#i can FINALLY sign off on it lmfao. but im just so mad like why does it play these mind games with me. it shouldnt have worked

[phagodyke]

this assay is so fucking fake......

[wrestlezon]

liveblog containment post for aew rampage 6/10/22

waow its eddie (vs hager...) here is a link to their intros. they did the "no time for intros on tv!!" thing eddie!!!!!!!!!!! kill this man ...............leg hold oh hes mad now. you chopped the wrong man hager is damp. i dont like this guy. boo hager NUT GRIP eddie that was great but: please grab literally anyone else's junk next time. thanks in advance >:( do NOT pin eddie excited for the hashtag ftretta match even tho i miss chuck severely im glad eddie pops his top down for us the viewers tho. dear chuck, please take some notes for when you return yaaaaaay eddie!!!!!!!!!!! because eddie won, i will not be mad.

oh. its a britt baker segment why is she butting into the toni storm thunder rosa thing... no.... please britt baker you SAID you'd CHILL. you'd let OTHERS have the SPOTLIGHT. you SAID THIS!!! really? would heel britt baker just go and do this? go on interviews and tell LIES?

this the show th' yall be waitin on adrenaline pumpin through yer chest this is make or break. my bones are made of stone so step inside the ring, im stompin through your soul this is rampage, screamin cause damage bump you with a vengeance... the finish to make you vanish boom boom boom boom sendin' back to the amateurs bringin back for a smackin' this a takedown (takedown) chyea ready for rampage this is rampage yeah uh this is rampage chyeah chyea this is rampage (lets go)

oh! ortiz video segment... buildup for that hair vs hair match

satnam singh finally in da ring! with uh. lethal those poor jobbers... tall man in da ring being tall uh huh. ok. well he was definitely in the ring and did moves

hookhausen segment! lmao. danhausen in the golf cart lmfao. hook in the. vehicle ok i love them. they are just two funny little rapscallions having fun

red velvet vs kris statlander!!! heel vs dark... kick ass, stat!!! aaaahhh!!! we love you omg. child sign HELL YEA STATLANDER COUNTER kill her stat!!!!!!!!!!!! murder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! sorry velvet. youre up against kris statlander and i have allegiances climbing up the ring with velvet on her. just flipping velvet down. kris youre so strong catching velvet. big lift! kris statlander!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no!!! knee attacks!!! every time. we get got by the rampage commercial jumpscare big lift! corner fight!! what the! kicking out of statlander's big spinny move!! THE ROLLUP TO SUPLEX... TO BIG SLAM TO ANOTHER KICKOUT???????? aahhhhhh!!! what the heck!!!!! how many times must statlander fireman carry velvet before she wins nooooo!! knees to the back of the head! velvet doing cutter moves!!! face kicks!!!!!!!!!!!?????????? AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA spinny kick: grabbed! statlander: yelling power punch! yay statlander wins NOOO BLUE KIERA ATTACKS...?? nooooo!!! violence!!!!! where is stats friends. where are her stable theres anna jay! no! theyre getting owned!! athena: to the rescue? lmfao WHAT THE!! INTERCEPTED BY EVERY OFFICIAL u_u i hope they get their revenge on the baddies someday

segment about the ethan page vs miro fight on wednesday! miro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh no dan lambert alert -_- lmfao ok nevermind the camera zoomed in on ethan page and now hes off camera ethan page is cool and i like him. he has a hot bod AND charismas AND is good at talking. i wish he was not with dan lambert.

boom boom boom boom. send it back to the amateurs... this is rampage...

trent!!!!!!!!!!!! ftr!!!! backstage segment. uhh the other guys are there too ftr are so lmao @ this guy trent: yall hangin out with nerdasses

wednesdays gonna have some cool matches

oh! main event time! ftretta!!! vs aussie open! and ospreay trent and his goofy little waddle oh they too-slowed trent??? dont bully him i am missing the best friends. i am mourning. im bereft trents looking good btw. yeah i'll say it. hot a what. this is who i am now i say stuff like that. i talk about the hot men. can you believe that? its unbelievable. to just say that men are hot lmfao what is dax's little slaps here oh no! theyre beating up ftr! trents tagging himself in. is the bumpmaster going to be taking bumps oh hell!!! sick ddt from trent! he is just standing around while guys are fighting. shrug oh cool moonsault trent oh no! his ankle... no!!!!!!!!!!!!!! big corner kick from team njpw!!! look i know trent is just trent and thats ftr but could the enemy team not kill and then pin trent. please. for me and my poor heart theyre folding up trent into shapes. theyre putting him the corner and punching him. theyre chokeholding him!!! noooo trent!!! trent gets out! get em dax empire getting dismantled! triple suplex! four-- LMAO KICK TAG-IN? get em cash yesss i love tag team collab moves and ftr does them great oh no! now cash is getting murdered noooo dont pin cash!! noooooooo cutter finisher moves ! ftr do not lose against these bad guys who jump people in the middle of matches hurricarana! tagging trent in and he is on one leg. is this a good idea get em trent no his ddt got countered!! oh no!!! ospreay killing ftr NOT THE ROLL UP yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay trent got the big win! go trent woo

[naomioiko]

DD's Comeback - DD x Draco Part 6

Summary: DD gets revenge on Madelynn by hooking her up with Hermione

TW: Fluffy and lots of Fluff ;w;

I hope u like this DD! mwah love u bby ;3;

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Dayana woke up one night, frustrated.

~Dayanas POV~ I walked to class and sat down.

