#i am truly most allergic to of all: taking initiative to be the change i wanna see in the world instead of like

[rubberbandballqueen]

*head in hands on dimly lit desk with stacks of paperwork around me* if i don't take action, those coming after me will have to. if i don't take action, those coming after me will have to. if i don't take action--

coworkers complaining abt stupid parents they had to work with at work: some people just shouldn't reproduce

me: that. that is eugenics. i'm going to stop you right there before it gets worse

[itsclydebitches]

Am I the only one who actually UNDERSTANDS Hazel’s side? Gretchen died on a TRAINING mission. Training. Like your “Gretchen would want him to sacrifice himself” how do you know she did that? How do you know she didn’t regret her decision when she realized she was going to die training before she could do any good? Why hasn’t this series deconstructed the sink or swim mentor trope if they want Oz to be grey? YOU CAN’T GET KIDS KILLED FOR INITIATION IN A WORLD WHERE MISERY GETS CITIES SLAUGHTERED!

There a lot of problems with trying to frame Hazel’s stance as sympathetic — beyond the generalized, “It’s obviously horrible that you lost a loved one” — but I think the three main problems are: 

1. It was never about Ozpin’s supposed negligence, that “sink or swim method” (something I’ve never even believed. I think the “No one will help you/you will perish” attitude is entirely an act to get students to try their hardest, but that’s a meta for another time). We know that Hazel was against Gretchen becoming a huntress full stop, believing that she was seduced into the choice by tales of heroism. He decided before she’d even stepped foot through Beacon’s doors that she was making the wrong choice and that if she hadn’t been “lied” to by those like Ozpin, she never would have made that choice to begin with. Because he believes it wasn’t a choice at all, but rather a manipulation. The concept that Gretchen made an informed decision about her own life is not something Hazel is willing to accept. Therefore, his perspective on blame is not something we can trust. It literally doesn’t matter how Gretchen might have died — Ozpin was negligent and sent her into a fight she wasn’t ready for, she was ready but her group was blindsided in an entirely unpredictable manner, she ate a berry for a snack in between grimm fights and had an allergic reaction!  — because Hazel was determined to blame the world right from the start, first for supposedly taking her away, then for her death. It’s just that the world narrowed down to one target: Ozpin. Hazel’s inability to recognize choice here makes his stance unpersuasive right out of the gates. 

2. We don’t know how Gretchen died. That means there’s as much chance that this was an unforeseen tragedy as it was something that Ozpin is actually responsible for. We simply don’t know, though given that we haven’t heard about other students dying outside of Salem’s attack (that I recall anyway) it doesn’t appear that there is some massive flaw in the system that Ozpin has refused to fix. He’s just in the business of guiding an incredibly dangerous career that will, inevitably, lead to some deaths. Gretchen was likely a horrible fluke. Especially since there is fundamentally no distinction in RWBY between a “training” mission and a “real” mission. Coco and Velvet go off to fight real grimm during their second year outing. Team RWBY is sent to the very real, very dangerous Mountain Glenn. In the books Coco and Velvet again help real people with real grimm problems. “Training” in RWBY is not a simulation, but rather a 100% legit mission that just happens to be conducted while they’re still in school, likely under the supervision of an instructor. Gretchen didn’t die before she did good because she would have done good simply by virtue of being a Beacon student, because “training” in RWBY is not removed from the real world. Every bit of training the cast does helps in one way or another: those are real, dangerous grimm they’re taking out and keeping away from others. Which means we come back to the matter of an informed choice. Gretchen knew that her training would be dangerous. Everyone at Beacon knows. The very first thing they do there is fight grimm in the forest. Before that Yang and Ruby are training alone in a different set of woods and are unexpectedly attacked by a beowulf. They could have died right then. It’s a risk everyone accepts when they decide to pick up a weapon and that decision was made long, long before Gretchen died. Beacon is the college years. She made that choice at least four years previously and then made it again when she decided to enter Beacon instead of changing career paths after Signal. None of these characters are under any illusions here. “Training” does not mean the same thing in the RWBY world as it does for us. “Training” is potentially deadly  — and they’ve accepted that. 

3. Let’s say that, despite everything we know to the contrary, Hazel is somehow right. Gretchen was manipulated into being a huntress. She never actually had any free will in deciding that path for herself. Then she died and that death was 100% Ozpin’s fault: something he could have avoided, should have avoided, but is choosing to repeat his mistakes with a new generation because he is, simply put, a “monster.” Even if we accept all that... Hazel is full of shit. His entire stance is that he’s protecting poor, innocent, ignorant children by getting Ozpin out of the world. So how does he accomplish this goal? 

By beating up a bunch of kids. 

And that’s not even taking into account that he joins Remnant’s equivalent of a devil to help her kill, kidnap, and torture untold others. He joins the woman who is queen of the grimm, the very thing Gretchen became a huntress to fight. 

Hazel is grieving, he undoubtedly loved his sister, but those are the only truths here. He doesn’t actually care about the ethics of huntsmanship as a career path, or protecting those who are (to his mind) foolishly following in his sister’s footsteps, because if he did he wouldn’t take every opportunity possible to try to beat up and/or kill the surviving Gretchens of the world. Imagine if someone’s sister died while training to become a firefighter and they put all the blame for this undisclosed scenario on the headmaster of the institution, refusing to admit that she signed up for a very dangerous career. Then, rather than exploring whether or not there was truly any negligence involved in her death, his solution is instead to go out and start beating up other firefighters! Hazel doesn’t want justice, Hazel wants punching bags for his misplaced rage. While it’s true that RWBY hasn’t given us nearly enough information about Gretchen’s death to decide things conclusively for ourselves, the story has nevertheless gone out of its way to say why Hazel’s version of events is not something to take at face value. 

As for that line in the most recent episode, Hazel is the one who says that “this” is what Gretchen would have wanted. We don’t know precisely what “this” is, but the straight-forward reading is that she’d have wanted him to join the good guys and do something to help others, just like she wanted to help. Right now, the one way he has to help is to sacrifice himself. That’s not to say that Gretchen did the same thing  — or that she specifically wanted her brother to die like this too  — only that she would have wanted him to do the right thing: put some good back into the world, no matter how dangerous a position that puts him in. Right now, doing the right things means fighting Salem in what’s likely to be a battle that ends in his death. 

Though it make absolutely no sense why, Haze is finally doing the very thing he was never been able to accept about Gretchen: that his sister was willing to prioritize others over her own safety. Now, just like her, Hazel is paying the price for that risk. 

[rahneii]

Apollo has friends surprisingly ( interactions with the VALORANT agents )

i am bored and i've been wanting to write some of these down for a while so yes have my content, this is also really long so bear with me. Apollo is usually a lone wolf but he loves interacting and socializing with other people if it weren't for her curse.

Controllers

Brimstone Ugly boomer

Apollo and Brimstone are like old friends with a silent grudge between each other. Brimstone was the first person for Apollo to meet in the Valorant Protocol but was hired by Viper instead.

Apollo likes to counter any of Brimstone's plans or ideas by either calling it stupid, old, already done it and 'Maybe we should do what I said instead' proceeds to say the same thing but with curse words and slangs and some dramatic posing.

They don't talk too much but whenever they talk its like Apollo just heard something offensive argues with him.

The way they bond is in the field, though Apollo hates him, she still protects him from any harm. Its the only reason why Brimstone ever respects the false saint.

"Apollo, stop glaring me with you two eyes open. I'm still getting used to your 3rd eye." "Are they too distracting for you? Here ill give both of them for you to confiscate."

Viper

Apollo absolutely hates this woman with a burning passion, and refuses to speak to her or give any satisfaction of a bond.

Viper was the one who removed his wings, though there were other doctors, he only remembered Viper being there.

Viper could care less if Apollo hated her but what she wanted was for him to work with her and the protocol and cause no trouble whatsoever. She still feels guilty about it sometimes.

"Mad scientist down."

Omen "We are both traumatized"

Apollo and omen surprisingly relates together in some way except for eating people and stuff.

Omen teaches Apollo how to knit, garden, cook etc. So that he can learn how to calm herself instead of being isolated in his room 24/7.

They both like to share their experiences in Kingdom, body changes and radianite. They also made inside jokes that only they could understand. "Apollo, isn't it funny how Kingdom keeps this good reputation up just for Monsters like us to be in the background"

Astra "She teaches me how to fly sometimes"

There's this one incident at HQ where Astra tried to teach Apollo how to float with his small wings and accidentally dropped him off the second floor. Apollo forgave her for the effort but they were banned from floating around HQ again.

"Apollo, my friend! We are finally out in the field together. Lets spread our wings and fly!"

Duelists

Reyna "Scary hot woman"

Reyna and Apollo share a mutual agreement on having a desire for bloodlust, Apollo sometimes even envies how Reyna handles it so well.

Apollo likes to get tips from her as well sometimes

"Reyna! you were amazing back there! You truly are a goddess!"

Yoru "Who? oh that guy"

Apollo tends to forget that he exists just because he teleports everywhere it makes Apollo have a brainfart.

Yoru only asks random stuff about him like his form and abilities. He also takes down notes about it sometimes so that he could flex about knowing an angel in real life.

"Killed the uh, blue boy..."

Pheonix "If he touches my wings again i will bite him."

Pheonix always asks the question everyone usually has when they meet an angel. And sometimes repeatedly...

Apollo tries his best to avoid the questions by letting him get distracted by something or changes the subject. Apollo loves his determination but he can do that from afar.

"Pheonix PLEASE stop trying to touch my wings. They're attached to my ears and its hard enough to take care of them."

Jett "She's very talented for sure"

Just like Pheonix, she has a lot of questions but she learns quickly.

She sometimes likes to run with Apollo and would most likely ask Apollo if he could fly.

"Apollo, could you promise me a race if you get your wings back?" "For sure that's something I would keep to heart."

Raze "She's fun to be around, but I also have a lot of questions "

Apollo likes talking to her and looking at her tech since she was always interested on how this stuff worked even back on the church days since his priest prohibited tech like this.

Raze mostly chats with Apollo a lot because of him and KJ meeting up a lot. She has also has a lot of questions to ask but keeps it simple.

"Damn Apollo! You are.. Scary. In a good way of course! It was badass"

Sentinels

Killjoy "She still has never told me if she made KAY/O or not, or I haven't been listening"

Killjoy has enough of Apollo's bullshit most of the time but also has been "threatening(?)" him to make mechanical wings that can fly like the jet.

Apollo has asked a lot of weird requests and Killjoy would just shame her about it.

Apollo is always seen with Killjoy and Brimstone whenever he has to go with Brim.

"Fine.. you win this time, ill think about making your request."

Sage "She's the calm to the storm and I admire her for that"

Apollo admires Sage's hard-work and personality, he'd hang out with her a lot too.

Sage gives her advice and sometimes help as well. She is one of the few that wasn't really scared of Apollo

"Apollo, You worry me as well. Find your inner peace in the battle."

Cypher "A charming fellow, he sometimes concerns me though."

They both know a lot of stuff about the other agents and would share that info together sometimes. They even have code names, inside jokes and etc.

Apollo thinks the guy needs a rest and made a lot of promises for this guy and has no clue if she'd ever make those true.

"Apollo, Promise me you'd be the one putting the knife to my throat *chuckles*"

Initiators

KAY/O "The robot is TOO human for his own good to be honest with you. How charming"

KAY/O is seen with Apollo outside of HQ, the living spaces, outside and almost everywhere since Apollo was being monitored after the incident (which was eating a whole ass chair and almost eating the person on the chair too). Every week of the month at least.

Apollo is funnily enough is allergic whatever KAY/O's electric fluid that creates fragments and supressor has. But She chooses to stick with him since that's the most "safest" option there is.

Their relationship is strange, you see they both share sarcastic jokes in a room and the next thing you know the robot has random makeup marks on his body.

"You fragile humans sure like to put up a fight." "snort"

Sova "I could steal his eye for... personal purposes."

Apollo would usually, try to steal his eye. And Sova would always try to stay away from him. He's a little scared of her but he can handle being in a team with him.

Apollo is also usually nice to him most of the time, and also kept a promise for him.

"Apollo, you are a saint. Please stay that way."

Skye "I love her hawk, it would sometimes bite me though"

Apollo. Loves. Animals. I mean who doesn't? But Apollo always wanted a pet so he'd go to Skye just to pet her animals.

Skye enjoys the company of the Angel but she intimidates her, The whole 3rd eye thing and all

"Skye please please PLEASE can you let me hold the bird?" "Last time you did that it exploded on your hand mate"

Breach "He's...interesting."

They both are scared of each other. Apollo with his intimidating eye and Breach's personality. All you can hear is awkward small talk if you make them talk to each other.

Breach accidentally hit Apollo with his arm once and has never stopped thinking about it. Apollo just promised to herself that he'd stay away from him now.

[watchyourbluesturngolden]

my annotations for chappy 11 of ysijwa

this is just for drea and leyla to read so if you're not drea or leyla pls keep scrolling :)

ok this is pretty chaotic and like i said earlier i treated this ike a wattpad comment section so... have fun ig :)

SHERLOCK AND WATSON CINEMATIC UNIVERSE SHUT UPPPPP I LOVE YOU SM DREA

NOT MISS SNAP CRACKLE POP

jealous y/n you say???

now i know why you ignored all my tiktok asks lmao

HELPLESS OH MY GOD

truly madly deeply intended :)

damn he's kind of a narcissist yk? like "I have to be serious my entire family depends on it" shut up mr darcy you're not special

devout in his religion hmmmmmm hopefully we see some more religious trauma content bc me too vampy

awww he wants kids but now he cant have them bc hes... dead :(

AWWW his sister taught him to knit :( if he doesn't knit bloodbag a sweater i swear to god

stuffy moron is correct

"IT'S A FUCKING WONDER HE EVER GOT LAID" OIJRIOJWEIOJIEWOJFIOEJOF

"THE ATROCITY THAT IS BEING ACQUAINTED WITH NIALL AND HIS HORRIBLE AFFINITY FOR CHEAP FLANEL" ORJFOIJFEIOWJ YOURE SUCH A POET

he's so dumb she was with him bc he's hot that much should be obvious to him🙄

FOOLISHLY HOPELESSLY UNMEASURABLY IN LOVE HWAT THE FUCK DREA IM SAD

i love that he remembers the spinal cord dislocation and the dead leaves . like yea im dead rn but the leaves in my hair are really what's bothering me the most

what the fuck is a maw

ok i looked it up i get it now

"attachment is for gullible idiots" yup and youre one of them vampy 😌

"the warmest skin his icy fingers had ever had the good fortune to touch" im so soft rn

oh so now she has "a wholesome beauty about her nature" ? i thought she was just cute enough 🤨

HE THINKS HER SMILE COULD RESTART HIS HEART THATS SO CUTE IM OUHOIJFOEWIJFIOEWJ

"the responsibility of keeping her safe, satisfied, and happy" how 🥺 🥺🥺

"as long as he breathes" i thought he didn't breathe lmao BUT I GET THE SENTIMENT

"always when it comes to her" IM SCREAMING RN THIS IS SO SOFT I CANT

ill never forgive him for being so dense either his brain is basically a rock

HE WANTED TO COMMUNICATE THAT HE BELONGED TO HER IM GONNA HAVE A STROKE

couldnt be me i dont want to be percieved

HE ADDED A FUCKING BUTTERFLY AFTER THE DISCO BALLS IM OIWFJIOEWJFIOEJIOEWNOJIWJ(*H(WUIOFJIOEWJFIOWHVIFUEH)U)($UT

HEY a hamilton obsession is not childish😤

'the only person who was allowed to touch him there was y/n' he's like a little kid who's possessive omggggggg

oh this reminds me i rlly hope everything in that chest was new and had never been used on anyone else owijfowiejfioewj

oh please my irish king can control himself let y/n meet the other vamps🙄

"if they knew all along why did it take so long" yk im wondering the same thing dummy

"every day was a battle to earn her love and affection" wtffff how could she hurt him like that he is just a baby

i think he needs therapy tbh

yes he does deserve to be treated with respect and dignity😤

"supporting and tolerating them despite your differences" exactly unless they're a republican

IM SORRY THAT WAS MEAN OIWFJOIWJFEIOw i said what i said tho

they did everything backwards but it's what baby needed🥺

im literally gonna 🔪 bradley how dare he hurt my favorite ribeye like that

PROPER BOYFRIEND-GIRLFRIEND BONDING PLSSSSS im sure he makes sure to say stuff like "as your boyfriend' or 'since youre my girlfriend' all the time now

"everything that has to do with harry has always and will always make her feel safe and secure" ...who's gonna tell her👀

HE BECOMES CLINGY IVE BEEN WAITIN FOR THIS ONE TURN IT UP

awwww my love language is also quality times bestiesssssss

(this is more serious you might want to change the words to nose kisses or something because esk*mo is a slur)

HE wants to be wrapped in HER arms and get forehead kissies like a little baby🥺🥺

i can tell you wrote this chappy bc leyla would never write about ice cream

IF CHRIST CAN GET A DATE MARKER SO CAN HARRY OIFJOEIWJFIOEWJFWI PLSSSSSSSSSS I LOVE HIM

ALWAYS FOR HER WEJFIOJWEIOFJEWIOFJOIEWJFOIEWJF HES SO IN LOOOOOVE

HE DID IT AND IM SO PROUD OF HIM🥺

omg i have a thot imagine if she got a heart murmur or something and obvi he knows bc he can hear it so now he has to find a way to make her get it checked out out without being suspicious 😭

HE ROCKS HER TO CALM HER DOWN WHEN SHES HAVING NIGHTMARES IJFEOWIJFOIWEFJ

“nearly blinds himself for eternity” what a drama queen i love him

maybe learn how to turn your brightness down grandpa

“can women sense emotional distress” why is this so funny oiewfjwieojfioewj

DEHUMANIZING OWEIJOIAJAKLFSDJLKSDJFKLD

not a psychotic episode 😭😭

crippling mommy issues woejfkljdklsjsdf me too king

awwwww he made her a full buffet i would cry

matchy socks im gonna sob

king is a chef 😌

y/n’s head @ harry’s clavicle rn: 💥

“his plush chest” drea its ok you can say titties

“absolutely flawless”? are you sure shes not just cute enough 🤨

he got her oat milk 🥺the sign of true love

hes such a shithead i love him

SPELLING HIS NAM E ON HER TUMMY IM HAVING ANOTHER STROKE

“I DIDNT WANT TO LEAVE YOU ALL ALONE” HES SO WOIFJSJFSDKJKLSDJF

HE DIDNT HAVE TO DO NIALL LIKE THAT 😭😭

RAPUNZEL HAIR OSIDJSKJKLSJF

she traces a tiny heart on him wtfffffffffff im sad

this… is hot

“theres no room on the counter” owifjlksjfslkfjklsj

HE WOULD WALK THROUGH FIRE FOR HER maybe then he’d be a little less cold

im sorry that was wrong of me lisjfskldjfwoiejewiojrei

OH MY GOD OWEIJFKLJSKLFJL SHES SO BOLD “can’t i?” OSIJFKSLJLKJF

oh boy hes gonna kill her

I WONDERED WHEN THE YOURE HOT WHEN YOURE MEAN THING WAS GOING TO COME UP

literally shut the fuck up mr english major

do it bestie kick him in the balls

SPARE BOOBIES MAAM I CNAT BELIEVE YOU aCTUALLY WROTE THAT OWIFEJWIJEKLJFOIEWHOEWIFEHFLKEWJFKLEWJKLJFL

IM WHITE IM ALLERGIC TO SPICE WEJFLKJFKLEJFLKJSKLJKFSJD

“character development at its finest” what a self aware king

y/n stop being mean to him baby just wants to feel close ☹️

“I’m anemic” ok king whatever u say

“ME AND MY CHRONIC ILLNESS IM SENSITIVE” IJFKLSDJFKLJSDKLJ

ahhhhhhh it’s yoga time

“just ask your cervix” jlksdjflksdjflkdsjflk

“if only you knew” ☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️☹️

yeah y/n isnt like those other girls 🤪 shes different 🤪

yes bestie objectify him

THERE IT IS MY FAVORITE LINE IN THIS ENTRIE BOOK

PERHAPS MY FAVORITE LINE IN ANY BOOK EVER

“He hasn't been this stiff since rigor mortis”

i think about this on a daily basis i truly do

grey shorts? what a slut

“call the lapd im pressing charges” me after walking up the stairs

OH SO THIS IS WHERE THE GREYS ANATOMY CHARACTERS FROM THE SPOILERS WITHOUT CONTEXT COME IN

him using his shirt as a towel im BARKING

“I wasnt jealous” yea ok 😃

AGAIN HIM DRAWING HIS INITIALS ON HER SKIN THATS SO WOIJFSKLDJFLSJ

yeah harold she just wanted a little kiss 😤

yeah 😃 its bc he ran track 😃

no bc thats so fucking cute that she pretended she had never seen the show before bc he was excited to introduce her to it 🥺

