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butterflieswhisper · 5 months ago

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hiiii ^^ beastlife fishie analysis. spoilers ahead. etc etc

okay so. the main point of this is simple. I don't think the salmon head cursed c!fishie. Explaining that is the harder part I think. also i'm going to refer to the salmon head thing in e5 as "the incident" from here on out because frankly i think it's funny

Let's start with the incident. The big day. etc. What happened? Why did it happen? Obligatory third questioning statement? Well. She was gifted the salmon head for her birthday by kiwi(or like. someone in the kiwibird system. -bird system. the birds). Immediately upon receiving it she relives parts of season one and fishie herself doesn't really acknowledge it. The other players definitely notice but im not caught up enough in any other pov yet to like have thoughts on that I'll come back to that point someday. Fishie seems shaken, sure, but she moves on so quickly, especially considering what happened just there. 37 seconds of standing frozen, unresponsive. she recovers in 5 seconds. And seeing how she reacts later on to realizing the memory situation--if she was aware that happened, she would probably be concerned by it. She puts it on for a brief second at the end of the party and takes it off immediately. She's otherwise normal -- well. as normal as she is otherwise up to that point. Because that is also how she acts with pretty much any salmon head, even just kiwi herself.

I raise: Episode one, about 8:20 in. The slow zoom on kiwi as the static overtakes every other noise. This is the *exact* same behavior displayed when fishie receives the salmon head, albeit without actual concrete old video footage style flashbacks. In episode two (28:55ish) the same thing happens when she looks at the salmon head in moch's house, but this time there is technically a flashback -- kiwis grave. Fishie moves on immediately and doesn't acknowledge her behavior at all, and, seeing as it is fishie, im inclined to believe that means she does not know she is doing it. Fishie (when alone) will discuss all of her problems in immense, and usually misguided detail (bestie i promise kiwi doesn't hate you???) to the audience and/or herself. I mean she's not alone in episode one, and it is technically presession, and i guess getting struck by lightning is a decent distraction from your problems, but in episode two? She is completely alone. There is nobody with her. She went looking for moch and moch is not there. She still doesn't acknowledge the fiveish seconds she is completely frozen. This happens again and again with kiwi and salmon heads.

And then that leads you to e5. The incident. She's. well. she's doing worse. 0:50. "This will distract me if i leave it up." This is the first mention from fishie herself about how fucking weird she's being, and even then she doesn't seem concerned. I think she does not realize she's being so so incredibly weird about it. If the static and freezing is what's referred to as "distraction" then keeping it in her inventory makes it worse actually so it wouldn't really make sense unless the way it is distracting her is NOT the. well. whatever the fuck is wrong with her (affectionate). After she puts the head on there's the static all the time but for a short brief amount of time she's like significantly more normal and i don't really know if that means anything i just think it's really funny.

And then we all know what goes on during the incident i'm not analyzing this video frame by frame. um. i could. but i am not going to right now. And then she has the conversation on the table with kiwi where she like is normal for 5 minutes. Like genuinely the most. i guess stable? fishie's thought process is is like in the moments directly after the incident. She is immediately understanding with the antikiwi situation, they come to an agreement that they're like. okay now. "thank you for everything and im so sorry i couldnt do more" / "it was short, but it was nice" "i knew what i was getting into when i married you" etc etc and then they kind of rush it at the end because people won't stop dying. But then fishie is fishie and takes it in the complete opposite extreme (from. um. whatever was wrong up until now. to "oh kiwibird must secretly hate me because" and then there's no real good reason she's just like that) and it's also an issue. And i think the season two memory thing is also a part of that but this is so long already and so i'm not going to get into it rn. So bringing all of this back to my original point: the salmon head was not the cause of the curse(?) because she's been so weird all the time forever and the salmon head thing was just like. an effect. of whatever went Wrong(tm) in the season transition. like the head was a vessel to Be Worse about it but i feel like it would have worked with any salmon head she got her hands on and that it happened to be kiwico was a coincidence and also that the head wasn't cursed at all there's just something deeply wrong with fishie s3 in general and uh yeah 👍

