#i am so out of the loop on everything idk what’s going on tbh

[asavapatr]

perth_ss: let’s go to beach beach let’s go get away

[esoraluco]

Blue’s appartment but it’s ds pixel style

[puckpocketed]

new babygirl unlocked!! and he has HAIR!!!!!!

[ID: Photo of Los Angeles Kings prospect Aatu Jämsen in his Pelicans uniform. His hair is backlit to almost seem white, and streams out from under his helmet. /. End ID]

oh my GOD!!! new babygirl indeed... its giving barbie its giving goldilocks its giving hair on a my little pony toy... !

Quick notes on Aatu Jämsen. i am quite endeared. he is exactly my type of hockey guy <3

Plays RW! Drafted 2020, round 7, 190th overall. Before signing with the Kings, was playing for the Lahti Pelicans. Bit of a late bloomer, but he's tearing it up lately!! Probably why he got the nod from LA.

Per EP Rinkside, "Players with Jämsen's creativity are a rarity in Liiga. In a league where systems and team-wide strategy are at the forefront, Jämsen stands out with his puck skills and a flair for the dramatic. He's a legitimate dual-threat weapon in the offensive zone, and has also made some slight improvements to his physical game; a necessity if he wants to try to conquer North America next season."

So he's known for being very flashy. Quick, soft hands. Creative. Highlight reel stuff. GOATED on the shootout, apparently always trying crazy dangles in game... I'm SURE this type of prospect will be fine in the LA Kings system (<- lying but hopeful!! aslkdaskjl)

Here he is bullying the shit out of NHL24 champ/youtuber/ex-goalie Eki in the shootout. he yells "KUCHEROV" in triumph at one point after scoring on this guy who (checks notes) laced up skates to play goalie 2 times in the last 4 years - and i think that's so fucking lame and deeply charming.

and I am not surprised at all; he is VERY popular in the Finnish league.

Last month he got into a fight with Tampereen Tappara's Otto Rauhala. VERY unexpected, he's not a fighter at all. Rough google translate from this article, cleaned up a little by me:

Interviewer: What happened there? Jämsen: I don't know. Interviewer: So would you say Rauhala started it? Jämsen: You could say. I didn't appreciate his check in the first period of the game. Nothing more than that."

This is whole exchange is SO funny to me. what happened? he doesn't know. but if he had to say? then that guy fucking started it!!! but that's all <3 LMAO

HE MOONLIGHTS AS A RAP MUSICIAN. HELLO. His stage name is KIDJAM$EN kjlasdkljadlak HELP..,, here is one of his songs set to a short looping montage of Pelicans hockey players.. i think its a playoffs hype song??? I cannot understand a word of it. it DOES bang though!!! He plans to pursue music as a career if hockey doesn't work out. jumping from one risky career to another with no fear honestly go off!!! faith trust and pixie dust <3

everything about him i can dig up is like He's SOO flashy. eccentric. strange creachture. He bleaches his hair to get it that light. he did it to imitate Otto Salin, per this article. The picture is worth a thousand words tbh:

the fucking. LV sweater. the sunglasses. the coy look up at the camera. okay!!! cunt !!! <3

In the same article: he got very serious about nutrition and exercise last season after coming back from a break and getting BLASTED by his coaches for being out of shape. from the sounds of it, this dressing-down triggered his current meteoric rise? He was nawwwt taking his conditioning seriously before this. Since then, he's gained weight and become stronger, and has dedicated himself fully to going pro!

same article again: he's the scion of a hockey family - and god isnt that always the story?? His dad played for the Pelicans. his brothers Juuso and Vili also play hockey. The three have distinct play styles like a cute little set <3 Juuso the goal scorer, Aatu the playmaker, and Vili the GOON!!!

ough MIDDLE CHILD ALERT!!! it all makes SO much sense now....

Due to his flashiness on-ice AND off-ice, he naturally is a lightning rod for criticism. ice hockey is notoriously conservative as a culture and everything about him goes against this. Jams... Jammie... Jammer... idk what to call you BUT. your swag too different your slay too cunty, they're trying to kill you but you wont let them!!!!!

it seems instead of pivoting and making himself more palatable, he's only doubled down. i love and support him for this. if anyone has been on my blog they know i enjoy my guys with big personalities just as much as i love the quiet/underrated ones.

in conclusion, WELCOME TO LA. YOU ARE PERFECT FOR THIS TOWN, GORGEOUS <3

[snarkylinda]

I’m very glad you’re talking about spencer being parentified because it feels like people sometimes gloss over it a bit? or maybe I’m just looking in the wrong places. if this isn’t something you do in you’re blog feel free to just. not respond but do you have any more thoughts or. idk headcanons on how that might have affected him as an adult?

Hi anon! To be honest I have no idea what is essentially discussed alot on the fandom other that a tiny fraction of it I expose myself to because 1#I am too tired and old to deal with fandom discourse about my blorbo, and based on my previous experience with fandoms I KNOW that the most popular the character, the bigger the discourse so haha no- 2# I joined in late lmao literally a couple of months ago, so I am super out of the loop just screaming to the void in desperate needs for someone to scream back 🤲🏼 do this kind of asks actually made me so happy agahagaha 🥰🥰 Buckle up bois this is LONG-

Ok now to those that might come across this and ask themselves what the hell does being parentified means, it's a broad term used for the phenomenon of (at best) a child sharing parental responsibilities due to x circumstance, or (at worst) downright having the parent/child dynamic completely swapped, with the child being the caretaker for the parent and household. You don't have to know deep CM lore knowledge to realize the latter is Spencer Reid to a T. Hell, they aren't even subtle about it lmao:

Btw parentification is often mixed in with abandonment and while they share the "child being forced to grown up" too quickly, the former is often distinguished by the fact that, more often that not as is this case, the parent still cares for them but are unable to do so how it should be (tho there are several cases where parentefication is an part of willing neglect, sadly) and added to the fact that they have to look after themselves- they have to look after another.

This is a really complicated, broad topic and I just mentioned this to go full disclaimer and that I don't blame Diana at all for how messed her son ended up since she can't help it- and to make a joke about how Spencer was abandoned and parentified. Also harassed. Guys he wasn't even 18-

Anyways but back to your question, how do I think that affected Spencer growing up....well in everything basically lmao

But I will take on two instances that had stood up to me the most: emotional management and hiding secrets.

The second one is easier: you would catch this man dead before he vents to you over something other than his shitty dad (that I find very funny tbh) and when he does is because he is at his limit and about to fucking cry.

