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kanmom51 · 11 months ago

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PJM2 is coming

MUSE

I literally cannot contain my excitiement.

Sitting her, at work may I say, putting these words on paper, so to speak, because f***ing hell, wtf JM?

Where to start?

The colour concepts? The choice of name? Choice of font (That JM popping to eye)? The flower? The links to TTU (notes sheet and flower)? The whole play with Closer than this? The dropped lyrics?

This man is a friggin genius (not that we didn't know this already)...

There is so much to talk about, and he hasn't even started with the promotions, and we haven't even seen the concept photos or the album and the songs. Name, colours, 2 lines of lyrics and we have our hands full already. They certainly know what they are doing.

Before I jump in, I want to, once again, state very loudly and clearly that everything written here are my opinions, which are based on what we've been handed so far, and could change the more we are shown.

So, let's get it...

JM fetching this from the purple locker (which we don't see are purple off the bat and only when the lights turn on). Notes for The Truth Untold.

His wittle thumb with his crescent moon.

The notes title : La lettra - The letter. Hmm... interesting.

And then this:

We have the flower:

and this that makes me believe that yes indeed, it is the silhouette of a Smeralso.

Some of this I am yet to see where is going. like the referencing of "the letter", The truth untold, the flower... (she says, all while thinking of the choice this Festa to stream LY Seoul final with said song and the changes that JM and JK chose to make to it)...

All that and more in one little short clip.

And then we have that little 'chat' opened up by BH, and those lyrics. Oh, those lyrics.

All references that indeed can be connected with army. I mean, that's what JM is king of.

All also a clear reference to a one Jeon Jungkook, if you are only willing to look and see.

Rain

Snow

Crying

We have this:

Which they have BOTH chose to bring up once again in 2023, JK happening to do so during JM's Face promos, not to mention the rain reference in SNTY (and of course, goes without saying Still with you, but that's back in 2020, while they have both managed to bring it up and reference it once again in 2023).

Remember this?

Oh, and what about this?

And then we have these:

Remember JM tearing up after winning MMA for BS&T ?

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JM getting emotional and crying only followed by JK tearing up.

*If you haven't seen this one yet, go watch the full live.

And who can forget JK during MOTS ONE as well, seeing JM crying, distress clearly showing on his face, just waiting for the moment he can go and comfort JM.

If these are actual lyrics for a song to come or lyrics that were dropped, one thing we know, and that these words, these lines, they were written by JM, and he made a clear choice to share them with us.

And in doing so, sorry, I'm still not believing this all while sitting here gushing and knowing this was coming (no, I didn't know this specifically was coming, but the feeling that they were going big or going home, that I've had ever since July 2023... took some time and many tribulations, but we are getting there folks). Sidetracked as I always am, lol.

Back on track.... in doing so, JM is basically standing on a rooftop screaming at the top of his lungs:

Not 1, not 2, but 3 JK references in that little shared piece of lyrics clearly written by JM, for an album we are yet to see and hear.

Anyone, and I mean anyone that is a BTS army, that has seen original content, that has followed their Twitter account or seen older tweets, that are open and willing to see it, will KNOW that these lyrics are JAYKAY!!!!!

And let me backtrack a second here...

Cause I did mention that these references could be understood as if they are made for army, right?

So yeah. Army references or JK references? I am going to say both, leaning very much to the JK side of it. Cause that's how they do it. Time after time after time.

Let's mention the colour choices as well.

We have the background colours.

We have the yellow.

And then we have the album concepts.

2 concepts.

Blooming

and Serenade.

Which happens to be Yellow, same colour threaded through Serendipity.

And we even have purple thrown in there too.

Notice how all the lockers are painted purple. The colour of army you may say, but also JK's colour (so again, army and JK?).

And he's pulling out the music sheet from this purple locker.

Those lockers representing his inspiration for his music perhaps?

Giving us these lyrics, then telling us the album is called Muse (or telling us the name of the album and it's meaning and then dropping those lyrics, take your pick regarding the timing, cause basically, same same), showing us the music being extracted from those purple lockers... ya think his muse is that entity he's talking about in those lyrics perhaps (even more so if we see the references as both for army and JK)?

Rhetorical question, btw.

And then we have the mint green.

Perhaps this is what JM was talking about when he told us in his birthday live, if memory serves me right, about going to the starting point, or more so starting from the beginning trying to figure out himself as an artist?

Also, cannot help but think of this image here:

I cannot wait to see his concept photos, and where this is all going.

We talked about JK being so loud during 2023 (well, he's had his super loud moments before that, but 2023 and his lives were smoking). And JM, well it felt (and I say felt, cause it's not really true, and I'll explain why) was quieter, more subdued, especially during JK's Golden promotions.

But here's the thing.

JM and JK have their own special oh so different ways of being loud and showing us themselves (and it shows even more so seeing that JK, for whatever reasons he had for it, did not write his songs for Golden - not saying he did not have influence on the lyrics or choice of songs with lyrics he wanted). JK did it through his choices in his photo shoots and styling for his songs and album. He did it with his lives and his total fanboying over JM. And JM, he does it through his art, which includes also but not only his lyrics.

Those two are both loud as fuck. And JM, well if these sneak lyrics are a promo of more to come (which, they probably are seeing that we have Face to fall back on as an example), then he's as loud as a frigging foghorn.

And last but not least, before I go:

Lookie here...

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#Jimin #BTS JM #JM #PJM2 #Jikook #Kookmin #Minkook #MUSE #JM MUSE #counting the days to 19 July 2024 #mark your calanders

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tamayula-hl · 1 year ago

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Plagiarism allegations currently levelled against me and evidence of my innocence

I'm sorry for posting so many times on this hard topic. But yesterday @freewld (https://www.tumblr.com/freewld) asked me, "You reversed, traced and plagiarised my drawing, didn't you?" I received a DM saying. After discussion, I was given permission to publish a verified image of me and her drawing by overlapping them. Below is her art, all of which I have permission to publish.

The picture on the left is my illustration that is allegedly being used in this case. And the picture on the right is the one she claims was plagiarised by me.

She says: " When my drawing is inverted, angled and overlapped, there are a number of places where the lines overlap. I believe you must have traced my drawing because there are too many places where the lines match for it to be a coincidence".

See the verified image she created by overlapping our drawings on her Twitter feed. (another)

To be fair, I also made a verification image and video.

When two pictures are overlapped with respect to the line of Seb's right eyelash.

When two pictures are superimposed on the basis of the lines on both cheeks of Seb.

I draw every time using the screenshots I have taken of Sebastian as a reference, and probably she does too. I would argue that if I draw a picture with reference to a 3D model of the same 'Sebastian Sallow' character, it is only natural that the two pictures should be similar. If one tries to express his individuality - the distance between his eyes and eyebrows, the length of his nose and philtrum - in a drawing, it is natural that some of the lines will overlap.

In the first place, to claim 'plagiarism by tracing', most of the lines need to match, but there are not many places where the lines of the two pictures overlap completely. It is my contention that this cannot be evidence of 'plagiarism by tracing'.

I believe I have proven my innocence to the world with these two superimposed verified images and videos.

However, @freewld is using Twitter's survey feature to solicit third-party impartial opinions on the allegations.

This is the current voting result.

Incredibly, the majority of votes went to 'I think Tamayula plagiarised'.

I think this voting system might not be fair because as you know, X(Twitter) allows a single user have multiple accounts and actually I currently have eight accounts on X(Twitter). Therefore, I wonder if it can work properly as the third-party impartial opinions because some users might vote this multiple times by using their own multiple accounts.

And I've only been back on Twitter for about a week and have only about 200 followers. In contrast, @freewld has been running her account for 10 months since March 2023 and has more than three times as many followers as me. It is a voting system that overwhelmingly favours her.

With such a voting system, there is no way she can prove that I have plagiarised. It remains to be seen what the outcome of this poll will be, but even if the result is more votes for 'I think Tamayula plagiarised', I will continue to maintain my innocence and I will not apologise to her.

Finally. I have tried to be as honest as possible over the past few days and have continued to assert my legitimacy in Japanese HL fandom, but it is no longer possible for me to deal with this matter any more. I feel ridiculous about everything now. I hope everyone can understand my disappointment a little.

Thank you so much for reading this long sentence so far. I am taking a short break for just a few moments.

#art #artists on tumblr #artist

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angelicbeaut · 9 months ago

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Manifesting An Ex Back (Success Story + Advice! Long Post!)

Recently, I have been trying to apply the law and really distance myself from social media and loa accounts. For me personally, it is a lot of information at once and can be quite overwhelming, although I still enjoy reposting content I find to be helpful to my fellow manifestors. It has done wonders for me to allow myself to watch the law work, and today, I would like to share with you some things that helped me achieve one of my latest achievements, manifesting my ex back after 1 year of no contact. I hope this can help others to continue to be motivated. If you are interested, please read onward!

So, let's start by laying out the guidelines of how I view manifesting:

1. time does not matter. It has no control over if you can manifest anything, and in my head, it does not exist. I simply am unaffected by it, I know that I will have what I want regardless.

