#i cant rememeber what it called

[thebloggingfox]

I hope we're all enjoying the Tumblr top Pokémon polls as if you have any choice in the matter.

[magicalnursekomugi]

theres a gideon drawing sitting in my drafts that i dont like and i dont care enough to fix it but i DO like the drawing of my fursona kissing it

[egotisticalmav]

Nineteen

❀.ೃ࿔ ─── Growing up in the Berlin slums with Michael Kaiser made you question if either one of you would be free. Years later your back where it all started, but where is he?

content found : Michael Kaiser x gn!reader : mentions of abuse : light angst? maybe? i cant tell : this is pure shat : half proofred cause i gave up and im laazy

word count : 972

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You were nine when you first met Michael. His body covered in bruises and cuts, hair tangled and choppy, and a dirty football tucked under his arms

Despite your upbringing you knew better than to ask what was wrong even at yoru young age, maybe it was because you were going through something similar to him

Timidly, you walked up to him, offering a few coins you had stolen from your mothers bag while she was passed out

He seemed skeptical but regardless he took them

At eleven he would meet you infront of your school after you got out. While he was forced to steal for his dad all day, you would be sat in a stuffy classroom around stuck up kids who couldn't be bothered talking to you

For hours after the your school day ended you two would walk around the city, laying down in nearby parks soaking up the small sliver of freedom away from your parents, something about his presesnce - even at an early age - seemed so comforting

Fourteen was when the warm fuzzy feeling he always gave you clicked, holding hands when he met you at school, holding eachother close no matter the season, the quick kisses on eachothers cheeks

Maybe it was the lack of regoniction from your mother growing up when you would express yoru love to her that stopped you from telling him how you felt

Or maybe because you couldn't bring youself to hold him back. "I'll tell him when we make it out of here" you'd think hoping that one day you could

When you hit fifteen you felt everything crash down. Michael was now arrested and apprently your dad had gained custody of you so now you were being shipped off to a foreign country all by yourself

No matter how ahrd you begged and cried to let you in to see Michael while he was held in prision they always dismissed you

Thousands of miles away without a way to contact him.

Sixteen and seventeen weren't in anyway 'sweet' like you were promised. Any kind of of effort made by your so called 'dad' and his new family overseas was ignored

You younger half siblings obsession with football consistently reminded you of Michael, the boy you still couldn't get over.

Endless days and nights spent yearning for his touch and scent, for you to call out his silly nickname you gave him years ago and for him to respond

You just wanted to be with you Mihya

Now, at nineteen you stand on the busy roads of Berlin. Finally free from both parents - if you could even call them that

Your feet dragged themeselves down the road you rememeber walking down so many times before with Mihya

It's not like you could call him to ask if he was finally out of jail, so you took your best guess in hopes he would be in his childhood 'home'. The streets were almost silent if it wasn't for the hum coming from the street lamps

The neighbourhood seemed, nicer? Every house was decently kept if not spotless and you didn't feel unsafe like you did when you were younger

Reaching the end of the street to where his house once stood. A "For Sale" sign hung infront of the property, while the actual house nearly sparkled from house clean and put together it looked

No overgrown grass or empty beer cans could be seen anywhere on the street, let alone the house

You could feel your throat closing slowly and your vision begin to blur. Ears ringing and heart beating loudly, stumbling over your feet a little as you practically ran back

Days, weeks, months passed. You witnessed the house be bought online from the comfort of your small studio apartment

As the loud chatter from your younger half siblings could be heard while they watched some stupid football match you had to pay like five dollars for or something

You hated football now, you hated anything that could be traced back to Mihya. Sure you left him first, but it wasn't your choice! You'd rather be stuck in the abusive house your mother owned while being with him that be saved by your dad

"Turn it down, you're going to go deaf!" You yell down the hall at the maxed out volume set by your younger siblings

It's clear they aren't listening so you take matters into your own hands, feet thumping down the hall, snatching the remote from their grimy hands - as to be expected

What you didn't expect was to be greeted by him on the screen

"And Michael Kaiser scores!! The match is now sat at two to one between FC Barcha and Bastart München!!"