Dayana was angry. Even more than that possibly. Madelynn had been trying to ruin my relasionship with Draco, so i think its time i finally come back. I'll do that by hooking her up with HERMIONE! I know that literally the whole school ships her with Ron, but little does everyone ELSE know, Hermione is actually lesbian. Yea. She told me. (Dont tell anyone else qwq) next to Draco. (As per usual) and we started class together. We have been very close since we went to the beach. He is helping me come up with a plan for Hermione and Madelynn to become a couple. So, our plan was to get them to meet up somehow and confess to eachother. Its simple, but i think it will work.

After class, we wrote 2 notes. Each one saying something along the lines of:

"Meet me at the back of the school at 7:00 Pm"

So, we left the notes in their dorm rooms. hopefully they will find it. I can't wait! This is going to be the best plan ever. I love Draco so much. I hope one day me and him will get married, and have kids, and... WHOOPS! Im rambling aren't i? Lets just continue with the plan I guess.

Madelynns POV

I took this note I guess Hermione had wrote me? I was going to meet her. If im being honest, I have had a crush on hermione for a while. She was the cutest thing ever. But... I couldn't tell her. She was probably already dating ron, and yea.. Maybe Its worth a shot. i think i'll tell her. Yea! I got this B)

I walked to the back of the school and saw her already there,so i ran to her. "Hello!" She says giving me a hug. I blush and smile awkwardly. "Hi.. What did you need? Like why did you call me here?" Hermione looked confused. "I thought you called me here" I just shrugged it off. "Um Hermione, I've got something to um.. tell you" Hermione sits down on a bench and smiles. "Go ahead Maddie"

I blush and try to get my words together as I look down at my shoes. "Um Hermione" I say. "I kinda um.. so.. um basically" I shake my head. UGHH!! THIS IS SO HARD!!! I gulp. "I like you, Hermione!" She holds my hand. "AWH! I like you too!" I hold both of her hands. "No.. I um.. I'm in um.. I'm in love with you" I can't face her. I'm scared. Hermione blushes and delightfully smiles. "I love you too, Maddie" She kisses me on the cheek and I can't believe whats happening.

"Will you be my girlfriend, Hermione?" I say. She nods. "OF COURSE!" She hugs me and lays her head in my lap while I pet her. She's adorable, and she's mine now. I can stop fangirling over Dayana.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"WE DID IT DRACO!!!!" Dayana yells, shaking Draco back and forth. Draco rolls his eyes and pushes Dayana off. Dayana falls in the snow and starts trying to get out. "HELPPP DRACO!! IM STUCK!!" Draco walks away. "Nah." Dayana struggles to get out. "I'll tell everyone that you wear rainbow pajamas to bed!" Dayana says. Draco rushes to help her. "I hate you." He says, wiping the snow off of Dayana's jacket. "I love you too, Draco-Pie!" And gives him a big hug. "You're so cute when you're mad!!" Dayana says smooching him in the forehead.

Dayana was tired, and just wanted to go home. So Draco and DD laid down in the snow and stared at the stars. Dayana leaned her head against draco's shoulder and closed her eyes. Draco put a blanket over DD (don't ask how it got there DAYANA!!! >:() And watched her fall asleep peacefully.

The en-

UNTIL

Maddie throws a snowball at Dayana's face. Hermione and Harry come from behind Maddie and start hitting Draco and DD with snow. Dayana wakes up quickly (I mean who wouldn't LMFAO) And rubbed her eyes. "WHAT THE HECKKK MADDIE?!?" She says trying to shield herself from all the snow. It's not long before DD and Draco start fighting back. Maddie eventually wins, and sticks her tongue out at Dayana and mocks her. "HAHA! Who's laughing now hehehe??" Dayana just lays down defeated with Draco. "You almost killed meh! YOU KILLED MEH!" She yells out dramatically. The teachers come and seperate them. Even though it was just an act, they still took DD to the hospital wing and sent Madelynn to detention. "YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS DAYANA" She yells out, writing down on her detention paper for her parents to sign.

She swore she heard Dayana giggle from all the way down the hall.

THE END :) actually :)))))

mwah love u dd :b

[ishqbaaaaz]

Ishqbaaaz - August 27 2017 - Episode 354

Maha episode time! Thank goodness. One extra episode means we’re one episode closer to this entire track being OVER

Starting off with Shivaay entering the room and tells Annika he knows the truth

lol Shivaay we all know your bitchass is LYING

You would be angrier and more upset if you knew the truth

Hes doing the same thing he did last time, just adding a bit more detail that he remembered to the mix to convince her hayeee Shivaay bas kar do

Annika bby bought it

LOL she is also being hela vague

OU SHE GAVE THE DETAIL OF NAAM KHOON KHANDAAN

One extra clue Sihvaay has now

Now hes leaving....aww Annika bby is so worried

BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW HER HAIR IS NORMAL AND HER OUTFIT IS ALSO NORMAL THANK GOD

Her curly hair and her dress with jeans!!!

Rikara are so happy lol 

OMKI’S MAJESTIC MAINE IS BACK CAN IT STAY PLEASE

“Saadi nibhanein mein pyaar kaafi nahi hota, viswas bhi chaye hota hai. Aur humse bar kar ee baat kaun samajh sakta hai” WOW GAURI ROAST HIM

OHH BABY HE HELD HER HAND

OMKARA YOU BEST OPEN YOUR MOUTH AND SAY SOMETHING NOW

AHHHHH SAMJHAWAN I FRIGGIN LOVE THIS SONG BYE

Wow this song is actually perfect for them

OH HUNNY OMKI THAT SHOULD TOUCHING AND BRINGING IT DOWN TO HER HAND AHH I AM ON FIRE

My bunnies can you also get your shit together now pls and thnk u

HES HOLDING BOTH OF HER HANDS HHAAYYEE

Well I guess now that Shivika are back together kinda, Gauri doesnt have a reason to stay...what are they gonna do now..

tenu chadke kithe jawaaaaannn

“Gauri mein-” HELLO SHIVAAY 2.0 THIS WAS SHIVAAY’S PROBLEM TOO OMG

Gauri has no umeed with you bby u fuckin UP

“humare beech kuch nahi badla. Hum abhi bhi is ghar ki bahu hai”

ROAST HIM BABY

Stop making my Gauri cryyyyyyyyyy

Ruvya! 

