#i couldnt make callouts on who i have discorded

[musashi]

(different ask cause it has nothing to do with the poll now)

You do seek punitive justice. You were a victim of a callout post yet you've made ones yourself. You can't be as naive as to think you were just trying to warn people because that's the reason everyone makes theirs, including the one about you. Are you really trying to help people or are you hoping for consequences to fall on them. The last discord you were on was shit but you couldnt just leave, you had to make a post. That homophobic or whatever loz discord you infiltrated was filled with scummy people but did it grant a callout post? Everyone already knew they were shit, why did you want to make a post about it. The pokeganda callout still makes no sense, it was just people not understanding eachother and failing at communication, what were you protecting people of with that post??

You wanted consequences. You wanted them to be punished by how they treated you. And honestly? Fair, get their asses. But don't say you're anti punitive justice in matters other than fandom nonsense

no i haven't? you are legitimately confusing me with someone else. i do not believe in callout posts, do not make callout posts, and have no desire to punish or hurt anyone who has ever harmed me. all i have ever done is block people, disengage, and move on with my own life and happiness.

i did not make a callout post for the last server i was in. anons started harrassing my friends with misinformation and accusing me of being a pedophile. i defended myself and my friends.

everything else you lifted here is stuff from years ago. why on earth are you presenting me a version of me that no longer exists? that is not a good or proper argument.

this is simply not true. i am anti-punishment and to say i am not is absurd. i don't know what you hope to achieve by foolishly bragging to the world that you are so willfully blind, but if it is some kind of strange kink for you please leave me out of it.

[merwynpersonalhub]

Question. What do you mean by "I dealt with some shit online." I have been a little bit curious when i saw that in your pinned post. You do not need to tell if you do not want to.

Its fine dont worry lmao im just gonna warn you its a long ass ramble on what happened. there will be a tldr thing in the bottom since this is gonna be a biggg ass ramble. Tw for accusations on pedo/grooming + manipulation + mentions of the world war 2 causing guy

a lil insight on what happened before this shit happened. (this was on another website) there was a person (we gonna call them oliver tree fan) who was caught drawing nsfw of the ww2 causing guy on a alt acc with someone else. the person who caught them was actually a ex of mine (we gonna call them "M") M vented to me about it since the other person who was on the alt acc used to be a friend of M. I never liked oliver tree fan. they harrassed many of my friends and was just a shitty person in general. i called the oliver tree fan out since the website was pretty small and everything was silent for a lil bit. Then oliver tree fan started harassing M. ANDDDD OOOOO BOY that made me pissed. But i knew Oliver tree fan was trying to start shit so i ignored them and tried to help M. Then oliver tree fan decided to go to my acc later on and said "im gonna block ya now" i was very pissed since it didnt make sense to me and i vague posted about them THIS MADE OLIVER TREE FAN VERRYYYY ANGRY. so what did they do? they made a callout post randomly on me. Basically the callout post was about me being a groomer/predator and how weird it was for me to like characters from shows and how i was manipulative to my friends and i was dating a close friends partner and that i was faking my age bc i didnt look 16 (she had a face pic of mine </3 also yeah this was like. near 2 years ago) I did had faults. i did do stupid shit. im not gonna deny that. i dated a 10 year old when i was 14 i wasnt sexual but it was still fucking wrong. i have cut contact with them a long while ago but around a year ago i did apologize to them. that was a shitty thing to do. i did treated some of my friends very shitty. and i take full fucking blame for that. i apologized to them and we made up. but since. it was a small website. many people believed i was this shitty person and i deserved to go to jail and shit. i panicked to my friends and basically had a big old panic attack that night. oliver tree fan then decided "hey! ill delete the callout if you friend me on discord and talk to me" and i did just that. oliver tree fan basically made me BEG. to have the callout taken down. telling me i was in the wrong i didnt deserve shit. then asked me to delete callouts/screenshots. i did that and then they decided "hey now we friends :D". we also made a deal not to talk shit about eachother AND. not to M. (since around this time M lost someone VERY important in his life in a awful fucking way.) i felt so uncomfy and terrified but i couldnt talk back to them or else i was scared i would get "called out" again. i was added into groupchats that was dissing on my friends and alot of other shit. they kept talking shit to me. to my partner at the time and alot of others. they were very 2 faced and fucking awful to me and many others. i didnt get the worst of it and it was just.. vfnjcnjdcs god fucking awful. many people figured out Oliver tree fan was a shitty mother fucker. and if you see this oliver tree fan (bc i know you stalk me </3) fuck off. legit your a fucking awful person. made me fucking scared for my fucking life for at least 4 months. you made me feel like utter garbage. i really hope you get what you deserve. tldr: Oliver tree fan was a shitty person to me and M (partner at the time now they are a ex of mine) decided to call me out and call me a pedo/groomer manipulator and other shit when i called them out. many people believed Oliver tree fan. they manipulated me into deleting evidence. we made a deal not to talk shit about eachother. ofc they talked shit and treated M and others like shit. then people figured out Oliver tree fan was a shitty person.

