#i can't go to paris so soon just for this tho

[emahriel]

linkin park concert w/ sleep token opening for them... is this real

[spidybaby]

Leaked

Summary: A few leaked pictures revealed the truth about your relationship.

Warnings: cursing, mentions of cheating, gaslight.

Part Two

"One pic." You smile at him, eyes begging. "Just one, c'mon."

You try to take the polaroid of him, but his hand brings the camera down.

"Kylian!" You pout. "It's for me. I won't show it." You smile. "I wanted a picture of you with the beautiful sunset." You say, hugging him and bumping his nose with yours.

He shakes his head, smiling at you.

You love him very much, even tho sometimes you feel like being secretive about your relationship was a big burden.

He tries his best to make you feel loved and to let you know that no matter what, you are important to him.

"It's so pretty." You say, admiring it.

"Pretty like you, mon amour." He says, smiling at you.

You blush at his comment. You love compliments, especially if they came from him. Even better.

"Want to go back to the house?" He asks, taking his key out of his pocket. "Want to see my driving abilities?"

"No, sir. I would love to make it to dinner." You laugh. "Can I drive?"

"Maybe later." He smiles.

You two walk closer to his car, he opens it, giving the key to his chauffeur. He opens the door for you.

You grab a bottle of water from the small cooler the car has. You love Madrid, but the weather not so much.

It was hot as hell, even if Kylian says he loves it because he gets to see you in more sexy clothes, you just can't agree.

"I feel sticky." You joke with him. He places his cheek on top of your shoulder. Moving it up and down. "Iugh, Kylian!" You laugh.

"Now I'm sticky too." He laughs with you. "And I smell like paradise." He sniffs the air.

You roll your eyes at him. Placing your hand on his cheek and moving your head to give him a kiss con his forehead.

"Want me to make dinner?" You ask.

He nods, he loves your cooking. It was something he always asked you to perform. "I'll miss you when you are back in Paris." He pouts.

"Me too, baby." You copy his pout. "I can be here for your first Champions League match." You smile at him.

"I'll get you the ticket as soon as we get home."

That's the easy part, you mention something and he get it for you.

Do you like the new Van Cleef bracelet? Okay, it's being delivered to your door in the next few hours.

> But Kylian, it's over 11k euros <

It doesn't matter, that's pocket change for him.

Did you retweet something about a Kelly bag? Done, it's yours.

You loved that. It was amazing how he would spend anything just to see you happy. The best part was that he never expected anything in exchange.

He did it by heart. Even when you tell him that it was too much, that it was just a tweet, it was just a like on a insta post. It was just a comment about his new bracelet.

He didn't care, he would get it for you.

You sometimes wished that he could do that with his time. It was the downside, a weekend, and then back to Paris. A game and back home.

You loved that he got you vip tickets. You loved the first-class airplane tickets. You loved that he would look for you at the stadium.

You didn't love the rumors about him and other girls. Influencers who wore his jersey were making headlines about a possible romance.

He always reassures you. It's all a lie. You trust him. Plus, he was with you.

"Can you pass me the pijama that's on my closet? Please." He asks, seating in bed after eating.

You nod, walking to the closet. You turn the lights on, being greeted by a big white bag with golden letters.

"Seriously?" You ask him, walking with the bag in hands.

He looks at you smiling. "It's nothing." He chuckles.

"This is a lot." You whisper. "You just gave me one when we were in Paris." You remind him.

"But this is a tote. You can take it with you to class, or if you want to go out and take a lot of things." He smiles. You take the box out of the bag, open it, and take the bag out. "Don't you like it?"

You nod. "Thank you." You say walking over to him, kissing him.

"Do you like the orange one or the white one?" You ask him.

"We are using the white one, but that orange one is gorgeous on you." He takes the white one away from your hands carefully.

He throws the jersey on the bed, taking the orange one. He asked you to lift your hands, dressing you with his jersey.

"You look amazing." He smiles, grabbing your waist and kissing your lips. "My gorgeous queen."

You turn to the mirror, his hands on your waist, his face on the crock of your neck. You smile at his reflection.

"If I score, it would be for you." He says.

You blush at his comments, you love the way your cheeks heat up for him. It was something so normal yet so personal.

"Are we doing something after the game?" You ask, hopeful that he would say yes.

"My family is at home." He says, separating from you. "And I have a recovery sesion very early tomorrow."

"Oh." You mumble. "It's okay, I get that you are busy."

He nods, kissing your cheek. "The driver I hired for you is downstairs, just call him when you are ready to leave. He'll also wait for you to take you back here after the game and then to the airport." He instructed.

"Wait, I'm leaving today?" You ask, confused.

You understand that he would be busy with recovery, having his family who you don't know at home, and even being tired after the game.

But when he booked you the ticket, he asked you to bring clothes for more than just a night. So you did, you have a suitcase with different types of outfits.

"Yes, mom wants me to spend some time with them. Sorry." You just nod, not wanting to make a big deal out of it. "Wish me luck." He smiles.

"You don't need it, Kyks." You smile back. "Go, it's going to be late for you." You say, grabbing his cheeks and kissing his lips quickly.

You see how he leaves the room, leaving an empty feeling behind. It was starting to feel like a pattern.

You brush the thoughts out of your mind. Waiting for the right time to leave. He sent you over the contact of the driver.

You feel weird. It's been a good time since you two became a thing. Sure, he never asked you to formalize anything, but you thought that maybe by now you won the meet the parents prize.

He always talks about them, how he loves spending time with his little brother. He talks about his niece and nephew.

You hear him ramble about them, their little adventures. How much he loves them. And you are happy with that. You love hearing those stories.

You just feel that after a year and a half, you were meeting with them at some point.

You aren't going to ask him. If he wanted, he was going to invite you to meet them. It didn't have to be forced by you.

You retouch your hair and a little bit of your makeup, texting the driver that you were ready to go.

The stadium felt so alive, it was the teams' first champions league game. The vibe was high and the feelings were too.

realmadrid

Estadio Santiago Bernabéu

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realmadrid 💥 KYLIAN MBAPPE💥 #UCL

The game was good, it was crazy how the second half was so different from the first one. Kylian scoring just seconds after it started was unreal.

You texted him that you were back in the hotel, picking your things to leave to the airport. You thank him for inviting you to the game and asked him to text you when he was free.

> it's like being a ghost <

You remember the words of your friend. She was the only person who knew about him and you.

You shake those things out of your head. He was busy and wanted to spend some time with his family. They lived in Paris and he barely even see them.

You can always come back.

You take a quick shower, taking the sweat away. You need to be fresh and clean for the flight and also because as soon as you land, you want to go home and sleep.

You pack the things you took out, making sure you won't forget anything. He texted you back, wishing you a safe flight and to text thing when you are home.

The driver took you to the airport, kylian texted you the plane ticket right after he left the hotel room.

You call your friend to ask her to pick you up from the airport. You already know what she's going yo say.

"Hey, how's Madrid?" She asks, happy to hear you.

"I'm actually waiting for my flight to Paris." You say, trying to act as if you planned it. "I have to be on an important meeting, and I have to cut short this trip."

"What?" She says. "Your boss doesn't have another employee to bother?"

"He does, but I have the documents, and he felt like having a meeting." You lie. "Kylian was very understanding tho."

"That's sad. Do you need me to pick you up?"

"Can you?" You ask, tired. "If not, I can order an Uber."

"Nono, text me the ticket info so I can pick you up." She says. "See you."

You say your goodbyes to her, hanging up the call and texting her what she asked. You waited a good hour before your flight took you back home.

"Do you want to try paella?" Kylian asks you.

He kisses your shoulder, he scoops water from the pool into his hands, and wet your head. You laugh, shaking your head.

"Is it good?" You ask, turning to him.

You hug him, bringing him as close as possible to yourself. His warmth combined with the water of the pool and the salty air is making you feel in paradise.

"It's so good." He smiles.

He presses his hands on your cheeks, smiling at how cute you look with your hair all natural, you blushy cheeks that are colored by the sun.

"You will love it." He says, kissing your cheek. "I know an amazing place, I can order it and we can eat it here while drinking something nice.

You frown lightly. "Isn't it more comfortable if we eat there?"

"Don't get me wrong, it is." He sighs. "But I don't want people to ruin our night."

You understood that people know him very well. So, for him, it was easier to order the food, order the things, or ask his chef to make it.

"Okay!" You smile, pecking him. "Order it now so we don't stress or go hungry later." You push him lightly, swimming away while you smirk at him.

You two enjoy the rest of the evening on the private pool you have. It was so fun getting to travel with him to where the games are taking place.

"Do you think you are winning this game?"

"I think we have a chance." He says, passing you the towel as you two exit the bathroom after a shower. "Don't you?"

"Don't get me wrong, but this team is really strong, I'm surprised."

"They are." He laughs. "But they don't have me on their team." He smiles cocky.

You laugh at his cocky self. You find funny and kind of cute that he is, he really believe in himself and trust his instincts.

You change as he orders some drinks from the bar of the hotel. You get your hair ready even if you were just staying in the room with him.

"I order you a piña colada pie." He smiles, hugging your waist. "Love your pajamas." He chuckles.

"I know, they match yours." You laugh, hip bumping his. "They have cute fish on it."

"The food would be here in a few, I think it would be a competition between the food and our drinks."

"Do you want me to pick it up from the lobby?" You ask, applying your cream.

"I'll ask my bodyguard. Don't worry, amour." He says, texting his bodyguard. "That cream smells amazing." He sniffs you from afar.

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"I'm tired." You yawn.

You rest your head on his chest, the sound of his heart is calming you even more.

"Sleep, mon amour." He whispers, hands caressing your back and your arm. "We can sleep until late tomorrow."

"That sounds amazing." You whisper back, eyes shutting off.

You feel his heart and his hands on your body. Relaxing you enough to fall asleep.

The only thing that takes you out of your relaxed state is the vibration of your phone. You open your eyes, searching for your phone.

You kick it with your hand, making it fall from the bed. You groan, letting the phone vibrate while you throw the blanket over your head.

"Ky, can you turn the ac off?" You ask, morning voice very evident. "Ky?"

You take the blanket off of you, turning your head to his side, he wasn't there.

"Ky, are you in the bathroom?" You ask, a little louder.

You shrug, not giving it mind. He sometimes has an early meeting before a match. It was a common thing.

You were about to fall back to sleep when your phone started vibrating again. You groan, stretching to pick it up from the floor, it was your friend.

"Good morning sunshine." You joke with her.

"Check my message." She says, stern tone.

You frown, putting her on speaker and opening your messages. "Are you okay?" You say while searching her message.

"I am, I just want to make sure you will be." She says as her tone stays the same.

"What?" You noticed she was texting you very early. Without success to get an answer from you. "What is this?"

You click on the link she sent you, the wifi from the hotel making it very hard.

"Girl, it's not loading." You say.

"Then try again, fuck!." She nervously say.

After a few tries, the page finally opened. You feel your heart sink.

Leaked pictures?

Leaked video?

Who was this girl who people now say is his girlfriend?

"Y/n?" Your friend calls you. "Are you still there?"

You don't answer, scrolling down to search the pictures. The page doesn't really show them.

"I'll call you back." You say, voice cracking. "Just give me a minute." You hang up the call.

You open X to search for the info you want. His name is a trending topic on X. Different variations of it. The name of the girl is also trending.

You press with shaky fingers on his last name.

The first thing you see is a collage of the "leaked" material. A compilation of very risky and sexy Polaroids.

The video, but not one, two.

Even when she has dark hair on the pictures and videos, she is the girl from the article. It was obvious.

