#i could geniunely talk about this game all day i love it so much

[demento-mori]

Alright! Now that ive finished Act 3 ive put together some of my general thoughts and feelings from this section of the game.

First off, I absolutely love how much the dialogue, descriptions, flavour text and so on changes and evolves throughout the loops. There are so many little details and plot threads, such as Siffrin repeatedly hitting their hip against that one corner, and getting increasingly frustrated each time, or learning that the dying plant is Mirabelle's and being able to compliment it in the next loop. It makes the characters and the world seem so organic and alive, and provides a sense of progression as you are able to learn more and more about the world around you. Even though the game gives you the option to loop directly to certain floors and areas, I find that I prefer to go through the house the 'legit' way each time, simply because I'm so eager to see whats changed.

Siffrin's psychological decline has been devastating to watch play out, especially since you, the player, are right there alongside them. You're also hoping that each new dialogue unlocked, and each change in the loop means that you've found the right solution to end the loops, and everytime you're disappointed and feel like your efforts were all for nothing. This especially hit home in regards to the party/family members. The first time you do each of their friendship quests its so heartwarming and emotional, you feel so happy that you've been able to get to know them better and become closer with them. But then, in each subsequent loop the impact of those quests lessen, and its easy to begin seeing them as just another hurdle you have to overcome in order to progress. It mirrors how Siffrin gradually stops seeing them as autonomous beings and rather as actors in a play, who he is "manipulating" to get his own happy ending.

The changes in the game's artwork that show Siffrin looking more worn down and tired is equally devastating. Its a small but very effective detail that drives in how the loops are wearing down on them. It almost feels like the game itself is becoming more and more corrupted as the loops wear on.

The worldbuilding is on another level. Like, you can tell that so much thought and care has been put into the world. The countries and their different customs, the religions and their practices and mythology. The language, the fashion, the magic system, the history. One thing that really stand out to me is how Vaugarde is clearly a very wonderful place, but its far from a utopia and there are still societal issues and injustices. For example, rather than taking the route of "there is absolutely no prejudice, all races genders and sexualities are equal", the game shows that gender and romantic/sexual attraction are all widely accepted and seen as fluid due to the change belief, but conversely aromanticism and asexuality are not as common or accepted as they clash with the religions practices. This makes the world seem much more fleshed out and believable, as it provides clear and convincing justifications for why the society is the way it is. And all of this isnt even getting into the more spoilery worldbuilding elements, such as colours and the island north of vaugarde, or even simplier stuff like the other countries and their cultural differences, or the various different vaugardian towns and their unique customs.

I feel like Isat is the only video game Ive ever seen that utilises the time loop concept to its full potential, let alone accomplising that in a way that still translates to a well-made and engaging gameplay loop(ha). Both the gameplay and the story make full use of the time loop gimmick in order to craft a compelling narrative, to explore the characters, their backstories and development, and the psychological effects of the situation upon them to their maximum potential, and to ensure that the gameplay loop never becomes stale and is able to consistently keep the player invested with new things to explore each loop. Its truly a masterpiece of game development.

[charlotteswriting]

how would thh cast comfort you // gn!reader -mod kaede

makoto naegi

—even though he's clueless, he'll do his best to cheer you up. his encouraging words already make you feel better, plus he'll hug you. i feel like he gives the best hugs, the hugs that makes you feel loved (i hc nagito and gonta too) he'll try to get anything you want, snacks, chocolate, candies, drinks. keyword, try. he's got like, $1, he can't buy you mcdonald's but still he passes the vibe check because he is so caring.

byakuya togami

—speaking of mcdonald's... he can and will buy you the whole company. that's it, i am out. well... he isn't the best at comforting people because he is blunt, but i feel like he'd show his love by actions, so he'll lend you his shoulder if you feel like crying. he won't complain about it but he might have a disgusted face the whole time. he is trying to get better

mondo owada

—because he doesn't want you to feel trapped inside, he'll take you out and you 2 will ride around the entire town. getting fresh air is always the best, isn't it? after the ride, he'd take you to a calming place to picnic and he would ask you what's wrong while resting his head on your lap. if it's a person bothering you, he'll get pissed at them but if it isn't, he'll be much calmer and try to come up with advice, though he isn't really good at it, he tries his best for u to feel better.

kiyotaka ishimaru

—taka might be dense at first but as soon as he notices your mood, he'll drop everything he has to do and will pay his whole attention to you. i headcanon taka likes to cook, so he'll cook with you or for you! he enjoys baking you cookies. he is actually good at giving advice, he's disappointed that you didn't come to him when you were bothered, he'll be there for you from now on and give you his love.

hifumi yamada

—i feel like hifumi would notice your bad mood but wouldn't know what to do, he'll try to crack jokes but he isn't the best joker around :'( if you have any shows you'd like to watch, he'll watch it with you and that'll be enough to cheer you up! but he talks a lot when watching, so you gotta bear with him. also man himself is comfortable like a pillow, so you can lay on him while watching it

leon kuwata

—he's bothered that you are upset, so he will do his best for you. taking you outside is one of things that comes to his mind first, walking in the streets while holding hands? yes. but if you feel like staying home, that's ok too! he is always down to cuddle. cuddle bug? cuddle bug. and yeah, he'll spoon you, so you don't feel alone.

yasuhiro hagakure

—oh no, it's so awkward. he isn't used to you being like this but he'll still try his best! another one that will take you to mcdonald's, he's a bit broke now, but who else is he going to spend his money on if it's not you? i feel like he'd joke around to lighten up your bad mood and tell you his whole life story. his memories are so terrifying that you eventually forget what's been bothering you. mission accomplished, but at what cost..? he is crying due to the nostalgia.

chihiro fujisaki

—at first he's like, is it me made you sad? :( you give him hugs all the time so it's time to payback! another one that gives the best hugs, they're so sweet. he will listen to every word you have to say patiently and at some point, he'll probably join you crying—if you aren't crying, well, he is crying alone. he'd play games with you until you are tired, it's him usually gets tired first. hearing his little snores in bed is already enough to make you smile. succeed!

kyoko kirigiri

—she can read people well, so she can say something's bothering you, so she'll be more affectionate than usual in return. kyoko will stay with you the whole time and listen to you without judging you, also i feel like she'd do some of your hobbies with you, so you'd feel better. in the end of the day, you know she believes you and it makes you feel better. kyoko will do your hair while you are ranting about your day. it comforts you.

sayaka maizono

—sayaka is geniunely sad, she cares so much. she'll take your hand and ask you if there's anything you'd want to do to feel better, she's down to anything, really. she's worried about your well being so much. like taka, she's a good cook, she'll spoil you a lot! she'll be affectionate the whole day and will not leave your side unless you are feeling better, afterwards, you tell her the reason of your sadness and she's like :0 then :( she is more clingy.

toko fukawa

—toko is aware you aren't feeling at your best, she wants to cheer you up but her low self-esteem doesn't let her. i think she's good at giving hugs, but they won't last long, because she thinks she's not respecting your boundaries. with short hugs and words that won't leave her lips, she isn't the type to comfort, but still just her presence itself helps you to feel better. she'll sit by you and will read with you, sometimes she'll even give you headpats. and i think that's really sweet.

sakura ogami

—i feel like sakura would immediately want to know the problem, so she can solve it. that would make you feel better, right? if you don't feel like talking about it yet, that's ok! she respects your privacy, but she won't leave you alone. she'd never when you are this upset! i think she'd carry you around with those big arms of hers, she knew you enjoyed a lot when she lifted you up or carried you in general. she gives good piggyback rides, too.

asahina aoi

—if you are upset, she's upset too. :( but still she's willing to make you feel better! she will want to talk about it, though that's only if you wanna. she'll take you the nearest donut shop and will buy you snacks as well when returning home. if there is no donut shop around, then she's more than excited to bake some with u! she's so passionate about it. you can't help but laugh at the way she fails baking, she is embarrassed about it but hey! at least you are smiling again

celestia ludenberg

—she knows you good enough to tell you are lying or not, pretending doesn't work on her, peace was never an option. celeste probably going to offer watching movies, i feel like she would like k-drama. also don't @ me but she will play uno with you, and no, don't try to change my mind. i also hc celeste likes birdwatching, there are many things in her mind to do with you. but if you don't like any of these things, she'll just shrug, giving in and joining you, staying with you the whole time.

mukuro ikusaba

—mukuro isn't great at comforting, but she'll not let you stay in a bad mood, either! she'd say you nicest things ever, probably about how much he admires you and stuff like that, well, she does. she is really embarrassed about showing affection, but still will embrace you, just like how you embraced her. will let you rest your head on her shoulder and you'll tell her about what's bothering you. the whole time she has a serious face but in mind she's forcing herself not to have a heart attack because of the closeness

junko enoshima

—now now, the only person she doesn't get bored around is upset? no, we can't have that. thanks to her analyst talent, she could already tell the problem and told mukuro to take care of it. while it's getting solved, she'll spend all of her time with you now! she'll tell you you're the best one around and you have no words for that because you know it's true. she's not the great comforter because her personality changes literally each second, but that's fine, too.

hey hey! this wasn't requested by anyone but still i felt like writing because i was kinda upset lately, and this idea popped out! anyway, hope you enjoy this! tomorrow, i'll be having my exams so i better get back to study :) i won't write for a week and few days but when i am done with them, i'll get back to writing requests immediately!! ily!!! 💖���

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🧁 BadBoyHalo reborn as a demon antagonist AU 🧁

This AU is part of the DSMP Reborn as a “villain” AU multiverse, the link shows the masterpost which explains the AUs & has the index for more AUs that I posted.

If an AU has no link attached, it's coming soon.

Holy crap I went hard for the angst on this one.

CWs for:

Non-consensual body modification (cause of the Egg), Parasites (because Egg), Loss of a limb (Not Egg's fault surprisingly), & Derealization in a paragraph

Let me know if I need to add any other CW or anything else.

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As a child Bad wakes up 1 day to learn that in his 1st life, he played a video game/read 2 novels where his current life, became 1 of the Demon Lords who willingly worshipped/was possessed by the Egg & worked for it. In fact OG him is the Egg's future 2nd in command & poses as the leader of the empire dedicated to it, & he was killed/defeated late in the story.

(Up to you if it's a game or novel, w/ a game maybe there's multiple routes/choices meaning multiple endings while w/ a novel, in canon the Demon Lords were all killed while in a spin-off they were just defeated not killed or maybe it's the other way around w/ the novels, or maybe it's a single novel w/ a mix of some Demon Lords dying while some survive.)

It was pretty ambiguous if some of the Demon Lords were wholy possessed or willingly worshiped the Egg w/o possession, or a mixture of the 2.

(If we want to we can have this world be the same world where Techno is reincarnated as Billiam, because then they could discover they're in the same boat & bond over it but I'm making those worlds/time periods seperate for this post.)

The Demon Lords & the Egg formed the Eggpire. 1 by 1 in the story they are killed/defeated by Puffy, Sam, &/or Technoblade, the protagonists. If the Demon Lords weren't killed they were defeated at a terrible cost for themselves & others.

Bad won't accept being a villain, or being killed or worshipping/being possessed by the Egg.

The good thing is that he remembered this before the Egg has enough power to get him & the other future Demon Lords under it, so he has time to plan. Actually Bad has a few decades to prepare!

On the off chance that the Egg possessed the lords, he wants to find the future Demon Lords & other major charaters so as to prevent that.

In the original story, Puffy & Sam are demons who betray the Eggpire which they help found early after it's formation due to realizing the Egg is bad. They flee, & later form 'Pro-Omelette' in opposition of it, w/ Technoblade joining their cause at some point in the story after OG Bad & the Egg fails to recruit him.

Unfortunatly, while fleeing, Puffy & Sam fail to do some things/do some things which they regret then & in the future that also has major consequences as they feared.

Another close ally is Hannah, a dryad/nymph who aids them w/ her powers. At some point the Eggpire captures her meaning she has to be saved & after that as the story progresses Sam, Puffy & maybe even Technoblade if he's also a demon starts feeling a strange kinship & repulsion towards & against her.

There's also the starborne mercenary Purpled who isn't willing to work w/ the Eggpire due to them taking his big sibling figure.

(Starborne means the starborne origins from the Origins mods for Minecraft).

Everyone has their own motifs, Puffy the sheep demon pirate has pirate & sheep motifs. Sam the creeper demon redstoner has a redstone motif. Techno has a pig motif. Purpled's motifs are stars, galaxy patterns & just anything to do w/ space.

Ponk, the chicken demon w/ a lemon (tree) & chicken motif is Sam's ex who was heartbroken by his sudden disappearance. He joined the very Eggpire Sam betrayed & had his heartbreak used to harden his resolve for the Egg's desires.

He is the 1st Demon Lord to be killed/defeated. If defeated he's turned against the Egg w/ the power of love leading to Sam & Ponk making up, maybe they never go back to dating or Ponk's ability to love was taken away by the Egg after he goes against it.

Maybe early in the fight Sam is holding back his emotions, cuts of Ponk's arm which leads to Ponk's reaction snapping Sam out of it & then Sam has to convince Ponk he geniunely loves him & regrets leaving him the rest of the fight, just angst.

(Sam saving Ponk from the Eggpire w/ the power of love only for Ponk losing the ability to love after betraying the Eggpire, oh yeah the angst).

If Ponk is killed, well Sam is extra vulnerable to the Egg's influence & risks getting brainwashes by it while carries the guilt of killing his lover w/o reconciling.

Maybe Ponk isn't killed but Sam's tunnel vision to defeat him causes Ponk to die of broken heart syndrome (maybe induced by the Egg?) oof & Sam regrets not contacting Ponk after escaping the Eggpire & forming Pro-Omelette & is extra vulnerable to the Egg.

Also there's these these flowers called Carnations that have different meanings depending on color, maybe the 2 have a shared magical carnation flower that Sam ends up taking w/ him while fleeing from the Egg, so the dark red flower (love & affection) becomes almost fully yellow (disapointment & rejection) which makes Sam truly realize the extent of what he's done by leaving Ponk w/o like a note on what's going on.

Maybe to Sam's horror the flower sometimes flashes to being striped (regret love can't be shared) before going back to being yellow w/ a tiny bit of dark red some where.

During the battle, if Sam manages to convince Ponk to defect from the Egg, the flower flashes fully dark red but then the Egg take Ponk's ability to love. This takes away Ponk's connection to the flower making it half dead & the flower permanently is striped.

If we go the route of Ponk's death, the flower doesn't flash dark red at all, it goes from yellow to striped when Ponk dies, disconnecting his magic to the flower making the flower half dead.

Punz is next to go, they are a human mercenary turned into a demon after joining the Eggpire be it because of possession or there being promising gains of wealth from joining the Eggpire. He has a wealth motif.

Since Punz was turned by the Egg, he has Blood Vine's for horns & said vines for a tail.

Punz fights his own brother & talks about how the money is worth more than Purpled, how they don't love Purpled, etc., which Purpled refuses to believe is true.

Punz either dies (meaning a grieving Purpled for the rest of the story vulnerable to the Egg) or ends up in a coma (extra angsty if Purpled thinks he it himself).

Purpled is scared for his big sibling's health, will they be okay when the Egg dies? Well, after the Egg's defeat Punz wakes up some point afterwards but his health is awful, said awful health will last a long time & they can never do mercenary work again, both he & Purpled are distraught by this.

Punz's demon features are especially sickly & act like a parasite for a while before just dying. Punz basically didn't/couldn't have his connection to the Egg & his new demonhood removed, now he's here w/ maybe chronic fatigue because the Egg seriously fucks people over even in death.

Skeppy, a blue-turned-red diamond golem-turned-demon, goes down after Punz's defeat. Skeppy has a gem motif, & in the past made a purely proffesional deal w/ OG Bad, while OG Bad would forfeit his immortality to make Skeppy harder for death to claim, & as a result became a demon, Skeppy would provide OG Bad w/, let's say 1/2 of the gems & riches he owned.

Remember that if Skeppy dies, Bad dies but Bad can't die w/o Skeppy dying 1st.

Skeppy basically helps fund the Eggpire. When the Egg decides to give Skeppy some demon stuff itself, Skeppy not only is made of red diamonds now, but his body is cracked if not before & there are roots & flowers sticking out of said cracks.

Skeppy joins the Eggpire because of possession &/or promises of an even longer life through a connection w/ 2 demons.

After his defeat, the Eggpire is more desperate than ever due to losing a big funder, putting effort into getting Skeppy back. The vines also act parasitic after the Egg's fall before dying but not w/o Skeppy's mind & body being damaged by the vines.

If Skeppy is killed then OG Bad's connection to the Egg is the only thing keeping him alive if barely meaning Bad's easier to kill & the Eggpire more desperate than in the route Skeppy lives.

Antfrost, the demon w/ a cat, ant & ice motifs, the '2nd in command' of the Eggpire to the everyone. Only alone w/ the Egg & OG Bad is he called the 3rd in command since that's what he truly was.

If Ant is killed/defeated, OG Bad has to deal w/ getting a new “2nd” in command, this time keeping her in the shadows so as to keep her from being taken on by Pro-Omelette. Security is tightened as much as it can be.

The Eggpire becomes even more stressed if Ant is defeated & is w/ Pro-Omelette 1 way or another because Ant knows a lot of stuff they'd rather never get out.

If Ant's defeated & a prisoner of the protagonists, maybe they get some info from him but soon he is released by a traitor but as he escapes he winds up stranded somewhere in a place that won't be kind to him unaware of how to get back to the Eggpire. Perhaps for the rest of the story.

At this point Pro-Omelette also tighten security since they have a traitor in their ranks.

Althought Hannah is acting suspicious, she isn't like vanishing at random times or acting that off so they can't exactly suspect her. She's got sick this once & has been pretty unwell but who can blame her? So many of her flowers got destroyed & leeched off of in Ant's escape.

The demons of Pro-Omelette are feeling a strange repulsion against her but also a strange kinship towards her.

If Skeppy is dead, Bad when being confronted by the enemy instantly is sapped of all his power & life left since the Egg realizes it's about to loose him. Or his connection to the Egg is severed by Pro-Omellete before it can happen leading to him naturally dying.

If Skeppy isn't dead however, Bad is captured but not w/o the Egg taking all the power it can from him severely weakening him on a level of power & health.

OG Bad was a very powerful demon & so if Skeppy lives, the Egg gets a major power boost before his capture, but in the route of Skeppy's death, the Egg doesn't get that much since it had to keep Bad from dying.

After Bad is down, Hannah goes missing again & there are 2 groups, 1 to find Hannah & the other to take down the Egg once & for all.

Either 1 or both groups find the Egg & to their horror they find out since Hannah's 1st capture the Egg brainwashed her, has been leaching off of her & replaced the flowers she wears w/ it's vines.

The Egg holds Hannah's life over them. If the Egg took the power of OG Bad in the route Skeppy lives it's much for difficult to try & defeat the Egg & save Hannah.

Also the Egg turned Hannah into a demon that has the power to grow vines & flowers. She's powerful but even more if Skeppy lives.

Egged!Hannah does a number on Pro-Omelette. She goes as far as to maim, kill controlling the vines & worm parasitic plants in people. The Egg has these powers too.

There are 4 directions at this point.

     Pro-Omelette succesfully kills the Egg while getting Hannah out of it's grasp in the process, of course there's the parasitic plants & other damage done to the protagonists' side as well as Hannah who's health is super fucked liked many in the final battle (it's kinda like what happens to Punz if he lives).      Like Hannah who was turned into some egg-demon who's egg-demon parts act like parasites & others w/ the parasitic plants in them have to deal w/ the plants till said parasites die & even then there's the stuff to deal /w the parasites deaths.

     Hannah is killed by the Egg sapping everything from her & fighting w/ all it's new might but still killed. The damage done to everyone else is significantly worse.      I'm not even accounting for the background characters brainwashed, genuinly worshipping the Egg dealing w/ the fall of the Egg, the aftermath, etc.

     The Egg & Egged!Hannah win, some Pro-Omelette members in battle are killed while the rest are captured to be egged.

     Hannah dies to the Egg sapping everything from her & the Egg wins w/ it's rejuvenated power. Many Pro-Omelette members in battle are killed while the rest are captured to be egged.      Basically 3 & 4 are the bad endings, while 1 & 2 are the 'good endings.'

As I said before, there's so much I'm not considering. I can't bring myself to further work on the canon of the game/novel(s) Bad played before being isekaied.

But yeah the game/novels were full of angst & Bad was super into it so he wants to give everyone (especially his favorite character(s)) a happy ending.

People around Bad notice he's changed his behavior but lets say it's not enough to warrant any investigation.

Bad starts studying defensive magic since he doesn't want to die, he also learns all he can about summoning, deals w/ summoners, etc.. While he's at it he's tracking down all the major characters & is going to make sure they know what he's learned to prevent any possession.

When Bad finds the major characters, he becomes close friends to them but he's still nervous at the idea that the people he's befriending like Sam, Puffy & co. will kill/maim him.

Or we could have it so that Bad becomes cofortable w/ his friends & confessed about having a past life & all the knowledge of future events he has. You're choice.

When Skeppy summons him & he makes the deal w/ Skeppy he makes sure to hang around his #1 favorite character because, in his 1st life Bad loved Skeppy's character & now he has the chance to geniunely know & become friends w/ Skeppy. Skeppy even warms up to Bad & geniunely begins seeing him a a friend!

Uh, I didn't exactly develop the world much, oops, let's say that Bad is born into a high enough position to change the living conditions of those of lower class of those around him.

Bad out of fear of the Egg makes sure as many people as possible have the common sense to not do anything stupid, has the knowledge & defense to not get possessed, & more, regardless of whatever barriers are in his way.

Since the Egg makes promises, he makes sure to nip that bud as much as he can, such as making sure that even in death, loved ones can communicate via like necromancy/something else, everybody has their needs met, prejudices are squashed as much as possible, etc.

Bad, while earning the ire of many who liked things the way they were, also earns the support of those who benifited from his actions. He also actually listens to what people are saying because he can't let the Egg have any chances.

The main cast of the game/novel(s) Bad read also help out, even more if Bad confessess about his past life.

(The next paragraph has some derealization, said section of derealization being in bold.)

If we want angst, we could have Bad (& co. if they know?) overworking themselves sometimes because the Egg can't have any chances, maybe sometimes he (& others) can't go to bed because he/she/they are terrified of the Egg, terrified of it, worried about the Egg already being here, worried about the Egg already somehow possibly controlling & possessing them & already being possessed, sometimes wondering if their own mind & eyes can be trusted—

On the bright side we can hopefully have some comfort & fluff after that angst & hurt.

Also there's this 1 guy also helping Bad out as much as the main cast called Karl, he disappears at random times but by the looks of it, he isn't connected to the Egg in any way & is really helpful so there's not much to worry about.

[mc-critical]

Would you agree that it’s almost impossible for motherhood in the harem to not be toxic to some degree? Especially so in mother-daughter relationships, but still prominent in mother-son relationships as well. (Also I’m not making this observation about harem motherhood to say that harem fatherhood is a lesser evil or non-toxic. If anything it’s even more toxic and damaging..especially given that it was such a norm for fathers to kill their children and feel completely justified in doing so, but that’s a discussion for another day.) I’ve observed this in almost every mother in the series. With Hafsa and her daughters (remember Sah at Mihrimah’s wedding talking about how her mother forced her and all of her sister’s to marry, and based on what it sounded like, at an extremely young age against their will), with Halime and Dilruba (Halime was geniunely okay with the possibility that Dilruba might die after Kösem kidnapped her if it meant sparing Mustafa’s life), with Hürrem and Mihrimah (forcing her to marry Rüstem at 17 years of age and using manipulation for years to keep her daughter in an unhappy marriage). The list goes on and these are just a few examples but I can’t not see a pattern here. Even with their princes there was the constant forcing a love-interest for upon their sons (Mahidevran I believe forced Fatma on Mustafa if I remember correctly? My memory is spotty there so tell me if I’m wrong) or eliminating their sons love interests in often brutal ways if it was self-serving (Hürrem killing Beyezeid’s harem to cover up Huricihan’s murder.) I almost believe there is no way for motherhood/fatherhood to be completely healthy in an enviornment like the harem especially given the examples.

Yes, I definetly agree with you on this one. It's truly almost impossible for mothers to not be toxic in some way in the environment that is the harem, because so much of it is dedicated on perpetuating such toxic behavior in both the dynastic and non-dynastic sultanas.

