#i cant believe im posting this… omgg

[persephoneflouwers]

DE AMORE EX TEMPORE by persephoneflouwers.

Explicit || 21 chapters, 101K words || status: Completed 🪽🤍

{poster by @ladychlo <3}

"Jump! For fuck's sake, Louis, jump!" Louis looks down curiously at the ground and notices that the backpack is gone. The grass appears greener than it did before; a minute ago there were streetlights in front of him - why is there no light now? His brows furrow. “Is there a blackout tonight?” He starts coughing uncontrollably as if water has flooded his lungs. He brings his hands around his neck, feeling like he cannot talk nor scream for help – he can’t breathe. “Louis, jump!” And he can’t see, feel or hear anything, but trusts the voice.  He jumps. Then it’s just cold and dark. ________________________________________ Or: the Renaissance AU where Harry is a philosopher, whose thoughts happen five centuries too soon and Louis is a painter, whose art happens five centuries too late. & Or: the Time Travel AU where alternate versions of themselves live simultaneously in different realities and their paths collide every time, until somehow, they converge into one.

READ IT NOW ON AO3.

Listen to the playlist here.

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PATHEMA PROTELEIA by persephoneflouwers

ABO, 53K, completed, mature 🥀🗡️⏳

A few years ago, Omega Prince Harry left his husband and mate Alpha Louis without any apparent reason. When enemies of the Royalty make an attempt on his life and threaten to hurt Omegas, Louis has to ask the Prince for help.

Or

A Greek tragedy AU (but with the happiest ending)

READ on AO3 - listen to the playlist here - pins collection here

[liquorwrist]

Ahhh filthystarboy…. I owe you everything my life my heart my lungs my eyes really really… im so happy…Im gonna die

Putting it under a cut just in case ,, enjoyy heavily inspired by @liquorwrist and a twitter artist (@/karahariX)!! Had to contribute 🙏🙏

[smicksstuff]

summary: yngasly has become a fan favourite on the track. As the proud baby sister of Pierre Gasly she never fails to show her unwavering support for him. But, is he the only driver she is rooting for in the paddock ?

The PitBox Crew Series

read Part 1 here

The Enstone Life

f1drivers x yngasly

instagram edit

a/n: im so sorry for the google translate french! i tried my best 😬

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1 February 2023

yngasly

England

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yngasly just dropped by to say hi to my new bestie Big Ben ! gonna see you around often 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿☕️

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carmenmmundt cant believe you would ditch me for Big Ben ☹️ but im still happy you are here !!! we are gonna have loads of fun together 😍

yngasly OH YES!! finally staying 1 hour away from you !! 🥰

pedrogaseoso OMG she moved to England with her brother!! 🤩

landonorris need a tour guide? you know who to call 👀

yngasly ghostbusters? 👻

landonorris 🙄

norris4life omgg her humour reminds me of danny 😂

yngasly i was kidding 😂 i might actually take you up on it !!

f1fan OMG i love her ! is she gonna be at every race now ?

gaslyyyyy i hope so ! pierre and her are an unbreakable duo

paulgasly Reste en sécurité là-bas ! Tu connais l'affaire and please please listen to pierre 🙏🏽

translated: stay safe down there! you know the deal

yngasly Bien sûr, je le ferai grand frère!

translated: ofcourse i will big brother!

yukitsunoda0511 why didnt anyone tell me that if pierre went to alpine you would go there too ☹️😭

yngasly @yukitsunoda0511 awww yukisan, im still gonna be around !! but im gonna miss you lots 🥺

yukierre poor yuki !! he lost his boyfriend and bestfriend !! double divorce ��😭

yuki22 OMG i never thought this would happened 😭 no more late night cooking vlogs from these two 😭😭

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pierregasly

Enstone, England

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pierregasly when they said you have to move to England, i didnt think that meant “bring your sister along” 😂 lets see what happens 👀

charles_leclerc can’t believe i have to take a plane to see the two of you now 😡

maxverstappen1 you are upset as though you would not see them in the paddock at all

maximilianverstappen MAX DID NOT HOLD BACK 😂

supermax Max out here to remind charles that he is still here

alpinef1team two Gaslys in England we hit the jackpot 😄 Welcome to Enstone Pierre and Yn!

