#i am trying to read fanfic again 😊

[nthflower]

I mean there is hundreds of thousands posts here saying same thing but it's never enough I really hate how people treats fictional women. My god.

[imagine--if]

(A/N: The results for my Riddler fanfic poll was basically 50/50 😂 so this is based off of the last issue of Riddler Year One, #6, as I copied the intro to the comic, but I'll work up to the movie too 😊 enjoy!!)

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A knock at the door. Silence.

You frown slightly, glancing at the clock. It's late, really late, for anyone to be calling for you. You're not expecting anyone, and you're used to the trouble that comes with living in the middle of Gotham City, giving you every reason not to answer the door and stay quiet until whoever it is gets bored and goes away.

Another knock, sounding a little desperate, five soft bangs on the door's study steel, echoing through your small stretch of hallway and to the main room, where you sit on the sofa, laptop on your lap, scrolling boredly. You stare at the door warily, as if you could somehow see through to whatever drophead was trying to get your attention, before hesitantly raising your voice in answer.

"Who is it?"

Silence again.

You roll your eyes and sigh after a beat of nothing, pushing your laptop off you and onto the sofa, quietly approaching the door and taking a sceptical look through the peephole. Nothing. No one. Just the hard bright light of the dirty stairway and landing of the floor in the apartment block you live in, which snaps off after no motion to keep it alive, and the door opposite you, shut and locked, no sound coming from anywhere except muffled music and arguing from somewhere downstairs, as per normal here.

You go to open the door, but then pause, cautious enough to wait it out for a while, five minutes, ten minutes, before letting yourself open it and look outside. You don't want to be the next poor person who gets robbed or jumped or whatever rank thing you could expect from living down in Gotham, but there's still no one to greet you when your door squeaks faintly as you pull it open, black bristles dragging across the floor from beneath it. You wince slightly as the harsh light blinks back on, revealing an empty landing, empty staircase, nothing but your breaths echoing in the space...

And an envelope at your feet.

Your frown deepens when you go to close the door again and notice it, lying there outside the door, a medium white envelope inked with a messy green symbol of some kind. A question mark, with dashes at its sides, top and bottom, scratching into the paper boldly, no name or address or postmark anywhere, nothing to indicate where it came from or who it's for. But it's at your door, and after a few seconds' inspection and another look down the landing and the stairs, you sigh and pick it up, your thumb sliding under the triangular fold as you close the door with your body whilst opening it.

There are two things sealed in this envelope.

A Polaroid picture... and a card.

You sit down with your eyes fixed on the envelope's contents, laptop ignored at your side, as you take out the card first. It's like some kind of vintage cartoon, a little beaming squirrel holding one nut in its paws, a few others at its feet, a heart around its body. Above it, bold calligraphic text says:

I'm NUTS about you!

Your face screws up in bewilderment and amusement, your eyes flitting over the cheesy sentiment and picture, before you open it up to see contrasting, messy handwriting, gone over a few times to make it readable enough. It almost looks childish.

The rich people want it, wise people know it, the poor people need it, and kind people show it. What am I?

You blink, confused at the sudden question. A riddle? You glance at the question symbol on the opened envelope, before returning your attention to the card.

"Rich people want it..." you mutter under your breath in thought, "kind people- what, love?"

You read the last bit of writing under the riddle, then read it again. And again.

I see you work with the rats, but you don't become one. I see you give the homeless something warm when the city is cold, cold, COLD. I see you trying to tell the police the bad things you know, but no one can hear us. You are an angel in a cesspool of a city... And I will make a heaven for you.

You let out a long, shaky breath, finally looking up from the card in a whirl of confusion, fear and curiosity. Your eyes instinctively glance to the windows, the curtains open a little to show the dreary, dark nightlife of Gotham below, dully glowing streetlamps, some lightbulbs dead or smashed, interrupting the neat lines guiding drivers. You almost expect to see a pair of eyes staring at you, watching you from somewhere.

Who the hell is this person? This was the way they showed their 'love'? A sixties-styled valentines card, with a riddle and a baffling message?

"Working with rats?" You question aloud.

If by rats, they meant the jerks and businessmen who came to the Iceberg Lounge to find clients and friends every other evening, then... well, they weren't wrong. You have to work there to earn enough to pay rent and everything else to make some kind of a life for yourself in Gotham. Not that you wanted to, but it was a last resort, and you steered clear of the infamous Penguin, and that horrible Falcone character, whenever you were there. But you can't help overhearing things to the grabby, drunken, smug people you waitress to there, but at this point, you'd learnt that half the GCPD weren't nearly as credible as they acted, a handful of them involved in the scandals they were brewing at the nightclub, and who else was there to tell without them telling the wrong guy and ending with you being silenced at gunpoint?

As for the homeless, believe it or not, they weren't all off their heads with drops. Some of them were just people trying to survive out on the streets of a broken-down town, young and older people cowering on street corners, some beaten by gangs, others jumpy and aware, ready to run at the smallest hint of danger. It was the ones who were simply too tired to do anything that made you stop in your tracks every now and then, as you walked home from work, before you gave in to your impulses, told them to give you a minute, and dashed into the nearest diner, grabbing something small to eat, or a hot drink to-go, the waiter bored and friendly enough to give you a smile and a nod as you went, the young man who often stayed there scribbling in a little book or typing up work-related things too shy to meet your eye, which was kind of cute, sandy-brown hair barely hiding the flush of his round cheeks, murky green eyes forced to focus on his book instead of looking up.

Was that enough to make you an angel? Really?

A few acts of kindness usually earned you a judgemental scoff, or suspicions of intentions, as no one's were really ever pure. But apparently, it's earned you an admirer, and from the looks of things, one who's more than a little unhinged.

You pick up the Polaroid last of all, and then your breath catches in shock as you stare at it, barely blinking.

It's a guy who's been making moves on you for a good few weeks now, more than double your age, packets of drops making his pockets rustle with thin plastic and his eyes unfocused. A frequent visitor to the Iceberg Lounge, who wouldn't leave you alone after you gave him his first drink of the first night, running drunkenly outside to offer you a lift when you put your arm out for a cab, trying to hold onto some part of the uncomfortably tight clothing you were expected to wear working in a place like the Iceberg Lounge.

He's slumped against a wall covered with some kind of fabric spray painted with the same question mark symbol on the envelope, though the green is blemished with crimson spatter, a rat running across his leg, blurred slightly in the shot. A laptop is in the background, where the ordeal is actually being filmed or streamed somewhere, names and comments too small in the picture to make out, though several unfocused red shapes that are most likely hearts streak up the laptop screen from its viewers. Your stomach twists and untwists into a knot, repulsed and shocked.

They killed some stupid guy... for you?

They killed a person, on a livestream... for you.

The Polaroid slips from your loosened grip, fluttering in the air for a split second before it lands beside your laptop. It makes you blink back into awareness, and you eye the card and Polaroid as if they might jump up at you.

Do you call the police? The GCPD won't ignore you, surely, if it's this level of harassment? If a person has died?

The thought of someone watching you, trying to understand you, almost worshipping you in some twisted way, brings so many thoughts and feelings up that it makes you dizzy, not knowing what to pin down as your reaction to it. Scared? Disgusted? Flattered? Curious?

What if they've been in your apartment? If they know where you live... and with Gotham's measly security, someone like this person could have found a way to break in, pick the lock or something. Is anything out of place? Hidden cameras anywhere?

Paranoia makes a shiver snake down your spine, and you sigh heavily, fingers threading through and out of your hair as you run your hands up your face and past your head.

First, check for cameras. Then, call the police. Right?

Right...

You pick up the Polaroid from beside your laptop, and your eyes flick up to the darkened screen, the small black circle of a camera at its top. Should you put some tape over it or something? Do a deep scan to check for viruses or any weird apps?

Suddenly, the screen flashes brighter, back to life, though you never touched the mousepad, and you flinch. Your eyes widen as the screen glitches and goes black, and you press down on several keys, trying to escape from whatever page it's gone on, power it off, restart.

