#i can't deal with this rn

[brightmalcolm]

She couldn't go all the way, either, which is a shame.

[userautumn]

ermmm is ao3 down

[texas-bbq-pringles]

nope

[ppulverse]

me every day on tumblr.com: damn i just wanna love and be loved and feel appreciated

me whenever i sense someone might be starting to have feelings for me: oh please DO NOT have a crush on me i am seriously BEGGING

[veemarine]

girl friendships are weird asf, how was i at your house last week and now u don't even look in my direction??? lol

[nyxypoo]

i pulled a muscle from breathing wtf

[aquareegia]

EXCUSE ME??? 👁👄👁 (source)

[feyshed]

The 6 people that are obsessed with Joel

[dindjarindiaries]

The fact that Wrecker greeted Omega first because Hunter was probably anxiously pacing the ship worried that it wouldn't actually be her... oh I'm a mess

[running-in-the-dark]

the appointment went fine 😌 I'm so relieved. it's fine. everything's fine!

gotta tidy up because our landlord is coming by on Thursday to fix something. but that's okay, it's not too much work

my husband has a bank appointment tomorrow (scary) and I'm so stressed out & anxious about it that I had to take my emergency anxiety medication. it's fine, I've only taken it once in the last, idk, 4 month or so , and I needed it rn. need to sleep. that wouldn't happen otherwise. so now I'm listening to Thursday Murder Club and hoping it'll work quickly

[aw-shit-my-ulna]

the urge to rewatch torchwood is battling with the pain of actually rewatching torchwood

[barghest-land]

very tired of being in pain, however, the line between "i chose to be happy" and "i'm gaslighting how i feel" is very thin

[sunnysaystuff]

'cause i am not a thief, but you were mine to earn

we all need to understand what this says about stolas. "you were mine to earn"—he's saying that at some point, when he began his quest to win blitz's affections, blitz became his. the prize, the trophy, the gold. blitz's affection was his to gain, he thought, because that's how it went in his fictional worlds—we know stolas likes to read. we know that for a long time, books were his only friends. but do we realize what kind of understanding on relationships that gives him?

he only ever read about whirlwind romance and dashing, rugged bad boys and posh, pretty aristocrats in ravishing love. he read about mystique and romcom love and "don't get on that train, harriet!"

he never read about arguing and rage and feelings of inadequacy and class differences and lines in the sand that were so very difficult to cross.

stolas is naive, and he is ignorant, and he is sheltered. he is brilliant, and caring, and hopeful, and hopeless.

stolas read about grand gestures and forgiveness; he read about grand gestures and blossoming love that shoved away any past grievances—and he believed every word.

this is how he sees the world, and when blitz didn't accept his gesture, he got upset. things didn't go as planned, and he was so confused because blitz was supposed to be the prize, and stolas was supposed to win him.

it wasn't supposed to be like this.

so yeah, he got angry, and he didn't give blitz a moment, and when blitz hurled vitriol at him instead of love and affection that he had expected, he reacted too quickly.

"you were mine to earn"—we can hope this means he's moved beyond that mindset, because blitz was not a prize, nor was he going to dashingly sweep stolas off his feet. and once he undersands that, and blitz has revelations of his own, maybe, finally, they can heal.

(i might write a fic about this, actually)

[loveydoveylex]

is f/o burnout a Thing That Exists? has anyone dealt with it before? I could really use some advice or reassurance I think... idk what to do it kinda sucks a lil! I'm SAD

[trans-axolotl]

staying on testosterone is fucking impossible i need my brain to work with me here please

[shiraishi--kanade]

Actually the funniest canon fact & ADHDer An Shiraishi hc combo is that she's the only VBS member to favour tea over coffee. And coffee is like the ultimate self-medication drug for a lot of us. Babygirl had a chance to figure out if she can still handle studying without accommodation and did not take it