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hiii, ur works are so cute, any chance we could get nsfw hc’s for stan and kyle with a shy fem reader?
thank you <333
stan and kyle nsfw hc's with a shy fem reader!
an: hello!! im pretty nervous bc its my first time doing nsfw hc, both of them are 19+ you can js imagine what they look like. also i didnt know if you wanted separate or tgt so i made separate but if you wanted to both at once feel free to send me another one!
stan marsh
you were always a shy person and stan loved your personality, it was so cute to him that you were so shy that you even cover your smile with your hand.
even when he kissed you, you forced him to close his eyes because you were too shy for him to see your goofy kissing face.
your weak spot was your nipples and whenever he sucked on them you'd always moan , you bit down on your lip suppressing them and stan stopped "cmon dont hide em, scream it out" you were a bit shocked but just looked away. he smiled and continued.
whenever he was about to give you head you were very shy about it, you were scared he didnt like the taste and even covering it sometimes because stan was staring too long at it or whatever making so many excuses. and he got annoyed tbh "i don't care, its you. youre always perfect" after that he immediately went down not caring about your protests. he was giving it kitten licks and kissing it before finally licking it. you were beyond surprised when he licked it your back arched and you wanted to hold his hair as something to hold on but were shy, he grabbed your arm and put it on his head winking to you and continued to work on your pussy.
whenever he stuck his dick in it would always start with you laying down and him putting it in, you didn't make eye contact with him. he grabbed your face with his fingers so that you were looking at him while he put it in, he grunts when the tip was in and you were moaning. he wondered what would it be like if he put it all in if you were already a mess with just the tip.
if he puts your legs on his shoulders so it can go in deeper you'd be so surprised and ask if he was okay and if it made him uncomfy having to hold your hips while thrusting into you. "fuck i dont care, all i care is that you are pleasured" with that he thrust into you and you'd cover you face to not moan, you two talked over it but he was too deep in to care.
whenever you rode him it was a complete mess, before even putting it in you made so many excuses "what if im too heavy??" "what if it doesn't make you feel good?" "what if it feels too good i cant move??" even saying your suddenly sick or smthn because youre too shy to ride him, he'd watch you the whole time and you'd get nervous "no matter what size you are i would pick you up like you are paper, it doesn't matter if it doesn't feel good, as long as my girls happy and i can see your frustrated face, if you cant move I'll do it for you. now cmon im loosing patience"
when you were riding him youd stop midway because you were too tired, and stan kept his promise! he hold your waist and helped you thrust in and out, you were a moaning mess.
when you were about to cum you'd tell him and tbh he could tell he just wanted to hear it. he'd go faster just so you can have the best orgasm. he always came on your stomach and you cover it sometimes because your shy about it but he moved away your hands and took in to enjoy the view
all in all sex with stan is the best, he always puts you first <33
kyle broflovski
with your shy personality it was hard to have sex, you'd cover your pussy and tits even though at the end hes still gonna see it. he thought it was really cute though. it was like you were a virgin even though you fucked other people before.
kyle knew all your weak spots and would always hit them, you tried not to make a face but you were a moaning mess he'd hit it over and over and it just felt too good!
kyle lovessssss hearing you moan, and he hates it when you hide it from him. if you hid it with biting your hand he'd take your hands and pin it next to your head with his hands, he basically trapped you, both of your hands being tied down with his own so all you could do was moan loudly, he loved it<33
he likes it when he puts your legs over his shoulder, it gives him a much more deeper position and he can see your face better, you'd be squirming while he was thrusting in and out of you, hiding your face and such but kyle didn't stop because it was so cute.
after care with him is really an argue battle, even though he has gave you head and fucked you, you're still shy about him looking at your pussy so if he tried to clean it you'd immediately get up trying to wash it by yourself, kyle would pull you back to the bed "shhh let me handle it, ive seen it a thousand times, it still looks like the pretty pussy as always" you ended up sleeping and letting him do it
sex with him is the best because he knew all your weak spots and always tries to make you have a fun time!
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i wanna say i hate to compare BG3 and DAI buuuuut you know they have similar intentions not including the combat system. theyre both high fantasy RPGs that focus on major story choices/consequences and making a protag that you can shape based on personality options, along with class/race specific effects on the way characters mold with you.
so. i think they can be compared, without any note of the technical advancements from since DAI came out of course.
and i say this just based on my current progress (i guess the first 'part'? i just got to the end of the druid grove stuff). i think the bg3 protag is fine! no issue there really, its different but i like what i can do. but i can feel the issues with romance in this game creeping up, as i had heard some things started before by others... that theres a very quick focus to romance. and honestly.... is it romance even at this starting point? immediately i am just asked about who i want to fuck. i like to fuck, i like the sexual relationships. but i can see where ppl may have their issues here.
on this first celebration with the party members, the woman who i helped do the raid with, who i literally dont know, before i even got to the party was like- i am talking to you in your mind and i want to fuck you in thanks for this. and she is the one character you can just fuck without any relation with. and then i talk to Astarion who is like, who do you want to fuck tonight lol? and even if i hadnt talked w him, every other character there except Gale had the option to suggest i wanted to fuck them. bro i hardly even know these guys still. i want to fuck astarion eventually and im glad he turned me down bc honestly why would he accept?. but shadowheart and laezel were totally up for it!!! and man i hard travelled with laezel bc i dont like her lol.
and listen i am sure i will get to learn way more abt these characters that i romance but the fact i am opened up to the sex option immediately is just. so strange when i compare it to the romances of DAI. i think i could take a few characters who just want sex. thats normal. not everyone wants commitment and i would actually like that nuance. but also, really putting the sex on so quick and so blatantly is a surprise to me even as someone who wants to have sex stuff all the time!! but i like good writing too! and i imagine its even more uncomfy for others who really didnt expect or want that. to just assume you character wants to have sex so fast is weird and the only other option denying everything (no implication you want just romance/are interest but dont want sex) is just wild to me too.
DAI has such well written romances. really. i saw ppl saying they were excited this game would blow bioware's romance writing out of the water but i dont think i can say that at all rn and im not sure this current impression will change enough for me to say otherwise entirely....
this also goes into why "everyone is bi" isnt always good. because i think it takes a lot of potentially personal weight out of the writing. not even in that if one character is gay then there will be oppression angst between them and you for being gay. or that the straight one will voice their straightness in context of gays existing in world. its about how "everyone is bi" isnt actually good, chosen bi rep. its just a game mechanic thrown in to satisfy all ends. we can have bi characters, we just cant have them all being labelled that in order to fill that check mark.
dorian is a really good example in DAI of how a character being strictly gay and also facing in world oppression makes his romance storyline SO good. its so important for sexuality labels to exist bc it makes you an individual of your own. and for it to be EXPRESSED in some form too. a character should be able to voice their thoughst on their unique sexuality when you romance them. but the 'everyone is bi just because' means like no character is every talking about that, let alone in a meaningful way when the reason applies to every other companion.
sorry did not mean for this to become a rant on romances. im still looking forward to the writing that will unfold with these characters but i think its so important to not get lost in the hype (and the hate to DAI? which i think is just hate to bioware really) bc people ALWAYS get to ahead of themself when they hear "you can romance anyone regardless of gender" without thinking twice about whether or not that makes it good writing or rep
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my dad was going through recent/old pictures he had and there was one that my sister drew in like 2019 of the family and she fucking clocked me. Drew me with a masc anatomy. Fuckin clocked. She knows.
And i actually smiled after seeing it. Like Wow.
#she's the one who can draw people#i cant still bc i dont like faces they make me uncomfy#and just seeing that drawing made me so oddly happy as my dad is like 'i told her she drew you looking like a boy and...' was just going on#and on and on as i was just thinking 'oh my god she knew'#IN 2019??#i dont think i was even quite there yet at that point#i may have been and i just have zero concept of time. which i kinda do.#but still oh my god#i literally looked at the drawing and i was like 'whos that guy and why does he look like me'#and it was me#turns out the younger one knows more bc she came out to our mom first#look at her go. fuckin great kid.#my mom also gave birth to two lgbt kids and i hope she's happy#two out of two congrats theyre both gay <3#i have a feeling my sister will see me after making any social changes and she'll be like 'i saw that coming years ago'#weirdly growing up our mom always talked about there being a brother. how one of us was supposed to be a boy#and that the miscarried one before me was a boy#and my sister was supposed to be but came out not#that was doctor's error tho#and honestly i think its me. im the son now. thanks.#i wish i remembered the name that the kid before me was supposed to have bc id take it#but i dont want to ask bc my parents havent been exactly open to the idea of trans#BUT SHE KNEW????#taks speaks
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A Comfortable First Date :)
@awmahleebakugou said:
okay so i’ve never asked before (god i hope your requests are open, i’m sorry if they’re not) but i found you just now and your writing gives me life. i hope i’m not missing any rules, but i wanted to req a kind of first date scenario (the date can be your choice but i’m thinking something out of their comfort zone that the reader kinda eases them into having fun and they actually end up having a good time) with bakugou, todoroki, and dabi. a fluff type thing with a fem reader. they don’t have to be all in one, they can be separate but i really wanted to see your take on this with bakugou. thanks for your time, and i hope you can do this req cuz i love your writing :)
a/n: dflhgdfjhgdfkjgh you make me malfunction omg- i jut started writing a couple weeks ago and to hear that you love my writing makes me smile so hard kfsdjgdfkjg omg ty <3 and, lucky for you, my requests are def open and feel free to come back any time! (if you do want to see my rules tho here’s a link: rules<3 (you didn’t req anything out of my comfort zone tho so dw )
Pairing(s): Bakugou x Reader, Todoroki x Reader, Dabi x Reader
Type: Headcanons
Genre: Fluff :)
Warnings: cursing, youre uncomfy for a lil- but it gets better- FLUFF SKDJGFJSD dabi’s is SO mf short im sorry skhgdlfg
A Comfortable First Date :)
Bakugou:
Man are you glad yall came with ya friends-
You were excited, but anxious. you have never been on a date before, let alone the one and only bakugou katsuki, so ya. you were nervous asf
On the ride, the radio played loudly while you rolled the window down and caught the warm breeze in your face, you were just wildin out in the car, making katsuki laugh in hopes of relieving some stress
when you arrive, it was a different story. there were so many people and the water was dark, and this is gonna be his first time seeing *this much of your body. Your nerves were not helping
“Yo, Y/n, you nervous or somethin’?” Calls Sero, averting your attention from the packed beach
“Uh, no, not at all,” you smile walking over to the trunk of the car, picking up towels
kirishima and mina walk together to find a spot, denki and sero leave you and katsuki alone and immediately start throwing the frisbee around
‘god this was so awkward’ you thought, although it really wasnt, it was just in your head
“Here, give those to me,” katsuki whispers as he takes the towels from your grasp, taking notice of the way you rub your fingers together, the way you keep looking at the ground
He can tell that youre unsure, but he knows that you wont be like this for long- i mean- its bakugou, right?