The first and foremost thing a woman who has just entered in the harem has to think about is how to survive, how to lend in a more comfortable position. And the first step in doing that is going to a halvet and bearing a child from the sultan. But that's not so easy, since she both has to make a solid impression and fight so many rivals on the way. The harem encourages competitiveness, putting people against each other for a single goal and the ambition to climb yourself as high in the hierarchy as you can, all of which leads to constant stress, paranoia and opportunism. As we see with so many characters and their arcs throughout the series, the longer you get to be in the harem, the longer you adapt to the system (which is a central theme of the franchise for a reason), the longer you endure, you just get used to it and at many aspects, absorb it. It's only natural at this point this would transfer to the children of the mothers, as well, because they are not only children, they are, as sad and unfortunate as it is, the keys to both full survival and success in the harem that can turn into tools for their mothers to mould when it's necessary. Because these mothers perfectly acknowledge that they aren't alone. When you bear a child, you do get to have a sense of comfort, but that comfort is only temporary and by the realization that there are other mothers with other children that will turn into deadly rivals for your own child, it slowly transitions into the next phase of the game of life in the harem: the fight for the throne where you have to fight harder than ever, actually. The most difficult part of it all seems to be just beginning and you have to use your best virtues as a player in the harem to win the war the system put you into. And a healthy relationship with your children, as we know it, sadly isn't a part of that.

There is this one exact aspect of the toxicity of some mothers you referred to here that comes more due to the exertion of the "mother knows best" attitude. No matter how many allies and supporters their one prince, in example, has, the mother is the one who would always vouch for him and would never turn his back on him, if only they're their ticket to more piece or that they've truly come to love him as they should. The system demands of the mother to raise the prince the best way she knows how and gain as much political advantage as she can, that including all these infamous political marriages. The mothers have to at least give their children sound advice of all things and that's what they also become used to, more or less. And them having these obligations, in a way, to their children, along with having gone through what they have in the harem, all make them believe that their children don't know better. They're the ones that have gone through this and have to stay strong and act pragmatically, not these children that have yet to find out what is going on. And even when they grow older, there is this decent possibility they won't realize the stakes of the game. MCK Bayezid is the most notorious example, with him living a fairly comfy life under Kösem's care when it comes to this that only vanished after Gülbahar came to the castle and he became the favourized heir of the throne and yet, Gülbahar still had to constantly remind him for so long that "he's the center of the fire" and that "they're in a war". MC Mustafa often refused to make pragmatic decisions that would've basically spared his life. Hürrem literally tells Cihangir that he shouldn't meddle in these things, because she knows better and thinks he can't tell the difference from right and wrong. So the mothers usually consider themselves forced to make the hard decisions instead of them, trying to keep all aspects of their life in check. That's why they meddle so much in their love lives, as well, along with their personal opinion and bias for the women they chose to be with, of course. Mahidevran and Valide wanted to marry Mustafa and Aybige for both reasons - Mahidevran both doesn't like Efsun and found the upper hand in a marriage with Aybige. {though it is important to note that Mahidevran specifically monitors Mustafa's love life because of the fear of the possibility of the next Hürrem, too, whose arrival and tradition breaking in the castle are still very deep wounds for her. She got over that eventually with Rumeysa and Mihrunnisa, but it was there and it was really showing at first. She sent Fatma to a halvet in E50 with the intent to distract Efsun away from Mustafa, but when Efsun was already dead, Mahidevran was strictly against all her attempts to sabotage the other concubine Mahidevran was sending and win Mustafa over and even decided to not send her to Manisa exclusively for that, disguising it with that she currently needs her in the castle.} I'm taking about the princes, but it obviously applies to the daughters, too, of course, especially Mihrimah, who also had a long way to go until she figured out what is the game all about and even then that only worked when it was connected to the protection of the family and Hürrem knew it. And while the daughters are perceived to have "less value" than the princes, bound to become sultans, as seen with Halime's relationship with Dilruba, they still play a significant part in the game and help the princes gain yet more security and the mothers influence the matters much more through the vezier or pasha the daughter has married. And it's as important to find the proper candidate, which is why Hürrem was against Taşlicalı and she broke her promise to marry Mihrimah to the person she loved. Leave it to the mothers to make the opportunistic choices that their grown-up children sometimes won't be able to make.

The fight for survival also triggers severe amount of protectiveness that plays a part in the toxicity of the mothers. They always have to keep an eye on the children, because there is the possibility of someone trying to attack them or someone else to try taking advantage of them, which is why, as well as attempting to dictate their actions, they always want to track every single move the sons and/or daughters make in order to dictate their actions. There is this prominent fear of backstabbing, betrayal and murder attempts that just can't let these mothers think or act otherwise.

It's tricky because even though some of them get so engrained into this it becomes a personality trait of theirs or apply personal gained bias when they embrace their toxic motherhood traits, they try their best to maintain cordial relations with their children and show them their genuine affection. There are so many profound mother-son and mother-daughter relationships that are either incredibly interesting on their own, either have so many human interactions with their sons or daughters, in spite of the circumstances. And in the case of, say, Halime and Mustafa, but almost all these relationships qualify, the huge amount of such interactions creates a very fine line between the tender affection and the toxicity the system causes them to show, which is why maybe it could be missed to an extent, but the narrative still does its best to make it obvious enough. It's so sad and chilling that the life in the harem just won't let healthy dynamics in general and if one starts to think for a second that the children may be an exception because they are the closest link to their mothers and the ones most likely to reveal their humanity, it soon becomes clear that this is far from the case. The system leaves nothing and no one untouched.

It becomes even tougher when, knowing the law of Fatih, a mother has to choose between her princes in the inevitable scenario where only they are the only heirs of the throne left. There every possible ounce of a healthy dynamic leaves much faster than usual, because the mothers have to realize sooner or later that they do actually have to make a choice. They love them all with the bottom of their hearts, but there is only one more fit to rule. And there is never a guarantee that the "chosen" or the only surviving prince will never dare to think about executing the law. That choice seems ludicrous, because how would a mother choose from her own children? This conflict is icredibly exploited through Hürrem in S04. She undergoes a subtle arc that has her deal with this precise moral dilemma. It tore apart her belief that the fight would be over after Mustafa's death and all her flaws in terms of Selim and Bayezid's parenting came back to her, with her seeing the problems and inevitable power struggle between them in their fullest power. She couldn't bring things back now, for their conflict had already gone too far. So she goes through fairly lengthy denial of the choice at hand and tries her best to search for a peaceful solution, for both of them to be able to "coexist", but she eventually realizes that this wouldn't be possible and when she did, it was way. too. late. And Hürrem had her preferred candidate for the throne regardless, so when you face that struggle as a mother, it's impossible for your relationship with your children to not be toxic in a way. And I know many mothers out there would relate with Hürrem's internal conflict when it came to this, because no matter how much they've adapted to the circumstances, these are their children, aren't they? The children of their own blood they cared for their whole life up to that moment! How damaging would that be for a mother? Kösem as a mother faced an even more extreme display of this, because she had too many princes and a son on the throne; she not only had to choose between them, she had to eliminate them as a desparate, but apparently necessary measure - she had presumably won, but then she came to realize that her son couldn't rule the country and didn't listen to any advice. As I've said before, her whole S02 arc was her coming to terms that she had to eventually eliminate him, for he stands against not only the country, but her as a representation of said country. She infamously sealed the pact to kill Ibrahim also because he apparently wasn't fit for the country. That tore her apart, but she did it anyway. In her time period, I dare say it's even harder to not have some kind of toxicity present in the mother's relationship with her children, because of its more dynamic rhythm and the ways of ruling in it where women, which are naturally mothers, too, are at the peak of their power and are way more likely to do stuff for its sake alone than in Süleiman's time. So we could argue that it's not only impossible for mothers not to show toxicity in the harem, but that toxicity increased as the franchise progressed, cementing the core contrast between MC and MCK: power for the sake of personal motives vs. power for the sake of power. That obviously has to impact the mothers, for they truly are the main players in this whole game.

I can't lie that it's more probable for the dynastic sultanas (that are not daughters of the sultan) to not show toxicity to their children, since they don't really have that survival fight in front of them and they have to build their families, live in a castle with them and that's about it, but then another problem arises - they have grown in the harem, they have grown with this toxicity. They have been taught this their whole life. They and their children can't exactly have healthy relationships, because the established hierarchy in the harem and the positions of these mothers are stopping them. They are gonna live with the mindset that the son is more important than the daughter (we have Hatice wanting her first baby to be a son) and even if the child is a girl, they would be constantly reminded of their social standing, that they have the blood of the dynasty. Yes, this is way less toxic, but could still bring problems and can't be healthy in a literal sense. Not to mention that ambition within a member of the dynasty isn't a concept to be discarded - Şah Sultan is the perfect example of this, with her wanting to marry Esmahan to Bali Bey, not just because her daughter is okay with this, but also because that marriage would be useful to her goals. Esmahan being the one who proposed it in the first place (as far as I recall?) and her wanting to put it in motion a lot, was only sheer luck.

Motherhoods in the harem are indeed fascinating, but toxic in one way or another. There is a clear pattern in all these relationships that is bound to show itself at some point and the fight for survival may cause mothers to put their own needs above the ones of their children's. And that kept going on and on for the longest time. There's so much humanity in these relationships, but a considerable amount of toxicity, too, that I blame mostly on this gross system.

[Fatherhood in the harem is truly even more toxic, destructive and even dangerous in many areas. Most fathers we've seen in the franchise are sultans and the sultans are notorious with their relenting paranoia of betrayal that manages to go over their own heads. I can go on and on how the same paranoia screwed every single sign of a healthy dynamic between a father and a son especially, rendering it totally nonexistent in a while, but that's truly a post for another day.]

[seawolvesanddragons]

Anne with an E, S3E5

Halfway through the season y’all, and mostly heartbreak to show for it. But we were fucking FED this time!  Spoilers below! 

- ok that opening proved one thing and that is how Gilbert talks to nature and wildlife JUST LIKE ANNE DOES. Seriously, that whole scene could have taken place word for word with Anne, but also felt right with Gilbert. Soulmates yall.  -These kids can’t keep a straight face during the slightest innuendo during the nature walk but also think touching will make your pregnant; someone please give them sex education 

-YES that whole injury scene just did so much to further the story in so many ways! Anne’s connection to the natives and her friendship with Ka’kwet is touched on, Gilbert’s continued interest in medicine (as well as pushing him to explore other avenues of medicine) and the overall schoolyard crushes, all conveyed in this. 

-You know what I love about both the Barry’s characters and Rachel Lynde? They’re complex. Rachel does annoying or terrible things all in the name of her thinking she’s right, but she also spends her days helping Marilla try and help out Bash and Delly and geniunely cared for Mary. The Barry’s were AWFUL to Mary for so long but reached out in the end, and have come to regret their actions, and want to make up for it. They want to have Bash over for DINNER I mean. Even Josie Pye, could easily just continue to be a terrible person all the time but they show her and Anne getting along, her going along with the girl’s games when she hasn’t in the past, while also not understanding why Billy is terrible or why Anne would care about Mary  -The scene with Ms Stacy! Showing how alike Anne and Gilbert are by the contrast of them being inside reading the paper while their classmates cluster by the notice board. Anne’s face at learning there are female doctors; Gilbert’s concern when Anne speaks wistfully at learning more about her parents and their shared wish for Delly to do so. Just. Amazing.  -Look Charlie is trying ok guys. I wanted to slap him when he said “women of intellect could be barren” but I was hoping he would say something like “I worry about you cause you spend all of your time studying and don’t relax” (which was a storyline in the books, but with Marilla, right around this same time period.) I also want to know EXACTLY what he wrote on the notice board. 

-Anne is right maturity is hard and terrible 

-The continuality of Anne learning about Scotland! 

-DIANA CONTINUING HER ADVENTURE STREAK AND ANNE IS SO SUPPORTIVE 

-Ok but that locket scene, even if its platonic, belongs on the Kinsey Scale sorry I don’t make the rules.  -JERRY AND DIANA GOING STRONG. WALKING HER HOME. MAKING SURE SHE WAS OK WITH IT. FRANKENSTEIN. THE HANKERCHIEF. They’re just so cute 

-Also Anne recognizing Jerry has a crush and shipping it without even knowing its sailing already 

-But also Diana should keep demanding to go to Queens 

-Matthew is unsure how to deal with these teenagers and their romance but he sure as hell supports it 

-OK ok THE DANCE SCENE GUYS 

-I. Just. 

-The CONTINOUS EYE CONTACT. The smiling, that adorable little twirl, and just how HAPPY they were 

-which of course meant they were so confused afterwards because what are feelings. 

-They’ll get there though. Anne was certainly hoping it was Gilbert following her, and Gilbert was VERY angry at those carrots. I was really worried that Gilbert was going to overhear Anne ranting at Charlie and so relieved it didn’t happen, because this is a well written show and not a heterosexual white rom com. 

-Bash wait no you’re going to confuse the poor lad. Explain the DIFFERENCE between what feeling love is like and what feeling attraction is like; Gilbert is not just attracted to Anne, he has a real connection and friendship with her already 

-but I loved that scene of Gilbert being like “Bash if I think a girl is pretty do I marry her” and Bash being like “you sad sad little white boy no no let me explain the ways of love to you” and then teasing him about who it is. (Come on Bash. You know. You KNOW.) 

-I hope Bash’s mother comes! That is really good solution to the whole Gilbert and Bash need help 

-Moody and Ruby, shipping it. 

-OK that scene with the girls and the campfire was so wholesome but also I’m half expecting the next episode to start with Anne on trial for witchcraft and bewitching the girls of the town lol. 

[dykesvt]

quick! what is your favorite thing about wonwoo?

uh oh

its stupid but ive been a wonwoo stan for almost two years now and like over all that time span even if he wasnt my main i really always? admired him?? like his attitude towards things and how he presents himself is something i really look up to and i dont think i can say that abt other artists i listen to. one thing that really,, like i look at wonwoo and it really sticks out,, is how geniune he is. hes not fake hes not playing shit up for the camera hes really just being himself. his reactions to things are so real? and you can tell just how much he loves everyone around him and idk…. i just.. something about him and how fucking real he is blows my mind. and our signs are really similar too i mean im a leo sun and hes cancer and i ws literally.. Supposed to be a cancer too anywa. but i connect with him a lot? i notice that with other stans too like they r really similar to their bias and maybe thats what drew me to wonwoo?? but like i really just admire him a bunch. the way he puts himself out there reminds me a lot of myself and im always so proud of him for making comments or talking during shows without being prompted its so fucking amazing to see him be bold and get what he needs to do done? hes just… idk! the way the memebrs talk about him in such a great light really makes me estatic?? and hes just so lovable and GENIUNE???? like i cant stop thinking about how raw his reactions are and you can tell! like sometimes he doesnt find shit funny and he doesnt over exaggerate to make it seem like hes amused he just doesnt fucking do that? and when hes so happy he SHOWS it hes scrunching his nose and throwing his head back and clapping and just LAUGHING. and its so nice to see him carefree because it just makes me so ???????? happy msyelf? seeing him enjoying himself really puts me in a better mood. and like.. again… im really just pushing all my feelings out at once and its STUPID of me i should organize this but when i think of all the things i admire wonwoo for its really just how fucking. responsble he is for himself. like when he had that drama in the beginning about past things he said abt female idols when he was like 10….. he didnt fuckign let the company say anything he didnt make excuses he wrote a like 3 paragraph letter about why he was sorry and that he has grown up since then and realized so many things and i just admire him so much for that/??? for actually DOING something when he got negative attention and taking notes and not just hiding behind his company like they company was gonna say something but he ASKED to be able to talk about it and appologize to fans himself. i just really…. hes so REAL.. and i hate to see people downplay his emotions because likes he so full of them. really… hes so fucking full of love and graditude and laugher and i jsut wnat to see that always??? i love him so much and idk……. hes just?////// i look up to him so much and im so thankful for him and seventeen and that he got to find these amazing people who bring out the best in him like when he said hed live a boring life wit/out svt…. i felt that. wonwoo is such a geniune and emotional person and he handles himself so well and hes professional and grown up but still super goofy and shit and im just proud of him!!! i really am. hes such a well rounded guy and i just want nothing but succes for him in the future :((((( and maybe im just a fucking stupid wonwoo stan but i hope you all know it really does hurt when i see people call him emo or depressed it really fucking hurts me. because its not his fault he has a rsf (resting sad face you get it). its not his fualt he has a gemini venus. but like. the amount of LOVE you see in his eyes when he looks at his members i want to achieve that one day. because wonwoo is so full of love and he expresses it through fucking cute things like laughing extra hard at someones joke or monitoring their practice or teasing the mmebrs hes just so??????? im gonna say it AGAIN…. GENIUNE!!!!! thats my favorite thing about wonwoo is how he doesnt act for the cameras he’s himself and i just. admire him so much and adore him and i just hope he really knows that there are people out there who love him with all their heart depsite him being a brat :((((( and this is way too long and you said one thing i know and i could talk about the small things like his nose scrunch or how he lets himself go sometimes and is just fully SILLY with the people arund him and how he thrives off of praise be it through laughter or like smiles. and i just love everything about him so much and idk!!!! idk im being het and its DUMB but i adore him so much :( anyway in summary of whatever this is i just love wonwoo so much and nothing can ever replace in my heart hes such a role model for me and i just want all of yall to know! this isnt a game when i say i love him beyond the moon!!!!! im not playing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mwah xoxo

[feminariden]

I was watching a video on 4kids' fall and one of the comments were "man image being a kid finding about uncensored ygo" and this kinda reminds me of my own experience

I should have talked about this years ago because it's a really weird story that makes me laught at my own naivete even today

You see, i have really protective parents that sheltered me for all my childhood and i was really really guille as kid, but ironically, at the same time i also had unlimited internet access and i was pretty good at using it

As kid i liked many anime like Sailor Moon or Dragon Ball and i often ended up googling those shows for fanarts or videos, or even just reading their Wikipedia pages to understand better the story, specially as i always started those show pretty late on with no context

That's how i learned what censorship was and how it worked, not only extreme violence tended to removed but also sexual content and even homosexuality which really surprised me as child

(Among the things i learned this way there were also anime genre, shonen, shojo, seinen all became regular words for me as i slowy becomed a little weeb, a little more embarassing i also learned cursed words "yuri", "shojo-ai", "yaoi" and "shonen-ai" with all their misattribuite meanings in true early 2000s style lmao)

Now with some context for this here the yugioh part:

Even if i didn't watched a lot of ygo as kid i really really loved Yugi, BEWD and watching the card game, end of course i read its Wikipedia page along read the respective censorship part, now it's been a decade from those days but i'm 100% sure the wording back then must have been something like "just as most anime dubs the italian version original censorsed most of the violent and sexual content" (btw the italian version DID NOT censored death even if the Shadow Real still existed bc of 4kids changing plot) while linking the "anime censorship in international dubs" page, said page talks more generally about it and it includes a more broad concept of censorship including nudity, sexual harassment, heavy violence, and homosexuality, ecc you know the drill

The weird fact is and i swear i'm not joking, after reading it that page, i geniunely thought all those things happened in yugioh

For YEARS i actually thought nudity, sexual harassment, heavy violence, and homosexuality all happened together in fucking yugioh, i literally thought that if i watched the original version of the show i would have seen some girl getting naked, someone losing an arm or a dude getting molested by another man on screen or even two men kissing (in my honest defense of this: that happened in Naruto and it was censored too)

As i said before i was an extremely naive child you could have told me ANYTHING and i would have believed it, back then i didn't even knew how babies were born because my parents were that much hyperprotective of me, if you told me x was sexually molested i would have been "ow that must have hurt :(" bc i had no idea what they were talking about!

It was just after i grew up and learned new things (always thanks to the internet) i realized that no way such heavy topic were handled on freaking card game anime

I just find weird how finding out about Yugioh's censorship gave me instead a really warped version of the show while for the other it was just "wait so the Shadow Realm doesn't exists???"

[irregulardiaryposts]

00:53 21/06/2021

Hello again <3

so i think im gonna write about my mental health today because i dont feel like i have anyone who understands fully apart from myself maybe so i need to Organise my Thoughts. as a kid i had a pretty normal childhood, a mum a dad and a brother - pretty nuclear right. but as a child i felt like my family maybe wasnt quite right, that this wasnt supposed to be what family is? perhaps. - i was scared of my mum a lot because she wasnt very understanding of me - and i was a great kid, never getting into trouble, very good at school, no issues whatsover. the thing that really shows how i thought of my relationship with my mum was when i was like maybe 8 or so having a parents night and at it my teacher had nothing bad to say apart from i was kinda bossy in group settings (im sure i dont need to explain how misogynistic that actually is- i was not bossy i was a natural leader) and when i got home my mum told me off for that and i felt like she was kinda cold to me and not taking all the good things about me into consideration when telling me off for that.

i feel like thats a really defining moment in my life when i realised i cant expect adults to Understand me, realised how people treat young girls, also started my defiant behaviour maybe or was kinda one of the key moments that made me dislike certain authorities in my life, that if people wont understand me regardless of how i explain myself then i wont bother trying to be understood by people who wont matter to me. anyway yes i was scared of my mum-like petrified sometimes- but my dad wasnt great either, he also had his shortcomings. i feel like he never really cared about me like he was kinda apathetic towards raising me like a parent - i feel he would be better suited as an uncle to someone rather than a dad - the funny childish guy that makes kids laugh -not the uncaring dad that cant be bothered to really learn about his kids. and i feel im sitting here complaining about my parents when the fact is that a lot of adults should never be parents, society has conditioned people into thinking the only way to be fulfilled in life is to live vicariously through your kids when life gets to such a boring and monotonous place where you feel the need to create a new life to spice things up lmao. i feel a lot of parents regret having kids but they cannot express that regret because it was their choice and they should deal with that, also saying you regret it would be pretty horrible to the kid.

so while yes i am complaing about my parents i dont think they were Bad in any way just not that great yaknow. also i just notice all these things growing up and i feel its been pretty impactful to understanding myself and my parents. also just some anecdotes from my childhood - i used to watch my dad play video games like the uncharted games i think theyre called, and whenever i got scared i used to hide behind the couch until the scary part was over (usually a lot of guns and high energy fight scenes thats too much adrenaline for a 7 yo) and sometimes when i would take out my dad/brothers game i would get them to fo the hard parts and do other stuff myself - i dont remember many games i played apart from one of the spidermen games where u could just web around the city and not progress apart from sometimes you would come across some strippers and i accidently got into a fight with them (also hot women with umbrellas they use to fight- maybe i went near them on purpose) i would yell to my dad and get him to do it for me. also on new years eve whenever my mum was working and we werent going to any family parties we would make a bunch of food and put it out in the kitchen - wed make like homemade onion rings, chips, have crisps and dips, and a bunch of junk basically and watch like austin powers or some shit and genuinely miss those times they were so simple. but a lot of thats tainted now from what happened. also my brothers always been annoying as shit but when we were kids we couldnt be in the same room without arguing which like whatever thats how kids are esp brothers and sisters for some reason.

i think thats majority of the background needed for the rest. wait this is a little addition but i meant to mention this here so ill put it in- basically sometimes on holidays i would geniunely think my parents hate each other/ were getting a divorce like once when we were in florida in 2012 my dad convinced my mum (as well as me and my brother convinced her since we liked them) we convinced her to go on a water slide thing that u had to walk up the stairs for, it was outdoors, and it was kinda tall and then we got in one of the big donut things and it swooshed from side to side a lot and was generally pretty scary i suppose for someone who doesnt like rides esp since you had to hold on to the handles there were no buckles or anything, and so when we got off the ride my mum was big mad at my dad and like wouldnt talk to him and stuff like that which was pretty uncomfortable to have to be the 8 year old mediator of that but there was also another occasion i think (maybe also at florida) where they were made at each other and i asked my mum if they were getting divorced and all she said was 'ask ur dad' like???? no sort of consolation to this child who thinks their parents hate each other nooo just petty 'ask him' and theres also been other times when they fight/ are mad and they dont feel the need to hide it from us so i felt quite anxious around my parents sometimes.

so ahnyway . yes. when i had just turned 13 my parents split up and it fucked me up in a multitude of ways. also i cant beleive i stopped being a proper kid at 13, like as soon as i turned a teenager life hit me like a fucking truck. so the context as to why they split is still kinda lost to me ngl but they didnt tell me much anyway since i was young but my mum basically said my dad didnt love her anymore and he wanted to separate. its kinda funny because leading up to this my dad had been sleeping in the living room for like a few weeks and there was on and off fighting i could hear and i basically thought they were fighting over me and that i was in trouble and it kinda used to keep me up coz i could hear loud voices when they thought i was asleep- which is probably the cause of why i get veryyyy mad and angry when i hear my mum at like 1 am downstairs when shes drinking and im trying to sleep, probably something ive internalised (is that the word?) and made me respond so strongly to those type of noises.

anywayyyyy yes i thought i was in trouble when they were actually just getting a divorce so ... yeah you can really tell i was young and didnt understand adult issues or really couldnt figure this out myself from all the arguing and him sleeping downstairs lmao. anyway my dad moved out and it was just me my mum and my brother now and at this point my brother wouldve been about to turn 18, so although still kinda shit, not really as affected my it as a 13 yo, just to keep in mind. so i was devastated obviously and my whole world was kinda shattered but i had to hold it together a bit, also i was sometimes my mothers own therapist having to say things like 'everything happens for a reason' 'itll get better' in response to her deteriorating mental health and her questions that would be really hard for me to answer like 'why did he leave' etc (bish im a child be there for me not wallow in ur own pity, u have ur whole life to sort this out youre an adult, im a 13 you and only months away from wanting to kms hun think of ur CHILD please) anyway this left me feeling like a burden if i were to share my mental state because when my mum shared her stuff she was burdening me (AGAIN i was 13 she is an adult) so that made me bottle a lot of things up also the fact that i had no one to share it with because she works as a nurse and now shes a single mother and so she works almost all hours of most days and i dont see her much, my brother was either working at this time or just didnt give enough of a shit about me to make sure i ate.

i went from being catered to for every meal because i didnt know how to cook to suddenly no one being there for me so i had to learn how to do it myself. needless to say that lead to a bunch of unhealthy eating habbits like eating the same things every day - frozen pizza, cheese toasties, i cant think of anything else probs because i didnt make anything else just ate chocolates or didnt eat breakfast coz i woke up at 2pm. just general unhealthyness both in substance and like how healthy that was for my head yk. also this is during the summer btw so it gave me the option to be incredibly depressed - im not saying that as an edgy teen thing to say im being 100% genuine i was very depressed like textbook style - not eating or overeating, not showering/ taking care of myself, extreme lack of energy and hated doing social things coz i had to put on a farce that i was okay meanwhile i couldnt wait to get into my bed and sleep the next day and a half away.

i very vividly remember at the start of the summer holiday my friend asked me if i wanted to go out and do something and i rememeber just crying at that because i had no reason to say no but i just didnt want to and felt like i couldnt do anything and so i lied and said i wasnt feeling well and then put my phone down and curled up in my bed and cried coz i was frustrated and upset and i couldnt really understand what was wrong with me and why i was Like This.

god i didnt take into account how tired i was and how late it is when i started this huh, this isnt even half of it, but i have obligations in the mornign, the last until uni or whatever so ill put this in my drafts and finsih it somethime. alrigtht it is 02:08 btw z_z. also ive just now decided im gonna re organise my tumblr so if this ends up being an actual blog thing i can navigate it easier by adding tags and such. anywau goodnight.

