#i cringe so bad smtimes

[personasintro]

If kiko's pov comes out, ik there's gonna be a whole world war between the mh fans. But srsly reading people's opinions, I think kiko isn't bad but I would like to know what she's going thru too because we didn't get any updates from her after chapter 45 or smthin. I do find their sex scenes a bit cringe but other than that she isn't bad, she's just too clingy around him smtimes..

I can already see the comment sections and messages so I’ll pass this time 🤭

[tearsanddeers]

i dig the kingsman series so bad like,, especially the latest movie!!

this is just me talking spoilers n the movies like a fanatic so yea dont mind me im a movie addict 🧎‍♀️🧎‍♀️ (i make too many movie references irl, its crazy)

the wardrobe, casting, cinematography, vfx, fighting choreo, props, etc.? LOVE IT. they slayed everyth so well, i q literally convert into a full time kingsman lover. everyth adds up to that posh englishman doing such refined (yet brutal) fights feel (as harry says, 'manners maketh man') so nicely!!! ₍^> <^₎‪‪

the first two movies tackled everyth nicely, n I'd dare say that the selling points were the funky gadgets they had. so i was wondering how they'd make the prequel top those, considering the time period it's set in (wwi) and MAN ITS SO GOOOOD ARFARFARFARF they handled it like a champ by including the origins of those gadgets in the first two movies (im looking at the knife-in-shoe thing 🤨) like BRUVVV

and and and the choreo just proved to be better imo?? like?? AAAA????

implementing traditional russain dance moves in the rasputin fight??? EPICCC (they also executed his character well 😫) made him do his lil hops whole plotting deaths lol! AND DONT GET ME STARTED WITH CONRAD'S SCENES IN THE TRENCH 😭😭😭😭 I CLD CRY ABT IT FOR DAYS I SWEAR. I KEPT REWATCHING IT LMAOO IM NOT OKKK

i love the tension they built with the emphasis the characters themselves place on the silence they had to keep whole fighting (totally went as planned haha) AND the tension the soundtrack shoved in our faces like like like UGHHHH THE WAY IT STARTED GRADUALLY BUILDING UP ON THE BEATS WHEN THEY GOT UP CLOSE TO THE PEOPLE BRAWLING??? MANNN.... the way they did that stealth mission with the crawling, crouching n hand signs instd of dialogue was muah muah 🤌🤌 i also realised that they did a shit ton of research (i mean, ofc but still like!!) on how soldiers hv to move when they need to be all sneaky with the crouch-sneak action as they approached the opponents, how they kept their bodies so close to the ground, and how it transitioned into jumping at each other for a fight to their deaths 😭😭 so detailed ngl... conrad running w that dude over his shoulder ( and away frm the gunshots b4 that) rlly reminded me of 1917's cinematography. perhaps its the 'one-shot' feel it had to it n the relatively shaky yet stable camera movement. and the explosions ard them too. that too. MMMMM ✋😫

and then the tragedy of conrad brooo i canttt it yanked a painful gasp out of me the first time i watched it 🗿🗿🗿 its so rare for me to gasp that hard while watching movies LOL and i almost cried over it like el oh ellll I RARELY CRY TOO IMO

N THEN THE SADNESS AND MOURNING THE DUKE HAD AFT THAT ACKKK _:(´།། `｣∠):_ tho i do admit that the length of the wwi scene made me forget that it was a message being relayed to orlando b4 it coz of how absorbed i was in the action hajshwjd

alsoalso the outfits were on point as always 😫😫 smth smth abt suits and the manners they have while they wear em UGH and also the soldier's equipment and outfits were historically accurate i i i- man. i love it.

ok im done. thanks for reading this if u made it all the way to the end. stan the kingsman series. also this is just my take on the movie and my kind of film appreciation eheh. i cld write an essay or synopsis of this to my old literature teacher, i swear. i think he'd be interested HAJSHA man i miss literature lessons so bad.

i might draw some cool shots or characters as an environment/figure study.

[void-selfships-archive]

Ok I just FINALLY finished bojack horseman after taking a very long break from it cuz it was not good for my depression BUT!!! I was strong enough to finish it and I’ve followed this blog for years and I know you self ship with bojack but I don’t think I’ve ever seen a post explaining how you fit into that world?? Like, what’s your role, how did you and bojack meet, how does your story grow along with the others? AND!! Woooo, “the view from halfway down” episode was. Wow. How would you/your s/i (idk which one you use) react to all that? Are YOU maybe the one bojack calls instead of Diane? Do you/your s/i have their own “view from halfway down” episode? Sorry if this is a lot but I’m back into this show now and I’d love to know your role in the whole thing. :)

SOBBING CRYING SHAKING RN HOLY SHIT YOU DONT UNDERSTAND HOW EXCITED I GOT SEEING THIS FJEJCJEJXJS

Also i get having to take breaks with this show bc if you aren't doing well it will NOT be good for you fjekwjcje I'm on my 4th (5th?) Rewatch rn after like a year (it's a comfort show) [ALSO VIEW FROM HALFWAY DOWN POG??? <- (my top favorite episode)]

BUT ALSO IM. SO GLAD YOU ASKED BC I HAVE SO MUCH LORE FOR THIS MFCKER AND IM TOO NERVOUS TO TALK ABT IT WITHOUT BEING PROMTED !!!