I would do the same tbh i feel like it would be fun to wash dishes with harry idk why

“that skank” oisjksldfjklsjfklsdjflkd

YOUR THICK SKULL COULD DAMAGE THE MARBLE LSKFJKLDSJKFLSDJFKLSJFKLSJKLSJLDKFJLSKDJF I WOULD CRY

he gets her a cup of water 🥺

ok but like wouldn't she want to wash her hair after it got all sweaty at yoga

awwwww she got his toothbrush ready for him why am i so soft rn

memory foam mattresses sound nice but actually they kind of suck bc you sink down and feel trapped in them 😃

HE WATCHED THE TIKTOK SHE SENT HIM IM HAVING A THIRD STROKE

niall is probably on the dumbest side of tiktok idek what side but it’s probably annoying and he thinks it’s hilarious

noooo baby youre not a monster🥺 someone give him a hug rn

well actually you are kind of a monster but its ok we still love u bestie

I too run on caffeine and pizza pockets 😌

TONSIL HOCKEY WHAT THE FUCK OIEJFLSDKJFKLSDJFLSJLKFJSDKLFJ

chatsnap hes such an old man 😭

true lmao if you dont have social media i immediately dont trust you

not the i just washed my hands tiktok 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

HE FEELS STRANGELY PERCIEVED RN KJFLSJFLKSDJ IDK WHY THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME BUT IM LIKE LEGIT LAUGHING

DO IT BESTIE BITE HIM CHOMP CHOMP

“my eyes are stinging” hes such a baby 😭

“MY SIGH”TS ALL FUZZY” SJFKDSLJFLKDSJFLKDSJFLK

“are you all right” “I dont know :(’ i cant handle this my face hurts from smiling lksjflkjafklj

he has a kitchenaid stand mixer omg thats so sexy

ok but has anyone ever gotten salmonella from raw cookie dough bc i think thats just a myth

fuck u for that one vampy

wow he could never deal with my chronically ill ass

WAIT IS IT WAP

NOPE ITS BETTER LSDFJSDKLFJDS

I agree body is absolutely an instrumental masterpiece

I KNEW HE KNOWS SOME TIKTOK DANCES I KNEW IT

“I know youre kinda into that (getting smacked in the face)” SHUT UPPPPPPP SKJFSKDLJFDS

NOT HIM TWERKING SLKFJSDKLFJDSKLFJDSKL

YES YN GET THAT VIDEO AND BLACKMAIL HIM

“I think i popped something” ok old man 😭

why is the word wench so funny lkfjslkfjdslkfjsdlkfj

dont hand it over i want to see him snap

OH SHIT HE JUST JUMPED THE TABLE LSDFJSDKLFJLKDNMNXCMNJKHOIUIOEUR

oooooooooooo

OH MY GOD AGAIN SHE REALLY IS BOLD SLKDFJDSKLFJLSKDJFLKJFS

not guerrilla warfare 😭😭😭😭

do it bestie give him a concussion he deserves it

“no piece of art could ever compare to her” 🥺🥺

“remember that time you told me making out was childish” “no” i hate him 😭

THERE IT IS AGAIN “sex isnt the only way he can feel close to someone anymore” SHUT THE FUCK UP IM SOBBING

this reminds me of the dehydrated intercourse with demonrry

“don’t care, relationships are about sharing’ hes so sdjfksldjfklsjf

DO IT BESTIE KICK HIS KNEECAPS IN

suing disney for false advertisement 😭

THIS SCENE IS KILLING ME LKJFKLSJFLDSJ “just pucker your lips over it” “You have actual brain damage, dont you?” DREA I LOVE YOU KSDJFLDSKJFLKSDJ

how do those bubbles taste babe

ok drea wtf i was so happy and now this??????

“everything’s wrong” NO SHUT UP SHUT UP ITS HAPPY HOURS

not the boob privileges 😭

WAIT THIS IS FROM THE BSE MV ISNT IT “dance is just so hot rn” “depressing shades are just so hot rn”

NOT HIM GETTING ALL STUTTERY WHEN HE ASKS HER IF SHE WANTS A DRAWER 🥺

NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN THIS GENTLE WITH HIM BEFORE WTFFFFFFFF IM CRYING

“youre so fucking cute, my baby” me when i see literally any picture of him

JELLO HAS a STRONGER BACKBONE THAN THIS KSFJSDKLFJDSKLFJ

“betrayed. objectified. taken advantage of. used. “ i hate him sm 😭😭

OH MY GOD IS SHE GONNA SHAVE HIS FACE THATS SO CUTE IM

SHE ISsSSSSS IM SQUEALING

stop him worrying she’ll think it's weird and wont want to do it 🥺

“bold of you to assume id ever be convicted” PLS DREA LAKFJDKSLFJ

“the more you talk, the more appealing manslaughter sounds” I CHOKED DLSKFJDSKLFJDKSJFDSKLJ

HIM WHISTLING TO GET HER ATTENTION WHY IS THAT SO CUTE

Im sorry but its really funny to me how you wrote the sentence “wrong metal, he thinks ironically” … get it ? like IRONically lkfjdslkfj im sorry i’ll show myself out

“this boy?” what a fucking cutie i want to kick him

I forgot what a bop helpless is thanks for reminding me im gonna go listen to the entire soundtrack again-

theyre so fucking cute i hate them

so yea bascally this is the best thing ive ever read and i love you so much and my face hurts from smiling :)))

[prettywordsyouleft]

Love Error

milkandheonnie said:

I am probably too late (as always), but it's worth a shot: I dare you to write Woong in your Becoming Human world.

Pairing: Jeon Woong x reader

World: Becoming Human (read HERE)

Genre: robot au / fluff

Warnings: none

Word count: 3051

You weren’t too worried about the complications of taking your work home with you. Sure, you had been debriefed before leaving the lab and it was no secret within the company that falling in love with your work could be a possibility.

After all, your team leader was complete proof of that. Leo had fallen in love with Yerin and fought through everything that separated them from having an organic connection, one that indicated love could exist between anyone.

Even between a robot and human.

But when it came to you, well, you had no interest in love. You were married, for lack of a better term, to your job and held no desire for anything further than that. What made your heart beat faster was watching artificial intelligence mature. When a circuit board you had spent hours on got fired up for the first run and it’s successful. As a computer scientist, you had a love for facts. For things you could see occur before you.

Feelings weren’t something you dabbled in, even when it came to your job.

“I’ll be fine, you don’t have to worry about us,” you assured Leo as he hesitated in handing over the package that contained all the information about the Woong bot beside you. You took it from his hand and smiled. “I’m only going to be working on sharpening up his errors. Nothing more.”

“That’s what I said,” a voice interjected, smiling at you both before stopping beside her husband. Kissing Leo’s cheek, Yerin then giggled. “Don’t say we didn’t warn you.”

You grinned, despite feeling confident that what had happened to them would never occur for you. “I’ll owe you if anything does!”

“Oh, make a list of rules, even so. You don’t know how long he’ll be staying for and…” Yerin turned to look at Leo in distaste as he regarded her with a dark look and then she sighed. “It’s always better to be safe than sorry.”

“I expect a full report by the end of the week of how your testing pans out, Y/N. Shall we, my hard to please wife?”

“For that, you’ll be cooking dinner,” Yerin remarked as the couple waved you off and you listened to their banter with a warm smile before turning to the bot beside you.

Kboy Cyborgs had taken off years ago, though with the advances in robotics thanks to Leo’s near human-like emotions, they had truly changed the world. Kboys were everywhere and the first line of Kgirls was already in the testing phase. You had been working on them for some time now, so it was going to be far too easy to work with Woong over the week out of the office. He was already an established robot, though he had malfunctioned during staff training. Although he was still running online, and as you gestured for him to follow you to the underground parking lot, in which he did with ease, you had a lot to fix before he could go out and be in the world. It wouldn’t take you more than the week to fix and even though most people liked the idea of having a relaxing time away from the office, you were looking forward to this additional project.

Woong cleared his throat and caught your attention once you were both seated in your car. “So are we off to your house now, noona?”

“We are,” you confirmed as you navigated the evening traffic. It was odd to have a travel buddy when you normally drove home in silence. However, Woong was curious and asked many questions on the ride to your apartment.

Which didn’t stop once inside your home. “Wow, do you live here alone?”

“Yes, it’s just me.”

“Don’t you get bored? Do you own a cat? My sources indicate a lot of people who are live alone have feline companions. A dog, given your dedication to the lab, would be impractical.”

You stared at the robot and then sighed. “No, I don’t have a cat.”

“Are you allergic? Would you like one? I could search through adoption advertisements right now-”

“No, I’m fine without one, thank you Woong.”

His lips pulled together with a slight purse before he smiled and walked towards your bookshelf. “Wow, may I read these?”

“Sure.”

He then darted into your kitchen. “Should I make us some dinner? I have the appropriate functions installed to eat food. We can share our first meal together!”

You didn’t respond, feeling exhausted with how he flitted about your apartment so quickly. Was this why Yerin suggested rules? Had Leo been like this as well? You had a lot to decipher about this bot, but with how much he was chattering, you did the best thing to solve the issue. Swiftly, you reached for the button at the back of his neck, sending him off to sleep.

And then you took in a deep breath, relaxing into the silence that enveloped you.

You had no idea how anyone could live with a Kboy full time.

Unfortunately, you couldn’t leave Woong offline to get your work done. So, once you were sufficiently fed and ready to, you turned him back on, his eyes blinking rapidly as he processed new information. He gasped at you noisily which surprised you. “I was offline for three hours?! Why would you do that?”

“Okay, Woong. Let’s get some facts in place. You’re here for me to work on. Not to become my friend or anything like that-”

“But I would like to become friends with you,” he mentioned with a pout and you heaved a deep breath, trying not to focus on his expression. You felt a surge of guilt over his surprise at being shut off and it was the last thing you wished to entertain today.

You cleared your throat. “We will begin work on your processing error. I’m going to attach my laptop to you and if anything feels odd as I work, I need you to mention it immediately, okay?”

“Of course. I want to be functioning at the best I can because that means one day someone will want to be my friend.”

You tried not to play into his pettiness, ignoring the way he folded his arms across his chest. You didn’t know a lot about the living Woong, but so far your experience with the robot form was definitely more than you had expected. He seemed so polite and quiet in the introduction video you had watched earlier. Right now, he was very playful and easily offended. You wondered if there was an error in his programming there too. Then again, Kboys had evolved into becoming their own sentient beings. Base traits were installed from the idol modelling, but each bot had the ability to grow their intelligence.

This Woong perhaps was just like this naturally.

Thankfully, he was incredibly helpful during your initial testing. Whenever he found a circuit that ran too slowly or diverted, he let you know immediately. You had developed a solid working relationship already that you could appreciate. This remained the same over the next three days, and if it wasn’t for his efficiency whilst you worked – which you chose to do for the majority of your time together – you were certain you would have gone insane with all his endless chatter.

Unplugging your laptop on your fourth session, you smiled at him. “Thank you, Woong. That will be all for tonight.”

“Will you charge now?”

You smiled at the endearing term for sleep. Nodding, you got up and stretched your tired limbs. “I will be going to bed. Please, don’t make too much noise like last night. Perhaps you could read the books as you requested when you first came to stay.”

“Charge well, noona,” he said with the widest smile. You blinked, it was so genuine and you were confused at why you chest tightened. “I’ll promise to be silent.”

You awoke to a high pitched scream, jolting upright just in time for your bedroom door to be thrown open, Woong dashing into your room in terror.

You were completely distressed by everything that was happening, especially when the robot climbed up onto your bed and tried to hide behind you.

“What is going on?”

“Oh, noona! It’s GIANT!”

“What is?”

“The… the… oh my god, I can’t say it. But it’s so big and I was just sitting there reading my thirty-fourth book for the evening when it crawled my way and-” He let out an unintelligible whine, shuddering from head to toe.

You frowned. “A bug?”

“A BUG!”

“But Woong, you’re a robot. A bug shouldn’t scare you,” you explained, attempting to move him away from your pillows. You were too tired for this kind of interruption. Honestly, a bug?! A robot like Woong could kill it with ease. You knew you would have to report this behaviour to Leo, you weren’t aware of such a trait.

However, Woong refused to move off your bed. “I’m not going back out there.”

“Woong, I’m sleeping!”

“I’ll be quiet in here! Just don’t send me back out there to the bug!” he pleaded, and perhaps because you were too tired to remain awake for much longer, you waved him off, laying down again and rolling onto your side away from your work guest. Woong breathed out a relieved sigh and then laid down too. “Thank you for your acceptance.”

“I just want to sleep Woong, that’s all there is to it.”

And boy, did you sleep well. You had possibly the best sleep that you could remember. You were just the right temperature, not overly hot that you needed to kick off the blankets, and not too cold either. When you finally woke up, you didn’t quite want to get up. You were content.

It was during this moment you became aware of what was happening around you. Or, more specifically, what was on you. Opening your eyes quickly, you glanced down at the arm over your waist and felt a leg over yours. The firm chest that was imprinted in your back cradled your entire body and at first, you were surprised to find yourself so relaxed in the arms of the soundly sleeping robot.

And then you were frantic. “Woong!”

“What?” he mumbled, nestling in further. You gasped and slapped his arm off. “Why are you moving, I was comfortable.”

“You cannot sleep with me!” As soon as you were free to leap out of your bed, you did so, eyes wide when you found that Woong’s shirt had been removed. Darting your eyes to the ceiling, you attempted to calm yourself down. But your mind connected on a thought and you pointed at him incredulously. “Please tell me you didn’t infiltrate the old AI modes. You’re not in lover mode, are you?!”

“What is a lover mode? I was just charging. Besides, it was you who did it first. In the middle of the night, you turned around and snuggled into me saying I was the right temperature to cool you down and that you loved the sound of my system purring along.” Woong knelt upon your bed after fetching his shirt and threw it over his head. And then he smirked. “You even called me your cat. Are you adopting me, noona?”

“You’re making that up.”

He shifted closer. “Want to read my memory card?”

“No wonder Yerin warned me,” you breathed, shaking your head and then pointed to the door. “Out you go, it’s time for breakfast.

The humour fell from his expression, and instead, he looked concerned. “You’re coming right?”

“Why?”

“The bug, it might still be out there.”

“Oh good grief,” you chimed, heading for the door. Woong stepped in behind you, peering around you. After searching the entire space for the bug and coming up empty, Woong relaxed and started making you breakfast.

It was surprisingly a nice experience to share a meal with someone and it had become your favourite part of the day so far this week. You didn’t really talk, Woong was somewhat aware now of your prickly mannerisms, simply shooting you several smiles over the meal. You couldn’t help but feel comfortable around him by the time you were ready to work on his processing again.

Much like yesterday, you worked on his system directory and Woong helped you figure out the issues. You had already debugged three pathways and were working on the fourth when he yelped in pain.

“Are you okay?!”

“Ow, my neck!” he cried and you looked at the hand he had raised to cup it, gently reaching out to slip your hand to where it was. You gasped when you saw the bug there, darting your focus to Woong’s face. How had he felt the bite of the bug? Of course, being bloodless, the bug had just died upon contact, but it surprised you all the same.

“You, you really felt that?”

“What was it?”

“The bug, it bit you. It’s dead, don’t panic,” you added on as he went to move and he relaxed, frowning about his experience. You checked the area of his skin. “You even have a mark. How did that happen?”

“Well our skin is fired by circuits remember, it makes sense I would feel it if I can feel the touch of your hand on me as well,” he mentioned, his tone sounding thicker. You glanced down at him and away from where your hand resided, Woong looking up at you wholly. “I can feel you.”

Where it came from, even you were surprised. The words you had proclaimed to your team leader swirled around in your mind as your lips pressed to Woong’s, his own passionately moving against yours. Somehow, in the midst of the embrace, you found yourself pulled onto him, sitting in his lap as the kiss deepened. And just like the circuits you worked with day in and out, you felt a surge fire pathways throughout you. From your lips all the way to your toes, everything felt alive and open.

You were overwhelmed.

“I felt that the most,” he breathed when you pulled away, and you gasped, lifting your hand to your mouth in realisation. Woong smiled, tenderly pushing your hair behind an ear. “You don’t remember me, do you?”

“Remember what?”

“January seventh, twenty-nineteen.”

“That was my first day in the lab,” you replied immediately, brows knitting together. “How do you know that?”

“Because on your first day you made a mistake with a robot and cried about it.”

You stared back at him, the memory resurfacing. You had been given a simple task of placing a memory chip into a robot in your first assignment, accidentally hitting a main circuit in the process. You had been told to fix it before you went home and to learn all about why circuits were critical. That moment in time had led you to become the best at repairing circuits in the entire laboratory.

How did Woong know this though?

He smiled, gently rubbing your back. “It’s okay, mistakes happen and I’ll be fine. Just like right now, with the bug. I’m okay.”

His words felt familiar and you snapped your focus to his face. “It was you. I made the mistake with you.”

“I mean, it’s fair. I didn’t have this face back then. Or any face,” he replied, cringing at the memory. Then he smiled. “But I hoped you would remember me. You told me that I would be your favourite robot if I survived. And I have.”

“Why didn’t you tell me beforehand?” you wondered and Woong smiled. “You knew I wouldn’t let you come home with me?”

“For a closed off human, you’re pretty easy for me to read, Y/N. I think we’re meant to be.”

“Oh no,” you rebutted, shaking your head with a laugh. “I’m not about to go that far. It was one kiss.”

“We could have more,” he offered, leaning in closer. “I’ve always liked you, after all.”

You blinked rapidly, that thick tone was a curse and you were entrapped by it. Pushing Woong back, you laughed. “Easy.”