You felt yoru throat close up again, something that was now recurring since you came back from Berlin. All noise faded into the background and your knees felt weak

Your stomach twisted and turned making you feel sick, head pounding. Still clinging onto the remote, you siblings desperately tried to pry from yoru clammy hands

Closing your eyes while you dropped the remote heading over to the nearest wall to slide down. Head heavy in your hands while your airways felt blocked

Sure you were saved for a bit, but something in you told you that Michael was free for life. Not stuck with some family he didn't even know or care about

Nineteen whole years you had been bored and trapped, and now you were positive you really couldn't find a way out like Mihya

© egotisticalmav'25 | do not plagiarise or translate any of my work

[jacenotjason]

helloo!!! hello! it me! questions!!

how woild they react to children? im pretty sire you said at one point that theyd give it to Barnaby- i think i dunno im bad at rememebering -but what would each of their reactions be

what if i just... bite howdy.. gove him a little nibble... nothing harmful just a little bite

Yeh i did say that!! I said that on tiktok im pretty sure :3 but yeah most of the time they’ll give the kid to Barnaby!

Eddie would not want to be around a kid, he is not at all skilled with parenthood- he holds the lil guy by their leg lmao- (“Eddie! Don’t hold them like that!!” “Why not? You’re ok right lil guy?” “*baby noise*” “see they’re good.”)

Julie does not like kids- she has her cat daughter and thats all she needs. She doesnt wanna leave it alone tho, so she tries to get them to follow her to take them to barnaby. She doesn’t wanna touch em- just like “cmon.. yeah.. cmon- don’t touch me- cmon”

Sally I’m not sure how she’d even come in contact with child? If one like, broke in somehow she’d probably have a panic attack

Poppy gives the child a cigarette and a shot lol, Barnaby comes and takes it lol-

Frank is great with kids bc hes basically one :3 he just hangs out with the kid, maybe calls someone and is like “theres a bby here :3” and they draw together n stuff

Howdy is great with kids, too!! He grew up with like 30 goddamn siblings he’s great with em, so he hangs out with the child for awhile and if he cant find the parents himself he gives the kid to barnaby but probably stays with him to hang out with child yknow.

And if barnaby found child he probably just picks em up and takes em to the library. Random tangent its probably so comfortable to be held by opp barnaby hes so sof-

I think thats all of em

OH and as for the biting Howdy would just- let you nibble for awhile. He’ll glare at you but he doesnt care lol

Longer then like a minute he’ll shove you off

[haveihitanerve]

so um

sometimes when i watch tff vids i write commentary in my notes. and i stumbled across this little gem a second ago and thought i might share my crazed thoughts

Bro i just love seeing curt dancing and singing the songs in the background because he fucking wrote them and has heard roland sing them so many times now its their songs and i just love it and then when he steps up and they sing together…. Omg. their voices are so perfect for each other. Platonic soulmates. Meant to be. Their voices. Mwah. *chefs kiss*

AWWWWWW and that moment they played to each other OMG SO CUTE

AHHHH in everybody wants to ulr the world curt starts walking towards roland, ro,land looks at him, they grin, and curt slowly starts walking backwards away from him again. AHHH its too cute

Aw. but only curt did the slight fist pump. Roland moved his arm but only to play the guitar

OMG OMG THEY SANG SECRET WORLD??????? I DON'T REMEMEBER THAT BUT FUCK YEAH

Its 100% a him and curt song, look at how he looked at curt at that one part!!!!!!

LOOK AT HOW THEYRE GRINNING WHILE SINGING THIS SONG. BOTH OF THEM HAVE EAR TO EAR GRINS!!!!!!!!!

Ooh and roland tried to walk to curt but he wasn't paying attention. Oof

DAMN he can still hit those high notes!!! Whew. 

‘Primarily because its the nearest venue to my house’ gods i love their dry humor. Roland did it too.

Also i love that roland said ‘my house is ten minutes away’ and curt also said ‘close to my house’ are they talking about the same house? Are they neighbors? Is it really curts house and roland just considers it his? Like whats going on? Id like some answers pls

‘for those of you that can do math. Or maths as we call it in england’ like the dryness is unmatched

I really hate to say this, but curt cannot hear himself right now. At the beginning, then he gets it. They really ought to work on that.

Also rolands low bass mixing with his is beautiful. I know i say it a lot but hot damn

AWWW and i love how everyone knew immediately to pull out their cameras at the right song. So they all know the album. I love that for tff.