The screen glitches for a few more moments, and then a green, pixelated question mark between some pointers slides across the screen.

Figured it out yet?

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[theladyragnell]

Hi! Happy new year 😊 It just struck me you're a voracious reader with (I think) quite a few romance novels under your belt and a talent for writing romance yourself, so I come begging a favour for the beginning of the year: if I wanted to read the most fun and indulgent and giggle-inducing romance in 2024, what would you you recommend? I'm hoping for something not only well-written, but triumphantly and unapologetically in its genre, if that makes sense. Thank you so much for taking the time to read (let alone answer!) this ask!

Oh friend, I love reading romance novels, please, buckle in, let's have some fun! You seem to be looking for the flavor that I tend to refer to as romps, as opposed to the more serious and dramatic or erotica-flavored romances, so let me give you a bit of a selection of those.

Contemporaries: Jennifer Crusie is the absolute master of banter, for all her best works are pretty old at this point! Bet Me and Faking It have aged the best in my opinion. I read Alexandria Bellefleur's The Fiancee Farce last year, and if you've ever read and enjoyed a "whoops, we have to get married for this clause in my relative's will" fanfic this one's for you. The Neighbor Favor by Kristina Forest was one of my favorite romances from last year, though it's a bit less bantery than these others. Oh! Talia Hibbert! Her Brown sisters books are a thing of beauty and a joy forever (Ravenswood is also good, but a bit more serious in tone and we're going for romps here). Jasmine Guillory is also worth a try, lots of fun if maybe a little less banter-focused. Oh! And a shoutout for two action romcoms I read this year, Partners in Crime by Alisha Rai and To Have and to Heist by Sara Desai.

Historicals: Tessa Dare loves a bantery romance, give The Duchess Deal a try on for size! Last year I read The Perfect Crimes of Marian Hayes by Cat Sebastian, which was a joy, and I hear a lot of good about Sebastian's m/m books too, though I haven't been able to dive into them yet. Away from the romps, Mary Balogh is one of my all-time favorites (but start with her newer work, particularly the Survivors' Club series), I've been enjoying Christina Britton a lot lately, and Eva Ibbotson's books for older readers have my heart forever and always. (I feel like this section is reading less enthusiastic than the contemporaries, but it's just that I read so many historicals that it's hard to remember which book with Duke in the title stands out!) Oh! Ravishing the Heiress by Sherry Thomas somehow hits my loves perfectly, though again not a romp, I've got a rather graver taste in historicals. And Olivia Waite's sapphic historicals! The Lady's Guide to Celestial Mechanics is the first one. And everyone recommends Courtney Milan, but The Duke Who Didn't is a true joy.

Fantasy: Fantasy romance is my genre crossover of the 2020s! It's my two favorite escapist genres mixed together, and when it hits the sweet spot it REALLY does. And my friend, I am looking you in the eyes and I am telling you to read T. Kingfisher's paladin books, starting with Paladin's Grace, if you have any interest at all in fantasy as a genre. (Fair warning: Kingfisher also writes horror, and takes great pleasure at least once per fantasy book of reminding you of that.) And now that I've given you the gateways, I'm also going to recommend you The Devotion of Delflenor by R. Cooper (it's not bantery, but I keep telling people, if you fall into my very specific sweet spot of having been in E/R fandom in 2013-2014 and having loved the Tortall books in your youth you NEED to read this, and even one or the other means you should, the pining is exquisite), The Sorceress Transcendent by Casey Blair, Olivia Atwater's Regency Faerie Tales series, and Troubled Waters by Sharon Shinn.

... Okay, you asked for one book and I gave you SO many. That is because romance has so many tones and moods and subgenres, and only you know which one is going to put the biggest smile on your face! Hopefully I have given you enough information to make the choice that is best and happiest for you.

[ruhorih4ra]

Hiii!! I love love Looovveee your recent obey me post. Its so?? How do I say this, unique in a way. I lovee the way you wrote it and the concept you used! Could u pls make a part 2? I am wayy too invested

Even if you don't make one, thank u for making such a great story😊😊😊

Hii! I'm so sorry for the late reply! I wanted to answer you with the part 2 hahaha. Thank you for your words (they are very much appreciated ♡), I'm glad you like it (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ) 💕

I already wrote the entire thing, sadly I'm really slow when it comes to edit it.

Part 1. ಠ⁠‿⁠ಠ

Last time I forgot to clarify something, I decided that the new exchange student will be "Sc" since one time in some Fanfic the exchange student had my name (She stole the brothers and also my name, the audacity JAJAJA). If your name is Sc I'm deeply sorry, I know that identity theft Is not a joke

Get out of my way 🌈

You woke up drowsy and tired but your finger was perfect. “Looks like I'm fucking amazing.” even though your mouth was dry and you could feel a growing headache, the satisfaction of healing such a horrible wound was all you needed to regain your good humor. At least that's what you’d like to say, but it wasn't entirely true, you lacked something essential: revenge.

“Oooh, mini Little D! Yoo-hoo!” you looked at every corner of your room but there was no hint of said demon. “Did I imagine it?” no, that would mean not only that you are delusional, but your well-deserved achievement would disappear too.

You headed to the dining room, wary of your surroundings, trying to spot a black shadow. You were so distracted by the mission at hand that you missed how the room suddenly went quiet, how everyone tensed.

“Good morning, Mc.” Lucifer was the first to speak, in response, you simply nodded. It seemed to everyone that you were mad and distant, but in reality you were too absorbed in your own thoughts. “There must be a way to prove what happened yesterday.” you started to chewing the food on your plate, not even caring for what it was.

“M-Mc! Today we're planning to do a movie night again.” Being in your own world, the brothers’ chatter became background noise and thus you missed the fact that Levi's voice sounded nervous and somehow guilty. In the two years you had been in the Devildom, never before you had seen or heard about those mini Little D.'s

“We should see that movie you wanted to see.” Satan said, feigning indifference, trying hard to hide the fact that he was dying to know what had happened yesterday. Were you okay? Are you mad at him? He can feel the wrath inside you. You haven’t read with him in a while and now you don’t even meet his eyes, he was not angry but anxious.

What if you’ve gone crazy? Oh god, this is the last thing you need. No, no, it's obvious that it happened. There must be information in somewhere, you can always ask Solomon too. “Lucifer promised that he will come too!” Sc added.

“Mc? You'll come, right? I'll lend you my pillow, this special time.” Until that moment you hadn't notice they were talking, what is worse, they had been talking to you. Why would you want Belphie's pillow? “Uhh... No, I don't need your pillow Belphie, thanks?” “But you will come to the movie night?” Another movie night? They must have really enjoyed last night if they want to repeat it, however, you have other concerns. “Hmm, no thank you Levi-”

Suddenly, it had been for a brief moment, but you had seen a black shadow moving behind Levi. With your mouth still open and narrowing your eyes, you kept looking for the shadow. “-ahhh...” you noticed the gazes of each person at the table and quickly regain your composure. “aahh-than, Leviathan. Hahaha…haha… ha.” You smiled, a curious contrast to Levi, whose face visibly dropped.

The dining room grew tremendously silent, you knew it was your fault but you'll apologize later. For now, you wanted to talk with Solomon as fast as you could and so you started eating faster.

Moments later, Mammon began talking, he blushed and a frown appeared too (his useless attempt to hide his embarrassment). Sc just laughed and rolled her eyes, not without shooting quick glances at you. Everything was normal, but then you saw a black shadow behind Mammon. You tried to move so you could have a better look, but Mammon moved too. You moved again and so did Mammon. You frowned and moved once more, but the Avatar of Greed stood in your way again. “Mc, are ya even listening?!” “Fuck, Mammon! Could you please move?!” you pushed him aside but the Little D. was gone.

