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thoughts-and-all-that · 5 months ago

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as awful as i know it is, a lot of the time internally ill be like 'kys' about people i dont like, and theres a lot of people, but at the very least i dont actually say that out loud. like theres a lot of people on tumblr that talk about my trigger a lot because for some fucking reason its a common topic BUT IT SHOULDNT BE. and i go. wow pls die. but i dont actually send them an ask or reblog their stuff with that. i just think it at them very aggressively. anyway i just wanted to confess that because i dont really like that i do that, but it feels better than being like. wow that hurt me, i should move on. like, yeah it did hurt me, and i should move on, but also it feels good to internally say FUCK YOU when i feel hurt

#i blame b99 for putting that kind of phrasing in my vocabulary because they said stuff like that a lot on that show #funnily enough /s they had a whole episode about my trigger that sent me into a whole huge breakdown one time #because i tried really hard to watch the episode and obviously that wasnt a good idea #and the only thing that helped me out of that breakdown was the chorus of a song from my favorite band that was just really reassuring #in that specific moment when i needed something to be reassuring in that way #my life sure is a life im living huh. fuck me i really just need to open up to my therapist

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