And yes they do sound amazing random lady who imma call stacy in the crowd

AND FUCK THE BLENDING OF THE VOICES AGAIN

Drop me in the infinite sea. -curt is a water sign….. Just saying -

Oop i remember this part of the concert- ‘our songs are more famous than we are’ ‘visa with special talent. I cant tell you what that talent is’ ‘and he says, ‘who?’’ also whoever that dude in the crowd is who yelled ‘he sucked’ aimed at the tsa agent, i agree ‘Young kids with funny haircuts’ 

OMG OMG OOOOOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHH MYYYYYYYY GODDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THEY HAVE THE ORGINAL VID OF ROLAND DANCING PLAYING IN THE VDIEO BEHIND THEM IN MAD WORLD 

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

hrm. like i support the girl and all, but i dont think she should get the rights to sing suffer the children.

The new girl for oleta adams can sing tho. The other girl can too. She just shouldn't sing suffer the chilrden. My opnion at least

‘How do you follow that?’ ‘that was track one’ ‘probably best to follow it with trac two’ 

I cant with you roland

OOOOOH i love curts dancing for badmans song. And his mouthing of the words

And the way roland keeps checking on curt. Damn bro. Checking up on bae be like

AWWWW THEYRE DOING IT!!!!! CHECKING UP ON BAE

And fuck you roland. Curts looking at his hands and roland is just watching him, his fingers effortlessly moving across the frets. SMH. i wish i had that talents.

ND ROLANDS FACE AT THE END. LIKE 'hm good job'. And curt just fucking grins at him

OOOOOOOH FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE FUCKING DID IT!!!! HE STILL GOT IT!!!!!! 

[smolcuriouskitten]

A soft yawn left the witches lips as she hums to herself, dancing along with the music playing in her apartment. She was planning to have Sheldon over for the day, happy to be home even after the long touring process. Even if they were both growing into this thing called a relationship, she had a good feeling about it despite how long its been.

They started talking 3 years ago and still havent had intimacy. She didnt mind it though, she hasnt had a good experience with a man in a very long time, so when Sheldon came along, she was genuinely surprised. She will admit for the first few dates and months of their relationship or growth with getting to know each other as he called it, she waited for something to drop.

Was he an asshole? A cheater? Abusive? Anything she experienced in the past? She remembers how confused he was with her flinching the first time he hugged her. The way he reacted, immediately apologizing and rambling about the scientific positive effects of hugs brought tears to her eyes. Its been history ever since.

She was happy to be with Sheldon, everything was normal and she didnt have to worry about much. Well, as normal can get with an intelligent man such as Sheldon. He was predictable though, his routine never changed and he was just himself. Hell, she was making him his favorite and he was coming over to watch the Star Trek movie series with her, what could go wrong?

Hearing those 3 knocks and her name being called, she plates the food and answers the door with a bright smile on her face.

"Hi my love! How have you-"

"You are in BIG trouble."

A pause. A few blinks. Sheldon's face was curled up in a way of fury and Rockelle could only look at him confused.

"Did I mess with your spot crease again? I dont rememeber-"

"My comic books."

"Oh yeah! I picked one up the other day because Kimchi was trying to mess with it. What about it?"

"Rockelle."

Now Sheldon was mild mannered, sarcastic most days. Angry and Sheldon were not words you would associate with each other, so this was surprising. Her look of confusion was turned to a look of concern.

"I...Im sorry, I know Kimchi isnt supposed to be in your room, let alone me but-"

"So your dog was in my room, invading my space, AND frolicking in my comic books?! I knew something felt off with my Flash issue 73! There...There were finger prints and even toothmarks on my book! Ms. Simmonds, you are in need of a proper penalty, this is unacceptable!" He fusses and Rockelle looks around the room confused.

Did someone switch Sheldon when she wasnt looking? Shes never seen him so angry before. She knew she wasnt supposed to go in his room and she felt horrible knowing Kimchi invaded his space as well. "Im sorry dear...I was napping in your room and Kimchi wanted to join me. I should have brought him home, Im so sorry."

Sheldon's eyes softened when looking at her, letting out a sigh. "I suppose its fine. Just dont let him....in my room again. I can get another issue of that, at least he wasnt in one of my 'mint' stashes of books." He replied then she steps closer, opening her arms. "Can....can we hug it out or is that a part of the punishment?" Rockelle asks with her bottom lip poked out, pouting at him.

