#i am trying to figure out if its generative or not tho. the tattoos seem off but im not positive
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#spitblaze says things#mostly i wanna be in shape. which is more than possible to do while fat#and that dude for sure has muscle under that fat are you kidding me#i am trying to figure out if its generative or not tho. the tattoos seem off but im not positive#the problem with getting ai to generate an Undesirable Fat Person is that the models are trained#to make everything look as aesthetically pleasing as possible. so here we are#bare chests
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surprise surprise! swear its the last time but i tried ONE LAST TIME and lo behold i asked him if he wanted to play mahjong and he said nooo. well he said hes in another city for the weekend (but i know hes getting wasted, partying w girls or whatever) and said “catch you next time”??????. im smh cuz why do i keep trying with him?? why do i even bother??? but i think im good tho. it stings the same way anyone rejects my invitation to do anything and i also know its not THAT personal and that i can’t expect everyone to be free all the time and maybe i time things wrong all the time so i can’t expect a yes from everyone...but it does still hurt. and it hurt this time but it also solidify my decision to truly no longer associate with him. there won’t be a next time bro u hate ur race and ur culture anyways (this is a longer story) so im over it. i think it still stings but im good.
..,and i refuse to lean into those ugly feelings again. i truly have to have hope and optimism tattooed on my body and chained to my body because i know it can be better; there are plenty of people out here and it can all be better! it will be better! i hate that i had these feelings about this guy and i hate how i’ve talked to myself and how i can’t trust myself and forgot who i wanted to be and just so much of my brain space was taken up by him. i think i’ve journaled enough about my actual reasons and its less this obsession and more just how i don’t feel good about this city and having a rough time being on my own and feeling like i am no progressing as a career and having to re-find purpose again and general growing pains. this city makes you feel disempowered in a lot of ways and maybe the general state of america is this shitty. money doesn’t go far here and everyone seems too happy and love to be ignorant but ready to jump into a dog pile and its just feeling like my lower middle class background pales in comparison to these folks who come from privileged, suburban backgrounds and ivy schools and have all these prestige about them. and i know this is in my head sometimes but its exhausting constantly trying to be this person who can talk like these people and not sound TOO poor nor share TOO much about my background and my anxieties. i feel like i need to only speak about things that are easy to digest FOR THEM and if i introduce a problem i eihter make it sound like they can solve it for me or i have to have an action item of solution.
this post is so derailed!! but anyways it stings and my heart is brittle but i dont harbor big feelings for him anymore and im ready to come back to myself. but also im dedicating energy to just figuring out how to exist in this stupid fucken city and enjoy my time here.
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fic rec vii ♡
hi!
this is a another new set of fic rec and i’ll probably do a compilation of genre (?) just like the first ones.
read and support the fic and authors here: the fic rec ♡
made some changes like tidying up a bit and adding summary, for those that doesn’t have any summary i’ll try my best to add my own summary (it will probably be shit tho, i ain’t making a smut summary guys, i’m not confident in my describing a fic ability but i’ll try my best. if its in italic it means i made the summary hehez ) if the summary is shit, i made it okay.
a for angst
f for fluff
s for smut
// for series or list
kpop oc/s
1. jane by @baejiyeonz
2. bee by @purpleyellow
3. lian by @nct-lian
4. taehui by @jeontaehui
nct
sungchan
1. [10:47 pm] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
haechan
1. [5:21] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
2. you’re warm by @dreamystuffers | f
- a drunk hyuck can only mean a clingy hyuck.
3. you’re short too by @pastelsicheng | f
- 5 times hyuck teases u for ur height.
4. no title by @heychan | s
- dirty thought cockwarming haechan and johnny comes in to the room while you are trying to hide it but haechan doesn’t care.
5. wishes by @lucaswithnoshirt | a f
- standing on stage is everything you’ve dreamed of. except in the time it’s taken you to get there, you’ve been dreaming about other things, too.
jaehyun
1. moving in: the series by @jaehyun-ified | f
- after agreeing to move-in with jaehyun, you decided to curate a little series on your channel to both give in to your viewer’s request to have jaehyun frequently on your contents and to document your moving in process with the love of you life.
2. [8:14 pm] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
3. boyfriend by @simpsiren | a
- a relationship with jaehyun wasn’t always perfect. there wasn’t a definite label on it, which only sent the relationship down a complicated pathway as we tried to find the meaning of our love once again.
4. best part by @okayoongii | f
- don’t know how to describe this tho, just read it. also 10/10
5. can i help you? by @sugarjaee | f s
- when working an extra long shift at work, your boyfriend surprises you with a visit.
6. stages of love by @biletdoux | a f s
- a playlist for the trials and tribulations of a beating heart.
7. [9:04 am] by @jeongvision | // f
- domestic fluffy blurb. 10/10!!
8. suds by @kim-taehung | s
- first person to move does the dishes for a week. nothing is off-limits.
9. promise by @bvbyxuxi | f a
- jaehyun has loved you since you were both kids, things were going well until he messed everything up; meeting again as young adults, he refuses to let you go again but would you give him another chance?
mark
1. one minus on plus one by @wonjaekook | f a
- in all of the years you’ve known jungwoo, you should have figured out to not take his words at face value because, though you haven’t even met, mark lee seems to hate your guts.
2. [12:03] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
3. pretty boy by @epinebleue | f a
- fluff, the tiniest bit of angst, the reader is two years older than mark, jaehyun makes an appearance as the reader’s fuck buddy, use of alcohol and drugs (marijuana), mentions of violence (mark punches someone), smut (protected sex, inexperienced!mark, dry humping).
4. camera flash by @morkleemelon | f
- mark taking a picture but forgot to remove flash waking up oc, pretty fluffy and cute! 10/10!!!
5. retrouvailles by @kireimarkeu | f
- counting down the days until you finally see your long-distance boyfriend.
jungwoo
1. [1:14 pm] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
johnny
1. man-icure by @haejunehui | f
- based on jcc ep. 26
taeyong
1. reverb by @lovingonrepeat | s
- taeyong + studio sex.
2. unspoken by @bvbyxuxi | f s
- you had never thought to see taeyong again after your one night stand with him until this year where he takes you by surprise; turns out he wasn’t the guy you sought him out to be after all.
ten
1. [2:32 pm] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
lucas
1. [4:31 pm] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
2. king of hearts by @raibebe | f s a
- a little bit of everything, a chef’s kiss.
yuta
1. [5:51 pm ] by @dont-look-down-on-me | f
- based on the nct relay cam.
doyoung
1. redamancy by @heavenlyhaechan | f
- this is just so fluffy! i wished to be doyong gf please.
2. fools together by @yongiefilms | f
- two fools in love with each other?
3. acedia by @jaeminscoffee | f
- a day in the life of yours and doyoung's love life.
4. our little secret by @haejunehui | f
- read to know their little secret. hehe.
5. caught red handed by @hannie-dul-set | f
- all you wanted to do was take a picture of the handsome law student during your train ride home. you did not expect things to end up like this.
jeno
1. i see red by @0097linersb | s
- pure filth 🥵10/10 tho.
2. addiction by @love-mi | s f
- you and jeno keep your relationship a secret to avoid backlash from your companies and fans; but keeping himself away only makes him want you more.
3. surprise visit by @nakamotonudes | f s
- you hadn’t seen your boyfriend for over a month because of his hectic schedule so when he suddenly shows up at your place one night for a surprise visit, you both have to make every second worth it.
bts
jungkook
1. the pitter-patter of the heart by @koorara | f s a //
- pieces of newlywed domestic moments with jungkook, your husband. the young film and literature lecturer and his wife, you, who works as a journalist of a web magazine. both of you managing the career, the time for each other and the new house. not to forget, chip, the cat that has been with you for years.
2. please love me by @ahundredtimesover | // f s a
- as the only unmarried jeon and kim children, your families propose a union to symbolize your unbreakable bond that spans generations. but despite developing an affection for jungkook growing up, he never returned it; he never seemed to like you, actually. you’re okay with the proposal, but surprise surprise, he isn’t.
3. first love, last love by @floralseokjin | f s //
- a collection of drabbles following the longterm relationship between jungkook and you...
4. second chances by @parkhabits | a s
- work. one of the most important things to him. It kept him company at night, it was all he thought about, all he put his attention to. his work had become the mistress within your marriage. years after you left him you’re back with only one goal in mind. get him to sign the damn divorce papers. yet you should’ve known that your husband wouldn’t let you go that easily.
5. crush by @jungxk | f s
- jungkook woke up with amnesia (?) he totally forgets that he has a wife and child. and he totally has a huge crush on his wife.
6. bare necessities by @gguksgalaxy | f s a
- when you ask your boyfriend for a relaxing vacation you don’t exactly expect him to take you to disneyland out of all places. luckily, jungkook knows just how to get you to relax — being needy is definitely not the way. or is it…
7. krampus for christmas by @ddaenysus | f
- when your daughter overhears your nightly activities close to christmas, jungkook takes it upon himself to convince her it was the sounds of the legendary demon goat.
8. a date with destiny by @imjustfanfictrash | f s
- you are a boss lady in the tech industry traveling to world for work. he is a chart-topping artist touring the globe to perform in front of millions of fans. In the cosmos of life, you are not likely to cross paths. luckily, fate has a different plan for you two.
9. stranded by @gguksgalaxy | f s a
- jungkook’s offer to help you study for your exam is unwelcome. his entire presence is unwelcome. you don’t want help from the guy who passes all his classes without even trying. it’s annoying — he is annoying. from the way he grins whenever he catches you staring at him, to the way his eyes shine whenever he smiles at you. oh, and let’s not forget the way his tattoos shift when he stretches or the way his jawline sharpens when he’s focused. nope, you definitely can’t stand him.
10. sprout by @v-hope | f
- after a nice evening out with your friends, you find yourself coming home to your sleeping toddler and the new hairstyle she had tried on your husband.