2. You are manifesting self. You are not going to get something, this is not a grocery shopping trip to purchase something. You got all the ingredients that you need at home, right in your beautiful mind. Do you have self? Then you have everything you need. Now, take it a step further, are you the "self" that has your ex partner back in your life, or the "self" that doesn't?

3. Everything is you pushed out / There is NO separation. Everything you believe is pushed out into your reality. Do you believe your ex hates you? Then they hate you. Booyah! Do you believe your ex loves you? Then they love you. There is no separation between you and them, there is no separation between you and any of your desires. All you must do is match your thoughts to that desire, and you will have what you want.

4. Persistence is Key. I remember when I first started my journey here, and I hated hearing this. It was like nails on a chalkboard. How long do I have to persist? Why? For what? This is why I will continue to stress that time does not exist, if you hyperfocus on the time passing on this planet, you will never get it. Because your focus is on time, not on your desire. Know that it is done, and it will be.

5. How it happens is none of your business. Read that again. You should not be focused on how am I gonna get to, what am I gonna do, how's it gonna happen. Who cares, quite frankly. Do you want your desire or not? Then want the desire, stop wanting for the in-between, it will happen in means you cannot even imagine. I promise you. It will be so out of the blue you won't even see it coming (more on that later).

6. Dominant thoughts manifest / robotic affirming. I used to believe this was bull, I'll be real. I won't sit here and act like I've always been a robotic affirming girly. However, it's sort of like vaunting but it's just one phrase. Changing your mindset can change your life. It starts by changing your dominant thoughts about your desire, or even about manifesting itself. The easiest way for me has been any time I get a negative thought, I turn on a 20 minute timer and I think or say my desire. It's like disciple. Whenever your teacher saw you disrupting class and they had you continuously write the same thing on the board, that was affirming. We were just too young to realize. Of course it sucks, but it taught us that we didn't want to end up in that position again. I robotically affirm because I don't wanna end up in a reality where I don't have what I want, it teaches me to keep my thoughts on my desire. It also dulls out the negative thoughts from rising, such as the continuous writing on the board dulls the child's want to continue the bad behavior.

My ex and I had officially stopped talking in Auguest of 2023. It was abrupt and feuled by arguments. We were both fed up with our own lives and we could no longer take care of each other. We ended on bad terms and I was in full belief he would never speak to me again and I wouldn't speak to him. I believed he hated me for a good while. But, in manifesting we have have to understand that nothing, and I mean NOTHING is set in stone. All we have is present and even that is ever changing. A simple change in perspective can open millions of possibilities.

Now, On to the Success Story Darling.

The first thing I did was process my anger. I hated him. The version of him that I was manifesting sucked, and I gave myself full right to feel that. You have the right to be angry and frustrated, emotions flow, so let them. Do not hold them, or you hold your state of being and solidify your reality for yourself. You are in complete control of everything, so process what you got going on before you do ANYTHING.

Second, I need you to have a funeral. I need you to kill the version of them that you created. Metaphorically, anyway. Let them pass away, forgive them, let them die from your reality. As a very emotional person who often feels like my emotions are very big and overwhelm me, I now use them to my benefit. I was crying like he had really gone away. Then I decided that a new him, the version of him that had learned from his mistakes, that had taken time to work on himself, the one that loves me, rose in his place.

I decided that I was open to meeting this new him, that I would meet him. That my experience would be completely different, that I would be refreshed. Every time I thought of him or had doubts, I would robotically affirm or sometimes even just tell myself, it is done. My main focus outside of this was changing myself, I changed what my definition of love was, I changed the way I loved myself, I changed the way I thought about myself, I continued to live my life. There is nothing to do, just be.

Before I knew it, Christmas was passing, and so was his birthday, it was the new year and then it was college graduation, and then it was summer. So much time had passed and I wasn't even thinking about it anymore. Of course the sneaking doubts would come but I would know it was done. If I didn't, I would say it was until I felt satisfied in my knowing.

Now, Let's get into how this started showing up in my reality and the final success. :)

1. Hearing his favorite songs/or songs we used to listen to

2. Discovering old music I listened to when I was with him. Like it would randomly show up in my playlist.

3. Dreams. Oh my god he was in my dreams, I was waking up like what is going on.

Remember that these are not your desire, they are manifestations of your ever-solidifying belief (imo) Do not accept it as the end until you get what you want.

The Success

Yesterday afternoon, I was scrolling on my phone, I wasn't thinking of anything really I was just enjoying making lists on Amazon (it's my thing, it's an addiction), and I saw a notification on cash app. I was thinking, oh did my mom send me money? Period! TELL ME WHY I OPEN MY PHONE TO SEE IT IS MY EX SAYING HE NEEDS TO REACH ME. I sat in a feeling of a full circle moment, and at that moment it all clicked. I had persisted. At this point I believed he was coming back and he did. Neither of us have much social media, I had changed my number, I had blocked him on most apps and so did he. I DID NOT EXPECT IT, I DID NOT KNOW THE MEANS AND YET IT HAPPENED. I send him my number and before I know it we are on the phone, he is repeating everything I said to myself, everything I wanted to hear. Even if I could not see the movement, it was always there.

He told me he had never stopped thinking about me, that he had cleaned himself up mentally and had started practicing meditation (again, didn't see that coming, he was not the type) and that he was sorry for everything. He said I was on his mind 24/7, the entire time I was affirming (no separation) he was feeling and thinking the same thing. He had tried finding any possible way to reach me, he was dreaming about me none stop. He prioritized his mental health, he focused on getting better, he became a better person, even though he admits that he is working tirelessly to become his best self for himself.

He said he wanted to see me, and now we are going on a vacation in the next comign months and he is taking me on a vacation to Disneyland on my birthday. Flights, hotels, excursions? Booked. He took out his laptop and immediately booked everything, literally. And we stayed on the phone all night until we got tired, and I just had to write this.

Please persist. Please keep trying. Please don't give up, you are so powerful, even when it seems like nothing is happening, something always is. Check your negative beliefs at the door, and get what you want. And if someone tells you that you can't manifest your ex or you shouldn't, I want you to remember who the god of your reality is. That's you right? Period! So go manifest!

Luv yall sm ♡

Che☆

#law of assumption #manifesting #neville goddard #self concept #manifestation #4d reality #revision law of assumption #loassumption #law of manifestation #loa tumblr

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the-other-art-blog · 9 months ago

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I had been debating about posting this or not, but I'm going to because this fandom is getting on my nerves even worse than in the last 2 years.

And just to be clear before anyone accuses me of anything, I invite you to spend one minute on my blog. My favorite book is AOFAG. Even when I am highly HIGHLY critical of Benedict for being an absolute jerk for about 70% of the story, Sophie Beckett is the greatest character that Julia has ever written. She's everything that's good in the world 🥹 and her strength saves this story. Benedict has awesome moments and he apologizes in the end, which is rare in JQ's books, so, he has that on his favor + an incredible love confession that Luke T will absolutely nail (I still think JQ cannot write class-difference stories but whatever) Show!Ben is everything book!Sophie deserves and is going to make the adaptation so much better. I can't wait to see that.

I need Sophie in my life.

I've also written many stories about benophie and posted a lot of love for them for the past 2 years.

And you know what I have also seen in those 2 years? Benophie stans being vile, aggressive, rude, and simply put, absolute bitches. They claim to stan Sophie because of how kind she was despite her circumstances but when the news of s3 came out, they turned into full-time haters.

Now that the antipolin blog published something about the actors they like (they even lied about Claudia Jessie!), NOW they are cutting ties with that account and publishing what seems like "PR statements" (loved how a fan called this on tw) saying that the admin of that blog does not represent them. TOO LITTLE, TOO LATE. AND FALSE. Forgive me for not believing you but that blog repeated the same lies you were all saying.

A few months ago, an account on tw posted something like "I have never seen a Benophie being hateful or attacking Polin." Obviously, Polins began replying with ss of the anti blog and other crazy stans. And I didn't see any big account of Benophie come out and admit that that was wrong or cut ties with those problematic people.

For 2 years,

You called Nic an alcoholic and lazy when she posted about Champagne Fridays.

You called Luke Newton ugly every chance you got.

You cut him out of promotional photos and bts or you put something on his face, even when the photos were shared BY HIM. You use HIS photos where Luke T appeared to throw hate at him.

You made tasteless and aggressive comments about the actors and Polin for 2 years, and whenever someone called you out for that, you claimed it to be a joke and that we lacked humor. It even happened on Benophie week 2023 by the account that organizes it!

You claimed that Nic had access to the writers' room, force s3 to be hers, and purposely took SA's screen time and promo opportunities. Nic had to come out and ask all of you to stop sending hate. The unfairness of promo/screen time for Kanthony was not something Nic or Luke did, blame production for that.

You say her activism is performative cause it would kill you to admit that she's doing something good that other actors have ignored so far.

There was not one single post made by the Bton accounts or JQ that did not contain hate toward the actors/ship on the comments, even today that Benophie season is confirmed.