He looked offended, making a face at her. "Why no, of course not. I actually enjoy your touch, I wont deprive myself of that, even if I am upset." He answers, letting out a small puff of air as she rushes to hug him, murmuring little apologies as she held onto his shirt tightly. "Hey hey hey. Its okay. I just...I prefer my stuff not to be bothered in ways I dont like. Not to mention, you touched my comics without the designated gloves and I hate seeing finger prints on Harry Allen's face." He said, holding her close, rubbing her back.

"You arent mad at me?" She asks, looking up at him with a head tilt. "I cant stay mad at you. Even if my comic book smells like dog drool." She gently taps his face and pouts. "Hey. If you like, during this punishment, you take out your anger on me." She responds and Sheldon raises a brow. "Isnt that...abbrasive? I mean, anger is subjective, what if my anger is too much for you to handle? What about if I use my disappointment to fuel this instead?" He asks then she chuckles and nods.

"If it helps you. Speaking of which, what is this punishment?" She asks, tapping her chin. "Am I not allowed to watch something? Do something? The suspense is killing me." She whines and Sheldon shakes his head. "No no, that's a bit much. I think we should take it old school, thats always best." He said, leading her to the couch and having a seat.

"Old school...Old school..." Rockelle repeats, trying to think of a punishment that wasnt considered to be absurd or abusive by todays standards. "I dont have frozen peas if we are going that old school." She responds then Sheldon looks at her confused. "I am not going to make you eat frozen peas, thats cruel and unusual punishment. Not to mention it would feel like trying to chew jawbreakers." He answers then she returns the confused gaze before she shakes her head, gently holding his hand. "Well, if it isnt that, what are you thinking?"

"I am going to spank you." Sheldon responded blanky and she almost choked on air. "E-excuse me?" She responds and she turns red in the face. "Spank you. Its an old school punishment which a person must lay over the others knees and-" Sheldon explains before Rockelle interrupts. "No no, I know what it is, I just didnt expect that. O-okay." She squeaks, moving to lay over his knees.

"Are you comfortable with that? I can come up with something else, reading Geology since I cant tolerate it sounds like a nice idea as well." He responds and she shakes her head. "No no, this is okay. I...I been a bad girl and I need to be punished." She murmurs, closing her eyes as she prepared for the first hit. "Good choice, I would rather not touch that disgusting thing." He shudders as he lifts his hand for the smack.

*SMACK*

She yelped at the impact, covering her mouth. She was feeling something she never felt before and damn did it feel good. This wasnt painful, his hits didnt feel harsh...how did he manage to be so gentle despite doing something so lewd? As her mind raced with many thoughts, it quieted down with the next impact.

*SMACK*

Now this time instead of a yelp, she giggles at the hit, moving her hips. "Again please." She says and Sheldon raises a brow. "You arent supposed to be enjoying a penalty." He scolds and she bites her lip. "Oh no, I am so sorry, this is the way I cope with punishments. Maybe you should do it harder to teach me a lesson." She chirps, her tone sarcastic and Sheldon shrugs. "If it makes you enjoy this less, I will do it harder." His hand raised again.

*SMACK SMACK*

Another giggle left her lips as she felt his hand come down, a lustful smile on her lips. Oh she could get used to this.

"Count them for me, I want to make sure I dont go over 20."

"Yes daddy."

"What?!"

"What?"

@sheldoney @unsheldony

[stabbingandorbeingstabbed]

i gots 2 know what makeup products u use im sure the majority is ur natural god given pristine beauty but what are u using on the brows lids lips skin etc. divas enquire

girl nooone of this is god its makeup and camera angles but that's VERY sweet LMAO okay i'm putting it under a cut bc it's lots of makeup talk <3

so okay the brows are actually just filled in with cake mascara from bésame cosmetics which they dont even make anymore? ive been using the same cake for like 5 years every day and im probably not even halfway through it maybe thats why they discontinued that one and reformulated and sell it in a much smaller quantity now? anyways thats the brows the lids are fenty diamond bomb highlighter just applied with my fingies :-) if im wearing foundation i'll use that elf power grip primer and dior backstage face and body foundation (don't come for me its a bigger bottle so price per oz it's comparable to like a mid-range foundation i did the maaaaaath) but most days im not really doing all that lmao. i have four billion trillion lip products and i usually just kinda experiment with combinations on a day to day basis? but yesterday in that pic i posted it was the pink sacheu peel-off lip liner thing used as an all-over lip stain and then the brown ole henriksen lip treatment over it :-) that lip stain is no fucking joke i've used soooo many lip stains and that one didn't budge until i scrubbed my lips when i got home shes a winner !! i dont contour on a regular basis but when i do the elf one that comes in a tube is what i use i cant rememeber what its called <3 uhmm sometimes i use that milk makeup jelly blush stick thing if im feeling washed out and if i wanna be really glow-y i use that charlotte tilbury flawless filter as a highlight to finish everything :-) and for mascara ive been doing the tower 28 one recently but my all-timer is probably essence princess lash it's like $4. a lot of this more expensive stuff i only use bc im buying the travel size versions im balling on a budget. okay i love u hope this helped MUAH