11. friday nights and take-out by @ahundredtimesover | // f s a
- you meet pop star/idol jeon jungkook at the café, you get close, and as hyejin says, you’re like friends with benefits without the sex. but you’re bad at feelings and so is he.
12. jealousy by @ephemeralkookie | f s a
- jungkook’s closest friend, namjoon is getting married and he invited you three to his wedding. the only unexpected thing was jisoo, his ex, and we’ll just say that you were not too happy to see her flirting with your boyfriend right under your nose
13. a quarter past us by @jjiimin | f a
- when you break up with him out of fear of losing your freedom in university, he finds himself showing you why leaving him isn’t the answer.
14. pretty boy by @angelguk | // f s a
- alternatively known as the jock!jk universe drabbles in vague chronological order.
15. summer solstice by @boulevardk | s
- down on your luck and desperate for a successful harvest, you pray to the gods. you figure no one in heaven was listening to your prayers when nothing happens immediately. but one fateful night, your prayers are answered. are you willing to pay the price? the sacrifice might not be what you were expecting….
16. lilac wisteria by @blushoseoks | f a
- over the years, things change - but the one constant is your love for lilac wisterias.…okay, maybe jungkook’s been there too.or, alternatively:the first time jeon jungkook says that he is going to marry you, you are five years old sitting underneath a large wisteria tree.
17. obsessed with your ass by @kooklovesu | f s
- jungkook has an obsession with your body he cant get enough of praising you. he wasn’t comfy showing the world his affection towards you in public because he’s a private guy, but when he finally did, good luck.
18. from home by @gyukult | // f s a
- jungkook is the youngest of five boys, the last in line to truly inherit any his parents’ money. but what if his mom suddenly cuts him off due to his current poor behavior and he’s forced to learn how it feels like to be part of the working class?
19. black card by @minsprings | // f s
- black card fic and drabbles, also a chef’s kiss.
20. oh my god, they were (quarantined) roommates by @ot7always | f s
- what do you do when you’re quarantined for months on end with jeon jungkook - s tier cuddler, workout robot, and thirst trap extraordinaire? fuck him, you guess.
21. let the games begin by @venusiangguk | s
- just another fic where oc rides jk in his gaming chair pls still read it tho lmao its hot i promise
22. the probability of us by @jiminrings | f s
- jungkook’s the son of the university’s president, y/n’s cardigan is everyone’s favorite, and adjacent walls mean shared victories.
23. open when by @iluv-hobi | f
- jungkook likes to write letters to you, especially ones with purposes, like “open when ___”. one day, on a particularly bad day, you open, “open when you’ve had a shitty day”.
24. good day by @ilikemesometaetaes | f s
- his motive was made quite clear once he called you out of work. he just wanted to spend a nice day with his girlfriend. is that too much to ask for?
25. calculated by @whatifyoulivelikethat | // s
- some people would call you far too serious. some would call you stuck-up. and some would call you a bitch. but to freshman jeon jungkook, you’re the head calculus I TA noona – and he’s determined to fuck you.
26. brat taming by @sugasbabiie | s a f
- jungkook has been your roommate for almost a year. since the day he moved in he has acted like nothing but a spoiled little brat who is used to getting anything and anyone he wants. he eats your food, he doesn’t clean, he’s loud, oh and now he has colored his hair the exact shade of blonde as you. He’ll do anything to get under your skin. you’ve had enough of his filthy mouth and his fuckboy ways. it’s time to tame that bratty little roommate of yours. think you can handle it?
27. sugarplum energy by @bymoonchild | f s a
- you know no bounds nor depth with jungkook. while your fuck buddy loves sleeping in your bed and doing laundry for you with his favourite fabric softener, you are in love with a mysterious honeyed, velvety voice on soundcloud. all’s fine, until you find out that the voice that metaphors your heart to a sweet sugarplum melody actually belongs to the boy who has been taking up a special spot in your bed and in your heart, strumming at your heartstrings all this while. or, jungkook has one braincell, but it’s heart-shaped.
28. ancient history by @moononthejoon | a s f
- there is no way to deny that you and jungkook have chemistry. the two of you used to be a couple, after all. what happens when after a not-so-amicable breakup the two of you are cast as opposite leads of a movie?
29. that’s not daddy by @nochuobsessed | f
- jungkook comes home with a new hair color and his sons can’t tell if he’s appa or not. pretty cute! 10/10
30. no title by @himbojk | s
- jk got a blowie from his oc while on a zoom class meeting, like cam on with a whole set up but his oc under the table sucking the life out of him while he sits and tries to take notes .
31. dilf jk by @himbojk | // s f
- dilf jk drabbles.
32. no title by @himbojk | s
- blond jk with full tattoo sleeve who looks like the baddest boy but is actually baby and just wants a handie in the library while studying with his oc because she aspires to have those high grades.
33. no title by @noteguk | s
- bf!jungkook going down on the reader while they watch anime.
34. silent treatment by @blu-joons | f
- baby kook asking daddy kook to say sorry to mommy. 10/10 too!
35. getting railed by @dearlytea | s
- getting dicked by your boyfriend during a train ride.
36. the view by @koyamuses | s
- jungkook knows exactly what turns you on; every kink, every dirty fantasy that’s buried deep within your mind. he knows exactly how to make you beg for it.
37. let’s play: dirty by @jungkxook | f s
- on today’s stream, watch as the king of gaming jeon jungkook gets totally pwned by some newbie player on overwatch (he swears he was stream sniped)! to make matters worse, he can’t seem to focus anymore when you’re in the room but he promises that’s not because he’s in love with you or anything. use code ‘jungkook’ on any game purchase through steam at checkout for 25% off so that jungkook has something to feel better about! iloveyou btw!
38. more dilf!jk by @cutechim | s
- oc thirsting over jk, talk about finances, jungwoo is an innocent cock-block as infants are, disrespect towards a major film franchise.
39. you are inherently beautiful by @ggukachuwu | f a
- when y/n and jungkook accidentally reveal their relationship to the public because she walked in on him doing a vlive and now netizens and kmedia are tearing apart her appearance because y/n is chubby from struggling with pcos. jungkook takes it upon himself to cheer her up because he absolutely adores her.
40. morning with jk by @min-arya | f
- jungkook drabble of him catching his s/o admiring him in the morning with soft sleepy cuddles.
41. even a forest fire dies out by @9uk | a s
- it became from “grab a coffee with me?” to “why should I grab a coffee with you?” too fast for your liking. you had thought the both of you were so in love with each other—only to realise it was only you who had fallen into this trap of feelings. and as for jungkook, he might have just been as confused as you are.
42. all that we had by @starlightauroras-writes | a s
- four years, two months and five days ago, you lost the love of your life with no explanation. living with a failed marriage at such a young age without knowing why was impossibly hard, and when you’re invited to your high school reunion, knowing he would be there, you really don’t want to go. what happens when you do leaves you questioning fate.
43. aquarium by @whatifyoulivelikethat | // a
- life after jeon jungkook was grey. you had to find your own color, grow your own rainbow. but what would surprise you the most is the appearance of white cosmos, seven of them clutched tightly in kim taehyung’s hand.
44. contentment by @btsqualityy | f s
- oc’s using jk’s card to buy rug and the rest is history. 10/10!!
45. heartbreaker with a heart of gold by @filmflowersbangtan | a s
- love this!!! you know i love me some angst! 10/10!!!!!
46. the ikea test by @mercurygguk | f
- you and jeongguk face the IKEA test. successfully? sure!
47. before you universe by @ephemeralkookie | // a f s
- jungkook has taken a huge place in your life after he tattooed you, and you can’t even picture how life was before him. he has always been there for you since day one. but how will things change after you find out you’re pregnant?
48. christmas cream(pie) by @smoochkooks | s f
- a day before christmas dinner with your boyfriend’s parents, you discover another alternative way to use the chocolate cream you’re making. jungkook is more than willing to indulge in your little fantasy.
49. last minute by @moononthejoon | f s
- christmas day had gone by, and now you were back home after holidays with your family. your friends had agreed to have a late christmas party, but as always, you and jungkook procrastinated gift buying.
50. you go in knowing bros together by @blu-joons | f
- a cute fluffy knowing at knowing bros moment.
51. no title by @v-hope | f
- the way y/n would react when someone else flirts with jk and how he’d handle the situation.
52. hair dye by @mercurygguk | f s
- jungkook got his hair dyed while at work. you lose your mind the moment he steps through the door.
53. stay gold by @yeojaa | s
- blond!jk being a good boy?
54. crystal snow by @honeyj00ns | f
- when you join Jungkook and the rest of the guys for some fun in the snow, he can’t help but feel jealous.
55. 6:21 am by @sincerelyourfangirl | f
- in which he makes your morning extra special.
56. plan b by @btsracket | s
- dressing room quickie, unprotected sex request, use of Plan b pill
57. possession by @bngtanah | s
- jungkook is your boyfriend, sometimes you have to remind him what that means.
58. puffs and touches by @mintseesaw | f s
- “Stop doing that with your face, someone else is going to snatch you up”
59. the quiet things by @btsracket | s
- sleeping bag sex.
60. good boy by @ephemeralkookie | s
- secret, read to find out AHAHAHHA.
61. make it right by @jungkxook | a s
- you’re wholeheartedly, madly in love with jungkook and yet you shouldn’t be because it’s been almost a year since you broke up with him. worst part of it all is that you know he’s still in love with you too
62. it takes two by @junghelioseok | s
- struggling with the idea of your ex-boyfriend moving on, you enlist the help of your quiet roommate in a scheme that quickly spirals out of control.
jimin
1. picking petals by @cutechim | s
- you asked for a baby, so a baby is what you’re going to get.
taehyung
1. daddy by @btsracket | f s
- there’s only one choice when this happens on a date out.
