#i both love and hate how this is my most popular post on this hellsite

[spellbird]

"Illumination Legend of Zelda isn't real, it can't hurt you!"

Illumination Link:

[mysteriouswolf]

Hi :3

Hey! Glad you somehow found your way here throughout this chaotic hellsite :D

I typically go by Mysterious or Raven, I'm a minor, and I use she/they pronouns

I mainly post about Hermitcraft/life series, but here's a bunch of my other interests as well :D

Mcyt (lil bits of dsmp, qsmp, empires, Xlife, + some others)

Alice Oseman (Heartstopper, IWBFT, etc)

Brandon Sanderson (Skyward, Cosmere, etc)

Percy Jackson

The Owl House

Good Omens

She-Ra and the Princesses of Power

Kipo And The Age Of The Wonderbeasts

Persona (though I've only played 3-5)

Epic the musical (I was peer pressured by @royallygray /j)

Writing

Music/guitar

Reading

Art in general :3

The art in my pfp is by @kaereth and the art on my header is by @chrisrin!! (both amazing artists that you should totally go give a follow to)

DNI if you're homophobic, transphobic, or plan on spreading hate to people here.

If you are my mutual, I will probably tag you in a lot of tag games, lil things I think you would like, etc, so if you don't want me to tag you please send me and ask or message me!! Also, I don't tag every single one of my muts in every tag game, and I don't have any sort of system to how I choose, so if you see I didn't tag you in something IT DOESNT MEAN I DONT LOVE YOU I PROMISE (and feel free to join in anyways!!)

Please do not send me asks for donations for reasons here:

I am likely to block you if you do, as I have now clearly stated that it is against my boundaries.

Under the cut are: tags I use, some encouragement + love, some of my mutuals, and just general nonsense.

Tags (that I sometimes use) :D

#mysteriouswrites- All my writing (including stories, fics, poetry, etc)

#mysteriousanswers- My answers to asks :D

#mysteriousdraws- My art + sketches

#rambling- my silly lil random posts

#fave- MY MOST FAVORITE ART EVER THAT I THINK IS JUST AWESOME AND GO FERAL OVER

Some love for anyone who needs it:

I love you. I don't care if I've never met you, we were made from the same things as the stars, weren't we? That in of itself is beautiful- I will love you with the same mysterious adoration I have for the stars, and I just want you to know that I care about you. And I know sometimes things seem like they'll never be better, that it seems the entire universe is against you, but I'll always be on your side. You've got this. And I'm proud of you, no matter what you've done. Things get better eventually, I know they will- and it sucks waiting for things to come around, especially if they keep going down. But the sun has shone before, and it will again. And even in your darkest times, the stars are still shining their light into your soul to push you forward.

I love you. Stay strong.

Some of my mutuals who I love very dearly and would die for:

@royallygray The most amazing lovely creature to ever walk the stars and I love them to death <3

@charbeloved The person who I would literally sell my soul to, another glorious human who's remarkable

@geodetojoy Someone who I'd absolutely love to just run away into the forest with and never find our way back out again

@emmaestrella Another lovely silly human who's just incredible

@izoexa you are. so cool. just. vibes. yeah. :]

@t4tgempearl Juneeeeee (you will always be june to me) you're also just. super cool. probably who I've been muts the longest on this list :D

I love you all <3

[short-circuit-the-great]

I was tagged by @magic-ace in this post where they wanted me to answer all of them, so here it is:

🎱 ⇢ post your AO3 total stats

🍓 ⇢ how did you get into writing fanfiction?

A classic tale of "my favorite character didn't get enough screen time" led to this.

🌵 ⇢ share the link to a playlist you love

🕯️ ⇢ on a scale from 1 to 10, how much do you enjoy editing? why is that?

Give it a 5. I don't mind it but it's difficult to focus on the proofreading side of it.

🛼 ⇢ describe your latest wip with five emojis

🔥🔥🌞🔥🔥

🥑 ⇢ you accidentally killed somebody, which mutual(s) do you text for help?

@magic-ace @mecha-milkers @i-am-an-omen

🥤 ⇢ recommend an author or fanfic you love

I haven't finished it, but Descent by Zakharie.

💌 ⇢ how many unread emails do you have right now?

Zero.

🌻 ⇢ tag someone you appreciate but don't talk to on a regular basis

@brockendrems

🐇 ⇢ do you prefer writing original characters, reader inserts, or a mix of both?

Original characters. Reader inserts aren't for me.

🧃 ⇢ share some personal lore you never posted about before

I will share one of my favorite taekwondo stories from many years ago because I think it is funny. Two different short dads I was sparring with managed to accidentally nail me in the face with the same kick on two different occasions, months apart. (You cannot hit the face in taekwondo but going for a headshot it happens a lot.) The first time miraculously didn't knock out any teeth but my upper lip got stuck in my braces and I had to rip it out while laughing maniacally. I looked like a corpse for weeks. The second time was straight in the nose, so my nose is still slightly crooked and makes a crunchy noise if I wiggle it to this day.

Both of the dads felt terrible but I was a teenage boy so I thought blood on my uniform was cool.