Now don't get me wrong: we all are entiltde to our privacy. These are grown ass adults and they have lives outside of their working circle....

Right?

Haha we have an problem-

So yeah, Spencer kind of actually needs to rely on his co-workers because he has literally nobody else to rely on-

And yet

Oh here is the thing- Spencer is one polite boi but he is also blunt, if he doesn't want someone on his business he says so (look back when Alex discovered him and Maeve) this is literally "I wanted to tell you but I feel like I shouldn't"- this is not season 1 mind you, this is season 11, and yet here he was one of his oldest friends literally grabbing him by the arm and having to tell him it's never a bother- I am the only one fucking crying at this?

Excuses seems to come to Spencer like it's second nature- "sorry a tube on my apparment broke" "Oh I....I tripped!" "There was a lot of traffic so..." "I was watching an movie" and I am not am expert on USA's history or some shit, but Child Protection Services had been a thing since at least the 60s, so I don't think that a 10yo living alone with his mentally ill mother would have flown well- you get the idea.

I think this scene summarizes the whole thing perfectly

Get it? it's irony. (I love how Spencer is about to say something like dismissive "thank you" but because this shit hit too close to home to comfort he just gave a polite smile and walked away. That silence was LOUD) Because Spencer had always had done the former but the latter er.... :D

And it's not only when it concern Diane btw, any problem whatsoever Spencer would rather lock himself up (literally lmao) that sit down and talk about it- it's only when his bs is exposed and he can't refutage (like that little scene after Gideon's death when Rossi asks him if he had been there all night- he points out the fact he is wearing the same cardigan as the day before) that he opens up....or he runs away, which leads me to the second big point that I think shows how much Parentification fucked him up:

Spencer has the emotional maturity of a teenager.

I talk about this literally all the time so I'll be shorter lmao basically Spencer... has an issue- ok he has lot of issues- and that is the way he dislikes direct confrontation, so whenever he is hurt or angry he would rather be dismissive and passive-agressive that talk it out with the person- even going as far as turning away and storming out of the room.

(Here is the part where I put the screencaps but him storming off would be out of focus so lmao er.... Elephant Memory, Memoriam, Proof, a little part in 15x2 and The Gathering)

Now... I do think that a grown-ass man doing this shit is hilarious, like I love Spencer's bratty side so much lmao but it's an clear sign of someone that never learned how to deal with his emotions on a healthy way, someone that 6 out of 7 days of the week had to interiorize everything in and because of that holds on so much....resement, so much repressed anger but also without an stable force on his life to help him manage that- so we are left with an teenager trapped in an adult's body, loss at how to handle shit like he always did.

....And want to know the worst part about an Parentified boy onto adulthood?

That they don't know better.

[masochistartt]

https://www.tumblr.com/masochistartt/764994876781756416/gonna-start-fights-tonight-all-ill-say-is-that?source=share

Would REALLY love to know specifics about what you are talking about here. I am primed to agree, I want the tea though

the main thing that my brain's been looping on tonight is that the prem is like. Not a pleasant work environment. it's not now and it especially wasn't when roy was Big. i get that we as a fandom watch a show that's meant to be relatively lighthearted but like. the easiest way to put this (i'm sleep deprived and this is gonna be rambly im sorry) is that the homophobic slur from 3x09 is pretty much the baseline of what it's like to go to a prem game. if you go on twitter after matches you'll see people reporting what they heard, and then you'll see other people replying to them calling them soft (or other slurs)

what i'm saying is the fanbase is more james tartt and less ted lasso ygm

and then roy especially but probably some of the other boys too aren't gonna be all. politically correct/know different queer labels/label themselves past gay/straight. these guys grew up (all of them) in the academy system where they were surrounded by this extremely toxic heteronormative masculinity from very young ages (yes i repeat every single one of them you kind of have to go through the academy system to get to the level where you're playing prem football)

i also think roy especially probably has outdated views about disability - i don't think he would ever want to be seen as "weak" (i have chronic pain i don't believe having chronic pain is weak but i do think it's the way roy would view it – we see him doing everything in his power to avoid being seen in pain publicly in rainbow - he's doubled over in pain in the tunnel, but he straightens his spine and steels himself so that that crowd (and the ones watching on tv) won't see him physically hurting)

also completely an aside but i saw that poll that was like "the boys having girlfriends came out of nowhere" no it did not lmao a majority (idk stats but i know from like. observation) of these guys have long term girlfriends, maybe wives, maybe kids. i'm surprised we don't see more players interacting with their kids in the show tbh, but there's only a certain amount of time for them to show that. it's genuinely a surprise to me that there were that many single guys to do the bantr ad in s3 with keeley and shandy bc in my mind almost every single one of them is in a long term relationship probably with kids

i think it could be fun to write out roy learning to be softer with himself and others, but in my brain (again this is all headcanon you don't have to agree with me), roy's probably said slurs on camera before, jamie probably wouldn't know the word bisexual (and if he did - entirely possible that keeley taught him - i don't think he'd label himself as such), most of the boys have wags/kids, and there aren't any out gay players in the prem (which makes colin's strength to come out to the team and the trust he has in trent significantly more weighted, imo)

this is all rambling but uh. if you need me to unpack anything more i can lmao

[infiniteorangethethird]

(kskdkrkekd ignore my ask before i sent it on accident before i could finish it)

hiiii we haven't talked in a bit so this is me popping by

how have you been doing? :)

i have finished reading hamlet so i am going to reread i fell in love with hope any day now and give you your promised highly detailed essay. yay? also i have been seeing a therapist, idk if i told you about that and i'm pretty sure that's a yay!! she's very nice

question time!! i miss your aro fic so i decided to ask something regarding that. firstly, can i ask why are there different mating systems? like, what is the in-world explanation and/or what is the narrative purpose? (idk if that's too much spoiler, you can just answer in private if you want or not answer at all, whatever you seem fit)

other question is about björn bc i love him. does he like musicals too?? i know you said you, yourself are not that into theatre but if yes, do you have an idea what types of musicals would be his fav?

that's all for now i think. you answer when you answer, if you want to at all - as always. no pressure!!

bye-bye (´^_^)ノ

hiiiii sorry this took me so long to get around to, I've finally started on my summer job and I can count my free seconds on just one hand 😭 otherwise I'm mostly fine, bit preoccupied with getting obsessed over various crochet projects and trying not to lose my sanity over them lmao

oh I am so looking forward to that essay of yours, it's been a hot moment since I read I fell in love with hope so perhaps this is a call for me to reread it as well. I'd say we should do a race to see who can finish sooner but I get the feeling neither of us needs any kind of extra stress right now, lol. And I'm glad to hear you found a good therapist! I remember you mentioned you were looking for one, so happy to hear that turned out nicely!