2. love me or we both go down by @gukyi | f s a
- after going through with an arranged marriage to please his parents and secure his inheritance of the family business, kim taehyung thinks he’s got it all figured out. he doesn’t. apparently just being married to you isn’t enough, not when everybody and their mother can pick up on the fact that the two of you absolutely loathe each other. but taehyung wants his inheritance one way or another, so he decides that desperate times call for desperate measures: the two of you need to fall in love, and you need to fall in love fast.
3. saudade by @jiminssthetic | a s f
- a demanding idol lifestyle was something taehyung and yourself were all too familiar with. it wasn’t so hard when considering your unconditional love for one another, but lately, taehyung wasn’t the same anymore; and you decide it’s time to find out why.
4. ineffable by @99liners | f
- boyfriend taehyung takes care of his sick s/o.
5. tease by @caiuscassiuss | s
- you knew you were hot. you saw how the guys looked at you, how their eyes were drawn to a tight t-shirt or short skirt. and maybe this would fail epically—crash and burn like a failed experiment—but you wanted to get under kim taehyung’s skin the only way you knew how.
6. aquarium by @whatifyoulivelikethat | // a
- life after jeon jungkook was grey. you had to find your own color, grow your own rainbow. but what would surprise you the most is the appearance of white cosmos, seven of them clutched tightly in kim taehyung’s hand.
got7
yugyeom
1. yugyeom as you boyfriend by @sunshinekookie | f
- i need more yugyeom fics in my life.
astro
eunwoo
1. rainy say saviour by @imsarahbum | f a
- upon seeing you getting bullied after school for being short, dongmin can’t help but step in and defend you - despite both of you not really knowing anything about each other.
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Some more assorted TaiBani 2 thoughts
Felt like a setup season in a lot of ways, which is not necessarily bad but you have NO idea how blueballed I am after waiting 11 years for a setup season. Please, I'm begging you, Tiger and Bunny needs more Tiger and Bunny.
As cute as it is to have Tiger and Bunny mentor an off-brand version of themselves, the new Heroes mostly feel like a filler distraction. This is another thing not helped by the setup structure of the first cour; they're very obviously planning something plotwise with the knockoff twins but there's no payoff here. Ditto whatever the fuck is up with Cat's mom.
The visuals...are not bad, but something is missing. TB always had a lot of flair to its crowd shots and never felt generic. It always felt like it wasn't modern-day, to me, but TB2 feels a little less visually striking in that sense. Like, the fashions and such in the original series are appealing while also feeling distinctly...70s (ie Farrah Fawcett Bunny) and TB2 doesn't quite have that
...is it bad that I almost dislike the found-family vibe the Heroes have now? LMAO god that sounds so stupid but there was something I enjoyed a lot about the bizarre "barely know you but might have to die for you but also wanna kick your ass on the scoreboard" work dynamic they had in the original series. I really liked the fucked up sponsorship stuff but they seemed to have eased back on that...for now
Absolutely love the greater exploration the original set of Heroes got, tho!! Especially Keith and Ivan, who have been kinda gimmickbots
I wish the English translators would fucking speak to the English localizers re: Fire Emblem cos the dub using 'them' for Fire Emblem feels like a copout when official English subs use 'he'. I am entirely fine with Nathan being a nonbinary person who chooses to use 'he!' Just, fucking communicate and commit
So the second cour is poised to involve mysterious old book lady (100% chance of Ouroboros conspiracy), LL Audun (ditto)--
actually I'm speculating that mysterious old book lady is a retired Hero and will probably be tapped for info on Audun, and at least one of them is involved with Ouroboros
--Ryan is set to heavily figure (it's his ol' nemesis that ran off with the fancy drugs, after all), and I suspect the NEXT drug is also gonna be teased as a potential restoration of Kotetsu's powers
--does anyone else remember that we never addressed power-spike Kotetsu having the same aura as Jake (orange)? And they gave the Ouroboros twins a purple aura here to represent their power-spike, so. WHAT DOES IT MEAN, etc
Oh, yeah, and Yuri did literally nothing in spite of a big fancy shot in the OP so he's definitely due to be involved with the second cour. Particularly since Audun will inevitably involve Legend and the older generation of Heroes
I was kinda zzz'd by the Ouroboros Wonder Twins. They've obviously got Narrative Reasons for being there, but the attempt to build pathos fell flat with me. Oh nooo, their handler actually cared for them and felt bad when sending them out to kill got them killed. Gasp. Who could have seen this coming. If only there were some way this could have been avoided. Like, the dude didn't seem like he was seriously trying to get out of Ouroboros for their sake, or doing anything else to try and give them better lives, so his sadness comes off as a little "oh no, not the consequences of my actions!" to me
That said, I did find it interesting for the window it gave us into Ouroboros--namely that their handler seems to have been some kind of low-level enforcer who worked his way up (that whole comment about high-ranking people not normally having visible tattoos). Ouroboros is allegedly interested in NEXT supremacy, but uses NEXTs as little more than attack dogs
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Friendship appreciation post
Caroline- caroline is like my secret buddy. She helped me when I had my surgery and took notes for me and recorded all the lectures I missed. She helped me after my break up, she supported my “hoe phase”, she stayed way late after school one day when I was having a low day, she helped me find teachers, she introduced me to people, she deals with me in most classes, we hang out between classes. She’s extremely funny and energetic, and she’s like a mango in a bowl of boring vegetables. She’s litterly my sunshine on a grey school day.
Amy- Amy is the best mom you could have. But she’s also my best friend, we talk almost every day, even if it’s just brief. She’s my aniexty buddy, I honestly couldn’t have survived Highschool without her. She’s so funny, and she’s really fun to be around. She’s also made so much progress that I don’t think gets recognized enough. She also doesn’t make me feel bad or that I’m annoying her. And even tho I tend to push her and tend to be what she considers a terrible influence, she’s a queen. I love her little grandma quirks and everything, to the coin collecting to the am radio.
Victoria- probably my longest best friend, I have known Amy and Noelle forever tho. But Victoria in herself is like a sister. I love her, even when I don’t like her. She’s honestly my sister tho. I could hate her but walking away is never an option. She’s like my sister person. We both work together and like the same music and Disney and like two seperate individuals with so much in common. It’s crazy. And even tho she frustrates me to infinity and beyond, she’s my sister. Our drives home from school are some of my favorite memories, and talking about everyone and having the same thoughts and same jokes. It’s a beautiful sistership. She’s family.
Noelle- is a queen. A musical queen. She’s so funny and has sass. But she’s also shy and says sorry a lot. I have seen her dancing with drunks, I have seen her dancing drunk, I have seen her cry drunk, I have seen her throw back alcohol like it’s water. She’s just so cool to be around. Shes like super adultish, but super young adult tho. She’s also trying to find her comfort zone. She’s so pretty too! She needs to say no more, and make sure she’s thinking about herself. But she’s a really nice sweet and awesome friend. When things were at the lowest she was there for me and supported me, I really hope I can be the same support for her.
Alyx- I love her dancing. I love her in general, but that dancing. Sometimes our thoughts or actions my cross and we may find conflict. But honestly our friendship can always override those hopefully. I want us to be more drinking buddies and party more if we can find time. She’s so dorky and cool and ballsy. She’s figuring herself out and she’s now labeled the hoe of the group, which is supported by her dancing at the club. She’s just a queen. She’s a strong ass woman and I aspire to reach the level of not giving a fuck bad assery she is at. I want multiple piercings and a tattoo. And just a general whole fuck it attitude. She’s also a great mom and tries in her own way to be supportive. And I did like that puzzle video in the sense of life being made up of puzzle pieces. And like all the Reba.
Kierra- Kierra is a tough motherfucker, don’t mess with her. She’s really cool tho, she’s also figuring herself out. She doesn’t socialize with the group as much, but she’s following her own dreams and living her own way. She seems to have the most control of her life compared to the rest of us. But she’s also growing so much. I know she doesn’t like drama, and I know I might be all drama, but she still came to the library that day with me. She went out of her way, and with her being there I felt so much less anixous. She also deals with the dumb questions I ask her about her life when I probably should know it’s not appropriate. I’m really excited to see how she finds uni and how she grows more.
Gabe- Gabe is a babe, he texts me everyday even tho we don’t talk that often due to me not having time or having anything to talk about. He comes out when I ask him to hang out and he deals with all my emotional bullshit. He lets me bug him and he tells me when I’m being dumb or not. He also knows I’m right most the time and he lets me know my worth. He deals with the times when I cries and makes sure I’m okay and laughing.
Josh- most selfless perosn I know. He’s now super old, but he’s my work husband. Our talk in my car that one night was life changing, he ultimately made me realize my self worth and saw why my relationship ending was much needed. He dealt with so many of my problems. Now he’s currently going through some things and I want to make sure I give him the same safe feeling he gave me about the future.
I have many friends, and many more people I could put on this list, but those people don’t equal to the same amount of friendship worth as the ones listed above.
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I tag @hurtbyintensejourneys @thylovelylionheart @falconhawk9
— what was your last…
1. drink: tea!
2. phone call: my mom.
3. text message: to a group chat with friends
4. song you listened to: “Meltdown” by Lorde, Q-Tip, Push, HAIM, Stromae
5. time you cried: uuuhhh I think it was a couple of days ago, when I was just trying to get out of some pretty bad states and actually felt OK enough to cry so it was a good thing!
— have you ever…
6. dated someone twice: No.
7. kissed someone and regretted it: No.
8. been cheated on: No.
9. lost someone special: Sorta....if the term is used quite broadly.
10. been depressed: Haha. Yes. Ofc.
11. gotten drunk and thrown up: Niet.
— fave colours
12. Purple, or gray/black scale probably.
13. I actually quite like brown....so maybe that?
14. Hm. Probably a deep navy? Like a sailor outfit blue?
— in the last year have you…
15. made new friends: Yes. Absolutely.
16. fallen out of love: No.
17. laughed until you cried: lol yes (thank you to theinsanereader for your book wedding video)
18. found out someone was talking about you: Yes!
19. met someone who changed you: Hahahahah...yeeeesss. Helped me a lot tbh.