20:21 30/06/2021

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23:01- well. yes earlier i wrote a little about the ages 13-16 and how they sucked but whatever it got deleted the more pertinent stuff happened in the last year or so anyway.

um yeah so i started the last year of highschool as a 16 year old with a fucked up brain and never having learned any study techniques or work ethic in the slightest. i took 3 uni-level courses only one i actually wanted to do, most people take 2 at most or even 1/0 but do other classes. honestly it fucking sucked this year for school but i scraped all passes so thank god for that. so i started the year quite optimistic, or as much as i could be and in all fairness the content of this year wasnt actually that bad considering i was doing 3 hard classes but corona really truly fucked everything up and by November i had mentally dropped out of my classes but of course i still had to go to them. i feel like im an oddly independent teen because ive never had a solid parental presence in a while, like i had to do a lot for myself and maybe i should thank myself for getting me through it all because i really did pull through.

my thoughts keep drifting from what im writing coz i wanna talk about different things and im just thinking maybe i shouldve just posted the last one then added a reblog when i could be bothered to write and not force myself because if theres ever a reoccurring theme in my life is that if i force myself to do anything i will hate it with my entire being, so maybe i should just do a short synopsis and write about something else afterwards.

so i took 3 hard classes, slowly lost all motivation because in jan it switches to online classes and i could Not deal with those it was horrible, and i became more of a "troublesome student" in one of my classes *cough* maths *cough* and almost got "kicked out" of taking the class just because the teacher was a control freak but like wanted to control all of our actions and behaviour, also i think i may have adhd and another kid in my class i think he does too and surprise surprise the teacher "dislikes" him too but its only a farce because he doesnt actually dislike him its only so that i cant call him out for singling me out when other students behave "badly" too. but anyways maybe ill come back to this in a while when i can be arsed explaining my complicated relationship with my parents.

the only reason i wanted to write this today was so that i could tag the post with like june 2021 or something and not june/july, but i might make another post later, Anyway happy end of pride month i supose, hope u figure it out me!

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for tae

warning: this is long and kinda corny and i’m bad with words and i didn't even know where i was going with this. i probably didn’t even say all i wanted to say but yea hfgjs

loml its your bday so let me start off by saying happy birthday! i hope you have an amazing one and have many more!

and through those years i will continue to support you wether it be music, photography, art (drawing, painting, etc.), acting you will get all my support because you are so so so so talented in everything you do. youre such a creative person. youre such a lovely person.

you have one of the most beautiful souls. you are a geniune, kindhearted, sweetheart who deserves nothing but the world to treat you with the kindness you give it. ive only stanned you for almost a year now but ive learned a bit about you and your just so beautiful inside and out. i would hope, even tho its very unrealistic, for you to never be sad.

when your sad or when you cry i get sad with you and want to hug you and just comfort you. another part of me wants you to be happy 25/8 i know its not realistic but god seeing you upset makes me so sad. youre a silly individual and i love you pull different faces but my favorite face youve ever made is when you smile.

your smile...ranging from little smirks to your big ass boxy smile...its really the most beautiful thing ive ever seen. when you laugh it makes me smile so big my cheeks start hurting. when you giggle my heart grows. you have the most prettiest lips ive ever seen hdfhjk theyre so pink and shaped in such a cute way. when you smile your eyes get scrunchy (your nose does as well) and they get so so so sparkly and bright.

your eyes your eyelashes are so long oh and i love how you have monolid and a double lid. theyre different but equally as beautiful.

beautiful one of the words id use to describe your voice. wether you are talking or singing i absolutely love your voice. hearing you get better at your highnote on stigma makes me so proud cus you really work hard(i admire you for that) and the improvment is just amazing. id have you sing me to sleep tbh kdjdjsks. i also just love hearing you talk. i could listen to you talk forever your voice is just that nice sksjjzmzkk. its deep as heeeeelllll but it can hit that high note (come thru vocals!)

you! are! adorable! cute! ma little squishy!!! there are times when you act so adorable you probably dont even know. like when you fall asleep your lips all pouty and you can see your eyelashes really well. or! when you were about to show everyone tata and you thought yoongi was gonna say you gave off a van gogh vibe you eyes got all sparkly and sksjsnsm (really you were adorable the whole time you were creating tata you seemed so excited and happy :((( ) you are just so damn cute :(( you can also be such a shy guy especially when talking about your art which is adorable (a renassiance man!) when you kiss the camera and go mwah! love that! the fact that you have to cuddle someone to fall asleep is sososo cute :((((

all of your face moles super duper cute and kissable. nose mole? kiss! lip mole? smooch! i love every single one

you look so good in red. it was created just for you i swear! bandanas and berets on you are a yes!!! also 171019!! hoodies look so good on you! you look so comfy and cozy! let me cudd*e you!! :(((

dude. your hands are like the prettiest fucking hands ive ever seen. i just wanna compare hand sizes with you and hold your hands. i wanna leave kisses on them and tell you how beautiful you are.:( (i also wanna paint your nails)

you seem like such a confident person. it shows in your fashion (the male rihanna) you dont give a shit about what people have to say and i admire you so much for that! you saying you dont want any of the other members dna and that you like your own??? you call your pimples friends??? you get happy when you gain weight??? you are so carefree???? love a confident man!!! you just seem so sure of yourself and i really admire that.

you are such an intelligent person. first thing that comes to mind is your english. you pick words so quickly and it sounds really good. your able to listen to a god damn chicken and know what pitch they were crying??? (ok talent!) you are smart regardless of what anyone says. (ill literally murk anyone who says otherwise)

you have such a big heart and you share that love with dogs and children. youre literally going to be such an amazing dad one day :(

you yourself can act like a big kid sometimes jfdgjkb you can be loud, super goofy n silly, and it always seems like you look at the world with a childlike wonder. you actually have a certain type of innocence that i hope you hang onto forever.

you are such a unique person with a unique personality and the more i learn about you the more i love you

you are clumsy, bad at games, smack your food, can move your ears??? for some reason, wear your glasses on the back of your head, can literally make friends with anyone,have a heart of gold, protective of your members, dont get scared when theres zombies chasing you gdhhjkb,would probably be a gaming youtuber,a child at heart, and an overall lovable human

kim taehyung. you are a charming, funny, talented, intelligent, man. and i love and adore and admire you sosososo much.

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Korean (& Korean-related) Favorites

To boost my own motivation to continue studying Korean. Here’s a couple of lists of some of my favorite things. (under a cut because otherwise this will be too long!)

Favorite youtube channels (language resource related):

All things Korean (Only been making videos for about a year, but has a lot of really informative videos both in regards to language but also culture)

Talk To Me In Korean (They have so many videos + a whole website, of language resources. Everything from grammar to pronounciation, and miscellaneous other topics. Also they have been producing a ridiculous amount of content these past 6 months on their youtube channel, so it can be a bit overwhelming/daunting, but I really recommend this channel)

Learn Korean with GO! Billy Korean (a lot of grammar lessons, as well as general advice and reccomendations for studying, videos about culture. Has a livestream every sunday where he does an indepth lesson on a grammar subject. Splits everything into beginner, intermediate and advanced learners. Has a new series of videos for beginners. Also practice videos for intermediate and advanced learners)

K-waterbottle (not really a language resource as such, but he explains korean memes)

There are a lot more channels out there, Billy Go has two videos recommending other youtube channels. But I haven’t gotten around to checking them out.

Favorite youtube channels (other):

영국남자 Korean Englishman/Jolly (In theory they could I guess be used as a language resource since they have subtitles that are both in English and Korean. But mostly, they are entertainment. English guys introducing Korean food and culture, also Ollie is trying to learn Korean, and that is frequently hilarious. They are super funny and I adore their channels.

Some South Korean vloggers I follow to:

planD플랜디

Mejoo and Cats

냥숲nyangsoop

댕은Daengeun

수린 suzlnne

이욜 eyol

하루한끼 one meal a day

Favorite variety shows:

The Great Escape (Three seasons of a group of Korean celebrities taking on the most ambitious elaborate escape “rooms” you’ll ever see. The budget for this show must be astronomical. Its one of my comfort shows actually, I love this show. Its funny and delightful)

New Journey to the West (My most favorite variety show. I love and adore it! Group of Korean celebrities, dress up, travel to places [though for the most recent seasons been confined to Korea for various reasons] and play games. Its a heartwarming as well as funny show, and the castmembers feel like they are family. Some of them have actually worked together for almost 20 years, including the producer, so they really do have a familiarity with each other, but even the newer kids are welcomed in the family). It also has spin-offs!

Kang’s Kitchen (The cast get to run a restaurant, with all the ups and down. It’s a bit more serious as they really do focus more on doing their best instead of being funny, but they still do manage to be funny, no the least because of the ways they mess up. Its actually even more heartwarming and a comfort show for me)

Various shorter spin-offs, featuring different pairings of the cast on their youtube channel 

(one of the writers on NJTTW is also a writer on the drama Hospital Playlist, so there are also videos related to that show on this youtube channel, but I haven’t watched that drama so idk much about them) 

I Can See Your Voice (Okay, so the synopsis of this is a bit... iffy I know. But the actual show actually manages to be geniunely uplifting at times, despite it. The general idea is that, celebrity guest, along with an expert panel have to guess who in a line-up of complete strangers, are the tone deaf and the talented singers. And everyone in the line-up then gets to perform. And I know it sounds like its just a set-up to laugh at the people who can’t sing. But all of the tone deaf performers just seem so game for it and getting to perform on stage on TV must be a powerful incentive. I started out just watching it for specific guests, but then the last two-three seasons I watched all episodes regardless of guests, because of the interviews with the people participating, its very refreshing after mainly idol/celebrity focused things I’ve watched, to listen to ordinary people and their stories)

Favorite K-drama:

(disclaimer: I have a bad habit of starting to watch a drama and then quitting before I’ve watched all episodes. But I do have a few I finished!)

Memorist (I finished this one recently. Crime drama with a lot of twists [some more expected than others] I appreciated it for its focus on plot and not really having a explicit romance angle since I wanted to watch something for the mystery. Anyway it was really quite good and entertaining)

Because This Is My First Life (I love love love loved this drama! A romance I could really get invested in)

It’s Okay That’s Love (You ever watch a kdrama that deals with mental ilness in a way that isn’t wildly offensive? This one is actually pretty good)

Moonlight Drawn by Clouds (I love this drama. Or do I love the way this drama played out in my head more? Tricky question. It’s a great drama either way [though the one in my head is slightly better].)

Favorite Korean Movies:

Masquerade (2012)

The Good, The Bad, The Weird (2008)

Jeon Woochi The Taoist Wizard (2009)

Parasite (2019)

Spellbound (2011)

The Handmaiden (2016)

The Man From Nowhere (2010)

The War of Arrows (2011)

The Grand Heist (2012)

The Merciless (2017)

Train To Busan (2016)

#Alive (2020)

Assassination (2015)

Secretly Greatly (2013)

The King and The Clown (2005)

Favorite Korean Music:

(I will not link to youtube music videos because then we’ll be here for an eternity and this will never get done. But I will list some songs) I got into kpop/kvariety all of this two years ago, but I was for some reason mostly drawn to groups that had been around for some time.

Groups

Block B (Don’t Leave, Yesterday, One Way, A Few Years Later, Toy, Her, Jackpot, Very Good, Movie’s Over, Be the Light, Romantically, Mental Breaker, Walkin’ In The Rain, Like This)

Winner (Millions, Ah Yeah, Remember, Well, Raining, Movie Star, We Were, For, Air, Fool, Love me Love me, Island, Really Really, Immature, Baby Baby, Don’t Flirt, Color Ring)

Sechskies (Road Fighter, pom saeng pom sa, Come to Me Baby, Couple, Yegam, Heartbreak [original and remastered versions], Reckless Love, Round & Round, Something Special, Smile, Backhug, Drinking Problem, Be Well, Vertigo, It's Been A While, Sad Song, Three Words)

Super Junior (Make You Smile, Ahora Te Puedes Marchar [okay so neither of those two is in Korean, but I love them!], Animals, One More Time, I Do, This is Love, Stars Appear, Islands, Evanesce, Bonamana, One More Chance,)

Buzz (Thorn, Tree, Coward, My Love, Don’t know Men, The Love, The First Summer in 8 years, Just One, Travel to Me)

Dreamcatcher (Chase Me, Good Night, Fly High, You and I, What, Deja Vu, Scream, R.o.S.E BLUE, Boca)

Speed [Sadly disbanded before I even found them, but I spent like a week obsessively watching every youtube video of them performing Don’t Tease Me. And after listening to some more of their songs I found I liked them] (Don’t Tease Me, Pain the love of heart, One Day, It's Over, That's My Fault, Luv Ya, Never Say Goodbye, Why I'm Not)

Miss A [sadly also disbanded before I found out about them] (Hush, Bad Girl Good Girl, Only You, Good-bye Baby, I Don't Need a Man, Breathe)

Solo

Park Kyung (of Block B. He has like 10 solo songs, I love them all and are by far my most played songs. So I could list all of them, or just leave it at this)

Kassy/케이시 (Listen to This Song[seriously, do listen to it, its so comforting], True Song, Tock Tock, The Day Was Beautiful, Story of Nightfall, When Love Comes By, Let it Rain)

Eun Jiwon (of Sechskies [and many variety shows]) (I'm On Fire, Hooligan, Same, Hate, Worthless, Trauma, 8t Truck, Never Ever, Adios, While Buzzed/Fuddled)

Bonus (random songs I like)

Park Hyoshin - Wild Flower

Park Hyoshin - Snow Flower

Sejeong - Flower Way

Twice - What Is Love?

Crayon Pop - Bing Bing

Vixx - Error

Zico - Human

Zico - The Language of Flowers

Zico - Being Left

Zico - Balloon

Wonder Girls - Why So Lonely

Wonder Girls - Nobody

Seventeen - Clap

BTOB - Way Back Home

g.o.d - The Story of Our Lives

g.o.d - A Funny But Sad Day

Gaho - Start

Lee Hi - Breathe

Urban Zakapa - I don't Love You

IU - Love Poem

Crush - Beautiful

Ailee - I Will Go To You Like The First Snow

J-Walk - Frappuccino

Melomance - Gift

I could probably spend another week or two adding songs to this list, so lets cut it short now.

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So lets start off with in the ends it is all completely and utterly my own fault.I should have been able to see the signs. I should have been a better person, friend, fiance, man, and most importantly a dad.

Where do I even begin?

I felt like I worked so hard for my family I was creating in my own way, making money in my own way. Got a house with the beautiful mother of my little boy, things were good for awhile, than rough, than covid, than bad. But before that we lived in an apartment, and the things i was doing and the substances (alcohol and adderal) were my coping mech. I would stay up for days, not eat, constantly trying to make every dollar I could to make sure we had a place to live freely. ( we both grew up in not so good broken homes). She made little mistakes one that completely don’t matter and are way overlooked, love her with all my heart. 

but the drugs and alcohol started getting to me, i became irritable constantly, never wanted to leave, hated everyone. I was always mad, always needed my way. Than I cheated once and thank god that she took me back even after that. Honestly she did a ton and most of all the work. She is one of the most dedicated and hard working woman/mothers I have ever come acrossed. She never stops making sure our son has everything he needs plus more, working constant hours at terrible jobs, sometimes with terrible people. I didnt see the stress it was putting on her, the constant cries for just down time for herself, or her need to want to go out and do things. I held her inside and caged away. ( not literally lol) I really should have been showing her off and paying for her countless nights to go out and have fun with her friends because honestly she fucking deserves and deserved it. I couldn’t be any happier that, that woman is the mother to OUR beautiful little boy. After my first few mistakes I just started tumbling downhill. Never stopped making them. I am so fucking sorry and truly dislike the person i became over all of it. After all that we had our son, and we put down a down payment on a home. We moved in things were good for awhile, than rough because of my laziness and lack of will to do anything ever. It was a mixture of that but also a mix of me actually being comfortable where I was at for once in my life. I finally had a place I could call a home, I FINALLY HAD A REAL family I could call my own. So i just got more lazy, I just began to lackadiscally relax all the time and do nothing, didn’t help unpack, barely got stuff done around the house. The stress built on her alot, and I saw it. She wanted me to get a job, a real job. So I would be a man. And I agree with her, I was not a man, and honestly probably still not, but I am trying to be for our son. I wish her too but I know I lost that part of me. She would come home and just want to relax, but would have to cook and take care of our son. She needed time alone but also out, and I never gave her either. Im so dumb for alot of things, but honestly losing her has to be by far the dumbest thing I could have done besides trying to take my own life after the fact. I wish we could have fixed it, I wish we could have communicated better. We both have mental issues, more me than her by far, and hers were probably caused by me in the end. But we got super bad right around christmas time, real bad, i was basically staying upstairs in my gaming room, my clothes were in the dressers anymore, they were up there. But like two weeks prior of one of the worst days of my life, things started to seem almost better. We were getting along again, I was seeing a smile in her face that I haven’t seen in so long. I feel so deeply, and honestly from the start of our relationship/ friendship her smile has always been my most fav thing about her. She even came an said to me “ why don’t you put your clothes back in the dresser, you have a family here, and we love you” because we got into an agruement over me being constantly needy and clingy. I was begging for her attentions for months but I didnt realize she didnt want to give it to me because I wasnt a man but I also was just ruining her along the way.  So that night I didn’t move my clothes becasue it was late, but I got off the couch went downstairs and got into bed with my beautiful family. A week or two passes. I could tell she was being a little off. and at night one night she looks over to our son while were all in bed together and says I think daddy and I are better just as friends. Right away I teared up and began to cry because im so broken down at this point but purely because of my own causes. She says to me “ what you dont like the sounds of beings just friends” I said no, I love you, and so much more. She didn’t want to hear it, she didnt want to give me an ultimatum, or tell me what I had to work on. But she was in the complete right by far. So I eventually get quiet roll over and fall asleep crying. the next early morning I wake up to her flustered trying to pee. Our son wakes up so easily, so immediatley he gets up and follows her to the bathroom, its probably 630 am so Im dead asleep. I wake up and go right to the bathroom and she yells at me because she can’t go pee alone ever. In no mean tone or nothing I just said baby wake me up and Ill grab him for you anytime, and immediatley it started a fight because of the lurking thing from the night before. She said that we were toxic, that if we continued to be together now and longer that we couldn’t fix it and that we would always stay toxic. Clearly I didnt agree with that, begged and pleaded. It turned into the most heated agruement I have probably ever been in with some I have loved. I regret everything rotten and mean thing I said in my angry judgement. I didn’t mean any of it. I love every part of that woman, still even after all the things that have happened. and that she has maybe or maybe not done. But I was kicked out that day with nothing but my computer, xbox, wallet, monitor, and a handful of clothes. That is the day I LOST EVERYTHING my entire world. My entire dream, everything I began to strive but also wanted in my life. A home, a family, a beautiful wife, mother, and children. I went into a complete and utter psychotic break and was nuts. still am. I made her life hell, I scared her, I threatened her with taking our son away from her. So many things I did not mean but I would never do. Our son needs both of us, but most imnportantly he needs his mother. She worked and works so hard for him day in and day out and takes such good care of him. Sorry I needed to let it out somewhere, everyone near just says go fuck someone go do this. BUT NONE OF THAT is going to make me feel better, none of that is going to bring back my family, none of that is going to even help progress, if anything it would make things worse. So I sit and I remain forever loyal to who I would love to call my fiance still.  But where I wanted to get at is WHAT the actual FUCK do you do when you lose EVERYTHING.She was my bestfriend, my everything, honestly probably the only reason geniune person I had in my life for a really long time so It was even worse, I had noone to turn to. No where to go. Noone wanted me . Noone wants me. I was just angry bringing everyone down around me after. Constantly drinking and just being stupid. Im really trying to get a better handle on things now though for my son. What kills me the most is before we had Wesser bean, she got preg before and had a miscarrage. Which kills both of us mentally, but more her than anything. That is her body, and that beautiful child was growing inside of her. We weren’t going to try again for the sake of our sanities after that. But on some of our long talking nights with one another we agreed that we wanted to try again, we wanted a family. But we promised to each other that we would never NO matter what let our children grow up like we did. In a broken home, a broken family. I want my son to be able to wake up next to his mother and father every living day and be able to enjoy all his little ups and downs. But I ruined that. I caused everything, I am the reason I lost everything. I am still so utterly confused and dont know where to go or what to do. My mind is always worrying about those two because they arent in arms reach and I cant be there quick enough. I still worry about her a ton even though everyone tells me I shouldn’t but that was my best freaking friend from almost the instant she curved me the first time. Thats the woman I loved, the woman I wanted to marry, the one I called fiance, but most importantly the mother to our child. So I will never stop worrying, or caring about it. I wish I had anyone, anyone that wouldn’t just push me off, or just give me some petty advice to go do some petty stuff like its going to slap her in the face? No becauses it not, she doesn’t love the piece of poop I am, nothing is going to slap her beautiful face. I would give anything to go back, fix some mistake, and be a man for them. Honestly I over think, thats my biggest issue. I love this girl to death, and I know im not adequate and she hasn’t had time to have fun or do the things she wanted too. But no matter what she has done, said, did, or didn’t do I would probably still take it like a grain of salt and do anything to immediately be back in her home, what I used to call home with them. To be a man, to be better. To be a dad. To be everything. Her and my son are my only lights, without them I just see darkness and it consumes me and just makes me want to do nothing, but it should burn a fire in me. I want them near by, cheering me on, but also helping me steer back onto the right path when im going astray. Its been three months now since I have been home, Since I have been able to sleep next to my son and wake up to his little smiling face. To be able to feel the warmth and hear my best friends voice on a daily basis. Shit three months since I have even slept on a mattress. about 2 months ago I took a estimated count of 32-45 pills of multiple different varieties. From pain killers, to adderal, to anti depressants, and sleeping pills. All one big mix. Got stupid drunk on top of it and tried taking my own life. I went to go lay down finally about an hour after I finished all the pills because I didnt feel well. The second my head hit the pillow I started throwing up really bad. I could not stop, I could not breathe. And the whole time All I could see Is my sons face. crying. not knowing where I went, What happened. Or why I was such a coward I would do that. about 5 minutes into me hurling I started to really not be able to breathe, I almost couldn’t choke the words out from the back of the trailer, I screamed as hard as I could from an ambulance. My mom came running in and looked at me and asked seriously If i needed it or not. I looked back and told her I would die if she didn’t. She called, I ended up waking up 3-6 hours later in a hospital bed completely and utterly confused but so fucking ashamed. They had a therapist or someone in there waiting for me to wake up, I guess I said somethings in my delusions of substance. But about after 15 minutes of talking to him and him seeing my sit. He looked at me told me they pumped my stom, and that If I didnt make that call My son wouldn’t have a father. Hearing him say that still kills me. I messed up big that time. they released me within 25 minutes of waking me up. no shoes, no shirts, puke covered pants, no cell phone at 630 am. What a wonderful hospital right? Try to take my life and they save it, but let me go just like I was nothing. I got to a near by store called for a ride and waited. Showed up home at my moms more ashamed and more sad because of yet another terrible choice I made. Tonight is the first night aubs have let me have our son alone for a time period. And for a solid 15 minutes I Couldn’t stop but also wanting to apologize so much to my son. He just came up to me gave me a big wesser hug, layed on me, and let me sing to him for 30 mins just like mummy used to do so he could fall asleep.  I never felt a love like I do for my boy, loving a human like aubrey is wonderful and beyond one of a kind, but loving your child and their love back is something words alone cannot describe. I can’t ever be so sorry that I ever tried that, that I ever would do that to my son. He deserves so much better. I am slowly trying tho too. Not alot of people know because noone cares and I just want to be alone but I scraped together the last remainder of any cash or any value I had left and got 4k. Didn’t sell our wedding ring or anything for that money. (its worth is 4.2-5.5k) I be holding onto that thing like its my life, I constantly catch myself grabbing it and wearing it still like a loser lol.Went and looked at a little trailer today, needs gutted almost, decent amount of work. Guy was asking 4k. with the work it needed I went balls deep said 2, he hit me with 2.5k If the mobile home park accepts my background check hopefully Ill finally have a little place I can lay my head. Its been a rough three months, homeless I would say, couch hopping, place to place. I am done now. I am fed up with myself but with everyone and everything around me. I need to be better for my son, so this is my start and my little way I guess. I have been applying countless places, All I want to do is dive all my time into some form of work/ works and be alone unless my son ( his mother included one could wish) is the company. My bills would be utterly dumb cheap. I just want to work and help her out to provide but keep the beautiful home she chose for her future family. I want to be able to make sure I can reassure her she won’t lose that roof, or that she can go out and eat, or wes can have that toy. She works to damn hard to lose it. It was like a movie too, third house on the realtors listings. We walk through the front door threshold, immediate second she turned around with the smile I fell inlove with and said this is the one. AND BY god when this woman says she wants something or is going to do something, she fucking does it, does it well, sticks it to ya, and does it kick. Immediately she got an offer in and she got her home. I’ll never be able to fix the mistakes and wrongs I did. Never be able to give back all the time and tears and heartache I caused her and her family countless times. But I want to be able to be part of my sons life, to atleast try to atone for the terrible things I did. I want 0 pity by the way. This was soley for me. For me to let stuff out. I will forever love aub snuffalfugus. and of course our beautiful boy Wesley. I would do anything, give anything, forgive and forget anything this second to see her walking up to me holding our little man and say “does daddy wanna come home” or “ dad come home” or “ i think its time dad comes home”. I understand I never will get that chance and by far I never will get that chance. I understand I did this, I created this, and I am the one to blame. I pray to god every night that maybe right now just wasn’t the exact time or what we needed. That he will lead our path back together one day. I see glimmers of hope in dumb things, but thats my over thinking. I love that freaking beautiful furrowed browed woman and our son so much. and with me being gone, I can’t tell if shes struggling, I can’t tell if she cares, I can’t tell if she thinks about us, our old family, or the things that happened. She has such a good poker face, shes so good at holding things in. But she has been glowing, has been looking more beautiful than ever with her hair all curly and down. She is constantly in her phone texting and smiling, and when I say that I in no form care who or about what, I care that the fact that the smile is there and its the real one. She seems happier, healthier, and more together than ever and I hope that its not a front, not that it matters because shes a strong ass mom and she kicked thru it. I love seeing her happy. I love seeing her look good. i absolutely adore the fucking smile. I am trying to come to terms that maybe I wasn’t the right one, That I couldn’t make her happy, but I was placed there to get her through a time , but also for her to have our beautiful son. Now that he has come, she has seen that I wasn’t much of really anything, so she bettered herself. But even if shes not with me, as long as she is safe, our son is safe, they have a warm roof above their heads, and full tummies than I can’t complain. That is what im striving for. To just be able to simplify their lifes but to see her smile again, and I have been seeing it and she rockkkkk that shit. Everytime I see her I get into my feelings, but tonight hit me for some reason. Tonight really had/has me thinking. Forever stay our beautiful little chunk Wesser. I love you both. 