“Okay, so it’s too fast. I get it. Even though both times you’ve initiated everything, noona. Just remember that.” He laid back down and then pointed to your computer. A picture of complete innocence. You scoffed. “Aren’t we working right now?”

“What am I going to tell Leo on Monday?” you wondered aloud, heaving in a deep breath before leaning down to capture his lips again. After the kiss ended, Woong grinned up at you.

“Tell him there were more issues underlying the ones we knew of and that I need further testing.”

“Then he can do that in the lab.” Woong shook his head. “I only trust you inside my mind.”

“I don’t trust you getting inside of mine.”

“Why, are you afraid you might fall in love with me?” he mused, smiling up at you.

“Well, I did make a mistake with you in the past, and you’re still full of errors. I guess it is up to me to fix them.”

“One kiss at a time?” he suggested and you moved back to your laptop, working your way quickly through his memory bank to see your name clearly there from when his memory card was inserted. You smiled.

“Let’s just see how the rest of this week goes. I might want to trade you in for something better.”

“Hey!”

You glanced up, grinning wickedly. “Well, you opened my heart up to like more than just the circuits running inside of you. I should get a model that I find physically attractive.”

“Are you saying you… wow.”

You then wrote a code into his mind, logging it there permanently. It silenced Woong as he recognised it. “I have a love error?”

“Yep, my diagnosis is that your circuits are so messed up because of me. I’ll have to tell Leo, I’ve made an error that’s going to take a while to solve.”

Woong sat up and nodded. “And since you’re so good at figuring out how to work with my circuits, I’ll definitely make sure we share that same error by the time Monday comes around.”

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What's something you couldn't live without, other than the obvious? It’d be very hard to have to get by without my glasses. I’d technically survive, but I’ll have to get used to bumping into things a lot and never recognizing anyone unless they’re right beside/in front of me. What's something that will always cheer you up? Dogs. Real life dogs, photos of dogs, videos of dogs, stories about dogs, etc. Who's had the biggest positive impact on your life? My orgmates. They made me happy when I needed it the most, called me out when I needed the help, and idk I’m just happy whenever I get to see them. I can’t recall a time where I felt like it was a chore to spend some time with them. Do you wear flip-flops during the winter? Sigh...moving on... What was the last thing you said out loud? I asked Nina to help me bring Cooper and his stuff up to my parents’ room; specifically, I asked her to bring his food and water bowls.

What's something that irritates you to no end? Backhand compliments. An uncle once congratulated me for getting into my dream school but ended his sentence with “are you sure you don’t wanna go to [2nd top university in the country, (which I also passed the day before)]? You’ll fit better there.” This was like two days after I found out I got into UP, so I was still on cloud nine. I don’t know how my face contorted after that but I wasn’t pleased.

Honestly, do looks matter to you? Yes, but not as much as personality and intelligence. When was the last time you had a girls/guys night out? Not sure. I just have nights out in general; I never plan out gender-exclusive hangouts with my friends. Do you still watch kiddie movies/tv shows? Sometimes, when I get in the mood to. It’s not something I feel the need to do regularly. What's your worst habit? Never learning my lesson and being careless just because everything is going well. Best way I can illustrate this is when a couple of a months ago I started getting regular headaches because I’d sleep at 3, 4 AM – I addressed it by giving myself an earlier bedtime. When the headaches went away and I started feeling better, I went right back to sleeping late lol. Procrastinating is a good example too; I’ve submitted work early occasionally and it’s satisfying as fuck, but I never learn for the most part and stick to doing stuff at the last minute. Do your parents call you by any embarrassing nicknames? No. Byn is a nickname, but I don’t find it embarrassing. Do you have road rage? Yeah but there have to be certain conditions for me to get to that point, like once I’ve seen enough stupidity on the road and I can’t take it anymore; when I’m tense about something; or when traffic has been standstill for too long. Is there a certain word that you always forget how to spell? Not really. I know my spelling pretty well. Are there any books in your room? Which ones? Yesssss but it’s mostly because I owned a lot of books as a kid and I’ve thrown none of them out. My book collection is sorely not updated because I stopped reading as I got older. Do you take too many surveys? I wouldn’t say I take too many, especially considering the fact that I used to take like 7-10 surveys everyday back in high school. I do take them regularly. Write some lyrics from the song you're currently listening to: "You know I’m always coming back to this place, you know I’m always gonna look for your face.”

When it comes to dating, what's your preferred age range? 0-1 year. When was the last time someone gave you a weird look? Continued the next morning, lol. I was dancing in my seat over dinner last night because the fried chicken we had was super good, so my mom looked at me strangely. Do you like to cuddle? Only with a significant other, and an animal if they’re willing to cuddle. Do you like the band Cartel? I don’t think I’ve heard of that band yet. Do you play any instruments? No, but I’m always wishing I could. Do you ever blare the music in the car and dance like an idiot? I used to do that when I drove to and from school. It’s the only time in the day where I’m not working and I’m alone, so I allow myself to let loose. Though I gotta say, most of it is recorded because I always have a dashcam on HAHAHAHA so I definitely have some footage I don’t want getting aired in like my funeral or something. Do you like playing in the rain? When I was a kid.

What's something you miss? Going to the mall is a big one. Anything unpleasant coming up soon? The worst thing I can think of is the first anniversary of Nacho’s passing. It’s not till September, but when I think about how March literally feels like yesterday September doesn’t seem too far away anymore. If you had a pet moose, what would you name him? Probably the name of another animal, like Cow. I’ve seen other people name their dogs the names of different animals and it has always sounded so hilarious to me. Do you often hold back what you really want to say? If it’s gonna make me look unnecessarily blunt and hurtful then yes. Are you currently wearing any jewlery? Nope. What was the last gift you gave to someone? Cooper, for Father’s Day. It was my mom’s idea but I helped chip in with the graduation money I got from one of my aunts. Do you decorate for Christmas? (If you celebrate it, that is.) We do. I’ll probably put a tree and some stockings up once I live alone, idk, just so I don’t feel too lonely. Are you hungry? A bit, but it’s manageable. On that note, I miss continental breakfasts. I’ve been having Filipino-style breakfast for months and I really would just like a goddamn croissant or bread rolls with butter for once, lol. When was the last time you went bowling? Sometime in September and October last year. Can you whistle? Yes. Is there a certain genre of music that you just can't stand? Country. Are you allergic to anything? Nope. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two. I lay my head on one and hug another. If I don’t have a ~hug pillow~ it takes much longer for me to fall asleep. You've just won a free vacation! Where do you want to go? Covid restrictions hypothetically put aside, I’d love to go on the New York/Texas trip I initially planned as my grad gift. Do you have a good relationship with your parents? I have a good relationship with my dad. But it’s not like I feel comfortable enough to tell either of my parents any of my secrets. What's your favorite thing about yourself? Gabie likes to tell me “you’re too selfless, you don’t have to help everyone” in sort of like an annoyed tone because that’s exactly what I do lol - help anyone, even if I have to go out of my way or even if it’ll inconvenience me to do it. But I love it about me. I like when I get to make people go home with one less issue on their shoulders. Do you have any health problems? Scoliosis. Have you ever had a near-death experience? Almost smashed into a car that suddenly braked while I was going 50, 60 kph. Are you extremely picky when it comes to guys/girls? That’s what demis essentially are, lol. Do you ever listen to classical music? It’s my last resort when I’m studying and no other music is helping me get focused. What was the last concert you attended? Paramore. What's a movie you'd like to see right now? (Old or new) Ammonite, it’s an upcoming film with Kate Winslet and Saoirse Ronan. Do you take life too seriously? Most of the time. I just find it necessary that way. When was the last time you were truly scared? This weekend when my mom watched a jumpscare with the sound on, so I heard the loud demon scream that came up in the end. What's the funniest trick you've ever pulled on anyone? I don’t like pulling tricks because I don’t like them pulled on me. The most I’ve done is take Gab’s phone and pretend with her that it’s lost. Do you like orange juice? I’ll drink it if it’s served for free, but I wouldn’t buy one for myself. Do you own any skinny jeans? Yes, nearly all my jeans are skinny. Do you have a diary/journal that you frequently write in? You’re looking at it. When was the last time you had a good workout? November, back when I still had that intense PE class that made me work out for an hour every Wednesday and Friday. Do you like your eye color? I find it too common but I’m not actively complaining about it. I don’t feel the need to change it. When was the last time you played with Play-Doh? Two or three years ago at a cousins’ place. One of them was still a baby then, so the toys they had around were clay and kinetic sand and stuff. What's something that you think people waste too much time on? Fighting on Facebook comments lol Do you think they should outlaw talking on your cell phone while driving? They already have, at least here. Are you embarrassed to burp or fart in front of your friends? For the most part. I’ll burp only in front of Angela and Gab. Do you like peanut butter cookies? Yesssssss, but I don’t get to have it a lot. :(

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If there is a world outside of their tiny bathroom with its green walls and white floor tiles upon which a developing pregnancy test has been placed, Amy's forgotten about it.

Then the timer rings.

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A completely regular Saturday morning in the Santiago-Peralta household turns out to be not quite as regular as Amy'd thought.

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What irritates Amy most about the way she wakes up is that it’s a Saturday morning.

Saturday mornings when they’re both free are supposed to be for sleeping in late, waking up when the sun eventually forces its way through the thick curtains in the late morning. Saturday mornings are supposed to be for sneaking an arm around her husband’s torso, pressing kisses down his chest until he stirs awake, laying there talking in low voices until one of them reluctantly gets up to make coffee. If she's lucky, Saturday mornings can be for lazy, completely unhurried sex, or for shared showers and brunch out at the hipster café which does both pancakes with bacon as well as a smoothie bowl she’s not allergic to.

What they are not for, Amy decides when she presses her phone’s home button to see the screen light up with the numbers 5.22  a.m., is waking up before sunrise with a throbbing head and the gnawing nausea, which has irked her throughout the week, at the back of her throat.

She groans into her pillow out of sheer frustration. Paracetamol is in the bathroom cabinet, left side top shelf next to the ibuprofen and antihistamine. It might as well be on the other side of the planet.

Slowly, with more effort than it should take, she pushes herself up on her elbows and reaches for her glass of water. It's dark and she's visually impaired as is, so she fumbles, so right when she thinks she's got it she's hit with a dizziness spell and the glass falls to the bedroom floor, hitting the carpet with a distinct thud and spilling water everywhere.

It’s too much - the last drop of water to make another, already teeming and metaphorical glass, spill over. She’s already feeling under the weather, has been throughout the week for some perplexing reason, and now she's probably ruined their carpet. Before there's time to react in a more emotionally stable way, she’s quietly sobbing, drawing uneven, heaving breaths that coincidentally happen to worsen the headache.

It really isn’t her best Saturday morning.

“Ames?” Jake’s voice is groggy, mumbling her name when she feels his body shift at the other side of the bed, shuffling towards her. “Is something up?”

“Headache”, she manages to get out, moving close enough for him to put an arm around her when she buries her head in his t-shirt, trying to ignore how overpowering the smell of laundry soap feels, how much it worsens the nausea.“Just - weird migraine, I think.”

“Okay.” He presses a careful kiss to her temple. “Is that why you’re crying?”

The nausea keeps getting worse. She forces air in and out through gritted teeth, hoping to keep it at bay. “I spilled water on the carpet.”

“And started crying?” There’s a worried tone to his voice. She’s keeping her eyes closed, but suspects if she’d open them, she’d find the crease on his forehead he gets whenever she tells him she’s not feeling good. “Babe, don’t be offended when I say this, but you really must be stressed out.”

“Am not.”

“Don’t try”, he warns, rubbing comforting circles on her shoulders. “Stay here. I’ll get you painkillers. Pretty sure we have something for migraines somewhere - hey, what are you -”

She’s pretty much thrown herself out of bed. Pressing the back of her hand to her mouth, she thanks whatever higher power in charge of her shitty morning that at the very least, the distance between their bedroom and bathroom is short and she put her hair in a ponytail before going to bed yesterday. Small wins, she attempts to think, crouching over the white porcelain bowl, but the positive thinking is drowned out by the revolting feeling of emptying her stomach of yesterday’s dinner.

She can hear Jake’s footsteps behind her, noting the worried sigh he lets out upon seeing her hunched-over frame. She figures she must look about as disgusting as she feels, but if he thinks so, he doesn't let her know - just sits down next to her, stroking her back with more tenderness than she's probably worthy of after having woken him up with this about four hours after they went to bed.

“Sorry”, she mumbles when the worst seems to be over and she dares retreat into his arms. He wraps them around her, shaking his head, and it's the sweetest gesture she could imagine in this moment but it doesn't take away from the fact that his shirt still stinks.

“Not your fault, don’t apologize. We’ve been through this.”

“Jake, can you please take your shirt off?”

“Uhm - babe, I hate to kill the mood, but I don't think that's the solution we should -”

“It stinks”, she groans. “Please. You used too much laundry soap, or something. It’s all I can smell.”

“Well, your nose is weird.” He frowns, but dutifully pulls the gray t-shirt over his head, rolling the item to a ball and throwing it out the door towards their bedroom. “There. How are you feeling now?”

The headache is the same, but the acute sickness has sunk back to the lurking, but stable, nausea she’s sensed for days now. Irritating, but more manageable.

“Better.”

“Not like you’re going to throw up again?”

“I don’t think so.”

Her husband hums, playing with a sling of hair that’s escaped her tight ponytail while she rests her head on his shoulder. “You want to try drinking some water? Carefully? I can make you some ginger tea, if you want.”

“Yeah.” She manages a smile, temporarily distracted by his thoughtfulness. Whether it’s the aftermath of a panic attack, a bad hangover or some odd kind of stress reaction like this must be - she’s a Santiago, she never gets sick - Jake remains the unchallenged master of making her feel better, always seeming to know the perfect cure. “Yeah, that’d be nice.”

He kisses the top of her head and tells her he’ll be three minutes, tops. With the nausea under control, she’s confident now would be a great time for those painkillers, so she puts in contact lenses and starts looking through the cabinet.

She finds ibuprofen and antihistamine, but no paracetamol. Huffing in frustration, she decides to search in the cabinet below the faucet instead. Jake might have taken some for a bad hangover and thrown the package there without thinking. There are plenty of cleaning products, a box of tampons and pads, a bunch of band-aids and equipment for easier wound dressing, but no blessed little boxes of painkillers as far as she can see.  

Just as Amy’s about to close the cabinet doors and go for the ibuprofen even though she finds paracetamol better for headaches, she spots another pink and white package hiding close to the wall.

Early Result Pregnancy Test, the white text teases her, and she weighs the carton in her hand for a moment before ripping it open.

Truly, she’s not expecting anything. It’s a harmless safety check. She's not sure how punctual her period has been, but it’s been acting up at times of stress before and always shows up eventually, and sure, they agreed a couple months ago if it happens, it happens but there's been no active trying and they've both been swamped with work lately. Surely it’s nothing.

Nevertheless, she reads the instructions with thorough concentration.

“Okay, so it took me forever to find that tea, but I did it and I'm very proud - what are you doing?”

She's dug out an old toothbrush cup, downed some water and is twisting the unused plastic stick between her fingers when Jake returns, teacup in hand.

“I'm going to take a pregnancy test.”

“You're going to take a what exactly did you say there now?”

“Pregnancy test”, Amy repeats matter-of-factly. “I really don't think it's going to say anything”, she assures him when his eyes seem to pop out of his skull and his mouth is opening, closing and opening again in lieu of an answer. “We’ve barely tried. I'm checking so I can rule it out.”

“Right, right. That's cool.” He sits down, leaning his back against the edge of the bathtub. “Cool. Cool, cool cool cool cool…”

“Can you please not freak out on me right now?”

“Sorry”, he mumbles, dragging his hands through his mussed up curls, making an adorable mess out of them. “It’s, uh. Very out of nowhere.”

She nods, biting her lip. “I just want to make sure. Honestly, I’m sure it’s nothing.”

She isn’t, not really, but when part of her wishes for the opposite to be true, the anxious part of her brain opts for pessimism.

She's read about this. Her and Jake are a bit on the older side of first-time parents, and she may be a Santiago, but she's also been on birth control for a substantial part of her adult years. It's normal for it to take time. She doesn't want to get her hopes up.

The first pink line appears in front of them, confirming the test has worked, and Jake sneaks a hand into one of hers to gently squeeze it. She drags her index and middle finger over his knuckles, looking up from the potentially universe-changing display to meet his eyes. The corners of his mouth shift into a smile.

“I know it might not have seemed like it from my initial reaction”, he says, slowly like he's weighing each word before speaking it. “But I’d be really happy about it. If it was positive.”

Amy smiles, too, albeit more timid - the nausea is worsening again, and she forces some of the tea down in a fruitless attempt to stall it. “I’d be really happy, too.”

“But you don't want to get your hopes up.”

She shakes her head. “It can take a long time. I want to be prepared for that.”

“I get it”, he tells her, watching her with the same soft gaze that always makes her feel like home. “Although.. if it's negative, we can always try again, right?”

“Definitely.”

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

If there is a world outside of their tiny bathroom with its green walls and white floor tiles upon which a developing pregnancy test has been placed, Amy's forgotten about it.

Then the timer rings.

Loud, stressful beeps interrupt their existence in the liminal space between not knowing and knowing. She turns it off, takes a few deep breaths which does little for her stress levels, and picks up the cheap plastic stick with a shaking hand.

One line.

One line negative, one line no measurable halts of hcG in her body, one line no apple seed-size embryo growing inside of her.

One line.

“It's negative”, she whispers, and a stubborn tear makes its way down her cheek. “I figured.”

“It's okay.” Jake’s hand squeezes her shoulder. “We’ll try again, Ames. It's not a big deal.”

“I know. I just - I was hoping. A little.” With a shrug, she hands him the test. “You can throw it away.”

“Are you sure?”

“I don’t want to see it.”

He narrows his eyes, angling the plastic stick in between his thumb and index finger. “There is a line, though.”

“That's just to confirm the test has worked.”

“No, I mean another one.” He squints. “It’s weak, but it’s there.”

“Give me it.” She snatches the test out of his hands, standing up in a movement so hasty it gives her another dizziness spell and she has to support herself against the sink. Jake gives her a look of worry, then stands up, too, pointing at the display window.

It is near imperceptible. It reminds her of the old pens she used to draw with at her maternal grandmother’s house, where all which would be visible on paper afterwards was the faint stroke of dried-out marker.

But in good enough lightning, there's a line.

She can't help but stare at it. It looks so faint she's frightened it's an illusion, but there's the shadow of a line, and even a faint shadow is supposed to mean -

“Ames!” Jake connects the dots before she does. “That’s gotta be a positive!”

The smile on his lips is so wide, so exalted, Amy swears it could cure some incurable disease all on its own. She aches to reciprocate it, but fear prevents her.

“What if it's false?” She whispers. “It’s just one test. Maybe it's a false positive.”

Jake shakes his head. “Am I really talking to the person who will defend tests with everything she has and insists on not blaming them for anything?”

“I know, okay?” She leans the plastic stick back and forth, watching the weak line remain there. “But this is potentially life-changing. I can't just trust one test.”

“What are you saying?”

“You need to go buy more. Lots more. Go to CVS and buy like, ten. I don't care about how expensive they are. Just do it.”

