#fishie beastlife spoilers

[butterflieswhisper]

hiiii ^^ beastlife fishie analysis. spoilers ahead. etc etc

okay so. the main point of this is simple. I don't think the salmon head cursed c!fishie. Explaining that is the harder part I think. also i'm going to refer to the salmon head thing in e5 as "the incident" from here on out because frankly i think it's funny

Let's start with the incident. The big day. etc. What happened? Why did it happen? Obligatory third questioning statement? Well. She was gifted the salmon head for her birthday by kiwi(or like. someone in the kiwibird system. -bird system. the birds). Immediately upon receiving it she relives parts of season one and fishie herself doesn't really acknowledge it. The other players definitely notice but im not caught up enough in any other pov yet to like have thoughts on that I'll come back to that point someday. Fishie seems shaken, sure, but she moves on so quickly, especially considering what happened just there. 37 seconds of standing frozen, unresponsive. she recovers in 5 seconds. And seeing how she reacts later on to realizing the memory situation--if she was aware that happened, she would probably be concerned by it. She puts it on for a brief second at the end of the party and takes it off immediately. She's otherwise normal -- well. as normal as she is otherwise up to that point. Because that is also how she acts with pretty much any salmon head, even just kiwi herself.

I raise: Episode one, about 8:20 in. The slow zoom on kiwi as the static overtakes every other noise. This is the *exact* same behavior displayed when fishie receives the salmon head, albeit without actual concrete old video footage style flashbacks. In episode two (28:55ish) the same thing happens when she looks at the salmon head in moch's house, but this time there is technically a flashback -- kiwis grave. Fishie moves on immediately and doesn't acknowledge her behavior at all, and, seeing as it is fishie, im inclined to believe that means she does not know she is doing it. Fishie (when alone) will discuss all of her problems in immense, and usually misguided detail (bestie i promise kiwi doesn't hate you???) to the audience and/or herself. I mean she's not alone in episode one, and it is technically presession, and i guess getting struck by lightning is a decent distraction from your problems, but in episode two? She is completely alone. There is nobody with her. She went looking for moch and moch is not there. She still doesn't acknowledge the fiveish seconds she is completely frozen. This happens again and again with kiwi and salmon heads.

And then that leads you to e5. The incident. She's. well. she's doing worse. 0:50. "This will distract me if i leave it up." This is the first mention from fishie herself about how fucking weird she's being, and even then she doesn't seem concerned. I think she does not realize she's being so so incredibly weird about it. If the static and freezing is what's referred to as "distraction" then keeping it in her inventory makes it worse actually so it wouldn't really make sense unless the way it is distracting her is NOT the. well. whatever the fuck is wrong with her (affectionate). After she puts the head on there's the static all the time but for a short brief amount of time she's like significantly more normal and i don't really know if that means anything i just think it's really funny.

And then we all know what goes on during the incident i'm not analyzing this video frame by frame. um. i could. but i am not going to right now. And then she has the conversation on the table with kiwi where she like is normal for 5 minutes. Like genuinely the most. i guess stable? fishie's thought process is is like in the moments directly after the incident. She is immediately understanding with the antikiwi situation, they come to an agreement that they're like. okay now. "thank you for everything and im so sorry i couldnt do more" / "it was short, but it was nice" "i knew what i was getting into when i married you" etc etc and then they kind of rush it at the end because people won't stop dying. But then fishie is fishie and takes it in the complete opposite extreme (from. um. whatever was wrong up until now. to "oh kiwibird must secretly hate me because" and then there's no real good reason she's just like that) and it's also an issue. And i think the season two memory thing is also a part of that but this is so long already and so i'm not going to get into it rn. So bringing all of this back to my original point: the salmon head was not the cause of the curse(?) because she's been so weird all the time forever and the salmon head thing was just like. an effect. of whatever went Wrong(tm) in the season transition. like the head was a vessel to Be Worse about it but i feel like it would have worked with any salmon head she got her hands on and that it happened to be kiwico was a coincidence and also that the head wasn't cursed at all there's just something deeply wrong with fishie s3 in general and uh yeah 👍

I'm so sorry this is so disjointed i had a thesis statement and everything. alas

[butterflieswhisper]

you would go insane about fishie and dingo. i should explain fishie and dingo to you. i'll get back to you at 9 i'm going to explain fishie and dingo to you

fishie and kiwi's relationship has suddenly become my roman empire

thanks a lot @butterflieswhisper. you've ruined me...

[fishiecomics]

Constantly wanting to infodump about Beastlife Fishie's lore and emotions, but having to keep it to myself for spoiler reasons is going to make me explode.

I've been having so much fun this season and I don't want it to end, but I also need it to end so I can talk about it.

[butterflieswhisper]

"Rest in peace, Kiki. I'll get something done. I don't know how, I don't know when, but I've got you. I couldn't do it in this life, but... I'll make you proud." what the fuck man

[butterflieswhisper]

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GRHAHABDBCJCK THE AMNESIA ??? AMNESIA PLOT IS SO ?&?2&!:&:9\!£\.it's so good it's so good. i haven't seen session 9 yet because i refuse to watch these out of order and i'm still in the middle of season2 with space . but it's ??? so good???? this is partially just a fishie is so cool post tbh but like. oh my god. the editing for episode 5 was phenomenal the buildup to this plot is insane. even before the series began officially theres the static whenever she looks at kiwi in the pre-session episode one.... the set up pay off is so good there genuinely like this is awesome

also the whole "but the feelings are there, and i feel like i lost something precious" bit is really great i just keep thinking of the conversation with moch "We're not married, so it's different this time. It's just a mutually beneficial partnership, nothing more." Yes that entire conversation was a bit but what is mcyt enjoying if not reading way into bits. 'none of us would grieve' <-guy who starts grieving things she can't even remember she lost

anyways. my main thing on my mind is fishie avoiding dingo with her amnesia thing. yeah sure, no repeat of oku/bree situation. but consider also: dingo was an enemy season one. how much can you really rely on "feelings" when you also have memories of them trapping and killing you. how much is the feeling of losing something you don't remember worth compared the knowledge that you set their house on fire every chance you got. sure, fishie avoids dingo because of the oku and bree thing. is it not a little bit also because their biggest memories of dingo Before are of their attempts to kill eachother? dingo is allied this season of course, they've done stuff together more recently, obviously they're on good terms. but is that really worth much if the memory of them being enemies feels more and more recent as time goes on?

Also, fishie talking to moch and space for help with the amnesia thing is also really nice. is that a coincidence? yeah probably. moch, obviously, is part of the lilies. but also: fishie was allied with them in season one. space and moch both. not saying fishie is reverting at all (that's already happened obviously, shout-out to session 5). but surely there's some comfort in the people most positively featured in her concrete memories, isn't there? she can remember season three right now, but is it really a guarantee that she always will be able to. isn't it best to seek out the people she knows she will remember are safe?

i'm still insane about session 5 also but dingo is on my mind because i watched all of space season1 today in one go

also the apology letter actually reads really similarly to her will she left season1 which is like. really sad. it's okay buddy i promise he loved you. it's okay

[butterflieswhisper]

beastlife spoilers for that clip fishie sent that the beasts aren't allowed to watch 👍

so this means fishie's been responsible for and/or witnessed moch's final death every single season except the second . where she watched their first death. was it her fault this time