The "short dad curse" was real for a bit there and the only reason it hasn't continued is because I am now the short dad myself.

🎲 ⇢ what stops you from writing more in your free time?

I don't have this problem.

🍄 ⇢ share a head canon for one of your favourite ships or pairings

Knock Out and Breakdown roughhouse a lot.

🧸 ⇢ what's the fastest way to become your mutual?

Reblog my shit with silly tags.

🪐 ⇢ name three good things going on in your life right now

I'm learning to animate, which is cool.

I'm feeling a little more hopeful about finishing my degree.

My friends are wonderful.

📚 ⇢ what's the last thing you wrote down in your notes app?

I don't use the notes app.

🍬 ⇢ post an unpopular opinion about a popular fandom character

I know better than to share that on this hellsite.

🔪 ⇢ what's the weirdest topic you researched for a writing project?

Typical murder-related writing searches.

🦷 ⇢ share some personal wisdom or a life hack you swear on

I got a small notebook to write tasks in, things I've done, what and when I ate, etc. This has been very helpful for memory loss and blackouts.

❄️ ⇢ what's your dream theme/plot for a fic, and who would write it best?

Don't have one, but one of these days I want to write something more hopeful, something along the lines of a 2010s-era superhero cartoon but as a novel. Don't have a plot for that one yet. It's rotating in my head, though.

🌿 ⇢ give some advice on writer's block and low creativity

One of the best pieces of writing advice I ever heard was "give yourself permission to suck." When you sit down to write you can't be fixated on making it perfect the first time. All your first draft has to do is exist. Anything you write down you can change later, but you gotta get it down first.

🥐 ⇢ name one internet reference that will always make you laugh

My roommate and I keep saying "inch resting" and "ingredience" to each other.

🏜️ ⇢ what's your favourite type of comment to receive on your work?

Any.

🍦 ⇢ name three good things about a character you hate

He makes admittedly funny puns. That's it. That's all I'm giving Silas.

🥝 ⇢ do you lie a lot? what's the most recent lie you told?

I don't lie except for safety.

🦋 ⇢ share something that has been on your heart and mind lately

Grief.

🦴 ⇢ is there a piece of media that inspires your writing?

A few.

🍅 ⇢ give yourself some constructive criticism on your own writing

Don't give my characters enough time to "rest"--it's one crisis after the other. That's the way I like it but someone get em therapy what the hell

🐚 ⇢ do you like or dislike surprises?

It depends what kind.

🪲 ⇢ add 50 words to your current wip and share the paragraph here

She barely made it halfway down to the gallows before something slammed into her, knocking her into the side of the building and shattering a line of windows. The crowd gasped and looked up, and then all Suncatcher could see was shadows and broken glass and the gun someone shoved into her face.

“If you can’t sit back and watch nicely,” Crossfire said, “then you can’t watch at all.”

“Go to hell,” Suncatcher said, and the blades on her forearms snapped out and stabbed into Crossfire’s midsection.

☁️ ⇢ what made you choose your username?

Thought ShortCircuit would be a good pen name for Transformers fanfic. It eventually became a new pen name overall, though I still use NobleRunaway in other spaces.

🐝 ⇢ tag your biggest supporter(s) and say one nice thing about them

@magic-ace @mecha-milkers @i-am-an-omen I love you guys so much. May your pancakes always be fresh.

🌸 ⇢ do you have any pets? if you do, post some pictures of them

So remember when I answered one of these with "grief"

🎨 ⇢ link your favourite piece of fanart and explain why you like it

This doodle of Knock Out because it speaks to me.

🧩 ⇢ what will make you click away from a fanfiction immediately?

I wrote an entire rant and deleted it because the internet can't read. But there is something and it falls under mischaracterization.

[cosmic-ships]

Confession: I really hate this website. I don't understand how to make friends or why some things get interaction and some don't and although it's the only place with self shippers, I am so lonely most of the time I think I should just leave because what's the point? I also don't have any art or writing skills so can't post anything like that and my husband's world is not popular or one where other people self ship so it's not like I can even get into fandom stuff. Just so tired. I miss Livejournal (outing my age, lol). I GOT that. I just want people to know and remember he and I, we were, we loved. Our love existed.

anonymously confess something to you.

Awe, I'm sorry you're feeling so frustrated. You don't have to have the skill to draw or write. I used to be god-awful at both art and drawing but I just...practiced whenever I was able too. Practice makes progress after all, I didn't care if my writing or art was bad in comparison (not that you should compare) but I created it because it makes me happy!

Again, it's ultimately up to you on how you want to do things and in no way am I implying you should do it my way!!

You can always just love post! For a long while and I mean like... two years I hardly produced anything. All I did really was reblog other mutuals art/wrting and occasionally I would make a post just hollering about my f/o. The good thing about that is that it doesn't have to be coherent you can literally type "LSDKJFLKSDJFLDSK MY F/O HHHHHHHH" and people would like it because you're just screaming that you love them!

I remember Livejournal, I never used it myself but I do remember it. I guess in a way you got to put yourself out there. interact with some people either through tags of something they made and you rbd or like participate in sending asks to people. I am in no means "well known" but I found some people who like to put up with my annoying ass /lh

I don't really talk to people privately either, its all mainly through dash communication and asks/asks games.