hope this made sense

[regularbeans]

As Zenyatta it’s become my ‘good luck routine’ to spray and then medidate on it before the match starts and it’s always lovely when someone else joins me but Tracer is just the cutest and she sat by me the whole time while I told her to free her mind and how I dreamt that I was a butterfly x)

[rouge-the-bat]

i. i looked through some discord history for timeframes of when i made that one "can u be racist against white ppl" post, bc since it was an anon i was responding to i was really anxious about it, so i mentioned it in my private friend discord server. i then shortly after mentioned that the anon was a mutual who talked with me about it and informed me of why the term doesnt apply against white people, even if some do have prejudices or whatnot. afterward i deleted the post.

anyways, according to the discord messages, i made the post at 5:18 am, and when i removed the post after talking with my mutual was at 5:45 am. thats 27 minutes. it was up for almost a half hour, and yet despite the fact that it got 0 reblogs, so it couldnt have been spread to circles outside my blog, a person that i have blocked for making a shit callout post on me still somehow saw it and screenshot it to spread around on said callout? originally i thought the timeframe was maybe like an hour or two, but this person seriously somehow grabbed screenshots of this post within the under half hour span of time it was up? this just makes me even more fucking uncomfortable, bc it feels even MORE stalkerish than i previously thought

[faunusrights]

OFFAL HUNT REMASTER LIVEBLOG // CHAPTER 7

when will one of these chapters start with ‘wow murphy’s gonna love this and rly enjoy themself’ WHEN IT IS. I HAVE TO KNOW.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

okay i am Recognising this chapter so we’re not quite yet in untouched, completely Feral territory which is. nice. thats nice. i like it when i know what im working w/ but who the kell hnows.

Something nagged at her. A forgotten thing. She thought hard, but even so, it took a long moment for her to remember.

me when i go to my room to fetch my dishes for the washing machine but i get sidetracked by my dog being cute and then i forget and go back downstairs and remember the dishes and then i come back up but my dog is still there and i forget again-

i’m just. rly enjoying this glynda. I SAID IT BEFORE BUT IM RLY THRIVING FOR THIS IDIOT WITH ONE BRAINCELL. THE BRAINCELL IS CINDER.

Glynda’s hunting instincts were primed, the only part of her that worked with absolute clarity, even now.

this is why she hasn’t noticed cinder’s flirting, the fool, the blithering idiot,

In the split second before she faded from consciousness, she smelled ash, the foreign Aura within her flaring until she could taste it: burning flesh and steady decay. Then it disappeared, fizzling out.

hm. is it a callout to say this is. romantic. this is kinda romantic. hey is this? gay? i think its gay. im gonna settle on it.

its gay.