Everyone seemed surprised, you’d never use that tone with Mammon before, the white-haired demon saddened almost immediately, averted your eyes and muttered a weak “sorry”. You cleared your throat, suddenly very aware that everyone was looking at you. “Mc, are you okay?” Lucifer asked you.

“No! A Little D. Wants to eat my soul!” But you can’t tell him that. The worry on his features was growing, why cannot you tell him? It's actually what you should do, right? “Mc?”

“I...” The moment you spoke, a perfect copy of Lucifer appeared behind the demon, it was Lucifer but completely black, his clothes, his eyes, his teeth, everything. Of course, it was a Little D. But not so little.

“I can't lie, I'm surprised by the new exchange student’s grades.” The copy of Lucifer imitated him, his voice was identical. You knew what he was going to say next, after all, you had this same conversation with Lucifer some weeks ago.

“Yes! She's pretty clever. She even helped me with some council work.” you thought it wouldn't be a big deal but Lucifer proved you wrong. “That's supposed to be your responsibility, Mc.” “Maybe she should be the council officer, right?” You said, trying to downplay the matter in hopes of avoiding the lecture. “She’d do a better job.” ouch.

“Hey! Don’t be mean!” you elbowed him in a friendly way, it was a feeble attempt to hiding your hurt while asking for an apology. “I should ask for her help instead of yours, looking how you enjoy slacking off.” You rolled your eyes. “Sure.” “Don’t come to my office tonight, then.” You stopped, his face was emotionless, as if he were talking about the weather.

Since when Lucifer treat you like this?

No, you don't need a pompous peacock. You could do this alone. You saw the brothers, they looked worried, but where have they been these last few weeks? The growing frustration inside you led you to believe that maybe you needed some time to cool off.

The copy of Lucifer smirked, satisfied. Did he think you fell into his trap? That only made you angrier, you'll erase that smile.

“Mc?” Lucifer asked again, frowning. The look in your eyes was cold, he tried to reach you but you looked at his hand in disgust. Were you repulsed by his touch? That cannot be true, right? But you backed away. He saw wrath in your eyes, were you mad at him? Understandable, he knew that his attitude had been inexcusable but- “I'm fine.” you whispered but you weren't hungry anymore. You got up and handed your half full plate to Beelzebub. Excusing yourself, you headed to RAD.

“They didn't even notice that I made their favorite food.” Mammon looked so miserable that his brothers decided not to tease at all. “They called me by my full name.” Levi mumbled, surely overthinking that small detail. Lucifer’s gaze was on his hands, he didn’t know what to do with them.

You, on the other hand, were practically running towards RAD, only a thought in your mind. You were definitely going to kick that Little D. ass.

Part 3. ಠ⁠‿⁠ಠ

Thanks for reading! (⁠ಠ⁠_⁠ಠ⁠)⁠━⁠☆ﾟ⁠.⁠*⁠･⁠｡ﾟ

[yv-sketches]

Hello (again) Why don't you finish the fanfic (Heartache to violence) , I mean, the idea is very original, and the two chapters you have written are very well crafted, I really like the idea, and I would love to see and read the whole fanfic. Even though you said it was just a silly idea, I really loved it, myself and several others. 😁 (I'm not trying to cause you any discomfort with this, if I do, sorry 😭)

Hi! I don't mind you asking at all, in fact, I am very honoured that you like my silly little fanfic! 😊

However, I do not have the time to write a full length story. I wish I had! Unfortunately I have school assignments to write, a dog to walk and a dozen other fandom things I also want to do.

But maybe someday I'll continue? Part of me always hoped it could be a 40k story about Xar and Wish becoming friends, Xar becoming slightly less evil and Wish convincing her mother to join forces against the Emperor instead. I just can't say for sure.

[littlemissuicidex]

☆Intro☆

Hiya; to cover the basics I'm Nemo (she/they). and this is a 21+ blog! I've been roleplaying for practically 20 years (I'm 30yrs old). So I'm not new to the game...just rusty lol. I also can be found over on my multimuse @koriningyou! My personal blog is @nem0philistx for anyone curious. I also have a fanfic recs blog @nemo-likesto-read both blogs are 18+ so please respect that.

☆Rules☆

• as stated above - please be 21+ to interact with me. I may not write smut, however the fade or time skip/ implied is fine. Also with the nature of the series my character (rachel gardner) is very gory and violent. because of this, I am aging Ray up to AT LEAST 18.

• please be advised, I may post triggering things. I'll try to tag accordingly (tw: trigger / tw: trigger mention ) but i am forgetful. So understand the mentioned topics are the most common triggers that will be present. Ray is suicidal and depending where in the series - very religious - who has a history of being neglect and abused by her parents. She lacks empathy and has killed animals/pets. I do not condone her actions. Home girl is tapped. So understand that muse ≠ mun. To know more about her, go here.

• no godmodding and the other basic etiquette, thanks.

• I'm semi selective, preferring mutuals to non, but open to all interactions regardless. I'm open to crossovers, aus, ocs etc. I just may need a crash course if it's a Fandom I'm not familiar with. For a list of my AUs go here.

• I'm not picky when it comes to how a thread is written. Icons and one liners to formatting and multi para is all perfectly fine for me. I'm honestly such a chill person, however your preferences are, I can accommodate.

• I am open to exploring different kinds of ships (romantic/platonic/toxic/rival etc), but please don't force it! let the chemistry happen. Don't be afraid to message me to ask about it, too if you think it could be something to explore. And again I will not write smut, will be a fade/time skip kind of deal.

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• like this if you read please 😊

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[casimirsstache]

INTRODUCTION TO MY BLOG——⍟

WHY I CREATED THIS BLOG ☆ :

Hiya everyone! I realise... I constantly change my theme because of my tendency to have new hyperfixations like... every few months so I decided to finally make a proper introduction post. If you've followed me for something specific like the violet harmon posts or the svt fanfictions and only those things that I'm sorry to tell y'all that those are not going to be my main things anymore.

This blog will NEVER have a specific theme/interest. This is a me trying to be unapologetically me! I have many interests and I don't wanna be placed in a box in a place where we should all be ourselves so if you're not looking for those things, feel free to soft block to unfollow !! This is not saying that I won't stop posting about svt or violet, I 100% will. I will just be posting more multifandom things!

So this blog is essentially just a way for me to express myself! I will write fanfics and yap about random things...🙏 so if you like that, please follow!!

ABOUT ME ☆ :

—— + Stephanie is the name I go by, it is my real name but on my other social media accounts I also use the name Jabes as it is one of my Nicknames! (Pronouns are any but preferably they/them)

(Fun fact: My uncles and their friends gave me that Nickname when I was like 3(?) and its supposed to mean 'makulit na bata' which translates to 'naughty child' LOL).

—— + I am a MINOR!!!! I'm fifteen years old, going into 10th grade literally in a few days at the time I'm writing this... (July 28, 2024)

—— + Wasian.... Filipino + English!!! But I live in the Philippines and I am fluent in both English and Tagalog, English being my first language.

—— + I like to read! My favourite book series is aggtm, I have yet to read the last book and my current read is "Scarlet" By Marissa Meyer which is part of The Lunar Chronicles (yes, I've read Cinder).

—— + Drawing is one my hobbies but I recently stopped because from 2023-2024 I struggled really badly with depression and lost passion for both writing and drawing but I wanna get better now so I am trying to get back into these things since they did make me very happy.

—— + I LIKE ANIMALS!!!! I don't have any exotic pets but I do have a dog, her name is Roxie.... she's named after Roxy from Security Breach HELP and she's a rottweiler. My favourite animal is the giant manta ray.

—— + I do have really bad social anxiety so posting and interacting with others actually makes me start tweaking... matter of fact, doing this introduction is literally making me sweat balls right now. I recognise that I need to somehow combat this so I wanted to use my blog as a way to freely express myself and... step out of my comfort zone so like yes. I will be shameless in my posting 😊🙏 Oh, and I am an INFP-T, whatever that means 😭

+++ I think that's all for now?

