#i can literally feel the horrible lump it forms inside me even when i dont touch it
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i hate having death related ocd
#harmless breast cysts run in my family and i have them myself and its so hard to not freak out about it#especially since i havent had the chance to get them checked out#and as more time passes since ive discovered the cysts i cant help but wonder if ive missed the early treatable stages of breast cancer#and now im dying#its so scary#and usually the cysts are completely painless but theyve been aching lately and its freaking me out#all i can imagine every second of the day is saying goodbye to my loved ones on my deathbed#or having to break the bad news to them#aaagghhh#i hate this i hate this i hate this#i hate it i hate death related ocd i hate that i cant go a few minutes without picturing it#what am i going to tell everyone if it turns out its true?#i need to make an appointment soon#please god i dont want to fucking die lonely and sad and having contributed nothing useful to society#i dont care if its benign i want this cyst GONE#its been the source of so much pain and anxiety over the years#i can feel it weighing on my chest#i can literally feel the horrible lump it forms inside me even when i dont touch it#horrible. horrible. horrible.#someone please help me i dont know how to handle this
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can i request kirishima, todoroki, and kacchan comforting their s/o bc they're going through an insecure moment where they dont like their body (too meaty, too skinny) thank youuu~ 💗
Hi dear! I’m sorry if it took me so much (I’ve also your matchup in progress)! I’M ALWAYS FINE WITH COMFORT WRITING AND THESE BOYS ARE PERFECT FOR IT! I hope Bakugou doesn’t result exaggerated or an animal, but I believe he’s more a man of actions than words, especially about things he deems important (take a look at my hcs if you want to know how I perceive him). Kirishima IS A SUNSHINE, I couldn’t not think that only his presence could lift your mood. Todoroki is the smoother and sweeter (and most forward) boyfriend ever, I tell you.
Well, enjoy and have a wonderful day!
Bakugou, Kirishima, Todoroki x Reader with Low Self-Esteem, Comfort, Hints about Sexy Time, Fluff, Romance, Kisses, Soft, Your Bodies Are Perfect When Imperfect
Bakugou Katsuki
“What the hell are you doing?”
You jolted, averting immediately your eyes from the microwave.
Bakugou was glaring at you in what you had learned to be confusion and irritation, a spoon of cereals in his mouth and a messy bedhead. Ah, Sunday’s mornings together were the best.
You tried to smile and wave it off.
“Nothing, Katsuki.” You resumed drinking your tea with cookies, obviously baked by your boyfriend because homemade shit was better than bought one.
“Oh yes, because I’m fucking stupid!” He rolled his eyes, putting the bowl aside and focusing only on you. A shiver ran down your back and you played nervously with the cup. “’The hell is wrong?”
You shut your lips and shook your head.
“Nothing.” Maybe, if you repeated it in your head enough times, it was going to become true.
Bakugou literally growled, scratching his head and mumbling insults under his breath before he stopped abruptly. He held his breath for five seconds and exhaled deeply.
He knew the look you were wearing and had learned that getting aggressive wasn’t going to make you talk. Approaching directly your defensive stubbornness was like launching himself from a plane in the sea: he was going to get smashed against the concrete.
Finally, he had again a, sort of, impassive expression.
“Yesterday you were in your world for the entire afternoon. I found you closed in the bathroom five times, for longer than fifteen minutes. This night you’ve slept buried against me. You avoided my eyes. Five seconds you were glaring at your reflection in the fucking microwave.”
You gulped and widened your eyes horrified; you hadn’t thought it was that evident. But Bakugou had always to be exceptional at everything, hadn’t he?
“Try to say again it’s nothing and I’ll lose my patience.” Bakugou was holding you frozen on you chair just by staring, blood red eyes not accepting lies or half-assed truths.
“I-” Your mouth dried and Bakugou took another deep breath to maintain his composure, “I think I’m fat.”
That took him by surprise, his face scrunched into incredulousness and he tilted his head trying to metabolize the words that were falling from your lips.
“I mean, I’m too curvy and chubby. It’s ugly. Like a cow. I don’t understand how can you like me when we’re surrounded by pretty girls all the time! And, overlooking your horrible personality, you could have any of them. I’m so embarrassed that-”
“What the fuck?!” Bakugou interrupted you with an explosion from his right hand. Confusion had been replaced by anger and disapproval. “Stop with this shit immediately, SO.”
You tried to argue, but the sound of another explosion filled the room.
“First, don’t compare me to those lousy motherfuckers who like girls only based on their shape, alright? Goddess or cow, I don’t care until it’s you inside.” Your boyfriend spoke slowly, weighing every word with an astonishing and indisputable bluntness.
You clenched your jaw to not cry, but the simple relief he was giving you was overwhelming.
“Alright?” He repeated, scowling, and you nodded. Satisfied, he continued.
“Second,” he stood up and towered over you, “I love your body as it is and if you haven’t understood it yet, I’m going to mark every spot I adore until nightfall.”
His smirk made you shiver inside and your cheeks heat up.
“K-Katsuki! It’s morning!” You stuttered trying to push him away, but he captured your wrists. Bakugou shrugged.
“It’s Sunday,” He replied before he smoothly picked you up from the waist, bridal style. You let out a small shriek and grabbed onto his pajamas. He marched back to the bedroom.
“Put me down! I’m heav-”
Katsuki literally threw you on the bed and climbed on the mattress.
“Another negative word on your weight,” He growled, swiftly stripping his tank top off, “And you won’t be able to go to lessons tomorrow.”