I'm gonna put everything under the cut for SPOILER REASONS but also PLEASE read the tags just in case!!! We're talking abt the mfckin CANON timeline I have for my self insert shits depressing as hell (also I hope I generally explained everything fjejcjdh bad at doing that smtimes)

I'm almost glad I'm not talking abt the Childhood friends au bc its SO softcore like wheres the angst bestie? But also damn. Why all the angst in the canon tl? Chill OUT /lh

Generally the canon tl follows the show pretty accurately, aside from the fact that IM there and a few things r obviously different

I met him in a bar during the 90s! It was one of those "Oh we're both actors! Pog." And we basically drank together and trauma-bonded. They quickly become good friends (It was funny, considering the first thing we said to eachother was "oh you look familiar" and "YOU'RE THAT GUY FROM THAT SHOW I WATCH!" Truly the start of a wonderful friendship.)

And, I basically stayed around him. The Whole Time- through Herb getting fired and both of our shows ending and various depressive episodes (on both ends), parent funerals and hallowern parties and benders and awful horrible shows that definitely should never be mentioned nor have been put on air.

And weird one night stands with eachother that never get brought up the next day (or at all for that matter) just to keep things from being weird.

So I've known him for awhile, and I've stuck around for awhile, basically a ride or die friend (with a tiny little crush that I'm not acknowledging) that's my role, the Yearning Best Friend- so cringe but it works out in the end.

I think, major event wise, everything still happened the same. It's right until S4 when things are, a little different? (Not by much though)

When he heads to his old family summer home he invites me to come with (I also didn't think itd be smart to leave him alone) and through that entire trip he told me about Horsin Around and his family and at a point a drunken rant abt New Mexico that neither of us remembered in the morning. (It was a bonding trip, definitely the start of Feelings too) we start dating in the middle of that season (specifically when we all got trapped underground, you confess a lot when you think you're going to die)

So naturally, S5 is different too, he's not dating Gina in that season, but everything still happens the same otherwise. (Of course I knew something was off the whole time, you don't stay friends with someone for several years and NOT notice when something's off, motherfucker wouldnt *talk* to me though, and when he did it was to tell me someone was trying to sabotage the show and of course you cant have two paranoid mfers under the same roof, they just end up fueling eachother until it's too late and something horrible happens)

And something horrible happened, and Diane told me about what she thought happened in New Mexico, and I'm thinking "I feel like I've heard this story before." And then Bojack tells me what happened in New Mexico and then he choked his co-star and hes going to rehab and everything is obviously too much and I tell him I can't visit of course, because theres a lot of information i need to process, but I'll still write and I'll still text and watch over the house while he's gone since I practically live there at this point but I cant see him rn.

And I didn't! Until he got out of rehab, of course and it was back to "Bojack and Jackson against the world!" And "Let's move! Go somewhere different get a change of scenery!" And we did. He got that job at the university and I! Stayed with him, ever the loyal boyfriend. (Until in getting calls from a reporter and suddenly we're trying to figure out what shitty thing he did before the reporter calls and Oh. It's about Sarah Lynn and Oh!! Thus is certainly new information I wasn't told about! Fuck.)

After the interview- the second one- it was...complicated. I didn't want to leave but i also recognized that i needed to. For now, to let him deal with the aftermath of his mistakes because if he came to me- and he did- he'd be looking for reassurances I couldn't give him. We got into a really bad argument, it was moreso implied that we weren't dating anymore, neither of us said it but we both walked away and that was the last time we spoke.

It's so funny that you asked abt The View From Halfway Down because I was literally just thinking about that episode the other day and if he would've called me and not Diane and honestly! Yea. He did! Tho he called me. Twice that day, once before, after he left Angela's house, and again before he got back in the pool- I picked up the first time but he was pretty much incomprehensible and I couldn't pick up the second time so when I called back and he didn't answer I was. Quick to panic. (I was right for being worried too, all things considered)

And then he went to jail. And we didn't see eachother again until PC's wedding (bonded a lot with her, during that break up period. It was hard y'know? But she got it. Also I was Helping Babysit with Todd, she was rlly making me rethink my opinion on adopting a kid)

We didn't start dating right away tho, but we did start hanging out again? So that was a bonus!

[uselessheretic]

sorry i hate stuff about how you need to reblog every art bc like i get the point but like... reblogging is such a commitment that im not always prepared to make yet. i need to properly determine whether the piece fits into the general vibes of my blog (vibes which are nondescript and in constant fluctuation but always bad,) potentially tag it not only with the fandom but also maybe some thoughts/comments in the tags too, which are thoughts/comments i now need to actually think abt since they show up in op's activity page btw, and also figure out if im currently being too cringe and rbing too much at once and whether i should start queuing instead to save some face or even just me being like "for some reason at the moment i do not want ppl to know im active on tumblr rn" and lurk for two hours instead

these are all complicated and numerous calculations firing off in my brain all at once just to determine if today specifically is the right mood to reblog this neat picture of sasuke. i am procrastinating reblogging neat pictures of sasuke which should be a brainless activity and yet here we are. as you can see, its a difficult lifestyle where running my tumblr is a full time job with literally no benefits

also, in the kindest way possible, sometimes i like art but dnt reblog bc of any of the above reasons. but also sometimes i like art and dont reblog bc i dont actually care for the ship/character but do want to so appreciation to the artist. and like.......... smtimes i just dont like the art enough to reblog it when scrolling thru the tags?????