MAIN FANDOMS (ATM) ☆ :

—— + MCU

—— + ATSV

—— + AHS

—— + SCREAM

+++ Again, these are my main fandoms AT THE MOMENT. These can change :P

Soon to be added . . . ☆

navi. masterlist. requests.

SOCIALS :

@/linmirussy (for funsies)

discord: @/nolongertoast

tt - @/spellboundstarlet (writing acc)

Medium - @/spellboundstarlet

[lola-andheruniverse]

Hi Lola!

Do you have any advice for overcoming writers block? I've tried a few methods out myself. Can't seem to get myself out of this rut lol I really admire your dedication to promoting fanfic so I thought I'd pick your brain! :) I mainly dabble in Caryl but I've ventured out into other fandoms I like. Caryl is where I am stagnant right now. Thanks a lot for any words you can give me lol Caryl on!!! :)

Hi, anon! Thanks for sending this ask, I love to talk about all the things fanfiction and writer's block intersect with my real life job too so we can kill two birds with one stone. 😊 First, since you write for other fandoms, it might be interesting to try to understand why you're particularly stuck with Caryl. You might be very invested in writing for our ship and that can be triggering anxious responses that make it hard to concentrate in your task. Or you might being affected by the emotional roller coaster our fandom is currently experience. Switching between highs too high and lows too low is emotionally exhausting and affects our disposition to do everything, including things we love like writing. Taking a time away from the fandom can help with that. Re-watching caryl scenes or re-reading your favorite fics (and here you can definitely include your own work) can help to restart the joy. Second, there are practical things you can do to help with your block. I'll list a few that work for me: 1. Try to establish a writing routine that makes sense and works for you. You don't have to write everyday or for the same length of time every time, but you can do little stuff that signal to your brain 'hey, it is time to write'. For example, setting a timer so you can write uninterruptedly for short amount of times; listening to a special caryl playlist to get you in the mood or white noise if you get easily distracted with external noises; having a glass of water and a snack right from the start with you so you don't need to get up when you feel thirsty/hungry; creating a comfortable environment to write by sitting in a good chair and having adequate light; 2. Write those scenes that you are dying to write for first. You know those scenes that are the heart of your chapter/one-shot, that you keep daydreaming about? Write them first. Put what brings you joy about your story right on paper and, then, later, fill up with every other scene that leads to it or comes after it. This might be easier than trying to write in the right order, because opening scenes can be very difficult and the main scenes will help set the tone of the rest of the chapter/one-shot;

3. If you're having a hard time describing images or voicing your character's voices and feelings, write the dialogue first. It will help to establish rhythm later when you get back to it to fill the blanks. You can do something like this: [description of the cabin Carol and Daryl are, the sofa is still plush and of a faded pink and there's dust everywhere] " What about this room?" Daryl asks [need to indicate later that he's feeling frustrated but with another noun]. " It'll do for tonight." 4. If you can't put anything at all on paper, you can brainstorm with yourself (or a friend) and write key words that will help you later when you're feeling more inclined to write. Same example than before: evening - abandoned cabin - just a light little coming from outside - lux pink couch - daryl frustrated - carol feelings - small talk - elephant in the room about major plot point You can elaborate as much as you want, turning keywords into key phrases, writing a sentence or two and building on that. 5. Okay, not even key words are working? Get your phone and record what you are imagining on an app that translates audio to text. Come back and edit it later, turning it into workable prose.

I hope these tips help you out, anon. Thanks again for the ask. If you manage to finish writing your caryl fic, no matter who short it is, please let me know so I can read it? It will be a pleasure, I'm sure of it.

[rollinouttahere-writes]

Hello Liya. I am a fairly new fan of your writing. I have come into your ask box because I am in need of advice.

You see, I'm trying to become a writer myself since I have many ideas I wish to write and share with others, and for other reasons.

May I get some advice from you of how you manage to decipher a character?

I'm not sure if that's clear, but if you're stuck on a character's writing, specifically how they would act as a yandere or in general, what do you do? Do you just not write for them?

Because I'm trying to write for yandere Zoro and get out of my comfort zone to develop my understanding of characters so I can expand on what characters I can write.

But I am finding it rather difficult to picture how he would act and what he would do.

I apologize if I had disturbed you, I know I could have tried to find another yandere one piece author, maybe I'll do that if you do not wish to answer my questions which is completely fine if you don't want to!

But if it does not bother you, I may seek for more writing advice in the future. It's a big maybe so perhaps you do not need to bother giving writing advice very often.

Thank you so much in advance. And sorry for any inconveniences I may have caused!!! (´▽`ʃ💖ƪ)

You aren't being a bother at all, I'm more than happy to give advice!

My approach for deciphering characters is something like a method acting approach, if that makes any sense? I try to get in their head and put myself in their shoes. How would I act/feel if I had been through what they've been through?

If I feel stumped, my go-to is to check out other people's fanfics on them. Read as many fics from as many different people as you can. Look for the consistencies. What are the differences? Do you find yourself nodding along with them, or do they immediately make you go "they would not fucking say that"?

If that didn't work, or you're working with a really obscure character with little content on them, just start writing. Write whatever comes to mind and bullshit your way through it. Read it again when you're done, and I guarantee you there will be at least one element that makes you think that you might be onto something. Repeat this process until you've refined the character into what you think they should be.

For yanderes specifically, my personal technique is to look at the character when they're at their rock bottom and build from there.

Let's use Zoro as an example. His rock bottom happened after Kuina died. He lost his rival and friend very suddenly, and there was absolutely nothing that he could have done about it. The powerlessness of the situation is gut-wrenching to him and leads to him training even harder. Both so he can become the greatest swordsman, but also so he can exercise control over something after such a horrible moment of helplessness.

To me, this translates into him being a very controlling yandere with protective tendencies. He's desperate to never have a repeat of what he went through with his childhood friend, so he compensates for this by being a looming presence in his darling's life. They can't do a damn thing without him being there to oversee it and protect them.

I hope this all makes sense. Feel free to reach out again if you need any clarification or want more advice. You can dm me if you want, I'd be more than happy to help 😊

[cbrownjc]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Well, I now have time to do things like this, so thanks for tagging me @nalyra-dreaming, lol!

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How many works do you have on ao3? -- 5

What’s your total ao3 word count? -- 122,062

What fandoms do you write for? -- Interview with the Vampire/Vampire Chronicles

Top 5 fics by kudos -- Well I only have 5 fics up on AO3, so:

Now or Neverland

Half-Forgotten Dreams

Goodbye Yellow Brick Road

Promises, Promises

Where the Truth Lies

Do you respond to comments? -- Yes, I try to respond to all comments I get and have done so for the most part. (I've only got one sitting in my inbox that I need to reply to at the moment).

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? -- Where the Truth Lies. First posted it less than a week ago, so I can't elaborate on it, just . . . yeah.

What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? -- Well, in the relative scheme of things, I guess Now or Neverland's ending would be considered "happy." IMO it's really more wistful than happy, but not as bittersweet as the ending of all my other fics are. Excepting Where the Truth Lies' ending, of course, as I noted above.

Do you get hate on fics? -- Only on one fic. (And it was rather. . . telling . . . that it was on that fic too, IMO.)

Do you write smut? -- 😏 But, so far, no PWP kinds, as what I've written are all scenes within larger stories being told.

Craziest crossover -- Um, none. Unless you want to count real-world history that some of the stories bump up against as a "crossover." Which, personally, I don't. However, I did write a real crossover fic once, but it's not on AO3 . . . nor would I call it crazy.

Have you ever had a fic stolen? -- No, not that I know or heard of.

Have you ever had a fic translated? -- Again no, not that I'm aware of.

Have you ever co-written a fic before? -- Well, I've co-written a series, not just one specific fic. So I guess that works for this question.

