#i am nursing a sore throat and aching legs after blowing out my voice and walking like 40k in a very short space of time hahaha

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AHHHH hello again everyone!!! :3c i've come back from a gig to find i've received two absolutely lovely ArtFight attacks so far - they're amazing!!! what did i do to deserve this?!?! 😭💖💖💖 gonna have my work cut out for me in terms of revenges...but after work today it's time to draw!!!! 🔥

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take my scars & make them stars - ch 8

Rating: M Ship: Kristoff/Anna Chapter Eight

Tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Sick Fic, Cancer Fic, Chronic Illness, Chemotherapy, Modern AU, Coffee Shop AU, Fluff and Angst, Fluff, Eventual Smut, Angst with a happy ending, Mutual Pining, Mentions of Character Death

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A small light... white walls… There was a heaviness in Anna’s limbs. As well as a dryness in her mouth, her ulcers ached and burned from the lack of moisture. There was intrusive air blowing into her nostrils. She felt sore all over. Dull pain shooting through her fingers as she attempted to bend them. 

“Anna?” 

That voice… definitely wasn’t Elsa. But instead, she realized after a moment that was definitely the sound of a certain blond. 

Blinking open her tired eyes, Anna languidly processed her surroundings. She was in the hospital. It was dark in the room aside from a small light on the wall. Searching the room, she found Kristoff sitting in a chair in the corner. He was looking up from his phone that was still illuminated in his hand. 

“K-Kristoff…?” she gasped out. Her voice was raspy, clearly she’d been out for a few hours. 

Dropping his phone in the seat, he moved over to her. “You’re awake, huh? The sedative must’ve worn off.” 

She blinked slowly, taking him in. What was he doing here? Why was she here? Wait. Sedative? Anna felt her heart rate spike, panic washing over her as she glanced around the room. Moving to sit up, she gasped at the ache in her bones. 

“Sedative? Wha--? Kristoff, why am I? What’re you--?” 

He hushed her, shaking his head as he gently pushed her shoulders back into the bed. “I’ll go get Dr. Mattias, okay?” 

Taking a deep breath, Anna nodded. “Y-Yeah. Okay.” 

Giving her a small smile, he bobbed his head before his hand left her arm. Kristoff gave her one last once over before leaving the room. 

While he was gone, Anna tried to calm herself as she’d been taught. Slow breathes. In the nose and out the mouth. In and out. In and out. She grounded herself, taking note of her surroundings. What she could feel. What she could see and hear…

The door opened, and Dr. Mattias walked in with Kristoff in tow. The blond hung back, going back to the chair in the far corner of the room. He said nothing, but Anna could see the worried lines on his forehead. She watched as he leaned forward, placing his face in his hands. 

But her attention on him was disrupted when Dr. Mattias began to speak. 

“Hello, Anna. It’s good to see you’re up.” 

Anna smiled at him. “Thank you. Um, what exactly am I doing here?” she asked, glancing between the doctor and Kristoff. 

“Well, you collapsed, technically, yesterday afternoon since it’s about three am now. There’s nothing wrong with your numbers, so we just assume maybe you overwhelmed yourself,” he said. Dr. Mattias pulled up another chair, taking a seat beside her bed. “Have you been pushing yourself too hard lately?” 

“Uh,” she looked at Kristoff. He was staring out the window. She knew he was listening, so she didn’t want to just blame him for the situation. It wasn’t his fault. Yes, she had been a little overly emotional because of the situation regarding him. But it was her decision to try to distract herself with constant remedial tasks that she normally wouldn’t have. Anna nodded shamefully. “Y-Yes… I’ve just been stressed. I’ve been doing a little extra.” 

Dr. Mattias hummed. “I see. Well, Anna, your treatment is so close to completion that I’d recommend you really take it easy. We’re so close to the end of this journey, and I’d hate for you to get too overzealous and relapse. I don’t want to put you on bed rest, but I do want you to stay home for a while, okay? No long walks through the town for a while, alright?” 

She agreed. “Yes, sir. I understand.” 

“Alright,” he smiled and patted her on the shoulder when he stood. “Just stay hydrated. Don’t skip any meals, either. Got it?” 

“Yes.” 

“Good. We’ll release you in the morning. If you need anything, just let one of the nurses know.” 

“Thank you, Dr. Mattias.”

