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just finished watching ISTJ. i hope i die
#cinna.txt#what the FUCK WAS THAT#HELLLOOOOO#HELLOOOOOOO#what the FUCK sm#i cant breathe i actually feel like im being suffocated#the things i would do to jeno rn#sorry#my god#holy shit#what the fukc#hello#LETS GET DOWNNN
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I hand you a doodle and then go back to dying of the plague
#keese draws#oc art#oc#ocs#furry#furry art#furry oc#Im sick 😔#I can tell because all my joints are hurting instead of just my knees lol#which actually is strange since usually when Im sick the first sign is my nose being super duper runny#but I can actually breath just fine if not better than usual rn wow#but yeah say hi to antinio theyre a design I got a couple months ago I think#theyre a part of a new ish story I made around the same time that surrounds the other escaped patients of the facility pent escaped from#pent didnt actually go with them tho partially because none of them like her and she doesnt like any of them but mostly because shes more#physically unstable than the others and needs regular goop recharges that kept her camping near the facility until bud and daisy dropped in#but yeah everyone else left together and spent some time wandering before getting lured into the origin place of the goop#this guy is actually quite the unique case among the bunch because they were originally an ocean dweller before they were revived#this basically means they only half understand what everyone else is saying and can't actually talk themself#and also that despite not needing to breath they constantly feel like theyre suffocating and they are generally pretty bitter abt all this#they cant rly go home partially because theyve been dead for too long and mostly because theyd kind of just fall apart in the ocean#even just washing their hands causes their fur and skin to get all slimy#hey they at least have a new bestie even if said bestie is also part of the only half understands everyone party meaning they even less#know how to communicate with eachother since they both speak different languages from eachother#but hey now they can be confused abt whatever the hell applebounce is yelling abt together
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No positive notes for today. I think my left eye got fucked up from crying too much bc it's bleeding. Tomorrow I vow to shower.
#ive made my sister mad at me somehow#and ive made my mom mad at me by having an attitude#(i think im turing resentful of my childhood neglect bc i fear what might have happened because of it)#so this house feels like the most suffocating prison#and my body feels like a prison and my mind and my heart and my soul.. etc etc. you get it#i keep thinking. what if i run away ! somewhere where i can be happy again !#but then i remember i cant run from it. i can never escape. i can never undo a single thing. i can never prevent what has already been done#and then i cry again and again and again#and then i get a headache bc i have to hold my breath so that no one will hear me cry#and then ill cry some more bc a sick and pathetic part of me actually wants to be heard and comforted#idk. every time i think its getting better it gets worse all over again#rn im just spending my days wishing i was asleep#since the nightmares still haven't come back being asleep is much nicer than being awake#ig something else positive is that i havent relapsed or engaged in anything more destructive than some self isolation#so.. yay for that idk.#i know it'll get better if i wait it out but i also know it wont be fixed#and i am just so tired of feeling crazy and broken all the time#god this all sounds like a 13 year olds note app emo poetry lol
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hiiii im actually so obsessed with how u write spencer!!! could i request sucking him off like in the kitchen or something and hes still in his suit after work and hes like rllllly pissed from a long day at work. and his hand is in your hair, when he finishes he kind of holds her in place so she cant get off to spit, goes in with his other hand to pinch her nose and tells her to swallow?
RUFF RUFF RUFF RUFF bless your brain.
you knew something was different the moment you entered the house.
the usually calm, library-like atmosphere your shared apartment with spencer held was replaced by a tight, thick tension that suffocated you.
“spence?” you called down the hallway as you kicked your shoes off and hung your coat.
this was a rare occasion, being home before spencer, but your big ceo boss was staying late which meant his assistant—you, had to stay late too.
you frowned when you didn’t get a response, instead padding further into the apartment on your white, stocking-clad feet.
“baby?” you didn’t see him in the living room so you turned to the kitchen where he stood with his back to you, leaning on the counter.
“you’re late,” god, how you hated when you couldn’t place his tone. he didn’t sound mad, but he didn’t sound… not mad.
“I’m sorry, owen had me running errands all night, his big meeting’s coming up and he’s really stressed,” you explained, not wanting an argument to start. you walked up to him, softly leaning on the counter beside him and running your hand up his arm.
his face was tense and his demeanour tight. he hardly moved at your touch, simply taking a long blink and a deep breath. he’d rolled his shirt sleeves to just below his elbows, the veins in his forearms prominent and thick.
“something’s wrong, long day at work?” you asked him. his fingers twitched on the counter, his eyes flicking down to you as he took in your work attire. the silence freaked you out a little. “baby, say something.”
nothing.
“does your boss have to see you looking so pretty?”
in a flash, he was on you. his hands all over you and his face in your neck as he kissed and nipped at your skin. you laughed in surprise, your own hands coming to his shoulders.
“look at you in that tight, little skirt and stupid silk blouse. d’you reckon he gets off on seeing you, seeing you in your pretty stockings. does he know I dress you every morning? does he know how expensive that blouse is? I do. I fucking bought you that blouse.” his words surprised you, but it all sunk into place in your mind as he pressed you against his front and you felt his bulge poking your hip bone.
you could only whimper, nails biting into his deep grey shirt and head tilting back.
“spence-“ “-come on let me feel you. let me feel your mouth, baby, I need it, I need it so bad.”
before you could respond, he was pushing you onto your knees with one hand on top of your head and the other undoing his belt. you sat on your knees, waiting for him to get his belt and flies open.
his cock stood tall in front of your face. thick, long and leaky, you closed your eyes happily as he smacked his length onto your cheeks and smeared his precum all over you. your eyes flashed open and a gasp tore your throat as he grabbed at the hair at the crown of your head and pulled it back.
your mouth opened as he guided your mouth onto his cock, the two of you groaning in unison. it wasn’t not long before he hit the back of your throat, your eyes closing as his cock reached its usual resting point. but he didn’t stop there.
your eyes opened and you look up to him as he kept pushing. his own eyes were fixed on the way he disappeared past your lips, ignoring your panicked whimpers as your nose drew closer to the small patch of hair at his pubic bone.
tears gathered as he pressed your face to his crotch and his groan of delight filled your ears. meanwhile, you were whimpering and gagging around his cock and smacking his thighs pathetically as you begged for him to move.
as he rolled his eyes with a sharp sigh, he pulled his cock out of your mouth and watched you, annoyed, as you coughed.
“breathe. gather yourself.” his words were short and demanding, waiting for you.
once again, he grabbed you by the hair and smushed your face into the underside of his cock.
“lick.” he instructed, a small smirk pulling at his lips when he felt your pathetic kitten licks. “oh, baby. I know you can do better than that.”
his teasing tone had you licking wide and long stripes up his cock as he enjoyed the feeling. not long after, he was jamming his cock down your throat again.
his hips worked overtime as he facefucked you, grinning down at your pathetic look. teary eyes, mascara-streaked cheeks, red complexion. and the cock sliding in and out of your spit-soaked lips.
feeling his pent up release hurtling towards him, he held your face down to his crotch again as he ignored your muffled wail. hot cum spurted into your mouth, some dripping down your throat. you pushed away from him, but he held you by your nose as he pressed down on your nostrils.
with half his cock in your mouth and your cheeks full of cum, you only wanted to spit into the sink. but, alas, the dreaded instruction came.