I'm so sorry this is so disjointed i had a thesis statement and everything. alas

#whisp whispers #fishie beastlife spoilers #since i had to rewatch videos these tags will serve as going insane about details i missed that were irrelevant to the post #i could make a whole thing on the parallels between fishie and bree. 'at least im not the only one with a troubled love life' yeah i guess #this is taking me ages to finish because if i think about beastlife fishie too long it genuinely spikes my heart rate #i think there's something wrong with me #fishie and bree both leaping at the oppurtunity to trade with their exes is so funny to me #someone should do indepth research about the way fishie interacts with dingo because i haven't been paying attention to it #by 'someone' i mean me because i'm the only one who can do that. other beastlife fan if you see this. holds out hand do you want #to make an analysis post with me .......#i appreciate kiwi trying so hard to do bug facts because bree's moth take is toooo insane for him. we can yes and the alien bit he draws th #line at incorrect moth facts though #'im neutral this is just fascinating' <-really funny in retrospect #*this is also taking so long forever because i keep distracted by whatever the fuck is wrong with everyone that i can't remember how to lik #put things into words #for what is a housewife without a house and no longer a wife?#'sorry guys it's just gonna be a lot of decorating today' YOUUUU. YOU. (<quote from beginning of e5)#ratchelor pad guitar riff is horrid on 2x speed. never do this what i'm doing right now #one of my irls is still in awe of the 6person boogie kill (or rather how nobody noticed fishie preparing the 6person boogie #is it boogey or boogie #does oku falling off a pillar and dying in the middle of fishie lore also count as a fishie proximity death #fishies curse is that people won't stop dying in the death games #also hiiiii fishieeeee you said you enjoyed analaysis. um. this one went a little off the rails i think and is more theory than analysis #posting this and disappearing off the face of the internet. cringe is dead but like. i mean you get it

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celestiachan · 3 months ago

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hello ghost trick fandom. do you like obscure games with a lot of death that come for handheld systems with two screens? well do i have just the thing

#xenon screams #ghost trick #boxboy #i say that like im not part of the ghost trick fandom #spoilers past this tag #apparently i love games where the guy you play as can't stop dying and coming back #how many times has qbby died?#like 4 i think #still not as many as lynne. damn #wait no i lied he died thrice #boxboy spoilers #ghost trick spoilers

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skrunksthatwunk · 5 months ago

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ok i know everyone says "love like you is soooo xyz shipcore" but i need you to know it's kuwameshicore to me. song's got yusuke written all over it arright. in case you don't have the lyrics memorized like i do here they are

#it's too mushy for him but like.. the beats are all there yknow #kuwa thinks the world of him and it helps him love himself enough to live (see the wake scene but also like. in general)#while keiko's been there all along i think it's kuwabara that really serves as a bridge into more friendships (maybe botan? debatable)#the wondering when im coming back/shaken by how long it took is pretty self explanatory. guy keeps dying on him #'i always thought i might be bad' honestly yusuke probably thinks he IS bad but kuwa contrasting him might make him feel it all over again #sometimes. not bc kuwa's doing anything wrong just like.. oh yeah im TOTALLY right about that sucking thing bc here's another example #and obviously they're very different in approaches to virtue and honor (perceived goodness)#yyh #kuwameshi #and i think yusuke deep down feels he owes kuwabara a lot. he's saved his life multiple times and kept him company #he understands a lotta things in a way keiko can't and pushes him to be better in his own way. there's a debt there #so the 'if i could begin to do something that does right by you' bit feels like a sentiment he'd have at some point #like. why'd he save eikichi if not that yanno. stuff like that #idk. again it's a bit Too mushy for him but the fact that a lotta the beats align so well...#maybe this is just the quiet tender sentiments deeeeeeep deep in yusuke's heart. idk post over #anyway if you haven't listened to this before I'd recommend it it's just a gorgeous piece to me. mwah

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jils-things · 23 days ago

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GUYSMY BOYFRIEND IS TALKING LISTENTOHIM LISTEN TO HIMMMMMMMMMMMM 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