He gave her a nod as he opened the door. “Good night, Anna. Get some more rest. See you in the morning.” 

Anna watched her doctor take his leave. Her heart tightened almost painfully in her chest as she gazed over at Kristoff. His attention was on the city lights shining through the window, not daring to take a peek at her. She couldn’t blame him… the last time they’d seen one another hadn’t ended well. They both said some stupid things. Anna knew Kristoff wasn’t actually angry with her, it was just his defense mechanism. Didn’t everyone have that? Especially those who had been through such a tragedy. 

Swallowing thickly, she willed the dryness in her throat to dissipate before she spoke. “Will--Will you tell me about her?” 

Kristoff’s eyes shifted, giving her a sideways glance. 

“A-About Pepper?” she elaborated. 

He turned to face her fully then, eyebrows raised above his hairline. The stunned expression on his face had her stomach churning, but she wouldn’t give up. Surely, he wouldn’t have stayed here if he hadn’t wanted to make things right between them. 

“Anna, I--I am so sorry. I know I should’ve told you about her a long time ago. I was just so afraid to scare you.” 

Shaking her head, she smiled. “I know, Kristoff, I know. I’m sorry for how I acted. I was just--I was so hurt that you’d kept such a big part of your life from me--” 

“And I shouldn’t have.” 

“I know, but it’s okay. You wanted to keep me hopeful. I’ve… I’ve never had someone look out for me like you do, Kristoff. Not even Elsa. Or Gerda. Or my parents. I just--I took it so personally. Like I had done something wrong. Like… I wasn’t mature enough to handle it.” 

Kristoff sat up then. “Anna, it was never that. I never, ever meant to make you feel inadequate. Or like you were a child I was protecting. Or--Or a charity case like you thought. It was never that. You were just so… positive. And shit, if I ruined that, I would’ve never forgiven myself. And of course, I did ruin it by not being honest with you.” 

“You didn’t ruin anything.” 

“What?” 

“You didn’t. I promise you. If anything you brought me back to reality. This isn’t over, and I can’t be stupid like I was,” she gazed down at her hands, clasping them together and twiddling her thumbs. “I was trying to help around the house too much. Walking from here to the coffee shop all the time was way too much on me too, but I ignored it because…” Anna felt her cheeks flush. “Well, I wanted to see you.” 

He let out a soft scoff, he shook his head. “You don’t have to walk to the coffee shop to see me.” 

“I need to get my license.” 

Kristoff snorted. “Yeah, that too. But Anna, I’ll come to you wherever and whenever you want. You don’t have to burden yourself to see me.” 

“It seemed silly to drive when the coffee shop is just down the road from here. Barely a mile.” 

“Anna. I will be there. Wherever you need me.” 

She couldn’t help but smile at that. “Okay.” 

Kristoff stood, surprising her. His hands were at his sides, fingers nervously twitching and rubbing along his palms. Brow pinching, he glanced down at his feet. She tilted her head before beckoning him over with a hand. Tense shoulders sagged in relief as he strode over to her in two steps. 

He sat beside her in the bed, perching half himself on the mattress as his opposite foot rested on the floor. But Anna shifted instead, making room for him on the tiny bed. It really wasn’t meant to fit two people, but Anna maneuvered herself enough that she laid in Kristoff’s lap, his legs on either side of her hips as she laid against his chest. She wasn’t sure how on earth Kristoff would even fit in a hospital bed without her included. But it worked well enough, and he was able to fully sit on the bed… so she called it a win. Especially since she was so comfy against him. It amazed her, really, that any time they cuddled up together it was always a perfect fit. 

They were quiet. The silence was comforting as she felt the rise and fall of his chest against her back, his soft breaths echoed behind her. Anna looked down at his hands perched on his knees, grabbing them, she pulled them into his lap and played with his fingers. His hands were so rough, nails bitten-down, fingers calloused… he must have really worked hard. She admired that about him. 

“Pepper was diagnosed when she was four. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia… Chemo had a lot of the same effects on her body that you’ve experienced,” his fingers traced over hers before massaging over her numb digits. Kristoff leaned forward, his lips pressing to her ear. “I know it’s hard. I’m sorry you’re going through this.” 

His voice sent shivers down her spine. Glancing up, she pressed her head to his shoulder. “You make it easier… and I’m sure Pepper felt the same.” 