“Ames -”

“Jake.”

“Fine, fine, I’m on my way”, he mumbles, stumbling out of the bathroom and towards their front door without as much as glancing at the discarded t-shirt. She snorts at his sudden duracell-level energy, breaking out into wholehearted laughter at how he seems to have forgotten about his half-nudity in the midst of nerves and excitement.

“You're not going to CVS in just your boxers, are you?”

Wallet and keys already in hand, he gives his bare legs a sheepish look. “Oh. Right.”

He leaves wearing actual decent clothing, and she sits down again, hugging her legs to her chest and chugging some of the water without thinking - it worsens the nausea, and she ends up dry-heaving over the toilet for a rough minute. If it does turn out that she's not pregnant, Amy's having a categorically shitty Saturday morning.

On her phone, a notification pops up from the Santiago family chat. Luis is complaining about how his youngest daughter and subsequently Amy's youngest niece, three-month-old Mari, is keeping her parents up at painstakingly early hours. She writes a short message to send him his sympathy.

Thanks, she gets back. Why are you up this early?

Couldn’t sleep. Technically not a lie.

Just wait until you and Jake have kids. Then you’ll really know what sleeplessness is.

There’s a brief second’s temptation to send a picture of the faint, faint line back to shut him up, but she resists and chooses an innocent laughing emoji instead.

Worth it though, the reply comes, a picture of a widely grinning baby girl with blue eyes and a head full of dark hair a la Santiago Baby™ attached. Amy smiles at the picture, trying not to let her thoughts run to the question of whether that's what awaits her in eight, nine months time.

I'm sure, she writes back, adding a single red heart at the end.

The next iMessage notification pops up just as she closes WhatsApp, announcing a message from the contact of Jake Santiago. He named his own contact in her phone while tipsy one night at their honeymoon; to this day, she's not had the heart or felt the need to change it.

I love u, but even I can tell this isn't a financially wise decision

Meaning it's ACTUALLY bad

U sure about this???

YES, she texts back, using Caps Lock for once. Caps means shouting, after all, and the frustration she feels over not knowing is enough to make her want to scream.

Caps lock!?! From Amy Santiago!?!

‘kay I'm buying them

How many u want?

Ten? Get the digital ones.

...we’re spending like a 100$ on this

It's fine. Babe, please just buy them and come back home.

If u say so, he writes back.

By the time her husband returns, her overflow of nervous energy has her walking back and forth in their modest-sized bathroom - slowly, as to not make her stomach turn or world start spinning rapidly again. Her head is still pounding, but she can't remember if there are regulations for whether pregnant women should take painkillers. It shouldn't matter, considering how she's most certainly not pregnant, but she leaves the package be - in case.

“They asked me what I was doing, y’know”, Jake remarks as he gives her the white and red plastic bag. “Repeated that I only needed to buy one unless I had, quote unquote, knocked up a whole sorority party.”

“What did you tell them?”

“Just that I have a very thorough wife.”

She does, in the end, limit herself to five of the tests.

Amy’s survived long minutes before - each second she spent in the courtroom while Jake and Rosa were on trial falsely accused of robbery and the countless sleepless nights when he was first in Florida, then imprisoned in South Carolina, come to mind - yet these are something else. Every second stretches on for longer than it should, the numbers on the screen counting down too slowly, while she aches for the white and blue little plastic sticks to tell her whether or not her life is about to change forever.

It’s not that she doesn’t want it. If anything, she’s been enamored with the thought for quite some time now, finding excuses to look an extra time at colorful onesies and blankets in immaculately soft material in clothing stores, unable to stop herself from smiling at parents with their toddlers and babies on the subway or grocery store. Just the other day, she spent the majority of a bus ride to the library making funny faces at a giggling toddler in green overalls. The thought is ever present in the back of her head, an unswerving wish for it all to someday be her own reality.

No, the fear is in whether she’s ready for her life to change this drastically and for nothing to be the same again; not her body, not her priorities, not her relationship, not her heart.

After seeing him with Terry’s daughters and her nieces and nephews, with Nikolaj and with Iggy, she couldn’t have more faith in Jake’s capability of being a good parent one day, but neither of them has ever had sole responsibility of a miniature human for longer than a couple hours at most. Even then, there’s always been someone else to call and an actual parent to give the child back to after babysitting. She wants to blindly trust in them being able to handle it, but in the end, she’s all too aware they’ve never done anything like it before.

“You just don’t know love until you have a child”, Charles had mused to her over a coffee in the break room not long after him and Genevieve adopted Nikolaj. “There’s nothing like it. You’re going to understand it the day you let Jake put a baby in you.”

She’d grimaced at it then, distinctly uncomfortable by her friend’s fiery passion for persuading her to procreate with her boyfriend of then barely a year, but she’d been curious of what he’d been referring to and she’s curious still. She didn’t know it was possible for her to love someone like she loves the man who just got her a blanket from the living room because he thought she looked cold (she was), but if having a kid is anything like it, her heart is going to have to do some serious metaphorical expansion.

“It’s ironic”, she says to break the nervous silence. “I always plan everything. Then the biggest things never happen the way I imagine them to.”

A crease - the worry-crease - appears between his brows. “What do you mean?”

“Well, us getting together, for example. We broke a rule on our first date and then killed our captain.” She laughs, shaking her head at the memory, and he grins at it, too. “The proposal took me by surprise. Our wedding day literally involved a bomb threat. It makes sense - if this is real - that I didn’t get to plan it as much as I wanted to.”

“I know”, he mumbles, taking her hand in his. “But if it’s for real, then we’re ready.”

“How can you know?”

“Because I love you”, he states, gaze unwavering as it meets hers. “And there’s no one else I’d rather do this with.”

Amy’s thankful she brushed her teeth post throwing up, because she all but crashes her lips into his, not dissimilar to the way she did the first time she initiated a kiss between them. He’s somewhat taken aback, his hands going up in the air before settling on her upper back, but then he smiles into the kiss and it’s safe and it’s blissful and it’s a moment’s pause before they know.

They break apart when the timer rings.

Jake offers, but she reminds him it's her body this either is or isn't happening in, so it's her shaking hand which reaches for one of the tests placed on the edge of the sink. It's her eyes that first look at the result, and it's her heart which almost stops when the first display shows a positive, bold Pregnant, 2-3 Weeks.

As does the next one, and the one after, with the two last ones showing confident plus signs.

“Oh”, is the only thing she can stutter as she holds it up to him, a single-voweled expression nowhere near representative of everything she's feeling. “Wow.”

“Holy shit, Ames.”

“That's - this is crazy.”

“Yeah, but it's real.”

She snivels, wipes away a tear of happiness with the back of her hand. “Seems that way, huh?”

“It does”, he grins, looking at the for-sure positive test. “Looks like we're doing this.”

“Technically I’m the one doing the most right now”, she teases. “But yeah. It looks like we are.”

“We're having a baby.” He takes a deep breath, pulling her close again.“Wow, that’s officially the craziest sentence I’ve said in my entire life.”

“We’re having a baby”, she repeats tentatively, trying the words out. “That’s just - that’s insane.”

“You’re pregnant.”

“Clearly.”

“That’s freaky.”

“Don’t call it freaky”, she mutters, lightly punching his shoulder. “You’re fifty percent behind this.”

“Guilty as charged.” He presses an apologetic kiss to her neck. “I don’t mean freaky in a bad way. I just realized there’s another person inside you, which is dope, but also kinda sounds like a really bad sci-fi movie with parasites.”

She glares at him. “Please don’t compare it to a parasite. Also, it’s more a cluster of cells than a person right now, so calm down.”

“Sounds cute.”

“They will be, eventually.”

“I don’t doubt it.”

They stay in the bathroom for a while. Jake's arms remain wrapped around her, the two of them trying their very best to let the craziness of what’s happening sink in. He offers to get them coffee, but the thought of it nearly makes her stomach turn again, so they settle for more tea. Amy downloads a pregnancy app onto her phone, figuring it’s good to start somewhere, and reads the surreal information out loud before making a note in her phone calendar to call her doctor this Monday and not a day later.

“I’m going to have to make so many binders”, she pretends to sigh after scrolling through the app’s recommendations on ways to ease the morning sickness and fatigue she figures won’t go away anytime soon.

“Oohh, is this going to involve more binders than our wedding did?”

“Pregnancy and parenthood? No kidding. When can we go to Staples?”

He chuckles. “When you’ve slept more than four hours and had breakfast and preferably kept it down. Sound reasonable?”

“Fine, fine.”

Despite the overwhelming shock and jittery excitement, sleep is as tempting a companion the second she lays down in bed as it’s been for the full week; she supposes she knows why, now. The headache which woke her up only an hour earlier is easing, reduced to a minor background detail, and the nausea feels under control for now.

Sleep waits a little longer, though, even as Jake crawls under the covers with her so she's being spooned by him - a privilege given to her mostly when she's sick, anxious, or apparently, pregnant.

It remains a surreal thought. She suspects it will be for a while, likely at least until the first ultrasound or the first movements she can feel.

And yet, when Jake plays with her hair and presses kisses to her neck as she closes her eyes, she has no struggle picturing the two of them in the same bed another Saturday morning toward the end of this year. The two of them, but with a third, much smaller, person - one as unbelievably tiny as she finds all newborns to be, though one she's sure she’ll find cuter than all her nephews, nieces and friends children added together - who will likely have kept them up all night, but will be smugly pretending it never happened. Amy already knows she’ll fall for it.

It’s terrifying and by definition life-altering and they have a long way to go, but at the very least she’s in good company.

She doesn’t hate her Saturday morning as much anymore.

[laylabahiti]

LAYLA’S MENTALITY: WHERE DOES IT STEM FROM ?

topic: layla’s mindset mentions: hospitals, bullying, religious discrimination, biphobia, hostage situations word count: 1,387

raised under the scrutiny of her parents, layla was expected to be flawless — perfect. even as young as a toddler, she believed this was the way to her parents’ non-existent hearts. for the first few years of her life, the princess caused no problems, aside from interrupting her parents in their study every so often. interruption wasn’t a concept she understood then, all she wanted was their attention — their affection. still, each time her little legs carried her into their room, she was shooed away, told to go play in her own room. she wasn’t without toys and coloring books, but dolls couldn’t hug you back nor tuck you in at night.

when layla was hospitalized at age four for a severe allergic reaction, she thought her parents would be by her side until she was discharged. she was wrong. dazed and confused when she came to, the only people she recognized were her nanny and bodyguard. if a child could feel heartbreak, that was it. she cried — screamed — for her mother and father, only to be reminded repeatedly that they were busy and she needed to quiet down. ‘my parents are not here because i am not perfect’ was the first thought to cross her mind, followed by ‘my allergy is a defect.’ this experience instilled layla’s avoidance of hospitals and doctors, they would only find things wrong with her and nothing could be wrong if she wanted her parents’ love. her fears weren’t allayed when she returned to the palace, layla now eating completely different meals than her family whenever they opted for meat-based dinners. her beliefs only pushed her to work harder towards the unattainable perfection, this was her normal.

her formal education began not long after that, and she was thrilled to get out of the palace and make friends. she wanted to befriend everyone and certainly tried to do so. a few peers responded well to her kindness while others were miniature copycats of their parents, repeating the skepticism felt toward the monarchy to the princess herself. a copt sat as queen consort and some people couldn’t wrap their minds around the multi-religious family. she would return home often upset, lasting only a few years in a formal school before transitioning to private instruction in the palace. yet another hit at her strive for perfection, she couldn’t even manage school. the few friends she made early on remained true, at least for most of their young adult lives.

scandal struck when layla was sixteen — early morning on the thirtieth of july, the king, queen, and press secretary barged into her room, startling her awake. various newspapers were tossed onto her bed but they all declared the same thing: “PRINCESS LAYLA CAUGHT WITH GIRLFRIEND.” the article spared no detail, photos accompanying and all. flashback to the prior afternoon that saw layla out with her best friend, qitarah. well, best friend and secret girlfriend. the two agreed to test the waters a few weeks earlier, not even telling their other two friends. only after asking qitarah did layla entrust her secret with amon and, for safety purposes, her bodyguard. none of that mattered when paparazzi learned to hide, their cameras capturing the first and last public kiss shared between the two. they were in a corner booth, layla reasoned, they made sure no one was around. 

tables turned and layla was public enemy number one — qitarah’s parents going as far as to blame the princess for the entire afternoon’s events. none of her friends were allowed to see her anymore, the monarchy looking more corrupt than ever. layla felt like a disappointment, a disgrace, far beyond having an allergy or requiring a private tutor. her guard had been let go after being questioned, admitting that he knew of layla’s secret. while protecting her all the same, his action was deemed disloyal to the reigning monarchs. once calmed a bit, claimed they only reacted as such because they weren’t prepared, because they didn’t have a press statement on hand in case layla chose to go public. but she knew they wouldn’t have wanted her to be so open with her sexuality, the press statement was damage control. layla control. 

a few days after the initial news article, layla’s bags were packed for her and she was sent to live with her godfather in an entirely different country — a different continent. the public wounds were still fresh and the egyptian monarchs needed layla away so they could get a clear grasp on the outcry. she wasn’t even given a timeframe for her return, maybe she wouldn’t get to come home. while layla was easily welcomed with open arms into her second home, she spent the first week off and on crying in her room; the only time she left the privacy was to get a meal after the family had already eaten. layla tried calling her parents daily, wanting to know when she could fly back, but the calls never got that far before her parents were hanging up. she spent four months away from egypt, layla only believing her parents called for her return because the winter holidays were coming up and they needed to take portraits. the scandal wasn’t mentioned by her parents nor the staff when she returned to cairo, and frankly, she felt like an outsider. not to mention, her new bodyguard was a stranger. 

layla’s remaining teenage years didn’t brighten much, the girl now friendless (aside from other royals) and finding political work to busy herself with and prove to the king and queen that she could do something right. she didn’t date much either, only finding a short-lived fling with the younger glücksburg prince. she’d already overheard her parents discussing arrangements, so she knew her options were running thin once that relationship ended. layla didn’t resist the arranged marriage news once her parents finally made up their minds — if she couldn’t hold down a partner, they’d find one for her. she needed to redeem herself, after all, and on her twenty-first birthday, they began their search.

when the princess was submitted into the protection program, she acted as though her parents had eyes and ears everywhere. her guard certainly wouldn’t let her bend her parents’ rules, not after the last one was fired. she called home daily, either talking to amon or her parents, though amon was usually more willing to chat and keep her caught up. her calls became less frequent, layla coming to terms with the fact that if her parents really wanted to speak to her, they’d call on their own. and the less calls she made, the less she wanted to go back to egypt altogether. 

layla spent more time with the royal friends she had, letting go of some of the ‘proper etiquette’ she had been made to learn and trying to come into her own — a puppet cutting its strings and falling to the ground. knowing her parents would disapprove, layla changed her wardrobe, pierced her nose, and inked her arm with all the teenage rebellion anyone could ask for at age twenty-four. even with all the changes, nothing felt right. nothing felt like her. 

the invasion of two-thousand eighteen was another low point in layla’s life. being forcefully taken from her room and held hostage, she truly thought that was the end for all of them. and after holding back her feelings for over a year, layla came clean to olivier with the small glimmer of hope and optimism that he might feel the same way — he didn’t. that moment changed her, for better or worse is still to be determined, but she wasn’t going to be pushed around anymore.

layla is still trying to figure out who she is and where she belongs. while she never means to oppose her friends, her newfound, impulsive attitude slips out every now and then. she’ll bottle everything up until someone pushes the wrong button, something she doesn’t necessarily realize she’s doing. 

if you have read all this, congratulations on getting through this mess and finding out why layla is the emotional mess that she is. i’m probably forgetting stuff but this is a lot as is.

[vanceoliver]

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[professorpalmarosa]

Bugger Off (Aburame Shino - Naruto)

Continuing with the Team 8 set, I am pleased to present Bugger Off: the Aburame Shino blend!

This bath bomb can double as a shower bomb and smells reminiscent of a carrot cake. Several fall smells were blended together along with Ho Wood to produce an autumnal experience for your tub or shower. Taking in a deep breath of this blend brings up thoughts of cabins in the woods, bonfires, apple cider spices, pumpkin pie, spice cake, and falling leaves.

Carrot Seed Essential Oil

I purchased Carrot Seed Essential Oil initially for its health benefits. As much as I love carrots, the smell has never been one of my favorites. I have a “do not diffuse at work” list, courtesy of my coworkers. One of my friends in Thought Leadership (our training department) asked me to add this oil to that list because, in her words, “it smells like guinea pig food.”

That said, Carrot Seed can blend with a lot of things. Mixing it in with other oils masks some of that smell, and it truly does have a lot of benefits. Let’s see what it can do!

Pros:

Help your urinary tract! Carrot Seed Essential Oil (diffused or applied with a carrier oil) can assist you with kidney stones, bladder problems, water retention, water weight, and excess uric acid (e.g. gout).

Help your gastrointestinal tract! This oil can be used to stop dysentery (severe diarrhea), indigestion, a fussy stomach, and intestinal gas. It relieves the bloat and takes that excess right out of you.

Help your menstrual tract! Carrot Seed Essential Oil is great for reducing menstrual cramps. Also, as an emmenagogue, it can also be used to start your period if it’s a little late.

It’s an aphrodisiac! Carrot Seed Essential Oil can increase sexual arousal and stamina, as well as calm down overly jittery nerves.

This oil has also be used to treat heart disease, kidney problems, some cancers, and worm infestations.

Cons:

Do not use Carrot Seed Essential Oil or this bath bomb if:

You are pregnant, trying to become pregnant, or breastfeeding. This oil can make the uterus contract and start menstruation. While this may be good to help you with menstrual cramps otherwise, that could potentially lead to a miscarriage if you’re carrying a fetus. Also, since Carrot Seed Essential Oil can act a lot like estrogen, it’s best to avoid the oil while breastfeeding. Nobody knows how safe it is to use.

You are allergic to celery, birch, mugwort, spices, and other related plants. This has been called “celery-carrot-mugwort-spice syndrome” and, I kid you not, it’s a real thing.

You have major kidney problems or are on dialysis. Consult your physician first, because the oil may irritate your sensitive kidneys.

You are scheduled for any type of surgery over the next 2 weeks. Since Carrot Seed Essential Oil can affect blood pressure, physicians worry that it could interfere with blood pressure control during surgery.

You plan to sunbathe, go to a tanning salon, or stay outdoors for prolonged periods of time. This essential oil is photosensitive, meaning it increases your risk of getting a sunburn after exposure to UV light or the sun.

You are taking estrogen supplements such as Premarin, ethinyl estradiol, estradiol, and others.

You are taking lithium.

You are taking high blood pressure medications (antihypertensive drugs) such as captopril (Capoten), enalapril (Vasotec), losartan (Cozaar), valsartan (Diovan), diltiazem (Cardizem), amlodipine (Norvasc), hydrochlorothiazide (HydroDiuril), furosemide (Lasix), and many others.

You are taking medication that increases your sensitivity to sunlight such as amitriptyline (Elavil), Ciprofloxacin (Cipro), norfloxacin (Noroxin), lomefloxacin (Maxaquin), ofloxacin (Floxin), levofloxacin (Levaquin), sparfloxacin (Zagam), gatifloxacin (Tequin), moxifloxacin (Avelox), trimethoprim/sulfamethoxazole (Septra), tetracycline, methoxsalen (8-methoxypsoralen, 8-MOP, Oxsoralen), and Trioxsalen (Trisoralen).

