#i cant wait to see their healthier dynamic

[cregan-starks]

not me being in another tab while historic events unfold on tumblr dot com 💀 first of all, AAAAAAAAHHHHH!! I'm so, so, so glad that you enjoyed the fic, darling!! My heart is so warm and full 🥺🥺🥺

ive never been an aemond girl... but you're writing him so so well and im just 👀 hes so crazyyyyy  

welcome to the club!! who can resist a pathetic meow meow who commits crimes?

THE SUCCESSION REFERENCE KILLED ME, I love that show so much!!

#missinglukehours is so real omg 😭

the takeaway from this fic is that EVERYONE WILL YEARN!!

jesus christ do you want me to pass out ih my god

don't pass out!! you're doing great!!

yes bc what crazy ass blood supremacist kool-aid the valyrians are on.... visenya is so real for this

Visenya a comrade fr lmaooo

the agenda will always be bearded Cregan, and bearded Cregan will always be on the agenda!!

you write him so incredibly well i have to love him

goodness, thank you so much!! 🧎🏻 I was aiming for a mix of book!Aemond and show!Aemond (perfectly balanced lol), so I'm glad you were into it as well!!

^^ us earlier talking abt musk lmao

this SENT me, that's so true. the anti musk brigade never sleeps

ALYN YOU WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS!!! LOVE

you might be the first reader who doesn't dislike / hate him, so I applaud you 😭

the dynamic is so genuine and i just love the way you cultivated their trust and devotion and strategic respect its... like its so refreshing and so lovely

yaaay, thank you!! her relationship with Cregan is meant to symbolise something new and free, something that very much empowers her AND frightens her at the same time. in the iconic words of Cher, is there life after love?

im sick this is such a good few lines. god i love this so much its so poetic hes a POET... YOURE a poet

no, YOU are a poet! I do believe Cregan has a latent romantic / soft side... and it manifests only when he wants it to :')

once again she GETS it! she's the only one here (in the tent with two people) with a level head istg and shes so done with this mindset

it's the trauma 😩 no, tbh, I see it as Visenya having the privilege of fostering these views. she suffers from eldest daughter syndrome, she's hella stubborn (and low-key power-hungry), but her upbringing and her dynamic with her family were definitely healthier than Aemond's with his own family. her closeness with some of the Green kids (especially Aemond) also allowed her to sympathise with them. NEVERTHELESS, Visenya supports her mother's claim, firmly believes that the Blacks are in the right in this war, and tries to adapt to the most recent wave in the cycle of enmity and violence

another Succession reference, hell yes!!

anyways there was not a single part of this i did not absolutely adore. geopolitics. incredibly written, genuine dialogue. delicious smut.

geopolitics my beloved!! I always recite the dialogue out loud to check if it sounds real 😬 also omg you're so kind to say that, it's literally the first time I wrote and posted smut 🙈

incredibly developed and designed OC as well as other characters - i love visenya <3

I'm SO happy that you love Visenya!! she's my precious little pookie 😔

im in awe of your skill bb! like jaw dropped, i cant believe your brain. i patiently and excitedly await the next part & in the meantime can't wait to gush with u all about this! ur so incredible and this is ART! cannot express enough how great this is.

MY GOD, thank you so, so, so much for taking the time to read and to comment, and thank you so much for all your praise!! it genuinely means the world to me 🥺🥺🥺 I'm beyond ecstatic that you like my writing and the fic!! obviously, I can't wait to gush with you!! 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻

Flames of Deceit

Summary: Aemond and Visenya reunite amidst the Dance of the Dragons.

Words: 13,005

Pairings: Aemond Targaryen x OC, Cregan Stark x OC

Warnings:canon-typical incest (Aemond and Visenya are cousins, as well as uncle and niece), book and show spoilers, Westerosi geopolitics, mentions of imperialism and slavery, canon-typical violence, war, blood and gore, fire and burning, mass death, mention of amputation, mentions of torture and captivity, mentions and threats of execution and physical harm, mentions of poverty and starvation, parental neglect, food and eating, alcohol and drinking, sexism, victim blaming, slut-shaming, ableist language, explicit language, nudity, smut (vaginal sex in flashbacks), unresolved sexual tension, grief/mourning, trauma, angst, hurt/comfort, survivor guilt, mutual pining, emotional/psychological abuse, verbal abuse, mentions of pregnancy, childbirth, miscarriage, and death in childbirth, mentions of child/infant death, mentions of infidelity. If I missed any warnings, please let me know!Under no circumstances can you copy, plagiarize, steal my work, or post it somewhere else!

Notes: This totally didn’t take me almost 7 months to write. Cregan Stark is the protagonist of Fire & Blood. Rise, Cregan nation. My OC Visenya is Rhaenyra’s and Daemon’s daughter, and Jace’s older twin. Superfecundation, baby. Visenya and Jace are born in 111 AC, not 114 AC. The Battle in the Gullet still occurs in 130 AC, soon after the events of this one-shot. Reblogs and comments are encouraged and immensely appreciated. If this does well, I’ll post a reader version.

Credits: Huge thank you to my betas @maharani-radha-writes 💛 @aereth 💖 and @shewhomustbecalledking 🩶, and to @haystack-boy @lavendertales��@buttercup–bee @agirllovespancakes and @oloreaa for their constant patience and support. It means a lot, and I’m immensely grateful. Apart from my OC Visenya, all characters belong to George R.R. Martin. Gif by @aemondtargaryensource (x)

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EARLY 130 AC

HARRENHAL, THE RIVERLANDS

          The sheer immensity of Harrenhal had provoked dizziness in Visenya. She had heard the story innumerable times. For four decades, King Harren Hoare had built greedily and obsessively, sacrificing thousands of slaves, and beggaring the riverlands and the Iron Islands. The indestructible construction had been no match for Balerion, whose fire had consumed the tyrant and his sons inside it, ending their line. Most Westerosi believed that the phantoms of the Hoares wandered the castle halls. The fortress is costly to maintain, and it devours its possessors. Qoherys, Harroway, Towers… All extinct. Whether cursed or not, Harrenhal remained a strategic location – the largest castle in the Seven Kingdoms.