20. found out who your friends are: In a way. Like it’s not that I didn’t know before, it’s more like now I understand it better in terms of human leanings etc.
21. kissed someone on your facebook friends list: Uuuhhhhh....no, not on the lips.
— general
22. how many of your facebook friends do you know irl: Nearly everyone, there are a few I only know via the internet somehow, but I still know them from everyday things, or I have already met them.
23. do you have any pets: Nope!
24. do you want to change your name: No.
25. what did you do for your last birthday: Oh boy. It was a weird day but good. I spent time with a cute lil kiddo, went on a walk and saw lots of flowers, watched an episode of doctor who, went out for starbucks with a friend, and got to hold a baby amongst some other more ritualistic things.
26. what time did you wake up today: like, 10:30 or so.
27. what were you doing at midnight last night: Probably just listening to music and...um...maybe writing down in my diary or something?? idek.
28. what is something you can’t wait for: Hmm...this is gonna sound lame but fr I have very little social life so seeing a couple of friends once their schooltime frees up a bit more or whatever....oh! and also my little sister is competing this weekend o I can’t wait to go and watch her and her team :)
30. what are you listening to right now: Static, for the most part, and in the muffled background, my family just doing everyday things (lil screeches, telling offs, whAT?! etc.) lol.
31. have you ever talked to a person named tom: For sure.
32. something that’s getting on your nerves: HA. The government, and some approaches that the American Evangelical Church seems to be oblivious to or non-sympathetic smh.
33. most visited website: “Youtube and Tumblr are probably about equal.” (lol same)
34. hair colour: Brown.
35. long or short hair: Long..
36. do you have a crush on someone: No... at least I don’t think so. Idek if I get crushes or whatever idek it’s confusing moving on
37. what do you like about yourself: Ooh. I like that the single most re-occuring obstacle in my life is that I’m so confusing to both myself (im still learning its ok to be me) and the entire world that it’s very, VERY conflicting in odd ways and that that is what makes everything mean things to me.....it’s like my essence etc. and I now know my main passion etc......tl;dr I like that I’ve figured out what the single epitome of most of what I am is and how its path has severely been distraught, and that though it’s going to take a lot of work to get back, it’s also just going to be the most incredible thing.
38. want any piercings: nope.
39. blood type: sis, if y’all think I’m gonna put out vip information like that on this already crackhead-justice owned website by same-type company like yahoo, y’all are w r o n g.
40. nicknames: Uuuuhhhh. idk. @hurtbyintensejourneys , you should give me one.
41. relationship status: Single. And probably most definitely not ready to mingle (but it’s ok! I’ll be someday, sometime soon...ish)
42. sign: Taurus. But I don’t follow horoscopes.
43. pronouns: she/her
44. fave tv show: Idek anymore....I love Lie to me, and like rags said, Fringe (tho I am still on like s2 aahh), and maybe Doctor who? I actually love Granite flats and GMW/BMW as well tho.
45. tattoos: Nope.
46. right or left handed: Right-handed.
47. ever had surgery: Nope.
48. piercings: No.
49. sport: Alrighty; look, I will watch just about anything even though I’m bad at it....I think it has something to do with an interest in developing my recognizing of stuff/talent???? also it’s v cool.
50. vacation: uuuhhh????? Probably my last “”vacation”” was in California? idek.
51. trainers: I think they’re Nike.
— more general
52. eating: I just want some sushi right now. The good stuff tho. NOt the *shudders* doobly-tasting kind. I love Asian food that’s not spicy tho. That’s some real bod-foodspiration right there for me.
53. drinking: Water, tea, juice that’s actually juice...... fresh smoothies.
54. I’m about to watch: probably just safe-feeling trailers for me, so like, Me and Earl and the Dying Girl or something.
55. waiting for: My mental health/processing desire to buffen up a little so I can actually start doing things again maybe (that’d be nice). Perseverance, basically, I guess.
56. want: Soundproof area maybe, to record //things//? A small local group of friends.
57. get married: At some point, maybe. I’d not be surprised if I end up single tho. BUt I feel like I won’t which is....honestly.....sorta scarier for me rn dfhbjdhsbjdf
58. career: lol. idk. God’s plan?
— which is better
59. hugs or kisses: hugs
60. lips or eyes: eyes, I think.
61. shorter or taller: taller
62. older or younger: depends
63. nice arms or stomach: niCe ArmS oR SToMacH? (bruh idk)
64. hookup or relationships: relationships is the only way to go, and not only in romance my friends.
65. troublemaker or hesitant: Uuuhhh....hesitant. but you know what...imma pretend I come off as, like, a fine brand so. Hésitante.
— have you ever
66. kissed a stranger: No lol.
67. drank hard liquor: No. Thank GOD.
68. turned someone down: Only one (1) time. Sorta.
69. sex on first date: N o.
70: broken someone’s heart: I actually don’t know. I don’t think so. I hope not.
71. had your heart broken: Not like that, but also yes. At least a little. It’s sorta like having to go back and unstitch a stitch of yourself that’s all messed up; you thought you’d be ok with moving on from it, except ways further along you realise that you can’t and then having to go undo everything and start back up but even then your thread is all folded up and a little extra rugged.
72. been arrested: No.
73. cried when someone died: I want to say yes. But I actually am not sure. For sure, in fictional chracters so....(dad from my big fat greek wedding voice) there you go
74. fallen for a friend: No....I don’t think so.
— do you believe in
75. yourself: Sorta. But inherently? yes.
76. miracles: !!!! yes! If y’all knew some of the stories I’ve known....I love God so much I can’t even. It’s so marvelous. I just....Ah!
77. love at first sight: Yes, but only because I think it���s like some weird intuitive thing that’s legitimate for some people. Or maybe even a spiritual thing sometimes?
78. santa claus: “He exists in every way that counts.” 😂 looolll
79. angels: Yes. Again, if y’all knew...
— misc
80. eye colour: brown
81. best friend’s name: I don’t have a best friend rn.
82. favourite movie: Idk.
83. favourite actor: Idk!
84. favourite cartoon: *Idk intensifies*
85. favourite teacher’s name: Not gonna say any specific names, but probably my German teacher in middle school, or 5th grade teacher. Also, non-official teacher friend man who taught me abstract concepts way beyond my grade level. I love them so much and they continue to have a very important impact in my life voyage.
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Blindspot 3x05 recap
Aka the one where all my sons are idiots and all my daughters are precious angels who deserve all the hugs.
Late again, because when am I not? Again, I blame the travelling.
So I’m kinda intrigued by this pair; the bleeding, accented woman and the young guy with an American accent in what seems to be a super-dingy bathroom? What is going on here??
Patterson has been doing some fancy analysing of the adoption records and yeppp, Jane definitely had a kid. And ugh Patterson is so sweet and gentle about it and has done so much research so she could give Jane ALL the info and Jane is just Not Dealing. But hmmm Patterson tells her there’s no way to test if she’s had a child and lbr that’s not exactly true? A good ObGyn could generally tell just by looking at the cervix. Not a perfect measure, but it’s definitely an option. But anyhow Jane is too busy flipping out anyway, and ugh she mentions the Taylor Shaw thing and already having everything ripped away from her multiple times and man my heart just hurts for her rn. And Weller’s so at a loss for what to do or how to comfort her ugh my poor babies
Lol Reade and Zapata and their little Wizardville rivalry is super cute. And then she’s completely open with him and asks him directly about the State Department Guy thing and wow Reade just harshly shuts her down. I’m glad Patterson interrupts this little moment because it was definitely going nowhere good. But speaking of things that ARE good, omg I love her pun about the ‘backbone’ of the case and Weller being all killjoy about it haha. That’s right, honey, just ignore him. Your humour is too good for him anyway. And so anyhow the tatt leads to a NYPD evidence log number, though Zapata notes that the code is different to what the NYPD uses now, and Reade gets super snarky at her for it. Geez son, learn some manners! Patterson backs Zapata up tho (yaaassss my girls), showing that the code is like 20 years old. Jeller go to check out the warehouse it points to while Zapata is given paperwork by Reade (wow, petty), though tbh Zapata ends up with the better deal since Jeller have to fight some bad guys and literally put out a fire. Ugh the way Jane yells for him as she tries to fight the fire alone-- it’s only when its the two of them together that they manage to extinguish it. Symbolism, much? Patterson calls right at that moment to warn them to get out, and it’s a little late, but well, it’s the thought that counts haha. Other warehouses have been burned, which means someone is trying super hard to destroy evidence but doesn’t know where it is. Jane, because she’s amazing, finds the box they nee-- and in it is a whole bunch of untested rape kits going back 20 years. I love the conversation the guys have about the low priority assigned to sexual assault testing-- it’s some good commentary from the writers about the state of the real world.
Meanwhile, Stuart’s phone has been found in the river, and both Patterson and Zapata are very suspicious of the way Reade basically tells her to leave it alone. Looking super suss rn, bro, and I do not like it at allll.
However, I really DO like listening to Jane speak in other languages. So damn cool. And as someone who is currently staying in a foreign country and communicating solely in the local tongue, I have a renewed respect for her fluency lol. Their Russian suspect conveniently elects to speak English though haha. How handy. He’s a bit of a tough guy but through a sneaky move on Jeller’s part, he gives them the info they need-- how he got paid, which gives them a lead on the people hiring him. Patterson also drops another pun, which is three so far this ep and I’m so proud. She also figures out that the the victim was likely linked to Kazarus, which as far as I’m aware is a fake place though tbh my geography is not super great. But anyhow, that narrows their search to two sexual assault survivors.