I understand that it can be hard and frustrating but there are a multitude of different ways of showing your f/o you love them and just a gentle reminder that you're here for you and your ships and if you find some people a long the way who also support your ships, that's a bonus! <3

I know quite a few who have obscure f/o and while yeah content can be hard to come by, like I said there is a lot you can do from if you wanted to try drawing/writing, moodboard making, playlist creation, pintrest board creation, loveposting (Even if it is keysmashes followed by 100 ilus lol)

I'm sorry if I went on a tangent, if you fell asleep partway through I don't blame you! lol I just wanted to kind of reassure you in a sense that there are ways of loving your f/o and showing that love. You don't NEED to make content of them to prove your love or your ships worth and you're here because you want to share some form of love for them right? You're doing that for you and because you want too! Eventually, the right people will find you.

I've never actively looked for friends on the hellsite, people migrated towards me and now I have a lot of lovely mutuals who I can also call friends. It didn't happen overnight (I've been here since like....2017? a least self shipping, been here longer than that tho) but it will happen.

I just be super unapologetic about this insane amount of love I feel and whenever I feel the need I scream via a text post haha

I'M R A M B L I N G (WRAP IT UP KADEN GAWD!) /j /lh

I'm sorry you're feeling frustrated/upset with your experience on the hellsite and I really do with all my heart anon, hope that it turns around for you <3 Please take care!

[whatever-you-can-give-me]

20 Question Fic Writer Tag

@madnessmadness tagged me in this like a month ago and i never saw it until now whoops. functional hellsite

How many works do you have on AO3? 311!

What is your AO3 word count? 628,514

What fandoms do you write for? currently, trigun!

What are your top five fics by kudos? #1 is a Lucifer TV fic from five years ago that i put very little effort into but it's the main ship for a show that was very popular at the time so it haunts me. #2, #4, and #5 are good omens collab fics <3 #3 is for reasons wretched and divine, as it deserves

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? i respond to comments from whatever my current fandom is, and sometimes the fandom before it. and then trigun kind of took off and i kind of took off within trigun fandom and then i posted a fic every day for a month so now i have a backlog of. 68 comments. whoops. i'll get to it!

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? excluding things where i play around with canonical angst, hmm. very few people actually read my cowboy bebop fics, and statistics show i am the only person who liked the doomed live action show, but we never had a choice but to give up is a very fun & rather dark au of a specific moment from the live action show.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? i'm a fan of happy endings in general, recently it's and i would give all this and heaven too which is essentially a Fix It With Vampires fic.

Do you get hate on fics? not so much anymore, but it has happened. honestly when trigun took off i expected more bullshit from people.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? i do, when i'm in the mood for it. usually feelingsy smut with trans characters, or some moderately weird kinky shit. usually both at the same time.

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written? not really a crossover fan, per say. i think too hard about the details.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? hopefully not!

Have you ever had a fic translated? yes!

Have you ever cowritten a fic before? i wouldn't be the writer i am today without @irisbleufic mentoring me by way of several collabs in the good omens fandom years ago.

What's your all-time favourite ship? that's a hard one. i'm going to go with the wildcard option and say elendira/razlo. they're everything to me.

What's a WIP you'd like to finish but doubt you ever will? i'm not jinxing myself like that.

What are your writing strengths? i'm very technically skilled, i know all the tools and tricks that make Good, Proficient Writing, and some part of that transcends what feels like rote skill-building to me into some kind of style.

What are your writing weaknesses? plot. i'm not a plot guy, most of the time.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic? as a monolingual schlub, neutral. i get why people do it, especially for multilingual authors, but it's a bit clunky/immersion-breaking to have to open google translate or click to a footnote. also Random Spanish (For Romance!) makes me cringe.

First fandom you wrote for? ...anne of green gables. i have no idea if the notebook i wrote it in still exists anywhere but i clearly remember writing something about anne and....... gilbert? i think is his name?

Favourite fic you've ever written? i already mentioned for reasons wretched and divine, which is tied with nobody said it was easy. both projects made me a better writer, and i love both fics dearly.

tagging anyone who wants to do it!

[internetgiraffekid1673]

Hi I'm Lauren I'm new to this app, I'm just trying to make some friends. Can i be your friend?

Hello! Welcome to the Hellsite! I'd love to be your friend! I'm flattered you seem to think I'm cool enough to consider me friend material! You can call me Giraffe or Anne. Not my real name, but close enough.

I'm pretty new to this place myself, but I've been here long enough to know it is a constant state of beautiful and incomprehensible mayhem. It's fantastic.

Ummmm. Introduction things! I'm a college student who goes to school in the middle of nowhere Mountain West and lives on the East Coast. I don't have a major yet because I don't know what I'm doing and am only pretending I know how to adult. I was a military brat, so I've lived in quite a few places and want to live in more. I have 3 older brothers and a person who could be considered my older sister. I was in the BSA (yes, I'm a girl, they let girls in, they have for a while now) and am a proud Eagle Scout. I'm also aroace and a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints (commonly shortened to LDS or mormon, but we're not really supposed to do that anymore because it cuts out Jesus from the name, which is kind of the most important part. Everyone on tumblr still uses those though, and it doesn't bother me, so use mormon or LDS or Latter Day Saint or whatever you want).