Kristoff chuckled at that. “Our favorite pastime was, uh, reading princess books.” 

“Oohh, princess books, hm? You seem like the princess type.” 

“Yeah, yeah. I did whatever I could to make her feel better,” he murmured. She noticed the flush on his cheeks as he looked away. 

Squeezing his fingers the best she could, Anna nuzzled her nose into his neck. “You do that for me too, you know. I can’t thank you enough for all that you’ve done.” 

“I haven’t done enough.” 

She hummed. “You have, Kristoff. You’ve done more than enough. You have given me more than I ever thought could have come out of--well, a relationship.” 

Kristoff snickered. “And we aren’t even a couple,” he teased. 

“Uh huh, I’m serious. I can’t believe you wanted to see me after I puked on your shoes.” 

Shrugging, he laughed slightly. “It wasn’t anything I hadn’t seen before.” 

Anna agreed sadly, glancing away. She was silent for a moment before taking in a deep breath. “When… When Pepper was diagnosed did--did your parents…?” 

“What?” 

“Did they, ya know, pay more attention to her?” 

He stiffened at that. “God, no, Anna.” With a sigh, he wound his arms around her middle, pressing her flush against him. He nuzzled into her crown, shaking his head. “I’m so sorry your parents did that to you. That’s not how family works. Anna, you’ll never be second. Not to me.” 

Tears pricked her eyes as she sniffled, sucking up her emotions the best she could. “I… Thank you.” 

Smirking, he wiped a stray tear for her cheek. “Except maybe to Sven.” 

Anna barked a laugh. “I can understand that.” How could he cheer her up so easily? With just a little comment like that? 

He pressed a kiss to her auburn locks. “I mean it, though. My parents--they always made sure that I was okay. When I told you I was kind of a jerk for a while there? It was right after Pepper died. I was angry. Thought it was unfair. She was so young. Six year olds aren’t supposed to die, you know? Especially not like that. I… Watching the pain she went through hurt more than anything I’d ever seen. And I just--I was so upset. I couldn’t handle it. I was depressed, I went to therapy… and then my parents got me Sven. So, I finally had someone to take care of again.” 

“You had every right to grieve.” 

“I know. I just couldn’t let it go for a year. I held all of my emotions in and it came out as anger at school. I lost interest… stopped trying in class. Quit the football team. Kept beating up anyone who looked at me twice.” 

Anna reached up, cupping his cheek. “I’m glad you made it through that.” 

“Me too. I’m happy I’m able to treat you right, Anna.” 

Giggling, she nodded. 

He paused, smiling slightly. “There’s something else… You know how you said sunflowers were your favorite?” 

“Yeah?” 

Sucking in a breath, he continued. “They were Pepper’s favorite too. Her casket was surrounded by them, and I saved one of them from the display. Call it a hunch or--or you may just think this is weird, but I also thought whatever girl I’d end up with would love sunflowers too.” 

Her heart tightened in her chest. Oh, wow… That felt different. The words sent a warmth through her veins, making her heart pound. She couldn’t explain what she was feeling, but it seemed like a confirmation. That wasn’t just a coincidence, was it? Suddenly, Anna knew. She just knew Kristoff was the person she was supposed to be with. Forever. 

Anna didn’t know how long her forever would be, but with Kristoff by her side she hoped it was for many years to come. She had Elsa back by her side. She had Gerda who had been the mother that Anna had never had there for her. Anna had always wanted a dog of her own, but Sven would do. She was grateful Kristoff had a companion when he needed one the most. And while Pepper may have not been physically there… Anna couldn’t wait to get to know her too. As well as the rest of Kristoff’s family. 

There was a bright future ahead… and Anna could finally see it. She could picture it in her mind. She could fight this. She could get past it. She had to. 

Anna refused to let Kristoff lose another person to this horrid disease. Kristoff had been the first person in a long time to see her. To see Anna as she truly was. And that meant more to her than she could ever explain to him. As much as she tried, there would never be words that could tell him. 

Except maybe three… She loved him. 

She loved this man with every fiber of her being. The last few months spent with him had changed her life in the best way. Maybe, she wasn’t grateful for cancer, but she was grateful for what it had brought to her. Her sister… maybe even the love of her life. It got her away from her horrid ex that just wanted her for money. 

