#i barely got my hw done

[turbofanatic]

I don't have like, firm plans for a big Links meetup but it's fun to speculate about. Especially the reunion of the Links that fought in the War of Eras (this includes the Link made for Hyrule Warriors 2014, Link from Ocarina of Time and Majora's Mask, Link from Wind Waker and Phantom Hourglass, and Link from Spirit Tracks. Technically WW, PH, and ST Link are kind of the same warrior in that game but with different weapons so I'm separating them).

In a horrible yet hilarious way, taking Hyrule Warriors somewhat seriously means that the War of Eras had lots of child soldiers on the good side. HW Link was only 16 when shit hit the fan, and went from recruit-in-training to Hyrule's holy symbol and the subject of a mad sorceress's obsession. Nobody would handle that well. And while at least he was older than the other Links that show up, WW/PH is the only experienced Link who believes in Hyrule (I think ST Link has a dim view of the backwards country he's stuck in) and is somewhat emotionally mature (OoT/MM is ten years old and watched the world end multiple times, he's barely hanging on himself). Which means that WW/PH Link, at 14 years old, is the one best situated to get things done.

Except, well you try to have a 14 year old order around a 16 year old that's been told he's chosen by God. It will not go well. Nothing is as dysfunctional as the excellent Call Them Brothers fanfic, but oh wow yeah they are all doing badly.

If they did reunite years later, Tiny would forgive everything. He can't stay mad at kids and animals. It's the only way they stay (barely) sane after all. HW Link would not be as forgiving because he's closer in time to his trauma (he's in his late thirties here and the aftereffects of the war went on for a long time), but he's slowly coming to terms with the horrible situation they were all in and is attempting to do better, he's just going to slip up a lot. I don't know about WW/PH and ST Link yet.

So yeah, if they meet up again Tiny is immediately going to try to be friends, except he's poorly socialized and is probably bringing up stuff HW Link wants to forget, and HW Link is probably not setting boundaries because he feels bad about that fact that he used this guy as a war crime when he was sixteen and they were ten. They'll probably blow up at each other at some point. Maybe they'll work their shit out. Maybe not. Would make for a hilarious drunken fight scene though since they're both crazy strong.

Saw an old design for hanging sleeves and I had to give them to HW Link (he's got a good variety of outfits, along with Righty so he'll just be in a lot of different clothes at times). I think he's kind of a fancy guy in general, or at least tries to look like one for political reasons. As far as the nose scar goes, I think he's rather chill about it now. He was probably very distraught initially. Now he's more annoyed that it makes him very recognizable.

Anyways I fucking love old muffin top Hero of Time and bald HW Link. My blorbos. My precious warcrime idiots.

[synonymroll648]

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i hit tumblr post limit so i am in your ask box now. also i wrote this entire response abd then tumblr fucking DELETED it and then i reqrote it from lowkey memory.

documents do refer to fics yes <3 glad to see thats its a universal experience 😭 i might actually take you up on that and add u to the list of 7 million people i text every time i struggle w math. tbf only two people respond consistently but as long at the math hw is getting done i dont care 💗 also ur definitely ahead of me bc i am what i believe you call a sophomore

YOUR SOULS WERE CUT INTO THIRDS NOT HALVES!!!!!! god yea. them. that moment in lodestar where keefe shows sophie that memory of gisela taking him to nightfall and the three of then have that moment amidst all the selkie skin... kind of consideirng writing a continuation of that scene where the adults didnt interrupt them but. see above re: half written fics you sound so cool btw i hope you know. like

MURAL COMMISSION? BARISTA? WAKESURFING? LISCENSE THIS SUMMER? HALSEY NEXT WEEK? what the freakkk ur SO cool. cant relate to freshwater creature i fear bc i cant swim but floating in water has its own charm so i agree. ur summer sounds so cool and fun i hope it all goes spectacularly!!

RIP </3

immense sadness on our parts indeed. y'know you could ramble your fic ideas at me and i could ramble mine back at you. so we're not in echo chambers of our own brains lol. faiiiirrr i'm glad you have a math support system! my high school program goes through courses really fast, so you might get into some stuff where i'm like "i'm sorry bro i noped out of that class before we got there". but if it's, like, trigonometry i fucking GOT you bro. my geometry class hammered me nonstop on different forms of trig for a month straight and it was brutal but i have right triangle trig BURNED into my brain now. funny thing is that i can't do regular geometry to save my life lol. gotcha, gotcha, i hope sophomore year treats you well!! or whatever you call it where you live lol (sophomore for us is usually 15-16 years old, or our second year of high school)

YEAH!!!!!! BRO one of the only things i REALLY wanted for my birthday last year was shannon's official art of that scene and it is framed above my bed and i love it SO much. bestie even if it's a half-written fic i will eat it up and cheer you on /g

i keep trying to figure out how to convey through text that i am grinning and laughing and putting my head against my desk in a good way but i am failing to find a proper keysmash or smth for that. so. we shall settle for simply telling you that. anyway. the fact that i've hit Teen That Seems Cool On The Internet status is incredibly funny to me and i'm very flattered. thank you <3 i'm also quite excited for how it's all gonna go!! (i haven't properly prepped to sing along to the halsey setlist like my aunt has, but we shall endure.) i think this summer shall hopefully be the teenage dream i deserve. i was driving on some backroads w/ my mom yesterday singing to lady gaga w/ her and it was sunny at like 7pm and even though i could barely see through that windshield, it felt like what i'd been wishing for for a long time. glad my mom and i are doing better lately. i hope you get something like that w/ your parents and/or friends too, sooner rather than later.

funnily enough i taught a friend the beginnings of how to swim two days ago!! and i've taught little kids how to swim too. so like. in theory. i can reach through the screen and put a life jacket on you and some goggles and teach you how to swim in a calm little river spot lol. floating in the water really does have a charm to it! being a surface starfish is quite fun :>

anyway uno reversing my cool summer back at you!! we shall both feel joy!! huzzah!!

[crazylittlejester]

Been thinking about my Royal Depths au lately. the one with the kid Ganon. I will draw the au again probably within the next two months lamo.