I like to draw, but I don't think I'm very good at it. I write a lot, but I almost never finish anything, and I post things even less freqently, cuz I'm a coward. I play the cello and the guitar, and I wish I had people who would randomly play bluegrass with me.

I love books, but I haven't had much time to read in the past year. I normally hit 20+ books a year easily, but college is great at murdering your free time. I almost exclusively read YA and middle grade fiction, especially fantasy and sci-fi, but I do branch out every once in a while. Most current book obsession is Percy Jackson, but I have so many super random middle grade novels that I love to death and could ramble about.

I don't enjoy the experience of watching movies, even if I like the movie itself, and thus, I have not seen a lot of movies. The rule is, if it is not an animated Disney film, assume I haven't seen it, and you will be correct about 65% of the time. I am a proud non-viewer of many popular movies, most notably the ENTIRE MCU. I have watched the moon knight TV show, seen some scattered clips from Spiderman: No Way Home, and seen the Spiderverse movies. These are the only marvel properties I have seen, and probably the only ones I intend on seeing.

I like comic books, mostly cuz they're both a lot cooler and a lot sillier than people expect, but I've only read scattered Robin, Batgirl, Spiderman, and Moon Knight comics. I wanna read Squirrel Girl, though. That'd be cool. My favorite Marvel hero is Moon Knight, and my favorite DC hero is Robin. Not Batman, Robin. All the robins, too. Anyone who has been Robin shares the favorite spot. This includes the We Are Robin kids, Stephanie Brown, and Carrie Kelley.

I am obsessed with a number of shows, and the obsessions fade in and out. Currently? I love the Owl House, Gravity Falls, My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic, and Avatar (Legend of Korra and Last Airbender). I'm also obsessed with Miraculous Ladybug, but I have an unfortunate love-hate (mostly hate) relationship with the show that is shared by most of the fandom. Like, almost the whole fandom will tell you not to watch it, it's bad and disappointing, and we wish we weren't too invested to quit.

I think that's mostly it. I'm so glad to have a new friend here! Tell me all about you too, either on your blog or in my askbox. I'm excited to be your friend, Lauren!

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

sometime in this last week, or this week coming, my blog has turned/turns 10. god. a decade old. a whole ass chunk of my life i’ve spent on this hellsite. when i began on here, i was a kid. a lost, lonely, depressed and anxious 15/16 year old kid. a kid scared of her future. a kid confused about her future. what to do for uni. to change schools or not??? to do drama/acting at uni or english/philosophy or to move 8hrs away to another regional uni to “escape” her “washed up, dead end hometown” that was so typical of all the pop-punk music that she was listening to at the time.

she was a tad overdramatic, loud, “funny” (as described by her school friends) and terribly forgetful in regards to homework and school assignments. she was angry at the world, most especially the catholic school she was fucking sick and tired of attending. but she was convinced that since she was the so-called “funny girl”, that she simply couldn’t be depressed or anxious. she believed herself unloveable because she didn’t look like a weird mixture of hayley williams and emo-pop queen lights. but now, i no longer believe that i have to look like the women that i looked up to in the ~emo scene~. fuck beauty standards. i am loveable.

in the years since joining tumblr, i’ve managed to get through business college, my undergrad degree and, well, failed out of postgrad due to obvious burnout and health issues amongst other things. although i’ve lost many friends irl and many followers/mutuals online on here. for those who’ve stuck around to see me get through all of this, thank you. to all the friends/casual mutuals that have since deactivated or only followed me for a short time then unfollowed; thank you.

like obviously i was never/have never been a massive popular blog on here, like thebootydiaries or vampireapologist (who has since deactivated a couple of months ago) with tens of thousands of followers. my follower count is still close to the 8,000 range at 7,892. obviously that’s still a lot of people (and of course, porn bots lmao and many, many non-active blogs), enough like one super old post from like 2012 tumblr pointed out, enough for a small to medium sized city or town, or something like that. i don’t know how many people i’ve really reached. i really don’t know how i actually amassed this small army of people.

i am aware though, that on other platforms like snapchat (lmao does anyone even use it anymore in 2021???)/instagram/youtube/tiktok etc, i’d PROBABLY be considered as some type of ~micro influencer (🤮🤮)~. hell, i actually had a bot slide into my notes about being one on here on this hellsite back in 2019. i don’t know if i’ve ever actually ~influenced~ anyone on here with my shitposts (when i started making some) or my personal posts. i don’t know my reach. even though, now, i do occasionally get featured on buzzfeed listicles (although pay me buzzfeed along with the OPs of those original embedded posts), i still don’t know how many people i’ve reached… and even with my very occasional checks of google analytics lmao. on top of this, grappling with the loss of followers at times is much, much easier than it was when i began on here and the first few years following that. i know that my follower count doesn’t determine my worth and stuff.