What’s a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will? -- LOL! Okay, I know for a fact that I'm never going to finish this fic I'm about to talk about. I started it back in 2005, and 10 years later I put up a note saying I wasn't going to finish it. And it wasn't for IWTV Fandom, nor is the fic posted on AO3, but I want to mention it anyway. Because there will always be a part of me that wishes I could have finished writing this fic, and has wished it for years.

It is a Buffy/Harry Potter Crossover fic called Harry Potter and the Mystical Key. It's posted and still up on FF.net, and it's the one and only fic I have posted on there.

It was the first real fanfic I ever planned and started writing. I wrote and posted up to something like 56K words of it too, before I abandoned it, mostly due to losing my passion for writing because of real-life things that were happening to me around that time. And no matter how much I tried, I just had no interest in trying to finish it. But it's always kind of haunted me over the years, and made me wary of ever starting another fanfic project again over the fear of losing interest and never finishing it.

And now, I've completed 5 fics within a 200K (it's looking like) series, writing 122K of it in one year. I'm happy. 😊

What are your writing strengths? -- I think I have a good and natural feel for how to structure a story so that it will be interesting to read. I, personally, have always had to at least know the skeletal structure of a story and where it's going before I start writing it . . . otherwise, I just feel like I'm wasting my time on writing something with no point to it. I'm also not afraid to change things in the middle of writing something if I come up with something better.

I'm also not afraid to skip around when I'm writing. Makes writing the stuff I may not be as interested in writing easier to write if I've already written the things/scenes I've most been looking forward to.

I've also been told that my writing style is very vivid. I also am totally fine with someone editing my stories to hell and back because I do that very same thing myself. Nothing is perfect, but I always try to make sure a story is the best it can be before I post it.

What are your writing weaknesses? -- If you may not have noticed, I suck when it comes to spelling. Also, I can be way too vague sometimes when I'm trying to hide a later revelation in a story, but still set it up beforehand. I always have to remind myself that just because I understand the hint I'm trying to lay about something, that doesn't mean I've made that hint clear enough to the reader.

And I suspect I may be too wordy since many of my fics tend to be long. (Over 10K.) I never set out to write long stories on purpose, but I know the length of the stories I write can probably be off-putting for some people.

Also, just sitting down and writing can be hard for me to do. I can get distracted and procrastinate easily. I have to have the correct focus -- usually light focus music or writing sprint videos -- playing to get things done. (And, when I'm writing at night, I usually light some candles as well.)

Thoughts on dialogue in another language? -- As long as it fits the character, I'm up for it.

First fandom you wrote in? -- Strawberry Shortcake. I was around 5 years old or so (so it was like 1982-83). My mom let me use her blue Brother typewriter but I had to use lined paper instead of typing paper because she didn't want me to waste that kind of paper on what I was writing. I didn't know that I was writing fanfic of course, but that was totally what I was doing. I sat and hunted and pecked out the letters. IIRC I typed about two pages of my little story too (over like a weekend).

That said, the first fanfic I ever wrote after first coming online was a short Star Trek: Voyager fanfic that I can't even remember the title of now. Or if it's still up online somewhere.

Favourite fic you’ve written? -- Goodbye Yellow Brick Road, simply because I think it's the most tightly written of the five fics I've written so far. I also just really love the structure of it, which I planned out in linear order, but then wrote non-linerally. I don't think that story would feel as tightly written as it does if I had just written and posted it in linear order.

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Okay, that was super fun to do. 🙂 Glad I now have time to do things like this. I'm just going to tag @faerywhimsy, @girlwithakiwi, @virginiaisforvampires, @doublehex, @elsakey, @impressionism, and @faerywhimsy if any of you would like to do this too. And, of course, anyone else who wishes to do this too go right ahead. :-)

[earthtooz]

hello! i love your works so much everything you write is perfect! i stopped writing more than a year ago but reading your works inspired me to write again 😊 it’s crazy how we are the same age but our level of writing is completely different, yours blew my mind 🤯🤯🤯 (in a good way!!!!!) i was wondering if you could give me some tips to improve my writing as i feel like i’m lacking in many departments (if you’re comfortable in doing so, ofc!) thank you! ❤️❤️❤️

this ask was send march 5th, and i'm happy to report that four months later, for the first time in a while, i think i'm finally at a point in my writing where i'm confident giving out tips that are not generic and stock standard. i do not know if anon is going to ever see this, but i hope you do, and i hope that you're still as inspired to write as you were when you sent this :) a lot can happen in four months!!

i'm just going to get straight into it. you'll find that the further you go, the more... catered the advice might be to you (it's long, and maybe a bit rambly, but i hope it’s useful in some sort of way 🥲)

# ONE - THE MOST BASICS:

the most DEVASTATING thing you can do for your writing is not have a purpose for each scene or snippet you write. give your scenes a point, don't let them be just images that you sit on the document to take up space! are you trying to prove that character x oc's relationship is growing? are you trying to show that it's breaking apart? are you trying to set up the character as someone who's beginning to fall in love and hates it? give everything a purpose. every word must be linked to your intention.

you know what they say about chekhov's gun, if you are going to mention some little thing, give it a purpose later! you mention reader likes sweaters? let character give them a sweater! this works in many-a-ways.

this all comes down to the planning, which i would give tips on, but i'm writing this part too late. i'm also trying to keep this first part brief because this is a very long post.

for english speakers, the second most devastating thing is to not know your grammar LOL (i cannot criticise those who speak another language as their first! kudos to you, keep doing what you're doing.)

# TWO - FIND YOUR STYLE: easier said than done, but it's an essential part of any art. writing takes time, and only time will evolve your skill and therefore, your style. if you do not like what you write off the bat and believe you are 'lacking' in some departments (no such thing, there is room to improve instead of being 'incapable' of doing something), then i always turn to some of my favourite authors, whether they are published or another fanfiction writer, turn to them and study them. DO NOT PLAGIARISE, just try and emulate what you see from their works and put them into your works, with your own sense of individual style.

i have my list of esteemed tumblr writings that i look up to, as well as writers that i adore. ocean vuong will always be one of my favourite writers, i listen to him frequently when i am stumped by my own writibg. he has this sort of creative aura that drips of his own idiosyncrasy that inspires me every time i try to listen to him, him just speaking calms and invigorates me so much.

so yeah, find your writer, and learn from them :)

# THREE - THE 'DEPARTMENTS': the departments that i have included are:

characterisation

dialogue

description and artistic expression (this one is long, bear with me.)

like i said earlier, there are indeed departments are writing that we all have room to improve in. i will talk about the few that i might find specific to fanfic writing because i am nothing like an actual author :,)

characterisation: a fickle little thing T^T the worst thing ever. to characterise properly means you know the character like it's your own, but in fanfiction that's just truly not possible :,) so i can try and give you my own tips on how i deal with characterisation.

listen to the english dub (or your first language) - DON'T CRUCIFY ME. PLEASE. BUT LET ME SPEAK. for my fellow fluent english speakers, listening to a dub in a language we do not understand can only go so far in the way we understand a character. when listening to english, we hear the intricate ways of their tone and personalities work, and what kind of dialogue best flows with them (toji fushiguro is excluded from this. never listen to that man's english dub.). when i was writing for bakugou- he's not the hardest character to understand, but with the help of the english dub, the dialogue that i wrote for him flowed a lot easier than if i had just tried to internalise his jp dub. he's gruff, and rude, and cocky, and his english va captures that in quite an adorable way! ofc you can never just ignore the original, the original is there to provide you the blueprint, but sometimes a little help explaining the blueprint goes a long way !!

characterisation can also be perfected through the subtle changes in dialogue that you see. a big part of character is how they talk, and even just the subtlest of changes can go far. let me start with the example "this is a really bad idea." if i were writing itoshi rin, then i would change the sentence fit to his speech and embody how he'd actually react to a 'bad idea'. he's curt, doesn't say more than necessary, and unashamed to be cold so he'd probably just say "this is stupid." before walking away LMAOO if i were writing someone like gojo, then the sentence also changes too. he doesn't mind talking and adding more to his point, so i would write something like: "you sure? this doesn't seem like the brightest idea." and if i'm really trying to sell a romantic relationship, i'd add a 'sweetheart' there or something.