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paulgasly why do i suddenly feel that maybe this was not a good idea 🤔

yngasly it was the best idea ever!! thank you for convincing Papa and Maman ❤️

lorenzotl pierre and yn in England what could go wrong ?

paulgasly this isnt helping enzo 😑

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16 February 2023

yngasly

London, England

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yngasly back in london with Pedro ! My Alpine era has begun 💙

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alpinef1team 💙💙💙

yngaslyfans blue always looks good on you 😍

pierregasly you have got to stop with the Pedro

yngasly no never !!

lissiemackintosh looking stunning as ever 🤩

yngasly thank you queen 👑

charles_leclerc just saying red has always been your colour 💃🏼

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pierregasly no it has not ! its always been blue

sharll What is going on in the house of commons 👀

leclerc16 not yn liking charles comment 😳

landonorris why choose red or blue when you know you orange is so much better 🧡

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pierregasly NO Lando!! blue has always been her colour

landonorris has it ? 👀

norris4life not yn liking lando’s comment too

sharll wait im confused i thought charles and her had a thing ?

landino you’re confused ? im flipping confused 😐

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28 February 2023

yngasly posted on their story

charles_leclerc posted on their story

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5 March 2023

yngasly

Bahrain

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yngasly its lights out and away we go in Bahrain !! New Year, New Team and finally NOT penalty points for Pierre ! 🤩

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pierregasly it was going great till it wasnt 🤦🏼 i hate you 😠

yngasly you love me and what are little sisters for ❤️

charles_leclerc i was having a pretty shit day but this just made it better ❤️🤩 (you should wear the hat all the time) 😉

yngasly anytime charlie boy 😄 we will see about the hat 🤔

alpinef1team 💙

f1fans Yn is brutal!! I love her 😍

pedrogaseoso Falling for Yn was not on my 2023 Bingo Card!

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isahernaez so happy to be back in the paddock with you !! ❤️

yngasly its been too long bestie !! missed you too much 🥺

pierregasly its only been 1 month 🤔

yngasly you don’t understand 1 month is too long 😭

yukitsunoda0511 YAY IM STILL HERE

yngasly i follow the rules!! without you photo dumps are incomplete 😃

landonorris THAT JACKET!!! love it ! wear it all the time 🧡

yngasly maybe i should get a hat to match it *hint hint* 🤭

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sharll she knows what she is doing!! we love a smart girl 😍

landino tbf i dont even think the boys know what is going on

f1fans i have got the popcorn ready !! im so ready for this 🍿

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f1fans NO WAY she just liked my comment !! bestie please tell us what is happening we are dying in suspense 🧐

pedrogaseoso id pay money rn to see the look on pierre’s face when he finds both lando and charles flirting with his baby sister💰

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smoothoperatorrr not carlos and isa joining the drama

f1fans buckle up boys and girls! its gonna be one hella amazing season !! 😍

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credits: all pictures are found from pinterest and instagram

a/n: thank you for reading this far !! i didnt expect the first part of The Pitbox Crew to do so well! If you have any suggestions send them to me!! I would love to hear them ◡̈

[aniseya]

the acolyte 1x06 live reaction post

omg the episode is called teach/corrupt 👀

OSHA 👁️ she’s ina. bed omg

he wrapped her bandages omgggg

wait is there only one bed……

the toxic yuri implications

wait omg the scoreeeeee romantic ass violins michael abels ty

omg qimir

sol :((((((

omg mae

he still thinks she’s osha?¿ or is he playing her

sol :((((( goddamnit lee jung jae i don’t like you but he’s doing well as sol

PIPPPPP

qimir omg osha trying to sneak up

he knows she’s there i think

oh my god he’s SHIRTLESS??????????

HES NAKEDvvvvvccvv

SHE SAW HIM NAKED???????

IM LAUGHING SO HARD BC IM FLUSTERED

wait he’s nice

“i’d like to put my clothes back in” LMAOOOOO

HE JUST STANDING THERE NAKED IN FRONT OF HER

he’s so calm with her

these romantic ass violins

why he seem kinda sad

i cant believe she saw him BUTT ASS NAKED girllllllll

wait oh my fucking god he undressed while knowing she was WATCHING!!!!!!

sol and mae “hug” i’m feeling so sad

forced proximity mae and sol dad and daughter dynamic coming

he was a jedi????