#THIS IS A TRAILER FOR HIS S TIER ORPHAN OF GOETIA SKIN #THIS SKIN OF HIS IS ALSO MATCHING WITH HIS HUNTER COUNTERPART (THE GUY THAT APPEARS THROUGH THE LAVA) INFERNAL SIN #IM SO INSANE IM JUMPING AROUDNWIWIWIWIWIWIWIWIWIWIWIWIIWIWIWIWIIW HIS VOUCE IS SO SOOTHING I COULD CRY I COULD CRYYYYYYY #HEARING HIM ALSO JUST. TALK LOUDER IM GKFKKSKDKFHFHDJDJF ITS SO ITS SOOO AAHHHHHH #IVE HEARD HIS VOICE ENOUGH (THROUGH... REPLAYING LOL) IN HIS HUNTER TRAILER TO KNOW THAT'S HIM TALKING FOR SURE #I FEEL LIKE EXPLODING EKEKEKEKEKEKEEKEKEK #I LOVEYOU I LOVE YOUUUU #PLEASE TALK MORE I LOVE YOU #RIP BANE WHY DID HE FALL IN LAVA DKFKFJJFJDJD #IM AT UNI RN I CAN'T BE A NORMAL WOMAN.#the WAY HE SAYS “AH I SEE IT!!” PULLS MY HAIR UNTIL I GO BALD BROTHERRRRRR 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#IM DYING TO KNOW WHOS THIS VOICE ACTOR PLEAAAAAAAASEEE #SORRY IM SO. IM SO HAPPY RN IM SO GIDDY AAAAAAAAAAAAAA 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#ARE WE GONNA TALK ABOUT HIS LAUGHTER. YES WE ARE. JOKER ASS #WHY SO SERUOSUSODKFJFHFJDDLLLD #WEAAAWAWAWAWAAAHIS VOCAL RANGE ALLURES ME GRAGGAHAAGHHGHHHH WIWIWIWIWIIWIWWIIWIWIWIWW #ILOVEYOUUUUU

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cosmicdenro · 1 year ago

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hey so i completed How to Court Your Life Partner

you don't fucking understand how much that hit so good. the descriptions of the weather are my top fucking favourite and the way it was implemented was like it was 100% made for me im gonna kms NOW.

Again not a big fan of pet names that often but it wasn't that big of a deal with overall how well it was written. The conflict was insanely good because for one it never was something out of the blue for the reader, you knew this was bound to happen because Reg was so far up his ass he didn't see it coming and the way his words affected RHM. I fucking adore conflict when it isn't mindless and badly executed, it's so good and you could absolutely fucking see how much it build the character of Reg upon fucking up big time, despite even if he was still not able to get through to RHM right away. and just the issue RHM was having about his past?? my god that was written carefully too even if some things went over my head beacuse i kept getting distracted *@&@*! but hooooooooooly shit man . oh my god. the character build up was so good im ripping my sheets apart as we speak. THE SNOW CABIN CHAPTER MADE ME 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

also the sven chapter help help help that poor fucking boy did NOT see that coming

#i need. to draw. i have to fucking draw at least 10 drawings to incapsulate every chapter in 1 image but you know me im gonna draw more of #the chapters that gave me emotional disasters #but also the more intimate scenes lolz #i need to draw you can't just do this to me man i am BUSY yet here i am. fucking dying #thank g od people used to (this fic) and still (today's fics) do write rhm as equally emotionally in love too with reg because some people #do Not do justice by making rhm completely uninterested in reg and that just irks me lmao #not because ohh fave ship but if any couple was written as one sided without any good plot point i would kill everyone in this room and the #myself #no more holding myself back from not reading long copperright fics #i need to attack on sight and read it at LEAST start reading it and then save the rest for later even though that would damage me #but i gotta train myself lmao #copperright #tagging for MYSELF #beacuse im a sick and twisted person right now thinking about the fic constantly. 10/10 i swear #even if the petnames are not my thing that's just me #the physical affection was perfect for me and that's what matters #hi guys

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s-zephyr · 5 months ago

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hey do you guys think it's normal to spend 90% of your time alone. let's build communities immediately please