          The current castellan – Larys Clubfoot’s great-uncle – Ser Simon Strong had recently surrendered Harrenhal to Daemon Targaryen. The presence of Caraxes might have contributed to his hasty decision. Following the victory at the Burning Mill and the subsequent submission of Stone Hedge – terminating Green strength in the riverlands – Queen Rhaenyra’s allies had commenced their gathering at Harrenhal, in accordance with the Prince Consort’s stratagem.

          Visenya had departed Dragonstone on the same night that Daemon had summoned her, having been granted safe passage by the Velaryon ships patrolling the Gullet. At the outbreak of the war, the Sea Snake’s fleet had closed off Blackwater Bay, choking trade to and from the capital.

          As soon as she had dismounted her dragon in the castle yard, she had sensed the eerie ambience that had haunted Harrenhal’s colossal curtain walls and fissured, melted towers. Formidable and dreadful. Harren’s monument and tomb. Blackwing had responded to Caraxes’ fervent shriek with her own, flapping her wings at him. Happy to be reunited.

          Her father had offered her a warm welcome and a tight embrace, had even insisted that she sit on his war council, wherein she had befriended Alysanne Blackwood, whom she had grown quite fond of.

          At last, Visenya had thought, on the morning that Daemon had sent for her. Though she loved him dearly, her father hadn’t invited her there because he had missed his daughter. Visenya had met with Daemon alone, in the Hall of the Hundred Hearths – she had counted thirty-five – grander than the throne room in King’s Landing, the discolored ceiling looming loftily above them. Her father had donned his chain mail over his crimson tunic.

          Does he sleep in that? Or am I the threat?

          ‘Ser Crispin and the Kinslayer are marching on Harrenhal,’ Daemon had informed her, instead of “good morrow”, pressing a rolled parchment into her palm, ‘They mean to join forces with the Lannisters’, at Stoney Sept.’

          Her heart had jolted at the mere mention of his title. Aemond… At the Usurper’s farce of a coronation that the Hightowers had compelled her to attend – dressed in green – Visenya had kissed him farewell, forsaking any glimmer of hope for a future with him. I have demonstrated where my loyalties lie. I have chosen my family.

          Her lilac eyes had skimmed over the scrawled message on the sheepskin, the wax sigil foreign to her. The White Worm?

          ‘You are strangely poised,’ Visenya had observed, suspicious, studying her father’s amused expression.

          ‘I’ve been waiting for this,’ he had confirmed, smirking wickedly, curling his hand around the hilt of sheathed Dark Sister. Another one of his traps… and he’s pulling me into it. Daemon had gently cradled her cheek, purring, ‘I have a mission for you, sweetling.’

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[telehxhtrash]

This right here. This specific sentence. To me, Togashi wrote Chimera Ant arc for the sole purpose of fixing this. Because it was clear this unhealthy dynamic was never gonna work.

What would happen if Killua couldn’t bring himself to stay cool and stop Gon?

What would happen if Gon didn’t listen to Killua and couldn’t snap out of his stubborness ? 

The answer is easy : CAA would happen.

Togashi wrote both Gon and Killua with one major character flaw that was always gonna prevent them from standing on equal footing. Gon’s impulsiveness and Killua’s self-loathing. And to me, CAA was meant to break them down in the worst possible way. It was meant to make them go through the most traumatic and painful event they could find themselves in, so they could fix this unhealthy dynamic.

CAA demonstrates what happens when that co-dependent dynamic of Gon relying on Killua to keep him calm and Killua having to keep Gon in check fails.

It shows what happens when Gon’s stubborness and guilt for being weak prevents him from listening to Killua trying to reason him.

It shows what happens when Killua’s broken sense of worth and his feelings of inferiority prevent him from taking action against Gon’s impulsiveness.

Early CAA, Killua had this “wow” moment where he realizes just how much he cares for Gon, but instead of making him stronger, it only fuels his self-loathing. He can’t help but feel unworthy of staying by Gon’s side, can’t help but feel inferior in every way possible compared to this sunshine boy. And that’s why he couldn’t bring himself to do “his job” at keeping Gon calm. Because his love for Gon reached new heights, and so did his self-loathing. He let his fear of losing Gon overcome him, afraid that if he confronted him he would lose him. So the best solution was to be complacent in Gon’s craziness, because following him blindly to the pits of hell was better than losing him.

But Gon always relied on Killua to keep him calm. Because it’s Killua’s job. Gon knows he can rely on Killua to stop him when he goes too far, and that’s why he lets his impulsiveness take control : because Killua unknowingly enabled his behavior. And sadly, Gon relying on Killua to stop him is what caused Gon’s breakdown. Because when Killua failed to do “his job”, Gon was left to spiral until it was too late to turn back. Because he let all his negative emotions build up, carrying everything on his shoulders, trusting that Killua would stop him if he went too far. But Killua couldn’t bring himself to stop him. And when Killua finally found the courage to intervene, finally found the courage to call Gon out on his bullshit, it was too late. Gon couldn’t be reasoned anymore.

Killua realized that he was already losing Gon at this point, and that he should stand up to him, but he couldn’t reach him anymore. Their co-dependent relationship failed the both of them.

So yeah, in my opinion, CAA's main purpose was to break down Killua and Gon’s unhealthy co-dependent dynamic so they could build a new, healthier one. Its main purpose was to put a stop to that “I say crazy stuff and you stop me” dynamic. It was meant to deconstruct the unhealthiest part of their relationship, so they could come back to each other better.

And yeah, it was painful to watch everything go down in flames, to watch both of them suffer because of this dynamic. But it only means that the next time we see them, they’ll be stronger, because it can only go up from here.

Killua will have learned that he should not hesitate to call Gon out on his bullshit because he’s not gonna lose him for it.

Gon will have learned that he can’t always rely on Killua to keep him calm, and that he should be able to control his own impulsiveness.

Because of the events CAA, they’ll have found a new, healthy balance. One where co-dependency doesn’t sit at the center of the table. One where Killua understands he’s worthy of staying by Gon’s side, and one where Gon doesn’t let his impulsiveness take over at the cost of everything else.