One is this girl filming herself adjusting her clothes, she smiles at the camera and shows her middle finger, she then rotates the camera showing kylian sitting on a chair he has on his room in Madrid.

You know that chair, you helped him pick it up when he moved.

The other video is him filming, the girl now has a red lingerie set, you can't really see her face but you know the hands are his.

He was putting her in handcuffs, her hands on her back as he maneuvered to click the cuffs with only one hand.

What's sticking in the video is the gold bracelet you know he has. That because you were the one who give it to him.

She has pictures with his family, with his nephew and niece, and with Ethan. She has a picture with his mom and dad.

You can't help but cry, feeling sick. You let the phone fall back onto the floor. You sob the hurt your heart is feeling.

You don't know how much time you spend in the same position, crying. You heard the door opening. Making you shiver.

He closes the door slowly. Maybe he thinks you are still sleeping. He walks slowly to the doors that reveal the bed area.

He finds your eyes looking at him. The tears in your eyes, your wet cheeks. You take your sight away.

There's no point in lying.

You want to ask him, want to confront him, but you don't even know what to say, what to ask.

He sits back on the bed, he's silent.

The room would be dead silent if it weren't for your sobs. You have your head in your hands as you cry.

You get up, walking towards the bathroom. You slam the door. You keep crying there. You don't want to be in the same room as him.

You wash your face and brush your teeth. You try to get it together, even when you look like shit. Even with puffy eyes and a red face from crying.

You open the door, walking towards your things. You start packing your things. He's just looking at you.

"How long?" You turn to see him. "How long were you pretending to have me like this?" You ask him.

He doesn't answer. He only hang his head low.

"We were together for a year and eight months, Kylian." You sob. You try to calm yourself, taking a deep breath. "And I know, you never asked me to be anything, but I thought that after all the time we were together, you somehow cared about me."

"I do." He finally answer. "I care about you."

You shake your head, not believing his audacity. "You call this." You point at him and then back at you several times. "Caring?"

He shrugs. "She doesn't mean what you mean to me."

You laugh. He shivers at how your laugh sounds so different from your usual one.

"You can tell yourself that I mean a lot, but you introduce her to your family, you take her to your family trip, she knows the kids of your brother." You start to point all the things he did with her. "I don't even know your friend Tchaga." You whisper.

You feel humiliated, how you really thought that you matter for him. How you told yourself time after time that he didn't introduced you to his family because he wasn't ready.

"I feel so stupid." You whisper, trying not to cry. "I thought you loved me." You sob. "Cause I do, I love you."

He gets up from bed, walking over to you, but you shake your head no, taking a few steps back.

"I love you." He says. "I really do."

"I don't believe you, Kylian." You shake your head. You can't even look at him for longer than ten seconds.

"I hide our relationship because it was nobody's business." He explains.

His excuses felt like knives on the heart.

"Does she have any humor?" You ask, making him frown from how random was your question. "Does she laugh at your jokes? Can she look past the rumors? Does she know how it goes?" You keep asking him.

He doesn't even have time to process the questions you asked before you start questioning him again.

'Did you ever feel bad while you were doing what you did?" You question him. "Did you ever think of me while you were with her? Did you ever cared that I was in Paris, waiting for you?" Your eyes fill with tears. You try to blink them away. "I am in love with you."

"I'm in love with you too." He whines. "You need to believe me."

He tries to get closer once again. You walk away from him. Grabbing a change of clothes as your lock yourself inside the bathroom.

You quickly change off of your pajamas, not wanting to spend any more time with him. You were going to accept that he did what he did and that you can't change the fact that he lied to you.

When you exit the bathroom, he stands up from the bed. "We can fix this, please." He begs. "Don't do this to me."

You scuff. You push him away from you as you grab your shoes and put them on. You throw the pajama inside your luggage.

"If I ask you something, can you at least be honest?"

He nods, the glossy shine from his eyes almost making him look innocent.

"Was she worth losing me?"

[lizardkingeliot]

The thing is tho... okay.

Here's the thing.

AMC’s Interview with the Vampire has so effectively driven home the point that Lestat loves Louis without condition and will continue loving him to the same degree forever regardless of the passage of time and regardless of what Louis has done that sometimes it's easy to forget that, like... Louis doesn't actually know that. Sometimes I'm really just like what do you MEAN Louis de Pointe du Lac doesn't know he's Lestat de Lioncourt's heartbeat now and forever Louis de Pointe du Lac do you even watch the SHOW.

Anyway. I don't know what I'm trying to say here but I think it's something about the romantic angst of it all. The way Lestat is going to be forced to betray Claudia and Louis in Paris during the trial leaving Louis with the belief that Lestat doesn't want him. He will view this as a rejection and this is the reason why he is going to spend the next 77 years of his life with Armand. This is why he couldn't just reach out to Lestat post-Paris and try to work things out. I’m not saying anything new here, I know. Most of us have worked this out already. It took me a while to get there yesterday when I was digesting the episode because, like I said, Lestat’s love is so obvious it’s easy to forget Louis really doesn’t know. But listen….

Louis is deeply unwell in 1973 San Francisco. When Lestat asks him why he’s ill all I can think right now is… well. Because he doesn’t have you. Even before he walked into the sun he was ill because he doesn’t have you. Ill in New Orleans after the deed was done. Ill in Paris and sustaining himself with memories so vivid it was like Lestat was there in the room. Ill in San Francisco when Armand could have ended it all by relaying Lestat's words to Louis, and didn't. Ill in Dubai searching the well of memory trying to find his way back to something like sanity again...

But listen. Sam Reid said Lestat very much thinks Louis is dead after 1973. This tracks. It fits very neatly with the ~theme. With what this season is trying to do wrt the romantic angst of it all. Maybe Lestat is still locked up in a dungeon or underground somewhere sleeping, maybe he isn't. Maybe he's rotting away in New Orleans, wrecked with grief, thinking about walking out and greeting the sun every morning when it rises and he's reminded Louis is gone. I guess we'll find out soon enough…

But listen. There's not some great conclusion I'm trying to arrive at with this post. I'm just spinning my wheels thinking about how delicious the tropes on this show truly are. To separate a love like that, to have Louis believe Lestat doesn't want him and have Lestat believe that Louis is dead. Well, friends... that sounds like a recipe for a grand reunion to me. And maybe what I'm trying to do with this post is toss another coin in the wishing well of a potential season 3. Because you can't have a love story like this that is destined to end in a reunion only to come back the next season to pretend it doesn't matter. I don't know. Maybe you can. But I really hope they don't. I really hope when they come back together at the end of this nightmare, when Lestat is finally permitted to have a voice of his own, that voice will be echoing through the halls of their home, because he'll be telling his story to Louis.

[kari-go]

This was so much fun :D

They will change ofc. Mostly just Marinette and Chris get buffer xd

btw, the body birthmarks' placement was random.

Ramblings under cut

Marinette

Marinette has a typical teen girl body type. I don't think that her legs and arms would be weak tho. She helps around in the bakery and has to keep up with Kim. Sometimes she even runs with him in the morning (he takes a slower pace ofc).

She does have neat handwriting when she isn't in a rush, which doesn't happen that often honestly. Sometimes her notes are readable sometimes not, it's a gamble. She tries to make them look nice tho, she has a few highlighters she uses constantly.

Chris

Chris has a sort of hourglass shape. I always drew him as slender and like. Why did I do that. It's a crime that I haven't drawn him chubby like of course he will be. Mf sits around all day and goes on a walk sometimes like bruh. Other than that he has really veiny hands, another thing he got from Arthur along with his baby face lol (although, Arthur’s veins are even more prominent, so much they're kinda concerning). I like how I drew them :]. The baby face is not gonna change soon unless he stops transforming which he definitely won't do. Btw, despite being the weakest of the trio as a civilian, he's actually the strongest while transformed (with the lion ofc)

As for his handwriting, it's not bad. Sometimes he squishes the words together to not waste space and it ends up not being readable.

Stephan

He's already pretty athletic, he used to do competitive gymnastics and ice skating in his free time. Used to, he sprained his wrist (mostly out of stress and to occupy his mind to keep him from thinking about Viktor,,,, it's just.. a thing he does). Then they moved to Paris anyway, so he just stopped completely. He gained a little weight so he started running in the morning, to also get to know the city better. He also starts going to the gym with Kim after a while. His freckles are mostly on his face and neck

Surprise, his name is Štěpán lol. Would Štefan/Stefan be more fitting? Yes, but I like Štěpán more. Anyway, his handwriting is really neat, he's left-handed btw (idk just vibes). His notes are also nicely organized so he's the one to go to out of the yellow group if you need them.

Alya

Alya, my girl, I love her. She doesn't do much physical activity, she usually just sits around doing something on her phone or laptop. But after The Butterfly appears she starts running around more, to get the footage for Ladyblog. Her stamina gets so good omg

Her handwriting is not that bad. It honestly depends on the day and mood, sometimes she can't even read it herself xd

Chloe

Chloe is another athlete, she did gymnastics, track running, ice skating and sometimes ballet and fencing. Her legs are so powerful you have no idea. I know that's a lot of sports and her grades reflect that which is why she needs a tutor. She stopped ice skating, fencing, and ballet when she was younger and now she just does them for fun, when she gets the time ( ,,, she honestly doesn't lol). But now she also quit the other ones as she went into lycee because her grades were too bad and Andre put his foot down (he mostly just told her that Audrey would be disappointed oof). Btw, Aurore’s mom was her ballet teacher :) definitely no rivalry there 

She writes in cursive? She does, to make herself stand out and appear fancy. It does look fancy but she focuses on that too much so sometimes she doesn't write everything down :/

Kagami

My girl is BUFF. Her main focus is on fencing, which is how she met Chloe :D. She has a private gym wherever she lives, so she trains there. She also has an interest in archery and sometimes ice skating so she does that but also just regular sparring. But again, her main focus is fencing, she's already one of the best but she can be better. Her freckles are mostly on her face (her nose to be specific) and are more sparse on her body

Her handwriting, like everything else about her, is bold.

Lila

What do I say about her? She cares about her appearance a lot and she knows she's pretty. She exercises at home but also goes to the gym sometimes (she has to watch out for her asthma tho). Her self-control fails when it comes to sweets but it goes to her thighs mostly which she doesn't mind as much. Her tummy and fingers annoy her tho

Pretty handwriting. She tries to make her notes pretty but gets so occupied with that, that she doesn't even pay attention to the lesson and just the appearance (wow really subtle lol)

Nino

He's the least athletic out of the three besties, he doesn't even try to catch up anymore xd. He can barely run a lap (same tbh). 

His handwriting takes up space and is sometimes unreadable. That's not really an issue because he remembers stuff more by listening so he doesn't take notes. He just looks at Marinette’s (or Stephan’s after they meet) if he needs to.

Kim

Another athletic fella. He does track running and swimming. He did track sooner than swimming but he likes swimming more and wants to focus on it (it's also how he and Ondine met). And like I mentioned before, he runs in the mornings and then starts going to the gym with Steph. So yeah, another strong legs lol

His handwriting takes up SO much space. He goes through so many notebooks, it's also not that readable xd and it's not like he can focus on the study sessions with Nino and Marinette, they usually just end up playing UMS3. (he always loses if you're asking)

Juleka

Jules! She's pretty thin. She walks around a lot and forgets to eat sometimes. Especially when she's studying. Her collarbone is really prominent, she also has bony hands.

Her handwriting is small, sometimes unreadable

Luka

He has a belly button piercing!!!! (very important information imo) That's it. bony hands also

His handwriting is shit. You will not understand half of the stuff (unless you're Juleka).