“swallow.”
“don’t wear your stockings tomorrow. I want owen to see the bruises.”
#x reader#smut#criminal minds#criminal minds x reader#criminal minds smut#criminal minds spencer reid#post prison spencer reid#post prison spencer#spencer reid x fem!reader#spencer reid x y/n#spencer reid x you#spencer smut#spencer reid x reader smut#spencer reid smut#spencer reid#post prison reid#x reader smut
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dale has got to have insane kinks…… like this man is going to want to have cameras on you and shove random shit up you and make you say weird stuff to him . I LOVE HIM I CANT
SO TRUE…
Sorry if this is too much for you guys im just writing anything I think of 😭 pls lmk if it gets to be too much,,
I think he would be into a lot of worse stuff. Blood, knife play, bondage (unsafe probably) corruption, marking you up, age gaps (LEGALLY. Not that kinda freaky)
Cameras for sure, he’d love that. Pull your hair and force you to look right at it while he rams into you from behind. The way it makes it feel so much dirtier, his own personal pornstar. He’d watch them over CONSTANTLY and make you watch too while whispering filthy things into your ear.
Random stuff in you, I can see that. I imagine him having very few limits,, as much as I do love him. You cannot look at a picture of him and go yeah that’s a regular guy. He is into anything and everything fucked up and weird. If you’d let him do that he’d abuse the opportunity and just see what he can fit up there for fun and you’re probably ending up injured or with an infection to be honest..
Making you say weird stuff,, I can see too but it would probably be realll fucked up with him. He knows exactly how to make you uncomfortable and what gets you flustered and hes forcing you to repeat the nastiest things he can think of just to watch your face flush in red, stumbling with your words.
I think he’d really enjoy wax play too and he had plenty of candles. Idk if this is true because I wasn’t paying attention to it but I’ve seen people say the gun Lee has at the end of the movie isn’t hers, and was probably dales. Gun play…. With Dale… cold metal being slowly dragged across your skin. Loaded pressed to your temple safety off. Fucking you with the barrel, finger on the trigger, better sit still for him.
Size difference for sure, which is great for him because hes huge. The one shot of him and Lee from the side in the interrogation room where hes slouching and his legs are bent but hes still SO much larger than her? I need him to lay on top of me and suffocate me.
I think he’d enjoy making his partner cry (only during anything sexual) just watching you squirm and beg incoherently with tears running down your face, listening to your voice crack.
Marking up for sure, especially if afterwards he can make up an excuse to drag you out in public and show it off. In most longlegs fanfics it takes place in a small middle of nowhere town, he’d love risking your friends and family having to see you not only with him but covered in a painting of bruises and indents. No shame no restraint no respect for others comfort or social norms. He’s being awful in public, and with most of the fandom from what I’ve seen being like early 20s-30s the age gap would be VERY visible.
One sweeter thing I think he’d especially enjoy, have you in top for specific reasons. He’d be used to the treatment he gets from most people by now and have a hard time believing you actually want him, he needs a lot of reassurance. Esp if you initiate things, having you on top would have him in tears. Facing him, nails digging into his clothes, hot breath on his neck, repeatedly making the effort to bring him closer to you. Every sweet second you spend moving on top of him is just more confirmation to him that you want and need him.
Non-sexual but, I think he’d really like to do things for you as well. Having you need him, reaching things off a shelf, opening containers, lifting something heavy.
Bdsm, bondage, whips, paddles, restraints, all of it anything you ask hes okay with trying. If you’re really vanilla, good luck I don’t see him being able to adhere to that. If you reciprocate his feelings it will take very little time for him to feel serious about your relationship and he looks at you almost like his property, though that extends both ways. He’s just assuming you’re okay with whatever he wants, because he’d do the same for you. I think at first he’d ask if you’re okay with it before trying something but eventually he just does what he wants and waits for your reaction.
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Okay I'm 5'7 too so thank you for your detailed description of the members and I'm not surprised but kinda am at the same time about their appearance??
Low-key love seeing all the live content but also feel left out as an Aussie atiny BUT I'm seeing skz in October so I'm excited for that!!
Speaking of their appearance, the members of skz are a lot more muscular in person than how they look.
I was expecting them to be skinny and boney but they all look incredibly strong and fit-even Han and Felix-
Han actually looks slightly more buff and muscly then Felix which surprised me and Lee Know is just as defined and muscular as Changbin which no one talks about.
Anyway- yunho brain rot.
I was listening to the audiobook of haunting Adeline because I finally caved in from the TikTok influence and my friend telling me how sexy the novel is.
Idk if it's because I'm going to therapy or I'm too old but I thought it was over-hyped-
I did love how the author described the themes of fear and stalking because when I did get tense when she'd leave the room, come back and there would be a 🌹 on the counter.
BUT I did get delulu and I was reading some scenes where zade is just consumed with Adeline and I was gasping 'like omg yunho could be like this' because his natal chart indicates if he was psychotic and unhealed enough- could delve into stalking territory.
And yes okay- this shit is toxic and scary and awful in real life BUT LET ME FANTASISE FOR A SECOND!
What if yunho was that borderline toxic boyfriend that just CANT leave you alone??
Watches you from afar, sends you messages all day-
Somnophilia thought here-
You don't live with yunho but have given him a key and go to bed with no panties on b/c it's a common occurrence he'll drive over in the middle of the night b/c it's been too long since he's felt you under him and he has to ravish you.
You wake up to his tongue on you clit as he moans and breathes your scent in which eventually leads to you making love with him as he virtually suffocates you with his body and words?
You're mine, you're not leaving me, I'm destined to be with you, on top of you, inside you, I can't breathe w/o you.
EMOTIONAL DAMAGE!!
MY FRIEND THE WAY YOU ALWAYS SERVE UP THE GREATEST IMAGERY OF ALL TIME TO RUIN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
first of all........ love that you're seeing skz!!! i'm hoping if and when they announce tour dates for north america next year there's a chance for me to see them
as far as your yunho brainrot goes................. IM DIZZY. i love your natal chart content, and i've been so obsessed with the idea of yunho being like perfect boyfriend great guy................but................there's that part of him that just can't help being possessive and having this sense of ownership over his partner.
i was just actually reading a fic for another fandom along the lines of what you're describing and i was like YUNHO YUNHO YUNHO the whole time. i might write my own version but......... brainrot under the cut
so i think there's two yunho possibilities that i love within this like possessive/stalker/dubcon realm, and one is straight up like suuuuuper healthy relationship but they play with CNC in intense ways and do full on like roleplay OR my current favorite brainrot which aligns with your idea and the fic i was just reading which is like...... desperately obsessed desperately in love fully fixated on reader not leaving him because he just has to consume her fully at all times.
he and reader have been dating for a while and he's honestly the 10/10 perfect boyfriend (she thinks) only.... she knows he gets a little funny about certain things. when other guys talk to her he just has to have his hands on her, and when he worries about her he really worries, almost too much. he gets jealous about the funniest little things, and he's always nervous about change, he just doesn't want anything to burst their little bubble so much so that he's controlling the situation a little too much. but.... she also loves him, and he hasn't really stepped over the line of toxic.......... until she catches him stealing a pair of her panties and realizes his phone is full of pictures of her.