And then aww Patterson pulls Weller aside and tries to support him about the whole surprise-kid thing, and ugh she’s just so sweet and wants to help both him and Jane as best she can. But he’s upset bc he knows he can’t fix this; no one can. I guess it all just takes time, right? Meanwhile Jane’s in the locker room, getting a call from Roman, and dude he really knew the whole time?? And ugh if she was sixteen when she had the baby (to her high school sweetheart aww) then he was probably about 14 at the time, just a kid himself who had suddenly become an uncle, and man I’m so sad for them both?? But lol she gets to the bullpen and covers the phone while practically yelling for them to trace the call. Not super subtle, Jane. And he tells her she initially fought Shepherd on giving the baby away and then she just ran away? I’m confused. I guess we now understand a bit more about why Remi joined the army though I guess. Not sure how she ever went back to working for Shepherd, though, but maybe she saw the memory wipe as a way out? And Beardy was meant to fill her in on everything including the kid. Idk. Jane’s now having a small breakdown in the locker room and decides she has to go see Shepherd, but Weller’s right when he says that Shepherd would just mess with her head. Don’t give her the satisfaction, Jane! And oh look, a mention of Bethany, haven’t had one of those in a while. And tbh that’s the way I like it, show, so keep ignoring her existence please haha.
In the lab, Patterson admits defeat about Stuart’s phone-- it’s as dead as he is. (Too soon??) But Zapata didn’t spend all that time at the CIA without gaining a few skills in the realms of deception and deviousness, and so they hatch a plan to bluff and lure out the possible mole. And then a lab tech in a headscarf calls them to see something, and the panning shot of the lab also shows another tech in a turban. Firstly, I approve of some diversity happening here, and secondly, I hope that this casting choice was deliberate so there would be people that looked at those characters and went “the traitor has to be one of them” so that when it’s shown that the traitor is someone else, the people watching have to examine just why it was that they thought either of these two background characters were guilty. (Hint: it’s racism!). Anyhow, the rape kit in question has been tested, and it turns out the rapist is the king of Kazarus. Or, the former king, since he died and his brother has assumed the throne. The only spanner in the works being that the rape resulted in a child, who, as per the Kazarussian monarchy, is the rightful heir to the throne. Which naturally means that Scar’s gotta have him taken out. Now we know who we saw at the start of the ep-- the kid and his mother, who was clearly attacked by the assassins but escaped. Now it’s a race for the team to find them before the Kazarussians do.
And then who appears but Weitz, who is now a congressman, and conveniently an expert on Kazarus. I love that everyone looks at Hirst and she’s all “Don’t look at me, Darlins” and how is someone using ‘darling’ in plural like that so damn endearing??? The accent is what truly makes it though, obviously. But nope, it was Reade who called him, which is just another in the list of things Reade has done lately that we do not like. Weitz manages to make everyone hate him even more within mere seconds of showing up, and tbh I love to hate him. His antagonism towards Zapata is hilarious. I like that even Hirst gives him some shit lol. Atta girl. Anyhow Weitz informs them that the ex-king’s brother Cyrus is a Bad Dude and there’s a bunch of american soldiers in Kazarus that are now at risk, and yep the stakes have just been raised
Reade gets called into the principal’s office to discuss his little spat with Zapata. How exactly does Hirst know about that, though? Though I guess if she’s paid attention to any of their interactions today then she probably could have figured it out. I’m offended that he calls Zapata a busybody?? But then he does at least say that she’s nothing to worry about and that she’s a friend. What do you two have to hide though??? Meanwhile in the lab, Patterson has found the kid by examining the curtains in a video that the kid sent to his gf. That’s my lil genius. Of course it’s super convenient that this type of curtain is only made for a specific motel chain, but whatevs, I’ll let it slide as I do with many things in this show haha. I love Zapata teasing Weitz though, suggesting that it was all too smart for him and went over his head haha
Jane’s clearly taking this case pretty personally-- and tbh it does seem veeeeeeeery convenient that there’s a case that resonates so closely with her current situation, until you remember that this time around, all the tattoos are specifically designed by Roman to be revealed in a certain order, so it makes total sense that the case matches stuff going on in their personal lives. More sense than when it happened in the last two seasons, so touche, writers. You win this round. Anyway they get to the hotel, and the kid immediately pulls a gun on them. His mom’s not looking too good though, kinda bleeding out a little on the bed, and ugh Jane does her frightened-animal whisperer thing and convinces the kid to let her help his mom. Naturally he chooses to trust her bc lbr wouldn’t you?? They get his mom to the hospital where she’s super well guarded, and he tells them about only learning at 18 about his mother’s attack. And he only learned yesterday about the whole king thing, and tells them he’ll never go to Kazarus. You just know that Jane is thinking about her baby and how the kid probably wouldn’t want to know her as they must think she abandoned them, and ugh it hurts. Why must you do this, show?
Back in the lab Patterson and Zapata have set their trap, and are waiting to see who falls into it-- only they don’t like the answer. According to her computer, Reade logged into the system to delete the files. Patterson is grim; she doesn’t like it, but she’s ready to believe it. When Zapata tries to insist that Reade wouldn’t do it, that he’s family, Patterson just reminds her: Borden was family too. And ugggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I do not like this at all. I am so done with leaks and moles and traitors and all of it ugh. I do appreciate Weitz for making me smile here; Zapata is back at her desk and he throws a paper airplane at her, then feigns confusion, looking around for who could have done it. Tbh I actually do ship these two a little bit. All the bickering just does it for me lol. She gives him shit about probably not going to be re-elected, but he says he’s doing great in the polls. She says polls have been wrong before-- and is that some political commentary I hear? Man who was the writer of this ep because they are not pulling punches today. Reade comes over and tries to mend bridges, which tbh tastes a little sour after he was such an asshole this morning... give him nothing, Zapata!
Looks like Yasmine is gonna live, which is nice. She and Jane bond a little over protecting kids etc while Weller and the kid go to get something from the vending machine--- and ugh when they’re coming back Wller notices their guard from the door is gone and pushes the kid behind him. I love protective Weller. I also love Weller throwing an injured woman over his shoulder and carrying her to safety. Damn. He also proved pretty smart-- when they realised that the baddies were on their FBI comms, he bluffed and reported that they were headed for the roof while they escaped out the front door instead. Nice. Though why do I feel like that escape was too easy?
Patterson has figured out that it’s not Reade that’s tampering with their evidence, but someone else using his login. She confesses to Zapata about the backdoor that Wizardville gives her into people’s phones, and says she’s never used it before, which isn’t true though right?? Didn’t she use it on that Lowie guy’s lawyer a few eps ago? Anyway Zapata doesn’t care about the illegal biz, she just wants to hear her best(?) friend’s name cleared. Turns out he wasn’t even in the building when someone used an FBI computer to access their files, so that’s at least looking good for him, even if it is bad for them as a whole
Weller reports in, and the team tracks their phones and immediately sends backup-- but too late, considering that the baddies have laid out a trap for them. Was this why it was so easy for them to get away?? Jeller manage to take out several bad dudes on their own, but not before one of them manages to molotov-cocktail their car, which blows up moments later. Dude that’s one potent cocktail… but ugh they all make it to safety, with Weller again literally carrying Yasmine, and ugh the mother and son hug and the husband and wife hug and it’s just a very poignant moment okay?? Also there’s just something really beautiful about the way Jane hugs, I can’t even really describe it. Anyhow they all make it back to the NYO, where the rest of the team (plus Weitz, in his own way) are super glad to see them alive. After a minute Zapata and Patterson sneak off, because Patterson needs to tell her the news-- the person using Reade’s login was Hirst. She’s sure because of biometric software that she runs on all of their computers, and again, man I’m super glad that these powers are in the hands of someone trustworthy like Patterson haha. But ugh this means my honey-accented cool aunt is a baddie?? She even knew that Lowie guy from a few eps ago. Well, bummer. Still holding out for the possibility that there’s more to it, but things aren’t looking great...
Oh dear, King Cyrus was murdered, and the Kazarussians are demanding their heir. Which really sucks for the kid, and Jane and Weller try to protect him, but he’s determined to go and to make things better for his fellow Kazarussians. And lbr, to have to go become king is not the worst thing??
Wow Patterson and Zapata actually went to Reade to warn him about Hirst. I don’t know why that surprises me, but it does. I would have done some more surveillance or something first? But anyway he is really not taking it well, and kinda attacks both of them a bit over it. And wait he’s known Hirst since he was in Quantico??? That’s news to me. And not good news, either. Please don’t be dirty, Reade. Please…
Jeller are recovering at home after a pretty damn rough day. Jane has changed her mind about finding her daughter-- she wants her just to have a happy, stable life, and that willl be far easier if she never knows Jane exists. And he just hugs her bc what can you do to make that pain better? Nothing, that’s what. She’s going to mourn her connection with her daughter for the rest of her life and ugh it just really sucks
Oh no a time jump, nothing good ever follows a time jump. And oh shit it’s Berlin. Weller’s having no luck with a rude hotel employee, which I find super unbelievable because a) he’s front desk staff at a fancy hotel, b) the person asking him for help is a man clearly traumatised about his missing wife, and c) he’s German. Him being rude makes no sense. But it does give this girl a cool opening to come help Weller out, and man I am jealous of her German speaking skills. Like I said earlier, it’s not easy!! But wait, there’s more. The girl is not only American, but she’s looking for Jane. Her mother, Jane. And oh Weller, you stupid, stupid boy. You foolish, well-meaning idiot. I am sure that your reasons for not telling Jane about this are all purely to protect her (although I also suspect you’re trying to protect yourself from her leaving you again) but dude. DUDE. This is not the kind of secret you should ever keep, and honestly if Jane leaves your ass when she finds out the truth I’m gonna be on her side of the split. Ugh, my stupid son when will you ever LEARN
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:333333 every one of those questions for both you and Andras.
sometimes meesh….. somtimes
(1) Do You Sleep With Your Closet Doors Open Or Closed?
closed! they are full length mirros
(2) Do You Have Freckles?
only when super tanned
(3) Can You Whistle?
nope *cries*
(4) Last Song You Listened To.
