#i cant even dress masc cuz then people will tell me i look like a kid.

[shroomsnail]

people around my age who call me "mademoiselle", "lady", "woman", etc. catalyse a fatal error of Gender Disconnect and Failure within my brain. ouch.

[nymsonlinecottage]

vent under the cut cuz i have emotions apparently//

I'm just.. so sick of being perceived as a girl. like... i really hate it. no matter how many times i say im nonbinary, no matter how many times i say im uncomfortable being called a girl, no matter how many times i end up fucking begging people to please stop saying im a girl, they just.. don't stop. "I know you're not really a girl, but you look and act like one, so it's just easier to tell people you're a girl then explain to them that you aren't" is a phrase i'm told way too often. it's one thing if you tell someone im female because you know theyre transphobic and dont want to put yourself or me in a dangerous situation, but "it's just easier"?? im tired of pretending like thats a valid excuse. im tired of saying "oh, okay, thats fine" when it definitely isn't. and then when i try to speak up for myself they say im overreacting.. it's not like im gonna see that person ever again, right? what does it matter if they think im a girl? ,,,

i guess i would be considered a fairly feminine person? at least appearance wise. i have shoulder-length hair, i wear dresses and skirts, i put on makeup and do my nails, but- like-,, sometimes i like growing my body hair out, and wearing ties, and i definitely get the urge to chop all my hair off more then the average person. its just so weird for me to label myself as "fem" or "masc". i do because it's easier for other people to understand, but to me im just.. me? i don't have a gender, and yet people still try to force one on me, even when they say they support me. even when they tell me they love me no matter what gender i am, they still label me and try to put me in the binary.

and i hate when it starts feeling like people are telling me i can only have one or the other. like, i cant want a deeper voice without wanting to get top surgery. i cant love my longer hair without loving my AFAB body. i almost feel guilty when im only dysphoric about some things. i feel like im suppose to pick one or the other. it really fucking sucks. i just,, wish i could be myself for once in my life. im sick of settling for less.

[shitokayimgay]

i'm trans nonbinary masc aligned but i have long hair and nails and feminine movements and i love makeup and dolls and dresses so it's. difficult for me to feel accepted as a guy? my friend said sometimes she's surprised when i talk abt periods nd stuff bc she's conditioned herself to expect guy things from me and that makes me happy in a weird way? at any rate almost no one believes i'm not a girl and i hate

well now you have a ton of people who believe youre not a girl cuz you have me, cinny, and all the gays on this blog!!! thats relatable though, i present super feminine but im a boy and a lot of a people wanna make a scene about it.

its ridiculous because its YOUR gender!!! its not anyone elses and no one can tell you what it should be. i get how you feel good about what your friend said because honestly i love that stuff too even though gender roles suck, cuz then youre filling the traditional male role and its kind of affirming in a weird way?? the thing is though that if youre a guy and you have periods then its a guy thing!! plenty of guys have periods. and plenty of guys have long hair and nails and like makeup and dolls and dresses, even cis guys, and thats cool too!!!

you cant really stop people from being awful but you just have to keep going and remind yourself they dont know shit about you!!! theyre wrong and youre a guy no matter what you look like or what things you want to do!!!!