“everyone does seem to want you” AAAAA

qimir saying she’s strong with the force OMGG

romantic ass violins icb

she seems very calm with him i’m kinda surprised

awwwwww bazil and mae 💜💜💜

“desire” while staring at her after a PAUSE OMGGG

he’s so calm

PULLING HER ARM?3!!3!;!2

this is so sexy

he’s making her angry on purpose

OH SHITTTT HER ANGER REAWAKENED HER FORCE

romantic ass violins AGAIN

she looked at his lips OHHHHHH

i’m glad he’s actually tender with her, i was worried he would be over-angry or pushy with her

“i find it unsettling” LMAOOOO

bazil and mae siblings

oh he found out

he’s fixing his mask ohhhhh

i’m glad he’s addressing how he made a mistake with mae and osha is different from her

“the power of two” 👁️

the kylo theme aaaaaa

jecki :(

they think it’s sol?

she’s getting lured closer to the maskkkkk

oh she’s INTO the dark side and it sure as hell wasn’t qimir who “manipulated” her into it. all he did was push her already there anger and those crazy eyes girl is DARKKKK

romantic ass violins in the credits

[maskydude207]

🕴

time to talk about something very random!! ok so first of all i had the stupid dream about finding a creepypasta reference in a local comic here called monicas gang (turma da mônica <3) and i woke up pissed off bcs i keep dreaming about it then BANG

there is actually a story where slenderman is a CHARACTER (not only a reference) and im shocked bcs it released right after i stopped collecting bcs the place i used to buy closed... these comics usually have a lot of references but this is so cute... i remember around 2014

there is actually a story where slenderman is a CHARACTER (not only a reference) and im shocked bcs it released right after i stopped collecting bcs the place i used to buy closed... these comics usually have a lot of references but this is so cute... i remember around 2014 my friend showed me one comic with slender on it from the same franchise and i was like ":OO omgg" i dont know if i will be able to find that one in specific but slenderman in this story is so silly gonna post more photos cuz i still cant believe it (there are more photos but i cant post them all)

basically the plot was that the main character was "supposed" to be an urban legend so an enemy of his disguised as a fake slenderman to make a plan to "win against him" but then in the end the real slenderman appeared- note its cute how the fake slender was based of mh and the real slender in the story was inspired by the og pictures of slenderman... there are of course more slender references in that comic but i think its hard to find idk if there is a jeff the killer one but i could TRY to find but eh its gonna be hard but i love monicas gang so :)

btw here it is the video i took the pics from!! the person shows the entire story with in it! but its only in portuguese sadly

https://youtu.be/8SVe5tJrmso?feature=shared

also...

the marble hornets pose...

[nshmuras]

hii im belle, ik im sooo late but ur announcement post just came to my page, n i hope ur doing okayy!! also i cant believe we r moots omgg im so happy i love u works, hope we can get closer 🫶🏻

HI BELLE ! tysm :( also i hope we can get closer too !

[shelterskimmer]

Thinking abt the pictures you've posted of you licking your knife,, fffuck I'm so normal I'm so normal I'm so normal I'm s

OMGG.. TY TY !!!!! i cant believe u were thinkin about it omg... im flattered :D.. i love how insane people get about knife pics on here lmaooo best website fr 🙏🙏 & no need to be normal btw :P feel free to go crazy go stupid <3

[askinkiskarma]

ANDRAAAA how are you today <3 i'm finally back from vacation and catching up on all the new content posted!! pls i was dying at the beach every night/morning i would try to go on tumblr only to be interrupted im so happy to be home but also the beach was so relaxing maybe i was in awa'atlu actually? 😭

ANYWAYYY i just read the first chapter of monster in me and im so excited for you and the new series!! the first chapter was so good. i love how the dynamic between neteyam and y/n is so different from cardigan and cruel summer!!! bby you are so versatile when it comes to writing pls i was so shocked when i read it b/c THE LAST SCENE WAS INTENSE!!!! this will be a TRUEEEE enemy to lovers fic--DIRTY, MEAN, GRITTY, AND SEXYYY. your whole writing universe (andra writing universe...AWU?) is just amazing you have done it again queen

(i just know monter in me neteyam is a moody baby boy and needs to get over himself fr, hope the reader kicks his ass and makes him realize)

additionally, I CANT WAIT FOR THE CRUEL SUMMER ONE SHOT its gonna hurt sooo bad but soo good at the same time. i was driving home with my friends today and we were listening to folklore and i had to do it to them and explain the whole cruel summer series while listening to august and the 1.

i think you posted a drabble too??? not sure, i will have to find it haha but these are all my thoughts for now. you'll probably see this in the morning so GOOOD MORNING <3

Hey kendra my love!!! I love seeing you in my inbox so much 😩😩😩 how was your little holiday?? Did you enjoy the beach??