ok done word vommiting, think im ready to cry if off in the shower lmao. 

[plac3h0lder]

Later Chapter Summary (Don't have to post, just review and please give me your honest opinion)

Warning: This chapter summary contains blood, suicide mentions, HIV references, and angst. If you are uncomfortable reading this, it is understandable and I do not want to offend anyone

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On an rainy April evening, Dib is home alone (Dad is working over hours and Gaz is off at Zim’s house since they are dating). He is geniunely happy, watching TV and eating Chinese take out. He then hears the doorbell ringing and he answers it. It is Fox, crying and shaking her head in denial. She then begs Dib “Please tell me you don’t have it”. He is confused and asks what she means. She then tells him that Jessica told her that he has HIV and is angered at him for not telling her in the beginning. He then tries to tell her that Jessica is lying, but Fox screams at him for being dishonest, breaks up with him, and tells him that she hates him (she feels shocked afterwards). 

After Fox leaves, Dib goes upstairs and starts writing a suicide note to his father and sister and other friends. Afterwards, he runs hot water in his bathtub and takes off his coat. He takes out a pair of scissors from his drawers and starts cutting himself with a smile on his face.

When Gaz comes home later on that night, she notices that it’s too quiet and investigates the house. She then goes upstairs and find Dib in his bloody bathtub with open slits from his arms. Her heart drops and she calls an ambulance to come and pick him up. While the ambulance drives Dib to the hospital, Gaz goes to her father’s office and attempts to see him. She blocks off his workers and security and angrily confronts her father about what happened. Professor Membrane brushes the incident off (he doesn’t really like Dib anymore due to him being Bisexual and has once even sent him to conversion camp) and orders for Gaz to leave now. When she does leave, Gaz sees a stone and throws it at a window, screaming that he never cared about her and Dib. She then runs to the hospital with tears running down her face.

The next day, Fox notices that Dib is absent and later on overhears Gaz talking to Zim, Keef, Tak, Gretchen, and Zita that they will visit him at the hospital after school. She then shows up at the hospital with a vase full of roses and asks what happened to Dib. Gaz explains everything to Fox, but then she blames her for making Dib’s last minutes of his life miserable (Spoiler: Don’t worry. He will survive). Fox then tries to tell them that she never meant what she said to Dib, but Gaz shuts her down by saying that she can’t take her words back and that she has done nothing but made their lives more miserable when she came into their lives. Everyone agrees with her (Including Tak and Zita and Keef) and walks away from Fox, looking at her with anger.

Fox then drops the vase of roses and smiles blankly. She walks out of the hospital with the same expression, but when she gets to the isolated part of town (where her base is located at), she deactivates her disguise and goes to the bathroom in tears. She looks at her reflection in disgust and punches the mirror, making her fist bleed. She then gets a baseball bat and starts smashing everything in sight, screaming that she is sorry to Dib. After her meltdown, she packs a bag, gets Snowflake, and burns down the base. She then collapse to the ground in tears, saying that she is sorry for everything and that she wishes to go back and take back everything she has said to him. 

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(A/N: Please forgive my cruddy writing on summaries. I can write stories way better than summaries. So, what is your HONEST opinion?)

//... HONEST opinion? Well.. If you’re asking for my critique, I’ll give it.

I will be going off the actual canon to the show/comics. If i were to go off my blog, that’d be INCREDIBLY WEIRD/CREEPY because there’s a bit of ME in all of my Muses, so I’ll stray from that.

I’m not big on the idea of Dib and or/Fox having a sexual relationship as implied. Considering Dib is still canonly a child, it makes me very uncomfortable. If this is in an older!AU, go ahead, but i still feel... Personally bad about it. But hey, this is just my opinion. I also don’t see Dib being the type of person to be into that stuff whatsoever. (I would highly recommend removing any kind of sexual activity from any story you write/become involved in if you’re a minor. Not my life, not my call, but even so, it’s illegal and i just want the best for you.)

Next. Considering Fox is an Irken, i don’t see why she would be concerned with HIV or any kind of human disease seeing as how Irkens versus humans both have very different illnesses and cures. Not to mention that Irkens canonly don’t have any kind of genitalia, i also don’t really see how any kind of sexual activity could be possible. But, whatever you headcanon, i suppose.

Next. For Dib to give literally everything up because he lost one person seems a little?.. Off. He still has his career, Gaz, entertainment and full life ahead of himself. To be so unbelievably dedicated to one person that he tried to kill himself seems incredibly OOC and just plainly unrealistic and like an unbalanced thing for him to do.

Next. I feel like Professor Membrane would care a lot, a lot more for his children than that considering they’re all he has to give for the future. Without them, he can collapse under his own castle in a matter of seconds. There wouldn’t be hope for the future generations of science, nor would there be anything to look forward too after he gave up his position. Not only this, but the fact that Dib’s bi.. I just don’t feel like he as a father would care? He doesn’t care too much that he’s into the paranormal, he doesn’t try to convert his mind to real science, he just heavily encourages it.

Next. If Dib were to create a relationship with an Irken, call me crazy or ship-delusional, but i feel like if it were remotely ANY IRKEN, it’d be with Zim. Reasons are, they’ve known one another. They literally need one another to be satisfied. This is shown and displayed more than once in both the show and the comic. The other reason is that Dib may have hopes that he could change Zims mind about the earth dominating thing. Even if it’s not a relationship, it could be a friendship. I don’t see him just saying ‘okay I’ll date you’ to some female Irken who just shows up into his life.

Next... The overall story.

Listen, buddy. ..This.. Entire thing.. Is just a mess, i feel?.. Don’t let me discourage you, if you like it you keep writing it, and don’t you DARE let my words get in the way of that. But, for me, it’s.. WAAAY too edgy. I get that angst is a lovely topic and should be appreciated, but, this gives me a vibe that yells ‘I’m trying to be serious and sharp as a razor blade.’

That’s.. Not really a vibe you want your stories to give people. It sounds like all the ‘high tech’ computer gaming gear in the form of an IZ fic. An angst story doesn’t need to include every single tragedy that could ever occur to be angsty or sad. In fact, the simpler, smaller stories are usually the more deepening. I mean... If i wrote both of these on an article title, which would sound more emotional?

‘Kid attempts to runaway eight times after incredible school bullying and parental neglect.’

‘Kid gets abused and neglected after family hears of their eighteen suicide attempts after public embarrassment. Family gets together before the child ends it in front of their entire family at thanksgiving dinner, causing them to blame themselves and each other.’

One seems straight to the point and realistic, other seems over done and jumbled. You don’t need a severely depressing story to make the readers severely depressed. It just kind of makes them sigh, roll their eyes and claim it’s cheesy. When people read angst and sad fics, they just want a snack. And it’s your job to make sure you don’t use too much baking soda.

For you, hun, if you’d like to make this a public story, I’d suggest fixing it up and using a bit of references. There are many mary sue-ish focuses here and there, very unlikely events, everything moves too fast, I’m sorry. But, this is my honest opinion.

However! If you’re writing this for fun, please continue to do as you do! Write for you, don’t let anyone else control that! But.. If you want to make it public, you know...

Just.. Tone down on the baking soda, okay?

[survivormuxloe]

Episode #1 & 2: "so that was fun, and by fun I mean hell" - Ahrre

So I'm so confused right now lol. Like I feel like discord should have a similar format to skype, but maybe I'm just dumb and cant figure it out. Also the only people I know/heard of are on the other tribe which is fun. Hopefully I can set myself up so my lack of understanding Discord doesn't make me look like a liability to the rest of my tribe.

we legit just got into our tribes.. missus sweyn.. LOL. i legit don't know ANYONE!! APART FROM MY BABY RYAN!! LIKE WHO ARE THESE PPL? liek i've heard of rhys and malik from like other orgs but the other people like god.. why can't I just have my circlejerk like in emvv. ): and idk WHO IS EVNE ON THE OTHER TRIBE WHICH MAKES IT WORSE I COUD HAVE LIKE A BUNCH OF RLY STRONG PLAYERS who are gunna win every single immunity challenge.. and i ain't wantin to go premerge nnn. uhm. ya. thats my mood rn. Xo

Oh wow, hi it’s me, Mo. I’m going into this game with an advantage of not having a social life so I can be more active. I like my tribe so far everyone’s really nice. I only know Fabricio because he won the game I got PoTS on. But I think I’m going to withhold that information of him winning his last game because I kinda wanna be allies.

First impressions of my tribe, they’re pretty cute I guess I like people well enough but I’m always nervous about pre existing relationships people may have in other communities so that’ll be fun to manoeuvre around my plan is just to lay low be social and hopefully not stick out as a target

deadass the challenge has barely started and wes already has 2 images.. meanwhile his ass has prob spoke in the tribe chat like once and he aint comin in  my pms anytime soon so. LAMJHNFG . better hope his social game saves him over the physical x

this is my 3rd one already but this is important. linus is the first person to say haha to me. TWO! FUCKING! HA'S!!!!!! JUST SAY LOL!!!! SAY LMAO!!! IDGAF!! Omg this is geniunely my pet peeve and i wanna scream a a a a a  a a a a a  aa

Man, I'm back with Tobi from Survivor Ko Chang and that scares me to death. He claims he wants to start on a clean slate with me and work together again, but I don't trust him one bit and the first opportunity I have to take him out, I'm gonna do it, cuz I can't have somebody like him around. Bad for my game.

On the other hand of the spectrum, I know Michael from Zwooper and we've always had a good relationship so I think that's one person I can fully align with right out of the gate. I've also worked up some social connections with Dani, Jose and Ahrre so far, and they all seem pretty chill for the most part.

Right now, my focus is to win. I'm gonna go hard in this first immunity challenge and rack up as many points as I can. Losing the first challenge always sucks and I wanna make sure that doesn't happen for me again.

Okay im like mad excited to play this game. One Ive been kinda down, and this should help me be able to invest my time into something and potentially help me feel better.

Seeing this cast. I love it. I have really only worked with Felix in a past org before but we havent talked in ages. So I dont have any past connections which feels great because I hate people assuming were working together because were friends?. So this wont happen this season which is great.

So far my tribe is okay. Havent had a chance to speak alot to everyone yet. However the people I have done are alright. So far my favorite person is Scott or Scooty Toots. Hes British as well as me, he's 18 and we're both starting University without a clue what were doing. Like twins?!? So hopefully he feels the same way about me too.

Alliances are key. I want to make a few smaller ones to form a majority for me. Like two allainces of three. Giving me 4 allies. Not sure if this will happen soon or not, but its my goal to take control of this game, as Ive never done it before. I dont want to come across as controling however so smaller groups is the way to do it in my head.

Omfg y'all...... The game started like maybe 16 hours ago and I have barely spoken to most of my tribe bc I was a lil busy last night & had some damage control to handle in EMVV but like..... ??? I already found the idol in the Play Room CTFUUUU. We fucking stan. I immediately told my son Scooty because he's my bae.... I haven't had my hands on an idol in an org since like...... 703 San Marcos when I was voted out w it in my pocket (i think?? i cant remember any others so..) so BEST BELIEVE I'm going to use this correctly. THAT IS MY MAIN MISSION. I'm craving that satisfaction of a successful idol play...... I would love to cross that off my imaginary org goals list..... BUT WHEW I'M PUMPED.

I am making a pact with myself to not be an overly annoying gamebot this season because I just wanna have fun with it and make it a chaotic season, and this lil buddy is gonna allow me to be as extra and messy and turbulent as I please <3 big dick energy

Helloo so here I am doing this org thingy so you're stuck with my thoughts of regret until I die, or you could just not read them that's also an option.

Anyhow god save the queen blabla after more time that it should've taken me I get that I'm in one of two tribes of 9 which is kinda good because with snaller tribes I feel lime everything is more claustrophobic and shit hits the wall the moment we lose a challenge. But with 9 players imo I feel more relaxed.

So summary of who am I stuck with, there are a few who I know from before so let's start with that.

First off Jose, already played an org with him and we were good allies so my first instinct was to call him a bastard and hey he took it well so hopefully it will be a smooth sailing with that lad.

But after Jose I don't expect the meta to be kind to me.

Michael and Mo were both in my last org and I blindsided them both. Tbh they were good allies until that point so I'm more than willing to work with them in this game, hopefully they feel the same way.

But anyhow then there's Felix who I think I technically played with? We meet during a merge and he went out early without us ever talking much so really this is gonna be my first time really playing with him, he's the only one that I haven't talked to yet though I hope he gets online.

Then there's Tobi. I've heard of him and from the get go he strike me as a very straight shoot-y player. Those are always interesting to play with so let's see how that goes.

There's Dani, she seems nice and compared to Tobi she seems more social instead of strategy focused but then again it's been one day and I'm talking out of my ass.

Then there's jaylen who seems nice aswell even if I haven't talked much to him.

And finally David the absolute unit, and I say that bc he instantly started focusing on the challenge, which is a breath of fresh air plus he's Canadian so what's not to like thus far.

Talking about the challenge I get anxiety by just looking at it, scavenger hunts are always hard for me bc I live with people and I want them to remain thinking I am a normal member of society so I always need to be sneaky to do this crap, plus I don't have a car or anything so I have to use public transport if I need to go anywhere.

Apart from that well I would like to set up a 5 man majority alliance just to be safe, my only fear is the ever so feared overplaying-doom. But I feel like someone like tobi would jump on that idea pretty easily so I'll have a chat with him about that idea.

Oh and also look at me I remembered to guess for the idol TWO times in a row. I could die this very same week doesn't matter that's already an improvement on my usual gameplay.

Hi since I’m required to do these once an episode, I’ll use this one to talk about my tribe and maybe a few on the other tribe that I saw were on.

Guacamole - They seem fun. I talked with them last night, but our convo went short because we played jack box together. They seem nice though.

Linus - Mix feelings. I can get a completely loyal Linus here, or a cutthroat linus, so I’m kinda wary right now towards him but the vibes I’m getting I don’t think he’s going to be an issue, atleast for now.

Madison/Madisin - She was also at the jackbox last night and I enjoyed her, she was dying laughing at the games and I thought she was funny. So hopefully I get a chance to talk to her today.

Malik - Who? Let’s not talk about that bitch.

Rhys - He literally waits until we’re in a game to talk to me, so I peep it. And you could say I should reach out to him but it’s annoying when I have and he doesn’t do it until we’re in a game together. Boggles the mind. If I can overcome doing that, so can you. But I enjoy our current coversation as of the moment.

Ryan - We just played Mount Olympus together recently and that was a bust for us both. I’m kind of hoping we can be on the same side since it’s been a while since that’s happened. However, Ryan says he just wants to have fun so I don’t fault him if he does crazy things down the road!!

Scooter - I don’t know about him yet. We haven’t talked at all but he seems interesting. Maybe I can give a better opinion when we talk.

Steven - Very hilarious and I’m also intrigued by him. His thinking and way of talking during the jackbox had me DYING I loved it. I think he’s my new favorite new person here so far.

Wes - I only saw him once but we haven’t talked yet so idk what to say. He said he’s from ndims and is an alias of someone, I just don’t know if I know the alias since I was on that site also. But hopefully it could be someone who knows me as Orlando.

Now for the people I know on the other tribe:

Ahrre - I cant stand him too much after our last season of JPORG. He has this self righteous attitude to him and I don’t like it. However, I warmed up to him a bit during the movie times we had been present for awhile back so hopefully if we see each other again, I won’t have that opinion anymore.

Big Tuna aka Danielle - YASSS I love ha! I know her from the Skype minis and she’s amazing. I hope I finally get to play with her for once in a non mini game ❤️

Felix - Felix is a fucking wildcard. I love him, but he has really pissed me off in games in the past, and I’m hoping this one won’t be like those other ones.

Jaylen - A mess but a friend! He plays how he wants and doesn’t care what people thinks or tweaking it to better it but that’s Jaylen for you! Accept it or don’t phew.

Jose - He’s a fucking snake at times LOL but he’s lovely. I wouldn’t mind too much of being on a tribe with him.

That’s all from me for now so hope I stay around longer to see how this season goes!

so the tea is that this tribe is drier than an old lady's pussy and its so hard to talk to these people... there are no personalities... the only people i feel mildly happy talking to are ahhre and jose... and the tea is that both of them asked to be allies w me im like o ok sis lets do this so i have at least like 2 votes i know abt... and i know david from a prior org but thats not really a good thing bc i fucked him over hardcore and like... he knows im a snake LKJHDFSLK I really don't know how to maneuver strategically with this cast butttt ill try my best hehe

Oh wow!! I can't believe I haven't made a confessional yet what a shocker. BUT HI! I'm kind of just trying to get myself acquainted with everyone in the group, I'm not as active as I'd like to be :C but I'm trying my best teehee. On the first night or so Linus, Malik, Stephen, Madison and I played Jackbox games and it was SUPER LIT and We bonded over that and I'm v happy about thatttt. (ofc I already know madison and I already love her but I haven't talked to her in game yet aklsdjf) I just started talking with Scooty today, or Scooty? I might just call him Scooty, ANYWAY yeah we got to talk about how we type similarly and that was nice, we bonded over that and it was littY. I also got to talk to Rhys!! He also seems like a neat guy - I still haven't talked to him a lot but I think he's cool. I honestly don't know who else is on the tribe, Wes and Ryan right? Wes and I talked a little bit, but barely. and Ryan hasn't talked to me at all lmao. Hopefully right now I've made enough connections though. I'd like to make tribe swap so I can meet more people and make friends lololol - wish me luck gang!

I’m getting along with everyone really well so I know I won’t be the first fine at the very least so I just need to lay low laugh and Kiki with everyone and hopefully I can survive for the long term

I’m doing the Scavenger Hunt and knowing me I decided to wait till the last two hours to do everything I can. So now I have an hour and a half to film a bunch of videos

Okay so talking to my tribe Im begining to feel less at ease with them. Mostly because most of them hardly seem to talk. Which dosent bode well for me. Could mean im on the outs and they dont like me. Or that They're all inactive.

Madison seems like the easy boot right now just because like, who?!?. Shes not been around Ive messaged her once and she left me on read.

So Steven had to leave but we still have to do the challenge as if he was competing which PROBABLY means were going to tribal. So ive been working on getting an allaince going. Ive talked to Malik and Brought the Idea of us forming a trio with someone. Luckly he picked Linus because I talk to him aswell. So fingers crossed we can get that going.

I also have a great feeling from Scooty aka scott. So like Hopefully i can get another trio with him going aswell. So then I will be solid untiill a swap.

I do have a concern that Scott and Ryan are close and Malik and Linus are close. More so that I would be their second choice out of the trio if one is made. However thats not going to effect me I dont think this early. So fingers Crossed.

uhm so!! STEVEN QUIT which im rly sad for two reasons. one for him bc i know he wanted to do well and i hope hes doing ok and i geniunely wish the best for him and the other reason is selfish bc i literally.. planted my seeds on him already? like. all that work for nothin. and now we sitting here actin as if madison aint afk and aint gunna submit nothing..

like its the only reason ive done these dumb videos so that i wont be seen as the weak link if we ever lose again almdlddg.. but uhm hopefully my seeds that are in rhys/jones keep me safe bc if madison gets out here i have ryan/rhys/jones to keep me safe.. so im not gonna be that upset if we lose LOL esp bc ik linus/malik r gunna be scary af later on

hopefully we win tho? so i dont have to deal with this stress? i dont wanna relive louvre where i visitted every single premerge tribal except for 2.. even tho i did well hehe uhm. YAH WE’LL SEE :)

I'm kinda bummed that this last challenge wasn't immunity anymore because we smoked the other tribe, LOL. But at the same time, I'm glad cuz I wouldn't wanna lose the challenge after one of my tribe members quit, that'd just be sad as fuck, LOL.

Also, I feel a good rapport developing further between Danielle and I. I feel like her and I can dominate this game together, but I can't get too ahead of myself here. The first couple of rounds are meant to create social bonds and I feel like I've done a good job of that thus far. Only person I haven't talked to is Jaylen and I'm okay with that, cuz if we lose the immunity challenge, he's most likely the first one to go.

Okay, thankgoodness that the challenge was changed to reward last minuet. Because we wouldve gone to tribal.  Maddison is legit missing. I dont even care if we win or loose this next challenge because she needs to go.

So firstly that reward was weird like woo thanks pretty crown but there’s nothing else so I’m thinking that someone else has the clue and my best bet would be jaylen bc he got the Crown Jewels the most important piece. Overall I’m very nervous for this battleship challenge because in my mind it’s mostly luck based so my fate is really out of my hands.

Well, not much honestly but I'm gonna write a confessional for round 1 and stuff so I don't get a strike

The game is going okay I'm trying not to be aggressive talking to people, but just letting people come to me and make conversation right now honestly I'm trying to play UTR since I think considering madison doesn't exist right now I think I'm able to do that TBH. Hopefully it all works out.

I volunteered to do the battleship challenge thing because I have no life and it looked like no one else was gonna volunteer.

I actually know Linus he played with me in Epic SBB in Hell, so that's nice to not be going in with no connections period.