but over these 10 years, i have grown. i turn 26 this year. back in 2011, 15/16yo me never thought she’d be here. she was partially down the suicidal thoughts hole, with things about ~picturing her funeral and wondering who’d bother to turn up. if only she could pretend to be dead for a day to see who’d give a fuck~ and 16-18yo me was defs down it with her HSC hellscape thoughts in 2012/2013. that 3rd floor tafe/tech women’s bathroom window drop and the thought of scarring her class for life (and that cool dude from catholic school that she crushed on who ended up at tafe with her) with jumping out of it onto the concrete below. instead, she just posted on fb about ~being a failure~ etc which ultimately did lose her a bunch of facebook friends lmao. it was practically the same thing. her mental breakdown after the end of her hsc, where she let her earrings go green and get infected in her ears because “fuck self care, bc what the fuck is it??? i’ll never get better! let me fucking wallow in my self loathing bc it’s the only thing that i’m fucking good at!!!” so i no longer have my ears pierced. oh! it was just all too fucking much!!

i am happier today. i no longer have those semi-suicidal thoughts. hell, i almost died in 2020 from a fucking bowel aneurysm, after my stomach tumour excision surgery. that forced me to put things into perspective. i appreciate the little things . i appreciate the very few friends that i actually have. yes. i’m still depressed and anxious. some days are still shitty and hard. but nowhere as hard and shitty as they were back when i began on here 10 years ago.

how the fuck last 10 years have gone past, with my ass on here; clearing out my blog and caring more about doing that than my uni work (lmao whoops); having made some lifelong friends both internationally (from the US) and long distance domestically in australia, it’s been a long ride; i honestly have no fucking idea. obviously over these past 10 years, i’ve debated with myself over and over and over again whether i should delete/deactivate this account or not. would it make me healthier??? more than likely. but then when i have meltdowns or just inner ramblings i have to get out somewhere, where else to post??? on fb?? obvs not. it’s “attention seeking” or the like on there. no one will read them. no one will resonate. but on here??? even if i got/get one “like” in the notes or one “yo i feel this” response in the tags or replies, it feels like i’ve reached someone??? okay yeah. i know this place IS NOT therapy and i’m not using my followers as amateur (or probs even actual professional) armchair psychologists…. which is a thing i think people need to stop doing internet-wide: but that’s a whole other post that i reblogged a few days ago lmao. i really need to get another therapist, actually lmao.

but it’s the community i’ve found hard to leave. i have what feel like friends, when i’ve never been employed (still as of yet); and when all of my irl friends/acquaintances are working and doing the whole ~adulting~ and ~grown up life~ thing right. it’s also the frenzied rabidness of spite with hating staff’s godawful ideas. the memes. oh the memes. and also the RaWrInG 20s XD emo scene reemergence on here that’s kept me here. the messy petty drama from time to time of big blogs fighting it out.

this place really is bizarre and fun sometimes. and also the fact that i can still hide behind the ridiculous “roaring pikachu” URL that i made all those years ago. i am anonymous. it’s freeing. but on fb it’s all like “WHY WONT YOU ADD A BANNER IMAGE AND TELL US 20 FUN FACTS ABOUT YOU!!!!!???? LET PEOPLE WHO HAVENT SPOKEN TO YOU IN 10 YEARS KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT YOU BECAUSE WE’RE ALL FRIENDS HERE!!!” and the same goes for Corporate Hellscape Facebook™️ (linkedin) but in the professional sense instead. y’all know fuck all about me really. besides my posts. and i love that and live for that. okay yeah. y’all know more about my mental health than my fb feed obvs… which is probably a terribly unfortunate thing. but still.

over the last 10 years then, my superiority complex for being ~so original and intelligent~ or whatever the fuck i had in high school, has all but ebbed away. i’m not that smart just because i went to uni. hell, i literally did NONE of my in-class work and none of my philosophy readings in uni….. so i have fuck all idea of how i got through undergrad like that lmao. i’m not original when so many people can articulate the same thoughts that i have, but like, sometimes better, on a post (even though sometimes/most of the time the Tumblr User Hot Takes Tuesday™️ takes on here are fucking awful lmao). but still. originality is not something i really have anymore. or really had in the first place lmao.

so will i deactivate after these 10 years, like i’ve been saying for so, so long??? i honestly have no idea. but just know. thanks guise. have a nice gpoy selfie day XD. grab your wands. your tardises. grab your war paint. grab your whatever the fuck other fandom specific stuff that was one that hella cringe post from 2011 til 2015 random tumblr. that relic is as old as time itself. just as this mysterious roaring pikachu is for someone whose too loyal to leave this W E B B E D H E L L S I T E that’s just as much of a train wreck as she is. lmao.

[pikapeppa]

Author Questions Meme

Thanks for the tags to lovely @idrelle-miocovani and @thejeeperswife! The two questionnaires were a bit different, so I’m picking and choosing what I want to reply XD

Tagging forward to: @river-of-asgard (I see you, boo! You are seen!!), @aban-asaara @charlatron @barbex @galadrieljones @thevikingwoman @buttsonthebeach @iarollane @faerieavalon @wardsarefunctioning @dickeybbqpit and anyone else who would like to play! 