Wow Bhavya looks like a normal person!

They straightened her hair thank goodness. she actually looks younger now

TU JANNE NAAAAAAAAAAAA AHH I ALL MY GOOD SONGS HAYE

it better be the atif aslam version because they used an ugly version in dbo

ITS THE ATIF ASLAM VERSION OUU BABY

Im flashing back to his concert back on my birthday while Ruvya flashback on themselves ahaha

Omg Rkara again! Im so happy I need more Rikara in my life

Hes packing?

LOL nah hes unpacking but so lost in thought he repacked lol dummy

Gauri trying to help and hes like ITS OK I GOT THIS

wow hes mad lol what is your issue

DID OM RLY BRING HER BACK HER GIFT HE BROUGHT HER A SHAWL WHAT A FRIGGIN MUFFIN

lol he mad he put it on the side and it fell

Omkara brought gifts back for everyone

SHE OPENS THE SHAWL AND IT HAS THE PEACOCK FEATHER OMKARAAAAAAA

HOMEBOY TOOK IT WITH HIM TO GERMANY

she asks who the shawl is for

LOL HE SAYS HIMSELF

shes hella confused

LOL HE WEARS IT

to be honest, the shawl is so pretty and omkara has worn some hella ugly outfits

shes making fun of him how cuteeeee

“ee aapka style nahi hai”

“haan toh kya hua mera style nahi tha, toh ab mein Germany ja ke aaya hoon, mera style badal gaya hai”

LMFAO WHO ARE YOU FOOLING OMKI

“this is the new me”

LOL IM HAVING SO MUCH FUN

Gauri leaves and enter Rudra laughing

omgg im Rudra 

HES COPYING WHAT HE SAID LOL

i love that Rudra calls her Chulbul bhabhi its so cute

Why is Nagini still here what are you possibly gonna do

Sounds like shes gonna kidnap her

OH SHES GONNA KILL HER LOL R U OK BBY

LMFAO THAT FUCKING BLANKET IM DYING

girl same

i cant even blame her, i made me own SSO sweaters with my sister and bff ahah

Shivaay goes to Om and tells him he knows everything 

JHOOTA SINGH OBEROI 

Back to Bhavya what is she doing

shes mad at him for meddling again

he says if it wasnt for him she’d be dead

she says toh kya hua, hum mar jate na?

AND HE SUSHES HER

lets develop this story a bit more pls

“aaj khe diya, dobara kabhi mat khe na” wow that was hot

WOW RUDRA THIS IS HELLA CUTE AND HOT

Back to Shivaay and Om

Shivaay is fishing so hard right now but no one is going for the bait

RUDRA my bby is so emotional 

Shivaay is hoping they’ll drop more hints or just say everything

I dont think Omki buys it lmao hes smart sometimes

Omkara asking him how he found out because there was no way Annika told him

RUDRA

BATAYA HOGA CHOTI MAA NE

SHABASH RUDRAAAAA WOOOOOO ONE MORE CLUE FOR SHIVAAY

AUR BOL DE

Aw man he stopped spilling

nothing changes between the bhais

ALL FOR ONE ONE FOR ALL

Shivaay please use your dimaag

SHIVAAY IN THE DARK ALL ANGSTY

He’s trying to piece everything together based on what hes heard from everyone

-Annika talking to Pinky

-Rudra tells him that Annika gave them kasam that they wont tell him the truth

-Annika bringing up the illegitimacy of Omkara

-Pinky telling him to kick Annika out the day all the shit went down

-Omkara asking Shivaay who told him the truth and Rudra says probs choti maa because she realized no chaal will work now and sara raita ussi ne phelaya hai

SHIVAAY PUT THE PUZZLE PIECES TOGETHER

ok tbh im forwarding Jhanvi they are not important right now

Pinky is sulking lol bitch fuck off

DADI IS RO/ASTING HER 

...apun bola? out of all songs? lol im forwarding

Shivaay called a lawyer...? for what baby?

LMFAO HOLY SHIT HE JUST SIGNED EVERYTHING HE OWNS UNDER ANNIKA’S NAME WHAT

Pinky is like 

Annika is confused AF

LOL EVERYONE IS ALL

Pinky is not HAVING it

OH SNAP

Pinky says Annika is a nobody, everything he is she made him

he cant give anything to Annika, everything of his is hers and hers alone

LOL THIS BITCH PLS CHILL YA ASS

she ripped the papers

KAUN SA SACH?

this is the promo stuff

THIS BITCH SAYS SHE LIED TO ANNIKA THAT HE ISNT HER CHILD BUT THAT HES KAMINI AND SHAKTI’S ILLEGITIMATE CHILD

THIS BITCH JUST OUTTED HERSELF BUT ALSO SAID SHE LIED TO ANNIKA??