Sorry this wasn't that long but it's something I guess

If we lose probably another confessional will be writen but right now there isn't much to report

I’m for sure feeling a little bit more nervous now because a lot of this challenge is about being organised and teamwork and we could barely have someone sit out so fingers crossed

Heyo so we won the challenge so that was fun, and by fun I mean hell but hey we've got bragging rights, which is pretty much it since unfortunately Steven was medevaced out of da game so even though the other tribe lost they didn't go to tribal.

A bit annoying knowing you did that for nothing but oh well the other tribe seems to be having a rough time by itself with steven quitting and someone (Madison I think) not submitting anything lol

And I say for nothing bc technically we won reward but it was one of those first come first serve things and I only got seved a jpg image so nothing fancy there...

But at least now the next challenge is something where 8 out of 9 people on the tribe don't have to do anything and you bet your ass after that first challenge I'm gonna be one of the 8. David the unit took it upon himself to carry us to victory so godspeed lad.

However this challenge is pretty luck based so I'm saying fuck that I'm not talking my chances.

Following last confessional I talked to tobi about making an alliance and he was onboard, he proposed to have Jose on it which is great since that was my idea anyways, plus I told dani and she was also on board, and to finish up the hipotetical majority of 5 she said he was cool with Michael.

I haven't talked to him yet and Jose hasn't been online but hopefully we should be fine.

Ngl would like to have an alliance with david and felix too, david bc he seems like a total lad with the challenges and Felix because he later told me he felt the most confortable with me.

But regardless hopefully we won't even have to go to tribal (and if we do at least there are other options for the vote)

For now I shall be the dumb cheerleader of the bunch for a game of battleship.

Ahhh, I feel so bad that I lost the challenge for my tribe. I feel like going into a challenge with the weight of the win or loss stacked against you is huge. But I did come REALLY close and my tribe seems to respect that I almost got us the win. I don't think I'll go anywhere tomorrow for tribal, but you never know.

Yesss we won immunity. I’m happy we could after Steven left. They made our challenge a reward for that and we lost but it’s fine because WE WON immunity phew. And it’s all thanks to Wes. So far to me, Madison is looking the easiest vote off right now because I haven’t talked to her and I haven’t seen her so that’s my view on it. The three I talk to the most on my tribe are Rhys, Linus and Scoots. Then Ryan and Guacamole. Then Wes and finally Madison. I hope this game doesn’t pull a JPORG Fitzroy Island, I don’t wanna be screwed over by a random ass tribe swap. But I basically dig my tribe and hope that I won’t be the first to go.

Whew we won?! What. I thought we were gonna fuckin loose. Noah fence Wes.

Sad tings though because Madison is probably going to strike out. Oh well.

Ya boi still hasn’t gone to tribal so stay mad.

It’s fucking gross having to go to tribal council and I can’t be dealing but I seem to have found myself in two alliances with only dani connecting the two so I’m gonna work with dani to ride this middle ground and make it further

I’m going home omfg. I can’t really have a deep convo with anyone, which means I don’t have an alliance even though I’m sure one has been made ugh. I’m gonna focus on surviving this round then seeing what I can get set up next round. Wish me luck whew

I’m pissed because it’s super obvious that the other 7 on my tribe are in a mega tight alliance. Steven was my only alliance in this hole game, and like, he even told me he found an idol and then on his way out he didn’t even slip me the idol??? Can’t wait to be voted out 7-1 because he wanted a souvenir.

So the tea is that ahrre and I made an alliance of 5 which includes him, me, Jose, Dani, and Michael which I think is cute but they are really boring so meh idk I’ll just flip during merge x JDJSJD I’m a messy bitch

ugh i'm so glad we won immunity bc our tribe is already severely lacking in strong members bc Steven left us out to perish and Madison aint shown her face yet... so the numbers getting back to even is great for us <3

Right so unfortunately we lost the battleship game so that means we're heading to the first tribal of the game, fun stuff.

Now as we lost I got the Me-michael-jose-dani-tobi alliance set up. Meanwhile Felix was telling me that for him it was between Jose or Jaylen, since they've been the least active. Understandable but more understandable is that I'm in an alliance with Jose so for me it seems like it's gonna be Jaylen, who I also haven't spoken much with so I don't mind, albeit every tribal we go to before swapping or merging I see it as a potential ally down the line going home, which shucks.

Either way the alliance (and everyone else for that matter) agreed on jaylen, I also told Jose in kind words to get his shit together before he gets sent home but that's pretty much it. I'm gonna try to lay down for now I don't want to bring any unwanted attention to myself.

Hopefully tribal goes well.

Oh wow hi it’s me, Mo. Ok so currently the plan is to vote out Jaylen which I don’t have a problem with, it’s kinda sad because he is actually really nice but somewhat inactive. I’m on my way to get a burger and fries and I’m fucking ecstatic like I’m so fucking hungry it’s stupid. Also watch me get blindsided.

So we went into this chalenge on a high after wining the reward and I was the one who got the most points out of everyone :))). Although I’m nervous this will put a target on my back, I’m happy that I have kind of proven my dominance in this game! After losing the challenge, I’m upset!! This was all luck based which sucks! After that, I started talking more with Felix, David, Michael and Ahree. Within the span of like 30 minutes, I got added to 2 seperate groups. I was like “iiii” because this can get messy fast. Michael is in both of the groups as well so I don’t feel too bad because at least there is someone else in my position as well. I get along with Felix a lot and have had quite a few good convos with him! David seems to want to lead things in the group he made, which is whatever. Keeps the target off of me, especially if we go to tribal again. I expect to make more confessionals throughout the course of the game, usually videos but I’m pretty tired right now haha.

I just took a nap and there's no tribal and I'm always trying my best. My tribe doesn't hate me for some reason even though I sure would. Oh well. I really miss Steven I hope he's okay.

Steven quit half way through this episode. Then Jaylen was voted out 8-1. 

[bigbrotherjohto-blog]

Here are Julia’s Diary Room Sessions!

[11/18/16, 10:00:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) WHAT ARE YOUR INITIAL IMPRESSIONS OF THE OTHER HOUSEGUESTS? (Sun) [11/18/16, 10:01:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: give me a minute hoe I'm working on it [11/18/16, 10:01:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (sun) [11/18/16, 10:01:48 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: good. [11/18/16, 10:03:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I have so many chats and I'm so confused so my biggest fear currently is sending something in the wrong chat [11/18/16, 10:06:01 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok where is Matthias from [11/18/16, 10:06:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: their accent is so cute [11/18/16, 10:06:13 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: malta! [11/18/16, 10:06:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: fuck me up [11/18/16, 10:07:59 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: julia a straight all of a sudden [11/18/16, 10:10:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: why am I not allowed to appreciate an accent [11/18/16, 10:10:48 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: idk [11/18/16, 10:30:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: this is my dr right [11/18/16, 10:30:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i- [11/18/16, 10:30:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: okay, so seeing from this cast, theres a LOT of people who know how i play, which is so scary and theres so many people who know each other so that's v intimidating but i also know a lot of ppl so i think ill be alright.

so my thoughts on the houseguests: aly: so i already LOVE her and shes so sweet and hopefully she'll want to work with me and i want her to go far into the game. i geniunely hope we form some type of bond and become pals ari: i dont know her at all but i know shes friends with connor so i think if she wins hoh for the evil side i think i'll be okay. she kinda seems like a uwu type of person but hopefully i can talk to her about how much of a fan of kpop i am!! hehe bridgette: i love her and i know shes going to be out early. she has such a loud mouth and will probably create so much discourse, which is good for me. im pretty sure im already on good terms with her and i will try to remain on good terms with her carson: idk ive seen him in vls and i dont think hes typed in the housechat or added me on skype yet, hes named after a cat so i think hes ok christian: i LOVE her and i know she is someone i can trust 98% (not 100 hehe) and i really hope we both go far in the game, but in all honesty, if we're seen as a duo, she'll be more likely to be targeted first just because of her personality (not trying to be mean, shes just very outspoken) so that's pretty good connor: i know hes a snake and i know hes good at games, but id rather be on his good side than bad, hopefully we can work together and he can build trust with me, but i aint trusting him jacob: he knows how i play this game and i think he'll want to work with me. i definitely see him trying to backstab me once we hit jury but as for now, i think we're good and i kinda hope hes out prejury jay: dont know who he is, but i know he hosts survivor and maybe i become friends with him but really, idk, if i had to predict who's going to be first boot, it'll probably be him uwu julia: fish smoking a cigarette in a chicken justin: he lowkey seems problematic but i'll play nice and try to be friends w him uwu kaitlyn: i love her and i really hope we can continue to work together, since in sbb3 i never betrayed her trust and i was rly loyal to her towards the end. BUT she knows im lowkey a snake and willing to sellout my allies (hehe), she's very good at this game and its either im rooting for her to win or be out prejury kaleigh: LOVE HER SO MUCH but i PRAYING she doesnt play messy and plays smart bc i NEED her in the game, shes someone who will feel too bad to get me out, so i need her in this game to go far with me, love her matthias: from what i heard from dw2, they're a SNAKE and NEEDS to be out early bc i dont trust mike: so he exposed connor and ari being irl friends, which means hes against connor and all of them, but hopefully i can work with him and we can be chill and stuff randy: i need him out ASAP, he is such a snake. from seeing how he plays in eggplant, he is a CRACKEDT ASS BITCH (idk if thats revealing too much uwu oops). rhea: shes so sweet and shes in eggplant so i think we can bond that way. hopefully we can become rly close ruthie: i dont think she added me back as a contact yet but she seems alright idk! slade: idk he seems cute, its either he is rly cute and sweet or a SNAKE so im hoping for cute bc maybe we can become pals [11/18/16, 10:30:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [11/18/16, 10:30:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i didn't proof read so sorry if theres typos! [11/18/16, 10:31:06 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: iconic [11/18/16, 10:32:12 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: love [11/18/16, 10:35:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Bridgette making fat jokes when ari's in the call uwu [11/18/16, 10:36:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm going to be using this to take notes i can have later on uwu [11/19/16, 12:11:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: the good chat is so nice and pure [11/19/16, 12:11:32 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: idk why ur in it [11/19/16, 12:12:21 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i'm such a good person [11/19/16, 12:26:14 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: call her OUT [11/19/16, 12:26:50 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: y'all made me look not as white [11/19/16, 12:27:01 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i! need! to! be! whiter! [11/19/16, 12:28:48 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: bleach ur skin [11/19/16, 12:28:53 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :o [11/19/16, 12:29:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [11/19/16, 12:29:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: u right [11/19/16, 12:50:03 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: question [11/19/16, 12:50:15 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: are we allowed to delete/edit messages [11/19/16, 12:50:21 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: or is this some sbb shit [11/19/16, 12:50:22 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [11/19/16, 12:50:30 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: you can delete and edit! [11/19/16, 12:50:34 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: love u [11/19/16, 12:50:43 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: we aren’t that demonic [11/19/16, 12:50:54 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (inlove) [11/19/16, 12:52:41 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok me when there's multiple carsons since when [11/19/16, 12:52:49 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: this isn't the carson i know that's awk [11/19/16, 12:52:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: or,,, is it [11/19/16, 12:53:15 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: eyes emoji [11/19/16, 12:53:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: the only carson i know is carson the cat [11/19/16, 1:05:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: note to self: don't trust anyone on the bad team bc they're on the bad team for a REASON [11/19/16, 1:06:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (sun) [11/19/16, 2:38:22 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: free carson the cat he's in danger [11/19/16, 3:03:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i was half asleep and then i thought of something and need to make dr [11/19/16, 3:04:17 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/19/16, 3:09:49 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so i just realized that all the people on the evil side are ones who most likely always get far in games, even if they are loud and obnoxious n shit, i can name a bunch of different games (except ari bc don't know her) where every member of the evil team made it far. the good team are usual prejury type of people ngl, half of them i haven't spoke to yet and i'm pretty sure they haven't said ANYTHING. so as of now i really need to align with the evil side because i know for a FACT that all of them are good at this game. honestly the good team are types of people where i could just be nice to them and talk to them and they'll want to keep me around. honestly this twist is v clever and i hope i can make it far. tomorrow i'm going to chat with every to make sure i'm on their good side, even ppl on my team just in case of dpov. i also need to be sneaky not make it look like i'm playing the whole house, i need to make it look more like i'm trying to have fun and meet ppl rather than talk game. make sense? probably not my eyes r half closed [11/19/16, 3:10:06 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can't wait to read that tomorrow and be like wow what type of drugs was i on [11/19/16, 3:13:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i've never played this hard in a game i always kinda let everything just happen but this time around i don't have my buddy zach to be my meat-shield, so i need to be more cautious and smart ig?? [11/19/16, 3:14:18 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i've already been playing stupid and i'm so blessed i'm on the good team bc it just fits into my "dumb, native, nice child" character so im ready [11/19/16, 3:14:29 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: y'all i'm crackedt and it's only day 1 [11/19/16, 3:15:46 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can't wait to be prejury and then have everyone see my drs and be like wow she fucked up [11/19/16, 3:16:06 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: or make it rly far and have everyone see my drs and be like wow she's a genius [11/19/16, 3:16:11 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok gn i'm done [11/19/16, 3:16:26 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/19/16, 3:16:55 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: (turkey) [11/19/16, 3:18:50 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/19/16, 3:18:55 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: gn <3 [11/19/16, 3:27:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: question: so the overthrown hoh still gets to compete in the following hoh right [11/19/16, 3:28:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [11/19/16, 3:28:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ty [11/19/16, 4:45:34 PM] zach: zach joined the conversation [11/19/16, 4:45:51 PM] zach: Image [11/19/16, 4:46:06 PM] zach: can i be here please julia said she makes diaries and she doesn't want to read them out loud but she's ok w me reading them and pls i won't do anything hehe [11/19/16, 4:51:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: pls [11/19/16, 4:51:16 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hes my emotional support [11/19/16, 4:54:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: I miss being in the vl with nicole, nicolas, and zach uwu [11/19/16, 4:54:24 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/19/16, 4:54:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: that pic is included in the vl dr^ [11/19/16, 5:08:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/365dcac45da9a97237ee2a1db9f7f62a [11/19/16, 5:55:45 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ya he can be here (sun) [11/19/16, 5:55:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: he’s just a goofball! [11/19/16, 5:56:09 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yes ty love u [11/19/16, 6:07:07 PM] zach: hehe [11/19/16, 6:07:33 PM] zach: This message has been removed. [11/19/16, 6:08:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :O [11/19/16, 6:09:16 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: um i was asleep [11/19/16, 6:09:30 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: keep exposing me u freak!! [11/19/16, 6:10:09 PM] zach: nicholas... me? expose? i just don't think theres a correlation [11/19/16, 6:26:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am a bisexual Cuban American woman & so proud [11/19/16, 6:27:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: good [11/19/16, 6:43:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/eb0c4f19b1f8b6e0e695676f3639da74 [11/19/16, 6:51:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ty [11/19/16, 7:50:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: update dr: I really like ari and ruthie, theyre both so cute and nice [11/19/16, 7:51:03 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 📝👀 [11/19/16, 7:51:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i cant wait to make an all girls alliance and have an all female f9 [11/19/16, 8:29:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [11/19/16, 8:29:20 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/19/16, 9:26:17 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun)  HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT JUSTIN AND MIKE WINNING HOH? (sun) [11/19/16, 9:26:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dead [11/19/16, 9:27:05 PM] zach: i hope one of them pulls a nicole and leaves on their original hoh week [11/20/16, 1:50:24 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [11/20/16, 1:50:30 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/20/16, 1:51:58 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my god [11/20/16, 1:52:02 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: what is the context [11/20/16, 1:52:26 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: valentines day card [11/20/16, 1:52:31 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/20/16, 1:52:36 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yes [11/20/16, 3:19:14 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i was going to call slade cute bc i thought he was gay but now,,,, [11/20/16, 3:19:17 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: glad i didn't [11/20/16, 3:19:24 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: whew [11/20/16, 3:19:25 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: awkies [11/20/16, 3:19:25 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: jrewlkafjda [11/20/16, 3:19:32 AM] zach: sjakajsjsj [11/20/16, 3:19:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: http://officetan.com/wp-content/uploads/2015/05/hawkward.jpg [11/20/16, 3:19:47 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i forgot zach was in here [11/20/16, 3:19:55 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/20/16, 3:19:56 AM] zach: i cant believe im being warroomed in [11/20/16, 3:20:06 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: FJDSKALFJDSAKL HAWKWARD [11/20/16, 3:20:07 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: FUCK [11/20/16, 3:05:59 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so i dont really care about justin winning hoh for the good side because i dont care if he gets dethroned tbh. if he nominates kaleigh ill kinda be upset but if she and kaitlyn are on the block when veto comes, its two less people i have to worry about winning veto and putting me up, so it's kinda bittersweet. but mike winning hoh, i dont know how to feel. he's the only person on the evil side i didnt know at ALL coming into the game. but, hopefully my GREAT;)) social skills. i think i'm good with him and we talked a bunch. i did okay in the hoh comp and also i am always active and i was told he's going after the flops in the comp and the inactives. so god bless!! [11/20/16, 4:54:52 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: FOLLOW MY FINSTA !!!! @jewliagay [11/20/16, 5:50:25 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: I think I'm nominated and I cant wait to be first boot [11/20/16, 5:50:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [11/20/16, 5:55:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: http://66.media.tumblr.com/3b900c0a08620f253cc423f3cc44f8f5/tumblr_nqkx4piB5S1us9822o1_500.jpg me trying to find 1 ounce of feminism in johto [11/20/16, 6:03:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: I'm not nominated but I'm so upset [11/20/16, 6:03:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: don't worry I WILL play in veto and I WILL win and I WILL nom a boy [11/20/16, 6:13:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: a girl wont go home first, know THAT [11/20/16, 6:18:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: cant wait for this to be me on wednesday [11/20/16, 6:18:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/20/16, 6:19:53 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: FUCK [11/20/16, 8:18:09 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: day 3 and already in 3 alliances? I love jesus [11/20/16, 8:18:13 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [11/21/16, 8:04:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [11/21/16, 8:04:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/21/16, 8:04:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me trying to find out if jacob is using the veto [11/21/16, 8:05:14 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my gOD STOP [11/21/16, 8:06:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: phew I'm so happy Jacob won the veto bc he was the ONE person I knew that wouldn't renom me. but if he does u KNOW SHITS GOING TO GO DOWN [11/21/16, 8:06:45 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but as of now I'm NOT GOING TO BE FIRST BOOT WOO!! [11/21/16, 8:13:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i really hope that jacob takes down a girl and puts up a MAN [11/21/16, 8:14:13 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: joey is shook [11/21/16, 8:14:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: im joey but better [11/21/16, 8:16:06 PM] zach: julia are? not going home first?

joey should take notes [11/21/16, 8:17:13 PM] zach: JULIA THAT PICTURE AND JACBO USING VETO FUCASNFJASKNGFSA I'm giggling hehe sorry ill (ttm) [11/21/16, 8:17:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP AHHHH [11/21/16, 8:23:04 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/21/16, 8:23:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: SDMKFKSMDF [11/21/16, 8:23:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: joey who [11/21/16, 8:32:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT JACOB WINNING DPOV? (sun) [11/21/16, 8:33:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm SO happy. he was the person I was hoping for the most to win it. he was really upset with this meninist hoh so hopefully he takes someone down and puts up a boy (even if it is on my team hehe) [11/21/16, 8:34:42 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: queen [11/21/16, 8:35:00 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: http://cdn.bigbrothernetwork.com/wp-content/uploads/2014/07/bb16-joey-diary-room-00.jpg [11/21/16, 8:35:03 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: you rn [11/21/16, 8:35:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: THAT IS ME [11/21/16, 8:35:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: make that a vl dr [11/21/16, 8:58:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/a0e07c509a33b371c3836ec58c8a5e1e [11/21/16, 8:58:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my messages with jacob [11/21/16, 8:59:15 PM] zach: ASFJAFCKC [11/21/16, 9:00:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: omg can i send that to the VL [11/21/16, 9:00:29 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: lksdmlkfs [11/21/16, 9:00:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: im cRYING [11/21/16, 9:01:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: YES [11/21/16, 9:01:10 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: SEND IT [11/21/16, 9:44:00 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [11/21/16, 9:44:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: how does this make u feel [11/21/16, 9:44:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 1:52:30 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so I know ive been a lot more messier than I planned to be, but I think its working out for me. I'm pretty sure if any girls win from the evil side win hoh or dpov they wont nom me. I'm pretty social with all of them and we get along pretty nicely. from what ive heard, I think the evil side is targeting justin, which I'm happy about. I like justin as a person but hes a meninist and I don't want that around me. hopefully for the next couple of weeks or so, I can be just very social and get along with everyone and have not to worry about being put up. theres bigger fish to fry than me, so maybe I can just keep floating for a couple more weeks and not having to worry about winning, but you know if I play in veto I'm FOR SURE going to try to win it, obviously. I just really hope Kaleigh, connor, or Jacob wins hoh on the evil side because those are the 3 people that I know for a fact wouldn't nom me (at least I hope). honestly anyone from the good side can win hoh, I don't really care. but I know at least now, I don't want to win it. I don't want to win it until at least week 4 or 5 (if I'm still here) just for the reason that I'm friends with so many people on that side. id rather have my team take the bullet and have them see me as "useless" [11/22/16, 3:56:44 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: I love bonding with people over ashley sarah [11/22/16, 3:56:55 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/22/16, 3:58:20 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] added nicole walker to this conversation [11/22/16, 3:58:22 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: welcome [11/22/16, 3:58:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected nicole walker from this conversation [11/22/16, 4:49:27 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] added nicole walker to this conversation [11/22/16, 4:49:40 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/22/16, 4:49:54 AM] Nicole Walker: "Is there a group chat without me?" [11/22/16, 4:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 4:50:21 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I want to add Ashley sarah to here [11/22/16, 4:50:29 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but I think shes ruthie in disguise [11/22/16, 4:51:20 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: GFUCK [11/22/16, 4:51:24 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: fdsklaf [11/22/16, 5:19:30 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [11/22/16, 6:04:34 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [11/20/2016 7:24:40 PM] Aly Marie: GLEEKS FOR LYFE [11/20/2016 7:24:56 PM] Ruthie ❤: GLEE FOREVER! <3 <3 [11/20/2016 7:25:02 PM] Ruthie ❤: Glee helped me so much omg [11/22/16, 6:11:42 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/22/16, 6:11:54 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected nicole walker from this conversation [11/22/16, 6:11:58 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/22/16, 6:12:12 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oops fat fingered ;o [11/22/16, 6:12:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/22/16, 6:13:09 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [11/22/16, 6:13:10 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: she can stay out [11/22/16, 6:13:19 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 1 guest per DR!!!! [11/22/16, 6:13:33 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: this aint no survivor las vega$ [11/22/16, 6:13:39 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 6:14:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I cant wait to add the whole cast to my dr [11/22/16, 6:14:19 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/22/16, 6:14:20 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: pls [11/22/16, 6:14:24 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has made the chat history visible to everyone [11/22/16, 6:14:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/22/16, 6:14:32 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 6:14:34 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: CHNAGE IT BACK [11/22/16, 6:14:38 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: im good! [11/22/16, 6:14:42 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 6:14:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 6:14:44 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP [11/22/16, 6:15:00 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I was about to add Ashley sarah too [11/22/16, 6:15:07 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/605513017879601153/sltXzs-G.jpg [11/22/16, 6:15:19 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: did you mean: ruthie [11/22/16, 6:15:35 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/22/16, 6:15:46 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me trying to find out if ruthie is Ashley sarah [11/22/16, 6:15:50 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: FUCK [11/22/16, 6:15:51 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: DSMFSDMKF [11/22/16, 6:16:27 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: http://i.imgur.com/yY8rVtc.gif me trying to calculate the odds of ruthie, ashley and khaled all  being real people [11/22/16, 6:16:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: BRONTE FUCK [11/22/16, 6:17:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/22/16, 6:37:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ruthie has awoken . [11/22/16, 7:05:24 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i can't believe ruthie and i are going to be final 2 [11/22/16, 8:01:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: yall are going to get to see what would've happened if joey hadn't been first boot in bb16:) i love feminism!! [11/22/16, 8:05:47 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: On 11/18/16, at 10:30 PM, julia rae [eggplant host] wrote: > jay: dont know who he is, but i know he hosts survivor and maybe i become friends with him but really, idk, if i had to predict who's going to be first boot, it'll probably be him uwu psychic twins who? [11/22/16, 8:07:03 PM] zach: FUCK [11/22/16, 8:07:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my god [11/22/16, 8:09:48 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i'm jay never saying one word in the housechat and then as soon as he gets nommed he is begging for ppl to save him [11/22/16, 11:27:39 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: [11/22/16, 11:24:32 PM] Aly Marie: I'm personally sick of that photo. [11/22/16, 11:27:43 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: how does that make you feel [11/22/16, 11:28:01 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: shes out next week . [11/23/16, 1:07:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so i was just in a call with randy for 40 minutes and we talked a lot about game and strategies. he said he really wants connor, ari, or mike out next week, and i kinda agree with him. i would rather have ari or mike out, because i feel without them, connor will be less powerful so he'll become more loyal towards me. but you KNOW im not going to be the one to put them up. i'm really hoping for christian to win HOH so i can just tell her what to do and have her get the blood on her hands. as of now, i think im in a good spot. im allied with mostly everyone on the evil team (except for mike, he gotta go) and everyone on my team seems like they'd listen to my opinion. i just need to keep being really social and not winning any hoh's for now, so i dont piss anyone off and show my loyalities. as for now, i want to get the people who im NOT close with, and then have the other sides fight eachother and have me sit in the middle, and be able to "float" my way to the end. obviously so many things can change, but i dont think im on anyones radiar. i just need to keep playing nice and hopefully ill make it through next week:) [11/23/16, 1:08:55 AM] zach: joey making it past two weeks? never seen this before [11/23/16, 1:09:12 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [11/23/16, 1:09:19 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i cant wait to read every word [11/23/16, 4:01:47 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict jay [11/23/16, 4:01:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: here my speech [11/23/16, 4:01:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: or goodbye message [11/23/16, 4:03:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: kaitlyn: if you are seeing this i'm probably rly sad. i love u and i didn't want u to leave THIS early #feminism [11/23/16, 4:04:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: jay: you seem really nice and i'm so sorry we didn't get to talk more, love u [11/23/16, 8:15:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can I give pokeballs to my teammates [11/23/16, 8:15:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: wait [11/23/16, 8:15:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [11/23/16, 8:15:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: nvm I see [11/23/16, 8:15:41 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: *Note: you may give your Pokeballs to members of either team. [11/23/16, 8:15:45 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/23/16, 8:15:56 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: fuck ill be exposed [11/23/16, 8:16:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I was going to give 19 pokeballs to kaleigh [11/23/16, 8:16:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but nvm [11/23/16, 8:16:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: hohoho [11/23/16, 8:19:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: 5 to kaitlyn, 5 to kaleigh, 5 to christian, 5 to ruthie [11/23/16, 8:19:48 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (sun) [11/23/16, 8:28:16 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: tysm [11/24/16, 8:03:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: two more men winning hoh? [11/24/16, 8:03:53 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/24/16, 8:12:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT SLADE AND RANDY WINNING HOH? (sun) [11/24/16, 9:28:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok so im so happy about randy winning, i just went into a call with him and he said for sure hes not going to nominate me, and I’m pretty sure hes going to nom at least 1 boy. slade on the other hand, I’m unsure of, but he can’t nominate me so I’m chilling!! [11/25/16, 1:16:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok bridgette no one fucking cares about how EVERYONE is mean to you and how EVERYONE is out to get you, literally this happens so often I don't get why you act so surprise every time someone dislikes you like [11/25/16, 1:17:31 PM] zach: Image [11/25/16, 1:17:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/25/16, 1:17:52 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: [11/24/16, 9:28:00 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: ok so im so happy about randy winning, i just went into a call with him and he said for sure hes not going to nominate me, and I’m pretty sure hes going to nom at least 1 boy. slade on the other hand, I’m unsure of, but he can’t nominate me so I’m chilling!! [11/25/16, 1:16:41 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: ok bridgette no one fucking cares about how EVERYONE is mean to you and how EVERYONE is out to get you, literally this happens so often I don't get why you act so surprise every time someone dislikes you like [11/25/16, 1:17:56 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [11/25/16, 1:18:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: no deleting chris voice [11/25/16, 1:18:09 PM] zach: Image [11/25/16, 1:18:15 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i wont delete [11/25/16, 1:18:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm good perosn [11/25/16, 1:18:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/25/16, 1:18:25 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: wow (angle) [11/25/16, 1:18:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oops [11/25/16, 1:18:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (angel) [11/25/16, 1:18:29 PM] zach: me [11/25/16, 1:18:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: angle [11/25/16, 1:18:34 PM] zach: i love angles [11/25/16, 1:18:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i am an angle [11/25/16, 1:18:39 PM] zach: trig got me good [11/25/16, 1:18:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: truly [11/25/16, 1:19:00 PM] zach: Image [11/25/16, 1:19:13 PM] zach: If i make a vl dr here will yalls post it [11/25/16, 1:19:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: caden whats your favorite number [11/25/16, 1:19:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: 666 [11/25/16, 1:19:21 PM] zach: n it'll be funny hehe [11/25/16, 1:19:23 PM] zach: STOOOOPP [11/25/16, 1:19:26 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: we can post it as julia rae [11/25/16, 1:19:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yes [11/25/16, 1:19:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: zach u can take over [11/25/16, 1:19:46 PM] zach: yu shouldnt trus tme gege [11/25/16, 1:19:47 PM] zach: vl dr:

legal nickname change to debby [11/25/16, 1:19:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [11/25/16, 1:20:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/25/16, 1:20:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/25/16, 1:21:45 PM] zach: Image [11/25/16, 2:53:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: On 11/25/16, at 2:52 PM, bridgette wrote: > you know whats not amazing a really petty boy trying to destroy all ur friendships shut the fuck UP [11/25/16, 2:53:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm sure the poor boy just wants to have a convo about black Friday or Mario 64 and not YOU [11/25/16, 6:02:40 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: no matter what happens in botb a boy stays on the block? [11/25/16, 6:02:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/25/16, 6:03:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: frick [11/26/16, 10:07:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ruthie is confirmed not a catfish [11/26/16, 10:07:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: she snapchatted me [11/26/16, 10:55:20 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: goddess [11/26/16, 8:03:43 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CARSON WINNING DPOV? (sun) [11/26/16, 8:05:31 PM] zach: This message has been removed. [11/26/16, 8:05:47 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: go away zach this is my time 2 shine [11/26/16, 8:05:52 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [11/26/16, 8:07:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok well I'm really happy because that most likely means a person on the evil side is going to be nominated, BUT it wont be the people I'm really close to. I'm pretty sure carson has no one besides the fiesta alliance unless hes playing a super slick uncover social game [11/26/16, 8:07:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I happy [11/26/16, 8:07:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm happy Bridgette didn't win tbh [11/26/16, 8:07:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: she would've done some crazy shit and probably put up either me or kaleigh [11/26/16, 8:44:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: SO CARSON JUST MENTIONED NOMINATING BRIDGETTE AND I AM YODELLING [11/26/16, 8:47:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my [11/27/16, 7:37:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so bridgette is the planned renom, and everyone wants to keep her because of the whole evil team fight, BUT her staying is so bad for my game. I’m pretty sure ruthie has like no one, maybe a few people, but i could get really close to her and potentially try to control her, so i NEED her to stay. I’m going to talk to kaleigh tonight and list all the bullshit reasons why ruthie should stay and bridgette shouldnt, also i will talk to jacob. him and i are really close and i geniunely think he would listen and take it into consideration. just in case i couldnt get either of them to flip, im talking to randy just in case theres a tie breaker so he breaks it in my favor [11/27/16, 7:37:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [11/27/16, 7:37:49 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i cant believe ruthie is your new ashley sarah [11/27/16, 7:37:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hopefully me doing all this campaigning for ruthie to stay bc if it doesnt then bridgette will be AFTER ME [11/27/16, 7:37:53 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i kNOW [11/27/16, 7:38:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i love her she is not going anywhere . [11/27/16, 7:38:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: not on MY WATCH [11/27/16, 7:38:18 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/27/16, 7:53:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: so i was just told by jacob that matthias is the flip vote for bridgette leaving so all we need to do is make sure EVERYONE on the good team is voting out bridgette and we're good [11/27/16, 7:53:56 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: just to be sure i'm going to tell ruthie to campaign to everyone on both teams, i need her to stay [11/27/16, 8:17:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm hardcore campaigning to everyone to keep ruthie (sun) [11/27/16, 8:17:29 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [11/27/16, 8:17:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOPGREIQ [11/28/16, 4:42:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I vote to evict bridgette [11/28/16, 4:44:24 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: goodbye messages Bridgette- if you see this message, that means all my campaigning worked and yours to my girlfriend didn't:) and I guess I was in the majority huh ruthie- I'm so sorry, I tried so hard for you to stay. youre so cute and sweet and hopefully we can stay in touch!! love you [11/28/16, 4:45:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: make sure to have the updated one thx [11/28/16, 4:46:17 PM] zach: savage [11/28/16, 4:46:25 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: okok [11/28/16, 8:04:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: now that bridgette is gone [11/28/16, 8:04:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/28/16, 8:04:45 PM] zach: On 2016-11-28, at 4:44 PM, julia rae [eggplant host] wrote: > Bridgette- if you see this message, that means all my campaigning worked and yours to my girlfriend didn't:) and I guess I was in the majority huh >

10 to 4 [11/29/16, 4:51:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am rdy for the hoh comp [11/29/16, 4:52:22 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok [11/29/16, 4:52:25 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 3 [11/29/16, 4:52:26 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 2 [11/29/16, 4:52:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 1 [11/29/16, 4:52:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://goo.gl/forms/T3bcNB5c5aLaneso1 [11/29/16, 4:52:30 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: GOOD LUCK! [11/29/16, 4:59:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: god bless [11/29/16, 5:12:32 PM] zach: 7m???? queen [11/29/16, 5:13:01 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i tried 2 throw [11/29/16, 5:15:03 PM] zach: mom [11/29/16, 5:16:22 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [11/29/16, 8:03:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yall I'm fucking shook [11/29/16, 8:03:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: the PERSON WHO HAS SAID 4 MESSAGES IN THE HOUSECHAT [11/29/16, 8:03:16 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ,,,,,, WON HOH [11/29/16, 8:03:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/29/16, 8:04:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: where are the results [11/29/16, 8:04:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I want to see who got what wrong [11/29/16, 8:06:29 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1GeYCF7mGhIGNwRermciRIeYgW0B3_a_VLqbXw-An5tc/edit?usp=sharing [11/29/16, 9:14:56 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RHEA & KAITLYN WINNING HOH? (Sun) [11/29/16, 9:15:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ill answer ltr [11/29/16, 9:15:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hosting eggplant comp [11/29/16, 9:15:38 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: have fun! [11/30/16, 3:45:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i want my dr to be spanish [11/30/16, 3:45:41 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: hola [11/30/16, 3:45:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hola [11/30/16, 3:46:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “EL CUARTO DIARIO DE JULIA POR GRAN HERMANO JOHTO” [11/30/16, 3:46:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hermano [11/30/16, 3:47:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “EL CUARTO DIARIO DE JULIA PARA HERMANO GRANDE JOHTO” [11/30/16, 3:48:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ¿come se sientas sobre las nominaciones? [11/30/16, 3:50:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: las nominaciones no han ocurrido todavía idiota [11/30/16, 3:51:16 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: quiero que estas nominada [11/30/16, 3:51:55 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: puta [11/30/16, 3:52:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: mierde [11/30/16, 6:02:09 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: LEAVE RUTHIE ALONE [11/30/16, 6:02:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [11/30/16, 6:43:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [11/30/16, 8:03:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: "not going to the glee concert" I didn't know Ashley sarah was in this game? [11/30/16, 8:04:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me too [11/30/16, 8:19:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I deleted my message bc I realized that answer could've been me but like I'm a lesbian so I don't think anyone thought that anyway [11/30/16, 8:19:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: omg i didn’t see [11/30/16, 8:20:06 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: klsdmfl [11/30/16, 8:20:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i said "but i want to know who sucked a guy in a mall bathroom" [11/30/16, 8:21:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: SDFMSLDMFLDS<FL<SDFL< [11/30/16, 8:21:10 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [11/30/16, 8:25:17 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Aly - Not taking the time to tell my only grandmother how much I loved her, before she passed away almost 9 years ago. Ari - Being a belieber Bridgette - All my past relationships (: (: (: (: I love fuckboys. Carson - Not taking more chances because I’m so shy. Christian - Joining Skype Big Brother 3 Connor - Being unhappy and cutting myself off from people for so long Jacob - Being a meme and being friends with Randy Shoehand Jay - Not applying to a 4-year college and going to community college Julia - Dying my hair black Justin - Coming out to my family Kaitlyn - Saying no to a sugar daddy Kaleigh - Becoming the horrible procrastinator that I am Matthias - One time I sucked a guy in a mall bathroom Mike - Livin it Randy - Catching feelings for this one person whew Rhea - Letting my ex control my emotions Ruthie - Not going to the Glee concert Slade - Not continuing playing baseball TIEBREAKER: 25 [11/30/16, 8:25:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: veto comp [11/30/16, 8:29:18 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: tysm [11/30/16, 8:33:02 PM] zach: ok no julia win a comp please i need fucking points [11/30/16, 8:33:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok me [11/30/16, 8:33:26 PM] zach: WAIT nicholas i have a question what was the questions for [11/30/16, 8:33:30 PM] zach: like "biggest regret?" [11/30/16, 8:34:50 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [11/30/16, 8:35:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: it was like “what is your biggest regret in life so far" [11/30/16, 8:52:44 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT NOMINATIONS & BOTB RESULTS? (Sun) [11/30/16, 8:58:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so i'm actually so upset that carson and ruthie are still nominated, but i'm glad that i get to play in pov bc if they weren't still on the block then ruthie wouldn't have chose me!! but i really need to win this dpov, save my girl ruthie she's been thru enough, and then put mikes ugly rat ass up and have him evicted:) [11/30/16, 10:26:17 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: wait can I change my answers for the pov [11/30/16, 10:26:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [11/30/16, 10:26:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm looking at it again and I realized I'm dumb [11/30/16, 10:26:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ty I love u [11/30/16, 10:26:57 PM] zach: julia is going to win the veto and take ruthie off [11/30/16, 10:27:02 PM] zach: I'm sorry I'm psychic i see it [11/30/16, 10:27:40 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: u right [11/30/16, 11:08:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Aly - Not taking the time to tell my only grandmother how much I loved her, before she passed away almost 9 years ago. Ari - Not finishing college! Bridgette - Being a belieber Carson - Not taking more chances because I’m so shy. Christian - Becoming the horrible procrastinator that I am Connor - Being unhappy and cutting myself off from people for so long Jacob - Being a meme and being friends with Randy Shoehand Jay - Not opening myself up to love Julia - Dying my hair black Justin - Not applying to a 4-year college and going to community college Kaitlyn - Saying no to a sugar daddy Kaleigh - Joining Skype Big Brother 3 Matthias - All my past relationships (: (: (: (: I love fuckboys. Mike - Livin it Randy - One time I sucked a guy in a mall bathroom Rhea - Letting my ex control my emotions Ruthie - Not going to the Glee concert Slade - Not continuing playing baseball TIEBREAKER: 25 my new one [12/1/16, 4:48:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i iz so nervous for the dpov results i want to save my gril ruthie [12/1/16, 8:15:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RHEA WINNING DPOV? (Sun) [12/1/16, 8:15:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: die [12/1/16, 8:15:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ill say it later [12/1/16, 8:15:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I iz lasy [12/1/16, 8:15:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: lazy [12/1/16, 8:16:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ok [12/1/16, 8:16:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ill do it now then freak [12/1/16, 8:18:17 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: im actually so happy rhea won, so now ruthie is going to be safe. but the hardest part is going to make sure that Jacob doesn't go up. I'm really going to talk rhea into putting up mike or Matthias, and hopefully shell do that. im going to tell her if she puts up Jacob that he wont go home, AND SHE JUST SAID SHE WANTS TO PUT IM KALEIGH AND IM SCREAMING [12/1/16, 8:18:20 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: NOT ON MY WATCH [12/1/16, 8:18:41 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [12/1/16, 8:21:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I'm convincing her to put up ari :) [12/1/16, 8:21:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok done now bedtime [12/1/16, 8:22:21 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [12/2/16, 2:19:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/2/16, 2:20:03 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me tomorrow when ari is nominated [12/2/16, 8:05:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: ruthie is safe [12/2/16, 8:05:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/2/16, 8:47:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ikonicc [12/3/16, 4:49:59 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I vote to evict ari [12/3/16, 4:50:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: goodbye messages [12/3/16, 4:51:24 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ari- I'm so sad to see you go, I would've loved playing this game longer with you and ur so great, love u!! carson- I love u man [12/3/16, 4:52:08 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/4/16, 12:02:49 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: I don't fuck with straight white men [12/4/16, 12:03:19 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 12:14:13 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [12/3/2016 11:49:07 PM] slade :): I voted against the Evil Rats [12/3/2016 11:49:18 PM] slade :): Because you guys are the worst people in this house [12/3/2016 11:51:04 PM] slade :): Julia isn't the only rat on the Good Team either ladies and gentlemen [12/3/2016 11:51:12 PM] slade :): Stay tuned, maybe tomorrow I'll say more! [12/4/16, 12:14:23 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: On 12/4/16, at 12:03 AM, slade :) wrote: > Yeah I was friends with Bridgette and felt bad for Ari thats the main reason I voted for them to stay [12/4/16, 12:14:26 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: whats the truth [12/4/16, 1:58:46 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 1:59:46 AM] zach: once a meninist, always a meninist [12/4/16, 1:59:52 AM] zach: bullied a 14 year old [12/4/16, 1:59:56 AM] zach: wishes death upon kaleigh [12/4/16, 1:59:58 AM] zach: im fucking lkaughguin [12/4/16, 2:43:41 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: zach [12/4/16, 2:43:57 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 2:44:01 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my teabored 2 [12/4/16, 2:44:14 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: MAKE ME ONE [12/4/16, 2:45:25 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: about WHAT [12/4/16, 2:45:57 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: make me something [12/4/16, 2:49:13 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/506bd36840b2431f0bf79464358ed0db [12/4/16, 2:49:34 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: hmmm [12/4/16, 2:49:36 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: it's worthy [12/4/16, 2:49:39 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: <3 [12/4/16, 2:49:55 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: even tho you got me evicted 2 times in 2 orgs [12/4/16, 2:50:09 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: i think it was you [12/4/16, 2:50:10 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: one was a MINI [12/4/16, 2:50:14 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: in zucchini [12/4/16, 2:50:18 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: WELL STILL [12/4/16, 2:50:23 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: exactly [12/4/16, 2:50:26 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: julia is elijah phobic [12/4/16, 2:50:28 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: I DESEVRED BETTER THAN FIRST BOOT [12/4/16, 2:51:00 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: actually Nicholas evicted you in sbb3 [12/4/16, 2:51:03 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I wanted KALEIGH OUT [12/4/16, 2:51:04 AM] zach: AHHH UR TEAVOSRD [12/4/16, 2:51:14 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: WELL YOU PUT ME UP [12/4/16, 2:51:15 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: DO U LIKE MY SECOND ONE [12/4/16, 2:51:18 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: 2 TIMES ! [12/4/16, 2:51:25 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/4/16, at 2:51 AM, Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host] wrote: > WELL YOU PUT ME UP

On 12/4/16, at 2:51 AM, Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host] wrote: > 2 TIMES ! [12/4/16, 2:51:27 AM] zach: ITS MY FAV [12/4/16, 2:51:34 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: ACTUALLY [12/4/16, 2:51:35 AM] zach: i put elijah up once hehe [12/4/16, 2:51:38 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i couldn’t have evicted elijah if he wasn’t nominated uwu [12/4/16, 2:51:40 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: zach whats ur fav quote [12/4/16, 2:51:45 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: WASNT IT 3 WITH ZUCCHINI INCLUDED [12/4/16, 2:51:49 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 2:51:49 AM] zach: "Bullies catfishes@ [12/4/16, 2:52:01 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: zach!!! [12/4/16, 2:52:01 AM] zach: "Still a meninist" [12/4/16, 2:52:10 AM] zach: "Mothers (probs has kids)" [12/4/16, 2:52:12 AM] zach: HI ELIJAH!! [12/4/16, 2:52:12 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: fuck i mean it's true [12/4/16, 2:52:35 AM] zach: ily elijah [12/4/16, 2:53:42 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: ily [12/4/16, 2:54:15 AM] zach: Image [12/4/16, 2:55:00 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: me [12/4/16, 3:57:39 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: shoutout to my favs andrea, zach, and ashley sarah :3 [12/4/16, 4:15:36 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: JULIA RAE NOW HAS ONE STRIKE [12/4/16, 4:15:56 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: FOR ASKING ZACH TO SPY FOR HER IN THE VL [12/4/16, 4:17:09 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: excuse [12/4/16, 4:17:11 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 4:17:18 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (1)” [12/4/16, 4:17:22 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: u have no proof . [12/4/16, 4:17:32 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i didn't ask no one . [12/4/16, 4:18:00 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (2)” [12/4/16, 4:18:11 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: veronica [ johto host ] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (3)” [12/4/16, 4:18:14 AM] zach: whTs the numbers for i [12/4/16, 4:18:16 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/4/16, 4:18:19 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i am being rigged out of this game . [12/4/16, 4:18:20 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: strikes [12/4/16, 4:18:25 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: someone call bridgette . [12/4/16, 4:18:31 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 4:18:33 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: uwu [12/4/16, 4:18:36 AM] zach: why she striked ;-; [12/4/16, 4:18:42 AM] zach: she didnt attack anyone personally ;-; [12/4/16, 4:18:46 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: 4 being lezbeyan [12/4/16, 4:18:49 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;-; [12/4/16, 4:18:51 AM] zach: :O [12/4/16, 4:18:52 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ;-; [12/4/16, 4:19:08 AM] zach: Image [12/4/16, 4:19:10 AM] zach: when julia rae gets striked [12/4/16, 4:19:18 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 4:19:20 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: MMLMMEMDM [12/4/16, 4:19:21 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: eD<E<L<DE< [12/4/16, 4:19:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 4:19:32 AM] zach: i love the outfit , then u hav the shoes [12/4/16, 4:19:38 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 4:19:44 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: its ur fault shes being striked [12/4/16, 4:19:54 AM] zach: ;-; [12/4/16, 4:19:55 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i didn't do anything . [12/4/16, 4:19:58 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ;-; [12/4/16, 4:20:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: these hosts are biased . [12/4/16, 4:20:02 AM] zach: wait what happened [12/4/16, 4:20:07 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/4/16, 4:20:11 AM] zach: thank god [12/4/16, 4:20:16 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: veronica [ johto host ] has renamed this conversation to “ZACH'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/4/16, 4:20:17 AM] zach: shes so annoying [12/4/16, 4:20:23 AM] zach: wow im warroomed in? [12/4/16, 4:20:29 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (happy) [12/4/16, 4:20:39 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: (heart) [12/4/16, 4:20:42 AM] zach: ihos is sh💿💿k [12/4/16, 4:21:15 AM] zach: Vl dr:

im here [12/4/16, 4:21:21 AM] zach: vl dr:

debby walked [12/4/16, 4:21:38 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/4/16, 4:21:39 AM] zach: Vl dr:

andrea taught me how to drink underage ;-; [12/4/16, 4:22:11 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: uhhh ;-; [12/4/16, 4:22:13 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: veronica [ johto host ] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/4/16, 4:22:18 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 4:22:32 AM] zach: Shareall [12/4/16, 4:23:27 AM] zach: Image [12/4/16, 4:23:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;-; [12/4/16, 4:23:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 4:24:13 AM] zach: Image [12/4/16, 4:24:15 AM] zach: this is me [12/4/16, 4:24:53 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 4:24:55 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: this is debby [12/4/16, 4:25:29 AM] zach: s t o p [12/4/16, 4:25:33 AM] zach: wait like [12/4/16, 4:25:37 AM] zach: are those real eyes [12/4/16, 4:26:05 AM] zach: that cat is . its own beautiful creature [12/4/16, 4:26:06 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 4:11:25 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: new plan: i might actually have to try to win hoh this week fuck [12/4/16, 4:47:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: HOH: https://docs.google.com/spreadsheets/d/1XgHxi_O-JqpXEV6g3DWOC2A1U7A7T-YGh0RnBhssPKk/edit?usp=sharing [12/4/16, 4:47:39 PM] zach: how could you [12/4/16, 4:47:49 PM] zach: you used purple and blue --- the two colours I USED when making charts [12/4/16, 4:48:01 PM] zach: my masculinity and ego is being DESTROYED by a dominant lesbian female icon [12/4/16, 4:50:01 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ill make a video dr once hoh is crowned [12/4/16, 4:50:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I have more to talk about [12/4/16, 4:57:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 8:05:42 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MIKE AND SLADE WINNING HOH? (sun) [12/4/16, 8:05:59 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: bye [12/4/16, 8:06:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: well [12/4/16, 8:06:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: it was nice [12/4/16, 8:06:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: playing [12/4/16, 9:02:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my video dr is uploading uwu [12/4/16, 9:02:27 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 9:02:28 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: <3 [12/4/16, 9:02:31 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/4/16, 9:02:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :D [12/4/16, 9:02:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: its black and white and half my face is shown [12/4/16, 9:02:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;) [12/4/16, 9:02:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh my god [12/4/16, 9:02:53 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULES' BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/4/16, 9:03:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: FUCK [12/4/16, 9:09:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/4/16, 9:09:48 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/4/16, 9:09:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/4/16, 9:54:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: when ur two closest allies go on1v1 calls with u and both of them say they don't trust the other [12/4/16, 9:54:56 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: love the 3 whitneys <3 [12/4/16, 9:56:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: fuck [12/4/16, 9:59:24 PM] zach: whjo [12/4/16, 9:59:58 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: chalked and ashley sarah [12/4/16, 10:00:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: khaled [12/5/16, 12:00:23 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: when Kaleigh only knows about the alliances shes in with me uwu [12/5/16, 7:43:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [12/5/16, 7:43:57 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/5/16, 7:44:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/5/16, 6:38:53 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: DEADASS LITERALLY IM TALKING TO JACOB AND KALEIGH ABOUT THE SAME THING AND THEYRE BOTH SENDING ME THE SAME RECIEPTS IM LAUGHING [12/5/16, 6:43:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM BEING SO FAKE TO THE BOTH OF THEM [12/5/16, 6:43:10 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO [12/5/16, 7:22:25 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: I love feminism [12/5/16, 7:29:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: kinda glad I didn't get picked for veto bc I wouldn't want to throw it but I wouldn't want to win either bc Jacob would expect me to take him off and put up mike, which lowkey I wouldn't want to do [12/5/16, 7:47:44 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RUTHIE & ALY WINNING BATTLE OF THE BLOCK AND SLADE REMAINING HOH? (sun) [12/5/16, 7:47:48 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: great [12/6/16, 8:03:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I love how carson comes out of nowhere and wins shit and makes big moves [12/6/16, 8:06:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [12/6/16, 8:14:43 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CARSON WINNING DPOV? (sun) [12/6/16, 9:33:57 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: answer the question [12/6/16, 9:33:58 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: . [12/6/16, 9:34:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: great [12/6/16, 9:34:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: stupid 14 year old fatfish [12/6/16, 9:34:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: CATSFISH [12/6/16, 9:34:11 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: CAT [12/7/16, 7:04:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zLsAf6SCwY [12/7/16, 7:05:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: btw I'm going not make myself not look like a rat so expect a video dr [12/7/16, 7:05:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/7/16, 7:05:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :D [12/7/16, 7:05:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: <3 [12/7/16, 7:05:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;) [12/7/16, 7:50:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I made a video dr [12/7/16, 7:50:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and it uploading [12/7/16, 7:50:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and its just me rambling [12/7/16, 7:50:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/7/16, 8:24:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: MIKE IN THE HOUSECHAT [12/7/16, 8:24:17 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM SCREAMING [12/7/16, 8:24:20 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: HE CANT GO I LOVE HIM\ [12/7/16, 8:24:20 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: ME 2 [12/7/16, 8:24:45 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/7/16, 8:28:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: rhea is campaigning to me to save mike [12/7/16, 8:28:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :/ [12/7/16, 9:05:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my video dr has been processing for over an hour [12/7/16, 9:05:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I is sorry [12/7/16, 9:21:25 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (waiting) [12/8/16, 12:47:13 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/7/16, at 9:21 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (waiting) [12/8/16, 12:47:45 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: On 12/8/16, at 12:47 AM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > On 12/7/16, at 9:21 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > > (waiting) [12/8/16, 12:47:50 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/c11e5c05532b48c3c2710c9d6154344d [12/8/16, 12:48:03 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: its been like that [12/8/16, 12:48:06 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: since 8pm [12/8/16, 12:48:13 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/8/16, 12:48:35 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i will just send file . [12/8/16, 12:59:12 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: file still sending . [12/8/16, 12:59:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok i'm going to try to re upload [12/8/16, 1:01:10 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ;o [12/8/16, 1:29:11 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1KNz8I4je4I&feature=youtu.be [12/8/16, 1:29:13 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/7/16, at 9:21 PM, nicholas [ johto host ] wrote: > (waiting) [12/8/16, 1:29:16 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/8/16, 1:29:16 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :o [12/8/16, 1:29:29 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i recorded it at like 7 so its in the past [12/8/16, 1:29:34 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: love it [12/8/16, 1:29:41 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;) [12/8/16, 1:32:41 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :D [12/8/16, 1:33:24 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: amazing [12/8/16, 2:02:32 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: awkward [12/8/16, 2:02:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ;-; [12/8/16, 2:02:48 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ;-; [12/8/16, 2:02:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I will tell later [12/8/16, 2:05:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hehe [12/8/16, 2:05:41 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: im voting out randy [12/8/16, 2:05:42 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hehe [12/8/16, 6:11:30 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (sun) FRIENDLY REMINDER TO CAST YOUR VOTE AND/OR SEND IN YOUR GOODBYE MESSAGES! (sun) [12/8/16, 6:11:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :o [12/8/16, 6:14:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: idk if I should go against the majority and just vote against randy but a lot of people might think its me bc of the rumors of me working with mike and itll probably put a bigger target on me but I like I want randy to be paranoid [12/8/16, 6:25:10 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: eh [12/8/16, 6:25:15 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I vote to evict mike [12/8/16, 6:25:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: mike- youre really funny and I wish you didn't go so soon, love u randy- adios freak [12/8/16, 8:03:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: please play the circle of love [12/9/16, 1:02:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/e20fac318954ca765d29e3cc48ccbc00 [12/9/16, 1:07:34 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/19c42348f9389962702866810d8cbc2e [12/9/16, 1:12:38 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/2e6b9173d31668117e0f428abbebefa2 [12/9/16, 1:20:09 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/b967fb18cd02969eb73f0dcbd95adcdd [12/9/16, 1:23:25 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/113d918bc2a681b8494a366d1d994264 [12/9/16, 1:28:01 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/ce2eb112eee3e91225f9dbb47c299bcd [12/9/16, 1:43:15 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/30d289ed4ec0fbdc16c7ff670648c81e [12/9/16, 10:36:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: dr: phew Kaleigh just won and I am so HAPPY WOOO [12/9/16, 10:42:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I don't remember the alliance name of me carson Jacob Kaleigh and Christian help [12/9/16, 10:42:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i is in too many alliances [12/9/16, 11:25:34 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT KALEIGH AND JUSTIN WINNING HOH? (sun) [12/9/16, 11:27:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: GREAT i'm in an alliance with both of them [12/9/16, 11:27:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but who am i not in an alliance with🤔 [12/9/16, 11:28:05 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: u right [12/10/16, 5:36:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok these people are IDIOTS HOW DO THEY NOT KNOW KALEIGH AND I ARE REALLY CLOSE [12/10/16, 5:36:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: LITERALLY RHEA CAME TO ME RANTING ABOUT KALEIGH TELLING HER SHES BEING NOMINATED ??? [12/10/16, 5:37:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me = plays dumb and talks shit about Kaleigh with her [12/10/16, 6:02:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: RUTHIE IS SAFE!!! [12/10/16, 6:02:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/10/16, 6:30:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can I do it now . [12/10/16, 6:33:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Change your Skype Name to whatever the hosts decide for 3 days. [12/10/16, 6:33:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: sure [12/10/16, 6:33:44 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Change your Skype picture to whatever the hosts decide for 3 days. [12/10/16, 6:33:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: sure [12/10/16, 6:34:26 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Solitary Confinement - you will be removed from all game related chats for 24 HOURS. [12/10/16, 6:34:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: no thanks . [12/10/16, 6:36:59 PM] zach: wow [12/10/16, 6:37:01 PM] zach: what a lsoer [12/10/16, 6:37:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: zach [12/10/16, 6:37:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I don't want to win . [12/10/16, 6:37:10 PM] zach: julia . [12/10/16, 6:37:13 PM] zach: stop putting a period . [12/10/16, 6:37:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and I aint being removed from chats . [12/10/16, 6:37:16 PM] zach: after a space . [12/10/16, 6:37:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: no . [12/10/16, 6:37:22 PM] zach: you uneducated illiterate fuck . [12/10/16, 6:37:30 PM] zach: this is what you get for . leaving high school . [12/10/16, 6:37:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: no . [12/10/16, 6:37:50 PM] zach: please . [12/10/16, 6:38:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: you scored 2 its bt [12/10/16, 6:38:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: w [12/10/16, 6:38:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: POINTS [12/10/16, 6:38:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :o [12/10/16, 9:20:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: are results being posted soonz [12/10/16, 9:22:03 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: we iz still waiting [12/10/16, 9:22:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: .-. [12/11/16, 12:34:43 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: your new name: anti marina joyce [12/11/16, 12:34:49 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [12/11/16, 12:34:50 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: is your new photo [12/11/16, 12:34:57 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I love it [12/11/16, 12:35:01 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i will change now [12/11/16, 12:35:25 AM] zach: that picture [12/11/16, 12:35:26 AM] zach: scares me [12/11/16, 12:41:32 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm so scared I think slades going to nom me [12/11/16, 12:46:08 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT SLADE WINNING DPOV? (Sun) [12/11/16, 12:46:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM SO FUCKING SCARED LIKE I FEEL LIKE HES GOING TO PUT ME UP BUT ILL TRY TO SEE WHAT HES DOING [12/11/16, 1:19:22 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [1:13:45 AM] anti marina joyce: omg fdhusbvh do you have any idea what youre doing with the dpov [1:14:35 AM] slade :): not yet, its gonna take a lot of thinking tbh, i have no idea who to put up [1:14:55 AM] anti marina joyce: ya true true [1:15:44 AM] anti marina joyce: well I just wanted to let you know that you shouldn't nominate me and hopefully we can like work together in the future rfhjdvgbh and when ur autonominated next week you deff have my vote to stay!! [1:16:52 AM] slade :): Thank you!  I don't plan on nominating you, you won't have to worry [1:17:20 AM] anti marina joyce: omg thank you!! god bless [12/11/16, 1:19:32 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: MY DUMBASS IS GOING TO GET ME IN AN ALLIANCE WITH EVERYONE [12/11/16, 7:24:12 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me- is debating on telling kaleigh about my 5 other alliances that don't include her [12/11/16, 8:10:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: fuck this ugly ass meninist game [12/11/16, 8:10:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/11/16, 8:18:18 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: your new name is "i eat ass for the rapture" [12/11/16, 8:28:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/11/16, 8:29:08 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: what did you say garbage [12/11/16, 8:29:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [12/11/16, 8:31:15 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict rhea rhea- i'm so upset, I love you so much and I really enjoyed playing this game with you for these few weeks. don't worry, ill get slade's ugly ass and he'll be in prejury next week<3 you're so sweet and you don't deserve this, love you!! ruthie- youre so sweet and nice and you don't fucking deserve to be nominated EVERY WEEK. i don't think you're going to see this message but if you do, at least you don't have to play in this ugly meninist game<3 love you [12/11/16, 9:52:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: WHEN EVERYONE IS MESSAGING ME BC THEY KNOW MY CRACKEDT ASS SCHOOL DROPOUT ASS IS STAYING UP ALL NIGHT TO DO THIS [12/11/16, 9:53:43 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: fdjkfjdlsa [12/11/16, 10:00:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: since its due on tuesday [12/11/16, 10:00:18 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [12/11/16, 10:00:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm starting tomorrow as soon as I wake up [12/11/16, 10:00:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: :) [12/11/16, 10:00:31 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) [12/12/16, 12:49:52 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected zach from this conversation [12/12/16, 7:35:34 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so lonely ;-; [12/12/16, 7:35:40 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ‘-‘ [12/12/16, 7:35:43 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ;-;-; [12/12/16, 11:10:50 AM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: why did zach get kicked [12/12/16, 4:54:36 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: , [12/12/16, 5:00:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:01:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:02:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:03:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:04:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:05:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:06:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:07:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:08:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:09:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:10:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:11:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:12:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:13:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:14:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:15:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:16:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:17:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:18:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:19:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 5:20:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am 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Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 11:40:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/12/16, 11:50:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 1:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still 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host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 2:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 2:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:00:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:10:15 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 3:10:54 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 3:14:12 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 3:16:00 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] joined the conversation [12/13/16, 3:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:20:17 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has disabled invitations, people cannot be invited to this chat anymore [12/13/16, 3:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:30:16 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 3:30:21 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 3:33:29 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ,,, [12/13/16, 3:40:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 3:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:10:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 4:10:09 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 4:10:10 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:30:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 4:30:15 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 4:30:16 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:40:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 4:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:05:39 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: , [12/13/16, 5:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:28:27 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 5:28:38 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:28:46 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 5:28:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has left the conversation [12/13/16, 5:28:56 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:30:17 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has left the conversation [12/13/16, 5:30:17 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:30:48 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:30:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:40:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:50:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 5:50:06 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:50:07 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 5:50:53 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ,/kickban juliarae [12/13/16, 5:51:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected julia rae [dreamworld3 host] from this conversation [12/13/16, 5:51:39 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: veronica [ johto host ] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (1)” [12/13/16, 5:51:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] added julia rae [dreamworld3 host] to this conversation [12/13/16, 5:52:00 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/13/16, 5:52:23 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/13/16, 5:52:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (1)” [12/13/16, 5:52:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/13/16, 5:52:39 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (1)” [12/13/16, 5:53:09 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Image [12/13/16, 5:53:17 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: On 12/13/16, at 5:50 AM, julia rae [eggplant host] wrote: > I am going to murder nicholas [12/13/16, 5:53:22 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: “do something else the hosts deem worthy of a strike" [12/13/16, 5:53:28 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/13/16, at 5:50 AM, julia rae [eggplant host] wrote: > I am going to murder nicholas [12/13/16, 5:53:31 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: something else ^^^ [12/13/16, 5:53:45 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: julia rae [dreamworld3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/13/16, 5:54:17 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM (2)” [12/13/16, 5:54:36 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/13/16, 5:55:09 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has renamed this conversation to “JULIA'S BIG BROTHER JOHTO DIARY ROOM” [12/13/16, 6:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 6:10:06 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 6:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 6:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 6:40:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 6:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:20:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 7:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:00:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:10:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:20:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 8:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:20:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:40:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 9:50:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:10:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:30:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 10:50:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:00:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:10:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:20:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:30:04 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:40:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 11:50:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:00:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am Still Nicholas, Veronica, Aspen & Elijah’s Biggest Fan [12/13/16, 12:00:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok done now bedtime [12/13/16, 12:00:52 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/13/16, 12:00:52 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: your final time is 19 hours 00 minutes! [12/13/16, 12:01:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (makeup) [12/13/16, 12:04:45 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: jeez. [12/13/16, 8:16:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT WINNING THE DOUBLE EVICTION HOH? (Sun) [12/13/16, 8:17:15 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I FEEL GREAT WOOOO [12/13/16, 8:17:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I WON A COMP [12/13/16, 8:17:24 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: PACK YOUR BAGS RANDY! [12/13/16, 10:30:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://bumpers.fm/e/b18bp75s6j8002p71s70 [12/13/16, 10:30:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my podcast . [12/13/16, 10:30:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: its public [12/13/16, 10:30:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I don't know how to make it like unlisted [12/13/16, 10:30:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: is that a thing [12/13/16, 10:34:02 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i don’t think so [12/13/16, 10:34:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: but FUCK [12/13/16, 10:34:09 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i spat out my water [12/13/16, 10:35:17 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I added sound effects [12/13/16, 10:39:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm going to make podcasts so often [12/13/16, 10:39:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: get ready [12/13/16, 10:42:38 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i am screaming [12/14/16, 7:55:07 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: great rdy for dr soon [12/14/16, 7:55:17 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i will take inspiration from rhea n use gifs [12/14/16, 8:00:42 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/14/16, 8:07:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i said great rdy why am I dumb [12/14/16, 8:33:47 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: OKAY, so I won hoh and I am SUPER happy about it. since I am basically aligned with everyone, no matter what happens im going to fuck someone over. the same plan that ive had from the beginning is still going strong and Kaitlyn even said I could use her as a PAWN, which im so happy about. I think if I won pov, id probably use it on Kaitlyn and not aly. Aly literally has the whole good side that would FOR SURE keep her, so definitely the best scenario would be for either me/Kaitlyn to win the pov, BUT as long as someone comes off the block, I don’t really care who it is. From what Kaitlyn has told me, it seems like she is completely alone in this game and I believe that her offering herself up as a pawn is very good for me??? like since I told her shes staying 100% it will build some trust. i am literally SO excited to put randys dumb ass on the block and send him packing, he is a snake and he can’t be trusted at ALL. what ive noticed from previous games and from this game specially, you will be enemy #1 if you’re really loud and fight a lot of people, so as long as I lay low while all this is happening i genuinely don’t think ill become a huge target. hopefully, either Kaleigh or connor will fight someone and all the attention gets brought back to them, so people forget that I just backstabbed an ally (im assuming randy is going to expose me but he really can’t do shit, no one is going to believe him and what he doesn’t understand is that with him going, everyone that I kept safe is going to trust me more)

ok so now im going to talk about my Jacob/Kaleigh/Christian situation. Ive never promised ANY of them a finale 2 deal, but they all believe it??? like how dumb are they?? to be honest, I don’t want to take any of them except for maybe christian to the final 2 because I know that they all would vote for me. I genuinely believe that I am all three of their #1s, which I guess is a good thing BUT that is exactly the reason why im going to pint them against each other. since prejury ive been planning seeds in both Jacob and kaleighs heads that they’re both after each other and that they both don’t trust each other. that’s why im really hoping that this is the last prejury week, because once jury starts, I want the seed to start growing and hopefully mid-way into jury they’ll take each other out. as of right now im fine with playing the middle but I want them out before they realize im playing both of them, which they aren’t that smart so I don’t really think thatll happen. within the next coming of weeks I would like connor to go out, just so im for sure kaleighs #1 (which I know I am) but I want it to be guaranteed. Honestly I would love for the finale 6 to be Jacob/me/Kaleigh/rhea/ruthie/Christian, because these are the people who trust me 100% and wouldn’t go after me. jacob/kaleigh would go against ruthie/rhea/Christian/ and probably once they go after rhea I would MAKE SURE, they would go after each other, with ruthie, Christian, and I sitting pretty in the middle. I will do whatever it takes to make sure that’s the finale 6, because that is literally setting me up to win, for me to go to the finale 2 with Christian or ruthie, two goats. BUT im sure that wont happen, and even if a few people are swapped, I could still manipulate and put myself in the middle, and have no one realize how big of a threat I am.

and I rly wish I had some gifs to use but I really don’t know where to throw them in so (._.#) [12/14/16, 8:34:13 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok done now bedtime https://gyazo.com/b2a1ce47eda45a096b70232c98ec479a [12/14/16, 8:34:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I also didn't proof read so sorry for mistakes [12/14/16, 8:40:45 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I also has question . [12/14/16, 8:41:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: it says on the blog that nominations are 12/15 but that is WRONG [12/14/16, 8:41:12 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/fc7804ff12807d706d4216f37765b350 [12/14/16, 8:41:19 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: schedule is off by a day [12/14/16, 1:53:53 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oopz [12/14/16, 2:29:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I just told aly and Kaitlyn I'm nominating them as pawns [12/14/16, 2:29:09 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: good idea? I'm not sure [12/14/16, 2:29:15 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but at least it wont be a shock [12/14/16, 2:37:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: okay so they both said they appreciate me telling them and theyre not mad [12/14/16, 2:37:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i said that theyre both pawns and that i hope they win pov and i told Kaitlyn i would use it on her if i won it [12/14/16, 2:46:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I FEEL SO BAD AHHHHH I HATE THIS GAME [12/14/16, 2:46:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: its ok I will get thru it [12/14/16, 2:51:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so I have decided to nominate Kaitlyn, Matthias, and Aly. Kaitlyn, I love you as a person, but I’m unsure of where I stand with you in this game. Matthias, you’re very chill and funny but we don’t talk that often and I don’t really know where your head is at. Aly, you’re so sweet and I love you but you and I haven’t spoken much and you don’t seem to know what’s going on. I’m so sorry for nominating you guys, you are all amazing people and this was a really hard decision and nothing personal. I wish you all the best of luck in the Power of Veto competition! [12/14/16, 4:23:40 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: r u ok w noms being posted in 30 minutes? [12/14/16, 4:23:47 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yus [12/14/16, 4:24:59 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: (,: [12/14/16, 5:20:18 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) THE POV GAME HAS BEEN CHANGED TO http://emulator.online/gameboy/pokemon-firered-version/ SINCE THE OLD ONE DOESNT LET YOU SHOW YOUR POKEDEX SCORE (sun) [12/14/16, 5:20:52 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: oki ty I was so confused [12/14/16, 5:21:02 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: np [12/14/16, 6:10:56 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok so i deadass don't understand pokémon at all or how to do this pov so guess who's going to stay up all night again to figure it out [12/14/16, 6:11:16 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: hint: google walkthroughs [12/15/16, 1:14:30 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/87fcf4d7f51e1b77ed4670766aa9e276 [12/15/16, 1:14:40 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: RIGGED [12/15/16, 1:14:41 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: RIG [12/15/16, 2:14:45 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/d1ecc6807eb8833ca5b87d91438109d7 [12/15/16, 2:14:46 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: update [12/15/16, 2:14:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ive seen 4 more . [12/15/16, 3:05:03 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/a9a5c490746dffabc944edcef8658429 [12/15/16, 3:05:05 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: 4 more . [12/15/16, 3:23:26 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/8a82dc1c7563121725a27cce80e6a5f1 [12/15/16, 3:58:35 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/f4c360f0485d1cafc1a765385ec0399e [12/15/16, 3:58:39 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I am getting better [12/15/16, 5:24:42 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/280581877948c5a1e9b0878d57bb1f93 [12/15/16, 6:16:29 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/72379b35a40716977bfef569130522a1 [12/15/16, 6:41:18 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/b1f6795a69aba0e7a13d84a453e16d80 [12/15/16, 7:38:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/ac64d2af7a6c71e38a0a8339949783d3 [12/15/16, 8:09:16 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/4de8ddcd252186c10c00ae210890c085 [12/15/16, 9:39:58 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/616400e6486c019149487b5bd16944d6 [12/15/16, 10:12:24 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/15/16, 6:44:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i deadass slept all day so i won't be able to raise my score any higher unless i do it right now until the deadline fuck [12/15/16, 6:45:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hopefully 53 is good enough [12/15/16, 6:47:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: randy is going to win ugh i'm so annoyed [12/15/16, 8:05:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vldr: this is MY week . [12/15/16, 8:05:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/15/16, 8:14:59 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT WINNING POV? (sun) [12/15/16, 8:15:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I FEEL AMAZING ADIOS RANDY PHEW [12/15/16, 8:15:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I CANT BELIEVE I PLAYED THAT GAYASS GAME AND WON BY LIKE 25 POKEMON [12/15/16, 9:08:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: as of now I'm so happy and I don't care if I go after this, I came into this game to make a big move, win comps and be memorable. but I really think this move will take me really farrrrrr [12/15/16, 9:08:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: woo hoo [12/15/16, 10:33:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I will make another podcast later tonight . [12/15/16, 11:07:35 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: yas [12/15/16, 11:13:44 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: randy being rude to me in his dr for the game I'm hosting him in and threatening to walk? makes me want to nominate him even more [12/15/16, 11:13:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: get his furry ass OUT OF HERE! [12/15/16, 11:19:15 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: #JuliaRaevsTheFurries [12/16/16, 7:15:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://bumpers.fm/e/b19tlkbjumh005bv2400 [12/16/16, 7:15:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: podcast#2 . [12/16/16, 7:18:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/16/16, 8:09:14 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: IS THAT MR HAPPY OH MY GOD DSKFM [12/16/16, 4:07:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: yus hehe [12/16/16, 4:36:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: So I have decided to use the POV on Kaitlyn. Kaitlyn, you and I were the only people who had to experience that pokémon hell so I thought it would be fair to save you, love you:)

I have decided to renominate Randy. Randy, I know how you play this game. You are incredibly smart and sneaky, you definitely intimidate me in this game. I've played with you before AND I've hosted you, you're very unpredictable and I believe if I don't take a shot at you now I'll never get another chance. I tried to be sneaky and backdoor you because you're amazing at competitions, but with my luck you played in veto. I'm really glad that you were too busy and couldn't participate, it just made things easier on me :). I listened to you argue on call last night about another game, and you were very convincing and that scares me. I'm sorry that I have to do this and it's nothing personal, you're a great kid and I love you but you're just way too good at these games. [12/16/16, 4:45:24 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: that is not final ^^ penny is fixing the grammar errors hehe [12/16/16, 4:47:40 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: So, I have decided to use the POV on Kaitlyn. Kaitlyn, you and I were the only people who had to experience that Pokémon hell; so, I thought it would be fair to save you. Love you:)