and it starts off like an argument, until he starts to confess his real fantasies. and he knows it might be too much, but she makes him so insane it's like he can't help himself. and the longer he talks about all of those fantasies, confessing how fucked he knows it is and how she really could do better, she just keeps getting more and more turned on. and it's shocking to her too, but she really fucking likes it. she's never had someone take care of her, really and truly take care of everything and just let her exist without having to make all the decisions or take control, and he's just offering it all to her on a platter she just has to let him take it.
and so while he thinks revealing his desires is about to break them up, and he's losing his fucking mind about it, she's ready to double down hard on the relationship and on what they do behind closed doors. so she shocks him when she not only agrees for more but asks for more.
and so that's when she gives him the key, that's when she tells him that he's allowed to come in whenever he wants. to touch her whenever he wants. she wants it all, but all she asks in exchange is that he stops hiding his desires from her, because that's what was driving the wedge between them. he's patient about using the new found control though, because he doesn't know what that will do for their relationship and she doesn't necessarily know what she's allowing him to do..... he can't smother her ALL at once.
but that changes when she falls asleep one night before texting him goodnight, she's been stressed and worn thin and he's not had the opportunity to see her let alone take care of her..... and he's feeling a little neglected too. and he waits a couple of hours for a response, but finally he decides it's time to use the key. so he drives over, slips in quietly, and finds her sound asleep, phone still clutched in her fingers and a video looping on repeat.
he's hard in a second, desperate in a second, and he has to do something about it. so he starts off slow, peeing off her clothes and gently teasing her nipples, getting a blush in her cheeks and making her perfectly hot and receptive to his tongue teasing her sweet clit.
she’s been so tired lately that she’s well and truly out, and she doesn’t really wake up until he’s teasing her wet cunt with his cock, not quite fucking her yet but everything in between. and when she wakes it’s mid-orgasm and desperate for more, and she's aware that something feels different but she just woke up and she's caught between realizing yunho is actually here and pushing himself inside her and thinking it might be a dream.
but he's whispering to her, clutching her close and begging her to just let him have this.... and of course she will, she agreed, but as she comes more and more into consciousness the feeling of him and his words start to make sense. he’s not wearing a condom for the first time ever, and that's not something they've ever agreed on going without before. she's just trying to figure out what is going on but he's fucking into her harder and deeper than before, with a whimpering need on his lips that makes her body curl up in pleasure and she knows she should stop him but truthfully she doesn't want to.
and while she clings to him, yunho's delirious. the feeling of having her completely, of knowing he's the only person who's ever been inside her fully with nothing between them, of knowing that the risk might be worth it. his mind starts to spin until he's a babbling mess, telling her he's going to leave a piece of himself behind for her, make them whole, make sure she can never ever leave.
and even though she knows it's a terrible idea, a decision only made in the middle of sex because it feels good, she finds herself clutching him closer, goading him on. no one has ever wanted her quite like he does and it makes her want to throw everything she's ever cared about right out the window if it means he'll look at her like this forever.
ANYWAYS now i have to write full lowkey toxic possessive yunho with a reader who is down to be fully consumed by him like AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
#this ask#i need a fucking cigarette#yunho hard hours#yunho smut#yunho hard thoughts#yunho#ateez hard hours#answered ask
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21 Guns (American Idiot the Musical)
Do you know what's worth fighting for/When it's not worth dying for/Does it take your breath away/And you feel yourself suffocating
"OUGH KEY CHANGE AT THE END OUGH VIBEYS OUGH FELLAS BE JOININ IN OUGHHH HARMONIES OUGH THE END OUGHHHHHHHHHH REBECCA NAOMI JONES OUGH IM DYING"
The Mind Electric (Miracle Musical)
See how the serfs work the ground (See how they fall)/And they give it all they've got/And they give it all they've got/And you give it all you've got 'til your down/See how the brain plays around/And you fall inside a hole you couldn't see/And you fall inside a hole inside a-/Someone help me
Understand what’s going on inside my mind/Doctor, I can’t tell if I’m not me
Nuns commence incanting as the lightning strikes mine temples thus/Electrifying mine chambers wholly, scorching out thine sovereignty so/Spiralling down thy majesty, I beg of thee have mercy on me/I was just a boy, you see! I plead of thee, have sympathy for me!
"The lyrics just hit hard with all of the imagery and shit, being used alongside the song glitching and a 3 minute long sequence (an un-glitched version of the song) that plays backwards in full before the song begins, conjure up a very interesting view/idea/image of losing your sanity. Plus, the song has a really interesting history in terms of its creation."
"first listen: "damn its weird that this has itself backwards haha" second listen: ⚡️⚡️🧠SEE HOW THE BRAIN PLAYS AROUND🌩😈AND YOU FALL INSIDE A HOLE YOU COULDNT SEE☁️⚡️AND YOU FALL INSIDE A HOLE INSIDE A🤴🗣SOMEONE HELP ME⛈️🪐UNDERSTAND WHATS GOING ON INSIDE MY MIND🗣⚡️DOCTOR I CANT TELL IF IM NOT ME!!!🌩🌩☄️ anyway, there are actually 2 versions of this song !! since the first half of the song is the second half backwards, but one of the halves has a series of artistic glitches and repeats and skips! the "distorted version", which is what youll find on spotify, has the glitchy half played forwards, and the "nondistorted version", which is what the official channel posted on youtube, is reversed so the unglitched half plays forwards! its a remaster of a previous song Joe Hawley worked on as a member of Tally Hall called "Inside the Mind of Simon", and it has TONS of little easter eggs and details scattered throughout. distorted speech from old movies, clips from old songs, theres this part where chanting voices sing "axon, dendrite" and "help me" over and over which (imo) you really only hear if you know to look for them, theres an intricate synth arpeggio throughout the entire climax of the song that im in love with— its the source of the synth tune in the next song on the album, Labyrinth (the funny "i am the mouse" song)! i have yet to find a blorbo i cant picture to it but considering that my main oc's theme is madness, its her perfect chance to star. in conclusion, your honor, I love the mind electric."
"it's a story of a man getting sentenced to an asylum for a murder he didn't commit, and there he is subjected to electroshock therapy. the synth alone fucked me up the first time I heard it. not to mention the awesome lyrics and various styles throughout the song. oh also the first 3ish minutes of the song are in reverse. so there's that."
"Somehow I feel like it's the story of my life. Also, the first half of the song is the second half of the song played in reverse."