SHIVAAY FINALLY KNOWS THE TRUTH

EVERYONE IS CONFUSED AS FUCK

CAN SHAKTI OPEN HIS MOUTH PLS FUCKING SAY SOMETHING

I think Pinky is lying that she lied. It makes NO sense that he wouldnt be Mahi’s brother, because then also why was Shakti acting so sketchy before

K forwarding Tej

PRECAP: Pinky says she did this all for him and that Annika is trash AND SHIVAAY GETS PISSED THE FUCK OFF AHHHH THIS IS ALL I WANTED 

MERE ANNIKA KE KHILAAF EK SHABD AUR NAHI SUNOONGA MEIN

HE LEAVES

IM GONNA GAVE POPCORN READY FOR TOMORROW’S EPISODE

SEE YA’LL TOMORROW!

[survivor-themyscira-blog]

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FUCK U

JORDAN

I WASNT YOUR LEAK

LOOK WHERE IT GOT YOU

GOD DAMMIT!!

Like literally Logan, was like "you were the honestly honest one".

And Toph's all like "we can't trust emily."

And Jaidens like "im so happy you brought me back AND took out pines." And like mad n ian are like "alliance needs to be strong."

And yeah I haven't spoken to anyone else.

But im sure they're like "damn kai was hot in that tribal."

Or something similar.

So Jordan Pines, you are so very welcome to join my hall of trophy votes. The idol I played wasn't mine but Kai's. Kai transferred it to me because Emily told us you were gunning for me with swapped antiope. QQ You join names such as Seamus, Brandan, Tyler, and Catfish Alexa on my stuffed and mounted

I’m so scared Logan is suddenly being so nice to me he messaged me like hey love and then started telling me to drink fluids and stay healthy and I’m scared he’s plotting against me. And Toph is the complete opposite. He’s being flat out rude to me sending me snapchats of him flipping me off and telling everyone that I can’t be trusted and it’s SO RUDE like wtf I know they can’t but like don’t tell them that!

ok so this puzzle is literally destroying my sanity

i shit you not i turned on GHOST MODE for this motherfucker what was i thinking??? "GEE I REALLY WONDER WHAT THE FUCK THIS PUZZLE MIGHT LOOK LIKE, AND GHOST MODE WILL SURELY HELP ME PUT IT TOGETHER"

god no wonder its called the hell puzzle, i never wanna see this spiky shit again

I feel like the past 24 hours or so have been a lot of “firsts” for me. This is the first time in a Tumblr game I’ve ever been voted out, and later returned due to a twist!! This is the first time I’ve beaten Jordan Pines in an individual challenge :~) (my favorite accomplishment). This is not, however, the first time I’ve felt like a complete outcast! Fuck!!

Basically, I join the merge tribe after vanquishing the Goliath to my David. I expected triumphant cheers of happiness that mister Pines was finally eliminated, but there was nothing more than a sigh at my entrance. Nobody even initially congratulated me.

So here we are, hours after I got back into the game. I guess it’s been almost a full day since then, actually, but I put my absolute all into this competition. I knew from the get-go there’d be no chance in flaming hell I’d win immunity today unless everyone else just decided not to bother. No matter how quick I get done with that puzzle, I had a feeling that I’m still going to get second or third at best. But I’m actually okay with it!

Another first that I accomplished was that I didn’t give up when faced with an incredibly difficult task. Look, beating Jordan Pines wasn’t as hard as it seemed. I’ve gotten him voted out of games before, how much harder could it be to just get him out of a simple ten-point challenge? In comparison to today’s immunity, it was like jumping from little league to major league in a minute. Thankfully this puzzle wasn’t last night’s challenge, lmfao. So I accomplished just getting the puzzle done. Win or lose, this is a proud moment. I literally spent over 8 hours just trying to get the pieces together, and 7 of those hours were spent just today alone. The outcome won’t take this feeling away from me. I’m proud! This gives me a really good argument for myself at a potential final tribal council – I came back, stuck to my guns, and proved that I never gave up at any moment in this game. EVEN KNOWING I could lose such a challenge, I dedicated eight whole hours of my life to getting this shit done. Whew.

I mean I guess there’s a little hope inside me that anyone who completes the puzzle gets some sort of reward out of it… I doubt that’s the case, but it was enough to really kick me into high gear during the first 20% of the puzzle or so to just keep at it. I needed that push.

Anyways, now that I’m back in the game, I need to find some allies. I started working on Rhone and they gave me some useful information about what went down in the game. None of it made ANY sense because I’ve missed so much, but Kai was another person that really tried to instill in me an idea that I could work with him, too.

Before coming back, I was super anti-Jordan Pines. I knew that he was gonna be a tough cookie to crack if I were to magically return and have him still here. So I played that up a lot to Kai in particular, at least to give myself an option if I need one. This might give him a sense that we’re on the same page, wanting to take out the remainders of Jordan’s allies. I’m just kinda waiting for him to swoop down and take me in under his wing. Really, I’m waiting for anybody to do that at this point…

Then again, I’ve got Rhone as a potential “in”. I’ve never played with Rhone before, but I know they’re really smart just by talking to them. I don’t want to even flirt with the idea of lying to Rhone or being a little bit dishonest. I need to be as straight-forward with them as I can because they’re NOT the kind of person I want to lie to for any reason. They’d see right through me and call me out on it, which I don’t need right now.

An idea I’ve had would be to just fill in the spot Jordan Pines made with his alliance. Hopefully they’ll accept me as a new number, because clearly I’m very against Ian. There’s like, no chance I’ll work with either Ian or Madeline or Toph at this point (and I’m not even going to talk to the latter two because… choke), so if I can find a way to send those three out back to back to back? Sign me right up!