Kirishima Eijirou
“SO? SO!”
Kirishima was waving his hand in front of your face when you finally snapped out of your cloudy thoughts.
“Ejirou?” You called blinking, a faint smile on the lips.
After his afternoon spar with Bakugou, Kirishima had found you curled on the couch, wrapped in a blanket like a burrito. You hadn’t said the usual “Welcome back!”, hopped to kiss him on the cheek nor acknowledged his presence in any way and he was now more than worried.
“Something wrong, babe?” He brushed your cheek with a thumb in a soothing voice, still smiling happily. He always seemed to smile when he was around you.
You tilted your head and lowered your eyes.
“I don’t think I’m good for you…” you whispered so low that for a moment you hoped he hadn’t heard you and you could take it back, but Kirishima stiffened on the spot and your stomach twisted.
“What do you mean?” His voice was softer now, but you could hear the frailness behind it.
You bit your bottom lip, curling more.
“I’m not pretty enough.”
An infinite second of silent stillness, the Kirishima sighed heavily in relief.
His warm chuckle made your heart flip.
“What are you saying, SO?” He cupped your cheeks and forced you to look him in the eyes, “You’re more than pretty!” He was blushing a little, in that cute way he always did when giving an honest compliment.
“I’m fat,” you argued glaring down, but he tilted your chin up again.
“You’re not.” Kirishima was sporting his toothy, shiny grin, but his words were stern. “You’re curvy and I like that, you know it.”
You shook again your head, stubbornly.
“I’m heavy.”
Kirishima didn’t even bat an eyelash.
He wrapped his arms around your waist and pick you up, blankets and all.
“I don’t think so.” He flashed a smile.
“Ejirou! Put m-” As soon as you started to argue, embarrassed, he laughed and threw you in the air.
You shrilled, before falling in his arms again.
“Ej-”
He threw you again.
“I think you’re very light, you know? The perfect weight!”
And again.
“I’m not even using my Quirk! See SO?”
And again.
“My pretty, curvy girlfriend!” he bubbled, “Please don’t fly away! I’d be very sad!”
Finally, a chuckle burst from your throat.
Kirishima continued to throw you up in the air and saying stupid things until it became a full, warm laughter. Then he fell on the couch with you in his arms, smiling widely; you snuggled against his chest and he pulled you as close as he could.
“Sorry, I haven’t showered yet,” he mumbled, remembering he was still in his sweaty tracksuit. You shrugged, all the sadness and insecurities evaporated like snow under the sun.
“That’s fine…” you murmured closing your eyes, “Can we stay like this for a bit?”
Kirishima beamed and nuzzled against your neck, before smooching your cheek.
“Sure, babe, sure!”
Todoroki Shouto
Todoroki found you sitting with crossed legs on the floor of the living room, in front of the mirror. He was sure he had left you on the couch studying when he had gone out for a run, so now was confused, to say the least.
Especially because you were caressing your reflection with a sad and sort of disgusted grimace.
He padded quietly until he was by your side. Only then he realized your eyes were red and tears still edged at the corners of your eyes; concern immediately replaced his curiosity.
He crouched down, as you shifted your gaze on him, and took you gently by the shoulders.
“Is something wrong? Are you hurt?” He tried to keep his voice calm and composed, but worry trembled under the cold surface.
“N-no I’m fine…” you whispered, wiping clumsily your tears.
He furrowed.
“You’re crying.” His shoulders relaxed a bit as he made sure you weren’t physically harmed.
“Sadness, hate…a bunch of stupid emotions harassing me.” You tried to shrug it off, but your voice broke.
“Why?” Todoroki asked softly, sitting behind you and circling your body with his legs.
Darkening, you turned to face the mirror again. In silence, you raised a hand and pointed at your reflection.
“I’m disgustingly skinny.”
Todoroki flinched at the “disgustingly” and caged you against his chest, gazing at your reflection together.
“It’s not disgusting,” he replied quietly, but his tone was sharper than usual. He was absentmindedly drawing circles on your forearm with his fingers.
You groaned.
“I’m all bones, no curves at all,” you explained, mouth pulled down, “It’s like hugging a shard of ice.”
“I love ice.”
You rolled your eyes, but your lips betrayed you and smiled a little.
Todoroki caught that.
“Curvy girls are be-”
“You’re the best,” he interrupted you. You couldn’t look at him, but his eyes pierced holes in you from the mirror. “You’re the one I love, body and soul.”
The honesty in his voice was so vibrant that it washed your insecurities away in slow waves.
“You’re fair and slender, maybe a bit frail, but I know how strong you can be,” he continued, without breaking off the contact, “And when I hug you, I feel certain that you’re made to be in my arms, as you are.”
A lump formed in your lungs and you felt your eyes stinging again but for a different reason this time.
“I don’t care what others prefer, I think you’re perfect for me.”
That was the final blow. You were now burning inside, a flame in the pit of your stomach and heart drumming in your ears.
“You’re unbelievable…” you murmured covering your blushing face and curling with the back against him.
Todoroki smiled fondly and kissed softly your hair, rocking you back and forth.
“It’s fine, I’ve a lot of time to make you believe me, love.”
#bnha#bakugou katsuki#kirishima eijirou#todoroki shouto#bakugou x reader#kirishima x reader#todoroki x reader#boku no hero academia#fluff#kisses#insecurities#hints of sexy time#todorki calls love#kiri is a sunshine#bakugou is a man of action#i love them#i feel better too#bodies#your bodies are perfect as they are#comforting#comfort#hugs#soft
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