The Mind Electric submitted by @lesleyn +@omegasmileyface +@that-bi-fan + others
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sept 20, 2024 (00:14) from my notes app
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just watched i saw the tv glow
actually cried my eyes out like it hit
it hit so close to home
this wondering of what if i am this beautfiul boy deep inside, what if this is the real me, suffocating as i go along day to day
there is still time but
it passes, and somehow youre breaking down and no one cares
owen is so me
i want his style i want to be him i want to be a dude
him being too scared to look inside for so long, doing it, and then ignoring it because life is easier that way
hes just like me fr
its so heartbreaking to be here
i know that something is wrong
something has been wrong for a while
and i fear i know what it is but
what if im wrong, what if i cause a big fuss then im wrong
what if [girlfriend] breaks up with me
what if people stop seeing me as a safe person
what if i cant like the colour pink anymore
what if i rip myself open and i can never go back
what if i changed
what if im an ugly man
i live miserably dsyphoric everyday
i know deep down i want to be a man, even just for an hour
i wish i could try it out
i wish i could bring manhood for a test drive and see if it feels right
im scared it wont
womanhood doesnt
who am i
who could i be
i am scared
i am so scared
i feel late.
i feel late evey trans dude has known since he was 1 month old
meanwhile i didnt really feel that bad until puberty
i was excited at one point
for puberty, to finally feel like a girl
i wish i cld be hiccup from httyd, i wish i could be wyatt from 6teen
i wish i was a cool guy in a show
i could be him
maybe hes in me right now
clawing at my throat, begging with me
pleading
to do something to alleviate this pain
to let him breathe
to let him live
i feel the happiness i only graze
i feel his every pain
his fears his wants and desires
his hidden thoughts and yearnings
i could settle
im thinking of doing so
playing the part forever
i could be a wife
i am a sister
i am a daughter
i am a girlfriend
it doesnt matter what i want
it doesnt matter how i feel
my feelings are like knotted string
i feel sick of myself
it would be easier if he died
but apart of me doesnt want to die uncertain
unhappy
ignorant to his validity
when i cry i stratch at my skin
i wish i could have hair on my arms, my chest
i am jealous that when i wear a skirt, i look like a girl
i want a flat chest and a cock
in all ways, you think man
theres a man in my chest
he is i
he has been living there for years
i hate him
i love hin
i fear him
i am him
i might never know if hes real
but there is still time
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Shatter Pattern
Wrote a thing because things rattle around in my brain and I have to get them out. Read below or on Archive
Dean tried to let himself relax into Cas’ arms. He wanted to relax. But it felt impossible. He was stiff; tense. His body rejected the feeling of security Cas’ arms radiated. And he had to sit up, out of Cas’ orbit, his heart thudding in his chest. He wanted to tell Cas: yes, please hold me, keep me safe, kiss parts of me when I won’t notice. I want to fall into you, become part of you, drown in your presence and suck air from your skin. But his body coursed with nothing but its own betrayal because he could never let himself fall like that. How do you go from being the one who does the holding to being the one who’s held. Dean wasn’t used to being held.
Dean hadn’t been held since he was four. The comfort and safety of his mother’s arms felt more like a dream, made up to help him cope with harsh realities, than an actual memory. He didn’t know why he was broken into pieces that didn’t match in their shatter pattern. There was no gluing back together parts of himself that didn’t fit or that he didn’t have because they were scattered under porcelain bowls in nameless bars, and wedged into stained motel beds; eaten by miles of black roadtops, and left behind in the dumpsters of small diners. Somewhere along the cross-country roadtrip of his life, he lost the part of himself that could sink into the safety of another person's arms.
It didn’t matter that he wanted it back, that he craved it so desperately he ached for it. That he cried out in the night begging to allow himself to agree to be loved. He could see the boy who’d gotten to grow up with that missing piece. He could see him standing on the other side of a chasm, laughing as he ran into his mother’s arms, growing up to marry someone he could let crowd into his space, wrap him in something that didn’t remind him of torment; that didn’t make him feel like he was suffocating.
“Dean?” Cas asked softly, and his concern punctured a hole in his chest, letting the floodgates loose.
“I’m sorry,” he cried.
Cas’ hand was large and warm on his back and Dean wished he could sink into it. “For what?”
“I don’t know how to do this,” he sniffed. “How to let you in. I’m not- I’m not good at it. I’ve never been good at it.”
“I know,” Cas said, and he kissed the top of Dean’s head, which only made him cry harder. “Shh, I know. It’s okay.”
Cas rocked him so gently, pressed his lips to his hair, hummed something in Enochian that vibrated through Cas’ chest and into Dean’s back, pushing through him like a shockwave. His chest stopped constricting and his eyes fluttered shut on the last of his tears as Cas enveloped him in his grace. It was overwhelming, striking like a bolt of lightning through a cloudless sky, but suddenly he could breathe.
“I’ve got you,” Cas soothed. “I’m here. I love you.”
Dean let Cas’ words carry him forward. He stepped onto glass, blood blooming across the soles of his feet; walked down muddy roads where he had to pull himself free with each step, the squelch of wet matter trying to suck him back down; scratched himself on thorns that tried their damndest to embed themselves into the furthest reaches of his skin; and finally, he stepped over the edge of that chasm and heaved himself up the other side, panting and shaking beside that little boy he could of been.
The boy smiled at him, freckles so prominent in the sunlight, and he took Dean’s hand and guided him to the last part of his journey, where he could let himself sink into Cas’ arms, fall under the calming waves, and breathe in the oxygen his lungs had been missing.
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FIOSDGSDFGUHDSGUH OMFG YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!! JEN UR ACTUALLY CRAYYYYYZAYYY INSANE FOR BEING ABLE TO CHURN OUT THOSE 15 PAGES SO FAST OMFG!!!!!!! UR CRACKED CONGRATULPATIONS T O T!!!!!! WAHHURAWHUHUHFSH
im never getting over how nice ur screentones are T O T!!!! u use such nice textures wahhhh ; u ;
BRO TAGE B SOUNDING LIKE SUCH A TANTRUMING TODDLER RN ROESIOGSIRGTHRDS
Im a big fan of aces shadow being cast onto the tent eheheh, ATMOSPHEREEE ✨
this is a fun lil sequence!!! it also absolutely REEEKS of sad puppy ace. Just. the way hes all hunched over and slowly turns around. HE IS SOOO SOPPING SOGGY WET I CANT BELIEVE U JUST SAID U HATED ACE WTFFFFF!!!! TAGE NOT COOL.
aegghh the harsh split between the bright white of the outside and how dark and depressing it is inside ; u ; wahhh the thick outline on tage,,,, oeawweagh its such a strong pose i want to give him a million hugs ; u ; :(((( aoeigehgh,,,, also,,, i rlly like how u arranged the speech bubbles on this page O _ O and WAH OFC ACE KNOWS FIRE CAN B SCARY TOOO T O T HE SAW GREY TERMINAL GET ALL COATED IN FLAMES WAHHH
omg im such a master of prediction i knew he wud talk about it
broooo you cant be hitting us with such a pretty panel T O T!!!!
the lil panel of inhaling to build up that slight bit of anticipation before ace drops da facts.... and the way the camera zooms out too,,, KYAAA SO CINEMATICCCC~!!!
The shadows on aces face are GORGEOUS, my bby girl is sooo 3 dimensional <333
the wisps of smoke around him look SO GNARLY and do so well to frame the whole thang, u were actually so big brain for this
WAHHHH IM BEING BLOWWWNN AWAYY???? WAHHTTT/??? I THINK THIS IS SOME OF UR BEST FLOWY WORK BRO THIS LOOKS IIINSSAAAANELLY GOOD??? WTF??? THIS ACTUALLY FLOWS SOO WELL. AND THE WISPS OF SMOKE CROSSING OVER LUFFY AND ACE MAKE IT ALL CONNECT SO MUCH BETTER. BROI THIS PAGE IS DROP DEAD GORGEOUS I AM LOSING MY BONKERS.
omggg haii luffy <333 🥺🥺🥺🥺
ah. ah. ah,. ahfsd.;a ha
the previous page was so overwhelming and suffocating and then this page is so. free.
I feel the breath of fresh air in my BONES.
