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[youngyoo-apologist]

I will never forget how like most of the TCF cast never got to have proper childhoods, OG!Cale, Kim Roksoo, Choi Han, Choi Jung-gun, Alberu, Ohn, Hong, Beacrox, etc

Like most of these guys were either

A. Fighting for their lives(Choi Han, CJG, Alberu, Ohn, Hong)

B. Actively on the path to self destruction(OG!Cale)

Or just like having an awful time in general. Like it’s really sad how for a long time, none of them could actually act or be like kids due to the environment they were in.

Alberu being royalty and having to hide things about himself, and probably avoid assassination and kidnapping attempts since he was young.

Kim Roksoo and how he lost his parents at a young age and was abused by his uncle.

Ohn and Hong having to run away because the Cat tribe mistreated them, and they had to survive on their own.

Choi Han being taken away from his family and fighting alone for over a century in the dark forest where he had no one but himself and the monsters that wanted him dead to keep him company.

Choi Jung-gun also being taken away from his family, and losing people who took care of him again, along with like living a thousand years going through who knows what + whatever the hell the god of death made him do.

Beacrox losing his entire family except his father when he was no older than fifteen, and immediately having to live on the run right after.

OG!Cale taking it upon himself to protect his family, and essentially destroying himself because he didn’t know what else to do.

I think about Ohn a lot, like the fact that she was what, nine, maybe ten years old when she had to run away with Hong and make sure they were both okay. The fact that she was protecting him and herself at the same time, the way that she couldn’t ever play around or have fun when she was growing up because she had to make sure they were both okay. She took on as much as she could for Hong because that’s her baby brother and she loves him more than anything.

OG!Cale and Ohn and like, how they both did everything they could for their younger siblings, ohhhhhhh I’m crying I’m crying I’m crying donnttt even look at me rn

Also Hong and Basen, like being the little brother who watches your older sibling take on burdens alone and you want to help but at the same time your your sibling tells you it’s okay and that you should just focus on yourself… When the trope is older sibling(or family figure in general) taking care of younger siblings and they make sacrifices for them, I’m not crying, what do u mean? I actually do not care. At all. Not . One. Bit.

ALSO LOCKKK , TBoaH Lock they could never make me hate you I don’t care if you were annoying, whiney and a coward, if I was you I would be annoying, whiney and a coward too… he’s just thirteen and he lost all his family, obviously he was too scared to go out of hiding, ANYONE would be scared, he was just a young boy and he lost everything. He found people who cared for him, but he lost the person who resembled his uncle and that’s really when his world fell apart. It must have felt like the whole world was against him, that Lock could never have any family ever again.

Like I can imagine he’d probably have this underlaying fear when it came to Choi Han and Rosalyn,

“what if I lose them too?”

Maybe he hated himself for being a coward, for hiding, for not doing anything… maybe he hated himself even more because when he lost Pendrick, he wasn’t even sure if he’d be able to stop cowering and hide when there’s danger. The battle between wanting to be cared for and protected because the world is just too much and wanting to fight back and help because he doesn’t want to lose anyone else

This just makes me think about TBoaH timeline more oh it’s so tragic and sickening I cried

[puppypuppypuppypuppy]

and if there were two guys? what then?

[ieoniq]

[raykunaraccoon]

I like Garten of Banban too (laugh at me)

I'm coping

[star-quill]

Hiiiii I’m smoking weed rn and realized that sometimes when I smoke with guys, I wanna make out with them and I’m just imagining getting absolutely blasted with rockstar!Peter one day on his bus and fooling around. But what if you’re actually the lead of the opening act of his tour?? And throughout the first half of the tour, you kept telling him that it’s unprofessional to date “coworkers” even though it’s CLEAR you want him and he wants you. And once you have that lazy slow hook up, you get more needy to see what else he can do

oh my goodddd

having off days is rare, but when they come around, you're so thankful. sometimes you like to see the city you're visiting, but today you just wanted to hang out with peter. you're just friends, telling him that you can't see him, it's unprofessional —no matter how many times you drunkenly make out with him in his bus.

you passed him back the joint he had rolled, the smoke blowing out the little window above your head. peter was laying across the sofa, completely wasted. you were getting there, sliding down the sofa to rest your head on his shoulder.

"you doing ok?"

"mmhm.. feels good to let go sometimes.."

"tell me about it.."

you just smile, curling your body up and wrapping your hands around his bicep. peter had become something of a comfort for you recently. you had grown closer to him during tour and had complete fallen for him. he felt the same, but he would never tell you. he's never been this happy, all the groupies, the hookups with random girls, he wanted to just fill a void but nothing was ever permanent. except you, you filled that hole in his heart, you gave him everything you could. he had never felt so happy than when with you.

"i wanna kiss you.."

"peter.. we can't.."

"it's not like we've not done it before.."

"you're just high.. you don't know what you're saying.."

"i do.. i wanna kiss you.."

he reached an arm around you and pulled you onto his lap, his mouth attaching to your neck. you just whined, hands grabbing at the hem of his shirt.

"peter.."

"i wanna kiss you everywhere.. wanna love you.. wanna make you happy.."

his eyes were cloudy but you could tell he meant it, he had the softest smile on his face and you just smiled and rolled your eyes. he took one last puff of the joint before snuffing it out in the ashtray. he stood up and you yelped when you nearly fell.

"s'alright.. i got you.."

he took you to his bunk and lay you down, before he struggled to get in himself, the space suddenly feeling quite cramped.