Rules: tag a few followers you want to know better.

Author Name/Nicknames: queenofkadara on AO3, pikapeppa here on Tumblr.

When I Created This Account: this Tumblr appeared in 2013, but I didn’t start really using it until May 2017. My AO3 also started in May 2017.

Why I Created This Account: I started writing fanfic in May 2017 for Mass Effect: Andromeda, and AO3 was the first fanfic site that came up when I was trying to decide where to post. I started posting on Tumblr too because I wanted to find other people as obsessed with Reyes Vidal as I was. GOOD THING THIS HELLSITE IS GOOD FOR FINDING OTHER OBSESSED FANS. ❤

Fandoms You Write For: Dragon Age: Inquisition, Dragon Age 2, Horizon Zero Dawn, Mass Effect, and I wrote a smutty crack oneshot for HBO’s Westworld LOL.

Where You Post: AO3 and here on Tumblr. 

Most Popular One-Shot: on AO3, it’s a piece of Solavellan voice kink smut called Lift Your Voice High. On Tumblr, I think it’s this smutty Fenris/Rynne Hawke chapter called My Body Is A Cage. 

Most Popular Multi-Chapter Story: Stormbirds and Stalkers, my big Aloy/Nil story from Horizon Zero Dawn. I will always be super attached to this story because I wrote the whole thing in just over a month, and I kind of got known among the fanfic community for being That Niloy Girl 😂 (I WILL ALWAYS BE THAT NILOY GIRL, OK, EVEN IF I DON’T WRITE THEM ANYMORE.)

Favorite Story You Wrote: WELL, SHIT. I HATE THIS QUESTION. Weirdly enough, one of my favourites is a super rarepair three-chapter fic called Stealth Trials, a Horizon Zero Dawn fic that pairs Aloy with one of the Keepers from the Carja hunting grounds. The Keeper is such a minor character that he doesn’t even have a fucking name. WHATEVER, HE’S HOT AND I’M TRASH.

Story You Were Nervous to Post:  Fix You, a little post-Trespasser Blackwall/Arya Lavellan story that revolves around Arya and Blackwall trying to cope with the loss of her arm. I wasn’t so much nervous about posting this as nervous about the fact that I knew basically no one would read it. But I thought the story was important, so I wrote it anyway, and I had fun doing it.

How Do You Choose Your Titles:  HAHAHAHAHAHA. @schoute knows how much I hate doing this. I used to give my shit really dumb cheesy titles, and now I think I’m better at it. Often it’s a song lyric or title (e.g. Lovers In A Dangerous Time for Fenquisition), or it’s a phrase that encompasses the theme of the piece (e.g. Become Human for Cole/Lavellan), or it can be a line of dialogue or a prop that plays a big role in the fic (e.g. Where The Winds Of Fortune Take Me for pirate AU, or Underpants for a Fenris/Rynne oneshot about... well, underpants). 

Do You Outline:  yes yes yes. The outline is flexible, and unplanned ideas or conversations will often come up mid-writing where I’m like “AWW YISSSS THIS IS GOOD SHIT”. But overall, yes, I’m an outliner. 

The exception, though, is the pirate AU, Where The Winds Of Fortune Take Me. I haven’t been planning it more than like, 2 chapters ahead, and IDK REALLY WHERE IT’S GOING NEXT HAHAHA I BLAME @schoute FOR THIS

Complete: Most of my fics are complete. I won’t bore you guys by listing them. The oneshot/drabble collections like What Pride Will Not Forget (Solavellan) remain perpetually incomplete because I add to them when I feel like it.  My only unfinished longfics are the ones I’m currently working on. 

In-Progress:

Lovers In A Dangerous Time - also known as Fenris the Inquisitor with Rynne Hawke supporting and providing comedic relief and angst also oops my bad.

Where The Winds Of Fortune Take Me - pirate AU with both Cullen/Piper Lavellan and Fenris/Rynne Hawke romances! PIRATES PIRATES PIRATES YARRRR

Coming Soon: two big fat whopping chapters of Where The Winds Of Fortune Take Me are going to appear this week! And of course, always, more Fenquisition.

Do You Accept Prompts: yesss.... but I haven’t been filling them lately, unfortunately. Two simultaneous longfics is taking up all my time.

Upcoming Story You Are Most Excited to Write: Honestly, I get equally psyched about both Fenquisition and Winds, so basically I’M EXCITED ALL THE TIME.

BONUS: my dumb face. I am Fenris trash. 

[b00bstone]

ALL THE ICE CREAM ASKS PLEASE (or just the ones you want to do)

chocolate: when was your first kiss?

hasnt happened yet... still... ill let u know when it does tho... 

french vanilla: how old are you?

17... 

cotton candy: three places you want to travel to?

outer space. antarctica, and ireland 

strawberry: a language you wish you could speak?

probs spanish or estonian 

coffee: favorite cosmetic brands?

elf? and anything from Lush

mint chocolate chip: indoors or outdoors?

outdoors?

cookie dough: do you play any instruments?

im learning 3 rn 

rocky road: favorite songs at the moment?

emily by MIKA and reunion by AJR

butter pecan: favorite songs for life?

yellow by coldplay and that hallelujah song from shrek (dont judge me!)

cheesecake: what's your zodiac sign?

cancer

toasted coconut: the beach or the pool?

beach

chocolate chip: what's your most popular post?  