once yall get to your spot, kirishima and mina catch up to you guys, talking about whats more manly yall cant convince me they dont do this- im convinced mina teaches him how to drink his respect women juice although we know he drinks plenty
You dont even have time to realize katsukis arms around your things, picking you up and throwing you on his shoulders
You play smack his back, laughing and yelping at the same time while he runs towards the water
“kastUKI WHAT ARE YOU DOING??” all he can respond with is his laughter before he sets you down gently in the water
“What, you thought I was gonna throw you or somethin’?” he smirks
“Uh, YEAH? I DID! You scared the crap outta me, babe,” you laugh off, the water suddenly feeling a lot better than you thought it would
He’s still laughing, almost gripping his stomach while kirishima and mina join sero and denki with the frisbee
The face he makes when you splash water on him is-
hmmm
How do i say it
flabbergasted? no. thats a weird ass word. He was like that tho
His face was like 😂 > 😳 > 😶 > 😐 > 😑 > 😐 > 😏😈
yk? yk
He splashes back
hard
so skip to an hour later when you guys are tackling each other in the water holy shit this is soft i cant
yall are having a mf BLAST and yall ended up playing beach volleyball too- have yall seen the episode in avatar where azula, mai, ty lee, and zuko play beach volleyball?
ya basically that but yall actually have fun and its more playful- but yall DESTROY the other teams
you guys end up staying longer than expected and you sleep in the car on the way back with his hand on your thigh but shhh
Todoroki:
ok, this may be dif because i believe movie dates are awkward asFF and i just jfhfkg ugh yk
but anyways~
yall arrive to the theatre, buy your snacks and get your ticket ew ew ew ew
and you literally dont know what to do-
where do you sit? where do you put your hands? what do you do for the rest of the movie? all of these questions filled your head when you guys entered the room, it was empty
great.
You guys take your seats, the commercials starting while you guys start small talk
you and him make fun of the trailers while you guys are literally sitting down like 🧍🧍
So awkward even though yall are talking- like, who takes popcorn first, who gets to put their arm on the middle rest? just overcomplicating everything in your brain
until a skittle falls down your shirt sorry if you dont like skittles but cmon their skittles
coming out the bottom of your shirt, you pick it up, then look at shouto’s soft, playful smirk before he looks away like he didnt do anything
that cheeky bastard
so, you throw it back, knocking his head then falling down the seat to the ground
he looks back at you with and incredulous expression- not a serious one, but a look of sarcastic surprised
when his hand grabs popcorn out of the bucket, your eyes widen and you quickly leap out of your seat, running out of the isle and up the stairs to the top row of seats, being chased by shouto, and eventually trapped in the corner before getting a face full of popcorn
“Shou!” you laugh out, and you can hear the faint sound of his giggles piercing through yours
Your hands are placed on his chest, and his have dropped down your forearms, holding you in place while you laugh into him
“What?”
“There’s popcorn in my hair now,”
“Oh,” he takes a gentle hand and takes the popcorn out of your hair, tossing it to the side
“This place is a mess now,” he adds
You just laugh it off, taking notice of the fact that the movie has already started
“Shou, the movie,” you point, him turning around to the big screen
“The movie’s boring”
“It’s barely started!” you chuckle
your voice was interrupted by more popcorn hitting your face, and Shouto holding the bucket
“You did not just do what i think you just did.”
“Maybe,”
“I’m gonna get you back for that!” you shout as he starts to walk back to your seat, you grab the box of candy and quickly open it, pouring everything on his head before rushing down the stairs to the other side of the room
lemme just say yall were kicked out PFT JSDHGFSDKJHF
ok but yall didnt care shsdlfsfg
you hung out more after that too, not wanting the day to end :)
Dabi:
why
on your first date
would you go
CLUBBING??
like- why???
when you arrived, you really do be FINE AS FUUUCKK and everyone is thirsting over you periodt get into it
and when you see him, his eyes widen, admiring your figure
you just smile bc you’ve never been to a club before and set your bag on the counter, taking a seat at the bar next to him
what do you do? are you supposed to order something orrrrrrr? are you supposed to talk? are you supposed to dance with him? like wtf
the most awkward feelings are making home in your stomach
just before you could rush off, his hand grabs yours, making your head whip up for your eyes to meet his, silently reassuring you
You smile before he stands up, and leads you to the dance floor, guiding you with your hips to the music
you place your hands on his shoulders, letting him sway you to the beat, before you turn yourself and dance on him, forgetting your problems
he smirks, running his fingertips down your back while you move your hips on him
after a couple drinks you guys were clicking, like really, really, really, clicking and you felt good
so did he, and he wanted to know you more, so after a couple more dances and drinks, yall were giddy and shi 😏
And yall decided it was time to get to know each other more😏😏😏
when you guys woke up with a hangover, you made him breakfast and yall talked ab everything under the stars omg yall are made for each other istg
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
thats it im sorry dabi’s is so short i just chugged rosé and im hanging out with friends be happy <3
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Hi! Aaaaa it says reqs are open so? Dbdbbff could i pls request the twins suna and kita with a trans male autistic s/o? Like headcanons on how they interact with him or whatever u want really tbh jdndfnn just ignore this if i did it wrong and sorry if i was specific enough. Ty in advance!
Kita, Suna, Atsamu, Osamu with an autistic trans male s/o
Hi hi random ask again fnfnf so u said u prob might take a while to get around to my request so i figured if i sent this ask in to give further detail it wouldnt like really screw with anything bc u havent started working on it yet? Presumably? Hdhdhf when i sent my req in i didnt really have anything specific in mind outside of general autism but! I did think of more details that i havent seen really talked about in general (in all kinda autism content and discussions ngl) so uh what do u think about adding to my request "low functioning" s/o like cant go to school or get a job bc its just so stressful and s/o cant cope type stuff (bc whenever theres autism representation its always the more "higher functioning" end of things which is like not everyones autism? Like its like that very one dimensional type of autism rep when theres so many different ways it affects ppl and - i am not going to go on a rant in an ask jesus christ im so sorry djdhfh) and dealing with some rejection sensitivity dysphroia/rsd?? Bc these are topics that dont really get covered and all fnfnfn its ok if u dont want/cant add this to my req tho im sorry for just randomly springing more details on you dhdhfb also sorry this is really long and wordy and if its hard to understand i tried to write it in a way thatd make sense dnfjf i just wanted to send this for your consideration ok ty! Sjdjfh 💚💚 💚
A/n - Just as a heads up I try to keep my blog as functioning label free as possible cus they lowkey make me uncomfy (don’t worry I didn’t have it in my rules so it's okay!) I’ll explain why they make me uncomfy/ why I hate them in a different post if anyone wants to know why.
Kita Shinsuke
This man always has a stim toy. Realistically he probably has a little pouch in his book bag that he carries with him everywhere that is just full of stim items. There’s a stress ball , a fidget cube and a few other things
Whenever you feel dysphoric he will literally remind you about how handsome you are. I mean like stand you in front of the mirror and point out all of his favorite parts of you
Definitely reminds you to be kind to your body and your brain cus they’re doing the best they can
If he has to cancel plans with you he always makes it up to you and tells you that he’d rather spend time with you.
Kita is so understanding and caring. He understands that school and work aren’t really an option for everyone for different reasons and he definitely understands that both are designed for neurotypical people.
Suna Rintaro
Rin keeps an extra pair of headphones on him at all times for if you get overwhelmed
If you ever mention to him that you’re going to sleep or if he sending you a good night text he always reminds you to take off your binder
Sometimes he wants to hangout with the team and has to turn you down. He knows RSD can make turning down spending time together feel like a kick in the face so he always promises to spend time with you later and tell you he loves you
If you ever have a low spoons + dysphoria type of day he’s coming over and spending time with you in bed. He’s bringing some of your favorite snacks/drinks/food and one of his hoodies that still smell like him.
His love language is quality time so he probably takes you on a lot of dates. Especially if they have something to do with your special interest or hyper fixation
Miya Osamu
He learns how to cook all of your safe foods just the way you like it.
Every morning you are greeted with a kiss to your temple and a sleepy Osamu grumbling a soft “good morning handsome” to you.
He understands that work isn’t really for you. But, sometimes he’ll take you with him to the onigiri shop with him to keep him company.
This man would move heaven and earth to see you happy everyday without hesitation.
He’s super responsive to all boundaries you have. Don’t want to be touched or cuddled a certain way? Okay. Need him to give you space after a meltdown/shutdown or on extremely dysphoria days? No problem.
Miya Atsumu
If you are nonverbal/semi verbal he definitely made you communication cards. He gave them to you for either an anniversary or your birthday and they are super well done. They’re laminated their color coated and they’re just lovely
He’s such a good listener. He could listen to you talk all day and never get tired. Whether it’s you just talking about insecurities while in bed together or him listening to you talk about a hyperfixation/ special interest you know he’s always willing to listen.
Insecurities who??? Not with Atsumu around. If he is not kissing away your insecurities he’s making you “laugh away the bad vibes”.
He always reminds you how much he loves you. He literally will not leave for practice until he gets a kiss and tells you he loves you, it’s gotten him in trouble for being late a few times but he always says he’d do it again. (and he always ends up doing it again)
#kita shinsuke#suna rintarou#atsumu miya#osamu miya#haikyuu!!#kita x reader#Suna x reader#atsumu x reader#osamu x reader#kita x y/n#kita x you#Kita x male reader#osamu x y/n#osamu x you#osamu x male reader#suna x you#suna x y/n#suna x male reader#atsumu x y/n#atsumu x you#Atsamu x male reader#haikyuu fluff#haikyuu x reader#Autistic reader#trans male reader#male reader#morpho talks#morpho writes
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ight im gonna go off about the gender crisis again, because its my blog and vent space and i'll do what i want ;)
would i be allowed to label myself as agender, even though i dont experience any gender discomfort? Like, when someone calls me a girl, or says im a sister, daughter, ect, i dont feel uncomfortable. I just feel....indifferent. It doesn't necessarily feel right, but if it felt wrong surely id be feeling more than just mild confusion. agender usually means "genderless", but could it also mean gender...indifferent? Gender...apathetic?