Sabrina

Just an average teen girl's body, she exercises at home at least once a day.

The best person to go to for notes. So nice, so readable, so neat

Alix

Her legs are strong, she just flies around all day. She skates to school every day (which is like 45 mins on foot). Then she goes to a skate park or a roller skating rink.

Her handwriting is somehow worse than Luka's, like it's completely unreadable, just cat scratches.

Mylene

She loves walking around, just taking in the atmosphere and nature

She has really small handwriting, the words look lonely on the page

Max

He sits around a lot but he makes sure to exercise to make sure his body is healthy. He also watches his diet.

His handwriting is the best out of the class but his notes look less nice than Sabrina’s. He always writes down his full name

Rose

She has a hard time gaining and maintaining weight (even if we ignore her allergies) so she eats a lot and doesn't exercise much. Her chronic cough also doesn't help

Her notes are always decorated, there are so many cute drawings and stickers. It's so adorable

Nathaniel

He's a lot like Chris, except he gets forced to do stuff by Alix

He doesn't have the prettiest handwriting. He usually just ends up drawing all over the page

Ivan

His little sister is a back killer, she wants to be on his shoulders all the time.

His handwriting is on the smaller side

Aurore

She did ballet since she knew how to walk. She slowed down a little, wanting to focus on her grades and the weather competition she loses.

Pretty notes, she doesn't use highlighter and decorations that much, just headers

Ondine

Swimmer, she's like a fish. She has pretty wide shoulders. She has freckles everywhere.

Her handwriting is so round and spacey. She has a lot of pretty highlighters. Also her last name is Rosseau :D!

Marc

They don't exercise much, or at all. They like to take a walk when their inspiration is low

Their handwriting is nice, but it can get messy when they're really inspired and just write with no breaks.

[alicedrawslesmis]

I know I just said I didn't want to just be complaining about everything so I'll try to word this in a more constructive way asdfghjkl

It's hard to be an Eponine fan in a world where the musical -and On My Own specifically- is sooooo mainstream. Because imo as much as On My Own itself is kind of a half-decent, if simplified, encapsulation of Eponine's struggle with her love for Marius if you analise the lyrics in isolation, the musical as a whole, her role in the narrative as the unrequited love diva (I'm also simplifying here. I don't think this is super fair to the anglo musical, but compared to the book there's no question of how they reworked her into a glamorous 80s diva contralto because musical theatre has usually very strict gender roles), did her so dirty. So dirty. And imo often her character is reduced to her pining in fandom as a result. And I don't like that, personally.

I love that girl so much. I love that she is just young enough to still be a child but adult enough to be aware of her social role. She has one foot in the gamin life and one foot in the adult world. I love the tragedy that is the fact that she likes the beauty and pomp of high society girls and wish she could have silk shoes but knowing she can't.

And also being super resigned to her class despite it, she doesn't believe she ever will have any of that. She resents that too, somewhat. The tragedy of her knowing that she couldn't be with Marius because of his social class and her accepting that (angrily? sadly?). I love her self-banishment as his guard dog because of this. I love her drunk sailor voice. I love how manipulative she is and that she isn't Marius's friend at all. He's just her one neighbor who wasn't a total asshole one time. He was, later. But not at first. And she can't be in his head and know he thinks she's kinda despicable because crime because Marius is a judgemental little shithead.

And Eponine isn't an idealist, she's resigned to her position. I understand why she gets paired with grantaire in fics but her canon narrative parallel is Javert, they both believe they are excluded from society from their outcast position and so become the watchdogs for it. Eponine a kind of guardian (in her own words a devil, not an angel) and Javert the same. That's why he's the one person who sees her in the barricade, he's the same as her. Marius saw her but that's only cause he had a use for her in that moment, as soon as she didn't he forgot all about it.

I think also Gavroche, with his ability to be kind of a figure above the narrative, with his gamin skills of being almost omnipresent is something Eponine used to have, but with her age she's starting to lose that. She's starting to grown old enough that she's required to be IN the world and not supercede it. Gavroche is also almost there, if he had been allowed to grow up he would've lost that ability too. They both inhabit this sort of magical surreal world superimposed on our own.

A lot of Les Mis and Notre Dame de Paris can be kinda described as magical realism, I would go so far as calling them urban fantasy. And characters like Babet, Thenardier sometimes, Gavroche, Eponine (and Javert sometimes as well) are inhabiting this magically charged layer. This reality that's imposed Over the real world.

Talking about that One Series Of Wizard Books is a bit passé rn so uh. Doctor Who. Particularly the initial New Who seasons before they got that huge budget. That's a good parallel to what I'm getting at. The real world is still the same but there are certain characters that inhabit this mystical overlayer and are able to transverse from one to the other (Javert can't really because he is stuck forever outside and the second he understands that you CAN'T be an unbiased outsider who only enforces the norm without participating he freaks out and literally dies about it). Eponine is right in the eye of the storm tho. She manipulates reality to get her way, to die with Marius, because that's as close as she can get to being with him. And she manipulates reality to protect him too. Contradictions be damned. She has many contradictory feelings that make her complex and cool and an awesome character whom I love and wish would stop being reduced to the glamurous mysical theatre role with a single black stain on her face and a beautiful actor and a big unrequited love song about a random boy (whose personality was also changed for the musical and I argue is probably the character that was most fucked up by it in the public perception because he's such an weird little self-insert of an even weirder guy. But I get it, the musical is long enough as it is).

Anyway, I wish eponine could be more of a mongrel, a little gremlin. A little rat child that's just beginning to grow into an adult and is self aware of her role in the narrative society. She's a teenage girl which already sucks to go through when you're not constantly starving and cold and being forced by your father to work and do con jobs. Marius is the object she attaches herself to, but it could've been literally anything. Javert did that with the social order, he protects and guards it. She just chose Some Guy instead. Which, we all have that one friend who does that too. Like girl you're too good for him. Come on let's get you sone ice cream. And clean clothes and a roof. Literally anything. Bread.

I think if Eponine had a roof over her head and like, food on the regular she would forget Marius exists. Same as Cosette if she had moved to England. Like he'd be that one intense crush they had as teenagers. Can't say the same for him tho. He would hold onto that for the rest of time.

[nicherayyy]

OKAY so I just had an idea. la squadra x child reader. BUT, reader got attacked by a stand that makes them age to a teenager and now la squadra has to deal with them and their rebellious behavior 💀

la squadra dealing with puberty is literally the funniest thing ever

La Squadra x Teenager Reader

How did this even happen?

One moment you're a sweet little child

And because of a weird stand you're now.. this

An angry teenager.

Oh bless their hearts 'cause dealing with teens is hard

Risotto's still in shock

The poor guy believed that you'll always be an adorable, innocent child

Well jokes on him

But he understands at some point

He wasn't the best in his teenage years either

But oh my god why are you so angry all the time

He didn't even do anything

"You look angry, can I do anything to help you?"

"You can leave me alone"

"Excuse me??"

He can't wait for you to come back to normal

Prosciutto is the angry one here

Don't you dare to raise your voice at him or talk back

No. Just no.

He misses the old you

And he wants to beat the shit out of that stand user.

Give him his innocent child back

And to everyone's surprise, you try to be more calmer around Pros

It's just not worth it to talk back when he's around

I feel so sorry for Pesci

He just can't see you being so angry

Why are you angry? Did he do something to upset you? Or was that the others?

Yesterday you told him about your favourite ice cream flavour and today you won't even talk to him

It's too much for him to handle

It just pains him so much to see you all angsty

Formaggio misses the old you so much!!

Where's his little buddy??

And who's that angry teen??

Tries to joke around you to lighten your mood

Well.. dad jokes is not the best way to cheer you up

"What do a tick and the Eiffel Tower have in common?"

"..."

"They're both in Paris si- Hey where are you going?"

It is the most hilarious thing for Illuso

But your attitude pisses him off sometimes

"What's with your angry face?"

"I don't know. What's with your miserable life?"

*gasp* "you little-"

Yeah, you really damaged his ego

Don't worry, he'll live

Illuso really misses the old you

You always said that he's cool and now when you're a teenager..

Melone is the most chill in all this chaos

No, of course he wants your old self back, but he's not so dramatic about it

He knew that sooner or later puberty will hit you

And it won't be pretty.

Tries to be on your good side all the time

It's pretty easy for him tho

Just don't start the conversation first and agree with everything you say

The great tactic btw

Ghiaccio..

I don't even know who I feel sorry for

Him, you, or the whole La Squadra who listens to your bickering all the time

There are no such days where you two are not arguing about the smallest thing

And it always starts so randomly-

It's so hard to keep up with all your shouting

So the whole team made it their mission to keep you two away from each other

Just until they can get you back to normal

Which they all hope, will happen soon

[i-only-want-endless-happiness]

Since Riordan attended the Eras Tour let's talk about pjo swiftie characters (according to me ofc)

Annabeth= you can't convince she isn't a swiftie i know she is, but not many people know cause she thinks it's lowkey embarassing to be into Taylor, but she's totally a Speak now, 1989 stan she was screaming "Better than revenge" every day and every night when Rachel was into the picture, also she totally made Percy listen to "You are in love" cause it reminds her of them. Also also "New Romantics" is her anthem. She also loves "This is why we can't have nice things" cause it remindes her of Luke. I could actually go on forever but i'm gonna stop here now

Piper = duh of course she is, she is a Lover and Red girly, confused, romantic, hopeful in true love even after being hurt, she's on the "Paper Rings", "Me", "Lover" the song, "The Man" "I think he knows" ecc side of Lover and on the "The moment i knew", "Begin again", "Everything has changed", "The lucky one" "Stay,stay,stay" side of Red

Frank= i know in my heart, soul and mind he's a swiftie too, he actually takes Hazel to Taylor's concerts and randomly sends her Taylor's songs that reminds him of Hazel, he's the kind of guy who proposes during "Love story" cause lowkey is an hopless romantic. He was screaming crying every liryc of "You belong with me" at night in the Argo II when he thought Leo had a thing for Hazel. He gifted Midnights to Hazel cause the album is so her according to him. To me he is a Speak now girlie

Will= he's one of the biggest swifties at chb, there's literally nothing you can say to convince me otherwise. He's into her country albums more but actually lover all of her music, Taylor is his comfort singer (besides his mom of course) he's a Fearless girly and listens to "Fearless" the song, during long operations cause it helps him, "Hey Stephen" makes him think of Nico as well as "New year's day" cause he's a simp and "Dancing with our hands tied" cause that's literally his pov in Tartarus,idc, and of course "The best day" makes him think of his mom. "Change" and "Jump then fall" are some of his favorite Taylor's songs ever. I know my boy cries to "Mirrorball" and "This is me trying". You can't tell me he didn't sing "Our song" to Nico at least once

Percy,Hazel and Nico are Taylor enthusiasts, not quite fans but their s.o introduced them to her so now they appreciate Taylor too

Percy= he's a 1989 girlie, he loves "Welcome to New York" and thinks "Bad blood" is one of her best songs ever. After Annabeth made him listen to "YAIL" he fell in love wih it and it's now their song, he screams to "Haunted" when he feels disappointed by his father or by the Gods in general. He loves "The great war" too cause it reminds him of Annabeth as well as "Mine". And he loves "Long live" cause it just fits him and his story

Hazel= she's into Midnights (not only cause Frank gifted it to her, even tho that definetly made the album gain some extra points) "Bejeweled" and "Karma" are some of her favorite songs of the whole album but she cried the first time she listened to "You're on your own kid" so it has a special place on her heart. She dedicated "Lavander Haze" and "Sweet nothings" to Frank and it made him a bit emotional. Also she loves "Paris" cause she has taste. She absolutely adores "The outside" and the Debut album in general

Nico= i know what you're thinking hes a Reputation supporter but i actually see him more as a Folklore/Evermore girlie and a Lover one too, unlike Piper he's more on "The archer", "Cruel summer", "It's nice to have a friend" and "Soon you'll get better" side of Lover cause u know my boy is a little bit of a mess, and of course he loves "Daylight", "Cornelia street" (actually this song is his religion we know he has low self esteem) and "Aterglow" cause they make him think of Will. He thinks "No body, no crime" is probably Taylor best dark bop and obviously he loves "Gold rush" but i think he relates it back to his old crush on Percy, "Evermore" the song, is one of his favorite on the whole album, as well as "Long story short". I know Nico secretely cries to "Tolerate it". He dedicated "Invisible string" to Will (actually if you read TSATS without being a fucking hater, you'll know this is lowkey, very lowkey tho, canon) he loves "Peace" and "The Lakes" cause he relates to them deeply. I still think he loves Rep too like "Look what you made me do" it's totally his jam "I did something bad" is his go to song when he wants to be in a good mood and of course "Gorgeous"and "Delicate" cause he's secretely a romantic and down bad for his boyfriend.