JEN DONT THINK I DONT SEE UR DEVIOUS TRICKS. WAUWRFUHASETGHSUDGHUSDHUGHUGDS!!!!!!!!!!!
ACES WORDS ARE COMFORTING HIM NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
also BRO. there are the (really really pretty n cool) leaves in the background of the second page but not in the first!!! Sabo was so overwhelmed before that he blocked out EVERYTHING around him!!!
OMGGG HE TOOK DA MASSSKKK OFFF. PRETTTY BOY!!!!!!!!
jen u gotta stop cooking so hard i think u textured this beach leik. so beautifully and softly. likeeeee. LIKEEE
aeghh.. atmospheric... reaching into the light......... symbolism... he making it his lifes mission to make it into the spotlight n prove his worth or smthin (or maybe... reaching 2 find the warmth of nakama 🥺🥺🥺)
NOOO THESE SHOTS ALWAYS GET MEEE. WAHHHHH. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. also quick stop to hjust mention how gnarly all the leaves look in this comic. like JEN they look SO GOOD!!!
this is gorgeous. im astonished at how genuinely atmospheric this comic is. you're doing such a fantastic job with the lighting it takes my breath away. the way the light peeks in from underneat the curtain... there's a glow behind where's sabo sitting and while u might have done that just to seperate him from the background a bit,,,, ace is also sitting behind him!!! I think,,, the thought of ace being that light is vry ; u ;
I love how the background is gone. the curtains are being put away. Sabo is truly letting his barriers down but....
NOOO THE CURTAINS ARE BACK T O T!!! BARRIERS BACK UP PACK IT UP BOYS HES NOT READY TO TALK ABOUT HIS TRAUMA TO MAH BOY
jen please dont worry when i say this!!!! but
IM GONNA END IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ITS JOEVER FOR ME
IOJAWEFSDGWSAETGUSDGHUSDUGSDHSDG
AETGFSDGSDHUG
AETUGUDSG
AUGSUDFug
FUHSDGHU
HOW DO I KEEP MOVING ON
I CANT DO THISS OTESGISDFHG
IOAWRFHSDHUTG
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHHHHHH
(omggg pretty leaves <333)
god... sabos mindscape is so empty.... so much of his life was wiped away. the hills in the background look so devoid of life (its because they have no pretty leaves >:////)
the allconsuming scratchy blackness of sabos scar. so much of his life was taken from him and I think you brilliantly communciate the horror of his memory loss
The ASL reflection is such a subtle but genuinely heartbreaking detail. I couldn't breathe when I saw it man. I think im gonna tear up i am tearing up im not okay. baby sabo.... how lost were you when you woke up again?
omfg i just realised the 'bench' hes sitting on is a dock. when he went and sailed away for the first time. jen im never forgiving you.
EDIT: OHH WAIT well the text IS literally saying something hes meant to be search on for the seas... how many times did he sit on a dock like this just staring blankly into the oceans....? wondering? oeguh
oh haaeeeyyy u draw hands so nicely :DDD
im so
heartbroken
im
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fuckkk
ohhfd
im crying nooo
noo
nooo
bofno
nooo
nooo
tage..
sabo
yo
youi arent
fufciuckkk
hes had so much taken from him i cant
hes so babygirl omfg
THE REFLECTION ON THE MASKK AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA. CLEVER ASS FRAMINGGG NOOOOO
JENNN I HATE YOUUUU
ACE IS SO GOOD AT DISARMING HIS BARRIERS
MAKING HIM FEEL SAFE
HES GOT HIS BACK T O T
TAGE IS BACK IN COMMISSION BOYS!!! READY TO FACE THE WORLD o7!!! (sabo is vry much not tho RIP)
thanku jen for this wonderful chapter u actually leik legit broke my heart and im never recovering thanku <3333
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feel free to continue on w fav mems/achievements :B i loved reading them bc i can never rmb my own memories
WAVESS finally getting to this one :D i wanted to wait for a day where i could properly focus on the answer eueueu
Gonna provide a cut bc im pre sure im gonna rambleeee
edit: ANOTHER ONE THAT I DIDNT POST PROPERLY HELP MEEE I think I just assumed the save draft was the post button help this was from so many days ago I'm so sorry beanz
♤ A moment I remember clearly that I'd love to go back to is sleeping with Milo. He used to curl up right under my neck and it was the cutest fucking tag ever, it was so comforting and I may have died from allergies but it was sooo worth it man ohmygod
◇ Eating at Red Robins with my mom right before going to a concert. Ider which concert ngl but idk it was just . Such a happy moment. Tbh all of the concerts I've been to with my mom (tswift, nick jonas and demi levato, tøp) are all very fond memories of mine. They were all superrr fun :))
♡ oooo idr if i mentioned this in the other one but CHOIRR vocal jazz was a lot of fun, like going downtown with everyone? It was Such an Experience man /pos
♧ VISITING MY AUNT UP NORTH ON THE ISLAND OHKYGODDD both times but i def preferred this last time bc i got to do a lot more exploring of the town myself :D i love my aunt and i love my baby cousin, he's such a menace but he's fucking adorable and really fun to hang out with (even if he gets a little much sometimes). The island itself is gorgeous and wow... the amount of wildlife i got to see was so dope. And just . We went to this small side island and we had the island to ourself LIKE A WHOLE FUCKING ISLAND . TO OURSELF IT WAS SO COOL MAN OHKYGOSHHH that trip was honestly so fucking cool man i loved it smmm i cant wait to go back rahhss
♤ watching the flash (before it got bad) with my mom :)) those times were honestly so lovely idk it was Our Special Bonding Time wout my siblings it was just . Really specisl and nice
◇ fencinggg, i miss fencing so much man, i really hope i get back into it this year omg. The feeling of doing well, outsmarting someone, dodging, getting a point. Ahhhh, there's nothing else like it. So satisfying. I miss the way it felt to be completely and utterly fluid with the the blade.
♡ playing cards with my dad and his friends, late at night while listening to 90s r&b and rap, very nice vibes:))
♧ this one morning my dad and stepmom making pancakes while listening to ccr. My stepmom kept being like "wait this song is ALSO ccr?!?!?" bc she knew of the band but she never actually knew all the songs were by them it was really funny but also super lovely
♤ christmas. I love christmas man. Specifically waking up early in the morning to the smell of coffee and land of knod (a type of cinnamon bun thingy that my stepmom always makes), dibbying out all the presents to every person as we all choose our spots, opening presents. Christmas cookies, i looove christmas cookies, i love making them tooo.
◇ playing dnd, both with my fam and with my friends. I have so many chaotic and silly moments from that. I miss dnd so bad
♡ this one time i stood outside in the pouring rain on the grass in my socks. It was such a... freeing moment. Bc yknow people hate getting their socks wet, it's very cursed, but i Did it. I did it on purpose. And it was so nice honestly. Just the feeling of the rain pressing down on my skin, the cool air breathing on it compared to the suffocating heat from inside my house... ough i love rain
♧ in a similar but almost opposite fashion, lying down in the sun on the grass field outside of our highschool. It was so calming. I still love lying down in the grass, I do it at uni too. I just put on some music and just... enjoy the moment. I dig my hands into the dirt. I love the feeling of it on my skin, i love looking at its lasting impression, even after i wipe my hands clean of it. It makes me feel alive and content to be in that moment.