Anyways, since I’ve been thinking about that au, I also remembered that one ask I sent you, where I asked what art style you would like to see a loz game have. Combining these two idea, I’ve got another question for you:

What would you like a new LoZ game/story to be about? Like, in RD I made the main character Ravio and had a itty bitty Ganon as one of his party members. What would your LoZ game be about? Would it be a sequel of sorts to another game, or just have some calls backs to another game(like maybe hw who knows 😏)? Would Link be the main character, or would it be a different character like Zelda(like with eow), or maybe a new character that would have an interesting perspective on the LoZ world(like idk a zora or fairy)?

Anyways uh. You’re creative and I like seeing your ideas. You could picture the game to look like the game art style you said earlier(I think it was an Alice in Wonderland type game? Idk it also kinda reminded me of Don’t Starve, art style wise if that rings any bells), if that makes things easier. Idk, with EoW around the corner I’ve been pondering about new LoZ stories like a mad man.

Hope all of this made sense, and have a great rest of your day!

I took a sec to answer this because I have SERIOUS thoughts about it and wanted to make sure i’d have the time to write it all out alskdkddk

i mentioned this about a month ago, and i would absolutely love to write this in fic form one day, and i plan to, it will just take me a LONG time but this is the storyline I would give a Zelda game if I had the power to make one:

I think of “Zelda” as a middle name of sorts, I think each princess has her own first name, but the first daughter of the royal family has that as a middle time and will end up going by that. The protagonist of this game? The eldest daughter of the royal family, and she cannot for the life of her figure out how to get those powers Hylia should’ve gifted her. Ganondorf is becoming more and more of a threat every day, and there’s nothing she can do about it except make sure he can’t get his hands on the triforce, which she’s just barely accomplishing. She thinks it her duty to be out there on the front lines getting shit done because if she can’t do the one thing she’s supposed to (unlock her powers) you best believe she’s out there with a sword kicking ass. She’s also trying to find Link because if the world is ending then there HAS to be a hero, but she literally find him and is getting really frustrated

I would give Ganon a much more compelling story. He’s not born evil, he’s born with as much capacity for good as anyone else, but due to the events of his childhood he becomes something terrible. No matter what he did everyone looked at him like he was going to be awful. They treated him poorly, nothing he could do was right in the eyes of ANYONE. He WANTED to break the cycle, but he couldn’t so to get everyone to just stop and leave him alone he’s seeking total control over everything because in his mind he’ll feel like he can breathe if he does

Now where the fuck is Link you may be asking? Well I firmly believe Hylia is a bit of a gatekeeper (/j) and will only give her magic to the eldest DAUGHTER in her bloodline. No man gets her powers, no thank you. So when the protagonist’s little sister, out of pure panic and desperation, makes an attempt to stop Ganon from destroying Hyrule Castle and her powers roar to life, the three main characters all stop and stare at each other for a minute because what the hell how did the younger sibling do that??

It is at this point the oldest ‘daughter’ realizes officially even Hylia knew he was trans before he did (he’d had his suspicions but this whole thing just confirmed it for him), and he hauls ass to get the Master Sword because with his little sister’s goddess given powers revealed he realizes HIS place in this whole hot mess, he’s Hylia’s HERO not her DAUGHTER, and he and the new Zelda use the power of supportive gay siblings to bonk Ganon over the head hard enough he just factory resets

And then they have group therapy /hj

So yeah, the REAL quest to find Link was the gender journey we had along the way

[aotopmha]

This is my random Dawntrail thoughts dumping ground post, stuff I didn't find enough to say about to make a separate post about.

Some general area spoilers!

I mentioned this briefly before, but I think Dawntrail might have a bunch of my favourite zones in the game.

I think Tuliyollal is most certainly my favourite city next to Radz-at-Han and Kugane.

I adore the Crystarium, Ishgard, Ultima Thule, Amaurot and Garlemald narratively, but they're also not exactly locations I want to be in "constantly".

I adore Lakeland, Il Mheg, Rak'tika, Thavnair and the Azim Steppe because they're pretty and they definitely fulfilled this role previously for me, but I just enjoy hanging out in Kozama'uka, Urqopacha, Shaaloani and Yak T'el so much more as "locations" and in terms of atmosphere, not for story reasons.

They're great "MMO" zones for me.

I'm almost done with maxing out the Shared FATEs and even the last two zones aren't exactly ones I just want to chill in, either, but the others?

Great stuff and a niché that hadn't been specifically filled for me before this expansion.

I'd farm FATEs for eternity here with or without battle music.

Next, I think Dawntrail might also have my favourite soundtrack so far. So much variety and with the exception of some vocals, it's all great.

I love the other soundtracks, of course, but ShB and EW in particular were much less diverse in terms of styles at play, mostly leaning into lyric tracks, traditional orchestral or piano arrangements with some outliers.

They're amazing at what they're going for, but DT has great jazz, great traditional orchestral stuff, great techno, great rock.

And it's all really, really good.

And HW and StB are somewhere in the middle where they have a bunch of different styles of music, but not quite as much variety within them.

HW has Alexander, which is very different from any of the base game stuff and StB has lots of old FF music in Omega and Ivalice, but outside of that also mostly leans on traditional orchestral music with a touch of the cultures you encounter and lyric tracks.

And obviously, only the base expansion and first raid tier are out, but DT had a track in a different style for every single floor of the first raid tier. The variety is unmatched.

As said, my negative would actually be the lyric tracks because they just sound off this expac for some reason.

I've always found it to be the weakest part of the OSTs because when they're good, they're good, but there are points where they tend to be muffled or a strange kind of crackly or in DT's case just not sound good. Smile and the song for Arcadion M2 are solid compositions, latter is wonderfully catchy, but the singing itself is just kind of off to me.

I felt it to a lesser extent for M4, too.

But it's a very small part of the OST so far, so I think it barely pushes out ShB as my favourite OST.

Next, I want to briefly mention the job design.

I got all of the jobs I've leveled to 100 (so far 6 different ones).

To preface this: I'm entirely casual, so I have no idea how these feel in high-end play, but in terms of casual play, most just feel "streamlined".

I'll go down the list:

My enjoyment of Dragoon in particular increased quite a bit because, most simply put, some of it was just annoying to keep track of and keep doing. I'm so happy Dragonsight is gone because it was just annoying to apply it.

On the other hand, as smoother as I feel the gap closer is in terms of gameplay experience and as much as I love the new combo, Disesteem being a 2 min and there being no actual attack oGCD in place of Plunge somehow makes Dark Knight feel emptier.

