because of how sheer it is.
She throws on the set— but before she can snap a picture, she texts Zack first for his approval.
Kim 9:23pm: k dude im boutta to send trini nudes in the shit we bought today lms if its a bad idea
Zack 9:24pm: nudes from u r always a good idea tf flaunt what u have while u still have it get it sis!!!!!
Zack 9:24pm: but also. i have eyes so dont forget to send them to me too ;p
Kim laughs at his response. Of course she will. It’s not even a question at this point. But she quickly gets back to business.
She lies back down onto her bed and covers the lower half of her body with her blanket, just slightly above her bellybutton. Her right arm extends as she flips her Snapchat camera over to selfie mode, and she’s sure to crop out her face from the shot, using her left index finger to push down on her lower lip as she smirks at the camera. She adjusts her bralette once more to ensure her nipples are on optimal display before snapping the photo and captioning it, “translucent nipples bc u don’t deserve to see the real thing yet.”
She selects Zack’s name, then hesitantly adds on Trini’s, and hits send before she can overthink it.
Zack opens his immediately, while Trini’s is still left unread.
Zack 9:31: holy shit
Zack 9:31pm: ur such a fuckin tease
Zack 9:32pm: ur nipples still remain a mystery but at least now i know they exist
Kim 9:33pm: just take my word for it dude my nipples are perfect
Zack 9:33pm: ill believe it when i see it
Zack 9:33pm: anyway what did tr*ni say
She flips back over from her texts to Snapchat, only to see that it’s still unread.
Kim 9:34pm: idk she hasn’t opened it yet tf
Kim 9:35pm: pls keep talkin to me though i can’t keep thinking about it or im gonna get nervous
Zack 9:36pm: dont be nervous tf!! bitch is gonna nut to that pic but if she doesn’t hey baby what’s good
Kim smiles at that, despite the vulgarity of the sentence. He’s always been good at distracting her.
Kim 9:36pm: thx so much ily wtf
Kim 9:36pm: bitch still hasn’t replied yet!! tf is she doin it’s been 5 mins
Zack 9:37pm: ik ilyt x
She tries to ignore the fluttering in her stomach after that text. It’s probably just nerves building up about Trini.
Zack 9:37pm: wow i can’t believe T is rly out there having a life
Kim 9:38pm: jks she just opened it lmao im not freaking out
Zack 9:39pm: omg ok dw it’s just trini
Kim sighs. Right. Just Trini. There’s nothing to be nervous about.
She paces around her room for a bit, trying not to think too hard about what Trini’s reply might be, before she decides to abandon her phone for a bit while she goes to pick up a glass of water from her kitchen.
Trying not to rush back, she takes her time going back up the steps to her room.
All this is pointless, though, because once she crosses the threshold in her room, she’s diving onto her bed to check her Snapchat.
Opened 5 minutes ago, it reads, under Trini’s name. Kim feels her heart sink.
Kim 9:43pm: trini isn’t replying i don’t think she was ready for the nudes
Zack 9:44pm: wtf T.., i thought she had eyes
Zack 9:44pm: mayb she’s busy tho
Zack 9:45pm: lmAo can u imagine if u sent her nudes while she was babysitting that would suck haHa
Kim breathes a sigh of relief at that. Right. Maybe Trini’s just not in a position to reply to a picture like that.
Kim 9:46pm: omfg do u think i did., rip
Zack 9:46pm: how inconsiderate
Kim 9:46pm: fuck man im emo why can’t she take the hint
Zack 9:47pm: just let it marinate she’s the kind of person u need to b direct to
She frowns at that. Kim is used to playing games— it was basically cheerleading code, back in her day.
Figuring Zack is right, though, Kim accepts it, quickly getting a vague idea on how to be more straightforward.
Kim 9:48pm: tru I’ll tell her on monday i wanna have her babies
Zack 9:49pm: sounds good
-
It’s third turning fourth period on Monday, and Kim has a spare last period, but she tells Ms. Appleby that there’s a cheerleading meeting to get her out of third period early.
She’s been out of the squad for months, but it’s pretty clear the teacher has other things to worry about than high school drama, since she lets Kim out anyway.
Now, she’s pacing outside of Trini and Jason’s math class, watching the clock on her phone as the period comes to an end.
She only has to wait about two minutes after the bell rings for Trini and Jason to walk out together, the two still talking about whatever lesson they’d just shared.
“Hey, T,” Kim says, not even caring that she’s interrupting Jason’s questions about trinomials, “can I talk to you?”
Trini gives her a weird look, but nods anyway, “what’s… up?” She asks, looking confused by how much of a psycho Kim probably looks like right now.
Kim side eyes Jason for a second, before turning back to the smaller ranger, “privately?”
The yellow ranger shifts her questioning gaze to Jason, who only shrugs at her. “Um, okay,” she agrees hesitantly, letting Jason take her books to their next shared class together.
“Great,” Kim smiles, before grabbing her hand and leading her to the parking lot.
She doesn’t have a game plan yet, but her car seems like a private enough place to have this conversation.
-
The doors to her BMW slam shut, and the two girls sit in silence for a good five minutes.