♤ hehe watching tommys vlogs with my stepmom. Back when tommys vlogs first started coming out, they came out weekly, and i was visiting my stepmom weekly too so it worked out. It was a lovely lil routine between us :))
◇ scrapbooking with my dads wife, it was such a fun creative outlet and i actually got to do something with my photos for once, rather than have them just sit on my phone
♡ driving with my stepmom up that same beautiful highway i mentioned last time, going up to the waterfalls with my stepmom
♧ OOOHH HIKINGG so many hikes but there was this one Insane one where we had to 4x4 up this mountain and we went to the top of the peak and there were so many wildflowers and barely any ppl since its such an intense hike and omg it was so peaceful i wanna go back...
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Hope im not too late for the last post 🏃♀️💨 but uh neway, gojo loves sucking clit until his girl cums or smth, Yuuji whines n moans a lil when he eat pussy and Toji have you cumming from just grinding alone 🙈
HOW JJK MEN EAT PUSSY
A/N: THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME THE OPPERTUNITY TO WRITE THIS. I've been waiting for this one, turn it up!
Characters: Yuji itadori, Sukuna, Geto Suguru, Gojo Satoru
Warning: Oral, squirting, fingering, kinda public sex
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Yuji Itadori
Gets absolutely pussy DRUNK
Probably the most enthusiastic
Is a whining a moaning MESS, cant stop mumbling about how good you taste.
Loves it when your juices smear across his lips or when you spray on his face.
He doesn’t even bother to get up and clean it off. He just goes back in for another round
How long had you been like this? Splayed open for your boyfriend on a bed, futilely squirming away from his touch, his relentless tongue, due to the overstimulation, only to be brought right back into another orgasm. “M’too much n-no more-” Your cut off by your own moan when yuji sucks particularly hard on your clit, eyes closed savoring the taste. His voice almost desperate, practically whining, hot breath against your pussy, fingers and tongue not letting up on their assault, “Please cum- Please I need you to cum- Please-” so that’s what you do.
Sukuna
Loves it when you sit on his face
And no not like ‘hover’ he means actually sit on his face, like suffocate him with your thighs and everything.
It doesn’t matter how heavy you think you are, he is the king of curses, he’s a big boy. He can handle it
Sukunas mouth on your pussy was greedy, tasting and cleaning up every inch with an eager tongue. It wasted no time in dipping past your folds, licking up through them and then back down, and you released a sweet groan at the warm knot forming in you stomach. Any worries if Sukuna could even breath down there seem to dissolve as your mind was over taken with pleasure.
Gojo Satrou
Sly bastard, loves to eat you out underneath tables and really when ever people are around
This includes zoom sessions, when friends are over, phone calls or anytime your wearing a skirt
Honestly doesn’t care if he gets caught, gives him a rush of adrenaline, but he knows you do so he try’s to be as discreet as possible.
Which is really hard to do.
“You ok y/n?” You hear a voice coming from your computer. “You look like your about to sneeze or something.” Your face is beet red and your softly kick the white haired man beneath you who snickered at your friends comment. Yeah you were about to do something, but it sure wasn’t sneezing. Gojos hands that were holding your legs could feel the apparent shaking while you struggled to contain your self. His tongue flattened on your clit and you have to bite your lip to contain a squeal. “Come one sweet girl” gojo whispers “I know you want to, just let go for me.”
Geto Suguru
When your being eaten out by geto, always expect something to be inside of you.
Whether that be his hands or a dildo, something is pumping in and out of you
Is very sadistic.
Since he loves to see you squirt he wont stop until you do. It gets very tiring T_T
It’s all too much. Getos soft wet tongue flattening then lapping up your clit. His two thick fingers pumping in and out of you, occasionally stilling to curl inside of you and tap your gummy walls. Not to mention your approaching your second orgasm. Getos tongue flicks your clit in a particular way that causes a new kink of pleasure to surge through your body, and you squirm away at the new feeling."Ah ah ah. Don't run away." A sadistic grin plaster on his face, and two large strong hands grab your hips to secure you down. "Be a good girl and take it."
#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen headcanons#jjk smut#jujutsu kaisen smut#sukuna smut#sukuna x reader smut#sukuna x reader#geto x reader#gojo x reader#gojo x reader smut#jujutsu kaisen fanfic#gojo smut#yuji smut#yuji x reader smut#yuji x reader#toji x reader smut#toji smut#toji x reader#geto x reader smut#geto smut#geto suguru#jujutsu kaisen#getou suguru x reader#gojo#itadori
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YOUR DRAFTS ARE SO CUTE!!! i love them so much, but i cant help but think....
Angst writer over here 🤚
That's really wholesome and i can imagine it happening but indudge for a little while, yes?
In the game for a considerate amount of time the brothers see you as kinda of a part of their sister lilith after they find out you are hers ancesthor, during this time they are showed to kinda idolatrize you, in an overwealming manner something that just stops when they start to see mc as Mc and not lilith and they get really ackward
What i want to get with that is that they are Obsessed with the idea of having a sister/Lilith with them and have kinda..... Incestuous things hinting over there
So imagine with me back to when everyone was in the celestial realm ok? Let's change cannon for a little bit
You are one of their sisters you have an awesome sister called lilith who is the most kind and heartfealt person, she pratically theaches you everything and is an IMENSE part of you and all of your closest brothers, after all, everyone is family over there..... Right? So when lilith Helps the human and is Condemned to hell, shit breaks lose all your brothers and even you start to figth and Rebel, you get struck and the last thing you hear are loud screams from one of the sweetest of your Brothers Bellzebub, sobbing from one of the kindest belphegor and the sharp inhale of the last breath of your sister and you black out
You wake to all of them distressed, hurt ,Fallen mammon is holding you close as expected, he was the one who showed more care to everyone like lucifer, except less cold he's crying and trying to keep himselft together, you ask about Lilith but everithing you receive is a shallow glaring look from lucifer and then for the first time in decades you feel a hug everyone hugging eachother
It starts slow every single one of the brothers seems to look at you with sad eyes and always say to you to hide your demonic apearence for some reason, then sometimes belphegor and Bell seem estrange around you and always being super close to you but not actually feeling like they are with you
Then the first incident happens you even with the high name of one of the eight rules of hell gets atacked, although it was so soon and you were not so used to your demonic powers so you get defeated and by pure luck you get saved by barbatos
After that the brothers that were already grieving and treating you like precious glass start to become obsessed with your security Lucifer never leaves you alone for one second, not trusting in you anymore
Mammon becomes paranoid and distressed because he can't let HIS sister be taken away like Lilith and he wont let anyone even have to chance to try, making you suffocated and feel like you arent someone, but something he must protect someTHING precious
Leviatan surprisingly would make you feel safe but still thinks is so unfair that only you got to live and how he wanted both you a Lilith to be with them, he shows to you that he is gratefull and is a lot less anxious with you than others although he always screams or dont accoet if you try to offer games and seriously asks you not to, because he dosen't want to feel like betraying lilith
Just some foodies to the mind.... Honestly im probably gonna do a post because your writing is simply TOO INSPIRING AND GOOD. I honestly eat it all up and can't help but want more, is just perfect honestly and it makes me wanna create too
(also im REALLY sorry, is not my first language and i dont normally use tumblr, i just read things here so i dont know how to make thing dinamic to reading)
Do ya'll ever just wonder how fun it would be to be a sister to the demon brothers? Like ofc I love them with all my heart and think less than innocent thoughts about them but also just imagine being siblings with them?? I mean its mostly self inserted cause i'm imagining myself but like
Lucifer with his head in his hands because you keep getting mixed in with the brothers' shenanigans.