dialogue: this is a personalised experience, so as is everything in writing. i have been complimented on my flow and dialogue a lot of the time but in truth, i am merely having a conversation with myself in my head. i try to become the character i am writing about and then i just chat with myself :3 it can be that simple. dialogue does not need to be something you over-complicate, i am my own, ethical character.ai.

description and artistic expression: look, i can't say much on this one except that you're all on your own. i am still trying to perfect my own skills in this department because this is perhaps one of my most vexing parts of writing. i truly am just not... as poetic and imaginative as i want my words to be, but i am trying and i am improving.

my biggest tip regarding description and artistry is: if the reader can imagine it, you don't need to write it. you don't need to fill in the gaps with actual scenes, if your characters are walking through the park as a filler for getting from destination A to B, then that park scene does not need to be as descriptive as A or B. a mere 'you took a shortcut through the park' will suffice. or even better, just go straight from A to B.

say my 'A' scene is starting at a cafe, and my 'B' scene is going to the mall, you could just go 'calling for the waitress to get the bill, you then find yourself in the mall within 15 minutes'. spend time on the gaps that require a bridge to cross, not the gaps that you can merely step over.

these kind of things appear in your planning and admittedly, i don't even plan ROFLLL but i have primary scenes that i have sketched out which i sometimes add to. like spider webs, when going from one thread to another, sometimes the journey is not all that important if it does nothing for your plot.

again, i find inspiration in a lot of the writers i look up to. a recurring motif is something i love adding, whether that be dialogue or a recurring item that symbolises something (like the hairband in between love and lies - a nagi fic). techniques like motifs or an extended metaphor add a lot of depth in your writing that you can't find otherwise. you can also omit going too over the board with reader's emotions too, or just the character's. if it's obvious that they are angry, sad, happy, you don't need to go too far in detail about said emotions.

another so crucial thing is to take note of the things you see in real life and apply it in fiction. the most mundane of things you are doing can have beauty in words.

are you at the beach? why don't you take a look around. tell me about the people that sit on towels, minding their own business. tell me about the way the sun sits high in the sky, unforgiving and burning before going into the main plot.

are you sitting on a bench, killing time? tell me about the breeze you feel, or perhaps the heat that overwhelms you. tell me about what you hear- bikes, children laughing, whilst you're waiting for your date to show up- all of these minute things, so long as you don't go overboard, will matter a lot to the imagination of the reader!

# FOUR: TAKE CARE OF AND LOVE WHAT YOU WRITE writing will always be hard :,) not a single draft goes by where i do not find inconsistencies and flaws, but i love them all the same. i love the drafts that i read over once and posted and i also love the drafts that i poured blood, sweat, and tears into. neither of them are more special to me because they were all born from a simple idea.

to look back on what you wrote and going 'i can do this better now' is beautiful, no? i love the end product for what i learnt on the way.

i know me giving this advice is kinda hypocritical because you'll find me going 'i hate this' in the tags, and you can choose to believe me or not, but i adore all of my stories the same. some of them i just hate that i couldn't give them the attention and love that they deserved, which shows through in the end quality. not that you guys seem to care, it's all in my head sometimes lMFAO.

# FIVE - KEEP THE POV CONSISTENT: now we are getting to the tips that i've been learning myself recently. how funny is it that i learnt this whilst reading from a writer that i so admire?

whilst reading a long fic, i noticed that the flow is satisfying because there was no swap of perspectives. the character was in the focus the whole time and the reader was the reactor, the catalyst being the character's actions and internal dialogue. on the other hand, the reader's thoughts and feelings being in the spotlight can also be significant.

i had always known that keeping the pov consistent would influence your writing, but i never knew how much.

which pov you might want to choose is all intuitive. writing is intuitive- every other tip that i have revealed is all intuitive and i'll cover more of this later. more importantly right now, which perspective you want to execute is all on you, and no one else. if you know your character, your storyline, and your skills, you will simply know how the story shall go. it is just as powerful to write it from reader's pov as it is the character's because it comes from your knowledge and authority as the writer!

# SIX - LEAVE THE COMFORT ZONE: this kind of returns to tip four. sometimes the only way to evolve is to do something we are bad at and that advice applies to writing too. writing is a path set by previous writers but it is not one that we have to follow all the time, why take a shortcut when the long way is prettier, and more rewarding? your journey of improvement is dependent on what you realise and give yourself opportunities to improve in.

for example, recently i have been trying to improve the depth of my descriptions and- don't laugh, but the way i've been doing so is as followed:

i input myself into the scenario, i empathise with the characters within the scene and i describe it. maybe it's emotional and the character can't look you in the eye because they don't have the heart to, not when their chest is filled with a smoke that is so unbearable that all they can focus on is not turning to ashes. maybe it's a happy scene and all you can look at is the character. maybe it's confronting, and the only thing you can think about is defending yourself against their clenched fists that will never actually hurt you, but you know damn well can break your walls in one swing. leave the comfort zone, write new au's and new dialogue pieces, write new metaphors and similes and use rhyme, listing, repetition- just try something new every time and let it be meaningful to the story.

# SEVEN - GIVE YOURSELF TIME. like the growth of your muscles or the mobility of your limbs, or the way your hands flow along the canvas or keyboard, writing is a skill that can only be improved with time. fanfic writing is intuitive and completely reliant on your own tastes.

i can sit here, speak for ages about writing, but the only way you can learn is to do. i have people who see what i do and praise me for being one of their favourite writers, and as honoured as i am every time, i am merely born from the six years i have put into this craft, as well as the hours i put into writing and planning what they see. if you could see the behind the scenes, you would go 'what the fuck am i looking at' LMFAOO.

when i write and then i reread and i know what it is missing, but i cannot speak about this like it is easy, like i have not spent the past few years of my life consistently writing for various characters and growing along the way. to be fair, you don't need to take six years to get good at writing, it can be a very smooth process! i don't think i was the brightest cookie at 12 ngl but i took my characters and rewrote them into different scenarios and here i am today, at 18 and (marginally) better.

as long as the urge is there, worship it, take the step and write. then post, if that is a step you want to partake in. simple as that :)

that's all for now! sorry this is so long, now that you've reached the end, i just wanted to say that i have no authority over what you produce and how you do it. these are simply just things i've learned along the way and i hope they can provide you some sort of revelation.

[mlmxreader]

Tried and Tested | Bane x m!reader

anonymous asked: Hello! Could I please request for Bane X non-binary or male!Reader using the following prompts:

"Jealousy is a good look on you, y'know"+ "Don't try to stop me"+ "Never wanted anybody more than I wanted you"

Thank you 😊.

🐍anon

summary: Bane isn’t keen on you going out with an old friend, if only because he’s aware of a little thing called reputation.

tws: swearing, jealousy 

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Bane huffed as he folded his arms across his chest, staring at the door and waiting for it to open, his jaw clenched and all the lights off except the small lamp in the corner; he looked at the time.

You were meant to be home an hour ago, and yet, you had not even tried to contact him to tell him that you were going to be late; an outing with your childhood best friend, Bruce.

He scoffed, shaking his head.

You couldn’t seriously be doing things with that spoiled billionaire brat that you did with him, could you?

Then again, Bruce was ideal - he had a mansion, money at his disposal, looks and charm. But, Bane did have money every now and then; he always took a cut from the jobs he did and from the banks he robbed. He had money, he just wasn’t rich enough to profit off of the work of others and get a pay check for it.

He sighed, shaking his head as he leaned back and stared up at the ceiling for a moment, wondering where you could be; he doubted that you would be disloyal, he doubted that you would go back on all you had been through together and how happy he had made you… he just didn’t trust Bruce.

At all.

Bruce was a playboy with a reputation, not above homewrecking and far from above stealing someone else’s boyfriend; Bane knew Bruce’s reputation all too well, he didn’t trust it for even a second.