Even a few months ago, I published a few posts about s3. They were positive posts about Pen's makeover and how important it was for me, and this is the kind of messages I got:

Was it from a Benophie? I don't know, but it wouldn't surprise me. Also, this is the only one I ss, but I got at least 4 of them after this post (x).

Those very people who are crying right now that Benophies is being associated with the anti polin bitch were spreading the same rumors that she mentioned. And they never showed remorse!

Don't come now and say it's just ONE antipolin blog that spread all the hate. She's not talking to herself either, those anons are real because her posts have likes, so she definitely has an audience. I've met them. Unfortunately, every group chat or discord channel about Benophie is not a safe place for anyone who enjoys Polin.

And yes, I know there are equally disgusting people on the Polin fandom that I have also blocked cause they keep attacking Marina, they claim Pen is a saint when she made big mistakes, and they have also spread rumors and insulted fans and actors like Simone Ashley and Ruby Barker, not to mention the people who are obsessed with LukexNic and attack his gf. Like seriously people, you all need to be institutionalized. There is a big HUGE problem in that fandom too, but right now certain benophies are acting all innocent when I have been here also for 2 years witnessing their hate. No! I can't.

I also can't stand that most of them are loving Cressida because the patriarchy forced her to be an absolute bitch. But Pen is the antiChrist.

Some of them even justify Richard's neglect and abuse. "Richard couldn't leave Sophie with anyone else," "Richard truly loved Sophie." Seriously people.

I know most of them will ignore my post, block me even or come to my inbox to insult me. And I don't care. I haven't seen any other person admitting how hypocritical they are being.

If this offends you, I will assume you participated in the 2-year tantrum against Polin.

That's it. End of rant.

Sorry to be so negative but this really pissed me off. That statement! The nerve!!!! Ok ok, now I'm done.

Next, I will post much more positive, lovely Benophie stuff. These people are not going to ruin Benophie season for me.

#bridgerton #benophie #polin #how is it that the kindest character in the show somehow has this fans?#sophie would see right through you #so does Benedict #they both hated bullies

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ginger-snap-talkin-nonsense · 10 months ago

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Thank you for answering sincerely. However, one obstacle with the idea that Biden (assuming he continues to support israel) could be tried under the current system in place is that the Hague Invasion Act and the recent Trump v. United States ruling by the Supreme Court makes it functionally impossible to put Biden on trial for any official acts as president.

As such, while it is good that you acknowledge Biden for the war criminal he is, there needs to be a more feasible, reasonably urgent plan given the ongoing genocide.

There were 6 million Jewish people who could not afford to wait until The Shoah ended. They were slaughtered despite their heroic resistance to fascism as the war waged on. The same applies to those in Palestine, Sudan, and Haiti today.

Did you mean to suggest that leftists who support Palestine would organize and mobilize a grass-roots campaign to remove Biden from office (to be replaced with a more progressive successor [i.e., not a Repuclican]) if he still supports israel post-election? I specify grass-roots action since since neither the ICC nor the Supreme Court can hold Biden accountable based on the legal landscape in place. I do not want to take your words out of context.

The PLO and Hamas have not said that Biden is better than Trump (and that is not them defending Trump). On October 17, 2023, the PFLP referred to Biden as, "the [current] main driver of the war of genocide against our steadfast people in the Gaza Strip." At this rate, the current status quo under Biden alone will result in extermination in Palestine and beyond.

You asked me what I believed should happen. I cannot invent a plan to actively combat genocide as I am a 24 year old in the Midwest with an art degree. You’re only sending this because I said inaction in November is just as bad as voting for Trump, which is true. As much as I care about Palestine and advocate for their freedom from Israel at all costs, the outcome of this election will fundamentally change nothing for them as both sides have made their positions very clear. Things do not get better for them with your inaction. You’ll just have the smug sense of superiority about not having voted for Biden. As a voter I have to look at all policies and potential consequences, both in the country and out of the country.

Sometimes having to do the most right is still a shitty thing that makes you feel bad at the end.

Free Palestine and also fucking vote if you have the ability to do so.

There is no win here and that sucks. I said ideal world for a reason. Because the guys trump put in the Supreme Court just fucked us maybe forever and both candidates are gleefully committing genocide and spent the last debate arguing about fucking golf. This sucks. There is no out. There is only minimal damage control but fuck me if I’m not gonna use the minuscule power I have to try to mitigate some damage somewhere.

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taekooktimeline · 1 year ago

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December 7, 2023 -

I was considering whether or not to address the rumors about Tae and Jennie. Although I do not want to dwell on it, I am sharing Tae's recent Instagram story here because it clarifies his stance on these rumors along with some additional notes. We have known from the beginning that it was a media stunt. The latest evidence supporting this claim is that Blackpink has renewed their contracts with YG, and suddenly articles claim that Tae and Jennie have broken up. The timing of this is very suspicious and cannot be a coincidence, especially since their names were linked together previously during a time that coincided with a BP occurrence, such as comeback announcements. This latest "announcement" has sparked another round of arguments between the fandoms. Blackpink supporters have commented on social media that Jennie has more followers than Tae, which caused ARMY to point out that Yeontan, Tae's charming dog, has more likes. This side-by-side post was used as part of ARMY's argument.

It's worth noting that BTS keep an eye on Twitter, and it seems Tae is no exception. He recently shared the same photo of Tannie on his Instagram stories, which he had originally posted on December 6, 2021. The fact that he chose to reuse the same photo, especially after the side-by-side comparison two years later on December 6, 2023, suggests he was being intentionally provocative.

It is important to note that Tae has had to address rumors about his personal life in the past. There have been claims that he was in Jeju with Jennie, supported by edited photos by Gurumi. However, Tae himself has debunked these rumors and clarified that he was actually with friends - Joo Hyungjin and Kang Dongwon - during that time. He mentioned this during an appearance on Kim Eana's Starry Night show on MBC Radio. Although Hyoshin was supposed to join them as well, his schedule conflicted. So, it seems that the rumors were unfounded and that Tae was simply enjoying a trip to Jeju with some close friends.

On July 4, 2023, a rumor circulated that Tae and Jennie would be leaving ICN airport together. However, Tae went live in his car to show that he was alone and even mentioned that he had come just to show his face.

Dispatch also noted they exited separately -

Live - https://weverse.io/bts/live/3-123725940

Tae also blocked Taennie accounts off his IG, and you can see a short of that at the below link. I saw this play out in real time and can confirm it did happen - https://youtube.com/shorts/OUWpQ-CliN4?si=BD7DOPArCc1OYTH-

Full thread of four instances Tae debunked the rumors -

https://x.com/nonakv99/status/1732427496153333867?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

Around the times the rumors started, he posted this two year old photo from MOTS era 2020, a clear indicator he was tied from speaking his truth -

He also wore this statement making shirt in the airport -

I strongly believe that Tae has made every effort to dispel these rumors. However, it's likely that his contract prevents him from speaking his truth at this time. He has consistently shown that he wants no involvement in the rumors or any connection to them.

#taekook #taekooktimeline #2023 #rumors #debunking #Yeontan is adorable

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bzhitstruth · 2 years ago

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A little about the types of "candy"

I apologize in advance for my English - this is not my native language, I do not speak well (and maybe sometimes I speak like Master Yoda).

Recently, there has been a wave of outrage among the turtles on Tumblr, because from time to time there are malicious anti-accounts that try to devalue our fandom and “wash” candies. This pissed me off and I decided to write a post.

But now this is not about these accounts.

I want to organize (mostly for myself) candies and arguments that we all love so much and look for in every GGDD action.

I am of the opinion that many of the candies are probably really wrong, but this is very individual, and if many people are happy with candies that seem unconvincing to me, they have every right to be. I also have candies that I strongly believe in and, in my opinion, they can not be "washed".

Maybe my "organization" will help someone better understand and also determine for themselves what kind of candy are more reliable, and which ones can be "washed" over time (and are really unintentional).

And one more thing: all these my fabrications are completely fantasy and fake, I just talk about all sorts of nonsense, in reality this nothing doesn't exist! 🤡🤡🤡

There are a lot of materials in Yizhan's world, I will give only a few examples. You don't have to agree with me at all. Everyone has their favorite “candies”, if you are so interested of GG and DD that you want to follow their life and work, then on this way you will find many exciting and intriguing details that you personally will like.

1. "Numeric candy" in social networks — kadian

I like kadian very much. I won’t talk about what it means and how to use it, many already know, and who doesn’t know, there are many materials on this topic, for example, there is good post of @rainbowsky.

Before, when I first became a turtle, I counted everything that was published by GGDD, but over time I realized that this is not worth doing. It is unlikely that DD, GG or their teams bother counting the date and time numbers in each post. It's just absurd and no one busy person would do that. But I think they make sure the numbers look neutral and won't post every day 28 or 23 knowing full well what it mean.

On the other hand, I believe that the direct kadian (for example, the time 18:33 or 23:38) wasn't made by chance.