Imma be honest, it's been a hot moment since I thought abt my aro fic 😅 other projects came up and then I started working on Absolutely Nothing At All, so that one has been kinda put on the backburner lately - it's probably a good thing you're reminding me of it, then. Tbh I don't remember if I had any specific reason for multiple mating systems, I think I just wanted to represent many of them to say: no, the problem isn't with one specific system, the problem is with the idea itself. Then again I have been considering going through every idea I had thus far again and sort of "restarting" bc I wasn't entirely happy with what I came up with thus far, so who knows. Maybe next time you ask I will stick with just one system lol.

Oh yeah Björn is a really funny guy I love him too, for some reason I imagine he would be the type of person who loves musicals but purely for their music, and otherwise has zero clue as to what the musical is actually about. He would listen to the soundtrack on 24/7 loop but if someone came up to him like "actually this musical is about [plot]" he would give you the most confused surprised pikachu face. (What kind would be his favorite, I am honestly not sure)

man I really should think about getting back to writing this Thang I have been putting it off for so long I'm already forgetting things about it 😭

Anyway, how are you doing? I hope everything's going fine with you this summer break and that ur resting at least a little bit (and that your brain hasn't boiled yet in the heat lmao). Doing anything interesting lately?

[ofmermaidstories]

So I've got an Idea for a fic or even just a piece of writing. I really like the concept and get excited about building upon the idea to the point where I feel unmotivated to actually write it because I'm worried I won't be able to execute my ambition.

Do you have any tips to get started? And then, after that, to keep writing?

(Sorry if you've already responded to stuff similar to this. I've been told I'm a good writer, but I just don't see it, so I get caught up in trying to preserve my favorite ideas.)

oh emi. 🥺 idk if what i’m about to say will be in any way useful—the problem with advice about anything creative is that it is always subjective to how your brain works. but i will tell you what gets me through the rough patches, and out to the end, and maybe between that and us and the magic of your idea, it’ll help a little. 📒

tbh the one thing that i hold over myself is the fact that no matter what i write, it will not be perfect. 🥹 that is just a fact, and it’s true for all of us. you are always, always going to lose some of the glitter of your idea when you try to get it on a page. your brain does its little loopy-de-loops and twirls and spins around happily and like, doesn’t have to worry about like—transitional sentences. word choices. awkward sounding phrasing. LOL. your brain just gets to amuse itself in with this perpetual daydream and it doesn’t have to build it into a reality, word by painful word. it can ignore the labour because that labour doesn’t exist in the imagination!!!! so like, you have to make a choice. would you rather keep this idea of yours, this something exciting, as a colourful, perfect daydream—or would you rather try and see what it’s like in reality with you, tangible and there? will you regret it if you never try it, because you’re worried? 🥺 the gap between what we want to create and what we can—or think we can—can be so scary sometimes, but i think learning to recognise it for what it is (a gap of fear; a gap that might just need a little jump, or maybe a gap that needs the work of a ladder, or even a bridge) and say, “fuck it let’s do it” is vital to any sort of creative fulfilment.

it’s the same as all other things, really; sometimes we just have to do them to have them. 🥺 and emi—you sound like you really want to write your idea. 🥺 the hardest part will always be starting. the whatifs can be soooo strong and personally i always get hung up on the first sentence LOL, but you just have to go for it, if you really want it. 🥺

tbh this is the same kind of mentality you’ll need to finish your WIP, too—you only get to the ending after you’ve gone through the beginning and the middle, and the only way to do that is to do them. and the thing is, even if it’s not about creative discipline it will, eventually, be about motivation—because you are writing and posting a fic, and fic is so, so community driven. you will always need to want to finish it for yourself—people like to brush that aside in favour of the “engagement matters!” argument and it does it does it does and i’m not saying it doesn’t, but i am saying that you will need something to give you a backbone in the face of like, even benign rejection (a friend promising to read it, and then not. someone who interacts with you on everything else, but this. people who are there from chapter one disappearing, but still showing up in the notifs on someone else’s writing). you are human and you are working on something so wholly important to you and only you and maybe, luckily, one other person will like it! and then maybe two more will come after that, and then maybe ten but then maybe one day you’ll wake up and it’ll just be you again. it will suck, it will suck, and if you want to shelve your idea and get some space from it then you need to do whatever you have to so as not to let the bitterness ruin writing for you—but it’s you, you’re the one that has to make those decisions and you’re the one that has to write it and you’re the one that gets to decide what you want out of the experience that will be this fic.

everything i have finished, i’ve only finished because not bringing it to a close was worse for me than like—pushing through whatever horrific bullshit my brain was trying to convince me of at the time. i hate writing!!!!!!!!!!!!! but i start it and i end it because the alternative of not starting it, not ending it, is even more painful. if i didn’t write—no matter how messily, no matter how topsy turvy the reality is from the daydream of the idea—i’d be so bored. i wouldn’t know what to fill that gap in with. it’s like baking. like sewing. the long start and then the realisation that you’re holding something you made in your hands—that’s the feeling i want. and that’s the feeling i prioritise over everything, whenever i get the wobbles or the humdrums or the “meh no one will notice if i shelve this who cares”—i will notice. i care. i want to flip through the pages of my fic in an ereader, i want to hold it printed out—i want it, here, with me. not a glowing daydream. but real and imperfect and proof that i can do it—that i can do whatever i want, with a bit of work. there will always, always be other ideas—other perfect daydreams. you won’t be wasting anything by breathing in and making your choice with what you want to do with this one, emi. 🥺 no matter what happens. 🌷📖💕

[ioannemos]

1: the FLUFFIEST corgi was just in this coffee shop 😍

2. i know i'm out of the loop re which authors are hot rn but it's still funny when i'm looking at books on libby and it's like "for fans of these three authors!" and i've never heard of any of these people or their books

2.1 it does hurt me a little when a whole paragraph about the book is taken up with what awards it's won. why don't you tell me what it's about and put the awards at the bottom so if i'm on the fence it might convince me. when you put it at the top i scroll right on past bc i just wanna know what the damn book is about. i still have no idea what "all the light we cannot see" is about bc all the awards have invoked my hype aversion and i only skimmed "where the crawdads sing" bc there was a copy at the thrift store (actually two copies) (i sincerely do not know what all the fuss was/is about. like it was... fine? i guess?? didn't care for it tbh! esp the ending. spoiler warning but it went out with a whimper imo)