Even when the door opened, all Bane did was stare at you. You were clearly in a good mood, grinning as you took your jacket off and threw it next to his. 

“Bruce don’t half nag on - I swear, if I have to hear anything about more about the sewer system in Gotham, I’m petitioning to have his name changed to fucking Victor Hugo.”

Bane huffed. “Is that why you’re so late?”

You nodded, shrugging. “Bruce has always nagged, once he gets something in his head, it doesn’t leave him and he just has to talk about it until he’s all but blue in the face.”

Bane didn’t believe it for a second. “You expect me to believe that? I am aware of Bruce’s reputation, little one, I know what he’s like… I know he wouldn’t bat an eye at trying to take you from me.”

You furrowed your brows, frowning a little. “What’d you mean? Bruce knows I love you, he wouldn’t try anything stupid.”

He hummed, shaking his head as he gently tapped his thigh, silently giving you an order that you just didn’t want to disobey; you sat on his thigh, hands in your pockets as you sighed. Bane was gentle as he leaned in, the cool metal of his mask against your ear as he grabbed your hips to keep you steady there.

“You really think I’d believe that? That a man like Bruce would leave a man like you all alone?”

He tugged your hands out of your pockets, pulling away for a moment to press his mask against your lips; he didn’t miss the way you bucked your hips slightly as he pulled you closer, your hips against his as you put your hands on his chest. 

“Bane…”

“Come on, little one,” he growled softly. “You’re smart, you’re handsome, you’re not corrupted - you really think Bruce Wayne wouldn’t want you on his side? On his arm?”

“Me and Bruce have been friends since we were kids,” you told him, shaking your head. “We’re more like brothers, but…”

“But?” He hissed. 

“I have to admit, jealousy is a good look on you, y’know,” you hummed, chewing at the inside of your lip until he gently nudged your mouth with his mask to get you to stop. “Bane, I never wanted anybody more than I wanted you, you should know that.”

He grumbled, pushing you off of his lap and guiding you to the small bed, laying you down on it before he planted his hands either side of your head and butted his mask against the side of your neck, making you shiver with how cool it was.

He would have given anything to be able to touch you properly, to be able to kiss you and to bite down on your neck; it wasn’t enough that he could cause small marks that would fade within an hour, it wasn’t enough that he couldn’t properly claim you as his and make you wear his bite on your neck as proof of it.

Bane wished he could taste the salt of your sweat with his tongue, and feel the soft bumps and coarse hairs that littered your body as he kissed every inch of it; he growled under his breath, a little rougher as he used his knee to spread your legs.

“Tell me you’re all mine, little one.”

You nodded, hooking your arms around his neck as you sighed softly. “I’m all yours, Bane, only ever yours.”

He put his hand on your throat, feeling your pulse throb beneath his fingertips. His breathing calmed the more he focused on it. “Tell me something.”

“Anything.”

“Do you think he’d make you feel the way I do?” Bane asked with a growl to his tone. “Do you think he could get you all riled up with just a few little touches?”

You shook your head, licking your lips. “No. No one but you could do that, Bane, you know that. No one compares to you.”

“Do you really-”

“Don’t try to stop me while I’m mid-rant,” you told him, huffing. “Do not interrupt me.”

Softly, Bane chuckled under his breath. “I’m sorry. Please, carry on by all means.”

“Thank you,” you grumbled playfully, rolling your eyes at him. “As I was saying - no one’s gonna make me feel the way you do. And even if they did, you know I’m loyal to you, and only you… and Alfred because he scares me.”

Bane tilted his head to the side. “The butler?”

“He scares me,” you nodded. “But that’s okay, because I have you to protect me.”

“Always, little one,” he said softly. “As long as you’re loyal to me, I will be loyal to you.” 

[xx-raines-space-kindergarten-xx]

So like I don't know how to talk about this or where to ask, but this seemed like a safe space for it so I wanted to talk here of that's okay. Feel free to ignore if not.

Anyway I'm autistic and have ADHD (professionally diagnosed but I respect self diagnosis) and I have always felt younger than my age. I used to chalk that up to the fact that many autistic behaviors are seen as childish or immature and that there are many things people see as apart of adulthood that I have difficulties with like taking care of myself, driving, and keeping a job or staying in college. Although I respected age regressors and read a lot of fics involving them because they made me feel safe and they often had hurt/comfort which is one of my favorite kinds of fanfic I never considered myself an regressor because I had childish interests and tendencies anyway so I just thought being autistic can be like that sometimes and that what actions are appropriate for what age is largely based on societal expectations and not biological reality anyway.

Lately though I've been wondering if maybe I am an age regressor, or at least an age dreamer? Or I want to be at least? I feel so much pressure just existing most days and I see people agree regress and get taken care of and be free of that for a little bit and I want that so bad. I want to be care free again. I want to be less anxious and depressed. I want to be free of expectations of society and the ones of my self and the feeling of failure I feel when I fail even after coming so far. Even if only for a little while I want to be safe and held and small and have someone else that care of me. So I can actually recover instead of feeling the looking weight of those expectations and fears and failures and deadlines and worries about the future looming the background whenever I try to rest making me even more burnt out.

Does make sense? It's 6 am and I haven't slept so this is probably incoherent and riddled with typos, but I needed to get this out somewhere and I'm not currently comfortable posting it on my main account while I'm still confused and questioning myself on this. Again feel free to ignore if you want. Have a nice day 😊

Hey! Sorry this is such a late response, and that I’m not exactly Raine, but it sounds like age regression/perma regression to me. I’m sure you’ve found more sources by now, but I suggest looking into information on age regression and about permanent age regression. I can’t exactly answer this with my experience, as I’m an age slider (system things), so I can say I relate heavily, but it’s a totally different thing than what you’re experiencing I’m sure. But, I say research, research is always the best solution. - Tobi/Canine

[sodapopseagull]

Thank you for tagging me, @badmarilynart ! Yippie!

Last Song

Currently Reading

So much bloodweave fic. Catastrophic amounts. I've probably read more words in the past year than I have in the past decade. Also working through Tolkien's Fellowship of the Ring for the first time after loving the movies for years because I would really like to translate the enjoyment of fanfic reading to the enjoyment of reading books again.

Currently Watching

Rewatching Bojack Horseman for the millionth time as well as a lot of Youtube. Largely Jacob Geller. Man I love Jacob Geller.

Currently Craving

Bacon double cheeseburger all the way from Five Guys, but with company to share a large fry. I do not want it by myself, it's not the same. Outdoor seating is a bonus.

OR an ice cold Virgil's root beer and a slice of this really incredible pizza that was just down the road from where I used to live. Again, with company. Food is better with company 😌

Also I've got pumpkin cinnamon rolls proofing right now and I've been thinking about them excessively, so that too.

Tea or Coffee

Coffee as an ingredient, but unsweetened iced tea (green or black) as a beverage. Lavender chamomile tea also slaps!

A hobby you would like to try

Surfing! My old boss was a surfer and was pretty insistent that I'd enjoy it, and I am high-key at my happiest when I'm in the water so... yeah!

AU you're working on or have thought of

My accursed bloodweave cat café AU oneshot. Way too in my head about the whole thing, but someone very kindly betaed it for me, and at the very least I will finish it so their hard work doesn't go to waste 💪

What I'm really excited about is a bloodweave AU that's set post-game with spawn Astarion, Selunite Shadowheart, and a ghost Gale. Astarion accompanies Shadowheart on a pilgrimage to the House of the Moon after the 6 month reunion party, is left to wander Waterdeep, and breaks into a wizard's tower that is supposedly abandoned. I think it'll be my first attempt at a longfic, but I've got some WIPs (other than the cat café LOL) that I want to finish first in the hopes that I'll have stronger writing skills by the time I tackle it. I am rotating this AU in my brain 24/7 tho.