If i were to try and make a comparison so i can better comprehend my thoughts, itd be this. If i were unconscious due to, idk, anaesthesia or something, and then had a surgery performed, id feel nothing. Id feel no pain, no tickling. If when i was still asleep after my mum caressed my face i wouldnt feel comfort. I wouldnt feel anything. Good, bad or neutral. All i would feel would be the dreamscape that the medically induced deep sleep placed me in: abstract. Non definable. One minute in that dream i could be strolling through an enchanted forest, the next I could be falling endlessly. But no matter what happened in those dreams, my physical body would be too out of it to react. Its like my gender identity is in a very deep sleep, feeling nothing objectively but everything abstractly, all at once.
Now lets say those "abstract dreams" in the metaphor was presentation. Most of the time i present very feminine, traditionally. My style is vintage/historical, lots of long skirts and frilly blouses and braided hair. Dressing like that makes me confident, comfortable. But I also really enjoy dressing more masculine. Of course, with super long hair ill always appear somewhat feminine, but wearing waistcoats and vintage trousers and shirts makes me feel confident too. I once said to my nana when i wore a particularly masculine outfit "some days i want to be elizabeth bennet, but somedays i want to be mr darcy". But no matter how feminine or masculine i feel, i dont know how to interpret that as gender. I feel like a girl, if "feeling like a girl" could be defined as "feeling like a vague blur of nothingness". Or am i just equating femininity with girliness. Do i actually just feel feminine, but not "girly".
sjdhskdjdjjddjdjfh why is this so confusing? I genuinely think either agender or genderqueer are labels to consider, even if no label feels better. With the way my brain works, i still need some form of label. but how do i know im not just overthinking things? If i am just, in fact, a cis girl who doesnt understand what that really means?
Surely its not that uncommon an experience? To not be able to recognise what gender feels like. I dont even know what its *meant* to feel like, unlike when i was questioning my sexuality and knew exactly what liking men was meant to feel like bc of my straight friends. Can i call myself a girl for simplicity's sake? It doesnt make me sad or uncomfy, if im being honest it doesnt feel like anything. Could i say im a genderqueer girl? As in, "i'll say im a girl if asked only because the real answer is so fucking complicated and undefined that even I dont know how to word it". As in "i might say im a girl but really my relationship to gender and womanhood is so much more than that. my gender is paradoxial. I both feel and dont feel like something, but i dont even know how to describe that small "something"."
Or would i say im a genderqueer femme? I dont mind being equated with feminitity, but underneath that feminine surface everything is so jumbled and hard to decipher that its easier to just act like a girl and not think about it.
but now ive opened the can of worms. i kinda have to think about it now.
or would i just say, "hey, im (name), my pronouns are she/her but idc if you use anything else, and im......i exist." Because at the end of the day, does it matter that i cant put how i feel into words that feel adequate? Surely just existing, acknowledging that *something* is going on beneath the surface but knowing it doesnt affect me enough to seek out a label, is fine too, right?
god why is this so fucking hard
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Autistic Zuko let's go
with some zukka bc why not
Stims and New people
Zuko was very used to hiding his stims
so when he was with the gaang, he didn't just start doing it
it was a completely new environment
he knew it'd be okay, these people weren't very judgy, and the only judgy one (sokka) was stimming whenever he wrote
but he still had to ease himself- and the others- into it
By the end of book 3 he doesnt even try to make himself stop doing it
it's pretty easy to figure out what motion means what
sokka has ADHD and they adapt each other's stims often
Spontaneous yet Extreme Emotion
Zuko holding a turtleduck and getting happy suddenly and he just shoves his face into it
Training by hitting punching bag when he suddenly gets really mad and kicks it so hard the metal inside it snaps
doing pretty much nothing and getting sad over nothing
Suddenly get paranoid over nothing but only for like 20 seconds
doing something very captivating and suddenly getting bored and restarting it
sitting in a chair that he only sat in a few times but get super nostalgic about it
Doing something dull and being super invested for no reason
Getting spontaneously lovey and shoving his face into sokka's chest
Overstimulation
The first time he's around the gaang
there's a bird squaking in a way he just cant stand
he covers his ears and clenches his teeth but he can still hear it
at this point he's just done so shoots fire right under it so it flies away
he doesn't even explain why he did it, he just continues what he was doing before
Another time, he steps on the top of jellyfish and jumps backward
he scrapes it off his foot and then stands in the ocean to wash off
Touch
Zuko is touch starved so he'll almost anything he get
almost
if someone's hand is sweaty and warm and they touch his bare skin, he gets uncomfy
side-hugs are fine but sokka can tell they're not his favorite
touching his eye basically in any way makes him uncomfy
warning: dont try to tickle him
patterns/symmetry
if 2 things are asymmetrical he gets uncomfortable
randomly touching something because "I touched the other side"
even when stimming he feels like he needs a pattern- shake, shake, thump, shake shake thump
walking specific ways so it's the same texture under each foot
Masking/Unmasking
Zuko spent so long being uncomfortable and being careful not to make anyone mad
so when he's around a group of people where stuttering won't get him yelled at
he starts unmasking, unintentionally
he catches himself one day like "the frick am I doing with my hands"
he sees no big reactions
he keeps doing it
when someone asks why he does he just says he doesn't know
Expressions
Zuko doesn't have very subtle expressions, he doesn't even move his face that much
when he's angry- its obvious. when he's happy- adorably obvious. when he's sad- trust me, you'll know
if someone uses even a common saying his mind goes blank trying to understand
not understanding it pisses him off
he's built up enough confidence around certain people ask he'll just ask afterwards
if katara or Toph are around, he wont say anything, they'll make fun of him
Aang doesn't want to be mean
Sokka understands the pain
Toph likes making fun of people
Katara hates Zuko
Hyper fixation/focus
Sokka, having ADHD, goes into hyper focus when he's trying to invent something
Zuko fully understands
the way he learned to be so great at dao swords was by having a special interest in them and learning every technique
he was hyper fixated on finding the avatar for almost 4 years
he knows what it's like to have to do the same thing until he gets everything about it right
Feel free to add
#this is mostly projection but still#atla#atla zuko#prince zuko#zukka hc#zukka#sokka x zuko#zukka incorrect quotes
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11 for 11 may 🙏, 15, 21, 23, 25, 28, 31, 38, 45, 48 😉 & 49!
11 for 11 may, my god bless you my friend!! <3 And Also THANKS FOR THE ASKS!! <33 Sorry it took so long I really wanted to take my time hehe c: 11. Describe your ideal day. I think my ideal day is sleeping in late, what for me is normal, around 12pm. Then I wake up, eat a good breakfast, sit with my cat on my lap for smtn like an hour. And then I go outside, bcs the sun is shining. I meet my friends and we go picknick somewhere in the sun beneath a few little trees. I buy smtn to drink somewhere because its very hot and ofc I forgot my drink. Its so refreshing and I feel so alive and the world is so beautifull. Me and my friends, we laugh a lot and just enjoy the good weather, the nice day and the little foods. And than at the evening we bbq or eat smtn else nice, and have a good evening. We sit outside for a while, feeling the summer evening becoming cooler. We watch as the stars come out and think to ourselves if we ever looked up at the same stars together in another life. And then when it’s really late, I go back home, feeling the cool breeze against my skin while I ride my electric bike. At home everyone is asleep so I walk in very softly and there I see my cat sleeping in the chair so I walk to her and bent over giving her a gentle kiss on her little head. She makes mmrrr sound and I tell her I love her and that I had an amazing day. After that I give her some food and I go to bed. Maybe take a showe bcs it was so hot today. And then I lay in my bed, tired but very fufilled after such a wonderfull day. Storing the happy memories in my head thinking how blessed I am with my life. As I fall asleep I feel gratefull for today and all the beautiful things that brought it. Yeah, I think thats mu ideal day. Friends, good weather, sunshine, little food, laughter, love, my cat lucy, summer - yeah smtn like that c: 15. What is your favorite compliment to recieve? I like all kind of compliments. Im a sucked for compliments. I know I do a good job most of the time, but there’s just smtn in me that really likes the validation? I know I don’t need it. But it just makes my soul shine like: Ohmygawd thank you so much this makes me so happy D:. But If I had to think, I think I like the compliment saying I have a good energy or vibe the most. Bcs its so pure and real and not everyone can sense/say that. And you’re energy is not smtn you can fake or make more beautiful. So its such a sincere compliment, that I think thats my favorite compliment to recieve c: 21. Tell us about your music taste. Bro, this is a long one HAHAHA. But I will keep it short: ‘Diverse.’ I think that describes my music taste the best. Because I listen to A LOT of different things. Just what I feel like or in what mood I am. And one thing I also like a lot is when a song makes me feel ‘free’. As if im totally cut off from the world. Thats a really nice feeling music can give you. And ofc songs that make me feel things. Bcs often then I can use it as inspiration. So yeah, thats abt my music taste haha c: Also! I like it when songs have a deeper meaning. Idk why, but thats just megical c: 23. Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a kid? OH I already answered this one so I will just copy and paste it here! c: ‘’ YES! I HAD. AND I STILL HAVE IT! I dont sleep with it anymore but it has a honorable place among my other stuffed animals. It is a cow, that is formed like a teddy bear so its more cartroony instead of animal like, her name is Koetjeboe and you could play a musicbox song of A Small World from Disneyland. It was my favarite soung and whenever I felt anxious as I child I would play it and it would sooth my soul and fill me with happyness. Aaah good times c: I also had a cat, named, Poes, she is very very very soft, well was, nowadays she aint HAHA she looked like my cat when I was younger, Sjimmie, I loved the plush. Mom bought it for me in England in the Harry Potter castle. It was amazing c: So, I kinda had two, but Koetjeboe the cow is rly my birth stuffed animal haha c:’’ 25. What dream trip would you take with your wife? Honestly, anywhere with her would be a dream. And if she has somewhere wehere she really wants to go, I would just go with that c: Seeing someone you love happy is such a gift so I totally wouldn’t mind going anywhere. That is also because I have so many places I want to go, and almost every place interests me. I can’t think of a country or city or place I am not interested in visiting. I always loved to travel, and still do, so anything would be good c: But if she’s like: Hey what do you want badly? I would probably say somewhere with a beach. I love the sea and I love the beach. So that would be a thing I would love too hahaha. But yeah, anything rly, and the beach c: 28. What makes you smile? Oh boi, what doesn’t?! HAHA. A lot of things make me smile tbh bcs I get happyness out of almost everything. I can remember that I was crying and felt sad, and even then I smiled because it was such a special experience haha. But if I had to say some things I would say; My cat Lucy, cant help but smile whenever I see her, my friends, you super included <3, sunshine, good food, baby animals and honestly just life in general c: 31. How do you show your love? Again, how don’t I? I learned at a very young age to show love in different ways. Bcs I wanted to be a good person. And one of those things is showing love. So I do it with words, saying I really love someone or giving them compliments, thats a big one for me haha. I also like to really support my friends through words. Just supporting them for whoever they are! I also like to give things. It can go from small presents to food to many or big presents on their birthday. Also I like to help people, to give them advice or agai support them any way I can. I also show it through physical contact, as in hugs ans such. And I even sometimes lean toward just really cuddling up to someone HAHAHA But I don’t do that tbh, bcs at the same time it makes me feel uncomfy, but at the same time im like: Ohmygawd I love yo uso much just lemme huddle up against you to share my love with you and ahfgs. So amny ways HAHAHA some more difficult for me and others really easy. Like presents or food, hit me up, imma get you some nice flowers or some sweets or a book you really like bcs I love yu!