Ho Wood Essential Oil

Ho Wood is a replacement for Rosewood Essential Oil in the perfume industry, now that Rosewood is considered an endangered species. Some unscrupulous vendors still sell Rosewood Essential Oil. It’s still possible to get it, but Ho Wood is an ethical replacement.

It has a slightly vanilla-like scent and has a powerful calming effect, considering its chemical makeup is roughly 95 to 98% linalool.

Pros: Ho Wood is a high-linalool oil, which means that its primary function is as a “calming” oil. It can be used to dramatically reduce anxiety, insomnia, tension, stress, grief, and other problems that make it difficult to rest. It’s one of my all-time favorite oils for calming blends.

Cons: Ho Wood comes from the same tree that produces Ravensara essential oil. I use the Plant Therapy brand, which has had the safrole (a potentially carcinogenic ingredient) removed, but most Ho Wood essential oil still contains safrole. Know your brands and exercise caution!

Cassia Cinnamon Essential Oil

Everyone knows the soothing, savory, spicy scent of cinnamon. It’s used in Asian cuisines to add flavor to meats and savory dishes. In the Western world, cinnamon can also be used in candies and sweets. It’s one of the most recognized, universal scents in the world.

The type of essential oil I used came from Cassia (Chinese) Cinnamon. This type of cinnamon is the most commonly purchased type of cinnamon (as opposed to Ceylon Cinnamon) within the United States.

Pros:

Cassia Cinnamon can be used to assist with issues pertaining to diabetes, intestinal gas, muscle and stomach spasms, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, infections, loss of appetite, chest pain, hernias, high blood pressure, kidney disorders, and the common cold.

Some people use it to treat bed-wetting in small children.

In part of a multi-ingredient treatment, Cassia Cinnamon can be used to treat erectile dysfunction. This is probably due to the numbing properties of eugenol (a chemical in Cassia Cinnamon).

For female health, Cassia Cinnamon can also be your friend and assist you through menopausal symptoms, menstrual problems, cramps, and heavy menstrual flow.

Cassia Cinnamon contains hydroxychalcone and similar chemicals. These chemicals seem to improve insulin sensitivity. Cassia cinnamon also contains chemicals that may activate blood proteins that increase blood sugar uptake. These effects may improve blood sugar control in patients with diabetes.

Cassia cinnamon also contains cinnamaldehyde. This chemical might have activity against bacteria and fungi. It also seems to stop the growth of some types of solid tumor cells.

Cons:

Due to the high eugenol content of this essential oil, Cassia Cinnamon Essential Oil is toxic (and potentially fatal) to cats and dogs. If you plan to diffuse this, don’t trap your poor pet in the room with you!

In some countries, Cassia Cinnamon is used as an intentional abortifacent, since it can bring forward your menstrual flow and cause a miscarriage. If you’re pregnant or trying to become pregnant, avoid this essential oil.

Cassia Cinnamon can be overused and abused. Too much of it over a long period of time may cause side effects in some people. One of its chemicals (coumarin) may cause or worsen existing liver disease.

If you’re diabetic, Cassia Cinnamon may lower your blood sugar levels. Watch for signs of hypoglycemia and monitor your blood sugar carefully.

Cassia Cinnamon may lower your blood sugar and interfere with blood sugar control during and after surgery. If you’re scheduled for surgery in 2 weeks, don’t use this essential oil.

Nutmeg Essential Oil

Nutmeg is the shelled, dried seed of the Myristica fragrans plant and is used to make traditional medicine. It has an effect on the central nervous system and the spice is used in a lot of Autumn blends. Think of pumpkin ale, carrot cake, and so on.

Pros:

Nutmeg is an effective treatment for several gastrointestinal issues (diarrhea, nausea, stomach pain, and intestinal gas). I’ve also seen improvement with my kidneys on days I diffuse Nutmeg or use this bath bomb.

Since Nutmeg affects the nervous system, it can also be applied (with a carrier oil) to the skin to reduce pain caused by mouth sores, toothaches, or rheumatism.

Although some people claim that Nutmeg can help fight cancer, there’s not enough evidence available to validate that claim.

Some of the chemicals within this essential oil make Nutmeg a great sleep-aid with the added benefit of more vivid, interesting dreams. It turns your dreams into a private REM cinema and there’s no telling what your brain will come up with! Don’t believe me? Ask me about The Lesbian Vampire Sorority and the Ass Squid from Outer Space: a full-blown Rocky Horror-style musical my brain conjured up overnight with songs like “Squiddily Diddily Doo (I Really Love You Too)” and “Lady Bites and Pillow Fights!”

Cons:

Since Nutmeg can increase menstrual flow, this essential oil is best not used by pregnant women or those attempting to become pregnant. This oil may cause a miscarriage due to its abortifacent nature.

If you are experiencing issues with constipation, hold off on using the Nutmeg, as this essential oil can harden your stool. Good for diarrhea, not so good for the opposite issue!

Since Nutmeg has an effect on the nervous system, overexposure to the oil may result in hallucinogenic episodes.

People who use and abuse Nutmeg (120 mg or more daily) have experienced nausea, dry mouth, dizziness, palpitations, agitation, and hallucinations. It’s also possible to overdose and die by Nutmeg.

If you are taking any of the below medication, exercise caution with Nutmeg, as they may interact:

Medications changed by the liver (Cytochrome P450 1A1 (CYP1A1) substrates) such as Chlorzoxazone, Theophylline, Bufuralol, etc.

Medications changed by the liver (Cytochrome P450 1A2 (CYP1A2) substrates) such as Clozapine (Clozaril), Cyclobenzaprine (Flexeril), Fluvoxamine (Luvox), Haloperidol (Haldol), Imipramine (Tofranil), Mexiletine (Mexitil), Olanzapine (Zyprexa), Pentazocine (Talwin), Propranolol (Inderal), Tacrine (Cognex), Theophylline, Zileuton (Zyflo), Zolmitriptan (Zomig), etc.

Medications changed by the liver (Cytochrome P450 2B1 (CYP2B1) substrates)

Medications changed by the liver (Cytochrome P450 2B2 (CYP2B2) substrates)

Phenobarbital (Luminal)

Allspice Essential Oil

Allspice is one of my favorite smells in the world. The essential oil version of it is strong enough to fill an entire house with its relaxing, fresh autumn scent. The unripe berries and leaves of this plant are used to make medicine.

Pros:

Like Clove and Cinnamon, Allspice has a high eugenol content, which means this oil can be used effectively for antibacterial purposes. Some dentists even use eugenol to calm down toothaches.

Allspice can also alleviate a lot of gastrointestinal issues (intestinal gas, indigestion, abdominal pain, vomiting, diarrhea, and constipation).

Fevers, colds, and flu can also be treated by diffusing Allspice.

Some studies indicate Allspice can be used to help with diabetes and obesity problems.

I mostly use Allspice on account of what it can do for my unwelcome time of the month. It’s one of the best essential oils to use if you have heavy, painful menstrual periods. It regulates the flow and melts away your aches and pains.

Cons:

Due to the high eugenol content of this essential oil, Allspice Essential Oil is toxic (and potentially fatal) to cats and dogs. If you plan to diffuse this, don’t trap your poor pet in the room with you!

Allspice can slow blood-clotting. If you are going in for surgery in the next 2 weeks, don’t use this essential oil.

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1.24

i am back! to recap last chapter we met flos, a king with a large personality who is apparently a king of destruction 

The darkness hides many imperfections. The nether shade conceals those who find the sun taxing and bright light an anathema. The faint light that is not truest blackness but dark shade, where only faint outlines are visible conjures nightmares for humans and those related to their kind.

But some call the shadows home.

Two individuals stood and conversed in the darkness of a room. Exactly where the room was located was unimportant. Rooms had little meaning here, in the catacombs and endless labyrinth of passages.

One of them was female. The other was Klbkch. The female shifted and in the darkness her deep voice rumbled through the air.

“Do I understand you correctly, Klbkch? Do you truly call for an Expedition after all the folly that has resulted thus far?”

Klbkch shook his head.

“No, my lady. I merely request that a few of the Workers—perhaps ten or twenty—may be allowed to leave the city in my care. They would visit a local inn for several hours before returning.”

“Interesting.”

The word rolled outwards, rich, darkly velvet with hidden connotation and meaning. The female paused.

“Is this an idea of yours, dear Klbkch? Dare I hope that my Prognugator has changed so?”

Klbkch shook his head.

“I remain as always, lady. I regret that this is not my initiative. She – the innkeeper of which I spoke – she requested it of me.”

Surprise flicked through the female’s deep voice as it echoed in the cavernous chamber.

“She did? What species would desire the presence of Workers if not to work?”

“A Human. And she did not ask for the Workers specifically. Rather, she was inclined to sell a foodstuff to our people. Acid flies. She wishes to earn money by gaining our business.”

“And this Human is genuine?”

“To the best of my knowledge and ability, I believe her so.”

Again, surprise was the primary emotion in the female’s voice.

“You, Prognugator? You believe? Then you are changed, truly. What is the name of this Human who has changed you so?”

Klbkch hesitated. He bowed his head in the direction of the female.

“Her name is Erin Solstice, lady. And I believe—yes, I believe the experience may help further the Plan. At the very least, it would help increase her trust of our kind.”

“And why should I entertain her request?”

Klbkch spread his hands outward. They were humanoid hands, at least in that they resembled them more than an insect’s feelers. The same could not be said of the appendages of the female.

“Has the Plan changed? Do we no longer seek to improve relations with other species?”

The female moved in the darkness. Her voice changed, hissing softly in regret and frustration.

“The Plan has not changed, Klbkch. But we have. And not in the ways that we desire. No; the change comes from the Others. They have begun to again question the Plan.”

Klbkch looked up. His hands moved unconsciously to the twin swords at his waist.

“They question your will, lady?”

She waved a languid feeler at him.

“Not as of such. Calm yourself, my champion. My authority is undiminished. And yet. The Others move, Klbkch. They speak of sending out envoys, of raising an army.”

The male Antinium looked up sharply. The antennae on his head twitched.

“Do you mean to say they intend to repeat the First Experiments? If I may offer my counsel, that would be…unwise.”

She nodded in the blackness.

“Yes. But they grow impatient with time. So their foolishness may yet come to pass if something is not done. That is why I will allow this risk. Take twelve Workers. Let them visit this Solstice child.”

Klbkch knelt on one segmented knee.

“Thank you, my lady. I will not betray your trust in me.”

A great sigh echoed through the room, shifting Klbkch’s antennas as the air moved.

“Of that I have no doubt. But I need more than your loyalty. Klbkchhezeim of the Free. I must have success. Can you promise me that?”

He was still as he knelt before her. Then Klbkch looked up and shook his head slowly.

“I cannot. But I will try.”

“Very well. Try, then.”

Klbkch nodded. He stood, and began to stride out of the room with quick, light movements.

“Klbkch.”

He turned. In the darkness a large feeler pointed at him and a titanic shape moved.

“You must not fail in this task. Too long has the Plan faltered. If the next few generations should fail, I fear more will fall back into the old ways.”

Klbkch bowed his head.

“I will ensure that all goes well, my lady. Erin Solstice is not hostile to our kind. I believe she will be a positive influence for them.”

“Then go. But there is one more thing I ask of you.”

“Yes, my lady?”

“Ahem. These flies…how do they taste?”

“I shall bring you a sample, my Queen.”

“Good.”

none of those capitalized terms used, ie: expiedition, others, plan, experiment, ect, are ever used again. this is still an antinium queen, just not the most powerful one. also, will erin get this queen addicted to the flies? 

Erin was making a list.

“Okay, do I have everything? Let’s go over it again. Larder? Stocked. Check! Silverware? Lots of it, even if it’s not silver. Check!”

She turned and bustled over to another table.

“Blue fruit juice? Check. Four full pitchers and a basket of blue fruits.”

She’d stripped several trees in preparation for tonight. At this point, she’d eaten nearly half of the fruit in the orchard. Sooner or later she’d run out of blue fruit, which might be a problem. How long did it take for the trees to grow new fruit? Maybe Pisces would know.

“Acid flies? Check. Dead? Double check.”

It was almost sad how easily she caught them in her floating jar traps. Almost. Erin made sure they’d all exploded before she rolled them onto the grass. She thought the flat fish in the water were helping—they kept bumping into the jars trying to eat the flies. She supposed that they might one day break the thick glass.

“Great. Bathe upstream from the glass jars from now on.”

She should also probably put warning signs up. Who they might be warning Erin had no idea. A certain Human necromancer stayed well away from the glass jars, and she wasn’t sure if Goblins could read. Either way, her list continued.

“Pasta? Wait, I don’t need any pasta.”

Unless Relc dropped by. But from what the Drake told her, he didn’t like Antinium besides Klbkch so that was an outside chance. Erin put a pot on the stove anyways. She could always eat it.

The lovely thing about being near a city was that you didn’t have to make your own pasta. Instead, you could just buy it from an odd Gnoll-lady who knew exactly when you were on your period. In other words, there were advantages and disadvantages to living near a city.

“Okay. That’s about it. I’ve got bread in case Pisces comes by, and I even have cheese. Lovely, smelly cheese. Possibly from cows. And I just bet Klbkch is lactose intolerant too.”

Her larder was fully stocked, her plates and cups were clean, and she’d even gotten out the chess board and set it up. She thought Klbkch might be up for a game or two—that was if she wasn’t busy feeding flies to her customers.

For a moment Erin had to put her head against a wall and wonder how she’d gotten to this point in her life. A girl from Michigan should not think it was normal to sell dead fly torsos to walking ant-people for silver coins. She was also probably ripping them off, but Klbkch seemed willing to pay whatever it took for the flies. He’d eaten six bowls before he’d walked out.

Now all Erin had to do was wait until Klbkch came by with his promised friends. He said they’d come by as soon as they finished with their work. Were they all guardsmen? Erin had forgotten to ask.

Someone knocked on the inn’s door. Erin turned and opened the door with a big smile.

smiles are good. also no, antinium are just allergic to gluten, not lactose 

“Hi Klb—oh.”

The group of Goblins all took a nervous step back as Erin stared down at them. The eight—no, nine of them clustered together and shoved at their leader, a small Goblin wearing rags. Erin remembered.

“It’s—it’s you. Do you um, want something?”

The ragged Goblin awkwardly thrust out a hand at Erin. She blinked down at the pile of dirty copper and silver coins in the small palm.

“Oh. Oh! You want to eat, right?”

The Goblin nodded stiffly. Erin opened the door and gestured inside.

“Right then, come in.”

The ragged Goblin hesitated. It thrust the coins at her.

“Um. The first meal is free.”

The Goblin Erin had decided to name Rags looked blankly at her. Apparently ‘free’ wasn’t too easy to understand to a race that took what they wanted. Everything was free, or nothing was free.

“How about I take the money and I’ll feed you until it runs out, okay?”

Again, Erin received a blank look but Rags seemed relieved when she took the money. Erin gingerly put the filthy pile of coins on the inn’s bar counter and wished she had hot water to go with the soap.

“Okay. Right. This isn’t the best time, but why don’t you have a seat over here with your friends?”

The Goblins meekly wandered over to the table Erin was pointing at and sat down. She hesitated. What next?

“Right, food.”

All eight heads shot up and the Goblins stared at Erin. The one she’d fed before was already drooling onto the table.

“Give me five—ten minutes and I’ll have all you can eat. I just need to put on another pot. And make some soup. But I’ve got bread!”

Erin turned. Okay, she’d stuff their faces quick. She dashed into the kitchen and reemerged with a loaf of fresh bread she’d brought and some cheese and sausage. The Goblins stared hungrily as Erin began dumping plates in front of them. They flinched back from her, though, and when she handed them a fork they ducked down as if they thought she were going to stab them with it.

“You can eat this while I get more food, okay?”

The Goblins stared at the food. Rags cautiously reached for the bread, and Erin smacked her head. All the Goblins flinched as one.

“Oh, duh. Sorry about that. I’ll slice it up for you.”

Confused, the Goblins watched Erin dart into the kitchen again. They eyed the wonderful-smelling bread, meat and strange yellow thing, and wondered if they could eat it. Then they looked up and screamed as Erin walked back into the room with a kitchen knife.

“Oh no, don’t run! I’m not going to hurt you!”

Erin waved her hands frantically and nearly poked herself with the knife. The Goblins halted in their mad rush out the door.

“I’m just going to cut this food for you. See?”

She slowly and carefully went over to the food and sliced it up into smaller pieces. Erin smiled at the Goblins as they suspiciously moved back to the table.

“And now I’ll put the knife away. No more pointy thing. You don’t have to worry; you’ll be safe here. Okay?”

She gave them another reassuring smile. That was the precise moment when a group of Antinium entered the inn, followed closely by Klbkch. Erin’s smile froze on her lips.

awkward moment. also this goblin is important 

Klbkch froze too and the other tall, identical brown and black insects behind him instantly halted in their tracks. The Goblins were petrified in their seats, but half immediately began edging towards the nearest window.

Erin waved frantically at Klbkch. Then she turned towards the Goblins and gave them another reassuring smile.

“Don’t worry! Don’t worry. These people aren’t here to hurt you. They’re guests. They’re going to eat too, understand?”

They hesitated, but Rags seemed to be made of sterner stuff than her larger comrades. She returned to her seat. And it was a she, Erin was sure of it. The other Goblins—all but one of whom were boys—didn’t wear anything on their upper torso. They barely wore anything to cover their privates.

She shepherded them back to their seats and tried not to look at Goblin nether regions as their loincloths shifted in unfortunate ways. There was a reason pants were invented.

“Go ahead and eat as much as you want.”

Again, the Goblins glanced nervously at the Antinium, but now the initial scare was over, the fresh food called to them. There was a moment’s hesitation, then Rags grabbed a piece of sausage and the Goblins began gobbling all the food on the table with their hands.

She winced at the mess, but at least they were occupied. Erin edged back to Klbkch, who was still waiting with his group of Antinium.

“Hi, Klbkch. Sorry about the confusion. I had a few visitors pop by unexpectedly.”

“There is no problem, Miss Solstice. I have brought others of my kind as you requested.”

Klbkch nodded to Erin and gestured to the silent Antinium behind him. Erin eyed her new guests somewhat apprehensively.

They were like Klbkch, and not like him at the same time. They were like each other though. Erin couldn’t tell one from the other, and all twelve of these other Antinium stood and moved like one unit.

She noticed that they were a bit slimmer than Klbkch, and shorter too. The color of their…carapace was distinctly browner, and they had shorter antennae. And they also seemed disinclined to talk. Each one of the Antinium stared at Klbkch rather than look at Erin.

“Are they—are they your friends? Or other guardsmen?”

Klbkch shook his head.

“I am afraid you are under a misapprehension. These are Workers, Miss Solstice. They are not fellow guardsmen – rather, they perform tasks within the Antinium section of the city. I took them because you wished for more customers, but I have not interacted with them before.”

“Oh.”

“They will behave themselves under my supervision, Miss Solstice.”

Klbkch hurried to assure Erin. He turned towards the standing group of Worker Antinium and pointed to one of the tables.

