#i am so grateful that there are ppl out there who can eloquently put their two cents out into the world abt stuff like this

[heich0e]

inside of me there are two wolves

[dispatchpodcast]

been wanting to send u this for a while but it took me some time to think of more eloquent words to convey my admiration for you for creating the dispatch podcast other than “this is so freakin awesome” 😭

I finished listening to the 2 first eps and I CANNOT tell you how much pure joy they gave me 🥹 like you and kris/hattalove, I came into this fandom bc I was curious about the silly little firefighter show and the handsome-and-supposedly-platonic-coparents-of-a-young-child besties I kept seeing on my dash….. never did I imagine that I would be here, almost a year later, completely sucked into the madness.

I’ve never been in a fandom quite like this one before and the amount of work and, really, of themselves, that I see ppl put into this Thing is so incredibly surreal.

so I guess what I’m trying to say is, thank you!!!!!! 💜💜🧡💛💙💙💙 I’m so grateful for all u creators who put out this unbelievable, quality, well-crafted, meticulously planned and conceived content!!!

something in particular about hearing real people’s real voices talking about this thing that, in my head, previously only existed as Words On The Internet is sO sksjdjefFJKSLSKA. I am just. Mind blown.

anyway yea thank u hope u have a good day 💖

Sorry for not answering this right away. I needed some time to try and come up with an adequate response to such a lovely, thoughtful message!

I don't think I have succeeded. I'm (somewhat) better at verbal communication vs written - hence the podcast! But I wanted to say thank you very much for sending this, it made my day!

I am so pleased that you're enjoying the podcast. This really is a special fandom and I am glad that I can contribute. If Dispatch brings even a fraction of the joy to others that the fandom brings me then I will have managed to do what I hoped.

Thank you again <3

[pens-swords-stuff]

l related to your post about people using you for advice/positivity, for me it's happened 10+ times, they ask then ignore me after getting what they want and it's really discouraging as someone who doesn't make friends easy. ppl have a sheep mentality: they see a person ask you for stuff and do the same. perhaps suggesting a list of blogs similar to yours could lessen your load?

Thanks for sending this in, it’s good to know that I’m not the only one who feels this way.

That being said, I don’t mind people asking me for advice! (please read my ask guidelines however!) I wouldn’t do it if I didn’t like to, and I don’t even care about lessening my load. I’m actually a really selfish person — I like being someone who runs events all by my lonesome, and I like being someone that people feel can go for advice. I would never even consider doing that. I want all the glory and credit for myself ;D

And I like spouting positivity too. I make those positivity posts for a reason, and I’m really glad they’ve resonated with a lot of people. Giving advice and spreading positivity isn’t what bothers me.

Just going to say this up front: I’m not thinking of a certain person or anything. I’m not trying to call anyone out either, I’m just talking about in general.

What really irritates me is when people use me, and when people are entitled.

I’m a pretty big blog if I do say so myself, and people know that. I can tell when people only talk to me in hopes of using me so that they can gain followers/notes. It’s pretty hurtful to realize that they don’t actually care about me, and all they want is the notes and followers they would gain from pretending to be my friend. 

Also the phrasing of some asks that are asking me for advice… While not malicious, can be pretty grating and impolite. Asks that say nothing but “Tips on [insert something here]?” can get weary after a while.

And to be completely honest… I don’t have that much influence you guys. Being friends with me is not a way to guarantee hundreds of reblogs on your original content (trust me, I don’t get as much interaction as you think I do, I’m struggling too). You’re not going to gain hundreds of followers because I interact with you either.

The other thing that really gets me is being told what to do, and this goes hand-in-hand with ‘feeling used’. I get asks that say “pssst you should check out [insert tumblr blog here]”, or people DMing me asking me to reblog their posts. I’ve had a few people come into my inbox asking me for positivity, to make them feel better about themselves in a woe-is-me kind of way.

And just to be perfectly clear: I understand why people do this. I also want to say that people who do this aren’t necessarily doing something wrong. And the majority of people who have asked me to reblog their posts have been super polite and understanding.

It’s on me, honestly. I am super petty and not as nice as people think I am.

I hate it when people ask me to do stuff like that (and again, they’re not necessarily doing anything wrong! As long as you’re being nice, polite and understanding it’s fine). But I personally hate it. If someone tells me to check out their own blog, if someone asks me to promote their content, if someone asks me for validation and positivity…. I don’t want to do it. At all. (Also I put it in my FAQ that I will not do reblog requests or promotions so…)

I could go into the details of why I’m like this because there have been quite a few experiences of me being super used since I’m a pushover who has trouble saying no. But honestly I know it’s a flaw of mine, and I know I don’t need to be super irritated over this. It’s not a big deal, and it’s all entirely my fault that I’m reacting childishly like this.

But I want to do things on my own terms. I want to promote people because I like their content, not because someone told me to. I want to give positivity because I want to, not because someone asked me to. I want to follow people because I like their blog, not because they told me to check them out.

Sorry for the rant, if you read this far! It’s not eloquently stated or anything, but it’s something that’s been on my mind for a while now.