38. Who do you admire? Myself *smirk* HAHHA no kiddin. I admire my friends. Because those people have been through hell, or still going through hell, and still decide to be genuine good persons. I’ve seen from upclose what they have to deal with. And they still give so much love tot he world and people and want to help. Its really a blessing to have people like that around me. And I thank the heavens for that. So I would say my friends. Yes. (pls know you are in this picture too. Hello, going through hell still being super good person, ok.) 45. Do you have tattoos or want any? Yes, I have one underneath my feet. HAHA oke jokes, sorry HAHA. No I don’t have any. And I would like one yes. Im not sure what I want tho. I am always thinking of a tiger. Or a lotus flower. Or a little symbol on the inside of my left wrist. That last one I smtn I’ve had for years. I dont know why but I would really like that. A small thing on that place. But what that is gonna be, I have NO idea. OH and I want a smilie face underneath my big toe! Thats just one for fun, but I would rly like it haha.
48. Did you know you’re actually a gift tot he world, for real? IM NOT CRYING YOU ARE *SOB* Thank yo uso much frend!! It means so much to me to hear that I just can’t. My gosh. When I see yu imma hug ya big time. SOB 49. What’s your favorite memory? Ooh this is a hard one. Mostly because I have many good memories and also because Im actually pretty bad at remembering things HAHHA thats two opposites I know xD But uuh, oke I thought about it, but im so sorry i cant think of one RIP. But if I had to choose I would choose smtn that made me smile. That made me really happy. So one with Lucy, many with Lucy, or one with my friends, many with my friends, with my mom, traveling, and so fort. There are a lot and I wish i could show them all to you. Sadly I can’t. BUT We can make our own favorite memories. So lets do that, okay? <3
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Oh god, men who are saying we misinterpret... 😂 Brought me a funny memory.
When I first had a irl crush 7.5 years ago, I actually came forward to him (he was my classmate) and told him I really like him/said it straight to his face that I have a big crush on him because we had had fun together and for example, he always waited for me at the train station when I came to school and literally RAN to me when I got out of the train and he always wanted to walk with me back to the class after lunch etc so my friends told me to go for it and see what happens. He got super confused, but the next day he messaged me being like "I'm sorry for getting confused yesterday. But I have feelings for you too."
Well we had a very nice time for a couple of months which included a lot of staring, blushing and smiling at each other and goofing together and having Facebook messaging with stuff like "I missed you at lunch ❤️" from him (after I couldn't go to school because train operators were on a strike) and EVERYONE IN OUR SMALL SCHOOL SHIPPED US, students and teachers and even the school cleaning lady, they called us JJ because his name also began with J 😂 (there was about 30 people total in our school) And my teacher told me afterwards that he saw that there's something going on between us and purposefully paired us for assignments etc.
Then my crush apparently developed a crush on our class assistant (at least that's what it looked like) and shortly after that he sent me a very frustrated toned message claiming that his sister had written that message to me where he confessed he has feelings for me too, and I had just misinterpreted all that cute behavior and wanted me to stop talking with him. 😅 Yeaaaaah right. So his sister apparently took over his body too and he couldn't help it????
I guess that was a psychological kick to my gut because I haven't been crushing on anyone real since that one.
I saw him at a pizza place 2.5 years ago on his birthday btw and he just stared at me and I just tried so hard to keep my face static so I wouldn't show that I recognized him... I don't know what he was doing here because everyone is like "where the frick is that???" when I tell them where I live and then J just appears at the local pizza place on his birthday??? He lives 70 kilometers away from me in a city so I doubt he came all the way here just to eat pizza 😂 This place literally doesn't have anything else than that, two small grocery stores, a small gym and pharmacy.
Just telling you this for peer support and maybe for laughs 😅
JENNI PLSSSSSSSSSS omg first of all i am so sorry men are so confusing and this is just such a prime example sakjdhsajk but also this is almost the same as what happened to me and this guy???? im putting this under the cut bc its so long and messed up BAHHAHA
granted we never explicitly confessed feelings for one another but we would hang out at school all the time, sit next to each other on the bus (AND HE’D LET ME REST MY HEAD ON HIS SHOULDER) and he lives like 2 streets behind my house so he’d walk me home and everything. he’d get weird when i hung out with other guys and would incessantly tease me about it to the point where i was just like ok maybe i shouldn’t. and i ended up going over to his house all the time because we were studying for our exams together but we’d just watch tv and lay on the couch and talk. i met his dad and even my mom asked if we were dating and our english teacher also asked my friend after we all graduated if we got together and it makes me scream!!!!! but then right when we graduated he started dating another girl in our class (i had to find out from mutual friends which was so shitty akjsdhaksd bc he never talked about it with me, even long after i found out). and i was like damn that sucks but whatever, i never told him how i felt. but we still kept in touch and when i moved away for college he hugged me and told me how much he’d miss me, and i just start to move on bc we obviously cant get together.
fast forward to a semester into college, he’s messaging me all the time about how he misses me and asking when i’ll be back, i come home for break, and its radio silence. dude doesn’t message me until the end of break where he asks to hang out, and i find out later that the day he asked to hang out was the day after his girlfriend left to go back to college. we hang out, i leave to go back to college, and we text for a bit more before he stops talking to me completely. we don’t talk for like a year and a half and i find out it’s because he girlfriend didnt want him talking to me anymore and he freaking deleted my number.
we somehow get back in touch through our mutual friend but he’s still with his girlfriend and whenever we hang out he lies to her about where he is. im super uncomfy and debating if i should cut him out bc i dont like him sneaking around his gf like that for no reason since we’re just friends. but at this point he starts getting weird and affectionate and telling me he wants to go to nyc to visit me, and always randomly asking me if i have a boyfriend. he gets on my case all the time about not replying to his texts fast enough and eventually he hits me with the whole ‘i love you so much’ situation after he got a good grade in his exam and was sharing it with me (which is so weird bc why would u say that while celebrating your grade). at that point i start really distancing myself, and eventually stop talking until recently :)
his gf even reached out to me to talk the whole situation through but honestly they’ve both got issues and im terrified of them both.
i recognise my own part in this situation about sneaking behind his gf’s back but i just.................................................................. it was a lot.
#BUT UR CRUSH BLAMING IT ON HIS SISTER AJDJKAND HELLO????#i will probably delete this later but enjoy this drama everyone#swanimagines#s talks
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ateez reaction the their crush making the first move
hongjoong
hongjoongie !!! would be so happy !!! that you felt that way about him !!!!
he didnt make a move bc he didnt wanna make u uncomfy :(( so he disregarded his feelings for u
unknowingly to him, u like him back !!!
but since this lucky man didnt get the hint (and with all the touching and attempted flirting you're surprised he didnt)
you decided you had to make the first move
but being all nervous and shi ,, you gotta plan it out
just like hongjoong u dont wanna make him uncomfy !! yall the same mfs
so what u planned to do was grab some takeout and bring it to hongjoong when hes producing an chat him up an shit
and once u get to his place and have him all alone your heart starts racing
and so does his !!
and you're eating and laughing and has showing you a beat he just made
and you put your hand on his leg and hes like big eyes blushing and his mouth drops a lil
and you're like 'this is rlly good hongjoongie' bITHX HES CRYIGN
IM CRYING
and you lean in and kiss him on the corner of his mouth and hes just
'o-oh thank you' he says
and u smile at him and ask him to show you more
he takes a second to recover but blushes even more
and ur ready to kiss him til he stops blushing
so u do
but he doesnt
seonghwa
seonghwa tries his best ok
he just really likes you
so he ends up stuttering and tripping and literally falling for you
like oh one time he was trying to bring you water and he got too excited and was running and some of the water from the full glass fell on the floor and he just slid right on that shit
thank god you had your back turned talking to yunho bc holy shit he didnt know what hed do if u saw that
but the rest of the boys will never let him live that down
'hyung, remember when u fell trying to get water fo-' 'shut up wooyoung'
but seonghwa is just a shy lil boy around you fam
and it's not like you didnt notice bc hed be rlly chill rlly calm and funny when he doesnt know you're around
and then he sees you and hes all 'o-oh hi I'm going to go w-wash the dishes' he cleans when hes stressed
and when u ask the boys what's up w him they're like '..... are u dumb'
anyway after that it was just so obvious
youd catch him staring and make eye contact and hed look away so fast
but you didnt miss dem red ass cheeks
and you honestly like the attention he gives you
and when he gains a little confidence around you and makes a joke or does girl group dances or smth
you cant resist him
so one day you go over to the dorm and tell all the boys that they're all gonna have to leave so that u can get seonghwa to yourself
and they reluctantly agree bc 'but I'm tireddddd'
and when seonghwa gets home hes like . where is everyone.
and you're like 'oh them??? they just went to the store to get snacks I'm sure theyll be back soon come watch this show w me'
and hes like ,,, right
and you're just smiling and nodding and patting the seat next to you
so he sits obviously sweating
and you're watching this show and hes watching you
with every laugh nd movement his stomach coils a lil
and after a bit you look at him
and you're looking at each other
and you're eyes are watching his lips and you just say yolo and go for it
hes taken aback at first but leans into it
and you're a rlly good kisser
then you pull back nd hes looking at you with the prettiest smile on the prettiest face you've ever seen
'thank u' he says 'for what?' 'for that'
'just kiss me again dummy'
yunho
puppy!! lil baby boy!!!
ok so like the first part , let's say you two have been besties for a while now
and it's just a mutual attraction and mutual liking ykno
but yunho doesnt want to mess up the friendship you guys have by trying anything
the members are all 'bruh she likes you back' and hes like 'nuh-uh you're lying'
like.... they told u sis
and one day wooyoung tells you like.. listen sis yunho has a crush on you but he refuses to do anything abt it bc hes worried itll ruin your friendship that I wouldnt even call a friendship bc of all the sexual tension but wtvr
and you slap him across the chest for that last part but
wait,,, yunho has a crush on you ?????