If you don't know Taylor this won't make sense but if you have time and want new music give those songs a go, cause they're really good trust me u will not regret it

Just few lyrics to some of the songs to let u know what i'm talking about

BETTER THAN REVENGE= The story starts when it was hot and it was summer and, I had it all I had him right there where I wanted him she came along, got him alone, and let's hear the applause she took him faster than you could say sabotage

YAIL= One night he wakes strange look on his face pauses, then says you're my best friend and you knew what it was he is in love

NEW ROMANTICS= We're so young but we're on the road to ruin we play dumb but we know exactly what we're doing we cry tears of mascara in the bathroom honey, life is just a classroom

TIWWCHNT= It was so nice being friends again there I was giving you a second chance but you stabbed me in the back while shaking my hand

THE MAN= I'm so sick of running as fast as I can wondering if I'd get there quicker if I was a man and I'm so sick of them coming at me again cause if I was a man then I'd be the man

TLO= And they tell you that you're lucky, but you're so confused cause you don't feel pretty, you just feel used

YBWM= I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night i'm the one who makes you laugh when you know you're 'bout to cry and I know your favorite songs and you tell me about your dreams think I know where you belong think I know it's with me

FEARLESS= And I don't know how it gets better than this you take my hand and drag me head first fearless and I don't know why but with you I'd dance in a storm in my best dress

HEY STEPHEN= Hey Stephen, i know looks can be deceiving but i know i saw a light in you [...] cause i can't help it if you look like an angel can't help it if I wanna kiss you in the rain, so come feel this magic i've been feeling since I met you

DWOHT= I loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us so, baby, can we dance through an avalanche? And say, say that we got it i'm a mess, but i'm the mess that you wanted

MIRRORBALL= I'm still a believer but I don't know why i've never been a natural all I do is try, try, try

TIMT= They told me all of my cages were mental so I got wasted like all my potential and my words shoot to kill when I'm mad i have a lot of regrets about that i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere fell behind on my classmates, and I ended up here

Bad Blood= Now we got problems and I don't think we can solve 'em you made a really deep cut and baby, now we got bad blood

TGW= We can plant a memory garden say a solemn prayer, place a poppy in my hair there's no morning glory, it was war, it wasn't fair and we will never go back to that bloodshed, crimson clover the worst was over my hand was the one you reached for all throughout the Great War

BEJEWELED= Best believe I'm still bejeweled when I walk in the room i can still make the whole place shimmer

KARMA= Ask me what I learned from all those years ask me what I earned from all those tears ask me why so many fade, but I'm still here

YOYOK= Everything you lose is a step you take so make the friendship bracelets take the moment and taste it you've got no reason to be afraid you're on your own, kid yeah, you can face this you're on your own, kid you always have been

THE OUTSIDE= I've been a lot of lonely places i've never been on the outside

THE ARCHER= Who could ever leave me, darling? But who could stay? Dark side, I search for your dark side but what if I'm alright, right, right, right here? And I cut off my nose just to spite my face then I hate my reflection for years and years

CORNELIA STREET= And I hope I never lose you, hope it never ends id never walk Cornelia Street again that's the kind of heartbreak time could never mend

AFTERGLOW= I blew things out of proportion, now you're blue put you in jail for something you didn't do i pinned your hands behind your back, thought I had reason to attack, but no [...] Sorry that I hurt you i don't wanna do, I don't wanna do this to you i don't wanna lose, i don't wanna lose this with you

TOLERATE IT= I wait by the door like I'm just a kid use my best colors for your portrait lay the table with the fancy shit and watch you tolerate it if it's all in my head tell me now tell me I've got it wrong somehow i know my love should be celebrated but you tolerate it

INVISIBLE STRING= Time, mystical time cutting me open, then healing me fine were there clues I didn't see? And isn't it just so pretty to think all along there was some invisible string tying you to me

PEACE= All these people think love's for show but I would die for you in secret the devil's in the details, but you got a friend in me would it be enough if I could never give you peace?

LWYMMD= But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time i got a list of names, and yours is in red, underlined

[sweetlesson]

{I haven't been here in a hot minute and I can't remember if I've explained to y'all why that is or not. Just in case, I'd like to briefly go over what's up with me right now.}

{I'm putting this under a cut because it's kinda a lot, but tldr is: there's a lot going on and I stay on mobile on another account rn. I do suggest reading the last paragraph for contact purposes tho!}

{My family is trying to get moved into a new house, and while we're now very close to closing on one, we still don't have anything secured. So I am at once nervous about something going sideways here and at the same time busy packing anyways.}

{In addition, I've been trying to experiment with a new diet and exercise plan and it has been a really rough ride of it. Any exercise for an extended period of time seems to leave me in more pain than is supposed to be there? And so I'm spending a lot of time and energy trying to find something that I can actually do consistently.}

{And in addition to all of these things, we are also getting close to the holidays so we're starting to plan for our usual paries and events that we hold for all of these holidays. So while most of those won't be for a while yet, I might be spending time experimenting with cooking (Saguaro would be so proud haha).}

{Needless to say most of this has given me next to no time to be on my computer, so I've been popping in on mobile and just. Getting to stuff as it pops up. Haven't had many notifications for this account (or for Cyrano) so I just haven't been coming onto this account. And it'll probably stay that way for a good bit.}

{If you need me, DMing me here probably isn't the way to do it, just because Discord will not notify me if I get a DM. If you have a Discord, that's going to be the easiest way to get in touch with me. Alternatively, you can send an ask or reply to something which will get notified, or you can DM Hanekoma's account at @strawberry-barista which is the current default account I stay on when I'm not here. Here's my discord, but please only mututals add me!}

{If you made it through all of that, thank you for sticking with me snskak. I'll see you guys as soon as I can. XD}

[vampire-sugar]

Hi. I saw your recent post. I'm not Naylra, so I obviously can't answer for her. I'm just going to speak for myself as a Loustat fan. I know you think some people's reactions to Jassad have been weird and they are "going out of your way to make fun of ppl who wanna see jassad", but I think all of this is just a counter-reaction to being told for months that Loumand/Jassad were the leads of season 2. So to have the show have a week of promo with no Jassad (but just Jam), it felt like vindication to some people. And honestly, I get it. Being told for months in very rude ways that WE were delusional and that we needed to accept that Loumand would be centered in season 2...and then to have the promo week go like that, it felt like the universe was doing some humbling. Now I do think there will be Jassad and Loumand content soon. I just think a lot of people are acting out of places of hurt (including myself). Personally, I never left bad comments or anything like that. I just laughed too myself about how everything went down this week. I understand the importance of POC queer couple and that people want to see them....but I don't think I will ever forget the way Loumand fans made me feel. I hope the fandom can become better...on all sides. This fandom can be so negative.

Sorry that ppl were mean to u that’s not cool + glad u didn’t contribute to the negativity. I still think that behavior regarding jassad was weird tho and I personally think that from the teasers + the end of s1 + the paris part of the iwtv book that loumand will be v important and heavily featured in s2 but idk maybe im crazy for thinking so and it will be mostly loustat stuff with loumand only sometimes. But for the good of the fandom and to increase positivity i think we should all manifest jassad content soon!! ✨

[notesofarichlycolorednight]

s2ep12 sapotis

i actually think how they defeated the akuma was really clever, and it actually had chat noir's power be useful. and i thought it was funny the only time plagg wants to do his job is when his cheese is in danger. but that's all the praise i will give it.

i think that introducing new miraculous and new superheroes in this way is clumsy and doesn't make a lot of sense.

first of all, why didn't we spend any time with marinette and master fu as he taught her about the miraculous in the miracle box and what their powers granted?

bc it really breaks that suspension of disbelief when marinette goes to master fu and he asks her to choose from what, like 20 different miraculous that we, the audience, know nothing about and assume that she knows all of their super powers when we didn't see it. i'm not saying they have to spoil the surprise of the superpowers each one grants, but they could've at least shown us a montage of marinette learning about them so we have some knowledge that she did spend time learning more about miraculous.

then there's a line from chat noir talking to rena rouge about her superpower, as if he suddenly knows, too, when he actually knows way less than marinette. bc he doesn't even know master fu exists, and for some strange reason, master fu doesn't decide to let him in on the secret until he threatens to not save paris. yknow, his job. tho that's a spoiler for a later episode, so i digress. the line just struck me as very strange, considering he doesn't know much of anything.

i'm surprised he didn't react more to the fact that ladybug said she had a plan and came back with a new superhero, or the fact that there are more miraculous that ladybug clearly knows about but that chat noir doesn't. that seems really inconsistent, given the later stink he makes about not knowing what ladybug does.

i also really hate how inconsistent their changing back is. bc they say a few minutes, but way more than just a few pass by the time they do. and when they say they do, and when their miraculous starts beeping also seems very inconsistent and solely plot-driven. whatever is the most dramatic.

the whole convo between chat noir and rena rouge about it is also really weird? like why go over the fact that she's going to change back soon when we already know this? why should the audience assume that her miraculous works any differently than ladybug and chat noir's? why couldn't they have skipped over her worry about changing back and just dove right into her not revealing who she was to chat noir?

speaking of rena rouge, i think it was a really bad way to introduce more miraculous and new supers. bc i feel like if a teen were given a magical item that turned them into a superhero, they would need way more time to adjust than a few seconds. ladybug didn't even tell alya what her power does, she just took off. she said she'd explain along the way but we never actually get any of that on screen?

also the fact that the perils of paris have to come to a screeching halt just to introduce a new super is extremely clumsy and awkward. you can't halt your action to introduce a new super! you need to do that sooner! it's just a bad set-up all around.

the fact that master fu is hesitant to give out more than two, which is strange in and of itself, considering he handed out the two most powerful. like yes, you need ladybug at the very least to cleanse the akuma, but like if you're so worried about that, why give the two most powerful out? especially the two ones that when combined will grant someone's wish regardless of the laws of the universe? bc they're supposed to balance each other out? ladybug can't work without the black cat? we've already seen she can, so that's a moot point.

and why would hawkmoth care that there are more miraculous in the city. only the ladybug and black cat miraculous can grant his wish right? why does having a guardian in the city so important to him?

not to mention, this further provides evidence they designed hawkmoth as a villain before designing the butterfly miraculous. bc ladybug's cleansing power relies on butterflies to cleanse in the first place.

i got off on a tangent, but the whole set-up is a house of cards. you examine it too closely and the whole thing comes tumbling down.