“So…” Kim starts, finally breaking the silence, “how’s it going?”
“What?” Trini says, flatly, so that it doesn’t sound like a question.
Kim doesn’t notice, though. She’s too nervous. “Like what’s up? The weather is nice, isn’t it?”
It isn’t. It looks like it’s about to rain.
“Um, I guess,” Trini says, and wanting to cut to the chase, she asks, “Kim, what were you gonna talk to me about?”
The taller girl breathes slowly, trying to calm herself down. “Just,” Inhale.“ Gimme a second,” exhale. “I need to hype myself up.”
“... For what?”
“Um,” Kim chuckles nervously, shifting her body slightly so she’s fully facing Trini, “I thought I’d be way smoother about this.”
She’s by no means a patient person, but Kim is being uncharacteristically jittery, so whatever she has to say has to be big. “What is it?”
Kim doesn’t answer her, instead choosing to lean over the console and cup Trini’s cheek.
But before she can come any closer, Trini stops her, “what are you doing?”
“What…” Kim trails off, face redder than she ever lets herself be in public, “I’m sorry, I thought-“
“-it’s okay,” Trini interrupts, seeming to take pity on the usually confident girl stumbling over herself, “you didn’t think wrong.”
Kim is even more confused. “Oh. Then why-?”
“-because I don’t think you do.”
“What?”
Trini laughs, but there’s no humour in it. “Listen, Kim, I like you a lot and everything, but I don’t think you know what you want.”
“... what?” Trini isn’t making sense anymore. It’s like the more she tries to explain herself, the more confused Kim gets.
“If you still feel this way in a week, we can try again, but, I’m sorry, dude, I’m not one of your impulsive decisions.”
And with that last sentence, the shotgun door is slamming, and Kim’s watching Trini head back to class.
She sits in alone in the car for at least twenty minutes, before finally turning on the ignition, still trying to figure out what the fuck all that meant.
-
She spends a good few hours at her personal pool at the mines before heading home to shower, trying to clear her mind of how she was just rejected.
But the therapy doesn’t do much, and she’s dying to talk about it.
Figuring he’s settled himself at home comfortably by now, Kim texts Zack.
Kim 6:55pm: i told trini at school today that I liked her and then she told me i didnt know what i wanted
Zack 6:57pm: what’d u say
Kim 6:58pm: ok well tbh I didn’t say anything I just tried to kiss her
Zack 6:58pm: lol wtf she ain’t got the clue still??
Kim 6:59pm: ya idk.., she said she didnt wanna be one of my impulsive decisions so is that a rejection
It’s a genuine question. The tiny girl did say she could try again next week.
Zack 7:00pm: idk what that means dude. cant relate
Kim frowns. She hoped he’d have an answer for her or something.
Zack 7:00pm: everything i do is just bc i felt like doin it at that exact moment. T kinda thinks things out more
She nods along to that. She’s the same.
Briefly, she thinks about how Trini rejecting her made her feel today, and types in a few paragraphs before erasing each one.
Finally, she settles on her last paragraph, figuring Zack will understand what she means. He always does, anyway, even when she doesn’t have the words to explain.
Kim 7:05pm: tru.,, is it bad that i dont feel that sad about her rejecting me. I just mainly feel emo about how i couldn’t make out with her today.
Zack 7:06pm: ngl thats kinda fuckt but relatable
Kim 7:07pm: I just haven’t done it in so long im dying., my lips are like “where is another. i need to be moisturized by somebody else’s saliva”
Zack 7:08pm: Honestly S A ME
Kim 7:08pm: wait that gives me an idea
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Anyone else would be nervous, but Zack isn’t really worried about the possibility of Kim showing up on his doorstep to make out with him. It’s not like he hasn’t thought about it or anything, but the two of them run on impulse. He isn’t really one to overthink. It’s just Kim.
He’s in the middle of a game of 2048 when there’s a knocking on his door.
“Hey, Kim-“ he greets her as he opens his door, but before he can even finish his sentence, the girl in question jumps him, and he stumbles backward slightly, not quite registering what’s happening.
She wraps her legs around his waist, her arms coming around his neck, and it takes him a little while to register that Kimberly Hart is kissing him, and he still hasn’t made any move to kiss her back.
He quickly remedies this dilemma by shutting the door with his foot and placing his hands on her ass, trying to support some of her weight for her. Once sure of her comfortability, he lets himself melt into the kiss, and Kim responds enthusiastically, her tongue slipping into his mouth.
They stay that way for a few seconds, until he feels her grind slightly on his abs, and he sets her down onto the counter so he can kiss her neck.
“Is this okay?” Kim asks once her mouth is free, and he almost laughs at how belated the question seems— she’s already sporting a dark purple hickey on her neck.
“I don’t know,” he grins, and she frowns at him, “what underwear are you wearing?”
She rolls her eyes at him playfully before leaning in to whisper in his ear.
“Take my shirt off to find out. Not clickbait.”
#trimberlyelves#power rangers 2017#kimzack#i still stan trimberly but if i had to choose a str8 ship itd b this 1#my fic
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