[fuck-goes-on]

Sire Max Phillips and Baby Bat Eddie

warning/s: slight blood, bad vampire lore, fluff, eventual father-son dynamic

note/s: this was just supposed to be a normal talk post but then i turned it into a headcanon because i actually want this to be a thing

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gifs belong to @javier-pena and @artemiseamoon

we all know max phillips is one big giant bloodsucking bastard that fucking turned the whole office into vampires with or without their consent because, i dont fucking know, sales??

and of course we all know eddie, our baby freshman, is a cute lil psychology major who liked buffy because she was nice to him but unfortunately died two times BECAUSE of her??

what if these two very different characters were in the same universe 🤔

imagine one night eddie just couldn’t handle the bloodlust anymore— he’s been holding that part of himself back because he doesn’t want to be a monster— but it got to be too much and he was forced to go out and find someone to drink from.

at this point, eddie looks like utter shit. he’s thin, pale, eyes are sunken and black, and his fangs are out. he’s dizzy, he’s stumbling, and nobody is around for him to attack.

eventually he collapses from exhaustion and hunger. if there were people who saw him, they probably thought him to be a homeless person and didn’t bother to help.

this is when max finds him, i dont know how he finds him but he does ok dont question it.

at first max doesn’t give a shit, why would he? he doesn’t owe any other vampire anything, so why should he care about this young vampire who probably feels like hes going to die again which he definitely does not know how it feels because of his own sire that left him to fend for himself with no knowledge of being a vampire-

oh

well

max reluctantly carries the poor bat up on his back and reluctantly speeds to his apartment to reluctantly give the boy a bag of donated blood. when eddie stirs from the scent of it, max watches him sink his fangs into the bag and fucking gulp the whole thing down.

no it does not make him happy that the boy is looking significantly healthier and better than how he found him.

after eddie eats his fill, he finally realises that he has company and is very scared but also relieved. scared because thats his natural reaction whenever hes with somebody he doesnt know (also because hes in the house of somebody he doesnt know) but hes relieved because this older vampire helped him and maybe will continue to help him.

HOWEVER max is allergic to feelings and emotions so he kicks eddie out after making sure the kid is ok.

jokes on him tho, eddie follows max around like a lost puppy. he doesn’t know anybody else who’s a vampire and he can’t really go up and ask people if they are without them thinking he’s delusional, so OF COURSE hes gonna attach himself to the only 'role model' he knows.

max hates it. max hates that the kid keeps knocking on his door to stay at his place. max hates that the kid looks like a sad baby bat whenever he refuses to let him in. max hates that he lets the kid in at the first sight of his pout. max hates that he shares his blood supply, that he pays cash money for, to this kid who doesn’t even want to learn how to hunt like a proper vampire. most of all, max hates how he’s getting soft for the damn kid.

one day, eddie asks if there were more vampires than him and max, and max goes like, dude how the fuck do you think we became vampires in the first place???

so max brings eddie to his work place to show him around (bring your child to work day) and how the whole office is turned into vampires, like his own little coven of bats, and eddie is both amazed and terrified.

“so... you turned everybody in the office?”

“well not everybody, but only the ones i know will do a better job once they are one.”

“they all listen to you? depend on you?”

“well, i am their boss and their sire, so they really have no choice.”

“... do i have a sire?”

“... yes and no.”

cue sad eyes from eddie because he realises that the person who was responsible for turning him was supposed to help him but didn’t.

max has a sudden surge of anger directed to his baby bat’s sire, how dare they leave him behind all alone without any—

hold on

his baby bat?

fuck

it takes a few days for max to come to terms that he now sees this adorable, too good for this world boy somehow as his... son... but then he remembered how hard it was for him back when he first changed that he had nobody to lean onto.

now he has the opportunity to be that solid pillar for the boy to go to whenever he’s afraid or confused.

no he wasn't tearing up at the thought of having a son because he had always wanted a family of his own and cant have it anymore due to his immortality.

when he brings up the idea of becoming eddie's sire, at first eddie was like, you can do that?? how?? and THEN eddie was like, wait, you wanna be my sire 🥺?

"how does that even work?"

"you just drink from me."

"but we don't have blood? our hearts are dead."

"no shit sherlock."

little bit about that is max feeds naturally, as in hunt down a human and drink from them, and then eddie has to bite max and drink that blood from him.

dont fucking question it.

so they do the whole shebang shebang, now max has officially adopted taken eddie under his bat wing.

if max thought eddie was clingy when they first met, it doesn't compare to eddie actually having that close bond with max and always wanting to be with or around the older vamp.

and they lived happily ever after until the end of time 😌

just kidding :-))

general taglist: @stillshelbs @pedroepascal

[loveijun]

Can we hear your thoughts on KnT Soulmate? English chapter 7 just got released yesterday.

omg hii 🧞‍♀️ ill probably talk a lot more about it later when i read the new chapter but these are some of my thoughts 💗 1 im so glad kurumi gets her own story because after the whole situation with her and sawako in high school, they had such a weird but delicate balance of friendship and i became curious abt what would happen with kurumi later on but the story moves past it and we have to forget about her sadly... 2 i just think the soulmate chapters are amazing and beautiful and I HAVE TO MENTION that it basically confirmed for me that ms karuho shiina did in fact do the questioning of sexuality type of undertone throughout the manga on purpose.. it didnt start off with the typical kurumi and eiji falling in love but with kurumi and sawako being together + kurumi in this umm head space where she's thinking of sawako from so many different perspectives (romantically 💖‼️, as a rival and a peer to learn from, a monumental figure in her life since sawako basically helped her grow as a person and guided her unknowingly to a much healthier mindset, and a close friend she actually felt comfortable with for the first time since elementary school) and coming to the conclusion they are soulmates regardless of anything else. it's also obviously kurumi's personal redemption story but not as some evil villain becoming good... she was never really evil but just a very misguided teenager who at the time made decisions with consequences. this is her chance to... almost like what happened to ayane when she finally let herself go (not a 1-time complete healing but the beginning of it: she took a step out her shell and stopped devaluing herself for deserving love) and redeemed herself in her own mind - is what im waiting for in this series for kurumi. she's confident and loves herself somewhat but is constantly quesitoning her motives, thinking she didnt deserve to be forgiven, and is full of doubt so she clashes constantly in her mind and ends up numbing her sense of urgency, gentleness, and care when dealing with herself. i really want her to cherish herself as fast as possible but she cant just overcome it on her own (omg that theme keeps coming back - you can't grow [to love yourself] in solitude) and it's lacking for her to just suddenly become better when a guy shows up and at the same time rush a discovery process like that so i really love the bit with sawako in the beginning. alsoo i cannot forget im so happy and proud that sawako matured from her intial earnest but unsettling awkwardness to a hmm not mellowed but a more transparent ease with communication and presenting herself while still retaining her honest character. i love love loveee the fact that shes also a lot more secure with kazehaya and when i saw them joking around with each other i had to pause for a moment bc in the beginning shes such a precious and selfless person and that's great and all but she didn't believe in herself at all.. like when the high school class pulled the dating prank on her the way she handled it is hard to watch and very telling of how she sees herself.. she underestimates gestures of love towards her as mere kindness and at the same time overestimates the effort she needs to put in to repay it while also setting a thick boundary and voluntarily putting herself on a level lower than others. but the way that she's now able to understand favors that ought to be repaid, the difference between that and a gift - defined a thing given willingly to someone without payment, helping others without hurting yourslef, being a healthy amount of selfish and etc ❤️ i cant get enough. she even set up a blind date for kurumi can you imagine how far we've come??? now for when eiji appears i was just observing in the beginnig but i love his personality so much it feels like he was gonna be a classic romance mc just rude and insufferable or a stuffy/overbearing kind of nice but his moments of vulnerability and unpredicatability are GENIUS bc kurumi has never met someone like this before (she gets so flustered and is so cute when shes around him sometimes