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

god i had this dream LN thats been fcking w me all day, only rly just beginning to calm down from it now😪 slimbo was driving us down a stretch of road that isnt real but i am very familiar w it from dreaming of it so often. i call it "false PNW highway" and its soooo beautiful but i digress. we were driving & suddenly a black car speeds around the corner ahead, towards us, darts in front of us narrowly missing our car & flies off the cliff to the right of me, explosion. then a few seconds later it happens again w another black car that appeared to b chasing it. Explosion.. horrified i look to the ground below & see the wreckage on the beach w the sky all sherbet colors & tall mountains that line the other side of the aqua green bay, bright orange sun setting behind them. Upon seeing the whole scene i felt that the two cars did this on purpose to die together as brothers & have the most gorgeous perfectly timed cathartic deathh as one. i did not feel sad for them but i cried from the beauty.We kept driving..

idk y the dream messed me up, I guess its just that all my dreams have been about death lately, The ones i rememeber anyway. there was one last week that was so bad i cant post it :/ But when they r such literal imagery of death like this i wonder the true meaning. the dreams that come as warnings of death its always black dogs & cats. But when i see ppl die in dreams i thinks its something different. I think i just dont like that my dream self was romanticizing what i saw

[kliunkii]

‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚. specific memories / personal lost media ‧₊˚❀༉‧₊˚.

❀episode 6 - weird ass sports game i dont even fuckin know how to title this❀

im just gonna list things i remember about it

unknown online/browser kids game

- played this in 2009-2012(?)

- 3d graphics, side scrolling world?

- girl and boy characters

- membership was a thing

- main theme of the entire game was sports and sport related games ( health? fitness?)

- you could have your own room/house

- had a currency system

- non-member players looked alike

- most likely a browser game

i CANT FIND A SINGLE FUCKING IMAGE OR VIDEO THAT IS EVEN REMOTELY CLOSE TO WHAT I REMEMBER THE GAME LOOKING LIKE IS THIS AN ACTUAL FALSE MEMORY OR WAS IT THAT OBSCURE???????'

using a placeholder image of some game called jumpstart because it's the most similar in style to what i rememeber

[headphonesheadphonesheadphones]

its weird to cope with the fact that i found a great meaning in loving someone else only to realise that people arent infailable and i cant backseat live my own life to be in a relationship esp whsn it falls apart regardless of what i do and now im struggling with fhe questions of my own life. maybe not positively influenced by the devastation of going through a break up and losing something that felt so certain and central at times to me. but still also trying to rememeber being my own person and living my own life is one of the greatest gifts life can give. but also maybe thinking too hard. and just wanting good things. and more. and trying to learn about the world more too but turns out a lot of awful things happen. and its entirely possible i need to reevaluate my relationship with social media bc of how frequently im on it and hoe bad the news i see everyday is and how it affects me wjile not avtually enabling me to do more so to say. and i have these twisted feelings about my relationship and my ex to unravel........that sometimes feel so uncomfortable and tie into feelings of my own i cant tell if are true or are needlessly guilt tripping i pull on myself about not being able to help anyone or not doing more or are feelings of frustration id like to do more or are just needless blame and realy frustration and anger at how i was treated in the past while also not being able to be sure i could call someone else wrong for that....its so hard. its so confusing. is it wrong to just want to be happy? i dont think im doing things right. or maybe i can. and i dont understand how others just go about their lives.... why does this guilt feel so strong yet why do i feel unable to do anything that feels meaningful or enough and then blame myseld and wang to do more...what is going on with me... do i need a reality check do i just need some community do i need to do more am i just depressed a bit and need to cut myself some slack.

based on all this. i probably need to do some self care for the evening. but maybe i can use it to figure myself out later. this is so hard..... i feel a bit messed up but like im trying my besf. i cant tell what it is i want from life. maybe to be of service. maybe to be loved. maybe to be with loved ones. maybe to be part of some greater cause or meaning. i need to log off.