3. there's a local writers group that meets at the library at 10am on thursdays (not today, for some reason 🤔) (jk 🇺🇲🇺🇲🇺🇲) and i want to go but also. i am so insufferable about everything. idk what i'm the most insufferable about but writing is up there. also also i don't have anything i'd be comfortable having critiqued (unless everyone is cool with fanfic and even then idk bc the problems i have with my fanfic are always "i lost interest"/"there was never a plot so idk what comes next/where i want it to go") and i feel like to critique you ought to bring something to critique yknow? turn about is fair play and all

[boxwinebaddie]

hai uncle nina i feel the need to tell u this bc i involved u by sending that vent post, so hi its the same anon who asked ab my ex and i just sat down to take my apush exam, and the paper next to me has her name on it 😍 literally fuck everything oh my god 4 hour test and shes gonna be right next to me😭 ALSO? my friend sent me her story yesterday where she posted herself to GOOD LUCK BABE BY CHAPPELL ROAN😭😭 if u listen to it omfg youll see why that is SO WRONG OF HER😭 the AUDACITY.

hi there, nonnie! and no, thank you so much for keeping me in the loop with how your life is going! <3 i love hearing from y'all ccc'':

tbh, i wanted to answer your message -- mostly because i'm concerned about you, dearling -- but also to help break up all weird, deranged ooc posts i've been making on my blog as of late in lieu of completing actual asks. i'm trying to tell myself that it's...normal...to make ooc posts on your own...blog, but my brain is fighting it, lmao.

i also feel bad that a lot of the vent posts i receive/advice that's asked of me often times goes unanswered, so i just want to let you know that if you need any support, please feel free to ask again. i know i'm taking a break, but even so, i want you to have a safe place to land. <3

( my protective uncle older sister response down below >>> )

--- which is not to say i give sound advice because i wish i could think more of to say to you, darling, then UUUUUUUGH :( but truly! how annoying! and distracting! plus if i'm not mistaken based on the ap testing at my school rn, you're placed by last name, yes? or at least, i hope so, and hopefully did not torturously choose a spot next to you.

*squints menacingly at your ex for emotionally compromising ur test space and therefore impacting your ability to preform on ur test*

also as a gay girl...yes i am all too familiar with our lord and savior queen chappell roan ( also that anon that said i sound like super graphic ultra model girl...you are so right, wow ) and have been listening to her music nonstop, specifically good luck babe! ( yall are so lucky idk how to make it relevant to ravesey, you got spared ) but uhhh that's very foul and ironic considering what she did to YOU!

ew...trust me baby. karma will get her, i promise. stay strong, she can keep embarassing herself. i hope your test is going/goes well. make sure to take breaks, drink lots of water and from your favorite style teacher girlie, the grades that you get in school are in no way an indication of how smart you are. i am actually ( the smartest person ever, tyvm ) and i think you're brilliant. also, some nina lore: i got a three on my apush exam, i dropped out of ap gov ( oof ), but i got two fives on my lit and lang exams! <333 english nina riiiise haha.

head up, baby! let me know how it went.

also, irrelevant ig, mostly for me, but thank you for sticking around? perhaps it's my anxiety but i'm feeling very...annoying lately. i fear i looked too pretty recently and its god trying to humble me. it is only working slightly, i fear, and has only made my Future power stronger.

i'm sending it to you, darling.

*ravenstan vc* besitos bebe <3

-uncle nina, who is very proud of you <333

[microwaving-tesilid-argente]

ok guys i'm trying to put the playlist songs in order, here's the tentative order + reasons, lmk what you think!!

(major major spoilers for webtoon readers about the rounds that Tesilid went through before reuniting with Ailette)

(playlist link)

The concept I'm taking w this playlist is for it to mostly follow Tesilid's chronological POV, not Ailette/the reader's.

1. It's You: Pre-regression Tesilid, about Ailette. (tbh i think it also works near the end once the '17th' loop starts, but it lowkey feels a little too cheerful for Tesilid's POV at that point in time?)

I also kind of feel like there needs to be at least one song before It's You, for Tesilid before he first meets Ailette. But it needs to have super specific vibes??? Like, less depressing compared to the later ones, and more petulant and complain-y. The "why am I the only one with these duties..." and being too shy to accept food kind of vibes, the Tesilid doesn't have depression yet kind of vibes. but idk rn I can only think of angsty songs bc [spoiler] grabbed my whole brain.

2. Tell Me: idk i'm putting this song here just according to the vibes. It doesn't feel depressing enough to be late-regression Tesilid.

3. Theatre: Round 85-99 Tesilid (when he manages to save the world) or maybe even slightly before. He wishes he can just be himself and pleads with god, he just wants to stop acting his role. But he hasn't completely given up hope. He is still waiting for 'that someone out there' to hear his voice. The song feels like a cry of help and an expression of what he desperately wants, rather than a requiem or mourning of his old self and dreams. (tbh this can also work for current timeline Tesilid? for when he starts to see hope or a path forward again. This song is a little Too Tesilid it feels like it can fit most points of his very long life)

4. Show Me What I'm Looking For: Round 99 Tesilid, when he visits the Bible of Truth. "Ailette, I'm here... but where are you?" "Show me what i'm looking for" and he gets the truth of the world and. hahaha. he acts accordingly.

5. I am the Strongest: Reed. I used the instrumental instead of the lyric cover in the playlist bc i... don't really like the vocals and i can't find a cover of that cover... sorry. the lyrics really slap and fit perfectly though, 100% recommend going through it too.

Songs 3-5 (Theatre - I am the strongest) need to go in this specific order for maximum impact. It's the expression of what he actually wants > please just throw me a rope, i'll pay any cost, save me from being confused; show me a path and i'll follow it > ok i was shown one (1) path, time to destroy the world so i can no longer be hurt

6. Lower One's Eyes: i'm trusting vnikat on this being reed x Ailette for reasons that are spoilers to me as well. Chronogically it goes here because Ailette exists.