Thank you so much for reading monster in me 😭 i’m so excited for a new series, you know me, I thrive off series hahahaha. Yes, i tried really hard to make sure the dynamic and relationship is very far removed from what i’ve written so far, but i’m not super comfortable with this trope yet so i really hope i do it justice🥲 AND YES, i needeed them to truly be enemies, and for the stakes to be high, but now i am worrying about redeeming neteyam cause wow he’s a dick HAHAHAH

The cruel summer one shot already is making me sad and i barely wrote anything, i’m so excited for it omg, can’t wait for you to read it!! The Andra writing universe comment took me out you’re too amazing hahaha omgg i can’t believe you told your friends, i hope they enjoyed the story!

I saw you commented on the drabble, that is just pure smut so enjoy my love 😉😂💕

Ily, have an amazing day and week 💕💕💕💕

[heartofwritiing]

answering @redheadspark & @a-lumos-in-the-nox question: what fics of mine are my favorite!

this is so hard omgg!

Almost lost you (Druig) will always be a fic im proud of! I was really happy with it when i wrote it and i re-read it every now and then. I feel like i could write it a little better now but i still love it!

Your scent (Jack Russell) Its something i wrote in like 20 minutes but i kept re-writing it and i just love how cute and intimate it is like ahhh i cant believe I WROTE THAT lol

Times up (Unus Annus) I actually cried while writing this one. That youtube channel will always hold a special place in my heart and this platonic fic was my way of dealing with the grief of it being deleted forever. still probably top 5 if not the best thing ive ever written. :,)

and then a fic im working on atm is another one… wink wink ahah

(im probably gonna post it tomorrow!)

[jensungf]

「12:07pm」

you smile.

keep smiling (y/n), you urge yourself as your best friend!jeno answers your question with sparkles in his eyes before they crinkle into the crescent moon smile you fell in love with the very first time you saw it. you can’t help but smile at the pure joy on his face even as your heart twinges, yet your eyes don’t leave his face.

it was technically your fault for asking him, but your curiosity had gotten the best of you.

“hey jeno,” you had asked. he looked up from the piano he was fiddling with, his movement faltering slightly.

“what’s your ideal type?” the question almost absent-mindedly slipping out of your mouth without a second thought.

he studies your facial expression for a moment before looking back down at the piano. his fingers gracefully dance across the keys as he starts playing a slow melody. his arm brushes against yours as you join in and play with him.

he answers hesitantly. you listen to him list out what only lee jeno would want. what you believe he deserves.

your smile falters ever-so-slightly, as your fingers slow to a pause. jeno continues playing tenderly as he describes his dream girl with a glimmer of hope in his eyes. you take in every word he says with a smile.

because you know.

you will never be what he wants.

after all, the person he is describing is nothing like you.

[that-art-hoe]

i tacked a lana question onto my cameo and you are NOT READY for the answers omgg

her favorite song is unreleased gangsta boy. she also loves mermaid motel, gods and monsters, venice bitch, and cherry. she even sang a little bit of cherry ☠️ and her favorite album is NFR we were sooo wrong but wow i love it so much. i will post the video when i start breathing again but worth every penny oh my god. sorry for freaking out i needed to tell someone who would. Understand.

(@swordquaria i hope you’re feeling better soon ❤️❤️❤️i need to make you aware of this as well)

SHES AN NFR GIRLIE?? Omg just like me :0 okay omg not her knowing her unreleased songs too😭💖 but ya know it makes sense i love that for her, and oh my god i cant believe she sang cherry for you im dead lol THANK YOU SM FOR THIS INFO<3 and yes i totally understand this we’re on the same wavelength bestie

[jimlingss]

I can't believe you ended chp 16 of Jp like that...i want to fight 😭

if you fight me, i’m guaranteed to be hospitalized ((look at these noodle arms)) and then who will post the next chapter on Monday? uh huuuh, that’s what I thought. Think twice before you wanna square up. (ง •̀_•́)ง

I am now answering spoiler-y messages below, so beware....

[SPOILER ALERT] 

*SPOILER ALERT**SPOILER ALERT**!SPOILER ALERT!*

Massive spoilers to come, please do not read if you have not yet read Jungle Park Chapter 16. Or go ahead and read if you’re chaotic like that.

Anonymous said: ok but what if oc and Hoseok were actually engaged....