Logan’s changed his profile picture to a leek because of some mysterious “leak” drama going around. Like, oh please keep sinking your ship. I promised Dan I wouldn’t target Logan for a bit because Dan wants to see him go far, but like Logan is kinda unnecessary to my game at the moment. I don’t trust him because he doesn’t trust me, and although I don’t have a lot of options, shattering Jordan’s old alliance *might* be beneficial for me in the long-run.

I don’t understand subtlety, so I don’t care if I win immunity and if I do, it’d be a freaking dream. I am going to make my presence in this game known one way or another, so these people had better prepare for that. I should, too. Thankfully, I’ve got this redemption idol so if things look grim for me tomorrow night, I know I’m getting at least tenth place. I don’t want to position myself as the easy vote since I’m a returner, so… let’s try hard to stick around this time and not get messy. Since I’m here, I may as well try to get to the end this time and not be chaotic as fuck. It doesn’t take big moves to win the game, but it does take strong relationships to get people convinced you deserve to win over everyone else. Like I’ve said, I have to right my wrongs from before I was voted out. Then again, I don’t let go of grudges so who knows what the future has in store for me. All I know is I’m glad I'm over that hell of a puzzle.

I worked on that puzzle for over ten hours. The most I got was 35%. At least I tried.

Step one of my master plan. Cry in everybody's PMs and tell them why I DO NOT want to go home.

Step two of my master plan. Become Jordan Pines. Everybody loves Jordan Pines, so why would they vote him out? It just makes no sense. Only Ian and Kai and whoever else voted for him yesterday, and there's no fucking way I'm not getting AT THE LEAST Ian's vote. I kinda need the majority here, so it seems like my best bet is to just make them think I'm not Jaiden.

Step three of my master plan. Scramble. Hard.

And finally, step four. Play the idol on myself. Hopefully I have enough votes coming my way (aka all but mine) and I can look like a good fucking player for once and take out someone I don't like (aka Toph).

HOPEFULLY everyone votes for either myself or Ian. If Ian goes home, then yay he's dead. If they all vote me, then boo you guys just fucked up and now I cancel all the votes : D

I don't know who is willing to work with my cracked ass at this point, but I'm not going down without a fight. I'm gonna pull out all the stops to make shit happen, I'm just really really scared that I won't do it correctly.

me @ everyone in pms: "hi this is your master speaking, please vote for ian"

we all know the real jordan pines uses mind control

I'm going into the second hour on a private call with Ian while we're talking in two different alliances we're in together and discussing our PMs with people. NO ONE can sneak anything past our duo.

I love Logan my only goal in this game now is to get him to not hate me

https://youtu.be/5hV-WJy_kUI

I’m waiting for someone to Jeff Varner themself to make this vote easy

Honestly it's so funny when I have to pretend I don't talk to Ian much and even say he's sorta awkward to talk to. IF ONLY PEOPLE KNEW JUST YESTERDAY WE TALKED FOR 5 HOURS.

my dad is dead

i dont know who to trust

im immune tho

and i got a super idol

neat.

I've heard my name all day long and that gets mentally draining and I tried to set in place a plan to keep myself in, if it works,great, if not oh well it's been a fun ride so far.  The reason it wouldn't work is one it's very contingent on Nicholas throwing his vote and Two- Dammit Toph spilling the real name to someone we don't need knowing, the point of getting people to throw votes is them not knowing who we might be coming for. Anyways, we will see and if I go out no one can say I didn't try

I did the thing that I wanted to do the least in this game tonight well maybe not the least I don’t know I’m using voice text for this just so everybody knows in case this is a total mess I blame Siri anyways tonight was horrible I had to cast a vote for road and I love road to death and just hoping that Rome doesn’t hate me for a bit is it just God I just really I don’t even know what to do anymore in this game I’m just I’m really relying on dudes James and to do each oh my god this is such a mess and I just I recorded a video confessional earlier but I just know I won’t have time to upload it and I’m just leaving rehearsal now and I just I don’t feel like typing but everything is it’s a mess I want to cry and a half like God Charlotte JD LA I’m so upset this This is the fucking worst and I I don’t even know if the boat is going to go my way tonight I feel like I’m really betraying Nicholas because he’s going to cast a vote for Jaden thinking that everybody else is going to vote for Jayda but nobody except I haven’t so I don’t even know if I’ll trust me after this of Oracle try to get me out or something I don’t know what I’m really trusting telephone and really trusting Madeline and Ian and Kai and I’m just  so so so upset I’m going to listen to Pasha to drown out my sorrows hopefully I’m home in time for life tribal but do I even want to be on live tribal tonight I really don’t think I do god this is such a mess why do I play these games all it does is make me sad and stressed I don’t know fuck

Sorry Rhone, I was the one who convinced Dudes, Dames, and a Deutch to write your name out then convince Toph to his a double vote. It was nothing personal other than you were JP's right hand and you voted me. We just had to go with a name that wasn't being thrown around in fear of an idol...Which one was played it was just Jaiden(I told you guys we couldn't go after Jaiden this round) and he played it on me. That's two idol's used on your boi right here, I am in your house stealing all your idol'd votes. The best part, neither of them have been idols I have found! Who needs to search the island when you can get people to play their advantages with you as a beneficiary. As per usual shout out to my girl Madeline, love ya girl we couldn't have pulled off the moves we made so far without being 100% honest with each other. Special shout out to Jaiden as well, thank you so much man you made my day and I think I can start to rebuild a relationship with you, eventually all alliances must end and I feel if you stay in the game for when that time comes we can pull something off.

The only idol that won't be getting played on Ian this game is going to the idol of my heart. I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF THIS BOY PLAYS ME HE'S OVER.