master fu is hesitant to give out more miraculous, so if ladybug needs help, it forces her to go to him in the middle of a battle to get another one, then she has to take the time to find a temporary super, then they have to make it back to chat noir. like that's just really bad writing, but also really bad logistics within the show itself.

finally, i think it's great that they're trying to incorporate more of alya's heritage into the show, but i find it a little suspicious that not only do all the sources i find about the sapotis lead back to this episode specifically, but also that the sapotis multiply after eating, which reminded me of an older movie made in hollywood called "gremlins." like i guess it's fine to reference a movie like that, but why butcher a creole fable to do it? esp bc i also found a tweet from the creator where he goes, "yes it's definitely a creole fable! i can't provide a source! but i'm sure fans from overseas can give better context."

like obvi, as a white man, he can't exactly speak on creole myths and fables, and i certainly don't want him to. but like can he at least show he did some research on them, actually? can he show he put some care into this episode? show that he like, actually did the work? like he could've at least said, "yeah, i read it in this book or article on this website [link or source]. and i spoke with some ppl from that area/culture about it. and i highly recommend you look these resources up, and find some of your own too! as this is not something i can talk about in-depth." and then like, invite fans from that culture to talk more about it in a thread or the comments or whatever it is they call it on twitter.

like it's really not that hard.

i did find someone on tumblr find some resources about it, though. and i will link that here. it's late and i can't verify these sources on my own. but maybe i'll come back to it if i plan to make this rewatch into something bigger like a deep dive video essay

[zerobaseonefics]

THATS SO SWEET OF YOU😔🫶 i was actuslly thinking about writing to you everyday but i wasnt motivated enough to do anything🔌

naahhh cuz i hate the majority of rich kids like bro just stfu sometimes😐

for me its not that early because in one month we literally have holidays👲 thank you<3 and my results should be there like next week and in 2 weeks im going to paris for a day (yeah a day💀) because we have like the french classes right and on tuesday night we are going to leave so we should be in the morning in france (its a 6-7 hour drive) then walking all day with free time of course (i found a cafe (kick cafe i think it was) and i want to visit it and buy some albums there because i cant find a store that is like near le louvre with kpop albums🔌) and then at night we are going back to germany

YES HOPE IT WILL BE SOON!!! BROS VOCALS MAKE ME GO CRAAAAZY AND TIK TOK SCARY APP FRFR

i will probably turn off anon on the ride back to germany/already in germany and send you here pictures if thats even possible👲 and idk why im so scared about turning anon off like my profile doesnt even have anything at all just some reposts BUT ANYWAYSSSSS THIS WEEK WAS SO SHORT??? LIKE IT WAS JUST MONDAY YESTERDAY WATAFAK

~🤍

hEYY PUREEE <3 that's okay, just try and come once a week at least so i can make sure you're doing good

girl the rich kids at my school (...well 99% of my schoolmates are that's why i get called a proletarian LMFAOEFJ) are SO annoying them bitches be racist and classist and UGH i can't stand them

Ohhhh yeah i forgot in germany your summer break is earlier than ours! you go back to school earlier as well, right? like mid august

XHHZJHFKJAHK WHAT ARE YOU DOING IN A DAY IN PARIS 💀 tbh i'm a very bad french cuz i've never been to paris 💀 i was supposed to go this summer first the first time but i have to save money since the 3rd year in my college has to be overseas and yeah i'm too broke for this so no paris trip </3

if you still don't feel comfortable with turning off anon take your time okay? don't feel pressured into doing it, i understand it can't be difficult !! i'll be glad to be able to see the pics you'll take tho

FR THIS WEEK WENT BY SOOO FAST ?? I DIDN'T EXPECT THAT SINCE I HAD SO MANY EXAMS

[spidybaby]

Could you do one where they date and they had a very bad breakup and years later they reunite and he asks her to marry him

She | part 1

Summary: You can't put the pieces of a broken plate back together and expect it to be alright.

Warnings: cursing.

I chose to separate this in parts because I think one only part will be a little too long. 😭🥺

"You know you can go and talk to her, right?" Sergio tells me, noticing how my eyes are glued to her. "And say what?... sorry for broking up to you when you needed me the most? ... or, sorry for broking up with you and having my assistant delivered the message?"

Sergio looked at me with lifted eyebrows, not knowing that part of the story. "You told your assistant to break up with your girlfriend for you?" His head is shaking with disappointment, "you'll be lucky if she even acknowledges you. I'll punch you in the balls if I was her."

Two years ago, Kylian and you broke up. He was away for a big match. You fought the night before over the phone because he asked you not to take a big job opportunity, not wanting you to leave Paris and move to London.

He told his family, friends, and even his close teammates that you broke up because of "different lifestyles". Knowing damn well that was not the case.

He blames it on being scared of the distance, being scared of you finding someone better. Stalking your instagram from his brothers own profile. You blocked him as soon as you stepped out of his apartment. But he couldn't blame you.

You were different, your hair was lighter, your posture was more secure, and your smile was bigger even tho your eyes weren't shining as they used to.

That London job was the start of all the big things you were now doing, being a CEO of a successful company was not easy, but you made it look like it. You weren't the ex of Kylian Mbappé anymore. You were a successful businesswoman.

Your return to Paris was a secret for all your past friends, not wanting him to find out. Not having the energy to deal with him, after what he did to you.

You knew he was looking at you. You can see his reflection on the glass in front of where you and your friend were standing. Was the cold shoulder enough of a reaction? Yes and no. You wanted to slap him. Maybe make him feel a minimum of physical pain as a payment of all the tears, all the bad days you had, all the problems he caused you.

But you would never, and he knew that. You weren't the one to fight, being the calm one between the two of you, always choosing words over anything else. He was the opposite. Football leaves that rage and anger he uses in the field, and sometimes a match not being enough, he would pick small fights. The ones you didn't engage with.

"You want to go?" Lisa, your friend asks you, noticing your body language. "No" is all you can say. Not wanting to hide from him, you learned to live with the thought of him wanting you away was hard, especially when all he used to do was tell you to never leave him, to stick by his side, he was the one doing just that.

After two hours, you announced you were going home. Leaving Lisa and your other friends at the party you made your way out.

"Y/n, hi," you turn to the voice, Tchaga and old friend say, walking towards you. "Oh hi!" You wave excited. "I've missed you so much, " he says and hugs you hard. "Are you back or just on vacation?" You smiled at him."I'm on vacation, but I'll be staying." You say excited, happy to finally announce to one of your friends your plans. "That's amazing Chérie, I can't wait to hear everything about London, but that's for later. I'll dm you on Instagram so you can give me your number".

You say your goodbyes, and you walk to your car. You notice another car parked too close to yours, not leaving any space for you to open your door and enter. "Great," you say, turning around and asking the guard at the entrance to help you find the owner.

He asked you to walk back to your car, finding the person who owns it. You do as you're told and walk back. The night was chilly but not too much. The perfect weather for your liking.

"Hey, I'm sorry," you hear. "I wasn't the one who parked. It was my wife." He says, paying attention to his jacket, trying to find his keys.

You smile a little, noticing Sergio so busy with his jacket. "Blaiming this on Pilar, I see," you smile at him, "I don't recall seeing her inside. Is she really there?" You ask jokingly.

Sergio smiled and got closer to give you a hug. "Never miss the chance to make fun of me," he laughs while hugging you "to answer. Yes, she's inside." You laugh at his words.

"You're leaving this early? ... what happened to the girl who used to leave until six am?" You look at the distance, wondering the same. "She's tired and has to wake up super early." You didn't lie. You do have to wake up early, but not that early.

"Pilar and I missed you, we really do," he hugs you again. Sergio was that person who was the father of the group, giving advice and helping as much as he could. "When are you leaving?" He asks. "I'm not, I'm back." Sergio can't help the smile that creeps. "I'm happy for you. Let me move and you can be on your way."

You mumble a small Thank you, and as soon as he moves you enter you car. You notice his car is now properly parked and pulling down the window, "Don't worry, I'm not telling Pilar about this," he laughs and says goodbye.

The sound of your heels was echoing through the long corridor of the building. You were walking next to Nasser Al-Khelaïfi, he asked you to help him with his own company, not having the time to direct it himself due to his president occupations on PSG.

He asks for the meeting to be help at his home, a big resident in the heart of Paris. Beautiful for sure. Totally secured, for obvious reasons.

"Bienvenue chez moi" (welcome to my home), he says happily. "Merci" you say in return. "Let's go to the balcony. The view is amazing," he says, walking you there. "How was the flight?" He says, sitting on his big couch. He didn't lie. The view was extraordinary. "It was amazing. Thank you for sending your plane."

Nasser proposed the idea of you working with him. At first, you didn't accept because your job was amazing, you loved your coworkers, and you had one of the best experiences working there. However, when he offered you most benefits and a bigger salary for a bit of less responsibility you had at your job, you really thought about it. Accepting at the end because you missed your family and it was a better labor opportunity, growth wise.

"We want to treat you with the best. Our new president deserves it. Let's have some champagne on your honor, y/n, " he says, opening a big champagne bottle. "Cheers," he says, giving you a glass and touching it with his.

The conversation was him telling you more about the job, more about what you needed to do, and even a little personal with him asking about your family. Nothing special.

"Mister Al-Khelaïfi" one of his service workers says, "You have a meeting at 10:45 and it's currently 10:40, the gentleman is waiting for you," you discreetly look at your watch, noticing that the time went super quickly. "Would you mind if I invite him to meet you, y/n? I want to introduce you to one of my team guys," Nasser asks."No sir, it's completely fine," you weren't going to say no to him.

"Please ask him to come out here," the girl nods and goes back inside. "You're going to love him. He's a special one," you only smile at his words.

Your back was facing the door, so you didn't see when this man walked into the room. "Ah, my golden boy." Nassar gets up and moves to the door. "Kylian Mbappé, the man himself honors me with his presence." When Nasser says his name, you can't help but choke with the champagne. "Oh miss, you okay?" You boss asks "yes... I'm fine, sorry."

You get up and turn to face him, his face all serious, his eyes all dull but beautifully shiny due to the sunlight, his beard was new, never seen that before. God, he looks so good.

"Bonjour, Kylian," you say, stretching his hands, "Bonjour" is all he says, taking your hands in yours. You can't help but look at the hands intertwine. You pull your hand back quickly, hating but loving the feeling. "Take a seat, Kylian, please join us." Nasser can't feel the tension, but you do. "y/n is the new president of my company," he announced.

Kylian can't keep his eyes off of you, the way the sun is making you look out of this world, "That's amazing, such a smart girl"

You can't help but smile a little. Mumbling a small "Thank you".

"Kylian is our best player at PSG. He's a star." But you already knew that. He was amazing since Monaco. He's been amazing since always.

"Actually, we have a game in a few days, be my guest and come with me," he says, all excited. For the first time, your eyes left Kylians. "Oh, thank you, Nasser, but I'll have to decline, I have so much to do with the moving and the paperwork..." but he wasn't taking a no for an answer. "Let me hire somebody to help you, it's my treat to you. But you're coming with me."

You just nod and smile. Even if you want to scream, you know better than that. "Well, Mister Al-Khelaïfi, I'll love to stay, but I have a few meetings of my own, I'll let you and Kylian talk alone." You say standing up, not wanting to be around him that much longer.

"Wait, let me bring you a small something I got for you. Kylian, please wait for me, just a second." He gets up and gently pushes you down my the shoulders. "Take you time, Nass," is all Kylian says.