#im dying out here #i know exactly what makes me happy and what gives my life purpose and what fulfills me and what inspires me #and i cant. do it #because all of my friends went home for the summer and i've graduated #i finally found exactly what i'd been looking for all along and then it all ended #i know that i need to look for ways to make those dreams become reality again– and i could even begin to provide those things for others!!!#which is a necessity #but i just. don't have the resources right now #and society is entirely against me (which honestly actually... saying that is inspiring me HAHAHA)#i know what i need to do and i do have the strength to do it #but i face deeply rooted systemic issues that will need more than just me to fight them. i can't do it alone!#hey guys do you think we can change the world?#the answer is yes but goddamn is starting difficult– especially in isolation

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the-acid-pear · 6 months ago

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You guys dont know just how much it fucks me up how DOOMED Peter was and the fact that his route isn't about saving him but similar to Jake is simply about bringing him peace and closure like are you listening to be I'm about to blow up 4 buildings I'll never get over him being scrapped holy shit I'm so sad.

#luly talks #dsaf #dsaf peter #peter kennedy #like there's no difference between sorta happy ending snd the true happy ending aside from peter having no closure #and by extension jack really #but that scene in pure evil where DTrap mourns not having been able to scare the shit out of him like the asshole he is #and jack just answers with He was scrapped it just kills me it guts me and it hollows me #like who. who is scrapping these guys. how have they not been fucking stopped. WHY IS THIS ALLOWED #even the fucking phoney massacre too with only the 3 surviving like who's. taking these people?#i mean surely it can't be that hard to survive look at fuckkgn jake over there #who does have a suicidal bone in him alright god when in pure evil he's like THE BOSS SUCKED IM GLAD IM DYING i love you jake #but anyway PETER KENNEDY YOU DESERVED BETTER OT2 ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

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worstloki · 2 years ago

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Thor, rambling while Loki reads: --and yes, we are brothers, but I would kiss you if you asked!

Loki, suddenly much less interested in his book: What?

Thor: What?

Amora: *'sneakily' watching with her head peeking over the librarian's desk* HE SAID HE WOULD KISS YOU IF YOU ASKED.

#been finding the option of competitive fair play and sportsmanship supportiveness so much better as an option for everyone #like sure Amora is dying to bang Thor and Sif is trying to be a good friend while also vying/hoping for his interest #and sure Loki is somehow winning the contest with little idea he's taking part #but that doesn't mean they all have to fight!!!!#Amora being like 'well if i can't have him then im voting for Loki' while Sif and Loki joke about Thor's 'obvious' crush on one of them #Loki: *pointedly @ Sif* and to NO ONES surprise Thor has made off for the night with a stunning fair maiden with dark hair and blue eyes #Sif: it's OBVIOUS he's like this for *you*#Loki: nah ur just mad that im right about this. and the fact that he'd rather never confess than begrudge your warrior bond or whatever #Sif: he likes guys too -there's no way to explain that away with me! YOU'RE a shapeshifter making it doable to his...salacious imaginings :#Loki: what if he has a type. maybe he likes us both? that would explain the time he--#Amora: if i wanted i could make clones too yknow -_-#Sif Loki Amora with sometimes Lorelei showing up and lowkey thinking it's a fun time to cheer the others on in gaining Thor's attentions #Fandral too one day he's red faced and all 'shame on my family line' but he's taken a seat at their table reluctantly and gone #''his arms. right?''#and there are just nods of solidarity around the table #idk #something of a wholesome Thor fanclub which Loki is attending because Sif is CONVINCED his type isn't her but is Loki #and Amora who thinks it would be wicked hilarious for the bros to get it on #Fandral: wait I thought Loki was just sitting here to stop people bothering your table. and because he's a loner #Loki: Fandral FINALLY. Fandral look me in the eyes. tell them Thor isn't in love with me #Fandral: you?! I'm hoping he's into blond T-T #Amora: *fist over her heart* respect T-T

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dennisboobs · 1 year ago

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this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