When she awoke the next morning, it was like pulling herself from some great void,

H👈A😎H👈

for some reason THAT was the fingergun that made me spill juice all over my keyboard i see how it is

Then she remembered that at Beacon, her blood usually stayed inside her body.

im thriving for this weird observation. you know when you wake up somewhere new like a hotel or smthng and for a moment yr like ‘where am i’ and u figure it out thru like. normal fucking means. like oh thats not my duvet oh thats not my ceiling oh thats not where my window is-

and then glynda has to judge her location by how much blood of hers is spilled in it. this bitch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHE GOT ONE BRAINCELL AND OFFAL HUNT IS THE THESIS TO PROVE IT-

It was the room she’d all but dissembled in after getting her ass kicked and then saved by Cinder Fall.

sorry im going HOG WILD on quotes but these new lines r SO GOOD and im LIVING for them....................... like until now we’ve had glynda goodwitch, terrifying unstoppable woman and occasional dipshit. now shes all dipshit. just 100% pure dipshit. spread her on a field and you couldnt tell her from the manure. a complete buffoon.

that said its nice to see glynda using her Brainmess for once... i mean she still wont be able to put an otherwise fuck-ton of clues together still because that requires, the ability to multitask, which is surely does not have, but finally she’s taking five fuckin minutes to let herself go ‘well THATS weird’.

There had only been a stirring of life along those red-vein tattoos, swirling just along the cut of Cinder’s dress.

im enjoying the new ‘sexey tattoos’ slant we’re seein in this remaster it was a real shame they didnt get primetime attention last time.

also glynda Why Ya Lookin,

Hello,

she’d be a heretic to the Law of Semblances twice-over,

I May Not Know My Semblances, But I Know A Bitch When I See One!

For the first time in years, Glynda wanted to set everything aside and rest.

we stan a sleepy bitch................ ugh im so glad she’s finally realising she needs 2 give herself some mfing slack!!!!!!!!!!!!!! because as much as im enjoying the Dragfest she rly needs to. chill.

When she finally emerged from the bathroom, a towel around her waist and her dirty clothes balled in her hands,

look i didnt make this blog to lie that my first reaction to this was tilting my head and going ‘tiddy out? tiddy? is the tiddy out? tiddy?’

look women look hotter doing all the things guys do and this is fact i wont sit down and i Wont Shut Up

No more rushing ahead and getting herself torn up for nothing.

H👈A😎H👈!

thats a Good One, Glynda,

Winter Schnee had the pale white hair of her bloodline, and the sharp features of the famously reclusive Willow Schnee.

YES BITCH WE ARE IN IT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! POP THOSE MFING BOTTLES

i have been WAITING. FOR WEEKS. 7 FUCKING WEEKS I HAVE SAT HERE AND WAITED AND IT FINALLY PAID OFF OH MY GOD MY BITCH IS IN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As Ozpin had said, she was twice the age of the younger Schnee daughter, and her blue eyes held all the acuity that age had brought her.

i made a Sound at this i CAN SEE WHAT YOU DID. I SEE IT. I SEE IT,

A single photo hung on the wall next to a placard detailing some kind of award. Glynda pushed her glasses up on her nose to get a better look. Though it had the appearance of a family photo, only the women of the Schnee family were present, Willow and Weiss flanking a newly ranked Winter.

why am i being targeted directly anyway

safdjhgfsdajgh WINTER,....... im still. im Love w/ this main bitch finally... Finally.... i love winter in offal hunt so fuckign much and im so glad she’s here and that we’re getting more details because AAAAAAAAAAAAAA i love her!!!!!!!!!

also i cant.... say anything because spoilers..... but also............. NNNNNNN this convo has just. so much behind it. SO MUCH CONTEXT. its Killing Me,

A strange expression crossed Winter’s expression. It looked like how bruises felt.

im losing my fucking mind rn diesel and kc are going right to hell and they know it but do they care???????????? no. they already are the devil,

okay i went silent for ages and read ahead because i screamed in discord for like ten minutes and it looked like this

so YEAH theres that, i guess,

Instead, it only filled her with deep unease. Glynda didn't know what Cinder’s game was, but it was becoming clear that it did not align with her own. And the more she thought about it, the less she understood. The less she understood, the more wary she became.

cinder: i wanted to tell this girl i liked her so i wrote her a note that said get out of my desert,

im rly thrivin in this chap i already said it but we’re rly jumping into the meat n bones of the Plot now and its a Good Plot so im excited!!!!!!!!!