Anna knew she needed to tell Kristoff how she felt. And she would. But not yet. She needed more time. And Anna knew she had all of the time in the world. 

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IWAIZUMI HAJIME

Iwaizumi was in the middle of weekend practice when he got the message from his s/o

“I’m sorry, but I can’t make it to our date today. I’m not feeling too well.”

It would be a lie to say that he wasn’t disappointed, but he understood that there was nothing that could be done about it, especially since it was concerning their health

He messages them back and tells them to rest as much as they could and to take care

He then asks them if there was anyone home to take care of them

His s/o type out a text telling him that everyone else had something planned for the day and had to go elsewhere, but that they would be fine

As soon as they hit send, they place their phone on the dresser, and plop down to relax onto their bed

Their head was pounding and their eyes burning

They close their eyes shut to try to calm the ache

They lie there for a few minutes, trying to ease whatever pain, whether it be their pulsing head, their aching joints, or their unsettled stomach

They gradually went to sleep, and peacefully stayed that way for an hour, before being woken up by the stinging pain in their stomach once more

They had been puking the whole morning, draining them of any energy they had, and though it wasn’t as bad as before, it wasn’t good either

How they hated how one sick thing set off a million other discomforts in their body

As they were debating whether or not it would be of any help to go vomit again, they hear the doorbell ring

They stay still for awhile, bracing themselves for the tremendous amount of effort they would be spending to stand up and walk over to the door

The doorbell rings once more, and with that they pick themselves up and trod out of their room

They open the door to find Iwaizumi there, who looked like he was about to set down a plastic of food there

He straightens up and gives a slightly goofy smile

“Ah, ___. I’m sorry, did I wake you?”

The sight of him immediately soothes whatever negative thoughts they were having, though their body still ached a lot

They open their mouth to speak, their throat feeling scratchy and sore

“Iwaizumi.”

The second Iwaizumi hears their voice, his expression turns to one filled with concern

���Hey, you should be getting some rest—“

At that moment, the corners of his s/o’s vision get dull and their legs give way

Iwaizumi catches them before they hit the ground

He loops the plastic bag on his arm, and picks his s/o up carefully

“Let’s get you back to bed. Excuse me for my intrusion.”

They manage to mumble back that it was no problem at all

They then proceed to silently curse themselves for not being conscious enough to enjoy this moment

Iwaizumi lays them down on their bed and tucks them in

Things were getting hazy, but his s/o couldn’t tear their gaze away from him

He sweeps away their hair from their face and places a little kiss on their forehead

He then carefully applies a cooling strip where he had just kissed them

“‘Not feeling too well,’ my ass. You’re on the brink of collapse.”

He then pulls out a bottle of water and hands it to them motioning them to drink

They drink the water and hand the bottle back to Iwaizumi

“You hungry?”

They shake their head

“Wanna vomit?”

Another shake of the head

“Then rest.”

He pushes them down lightly, and they comply, lying back down

His s/o huffs a small laugh

They nod obediently and close their eyes, a small smile gracing their lips

“Sweet dreams, ___.”

“Mm.”

KUROO TETSURŌ

Kuroo wasn’t paying attention to class anymore

Instead he was staring at his s/o who was a row in front of him

But not for the reason you think

They seemed a bit off when they greeted him this morning, and now they were visibly swaying in their seat

After a couple of minutes, Kuroo couldn’t take it anymore and raises his hand for attention

Once the teacher acknowledges him, he asks for permission to bring his s/o to the infirmary

The teacher agrees and he stands up to head over to his s/o

He escorts his s/o to the infirmary, holding them to support them, but the moment he touched them, he got startled

Their body was extremely warm

“Oh, God. You’re burning up. Why didn’t you say anything earlier?”

“I didn’t think it was anything serious.”

His s/o’s speech was trailing off, and he could feel their energy draining

“Seriously.”

He lets out a sigh

“As soon as something is wrong, anything at all, you tell me right away, got it?”

His s/o’s lips form a smile

“Yes, captain.”

“We won’t make the same mistake, alright? It’s tiring carrying your heavy ass to the infirmary.”

“Excuse me?”