Now that I reflect on it, I liked that you had another button to push, just not that it was a gap closer. Now it just feels like you just have less to do because a gap closer is situational.

Even as annoying as Blood Weapon was, it was a button to push.

Dark Knight is the job I've enjoyed playing the most out of all of the ones I've leveled and I still do, but it's the one I feel is the simplest now and not in a good way.

I think it actually really needs more oGCDs that aren't conditional procs or a resource skill or anything more than it currently does or something else going for it besides the gauge timer abilities and Delirium. It feels so simple, yet unlike Viper less satisfying.

It's my #1 pick for adjustments or a full rework for 8.0 or earlier, even if I might not like it afterwards.

I actually have very little commentary on Red Mage and Sage outside of it being neat that you have more attacks now.

I hear the new Manafication setup for Red Mage is pretty annoying in hardcore context. I'm pretty indifferent about it, so I wouldn't mind if they adjusted it.

Bard's new attacks are great and having the ability to use your songs without targeting is fantastic.

And Viper is 100% my new favourite melee, I think. You can just follow the shiny buttons or focus on trying to not overcap as best as you can, hitting all of the positionals the best you can and perfecting all of your button inputs because there are scenarios where you can lose a bunch of damage if you press the wrong button.

The ranged options and movement options are fantastic.

Awakening is a blast to try and use well mid-battle.

(Please don't remove too many of the positionals. They're a fun optimisation option.)

And I think that's about it for some of the scattered topics.

I have 90% of my Dawntrail thoughts out now.

I thought about it and I think separate dungeon posts are a pretty mild priority and I'll just enjoy the game and take a break from talking about it for at least a little bit.

Also depends on if I'll get any other ideas on topics I want to talk about, I suppose.

[rosesrded]

21.04.2024 (mon)

DAY (13/30) OF DOP CHALLENGE

Study hrs ≈ 1:00 hr ish

I've been so inconsistent wthhh. I'm trynna do better tho (⁠˘⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠˘⁠)

Heyy y'all 👀 I'm back !! In the past couple of days, lowkey kinda crashed out and got sick for the second time (like come onnnn it's barely been a month !!) but yeah I'm back (again).

Didn't go to school yesterday so competed all of yesterday's notes (bio+phy+math) there were so much notes like wtf . Obv didn't record my note writing sessions on ypt

Chem vid on the first few topics of electrochemistry cuz I was absent yesterday and so fkrn lost in class today

Math hw (ex.1 of relations & functions)

Got some non study related things done as well :D (also, I'm a prefect now YAAAAY)

All in all, not the most productive of days but a good one :)

Dying from cramps rn lmfao fml

[aroace-polyshow]

also a thing for you if you ever want to ramble about hw- what's emu's story for this? how did she get into illustration, and how did she meet the troupe?

RAUGH I ALWAYS WANT TO RAMBLE AND IVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS TY FOR ASKING!!!! also took a while this time my bad man. the route my bus takes has very very shit internet so i couldn’t continue my draft during my ride 💔

anywayyy. good lord this is fucking long. im sorry.

for emu, i’m still figuring stuff out with her, but i’ve been thinking about her a lot more recently, and so far what i’ve got is that she has a little bundle of issues including grief over her grandpa, toxic positivity and not letting herself feel negative emotions properly, some internalized hatred of herself and how childish she is following an argument w shosuke, and generally feeling kinda lost, like the rest of hw, after wonder stage closed bc she doesn’t know what to do w/o shows. yknow.

so like. she still has her whole thing w/ her grandpa. and she while she wasn’t doing the *best* she wasn’t doing that bad in the mental health department. still wasn’t letting herself like. grieve properly. but she wasn’t the worst. she performed a lot on wonder stage and knew that the stage was in danger of being closed down, so she tried really hard to keep it from happening. but the actors for wonder stage began to leave as time went on and the ones who stayed didn’t really get why she was so persistent in keeping this stage open when the others in the park were better and shit. and she didn’t have much help. so unfortunately despite her best efforts wonder stage was kinda doomed for closure. butttt she’s not giving up yet. so she tries to convince her brothers to not close it, or at least to just give her some more time. which Does Not Go Well. shosuke gets real frustrated with her and starts yelling and shit. and while keisuke shuts him down once he gets too heated. well. it’s kinda too late. with what he said about her being childish and demanding that she just grow up already and stuff like that, my girl takes that to heart. and then with the official closure of wonder stage…yeah…she’s not doing the best…

emu’s grief here is made worse w/ the wonder stage closure. cause like. that was her and her grandpa’s favorite stage. girl feels like she failed him. she loved that stage. she loved doing shows there. it was something she had to remind her of her grandpa. and now it’s closed. :(

since then she’s been. different. like it’s just barely noticeable to a lot of people but she’s definitely changed. she smiles and acts cheery and seems like her usual self but like. her smile isn’t quite the same. she’s not quite as talkative. she avoids her brothers a lot more. and her brothers have noticed btw and they both feel AWFUL. especially shosuke. they done fucked up and they know it.

also like technically she could keep doing shows, after all theres the other stages in pheonix wonderland, and she has experience in doing shows + is related to the people who literally own the place so it wouldn’t be hard for her to join one of those stages. but she doesn’t bc after all that, she thinks her goal of just wanting to bring smiles to people is childish. shows make her so so happy but she thinks it’s immature and naive of her to still want to pursue that, especially considering she failed last time. it’s a silly and childish path to pursue, and she needs to pull her head out of the clouds and grow up already, like her brother says. so despite loving shows with all her heart, she gives up on doing them. but since shows are so important to her, she doesn’t rlly know what to do without them, so that’s where that feeling lost stuff comes in. yknow.

for her art, i just think she enjoyed art in general, and with her grief and the wonder stage closure it helped her cope. i have a very specific idea in my head of her style. but i cant remember the artist here on tumblr that i think she does art like. if i can remember their name i will though. i might actually do a post dedicated to what i think her art style is like….

not set in stone just yet, but what i’m thinking for the original meet up is that she meets nene first. nene does music and emu finds it, and it gives her some inspiration for some art. she posts it and credits nene’s music as what inspired her, and nene is so fucking honored. through some light encouragement from rui nene gets the courage to dm emu to tell her thank you, and they start chatting!! they get along pretty well and emu starts making art for nene’s music. eventually rui has the idea to start animating them, so they can make music videos for the songs, and boom hw gets its beginnings online.