The silence is uncomfortable, is thick, and it's tiring. "I like that color on you," you turn your head to his side, narrowing your eyes at his words. You only nod slowly, not engaging. "And your hair looks amazing, I like this lighter shade" you can only nod again.

He stayed quiet after that, thinking what else he could do. "So, your mom still likes mashed potatoes?" He pouted his lips out of anxiety, wanting for you to answer. After a few seconds without an answer, he gives up. He put his head down. "Does yours still have that old motorcycle?" You finally answer.

He smiled. His mom does have that motorcycle, the same one you once tried to ride, failing astronomically. "She does." You nod one more time, not knowing what to say.

But before he can ask something again, Nasser announces himself. "Here it is. It's a special little something for you." He walks with a big orange bag in hand, your eyes widen in surprise. You were expecting a bottle of wine not an hermes gift.

"You can go home and open it. If you don't like the color of shape, you tell me, and I change it." He hands you the bag and you take it smiling. "Thank you, sir. I'm sure I'm going to love it."

This time, nothing is stopping you from leaving. "I'll see you monday, sir. Thank you for your hospitality." You shake your hand with his "goodbye to you too, Kylian." Not expecting an answer, you grab your purse and with gift in hand walk out of the house.

"She's all that, don't you think?" Nasser asks Kylian. Nodding to respond, smile growing. "She is."

"It's a fucking birkin" Lisa says looking at the bag Nassar gave you. "A BLACK ONE THAT JEAN PAUL GAULTIER DESIGNED." You look at her with a smile, not expecting her reaction to be this one. She owned a few birkins on her own. "Shhh, Lisa, people are staring. But yeah, it's beautiful." You say touching the bag.

Lisa and you were having a nice wine date at your favorite old spot, the one you used to come to as a freshman in college. "I can't believe he still remembers what my mom likes." You sip your wine. "Why?" You ask Lisa, as if she knew the answer.

You were mad at him for doing this, acting as if everything was fine when it's not. When he was the one who broke you, the one who left you, and the one who acted wrong in all of this.

"I thought he had a girlfriend, the ex-girlfriend of that ex PSG player. I mean, I saw them make out like three times. " Lisa, the queen of not thinking before speaking, let out as if it's nothing. You made a discomfort face. "I mean... that's none of my business. I had some flings on my own." You say trying to convince yourself that Lisa's words didn't matter. "Yeah you were a whore, man. Did you even remember half of the names?"

You spill your wine back into the glass. "My God, Lisa, would you like a microphone? Maybe the people at the back of this place didn't hear you clearly." And all she could do was laugh. "It's not my fault you were playing freebies after he dumped you, y/n. I know it's hard for you to admit it, but you were looking to forget about him while trying to find someone who was just like him."

She was right. You tried to find someone like him, someone who you could trust with your life, someone who would know every bit of you, every stretch mark, every curve. But you didn't find that. Not admitting it out loud, you did try but failed, 99% of those guys were out of the door the next day, ghosting them or simply blocking them after the night. The other 1% didn't even had your number.

"I'm not engaging," you say, sipping your wine. "Then why you say something to begin with?" She looks at you with a smile that you wanted to erase. "I'm disengaging." She laughs hard.

"Why don't you talk to him? I know it's not the best advice, but baby, you need that. You need the closure you are looking for. And you will see him at the game, so do it." She did have a point. The closure can work. "I... I don't think I'm ready to be in the same room as him yet." Even when you have already been alone with him, that was not by choice, so it didn't count. "His brother texted me," you say, smiling at the thought of his little brother, Ethan. "I miss that kid. He was nice." You nod.

"I never stopped talking to him." Saying that out loud felt illegal, even if you weren't doing anything wrong. "Why?".

Why? You ask yourself, maybe, because he was the only one who knew Kylian words weren't real, that he was the one who fucked up. "He knew." Is all you say, Lisa understood and didn't ask more questions.

You finish your wine and say your goodbyes, walking back to your parents' house, you were staying there till your things were complete at your new place.

Thinking about Lisa's words, you do need that closure. You do need to express everything. He didn't let you express. You needed that, but it was too soon, and he was the golden boy of the city. One wrong move and everything was going to end. You used Kylian wouldn't do anything to hurt you, but now it wasn't a certain thing.

But you needed to try. In an impulsive, though, you grab your phone and open instagram. Here he is, the only one at the blocked list.

You think about it, was it worth it? Was that really what you needed? You think nothing of it and press the unblock button. Opening his profile, you send him a dm.

@yourusername: Je peux te parler? (Can we talk?)

You put your phone inside your purse already regretting it. You look at the window of the stores, thinking if it's okay to give yourself a little something. Saying yes to yourself, you enter at the store, searching for nothing in particular.

"Y/n?" Your head turns looking at the woman standing in front of you. "Hi," you smile shyly, feeling a little uncomfortable. "It's so nice to see you. When did you come back?"

She was standing closer now, the little girl in her arms confused, looking at you. "I landed last week, haven't gone out that much." You smile at her and the little girl. "We missed you. It's good for you to be back." She touches your shoulder and leaves the store.

You see how she exits the store, going back to reality thanks to your phone notifications.

@k.mbappe: J'ai besoin de te parler (I really want to talk to you.)

@k.mbappe: chez toi ou chez moi? (your place or mine?)

You take a deep breath exhausted.

@yourusername: chez toi (your house)

@yourusername: donne moi ton adresse (give me your address)

@yourusername: Je serai là dans cinq minutes. (I'll be there in 5 minutes)

Kylian sends you his address, and you find a taxi outside the store, not sure if this is the right choice.

[baekhvuns]

Ofc they're having a cb when I'm not there, I have up at this point lol

Stop the avocado abuse 💔

Stalkers won't stop like, they know it's bad and they dgaf. Even some blacklisted fansites can still go to airports cause who's gonna stop them? It's awful

I was bored and looked into Men of the Harem the novel, but do I wanna spoil myself. My friend said it has more details and the relationship between Latil and Tasir is 😳😊 so I might check it out. There are like 287373 chapters and shit gets spicy 😭

I can't fully enjoy this WC because of the whole Qatar thing so I'm mostly observing from the distance. Everything I needed from football this year aka Madrid winning CL happened so now I'm chill! And Arsenal is literally FIRST in the Premier League table?!??! I used to like Mbappe more, but I still have a soft spot for many French players 💀 I'm a bit sad Spain lost, but oh well. I hate penalties, so nerve wrecking

One thing SM is good at are the promo picturesand packaging. My journey with Itzy started with Wannabe, cause I didn't care for their debut and Icy, but I'm a Not Shy and Loco defender. MITM is hmmm not the best, but I still like it to a certain extent. People speculate Jinni was kicked out cause she spoke about training, having a comeback soon and the next day GOODBYE 🤔Also Loona's comeback, uhmmmmm. I know many Orbits are boycotting it

Hawgsyhasyshhss I will never forget waking up one day in Straya, opening the blinds and spotting two roos boxing each other, we made eye contact then they continued. I was like "understandable, have a nice day". Omfg that's the same person I forgot I told you about her, tbh lots of my friends live in AUs 😅

Ooooh a few weddings, and then mine in SK, remember! There's a saying that goes "Paris is in France, but France isn't in Paris" so sidhjshdjsnhsjs I also recommend other French cities if you ever have time

Seonghwa platinum is perfect even my friend who used to hate blonde hair agrees! People just want ot8 black hair, but it's so boooooring, most of them have/had black hair all the time! As a blonde Hwa lover I'm in danger, what if he dyes it now... hopefully a different colour than black, it'd be a shame not to take advantage of his bleached scalp. But I want him to stay a blondie a little longer 😭 most importantly NO SCISSORS. I need Hongjoong to do something crazy with his hair tho

Alright so best of both worlds, dark academia, but make it cottagecore as well.

(Thumb Seonghwa is not real he can't hurt us...)

Right. I do hope Eden and his team switch things up and give Jongho less high notes etc, but he's still a good producer. Some Atinys think he's the devil, like? Log off and stare at a wall, think about your lives for a second

If I worked at that diner and saw this bitch and thoughts on the 👃?

Please NT football teams need Season's Greetings lolol

They said "no more lies" but no Love Shot, no Move...

*gently holds*

I was asleep idek what's going on, but I'm too out of it to analyse the lore this time. Also this comeback feels a bit unnecessary ngl ksugswgyshshshshs and I still haven't gone through the whole Paradigm album 🙉 - DV 💖

hi hello!!

Ofc they're having a cb when I'm not there, I have up at this point lol // Stop the avocado abuse 💔

LMFAOOOO 😭😭 ITS ABSOLUTE BS !!! but if ur going kr in like later maybe they’ll be there w a new comeback 😭😭😭 i do not personally understand the hype around avocado being tasti actually <//3

Stalkers won't stop like, they know it's bad and they dgaf. Even some blacklisted fansites can still go to airports cause who's gonna stop them? It's awful

atp bodyguards need to be shown faces in their training for the group they guard so they can stop the specific fans and plus isn’t rona still in kr like its spiking so i don’t understand why they’d all risk and crowed around them,, we need the guards to be the swat or csi stuff atp 🤚🏼

I was bored and looked into Men of the Harem the novel, but do I wanna spoil myself. My friend said it has more details and the relationship between Latil and Tasir is 😳😊 so I might check it out. There are like 287373 chapters and shit gets spicy 😭

THERES A WHOLE NOVEL??? WHAT. latil and tasir’s relationship, 👀 WHAT DO U MEAN WHAT DO U MEAN IT GETS SPICY 😭😭 DOES MY GUY SONNAUGHT GET AT LEAST 1 MINUTE OF LATIL’S ATTENTION 😭😭

I can't fully enjoy this WC because of the whole Qatar thing so I'm mostly observing from the distance. Everything I needed from football this year aka Madrid winning CL happened so now I'm chill! And Arsenal is literally FIRST in the Premier League table?!??! I used to like Mbappe more, but I still have a soft spot for many French players 💀 I'm a bit sad Spain lost, but oh well. I hate penalties, so nerve wrecking

right!! im keeping up primarily bc its their last wc 😭😭 madrid was really on a roll with the league HDWKDHWK THE ARSENAL V MAN UNITED IS THE ONE IM WAITING FOR,,, no bc mbappe let the fame get to his mind tho i can’t deny that he’s a good player, but the ego is 📈📈 i was surprised england lost mate, in front of beckham like that??? VIOLATION!! penalties truly, never been so on the edge of my seat 🤚🏼 the massive amount of pressure these guy’s have is 🫡 + hope the teams who didn’t make it get the chance at copa, and the next wc bc theres gonna be sooo many teams

One thing SM is good at are the promo picturesand packaging. My journey with Itzy started with Wannabe, cause I didn't care for their debut and Icy, but I'm a Not Shy and Loco defender. MITM is hmmm not the best, but I still like it to a certain extent. People speculate Jinni was kicked out cause she spoke about training, having a comeback soon and the next day GOODBYE 🤔Also Loona's comeback, uhmmmmm. I know many Orbits are boycotting it

YOU ARE CORRECT THO I ALMOST SAID WHAT PROMO UNTIL I SAW THE PICTURES,, sm rly is very creative with packaging and shoot’s ,, loco was AMAZING! the choreo and the kpop oomf, want that itzy era back so fast but lesserafim dominating ,, mafia in the morning was alright the ring dang dang got me 🧍🏻‍♀️ BRUH??? no bc it’s so sus, jyp being this sensitive? then they should’ve kicked out so many ppl if they talked about comebacks 😭😭 YEAAH THE COLOUR CODED LYRIC CHANNELS WILL THRIVE DURING LOONA’S CB bc all the views

Hawgsyhasyshhss I will never forget waking up one day in Straya, opening the blinds and spotting two roos boxing each other, we made eye contact then they continued. I was like "understandable, have a nice day". Omfg that's the same person I forgot I told you about her, tbh lots of my friends live in AUs 😅

LMFAOOOO DBWKHDWKDKW NO WAY 😭😭😭 WHAT A SIGHT STOP u were witnessing a very intense boxing match, who won? the left one or the right? THE WAY THAT FRIEND OF URS SCORED !!!!! lived an au, works a dream job 🤌🏼 gods favourite, im gonna ask one ques, has any of ur friends lived an etl or is it reserved for u?