I have decided to re-nominate Randy. Randy, I know how you play this game. You are incredibly smart and sneaky; you definitely intimidate me in this game. I've played with you before AND I've hosted you. You're very unpredictable, and I believe if I don't take a shot at you now I'll never get another chance. I tried to be sneaky and backdoor you because you're amazing at competitions, but with my luck you played in veto. I'm really glad that you were too busy and couldn't participate; it just made things easier on me :). I listened to you argue on call last night about another game, and you were very convincing and that scares me. I'm sorry that I have to do this and it's nothing personal. You're a great kid and I love you, but you're just way too good at these games. [12/16/16, 4:47:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: now it final there u go [12/16/16, 5:23:45 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: tysm [12/16/16, 9:09:53 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [9:00:51 PM] randizi: I've done nothing to you [9:00:58 PM] randizi: Why are you fucking me over like this like [9:01:05 PM] randizi: It's not fair you took advantage of me [9:01:24 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: that's the game B) [9:01:56 PM] randizi: this is so mean like my uncle died and SHIT [9:02:12 PM] randizi: And I've never felt so alone and like all I asked was for you to be real with me [9:02:23 PM] randizi: But you're too much of a rat to do this me like [9:02:35 PM] randizi: I asked you and you lied to me because you think you're a good gameplayer [9:02:41 PM] randizi: I trusted you so much [9:02:51 PM] randizi: And I've never felt so alone and I thought we could be friends [9:02:57 PM] randizi: you're an ass [9:03:02 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: thanks [9:03:11 PM] randizi: I'm so hurt like why would you do this to me [12/17/16, 11:31:51 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (in the event of a tie please send a list of who you would save in the form of A > B > C ) [12/17/16, 11:32:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: A being the person you want to save most [12/17/16, 11:32:10 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: aly > matthias > randy [12/17/16, 11:32:14 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: that good right [12/17/16, 11:32:18 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ty [12/17/16, 12:07:47 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i love how the two people who claim that i'm their number #1's won't vote for what i want?? like bitch i stayed up 19 hours to keep y'all asses off the block [12/17/16, 12:15:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: yes randy continue to fight me more and make a fool of yourself B) [12/17/16, 12:18:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i was going to bring up that he called veronica a cunt and inbred but she a host [12/17/16, 12:18:52 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i am bitting my tongue [12/17/16, 2:24:34 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [2:18:13 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: i feel like keeping aly would be better because she would be an easy pawn and would most likely always vote with the good team, but as for Matthias he for sure is with Jacob and connor and those 3 are kinda like a trio [2:18:29 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: so later on it might be harder to get out matthias [2:24:00 PM] Rhea <3: Wait Matthias is working with Connor?! [2:24:12 PM] julia rae [eggplant host]: yes for sure [12/17/16, 2:24:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM YELLING [12/17/16, 2:24:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: AHAHAHAHHAA [12/17/16, 2:24:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: FREGFREG [12/17/16, 2:50:43 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok I love the fact that Christian called me sexist bc I put up randy ,,,, a man ,,,, HELLO?? U DUM?? [12/17/16, 2:51:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: obvi it a joke but its DUMB I AM A FEMINIST WOOO WOMEN [12/17/16, 2:55:12 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: meninist [12/17/16, 2:55:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/17/16, 2:55:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: how I'm going 2 get people to vote the way I want them 2 is to PEER PRESSURE [12/17/16, 2:56:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IF I KEEP BOTHERING THEM AND TELL THEM 2 THEY WILL [12/17/16, 2:56:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: HEHE [12/17/16, 3:28:48 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can I have the link to my google hangout with jacob [12/17/16, 3:42:08 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: shore [12/17/16, 3:42:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bVGCer5NrBY [12/17/16, 3:49:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I WAS GOING TO SEND IT TO KALEIGH BC OF JACOB SAYING HE WANTS TO TARGET KALEIGH BUT WE TALK ABOUT OUR ALLIANCE FUCK [12/17/16, 3:52:00 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: me [12/17/16, 6:46:53 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me an hour before the vote: KEEP MATTHIAS GOGOGOGO [12/17/16, 6:51:42 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: what [12/17/16, 6:51:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: the votes FLIPPED [12/17/16, 6:52:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: RANDY PULLED VOTES OUT OF HIS ASS [12/17/16, 6:52:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: SO THE VOTES WERE FLIPPED [12/17/16, 8:21:16 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I just got like [12/17/16, 8:21:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: 10x more stressed [12/17/16, 8:21:30 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: y [12/17/16, 8:21:46 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I DONT KNOW [12/17/16, 8:21:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: BUT I MADE JURY [12/17/16, 8:21:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: WOOHOO [12/18/16, 6:26:59 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok so i'm actually not that upset about aly leaving over matthias, i definitely think me telling everyone to keep matthias last minute and me telling matthias that i'm campaigning for him made him for sure not want to go after me maybe?? i don't think he'll win hoh either and i'm probably going to convict kaleigh to make an alliance with matthias/connor/kaleigh/me bc that was kinda like the dealio that connor was talking about?? i feel like me being in an alliance with them will for sure gain some trust and then i'll also be in an alliance with EVERYONE in the game so. i still don't trust matthias but i feel like i'm going to work with him so he can take out like jacob or something. also i really don't fucking trust jacob ugh i feel like i'm being used by him and it's so gross like i want him out asap but i won't be able to do it so that's why matthias comes in B). i'm really really hoping either kaleigh wins (just so we can be the last two nominated) OR rhea or ruthie, preferably rhea bc we're super close and i have a feeling she'd put up connor/jacob which i LOVE, god i love rhea. but anyway i feel pretty good and i made it to jury so i just have to lie low and have everyone go after each other instead of me. i already made my big early game move which will later zach voice help my resume. phew i'm not as stressed and this veto of many colors week is gay and i feel like someone will use it to their advantage and try to backstab me but B) it's ok i've had a fun time sos far idc if i go, and if i leave before kaleigh; i'm going out WITH THE BANG!!! well if i leave at all tbh, it would be fun. ok idk what else to talk about so adios! [12/18/16, 1:04:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: there is alliance #11 . [12/18/16, 1:05:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but it in ur calendar [12/18/16, 1:06:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: oh trust me i did B) [12/18/16, 1:06:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: On 12/18/16, at 6:26 AM, julia rae [eggplant host] wrote: > zach voice help my resume [12/18/16, 1:06:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: FUCK [12/18/16, 1:06:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hehehHAHHA [12/18/16, 1:08:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: also connor is making an alliance with him/Matthias/Kaleigh and me today so that's going to be #12 B) [12/18/16, 1:08:51 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I beat teh record [12/18/16, 1:09:10 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/18/16, 1:09:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and after that ,,,, ill be an alliance with EVERYONE LEFT IN THE HOUSE [12/18/16, 1:09:35 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: OOPS [12/18/16, 1:09:56 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: a look [12/18/16, 2:01:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: vote on ur favorite johto houseguest! http://strawpoII.me/12208745 [12/18/16, 2:45:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [12/18/16, 10:09:03 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CONNOR WINNING HOH? (Sun) [12/18/16, 10:09:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: okay I feel good I don't think hes going to nominate me but hes going to nominate rhea and I'm so SAD RHEA IS A QUEEN [12/20/16, 11:14:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I think I convicted rhea to nominate justin and then Kaleigh and I will be the last two nominated WOOHOO [12/20/16, 11:14:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: also rhea is staying, justin is going [12/20/16, 11:14:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: that's that on that [12/21/16, 12:52:16 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL GOING INTO THE VETO CEREMONY? (Sun) [12/21/16, 2:17:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: amazing i think i safe [12/22/16, 10:15:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: whew so we going into week 8 after this eviction I believe and literally I hope rhea or ruthie wins. I cant have Jacob or Kaleigh winning it bc the evicted houseguests hate them as much as they hate me so I NEED to have them be an option for the renom thingy just in case that's the next veto choice. but literally every week as been so good for me and I'm happy like Kaleigh and I are the last two that haven't been nominated and even if I do get nominated before Kaleigh I can say I was the last good team member to be not nommed so :') but ya I think I'm doing swell but I'm literally such a big snake I rat everyone out and I'm playing so sneaky but what can ya do! as of now I'm not stressing out as much as I was prejury, I feel like ive done enough and have played a alright game that if I got evicted soon I wouldn't be THAT upset. honestly I kinda hope I'm a final nom soon bc I want to flip shit and expose everyone? idk I just feel like fighting people but anyway I thot Id update bc I'm bored!! but ya adios justin hehe he thinks I'm voting to keep him >.< [12/22/16, 10:18:25 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict justin justin- I'm sorry to see you go, i loved played with you and hopefully we can still be pals after this game!! rhea- if u see this and i highly doubt you will, i love you and I'm sososososo sorry you were evicted. i tried so hard to save you and i feel like i let you down. don't worry, i will get out all those RATS who voted you out. i love you:( [12/22/16, 1:48:55 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: alliance #12 . [12/22/16, 8:09:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/22/16, 8:09:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/22/16, 8:09:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/22/16, 8:11:29 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/22/16, 8:11:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: This message has been removed. [12/22/16, 8:15:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: OH WAIT [12/22/16, 8:15:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IS IT TOTAL SCORE [12/22/16, 8:15:31 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM [12/22/16, 8:15:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: OHH FUCK NVM [12/22/16, 8:16:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/fa78d9b744b015a9d1661c386595c393 [12/22/16, 8:16:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: hehe >.< [12/23/16, 9:11:23 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: MY KING JACOB WON AND ITS AN INSTANT EVICTION IM SO HAPPY IF HE PUTS ME UP U KNOW IM NOT HOSTING DW3 AND IM TAKING MY TWIST WITH ME. [12/23/16, 9:20:01 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]:  (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT JACOB WINNING HOH & THE COLOR OF VETO THIS WEEK? (sun) [12/23/16, 9:20:18 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i LOVE IT WOOHOOOOO [12/24/16, 2:06:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: rhea being active in the housechat? I love it [12/24/16, 11:50:25 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ok so i found out info [12/24/16, 11:51:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: apparently christian didn’t say anything about targeting jacob or wanting him out and RHEA TWISTED HER WORDS AND MADE CHRISTIAN PUBLIC ENEMY #1! [12/24/16, 11:51:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so i need to watch what i say around her, she probably will leak shit and i know she backstabs (other games she has) so i kinda need to just use her as a puppet rn, buttttt what can ya do [12/24/16, 11:52:09 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i might tell jacob that and get him to be against rhea but who knows what ill do!! [12/25/16, 12:12:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: ((festiveparty)) MERRY CHRISTMAS ((festiveparty))

Are ya’ll ready for a BRAND NEW SEASON OF DREAMWORLD?? THIS SEASON WILL HAVE NEW TWISTS AND TURNS NEVER SEEN BEFORE. YOU GUYS ARE IN FOR A WILD RIDE. DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO CLAIM THE TITLE OF WINNING BIG BROTHER DREAMWORLD 3? ((sun)) APPLY NOW:   https://goo.gl/forms/tOn0ZfJgB1A3mOFC2 (sun) [12/25/16, 12:13:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: STOP VFIOEVNTIJ [12/25/16, 12:56:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: VL DR: [12/25/16, 12:56:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (festiveparty) MERRY CHRISTMAS (festiveparty)

Are ya’ll ready for a BRAND NEW SEASON OF DREAMWORLD?? THIS SEASON WILL HAVE NEW TWISTS AND TURNS NEVER SEEN BEFORE. YOU GUYS ARE IN FOR A WILD RIDE. DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO CLAIM THE TITLE OF WINNING BIG BROTHER DREAMWORLD 3?

(sun) APPLY NOW:  https://goo.gl/forms/tOn0ZfJgB1A3mOFC2 (sun) [12/26/16, 10:39:19 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: don’t 4get to vote and do goodbyes! [12/26/16, 4:33:44 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict christian [12/26/16, 4:34:59 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: christian- i'm so sorry girl, i loved playing another game with you and it was so fun while it lasted. love you!! kaitlyn- sorry girl i love you!! [12/26/16, 11:57:42 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT THE EVICTION & WHAT IS YOUR PLAN MOVING FORWARD? (Sun) [12/26/16, 11:57:54 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: to die [12/26/16, 11:57:55 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: jk [12/26/16, 11:57:59 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I will make podcast lter [12/27/16, 1:58:20 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i tried to make podcast but it wouldn't record so i type [12/27/16, 2:04:56 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: okay so christian was just evicted and i'm kinda sad bc i did kinda have a f2 with her and we were really close and i feel like she was someone i could trust? like i knew she was a vote on my side but if i do make it to f2 i know she's a vote for me to win. as of now i'm not going to win hohs for AT LEAST until final 6. i'm in a really good position and u just can't win hoh bc i have no one to nominate. for this upcoming hoh i hope either carson, ruthie, rhea, or even connor will win just bc i know they wouldn't put me up. kaleigh CANNOT win any other hohs either just because in case of the vl vote or the evicted houseguests vote, she is eligible to be voted. i feel like she's more hated than i am so she'd be the one to go up (lowkey i also want to be the last one nominated). i just want to lay low and just chat with everyone and be social and seen as non threatening. but if i do play in a veto i will try rly hard to win it just to be safe ya know. but ya there's not much to chat about but woohoo i made it to single digits (party) [12/27/16, 7:42:18 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/2cd3534adee74e5e950af4bd64ecb009 [12/27/16, 7:42:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: bye just in case i sleep all day [12/27/16, 6:38:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://gyazo.com/0d6bcb472e81fbe3d8a4f7accb72e059 [12/27/16, 6:42:39 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: bye its not like I want to win [12/27/16, 6:42:45 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: BUT I LITERALLY CANT GET A HIGHER SCORE [12/27/16, 6:45:07 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: ur not a tru gamer gril anymore [12/27/16, 6:45:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: fuck u and agario [12/27/16, 7:01:17 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: ^^^ [12/27/16, 7:43:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [12/27/16, 7:43:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (cheers) DO YOU LIKE BIG BROTHER? ARE YOU READY TO TEST YOUR STRATEGY AND KNOWLEDGE OF THE GAME AND BE PITTED AGAINST 15 OTHER HOUSEGUESTS IN THE FIGHT FOR THE TITLE OF WINNER?

BIG BROTHER EGGPLANT IS CASTING FOR THE SECOND INSTALLMENT OF THE SERIES, AND FOR THIS SEASON WE’RE TRAVELING FROM THE GRAVEYARD UP TO HEAVEN.

IF YOU WANT A CHANCE TO GET CASTED AND PLAY IN AN EXCITING AND NEW SEASON, APPLY NOW (cheers)

Application https://goo.gl/forms/scxzflxMdenGWQDn2 Tumblr https://bigbrothereggplantheaven.tumblr.com [12/27/16, 7:43:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: [12/27/16, 7:43:27 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: (festiveparty) HAPPY HOLIDAYS (festiveparty)

Are y'all ready for a BRAND NEW SEASON OF DREAMWORLD?? THIS SEASON WILL HAVE NEW TWISTS AND TURNS NEVER SEEN BEFORE. YOU GUYS ARE IN FOR A WILD RIDE. DO YOU THINK YOU HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO CLAIM THE TITLE OF WINNING BIG BROTHER DREAMWORLD 3? (sun) APPLY NOW:  https://goo.gl/forms/tOn0ZfJgB1A3mOFC2 (sun) [12/27/16, 9:02:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT RHEA WINNING HOH & THE PLATINUM POV? (Sun) [12/27/16, 9:02:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I hate the platinum pov but hopefully Kaleigh will go up over me and I love queen rhea >.< [12/28/16, 10:15:28 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i'm going to sleep donut start veto without me if i sleep all day . [12/28/16, 10:15:37 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: unless i'm at like bottom of list [12/28/16, 10:15:52 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but i should b awake [12/28/16, 5:54:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i NEED TO WIN POV AND SAVE KALEIGH THIS IS NOT A DRILL THIS IS NOT A DRILL [12/28/16, 5:57:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but me being last one not nominated? not upset [12/28/16, 5:58:19 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: http://bigbrotherjohto.tumblr.com/post/155082532743/its-time-for-the-power-of-veto-competition [12/28/16, 5:58:22 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: veto [12/28/16, 6:02:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i have question [12/28/16, 6:02:35 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yes [12/28/16, 6:02:36 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :3 [12/28/16, 6:02:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: if i said i shoot jacob the first round [12/28/16, 6:02:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and then he died [12/28/16, 6:02:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: and then kaitlyn shoots jacob next s round [12/28/16, 6:03:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: what happen [12/28/16, 6:03:05 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: id use her round 3 [12/28/16, 6:03:07 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: move [12/28/16, 6:03:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: okioki [12/28/16, 6:27:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: round 1: i shoot the air round 2: i shoot myself round 3: i shoot kaitlyn round 4: i shoot kaleigh round 5: i shoot myself round 6: i shoot carson round 7: i shoot myself round 8: i shoot jacob round 9: i shoot the air round 10: i shoot ruthie [12/28/16, 8:08:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: baby jesus [12/28/16, 8:08:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: make Kaitlyn not win [12/28/16, 8:08:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: father son holy ghost [12/28/16, 8:40:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: GOD BLESS JESUS CHRIST [12/28/16, 8:40:14 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: WOOHOO [12/28/16, 8:41:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: [8:36:38 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: RUTHIE IM YELLING [8:36:42 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: YOU WON IM SO HAPPY [8:40:12 PM] Ruthie: OMG YES I AM SO HAPPY TOO!!!!!!! [8:40:25 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: GRENVFKJNGJRE YOU'RE NOT USING IT RIGHT? [8:40:47 PM] Ruthie: OMG OF COURSE NOT!!!! [8:41:04 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: I LOVE YOU GTRUIGHRTUIGI [8:41:08 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: IM SO HAPPPYYYYY [8:41:12 PM] julia rae [eggplant/dw3 host]: PHEW [12/28/16, 8:41:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I LOVE THOIS [12/28/16, 8:41:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: IM SO HAPPY [12/28/16, 8:41:32 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ADIOS KAITLYN~ [12/28/16, 8:41:37 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: SEE YA SUCKA! [12/28/16, 9:07:33 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: This message has been removed. [12/28/16, 9:07:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: did u not see [12/28/16, 9:07:44 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: what I just [12/28/16, 9:07:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: put above [12/28/16, 9:12:01 PM] Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host]: fat [12/29/16, 6:18:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict kaitlyn [12/29/16, 6:18:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: kaleigh- adios sucka [12/29/16, 6:19:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: kaitlyn- i'm sorry you went so soon, i enjoyed playing another game with you although you probably hate me but i genuinely wasn't coming after you. i love you lots and i'm gonna miss u [12/29/16, 6:20:17 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: tysm [12/29/16, 6:22:25 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: ha sucks pre jury didn't chance to fuck up not being nominated streak >: D [12/29/16, 8:08:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I'm dyslexic [12/29/16, 8:08:30 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: +2? 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nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT CONNOR WINNING HOH? (sun) [12/30/16, 7:17:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i love it my king [12/30/16, 7:48:57 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: connor said i'm 100% safe (inlove) [12/30/16, 7:49:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: am i in final 7? tune in in like 3 days [12/31/16, 7:30:33 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://bumpers.fm/e/b1jq9itst0r002tlcvlg [12/31/16, 7:30:43 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: podcast number 3 . [12/31/16, 10:14:13 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: :O [12/31/16, 6:36:04 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: throwing jacob under the bus to show connor that i'm loyal to him? you betcha [12/31/16, 8:24:38 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: http://lovely-fascination.tumblr.com/post/155228468486/help-julia-rae-with-this-johto-pov-and-give-it [1/1/17, 1:00:51 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: u kno imma be there ;) [1/1/17, 1:09:27 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: RUTHIE IS REBLOGGING MINE AND TRYING TO GET ME TO WIN I- [1/1/17, 1:09:30 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: I DONT WANNA WIN [1/1/17, 4:08:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i feel so bad that carson and jacob rly want me to win to use it on them [1/1/17, 4:08:07 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: like i feel so bad [1/1/17, 4:08:30 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: idk not winning feels like i'm letting them down [1/1/17, 4:08:53 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: but veto can't be used bc one of them has to go [1/1/17, 12:43:49 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: me to jacob and carson: donut worry!! i will reblog all day tomorrow, i am WINNING THIS!!! [1/1/17, 12:44:00 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: also me: https://gyazo.com/c019d5ceeaa1a3c9f1f5d1a39feafc5d [1/1/17, 1:05:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://bumpers.fm/e/b1kk9dmcp1ug02p41n2g [1/1/17, 1:05:42 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: podcast #4 . [1/1/17, 3:46:04 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: yas mama !!! [1/1/17, 10:02:32 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) HOW DO YOU FEEL ABOUT MATTHIAS WINNING POV (sun) [1/1/17, 10:46:26 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: how the hell [1/1/17, 11:28:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i don’t think he using it so im good [1/1/17, 11:28:08 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i talked him out of it [1/1/17, 11:28:13 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i love jesus [1/1/17, 11:33:51 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: (sun) MAKE SURE YOU HAVE READ THIS ANNOUNCEMENT (Sun)

http://bigbrotherjohto.tumblr.com/post/155236329183/houseguests-please-gather-in-the-living [1/1/17, 11:34:50 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i did u freak [1/1/17, 11:34:57 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: good. [1/1/17, 11:35:00 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: just MAKING SURE [1/1/17, 11:35:02 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: my sleeping schedule is WILD SO IDK IF ILL BE AWAKE FOR THE DE [1/1/17, 11:35:12 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: donut worry . i will make sure [1/1/17, 11:37:54 PM] veronica [ johto host ]: https://gyazo.com/50ab498c50e9cde06f276d6f82d954e5 [1/2/17, 2:28:41 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host] has ejected Crackdt Ass Elijah [BBJohto Host] from this conversation [1/3/17, 5:00:07 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Muppet Mojis © 2015 The Muppets Studio [1/3/17, 5:04:08 AM] veronica [ johto host ]: r u walking >.< [1/3/17, 5:04:40 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: no that was at elijah >.< [1/3/17, 9:31:15 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: Charlotte’s Web Watch now © Paramount Pictures [1/3/17, 5:45:56 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ring ring [1/3/17, 5:46:11 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i vote to evict carson [1/3/17, 5:49:01 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: goodbye messages carson- i'm really upset that you're leaving, i wish i could've done more to save you. it was so much fun while it lasted and i'm glad i got to meet you:) jacob- if you see this, then that probably meets everyone FLIPPED ON ME but i love you and i'm so sorry you were evicted and i wish i could've done more to save you. playing this game with you was so much fun and i'm glad it brought us closer:-) [1/3/17, 6:13:21 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: can i be on mobile for the special eviction [1/3/17, 6:14:58 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: no [1/3/17, 6:15:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: im [1/3/17, 6:15:10 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: i want to die [1/3/17, 6:15:20 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: i mean you can but it might put you at a disadvantage [1/3/17, 6:15:33 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: fuck my GAYASS FUCKING INTERNET [1/3/17, 7:20:22 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: "julia, how do you feel about possibly being evicted in tonight's double eviction?" [1/3/17, 7:20:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [1/3/17, 8:41:06 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr from jury: FUCK RHEA [1/3/17, 8:45:33 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: luv u [1/4/17, 2:05:02 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr: 5 hours later and i still hate rhea [1/4/17, 6:02:13 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://bumpers.fm/e/b1mdc0tb9lig02o68ms0 [1/4/17, 6:02:17 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: rip:( [1/4/17, 6:02:21 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: last podcast [1/4/17, 8:15:09 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: ive already started typing up my speech and my jury drag for the finale 😎 [1/4/17, 11:11:47 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: B) [1/7/17, 1:28:41 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: wing wong ding dong [1/7/17, 1:28:55 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: pandora box me in so i can fight someone [1/7/17, 1:28:58 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: jsut kidding [1/7/17, 1:29:03 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: rig rhea out [1/7/17, 1:29:07 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: so i can fight her in jury [1/7/17, 3:19:19 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: https://68.media.tumblr.com/b2feff61ab1b588e542a2ed0bd9777ca/tumblr_ojeatwWKnB1vl6jy9o2_400.gif [1/7/17, 3:19:37 PM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: SSTOP [1/7/17, 3:26:05 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr from jury: [1/7/17, 3:26:28 PM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: kaleigh after i was evicted in the double https://68.media.tumblr.com/b2feff61ab1b588e542a2ed0bd9777ca/tumblr_ojeatwWKnB1vl6jy9o2_400.gif [1/8/17, 2:38:47 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: knock knock [1/8/17, 2:38:56 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: who’s there [1/8/17, 2:38:57 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: Image [1/8/17, 2:38:58 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: let me in [1/8/17, 2:39:01 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: STOP [1/8/17, 3:40:14 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: vl dr from jury: [1/8/17, 3:40:25 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: kaleigh right now https://twitter.com/drunkbythebeach/status/812045055066329089 [1/8/17, 3:40:48 AM] nicholas [sbbott|dw3 host]: lksmdflkmdsf [1/8/17, 4:18:08 AM] julia rae [dreamworld3 host]: On 11/20/16, at 5:55 PM, julia rae [dreamworld3 host] wrote: > vl dr: http://66.media.tumblr.com/3b900c0a08620f253cc423f3cc44f8f5/tumblr_nqkx4piB5S1us9822o1_500.jpg me trying to find 1 ounce of feminism in johto