'are u sure ???' 'yes, bITCH ARE U BLIND'
blind w love babyyyyyyyy
this is groundbreaking news bc what the heck your longtime crush and bff likes you back !!!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
so one day bc you guys are honestly just so comfy around each other and you've been holding back for so long theres no reason to delay this any longer
you walk up to his room where the door is closed and knock on it (u guys have a special knock)
and he opens and you latch onto him and kiss him
tangling your hand in his hair and clutching the shirt hes wearing
and he immediately kisses you back
no hesitation
but then
'guys. I'm still in here. like im happy for u but god just do a quick room check next time will ya' san says walking out of the room shaking his head
you both blush and turn to look at each other
yall laugh then shrug your shoulders and yunho says 'are u sure abt this? I dont want to wreck what we have'
'I'm more excited about what we're gonna have baby' you say, and he smiles, nods and leans in to kiss you again hehehehehe
yeosang
ok dis man loves his chocolate
and you know that so .. you decide to make him sum desserts!! a whole bunch
bc you LIKE HIM
and u want him to LIKE YOU
and the best way to get yeosang to fall for u is by giving him chocolate right
but what you didnt know is that he already likes you (shocker!!!)
so you bake up some brownies and cookies and cupcakes and idek other chocolate tings
and bring them all over to the dorm for him to try
and hes so excited !! 'chocolate!!! for me !!!!'
'yes !! all for u yeosangie'
he just looks as you in awe and love
and picks up a fork ready to take a bite
he stops tho and looks at you and licks his lips
and you blush but laugh
and he puts the food in his mouth and just dies because its SO GOOD
and hes just mouth open eyes wide 'holy shit'
'what?? you dont like it'
'nonononono I LOVE IT'
and he runs around the kitchen counter and hugs you so tight
'thank you!! this is amazing!!' he says looking directly into your eyes
'youre amazing' you say
'what?' he says 'o-oh nothing nothing I didnt say anything'
',,,, you just called me amazing !!! omg YOU JUST CALLED ME AMA-'
hes cut off by you pressing your mouth against his
he pulls away and says 'what was that for?'
'I had to get you to shut up somehow'
yeosang laughs and leans down towards you but gets cut off again!!!! this time with a 'omg are these cookies??????'
',,, get out mingi'
san
bruh yunho looks so funny wtf
sannie is such a happy boy :(
his life goal is making you laugh or smile
he just wants u to be happy!!! and his smile is so contagious!!!
and that's why you fell for him
and now everytime he makes u laugh or smile or smth a lil bit of a blush creeps up your cheeks
san doesnt seem to notice tho but you're ok with that
n e way
yall get along rlly well
hes the reason you're at the dorm every friday night for movie night
and someone chooses a horror movie
its scawwy
and san (tho also scared) sits next to you so he can whisper jokes to u throughout the movie
through hushed giggles and smiles at one another u realize u wanna be in a relationship w this guy
and the next time you're at the dorm, you decided nows the time to make it happen
but when u see san he doesnt seem like himself hes slouched down on the couch cuddling with his stuffed animal staring at the tv screen with nothing playing
when he sees you walk over to him he perks up a lil but not like he usually would
so u sit next to him and ask what's wrong
he fiddles his thumbs and doesnt look at you
so u rub his shoulder and put your other hand on his thigh and ask him again
this time he just looks at you
'I'm sorry' he says
'for what?' 'you're not smiling and it's my fault'
'san!!!! it's ok you dont have to be happy all the time!!!! especially not for me'
his head hangs and he sighs
you lift his head and kiss him slightly
'its ok' you whisper
instead of saying anything back, he leans his forehead to yours
you kiss him again
and again on his lips cheeks forehead nose hands
and by the end of it hes shyly smiling
'there it is!! theres my boy'
he hugs you and for the rest of the day you stay snuggled up on the couch
that day it was up to you make him smile
and you did !!!
mingi
mingo mango
the gif is what he looks like whenever you're near him
hes always whining for you whenever you're not
and when hongjoong sent you a video of mingi doing just that you though it was the funniest thing ever
'I wish y/n was here you're all a bunch of losers' 'you guys suck!!! I miss y/n'
freakin hilarious
this is something u love making fun of him for
liek damn mingi am I that special? I didnt know u liked me that much? u got a crush on me mango?
and u notice that whenever you ask that question, no matter how much of a joke it is, he never gives you an answer
but u dont rlly think about it until you start developing a crush on him
at first it's like,, oh what a baby hes so cute eating the food I made for him
and then it's like wow I wish he would dance on me like dat me too sis
and then u start complaining whenever hes not around 'wheres mingi?? I've been waiting for like an hour' nd 'ykno what would make this even better? mingi'
and everyone is like ok we get it u like mingi
and when mingi catches whiff of this oh boy it's over for you
'so ig it's me that's special now huh?' he tells you one night
'what?' 'u gotta crush on meeeeeee y/n's gotta crush on mingiiii'
and you roll your eyes because . idiot
but then step closer to him and say 'maybe I do'
and that's when his eyes go wide 'wait rlly???' he asks and you can hear the hope in his voice
'all I'm saying is that if you kissed me rn I wouldnt be opposed' is what you say back
and kiss you he does
wooyoung
ok so wooyoungie and u
have such blatant chemistry
yall are constantly flirting and idk yall just click
but u dont notice it
I mean u see the eyebrow wiggles and sly smiles some of the members give u
but all that does is confuse you
one day when wooyoung is in the washroom yunho says 'so you nd wooyoung huh?'
and you're like ...huh
yunhos like 'u dont like him? all yall do is flirt'
and when he says that a whole wall came down in your head
a wall blocking you from accessing emotions of attraction and love and shit you're emotionally scared sis
and you turn firetruck red
yunho just laughs and says 'I knew it'
wooyoung comes back and asks what's going on
'I'll just leave u two alone' yunho says chuckling
you glare at him as he leaves youre gonna get him back for that
but wooyoung doesnt sense anything and swings his arm around your shoulders pulling you into him
and he asks what you wanna do for the night
but you're quiet and distracted with these new feelings you've just found out you have
wooyoung asks if you're okay
and you look up at him but suddenly cant look at him in his eyes. his really pretty eyes
so you turn around and go to grab your stuff bc you 'forgot abt that... thing' you have to do
wooyoung, confused watches you scurry across the room
'uh.. ok.. I'll see you tomorrow?'
'yeah yeah see you' you say not looking at him
you just need to figure your feelings out and then you can see him again
so back home you're racking your brain tryna figure out if theres anything you can do to stop yourself from falling in love w wooyoung
and speak of the devil, u get a call from wooyoung
u contemplate not picking up but decide that wooyoung is still your best friend
'hello?' 'y/n!!! are you ok?? you left really suddenly earlier' 'yeah wooyoung I'm fine dw'
'are you sure? we dont want the prettiest person alive to feel sad now do we?'
you open your mouth to say something back but nothing comes out
'y/n?'
you feel the heat rise to your cheeks as you ask 'are you still free?'
'uh for u? always'
blushing even harder now you say 'I'm coming over' and end the call
once you get there you're knocking on the door frantically
wooyoung opens up with a 'jeez y/n what's the ru-'
you basically jump on him and kiss him hard
you latch your hands onto his shirt nd he wraps his hands around your waist
when you pull away for air, wooyoungs looking at you with a smile on his puffy red lips
you smile back and say 'that was the rush'
wooyoung smiles harder and pulls you back into him
'took you long enough'
jongho
jongho cant believe u two have met
you're one of his favourite new idols
and you met at a show
and you told him how amazing ateez's performance was
blushing, he tells you how much he likes your music
you ask him if hes hungry to which he says yes bc 1) hes always hungry and 2) he cant say no to u ever
so u buy him one of those sandwiches w the jam and the coleslaw or wtvr you know what I'm talking about
and you sit to talk and eat for a while before you have to leave
you ask for his number and tell him you'll call him sometime
and you do
all the time
at first hes shy and boyish which makes you laugh
but after a while he gets comfy and will brag and sing to you and joke
you guys catch each other up on everything
he tells you all about the boys and the boys all about you
and you realise how good a listener this guy is nd how handsome!! and cute
and so at the next show you see him at you walk up to him
and with your heart doing flips and take his hand and tell him to walk around with you
he does and you lead him to a less busy hallway where you just look at him and say 'I like you'
jonghos like... wait. huh. what. wait i- and hes blushing so much even his ears turn red
'me? you like me? bc I like you too and if you're joking or something I would be really sad and I've told the members that I like you and they made fun of me so this would be great of u did like me but if you dont and this is a joke id be really upset' and hes rambling and not looking you in the eye
so you lean in and kiss him
'it's not a joke' you say
'its,, not a joke? are you sure?' 'I'm sure'
'you're sure' 'are you going to keep repeating everything I say? or are u gonna kiss me again?'