“Yes, I think you’ll like her!”

“she’s a lesbian, like you, so maybe her distinguished energy will chill your dysfunctional energies out-”

Glynda pressed her lips; she needed a delicate hand here, needed to carefully choose a response which would divert Ozpin away from the topic. “No reason.”

YES MY FAV LINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is Big Me and literally this is MAYBE the best and also funniest line in this entire shitshow remembers the Pasta Bit and /sweats

i also rly enjoy glynda n ozs friendship... i mean im out here remembering the glynda/ozpin/cinder fic so i was already sold on all their interactions but its rly good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GLYNDAS BEST FRIEND MAY BE 200 YEARS OLD BUT GOD DAMN IT WHEN WILL YR BFF EVER BE THERE FOR U LIKE THAT,

theres a Bit here im not gonna go into but. honestly once u kno how offal hunt basically ends? Its Sad and Im Sad. i hate how knowing this whole thing just inflects on everything else and everything glynda wants and honestly this whole fic sucks. why am i reading this AGAIN.

“I have faith in you, Glynda. But there are terrible things that can be done to a person even without killing them.”

👈😢👈

we’ve popped the first sad fingerguns but also What The Literal Fuck, Oz,

“Come and catch me, then.”  

im LAUGHING this is much better than the first version because this is SUCH a cinder-brand of shit to say dsfjhgfds she’s SUCH A SHIT-STIRRER but i love her,

“She’s just sent me something. My Scroll is working fine, but I think it’s safe to assume she knows what we’re discussing.”

“What did she send you?”

“An invitation.”

oh finally glynda works out the whole CCT business JHGDSFSDF i wonder if cinder knew shed figure it out or saw her msgs to oz and went ‘ah shit well’

BUT YEAH..... DATE! DATE! DATE! HOT DATE WITH CINDER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am. VERY excited as many of u will remember i made a prime shitpost abt That Chap back in the day and ill have 2 REDRAW IT!!!!!!!!! POPPIN BOTTLES!!!!!!!!!!!!

anyway this chapter sucked and was also very good in equal measure. as it is Wont,

[poisonouskunoichi-blog]

let’s put some positivity on the dash

some self reflection, new years resolutions, and a thread tracker

first of all, hey ubr! hows everyone doing? that’s cool, that’s cool.

ive been planning on making this ramble of words for awhile but it was actually yesterday’s voice chat that got that introspection flowing again.

im splitting this whole monstrosity into parts so only read the ones that you feel like lmao

getting more activity

i feel like there’s a problem in this (being all of pokemon, not just ubr) rping community BUT!!! its one that can worked on and sorted out if we’re all willing to idk look at ourselves and our flaws and work to be better and more compassionate people?? maybe who knows.

now before i get started i want to acknowledge i am ACTIVELY APART OF THE PROBLEM. i have not posted on either of my muses in over a week. i have sat at my computer multiple times this week to do my replies/starters and i find myself paralyzed each time. and yet at the same time, i have been flooding the ic with my dumb antics, which i can do for hours.

so what’s going on here? i know im not the only one who feels this way. ive heard from multiple people that working on replies stresses them out, or they feel bad that they owe people, or they apologize for taking so long. and im just sitting here like “isn’t this supposed to be fun?”

again, this is across the board. i left a previous pokemon group because i couldnt keep up with all the replies, but then i immediately went and joined a rp in a different fandom because it was much more low stress. but what made it less stress? well, the replies weren’t as long for one thing. each reply would be 1-4 paragraphs AT MOST and they were almost always dialogue and character interaction. in the 10 months i was in a pokemon rp, i only ever finished two threads, with 2-3 replies a week. in the 10 months of this other rp, i finished dozens of threads, with 5-10 replies A DAY. my characters developed so much more and they had a lot of room to foster relationships that changed and evolved over time, something that i don’t feel happens as naturally here.