[larateared]

I'm not supposed to be here K isn't real they'd never come back, they left me years ago when they saw who I was they'd never talk to me again they would never be on even terms with me. He hates me he knows how horrible I am why is he back. It's not real because he'd never come back absolutely unrealistic. He's the only one left why would he come back please I'm devastated that you're the only one who comes back you always leave me you've known me since before I killed them that I seem so differnet lifeless why do you think i'm lifeless why have you always seen me as lifeless why does everyone see me as lifeless I think I sound pretty lively I'm veyr very lively I have a lot of emotions and I express them a lot but but what do you mean this personality has been conditioned to stay alone please for no don't Ill do it myself

he doesn't pay any attention to me Im fake to him he won't even call me by my name always that name but it's okay even if it really does fucking hurt because I killed them. I killed them I stole their everything why did I do it it wasn't for neccessity I know it was for something I can't remember I wasn't supposed to be here Murder for pleasure is the greatest sin

Please don't call me that I have a name I know i seem different it's okay you can call me that nevermind it's fine if you're more comfortable with it but please only you're allowed to do it nobody else.

I'll never call myself that I promise I won't ever even if you're angry at me.

I'm left out, everybody here knows you and likes you and everyone has helped you and I want to help you and sacrifice everything for you I always have but I can't I fucking can't do anything I can't understand you, you're the one with a similiar life, the most similar so why are our experiences different I can't understand why you're lonely why you're like this I should be like you so why am I like this I wasn't supposed to be like this the reason is because I killed them and stole everything but they're not really dead it's okay I'm dying I'm dying I'll die one day the beginning of my death has begun and I will fade maybe please just kill me I don't wnat to die dying is horrible but I cant fucking do anything else.

You don't pay any attention to me, you never really will the only reason you even associate with me is because I'm an old friend, the person you wnant I don't know how to bring them back they come out sometimes but only once a year ago and a few weeks ago I can't fucking be impulsive everything thought out thinking about doing it how do I stop please when I'm impulsive I see the most beautiful thing ever everyone thinks I'm impulsive ubt I think about it so much reliving everything hundreds of times because of how slow the days pass and hwo long it feels it feels like it's been 3 years waiting waiting suffering I can't remember your face I can't remember who you are I cant remmeber and I only see faint glimpses of you in something I thought I'd find funny dsomething I'd remmeber i though talwyas I can't remmeber anything I can't remmeber anything I cant rememeber anything I can't see anything and everyone is gone because I can't remember them don't forget please don't forget please don't forget I want to remember I don't want you to dissapear forever what to do if someone is gone then nothing because they never existed in the first place you exist but you'll never touch me again or look at me for what I've done to you.

I don't wantt o leave you too I thought I could be your freind again I can't help you because I don't have a grasp on loneliness or understanding the only thing I wish for is that you be a good friend but i want to cry every time I see you you'll hate me forever you already hate meI can see it how you act how you fucking resent me every time we speak I'm not gonna change and get better I'll always be no nono I can't I will be.

It isn't true that I want you to say something kind to me I don't know I just want to be your friend only yours because I admire you so much you may be a god to me but but I don't want to hurt you fuel your narcissism STOP THINKIGNT HAT WHAT SENCEJSA THINK NORMALY UNDERSTAND IT because some things will never be understood oh not the time for that no no of course not

I need to leave I need to run away from these people but I can't let them see me like this horrible creature because I don't want them to pity me

The first normal people I've spoken to in years, and so strange, I can't understand they're emotions or anything thye do anymoer.

I love you(? I don't think so)

I don't want to be you and I admire and love you so I think you're the only person I like.

but you'd hate me you'll never see me the way I wantI need to change change change change scoiety dont you mean me

one day I have to chance not onde day please but it's just appearance the person I truly am will never be chnag one day it will be can''t you see it you'velalrady changed I'm going to be forgotten

I need to get away from you guys for my safety

[sphinx-myth]

theres a time, i remember i wasss in class maybe, i dont know but i forgot what happened- oh i put my hand up to ask a question in year 5 and i jsut blanked. i dont think i was daydreaming unless i was? i cant rememeber but i came back to the teacher moving on and i said wait u didnt let me ask my question and she was like i tried to, i kept calling ur name but u wouldnt respond. i slowly put my hand down confused on what happened

[dankqueef]