"hotel room?"

"hotel room."

he took your hand and led you off the bus and to the hotel, into the elevator and up to his room. you both stumbled into the room, giggling and unable to keep your hands off each other. once he got you onto the bed, he told you to just lay back and relax, his mouth and hands touching you everywhere he could. your mind was clouded and this was just elevating it even further. he was so gentle with you, taking his time and being slow. everything felt so languid, hazy but so good.

"wanna live like this forever with you, peter.."

"yeah? me too.."

you both came at the same time, sighing into each others mouths. peter almost collapsed on top of you, before rolling over, laying by your side on the large king size bed. he let you get cleaned up before you sauntered back to bed and he pulled you into his side.

"i meant it.. by the way, i wanna live like this forever with you.."

"i know.. and i meant it too.."

he kisses your forehead as you snuggled into his side, hand on his chest, feeling his heartbeat. every night on tour after that was a blur, everything all moulding into one. he kissed you after he got off stage, then he's dragging you to the hotel room. you don't fuck every night, sometimes he runs you both a bath and he washes you up, sometimes you just lay in bed and watch trashy television and sometimes you sit out on the balcony, watching the world go by. he was your everything, and you wouldn't change it for the world

[kevindavidday]

"you're crying from the despair of life experiences again?" the youtube comment section of phoebe bridgers - scott street, but only the best part, extended 1 hour got to me

[sammyorz]

DO YOU KNOW HOW HAPPY THIS MAKES ME? i wear AFOs and it feels like no one ever knows what they are

image description both in alt text and copied below!

another drawing of disabled* people hanging out chilling living life etc :-)

*technically the carer of the person in the pink wheelchair isn't disabled but carers are a part of the disabled people living life experience sometimes. so it counts 👍

previous drawings of this series

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[image description copied from alt text: drawing of 13 characters on a blue background. on the left side is a fem-presenting Asian guy with spina bifida in a wheelchair. his wheelchair has a much higher footrest to accommodate his short legs. behind him is a man with cerebral palsy using crutches and an AFO. he is wearing a tank top showing his top surgery scars. he has an uneven smile and strabismus. behind them is a drawing from the chest up of a Brown fat man reading in his bed with a CPAP mask on. he's smiling and shuffling the pages of the book. in the center part of the image are three people holding hands with hearts above them. the one on the left is a Black girl in a blue skirt using a cane. she is smiling and looking to the side. the one in the center is a fat Black person wearing a matching pink top, leggings and knee brace. they have a large heart surgery scar going across their chest and a smaller one on their forehead. they are smiling and looking at the person they are holding hands with. that person is an agender person with albinism wearing a hat with a wide rim, sweater and jeans. ze also has a pair of sunglasses hanging on hir collar. hir eyes are unfocused and looking in opposite directions. ze is smiling. below them are two Deafblind people. they are talking using the Deafblind Manual, with one of them finger spelling on the other's palm. the character doing the signing has congenital rubella and cataracts. they are white and have gray hair, acne and a focused expression. the person they are signing to is a white woman with ginger hair. she is smiling and staring forward. she wears a hearing aid. on the top right of the image is a Black man in a large pink power wheelchair with a trach tube. he is sitting still with one eye visibly open. next to him is a white guy with a bottle in one hand and feeding tube in the other. there are speech bubbles with icons indicating 1 eye closed for "yes" and both eyes closed for "no". below them are three kids playing with plushies. the plushies are a crocodile, belonging to a Brown girl with a C-shaped scar on one side of her head, a purple cat with one of it's paws missing belonging to an East Asian girl with an upper limb difference, and a rat belonging to a white girl with intellectual disability and small, spread out eyes wearing a scoliosis brace. they all seem happy.]

[livingproofoftbd]

decided to rewatch endgame since i havent since august, thought i could finish it tonight

dad makes me turn it off (my granny is staying over tbf) before its over and i come back to tumblr to find i've missed content Fml

[justdavina]

Ashley Sampaio:

Such a pretty transgender girl! Her face is so femme and I just love her wonderful long blondish hair! She's a gurl any of us would love to have as a solid forever girl friend! I know I would!

[casualavocados]

Learn from who? Learn from you?

Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)

[gmos]

theres literally a show with 30+ seasons of beautiful autistic men in power armor beating the shit out of each other and developing the most insane codependent gayer-than-being-gay relationships but only like ~50 people on this website post about it

[ruporas]

all I wanted was to save them... (ID in alt)

[fuckyeahgoodomens]

This is Crowley's broken heart…. 💔

[peppermintpillz]

Been awhile since I’ve drawn these guys!

[crybaby-bkg]

love it when men have a wife/daughter and refers to you guys as his girls ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

bakugou always says it whenever he’s using you as an excuse for something - gotta get home to my girls early tonight or gotta get my girls some dessert since I forgot last time or my girls said I can’t go out with you idiots tonight even though you guys are begging him to go out so you can have a girls night!!!

and kirishima!!!! he always carries pictures of you guys in his wallet, as a Polaroid tucked into his phone case, as his wallpaper on his phone, tucked behind glass on his desk. perks up anytime someone asks him about his family, has the biggest grin as he goes on and on about how beautiful his girls are, how his daughters are spitting images of you, how sweet you all are to him.

just my girls ☹️☹️☹️☹️

[mblue-art]

shoutout to masked characters ☝️ gotta be one of my favorite genders 🙏

alt. under the cut

boo.