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kicksnscribs · 1 year ago

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Ok this is dumb but i'm gonna try it anyway:

I've said in my previous post that Tumblr just isn't working for me interaction wise, i don't feel like i come up with anything interesting enough to bring interest into my fanworks and worldbuilding, and all i seem to do is post doom-y shit and i'm T I R E D of it

and like i've said before i don't like just throwing shit out into ppls faces bc...well i've always told myself that it was rude to do so without permission but now that i've gotten it out there it sounds really stupid

but then there's the insecurities about my stuff to go along with it too

maybe its the depression talking for me again, i know this shit is really tiring to read with my back and forth nonsense but i really don't know what to do with myself rn despite trying to fix things, and this is just another one of my impulsive decisions

#i know yall are tired of my nonsense and im sorry #but i genuinely do not know where to go from here #like everything has reached a plateau in my life #at a dead end job with no real future #money is nonexistent and bills are continuing to pile up #and im still dealing with my medical issues #im worried about my family members who are suffering from far worse conditions than i am and yet still find reasons to continue #i cant focus on anything creative long enough before my anxieties for the future kick in and im stuck in my thoughts #idk its just real loser hours on my end #is deleting the right choice? or am i shooting myself in the foot?#advice is welcome #cause im all out of ideas #personal polls #duration: 1 week #just enough before the final decision

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