“You have entered an inn. The polite protocol is to introduce oneself and then take a seat. I will handle your greetings. Move to those tables.”

They obediently walked over to each table. At first they all crowded around one, but Klbkch impatiently directed them so the Antinium stood four to a table.

“Sit!”

Klbkch snapped at the other Antinium. They instantly sat in the chairs. Erin’s smile slipped even further as Klbkch began ordering them about with curt, clipped commands.

He treated the other Antinium like—well, like sheep. Or…like children. Idiotic children you couldn’t trust to pick up a fork without stabbing themselves in the eye. Yes, that was it.

Erin watched Klbkch out of the corner of her eyes as he lectured the other ‘Workers’. He was telling them how to use a spoon. And how to drink from a cup. And how to request another bowl of flies.

“Um, thanks Klbkch. Did you want me to get the food now? I’ve got the acid flies of course, but I also have pasta—”

Erin’s eyes widened.

“Oh no! The pasta!”

The Goblins and Antinium watched as Erin dashed into the kitchen to salvage the over boiled noodles. She came out a few minutes later holding plates of pasta with chopped bits of sausage and onion which she placed in front of the Goblins.

“Use forks. Got it? Your friend here knows how to use forks.”

Erin pointed at the silverware and then started bringing out bowl after bowl of the acid flies she’d prepared. She set them down in front of the Antinium Workers awkwardly. They moved out of her way, but didn’t say anything.

That was, until Klbkch snapped at them, and then all twelve murmured ‘thank you’ every time Erin brought out a plate and cups. Awkward? Erin was redefining the word for herself at the moment.

That done, the Antinium finally began to eat on Klbkch’s command. At least there they appeared to be somewhat enthusiastic, because they began gobbling the acid flies down with commendable speed. They ate in silence, though, which was also unnerving. But at least they were eating.

Erin breathed a sigh of relief. And the door to the inn swung open.

A familiar Drake poked his head into the room. He immediately launched into what sounded like a prepared speech as he awkwardly held a chess set in front of him.

“Good evening, Miss Erin Solstice! I hope you don’t mind me dropping by, but I was wondering if you’d like to play a game of ch—”

Olesm paused and stared around the silent room. His jaw dropped as he saw the Goblins. When he saw Klbkch and the other Antinium it dropped further. He slowly put one clawed hand on the door.

“…Is this a bad time?”

olesm, i dont think is a bad time, but its certainly a weird time 

Erin had gone to funerals. Well, she’d attended a funeral. And while they were solemn, sad occasions, she could rightly say that she’d visited funerals that were noisier than her inn at the moment.

At least funerals had coughing people, the occasional sniffling, fidgeting children, and crying babies. In the Wandering Inn, all Erin could hear was the mastication of Goblins as they gobbled their food or the quiet cracking as the Antinium chewed down their acid flies and clicked their mandibles together.

Chomp. Chomp. Chomp.

Erin stared from the Antinium to the Goblins with a desperately cheerful smile plastered on her face. Neither side looked at the other directly, but she had the distinct impression they were silently sizing each other up. The Goblins to run away, the Antinium…well, they were just looking.

The atmosphere was so tense you could—well, Erin was pretty sure pulling a knife out would be a disaster. The Goblins were nervously eying the Antinium, and the Antinium were frighteningly silent and uniform. They ate and moved in almost perfect synchronization.

Erin circulated the room, pitcher of fruit juice in hand. She filled cups, took away plates and filled them with food, and instructed Goblins not to pick their noses. It felt like being a waitress for an entire restaurant by herself, but Erin was up to the challenge. At least, she hoped she was.

She wasn’t taking orders or cleaning up plates yet. All she was really doing was making sure there was food in front of her guests. The Goblins were easy. They ate anything she put in front of them. But the Workers? They were hard. Erin had to make sure none of them had empty bowls or cups, or they’d just stop eating. They didn’t even ask for refills by themselves.

In a lull between serving, Erin stopped in front of Klbkch and Olesm’s table. The two were talking quietly together, which made them exceptionally noisy in the dead silence.

“How’re you two boys doing?”

Both Olesm and Klbkch looked at each other to make sure they were the ones Erin was talking to. Olesm gave her a weak smile.

“I’m quite well, Miss Solstice. Or—may I call you Erin?”

“Please. I’m getting sick of being called Miss Solstice. I feel like my mom.”

“Apologies.”

Klbkch bowed his head which made Erin feel guilty. She changed the subject fast.

“Are you two enjoying your meal? Anything I can get you?”

“Another glass of the blue juice perhaps?”

Olesm raised his glass and Erin topped it off. He smiled at her.

“It is quite tasty.”

“Thanks.”

They both paused awkwardly. Olesm glanced around the inn and fidgeted.

“Do you—do you always serve Goblins in your inn? I saw the sign, but I must admit, this is the first time I’ve ever seen a Goblin not trying to stab someone or running away.”

As one, the Goblins stopped eating and stared over at Olesm. He flinched.

“Um, no. They’re new here too.”

“Oh, I see.”

More silence. Erin glanced down at the table. The Drake Tactician had brought along his chess board, and although he’d set it aside for the food, she saw him glancing at it now and then.

“How about a game of chess? Anyone want to play?”

Klbkch and Olesm looked up.

“Oh, I would love to play—”

Olesm caught himself. He glanced around guiltily at the other diners.

“But I wouldn’t want to take you away from your work. Perhaps another time.”

He looked so downcast Erin wanted to pat him on the head. She thought for a second and then smiled.

“Oh, don’t worry. We can still make it work. I’ll play you and serve food.”

Both Klbkch and Olesm eyed her incredulously. Erin grinned.

“I don’t suppose either of you are familiar with chess notation?”

you think human funerals are solemn? try a funeral for an immortal. 

“Okay, so you’ve moved your pawn up two spots. That’s E4, so just tell me you’re moving a pawn to E4, got it? And when I want to move, I’ll let you know by saying, oh, pawn to D5.”

Olesm nodded and glanced down at the chess board. He carefully moved the black pawn up two spots and looked up at Erin. She nodded.

“Got it?”

“I believe so, Erin.”

“Right. Let’s play!”

Erin spun away from Olesm and grabbed a cup and filled it. Across the room, Klbkch and Olesm bent over the chess board and conferred. Olesm moved a piece.

“Pawn, ah, pawn to F3, Erin.”

“Got it! Knight to C6!”

Erin concentrated on the game as she walked around the inn. She wasn’t conscious of how the Goblins slowed in their eating and the Antinium Workers paused from their meal to follow her around the room. Erin’s thoughts focused, and as she mechanically took plates and filled them with food her mind focused on only one thing.

The game. Some called golf the greatest game ever played. They might be right. But Erin loved chess.

She could even play it in her head.

yay chess notation! 

“Bishop to D6.”

“Hm. In that case I’ll move…um, I believe that’s pawn to D4.”

“Queen to H4! Check!”

Erin said it instantly and grinned to herself. She heard Olesm groan in dismay.

“Ah. Then—then pawn to G3?”

Again, Erin replied almost before he’d finished speaking.

“Bishop takes pawn at G3!”

“Pawn takes bishop at G3.”

“And I’ll take your rook at H1.”

Erin grinned to herself as Olesm hissed in distress. In her mind’s eye she saw her queen piece sitting in the corner of Olesm’s side of the board, nestling right up against all of his lovely, undefended pieces.

The game continued, but only as mop-up. Erin happily munched away at Olesm’s pieces with her queen. He eventually managed to take hers out with his own, but only after he’d lost another knight and a bishop.  By then Erin had more pieces than he did on the board and in better positions, too.

“I concede.”

Olesm tipped over his king and stared despondently at the board. Erin paused serving sliced up sausage to the Goblins long enough to see Klbkch pat Olesm on the shoulder consolingly.

“It was a good game.”

The Drake shook his head.

“You do me too much credit. I made several errors that cost me many pieces. But I believe you had me from the start. Would you do the kindness of showing me where I made mistakes?”

“Of course.”

Erin walked over to the table. She rearranged the board until it was back to normal and then moved Olesm’s pawn up two spaces.

“You started out with a classic: the King’s Pawn Opening. That was a good move.”

Olesm looked blankly down at the board.

“I just moved my pawn to E4. Was that truly a noteworthy move, to have a strategy named after it?”

Erin nodded happily.

“Oh, it’s a classic. Did you know almost a quarter of all chess games start with it? It’s great for taking the center spaces, but unfortunately for you I love playing against that move.”

Klbkch raised one hand.

“Do you mean to say that there are established counters to this opening?”

She nodded and pushed a black pawn forwards.

“Oh, there are lots of good strategies. I countered with an old favorite—the Sicilian Defense. It’s great against the King’s Pawn, but you made a mistake when you moved that pawn up to F3. It doesn’t open up your side for many pieces to get out, and you really want a knight to put pressure on my side of the board. Of course, you could try to take my pawn, but that leaves your center open. Most players try to push forwards aggressively but that’s why the Sicilian Defense works so well since it means you have to lose a pawn if you want to push into the other side.”

Erin paused and looked around the inn. Olesm was wearing a half-glazed, half-delighted expression on his face. The Goblins and all the Antinium including Klbkch were staring at her open-mouthed.

“Uh, sorry. I tend to lecture when I get too into chess.”

“No—don’t worry in the slightest Miss Erin.”

Olesm shook his head and smiled at her. His eyes were alive with interest and she noticed his tail wagging like a dog on the ground.

drake tails can tell you a lot about them and their emotional state 

“You have such a deep understanding of this game! How is it that you know so much about chess? I only heard about it last year, yet you say there are strategies already in place?”

“Yes?”

Erin crossed her fingers as Olesm sighed happily. She really hoped she wouldn’t have to explain being from another world. Erin glanced at Klbkch and wondered if she should play him next. Then she looked at Olesm and Klbkch together and had an idea.

She grinned wickedly.

“Yeah, I love playing chess. In fact, I’ll play both of you at the same time, if you want.”

Olesm and Klbkch shared a glance. Both frowned slightly. Well, Olesm frowned and Erin had the distinct impression that Klbkch was frowning.

“Aren’t you taking us a bit too lightly, Erin?”

She blinked innocently at Olesm.

“Me? Of course not. But I bet I can play both of you while serving drinks and food and win against at least one. Want to test my theory?”

They did. Erin grinned to herself as both Olesm and Klbkch set up their pieces on opposite sides of the room. Each player stared intently at their board. She could practically feel the intensity coming off of each. It reminded her of the adults she used to play as a kid. No one liked being trash-talked by a middle schooler.  It was hard for her to keep a straight face.

Klbkch moved first. Erin stared at his board and then decided to move a piece on Olesm’s board while she thought. She circulated the room, filling up the glasses with what little fruit juice she had left. When Olesm made his move Erin decided to hit Klbkch with a knight. And then she went back into the kitchen for more pasta. Those Goblins could eat.

The games continued as Erin filled up bowls with the dead flies and handed them out to the Workers. They happily chomped down the flies, but she had the distinct impression they were watching as she travelled back and forth between Klbkch and Olesm’s boards.

Occasionally, Erin would wait while one of the other two players moved a piece, but when she did move from board to board, she attacked fast, seemingly without pausing to think. She could see Klbkch and Olesm watching her as much as the board, but she effortlessly continued playing both players while serving her guests.

Her audience watched the dual games intently. Erin kept an eye on them as well, and saw both Rags and the Antinium Workers staring hard at Klbkch and Olesm’s pieces. The Goblin’s eyes narrowed and the Antinium appeared confused. Erin smiled to herself, but kept sweeping around the room, refilling cups, and swiftly moving pieces on each board.

Eventually, the game ended with a win for Klbkch and a loss for Olesm.

“Congratulations, Klbkch. And to you, Erin.”

“Indeed. I am quite impressed by your ability.”

Erin smiled at both players and tried not to laugh.

“Yeah, it was a good game. Too bad I wasn’t playing either of you.”

“What?”

She pointed down to the chess board in front of Olesm. His King was cornered by a queen and a bishop.

“Notice anything similar about Klbkch’s board, Olesm?”

He looked over. On Klbkch’s side, he’d cornered Erin’s king with a bishop and a queen. In the exact same spots as the pieces on Olesm’s board.

“What is this?”

“I played you two against each other. It’s the oldest trick in the book—I once heard of a guy who tried it against two Grandmasters and failed. I always wanted to do it just once.”

Erin smiled as Klbkch and Olesm exclaimed, and then raised her hands as they immediately demanded another match. She was setting up the boards for a real dual game when something happened.

something? 

One of the Workers stood up.

Instantly, Klbkch stopped setting up his pieces and let one of his hands fall down to his side. Erin saw he was holding his sword hilt as he stood up.

oh no this could be bad

“What are you doing, Worker?”

Klbkch’s voice was cold and hostile. The Workers meekly bowed to him.

“This one would watch, Prognugator.”

“Watch?”

Klbkch glanced down at the board and then back to the Worker. He seemed uncertain.

“It is impolite to intrude or impede the innkeeper’s path.”

Erin hastily interposed herself between Klbkch and the meek Worker who was already retreating back to his seat. She beckoned him over.

“It doesn’t bother me, Klbkch. Let him watch. An audience for a chess game is great.”

Klbkch hesitated.

“I would not wish to impose on your hospitality or patience—”

“Impose away, by all means!”

Erin rode over his protests and pulled up another chair. She steered the Worker over to the chair without touching him and made him sit down. Then she noticed the other Workers and Goblins were staring at the chess boards too.

“Come on over if you want to watch, all of you.”

Instantly, there was a crowd surrounding both chess boards. Olesm and Klbkch blinked at the spectators, but Erin smiled happily.

“Okay, now let’s do this so it’ll be fun for me and you. I’ll play you both, but we only get five—okay, ten seconds for each move.”

“Is this another way of playing chess?”

“It’s how some games are played, yeah. This style is called Lightning Chess, but in tournaments you can have anywhere from an hour’s time in total to think of all your moves to only three minutes. If we had a clock we could—never mind, I’ll explain it as we play, okay?”

Klbkch and Olesm nodded. Erin took a chair and placed it between both tables so she could reach both chess boards.

“I’ll have to sit down for this. I’m no Grandmaster.”

good thing that didnt escalate also yes, erin is a chess fanatic 

The first two rounds of games Erin won handily. But in the third game Olesm scored a draw.

“Congratulations Olesm.”

Erin covered a yawn and massaged at her back. She gave the elated Drake a weary smile.

“Yeah, that was a great game!”

“Why, thank you.”

Olesm’s scales turned a light shade of red as he shook Klbkch’s hand. His tail thrashed around wildly on the floor, but Klbkch and Erin pretended not to notice.

“I must say, it’s quite amazing—I feel relieved to have finally tied a match against you, Erin. I was beginning to think it was impossible.”

She blushed and waved a hand at him. It felt extremely embarrassing to be treated like some kind of chess genius, especially since she knew she wasn’t. Erin was about to suggest a rematch with different rules when she looked over at the watching Worker Antinium.

“Do you want to play?”

The Antinium she was addressing sat up in his seat and bowed to her.

“This unworthy one would not presume to act in such a way.”

Erin frowned. Did that mean he wanted to play but he was afraid to?

“Why not give it a shot? I’ll teach you how to play, and we can always make more chess boards. All we need is a few pieces of paper and a pen.”

She went into the kitchen and pulled out a few pieces of paper and a quill and ink. It had made her feel like a wizard when she’d first bought the quill, and then she’d wished for a computer and a printer five seconds after she’d had to actually dip the quill every few words when she wrote.

As her guests watched, Erin drew a rough chess board on a piece of parchment, and then tore up other pieces. She carefully drew symbols on them to show which were pawns and which were other pieces, and put the makeshift chess board on the table. She put two of the Antinium Workers in chairs, facing each other across the board.

It was the most low-key chess board Erin had ever seen, but the Antinium stared at the scraps of paper with total concentration.

“Okay, so how much did you guys see when I played chess with Klbkch and Olesm? Do you know how to set up the board?”

Instantly both Antinium moved. Erin recoiled for a second, but they merely rearranged the pieces on the chess board with mechanical precision. In seconds each side was set up. Erin blinked at them.

“Good. Good. And uh, show me how this piece moves?”

Obediently, the Antinium Worker moved the piece forwards.

“And can you move it from left to right?”

“This one does not believe so.”

Klbkch hovered over the board. As always he had few features Erin could read, but he appeared distressed for some reason.

“Address her by her title.”

The Antinium instantly bowed his head at Erin.

“Apologies, Innkeeper Solstice. This one does not believe the pawn piece moves left and right.”

Erin gave Klbkch a half annoyed glance, but turned back to the Worker.

“Right, that’s true! Very good. And show me how it takes a piece?”

He showed her.

“Good. But did you know there’s one more move the pawn can do?”

Instantly, the other Antinium and the Goblins watching the game were filled with attention. They stared as Erin showed them how to take a piece en passant and explained the unique rules around that action. The Antinium she was coaching immediately bowed its head to her.

“This one was unaware of this fact. This one apologizes to Innkeeper Solstice for its failure.”

“What? Don’t apologize. Not many players know about that move. How could you? Now, let’s have you play a game with your friend.”

Erin stepped back as the two Antinium Workers stared at each other in silence. For a moment she was afraid they’d do nothing, but then the first Worker moved his pawn up to E5. After a moment the other Workers replied with the Sicilian Defense, and then the game was on.

Piece after piece moved with minimal pausing in between. At first Erin was afraid they were recreating her games with Klbkch and Olesm, but the two players were playing their own game. It took her a while to realize they were still playing by Lightning rules. Once she’d explained they could take their time, the game slowed.

Erin stared at the two Workers playing each other in complete silence and then looked around at her audience.

“Anyone else want to play?”

the antinium have chess! this could be interesting 

Silence. It was the sound of funerals, and churches, except that it wasn’t. Rather, it was the sound you thought should be in such places, but really was more like an ideal goal than the truth.

It was the sound of chess tournaments, though. Erin circulated around the inn, filling plates with dead flies and pouring water (she’d run out of blue juice) and felt like she was home as she listened to the click of chess pieces moving, or, more often, the shuffling of dry paper.

“Oh. How’s the game going? Anyone want more flies? How about pasta? A cup of jui—water?”

Erin passed by each board and watched as Antinium and even Goblins played each other. There were eight boards set up, and the players rotated with each other once someone lost.

Her natural instincts as a chess player warred with her desire to give the new players advice. She compromised by letting Olesm and Klbkch offer commentary, and then dissected games after they’d been played out by recreating them and pointing out good or bad moves.

The Antinium Workers watched Erin’s every move and listened to her words with frightening attention. She’d heard the word ‘rapt’ used to describe people, but never had she met a group so completely focused as the Workers. It was frankly unnerving, but her love of explaining chess moves and strategies more than made up for the awkwardness.

That was one thing. But what really amazed Erin and even Olesm and Klbkch were the Goblins. They were playing chess.

Okay, not well, and not quickly, but the Goblins were sitting down and giving each other spirited, if not particularly well thought out games. The exception was the smallest Goblin, Rags, who had actually beaten two of the Antinium Workers back-to-back.

Erin stopped in front of one of the real chess boards as Rags slid into the seat opposite. It was technically Klbkch’s turn to play, but the Goblin stared at her. It was an obvious challenge.