All Star, which i normally cant stand cuz it gets stuck in my head like no ones business but this was a surprisingly good cover
(5) What Is Your Favourite Colour?
i usually default to maroon/burgundy but i think gold is inching into first place
(6) Relationship Status.
engaged
(7) What Is The Temperature Right Now?
15′C but muggy as all hell
(8) Did You Wake Up Cranky?
oh boy did i
(9) How Many Followers?
1,129
(10) Zodiac Sign.
Sagittarius
(11) What Is Your Eye Colour?
blue but with marbley grey
(12) Take A Vitamin Daily?
yes, but i should take more tbh
(13) Do You Sing In The Shower?
yeah but i never remember the words so just mumble along
(14) What Books Are You Reading?
Half Blood Prince audio book
fun(ish) fact, i was super into reading until the good ol’ depression killed my ability to read so i started listening to audio books recently as a part of my therapy and the harry potter series has a very clear ramp up in difficulty as they age so i figured it’d be a great way of working my way up again
(15) Grab The Book Nearest To You, Turn To Page 64, Give Me Line 14.
There is one, and only one, advantage to somebody who cannot play the violin insisting on doing so anyway, and the advantage is that they often play so loudly that they cannot hear if the audience is having a conversation.
(16) Favourite Anime?
Shirokuma Cafe!
(17) Last Person You Cried In Front Of?
Kaedian :’>
(18) Do You Collect Anything?
movie props!
(19) What Did You Have For Lunch?
a little pizza~
(20) Do You Dance In The Car?
i can barely sit in a car im so tall let alone dance
(21) Favourite Animal?
sometimes sharks, sometimes octopi, sometimes armadillos
(22) Do You Watch The Olympics?
opening cermonies and anything with beefy ladies *cough*
oh and archery!
(23) What Time Do You Usually Go To Bed?
aim for 11/12 but as for actually falling asleep…..
(24) Are You Wearing Makeup Right Now?
only a little, not been taking care of myself lately tbh
(25) Do You Prefer To Swim In A Pool Or The Ocean?
pool maybe? but id rather just sit and look at the ocean
(26) Favourite Tumblr Blog?
eh?? no real fave but Clients from Hell is always a good read
(27) Bottled Water Or Tap Water?
neither
(28) What Makes You Happy?
*stares into the camera*
(29) Post A Gif Of What You’re Currently Feeling Right Now.
(30) Do You Study Better With Or Without Music?
if im taking stuff in, with music, if im writing stuff down, without
(31) Dogs Or Cats?
doggos but i do love cats too
(32) If You Were A Crayon What Colour Would You Be?
some weird offshoot pastel grey
(33) PlayStation Or Xbox.
i guess playstation, i;ve owned a ps1/ps2/psp but no xbox
(34) Would You Swim In The Lake Or Ocean?
if we’re talking idyllic waterfall lagoon from some fantasy book then lake, if not then neither pls
(35) Do You Believe In Magic?
(36) What Colour Shirt Are You Wearing?
grey NASA tee
(37) Can You Curl Your Tongue?
no it confuses me how people have control over those muscles (ears too wtf)
(38) Do You Save Money Or Spend It?
i go through periods of saving then periods of spending
(39) Is There Anything Pink Within 10 Feet Of You?
a lighter
(40) Do You Have Any Obsessions Right Now?
i guess the history of Hyperion (Borderlands) and the departments in the Ministry (Harry Potter)
i tend to hyper focus one aspect rather than a franchise as a whole
(41) Have You Ever Caught A Butterfly?
only to save, leave them be pls
(42)Are You Easily Influenced By Other People?
initially yeah but then those people quickly become an annoyance and everything they do annoys me
(43) Do You Have Strange Dreams?
i have the blandest dreams ever as can be seen here
(44)Do You Like Going On Airplanes?
i dont dislike them but the longer the flight the more claustro i get
(45) Name One Movie That Made You Cry.
Up, in the cinema, front row with my crying friends, you know the scene
(46) Peanuts Or Sunflower Seeds?
sunflower seeds pls
(47) If I Handed You A Concert Ticket Right Now, Who Would You Want The Performer To Be?
it was a life goal to see David Bowie in concert :’
i guess either Pulp if they ever toured again or just whoever puts on the best show
(48) Are You A Picky Eater?
ill try anything in a restaurant but at home with everyday meals i am put off by food a whole bunch
(49) Are You A Heavy Sleeper?
maybe??? its hell to get me to sleep but once im out i think i stay out pretty well
(50) Do You Fear Thunder / Lightning?
no i LOVE it
(51) Do You Like To Read / Write?
in theory…
(52) Do You Like Your Music Loud?
pls no
(53) Would You Rather Carve Pumpkins Or Wrap Presents?
pumpkins i guess but not by much
(54) Put Your Music On Shuffle, What Is The First Song That Came Up?
Mariner’s Revenge - Decemberists
(55) What Season Are You In Right Now? (Weather)
summerino
(56)What Are You Craving Right Now?
i can still taste that pizza so im good for the moment, it will be chocolate tho, its always chocolate
(57) Post A Screenshot Of Your Tumblr Feed.
no that’s weird
(58) What Is Your Gender?
…..nope
(59) Coffee Or Tea?
Coffee~
(60) Do You Have Any Homework Right Now? If So, What Is It About?
nothing official
(61) What Is Your Sexuality?
Pansexual/Polyamorous
(62) Do You Make Your Bed In The Morning?
not even a little :’>
(63) Favourite Pokemon?
(64) Favourite Social Media?
i tend to avoid it really, i dont wanna know what ur doing sorry
(65) What’s Your Opinion On Instagram Stories?
i dont even know what they are? if theyre the same as snapchat stories then??? theyre fine i guess
(66) Do You Get Homesick?
not so much homesick as “omg i need to get home im having a panic attack”
(67) Are You A Virgin?
nop
(68) What Shampoo And Conditioner Are You Using Right Now?
original source i think?? just get whatever
(69) If You Were Far From Home And Needed To Sleep For The Night, Would You Choose To Rent A Crappy Motel Room For $60 Or Sleep In Your Car For Free?
Car for sure
(70) Are Both Of Your Blood Parents Still In Your Life?
nope
(71) Whats The Next Movie You Want To See In Theaters?
it was Atomic Blonde until i heard about all the queer baiting and shit, and i would’ve watched it regardless cuz kickass older woman beating people up but theres enough violence against queer people as it is
(72) Do You Miss Your Ex?
would you like to pick between, abusive ex number 1, abusive ex number 2, friend who we got together cuz we were being pressured by friends and realised we were just friends, ex who was obsessed with me and i didn’t feel anything for but you’re too young to realise that shit aint love, ex who was so torn up about his sexuality he seemed to genuinely fear admitting it or the ex who i never technically got together with but was in love with but had no idea how to go about it cuz “healthy” and “relationshop” where not two words that belonged in the same sentence according to past experience
honestly the best relationship i ever had before Kae was just a friend who was there for me after being abused and we fucked from time to time and there was no “going out” aspect to drag us down
(73) What Is Your Favourite Quote Right Now?
shrug, never been one for quotes
(74) What Eye Colour Do You Find Sexiest?
green i guess?? gimmi unnatural contacts, they can be sexy, i never see a natural eye colour and think “i wanna bone that” tho
(75) Did You Like Swinging As A Child? Do You Still Get Excited When You See A Swing Set?
dont have a question about sexiness followed by a question about swinging and expect my brain not to go there
but yes swings are the best i love them
(76) What Was The Last Thing You Ate?
leetle pizza
(77) What Games Do You Have On Your Phone?
WoW companion App is the closest to a game, D&D character sheet app too
(78) Would You Give A Homeless Person CPR If They Were Dying? Why Or Why Not?
wtf yes???
(79) Been On The Computer For 5 Hours Straight?
ask me if ive been OFF the computer for 5 hours straight
(80) Stalked Someone On A Social Network?
no i actively avoid most of those sites, tumblr is the closest but i tend to follow the art only blogs of people anyway
(81) Do You Like Meeting New People?
in theory???? but generally no
(82) Do You Wear Rings? If You Do, Take A Picture Of Them.
i do, always at least 2, a spinning ring for anxiety and a spiral copper band. will wear more if feeling fancy
(83) Do You Sleep With Your Bedroom Door Open Or Closed?
bed is on a mezzanine but the other doors are clsoed
(84) What Are Three Things You Did Today?
walked the doggo, talked to landlord, avoided a withheld number who was ringing for like a solid 5 minutes leave me alone
(85) What Do You Wear To Bed?
i just take off my jeans and sleep in that
(86) List All Of Your Different Beauty Products You Have Right Now.
ughhh soap scrubs, face cream, sea salt hairspray, coconut oil…errr makeup/nail varnish i guess i dunno
(87) Are You A Day Or Night Person?
is neither an option
(88) List All Of Your Video Games On Your Phone, Console Etc.
*groans* n-no thats way too much effort
(89) Tell Me About A Dream That You Had And When It Happened.
i dreamed a was in a shop (well.. it was a white void with a single shelf) and i picked up a mug and looked at it. that was it. the endand it was a couple months ago
(90) Favourite Soda Drink?
hmmm cherry coke or fanta
(91) What Sounds Are Your Favourite?
audible ones
crunchy leaves are good? OMG wait no that echoing ice crack sound on massive lakes that stuff is the best
(92) Do You Wear Jeans Or Sweats More?
jeans
(93) How Do You Look Right Now?
exhausted
(94) Name Something That Relaxes You.
if only i knew
(95) What Tattoo Do You Want?
hmmm ive considered my sigils but the act of marking them on my skin is a whole part of the process for me so maybe not, geometric stiff is my jam tho, i dont like “picture” tattoos
(96) Favourite YouTuber?