Sometimes I believe in kadian with counting numbers (for example, 1+8+5+9 = 23), and I have reasons for this - sometimes they both publish such kadian (for example, 28 and 23) on the same day, and that reduces the likelihood of coincidence.

If someone is trying to "wash" kadian, then his argument can be only one thing - "this is an accident." It is impossible to prove intentionality or unintentionality of numbers. In this case, you'd better just decide for yourself whether you believe it's an accidentally or not. Look at the type of post with kadian (it is most less likely in advertising and it absents in posts on social and political topics), what circumstances preceded it and what happened after it. And if you understand for yourself that in this case it is quite appropriate, then no "washing" is valid here - kadian, by definition, cannot be "washed", it's just a matter of probability and faith.

I will give a little example, when the kadian in the ad looked suspicious, and I am inclined to believe in it - this is the time of the publication of GG's advertisement at 10:18 on March 26, 2023. Yes, this is just an advertisement that GG constantly publishes in the morning. But firstly, the timestamp :18 is completely atypical for him, secondly, he knows perfectly well what it means and what kind of reaction may follow, and thirdly, the accompanying circumstances. This post appeared on the morning after the ambiguous Weibo Night, they were in the same city, and in the morning GG was leaving, and bad rumors and gossip spread immediately after the event. I personally believe in this kadian, because for me the circumstances are convincing, but in each specific case, everyone decides for himself.

This category also includes GG's posts of 18 (actually 33) or 12 (actually 28) photos with which he periodically pleases us, 18 photos, including 8 “movie tickets” from GG. It is impossible to prove whether this is a coincidence or not. Look at the likelihood and yourself decide. I believe in this kadian.

2. "Numeric candy" (kadian) that GG and DD demonstrate personally

These are the hands and numbers on watches, the numbers on the sleeves, above the head, spoken verbally personally by GG and DD etc.

I noticed this most often with DD: the numbers 31 and 5 on DD's jacket before GG's birthday, 21:33 on the clock above DD's head in Los Angeles, 32-33 on DD's sleeve on June 21, “2nd row 30th place, 3rd row 20th place” at a fan meeting in Qingdao, and the like.

As for the GG, he has an episode in the vlog on February 7, when someone stops the radio dial at numbers 8 and 3. Although GG himself is not in the frame at that time, this is still his vlog, and it seemed remarkable to me. GG makes it more elegant and not so obvious (the picture can be enlarged).

Can it be "washed"? Some of this, of course, can be controversial and it can be explained as coincidence. For example, a clock display in LA could show a random time. Or DD not chosen the clothes with numbers by himself, but the brand insisted on this (I believe that this is DD's choice).

But how do you "wash" what DD said personally twice at the fan meeting if he and the whole world know perfectly well what those numbers are? If the anti's claim that he "disapproves bjyx" were true, then this just could never happen.

And Y.-Off. posted on Instagram that photo from LA with 21:33, and in fact they could easily not have done this, but they did.

3. Specific things that are pretty obvious

One example of such things is the glowing BJYX sign posted on Weibo by DD's team on October 29, from the final of SDC5. This photo was placed in the very center, and the light sign could be easily cut off or simply erased, and a million photos were taken at the final, but this was chosen. Try to explain why the person who allegedly "disapproves bjyx" did this. This is the very reliable and loud candy.

The same category includes DD's “sneakers and ice cream”, “give the scorpions to WB” (GG's food vlog in Qindao), UGG shoes in GG's vlog June, 7, the text “heart with a mole” in DD's Weibo post on April 26, 2023, and the like.

Something can be "washed", for example famous GG's "rainbow" umbrella, which many considered as such for a couple of years, turned out to be black, we had seen this in his recent July vlog.

You can try to “wash” UGG, refer to the fact that DD was not yet a brand spokesperson when the vlog was filmed. But going back to the previous point - GG KNOWS who the brand ambassador is now, he KNOWS how it will be perceived, other things in the room are blurred and hidden but shoes are on display. It is unlikely that he and his studio did this publication in a state of clouding of mind.

4. Very subjective things that are perceived emotionally and awaken the imagination

These are meaningful words in the songs, the “wedding” outfit on Weibo Night, mention of lychee and camping, a certain arrangement of photos, GG's photo with the dog, DD's T-shirt with the dog. Where DD looked and how smiled, how GG greeted DD's colleague in a special way, images and allegories that GG shows in vlogs and uses in interviews. Jaw and finger DDGG (which pops up again and again and haunts turtles! I'm agnostic about this "candy"). GG's drawings, DD's dances, "I'm out of the habit of spicy food", voices of GG and DD behind the scenes, birthday greetings to DD, sunset, moon and so on.

And our favorite bone necklace also falls into this category, because no one knows exactly where it comes from and what it really means for DD. We can only believe or not believe.

This is the most vulnerable category due to its extreme subjectivity. This is purely a matter of faith and individual perception.

Sometimes such candy are "washed" by GG or DD themselves. If you remember, in November 2022 GG posted several photos, and among them one with incomprehensible blurry red-blue stripes. Many have decided that this is blurred photo of Lego "Titanic", which GG bought for DD. But in the December vlog, GG showed that those were streetlights that he filmed from the car. He sometimes advises us to hold our horses.

I really love things of this kind, I like to look for strokes in the drawings and peer into the photos of GG, guess what this or that emotion can mean, and what DD wanted to say with his dance. GG especially likes to make such riddles, his vlogs are special works of art, I always really look forward to them and find a lot of secrets in them.

It is very difficult to confirm these things. It is unlikely that GG will ever come forward and say what he really meant by drawing two boys on the beach … But I hope at least a small part of this will someday be clearer. Let it be so.

5. Timing of actions

After a long silence on social networks, the posts of both appear one after another. Or after a suspicious period of time - for example, after 13 or 85 minutes, or after 3 hours and 28 minutes. Same posts style. Simultaneous arrival in Beijing after the Hong Kong concert, supposedly from different cities. IP addresses from the same location. The gestures that DD made at the "water show" on July 10, GG shows us the next day in his vlog.

The simultaneous disappearance of both from the field of vision (August 4, 2023), GG being late for work during the DD's illness. This can be “washed” if you prove, for example, that there were definitely other reasons for being late or absence.

An example of such "washed candy" - many thought that GGDD were together on DD's birthday in 2022, but later it turned out that this wasn't.

6. Clothes

I put this in the separate category, because this section is quite large. These are fun candies that many turtles love (myself included). We've already lost count of the same brands that GG and DD wear. It is difficult to "wash" such candy, because that they both wore We11done, Alexander McQueen or Maison Kitsune is a fact. This is observed very often, and sometimes things of the same brand appear after a short period of time.

If I'm not mistaken, once was counted about a hundred matches in GGDD clothes (now there are probably more), and it was noticed that DD's employees used things those brands are represented by GG and on the contrary.

7. Acquaintances, colleagues and friends

These are a few people who sometimes hint to us that they know something. This is “Uncle Lan”, other CQL colleagues, DDU brothers, songwriter and her comics, colleagues from the industry, I won’t tell names, they are known among the turtles.

Sometimes their hints are quite transparent, and we are always happy to see that GG and DD are supported by other people in their circle.

To refute it is the same as to assert that all these people have conspired and are fooling us for some reason for years. Agree that this is absurd!

In addition to all this, beyond any categories, we have BTS of CQL, Rumor Houses and BottledJoy. There's been a real circus going on with BottledJoy lately, so it will be very interesting to see where this all leads, and it's a very funny to watch them performances.

Perhaps I forgot something important and didn't mention some categories, because there are too many materials regarding Yizhan. And this is great, because even if a few candies are "washed off", we will not lose anything, we always have many others!

And no antis can cope so much evidence that we believe in and that tells (and sometimes just screams) to us, that BJYXSZD💚❤️.

#bjyxszd #yizhan #cpn #bjyx #just imagination #GGDD my love #yizhan forever

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I spent a long time figuring out what to write here—if anything at all. This was originally much longer than what I have posted here (finishing a doctoral dissertation in literature and literary theory will do that to you), and I have not especially taken care to smooth out what was cut, so I hope whoever comes across this will forgive its clunkier moments. This is still far too long, but I believe I have cut as much as I can—especially given how long it has been since I posted anything. I had planned to finish this in the week after the final party but reflecting on my thoughts related to the show has taken longer than anticipated.

This platform long ago ceased to be the vibrant place of fan discussion that it once was, and a quick perusal will reveal that many beloved accounts and some gorgeously written posts have unfortunately been deleted altogether. Undoubtedly some will continue to post occasional updates, and surely new fans who discover the production that is coming to Seoul this year will come across what is left here. The newer fans of the NYC production are on Discord, but I have heard that the moderators intend to delete that in the not-too-distant future. The fact remains that we are no longer in the golden age of Tumblr from 2010-2014, and since the decision to remove porn from this site, it has largely fallen from its former glory with little likelihood of making a comeback. We can never go back—that much is certain.