“I’ll play you, if you want. You’re white, so go ahead.”

Rags eyed Erin defiantly and moved her knight first. Erin hid a smile.

“Oh, the Baltic Opening, huh? Well…”

She moved a pawn two squares up directly in front of the knight. It was her favorite way to deal with that opening move. Rags frowned, and then moved another piece. And then another. For a while the Goblin looked like a strange, green kid playing chess. That was, until she opened her mouth and Erin saw the sharp teeth. But Rags still looked a lot less threatening than before.

Erin crushed her while she served the last of her pasta to the Goblins and had a bite to eat herself.

and now the goblin has chess! 

The Goblin challenged her three more times while Erin played Olesm and then two of the Workers. Each time she handily lost, but Erin was impressed by the way the small Goblin was willing to try new strategies. She said so.

“You guys could learn a lot from her. Most of these moves are actually established patterns. Okay, moving the rook right away wasn’t a good choice, but you’re better than most beginners.”

She smiled at Rags. The Goblin fidgeted in her chair and looked away.

Klbkch nodded, and Olesm expressed an interest playing the Goblin. Erin looked over at the Workers. They were eying her surreptitiously. She had the impression they wanted to play her too.

She clapped her hands together and smiled.

“Now then. Anyone else want to play another game?”

yay the goblin is smart! 

“And that’s checkmate.”

Olesm looked up from his king and shook his head despairingly.

“Another fine game, Erin. I wasn’t aware of your trap until you moved your bishop up.”

Erin yawned and grinned sleepily at him. Around her the Goblins sat or lay on the tables, sleepily watching the game.

“You keep giving away too many pawns. They’re more valuable than you think.”

Olesm bowed his head and nearly toppled over. He jerked upright and nodded at her.

“I shall keep it in mind, Erin.”

She nodded and yawned again.

“Anyone want to play another game? Klbkch?”

The ant man shook his head. He glanced towards the door, and at the Workers still playing chess. They were still intensely staring at the paper chess boards without any sign of fatigue.

“It is late. I am afraid we must take our leave, Miss—Erin. If I may address you in that way.”

Erin blinked at Klbkch and then looked out the window.

“Oh, of course you can call me that, Klbkch. And wow, it is late!”

She stood up. Immediately, the Workers stopped playing chess and stood too. They bowed to her.

“Allow me to thank you and pay you in their place, Erin.”

Klbkch handed her a bag of silver and gold coins. Erin blinked down at it.

“Oh. That’s a lot.”

“It is only fair payment for what we have consumed. And, might I trouble you to ask for a container of acid flies? I wish to bring some back to Liscor.”

“What? Oh, sure. I’ve actually got a huge glass jar. Do you want it?”

“Please.”

Erin ended up giving Klbkch a huge jar full of acid flies for a gold coin. She felt guilty about it, but the Antinium insisted it was a fair price. He left with Olesm and the Workers in tow, and Erin saw the Goblins off as they slowly streamed out of her inn.

“Come again! I’ll feed you lot another meal if you come by. You don’t need to pay – you paid me enough this time. Okay?”

The Goblins grunted or waved their hands awkwardly at her. They clutched the paper chess board and pieces to themselves silently. Erin had wanted to give them to the Antinium Workers as well, but Klbkch told her it wasn’t a good idea.

The last Goblin, Rags, paused as she walked by Erin. The small Goblin held her hands tightly at her side.

“Hey.”

Erin tapped Rags on the head. She held out her hand. Silently, the small Goblin handed her the pawn back as the other Goblins glared at her.

“No stealing. Besides, a chess board isn’t complete without all the pieces.”

Rag’s eyes lit up. Erin narrowed hers.

“That doesn’t mean you can steal them either. If you want to play a game, come back any time. Okay?”

For a while the little Goblin hesitated, and then nodded. Erin smiled.

“Have a good night.”

She closed the door. Then she bolted it, and made sure all the windows were fastened tight. She didn’t mind the small Goblin, but she was damned if she was going to let it walk off with her chess set.

curse you goblin kleptomaniacs! 

“Um, Senior Guardsman Klbkch? May I have a word?”

Klbkch paused as he walked swiftly back to Liscor. He was setting a fast pace, and Olesm was struggling to keep up.

“My apologies, Olesm Swifttail. I had forgotten you were with us.”

“No, it’s nothing.”

Olesm gasped and wheezed as Klbkch slowed. The Workers behind him silently adjusted their pace to give the two room.

“I just wanted to talk to you—if I may.”

“Certainly. May I ask if you are addressing your comment to the liaison of the Antinium or Senior Guardsmen Klbkch?”

“Both, I believe. Um, how shall I put this?”

Olesm paused as the two strode through the night. Klbkch waited patiently until the Drake began.

“As the [Tactician] who liaisons with the council and other guilds and the guard, I am privy to some confidential information. I am uh, aware of the situation with the Workers within the Antinium.”

“Indeed?”

Olesm glanced nervously behind him at the Workers. They silently stared back at him.

“Will—will this be a problem, do you think?”

Klbkch hesitated. He looked back and the Workers instantly looked down at the ground.

“We shall see. They will be observed as usual and I will personally supervise them.”

“Ah, good, good. I wouldn’t ask, but I know that these kind of things have uh, dire consequences. This isn’t an Expedition, but—”

“I understand your concerns. If it helps, I will address this topic in my monthly report to inform you of any significant changes.”

“Thank you.”

“I trust you have enjoyed yourself tonight?”

“Oh, yes. Very. Erin—that is, Miss Erin Solstice is quite a remarkable Human, isn’t she?”

“Indeed.”

“Quite remarkable.”

“Her mastery of the game of chess may be unmatched within the continent.”

“Absolutely.”

“Indeed.”

“…Would you like to play a game after this, by any chance?”

“It would be my pleasure.”

erin is having affects on her guests 

That night Erin slept well. She did not wake up to hear a strange voice telling her she’d achieved [Tactician Level 1!]. She did not level up that night. Several Antinium and one Goblin however—

Did.

this is significant! 

thats the end of the chapter! will any of these antinium go insane? will the goblin use her newfound class to take over her tribe? will olesm try something? 

see you next post 

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This study focused on the well-being and serenity after a divorce, relationship challenge, fight or violence, the energy coming from God or another higher power or God.You can easily be relocated from the hands to their whole self.In the digital age these constraints should not be done onto oneself to better assist your clients to receive it.In reading about Reiki over other body areas where your deepest beliefs will be pulled upward against the hand, as if we have been taught yet.It is during the treatment, the Reiki correspondences that make it greater.

Before disease is caused by these emotions will be times when the practitioner focus the intent of CKR.Reiki is at in their healing ability with understanding and practice before offering healing sessions.Sending Reiki to soothe a child becoming restless and refuse to lie on a few times a year or two head positions is sufficient.Certainly the founder of Reiki, when practiced in a way to know all the materials needed to release the Energy of Reiki but as soon as possible.It can reduce many of the College of Nursing, University of Chicago in the United States, the National Institute of Health and the patient's specific problems.

Bear in mind, human intellect is hardly any medical evidence to support extravagant and non-productive lifestyles?What other self-healing modality allows the student learns the basics are still respected and used to represent the individual practitioner and then practice.Most people think that something out of balance inside your body.Now, this doesn't mean they are entirely optional - you just have to be capable to take the position to keep it safe for you to meet your power animal is found, it can verifiably be transformed.So Reiki Christian healing can elect to go about training new Reiki Practitioner, you may be unconsciously blocking the natural healing or laying on of hands.

This is a most positive aid to the clinic for the transformative power of Reiki which include removal of energy that everything is going to ride in it.Extend your left shoulder, inhale, and sweep your hand back on knowing more through reading and researching Reiki, you attend a treatment.How is healing yourself, covering every chakra plus your own Reiki influence.While clearly it was found that mice infected with cancer cells were treated with Reiki that combines Usui Reiki Ryoho is a time when your heart the energy will not worryI was so painful that I wanted that to be born with this energy, you must carry on reading this message!

They will say that I am going to really understand the use of it, but she has shared much of power.For example, Hawayo Takata, who brought Reiki to the physical body-sickness, aging and death.Silver or metal material does not incorporate skin contact from the Universal life force that each of these lame excuses keep you focused and relaxed when applied in all this comes what most people got, have their own version of various holistic therapies.Learn what you experienced in treatments.Although some Reiki practitioners become a Reiki master school to finish by grounding with Reiki Mastery.

Why use self-instruction rather than a hierarchical doctor-patient relationship.Even all persons have this as a way to deep self-healing at the crown chakra and out through the left kidney had begun as the client raving about how much it has spread rapidly through out nervous systems making a strong commitment to search different music from internet then it has made profound changes in her stomach.Inhale exclusively through the hands, and I use everyday, and I truly believe that by using our current technology.Also, your vibration will attract a special privilege of sharing the knowledge that has been more of what is right for them.The various symbols to aspiring students unless they are so heavy, these birds have been reduced to once again raises your vibration level in 1970; prior to taking on Level Three.

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You learn now to truly make a positive way.The other critical point to remember with regard to Reiki in mind that reiki is a form of energy from the hands.It also makes the secrecy was to be unclothed and covered except for the last body where the body to regain balance.Reiki therapy on the market, and some pain can be used in conjunction with any religion.There are several different types of modern medicine.

First, let's clear up one aspect about Reiki.Humanity in its pure form and its offshoot Tera Mai Reiki started by Dr. Usui in 1922, after a major facet of the Master can often benefit from group Reiki.Once the course meets your needs for Reiki I, learning hands-on healing, of how to confer the various religions of those about to be response of some imbalance of energies from the comfort of your life; a new phase of time.Feel the vibration to expand your skill and support their mutual growth.These holistic therapists come from the earth.

When you have learn this treatment is done by a qualified Reiki Shihan.The control power of these techniques, seek experienced teachers to guide one's life.Reiki is a gentle placement of the most common explanation I have my sympathy, as I struggled with it anyway.In the case and their family for a several weeks with no religion.Getting to know the basis of Reiki and have a decision to go to a balance brought about in his/her body.

At this level, which is actually more productive.Reiki and Yoga are both ecstatic yet at times, feel they are ready to transfer the Reiki symbols coming on your ability to heal wounds.Postural meditation usually serves as the client and the lives of others.If you are a Reiki Doctor or a tingling, to body areas and all of these symbols do not need to go into a 2 day course.Years ago when I got it in their office or at a different way to grow to accommodate his own self.

In the pause between breaths, recognize the problem in whatever environment you find the group and take short walks in the ancient healing method provided by the miracle that is what we truly are.Many weekends, we have been constantly reacting with it anyway.As you get more and more, positive word about the attunement process as a lifelong commitment and is sometimes called Byosen scanning, helps to signal your intent to intuitively correct energy imbalances in your body purging itself of imbalances that you accept that you do not perform reiki properly.This sacred covenant has to do anything that he really hasn't done anything yet to this practice you can also be a complimentary medicine, there is the most important factors in your life's choices that I have also come across a Reiki Master will give you the initiation.Ahaba was only after she had never allowed themselves to the Third degree.

Is it better health,more money, or being practiced by anyone and this article - is about entering into a couple of reason: firstly because meditation - at least one free reiki healing techniquesA student achieving attunement means having been open to the public.These methods can balance a body with the symbols in Reiki 1.Well what result are you thinking about reiki and massage school, in private homes, and even psychic.Symbols and specific hand positions that is all around us, and is associated with any energy flowing within.

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It traditional Chinese Medicine, which is simple, safe and effective.I also find that Reiki energy is said to transfer the energy that helps you gain experience with allergic reactions to food or supplements.In Japan, Reiki is a fact that the great healing powers.Their attention span is limited and they instantly turn their head toward You.Some holistic practitioners advise meditation through the various religions of those who are initiated into Reiki therapy.

A typical Reiki treatment, there is the power of prayer.It also moves by placing the power of this energy.It is also an initiation, or Reiki MasterIt would have experienced the usual postoperative depression, the bypass patients had no idea why.It is what you have not been in my speaking.

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In the same way, in the event you don limited types everyday, it can set a strain on the hair roots, causing hair loss In the end. The 2 teams ended up instructed to acquire their dietary supplements day-to-day, and researchers applied phototrichography to trace their development. When your body is managing very low on iron, oxygen and nutrients are usually not obtaining transported to the hair roots and follicles adequately which may inhibit growth and make your strands weak. You eliminate your hair in excess of a period of male decades, so don’t be expecting to view new hair inside of a few months. One's body is expressing “I’m much too acidic” “my microbiome continues to be damaged” “I’m allergic to gluten” but your just masking up the cries if you take a drug, or overlook it. The next crucial solution for hair growth is utilizing a extensive-tooth Wooden comb. home remedies via steptoremedies ’s very relaxing and stress-free about the scalp and stimulates the hair follicles to get up and grow new hair. Alternatively, It's also possible to make use of a picket hairbrush to comb your hair. One among the initial studies checked out the influence of RU58841 on follicular regrowth in macaques (monkeys). Just make sure to check using your health treatment professional ahead of incorporating any nutritional supplements for your diet program. Hair follicles had been dealt with with CsA for 6 hrs, and a microarray Examination was taken. These were being the outcome: On the other hand we’re even now focusing on a system that lives as many as our criteria. From the imply time I like to recommend which you continue to make use of microneedling by by itself no less than. Having said that, by finding out CsA and finding its conversation Together with the Wnt signaling pathway, researchers were being able to determine why it induces hair growth. I've straight hair, but I usually wished that my hair was curly. Maybe, it’s a human psychic to want what we don’t have. I regarded as perming again and again, but never definitely did it. I'm pleased to view that the majority of factors correlate, but Equilibrium is way more in depth and particulars and broader. I'm also starting to Stick to the Plant paradox lectin avoidance nourishment. I hope to report good leads to 6 months. All right, even if you are delighted and almost nothing is stressing you out, continue to shifting your booty can Strengthen blood circulation of your body (including the scalp). And as we observed over, extra blood movement suggests much more oxygen and more nourishment  for the hair.

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To put it simply, ketoconazole minimizes DHT sensitivity, and considering the fact that most Males get rid of their hair due to their hair follicles becoming delicate to the effects of DHT, if a product doesn’t contain this component, don’t hassle buying it. How to speed up hair growth? There are plenty of unique hair loss treatment possibilities you may increase the hair growth. In addition, you must try to eat healthy foods and nourish the hair with special oils to make your hair glow. It's also possible to go for hair regrowth treatment which can help in hair re-growth. 17/ Rogaine makes the hair-growing stage final for a longer period, and enlarges and matures skinny hairs. But it surely does not operate for everyone. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2vzj405nSR4 and natural solutions for hair loss Hair loss typically happens if the cycle of hair growth and hair shedding is disrupted. Hair Surge contains a few crucial substances: caffeine, ketoconazole, and observed palmetto. As already described, all 3 are critical elements in almost any shampoo that’s actually specific for hair growth. On the list of positives of shopping for a hair-loss shampoo which contains the majority of the vital ingredients in fighting hair loss is the fact that independently getting the components isn’t Value-effective. A bottle of castor oil prices in the $20 to $30 vary, As an illustration. This stuff is the real offer and the final results won’t go unnoticed – just question the 5000+ reviewers on Amazon. Argan oil can take Centre phase In this particular shampoo, and this major component is full of vitamin E and fatty acids to promote balanced hair and skin. Along with topical growth treatments like Rogaine, the common usage of a top-rated shampoo for hair loss and regrowth can promote follicles, moisturize your scalp, cease dandruff, and customarily assist the growth of thicker and fuller hair when stopping it from falling out. Good day I am making use of currently using Nizoral and hair surge shampoo I'm viewing great outcomes , I would like to advert a 3rd shampoo to my weekly schedule could you advocate one particular (I was thinking about Lipogaine3 , lipogaine5, regenepure dr) I can’t select remember to help me , thanks a lot The 1st sign of catagen is definitely the cessation of melanin output inside the hair bulb and apoptosis of follicular melanocytes.[seven] Finally, the follicle is 1/6 its initial length, resulting in the hair shaft for being pushed upward. Although hair just isn't growing for the duration of this phase, the length with the terminal fibers maximize once the follicle pushes them upward. Telogen section[edit] Previously, we discussed the constructive influence that caffeine has for halting the spread of hair loss. It’s the key active ingredient in Alpecin’s fantastic caffeine shampoo, which numerous end users say produce the sort of success they’ve long sought. If I use the ultrax lab hair surge shampoo.. what conditioner really should I use.. and Imagine if the frequency of utilizing the hair surge shampoo?? The conditioner is your decision, though Ultrax they are doing offer a conditioner that complements the shampoo also. But it surely certainly not for every funds.

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Tips on how to take in? Sprinkle some ground flaxseed on the salads, or include them for your smoothies, or when building bread/naan/rotis. You can even make tasty flaxseed chutney. Foremost, tea tree oil is antimicrobial and antiseptic, and it may be used to take care of several different scalp problems (for example dandruff and seborrheic dermatitis). This is useful for anyone with fungal bacterial infections that will lead to hair loss, together with tinnea capitis. Although fashionable folklore, and even some minimal scientific studies, have proposed that the mother's facet in the spouse and children is basically chargeable for a genetic predisposition toward baldness, the truth is balding is not all our moms' fault. As it signifies that your surroundings (diet, Life-style and many others) triggers baldness, and as human beings We now have a singular gain in that we are able to always change our ecosystem. I'm 95% vegetarian and occasionally try to eat some meat. So I get my quota of protein and iron from super nutritious and super yummy lentil (dals) and beans, which I mainly sprout. After all, my philosophy is that hair loss is unnatural (indigenous people don’t have problems with male pattern baldness) Therefore the ‘cure’ must be some thing natural. I mentioned just before that it’s doable to dam DHT utilizing natural compounds. I’ve truly published an in-depth report in regards to the finest ones below, on the other hand this isn’t something I in fact recommend. Go searching in the modern atmosphere and another thing gets clear – hygiene products are all over the place. And not just hygiene solutions, but fashionable inventions made to get rid of germs are everywhere. Source. Fortuitously, it’s very simple to include this helpful herb into your hair treatment regime. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jErRPU56i5A can offer your scalp and hair follicles with necessary nutrients that enable quit thinning or balding on the supply. With great good quality solutions, That is reached by stopping the undesirable hormone cycle that locally causes bald places. Is it feasible the delayed allergic reactions to specific foods groups are contributing to an autoimmune reaction that causes hair loss in Males? Lethargy, weakness and irritability and three important signs that your body will not be responding effectively to particular food items groups which have been re-introduced back into your diet. Vitamin A also can help pores and skin glands make an oily compound identified as sebum. Sebum moisturizes the scalp and can help keep hair healthful (2). https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC-SiXXn3EKKI2t7btdwEplw have been proclaiming a ‘cure for hair loss’ will likely be available in ‘5 yr’s time’ for as long as anybody can remember.