#moots & friends keep sending me shit and im just like. lmfao this is embarrassing for YOU guys. i stand by everything ive said actually.#i'm sorry you think trying to have a genuine conversation about harmful behaviours is cringe #you consider yourself an activist and will retweet every fucking post abt current events #but you can't actually be bothered to make a positive change in your own life.........#the fact that most of them stop responding after they realize im not going to freak out and give them something emotional is very telling #it's not even like most of them disagree they literally just want to make fun of me for...... caring. like ok. weird hill to die on idk #im at the point where im considering privating my tweets just so i dont continue to get ppl responding but #i think its important that ppl can see my responses. because i stand by them and clearly other ppl do too #theres been a lot of mixed responses but a lot of people have actually ended up agreeing with me after some back and forth #which i appreciate. i didnt want to start fuckin. twitter drama. but like. ill take it #i dont interact with sunnyblr at all so i think this is a good opportunity to potentially change at least a few ppls perspectives #and if youre too far gone to the point where you think that someone caring about perpetuating homophobic rhetoric is funny #i. dont really want to interact with you anyway lol. get better soon xoxo #last post about this on here im. putting this to rest.#ada speaks #genuinely disgusting how many of these ppl will say shit like. ppl are dying. like... yeah. what are YOU doing to help.#retweeting a donation link or someones random carrd doesnt do shit actually. performative armchair activism.#same ppl tweeting vapid shit while acting like theyre above engaging with me on this #i was venting about people qrting glenns old tweets with stupid shit because it was clogging my tl actually lol

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nocturnal-birb · 1 year ago

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My soul ascended when I heard Tobias sing "I'll make you beg for more"

and not even in the horny way- IT'S JUST ETHEARAL KIND OF ASCENDING

#TOBIAS YOU #IM SHAKING HIM #i love that lil guy #crying dying on the floor about this #I CAN'T BE NORMAL ABOUT THIS

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keirametzbrassknuckles · 1 year ago

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For a hyper specialized school whose only subjects are art related this place has fucking ATROCIOUS school swag.

#i want to rep this place but if you think im wearing a cheeto orange sweatshirt you have another think coming #the official logo is a lovely inoffensive teal #why can't we get that on like a plain grey t-shirt? the stylised C on a baseball cap??? c'mon guys im dying here #im gonna send an email to the SU and complain #also we deserve a fucking crest #why dont we have a crest #@ samuel courtauld i just wanna talk

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skrunksthatwunk · 4 months ago

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feeling it a little tonight

#:<#itd be so nice pleaseee #houghhhhhhhguhg theyre sosilly theyre such sily guys #like no we dont't need more animals in our house. so they say. but i WANT more #but also (and this is very dumb ik) if they actually get a cat then when i live on campus it'll like.#grow close to everybody without me :((#i don't want this cat to exclude me from the family grouppuhhhh #it's not gonna happen until one of our dogs in particular carks it which is too too scary to think about #you can't make me so like. yeah. but i wanna cat sooooo BADDDD #we dont have to wait we could just. train izzy not to eat them (<- aware that that is very dubious at best)#guhhhhhhhhh moping moping sulk sulk sulk #my family's talked a little about getting a maine coon if it doesn't set off my mom's allergies bc she also wants a cat #but i'd have to wait for probably a year after my elderly dogs die (mourning period) AND THATS TOO LONGGG #that's too long if it starts TOMORROW and i don't exactly want my dogs to die any time soon y'know #hrnghhhhguyhhhhhghh but i wanna cat so baddddd #it's all rascal's fault that little goober. waufhhh i miss him #thyre so silly theyre so sillyyyy. bawling howling throwing just the lamest saddest tantrum rn (<- looks like this :| atm)#like my dogs dying would actually destroy me im not joking at all but it would be easier if there was a cat there #i get the mourning period tradition but it makes everything feel so much emptier #i feel like it exaggerates the worst parts of the grieving process. but thats just me ig

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frodolives · 1 year ago

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👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

It really makes me sick to see people giving money to penny weeklies when Franklin's expedition STILL has not been found 😭 There are good men out there trapped in unimaginable temperatures and literally all that's needed is a little more funding for another rescue mission yet all you guys seem to care about are your vulgar little stories...