Being Mammon's partner in crime. Even though you know that his plans are stupid, you still think its funny how in the end Mammon gets scolded the most.
Being the only one Levi doesn't automatically recoil at because you bring him snacks to his room when he's been playing for a long time.
Satan chasing you down the streets of Devildom because you accidentally stepped on one of his books that was lying on the floor.
Doing self care routines with Asmo whenever you're sick of life and getting the worst dating advice from him simultaneously.
Trying (and failing) to hone your culinary skills and making Beel your test dummy. He's always happy to help though Lucifer is less than pleased with the mess in the kitchen.
Playing pranks on Belphie when he's sleeping and watching in glee as his day gets ruined.
Just idk, having them as brothers <3
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not to be a doomer but i've got a feeling we're not on the last stretch
#spoken#negative. im doomposting of course its negative#vaccines my ass. believe me id love to get stabbed if the government wasnt so fucking incompetent. theyre planning to let us back into#schools fulltime when like? not even a quarter of the population is vaccinated? and also everyone is fucking stupid and people are goinf to#parties and celebrity funerals (hi krawczyk your death caused a superspreader event)#a 4th wave is predicted and im very sure its gonna happen#of course its not like. india tier of a shitfest but. we have to pretend everything is 'going back to normal :))' when there were more#consistent cases a day than ever. we're just supposed to fucking ignore how in this country alone millions are now disabled for life and#thousands are dead. my mother cant think properly anymore. she forgets everything she put on two different shoes to work the other day she#stops midsentence and blanks out and cant remember what she was doing moments ago. my uncle has to sleep sitting up or he will suffocate. he#cant fucking breathe anymore. my classmates lungs are fucked. we are forced to pretend its not going to affect them forever because#the government decides that even though its worse than ever its a great time to reopen. yeah sure.#its literally never going away. i have selfishly gone out maybe twice in the past year with 2 people at most and i still felt like i failed#everyone. my medical treatments were postponed because of c0vid. i wasted about half the time in my dream school to c0vid.#it mutates and its going to come back over and over again. ill never go see people on my own volition. the government will pretend its fine#the second the cases drop every time. the numbers will climb. the vaccines wont be effective on new strains. stupid wastes of air will#continue to disregard the fucking rules to Not Kill People and make this bs last longer. if you go out i hate you. if you can go out without#the dread of it possibly being deadly ro someone i hate you. i hate you so so much and its fucking unfair that people who do the right thing#are forced to do it even longer while the pieces of shit get to complain about feeling trapped (guess what! not only you! get some fucking#self control and stop choosing ur petty comfort over actual human lifes! we are tired too!) and further prolong the whole ordeal#it just. it feels like nothing will ever be okay again
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(first time asking anything on tumblr im real nervous) MY BRAIN IS THINKING,, i just found ur incel fics n im in love !! the cannibalism n drugging fic got me thinking,, what abt childe lobotomizing u so u cant think of anything else but bein his lil housewife, kyaaah im so sorry if this is stupid- its like 5am idk if im thinkin straight anymore,,
EEEEEE im so honoured to be your first tumblr ask hehe... hopefully this lives up to your love for my previous fics… cannibalism and drugging my beloveds <33 i love gross and horrifying evil men!! lobotomy has been on my mind believe it or not (>﹏<) enjoy!!
contains: incel themes, lobotomy ofc, abuse, manipulation, actual angst?, he regrets it lol
compliance wasn't close to Ajax's top priority. he was never one to shy away from a good fight and blood flowed to both his heads when he got one from you; he enjoyed your defiance. so why this was the route he took was unknown to even himself.
being tied down and naked wasn't new to you. it was rather common considering the relationship between yourself and the ginger in front of you. his knots were always well done and you couldn't get out no matter how hard you tried and this night was no exception. perhaps he was a bit inebriated and perhaps you shouldn't have pushed his buttons so hard. regardless, decisions had been made and there was nothing that could take back the words that had been spilled and the feelings that had arose. Ajax had always been a little bit off in every manner of life. he could only hide parts of it well and anyone that spent any amount of time with him could tell he wasn’t quite right. his mannerisms were odd to say the least. smiles that never reached his eyes, a lack of tenderness, minimal empathy… the list went on. oftentimes you felt as though he was something beyond human cursed to live in a body that wasn’t his own. a form manifested by punishment of divine will. he was the feeling of air too thick to breathe, grass sharp to the touch, and bones of prey left to rot in forests torn through by flames. Ajax was a tsunami formed by waves of violent nature; something to be feared, not loved. but you learned to care for him nonetheless. maybe it was his crushing presence that molded you into someone or something that couldn’t live without.
the room was cold but his hands were warm. caressing you all over he attempted to soothe your nerves but it did little to relax you. he whispered words of praise and coos that seemed more demanding that loving. you needed to relax and let him take the reins. it won’t hurt that much and you’ll feel far better afterwards than you ever had before. his hands wiped down your face with more care than you expected to come. the gauze soaked in liquid smelled like alcohol and had your eyes watering. with gloves and shaking hands he pulled your lips up into a smile saying that you’d always be happy from now on. Ajax pulled out a metal rod and lined it up with the inner corner of your eye; you felt more fear than you ever had before. you expected he was to blind you. to make your last moment of sight his face.
pushing the rod through and past your eyeball, you whimpered. the slow sliding wasn’t painful but you felt the pressure. every time you blinked he advised not to but with the intrusion you couldn’t help it. the pressure built up the further the rod went in and as he began swirling and poking it back and forth. drool dropped down your chin and he momentarily ceased his movements to lean down and lick it up before planting a wet kiss to your lips. soon enough, he retracted the long piece of metal and you were finally able to fully close your eyes. Ajax planted a soft kiss to each of your eyelids.
something wasn’t quite right and you knew that but you couldn’t place it. as the suffocating pounding in your head stopped, so did the terror and worries. the shift in your expression and body language must have been noticeable based on the pleased demeanour that decorated Ajax. he untied you with gentle hands and scooped you into his arms. with promises of washing you up and laying down for bed he carried you through the house. the bath you took was warm and the bed you laid in was comfortable. you curled into his body softly and pliantly much to his enjoyment. soft kisses were placed over and over again to the crown of your head and your nose before you finally fell asleep.
the next couple weeks were spent following his orders and clinging to his body at every chance. you gave Ajax pretty smiles and hung onto his every word. at first, his chest felt full at the change in behaviour. but slowly… he found himself missing who you were before. he had smothered your spark with his own hands for fear it would turn into a flame. you were no longer yourself and he mourned for the times he had before. rarely did he cry but on many nights you’d awake to his soft sobs. with worried eyes and soft hugs you’d ask what was wrong and how to help. he wouldn’t tell you for many moons but eventually he let out a soft mumble. ‘i miss how you were before.’ you didn’t understand. how you were before? i’m not any different, you responded with confusion clear as day and pain covered his face.