the pokemon rp community is filled with tons of talented writers and i think that’s part of our problem. we work so hard to match our partner’s length, or live up to the length and quality of our peers, that we become paralyzed. if you can’t get out the perfect reply or just a reply that fits your own incredibly high standards, then nothing gets out at all. so you either get out the bare minimum to make activity (if that), or you find yourself on perpetual hiatus. i know ive been there.

when it comes to rp, i for one care much more about character development and interaction than the quality of the writing. of course there’s still a level of literacy i want to keep, but if i have to sacrifice prose for the sake of finishing threads more quickly and having more things happen with my characters? yes please.

so that’s what i’ll be doing. my replies from now on are likely going to be shorter than what i’ve been putting out previously, and probably not as pretty or detailed. if that’s not what you’re looking for in a rp, i understand!! different people want different things, and im not asking everyone to follow my lead here. but if you relate to any of the experiences i just described, id encourage you to look at yourself and ask what you want most out of this activity we do for fun, and focus on that. i feel like a lot of what we do here is just following the norms and standards of our peers, and that isn’t going to change until we change ourselves.

ubr is a pretty cool group

WITH THAT OUT OF THE WAY, i just wanted to put out the appreciation i have for this group. its been made perfectly clear that not everyone feels this way, but i feel like ive been pretty welcomed and accepted in this group. like ive mentioned before, ive been in a lot of rp groups in my past. ive seen what fake openness and positivity looks like. but thus far, people have interacted with me in the group chat, in ic, and plotted with me in friendly, lovely ways. theyve seemed to like my muses a lot which is really cool! and overall, ive been having a good time so far.

and i recognize that that’s because i put myself out there. this is a lesson ive learned the hard way in my various rp groups: if you don’t put yourself out there, people will not pay attention to you. and sometimes they won’t, even if you do. that’s kind of just the nature of rp groups. every rp group ive been in has been perfectly fine and functional even after ive left, and im sure if i left ubr tomorrow, it would be the same. would people be sad? potentially! i know ive been sad to see people go. but life moves on.

but that doesnt make the experiences we have in the present any less valuable!! and for the time being, people here have been very loving and accepting towards me. the few times ive asked for support through dms, ive been given it. today, my father told me that it sounded like i had a good time last night (in the vc). and i did!! i did really have a good time. trying to fit into new rp groups can be pretty awkward but i think yall do a good job of letting people in.

i also want to put my appreciation out there for the mods and everything you do. again, ive dealt with actually cruel and controlling mods, and those experiences have not been fun. considering how big this group is, i feel like the organization and speediness of replies is pretty astounding. the winter event was super fun and super well done and im excited to see what you guys have in store for the future!!

is the group perfect? no. like i said, i think there’s an activity problem. there is sometimes a communication problem. there are the problems that plague all rp groups, such as integrating new people, making everyone feel welcomed, etc. but there are mature, rational ways to deal with these, and most of them involve looking at ourselves and resolving to make ourselves and the group better. and for the most part, i get that vibe from a lot of people.

and if that makes me a cultish puppet or whatever--instead of a grown ass adult who can think for themselves and actually just wants to help foster positive change instead of immature callout posts--then ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

thread tracker

NOW WITH ALL THAT SAID, time to get down to the nitty gritty of it. first off, im sorry to those who i was threading/plotting with fennel. my eyes were bigger than my muse with her, and the drive fell apart pretty quick. right now, i want to focus on these two and getting a more steady stream of activity. if you still want to thread with janine or marshal, lmk!!

janine:

iou: fire, cheren

uoi: ethan, cynthia (starter), lance

plotting with: will(?)

marshal:

iou: caitlin

uoi: cheren (starter)

plotting with: thorton/hau(?), cynthia, dulse

as you can see, i don’t have a ton of threads. i mentioned a communication problem earlier, and i think im apart of that as well. im going to try and make more of an effort to respond to peoples starter calls, maybe try to respond to an open here and there, and just branch out in general. i hope yall do the same!! please hmu here or on discord if you want to plot out something with my babs!!

in conclusion

WOOOOOO that was a long post! thanks for coming along for the ride. i love yall and im hoping to make myself a better rper and contribute to an overall better group in 2018!! see yah then!!!