7. Flos: Current timeline Tesilid. Melancholic and tired and defeated and reminiscing about his old hopes and dreams and wondering if he can still have them. (I considered putting it at the front, pre-Theatre, but idk i feel like that pre-85 Tesilid wouldn't be this downtrodden and defeated because he was still diligently working towards what he thought was salvation)

8. 1/6 -out of gravity-: Ailette re-entering the scene and being super ready to do everything she can to relieve Tesilid's pain and burden by even just a little. I think this song really matches the tone of the first 2 seasons of the webtoon.

9. Endless Struggle: Tesilid feeling like he's sinned and that he doesn't deserve kindness, but he's doing his best to repent and become stronger

I think 1/6 out of gravity and Endless Struggle need to go as a pair. It's the juxtaposition of cute anime girl trying to cheer you up followed immediately by the emotional fallout of [spoiler]. I think the tonal change really replicates what we readers feel hahahahaha 🤗🥲

The rest of the songs are, i think, mostly just wishful thinking about what we hope/think the rest of the series might have. The tonal shifts here are more abrupt because they're kind of disjointed guesses.

10. I want to become your god: Not too sure about its inclusion. Saviour complex things. But the lyrics sound a little too hopeless & powerless to fit either Ailette or Tesilid's vibes at the current point of the webnovel translation. Ailette is powerful enough that she has a reasonable chance of saving the world and Tesilid. On the other hand, Tesilid kind of doesn't really care about saving anyone at this point, and I feel like even back when he did, it wasn't really out of a desperate need for self-validation like in this song. But I think this song definitely goes after 1/6 -> Endless Struggle! For maximum devastation.

11. Jiwa yang bersedih: Us coping and hoping that Tesilid will get to hear these words and internalise them lol. Putting this after I want to become your god, because I think even if Ailette can't completely undo all the pain that Tesilid has gone through, she can still soothe his pain in a way that few others can give him. and also eventually solve the whole godless world problem.

12. To Be Me: I'm just coping with the inclusion of this song. I just hope that Tesilid reaches a point where he starts to forgive himself and starts to live because even if it hurts, he genuinely believes that there's light at the end of the tunnel and that he can finally breathe and live as himself and discover himself so long as he keeps actively choosing to live. Anyway the lyrics for this song are beautiful and I think you guys should also listen to it even as a not-Tesilid song. Lines like "going forward, going forward, going forward but going back again" read completely different and hit really hard when it's about someone with a normal mortal lifespan and not a regressor doing introspection lol.

tldr; Feels like there's a missing song for pre-regression Tesilid's frustrations

i'll probably create another post for the final order to be put on my pinned post, and which is spoiler free so that any webtoon reader that comes across my blog or playlist can read it too

[amouress16]

RUIN Thoughts!

Under the cut for your convenience to avoid spoilers!

I have seen pretty much everything that is out/widely known about as of day one so I'm just gonna ramble about everything. Starting with positives and then getting into the things I didn't like towards the end. Cause hoo boy are my feeling very mixed about this whole thing let me tell you.

I like Cassie! We have proper context and motivation for her right off the bat. Immediate story improvements there!

The gameplay of the whole DLC looks way better. Personally I've never liked games that box you in to one path too much in a way it's too obvious, but the DLC makes it realistic and gives paths that loop back around to places you've been. The map still doesn't make sense but that's just the SB experience at this point I guess.

Eclipse. ECLIPSE. ECLIPSE CANON OH MY GOD. He's sweet and gentle and acts just like how a caretaker should! Sun pleading for help and Moon expressing their pain being forced to work as entirely separate programs, both of them fighting each other's triggers.... Aauughhhh I love them. The fact that all they needed for so long was a simple reboot and there were just no human workers around to do it.... 😭

AND ROXANNE. Seeing the side of the characters actually being child entertainers is so nice! Even if it was done just to make the moment bittersweet. "Do you still like carrot cake? I like carrot cake." They're all supposed to be kind. They're supposed to be good and wholesome and they've all been twisted into monsters that aren't their true selves.

High tech AR Vanny mask.... but no Vanny... 🤔 sure game, whatever you say

On the other hand, no map bot, but mask bot? Clever sleight of hand Steel Wool, I see you

Bonnie design reveal!!!! Further implications that Monty murdered him!!! I...! I'm not sure I like it. It's difficult because he has no consistency in his appearance. The Bonnie Bowl mascot is purple like OG Bon but the design we see in the gator ride telling Monty's backstory is blue. What are those shoulder pads and how would that work on an animatronic, like at all?? He has no room to move his head! Don't get me started on the inconsistent coloring between his gloves and his outfit. Idc if I sound pretentious for this, the clothing choices hurt me as an artist tbh. If you're gonna make him blue let him wear hot pink or or even yellow. Idk idk it just didn't mesh to me. Oh and his neon sign had the star glasses but his cut outs didn't. Inconsistency is Steel Wool's middle name.

What is with the glitchy shadow rabbit? Why is it shaped like a map marker? Is that supposed to be Glitchtrap? A security system...? I don't understand the point of this storywise at all but sure gameplay go brrr I guess

What the fuck is the Mimic. No seriously. I don't know what it is. Why is it here. What is happening. I am well versed in the canon of these games what is- .......... So it's another Book Thing. Haha. No. Bad. Stop that. Whoever signed off on the "let's add book lore to the games with no explanation or fathomable reason" decision, I am spraying you with a water bottle. Stop alienating those of us who don't have the time/money/desire to buy and read the books. I hate the books personally and have been actively ignoring them since the Plushtrap Chaser one. They are meant to be fun side stories for people who want that, not main game canon!!! Stop it!! I am actually begging you!!

TL;DR I like the characterization given to everyone this time around, it felt right for them. Bonnie's design is inconsistent and kinda mid. And trying to force in booklore most people won't know about is just stupid and I'm mad about it. That's about it.

I definitely wanna draw Cassie with Roxy post game- because I do believe she survived that elevator crash- and maybe make a Bonnie design I'll like better. And I definitely wanna see other people's art. That'll be the best part of all of this.

[icedmetaltea]

Y O U

I've been meaning to do this for a while BUT I KEPT FORGETTING Fanfic emoji asks!