I’m an idiot, anon - I accidentally deleted your ask before I copied it correctly lol oops, but ding ding ding! correct! you’re a winner!! i believe you sent me this message like 2 chapters ago and honestly you freaked me out by how accurate you were. dammit, I might’ve been too predictable, but you catch on quick. sorry i couldn’t answer sooner hahaha i couldn’t risk other people jumping on the same theory. you’re a genius tho, i’ll give you props for it.

Anonymous said: DATED!FOR 4 YEARS! ENGAGED! Omg wow shit really hit the fan like there is no coming back omg Wowoowoeoeoeooew I’m SHOOK like I never expected that like NEVER!!!

Anonymous said:I KNEW IT!!! i had a feeling it was either a really long relationship or they were engaged at one point. TURNS OUT IT WAS BOTH omg gahdhsjxbjsjs I'm so excited to see this all just unravel omgomgomgomg

kawaii-ing said: FhbsjshJuxYhUgrnziVJgdjsbdud JUNGLE PARK CHAPTER 16 JUST WRECKED ME YO 😱😱😱😱😱 HE KNOWS AND SHE DOESNT KNOW HE KNOWS IM SO CURIOUS FOR WHATS GONNA HAPPEN NOW Btw lovvvveeee your writing, thanks for all your hard work boo xxx💜💜

ASDFGHJKL I SAID SHIT WOULD HIT THE FAN AND I FOLLOWED THROUGH, RIGHT?? AREN’T YOU PROUD! THERE’S NO CLICKBAIT ON THIS BLOG HAHAHA 

Anonymous said: omgg 4 years? ENGAGED?? I’m ??? jut WHAT happened

:O :O

Anonymous said: BROOOOOOO! THEY WERE ENGAGED :o *insert Pikachu meme*

pikachu meme?? hahaha is that a sarcastic surprise? so you weren’t actually? lolololol :O

Anonymous said: Ahh I loved jungle park 16!! I'm so excited for the angst to come 👀 is hoseok's car accident related to oc at all?

hmm guess you’ll have to wait and see ((but also just putting it out there that if it was related that would be pretty makjang and lol im not about that life with this series))

Anonymous said: (1)oh holy hell Kina,,,my head’s hurting bcs of JP:16. ENGAGED what?? huh. now its one of my fav chapters, like 4-6 (ah those innocent cute baby steps in hoseok’s&oc’s relationship,,,not THIS). but freaking FINALLY someone spilled the beans. i love this kind of scenes, THE truth revelation. chang’s unaware of storm hes causing with his words, hoseok’s world’s simply crushing, oc doesnt know yet whats happening&dae is helplessly watching from sidelines trying to stop the catastrophe&failing

Anonymous said:(2)thats sad. i kinda can imagine what hoseoks feeling now, plagued w question that almost no one’s willing to answer, that drive him crazy.what happened? why did oc hide the truth? what did i do, how bad did we hurt each other? why can’t i remember any of it fuck. its a perfect opportunity for insecurities&ugly thoughts&inner demons to poison his mind. and oc...her house of cards collapsed revealing things she was trying hard to escape. will she feign ignorance again or will she finally face it

Anonymous said:(3)i just hope that in the end after this storm theyll reach their own peace, whatever the outcome will be. past stays in past, but only if every issue is resolved. otherwise it might return later&be worse than before. it was a great chapter. thank you — chem

THE BEANS HAVE BEEN SPILLED!!! honestly the universe is in chaos right now lol Hoseok’s like the fuck....and oc doesn’t even know lol but yeah it’s definitely a sad situation for almost all parties. there’s still more to be revealed tho, like the actual details of what the fuck went on haha anyways, i’m glad you’re enjoying it!

Anonymous said: AAHHHHH ITS FINALLY HERE!! Thank you 💞💞. Wow it was truly a lot and honestly, I feel kinda scared for Hoseok... it’s crazy that he really doesn’t remember anything and learning all this new information is like being in another word. If this story wasn’t one about love and fluff, it could’ve totally turned into a horror story lol. Thank you again and I’m very excited to see where the story goes!!

a horror? can’t say im very good at the genre but that’s definitely an interesting concept....the more i think about it....like for someone to go through something suppper traumatic and not remember at all and someone appears in their life but it turns out that someone was actually the serial killer? dammmmn that would be really interesting. i digress, thank you for enjoying it. definitely Hoseok is lost, scared, confused.