“you wouldn’t know the change. i did this to you, i’m the problem.”
#cw: lobotomy#cw: abuse#angst#cw: incel behaviours#this was a nice change of pace hehe#chit chats#childe x reader#tartaglia x reader#genshin x you
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last weekend I caved and read everything you ever uploaded here once more agskshkdd this is who i am as a person. but im love your writing so much!!! i have an especially soft spot for the naga stories, are those the ones that are about half-snake people? i always mess up the names but how do you think bakugou (and or kiri) would be as a yandere one, when he falls for the reader? i can't remember you ever writing a snake-version of him and idk if you'd be up for it but i'm super curious! xoxoxo
Aww!! Thank you so much :)
And yes! Naga’s are the snake people, semi human from the torso up and giant ass snakes from the hips down!
Bakugou:
If there is one word to describe yandere Naga Bakugou its possessive. It takes a lot for him to chose a mate, he is incredibly picky, picking his mate much past the typical age but once he picks?? Possessive protective to the extreme. You are his mate to do with what he pleases, and absolutely no one is going to take you away from him. Hell, he gets pissy the second another creature, intelligent or not even looks at you. You won’t be leaving his nest any time soon after he snatches you up, even trying to peek over the edges of the flattened down bowl in the ground leads to you being dragged right back to the middle and getting angrily chewed out and huffed at as you get tucked right back into the nest.
I think he’d most likely fall for a darling who hikes or walks frequently in his forest for whatever reason. A hunter, camper, or just any kind of nature enthusiast will quickly catch his eye. You’re so small…and your body is so different than his and yet you constantly come back here, carelessly leaving your scent everywhere, as if inviting him to have a taste. He isn’t one to turn down the offer. He doesn’t have any form of patience, somewhere during a mid afternoon doze and lunch he’ll come to the conclusion that he wants you, all while still ripping the meaty remains of his prey off the bone. Right then and there he decides to have you, still picking meat from his teeth with the jagged edge of a bone. The next time he sees you you’ll be snatched up into his arms and dragged back to his nest, kicking and screaming left ignored as he unceremoniously dumps you in his nest and refuses to let you leave.
I picture him most likely picking a human mate tbh, He enjoys being bigger and stronger than his mate, justifying the overbearing desire to hide away and protect what's his, something other Nagas wouldn’t tolerate. Even if you don’t tolerate it it doesn’t really matter, he is bigger and stronger than you, and can easily just pick you right up and carry you back to where he wants you to be. Biting, kicking, punching, anything just bounces off his hard scales. Honestly fighting like that is more likely to turn him on than anything else~ If you have this much energy you clearly can put it towards incubating some of his eggs right? Hopefully that fiery spirit will pass on to his eggs once they hatch~
He’ll also be curious, painfully so, eagerly twisting and pulling you in his hold like a doll, poking and prodding as he inspects you. Its not often he sees a human so close without eating them. He’s cruel in the sense that he likes to poke your squishy spots just to listen to your cute noises and watch you try and wiggle away from him. Its hardly ever malicious, though, the claws in your mouth, feeling up your teeth. Or large hands encompassing your entire calf as he feels up your leg is pure curiosity. He’ll look almost childish, eyes wide with wonder as he watches you twist and bend, so small and fragile yet so resilient.
He’ll hiss and throw up a fit if you call him out on this but he is also incredibly cuddly. Maybe it’s just because of that protective nature of his but he loves wrapping around you, snuggling his face into your stomach, tongue darting out to smell your skin. Or maybe it has something to do with the fact that you are a breathing furnace compared to the cooler blooded beast. He’s so soft in those moments, eagerly nuzzling you and lapping up any attention you’ll give him, even if he huffs and insists its for your protection and warmth if you say anything. Human skin is so thin and you are so needy for warmth! How did you ever survive without him curling around you to keep you warm and chase off the chill of the night air. You’d be wise to keep your mouth shut about the fact that he is actually sapping your heat with his cold skin. Best not take those rare tender moments for granted, yeah?
Kirishima on the other hand leans more on the protective side of things. He’s younger than Bakugou, more on the naïve side of things and much more at the whims of his instincts. I think he’d honestly mate with the first little thing he comes across, unable to hold back and be patient at all. He’s a bit of a romantic at heart, in a terrifying, he’ll eat and swallow whoever you’re with whole when he sees you way. He wants nothing more than a happy loving mate, round and heavy with his eggs waiting for him when he comes back to his nest. He wants to protect and provide and snuggle with his cute little mate!
He’s brutal, eating and killing anything that comes close to you, and then immediately turning around and crooning and loving on you, rubbing up against you like a dog, his face still coated with any remains of what, or rather who, he just ate. (Lucky for you he prefers to swallow his prey whole…watching him gag up and spit out the bones that he cant digest isn’t a pleasant sight though.) Endlessly doting and so…incredibly suffocating. There will always be a hand, or head, or tail, or something pressed, wrapped, or snuggling against you. Half the time you feel like a living teddy bear as he cuddles and nuzzles you non stop, curling up in his nest and holding you close to his chest, face buried in your hair. The only time he tears himself from your side is to go hunting, and even then when he comes back you are scooped up and squished in his arms until he calms down again, extremely distressed from being separated from you.
He is obsessed with being a good mate for you, protecting, providing, and spoiling his partner. He’ll be traditional, hunting down larger pray than necessary just to impress you. Happily puffing his chest out when he dumps a bunch of hay and leaves into the nest, telling you that he knows humans cant sleep on hard rock comfortably, and so this will be more comfy! (Not that it does much, with how close he insists on being when cuddling, you practically sleep on him instead. Trapped against his firm chest as arms wrap tightly around you). Now this isn’t common behavior for nagas, but he’ll also bring you pretty little trinkets that he finds, gems or geodes he finds in his cave, pretty jewelry he steals from humans, rocks that he really likes and wants to share with you. Reacting positively to these gifts, maybe even making a small little pile for them in the nest will put him over the moon. He becomes so gushy and loving towards you for it you can get away with nearly anything after that.
Unlike Bakugou’s nest which is out in the open, daring any threat to even try and come close to his mate, Kiri hides you away. His nest will be hidden away in a maze like cave (He carved it out himself by hand! Something he very proudly tells you when the two of you can finally converse without you screaming or him fucking you silly). He never leaves your side, determined to protect and love you, but even in the moments he does, escape is hopeless. Even after crawling up the sides of the deep pit carved out of solid rock (you really don’t want to think how strong his claws are to carve out solid stone and made such deep grooves in the sides) you’ll be left wondering and aimless maze, impossible to not get lost or even get near the exit before Kirishima is back, rushing your side and picking you up into his arms in a panic. Naturally, being the innocent thing he is he assumes you missed him and went searching for him instead of trying to escape, but now you’re trapped in an even tighter hold under an even tighter watch as he tries “to make it up to you”.
With Kirishima you have a small chance, though. If you are loving and gentle enough to him, and you ask him so sweetly if you can get out of the cave just for a little bit! Promise! He may take you to a nearby river to play in the water, or a hotspring to soak together. Once you really have him wrapped around your finger you might be able to convince him to go on daily walks (slithers?) with him, only if you look sad and pout up at him enough, insisting that the cave is too dark and scary and you miss the sun. He’ll feel so bad he just might sunbathe with you outside for awhile too.
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