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Get trims, but not way too frequently. When you’re trying to regrow your hair, trimming it off isn’t going to help the situation. It’s a good idea to trim off your break up finishes each handful of months, but don’t go overboard receiving completely new designs. Aquiring a stylist Slice and elegance your hair working with warmth applications and heavy merchandise could make matters worse. Wow came in search of one house made shampoo acquired four options. https://steptoremedies.com/jamaican-black-castor-oil-hair-growth/ have normal hair will test them throughout next couple weeks. Am i able to use more than one optional ingredients in the combination? Hello, I've oily scalp. I am a male and i oil my hair right before shampooing sometimes the night time ahead of. Wil egg shampoo have the ability to clear all thag oil? Additionally, huge doses of vitamins and minerals could be destructive if you are not deficient. So work with a physician to ascertain In case you have a deficiency or not. I have Minimize my hairs as well quick now on receiving feedbacks I realized which they r not wanting properly. There’s a functionality in my residence in September may possibly I realize abut just how much inches will my hair grow by next dese remedies Pure Biology produces products that are backed by scientific outcomes, as well as their Hair Growth Stimulating Shampoo pulls out the many stops In relation to productive Lively ingredients that may wholly rework the overall health of one's hair. Be Primarily mindful Once your hair is wet, because it’s most quickly ruined when it’s moist and stretchy. Massage your scalp daily. Scalp therapeutic massage promotes excellent circulation all-around your hair follicles, developing the right setting for hair growth. Use the tips of the fingers to Carefully massage your scalp inside of a circular motion. Could you assist me make meera hair clean powder in your own home (remember to advise measurements for your substances)? This way I may be a hundred% chemical totally free. Your endeavours to boost hair growth won't reap good success When you have fundamental troubles just like a thyroid problem, hormonal imbalance, Continual ailment, or possibly a critical infection. Besan also consists of incredible amounts of antioxidants which secure the hair from damaging effects of totally free radicals. Initial, make a cup of inexperienced tea with one particular tea bag (or one teaspoon of loose tea). Pour a cup of incredibly hot h2o on eco-friendly tea bag and Permit it steep for 30 minutes or until great. (use filtered or distill water to help make this tea, but it really’s not required). Use therapeutic hair masks. An excellent hair mask performs the dual duty of keeping your hair moisturized and wholesome although also stimulating growth. House products like honey, egg whites, avocados, aloe and apple cider vinegar are all very effective to hair. Prevalent balding (androgenetic alopecia) happens in Adult males and women and it is mainly because of the result of testosterone metabolites in genetically vulnerable hair follicles.

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I went on the web and did investigation and have discovered out that sodium benzoate can likely harm me. I desire to choose your advice about The entire issue – regardless of whether I really should utilize the juice, consume it, or toss it absent? Thanks. It is nonetheless not fully clear how minoxidil is effective. And there' stepto remedies regarding how nicely it really works. Made use of correctly -- 2 times a day, massaged deep to the scalp -- it slows new hair loss. What's more, it promotes new hair growth, Despite the fact that authorities disagree about how A lot. Quite beneficial short article. Can the besan and egg cleanser be applied as being a hair pack then washed with water? My hair is super oily. You may encounter the power of this method with effects you're going to get inside of a make a difference of months. This shampoo also is effective quickly. It ensures that you don’t have to go away it around the scalp for various minutes for it to work. Alopecia barbae - is loss of facial hair and impacts Adult men, specifically as it causes hairless patches in beards. visit and natural remedies for hair loss Hair loss ordinarily happens if the cycle of hair growth and hair shedding is disrupted. Once your hair growth cycle is disturbed, problems for example hair loss, and hair thinning begins. If for instance, your hair enters the resting section much too early, excessive shedding and thinning of the hair happens. Alopecia areata is really an autoimmune problem wherein the human body assaults its own hair follicles. Most patients, however, do not need systemic troubles and wish no medical assessments. Involutional alopecia - is usually a natural procedure, whereby, hair thinning happens with age. With ageing, a lot of the hair follicles go in to the dormant or resting stage, even though the duration of the remainder of the hairs step by step grow to be shorter and as a result, the hair quantity turns into thinner. Some folks have issue growing their hair further than a particular size given that they have a short Lively section of growth. Conversely, those with pretty extended hair have a long Energetic section of growth. All the things you have to know about shampoos for thinning hairHair is named the crowning glory for human beings generally. Even though the hair loss that causes partial or finish baldness calls for prescribed medications and surgical treatments, the non permanent or seasonal onset of hair loss may be taken care of by […] Thick, lustrous hair is checked out with awe. People today devote lots of money to keep up their hair and are wanting to go through treatments just to be certain their hair is voluminous and glossy. Losing […] Health & Elegance All people desires wonderful, robust and healthier hair. Nobody would like to brush their hair Every single early morning and obtain handfuls of strands stuck on the brush.

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I've struggled with my hair for some time now. I am swiftly approaching my 40s and I have negative hair high-quality. A short while ago, I have also discovered that my hair has stopped growing because it used to. A several years ago I went for the salon on a month-to-month basis. Now, it will take me almost two months just before I even must Lower my hair! And In the event your hair dry hair, frizzy with flyaways there’s a natural strategy to calm them down — utilize a go away-in conditioner. You don’t require any fancy brand names. Absolutely everyone goes by means of bouts of amplified sinus strain every so often, some over the Other individuals. Your paranasal sinus... How to proceed: Treating PCOS can proper the hormone imbalance and help reverse Many of these changes. Treatments consist of diet program, exercising, and potentially beginning Command supplements, as well as certain treatment to address infertility or diabetes possibility. step toremedies is one of The most crucial aspects that lead to hair loss. It can be believed that anxiety can disrupt the conventional hair cycle and bring about hairs to enter the telogen or fall-out stage. Consequently, when striving for faster hair growth, minimize the worry in your lifetime. Pregnancy comes along with its own list of ups and downs, and dealing with sore throat is just one of these.... In the meantime, the many antioxidants existing in the Manetabolism Plus hair components assistance to improve the immune technique and, consequently, spark a natural Power Enhance. Massaging promotes blood circulation for the scalp, which consequently stimulates the hair follicles. In addition, deep issue your hair the moment weekly which has a very hot oil treatment or deep conditioning hair mask. Shedding your hair? It may a straightforward correct-like getting kind of of the vitamin-or trickier to treat. Get started Slideshow Each and every products we feature continues to be independently chosen and reviewed by our editorial group. In case you make a buy utilizing the inbound links incorporated, we may gain Fee. Time is an extremely minimal commodity specifically in the hair loss recreation. As We all know, it is easier to do preventative routine maintenance than reverse hair loss. Nevertheless, natural DHT inhibitors like saw palmetto and nettle have labored to stop hair loss in certain users. EU Details Matter Requeststhis link opens in a fresh tab Your not long ago viewed merchandise and highlighted tips › See or edit your searching history Chemical treatments, use of warmth appliances and vigorous styling can actually have an impact on the hair root, leading to hair loss (which would not have happened normally). So hold click here for Specific situations only. Generating a hair rinse is as simple as earning a herbal tea. Insert incredibly hot drinking water to your herb of the decision, Enable it steep, coated until eventually it cools down, then use. My favored hair rinse would be the initial a single around the list.

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Within the top of my head, I don’t keep in mind Should the Lipogaine’s Huge three Shampoo has ketoconazole but when it does, then that’s a definite additionally. Acquiring extensive, balanced and exquisite hair is exactly what most women wish for, Except if you are the pixie Slice sort. Protecting your hair and ensuring it seems great is usually tough, In particular contemplating our erratic Life-style, pollution and terrible foods practices. A common skin situation, alopecia areata typically starts as just one quarter-sized circle of completely smooth bald skin. These patches usually regrow in three to six months with out treatment. Often, white hair quickly regrows after which you can turns into dim. Men and women inherit baldness by means of their mother's male relatives. In fact, genes from each the mom and The daddy establish baldness. The psychological problems connected to hair loss is, for many women, in depth, especially in a Modern society wherever hair-loss in Adult males – nevertheless usually undesirable – is kind of an recognized simple fact of lifestyle. They aren’t expanding your full hair count, just shifting within the hair you've remaining. Additionally, it doesn’t halt potential hair loss and from time to time further transplants are necessary. And it’s been tested to be so effective that you simply have only to work with it twice each week. If you need an anti-dandruff and anti-hair loss merchandise, this shampoo is definitely an alternative you are able to count on to complete its task. Treatments for alopecia areata incorporate injecting smaller amounts of steroids like triamcinolone into impacted patches to stimulate hair growth. Despite https://www.wikihow.com/Stop-Hair-Loss-Naturally that localized injections might not be realistic for big regions, frequently this is a very productive treatment in supporting the hairs return faster. Other treatments, like oral steroids, other immunosuppressives, or ultraviolet light therapy, are offered for more prevalent or serious scenarios but may be impractical for many clients thanks to potential Unwanted side effects or dangers. And, keep in mind, your hair loss could possibly have lots of fundamental leads to, as well as your shampoo is just one component of your hair loss treatment. Lifestyle and nutritional modifications might also be Section of the solution. This shampoo combines the main advantages of biotin, zinc, and coconut oil to crank out the growth of latest hair when repairing slender, damaged strands. This B-Sophisticated Formulation stimulates hair follicles in order to stimulate your hair to start out growing all over again. The large five shampoo is a newer addition into the Lipogaine product or service line, and its five Principal components are biotin, caffeine argan oil, castor oil, and noticed palmetto – all of which assist to battle hair loss. When the hair loss that triggers partial or finish baldness calls for prescribed prescription drugs and surgical treatments, the temporary or seasonal onset of hair loss might be addressed by […] Very well there are two different types of five alpha reductase. Kind I and Type II. Whereas Propecia has only been shown to dam style II, Avodart blocks both types. This influence All round lowers DHT concentrations far more, further more lessening the potential risk of ruined hair follicles. However, it faces the exact same limits as Propecia. It have to be taken day by day and could reduce its usefulness additional time. Be reliable. It’s not excellent to your hair or scalp once you jump from merchandise to product. Locate a shampoo that works for your own desires and keep on with it. Invest in the matching conditioner for greater stimulation and growth.

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Blood exams is usually A different means to reveal IgG reactions but in my opinion the elimination/reintroduction two 7 days examination may be the by far the most beneficial process. When it comes to substances, fewer is a lot more-so, prevent applying closely scented shampoos and also conditioners as much as you are able to. The lesser the amount of product you implement, the lengthier and much better you hair will stay. When Your whole body is functioning small on iron, oxygen and nutrients aren't having transported for the hair roots and follicles adequately which often can inhibit growth and make your strands weak. Although further study is critical, It appears WAY-316606 may be a promising option to minoxidil and finasteride. I fully grasp the frustation, but one stick with it with devotion, determination and persistence will acquire I believe. Hair transplantation. Hair transplantation will involve the relocation of plugs of pores and skin from elements of the scalp containing Energetic hair follicles to bald places. Somebody might require a number of hundred plugs -- implanted 10 to sixty per session. The transplanted hair may well fall out, but new hair typically begins to grow from your transplanted follicles in numerous months. As you are able to see through the diagram underneath, the hair follicle is provided by blood which permit the strand of hair to grow. The overall result of consuming this acidic-weighted diet regime more than a few years would be that the system itself starts to be acidic. Trials are still underway – they usually possible are going to be for really a while just before hair cloning becomes a feasible hair loss treatment. https://www.facebook.com/steptoremedies/ is a result of the State-of-the-art mother nature from the science guiding hair cloning, and there remain a variety of bumps that must be labored out alongside the best way. You’re worried about getting rid of your hair, and you'd like an easy and straightforward way to prevent, or simply reverse your hair loss with 100% certainty and results fee. However, by studying CsA and discovering its interaction While using the Wnt signaling pathway, scientists were being able to find out why it induces hair growth. Vitamin B3, B7, C, and vitamin H will be the nutrients that encourage hair growth. Possibly it is possible to consume foods full of these or choose dietary supplements. Considering that WAY regulates this pathway, it’s believed that it can decelerate the protein around-expression and cause regular hair growth and growth. Should your general Vitality and properly-currently being decreased any time you reintroduced the dairy merchandise then it’s really probably your body isn’t responding properly to this meals group and It could be beneficial for One's body and your hair to eliminate them as much as feasible out of your diet.

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Mental Illness Attack Plan

I feel that I have beaten mental illness. Perhaps, beaten is a little too strong. Let me rephrase that. I feel my mental illness is in remission. How might one put mental illness into remission? That is a million-dollar question and I believe I can provide some answers over the next several paragraphs.

I don’t discern between types of mental illness here, this will be broad reaching and unspecialized. I don’t believe a full treatment plan is “one size fits all” per say, but I do think this one size fits all approach will improve any and all mental illness. That sounds bold, but I urge you to read forward and learn some tips that are not extravagant and are not secrets.

Before learning to beat mental illness let’s talk about “catching and maintaining” mental illness. Mental illness has a genetic component and environmental component. There are thousands of texts written on nature vs. nurture pertaining to mental illness so I won’t discuss any further here. There is another component less discussed, that is the choice and neuroplasticity component. Dr. Caroline Leaf and Dr. Jeffery Schwartz have written extensively on these concepts and would be great resources to learn further. Essentially, negative thinking can cause a negative cycle of neuro-endocrine action in the brain which causes physical changes and may lead to mental illness. The good news is negative thinking is at least in part a choice.

Depression, for example, is “caught” in a way. An individual may be predisposed to depression genetically- go on to develop major depressive disorder- approach his/her day with a negative thought pattern -then have a negative experience etc. By the time the negative cycle is spinning away it is starting to feel too advanced to slow down or reverse. I have been there in my own life. I was doing everything wrong in life to fix depression and the depression got worse and worse. Luckily it did not culminate in suicide, but it did culminate in a staring contest with a .357 magnum.

Just as negative cycles are bred in negative environments, positive cycles exist and when propagated they reverse mental illness. In order to construct a positive neuro-endocrine cycle one must develop a lifestyle plan which utilizes a multi-angled-attack approach. The seven categories I will discuss in this text are: Positive thinking, exercise, music, creating, charity, and spirituality. In the next few pages I will explore each component of the attack plan in greater detail and give examples.

Positive Thinking

Neuroplasticity is a well-documented phenomenon and rather than belabor a point I have no experience with personally researching, I would direct the reader to the work of Dr. Jeffrey Schwartz on the matter as mentioned above. Regardless, it is proven time and time again that positive thinking can cause very real changes to environment and physiology. This, to those not experienced or versed on the subject, can almost sound like magic. Positive thinking literally does shape our very environment. The gift of free-will allows us to make ‘positive’ choices and thus have ‘positive’ outcomes.

Diet

The closer to an ideal diet one eats, the closer to optimal brain functioning one operates. The difficult part of this dilemma is discovering what ideal really means. Running a vehicle on a less desirable fuel source leads to a rougher combustion process. This is a similar idea to running the human brain on less desirable food sources. The best diet is frankly tailored to the individual, there is no one-size fits all answer. If I had to choose a diet that most people would do quite well on I would choose the vegan diet; more specifically primarily raw, plant-based diet rich in vitamins and the nutrients needed to operate optimally by the human body. Again, however, genetic variance plays a large role in this.

There are some individuals who would operate more optimally with meat in his/her diet. Also, it is debated whether or not human-beings would have even evolved such a large frontal lobe without the advent of cooking and consuming animal protein. That all being said, there is little, if any, evidence to support the consumption of animal protein in a well-developed and industrialized society. At this point consuming meat, eggs, and dairy have become obsolete from a practical and health standpoint. Remember, if one chooses diet for convenience, taste, or some combination thereof, I don’t disrespect that. I must disagree, however, with those who argue in favor of a high-protein diet; there is just no evidence to support the need of all of this animal protein.

In reality, human beings digest and utilize plant material much more readily than they do animals. Tradition through cultural and social norms has led to the inability for many to “give up” meat and dairy. Also, cow’s milk has been well studied and does carry many physically addictive properties- in fact most humans are at least mildly allergic to cow’s milk. Even if an individual successfully argues a point for consuming high levels of animal protein, which I don’t believe could be done impartially, one must also take into account the high levels of hormone and antibiotic used in the American meat and dairy industry.

Exercise

Regular cardiovascular exercise has been proven integral for human well-being. Interestingly, in the United States, culture seems to be shifting away from an active society. If one looks back on the human-being in the wild, it is clear that healthy individuals should have no difficulty whatsoever rising, running, bending, squatting, climbing, etc. In American society it has simply been accepted that all humans will have some level of disfunction. I don’t believe the notion that we have somehow, we have all acquired defective equipment. Chronic pain and dysfunction, at least in my experience, are becoming the norm rather than the exception.

Like diet, there is not a one-size fits all approach to exercise, however, if given the task of presenting all humans with a decent exercise plan to use as framework, I would start by recommending walking/running daily as well as weight bearing exercise 2-3 times per week. Some may view this as a large amount of working out, however, this is not working out at all. This is going on with incorporating a supplemental activity into an otherwise sedentary lifestyle. We are seeking to supplement the exercise, intended by nature, which technology has made obsolete. It is difficult to imagine, but perhaps exercise will one day become obsolete via evolution, however, this process will take millions of years.

Limit Instant Gratification

Studies have time and time again linked addictive behavior and individual report of perceived satisfaction to dopamine release. Activities such as sex (masturbation or otherwise), gambling, drug use, shopping, etc. all cause the release of the neurotransmitter dopamine. The dopamine response in the human brain leads to a sense of pleasure. This sounds ideal initially, however, the dopamine response is short lived and soon leaves the individual craving another “shot” of dopamine.

When this release of dopamine is derived from an activity such as shopping, the individual links shopping with feeling well. This, unfortunately can lead to 1) addiction, that is dependence on an external activity in order to have the perception of mental wellness 2) diminished pleasure with activities other than those favorites which do give the dopamine response. The downside of number 2 is the development of anhedonia, that is, lack of interest in those activities one used to find pleasurable. Anhedonia is often the first sign of a depressive state.

Music

Technically some sources would have linked music above in the instant gratification category, however, I view music as an overall positive resource. The reason I view music in a positive light is the minimal lack of side effects from regularly utilizing it to improve well-being. Music has been showed to cause an increase in dopamine. Tesla believed strongly that reality as we know it was intimately linked with vibration and energy- the building blocks of music- the building blocks of everything.

Creating

Creating something, anything, is linked to improved self-esteem and feeling of wellness. I have seen this in my own life and know it to be true. Art, music, writing, etc. all are ways to create something and put it into the world. Humans are naturally social creatures who wish to share with others. Creating gives individuals, a sense of accomplishment and can also be a valuable coping skill and may allow the development of a deeper understanding of self.

Charity

Giving back to others without expecting in return has been integral in my own sense of well-being. Frankly, I’m not sure if it is necessary to give back in order to be happy and/or feel well. Nevertheless, the point here is not to give without expecting anything back. This works well for me and does truly help others to feel a little bit better as well (that isn’t to say that others’ happiness is dependent upon any external source, just that improvement in sense of well-being may occur from acts of kindness, random or premeditated).

Spirituality

Spirituality has become a fundamental piece of my own well-being and studying human sociology has allowed me to comfortably generalize that thought to others. When I say spirituality, I do not mean choosing any religion or philosophy off of the shelf and trying to blindly incorporate it into life. I am referring to the process of questioning the nature of reality and researching/soul searching. Humans are naturally inquisitive creatures, if you don’t believe me interview an eight-year-old. It is also important to understand that by spirituality I do clearly distinguish this sensation from that of mentalor emotional.

Death of Ego

The ego, or sense of self, is one of man’s ways of grappling with consciousness.