i feel like crying aww). oimg and i cant forget how interesting this is just becasue its a college setting and not highschool so its more (i hate reusing words 💢 but mature is the word and theres more oppurtunity for things and various situations i think. 'real' dates and staying over at each other's place... and i want to see them in those^ types of situations so badly but i dont think we'll see much 💔). also their dynamic is everything i love how unique their character is and shes (the author) definitely put a lot of effort into every single one of her characters but i did not expect her to give eiji that much depth (i know hes from one of her other works and i need to read it soon and i want to know what happened before he met her so bad 😭.....) ^like at all. i dont have much more to say but i hope kazehaya shows up and meets them all again bc im want their reactions, and i think kurumi is so adorable and eiji is the hottest guy of the series excluding sanada. the end 💗

[9noryn]

New answers!!

From questions asked in the ask-the-incuwives channel in the Seduce Me Discord Server!

From abil:  if your husbands had to stay in the abyssal plains after the events of the war, how would you feel? would you be okay with it?

Noryn would pack up and move with him lmao she's not attached to places, more so people so; of course there has to be a lot of talking and planning together, but she's pretty down to continue making things work from the plains side. She wouldn't have to worry about being found by Angels and get obliterated, big plus. She'd miss her sigil witch brother and her friends in the human world though; but she'll easily think about video calls and gaming and visits. The big make or break would be whether she can get hooked up with high speed internet in the abyssal plains

wait i just realized... the abyssal plains doesn't have internet yet

noryn's not gonna like this one bit; neither would matthew 

two gamers, in a dimension without games

((first order of business is to invent internet and get connected to human world, the first demon world hacker))

Bonus:

Midnight: Noryn starting up a tiktok channel for tiktoks in the Abyssal Plains that only the incubi and the wives see LOL

Midnight: no, she vlogs

Zio: hey demons its ya boi

More under the break!

From tkdigiboy: how would you react if one of the boy's ex-bf/gf or 'playmates'(sex for energy) came to visit or hang. would you let your husband do a one time fling for energy?

noryn's been friends with her exes, and their exes; so as long as things are chill, it's just like meeting anyone else from someone's social circle. it only gets weird if it's like... this person distracts matthew away from noryn a lot or otherwise gets in between her interactions with him

e_e they don't even have to be past lovers, anyone that does that will get on noryn's nerves and make her go on a jealous gifting spree, where in a fit of jealous frustration she buys a bunch of very thoughtful gifts for matthew to give to him later

regarding the one-time fling: emergency sure; but like, consent and all is one time and case specific

like if matthew is blowing up noryn's phone like "iM dY INNg OF SEX STarVaTION AND yOu'RE IN THE HUMAN WORLD" she'd be like ? ?? ? bE SAfe FIRST AND WE CAN TALK LATER

From Kantah: ooh what are the wives' hobbies? :0

Noryn hobbies: being an internet gremlin; tea brewing, drink mixing, bartending/barista; dabbling in potion making

From tkdigiboy: To noryn/zio: how well do you get along with simon and his wife?

pretty well!! though she thinks of simon and simone as mika's pets so whenever she visits mika she likes to try to befriend them and get matthew to play with him :>  simon's a lot less of a rascal when noryn can give him the attention he seeks

From Diva:  how long does it take Noryn to find out Divana’s favorite bubble tea since she cant magically know like usual [cause she’s a collective ton of different personalities]

Diva: Zio wait how long does it take for Noryn to figure out Divana's fav bubble tea after she god damn blue screens

Noryn: -sits there with window xp error noises going off in her brain-

Divana: I think this one died

Zio: poor baby; noryn would probably just blindfold herself and randomly mix ingredients and hope for the best. serving a chaos demon aint easy

Diva: Especially when Noryn Knows Alot of Things™️

From dari_baguls:  Idk if this is more for Zio or Noryn buuuut do you really have the cat stalkings Noryn wears in the game? I cried when I saw Noryn cause I also have the same stalkings and also (at the time) had short hair TvT just wanna know for research purposes

i do have them irl! Her outfit is based off of what i wore when the game was being made

She’d look like this in present day

Gotta refresh noryn’s design cause it’s very undergrad student vs her now working bartending professional :9

From Diva:  Oh no Noryn and Divana in the same room fucking around with potions

Zio: POTIONS POTIONS POTIONS in carrie's kitchen no less

Diva: Many things went wrong that day

Diva: M a n y

Zio:

Noryn: "can i come over to make sum poshuns" 

Carrie: "Of course,you dork"

Noryn: "Also Divana will help" 

Carrie:

Diva: 

Read at 3:45 pm

Zio: 

Noryn: "henlo? carrie u ther"

From tkdigiboy: Question to zio and kary: how do you 2 handle your husbands when their doing their usual routine towards eachother

Karygurl: Start making bets, make popcorn :D

Zio: when sam and matthew bicker; noryn stands aside and lets them get through their system if it's between them specifically; otherwise she's a participant in the bickering LOL they're a lot like rascally friends, and noryn is also a shit starter 

Zio: i headcanon that iri or twila like to occasionally stir the pot, like drop a small [controversial hot take] and watch the boys mcfreakin lose it

sam, matthew and noryn are all competitive casual gamers shit's going down there's no allegiances

From ☁bunny☁: jumpin in here: for all of the incuwives creators, especially zio n kary, how do you guys feel about people writing about ur ocs in their own stories? or drawing them? im writing my own interpretation of the story with my self insert and i love carrie and noryn dearly and would love to include them (and the other incuwives) but id only wanna do it if its cool with their creators first !