Kuroo lets out a laugh and his s/o lazily sticks out a tongue at him

They finally make it to the infirmary

Kuroo confirms the nurse’s absence by calling out for them

He suggests to his s/o that they should just lie down for now

He brings them to a bed and his s/o rests themselves on top of it

They groan as they put all their weight down

Kuroo looks around the infirmary

“I’ll see if they have a cooling strip around here somewhere.”

“Kuroo is being caring? Is this a miracle?”

“Shut up and rest.”

His s/o gives off a weak laugh and closes their eyes

“I’ll go get something for you to drink so—“

“No.”

“What?”

“Stay.”

Kuroo gives off a little sigh

They hear Kuroo pull a chair near them and sit down

“I’ll stay with you, but only until you fall asleep.”

“Yes, yes.”

They relax themselves, trying to forget how weak their body felt

Just then, they feel a hand stroking their hair

They open their eyes, barely, to see Kuroo behind it

He gives them a soft smile

“I’ll do this until you fall asleep.”

“Mm.”

He continues to stroke their hair, and his s/o finds themselves getting sleepier and sleepier

“Man, you’re really hot.”

“Thank you.”

“Not in that way, moron.”

His s/o gives off a weak laugh

“How hot am I?”

“Hot enough for me to grill a fish on you.”

“Wow.”

They give off a small laugh which then trails off

Kuroo hears the silent and peaceful breaths from his s/o and he knows that they had already fallen asleep

He gives their hair one last stroke

“Take care.”

SUGAWARA KŌSHI

Suga’s s/o woke up to the faint smell of something cooking

They were recollecting their thoughts: what day it was, what they did that day, what they were doing in bed

They shifted their position slightly to be greeted by an ache in their head and soreness in their muscles

“Right. I’m sick.”

Even thinking aloud was painful, the words scratching against their throat

They push themselves to sit up and the lack energy to do it was slightly frustrating

They hear the sounds of someone in the kitchen and decide to go have a look

They groggily stand up and walk out of their room, straight to the kitchen

When they get there, they’re greeted by the sight of Suga in an apron at work in the kitchen

His s/o blinks a few times, because they had to adjust to the light and because they couldn’t believe their eyes

“Su—“

Suga immediately whips around to face them

“Ah! ___, you’re up!”

“… What are—“

“When I got your message saying that you weren’t feeling well, I came as soon as I could.”

He wipes his hands on his apron, and heads over to his s/o

He escorts them to the dining table to sit down and he grabs an energy drink and gives it to them

“Here. So how are you feeling?”

“Better than before.”

Their response was close to a small mumble, and Suga just gives off a little sigh

He gives his s/o a small rub on the back before heading back to the kitchen

His s/o sits there for awhile, because their head was still hazy and because they still couldn’t believe what was going on

“‘Oh~ Suga’s so weird. He suddenly shows up at my house to cook something for me and he acts like such a mom.’”

His s/o’s eyes widen, and they turn to look at Suga who had just made the imitation of them

They quickly open their mouths to defend themselves but Suga gives off a laugh

“I’m kidding. But seriously…”

He turns back to the stove, and scoops out whatever was cooking on the pot into a smaller bowl

“Treasure yourself more. There’s only one you.”

He brings the steaming bowl in front of them and takes a seat next to them

“Can you eat?”

“Yeah.”

His s/o looks down to the food in front of them

“Porridge, huh?”

“And I got fruits for you for when you’re done.”

His s/o looks up at Suga to see him grin

They give off a little chuckle

“You really are a mom.”

“Hey—“

“You said it first.”

They pick up the spoon and take a scoop out of the porridge

They bring it to their lips and blow on it slightly, in attempt to cool it down

Suga just watched them, his cheek rested on his fist, and his elbow on the table

“Need me to feed you?”

“.. I can do this myself, thank you very much.”

Suga gives off another laugh

“Well, it’s good to see you’ve still got some fight in you. That means you’re getting better.”

His s/o finally puts the spoonful into their mouth

Suga sweeps their hair away from their face, causing them to look at him

Suga lips form into a smile, his eyes tender

“Get some more rest after this, okay?”

“Mm.”

“I love you, ___.”

He gives their hair a little ruffle before bringing his hands back to himself

“Ah!”

Suga’s exclamation makes his s/o jump slightly

“I forgot I bought more cooling packs for you!”

He tears off the cooling strip already on his s/o’s forehead and walks over to the living room

His s/o gives off a laugh with the little energy they had

“I love you too.”