Anonymous said: SHIT’S 🗣 HITTING 🗣 THE 🗣 FAN 🗣 omg *insert “she’s meditating” “she’s dead” meme* and the fact that this is just the beginning??? how?? what?? i’m honestly so skek for the next chapter like i dont think hoseok’s gonna go apeshit on yn but you never know now do you ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ superb chapter for reals!!!! like, all of your writing is great but this chapter?? *chef’s kiss* didnt even know i was an angst fan until this chapter lol sending all my love to you!!! - chanting anon

hahhahahahhahaha there’s a lot more to unravel. now the puzzle has been exposed, we gotta start looking at the details. thank you for the message *throws chef’s kiss back* also welcome to the angst realm lol

Anonymous said: finals starts at the 20th and school ends in the 24th and we're still at chap 1 on our research. Due to stress, i thought, hey, might as well read the latest chapter bUT WHO KNEW IT WOULD BRING ME MORE STRESS. FOUR YEARS?! ENGAGED?! i feel like hoseok right now. You make such awesome stories and worlds. It affects me in so many good ways i cant even. i dont always give you my thoughts per chapter but i want you to know that i scream at every single one of them. have a nice day! - anon h.a.n.d.

oh my goodness!!! good luck on your exams!! hahah im sorry the chapter isn’t very much comfort food and kind of more wild but still happy you enjoyed it! 

Anonymous said: PT. 15 & 16?! WHAT. I COME BACK TO TWO CHAPTERS. HOLY COW. but really, like now that I know what I know, I’m so sad. I wonder what their relationship was like. That’s a lot of time to invest in someone and for it to fall apart like that... I couldn’t imagine what OC had to go through. I’m sad BUT THE DEVELOPMENT IS MAKING ME SO FREAKIN EXCITED. THANK YOU FOR GIVING US SOME ANSWERS ABOUT THE PAST. I CANT WAIT TO SEE HOW MUCH ELSE HE FINDS OUT.

I KNOW RIGHT?? LIKE FOUR YEARS IS A FUCKING LONG TIME. then again that was like 8 years ago. but yeah, it’s sad for both oc and Hoseok, y’know? I’M GLAD YOU’RE EXCITED!!!

Anonymous said: Great Jungle Park chapter! I'm pissed because SOMEONE SPOILED IT and i saw they were engaged before i could even click on the 'read more',,, but great chapter! I wish i could've read it without knowing, it kinda made me sad and it was not as great as it could have been.. @people spoiling, fuck off >:(( @you you're the best writer ily u nice keep going!! Can't wait to have Hoseok's full mind process over how crazy it is he doesn't remember 4 YEARS and an ENGAGEMENT (and only 2 dates huhu)

haha chill, anon. did you actually know that spoilers can make someone enjoy a story more? it’s actually a really interesting thing to google and find out more about. the chapter’s still the same whether you had an inkling of what was going on or not. you still enjoyed it too, right?  :D 

Anonymous said: CRAP OK, well, we knew it was something more than two days, but HONESTLY lol I love how you wrote y/n trying to keep it together. I could feel her fear as she lost control of the situation when Hoseok showed up. Do you think in her mind she even slightly expected him to show up? I'm assuming she's very internal w/ her thoughts/feelings seeing as she doesn't talk to anyone about what happened between her & Hobi all those years ago nor has she dealt w/ it, mostly just avoided it, would you say?

oh yeah oc was on the verge of a mental breakdown when he showed up rofl, damn near scared her. he was basically like a jumpscare LOL. but yeah for sure she didn’t expect him to come. i mean she basically told him and he was like ‘ok whatever’ and didn’t express interest and it’s not like he got an invite so she didn’t know he would actually go out of his way to show up. and yeah i agree, oc’s very internal with her feelings, or at least what happened all those years ago. it’s sensitive issues anyway that she’s left behind. or at least tried to.

tofugguk said: BROOO i LITERALLY— LITERALLY LOST IT. WHEN CHANGSUB DROPPED THEM BEING TOGETHER FOR LIKE FOUR YEARS THEN THE- “You guys even got engaged.” PART I SCREAMED. YOOOOO I CANTTT HANDLE THIS

Changsub isn’t the dumbass that we wanted. But the dumbass we needed.

((don’t you love how oc tried so hard to keep it a secret for like 16 chapters aka like near a year and some idiot comes trapezing in and in his first scene he just spills all the beans??? hahahha))

[timdrakegeocities]

vitrei replied to your post “gross but i cant believe the size of the bit of skin i just pulled off...”