😅 🎢 ✨ 🎶 🍷 🍆 ❌ 🎃 🎯 🎨 🤩 🤯 🥰

(Hopefully it works because I am currently on laptop so I'm copy pasting some of the emotes :D)

Seems to have worked fine! And I looked back in my blog but couldn't find it so I just searched for it, hope it's the same one >.<

😅 What's a story or scene you've created that you're a smidge embarrassed exists? - Tbh I feel like after any amount of time, all of my work is embarrassing to look back at 〒▽〒

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride? - Prolly Occupational Hazards, and maybe the one I'm currently writing since it's also gonna have a lot of action/horror

✨ Give you and your writing a compliment. Go on now. You know you deserve it. - NO >:ccc Ok well I guess??? I'm proud of like actually getting myself to make stuff I want to make. It's so easy for me to come up with ideas (well most of the time) but actually writing them??? Hhhhhhhhhgghhgh

🎶 Do you listen to music while you write? What song have you been playing on loop lately? - Yep! Atm my current go-to is this because it fits the vibe of the story pretty well

🍷 Do you drink and write? - Occasionally?? I don't drink much since I have a sensitive stomach and when I do I don't tend to try writing because I get all giggly and lazy

🍆 Do you write the spicy stuffs? If so, what's your most popular nsfw fic? - Technically?? But I keep a majority of them for me myself and I because a majority of my spicy content is in fact highly specific to my interests and well, it's eMBARRASSING ----┌( ಠ_ಠ)┘ Out of the two I've posted publicly in this fandom, How to Lure a Handler is obvs the most popular since I deleted the other gjreigjioejgioj (and for good reason, jesus christ it was self-indulgent to a fault)

❌ What's a trope you will never write? - Probably any kind of major character death, UNLESS they come back right away or it's a major character who sucks- like Pee paw Asston

🎃 Do you write fics for certain holidays? Which is your favorite holiday inspired fic? - Technically?? Usually I get too busy with holiday stuff/have too much pressure to write something for a holiday that it discourages me from actually writing anything, but You Will Be a Monument to my Name is technically a very late Halloween fic

🎯 Have any of your readers accurately guessed major plot points? Care to share which? - Some of my readers have created major plot points 😂 Seriously my readers are so much more imaginative than I could ever be (I use said plot points only with their consent + credit)

🎨 How do you feel about fan art of your stories? - I ADORE IT AND EAT IT AND DEVOUR IT AND WANT TO PIN IT ON MY WALLS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA but at the same time I feel completely undeserving of it

🤩 Who is your favorite character to write? - ............ ogireuhgj3rhgu5r3uguihg Ya'll know this one ☀️

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)? - Every genre tbh, but especially action/thriller/horror because idk I tend to write everything in a chronological?? way rather than using descriptive sensory elements and such. Ironically it's my fav genre/s to write

🥰 How do you feel about reader interaction? Are you open to receiving questions about your fics? - ABSO-FUCKIN-LUTELY and again I feel like a potato who does not in any way warrant any kind of people's time BUT I STILL LOVE AND APPRICIATE IT EVEN SO

[subbyfoxelf]

[book review] forgotten realms: the legacy by r.a. salvatore (1992)

drizzt: *literally notices that something is off about “regis”* entreri (disguised as regis): hey drizzt remember ENTRERI, your arch nemesis ENTRERI, that really handsome & deadly & skilled & did i mention handsome ENTRERI? what do you think ENTRERI is up to drizzt: entreri: by the nine, you are taking the fun out of this. I AM LITERALLY ENTRERI. drizzt: you’re acting a little weird today, regis.

you know, i’m suddenly realizing that i don’t think the books i’ve read in this series so far have never actually gone out of their way to say that drizzt was smart? i just kind of always assumed he was supposed to be? is he a himbo twink? i’m starting to think he might be a himbo twink.

i continue to feel basically “whatever” about the drizzt/wulfgar/cattie-brie stuff. i did appreciate cattie-brie standing up for herself, and it wasn’t the most “cishet guy writing a female character standing up for herself” rote shit ever, but it also wasn’t… entirely not that? despite it seeming pretty obvious that some effort was being made? idk, just, mixed feelings here.

wulfgar’s “death” hit decently hard even though he super isn’t one of my favorite characters and i know it isn’t gonna last. the fakeout deaths are getting to be a bit much (a bit ominous considering how early this is in the series tbh), but they’re written evocatively enough that they’re still hitting. for now.

this book… sorta? kinda? slightly? actually takes a few tentative steps forward on the whole awkward racism thing that salvatore himself has publicly “my bad”ed about recentlyish? though, it’s not without its own shortcomings. idk. let’s talk about it.

okay actually, looping back to the cattie-brie stuff, it’s kinda weird that after all the hand-wringing about baby’s first human murder a few books ago (explicitly contrasted with the fact that she’s apparently unfeelingly slaughtered orcs & goblins with no issue), she’s the one who points out that maybe they should have a quick chat with the goblins before using them for target practice? and that that discrepancy isn’t… really… remarked upon? at all? idk, just feels worth mentioning.

also bringing back the sexism angle, drizzt (and the narrator, from what i can tell) seems to think that cattie-brie actually doesn’t give a shit about the poor little gobbies doing their gobby chores (they’re doing a good job!!!!!! be nice to them!!!!!!) and is just sublimating her anger at wulfgar into the whole “hey let’s maybe not do a mass murder without at least offering some non-murder menu options” argument. which, in fairness, cattie-brie does stick to her guns even after the battle that parlaying first was the right thing to do and she would argue for it again. but idk. there’s just so many holes in this thing. like, i’m not expecting it to be perfect or anything, and it did genuinely represent a slight step forward? maybe? but it’s still not great imo.

now, one actual improvement is drizzt actually coming to grips with the fact that his vow never to kill another drow while he kills orcs & goblins & others with impunity is actually pretty fucking racist. that was a genuinely pleasant surprise. i’m going to continue to be pretty guarded about this subject in these books considering, y’know, everything. but it’s nice to see even a little improvement.

but yeah, i think that does it for the stuff i need to take somewhat seriously. so here’s where i talk about why this one mostly ruled.

the fights between drizzt & entreri were obviously kind of headliners for me, and a very big part of why i liked this book so much. also i kind of totally expected entreri’s initial fakeout death to last until the next book he appears in, so having him pop immediately back in like a fucking slasher villain with his freaking bat-winged cloak??? that was so extra, i genuinely love it. no notes. you’re doing great sweetie.

drizzt spent a good amount of the middle of the book tied up and being taunted by other drow and/or entreri, which, y’know, yeah, tie that fucking twink up & show him who’s boss. i am not projecting. i am not.