Karygurl: I mean please do!! I bookmark and save EVERYTHING that has even a tiny whiff of Carrie in it, I'm honored anyone would want to include her in anything ever

Zio: im flattered if your inspired to write in or draw my characters!! let me know if you want to collab too

Zio: do it do it; shout outs and cameos give me life

Karygurl: SAME Zio

Zio: plus if there's no story conflict, im down to adopt new dynamics/lore/etc from what people create

From Mari: What kind of things would you do to make your husband laugh?

To laugh? noryn would be an utter fool lmao and tell him an embarrassing story about herself (she's had a whopping 9 lives worth, there's no end to headass decisions and shenanigans when it comes to her); something like 

Noryn: "Babe have you seen our dog" 

Matthew, pouty but still hanging in there: "Huh? She's in the other room, right?" 

Noryn: "Now watch this. Bijo, cuddle attack!!" 

Distant pitpattering on the tile gets closer until Bijo, the apron wearing shibe, gets ready to jump with a soft woof

Bijo full-body slams into noryn

oh my god, noryn would do unintentional slapstick when trying to show matthew some new trick or skill

tkdigiboy to zio: pet peeve with matthew

probably him being a touch too open-minded and overly generous with his time to the point that he wears himself super super thin and tired. he's kind of that extreme of being too self-sacrificing? 

Noryn reminds him that he doesn't owe everyone he comes in contact with that kind of life-changing attention and focus, especially if those people take advantage of his kindness.

Noryn is very much "i have limited time and energy in this one body, I focus on saving the one person I can" whereas Matthew is the "I want to brighten everyone's day, and give them what I didn't have or give them something only I can provide"

While they have similar tastes and interests, their perspectives help the other grow into a healthier, better person.

[fairycosmos]

babes you always give such good advice and i just need to vent. ive never had any sort of romantic relationship with anyone. like never even talked to a guy while all my friends are in relationships or seeing someone and i can’t help but feel like im unlovable and that im gonna be alone forever even though i know im still young (19) i cant help the feeling that im never gonna have anyone :(( xx

hey angel. honestly i know it's an extremely isolating experience and i can definitely relate to an extent. i think it's really common to feel this way, people just don't like to talk about it bc we all want to be loveable. but you have to try and remember that so much depends on good timing and coincidence, among other things. it's not necessarily a 'you' problem. when you have low self esteem you'll always be inclined to think otherwise, but ultimately romantic validation from others means nothing if it's not based on an actual fulfilling relationship. and those take time to foster and find. you're the same age as me, and it's a weird panicky place to be. but the positive is there's so many people waiting in your future, so much my inevitable change ahead. point is there's too much nuance to truly believe that it's somehow your fault that you're single, as if that's even something to feel guilty about in the first place. of course, it's completely natural to crave intimacy and love. and it's actually really beautiful to be so willing to embrace it, but there's genuinely no rush. i get that relationships are really pushed as the be all end all, we're taught from a young age that everything is leading up to finding your soulmate. but there is so much beyond that. it's way healthier to develop yourself and your own life because then when you do find the right person, you'll be capable of creating a healthy dynamic. you'll be who you need to be in order to fall in love in a sustainable way. look, it just seems like everyone else is dating right now because they settle for shallow connections out of insecurity and fear. a lot of it won't work out. and sure, maybe you just want even the opportunity to meet someone, but again that often depends on factors that are beyond your control. unless you like, get on tindr and actively seek it, though im not sure that would fulfill you in the way you want...... anyway you're allowed to process hurt and disappointment, especially in periods of isolation. but trying to cope in a healthy way, and understanding that self blame (in this context) is a total illusion, will make a difference. you're a bright, warm beautiful person regardless of whether or not anyone's witnessing it in this moment. you are loveable, you have been loved by so many definitions, you are more than you realize. and just because a very specific type of romance is not happening right now, doesn't mean it never will. it's probably hard to truly apply that mindset to your own life if you've spent so long thinking there's something wrong with you because of lack of dating experience, but im telling you straight up that it's normal. it's okay. it doesn't indicate anything about your future, your personality or your worth. it may take some time before you're able to come to terms, and that's alright. there's no rule book and for most people, learning to find assurance from within is a process. but you can work on it every single day, even in little subconscious ways. this is just a moment in your life, and not necessarily a bad one. at some point you may long for the days you were 19, and learning and free. you're always going to be deserving of love and connection regardless of the arbitrary standards you judge yourself by, ok? i hope you feel a bit better about it all soon and that you're able to work on finding confidence and companionship through numerous avenues. let me know if you need a friend or if you want to talk ever. i'll be rooting for you babes 💌 Xx

[lucymarion]

Your ivy grows and now i'm covered in you

I found out that joonie tagged yoongi in a cat so i decided to share to you that my yoongi cat has been getting fatter !!!! I love her sm good for her here's some pics:

She's getting so much active too like she sleeps and sleeps when theres daylight and when night comes she gets so annoying LMAO she keeps on carrying roaches on our bed like !!!! Girl STOP

But even if she does that i still love her progress. She was so thin befote getting spayed because she just delivered 4 kitties and now she's getting healthier!!! Love that for her

I watche euphoria today! I watched episodes 5 and 6 today and it was great. I love zendaya sm her performance on episode 5 was phenomenal. After watching euphoria, I also watched one episode of the x-files. It was great too syempre i loved scully mulder dynamics and their case was really interesting. I always enjoy hearing Mulder's crazy ass ideas and scully just turning him down and eventually believing him all the time, really giving husband wife vibes.

Also, I have been really productive this week. My next assessment due date is on Wednesday pa and I'm really proud of myself! Wala pa kong late submission, no missings, im not really doing great on the quizzes especially on stats but the important thing is i took them i guess. This week is great im loving second sem so far.