(romantic voice) you can.. peel My skin (unless thats not the same. id understand.)

omgg... yeah it wouldnt be exactly the same but i also would still do it. im always like finger-combing cat fur and cleaning their paws and messing w their acne when they have it.. i cant not Fiddle... peel... this is key romance

[oswednesday]

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HFGH IT’S SO OMINOUS WHEN YOU LOSE SIGHT OF HIM where did he come from where did he go,,, and yes!! god i believe i watched it early in the morning like 2am and was not prepared for michael jackson’s unprecedented appearance it felt like a fever dream irl

YEAH or when hes slow walking around the house?? or when hes like saying his line and you cant see him dfgh it was So effective even as a silly thing omgg

asdfghjgfdsdfghjk you and john shared a moment of being pyche blasted by that omgg its soo cool, the next chapter is out for it!

[perfectionistincrisis]

Day 70

Seventy.

Life is going on. With ups and downs. Good days and bad days. Well life is mostly grey for me. 

As every day passes, i just realize more and more how much i love him. I really dont want to bluff about it but I just couldnt stop from typing it out because the realization blows my mind away. And one big reason is because I would never do what i did, or can do for him, and no one will ever mean anything even remotely close to how much he meant to me and will always mean to me. 

This might all just sound like a cheesy note any person in love would say but Oh God! trust me, this is what comes to my head after quite a good number of not-so-nice crap i have in my big fat head. So yeah! thats how i just know. This is not ever going away. And if I ever got a chance to re-live, i wouldn’t have wanted to fall in love with anyone else, orrrrrrrrrrr id just wish I was alone. That’s pretty cool tooo!! lol 

Speaking of which. Yeah. I pretty much do enjoy my own company. I just dont like communicating much with people. for a lot of reasons actually. Well, to begin with. I believe im a really complicated person. LIke, everyone has their own story and theres something twisty about everyone and bla bla but then I really do thing Im just not that easy to understand, and to top all that, I dont even like opening up to people so thats more of a reason to not get me. I am kind of aware of the fact that i seem to have a lot of ego and seem to be filled with pride and arrogance. But thats not true, thats just how some people see me, and i cant blame them because i think that is something i mask myself with. However, many people do find me really sweet and all but whatever side anyone sees, its always clear, im not really interested in getting too close with anyone and that i appreciate my own space. Sometimes, i do wonder if i really do enjoy being on my own or i actually want some good friends. But then the thing is, i have really really good friends back from high school. the only thing is, theyre not in the same country, theyre far away. but then again, even when we were all on ksa, we still mostly communicated on social media and stuff so it shouldnt matter much i guess. what im trying to say is. despite all the misunderstanding people might have with me, or people actually finding me sweet or whatever. or me not liking them much or wanting them to be my friends or whatever. the thing is, its not that i dont have anyone at all. because i do have people who know me. they dont know every little detail about me though, and thats because i dont talk much to them either. but they know me as a person. like i dont need to kiss their ass to get their attention, i can be myself with them.. i can be mean, and rude, or not keep in touch or act like im full of ego, like im so full of my shit and theyd still accept me. because they know that thats just how i am. im not sugarcoated. 

But.. it still doesnt matter

What im saying is. I prefer sitting alone on my own. doing literally nothing. no phone. no laptop. no means of communication with the outside world OVER actually chatting with anyone. or even someone who knows me so well and is close to me. 

Ok man, i talk a lot! So yeah that’s the thing! but when we were together, i wouldve done anything to not miss a chance to talk to him lol - thats just an easy way to put it out there, that he was different. 

And also putting it out there how my life is right now. I prefer my own company. I dooooo badly wish i had a ‘partner’ though - an ‘eating partner’!!!!!! haha! I really wish i could go to restaurants with someone to try food randomly. But then. idk. i mean its not that easy to find someone who has the same love for food and aso someone whos willing to spend money to try food or someone whod be able to hang out with me. especially i dont even have any good friends in ksa right now Ugh

Another really important reason i dont like talking to people much is the commitment. I hate commitment!!!!!!! And when i say commitment i dont even mean something serious like being in some relationship. i mean.. even the smallest commitment. like when you even knock someone and the person expects you to reply fast. Like okay give me a break! We dint exchange vows or something, yth do i need to reply fast. or whyd you even expect me to reply fast like idk. do people just pause their lives and just talk to other people? bleh Im not even ready for that so yeah! 

buttttttttt then again - with him. it was SO different. but like i said. it was only him!!!!