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the franklin expedition is dead as hell

👸🏻 girlbossladyjane Follow

Disgraceful thing to say but I'd expect nothing more from a M*lville fan

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Sorry for posting so much about Tom Gradgrind/James Harthouse from Hard Times lately. It turns out that I was getting arsenic poisoning from my wallpaper? Anyway I took a seaside stroll and I'm normal now. Check your walls y'all

#whyyy did i assume they were committing unlawful actions together like where did i even get that from lol #hard times isn't even that good by dickens standards tbh

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🎨 asherbrowndurand

Just painted this

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RIP Napoleon... you may have been unable to conquer Alexander's Russia but you sure as hell conquered Alexander's bed

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HERITAGE POST

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How does this have less than 100k notes you could literally not avoid this post back in the 20s lol

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🌄 loyalromantic Follow

poets just aren't dying young in mysterious water-related incidents like they used to :/

#as useless and degenerative as i find 'the living poets' and i'm glad we're finally moving on from them #i have to agree with op in this respect

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🎀 thefopdiaries Follow

I finally got a daguerreotype of myself ^_^ Porcelain urn for scaling

📜 bartlebi-thescrivener

i think i hauve consumption

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🐋 whaler4life

They found oil in the ground??? WTF. THIS IS LITERALLY THE WORSTTTT. FUCK MY LIFE FOR REAL THIS TIME

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🌿 naturesnaturalist Follow

I swear this website has 0 reading comprehension skills. Darwin NEVER claimed we "evolved" from apes like if one of you guys actually bothered to open his new book you'll see all his arguments are backed up by evidence. He actually makes a lot of sense

#sure there's nuance like i don't fully agree with all of it #but his general theory of natural selection seems pretty sound imo

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Of course these are the finalists lmao this website is so predictable. Anyway vote Heathcliff if you dont i'm going to assume you're a phrenologist

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It's not problematic to acknowledge the fact that Heathcliff was a brute like he literally killed dogs in case you forgot. #rochestersweep

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I love the implication here that Rochester never did anything cruel either. He literally locked his wife in the attic and lied to Jane about it 😭 like that was a pretty significant thing that happened

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And? God forbid women do anything

#why'd you have to pit two bad bitches against each other #anyway i'm not attracted to men but still went with rochester #bc in terms of living quarters thornfield hall > wuthering heights easily

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

Not the Russian tsar dying immediately after hartgrind became canon

#i know dickens hasn't technically confirmed it yet but like. SOMETHING was strongly implied ok #see: my previous post #dickensposting

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👨🏻‍❤️‍💋‍👨🏻 hartgrindisreal

LORD HELP ME. THE BODY LANGUAGE. THE WAY THEY'RE LOOKING AT EACH OTHER. AHHHHHH

#this installment!!! im-- #dickensposting #i can't fucking cope #dickens wants to KILL us he wants us DEAD....

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⭐️ newamerican

Hi guys sorry I haven't been posting lately it's been so difficult getting to California 💀 I'm finally here now though just need to find a pickaxe and soon I'll be digging! :-) wish me luck lol

#gold #gold rush #gold rush grind #california #adventure

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imgonnagetyoubacktv · 2 months ago

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dni.

#i don't know how people who do not have siblings live cause #whenever i feel the very intense and real urge to genuinely kms their faces pop up in my head #my sister laughing at my jokes after she had a bad day and saying with tears in her eyes that hey you know what i need you so much please #call me constantly when im abroad i don't know what I'd do without you #and my little brother not trusting my parents advice when he is sick because he thinks they're constantly telling him to do a hundred thing #anyway but listening to me when im giving the exact same advice asking me such innocent questions that seem so obvious #but he doesn't know because of his childlike innocence #like why are we not going to the doctor if i have fever how do our parents know how to cure it and how can i take dolo without a doctors #prescription and me laughing and explaining that it's okay it's normal it's paracetamol you don't have to worry you'll be okay in day or 2 #or how he's excitedly telling me that these are the colleges i looked up are they good how do you know if they're good #he needs me so much even tho he'd never say it they've been even worse parents to him than to me he doesn't have anyone else #so then how could i be so selfish and hurt the two people who love and need me the most the two people on whom if i see tears #it feels like a stab directly to the heart?#but i can't help it. can't help fantasizing about dying #maybe myself but even better if by some terminal illness #i keep thinking me lying in a hospital bed and doctors saying there's a complicated procedure and it's very expensive and results aren't #even guaranteed so are you sure want to be treated #and me saying no please let me die my parents would protest at first they would feel it is their duty responsibility to keep me alive #but id say please i don't have anything to live for and i just CAN'T i can't do this i can't live this life it's too difficult im not #capable im already failing please just let me give up and then they'd agree #and then i would tell my father that im sorry i couldn't pay you back for all the money you spent on me my education my living expenses #but atleast now i won't ask for anymore money from you ever you'll probably get some money from the insurance policies #and i would tell my mom that sorry for being such a burden on you all these years but now you can finally be free with the 2 kids you #actually love and you never have to cook for me again or fold my clothes or feel bad that i won't attend your family functions #and i would tell my siblings that i know it's sad but please i know you guys are strong and bright and you're gonna be very happy and #successful and that's enough for me im sorry we couldn't have our dream raksha bandhan away from our parents but you can carry on without #me and ill always love you. and that would be it.#i know it's wrong to fantasize so much about dying and ive read somewhere that they may just seem like thoughts now but if left untreated #one day you're gonna have a bad day and you're gonna find the perfect opportunity and you were so sure you were never going to do it but #then you do. but i don't know how to stop