jongho, blushing even harder now, chooses the second option
#i loterally got to the limit on this ome#i got so into it#seonghwa#hongjoong#yunho#san#yeosang#wooyoung#mingi#jongho#ateez fluff#ateez scenarios
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give me your fluff headcanons for characters with the current ships when the boys grow animal ears like in the new event plz and thank you, and i pray gacha gods give you satan's cat ears
omg pls i am t h r i vi n g in this event rn
i dont think i can get satan but i got mammon and i’ll be getting beel ;w;
also the fuck you write for a giraffe bf
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Usako x Belphie:
if she’s ever purposefully being annoying he’ll slap his tail into her face and watch her fall over or stumble because’s he’s a little shit
usako figured out the speed and rhythm belphie will swing his tail at her so she calculated the right moment before grabbing onto it as she falls and pulls him down with her
endless cuddling of his tail it’s quite unbelievable really
belphie will be minding his own business and suddenly there’s a weight on his tail and lo behold it’s usako!! “can you please get off i cant move” “no, you dont wanna move anyways” “valid” so they just lie down in the middle of the hallway and sleep much to lucifer’s annoyance
when usako combs his tail and undoes all the knots, it’s really soothing to him and he falls asleep soon
Reese x Mammon:
oh he has way too much fun with throwing the ball around, while reese has no mean bone in his body, when there is something cute in front of him he will milk as much cuteness as he can out of it
LORD DO YOU KNOW HOW TERRITORIAL MAMMON IS NOW literally be within a 5 feet radius and cue mammon growling noises
once caught mammon doing the thing where you race up stairs on all fours and reese got it on camera before joining him in doing the thing
suddenly bites a lot and randomly?? reese is like “yo dude can you give me a kiss without going carnivore mode and immediately going further thanks im tired and have essay due”
reese bought mammon this arm cuff and meant to give it to him later but didn’t read the description properly and it ended up being for children. except it now fits perfectly on mammon’s tail and mammon is very proud of his shiny tail decoration
Lia x Lucifer:
who’s wearing the fucking collar now huh??? bitch. but he looks good in that collar and chain oop
SCRITCH SCRATCH BEHIND HIS EARS, usually lucifer is so prudish and uptight on the outside but the minute lia scratches his head and behind his ears his tail immediately starts wagging and he leans into her touch
“you were totally liking it.” “no i wasn’t.” “yes you were.” “look i have work to do leave me alone- stop that- hey...woof” “hehehehehehehehe” it’s the softest thing
ALSO TORTURES HIM WITH A BALL lucifer will be vibin not really diavolo did some shit again and doing his paperwork and something will fly across the room and lucifer is up and chasing
is banned from eating chocolate and lucifer can only sit and suffer as he watches lia eat her dark choco bar
Bernadette x Leviathan:
he was really bummed out about getting an uncool animal with no super specific powers but bern pointed out that he can now laugh at everyone being wack. which he does. and he records it all.
is the most normal out of everyone technically, but for some reason is only able to eat leaves and greens and vegetables and curses his herbivoreness
bern is questioning if he got taller because for some reason it’s harder to kiss him on the cheek?? he did actually get taller. levi isn’t a dick so he always crouches or bends down to let bern kiss him or to kiss bern ;w;
probably the most gentle out of everyone?? literally has no reason to tease or act up so they sit back and laugh at lucifer chasing a ball or belphie deciding yes lets nap here
has a really long tongue now. yes sinner they have taken advantage of this now go find simeon so he may cleanse your mind
Sen x Beelzebub:
he’s channeling his inner belphegor. sleeps like constantly and wakes up to like eat then goes back to fucking sleep again
when he first calmed down and eventually stopped wanting to eat everything, the first thing he did was randomly start rubbing Sen with his head like all over to mark her because who the fuck wants to pee
will walk up to sen and just kick her instead of a normal cheek kiss and she’s like “jesus your tongue is fucking rough” so he’s banned from deep kisses ;w;
wondering why he has constipation and sen is like “its bc you dont eat your fUCKiNg VegEtAblEs” it’s a constant struggle and suddenly the dude is a kid
beel was fast and strong before. he’s still fast and strong but now like amazingly more so
Yen x Satan:
doesn’t even sleep in a fucking bed anymore only sleeps in box and demands yen come sleep in the box with him and yen is like “?? but thats kinda uncomfy” “its ok you’re small you can just lie on me” and yen is like bruh square up you calling me short- yes he is and he knows he’ll win anyways. dick.
satan was petty before. now he’s even pettier if that makes sense? “satan dont” “you cant tell me what to do” and swipes the thing off the table and yen just rubs her temples and tells him he can sleep in his box alone tonight. she ends up sleeping in the box anyways
BECAUSE SATAN MAY SWITCH BETWEEN MOODS QUICKLY BUT HE’S EVEN QUICKER NOW. one moment he’s grumpy and doesn’t want anything to do with physical affection, next moment he’s all over her, throwing himself over her lap and seeking attention
purrs loudly when she gives him affection and when she draws on his arms while they’re cuddled up in his box next he purrs and its really soothing and the two fall asleep quicker
yen recorded as much as she could and has them saved on her snapchat stories and in her camera roll. he was the cutest thing
#Obey me#Headcanon#Ship Headcanons#Fluff#Usako#Lia#Reese#Bernadette#Sen#Yen#Belphegor#Lucifer#Mammon#Leviathan#Beelzebub#Satan#Ask
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Not A Feel / Questions
- iiaat to get easily overwhelmed by things that other people might not even notice? like, often i cant stand being in a car cause the smell gives me such an intense headache, but whenever ive mentioned it to someone theyve said they dont notice anything
Yeah that’s textbook autistic sensory issues. New car smell is horrible, especially leather seats.
- I like sitting criss cross with one leg above the other and shake/rock the foot/leg that sticks out. Would that be considered stimming?
Yeah.
- Is imitating facial expressions an autistic trait? I do it most with inanimate things that look like faces, or animals that look like they’re making certain expressions. I may not look like them at all but it’s my instinctive response to seeing them
Idk, it’s not something I’m familiar with so I honestly couldn’t tell you.
- is it an autism thing to Hate Stickers? bc I can't deal with the texture of the sticky side or plastic side or whatever kind of sticker it is and when it's on something if it's flat you can still feel the edges, and when the sides stick up and are all horrible and they collect dust and dirt so they're!!! not good!!! or when they get creased/folded and one fold line gets worn away and it's!! horrible!! even looking at them I just feel,, uncomfy and not right,,,
Yes autism could cause that.
- Is it an autism/ADHD thing (I have both) when you mean to say one word but another leaves your mouth? Today, I intended to say "toothbrush" but for some reason "keyboard" came out. Apart from them starting with the same letter in my native language, I can't for the life of me figure out why that happened. It happens a lot.
Yeah. Both of those can cause difficulties with verbal communication. It’s more likely to be ADHD that causes that since it can cause disordered thought & speech, but it could be both. English being a secondary language would also add to it though. My dad mixes words up sometimes and he’s been speaking English almost exclusively for like 40 years, but it’s his third language.
- Are meltdowns always violent or explosive? I was overwhelmed today by a lot of unexpected things and then got suddenly got stuck in sensory hell at work. I felt myself slowly losing my ability to function and eventually walked out mid shift to go sob and hyperventilate in a quiet room. Afterwards I was shaking and emotionless for a while. I’m still recovering from that now and I’ve been home for 4 hours but now I’m wondering if that’s how I experience meltdowns?