[ammanujuju]

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dear diary,

oh my what a day yesterday was. 

the party i talked about wasn’t as good as i thought it was gonna be. when we arrived there were only a few people there. it was kinda awkward, especially since my friends are super awkward. i tried to make the mood a bit lighter, but of course it didn’t work. we sat down by the table, and sat there for a few hours. it got better as more people arrived, but the one who was controlled the music obviously hadn’t done it before, as no one knew what song was playing. oh, and K’s big brother was there, and to make it worse he was hitting on me, AGAIN. he’s done it before, and i rejected him then as i did now. earlier i didn’t want to just because i’m scared and not comfortable with myself, and because i’m not interested lmao, but now i didn’t want to because of K, and the other reasons i just mentioned. 

well, and because a guy started puking all over the floor in the middle of the party, most of us decided to leave. i mean it was smelling awful, even after the host had managed to clean it up, so no one dared to go back inside. we all went outside, and since I knew Kai and his friend was driving I asked him if he could drive us to another party. but then out of nowhere Erica’s friend stopped right next to us, and he told us he could drive us. i told Kai we didn’t need a driver anyways. 

we arrived the party and oh my the awkward air. no one had been drinking expect for a few, including me, so everyone was just sitting there like nothing. sofia told me she could host if we found a driver, and i was up for that since the party was too awkward for me to handle. i asked Kai if he could drive us, and i felt sooo bad becuase it was the third time i had asked. he said they only had room for two people, and since the police were out they didn’t dare to take any more with them. we were like seven people, and i told Sofia i would like to be one of the first to go driving because i didn’t have my jacket with me (and it was like 4 celcius degrees out and i only had my t shirt on me), my phone was dead and since i was getting sober my head was hurting. she said it was alright, and the second i was about to sit in the car, another friend Cristina, said she needed to go before me because her motorcycle was at Sofia’s and she had to go home. of course i couldn’t deny her that, so i let her. if i only knew that it would lead to me, sitting outside waiting for Kai, for 40 minutes straight i would have said no. i could literally feel the cold in my bones, and when i tried to get inside the house the host said his dad was home so he couldn’t let me in. my friend Jennifer had my jacket and it really felt like i was freezing to death. 

Kai finally arrived after 40 minutes, and i was almost crying when i sat in the car. my friend Alice felt so bad for me, but there wasn’t much she could do. i had to apologize to Kai because i had changed my mind so much that night, and to be honest he didn’t look really happy. i felt so bad. i was so cold my whole body was shaking, and when Kai noticed it he said “but why didn’t you say you were only in a t shirt??? now i feel bad” and he held my arms, trying to get some warmth in them. that made me feel a bit bettter.

when we arrived to sofia, my headahce had gotten worse. i usually don’t feel bad that fast, but i don’t know the bad parties that night didn’t help at all. when i arrived inside the livingroom, my eyes widened at the sight of me and sofia’s ex. yep, we have the same ex. let’s call him Karl. i remember the night me and Karl connected, it would probably be one of the best nights of my life, if i still liked him. we were like that for about five weeks, until he sent me a snapchat of him in the same bed as sofia. sofia and i weren’t friends then, but damn i hated her. since i feel everything really intense, i was still in love with him, and i hated sofia with burning passion. after a few weeks, sofia saw me at a party and ran to me crying, asking if Karl ever had been mean to me. i had no idea what had happened, and why she even talked to me. i later found out that Karl had tried to have sex with her, but since she’s not comfortable with herself she said no, and he then blocked her on every social media and cut all contact with her. i didn’t really care, but i later realized if it had been me, i’d probably so heart broken that i probably would still be crushed. so i basically dodged a bullet, and on my birthday in february i asked her if we could talk. we sat in the bathroom, talked for about an hour about how sorry she was for what she did, and i told her it was okay. we’re really good friends now. 

anyways, i saw him there and my face was basically a question mark. i decided not to think about it, so i sat next to Cristina, who still hadn’t gone home because of issuses with her motorcycle. she’s the quiet type, so i enjoyed actually sitting next to her. she’s someone you can just sit around quiet, because she’s not awkward at all, and my headahce was killing me and i just needed to be left alone for a few seconds.

sofia sat next to me and gave me pain killers. we then talked abit before she said “don’t get mad at me, i have to show you something” she showed that she and Karl had a yellow heart on snapchat (#1 best friends for both) and that they had talked for a few weeks. i mean i don’t really care so why should i be mad, but i was just surprised since he hurt both of us really bad, like why would she, unless she still had deep inside some feelings for him?

Kai brought me my cigarettes before i started drinking, and so i had my precious cigarettes with me in my back pocket. it was annoying to see people noticing it and then literally begging on their knees for one cigarette. so because of that, of course Karl ran over to me, hugged me without my permission and said “i heard you had a cigarette, could i please get one?” like bitch no, i haven’t given anyone else one, who do you think you are to actually get one??

when the clock was about 4am, i sent a snapchat to Kai and asked if he was still driving, and he was going to sofia for a bit but he could take me with him when he was leaving. when Kai arrived he and a friend started to bicker, and i think Kai noticed how uncomfortable I was so he said that he was gonna leave and take me with him, which was kinda cute.¨

earlier that night, Kai had sent me a snapchat asking if he could crash at my place, and i told him yes. Erica’s parents were picking her up at 9am so I was gonna stay up all night anyways. Kai first dropped me off at my place, he was gonna arrive later sometime. i got changed, made some pizza and took my painkillers and then suddenly it felt like this night probably wasn’t as bad as i thought.