“thepessimisticassholeepicmurdockI really hate it when parents of autistic kids use phrases like “I know they’re in there.” Bitch they’re right in front of you! You haven’t lost them! They’re not locked away like a final boss in a video game!! This is your child As Is! Love them for who they are not what you wish they would be! Fuck!epicmurdockI didn’t expect this to get notes but it’s absolutely ok to reblog and I’m glad it has been”

bubblegum: books or movies?

well depends on wether the movie is based off the book... if it is then probs the book. but if its not then i dunno... 

pistachio: manga or anime?

probs anime

salted caramel: favorite movies?

well i recently watched beauty and the beast and thats definitely up there. marley adn me. guardians of the galaxy. mike and dave need wedding dates and pitch perfect 

birthday cake: favorite books?

the entire raven boys series... carry on.... im really liking aristotle and dante discover the secrets of the universe so far but i havent finished it yet. 

moose tracks: favorites for manga?

i havent really read any?

orange sherbet: favorites for anime?

yuri on ice.... and full metal alchemist

peanut butter: favorite academic subject?

none of them.... but if i have to choose... probably irish? 

black raspberry: do you have any pets?

yes! a newfoundland, a black and tan coonhound, 2 domestic shorthair cats that are kinda sick... a kitten that we think is probs a domestic shorthair. and a manx-something woth tufted ears cross. 

mango: when and why did you start your blog?

this blog was in january i think... because i missed this toxic hellsite.

mocha: ideal weather conditions?

sunny and warm but not hot witha  cool breeze blowing. or really windy and stormy. depending on wether i have to go places that day. 

black cherry: four words that describe you?

awkward. annoying. spacey. and i should have at least one good one? ummmloyal?

neapolitan: things that stress you out?

life. capitalism. school. my family. reality in general. 

toffee: a card game that you're good at?

3 cards. 

lemon custard: do you eat breakfast?

sometimes

dark chocolate: turn ons?

people im attracted to making physical contact with me. guys with really deep voices. girsl that like flirt. like highkey obviously flirting with u flirt. 

fudge: turn offs?

assholes. 

peach: how do you relax?

i dont. 

praline: a popular book you haven't read yet?

ive never read that city of bones series?

superman: do you like sweaters?

yesssssss

cherry: do you drink tea or coffee?

both

dulce de leche: an instrument you wish you could play?

all of them especially piano tho

blackberry: have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

maybe once?

ginger: a new feature you wish tumblr could have?

i and only i could see who has visited my blog and when. 

blueberry lemon: favorite blogs?

 well theres u. i like @thatsthat24 @slimetony @oliversquietramblings @theofficialolive

almond: favorite mean girls quote?

boo you whore. jk probs too gay to function. 

butterscotch: what color are your nails right now?

plain with bits of red that i couldnt get off... 

cinnamon: have you ever been confessed to?

i dont know...?

blue moon: have you ever had a crush on someone?

oh yeah. so many. 

cappuccino crunch: do you take naps?

only when im really sick and/or really tired

mint: the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?

i overreacted to a thing that didnt matter that much in the long run because of my temporary feelings. 

brownie batter: do you like sushi?

not most of it but some of it

key lime: where do you want to be right now?

in the aaaarrrmmmmssss of an angel. honestly tho. just chilling on a hilltop in a giant grouphug with all my fav people would be great. not really a specific place in the world just somewhere we wont freeze where we can see the stars. 

red velvet: do you wear prescription glasses?

nope

green tea: favorite flavors of ice cream?

i like rocky road. and coffee, 

thank you heather!!!! 

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im feeling like talking about myself to The Void™

so heres a whole ask prompt that im just gonna answer without nobody really asking for it or reading it, actually

ice cream asks

chocolate: when was your first kiss?

when i was 16, bc my best friend had kissed my our two best friends in a party, drunk off champagne, and she surprise gave me a kiss like a week later to keep it even. I answered saying ‘hey, i guess its a nice time to tell u that im gay?’. we laughed, got real awkward and never talked about that again

but if its the actual kiss that i did wanna have + w a boy, it was when i was 17, one week before the college exam for the one im currently in. bc it is technically the most difficult college exam of the country, or at least the one with biggest competition, i was so fckn nervous that i went on a tinder date with some boy who ended up being such a bad kisser, such a bad conversation and an acquaintance to like half my closest friends.

french vanilla: how old are you?