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Bløød and Sand
Original RPC Post
What does it mean to be an Ala Mhigan? It's rarely an academic question. Rather, it seems to cut to the bare bone in a way few others are capable. Big, dumb, trouble, vagrant, lazy. Refugee. Tough, strong, iron-willed. Dangerous. Every Ala Mhigan to be found in free land has abandoned his homeland in one way or another. That seems to be the rub. The salt in the wound. Its left a mark that doesn't want to rub off. And every Ala Mhigan knows this, whether they'll admit it or not. Some its never seemed to bother. Minding his shop, the smithy Osvald is as happy and satisfied as he will be. As Ishgardian as he is Ala Mhigan, he was young enough to adjust, adapt, and start over. He found his life's calling in a trade. He'll be happy as long as he practices. Wherever that may be. To others it meant opportunity; a fresh start without all the strictures of established society. Raubhan, the mighty warrior become General. Never could he have found such power and influence in the land of his birth. The red-haired Bohanon, wild and free as he roams the streets of Ul'dah ruling the city a block at a time with the gang. But for some it means a past that can never be forgotten. One to be clung to, and whose recovery brings all other priorities into question. Kael has never forgotten the family estate. Never relinquished the claim to that which would be his. Entering middle-age he dreams of abandoning his young Ishgardian family to strive for glory and revenge in the homeland. To restore honor to their name, and return to their rightful place where their ancestors fought and died. And for others? It is a duty that demands nothing short of a zealous self-sacrifice. No greater cause could exist than revenge for the crime inflicted upon the nation and people. There is no chip too big for their shoulders. No excuse for a life outside the resistance; for the direction of any effort that is not targeted against the Garlean occupiers. Eva, red-haired and fierce. She has trained all her life for but one purpose: to return Ala Mhigo to its people. To expel, and destroy the Garleans. Prepared to die, there could be no more righteous cause in life. Then, there are those who wish they were like them. Heji, is her name. 'Hellion' more commonly. An Ala Mhigan in the classic mold: tall, powerful, fierce as the wind that batters that highland realm. She's known on the Sands for her strength and body--for her war cry, and ruggedness. But there's more to her than that: honed technique, experience, and a certain grace that under girds the ferocity. She's been a friend of mine for a long time. We were rivals once upon a time. When my career was ending, and hers just beginning. We won't discuss the record. We don't mention it any more. Vision stirring. Everything is... I've taken a new student some while back. And when she asked about unarmed training I knew there was no one better to engage for instruction. That's when I introduced the Hellion to the Fox. There was the Hellion, well over six foot of sculpted muscle. One side of her head shaved. Covered with menacing tattoos. And the Fox - with her manicured nails, and figure fit for sculpture. Red. Is that blood? My blood? Its all over the sand... I won't admit to being wrong. No, there was no better education I could have offered. The Fox is a quick student, though I'd have never believed it when I first met her. Neither as dainty nor as foolish as she seems. Numb... numb... bleary... But as the Hellion landed another blow I knew it had gone too far. An instructor doesn't land a punishing blow against a helpless student. Not with this sort of viciousness. Not long into this session she'd taken the Fox down with a quick sweep. It wasn't exactly a fair strike, from a professional with hundreds of bouts worth of experience, against a student focused on learning. And then she'd shifted gears, using the woman's momentary helplessness to force her into a blind submission with her fist. ........ "Enough!" I leapt from the stone where I'd been observing and strode out toward the pair. "Enough!" I hollered again. But the woman responded with yet another blow, this one directly to the face. This, you must understand, was strictly against the terms of our employment. The Fox makes her living with her face, more than anything, and she hadn't wanted to risk her living for this. Not yet, at least. Sure, I threatened her about it all the time. She didn't wear any protection. It raised the stakes. Kept her on her toes, as it were. But my threats were for show. To make her worry. To make her work harder. To keep her on edge. This was altogether different. This was punishment. "Damnit, Heji! Enough already, you know she's the one paying you!" The woman did stop. In a sense. She turned her attention to me. Rage burning in fierce eyes. "I'd do this for free, old man. Its what this bitch deserves!" For Twelve's sake. There's not enough gil in Lolorito's vaults for this. "What the hells are you on about, woman!? Get off her already!" By now Lunk had started up too. The big guy was always a little slow to get on his feet. I knew I might need the reinforcement. "Thinking she should just dance around the desert, looking pretty for all these gods-damned money-bags while we're fighting; DYING! for our homeland!" The Hellion had raised her voice to a shout. Just short of the war cry that had made her famous. I raised my oaken stick - what sort of weapon is that against a mistress of the unarmed arts you might ask? Lets not discuss the record of our past matches, okay? - and then I slammed it into the ground as hard as I could. That finally startled her into jumping to her feet. What was... that... sound... why can't I see? This was just fantastic, really. Why am I always surrounded by Ala Mhigans with all the damned chips on their shoulders? Everywhere I go it seems to be Ala Mhigans everywhere, and not a one of them seems to have any sense! "What sort of stupid shit is this?" I asked, incredulous. "Why aren't you out at Baelsar's Wall if its so important to you?" With that she took a mighty swing my way. I won't say that it was unexpected. Well, not entirely. The breeze that brushed against my cheek told me everything I had to know about her earnestness. "My brother just died up there, you son of a bitch!" Well. This didn't seem like it was going to end well. Where the hell was Lunk any... the sound of his mailed fist smashing into the Hellion gave me some joy, I'll freely admit. I... can... For a moment she sprawled onto the ground, and the big fella recoiled at what he'd done. It wasn't his style to gang up on someone, especially not a woman. The Hellion spit blood. She'd have it no other way. Rising to her feet she wiped her forearm along her lips. "Oh so now you want to fight, huh, fuck head? Going to defend your fairy princess, is that it?" She snarled. It wasn't a pleasant look, that one. "You know, there's one thing you just don't seem to understand." I said, as calmly as I could muster. "Oh, what's that old man?" she glared at me. I rested on my oaken stick. "She may look a might weak. But she likes nothing more than being underestimated. And..." "She's a spoiled bitch..." "She doesn't give up," I finished. "... just a bitch who's forgotten where she came! And I'm going to fuckin' give her a reminder she'll never forget!" The Hellion turned to look for the princess. But she never quite found her. The form of the kick was, I must say, perfect. She'd been taking her lessons well. The snap of her lower leg was directed precisely into tho back of the Hellion's knee. The larger woman crumpled in a surprised instant. But its not the initial strike that is the most important. The Hellion always stresses this. First you disrupt balance. You create the opening that allows you to get inside their defenses. Once inside it was the next move that was the most important. It must be aimed for victory, whatever the goal of the bout. From a pin, to a deathblow. It really didn't matter what the end result was, this was always the moment to strike for it. The lesson always seemed to sit well with the Fox. She'd told me once upon a time she'd lived among Wolves, and they taught her the same lesson. I had an inkling of what she meant. As the Hellions back touched the sand her assailant had already pounced. Her entire body was in the air. One arm locked the other in place. It was a fore-arm drop, aimed to the momentarily helpless woman's throat. With her full weigh behind it, it could have been the end. A crushed wind pipe and a painful death. The strike was pulled at the last moment. Instead the Fox locked her arm around the woman's neck. As the Hellion struggled against the sleep-hold a terrifying grin took hold of her curled lips. "So.. she has fight in her..." she rasped before passing out. We walked back toward the city in some silence. Lunk helped the Fox along, with that gentle concern of his. The price for the day's lesson had been steep. No poultice would handle this. No mere cosmetic could disguise the punishment suffered by her usually smiling features. We'd thrown her cloak over her as best we could. Not that anyone likely would have recognized her in this state. "You're going to need a healer..." I suggested, hoping she already knew of one to visit. "I know who..." she replied. And off we went. For some, to be Ala Mhigan is little more than an accident of fate. To others, it is the very meaning of life itself. But none who bear that name can fail to consider its importance. To them. To others. What of the Fox? Politics where never her game, as much a I could gather. She cares about people. A smile means more to her than an army. A satisfied life: in Ishgard, in Ul'dah, in Ala Mhigo, more than any ancient banner or name. The future more than history. That's my take, at least. But maybe you should just try asking her.
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LAST:
1. Drink: coca-cola mixed with some vanilla brandy(this is gonna get wild or just plain sad by the end, HOPEFULLY THE FIRST)
2. Phone call: My job 3. Text message: to my friend nate about how much I love werewolves, and how i miss dating someone with a hairy chest. 4. Song you listened to: Dead Girl Walking -reprise- from Heathers 5. Time you cried: probably wednesday, I missed my mom again.