this happens before wonder stage closure btw. when it does close, emu disappears from their group chat for a bit. she comes back like nothing happens and while she doesn’t tell them what happened, they both notice she doesn’t talk about what shows shes doing anymore, or shows in general. nene and rui are both very sad at this btw. seeing emu have so much love for shows and be able to talk about them like she did was really nice, so to see her stop with that and seemingly not enjoying shows anymore after something happened, just like they did, it sucks. :(

anyway i think my timeline is like. during nene’s last year of middle school when she transfers to home schooling, she starts doing music -> everything i just mentioned here happens -> eventually they meet tsukasa, and he joins the group -> hollow ☆ wonderland does its thing as a group for a while -> main story shit happens. yeah. 👍

uhhhh. dear god i’m so bad at explaining my thoughst. augh. i hope this made some amount of sense. and that i wasn’t too repetitive lsajdkhfgyfdhsj. anyway miscellaneous emu thingies now.

like i mentioned, wonder stage hasn’t been replaced yet, it’s just closed down and sectioned off. so emu still visits it all the time. there is nothing being done to maintain it. so it is absolutely unsafe. but does emu care. no. girlie wants to disappear and while she’s not *planning* on dying, if she had to die anywhere she wouldn’t mind if it was at wonder stage. she draws there a lot.

a lot of her drawings are traditional!! with lots of bright colors and crayons and colored pencils. she has lots of fun drawing.

this applies to non-au emu as well but she has gifted stickers to all her friends. nene’s synthesizer is covered in them.

wonder stage was closed off at sunset. btw. just to give her another reason to hate sunsets.

[neriyon]

Then vs Now (November 2019 > November 2024)

Thank you for the tag @stalwart-spirit ! I think most have already done this, so I'll skip tagging anyone directly this time. This is an open invitation to tag me if you get inspired to make your own post tho! I'd love to see what everyone's blorbos used to look like ♥

Gasp, he barely looks different! Hawu'li's actually only ever had one hairstyle change - from the starter hairstyle to the one he has now - during which I also swapped his original forehead dot to the red makeup on the outer corners of his eyes. I did have him cosplaying Popola/Devola for like a month or two back when Tower released, but other than that his looks have been the same ever since that fateful day in post-HW patches where I got annoyed about his mullet clipping through his healer outfit (￣▽￣)"

Since I took the trouble to go digging through old screenshots for this tag game, I'll add some older extra pics and rambling under the cut~

Don't think I ever posted these here, but yeah I had a full Popola/Devola cosplay going on for couple of months after getting that top on patch day haha. Red hair looked pretty nice on him, but wearing anything blue felt weird while I had it, so sometime around when Paglth'an dropped I swapped back to his normal hair.

The True Oldest Screenshot I have of this game, taken Sept. 29 2019 while waiting for Nana (brd) to finish a quest so we could go do Praetorium for the first time (we started playing somewhere around mid-august). I didn't even know how to hide HUD back then, so pls ignore the uh, very weirdly set skill bars.

First meeting with the bratty red cat + first time I could measure Hawu'li next to the pretty blue elf (Dec 4th and Nov 26th). There's like 5+ pics from the CT questline of just... me parking Hawu'li next to G'raha and trying to mimic his pose lmao. I wasn't even shipping them back then, I just found it very fun that they are the same height + share the same face base (and tail).

Very zoomed in since this was from a cutscene, but the last pic I have of Hawu'li with his old hair AND literally the only shot I ever got where his little forehead dot is visible. His bangs covered it most of the time, so I chose to take it away when changing his hair. (Dec 4th, according to screenshot dates I changed his hair less than week later)

Some of the few good shots left of Maito (Jan 19th 2020 / Feb 15th / Feb 18th), my first alt who actually finished MSQ before Hawu'li (with whom I was waiting for friends). She no longer exists at all: she was fantasia'd to Yusui (her older brother) sometime during ShB patches, who in turn was later fantasia'd to Einn sometime after EW gave us bunnyboys. I sort of miss her sometimes (Einn has a retainer made with her characer creation save data but that's not quite same), and have thought doing some silly stuff and maybe merging her and Momo in some way, but we'll see if I ever actually go through with that.

[chuuyascumsock]

Hiiii!!! (It is past midnight which means i am legally allowed to be unhinged!)

OKAY SOOOO FEM CHUUYA-

I- SHES SO HOT SMHHHHHHH

Like i would legit let her peg me for daysss

Like imagine her acting protective and hovering over reader after their little slumber party~

Imagine steamy lust,love and desire filled rendezvous in her office-

She has a meeting to be at but she doesnt mind being a few minutes late if it means she’ll get to see you fall apart on her fingers and strap~

Personally i feel like she’d love the sight of seeing reader on their knees eating her out as she leans back against her desk.she grips the edge of the desk her knuckles turning white with how hard she’s holding on.she moves her hips slowly allowing them better access and when she comes she expects you to take it all and leave nothing behind.will kiss you right after,she savours the taste of her own release on your lips as she hungrily kisses you,only leaving when youre properly marked up.she cant let anyone think youre even remotely available now can she~

When it comes to you i think she’d love to see you enjoy yourself just as much as she does,but would NOT get on her knees nah uh~ only place she’s eating you out is in your bedroom. Keeps a spare strap in a secret little compartment in her desk just in case. And Godd does she know how to use it.youre a babbling mess by the time she’s done with you! Barely able to string a single sentence of words together from how good she’s made you feel and trust me she love the sight.because not only does she love to see you satisfied,she also takes great pleasure AND pride in knowing its only her who can make you feel this good.

(I hope this was okay and ALSO UR PRESENTATION SOUNDS INTERESTING AF!!! I HOPE IT GOES WELL!!!!!)

(Also also i wanted to ask what pronouns you use if its okay for me to ask that is,if not its totally fine!!!)

Please stay safe,hydrate and slay that presentation like absolutely slayeddd that fem chuuya fic!!!!!!

-🧀

OMG THE UNHINGED SMUT RAMBLE, I’M LIVING FOR IT.

Literally would absolutely keep a strap in her desk for you (hc that Dazai found it once and that’s the REAL reason why she left the PM). And she has no problem making you wear a bullet vibrator all day and fuck w you during meetings while you’re trying to talk 🫢

I just— AH, I love fem. Chuuya. I also added a fem. Dazai smut to my list as requested by someone in my DMs, so that’ll happen at some point (After the Chuuya-verse smuts most likely).