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radmista · 1 year ago

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"Some are calling [fruit] a slur" ??????

@jimvasta It's BEEN a slur. Fruit has been a homophobic slur used in the past and still used as a slur. You can not reclaim it. Most of tumblr can not "reclaim" this slur as they are not homosexual men, the people this slur was aimed at. Most homosexual men do not reclaim this word.

Pull your head out of your ass. Fruit isn't somehow now magically being claimed a slur. It's always been a slur when used at homosexual men. Teenagers just have never known that and have thought it was a heehee silly word for any q***r person. You're starting to see a lot more people say it is a slur IN RESPONSE to seeing teenagers and young adults flippantly throwing the word around as if it hasn't been used as a homophobic slur for decades before they were even able to access the internet.

#i can't fucking believe it #i fucking called it #i knew they would eventually claim fruit as their new word and then say it wasnt a slur.#and if it was it wasnt that bad. and actually its ur fault for feeling its a slur #like literally what the fuck #y'all are always saying remember ur roots and remember gay history and then act as if tiktok and tumblr is your education center #fucking disgusting #talk to an actual and I mean actual older gay individual. like one in their 50s+ and they will tell you fruit is a slur #hell even some 30yos will tell you this but I dont consider 30 to be an ''elder'' of any sort #you guys are disgusting trying to erase and edit history to try and minimize the hatred and revulsion gay individuals have gone throe #*through #fruit is a slur #fruity is a slur #I'm so sick of seeing teenage girls in fandoms and young adult women with dyed hair saying they're fruity #like actually shut all the way up you are not allowed to use that word. i never see gay men use this word.#straight men keep this out of your mouth too #as I've been saying ik they're gonna come after fairy and poof next and claim they're just silly cute words for 'the gays' that have no #history of hatred or homophobia in them trust us gais. ugh. disgusting.#we are living in a time #liberal homophobia #homophobia #q word #ugh im so tired and have 0 patience anymore

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bread-of-death · 1 year ago

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I love confusing the people at work

They've heard me curse

Yet they are still SO SHOCKED when I make a dirty joke

#so we have these safety bag cutters #and the company that makes them is 'Bag Dragon' (you see where this is going)#so anyways- my buddy points this out to me- and we both giggle about it #and we(I) pass the joke around #and like #a solid three people are like 'HUHH!?!?! how do you know what that is??'#but this one guy in particular had me DYING #he thought I was innocent #I don't know HOW #but he did #I was like 'bruh I went to public school'#anways #there was also another few times scattered throughout where people first heard me curse or make a relatively tame immature joke #and they're always like '????' I thought you were this sweet innocent little girl #NOPE #I can't really blame them though #I have this sort of pretty innocence about me?#like im moderately attractive but not in a 'beautiful' 'gorgeous' or even just mature way #I look pretty and cute and innocent #I guess almost like a trustworthy face #I look sweet. like a nice little girl next door #and when I don't know someone I am 100% on my best behavior; 'yes sir- no ma'am- of course! thank you! yes please- etc.'#so yeah once I loosen up and see everyone else cursing and making dirty jokes then I'm like 'ah. okay cool.'#I'm still respectful- I just don't hold back as much with the vulgarity lol #it's just funny to watch people's view on me shift so drastically in an instant

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