Kai arrived later, and he was cuddled up to my legs as he watched a random ass childhood show of his he suddenly thought of and just had to watch. then he got all worlds energy inside of his body and started running around the house like crazy, which was tiring since he also chased after me.

kai left at 10am, and i had already been up about 27 hours. my mom was arriving later that day, so i started cleaning the house. i wasn’t finished until 1pm, and i went straight to bed and i did not wake up until five hours ago. i literally slept for 14 hours, i think it speaks for itself.

now i am just laying in bed, considering to make myself some food. i haven’t eaten in days. i considered yesterday, but i was gonna sleep all day anyways so why would i eat lmao?

now that my mom has arrived home i doubt that kai and i will hang out as much as we did. we could if i went to his place, but he never asks and im too introverted to ask lmfao. 

so this was my night, messy as fuck but it ended alright.

by the way, i found this really nice quote which i have to share it with you. i think i’m going to end every post with a quote i like.

you built a cast around your broken heart and signed it yourself. you signed it “they were wrong”

[survivordivergent]

EPISODE 2 - “WHO EVEN AM I”- ED

Thank the survivor gods I am on a tribe of 9 now! Whew. Four was way too small for me. I'm so glad I'm still with Melissa. Will and Eliza have both started talking to me already so there's promise there. I'm not too concerned about this reward but we'll see what happens.

Thank GOD you split up those tribes. 4 person tribes give me PTSD and this is much nicer to work with

UM BUH-BYE PEOPLE I'VE NEVER MET IN MY ENTIRE LIFE BECAUSE YOU DON'T EXIST ON YOUR FAKE ASS ACCOUNTS EVER

I've been here on this new tribe for 14 seconds and five people have said hello to me. What kind of actual game teas

So, surprise! There was a tribe swap! To be completely honest, I kind of saw it coming, since two people left the first round. I'm really glad that out of everyone on Candor, I have Jill on the Four Tribe. Peter is never here, and I wasn't comfortable with Payton because I am almost 100% it's actually Jaiden, and I want nothing to do with him. Anyway, we get to Four, and Jill and I agree to stick together. Will we hold true to that? Who knows, honestly. I really like Melissa from Abnegation. And I like Kyle and Will, both from Amity. I feel like if I talk to Jill about it, we could have a solid 5 with those I mentioned. I just don't want to come off too strong or aggressive. Now that we are on a tribe of 9 instead of 4, it gives us a bit of room to work. I'm trying really hard to balance between making myself seem like a leader and making myself irreplaceable to my tribe. Leaders are more often than not voted out right away, but if I can show that I am good enough at challenges to keep us away from tribal, I'll be someone my tribe can't afford to vote out, if that makes sense. My goal for this game, as it has been the last 5 games I've played, is to just get to jury. If I can get there, then I will feel satisfied with my gameplay. I mean, winning would be great, don't get me wrong. I've played 5 games, won 2, and still never been on a jury. I just don't want to do worse than Malaysia.. Anyway, this is already a long confessional. So I will wrap up saying that I think we will win this reward challenge. Peter being on the Six Tribe has given them a real disadvantage, because he's never around and they need him to start. Hopefully the next confessional I make will be about idol hunting!

Having a discussion with Dani about going to bars and comparing issues with bouncers to Survivor ORGs, and then this happens:

Dani: so basically, its when you know you're getting blindsided but you just accept it and try not to flip the vote to someone else!

Ed: Wouldn't know. Never been blindsided.

lmfao who even am I.

http://prntscr.com/dhldvm 

Desperate times call for desperate measures. I've set up a spreadsheet that keeps all my thoughts organized and keeps all of the happenings of the game and my approach on things in one place. I don't know how long this will go on for, but I think it's nice to have handy for now.

I'd like to think Ed and I got pretty close during our Amity days and if we both end up on the same tribe together he hasn't forgotten about me. Will's cool too but he's gone MIA for a bit so I don't see myself as close to him.

I can see a divide occurring in the tribe if we happen to lose an immunity, which is why it's so important to try to connect with Otto ASAP. He's going to end up being the swing, and if that is the case, he needs to swing to my side. I'll pm him first thing tomorrow and see if I can at least start to establish a connection with him.

Until then, I gotta work on this reward so, Ciao!

Swap after the first tribal? Wtf are we, Albania? Well maybe Peter will improve a little bit and we can become close. I'm glad we didn't have to vote him off, but I don't think he's gonna be my #1 ally.

Okay honestly if we lose reward the other tribe fucking deserves it

We won reward and I'm really getting along with 4 members of my new tribe. I'm not really concerned about this immunity because I kind of want to lose to vote out Bran aka Amanda. So don't expect much from me :)

Me @ having an actual conversation discussing the strategy and plan for a challenge with my tribe: 

Did I do that #immunity2k16

i think i did that

FUCK I DID THAT IM BEING VOTED OFF BYE YALL

Do I lie? Do I expose myself? Do I beg for mercy? Pray for swap? Here's to praying. And I'm still having contractions. I didn't sign up for all this at once

So. Here's the deal. I'm either going home this round or the round after next because of this, or I'm going to get really far. I have to finess this properly, and I think I can work with it if I keep my story straight. I made a commitment to changing my game this ORG and I'm going to. Fuck honesty, it's too early for that shit. Lie, lie, lie, make a good ally and hope they never find out the truth. Or tell them the truth later in the game. I think honestly I'm safe for this round? Carolanne and Peter are both suuuuuuper quiet... rip. Here's to praying! Here's another confessional for Jenn, the confessional slut.

daaaamn payton back at it again with the peter discourse

I'm hoping people aren't being snakes to me and lying to my face. I have a fear people know what I did but I'm trying to cause Inactives Discourse™ before anything else and then hopefully win immunity next time so people won't know what I've done.