Since the show reopened post-Covid, I saw the show two times in March and April of 2023. I cannot give a detailed account of what I saw other than, incomprehensibly, Jordan Morley’s Boy Witch. To say that in 2023 I saw a long-departed original cast member from that early era so brilliantly captured by @scorchedthesnake is still something that feels insane. I believe Nate Carter was Macbeth on one occasion, Jordan was Taxidermist, Evik Abbot Main was the Porter, and perhaps some other things that I now feel guilty for not remembering. The Covid years and my late twenties largely deprioritized the significance of Sleep No More for me—a significance that I am only now beginning to put in better equilibrium with the rest of my life—and this has taken its toll on my memory after a certain number of visits. I have been reading through all messages with friends, and I am astounded by how much I have forgotten, be it about things I saw in the hotel, interpersonal fandom drama, or rumors about the Hotel. In so many ways, Covid destroyed us, and the ever-increasing feeling that we are sinking into an abyss of humanity has impeded us from putting ourselves back together. In this regard, I must commend the folks responsible for the Lost Immersive project and doing what they can to take care of people who have given us so much over the years. Covid is not the only culprit here. Increasing ticket prices, a decrease in free Follies and Salon performances, business practices that seem intent on alienating the most loyal customers, and a certain number of cast changes all deplete one’s engagement.

This is not to imply anything negative about newer cast members (although whoever had the beard + manbun fetish needed to chill the fuck out). But maintaining one’s enthusiasm for the show does require a certain energy commitment, and after several years of excitement, devotion, and quite frankly some hysteria, other needs and commitments begin to manifest. Inevitably, Sleep No More, Punchdrunk, and adjacent productions go on the backburner. When @scorchedthesnake stopped updating his cast list (several months after I had started going regularly), there were fewer than 100 former and present cast members. By my own count, @readwithjoy’s final cast list counts almost 250. While at one point we loved comparing the details of different performances, this reaches the point of infeasibility. Comparing 3-6 performers in a role is great fun. 10-20 is not unreasonable for the enthusiast, but clearly reflects a longterm relationship with the place. Attempting to compare 40 different Boy Witches or 72 different performers for the Matron is beyond ridiculous.

I have been distant for awhile; turning 30 in 2023 was an immense amount of emotional work and was followed shortly after by the original announcement of the show’s closing. I was not in New York at the time but was at peace with not seeing it again. Then it was pushed back. Then again. And again. And again. Circumstances continued to prevent me from making it back, but as other people have expressed, the changing dates began to burn a lot of good will. I was not at the final show, but the thought that it is actually gone is something that was incomprehensible most of the week after. I was not exactly itching to follow anyone again. Like many people I know who did attend, the highlight would have been walking through the building and absorbing the space one more time. Had I gone in July or August when it was possible to see Mallory in Manderley, Bruder as Porter, and Elizabeth as Hecate on the same night, there would be no way that I would let myself return after such a night.

The fact that it will just be gone—Manderley, the Porter’s lobby, the Macduff apartments (I spent relatively little time in there, and it was just last night that I remembered how fucking eerie the lighting in there was), High Street, Hecate’s lair, the entirety of the fifth floor…We’re not just talking about a set on a stage that could be stored somewhere in case of a revival. We’re talking about an entire goddamn building, the meticulousness with which documents were crafted, sets constructed…I cannot help but think it feels criminal that an actual place will just be…gone. The perpetual hum that permeates the building beneath the entire soundtrack vibrates with the energy of the place. So much has happened there, and there is so much power in that space that I cannot help but think that some nonhuman entity will be pissed the fuck off at any attempt to tear the place down.

But let me recount what this show was for me. My generation of fans carries a certain significance in the history of the Sleep No More: we were the first ones whose experience of the show was completely divorced from Careena Melia, a name mentioned with decreasing frequency over the years, but one that we regularly heard in our early months. While we never saw Careena, the name couldn’t help but hover in the background; Tumblr posts recounting people’s experience of finding Hecate’s ring (which could only be found on nights when Careena was playing the role) were under a year old and easily searchable. Indeed, the ring quest, which Careena herself talks publicly about here, had been a defining attribute of many of the narrative-form recaps that had come to define the Tumblr tag in those days.

Nonetheless, despite some slower months after many cast members left for The Drowned Man in late 2013-early 2014 (only to return by fall of 2014), we were fortunate enough to experience some of the strongest performances in the show’s run: we got to witness much of the brilliance that defined late 2011 to late 2013 while also enjoying new developments: Mallory Gracenin’s Evelyn Grey was in the bar far more often than Violet, and Nick Atkinson welcomed us to Manderley every night like few others, while Zach Martens' Julian was a notorious flirt. Elizabeth Romanski, Zhauna Franks and Tara Franklin were our beloved Hecates. Tony Bordonaro had retired Banquo to become a defining Boy Witch for many, while Emeri Fetzer and Emily Oldak owned Sexy Witch like few others. Austin Goodwin had taken on the Porter, and Evik Abbot-Main became a canonical Banquo in addition to their Taxidermist, Macbeth, and later Porter. Nick Bruder and Troy Ogilvie were a fantastic pairing as the Macbeths, and Ryan Van Compernolle was an undeniable presence as Bald Witch, Agnes, and several other roles. Adding to Phil Atkins’s remarkable tenure as Duncan, Ed Stanley and others took on the role. Paul Zivkovich’s Macbeth (often paired with the incomparable Emily Tundrup) and Porter need no explanation, and how lucky we were to often experience Paul’s Porter with Austin’s Boy Witch on the same night. At both the Heath and in Manderley, we often found the Lindsays—played by Virginia Logan and Paul Corning. Megh Dixon’s Aoibhin and Matron are much missed, and the impact that Ava Lee Scott as Annabella had on so many people cannot be adequately described here.

Conor Doyle could be seen as Boy Witch for the period of my most frequent attendance—and much more rarely as the Porter; Austin eventually returned to a regular schedule of Boy Witch; Luke Murphy’s Macbeth and Macduff (I will never forget my reaction to seeing him jump from the Ballroom to the Mezzanine) were legendary, a role inherited by Zach McNally; Leslie Kraus’s Sexy Witch and Lady Macbeth; Marla Phelan’s absolutely feral Sexy Witch, Lily Ockwell and Chelsea Bonosky returned across a wide gamut of roles. Gino Grenek was a beloved Fulton, as was John William Watkins across the 4th floor. Ida Saki appeared on the scene as an immediate powerhouse, and Stephanie Crousillat was an oft-praised actually-bald Bald Witch. Across the ranks of Lady Macduff, we experienced Kristin Clotfelter, Isadora Wolfe, Sarah Stanley, and Annie Rigney. After some time away during our early days, William Popp “popped” up again, and we were blessed with 2 separate returns of Will Seefried’s legendary Porter and later Malcolm and Man in Bar (the last two being things I personally never witnessed—the one downside of spending the summer of 2015 in Paris). An obvious high point was that we saw, impossible to believe but exactly 10 years ago this year: Mallory was not just in the bar or in the hut but took on Agnes and Hecate—the latter being an obvious result of the fandom’s collection powers of manifestation. Ginger Kearns and Onalea Gilbertson were fantastic additions to Manderley and indispensable to the success of the Follies. In 2016 and 2017, which by then had seen at least 2 or 3 new generations of fans after my own depending on how you demarcate these things, we saw the arrival of several new performers who excelled in numerous roles: among others whom I did not experience as much: Tyler Phillips, Parker Murphy, and Nate Carter. They generated an enthusiasm from longtime fans that hadn’t been seen from them for quite awhile. I believe that some even increased their time in the Hotel as a result.

This list is by no means comprehensive, and many will raise eyebrows at their own favorites I have failed to mention, but this overview captures the essence I feel of late 2013 to early 2016 when my friends were going most frequently; our early performances when we were becoming acquainted with the hotel were not necessarily with the fan favorites of late 2011-2013, but those who had left eventually came around again. Indeed, if you were to compare the dream casts of the very few earlier generations at that time with our own, you would find an astonishing amount of overlap—as well as substantial and enduring proof that the original cast is definitely not all there is.

Among other developments, the Lodge and the McKittrick Follies—originally held on Sunday nights—were a fantastic way of maintaining a connection to the place without necessarily going to the show. This came, however, with a change in the calendar: at some point, the classic 11:00 pm to 2:00 am late shows disappeared, and we saw the arrival of Sunday matinées. While many fans took to these performances, in general I preferred my weekday shows and late shows. This did come with a drawback, as I always heard of interesting things happening on Friday early shows, which most of us had come to avoid because of the cost and larger audiences (Unless, of course, we were doing a double). The Lodge was simply magical:

We’d have long conversations in the back bedroom…and just sit there for hours chatting about everything related to the place…We were so very much in love with it…

We also had our own new excitement and heartbreak: the introduction and relatively quick elimination of two new characters: the Reverend and Caroline, the former played often by Louis Butelli and Nick Dillenburg (both of whom also played the Porter), the latter role played by, among others, Virginia Logan and Rebecca Robertson. This did not last long as a result of the blatant fire code issue posed by some of the spaces. Management was not kind to these developments. While leaving the Follies one Sunday night, we saw the igloo—broken apart and unceremoniously thrown into the dumpster. This was unfortunate, as it opened up many cans of worms relating to the narrative’s backstory. If I recall correctly, the Reverend operated outside of the loop structure to some degree: and I had even considered spending a whole visit up there with a pencil and small notepad just jotting down everything about the newly-developed story from the various documents and recordings that would play up there.