Uhh what else should i tell uhhhh i like my teachers ??? Especially in fhc dude i love fhc its probably my favorite subject. Super ganda ng vibes sa fhc and the health assessment task was gooood i enjoyed it sm the genogram thing was kinda hard lang kasi my patient cant remember certaint things na but it was still good! I can't wait to learn how to use the sphymo and i cant wait to do the gloving and master things and learn and and and and I DONT KNOW im in a good mood my mind is in a good place right now

Im also thinking na where to go in college. I'm considering my current school pero i really plan on moving out and moving to a dorm or an apartment kaso it would be too expensive. I'm having second thoughts din if i really want to pursue nursing kasi there's this course na super interesting and super super super connected sa wants ko these days. Dont get me wrong i still want to go nursing and i can see my future in nursing pero you know hahhaha what if leap of faith ganon.

Anwyasy, im thinking about taking masters too Hahahaha. Pero i want to take it on my own terms. Like ako bahala sa tuition ko and papaaralin ko sarili ko. Im actually planning on working for like 2-3 years after graduating college, save up muna tapos go for masters. And you know, i have no intention of marrying anyone and i might pursue med school Hahahaha just general practitioner ganon i just Want something

But i know i wont want this next week. Im thinking about these things because my mind is on the positive side rn. Sana everyday nalang ganto maybe id fucntion more

Good nytz

[simkjrs]

ooh! i saw you ndrv3 post, and i have to ask: who's your favorite?

THIS IS SUCH A DIFFICULT QUESTION!! ndrv3 is chock full of self-absorbed strong personalities warping reality through sheer force of will, it’s so hard to choose!!! almost everything about this game is designed to pander to me specifically re: favorite character types i honestly have never felt so attacked in my life

ok that said…here’s a really long ramble on some of my favorite characters 

1) iruma miu is SO funny. she’s like a manic hatsume and junko combined, except worse in EVERY SINGLE CONCEIVABLE WAY, look at this incredible screenshot from the first time you meet her:

decency? sensibility? discretion and prudence? NOT ON HER WATCH. iruma miu knows she’s a gift to the world and therefore she can do exactly what she wants, i.e. tripping her fuckin’ balls off and ruining everything by virtue of being her resplendent self. life is ALL about iruma’s personal pleasures, i.e. sleeping, sexual innuendo, and inventing, AND OBVIOUSLY IF IT’S NOT ABOUT THOSE THINGS IT’S NOT WORTH DOING. iruma opens her mouth and out comes nothing except THE most crass and vulgar statements you can imagine. she just gets worse and more obscene every single time she speaks. you thought you hit rock bottom? YOU SURE DID, BUT IRUMA’S GOT A JACKHAMMER AND SHE IS GOING TO KEEP DRILLING FOR ALL SHE’S WORTH.  

by far one of the funniest things in ndrv3 is [SPOILERS] when gonta says “if we’d only had longer to live with iruma.. if only we’d been in different circumstances… maybe we could have been friends!” and everyone’s flat, knee-jerk response is “absolutely not.” the universal, unequivocal rejection of the  possibility of being friends with, or even remotely associating with, iruma miu if they weren’t forced to by the killing game. is SO funny, especially because they’re saying it after her death. no speaking ill of the dead… UNLESS IT’S IRUMA, IN WHICH CASE IT’S OKAY, because she’s such a uniquely horrible instance of humanity that she spawns her own exception rule. 

EDIT: i think it’s HIGHLY important that everyone looks at this screenshot. [spoiler warning for trial 4!!!]

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL, EMOTIONAL, MOVING EULOGY TO THE BEST AND BRIGHTEST GENIUS INVENTOR IN THE WORLD!!!! this is THE funniest thing anyone could say about miu posthumously. WHAT DOES IT MEAN. i think about this line every day of my life

in fact she’s so thoroughly depraved that you get THIS gem of an interaction in the ultimate talent development game: 

FANTASTIC!!! IRUMA’S SHEER DEBAUCHERY IS SUCH A PRESENCE IN AND OF ITSELF THAT EVEN *JUNKO* KNOWS OF IT. is there anything worse and more despair-inducing than being compared to the most awful, degenerate level of humanity that iruma miu shamelessly and utterly unselfconsciously exists at? I DONT THINK SO. a comparison so despairing you could just die! nothing could top iruma’s Iruma-ness and i think that’s amazing. 

2) ouma kokichi… is an incredible character, and incredibly fun to make fun of also. it’s rare that i get such a finely distilled combination of “terribly disconcerting and disconcertingly terrible to be around” and “interesting in-depth characterization” (as long as you can read between the lines) and GOD, there’s so much. look at this line ouma says right after someone was executed.

BIG mood ouma but also? there’s something so funny about the cheerful way ouma delivers this after everyone’s witnessed a horrible, awful, gruesome execution. no time for mourning, or any display of basic human compassion, only repressing your feelings and projecting as much of an air of ‘terrible human being’ as you possibly can!!! 

[SPOILERS] exisal ouma’s lines are also REALLY good, i love the playful mischievous air of not-taking-anything-seriously (in spite of, or more probably, because of the life or death scenario). there’s just that mass panic debate where everyone’s freaking out and declaring that they’re NOT the culprit, except ouma cheerfully declaring that maybe he is the culprit!!! and he’d be perfectly okay with everyone thinking that! everyone out here to save their lives except for ouma who’s just out here to have a good time 

and if ‘having a good time’ means martyring yourself so that the killing game won’t continue, well then sometimes that’s just how it is!!! 

ouma is a thoroughly baffling character but i find it HILARIOUS how everyone in the game is like ‘oh no…  scary boy… malicous…’ because ouma’s only off putting if you take him seriously. i mean you SHOULD take him seriously, but you shouldn’t take anything he says seriously. once you get past that, ouma is just a lonely jester boy who is embarrassingly transparent about what he wants. it’s very good. 

side note: objectively kai/to x saihara is a better and healthier and more supportive ship than ouma x saihara but the latter is just so much funnier, it’s an entire trainwreck and a half. it’s the perfect mix of the “king and magician” dynamic with “weird ambiguous undefined and possibly one-sided relationship that is incomprehensible to everyone watching and also the people involved.” it’s absolutely pristine. i love everything about it 

3) your boy saihara shuichi

i loved him from the moment he fell out of the locker hiding under his hat and looking incredibly uncomfortable with everything. and also being scared of literally everything. he’s like a constantly high-strung cat and his depressive episode in ch5 (or was it 4…) is a BIG mood. 

by far one of my favorite things about him is his relationship to his “ultimate” title. “i’m only the ultimate detective because i accidentally solved a case before the police could” how do you ACCIDENTALLY solve a case? saihara just picked up a file, looked through it a bit, absent mindedly jotted down a couple notes and investigated on his way to school? NO BIG, JUST WAS CURIOUS ABOUT A COUPLE DISCREPANCIES NOTICED IN THE FILE!! saihara is the polar opposite of everyone in this game, he is nothing but self-consciousness, and he feels self-conscious about the fact that he solved a case. he’s not aggressive except in pursuit of the truth occasionally. nervous boy. 

the way he internalizes all the things people say/do to him are really interesting too… suffice to say, i love him for his struggles and insecurities, i cant wait to see how he does in the final chapter of ndrv3. 