18, but nearly 19

cotton candy: three places you want to travel to?

germany, japan and england. i used to want to go to USA but with the whole current shituation? nope

strawberry: a language you wish you could speak?

im trying to learn french, german and japanese so theres those

coffee: favorite cosmetic brands?

no cosmetics, we die like goblins

mint chocolate chip: indoors or outdoors?

depends on the mood. i love walking through the outdoors but i literally spent 70% of this semester in my bed, so thats both a reason to favor both options

cookie dough: do you play any instruments?

nope, used to want to play guitar but rn ill just sing badly under my breath

rocky road: favorite songs at the moment?

i have a little playlist of songs that im listening ad nauseum at all times, but rn its either Praying, the whole Melodrama album or the whole Red Velvet new album

butter pecan: favorite songs for life?

between two lungs, the only exception, sakura-colored time capsule

cheesecake: what's your zodiac sign?

libra sun, virgo rising and idk my moon or the rest rly

toasted coconut: the beach or the pool?

pool is p much bootleg beach but i love both. but the whole beach is so good? walking by the shore, the activeness of the water, beach food, the sound of waves, just all in all 10/10

chocolate chip: what's your most popular post?

absolutely this 270k post

bubblegum: books or movies?

with the books i can just savor the story for way more time so books? and i can do it like at random times and places so thats right within my aesthetic whipping out a book at random moments.

but i both wish i had time to read in my shit rushed life and i definitely need more money to spend on actual books. so i end up watchin more movies since i can just watch it at 3am and with some easy pirating

pistachio: manga or anime?

same feelings about books vs movies

salted caramel: favorite movies?

i dont even know really

birthday cake: favorite books?

probably the hitchhiker series, but i love me some classical lit like jane austen and machado de assis

moose tracks: favorites for manga?

i love kuragehime with my life, mob psycho with my soul and jojo (parts 4,6,7) with my full love for extraness

orange sherbet: favorites for anime?

oh man, im going for the ones that made the most impressions on me, like ouran, madoka, bokurano, katanagari, nichijou and psycho pass

peanut butter: favorite academic subject?

like all? i shit you not that i liked all my subjects in high school and now in engineering college, i loved algorithms and data structures

black raspberry: do you have any pets?

nope but i rly want a cat

mango: when and why did you start your blog?

a friend of mine convinced me to read homestuck right after cascade, and when i read it i started following the updates here. so, since october/2011? the truly darkest times of this site. i remember seeing a full episode of doctor who in a 200 gifs gifset when photosets had no image limitation

mocha: ideal weather conditions?

i wanna say cloudy weather but that just makes me depressed. but i love when its raining enough to streets go empty but not enough to it being fully inconvenient when you have an umbrella, bc it makes for the most aesthetic strolls under a nice umbrella, with only my thoughts and music, and protected from the elements

black cherry: four words that describe you?

gay nerd depressed and supportive, i guess

neapolitan: things that stress you out?

my life, all the things i need to do and the possibility of stopping being good at the only things im good at

raspberry truffle: favorite kind of music?

i really cant find a pattern on my music taste so idk

chocolate marshmallow: favorite brands of candy?

i absolutely sold my soul to Fini, not even a question

toffee: a card game that you're good at?

ill kick anyones ass in Uno and ill kick my own ass in solitaire

lemon custard: do you eat breakfast?

yes im one of the few people i know that eats the breakfast from my college cafeteria, but thats mostly bc breakfast food is a loophole in my hundreds of picky eating no-nos

dark chocolate: turn ons?

any boy with piercings gets instant +3 on my 1-10 scale and im a sucker for perfume

fudge: turn offs?

general shitty personality, smoking and i guess i still have some fatphobia to deconstruct too

peach: how do you relax?

haha i dont. but i guess watching anime, scrolling through this hellsite, listening to some tunes, walking around aimlessly and making a cocoon out of myself in my bed count

praline: a popular book you haven't read yet?

im so out of touch with the current trends that i cant even say what i havent read

superman: do you like sweaters?

im living in hoodies for the last month or so but the general weather here is not exactly sweater weather and my hometown only goes from 25-31 celsius everyday of the year

cherry: do you drink tea or coffee?

i hate tea and most of my liquid intake is in coffee with milk

dulce de leche: an instrument you wish you could play?

the piano i guess

blackberry: have you ever laughed so hard you cried?

ofc, either with videos in the interwebs and with my friends

ginger: a new feature you wish tumblr could have?

a more efficient use of internet data when in mobile, bc good god im losing my life waiting for things to load

blueberry lemon: favorite blogs?

i love every webcomic that i follow

almond: favorite mean girls quote?

“too gay to function” is absolutely an accurate definition of me tbh

butterscotch: what color are your nails right now?

no color and 6/10 were bit off

cinnamon: have you ever been confessed to?

indirectly by a girl friend i had in my school, and by my bestfriend’s brother this may

blue moon: have you ever had a crush on someone?

hahahaha im pretty sure i had at least four painfully hopeless and debilitating crushes on straight boys ever since 2013

cappuccino crunch: do you take naps?

my sleeping schedule is so fucked up that i just pass out in the middle of the morning, afternoon or night, so thats both naps and my actual hours of sleep

mint: the most embarrassing thing you've ever done?

hahaha nope, not unearthing any memories, nope, thank you

brownie batter: do you like sushi?

no

key lime: where do you want to be right now?

i wanna be home, in fortaleza

red velvet: do you wear prescription glasses?

yea, ever since i was 5 and i cant see shit without them

green tea: favorite flavors of ice cream?

neapolitan, cream and theres an ice cream shop in my hometown that has a lemon pie flavor that actually sent my soul to heaven