Looking back, I think of all the things I feel like I didn’t do often enough: memorizing the details of the Porter’s office or God…Hecate’s lair and apothecary; sifting through documents; not enough loops with Bald Witch, Lady Macbeth, or Fulton; not enough time at Gallow Green or enough truffle fries at the Heath. I cannot for the life of me remember the dialogue of the Reverend or Caroline’s 1:1’s, so if your memory is better than mine, my DMs are open, and I would be incredibly thankful for any and all details of these moments that left us far too soon. A last show for me would have been a collection greatest hits: walking through the space, the ballroom party, the Macbeths’ bedroom duet, Boy Witch’s cabaret, the phone booths, the rave, interrogation, the Porter’s “Moonlight Becomes You,” Duncan and Danvers’ duet, Agnes’ encounter with Hecate. I can only speak for myself, but unless a familiar face were embodying a role (or something akin to @caoine’s luck of seeing Conor Doyle as Hecate), I don’t think I would be able to muster a full loop with one performer. Instead, the show would be what it was on those first couple visits: before we could identify actors, before we could recognize the small differences in their interpretations, or before we could thank them by name when they walked us out.

Strangely, I cannot recall as easily some of the more seemingly memorable things I experienced in the Hotel or on Tumblr, but others moments in the show—the less intense moments in the Porter’s loop, time spent by Taxi or Fulton in their offices, Duncan’s shaving scene, some of Lady Macbeth’s solos—that I hardly followed or paid little attention to at the time, have unexpectedly come back to me. It is strange to think, but a part of me longs for a show with all those characters that held very little interest for me, as I saw them only in contrast to the most visceral moments in the show with Mallory’s Matron, Nick Bruder’s Macbeth, Elizabeth’s Hecate, Tony’s Speakeasy, Conor’s Porter, or Marla’s Sexy Witch, (if you come for me and try to say Fate Witch, you can GTFO; your existence means nothing to me). If the show continued on another 10 years in an economically and logistically feasible way, then if my early 20’s was the electrifying era of Boy Witch, Hecate, Sexy Witch, Macbeth, and Evelyn Grey’s filthy mouth (said with all the love in the world), then there’s no question that my relationship to the show in my early 30’s would have become the era of the Porter—a character who, on account of not understanding myself enough at 19 or 20, I could not fully appreciate. But when I think of the Porter now, I think only of Will Seefried’s “Moonlight Becomes You.” I believe this specific memory, at least, counts as substantial penance for whatever I failed to grasp all those years ago.

I cannot say what exactly stoked my fascination with the place. I am not a dancer. I was trained in classical voice and piano; my high school experiences with choreographers and dancer were not pleasant to say the least—they were not exactly patient with those of us who were actors or singers first (ridiculous, really, for a smalltown high school). How I longed for a Sondheim show: no ensemble, no choreographer, just a handful of singers with classical training—the shows are all sung-through with no spoken dialogue—and no dance. I had known about SNM for almost 2 years before I saw it, and I seemed to instinctively know it was an experience far more than most theatre. From the moment I walked into Manderley, I was simply open to everything: the Manderladies selling absinthe shots…Sirgay tickling the back of my neck…We perhaps were all drawn in simply because we were as receptive to it as we were. As for the fandom, after 2 visits in 2 weeks (the second was merely by chance, as a friend had won tickets), I stumbled upon Tumblr and was fascinated by the community that had emerged around it.

A fandom is a curious thing. Our conversations are littered with terms that would make the average person look at us like we weren’t quite right in the head: Imagine an individual who knows nothing of the show hearing such phrases as “I dressed Boy Witch after the Rave” or a 2013-era fan photoshopping Jeff Lyons onto everything in a coffee shop in plain view for passerby to take notice; our sadness when we lose a random brass ring or a feather or a tissue; the incomprehensibility that crosses someone’s face when we get excited about something that we have come to refer to as “Ginger Lobby” or “Getting Popped”; that several performers on here are referred to as “Jesus Christ [insert cast member name here].” Or the fact that we routinely spend a chunk of the show talking to invented personas, whom we greet in continental fashion with a kiss on the cheek while they regale us with tales of their umpteenth marriage, all the men they’ve canoodled, or their experience with gin enemas. The post-Covid decision to remove the “persona” of the Men and Women in Bar—reducing them to getting people inside the show—is an absolute travesty. It is impossible to understate how magical and integral these performers are and how clearly distinguishable they are from the actors who play them. Only ever a quick look at their demeanor and energy was sufficient to know if you were looking at Maximilian or Nick, Violet or Elizabeth, Evelyn or Mallory, Popp or Calloway, Annabella or Alba. On this point, I direct the reader to this tribute written by @bloodwillhavebloodtheysay.

The fandom consists of, among other generations, many millennials—the generation responsible for, according to the media, destroying ever industry to ever exist. It is certainly true that, largely because of the housing market, we have learned to value experiences rather than possessions, and Sleep No More fits that observation to a tee. Unless someone is willing to go so often that they are evicted from their apartment, I do not think any of us regret the time or financial investment we made in this place, no matter how horrifying it looked on our bank statements. As @bloodwillhavebloodtheysay once told me when I was debating to go to a performer’s last show because I had just gone three days before:

If you have the money, you should go. Nobody lays on their deathbed and regrets the things they DID. They regret the things they did NOT do. Fuck all the talk about “irresponsible.” Will it make you homeless? Will it make you unable to eat? Will it cause puppies to drop dead in their tracks? Those are the only things that matter. For fuck’s sake, STOP letting outside forces determine what is right and wrong for you…YOU. If you want to go, GO. It sounds like you will be sorry if you don’t get to see it, so GO.

Will I ever regret the shows I attended? No. Am I eternally grateful for the people who pushed me to go to the Boy Witch Halloween party even though, for a reason I do not recall and cannot comprehend, I was determined to stick my head in the sand and say, “I don’t want to go” ? Or to the friend who convinced me to go to yet another performer’s last show because it was a very last-minute decision, and I was mad at the Hotel + the universe for their departure? Yes. Do I regret spending the money I did? Absolutely not. Do I wish I had been even more irresponsible? Fucking 100% yes.

Scorched has already remarked upon the Gen-Z shift in fandom attitudes characteristic of the Discord. From my own perusings, I have noticed—besides the travesty that a quick search reveals that Tara Franklin has never once been mentioned there (she is, alas, one performer who never returned after her departure)—they carry the hallmark traits in their engagement with art that many of those who have taught them have experienced first hand: they are very forward thinking about gender identity (although I think they sense, but cannot convey effectively, the underlying disconnect between SNM as a 2010-2012 era show and the evolving views on gender today that simply weren’t talked about then—as well as the ways in which this might constitute a limit of the show). Yet they have profoundly Puritan views of sex, consent, and surveillance. Their attitudes toward art seem to us completely incompatible with everything we love in a Punchdrunk show. They praise the elimination of the full-scale Man or Woman in Bar, because the transportation to another time was “alienating,” “unsafe,” or insensitive to a “need for a marker system to indicate comfort level with interaction.” 10 years ago, many anxious fans loved the bar characters, precisely because the characters could carry on a conversation with as little or as much participation from the audience member as said audience member was comfortable with. Fortunately, I heard that many of them who attended the final parties finally had their eyes opened to what Manderley was once like: Not just Max, Violet, and Calloway but also Jean Nolan and Aoibhin’s beautiful voices, Madlibs with Evelyn and Kit, or fully developed personas for the bartenders, who at one point in time never broke character. When people entered Manderley asking, “Is this the show?,” the Manderladies (Zelda’s beautiful accent in particular comes to mind) would always answer with feigned ignorance: “I don’t know what you’re talking about, darling, but I think you’re in the right place…”

But I would like to end by talking about what we’re all probably feeling for the Hotel and its residents. @drinkthehalo had the same thought that I did: “I can’t believe we were so spoiled by that boundless creative energy for so long.” It’s really unfathomable how much that building gave us: the show, Follies, the Lodge, the Heath, the parties. When thinking back on it, it’s astounding to consider how much has happened in that place—how generous and gracious the cast was with their energy and ours. There are few other theatrical experiences that can give us what a Punchdrunk show can give us: where an interaction between performer and audience member can be equally fulfilling to both parties.

This is all the more surprising given the abysmal behavior that we know was inflicted on some of these people: the aftermath of the Gossip Girl episode, the appalling Gawker article and the Buzzfeed whistleblower piece, Tumblr accounts of drunk or belligerent behavior that put the cast or other audience members in danger. As I was telling @readwithjoy, it is astounding that the cast continued to give us their all. And what is even more mindblowing to me is that they did not pull back their art for only those people they knew; they never stopped being open to a first-timer who had enough sense to understand James’ words they were meant to be understood. Yes, “fortune favors the bold.” Be curious, be adventurous, or brave. But have enough to sense to be respectful.