[tinkdw]

Hello, Tink! There has been lots of discussion, from the moment that 12x23 ended, what Dean's reaction would be to Cas's death. But I haven't seen nearly as many posts speculating on what SAM's reaction would be. I get the gist that many people think that it will be "different" (because of different relationships, i.e. destiel) but I have yet to se a post that goes really deep into this topic on my dash. What do you think Sam's reaction would be, specifically? Thanks!

Hi!

Well, of course as a Destiel shipper and mainly a Dean / Cas girl I mainly focus on them, and given Jared has already said it’s not the same for Sam as Dean (which duh), I haven’t really focused on it but you’re right it will be really big for Sam of course!

I think for Sam it’s obviously terrible that he’s lost his pseudo brother and friend, but he’s never quite gelled with Cas like Dean did, we know that from him still talking about his vessel in season 11 and kinda being ok with him sacrificing himself to Lucifer because it’s his choice, not because he doesn’t care, but because he thinks he should be allowed his decision (even though we know it’s based on depression and a lack of self worth, Sam and Dean haven’t really seen as much of this as we did, the panic attack, being told he’s expendable, not important, not the real hero of the story, a waste of energy by Ambriel and Amara - man can you imagine if Dean saw that? That alone would have been enough for him to kick Amara to the curb amiright?!). 

Sam generally doesn't quite emotionally gel with people like Dean does anyway but Dean / Cas IS just on a different level. We should also see some Eileen parallels but really, I mean, it’s a bit of an insult to TRULY parallel Sam/Eileen with Dean/Cas given the 2 episodes v 9 years thing, but there should be something there.

As for Sam/Cas, like I say, they were pseudo-brothers and they cared for each other, Sam was amazing in 12x12, but we need to see a difference for narrative reasons re: Dean/Cas so I’m sure that’s the main gist of what we will see.

So yeah, I think we will see Sam mourning, but also again, to emphasis Dean’s feelings NOT being the same as Sam’s, we should see Sam mourn but in a healthier, less deep way, where he says “Dean, I loved him too, he was like a brother to me, but you have to snap out of it/talk to me” or something to that effect, at some point. 

Until Destiel is canon or they BLATANTLY frame it as romantic in the text (which I think season 13 will do to be fair), they always have had to downplay the Sastiel in order to make Destiel seem more romantic, so Sam’s mourning won’t be as deep as Dean’s although of course he will mourn.

There will also be an interesting dynamic in regards to Mary being thrown into the mix and the fact that Sam is adamant that they can get her back, will he also be adamant that Cas will be back? Will he be the one wanting to NOT burn Cas’ body? While Dean is so enraged but also defeated and absolutely thinking both of them are dead that he does want to burn Cas, because he deserves it as a hunter? Wanting to do at least THIS for Cas because he can’t do anything else at least honour his memory as best as he can? But it’s still not enough of course? Meanwhile it’s SAM who thinks the might come back, who is more positive? Because he’s not as devastated and not seeing straight as Dean? Because Dean is so absolutely devastated that he just cant see any way out? There is just no light at the end of the tunnel for Dean?

I can’t wait to find out :)

[izzyfandoms]

Alright I'm still thinking about this

In particular tho rn I'm thinking and Virgil and Janus and their dynamic

I think that when Virgil was still a dark side, they probably had some kind of arrangement where Virgil was allowed out, while Janus kept himself and the other dark sides hidden

Like that's what makes the most sense to me

They share a similar goal of wanting to protect Thomas, as they're both self preservation (I'm like 99% sure they're counterparts), and I think they probably both viewed their jobs as like,,, necessary evils?

Virgil was aggressive and upset Thomas so he'd listen to him (so he can protect him), and Janus hid and repressed himself and Remus/Orange to protect Thomas

(Honestly it's pretty interesting that Janus's job includes both protecting Thomas from himself (internally) AND protecting Thomas externally through lies and selfishness)

They had an arrangement - and were probably friends too, given the fact that they give off strong ex-friends vibes to me - and that was how it worked for A While, but then Virgil left to join the light sides

Virgil becoming a light side was a good thing, for both him (he seems to be happier and more laid back with them, excluding moments where Janus/Remus are there, where he almost seems to regress to his more aggressive pre-AA state) and for Thomas, they have a much healthier dynamic now

But I don't think Janus would see it that way, he would probably see it as more of a betrayal

Cos Janus is pretty short-sighted when it comes to the other sides' feelings, and I don't think he cares about them that much. I'm not saying he doesn't care at all, but considering the fact that his job includes selfishness and repressing other sides, it makes sense for him to think about himself like 99% of the time. He is responsible for his actions, but his feelings are out of his control, and can't be helped due to what he is

I mean that explains his behaviour towards Roman in SVS1 and SVS2. He was very manipulative and very shitty to Roman in SVS1 and I genuinely don't think that he understands that - in SVS2 he shows no remorse and doesn't seem to understand how his behaviour hurts people or how hurt Roman is. He CANT understand, that's just not what he is - his behaviour is his fault and should be apologised for, but his feelings and his selfishness and his lack of understanding is out of control

Virgil needs to be less aggressive - and he's trying, you can legit see him visibly make an effort in some earlier episodes before Janus and Remus started being active and scaring him - and similarly, Janus needs to be more mindful of the other sides and their thoughts and feelings. He needs to listen to them and learn to compromise and frankly apologise for the manipulating Roman so much, and probably also for how he treats Logan (he just wants to be listened to, yet Janus silences, replaces and excludes him deliberately a lot)

And idk,,, maybe he needs to realise that Virgil becoming a light side probably wasn't a betrayal, especially as Janus has just done the same thing