Episode title: Time to die, Binches

Tribal council tonight should go as expected. Carolanne has been here the least amount of time, so off she goes. I considered making a small move and keeping her with my Abnegation idol, but I'm not about to put a random target on my back to keep some freak who'll probably just end up self voting tonight.

If I had things going my way, it would be Payton going home tonight. She's just so irritating sometimes and I know exactly who she is, and she's beginning to play super hard too soon in the game. I almost feel like she isn't the person that I think I know, because she is legit just so frustrating. Payton has all these whimsical stories to tell about herself, like how she's pregnant and other family life stories and it all sounds like the person that I truly know, but she comes off so... fake... at the same time. I'm worried.

I can't make a long confessional for this round because I procrastinated super bad so I promise to make a good one later after tribal, assuming that I'm still here :)

I'll do a bigger confessional tomorrow when I'm not sleep deprived due to the current challenge. But just to check in real quick. I formed an alliance with Kyle and Melissa. I really like them, and so far, us three are the most active on the tribe. Hopefully we can pull this challenge out and avoid tribal, but if not, I feel like I will be okay. I could just pull in Jill and Kyle can pull in the other Amity, Will, and then we have 5. But, Kyle brings up a good point about not keeping people who didnt help, which, currently, Jill and Will both fall in that category. I'm too tired to figure this out right now, but hopefully we can win this.

This is a very cute challenge.

So far I think either Ed, Lucy or Dani would be a good final 2 for me if I don't go home after this tribal tonight. Here we go :D

Logan is Payton. I know that. How? Tea time. 1. Their avatar is Erinn. NO ONE USES ERINN BUT LOGAN. 2. I know them IRL, and they openly talk about going to technical school and stuff that Logan does. 3. They talked to me about the school I "go to", Bowdoin, and many other Maine state schools which are 'close to home' (my home).

I haven't told Logan I know it's them, and I don't know if I'm going to. But I could certainly use it to my advantage, saying "I know who Payton is and how they play."

Also, I forgot all my log in info for Peter's original skype so I had to make a totally new one.

Once a flop, always a flop. Even if you have a new name and are using your friends instagram photos/name.

I'm in the Ugly Fruti alliance. I'm really in an alliance named by capitalizing on the misfortunes of others. That is a thing. That is happening. In my life. Right now. Someone PLEASE tell me I actually like these assholes in real life because they're my favorites right now.

Well.... We were down for this challenge by a lot, then my tribe FINALLY woke up and they have quicker reflexes than me, so they got us almost caught up. Then Jenna posts a task about getting an idol clue and I hop on that right quick in my host chat, but I didn't READ THE ENTIRE TASK that says if I take the clue, I lose my tribe 50 points and OF COURSE my reflexes suddenly decide to wake up for this one. UGH. Now we are 65 points behind and I'm just so mad at myself. The only good thing is that nobody knows that I got this advantage, and I don't plan on telling them. I'm really hoping that there are some big points coming up so I can try to make these 50 points up. Ugh, I actually feel really bad. But hopefully I can get the idol out of it.

I promise to back up and make a proper confessional after results are posted, but I just want to say, if anyone on Four took that last deal and gave up all of our points, I am seriously going to fight someone. I mean, I know I gave up 50 points, but first of all, we made that back up, and second, I didn't know that it would lose me points to take the clue. Dumbo me didn't read the entire post, which I know I should have, but if I had known I wouldn't have taken it....  UGH

Confessional #5 Six Day 9

I don't think I made one of these in a week??? Yikes.

So Abnegation won immunity and I was happy. I haven't gotten that close to them, I was sort of inactive, everyone was in my opinion.

We swapped afterwards, I'm on SIx tribe now. It's cool, I like the people. We work together well, but the other tribe, wooh, they're good. We lost both reward and immunity. Sad, but we'll get over it.

However, we lost immunity cause someone was selfish and got an advantage. That's scary, I don't know who or what it is. It's stupid to do, they sabotaged the tribe. This early, it's not smart.

I'm sad, Carolanne is the person leaving, hopefully. She's been really inactive, but she's someone that I feel I could personally use to help the both of us. I'll rather it be her than me, and I hope nobody's lying to me. I'm personally worried that people may believe that I got the advantage. I don't have it. I'm just trying to survive until the merge.

(worry)

Okay so far I really like Eliza. I am sure I have said this numerous times at this point. During the task challenge I got an advantage of being able to cast an extra vote. I was PUMPED about this, and after it happened and there was a score update, Eliza messaged me and asked if I got the advantage from the where's waldo challenge and i immediately told her yes. I started to hesitate and wasnt sure if this was a good or bad thing so I lied about what the advantage was. So instead of being able to cast an extra vote I told her that I got the ability to look at someone else's vote before tribal. Gotta see if she is fully trustworthy later on. But for now she is the one i trust the most until proven otherwise. A tribal council will show a lot. But i also hope to not go to one just yet

I HATE THIS. I hate having conversations with people. I try and not share too much similar information about myself that I may say on my regular skype account to anyone to make sure people don't think that Jill is me, but also I am not that creative. Then on the flip side, I don't know how creative these people are. Payton definitely had decent skills at supporting the background and really diving into the character. I cannot bring myself to do this that intensely. Every conversation I have I go through a struggle of wanting to ask questions and learn about someone but then realizing everything they are saying could just be a lie and not be real so I don't know if it is worth my time to keep up with the charade. I don't know how people catfish online for years. It must get tiring and requires a lot of effort. I would be so afraid of a plot-hole I would not be able to do it. Thank god this game is only like a month and a half