Indeed, if I think of which moments matter most to me now, it is those moments when our ears are filled with “A Nightingale Sang in Berkeley Square,” Stella Sinclair’s wonderful energy, or People vs. Larsen blasting our eardrums at 2:00 am after the Saturday late show, and our conversations with the people who work in the building consist of reciprocal acknowledgments of thanks and gratitude. When we would decide to follow a character not because we had planned on following that performer or character for the evening, but because they had a clueless audience who wouldn’t do any of the things with them, and we weren’t going to let them have a bad show. As horny as the average American audience member is, a surprising number of us have stories of when we ended up having to dress Boy Witch ourselves, because no one else in the room wanted to participate.

The space of the 1:1 is perhaps one of the most magical spaces to exist in theatre. In it, Punchrunk created a completely new type of human connection. There really was no pre-existing language for the world that came up to describe it, but the intensity and intimacy around it naturally led to many people settling on eroticism. This is undoubtedly the case for certain 1:1’s and even indispensible to them; even the creepiness of the Taxidermist 1:1 relies on an underlying eroticism in my opinion, and how often fans experienced the weirdest shit in the Hotel during that particular scene. On the other hand, I don’t believe eroticism should be the sole language used to describe 1:1’s, and it is unfortunate that so many conversations around the 1:1 space had to become one of boundaries and distance rather than a language of openness, trust, and vulnerability.

I remain astonished that we were able to experience this show at all. That something like Sleep No More even existed, and that we all formed such a large part of its history. If Sleep No More began to lose its “mindfuck” quality or the feeling of “being in someone else’s dream” as our familiarity with the space increased, then to look back on it now that it’s all over only makes it seem more like a dream. But, fortunately, it was not just a dream. Mercutio noted, dreamers often lie. We are not liars, no matter how insane we might sound to those who have never seen it. This is Sleep No More's strangeness: the fact it actually happened; it was not just a dream. As Lord Byron once said, “Tis strange—but true; for truth is always strange; Stranger than fiction.”

Posts from cast members on their social media often mention how lucky they feel, but it’s not by luck that they created what they did: it took an immense amount of talent, effort, and passion. If anyone is lucky, it is us. We are lucky that we stumbled on the place when we did. I cannot believe my luck that I saw my 2 favorite Porters during a double on the same night (Conor and Will Seefried) or that I met the people that I met…that we allowed ourselves to experience performances that most of the world will never see or even know existed. Especially in a post-Covid world, the idea of the proximity of people within the show makes people uncomfortable even from conversation alone.

What I have realized over these last weeks is that the life of immense feeling and meaning craved by many a graduate student who falls in love with art, literature, and philosophy only to be disappointed by a decimated job market, unrealistic standards of publishing output, and apathetic students who have reduced their education to utilitarian credentials was something I had already found from the moment I first stepped into Manderley one cool, late October evening. I feel far more grateful for every performance I got to witness in the Hotel more than any work of literature I have read across various languages.

To the cast, crew, and creatives: Thank you for everything you gave us. You have an entire group of people who will support you in any project you have in the works and who would love to follow your careers. You have shown us the toils of your art. Unlike many of the people who experienced what you created, we have the advantage of knowing your names and being able to keep up with what you will create for years to come. In what was once an unglamorous part of the island (it might still be seen as such depending on your view of the monstrosity that is Hudson Yards), you all created something that became the talk of the city. Unlike many of the theatres that house Broadway shows, 530 W 27th Street is not marked for preservation. Located a block away from Manhattan’s housing projects and across from Scores, the original backdrop of the building—before the arrival of the luxury apartments—wasn’t exactly what one would expect of a hit show.

50 years from now, if we’re lucky enough to still be alive (or unfortunate enough depending on your point of view) and if billionaires haven’t destroyed the planet and if Manhattan isn’t under water, I wonder if there there will still be an occasional passerby who, when stopping to stand in front of what was once an old warehouse on an innocuous street at the edge of the island with little if anything to catch their attention, would be able to answer “yes” to a certain question: a question that for nearly 14 years has been asked in hushed tones over a cup of tea in a small, heavily incensed boudoir tucked away at the end of a long, dark corridor. 50 years from now, if the building still exists, will there still be someone who can look at it and nod in the affirmative when asked: You remember, don’t you?

So I’ll end by saying this: whether for just 1 performance or 2, 6 months, 5 years or 10—be it with a murderer, a betrayed king, a flirtatious hostess with a transatlantic accent, a mopey Porter, the beautiful boy he longs for, a woman determined to find her sister, or an ancient goddess—we were able to experience the fact that a certain 1-Star Yelp reviewer was wrong: there is a trace of Hamlet in Sleep No More, for there is proof that Hamlet was right. There are more things in Heaven and Earth. If there’s one thing I wish to express, it is gratitude: gratitude that we got to experience just what “more” means here: magic. <3

#sleep no more #snm #mysleepnomore #mckittrick #sleep no more nyc #punchdrunk #mckittrick hotel

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aspec-carnifist · 4 months ago

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This is an old draft from maybe a month or two ago. I don’t agree with all of it anymore after seeing some statistics on the contact stances of tumblr users.

I’m too lazy to edit it so there’s probably some misinfo here so take it with a grain of salt, or however you use the phrase.

Some history, some opinions (long post)

radqueer commentary:

• Radqueer is the radical inclusion of transx identities and paraphilic attractions under the queer umbrella. [1]

One of the most notable achievements of the radqueer is popularizing unity between different transx identities and paraphilias. Years prior, transage, transspecies, trace, and paraphilias wouldn’t be put next to each other but because of radqueer, it is now. [My observance, no source]

• Transx was the first umbrella term for trans identities before transid. It was reclaimed from a transmed.

• The original coiner is speculated to be the xenosatanist coiner, as both have the same pronouns and name and write similarly. [2] The original radqueer coiner is pro contact, having reblogged a post criticizing those who believe animals cannot consent to sexual activities [3] and telling an anon that “it can be ok tho [to fuck kids].” [4] Their viewpoints on contact are not inherent to radqueer however. The label can be used by anyone regardless of contact stance, and despite the coiner’s views on contact, it has said that radqueer is inherently against offending. [5]

(Coiner calls paraphilias “queer sexualities” and transx “queer identities” which I find off putting for reasons I am unable to explain) [6]

• The recoiner seemed to be anti contact leaning at the time of recoining radqueer and made the flag, [7] saying offenders and pro offenders dni on the blog’s intro post [8] and saying chrono youth and bio animals cannot consent to intimate relations [9] (need to confirm the latter, possible recoiner did not say it)

Popular radqueer flag gives me eye strain. [My opinion, no source]

I find radqueer as a label itself to be overly ambiguous, which I dislike. A lot of beings say they’re radical queers as in they’re radical leftists and queer and I’m sure there’s many other reasons one would call themself a radical queer, so I wish that the coiner chose a more specific term that makes it obvious it’s about transx identities or paraphilias. [My opinion, no source]

radqueer community commentary:

• Adoption of recent proship ideals like anti harassment, anti discourse sentiment, constant censorship of pro para and transx accounts, lack of information on what contact stances are and mean, and anti transx anti contacts make those whose beliefs are anti contact adjacent still reject the term. [My observance, no source]

(I find it offputting when radqueers say that radqueer means anti harassment. Not saying it’s bad to be anti harassment, just saying that it’s irrelevant to the belief that transx identities and paraphilias should be under the queer umbrella. [My observance, no source])

• Pro contacts supposedly considered fringe or trolling in the past, however since 2023 pro contacts are staring to get more accepted. [Going to ask others about this and if they’re willing to let me link it here]

Many radqueers do not use contact labels, instead opting for saying they are anti abuse and pro consent. This gets confusing as many say that being against chronic youth age gap is “common sense” (eugh) but there’s also many who use it because they don’t want anyone to know they’re pro contact. [My observance, no source]

I consider myself anti abuse and pro consent too, but I don’t consider them contact stances. Perhaps relevant as I believe that pro contact is pro abuse and anti consent, but I always specify that I am anti contact. The point of contact stances are the differences in what we think is consensual or not. [My opinion, no source]

anti radqueer commentary:

anti transx and or paraphilia: Seems split between anti para and pro para users. They all agree on being anti transx at least. [My observance, no source]

I dislike this as transx identities existed prior to the radqueer label) transx itself as an umbrella term existed several months prior to the radqueer label. Transid was coined after radqueer was. The identities both umbrella terms encompass have existed decades longer than either.

• anti pro contact: assumption that pro contact is a radqueer belief. [My observance, no source]

Better suited as a critique of the community rather than act as though it’s an inherent belief of the radqueer ideology in my opinion.