Maybe Remus and Orange deserve apologies too, for the whole hiding and repressing thing

Ofc a lot of this is just speculation and based on what's implied in the series lol, so feel free to think differently, this is just what I believe the dark side dynamics are/were lol

(Quick bonus thing, in the original post I missed out the quote where Virgil says that Remus used to really unsettle him, which further proves my theory that they were never acc friends)

Anyway, I desperately need to see Janus and Remus interact, AND see what Orange's interactions with both Remus and Janus are like

I can't wait to find out what Orange is like and what he represents cos I desperately wanna know why Janus went to Remus instead of him for DWIT

Like,,, the three main reasons that come to mind are either that Janus asked Orange first and he said no, or Orange wasn't bad enough to work for the whole "show Thomas why he needs Janus's repression" thing, OR Orange was TOO bad and Janus didn't think he'd be able to use him for his plan

Or maybe he was gonna ask Orange if Remus said no lol

There's rlly no way to tell until we know more about him lmao

Anyway this got rlly rambly lol I hope it's coherent. I just don't really see the dark sides dynamics explored enough in any way that isn't "they were/are a family like the light sides" cos I genuinely don't believe that that's what it was/is like lmao

I love the dark sides so much agshsh

One of the main reasons I don't write pre-AA dark sides content (or much dark side content in general - I mostly write aus or post acceptance) is cos I just genuinely don't think Remus and Virgil OR Remus and Janus are or ever were friends lmao

Like,,, anxiety and intrusive thoughts wouldn't get along, Virgil knows very little about Remus (about how he works or that he eats deoderant etc) AND Remus described DWIT as just like old times. I highly HIGHLY doubt they ever got along (especially cos Remus seems like he'd enjoy scaring Virgil)

And Remus doesn't seem the type to get along with the guy whose job includes hiding him from Thomas and repressing him - like Remus would hate that, why would he like Janus? Remus only got out in DWIT cos Janus let him, there's gotta be some resentment there - I see them as allies at best (working together with a common goal), not friends

If you ask me, I think the dark sides were probably split between Virgil and Janus, and Remus and Orange - tho we won't know for sure until Janus and Remus interact/Orange is introduced

[shawnjacksonsbs]

"Some days look better upside down" - Eeyore    2-16-20

This day isn't one of them, not yet at least. Hindsight is magical though, so who knows what the future has in store for my perspective on today. I couldn't decide between Eeyore's quote for the title, or just calling it Nottingham. You can see which way I went. "We are all born to die – the difference is the intensity with which we choose to live.” - Gina Lollobrigida This one should be short and to the port, but only because shoint and to the point didn't sound as cool. Too much maybe, but you guys are with me, right? Reading between the lines isn't so much a skill as a technique of catching omitted details. Still with me? You either get it or you don't. Not a lot of gray area there. There was, or maybe is currently an upheaval happening here in my home. It involves every single member of my household. Things have been pushed far enough to the boundary's edge that something had to give. It finally did. Not the way I wanted, but what's done is done and now we wait and see who lands on their feet and if anyone lands here or somewhere else. It's hard to offer a hand up to someone who always slaps it away. It has spilled over onto my work as well, but I'm pretty sure that that too, will work itself out. Both of my older boys currently work there with me and have been on my crew, so it could be affected. I wish I knew how to share the bigger picture with those fixated on those "in the moment" decisions. Or . . . This thing that I learned, that gives me my calm, where I know I'm ok now and that I'm going to be ok later. Like that feeling that this isn't even going to come close to breaking me. I know I'll be ok, and I know that everyone else can all be ok later too. Not everyone shares in this perspective though, especially when overly charged emotions rule your "here and now" inside your head so much that you can't even see your own hand in front of your face. But somewhere between 2 and 6 weeks from today and we will know, and as worried as I get about the life directions of every other member of my household, my hope for us all is that a few immediate and direct changes take hold and we all continue to move forward similar to how I felt they were going up until now. With a few obvious changes of course, because limits are limits and boundaries are healthy for all parties concerned. It could mean more physical, emotional, and absolutely financial difficulties for me if it doesn't play out in one of maybe 2 or 3 different ways, but that too will be ok. Like I said, "Not how I wanted it" but if I had that much control over other people well . . .there wouldn't be much of a point to it all of it or much of a life for everyone else at all? At least I'm not playing into trying to direct those unrealistic expectations of others. Thats progress. lol Unrealistic to be sure. Hell, I cant myself to sometimes do the shit I know I need to do. How the hell do you do that with others? Well, besides, you know, creating boundaries, which doesn't so much steer them, as it barricades you. With my new found friend, adult style anxiety, I just hope it doesn't have to happen all at once if it goes to the extreme end of what has to happen. I am an overcomer though, so . . . . The financial part stays pretty upfront of my mind, of course. This too will be ok though, but what it'll take for it to be ok is definitely going to be uncomfortable, to say the least. I don't know what else I have right now. It is currently Thursday morning around 8 am. I am at home, because it literally feels like -15 degrees outside. That's negative 15 damn degrees. I'm hoping for a more calm breathing session soon, not for me so much. . well, actually for me too. It is a lot right now. This whole situation, and the people in it. My family dynamic is a lot to handle. Probably a good thing I went and got better, healthier out there in Washington. It's going to come in pretty handy back here for real. As unfortunate as it sounds, I was made, actually molded for exactly the kind of stuff I have to deal with here regularly. 'Cause even when I'm not good, guess what? I'm good. Always, always good. Still grateful for more than I'm not, including the people that make me want to pull my hair out. Love for them all is pretty powerful. And I'm still living a much better life than I will ever believe I deserve to be. Unlike a lot of people, if you hear me say "I got this" then I got this because I won't say it if it isn't true. Don't get me wrong, I need help plenty, and I'm not above writing about it or asking for it. Believe that. Now, remember to share the love, your love and all the laughter with the world around you, and please, please always be kind to one another. At the absolute least just be civil. Until next week; "Every town Has its ups and downs Sometime ups Outnumber the downs .  .  .  .  .  .  .  . I'm inclined to believe If we weren't so down We'd up and leave We'd up and fly if we had wings for flyin' Can't you see the tears we're cryin'? Can't there be some happiness for me?" - Lyrics from Not in Nottingham by Roger Miller from Disney's animated classic Robin Hood