(... i may be slightly projecting.)

yeah, ok, yeah. u caught me. mostly i’m just glad to have all the horny drow shit back for the first time since the dark elf trilogy. (which i get was actually the most recent series when this was written & originally released, but i read the dark elf trilogy first because it was the only one i was sure i was gonna read at first, shrug!) we start strong with vierna forcing dinin to kneel with a command spell (what no a powerful woman with a whip saying “KNEEL.” and being compelled to obey doesn’t sound good to me at all, why would *sweats*), and when he turns out to be too mouthy she turns him into a fucking drider and rides him around like some kind of fucked-up horse? which like, no the thing itself isn’t especially appealing, but as far as power moves go, nine hells.

ahem.

honestly the only way these books could pander to me more is if they had more orcs (and if those orcs were characters rather than faceless hordes), but i’m still really grooving on them atm. and my understanding is the next book has even more kinky drow bullshit in it, so can’t wait for that!

b-rank

[acircusfullofdemons]

PARAMAY DAY 13 (CREATION)

*inhales* oh boy, here we go…

Claypso was created on January 12, 2018, the day/day after I had seen the movie “The Greatest Showman”. It Unlocked something in my brain because the MOMENT I got home I pulled up Pinterest & started looking for inspo to make a Cool New ~*Self Insert OC*~. I can't really remember my exact thought process (who knows wtf 14yo Luka was on) BUT I do know I specifically made Calypso to represent "me". I would then joke for the next 2ish years on how, despite this, I made Calypso a boy when I identified as a Cis Girl. Idk I just find that fact so funny now that I’m nonbinary. (In the same vein, I also made him confident/proud of his bisexuality when I still had no clue if I was bi or not. We love projecting onto our own ocs/paras <3).

Calypso is the parame I remember actively making, thinking, "this Character is me but runs a circus" (I had just seen The Greatest Showman so inspo was strong there lol). Which is funny, because if you look at Cali, then look at me, I don't think you'd think/realize that?? His personality is very much…the opposite of mine lol. I am not a super cool extrovert that has multiple friend groups and goes on odd adventures. I’m on tumblr participating in a month-long oc challenge. Clearly something went wrong /j.

Uh. I made him at a time when I was questioning if I was Bi or not (I mean i was a freshman/starting highschool. Do any of us know who we truly are then?) so I kinda projected that into him??? In all honesty I feel like he should fall somewhere on the aro spectrum as well, since I'm aro & that's important to me, but I want it to evolve naturally if it at all happens so I won't entertain the idea just yet.

Funny enough, homeboy has always been a homeboy. Er, what I mean by that is, even tho I made him based off of me/representing me, having him be a (cis) male was one of my first decisions for him. At the time I wasn't 100% sure why, maybe I was influenced by the movie, which had Hugh Jackman star/play as PT Barnum, both males. But uh *looks @ nonbinary flag* I think there's a reason why now. Also part of the reason he's so feminine / """girly""" I guess. Tbh I probably projected into him a lot more than I realize (coughdaddyissuescough) but he is my parame & started out as a paraself, so it's fair.

Oh wow I haven’t even gotten into the original version of his story yet. It’s honestly not that different from how it is now, with a few minor differences. Originally, he was just the circus’ ringleader and died trying to save Clairette from a lion attack. The time loop was because he was the son of Persephone and Morpheus (yes..the greek gods…they were a thing in this once) so I think Persephone allowed him to be a Poltergeist?? OH and Macbeth was his half brother which made their relationship kind of sad because Cali genuinely wanted a sibling relationship but Macbeth just wanted him dead (Macbeth is a Reaper and his job is to collect Souls Cali is literally a lost soul do u see the problem here).

The VR stuff was always canon (except for that brief period of time where I got insecure and it wasn’t and everything was just their normal life which made things less confusing but also there was literally no plot lmao). Idk what else to say uhm fun facts: 

His default playlist is a little over 8hrs long and is currently the longest playlist I have on Spotify (that I listen to. My instrumental playlist is a little longer but tbh I rarely touch it).

He used to have gold eyes. They were quickly changed to blue and got shifted into the turquoise they are now! In addition to that, his first design used to have him wearing an actual ringleader outfit. He also used to have black hair, then light purple, and finally the dark purple it is now. In total he’s been through roughly 7-8 redesigns.

Cali is combined with a previous character, Anthony Morningstar. Anthony was inspired by Pride!Roman (an AU of Roman Sanders from the webseries “Sanders Sides”) and is the reason Calypso is now a prince! I scrapped Anthony because I had no idea what to do with his character and felt like him & Cali were too similar to really justify them being different people.

The tarot cards that represent him are “The Magician” and “Page of Wands”.

“A Million Dreams” from The Greatest Showman is his theme song.

....this is all probably Too Much. hm. have the first drawing of Cali I ever did (it is from 2018 😞)

[nerdyenby]

Cyan time :D I’m watching Ranboo

Pre-game

They look so silly /pos

“This is the first MCC in like 12 of them that I’ve been wearing pants” are you wearing pants under the dress sir???

That crown is straight up floating, I know it’s on a headband but it is just not touching his head

Y’all did you know that Ranboo has a show???

Is this Ranboo’s first repeat costume? Or have they not done Rosalina before? He said he bought the costume a couple days ago but I swear he’s been Rosalina before

“‘Men used to go to war’ I could go to war in this, it’s called psychological manipulation”

Do amab people get banned for being shirtless on twitch? I know hot tub streams are a thing so idk

Taylor Swift is an ARG, so true

STOP WITH THE RITTIES I CANT

I WILL GO WATCH OLI INSTEAD, DONT MAKE ME

I am so so SO ready for the Oli and Ranboo chemistry

WHO THE FUNK CALLED OLI TOMMY?!!? I WILL FIGHT YOU /j

Oli is an artist, don’t underestimate him

WHAT THE HELL OLI??????

Ran and Oli looking to Callum for igl and Callum just not even trying because he just knows Tommy’s gonna show up five minutes late with Starbucks and team leader energy

Oli is so out of the loop, Eloise just freaking fed him lies, as she should

I see this team placing between 2nd and 6th in every game, they’re so well rounded

Oli trying to get Ranboo to unlock their true potential and Callum’s just “This is gonna be a really special event” 😭

The way I only just remembered Oli’s reputation as cursebreaker and now I’m ready to actually believe in them winning

Ran and Aimsey barking and meowing at each other 😭

Ranboo is dying

“Considering earlier a week ago we were not discord friends, I now see you as a close one” this is everything I hoped for out of this matchup

More than half expecting tommy to be a no show tbh

How are they going to fit a fourth person into this call, it’s already so much energy and we gotta fit Tommy in here

PEER PRESSURE FOR THE WIN!!