(I loved your little ramble 🧀. My presentation went well, but some bozo copy and pasted all his slides from Wikipedia and got all of us hw everyday from that class so he’s an ass smh.)

(My pronouns are She/They, idc which is used!)

SLEEP WELL 🧀 ANON, and make sure to hydrate throughout the night lol ✨

[popcherrypop]

Im playing with my ALT character in FFXIV, finishing HW questline (Finally!). For people that had played the game, Im just talking about Y'shtola when visiting Master Matoya and being scolded.

Now, as my reblogs has sugested, I have been playing BG3 lately and this just popped my mind yesterday.

What if this Tav have done something reckless like Y'shtola did back final ARR (you know, banquet CS :x). But instead of going to the lifestream, Tav did invoke flow magic, and they traversed the weave. They lost the light in their eyes and barely got snatched from the raging tempest that pure magic is.

So, when the tadfools (I read this in another tumblr and loved it) meet them, there was something uncanny about their eyes but being able to navigate as a normal person.

(TLDR, Yshtola can navigate using her magic, but the cost is her own lifeforce).

In an idle conversation with Gale, whom more or less can tell what they are doing, they confess what they did in the past and he is scandalized.

But then the tieflings (Zevlov, Dammon, Rolan) would overhear the other tadfools talking about it:

Zevlor:

In the beginning, he doesnt truly understands the implications of using this magic.

Magician things, he thinks.

But Tav eventually starts to involve themselves with the tiefling party, more and more, helping them constantly and even mediating with Kagha (and resolving the conflict, to at least give them some more time to prepare).

Is just then when Tav is reviewing Zevlor maps for a tactical meeting with the tadfools, that he asks.

Well, not ask, but more like in idle chat he mentions what is this potent magic they used before. Flow, was it?

They pause a second, frowning so subtle but still pondering his question.

“Well… I have to admit, this kind of magic is forbidden for a reason.”

And against better judgement, well, we all know Tav doesn’t have the best judgement. But sharing this kind of information is too sensitive.

But we are talking about Zevlor. Just because they know Zevlor won’t fail them, that they tell him the whole story.

And we know how Zevlor is.

His high regards for this person make his heart to ache. He curses himself for asking such topic, of course this was sensitive.

But what truly unsettles him is not the usage of prohibited enchantments. But the usage of their own life source to navigate as a normal person.

From that day on, he would always be pendant of Tav.

He knows they don’t need him to survive, hells, as the ex-general of the hellraiders he has show more weakness than this adventurer has ever show in their short fellowship.

But still he worries.

He worries they are exhausting themselves and it could be actually avoided if he was there.

So, from that day he would always extend his arm to Tav when he knows they needn't to godspeed to whom knows where.

He would delegate more of the menial task to his brothers, the ones he usually would ask Tav to take care.

Tav would realize what he is trying to do, and it made them feel all warm and fussy inside, but they assure the gentleman this isn’t necessary and they won’t be dying on him any time soon.

This spooks Zevlor a little, but he won’t stop anyway.

“You already have done so much for us, to tax you with more errands is wrong from me. Rest assured, if needed, I will reach you to find a solution to any problem we can actually not solve ourselves”.

He still will offer his arm to help Tav to rest their magical senses, and in a gesture of goodwill, Tav will rest their eyes in his presence, trusting this man to be their eyes from time to time.

This is honestly only an excuse to hang of Zevlor's arm. Not that he does mind. On the contrary, he actually enjoys the clinginess.

Rolan:

His jaw, for what Lia confess in the future, she never had seen Rolan’s jaw drop as bad as the day he heard from the same person what reckless thing they did.

Cal said they didn’t really think much about it back then, but once Rolan wouldn’t drop the topic they would start worrying. Worrying about this savior, worrying about their brother sanity.

He is mad, believe it or not.

When the topic drops for first time, he didn’t say much because he wouldn’t believe this random person could actually invoke so powerful magic AND survive it.

But as he watches this person navigate themselves in the groove, he actually starts to believe it. Many of this person quirks could be explained by the usage of mana to actually see.

Fool. He thinks. This fool wants to get themselves kill by the same hand that feeds them, by the hand of their mistress.

Its just when Tav comes backs from the Goblin attack that it actually sinks.

Uneasiness sinks.

He can tell even breathing is a colossal task, they barely can walk straight. Their hands shaking for overexertion.

And they do, they collapse as they are walking by Halsin side in their way to admonish Kagha.

Everyone reacts fast enough to stop their fall, but is Rolan whom offers succor.

“Let me help, all of you”. And he would start channeling their own mana to this person.

How could he not? Twice they risked their life for him. Well, not only him. Nevertheless, he felt indebted to this… newfold ally.

He offers the party to leave Tav with him until their business with Kagha is resolved, he would share a little of his mana to them so they *should* be fine once everything was discussed.

Or that he hopes.

From that day, he would always check on Tav every time they show themselves in the groove.

He would frown and scold them as kids for using their lifeforce in the groove.

Tav would look at him puzzled at first and with an exaggerated sigh (“Do I have to explain everything?), he would just take their hands and give them a little mana.

After that, he would boss around his little brothers to help Tav in their errands.

Cal and Lia would roll their eyes, and Tav would just hide a chuckle behind their hand, indicating them to follow, but they wouldn’t ask the brothers to do anything at all.

Barely to stand close the first times they were tasked with this “oh so huge errand”.

Then, they would free the siblings and send them directly to Rolan, making an excuse for them to say.

Probably about having to fight something not so dreadful, but hard enough to excuse the siblings.

Given, without the goblins and nothing stopping the Tiefling party, this wouldn’t last for long. But at least for a little while, he wanted to help.

Tav would low-key love how warm his hands feel and would make some couple of extra stops because they know Rolan will extend his hand as he is reading, his eyes not leaving his book. It is nice. They could grow used to this if this was actually safe (which is not, let me tell you. But they would indulge from time to time).

Dammon:

Just as Zevlor, he doesn’t really understand the implications of this.

But he does know Karlach has something in her mind.

Tav isn’t there actually, they are talking with another person in the Groove before the Goblin assault.

“Is everything alright?” he would ask in hopes to help his fellow tiefling friend.

And Karlach would sigh, how uncharacteristic of her. But the rambling after that sigh is very characteristic.