Nah they don’t have to be, though that could have been sensory overload that you experienced. It’s difficult to say because everyone experiences them differently. My meltdowns aren’t very violent and are pretty quiet, but I don’t have them often (I’m more prone to shutdowns/dissociation)
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please king send me ANY sniper headcanons
(idk why im so tired and everything feels so funny rn but i’ll throw you a bone)
actually i’ll edit it here
trans. (pre/no op) he wears a binder on the job but only if he’s in a sufficient sniper nest but even then he’ll take it off bc thats self care baby !! if he knows he’s gonna be running around he’s usually fine w/ his thick ass vest + baggy shirt + undershirt combo :)
he. gay =___= + mostly just. sleeps around but is a romantic at heart but also. not really. he just kinda ? minds his business and like doesnt think too hard about things that require lots of thinking
mama’s boy!!!!!!!!! but tries to emulate his papa (sunglasses B) )
hes not stupid but he prefers simplicity
POOR HYGIENE he brushes his teeth sometimes and maybe brushes his hair but. he pees in jars + the sink of HQ if there are none available and listen,, that camper dont exactly have running water
he doesnt know how to start conversations at all and actually doesnt. care for talking too much (which is funny bc he hangs out w/ scout a lot,,, but ig scout does all the talking) he jumps in convos if he has a decent/funny enough point but mostly minds his business
he wears a hat for added height + actually all his wardrobe is planned for his utmost social comfort
he flusters easily + hates it, like if you like corner him in a conversation + he cant figure out what to say he just =/////= + he doesnt know how to flirt easily if u flirt w/ him he’ll like stammer out something stupid or just pretend he didnt hear and like. clean his knife or something
he gets super twitchy/fidgety under pressure like above or if you annoy him, he like. flicks his bobblehead or chews on his glasses/fingernails/anything and gets tappy with his hands, he’s pretty good at sitting still most of the time so these are his Tells for irritation/that he’s bothered
he visits home when he can but usually its just screaming matches and he just storms out of the house and does some farm chores bc he still loves them
he’s really bad at like reading/pronunciation (i mean. he can read) he’s bad at spelling
he has a weird relationship w/ ms pauling like they obvs get along but they dont really talk much + she just gets uncomfy in long silences sometimes but they swap recipes and killing tips, he trust her to make calls most of the time and will just listen to her and let the others compromise it out if need be but he’ll interject if he thinks its serious enough(extra info: he just calls her “pauling” unless he’s being really super serious or feels a little snarky)
he kinda wants a dog but they cant climb into sniper nests and what if it gets hurt
he’s. squirrelier than he lets off and likes to climb on things + also he has good aim with just throwing things
not to veer off canon but he knew he was adopted since he was little
he’s good at falling asleep anywhere in any position + can nod off w/ a sniper in his hand (sometimes thats not the best when youre waiting for a target)
he tries to call his parents at least 3 times a week / every other day if he can manage that
he likes his sunglasses for another reason bc he can snooze a little if theyre having a meeting a nobody can really tell (okay some of them can but listen)
he loves being up high !! no matter the weather he loves it thunderstorms or heavy snow or sunny days its a blast !! and he likes to drive around w/ the windows down and the breeze in his face its :)
listen ik this is canon but the boy is Mentally Ill but brushes it off around people and hates talking about it and gets all clammed up when its brought up by like. anyone strangers or people close to him (see: meet the director/meet the sniper(w/ his dad))
he loves seeing new places but he doesnt care much for like. trudging around the wilderness like?? mucking around in swamps or something like that, he’s there for the view and doesnt need the big exploration + running around that some of the others do
he’s self taught at bow and arrow + picked it up when he was way younger bc he used to think it was cool + sexy now he doesnt really. give it a 2nd thought
he’s actually big emo + has a big heart esp for loved ones but he’s good at hiding if things hurt him outside of his initial response(idk if that makes sense, like if his dad said he hated him he’d like visibly :O at first but after the shock he’d be B/ and maybe just go cry in his camper hfdhsjfk)
he’s pretty blunt and isnt afraid to just ? point things out to people point blank and he doesnt really get?? why people get pissy
he like. snipes + all but he doesnt really believe in hunting all that much (like outside of the necessities for it, but even then he wouldnt participate)
i think he’s defo the most ?? standoffish out of the group like even spy hangs out w/ scout but he just doesnt feel a need to jump into convos and doesnt consider how much you talk to someone to be equal to the value of how good of friends you are like maybe everyone feels all “oh he doesnt talk much so we arent close” but he doesnt see that he just thinks “we sit in a room together + they talk/we do crazy shit together, ergo we are close” he does genuinely care for their well being most of the time
he’s not very touchy and prefers when people keep a distance + he’s just. awkward
he gets irritated easily in social situations/when talking, he’s easy to talk over, he gets more annoyed w/ what people say over what they do, he hates talking to strangers, he doesnt like when people pester him about his personal life, he generally doesnt give a shit about gossip + all + doesnt nose about in other people’s business like i said he just kinda minds his own and stays in his own lane and defo gets involved in the least amount of drama
he hangs out w/ the others but he spends most of his time on his own if he can, if he does hang out w/ them he’s kinda a wall flower and just watches the rest of them + has his fun that way besides interjecting a little quip here and there (sorry i feel like im repeating myself w/ some of these)
sometimes he gets broody and moody
he talks about his job w/ really high esteem and he honestly thinks what he does is pretty great and he definitely doesnt think the others are below him but he likes to say what he does isnt mindless merc work its assassination just bc it makes him feel better about himself + its a good argument against his dad
he. hangs out w/ scout and just listens to the kid ramble about whatever + maybe nods or Mhmms along when needed but keeps his mouth shut but maybe gives Big Adult Advise thats maybe not always that great but it sounds smart, sometimes he vents to him bc scouts dumb and wont get it/remember it and his naive/dummy advise sometimes cheers him and actually helps
i can probably come up w more but this is super long and repetitive F
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neg vent mon- july 4th 2022.
i went over to kermit's cage this morning bc he looked uncomfortable with his face scrunched into the bars, as i opened the cage i even said "hey little bud you look uncomfy lemme get you on the bed to cuddle"... only to touch cold fur. i picked him up his usually warm little body was so cold and rigid.. i closed the cage and gently carried him down stairs in my arms.. i stood in the doorway of kitchen. in barely a whisper i said "kermie died.." immediately irony jumped up to come over and look for himself. kermits small little frame, curled in my arms, clearly gone, yet still looked alive, sleeping. yet its the forever sleep. the kind that breaks my heart. we sat and said our goodbyes. and gave his little head the last kisses. then i gently scooted his lil body into a plastic baggie and put him in the freezer to be buried by the river. after i came back up, i sat next to his cage. in front of julien. he sat as i cried. "hey julien, im sorry, but kermit isnt coming back, he died, so hes gonna go live by the river, i know you two were bonded so its gonna hurt a lot... and im sorry i know you dont understand, because your just a lil guy, but just know hes gone, he isnt coming back, but hes in a happy safe place, filled with oats, peanuts and granola with fresh cool drinking water for him to enjoy while he waits for you. and theres a really nice man up there named technoblade whos gonna take care of him and look after him okay? so everything is gonna be okay. and were gonna get you a new friend so you wont be alone for long. i love you." then i fed him and got up, to go sit and type this on my bed. im destroyed, kermit was the best little rat i could have asked for. he was the best rat, he was cuddly, sweet, and loving. and im sure ill see him again some day. i think that day is soon. i miss my little man so much it hurts so bad. i want to go with him. he was bonded to his cage mate. i had to get a new rat same day in my heart i know im not replacing him. but it feels wrong. i still love my new albino norway rat. hes very sweet. we named him angel. but he wasnt technically domestic. he was a rat meant for labs/live feeding. he screams when i touch him. hes not used to kind touch. so that hurts more. kermit had been such a cuddly man, his cage mate julien wasnt, and now the new rat screams from fear, and while hes good about being held ect it takes him a second to remember my touch is good, my touch wont hurt him, my touch wont feed him to a snake like hes undoubtedly watched others go to the jaws of a snake. i like snakes dont get me wrong and i understand live feeding is needed for some rats. i know the people who breed the rats cant be nice to the rats or it will mess them up mentally... but god dam it i want to hold angel or julien like i did kermit. laid in the crook of my arm like a sweet baby and i cant.. i want to die... i want to die so bad i want to be with little man i want to be with my wormie. i want kermit i want kermit. iwantkermitiwantkermit. i want to join him on the hill where hes buried. want him buried with me. i want him in my arms. i want to die. i want to tear into my flesh with a knife i want to cut my veins open i want to slice into every inch of skin i can. i want to starve until im skinny like he was. i want to die. nothing will ever make me happy not until im dead. i will never be satisfied i want to shake my loved ones like ragdolls screaming stop trying to satisfy me. i will never be satisfied. not until im in the earth.
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More fred sickcanons would be good. Great actually.
:’) i always hope you guys will give me these but ok i’ll do my best!
you know that post about the girl who had so many bananas and op put 2 more on her desk and she said “oh my god i have so many” thats me with my fred sickcanons i have so many
he HATES losing his voice because he needs it for work/dad reasons so he’ll absolutely carry a little notebook around and angrily scribble at people and sometimes they tease him pretending like they dont understand and he gets so exasperated and throws his hands up :’) he and archie can read each other really well in general but once when one of them was sick for a long time they developed their own basic sign language that no one else understands but them
sometimes he gets nosebleeds when he’s sick from blowing/wiping his nose too much and it makes a mess on his pillowcase but fred has to clean everything right away so he’ll get out of bed and do a whole load of laundry and that involves walking around the whole house picking up socks and whatnot
hes gonna push push push push to keep going until the point where someone gets fed up with him pretending he’s ok or he flat out collapses to the ground.
sometimes he sleeps in the basement when he’s sick because it’s cooler down there and he won’t disturb archie with his constant coughing and sneezing but the pull-out couch is so uncomfy and he’s all achy in the morning
the sun always makes him feel better if he can sit somewhere and feel the sun on his sick achy face it helps so much :’)
if he has to sleep in clothes its gonna be a loose tshirt thats gonna be soaked with sweat by the time he gets up
he doesn’t own a humidifier so sometimes he boils water just to hold the cup and feel the steam on his face
the more pillows in his bed the better, but he’s going to throw them all off by the end of the night
in winter he likes to be snoodled under ridiculous amounts of blankets, like 5 or 6.
he loves having his face and neck touched especially if you’re cold and his skin is hot
when the fatigue gets really bad he can’t hold his own head up and he gets all limp and noodly
he will refuse to take a bath no matter how much you insist it will help. shower or bust. if he can’t handle a shower he’ll sponge bathe himself.
because he doesn’t usually collapse until he really needs it, he can sleep for a good 12 hours uninterrupted when he’s sick. like the dead. you have to hold a mirror to his face to see if he’s breathing.
speaking of breathing it gets really hard when he’s all congested and he’s gasping for breath sometimes. especially after a coughing fit he’ll be doubled over struggling to breathe... nice
coughing so hard his lungs hurt.. nice
forehead kisses. its all he wants. and back rubs.
sometimes he’ll want to get up but the whole room will be spinning and he’ll ask whoever’s near to make it stop so he can stand.
he lowkey falls in love with anyone who takes care of him for any amount of time.
he’s always cracking jokes about how sick he is even if he’s literally near death. in fact the sicker he is the more flippant he is about it.
he very rarely gets sick in the first place so when he does it hits like a freight train. he will never see it coming because he ignores all the signs.
if his cold develops into something worse (flu, pneumonia, bronchitis) he’ll blatantly ignore all the warning signs and continue insisting “its just a cold”
he’s always cleaning up after himself. emptying his trash full of tissues. disinfecting the stuff he touches in the kitchen. washing out his puke bucket. washing his bedsheets and pyjamas. he wont listen to you if you tell him to stay put and not worry about it.
sometimes he sleeps lightly and then he’ll make little whimpers and fits in his sleep and you have to touch him or comb his hair to calm him down
sometimes he gets so cold he cant stop shivering
sometimes when he gets sick its because hes so exhausted from work/stress/murders that his immune system is just totally depleted
he likes to brag about how he never gets sick until it hits him
SOMEONE ELSE WASHING HIS HAIR FOR HIM MAKES HIM FEEL SO GOOD
he misses his dad the most when he’s sick
hes so so so so touch starved he wants to be taken care of so bad but he’ll never ask
he has nightmares more often when he sleeps sick and the worst ones are always about archie getting hurt. he talks in his sleep.
he shows up to work with bruises he got from uncoordinatedly walking into walls and smacking his cheekbone on the medicine cabinet and whatnot
sometimes he’s inclined to go without medicine cause he’s had an addictive personality since he was a kid and he doesn’t want to risk getting hooked
its the only time he lets himself look disheveled and sometimes he’ll try hard to clean himself up and comb his hair but the disheveled-ness is still there just less obvious and you can tell he’s trying to look presentable bless his heart
if he’s really out of it he’ll definitely call his caretaker by the wrong name he’ll call hermione mary or mary fp or fp archie
ooh sometimes he puts an electric fan on pointed at his bed if he’s sick during the summer and its on the low setting so it just barely ruffles his hair and his loose shirt... :’)
sometimes when he gets up hes so dizzy but he’s so determined to do it and then he’ll stand up and be so close to collapsing he has to sit down again
he’s definitely vomited in a desk drawer at work before. then just shut it and waited until he can clean it up in privacy.
if he’s really out of it or losing control he’ll make the saddest little whimper noises
he’s really good at being sick overall, he takes it in stride and he’s a champ at hiding it but those rare occasions it breaks him down... nice
he will take every excuse to press his sweaty feverish skin against something cold (it helps w the nausea too) be it a table or a fridge or a wall or a cold glass of water or someone’s shoulder... but then he’ll deny what he’s doing it for
i have to stop bc ive been staring at this screen forever but tell me if you want anything specific cause i could go on...