Something cool was the fact that i had a dream of him the other day. we never met each other f2f after our last conversation, so him in my dream was the first time we met f2f which wasnt actual anyways!!! But!!! I was so full of attitude. Like I could totally see my facial expressions and go like. “Oh God Youuu” to myself! Im usually full of attitude in front of other guys, if i ever am, which is kinda rare. just saying! 

So i read his post about him going to bd and stuff, and i wont even lie about how i totally never like that. but then this time its different obviously. In many ways though. One way to look at it is how i just remembered about the time when he was in bd last year! ~~~ And the award for the roughest of all times goes to!!!! 

Now comes the part were I actually give the reason why I dont blog much! Well tbh i want to blog all the time. But then!!!! Who am i kidding???? Its obviously cause I want him to read my post and blabla so yeah I dont! I mean. I really want to, but i dont. The same way. Forget blogging man. I mean. In this generation, with all these advancements and i say, no barrier at all. If we could decide like two mature adults to stop talking for nothing but good intentions then i sure as hell can keep myself from blogging about every little thing, and keep my shit together, and only blog when my mind and my heart says that i got it in my hands and im not going to screw up! 

and so that would mean that anything i post about, is just a very little, incomplete detail of the entire story and i almost always will sugarcoat it a million times and put it up here! 

but like i said - every thing just ends with me realizing how in love i am with him and as long as that is how it ends, i like it. 

So “losing weight” is like the --aim of my life-- right now. Just that its so boring oh maa gawd - and so i end up watching suits. which is soooooo niiiceeeeee omgg. And i actually love the couple there. Mike & Rachel! - oh and also its kinda funny to me idk why but whenever i see any couple onscreen that i like, my inner me kinda teases me going like “sarah, you loser!!!!!” and then i look down from the screen for a second or two like an actual loser would doo and then yeah i just “laugh it away” - like silently! ~ No hard feelings!

umm.so yeah i was saying. The main thing is losing weight and i want to lose one kg a week WHICH I AM NOT BY THE WAY. so i kind of get sad from time to time and all, and then idk get ok with it, and then sad again and alll that. and then battling myself against food is there. Today though i kind of figured out that if i watch suits while on the treadmill ill kinda stay distracted, and it wont be boring anymore and ill be able to go somewhere i guess. 

so theres around 9 weeks left for uni to open and i wish vacation never ended but yeah lets just face reality. And about my brother, 6 weeks left.   So that means I wna lose around 9 kgs before uni reopens but its smart to kind of plan a bit more than you actually want so that if you dont totally achieve your goal youll still land somewhere good. if you know what i mean. 

Now there is a lot i want to say. SO muchh. But I cant be fooling myself. It would obviously be for him only. So Ill just hold everything back in!!!!!! 

But one thing I want the world to know

Everyone has their own problems and their own imperfection and perfections and whatever. But ever since I had my eyes on him, i knew he was different. infact that is exactly why i liked him in the first place. I dont wna go in depth with this but ill just say it in the simplest way I can. 

When I was with him, yes, I did pray for a fairytale story. But not an actual one. because those dont exist. I had my own modified version of a fairytale ending. And in their, everything was not perfect. Everyone was not perfect. there was pain, there were people who didnt know what they were worth. All I ever wanted is to be the person to be ale to mend hearts, to help someone find their way out from the sufferings, to be a part of someone happiness. And even though we are not together right now. I wish the same. I just wanted it to be through me before. Now it doesnt necessarily need to be, cause it definitely will be coming from Allah both ways inshaAllah. 

I pray he gets to see what I see in him. And what people see in him. And most importantly, what he sees in himself but fails to value at times. 

P.S. My family is excluded from consideration in this post. when i talk about people, i mean everyone else except my family.  --ALSOOOOO-- I just randomly sat down at 5am and decided to blog today and so i sat with my laptops and this is all what flowed outta me! 

A totally random post! 

BUT i do wna mention how the tumblr app on my phone s.u.c.k.s. Cant give notifications properly *&^&%&^$%&%*^(0

Bye c: 

[jo-the-schmo]

OMGG I CANT BELIEVE IT. I went away for sooooooo long because I went to a competition but then I got sick, so I didn't have time for Tumblr. Then now I came back and there is so much more stuff. THANK GOD YOU HAVE A MASTERLIST. I CANT WAIT TO READ IT ALL NOW

OMG CHILD IM SO HAPPY YOU'RE BACK! I'm excited to see what you think of what you've missed! Luckily I've only posted one other story since I made the masterlist so you basically have everything! :D