Now Tagging

Apologies! Don't know folks that well on here, so I'm tagging some mutuals 😊 @smilingmarauder @hylianworrier

[oristian]

Hello! Hello! Secret Santa here!

Hope you are having a great day. To answer your question, yes, I am a Nessian fan. I actually found Nessian fan fiction here on Tumblr and the characters were interesting that I bought the ACOTAR books. I would love to see Nesta more of a protagonist in future books, if that’s a possibility.

Question time! Let me know a little about yourself. 😊

What are your favorite hobbies? What is one thing/hobby you recommend for anyone to try once in their life?

What do you think is a great place or idea for a Nessian first date?

Do you prefer canon or non canon stories?

Talk to you soon! 😉

Hi, Santa! My day is much better now that you’re here !

Oh that’s so exciting! Nessian fanfics make me fall more and more in love with them and we have such amazing writers in this fandom. I’m still cycling through the Nessian Week archive! I also would love for Nesta to have another book—maybe her own spin off series? Nesta is my favorite character ever written.

My hobbies include anything outdoors, working out, traveling, reading, writing, and architecture (my real life career)! Oh, that’s a tough one. I always want people to travel and experience the world, but I know that that is not something that everyone is able to afford/make a reality. For something more manageable, I encourage people to read all the time. It is a hobby that brings me so much joy and I always tell people that they can use books as a means of happiness.

For a canon complacent Nessian, a great first date would be a spa day at the House of Wind. Two bath tubs, face masks, music playing softy in the background, Nesta and Cassian holding hands from their respective tubs, and chocolate cake floating in air for their indulgence. Something peaceful that they both would enjoy. For something more AU, I see a great first date being more simple. Dinner at a local diner, a drive-inn movie (something cheesy, they won’t be focused, anyways), and the long way home while they chat about anything and everything. Bonus for a kiss at Nesta’s doorstep (Gwyn and Emerie are spying and giggling).

I am open to any type of story! If I like the pairing, I will honestly read anything.

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What about Nessian do you really love? Do you think have more potential than they do currently?

Until we meet again, Santa!

[ardent-fox]

New Year's Ask Game for Fic Writers ✍✨

I decided to complete this game to help me reflect and possibly get back into writing regularly again, I was not tagged but here's a bit of self-indulgence nonetheless 😊💙

To close out 2023…

1) What fic did you have the most fun writing this year and why? Or, if you can’t decide, what was most fun about writing this year for you?

I've only completed and posted one fic this year/ever and about a dozen Galladrabbles, and had the most fun writing humorous dialog whenever it was sprinkled into them.

2) What’s a scene/story that you finished and felt “wow, I really accomplished that, that actually went so well”?

The mechanics of Mickey getting fucked and jerked off at the same time in Everything, followed by describing his and Ian's orgasms. I've never written erotica from a male perspective before fanfiction and had no idea how I was going to do it, but am pretty satisfied with the results.

3) What helped provide the most inspiration for stories, if anything? Was it poetry? A song on repeat? A gorgeous gifset? A walk outside? A book you read that made you want to change everything? Whatever it was! Tell all.

Music, I make playlists for most of my WIPs. Everything had only a couple of songs, the most prominent ones being Colorblind by Counting Crows for Mickey's and I'll Be Your Lover, Too by Van Morrison for Ian's perspective. Also the poem "My God, Why Are You Crying?" by Molly Peacock, which I discovered while going through a Reddit thread about people crying during sex, doing research is sometimes inspiring in itself.

4) What is something you want to share about what you’ve written this year? A particular line, a comment that made you feel really good, a scene that was difficult to write — you get to choose! What do you wish someone would ask you about when it comes to what you’ve written?

This little tidbit in Everything that I managed to write after coming back to what I thought was an abandoned fic five months later, capturing Mickey's conflicting feelings about making noise:

The beginning of a sob emerges and he gulps it down, flinching when he feels Ian nod encouragingly against him. Rather, he dips his head, cheek resting on the back of Ian's hand as fresh tears quietly leak from him, a rogue one snagging on Ian's wrist before sliding down. "Hey," Ian gentles, hand stirring beneath him. "Don't have to hold anything back. Can be as loud as usual." He wants to, he truly does. Pleasure builds deep within him, its sounds catching in his throat, begging to be freed. Other noises tether themselves, too, ones he'd rather not bring to fruition, and he draws in his bottom lip to keep them at bay, the stubborn desire to hand-pick them denying him the deliverance of any. Restraint coils around him and he clings to it in turn, actually praying Ian doesn't stand for it and finds a way to cut it down, his authority easier for Mickey to give in to than his own permission to be vocal.

Also, all the beautiful comments I got for the fic and all the reblog tags I got for my Galladrabbles, I always screenshot those so I can easily find and reread them whenever I need a pick-me-up 💕

And to start off 2024…

1) Do you have any writing/creation goals for the year? What are they?

Just to write more without any expectations and see where it takes me, whether it's fanfic or personal stuff. Make it fun, write with abandon and focus more on the process than the final result, more on the emotions I wish the story to evoke than on the construct of things. Try to finish up most of the Gallavich WIPs I've had going on since summer of 2022, but not be afraid to drift away if something else inspires me in the moment and just write, write, write.

2) Is there a fic or idea that you’re really excited to be able to continue to work on in the new year (shout out to my fellow fic writing folks who take forever to finish wips, sometimes it’s nice to be able to continue working on something even if you wish you’d gotten it done! Now you get even MORE time with it!)

There's one domestic/fluff/angst communication-centered Gallavich fic I got the idea for and outlined not long after I joined the fandom, but thought I needed more practice before writing it that I feel ready enough to jump back into now, so that's very exciting. I also have a 13K WIP one-shot of gratuitous smut that I wrote for Kinktober 2022 that I was 90% done with, but scrapped because I used my then limited resources to complete Everything instead, and I'd love to give it a rewrite and complete it. There are ideas brewing for a Blackbonnet fic as well, but I'd rather wait and see whether we get a season 3 before delving into it, since I prefer to write post-canon. Also continue Galladrabbles, my dear 100-word morsels that are super fun to write and allow me to experiment with different themes and styles which I can later apply to other projects if I see fit.

3) What’s something new in your writing you want to try/are going to try? A different writing style? Different fandom? Darker works? Fluffier? Longer or shorter?

I'd like to work on being less rigid in my sentence structure, play around with length/pacing in order to convey the mood better. Stop focusing on counting how many times I've used a certain word and switching it out even though it fits perfectly, not allow editing to suck the joy out of things in a way. I'd love to write more at a faster pace, too, but since severe brain fog prohibits me from writing a single coherent sentence on particularly bad days and that a 7K one-shot took me 6 months to write + 2 months to edit, I'm just content with keeping my motivation strong and spirits high while writing at whatever pace I can manage. I'd also like to experiment more with angst and see how I navigate difficult, dark, traumatic topics as well as possibly try writing in the past tense, as I'm not sure a present one is the way to go for every fic.

4) What’s something you love about your own writing that you will continue to appreciate in the new year?

My ability to dive into a character's psyche in order to describe their feelings and reasonings in complicated situations, all the while making sure I sprinkle at least a tiny bit of humor along the way. I'd love to continue playing with themes such as healing through communication and sex and working out their kinks as a couple, both in and outside the bedroom, all in favor of emotional breakthroughs that strengthen the bond between them. If the level at which I'm able to portray a character's vulnerability matches the enthusiasm I have for exploring it, I reckon I'll stay on the right track this year.

Tagging @lupeloto, @crossmydna, @metalheadmickey, @gallawitchxx, @whatthebodygraspsnot, @ian-galagher, @squidyyy23, @bawlbrayker, @secret-gallavich, @juliakayyy, @look-i-love-u, @thisdivorce, @mmmichyyy, @howlinchickhowl, @callivich, @lingy910y, @arrowflier and @sam-loves-seb in case you haven't done this and would like to, otherwise just ignore the double tag and accept this cookie as a token of my adoration 🍪🥰