I went to go clean the locker room and I ended up looking thru the locker and found a lot of cool stuff. I dont rememeber what was in brock Sampson's locker but like 3 of the lockers w er re loaded with pokemon games. I dont remember what was happening before the locker th im ng but I left and everyone was gone. And I was like wtf I was in there for 11 minutes. And then there were magic zombies and apparently time went slower in the locker room and I met some survivor friends who assumed I bit the dust somewhere. Idk we all used swords and so did the zombies and the zombies had drops and one really strong one showed up and had a sword called "The Flame Sword" but it was a big sword decayed like a flaming racecar. Also I knew the name somehow and also that it was a really strong weapon. I did like flips and pulled out like a rebar sword which was like, how rafters or the ifle towers have a bunch of bars connecting them together but it was still more like just a club or a stick. Anyways I killed it and the ome other survivor I cant remember his name who could really fight was there but didnt really help cuz he was scared.

[navysealt4t]

goddd my anastasia obsession is coming backk...

[zhiamomence]

whenever suematsu mentioned i still rememeber that one drama cd ososan matsunoke no wacchatto shita kanji 3 ( i think) where the last skit in there is highly best sue moment ive ever heard (and also choukei too they really funny in here)(and ichi too, you'll see)

I heard this full ver on youtube one time (before it deleted, so sadly i cant find it anymore im so sorry) but i can try to remember anything what i heard from that skit (even my understanding with Japanese speaking is not that great, but this one seems simple and yet quite understandable for some part, but i know its canon so!!!!!!!!!) Also this is super long so i keep it under read more feel free to read anytiem

sue? more like ueE

In the beginning, it seems like sextuplets on the date with Totoko (Like in Kinko episode when they mentioned about the schedule Totoko shopping date yeAH SOMETHING LIKE THAT) at Chibita's oden, but they all waiting for Jyushimatsu. He appear running toward to the oden cart,rushes and straight up apologize to Totoko while his brothers mad at him bcus he came here very late. And then they all go eating some foode together!!!!!!!! Dinner time

And while they preparing to eat some good oden freshly cooked by Chibita, Totty notice something wrong on Jyushimatsu. He asked,

"Is something wrong on your head? It look swollen on that side" and that make Jyushi started gasps in concern that his brother found out about that, even Ichi notice it too and wonder if he okay but Jyushi brushes it off with "I got clumsy I fell down! It's not big deal" and that make Totty notice something suspicious about it.

Time skipped at night time (its time their sleepy sleep time <:]) Jyushimatsu brushes his teeth before bed, but when hes done and turns around Totty walks in to say something.

"Jyushimatsu-niisan. Why did you lie about that?"

"Eh?" Jyushi stopped.

"You lied to me about you clumsy and fell. Who did it?"

Jyushi notice Totty's tone is serious so Jyushi tried his best to keep up with his lies but Totty know hes so bad at it.

"Dekapan just called me in concern if you're okay. And he told me that someone hit you that you got hospitalized. WHO DID IT?"

(this part make me go shit my pant anyways/j)

So basically Totty found out why Jyushi went late for the hanging out time with Totoko and Jyushi told him that its okay theres no need to worry about it but Totty refuse and started to yell.

Choro and Ichi heard Totty's yell and went to see them whats up, Totty explained everything and said hes going to see the guy who hurt Jyushi. In the middle of the night.

This part I dont remember/understand whats going on but it seems like Choro and Ichi kinda refuse to believe Jyushi got hurt like Ichi said "No way he got hurt you know he's strong right?? When Jyushi said it was just accident maybe it was an accident" and also this part of the skit got some serious tone argument in ososan drama cd ever. no bgm like it use to, the yell, the anger, Jyushimatsu's sweating or anxiety acted up as Totty is so mad about it behind, and then Choukei appears

"Ey whats up whats the yelling lol" "Did we, The Top Brothers missed something hm~~?"

"GET THE FUCK OUTTA HERE!!!!" Choro kick choukeis out of the room and the Totty switched his outfit from pajamas to his epic pink hoodie swag to go out to go see the culprit for revenge. For Jyushimatsu.