Ooooh a few weddings, and then mine in SK, remember! There's a saying that goes "Paris is in France, but France isn't in Paris" so sidhjshdjsnhsjs I also recommend other French cities if you ever have time

U BET I WILL TAKE A FLIGHT STRAIGHT FROM THERE,, i do wanna see the eiffel tower but i primarily want to visit the south of france bc it is just so stunning and id cry if i don’t ever see it really, if i can’t live the french girl aesthetic what is the point in life 😵‍💫😵‍💫

Seonghwa platinum is perfect even my friend who used to hate blonde hair agrees! People just want ot8 black hair, but it's so boooooring, most of them have/had black hair all the time! As a blonde Hwa lover I'm in danger, what if he dyes it now... hopefully a different colour than black, it'd be a shame not to take advantage of his bleached scalp. But I want him to stay a blondie a little longer 😭 most importantly NO SCISSORS. I need Hongjoong to do something crazy with his hair tho

EXACTLY EXACTLY !!!!! that seonghwa really attracted so many ppl & turned them into shinestar’s im never forgetting him bc he started my era w him 😭😭 WHAT IF HE DYES IT BLUE 😭😭 IM GONNA SCREAM STOP DONT ASK UR THAT FRIEND FOR PHOTOS ITLL ALSO PISS ME OFF 😭😭🤚🏼 ateez all long haired cb when !! wHEN!! this siren era better bring out the long hairs idc idc we need a hwa + mingi long hair

Alright so best of both worlds, dark academia, but make it cottagecore as well. /// (Thumb Seonghwa is not real he can't hurt us...)

will 🫡 note that 🫡 COTTAGE CORE FLORIST HWA VDMABSKW

DBWMDJKW I LOST IT FOR A FEW MINUTES, TEARS IN EYES FACE RED TYPE OF LAUGH TOO 😭😭

Right. I do hope Eden and his team switch things up and give Jongho less high notes etc, but he's still a good producer. Some Atinys think he's the devil, like? Log off and stare at a wall, think about your lives for a second

omg ur right, jongho in a low register or better yet a song without extreme high notes, give us baby making r&b ateez!!! he really is talented and tbh ppl complaining like they can do it any better! he’s a professional, he’s got a team and the members, they know what they’re doing 😭😭 no literally touch some grass, go make friends but don’t log in

If I worked at that diner and saw this bitch and thoughts on the 👃? /// Please NT football teams need Season's Greetings lolol

DBWMDHKWHDKW BESTIE THAT IS A 90’S AU AND HES THE BB! IM FBWKDJWKDNAM nO COMMENTS. NONE.

and if u see this one.

LMFAOOOO I WOULD ACTUALLY BUY IT, THEY DO THEMES EVERY YEAR STOP THEY’D HE UNSTOPPABLE 😭😭😭 psg doing high schoool theme iM GONNA SCREAM, barca doing news reporters themes 😭😭

They said "no more lies" but no Love Shot, no Move... // *gently holds*

all men do is lie. where is the eve cover, the mmmh, the move, the criminal. where.

gently hold who? him? 🤨

I was asleep idek what's going on, but I'm too out of it to analyse the lore this time. Also this comeback feels a bit unnecessary ngl ksugswgyshshshshs and I still haven't gone through the whole Paradigm album 🙉 - DV 💖

spent 30 mins watching water flow asmr 😭😭 i tbh haven’t listened to paradigm either ive only heard snips and idk what to feel about it </3

ALSO WHAT IS HAPPENING DBWJDHW

🧍🏻‍♀️🧍🏻‍♀️

everything is fine.

[darke15]

Rhymieeeeeeee 🖤🖤🖤 @rhymingtree

BUT I'M HERE NOW AND I AM READY FOR THE EMOTIONAL DAMAGE 🙂

Nooooooooo 😭😭😭

Day 234 of fucking 619... jesus. Do you think Ollie ever waited for her to just crack or did he know she'd be holding on for that long.

He was v annoyed that she was as strong as she was 

The Doctor was intent on bringing you to your knees and, luckily, you were intent on…not doing that.

Gotta love her planning skills

She’s trying her best 

THE FUCKING SOLDIER

HE'S SO SWEET

Fr tho 

he's scraggly and in dire need of some therapy, but he's sweet

He just needs a hug

Did Novak ever see the Soldier's obedience when it came to 'keeping her alive' and 'not hurting her'  as simply the Soldier taking orders or did he ever see that there were already cracks and Bucky's humanity seeped through when it came to watching over her?

He def saw something but he didn’t know what it was until it was too late. 

If you couldn’t remember him then…then you couldn’t remember… — “Cierra tus ojos, mi amor,” he murmured, holding you against his chest as you began to struggle. He turned quickly, his back to the pair of rockets that were shooting toward you. He whispered in your ear, cradling your head against his neck, “Te quiero. Te quiero. Te quiero. Te—” — — Close your eyes, my love. I love you. I love you. I love you. I— — Him. You squeezed your eyes shut as your chest began to heave, “Danny.”

haha fuck you too

Yeah, that’s fair 

You couldn’t let Novak take Danny from you twice.

The chapter barely started darke what the heck

oops

did she just call novak Norman? i love her

Names are hard

if I were her i'd fuck up his name intentionally all the time just to fuck with him

I'd call him Nietzche or Nirvana or Noology

Lol 😂😂😂

What if Nomad—nope, not that one—had found out you were talking to him and separated the two of you?

she's worried she'll lose the Soldier too? 😭

I mean hat makes sese considering he's the only person in her life right now who hasn't actively hurt her or questioned her.

Exactly. He’s one of the few ‘peaceful’ constants rn

no stop caring about Ollie he doesn't deserve it

She doesn’t know 😭

stop caring about ollie

But she doesn't know 😭😭

STOP FUCKIN-

SHE DOESN'T —

“I promised,” you whispered to yourself under your breath as you straightened yourself up the wall and let your gaze flick to the door.

girl no

Girl yes

how in the heck does she still have the energy to kick ass right now

She’s been hopped up on experimental drugs

he was so much bigger than you remembered him.

i'd be having a very different reaction right now in another context but right now i'm just terrified

Pfffffttttt 😅

also,  he was so much bigger than you remembered him means her memory's gone to shit BUT he was so much bigger than you remembered him means Nepotism had done something to him that enhanced him.

😏😏😏

i just gotta say (even though the current scene is harrowing and really fuckin dark) you're so good at descriptive narration

Thanks 😬😬😬

You felt the instant Danny went limp and let you go. Felt your bones snap as the Humvee landed on your legs. The smoke burned at your lungs, sand clouded your vision, but Danny’s hand was in yours. Then you heard his last breath—his last heartbeat

and fuck you again.

Yep 

i can't keep letting you make me cry like this

You do this to yourself

William was the boss. David was your fiance. Thomas was the medic. Owen was the computer guy. So…what were you?

this is psychological torture of the audience this all goes against the geneva convention this is fuckin illegal darke why the heck IS SHE FORGETTING ALL OF THEM THIS SOON

😀😀😀😀😀

The bioweapons from Paris AND Tokyo were Nocuous' experiments whaaaaat

😈😈😈

The guards shoved you against the table as they began to file from the room before a hand as cold as death wrapped around your wrist.

Five minutes ago that cold was soothing and gentle

Crazy how quick things go to shit 😬

I love how well this could all be parallel visuals in an actual show or movie

unfortunately it just lives inside my brain and i can't admire it the way it deserves

the fucking edits we could make…

Ughhhhhhh the edits would be so doooopeeeeeeeee

WOAH

SHE DID WHAT

SHE FUCKING FLUNG HIM ACROSS THE FUCKING ROOM WHAT THE FUCK

Even in novak’s failure, there was some success

I love how even Noctule was shocked like this wasn't everything he was hoping for.

He was just surprised that he almost got it right

WOAH

HE'S BACK

GENTLE SCRAGGLY BOY IS BACK

Yay 

I am so confused was it the kick that brought him back or... did the kick turn him on or something

Yes 

of course you fuckin' ended it with Danny of course you fucking did

Sorry not sorry. You should’ve seen this coming by now

BRO

whaaaatttt

YOU CAN'T PUT A MOMENT THAT FUCKING SWEET INTO THIS OF ALL THINGS

Yes 😈

— “Well,” you puffed, sitting beside him with a roll of gauze in your hands, “Where doesn’t it hurt?” — — He looked up at you, a mischievous smile curling to his lips before he pointed to his unbroken wrist, “Here.” — — You raised a brow, reached out to the wrist before bringing it to your lips. Danny’s grin grew as you did before he pointed to his cheek, “Here.” — — A smirk found its way to your face as you pushed out of your seat and he pulled you between his legs. You pressed a kiss to his cheek, earning yourself a giggle before Danny pulled away. He pressed a finger to his lips, “Here.” —

I'M NEVER FORGIVING YOU FOR THIS

Bite me 

and then cute Danny moments is followed by cute Soldier moments like WHY WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS

Shits and giggles, Rhymie. Shits and giggles

im crying into a burger right now i look ridiculous

That sounds good rn…..the burger not the crying 

“Tell me, my little phantom, how do you create something like you? What must we put a person through to become perfection?” 

at risk of sounding like a TikTok comment: he ate that

Pfffffft 😂

oh god if Nominal was real do you think people would make edits of him

and I don't mean like... the kind that you made of all the villains and shit but... like... you know the ones of Pedro…

Ooooh for sure. There’d be the people with the crushes on him and everything

EW let's not think about that

You started it

but my mind is fuckin disgusting so let me put focus on

“You can scream for me.”

TikTok would love that for all the wrong reasons

That would be an audio in and of itself

Everytime Ghos tugs on her restraints the Soldier just walks up and adjusts them... his love language is easing the pain of torture. I love him.

He’s trying his best

I need to know what happened at the county fair Ghost almost died at.

In some other universe she might've actually died there and I wanna know if it was cotton candy food poisoning or decapitation via roller coaster ride.

Sketchy roller coaster collapse

oh hello Oliver you anak ng putang dinampot lang sa bangketang iniputan ng ibon putanginang gago

yes

You tried to figure out how to bring him back to you but it seemed to be different every time. You couldn’t pin down what brought back his memories.

when in doubt, kick him across the room. that seemed to get him going

The only time violence is a solution

I love hwo while she's kicking ass right now I'm getting all hopeful while completely aware she's not getting out just yet and things are only about to get so much worse for her

Right? That shit hurts

oof you know how to take it dark, darke

😬😬😬

STOP IT WITH THE DANNY FLASHBACKS STOP

No 

“Promise me something?” you asked with a shiver, “Don’t leave me, okay?” “I’m not going anywhere, Soldier Girl.”

It's a great fucking thing I plan on watching a movie after this because if I end my night on THAT I will cry myself to sleep.

Lol 

the flashback chapters are literally amazing, you never miss and I always go in expecting them to be fucking awesome but they exceed expectations every damn time.

Thank you 🖤🖤🖤

the parallels between Danny and Bucky, and Narwhal's bonechilling presence is just chef's kiss. I love Nugget's effortlessness. he's just so scary.