He understands little. But he knows this is serious enough for anybody with some decency to worry about Tav.

Tav in the other hand doesn't show any signs of discomfort or sign of tiredness, he supposes they have been doing this for a long time already.

He would, instead, work in something to help them. He might not be able to give mana like Rolan, nor would escort them in the groove since Zevlor already does that.

Instead, he would do what he knows better. Craft something to help Tav.

The question is what.

So, he studies the proprieties of different types of metals, which would be better suited to syphon magic from the ambient so they wouldn’t have to resort to use their own magic force to compensate for their blindness.

He does finds something and even when goldsmithing isn’t his forte, he is capable of making a necklace for them. It’s a little rudimentary, and he is bashful at first.

But Tav’s expression changes everything.

They cannot see the trinket, but they are holding it tight. He admires the way they’re *seeing* with their hands, taking care of examinate the gift.

He exhales the breath he was holding, smiling at them with fondness.

“I promise you, once I have my forge back, I will do something better for you.”

Tav fusses about it, giving him an embarrassed look. “You have done a lot for me already Dammon, I cannot repay you for something like this”.

He takes their hand between his and look at them tenderly.

“You have done way too much for us, refugees, there is no way we can repay *you* for something as unusual as your kindness."

They stay a minute like this, they might not be able to see his smile (and he comments it) but they are grateful still.

Let me self-indulge: After saying that, lamenting Tav cannot see him for they know he is honestly grateful, Tav would ask him if it was alright to touch his face, to feel what he is saying. Even if it takes him aback a little, he takes their hand and place it over his cheek, only for them to cup his face with their hands (before proceeding to map his face with such tenderness in their touches).

[pumpkinsy0]

Helo Pumkinsy0!!!

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I was wondering if i could get Pony + Curly headconnons? That's if you have not done it yet?

Like what if they accidentally find a child/baby abandoned and keep it?

What if they could get married?

If they could buy a house what house would the get? A mobile home , a little trailer, a big house, a small house etc?

I feel like they would be roommates in their collage that's if Curly is in jail like he always is? Lol

Oh and they child/baby they found what would the name bee?

Sorry for asking so much😭 And its fine if you don't like any ideas i put down! IM ALSO A BIG PURLY SHIPPER LIKE YOU! AND I WANNA KNOW WHAT YOU COME UP WITH!

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TAKE YOUR TIME, THANK YOU!

of course i always have hcs!!!!

also im srry for not posting a lot im a sleepy guy w a bed what am i to do under these circumstances </333

ill just start w ur ideas first then dive into mine!!

•ALRIGHT ive always hc’d that at some point they just get a small apartment somewhere when ponys in college

•and theres this single mom thats like ALWAYS working and she haitian so she just always trust other haitians and she finds out curlys haitian and is like “can u PLEASE watch my kid” cause haitians just got that sense of community lol

•BUT YEA pony and curly just hang out w this kid whos mom us barely there and they get attached!!! curly n the kid speak creole doin whatever, playing dominoes or somethin while ponys off in college or makin food, sometimes he joins tho but mostly ponys just watching them from the corner of his eye while hes doin his hw

•SOMETIMES THO curly take the kid to his job (hes a fast food worker god bless his soul) the kid gets free food so they aint complaining

•as for the kids name???? their ACTUAL NAME is rené but the nickname curly and pony gave him was boukan bc this kid just burns every fucking thing in sight thats a lil arsonist if pony and curly have ever seen one

•curly and pony aren’t exactly close to rené’s mom, but she does pay curly and pony for their time, either that or just gives them food that she cooks as a thanks which is actually REALLY helpful considering ponys a broke ass college student and curlys a fast food worker, any and all food is welcomed

OK NOW FOR GENERAL HCS

•curly is always misspelling thing in text up to the point where it just looks like a while different language, pony just says hes fluent in curlynese🤞🏽🤞🏽

•curlys a caribbean MAN he loves those salty plantain chips and he got pony to like them too, however pony started liking the sweet ones more and curly was DISGUSTED w him, ole nasty bastard

•curlys left handed and ponys right handsd so that means pony and curly just always has a free hand and usually their using that hand to like touch each other (not in that way u NASTY i just mean like on the others back or leg or somethin)

•once pony and curly tried doing that milkshake double straw thing but curly liked the milkshake and just ended up taking ponys straw and drinking it for #doubleefficency

•what if i told yall that pony would draw him and curly like this typa art that was popular in like 1960s how would we feel bout that one

[singularsoldier]

While the hamster in my brain is still running on his wheel:

A big thing no one ever takes into consideration when it comes to how ridiculously early school starts in the US: people who take adhd medication.

Say your school starts at 7:30am. Bc of how massive your county is, you have to wake up at 6am to catch the bus at 6:30. That means you take your meds (which lasts 12 hours for this example) at 6am. If you get home at around 3:30pm, your meds theoretically only have about 2.5 hours left of effectiveness. By 6pm, they’ve completely worn off.

You cannot honestly tell me that within this 2.5 hour window, every student will have all hw/projects completed. What about those with younger siblings they have to watch? What about their chores? I’m being generous with that 3:30 drop off time too. I used to not get home until 4pm or even 4:30.

My adhd meds were the only reason i got shit done, and i was lucky to sit down by 5pm to actually start my schoolwork. That left me with barely an hour before i was technically “unmedicated” and lost all focus/motivation. I cannot begin to describe the agony of a single sheet of math hw taking until 8:30 to get done.

Do we see the problem? This is just my experience with adhd meds. What about other morning only pills? If your answer is “just take it at school!” You have either never set foot into a public school where teachers police your every move or dealt with bullies classmates who would not hesitate to steal your shit. ESPECIALLY medication.

[spatio-rift]

honestly my goal is to finish my organic chemistry hw this weekend so i can focus on studying during the break so far ive done a looottttt ive only got like 4 questions left to figure out and then itll all be research work like in books and stuff (which i love so its barely work at all for me) and writing everything neatly. im so glad i started it so early

[k1tth3al13n]

Diary Entry No.54

Its been harder to update this blog recently

If feels like my brain isnt really keeping up with everything aroubd me

Theres so much going on its weird that time is ticking and not standing still

It feels like everything is going so fast and my brain is in normal time mode if that makes sense

I miss the city, the rain on the street and the constant chatter of hapiness around you. You just a small speck in a crowd that no one notices you

Its comforting in a way, a lot of the people around me dont really get that though and wish for the countryside and i do too but i feel like theres good in both.