HAVE YOU:
6. Dated someone twice: Uhhh, so like get back together after you broke up?? if so twice then :DD one i regret the other i’m like ehh about. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: nah, i have kissed a bad kisser before V_V not fun but it was an experience ya know. 8. Been cheated on: not really?? i mean i had this online bf and he “cheated” on me technically but he just like rp kissed someone XDD 9. Lost someone special: Yeah....... 10. Been depressed: *POINTS TO #9* 11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: HAHA, NOT YET AND I WANNA KEEP IT THAT WAY. THOUGH I HAVE DRUNK BOUGHT STUFF ONLINE BEFORE
LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:
12-14:
ehh it changes alot but! GREY
PURPLE
RED
IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made new friends: Yes! at saikoucon and at my college! 16. Fallen out of love: nope!!! i’m a grey-rom 17. Laughed until you cried: yeahh!! we were messing with my friend while he was using his VR by like interrupting him, it went on for like 15 minutes 18. Found out someone was talking about you: Hmmm, nah, i mean there was that one time my friend told me about an ex friend of mine not really caring about me at all. :/ that made having the friendship break off easier honestly! but meh
19. Met someone who changed you: not really? i guess my ex, he made moving on from old shit alot easier and help me realizing, i’m not the worse? 20. Found out who your friends are: Yup!! I love them to death! 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: ehh, yeahhh my last bf >_>
GENERAL:
22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: ehh maybe like 40?? i guess 23. Do you have any pets: MY CLINGY BOY, SABLE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE(THIS MIGHT BE A FUTURE TAG COMING TO A RAZZIE BLOG NEAR YOU) 24. Do you want to change your name: NAH, i wanted to when i was younger because my name is super common 25. What did you do for your last Birthday: CRY!!! AND THEN eat cake with my sister and niece while trying not to cry again. im a very sad person. 26. What time do you wake up: Around 10am 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: petting sable probably 28. Name something you can’t wait for: TRANSFERING TO MY NEXT COLLEGE 29. When was the last time you saw your mom? .....I DIDN’T SEE THAT COMING wow i’m like tearing up abit, APRIL 17th when we buried her. 30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: I wish I focused more on art so i could have felt more comfortable with making that a main part of my future 31. What are you listening to right now: the sound of my fan and my 5pm alarm going off. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: ehh not since like being at my last college 33. Something that is getting on your nerves: *DRINKS MORE* LEGAL STUFF 34. Most visited website: THIS DAMN HELLSITE. 35. Mole/s: EHH MY right middle finger, my shoulder, my thigh, my tit, both my wrists, my upper arm, my leg, i have alot of moles like you can play connect the dots 36. Mark/s: like scars? or stretch marks? because i have tiger stripes some on my hips, and i have a stitch scar on my forehead. 37. Childhood dream: like almost every child*looks off into the distant* a veterinarian 38. Hair color: Dark brown almost black with a dyed brown part in the front of my hair 39. Long or short hair: Medium, i’m growing it out to cut it AGAIN! :DDD 40. Do you have a crush on someone: KINDA BUT i’m not trying for it. :/ i don’t think it’ll work out anyway
41. What do you like about yourself: I’M PERSISTENT WITH WHAT I WANT! also able to do things on my own if needed, i’ll find a way if i really need to. 42. Piercings: EAR PIERCINGS!! 43. Blood type: i think B positive ??? its something on the rare side if i remember right. 44. Nicknames?: raspberry, ash, some others but i’m blanking. 45. Relationship status: single...i’m not too bent out of shape over it, like i need to get myself together before i can start looking at people. also there’s noone im really interested in aside from Nyx, but he’s fictional soo yeah 46. Zodiac: Leo 47. Pronouns: She/Her 48. Favorite TV Show: Hmmmm, probably Rick and Morty since Still Star Crossed was cancelled 49. Tattoos: I want like lace across my arm, with white ink but i’m a bitch with pain 50. Right or left hand: Right-hand, though i can draw somewhat with my left :D. thank you art class warmups.
51. Surgery: nah never 52. Hair dyed in different color: ahaha, *side glances* red in high school three times, brownish black to get the red out, and now a copperish brown 53. Sport: ahah i wish, i wanna be in shape bro! tho i;ve been wanting to take up boxing lately 55. Vacation: HERSHEY PARK! unless cons count then SAIKOUCON! 56. Pair of trainers: no??
MORE GENERAL:
57. Eating: Leftovers from eating out with my sister. 58. Drinking: STILL DRINKING THE COLA WITH BRANDY, i’m about to pour some brandy into root beer 59. I’m about to: give up on goggling the missing questions, i’m doing that inbetween writing this and it’s kinda weird. it raises the question on where this question meme started, and who started it 61. Waiting for: the next time i play DND, its GETTING SO GOOD FAM. 62. Want: to figure out what i’ll be doing with my life also get better at art.
63. Get married: In the future, it would be cool to wake up to someone i feel i can trust and love 64. Career: I’m not quite sure lately, something in psych or art maybe both 65. Hugs or kisses: HUGS I NEED WARMTH 66. Lips or eyes: lips, lips have an attractive curve to them. >d 67. Shorter or taller: Taller if guy, shorter if girls 68. Older or younger: Older >_> 70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ARMS!!! BUFF ARMS ARE THE BEST. PICK ME UP AND SQQUEEEEZEEE ME
71. Sensitive or loud: loud, loud is fun!! i can be abit distant when i get into a mood and that hurts people >_> 72. Hook up or relationship: Relationship!! i wanna cuddle and talk!! JUST CUDDLE AND TALK 0__0 FUCK SEX 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: ehh i wanna say hesitant but i always seem to get along better and have more fun with Troublemakers because deep down i’m super mischievous
HAVE YOU EVER:
74. Kissed a Stranger: Nah, but it’s not out of the question >D unless they have something weird going on with their health 75. Drank hard liquor: CURRENTLY AM NOW KEKEKE, 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: EVERY MORNING 77. Turned someone down: Yeaaa >__> 78. Sex on the first date: ....i wanna say no, but with my last bf, ahahah, i wasn’t in the best state of mind emotionally. though it was pretty nice because he didn’t treat me like I was easy and was like serious about me??? 79. Broken someone’s heart: maybe? idk i mean i guess i ccould have with my breakups 80. Had your heart broken: Yeah it was pretty bad 81. Been arrested: Nope and least have it stay that way 82. Cried when someone died: WHY WOULD I NOT! 0/10 bad question!! 83. Fallen for a friend: ...DON’T YOU MEAN EVERY AND ANY FUTURE RELATIONSHIPS I HAVE.
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
84: Yourself: Somewhat. 85. Miracles: Yeahhh 86. Love at first sight: Nope!! that’s saved for fiction! 87. Santa Claus: I’m like 24, HE’S VACATIONING IN HAWAII. (no) 88. Kiss on the first date: ....if they’re cute 89. Angels: yeaa
OTHER:
90. Current best friend name: Nate 91. Eye color: Dark Brown, basically black honestly 92. Favorite movie: idk ?? too tipsy to remember fam
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Late Night Ramblings
Going to bed but here are my final thoughts before I pass out
I really wanna get into sculpting- the first thing I wanna do Is make a mask that’s basically Deuce’s Swan Song mask. I know Deuce is a big ass most of the time but I do have a lot of respect for the guy admittedly- he tries his hardest to talk with his fans as much as possible. Lots of his music is good too, and he IS a bit inspiring admittedly, of course, far from ideal, but IMO he really shows that sometimes you gotta grin and bear what people think and say with you and just keep being you, no matter what you did in the past.
Danny’s mask would be fun to sculpt too, but I really wanna do this mask design I spent like 3 hours on lol. Its this 3-part stitched mask, yellow and green. Theres teeth and blood. I like teeth and blood. If I knew how, I’d love to sculpt a spring loaded jaw for the mask too. That’d be awesome, y’know, just opening your mouth and closing it while having some cool mask with it. I don’t know where I’d buy the springs. I also don’t know how to put it together... Fuck I don’t even know where I can buy decent straps for a mask, since I cant really stand the feeling on twine or elastic strings. Supplies is expensive either way- I’d have to buy 4lbs apoxie sculpt to be be safe, some tools, a strap or two, paint, sanding blocks... Its a lot.
I would love to style my hair to be like LightningClaw’s lol. Bright pink/red color, yellow streaks, hair hiding an eye. It’d be cool, but I dont have thick enough hair nor do I have the patience to wait for hair to grow back after I cut it, because I KNOW if I do cut it like LC’s, I’ll probably get bored of it.
Speaking of LC- his old design was a mess lmao. It was basically one of my other characters, Karasu, but with his signature bright ass hair, and then his yellow bangs. What a mess lol. Its also fun to see how far LC has come as a character. Before he was an edgy warriors FOC. The regular insane murderer edition (like 90% of other warriors FOCs lol.) Now he has his own comic that deals with serious issues while also having an adventreous twist with greek gods.
Tattoo’s. Tat’s are rad as fuck man. I want so many tattoos but its like putting a permanent sticker on your body and I’m not sure I can actually commit to that. Though, on the back on my neck, I plan to get LIGHTNINGCLAW written on it. LC means a lot to me and without him I don’t think I’d be where I am now, as a person, artist, and a writer. Knuckle tats that say SHIT and FUCK would be ideal too lol but I think my family wouldn’t approve of those. t least I’m not doing drugs I guess. Could be worse. Tattoo sleeves are amazing too omg. I just really love tats and wouldn’t mind becoming a tattoo artist, but of course my dad and mom are like “that isn’t where the money is that isnt an ideal job think of the consequences if you mess up on someones body are you willing to commit to tattoos yourself blah blah blah.” Just let me figure things out. Let me try different jobs to see where I end up. I don’t want to follow any roads you two may want me to go to. I’m not going to be a doctor, nor a teacher, nor any overly common jobs. I don’t want to go into the sciences either. Thats not interesting for me. I want to go to a hands on job that I can have fun at.
Hollywood Undead is a good band and I want a new single already. Deuce is a good singer and I want that album already because Bad Attitude is the SHIT. Its awesome. I want Linkin Park to not be pop realllly badly when they drop that album- I didn’t like Heavy in the slighest. I wonder when FOb will release a song tho lol. I like music.
I’m happy to have met and known a lot of people over the years, and so many have stuck with me. I can’t believe I started on wattpad and I’m actually slowly getting somewhere. I can make commissions now, albeit it takes a bit before I can and I do a lot of trades in between, but the more art you do, the more you really get “out there” and really expand your horizons. Even then, just generally being nice to people can get you places because you ahve friendships in those places. Its nice. I’m thankful.
On the flipside, there was some people shos ultimate goal is to ruin my life, it seems. This one kid, his name is Avery, he’s an ass. I don’t get why you gotta talk shit about my back and make my life hell with you “friends” when its more like a posse or a mob. Its because of people like you I felt so lonely most of my years. Whatever rumours you and your shitgang of minions said about me completely stained me as a person and I don’t even know what you said. Say shit to my face so I can punch it back into your mouth you stale fruitcake. If I took a shot everytime someone said I wasn’t like how you or your friends said I was, and that I was actually *gasp* NICE; I’d have fucking alchohol poisoning and need to get my stomach pumped out. Its happened way too much and I swear, when I graduate, I’m gonna meet you somewhere and punch your face so hard your grandchildren (though I doub’t you’ll have any with a personality like yours) will be able to feel it. I don’t know why you think you are entited to treat someone like shit but its all for the wrong reasons you fuckwad.
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