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ok ik bitches are still going to complain but i gotta rant to keep my shit together;;; ngl after being stuck co-raising two babies now i really feel genuinely Disgusted by unnecessary parent critique. like it actually makes me feel so viscerally upset and depressed when i remember nobody gets this or cares to and probably just wants to call out what im doing wrong, instead of lend me a hand to do it better. man im not treading lightly here the ‘no excuses’ mentality is literally Inhumane to parents and dehumanizes them as these superhumans, they arent, they are people trying to take care of themselves Plus One. there Are ‘excuses’ for not being perfect. just bc every child deserves perfect doesnt mean it can be given and that fucking SUCKS but that is one of the only times im comfortable saying; ‘thats just life’. you cant magically make life better for kids the way you think, you’re not a protector, you’re their Rock to teach them How to DEAL with what life brings, that means you’re allowed to struggle with it too. childcare is like this cosmic design to work you physically and mentally to the brink, fucking forget the normalization of how many people you think you’ve seen raise kids and done fine, it is harder than you can even fathom. they probably did not do fine behind closed doors. the parents with the best behaved and most obedient kids probably did harmful things to make them that way that will eventually come back to them, the parents with the happiest most well adjusted kids probably had the money to provide the extra care for that. there are ‘excuses’. idc if it fucking annoys you or w/e, i dont like being the bitch that says stuff nobody wants to hear, but you truly deeply cannot 100% understand unless you are raising kids, i dont say that to hurt your feewings or exclude you, i used to think that way, i say it bc when you see me passed out on the couch while my nephew gets into something dangerous, its because i got one hour of sleep that night while he kicked me in our bed for 4 hours. he cant help not knowing how that affects both of us, but i cant help being affected by it just cuz im supposed to be ~the big strong adult~, bc i am not a fucking xman. i CANT pretend it all away. while im sitting there napping im also waiting for my mental health meds to start working. im also dizzy from not eating. it sucks that he gets into shit sometimes. hes still gonna get into shit sometimes, and i can do my best, but if i sit here worrying that karens are gonna get pissed abt that and work myself even harder im gonna straight up explode. who does that help. who does me falling apart help. come babysit my kid for free if you wanna help me bitch!
parents are doing twice the work of a normal person while also teaching one of these people theyre caring for, how to BE a person. i used to be SO pro judging parents and im literally nauseated by the judgments now. “i cant believe this parent looked away and their kid got hurt, i cant beleive they just leave them there with a tablet or a snack or a toy while they nap, i cant believe they let them do that, i cant believe--” btich you literally have no idea how lucky you are that they are not both already dead. you are so lucky tehy are both alive and the parent isnt hospitalized for mental health or even physical exhaustion, or addicted to a stimulant (which includes caffeine), or using smth to relax like weed or alcohol (hello wine mom culture), or the kid isnt traumatized from watching their parent have repeatd breakdowns. that is literally better than most situations already. no matter how impossibly perfect the family could be in your mind, kids fuckin get hurt and they make mistakes and the PARENTS make mistakes bc theyre PEOPLE and yall this blows my mind that ppl dont realize this but,,,,, Little kids??? THEY DO NOT LISTEN TO THEIR PARENTS bc they essentially CANT..... for like YEARS there is a period they WILL NOT LISTEN TO YOU at ALL while they have the full autonomy and smarts and strength to cause horrible consequential problems, they are capable of learning how to circumnavigate your ‘babyproofing’ in new ways every single day, but they have ZEROOOOO MORALS OR CAUSE AND EFFECT SKILLS to understand RIGHT FROM WRONG, NO MATTER HOW OFTEN YOU TELL THEM!!!!! IT WONT CHANGE, ITS LITERALLY A PHYSICAL BRAIN THING THAT THEY CANT LEARN WHAT ‘NO’ MEANS FOR A WHILE YET!!! THIS CAN LAST FROM AGE 1 TO 4, SOMETIMES LONGER! THATS GENUINELY INSANITY INDUCING FOR THE ADULT WHOS KEEPING THEM IN LINE HUNDREDS OF TIMES A DAY, KNOWING ITS AMOUNTING TO ALMOST NOTHING UNTIL YEARS LATER!!!! IT DOESNT HELP WHEN PPL JUDGE YOU AND DONT BELEIVE YOU AND THINK YOU JUST ARENT ~TRYING HARD ENOUGH~! holy FUCK dude, idc if you wanna judge, im losing it bc i am being forced to keep my cool while a child whos pinching me and genuinely HURTING and BRUISING me laughs in my face bc he truly DOES NOT KNOW this, and there is NO WAY for me to convey it to make him stop at the moment!!!! thats maddening!!!
listen to me, neither of you dying or experiencing lasting damage is literally the goal every day, not just ‘raising them’, but that you both survive to the end of it. im appalled by how different the lifestyle is and the way ppl just... dont know that/REJECT that information so they get to judge. ofc tiny vulnerable innocent kids deserve the best, parents cannot always provide that if they want to Survive, bc they also deserve , basic understanding and humanity. you call out abuse all you want, theres a difference between the 'lesser of two evils’ choices, or even the genuinely Bad choices you can Accidentally make when at your wits end (which you should immediately correct anyways), and ever causing intentional physical or mental harm to the child, but the secodn yall start nitpicking or blatantly being ignorant to a struggle just so you get your blame validation in i literally cannot AFFORD to give you the time of day, im busy running on minutes of sleep, so if you think i have enough free time to entertain ur whining that my kids got a messy face and has been on his tablet in a highchair for an hour or w/e, idc, im using that time to shower for the first time in 2 weeks bc nobody else is gonna be there for me to let me do that shit :) so frankly put your money where your mouth is and help struggling parents whenever you can. i cant make shit better out of thin air.
“oh, but i dont have the money to help you.” YOU THINK IM AFFORDING CHILDCARE?? YOU CAN COME OVER AND HELP DIRECTLY WHILE I DO CHORES. “oh, but i dont wanna babysit for my friends, i dont like kids.” OH REALLY?????? OH YOU DONT LIKE KIDS??? BC THEYRE DIFFICULT MAYBE ??? SO MAYBE YOU SHOULDNT JUDGE WHEN ITS HARD THEN????? LIKE YOU RLY THINK JUST ‘LIKING THEM’ SUDDENLY MAKES IT EASY FOR ME?? YOU THINK ME FINDING MY NEPHEW CUTE AND LOVING HIM AND HIS LAUGHTER GIVES ME FUCKING SUPERMAN POWERS TO DEAL WITH THIS???????? “but You chose to have kids” rt in my case i literally didnt and would be homeless if not offering to help care for them but HEY COOL CONCEPT PRO CHOICE KINDA FUCKIN INCLUDES WHEN PEOPLE ‘CHOOSE’ TO HAVE KIDS EVEN WHEN THEY STRUGGLE AFTER, TOO LATE TO FUCKIN COMPLAIN NOW, JUST HELP A BITCH OUT. LIke... bro BRO b R O im losing it stop giving parents the inspiration porn treatment while disrespecting the actual struggles they go thru any time the child actually suffers bc they are unable to shield them from their struggle. can i be real, life literally will not go without struggle. you cannot raise them to have a life better than what the world is, you can do your best but you really cant MAKE it fair. once again this is not a ‘raise the perfect child’ contest you are just . trying to raise them at all. its messy. every single day you will have successes and failures, and you’ll be running on empty, and you’ll be doing that just to make it through to do it again tomorrow, while it slowly (AGONIZINGLY SLOWLY) gets easier each day. im tired of pretending lmao i dont wanna hear you bitches judge parents anymore, i dont wanna hear the stupid ass ‘im allowed to’ shit anymore dude!!!!! for gods sake i can agree with you when some shits just plain wrong but ill never apologize for standing up for myself or other struggling parents even if it makes you uncomfy, i can care about Both the child and the parent at the same time, ig i wont ask you why you seemingly cant. 😶 ESPECIALLY when things like classism and ableism tie in so often with these situations. not to mention racism like im white but hoooo if i hear one more story about a black parents ‘negligence’ in efforts of just trying to help their family, like leaving their kids somewhere during a job interview or w/e, vs the white parents that LET THEIR 10 YR OLDS WANDER AROUND MALLS BY THEMSELVES... im gonna scream. im gonna fuckin scream. its so unfair. fuck off, stop the spiteful ignorance, change this shitty hateful culture.
tldr; you Can care about kids while respecting parents, even when they arent perfect. you can advocate for children while also advocating for parents, and in fact, you should fucking try.
#vent/ //#might delete later ///#ok to rb but. i swear to god if this pops off and ppl whine...... literally L I T ER A LL Y come take care of my kids#NO BETTER YET BC ITS ACTUALLY FEASIBLE!! FOR EVERY COMPLAINT. 5 DOLLARS IN MY PAYPAL#SO I CAN AFFORD DAYCARE. LITERALLY IF OYU CLAIM ANY STUPID SHIT BC I ADMIT ITS HARD TO CARE FOR SMALL KIDS#U HAVE NO EXCUSE TO NOT PUT THAT FAKE BITCHY JUDGY CONCERN INTO ACTUAL RESULTS. THANKX#anyways on a real note again this is a vent moreso than a disc horse post thats meant to be shared around so#its not perfect its just. my feelings over the past couple years dealing w this man#really fuckin tired of it i really spent so many years 100% on the side of 'i have critical understanding i get to judge'#no i didnt. no you dont. its not comprehensible till you're pushed to your own limit with childcare. i hate being that btich#cuz nobody wants to hear it. but its the truth swallow it#long post //
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