Anyway im getting distracted, my heart feels so heavy it hurts sm.

I just wanna be loved, or more specifically feel safe and understood. I feel like such a weirdo.

I brokedown last tuesday and it stressed my sis out she had to call my mum. But i couldnt talk to my mum about anything since that would mean outing my sis as a lesbian, me as panromantic,asexual and genderfluid.

Ive been having a lot of self esteem issues the past couple months, with my gender and everything.

I dont know

My sis has become a lovesick puppy and keeps venting about hee crush and sending pics n videos about love and i can barley watch them

I wish i could enjoy them but its hard to enjoy them i dont know whats wrong with me

Ever since i was small i was stressed out by romance, i felt like i had to be a picture perfect wife for every boy i met, and it only got worse when i found out i like all genders.

Its so hard to relax around anyone, no one is even expecting this from me so i wish id just let it go. And like sometimes it goes away but its always there at the back of my mind and whenever i see romance media if its not slow burn its rrally hard for me to digest.

I feel sick i wish i was normal, my sid sugessted i talk to a therapist but none of the therapists i can contact are lgbtqia+ or anything of the sort so it doesnt feel like i can confide in them.

I dont know..

I just feel so invalidated as a human beingm i hate being percieved so much.

I hate how romance likes to put you in boxes im gonna actually throw up

I feel so awful i could cry .

Im so worthless i csn barely keep my room tidy, i cant dress up and i cant get any hw done at all or evan apply to summer jobs im so pathetic

I havent slept for months, im so restless and scared for the morning snd to have to face another day again

[2dkapsddr]

October 26th, 2024 - PIU 2024 PHOENIX, SDVX EG, Music Diver

wahoo!!! it's saturday at last, which means tomorrow is my designated arcade day, which means today is the day i lock in and do as much homework as i can, right??? ...i WISH . but noooo, instead someone just happened to cut the fiber cables that powered the network in my area, and so now i have no internet!!! all day!!! until tomorrow!!! unbelievable!!! i had everything laid out in front of me for today, only to be snatched from under my nose in an instant...

and so, with no other choice and no better solution, i had to trek all the way from my house to the mall just to get any work done... and since it was in the same place, i stopped by Round 1 while i was at it to find the arcade at its busiest and most exhausting point possible!!! so many people occupying so many machines... but hey, that also meant so many dance gamers here at the same time in the same moment!!! and that means i got to play CO-OP with them in PIU!!!! something i hadn't been able to do for a while now... and something that turned out Not Great when we all realized just how hard it was to play co-op when the machine was squished so far between a wall and an SMX cab... but we managed!! ...at least, i think we did...

moving on from that, i found that one of the SDVX cabs was unoccupied despite all the chaos everywhere else!!! itching to work out my hands before working on my HW (and also to get kickstarted on the ongoing Triple Tribe Season 3 event), i only ended up getting a single set in... but it was honesly a really good set overall!!! an upscore + excessive clear on Ura-Omote Lovers [MXM 16], a near-S on Matryoshka [MXM 16], and getting a very sloppy just-barely excessive clear on Kamisama Nejimaki [MXM 17]...

so, between that set and these next scores, i tried finding the quietest + most stable place to do some homework, which was unfortunately out in public where passerby and screaming children still bothered me a ton, despite having noise-cancelling headphones that would usually block a majority of their noise out... but whatever, they can't all be winners . i got through a lot of my notes regardless, though with no progress on the homework itself whatsoever, and celebrated by taking a pilgrimage back to round 1 as the mall was set to close soon...

once there, i walked toward the IIDX cabs hoping to play some songs stuck in my head and get Even More Progress toward the ongoing event... but that was when, in the corner of my eye, i saw 4 free, abandoned credits on the only available Music Diver cab (the other had a red swiper for some reason, couldn't identify why), calling to me like the Green Goblin mask . then and there, i knew my purpose, and i didn't hesitate to scan my card and start playing what came to my head. it started with some Ura-Omote Lovers [EXTREME Lv.17], just like it had in SDVX earlier that afternoon, before i moved on to playing new charts and upscoring old scores like trappola bewitching [EXTREME Lv.16] (a chart i played more times than i'd like to admit), Signal (feat. Such) [EXTREME Lv.17] (EXTREMELY fun chart and song holy shit i'm in love with it), and then Show [EXTREME Lv.15]... the chart which i ended up getting my first ever Music Diver FC on!!!! such a successful attempt inspired me to try for it again on trappola bewitching, but such a jump in levels and FCs just wasn't meant to be, as i ended up walking home empty-handed and so close, yet so far from the SSS rank border... alas, maybe another time? who knows...

[leoolol2]

29/09/2024

I wasn't expecting something this big, but here is my second day of writing.

anotação pro meu psicólogo: o senhor pode me fazer um relatório pra eu ir pro psicólogo da minha mãe, por favor? ela queria que eu fosse porque eu realmente tô com dificuldade de estudar mesmo estudando fora do meu quarto, e ela achava que o meu quarto era o problema. :) obrigado.

Well, I can't sleep. Like, at all. So here I am, already writing this in 2:30 AM! I probably will have an all-nighter and wtv, I should be productive tonight.

I was a bit productive, doing some of my math homework and watching some mvs from my fav bands until 4 am and then just passing out. I then woke up at 9, and my mom wrote some of my fav bands on my nails! i forgot to mention yesterday that i painted my own nails at night. (mcr and p!atd). i also took a bath in the morning and washed my hair; something i think i havent done for about 1 or 2 weeks? i think im getting worse, mental health wise, but i dont know. i'll update this once the afternoon ends. I also ranted a bunch about mcr and fob to my mom, and she complained about linkin park to me. i love my mom and having similar interests with her! My brother came to visit us today! :)

I ate some actual meal today: broccoli, rice, just a bit grinded meat, sweet potato, and normal potato. The broccoli tasted like shit. I also drank peach tea. After lunch, we went back home and got my Nina the Killer cosplay jacket to a dressmaker so that she could put a zipper on it. We then went to get some icecream at McDonald's! I ranted a bunch about MCR again but this time to my brother. :)

After that we went back home and my family decided to put up the shelf I had on my floor for the longest time. It's a bit crooked, but I don't mind, honestly. I now have a bunch of shit I need to put up on the shelf once more, though. It's all on my bed, making me barely able to sit here and write this on my PC. Well, I should put up my stuff on my "new" shelf.

after scrolling through tumblr a bunch my mom did my nails for me. it was fun. i only got a top coat added because my black nail polish is on the verge of dying but its fine! i'll buy some later. my nails are not shiny, though.

i did some of my hw, and also got my piano out of under my bed! my friend also got me in contact w this russian boy, i think hes cute. hes in brazil too, so i rly hope he replies to my dm on insta.

im so so soo sleepy, so im gonna go sleep after i finish at least this teacher's hw. its 21:47, for the record. i didn't stay up that late today. still, im gonna post this. i hope whoever reads this has a good day!