1: https://archive.is/jiYnS

2: https://archive.ph/i1slg

3: https://archive.is/lb9mc (below the pinned post)

4: https://archive.ph/r19fX

5: https://archive.is/lb9mc (read pinned post)

6: https://archive.ph/ReyRx (read the subheader, not the post)

7: https://archive.is/6126j

8: https://archive.is/0LyaY

Related: criticism of rad queer from a pro para and transid blogger

#crook talks

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dearest-painter · 8 months ago

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Hey there! I don't know if you remember me, but I was the anon who sent you a thing a few months ago to warn you and others about the more abhorrent actions of the artist Namy Gaga (https://www.tumblr.com/dearest-painter/747620174237138944/so-sorry-to-bother-you-but-i-saw-someone-in-a?source=share).

In light of recent events, I felt like doing a follow-up was one of the best things to do since:

I discovered some new information that I wasn't aware of at the time.

Certain events have happened which completely caught me off guard.

Content warning for discussions of victim-blaming, harassment, inappropriate/illegal NSFW artwork, and toxic behaviour (including but not limited to queerphobia).

I discovered a Tumblr account Namy or a fan made in July last year (coincidentally around the time of the victim's lawsuit). I initially theorised it was created to mock any critics Namy had on that platform. As of me writing this, the blog has changed. BUT it has the same username as before (which you can easily find while searching "Namy Gaga" or "Namy G" on here), CONFIRMING THAT SHE DID IN FACT MAKE THAT ACCOUNT TO INITIALLY HARASS PEOPLE.

Originally, I talked about a comic she made in 2018 where she was gatekeeping LGBTQ+ experiences. As of me writing this, she still has not taken it off her Deviantart (I have the link to prove this - please avoid the comments for your mental health as a lot of them are either argumentative, gross or blatantly transphobic: https://www.deviantart.com/namyg/art/LGBT-Correct-answer-Meme-757868018). I did see someone speculate that Namy may have had internalised queerphobia at the time (due to how some people with internalised queerphobia tend to police other people's queerness), but I am also aware that someone who is LGBTQ+ can police other people's queerness and NOT have internalised queerphobia (perhaps there are other reasons OR they're just a you-know-what). That's just my opinion tho and I'm open to hear yours (if you want ofc).

As of me writing this, she has opened up about being genderfluid and still identifies as sapphic/queer (not specifically lesbian tho). While a part of me wants to believe that Namy has grown from her past queerphobic actions and opinions, I am of the firm belief that just because someone is LGBTQ+ (regardless of their experiences or the terms they use) doesn’t excuse/dismiss bad behaviour. - from a bisexual person with multiple LGBTQ+ friends

Remember when I talked about a Google Drive that Namy made to paint one of her victims as a liar - using actual screenshot evidence (of text conversations, etc.) that could definitely look incriminating in a court of law (if the victim's initial lawsuit were to progress any further, which I haven't found any updates about as of me writing this). TURNS OUT THERE WAS A CRUCIAL DETAIL I DIDN'T MENTION WITHIN THAT GOOGLE DRIVE. Specifically, a recorded call (video format) between Namy and one of the voice actors for her FNAF AU project, which she put up in March 2024. While I cannot understand Spanish and there were not English subtitles, what I could understand was that Namy was trying to confront the voice actor about the victim "cheating on her with them” when the victim was most likely trying to confide in the voice actor and tell them what Namy was doing to her.

Speaking of which, as of July this year, Namy has privated the Google Drive that she released in December 2023 (probably to cover her backside legally, bc of backlash from her critics, reasons which I've detailed below, or all three).

Within the same month, Namy posted a vent drawing (her current self punching her "old self") both on her Devianart and Facebook: https://www.deviantart.com/namyg/art/Namy-G-vs-Namy-Gaga-1079871130. Attached was a paragraph explaining that, upon going to see a therapist, she realised that her actions from 2023 and before (some of which I detailed previously - including the inappropriate/illegal NSFW) were unacceptable and that she has since apologised for those behaviours. IF THIS IS TO BE BELIEVED, I HAVE THIS MESSAGE FOR NAMY ON THE OFF-CHANCE SHE READS THIS: I understand that you want to unlearn toxic behaviours, to unlearn transphobic and other queerphobic mindsets, and to unlearn the idea that promoting inappropriate/illegal NSFW on public platforms is normal (since I’m of the belief you may have been desensitised/pressured into thinking it was normal). And I admire/respect that desire to change. But it WILL take a really long time and a lot of effort for people to forgive you, especially the people you hurt (if they're inclined to forgive you at all). I’m not accusing you of being Satan or anything like that, but no amount of learning from the incidents regarding the queerphobia, the narcissism and the NSFW artwork is going to change this fact: YOU STILL BROKE THE LAW IN YOUR OWN COUNTRY TWICE, NO MATTER HOW YOU TRY TO PAINT IT. Even IF it is true your first victim forgave you, you will NOT be immune to the law and someone will eventually report you. And about one of your newest posts on your Tumblr: WHY ARE YOU ACTING SURPRISED WHEN YOUR SECOND VICTIM STILL TELLS HER AUDIENCE THAT YOU HURT HER?! IF her lawsuit does progress and you end up being convicted in court (with the evidence YOU used to paint her as the “bad guy”), don’t be surprised if you get jail time.

I apologise for my strong wording in that last point, but I felt it was important to address.

Hope you have a good day/evening and thank you for reading this lengthy update. If you have any thoughts on this, I’m open to hearing them as well.

(To the anyone else reading this, PLEASE DO NOT HARASS/CONTACT NAMY’S FAMILY OR HER CURRENT PARTNER AS THEY (TO MY KNOWLEDGE) HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ALL OF THIS.)

Thank you for informing me and I do not have any thoughts other than I appreciate you making it known and at least making light to it. Also as Anon said, do not harass or contact Namy’s family or her partner as there is no proof any of them have done any of it or participated

#✉️mail arrived✉️#genderfluid enity answers!

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corrieander · 2 years ago

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Prince Eric is Having a Confusing Summer - Little Mermaid 2023 fanfic

little mermaid 2023 fic on ao3

Sailors could be coarse men. This was no surprise to Eric, but as he passed adolescence, it got more obvious. By the time he was twenty-one they had long been comfortable enough to tease him.

Pierre started it, as he often did. “We saw that lovely young thing come with her father to visit. What’s she—a countess from one of the old countries? He’s a Duke, ain’t he?”

Eric continued to haul rope. “Yes, he is. And though it’s none of your business, Lady Elaine will be gone soon enough.”

“Elaine, eh? She had thin lips and narrow hips, but it takes all sorts. Is that what the prince likes?”

“Didn’t you see him ogling Vera at the dock?” Another sailor broke in. “That’s what he likes.”

Eric had blushed. Vera was a pretty woman whose younger brother was captain of one of the other ships of the queen’s line. She did not have thin lips or hips, quite the reverse. “It’s not like that,” he’d said, much to everyone’s amusement.

“Might as well be like that, Vera might be a bit old for you, but she wouldn’t say no to a prince. She’s a right one in fact, you could do far worse.”

“Hoo, Vera!” Another made a suggestive gesture. “I’d marry her tomorrow if she’d have me!”

“Why? When she could have me?” said toothless old Carlos.

The men cackled and Eric was hoping the spotlight was off himself, but there was too much time on a ship. Soon they reverted.

“Come on, Eric. What’s it like to have wenches crossing the ocean for you? Don’t tell us you waste it all.”

Carlos grinned his toothless grin. “‘Course he wastes it—do you not know the boy? He’s out here with all o’us. We have our living to make, but he’s here on his own account.”

Pierre took the coiled rope from Eric, lifting its wet bulk as if it was nothing. “Aye, what’s that about—you’d rather be here with a handful of rough grunts like us than back at home with a handful of sweet curves?”

Eric knew he was blushing then, but he only shook his head. “I’ve told you how important the sea trade is. I believe in this trip.”

“I believe in a long pair a legs!” Carlos called.

The men cackled and a ribald list of favorite body parts came from various men on the deck.

“What about you, Eric?” Juan asked.

“I suppose I like—eyes,” Eric said, knowing he would only set them off again.

He didn’t much mind the men’s ribbing, though he wasn’t as annoyed by Grimsby’s interruption as he sometimes was.

“Eric, I believe I have mentioned before—but it’s time you start to distance yourself from the men. At least do not indulge in this sort of—jesting.”

“They don’t mean anything by it. Half of them are happily married.”

“I am far from suggesting that you need to marry any time soon, but a strong alliance with the mainland would not exactly hurt. You of all people recognize how fragile our island’s economy is.”

“Yes. That’s the point of this trip, and the last one, and the next one! We can ally ourselves through regular trade with half of the Americas. I cannot marry that many women.”

Grimsby’s lip twitched. “A fair point, sire. Not but what the ambassador from Colombia had a very pretty daughter. In fact, I thought you rather enjoyed her.”

“Claudia was very kind, but she was homesick the whole time she was here.”

“I daresay she’d get over it. You do realize no one who’s visited would say no?”

Eric frowned and ran a hand through his damp hair, perturbed for the first time that day. “That makes it worse, can’t you see? I don’t want someone who has already decided to say yes. Or worse, someone who feels like she can’t say no.”

***