🤣🤣🤣

He'd be terrifying on screen, which is why I have to be grateful he's only in fanfic. If he was real I'd be pissing myself in a movie theatre.

He would be absolutely terrifying 

And I did go the entire chapter not calling him by his real name and I'm so proud of myself for that.

congratulations

I love the flashback chapters so fricking much and I can't wait to seew what unfolds in the next one. The day all of this comes full circle fully will be fricking epic.

Thank you 🖤🖤🖤

CHAPTER 86: FLASHBACK: THE MAN IN GREY

To all my live reactors,

Please, please, please, hide your reactions under a Read More cut. I don’t want any spoilers floating around. 

&

To all my Anonymous Avengers, 

If you want to react in my asks, feel free. However, I won’t be answering any of them until at least Wednesday if they contain spoilers. 

Thank you,

Darke

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“I don’t remember anything.”

He shrugged, nodding to one of his guards as he backed away from you and took back his notebook.

“We shall start with something easier, hm?” Novak said, settling down in his chair with his book and another file, “Who else is on your team?”

“Make no mistake, Lieutenant, I will break you,” he snarled, his voice low and dark, “I do not care how long it takes. I do not care what I have to do to you, I will do it. And you will give me what I want.”

You leveled another glare against him, wrenching your chin out of his grip, “Never.”

“We shall see.”

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[larrikin-is-a-himbo]

My friend reading The Song of Achilles: A Journey

Aight let's get this over with

2 pages in and already daddy issues and a drunk mom

I'm not gonna survive this book

No but like already this asshole is hating on both his son and mentally ill wife

Dude this guy is an idiot

I relate so hard to Patroclus

Baby's first murder

Oh Oh So this is how it is

Aw, they're so cute

Holy shit she just straight up told Patroclus he'll be dead soon

They kissed 💙

Oh shit

I'm really into this book so far Chiron is the real MVP so far

I couldn't stop smiling They are so cute

I was a little bit shocked Cause I just finished the part where they were, um, making out

I'm just happy they were happy Not for long tho, that's why I only read a few pages at a time I want happiness to last as long as it can

Achilles said the reason he will be both a hero and happy is Patroclus and I asdfghj

HE CALLED HIMSELF THE SON OF CHIRON I'M IN SHAMBLES

Yo I am in shock Absolutely dumbfounded Completely shattered

"I could recognize him by touch alone, by smell; I would know him blind, by the way his breaths came and his feet struck the earth. I would know him in death, at the end of the world." Yo my fucking heart I can't take this

Lycomedes is also an MVP

I had Odysseus and Diomedes for only one page, but I love their dynamic already

Sneaky bitches

"Why should I kill him? He's done nothing to me." When I tell you my heart fell

"I did not plan to live after he was gone" P L E A S E

I'm at the point where there's no wind

So I assume they'll sacrifice Iphigenia

Wow I don't know how to feel about Odysseus anymore

Page 235, the war actually started

If I was in Achilles' place, I would've let the mob slash Agamemnon to smitherins

You know I would totally be down with a poly relationship between Pat, Achilles and Briseis

Agamemnon, you stupid fucking bitch

Now they're taking away Briseis

And I'm this close to just use all my rage to travel through time and space and everything to fucking bitch slap Agamemnon so hard he lands on the other side of the Trojan wall

Pat casually slit his wrist in front of Agamemnon

Buddy That was a bit dramatic

But he is 100% rightfully pissed at Achilles at this moment

Y I K E S This conversation is going to hurt me more than the knife did Patroclus' wrist

I'm getting nervous

ACHILLES WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU DO WHAT DO YOU MEAN "Don't say that until you've heard the rest of what I've done"

Achilles, honey, I love you so much, but asking your mom to ask Zeus to turn against your side of the army out of pettiness is a biiiiiit too much

"HE'S HALF OF MY SOUL, AS THE POETS SAY" I CAN'T

We're getting close to the moment I fear They are at the duels or I don't know what they're called in English Paris disappeared from the battlefield, now Ajax and Hector ended in a tie

It's so sad reading Patroclus' reactions How he said he knows the victims, or, well, knew That line hit hard honestly

ACHILLES P L E A S E

PAT IS CRYING AND I'M LITERALLY MOMENTS AWAY FROM CRYING TOO

NOT THE OUTFIT SWAP

I'M MILDLY SHAKING

APOLLO YOU BITCH

NOOOOOOOOOOO He's dead And I know it only gets worse from here

HE TRIES TO KILL HIMSELF KC

Briseis, honey, I know you're upset too, but now is not the time Just because you're partially right

I don't want to call Thetis a bitch Because I partially understand her feelings and Who am I kidding She's a B I T C H

I'M ABOUT TO THROW HANDS WITH A 12 YEAR OKD

BRISEIS NOOOOOOOOOOO

LITTLE FUCKER IS DEAD 🍾

"I am made of memories" P L E A S E

I'm not fine

"Go," She says. "He waits for you." In the darkness, two shadows, reaching through the hopeless, heavy dusk. Their hands meet, and light spills in a flood like a hundred golden urns pouring out of the sun. I am Devastated Absolutely hurt Everything is pain But they're together Finally I need a few hours after this What a way to end the year

[mysafehaneul]

Aquamarine

I am thinking of making it a series if it gets good response tho.

The Gif is from Yuri on Ice, since I can't find any other aesthetically pleasing Gif. CR to the owner.

Wonwoo×Reader (Angst; slight fluff)

Warnings: none

Word count: 1.5k ish...

ArrangemarriageAu!

Timestamp

[8:18PM]

The light illuminating from the chandelier as u stood under it and its light reflecting on the glass you were holding onto as if your life depended on that grip, you were trying your best to look calm and collected but your anxious eyes and nervous smile were slowly giving it away from time to time you were glancing towards the entrance of the mansion where you and your soon to be fiancè was supposed to get engaged yet the latter was no where to been seen most of the guest were too caught up in their own conversations pay mind to you yet giving a glance at your direction in short intervals, dressed in their finest and pulled up their most civilised and happy upfront you were aware although it didnt seemed like it, there were some silent eyes observing yours and your families every move to catch a sniff of drama for their headlines and small flashes from the camera around you, you were unconsciously biting your lips when your left a small hand slightly hovering over yours taking the glass out of your grip you looked up to see you mother with slight tensed eyes giving you a tight smile,

"Pull yourself together sweetheart I have thought you better, Where is Wonwoo?"

To be honest you would like to know the answer to that question too where is Wonwoo? A small inaudible sigh left your lips you leaned into your mother's ears to whisper

"Anywhere but here, Why don't you ask his parents about their son's whereabouts"

You both looked at the bar where Wonwoo's parents were sitting while one of their bodyguards' talking to Mr. Jeon and he looked like he was about to pop a vein of his brain trying his best to keep his voice low In order to avoid any attention when Mrs. Jeon's eyes met yours and then your mother's she gave you a small smile and diverted her attention back to her slightly frantic husband raising her hand on his back and rub it up and down to calm him down anyone from a 10-mile radius could sense the tension in the room, everyone is here except the man of the hour. You liked her, Wonwoo's mother she was a good person that's all you can say from your two encounters the first one was when both of the families ate lunch and you met your mother's childhood best friend and his wife aka Wonwoo's parents and the second was a dinner where they expressed their wish to make you their daughter-in-law, making you both you and Wonwoo choke in your respectable food and him on his drink you were well aware that things like these are not decided over two meals in the gap of one week because the way your parents looked unfazed and nodding as If it's approval to their wishes all you could think was a heads-up would have been nice so that you could have fled to Paris or something. Wonwoo looked like he was about to explode in rage but he trying to mask it with all his might but the shake in his body was slightly giving it away seemed like he had no prior knowledge of this either as he excused himself to the washroom.

Just like that day you were alone standing in the middle of a ballroom surrounded by acquaintances extended family and friends waiting for him to show up and do the formality play the part of a dutiful son and a reliable successor of their family business. You both knew that this was a marriage of convenience and no matter what you had to bend your knees in front of the responsibilities and the wishes of your families, The heels you were wearing were numbing your feet and a small headache making it way up from the tight bun and buzz from the champagne you were drinking.

Your parents were now talking or more like assuring the Jeon's when you felt someone stand next to you looking to your left you saw your best friend looking at you holding two glasses extending one in your direction which you gladly took raising it to your lips you took a small sip and felt the bubbly liquid going down your throat,

"Gosh even Aphrodite would be jealous of you today, Wonwoo is going to fall in love with you all over again "

when did he fall in love with you in the first place you thought to yourself nodding in their direction you gave them a small smile,

"Thanks, babe," you said taking a step back and doing an up and down at their attire "you don't look that bad yourself either".

Rolling their eyes they said, " I know but tonight is about you. So where is your prince charming, it's about time he showed up-" as they said that all heads turned toward the entrance in Walks the prince charming in his slicked black hair and royal blue tuxedo matching your attire he was not wearing his glasses maybe lenses. His parents sighed in relief and walked towards him you saw his father asking him something but his mother squeezed his arms stopping him from drawing any unwanted attention soon acquaintances flocking him shaking his hands and mingling you noticed the frown easing from your father's face as your mother was talking to someone from your company and your father trying to keep up with them without being rude.

Wonwoo was easily towering over most of the people in this room he was talking to someone when your eyes met but to were quick to look away.

"Close your mouth you are drooling all over the floor," your friend said making you roll your eyes throwing a small glare in their direction you were about to make a remark when from the corner of your eyes you saw his figure striding towards your direction as he reached next to you his hands going on the back of your waist and leaning in to plant a small kiss on your cheeks catching you slightly off guard your hands on autopilot went to grab his bicep before you stumble you both never stood in this proximity let alone kisses on the cheeks He leaned into your ears his lips slightly bumping the shell of your ear making the goosebumps rise on your skin as his breath fanned in your ear he whispered, "sorry I am late, I hope nothing exceptional happened in my absence"

You moved your head away your eyes locked as you reached for his ears and replied,

"Your father was about to pop a vein if you can call that exceptional" your eyes didn't miss the red mark below his ear lobe and now your question of where he was and who he was with, was answered before you even had the chance to ask with a little disappointment bubbling in your stomach but you tried ignored it with all your might.

.

.

Soon you both were standing facing each other with his hand in yours as your slid the engagement ring on his fourth finger, his mother beaming with glee and his father fashioned a proud smile on his face she and pulled out a box from her bag handing it over to wonwoo as he open the box the people surrounding the both of you went awestruck and why not it was a princess cut aquamarine ring one of a kind removing it from the box the diamond reflected the light of the chandelier he reached for your hand, there was a slight shake in wonwoo's breath and you couldnt differentiate if it was his or your hands which were sweating as the ring slid inside your finger wonwoo noticed how you hands were slightly shaking he gave your hand a light squeeze and closed his eyes taking a moment to gather himself you were about to reciprocate the squeeze but the pop of champagne starled you removing your hand form his your mother engulfed you in her arms as if you have just returned from war soon one by one the congratulations kept flooding in when you eyes met your father's he gave you a nod and an assuring smile he knew that wonwoo wasnt the one you want, but he believed that he was the best choice for you and your bussineses future. All you could think to yourself Is that It's not the parent's fault to think the best for their children and their future but why do they forget that their happiness matters equally too their opinions matter too they matter too, You can't help but look at Wonwoo, feeling sad for both of yourself he was doing a pretty decent job to pull up a happy facade which matched yours but his eyes said otherwise as you both caught each other gaze you knew that there is no turning back from here two different paths joining together to form a single road now it's unbeknownst to you how the journey will go...