Jyushi told him to stop, he dont have to do it for the sake of his pain, eventhough Totty decides to do this to protect his brother. Ichi and Choro grow concerns about his decision and told Oso and Kara to stop him this instant (eventhough these two dont know what the hell happene but follows what Choro said)

(This part make me wonders recently, bcus this drama CD released after season 2 AND before movie, we already know that older bros protect Totty when they were teenagers, maybe bcus, you know, he baby BUT ALSO his bros get use to it protect him when he can easily scaredy cat when it comes to danger, he goes hiding behind one of them

AND WE KNOW THAT HE STILL DO THAT which is kinda valid. But bcus they all already adult Totty knows that whenever older brothers is in trouble, he, of course, gotta do something for the safety ((unless some part is not about him he knows his ego lol)) He knows that standing there crying like a baby and feel useless is not working anymore. So basically he already brave enough to help them back. Remember the episode about mixer interview in season 1? When he said if he accomplish something important to graduate as NEETs/virgins, he'll help his brothers. And maybe it just me but I didn't not expect Totty might accomplished his courageous like that and prepare for it to save Jyushi from this drama CD. Thats insane. I wish this can be animate okimdone)

As Totty slides open the entrance house door, they all saw someone unfamiliar outside. It's a kid. Jyushimatsu knows him.

Jyushi surprised why this kid is here in the middle of the night and the kid straight up screams " I'M SO SORRY! " The kid explained that it was his fault that he did hit Jyushi's head (with baseball bat i believe) too hard ended up make Jyushi collapse and hospitalize in the end. Jyushi told him that dont feel bad about it and told he dont have to come here at all. I think the kid about to cry??

And then Totty step out to move aside Jyushi away, and face the kid. Choro was about to say "Totty, no! Don't do it" but it cut off with Todomatsu's serious word to the kid. (this part im not sure it 100% right but basically he said something like this) :

"Its quite brave of you that you came here for apologize to Jyushimatsu-niisan. Even I just want to see whoever hurt my brother just for the talk, but I heard that loud and clear. Thank you for being understand what you've done. Did you came here by yourself? Let me take you home. I'm pretty sure your parents worried about you." He said that while gave a pat on kid's head and smiles. The kid cried.

Jyushimatsu let out his big sigh of relieve and lay down on the floor, let out his word "THANK GOD IT TURNS OUT WELL!!" as we can see that Jyushi is super worried about Totty's behavior when it turned serious. Choro heard that and he did a cute happy laugh (im not kidding????? Kamiya's made this laugh really cute in this one) and then Totty look back smiles more and Choukei at the back were like "Welp we did it lol we save the day"(<- didnt do anything)

In the end Ichi attacks on the kid with a wrestling and threatening "How dare you hurt my brother like that I'm going kill you right now" and the bros tried to stop him while the kid is in pain. Thats the skit.

Literally kinda rare to talk about it cus I never seen anyone translate any wacchatto shita kanji at all except the few (audios, mostly) but the few from vol 1 and this skit from vol 3. Anyway s SUEMATSU MOMENTS BRO!!!!!!!!! SUE MOMENT WHEN THE WHEN THE TODOMATSU HELPE JYUSHIMATSU IS SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ZAMN!!!!!!!!

As youngest siblings of 3, I need to see more suematsu content in the future!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!gaming moment

anyways about this cd i heard on youtube years ago I only remember only three skits from such as this good sue skit , chibita&ichi talk about kitties, and nenchuu fights (i think anyone knows about their WUOW!!! lol)

[comingyourlugubriousness]

🌌 MILKY WAY - what was the inspiration behind your oc? what was the first thing you decided about them?

For Yume :3

Tbh Yume's general traits and personality are just based on me, I'm not gonna lie.

The lore and other aspects were heavily inspired by the Fates and and other themes in Herculeus and other disney movies.

It's funny a long time after I decided Yume would have future vision powers I discovered the character Cassandra from the Herculeus animated series:

"As a result of her constant visions of doom and inability to prevent them from coming to pass, Cassandra is permanently gloomy and deeply anti-social"

Honestly its HILARIOUS to me that I didn't know about this character when I made Yume.

But I cant say Yume is a mix of self insert and things I thought would be intresting to explore for the Twisted wonderland "MC/Yu". Such as things as how would someone actually cope with suddenly living in a completely different world and not rememebering much of their past? Why is someone with no magic called to a magical school? Where are they from? How does Grim play a role in all this? Why are they having these strange dreams/visions of the historical figures? WHY IS MICKEY HERE?????

Overall, I think ocs should just be for fun. Yume makes me happy and thats all the inspo I need!

The first thing I decided about Yume outside of the general MC role is was probably the future vision.