꒰꒰・┄┄┄┄・rants section・┄┄┄┄・꒱꒱

this is a section i made up to see if any time i have any rants, i come here!

so it will be more in depth than the actual casual diary. (i also will mention when exactly i wrote it!)

12:52. thinking about how my therapist tells me to act as my own best friend. i dont know how, genuinely. i cannot. maybe i can suck my own dick sometimes and tell myself im so hot and the best person in the world, but thats obviously not true. its not like i feel like that all the time, either. from a day to another i suddenly feel like the worst person alive. its not as if someone tells me that i am, or something triggers me. i just feel that out of no where. but whatever.

16:22. My dad doesn't understand that yelling at my dog doesn't do anything. It just makes her madder and more pissed off at the world and makes me actually feel sick and about to cry. I want to protect her from everything. I don't want to be here, I want to go away with her and fuck everything else. I won't be missed probably anyway. The only people that would miss me is my online friends, who doesn't really know me in real life. Well, I guess some that have this blog can now know more about me. :)

16:26. Thinking about the ripped up letter. I wasted 2 hours of my night writing that for a girl who didn't even want me romantically. She just wanted to have fun, someone to kiss with no feelings truly attached. I guess that would be fun if my feelings didn't feel so extreme. Someone I love can become someone I despise just because of a small mistake they didn't really mean to do. Well, I try not to be too mad at them for that, but this isn't the case of that anyway. I wanted her to be my girlfriend but she didn't want to have anything romantic. She practically cut ties and said that she had shit for yesterday when she used to be so excited to see me some time ago. Maybe it was an excuse that she made. Either way, we're not talking. I don't really care about her. I care about the time and words of mine that she wasted.

17:46. i was listening to music and back to the old house reminds me of them so much. fuck. i miss frank.

17:59. i feel too feminine, doing my nails and liking girly things. my face is too feminine, my voice is too feminine. everything about me, the way i walk, talk, read out loud, interact with my friends. absolutely everything. i want to cry thinking about it because i dont want to. maybe this is an internalized issue of some sort. i really need to address this in therapy, probably.

18:17. I just noticed im going back to my "scenecore"/crunkcore phase. fuck. one of my worst, honestly.

18:30. just wanna mention how amazing i feel rn:3 feeling on top of the world is so good !!

18:58. winderson is making me rage. makes me want to punch him or throw it somewhere. but he's my baby, i cant do that.

[sumarmzthesadseal]

Thinking about the time I made pm manifestos for two of my teachers to see if they'd hypothetically vote me over rishi sunak but they wrre both wildly different and I got caught lying

More details under the read more thingy bc I want to say a lot lmao

BASICALLY YEAH

my history teachers in a one sided rivalry with English bc English is above history in this like online hw app wr use called gcsepod and she's all "I bet English is booking computer rooms and forcing them all to watch gcsepods all lesson" (in actuality me and my friends played like 700 English pods collectively one night bc I have the most pods watched but my history teacher praised this guy who barely does his homework bc he did it one time but ignored my efforts so revenge) also no one has glue sticks at my school fun

ANYWAYS when elections wrre going on I went to all my chill teachers and said 'would u rather vote me or rishi sunak" qnd all of them said me obviously EXCEPT TWO. MISS BURNS (history teacher) AND DR WOOD (English teacher who me and my friend harass daily but he also left so now I'm sad) and Miss Burns was like "Well I don't rlly like rishi sunak but I'll have to see ur manifesto" then Dr Wood was like "legally I can't say (racist)"

SO I DEVISED A PLAN (making a manifesto for each of them that was different)

For Miss Burns it was like "ban English from watching gcsepod" "tax the English department" "make William the new monarch" "declare Miss Burns the best history teacher"

For Dr Wood it was "force Dr Woods partner to let him keep snails" "give English more glue sticks" and stupid shit basically, the history one was more hostile towards English but the English one was just "Oh u mentioned this one time So now it's a law"

ANYWAYS I give miss burns manifesto BUT she goes to the head of English whose like in the classroom besides her for some reason and is like "Mr Ford look at this" and he just looks at me like :| but Miss Burns is very happy and I gain her vote

Next i give it to Dr Wood and he reads the snail one he starts laughing and is like "I need to tell Jess about this (his partner)" and he's like "can I keep this???" And me and my mate are proper giggling bc it's so stupid and then I'm like oh yeah I'm remaking the national anthem and he's like what is it and my mates been singing this song all day to wind me up so I pat them and I'm like "Ziggy will sing it they've been singing it all day" AND THEY ACTUALLY DO??? BUT then he's like "okay guys where should u be" and we're like erm it's lunch mate and he's like ok go to lunch and I'm like awh he's sick of us

I'm content with myself I'm like yeah I pulled it off I got two extra votes and it's sports day so I'm selling drinks bc yes BUT THEN miss burns walks up to me the interaction was like

MB: "hello"

Me: "what have I done now"

MB: "you've been deceitful that's what"

Me: "is this about the manifesto"

MB: "yes-"

*me laughing for a solid like two minutes while ppl get mad at me bc I'm not selling them ice lollies*

MB: "I went to the printer and found it was paper jammed so I went to look and I saw your manifesto, but for Dr Wood"

Me: *still laughing*

MB: "that is deceitful! That is lying! I feel betrayed! I had a little word with Dr Wood as well and he's not happy"

Me: "awh man"

And that's jt rlly then I speak to Dr Wood and he's with the head of English and we're talking about it and he's like "yk I was rlly happy to hear we're getting more gluesticks but I was less happy to hear that it was coming out of taxes from the English department" and I was like well I'm lying I'm omw to becoming a real politician

And yeah that's the story it was funnier irl