Y’all 😭😭😭

I swear very rarely but this stream got me “wtf”-ing all over the place

“Bark at your therapist” will do, Tom o7

Aqua’s skins are so cool!!!

Tommy banned from mcc, real and true

The screen feels so empty without the vtuber

Grid Runners

BEST GAME TIME!!!

Why does everyone except Ranboo have garbage opinions today, grid runners my beloved

Wish it was later tbh but considering how abysmal these comms are about to be this might be for the best

WHY IS RANBOO DOING A BRITISH ACCENT????

THAT DUNK TANK RUN HOLY CRAP!!!

The way everyone but Ran fell 😭😭😭

Grid is not your worst game, y’all have energy and synergy

*Taking notes* 10th is sick and 3rd is hot

OLI WHY THE HELL WOULD YOU WANT TO SKIP SANDS???

We skip one of the parkour games or tgttosawaf, right? Right????

Top 3 things most wrong with the world according to Tommyinnit: climate change, men, and elevators

Parkour Warrior

The pkw logo 💕💗💕💗💗💕💗💕💗💕

Highkey thought they played this in the event Tommy and Oli won together but that was the other event Oli won, my bad

No one reacting to Ranboo screaming his lungs out is so real

Why is Tommy like this???

CALLUM MVP!!!

THOSE ARE MY BOIS!!!!!!!

Ran and Callum cheering for each other :(((

They got joint 2nd, I love this team so much you guys

Sands of Time

Tommy: “Tell me what to do” Oli: *tells him what to do* Tommy: “No, f*ck off”

This team’s energy oscillates like nothing else, I swear

A different word puzzle, thank god

Mmmm slippy bees

This is such a frantic sot, I think they’re good they just all sound so urgent it’s stressing me out

No one jailed, is that a first???

Ace Race

Ran pulling a Wilbur and tabbing out to adjust music mid ace race

“I’m losing it” sir, you lost it a while ago

Aimsey popping off!!!

Meltdown

“Who’s leading this? “I’m scared to say this, but I think Oli” CALLUM 😭 that is the most backhanded compliment I’ve ever heard, my goodness

I feel like it’s been so long since I’ve watched meltdown

I don’t know how to commentate meltdown, Al there is to say is that that was insane

Callum last man standing real

This bit is killing me

I’m losing it

Battle Box

“I hate battle box” “HEY, IF YOU GO INTO IT WITH A MINDSET OF HATE YOURE JUST GONNA INDERPERFORM, MAN! OK? YOU HAVE TO GO INTO IT WITH A POSITIVE MINDSET OR ELSE I’M GOING TO KILL YOU!” new tiktok audio just dropped, you guys

“Guys I really wanna win 🥺” “Do you? 🤨” the emojis are so necessary, you don’t understand

That round against orange was great

This is not going well lmao

Sky Battle

I believe

Heck yeah

Ran getting three kills!!

I love Ranboo’s skybattles because they never expect anything to go well so when it does he just gets so excited :))

This is exactly how skybattle should look after a round ends, look at that beautiful mess

They’re manifesting that hitw finale so hard, I believe (I also got spoiled but y’know)

Hole in the Wall

I’m just happy to be here, hitw is so fun

Ran top 5, as he should!!

“East, East, f*cking yellow, sorry” “Shut the f*ck up” ah yes, synergy

Everyone yelling at Tommy to shut up when he couldn’t hear them 😂

RAN TOP 5, AS HE SHOULD!!

Oli’s “I’m just- I’m glad you all went with my bit” and Ranboo’s matching the faux emotions: “Of course, man”

“MCC in the 80s was just Scott in his basement playing tetris” there is so much wrong with that statement, including but not limited to A) the 80s were forty years ago, not thirty, B) Scott is neither thirty nor was he alive in the 80s, and C) Tetris was only made in the ‘85 and wasn’t released until ‘87

Dodgebolt

Casually discussing what irl names they think fit Shane better than “Shane” lol

Ayo wait the arena is nonbinary colors :)))

GUMI MY BELOVED <3333

Jimmy!!!! :D

GG, great vibes, great times everyone

[usahanna]

An Analysis And My Opinion on My YouTube Recap: because apparently i have nothing better to do

cw: cringe

Lovejoy as my #5 Artist: I was kinda confused at first since i don't rlly listen to Lovejoy on my own but i do put their EPs whenever we are in the car so, yeah that's fair

MARINA as my #4 Artist: MOTHERFUCKER ARE YOU TELLING ME LISTENING TO 4 SONGS GOT ME HERE??????? BROTHER WHAT THE HELL

Ok I'm not complaining complaining but. did i really. listen to them that much .

Yuki Kajiura as my #3 Artist: Ok at first glance i was confused at who she was but i looked up her name on youtube and. y yeah. yeah that makes sense (she is the composer of the PMMM soundtrack)

Gorillaz as my #2 Artist: Mhm yeah tbh i was also going to be surprised if Gorillaz didn't appear at some point haha. all i'm going to say is: one hyperfixated tumblr user has the power of 1,000,000 ads

Glass Animals as my #1 Artist: Yeah! i was expecting this one, i listened to all three of their albums daily at one point, so i was going to be surprised if they didn't appear. The Other Side of Paradise Red Rocks Live appeared on the recap too and i thought that was funny

now...

#5 Direct Lounge by sleepCircle: Ahh i'm pleasantly surprised with seeing this here! I forgot i used to play this one in loop, it's so vibey. I think i'm going to listen to this daily again, i recommend it a lot! It's really good

#4 Poems n' Thorns by Saruky: Heheh this is one of my favorite FNF Mod songs. Nothing else to add, i understand why it's here and i just like it a lot :>

#3 Enemy by Imagine Dragons: I'm... confused? I don't remember listening to this song this much. I had it in a playlist that i would listen to a lot so that's probably why this one is here. I ain't complaining tho, this song fucks, also!! you should watch Arcane!!! right NOW!!!!!!! ⚡⚡⚡

#2 World Is Mine (by supercell) Live: Surprised to see this one here! I got into listening Vocaloid music again and i didn't know i was listening to this video in particular so much haha (and yes it's one of my favorites)

#1 Challeng-EDD (END MIX) by Philiplol: i am crying. i am sobbing. iam on the floor. i audibly screamed when i saw this as my number one. youtube called me out on my fixation with Eddsworld earlier this year and i am in hell

but despite everything, it still goes hard.

TLDR: idk man my music taste is weird as fuck