#i am not in Palestine but i am hurting for my country and I'm tired for my people how do they feel? when they're right there

[wearenotjustnumbers2]

Journalists in gaza are posting their last message.

What are we waiting for, what have we allowed to happen?

Ismail and motaz are the same journalists in this video by the way. They're people who always find light in the dark. Praying for them and all Palestinians.

[indigo-ghost-girl]

I have alot to say

And since apparently its a strike for Palestine for the next couple of days I thought I would speak my mind. Its the least I can do.

Im so tired. Tired of news that people are dieing. I'm so incredibly tired. It's not becuse I don't want to know what is happening. I'm tired because MY people, one of the ritchest countries on earth, are not only doing nothing to stop the attacks but are actively contributing to them.

The bible says, "Love thy neibour" so why in HELL are we attacking them??

I just watched a video about a Palestinian American woman being shoved out of a room when she spoke her mind to a politition. And no one came to help her. They shoved her out. People WITH MY FACE shoved her out. MY SKIN COLOUR, MY LANGUAGE, MY HAIR COLOUR.

I am not proud of my country. And unless they step up to change I don't think I ever will again.

The people of Gaza have every right to be furious with us.

I try so hard to be neutral and hear both sides of the argument to make sure I know the facts. But I can't stay silent any longer. I've been so afraid to speak up, I'm so privileged but that means the people around me, my family, I'm afraid they will have opposing views. And I cannot afford to lose them.

I can only imagine what horrors the Palestinian people are going though. Bombed in churches, hospitals, trapped under rubble for hours.

I remember I had a nightmare once. We were running from something and we took refuge in a church in the middle of nowhere. They had no chairs and I had to sit on the floor against the wall. Everything was so tense.

Then the stained glass window exploded. Shattered in an instant and sent glass flying everywhere. We watched the the countryside around us was bombarded with smaller bombs. The safest place was inside and I remember prying that nothing would hit us directly again. The ground shook, it was so incredibly distorted.

We had to make a break for it, but there where people outside with some form of deadly weaponry, imagine like a gun that shot shrapnel.

I got to wake up from that nightmare. For some people that is there reality.

I'm so tired of living this reality. I feel powerless and stupid. I can only do so much. And it infuriats me. And no one will take me seriously becuse I'm young. At first it was because I was a child now it's becuse I'm inexperienced.

WHO CARES??? I'm not a mind reader. I haven't actually lived through a bombing. But I have felt pain before. I haven't been forced to leave my home, but I have been forced to move houses.

Yes they aren't the same thing. YES IM LUCKY I KNOW. But I know what it's like to hurt and some people clearly don't.

I just. Want to live. A centminent I'm sure the people of Gaza share. I want to laugh. Love. Share meals with loved ones. Create, Share. Live life.

Why are they denied that chance?

[medecineformelancholy]

I don't know if you need to hear this today, but I want to send you some love. You are an incredible artist and a lovely person. You deserve to have the life you dream of, one of peace, one without bombs or the threat of destruction. And one day you will get it, I believe that in my heart. I'm sorry for everything that terrorist state invading you has done to you, and I'm sorry that there are cruel, careless people taking their side, manipulated by propaganda and believing themselves to be leftists. I will never be tricked into believing that I have to pick between Ukraine and Palestine, I will not be budged from my position that both nations have the right to fight for survival. I want you to know that there is at least one person in this fandom that wholeheartedly supports you and will always do so. I love you.

Thank you so much for your kindness, it means a lot to me.

I have been pretty lucky in this so far (obviously as I’m still here and my family is too). I don’t have many dreams of my own. I am worried about my family though, and for every person in my country. I am worried about my hometown being destroyed and my grandparents who still live there. I am worried about children whose lives and futures were taken away. I am worried about our culture and language being erased. I am worried about every single man and woman fighting at our frontlines. There is mental and physical turmoil of constant sirens and attacks, yes, but what really takes a toll on you is trying to comprehend the inhuman cruelty and the scale of it all.

I have not heard of people being made to choose between supporting Ukraine and Palestine but this sounds crazy to me because our wars have wildly different contexts, are not connected and not comparable. Palestinian people deserve freedom and peace. But I can only speak from my experience, and most of the times I’m too tired to do even that.

I know people stop talking about things after the sensation dies, if they are happening far away. That is natural and I shouldn’t expect any individual person who is not affected to care. I am not always strong enough for that, and it makes my blood boil when I see not only outright support of russia’s current politics (=terrorism) - that is a lost cause, but even things like praising their culture. Forgive me for wanting to scream when people mention dostoyevsky or chekhov or their ballet or fucking Anastasia movie in a positive context, after I’ve seen their culture with my own eyes under occupation. (Ukrainian books burned, all the museums in my hometown looted with thousands of artworks now in russia claimed as their own, a russian flag hanging over my primary school. That’s not even 1% of it all). Sorry for digressing, this is something that hurts my heart a lot. But I don’t expect understanding.

I don’t know where you are from, but chances are your government is doing a lot to help us, and am beyond grateful for that.

Sending you so much love back💜

[fucklifehurts]

Today has been hard. Maybe it's because we've worked a 12 hour day and were surrounded by people until 9pm, maybe its because we ate like shit all day and had no water, maybe its because we miss being able to disassociate and break away from the world.

I'm so fucking tired, and living is hard. Especially with how much absolute bullshit is on my feed. Palestine, Sudan, Congo and those are just the ones I know of. Women having to try to argue our side of the man vs bear bullshit and seeing all of the grotesque things that have happened to women at the hands of awful animals (not the bears). Children being preyed upon, the economy crashing, the fact that we'll literally have to choose between a bag of dicks whose definitely a criminal and an old man with dementia who supports the genocide of a people. Protect 2025 which is going to turn the whole country upside down and roe v wade being overturned, basically turning women into second hand citizens again.

And yet, no bad things have truly happened to me specifically and I'm the one who's exhausted, and the guilt I feel for being so depressed and wanting to be anywhere but here (mainly 6 feet under) when I have a life most people would be jealous of. I have people who love me, and I have to remind myself of that every day in order to keep going, and I'm tired. I want to sleep and never wake up but I know if I don't I'm letting themm down, they are all cheering for me and I feel like I'm throwing it right back in their faces. Like I'm ungrateful of their love. And they just helped me get out of a truly awful place, and I want to go back. I miss the darkness, I miss drowning in dake realities and dissasociating so hard I lose track of hours. I miss smoking till I'm numb and I miss him. And he's the worst thing for me, and here I am crying because I can't let go of someone who treated me worse than dirt.

It hurt even writing that he treated me shitty because of the lovebombing afterward. I hate having to push myself down memory lane to remind myself of the abuse. I hate missing him, wishing I could speak with him . And I hate crying to my therapist, family, and friends over someone they can't stand, so I keep it in. I doom scroll to try to forget but get sucked right back into the shit. Everywhere I look, there's suffering, and no one who already has the power to make a difference seems to care. And here I am crying over a man?! A man who abused me, who brainwashed me, who rewrote my whole existence so I could be the perfect little partner. I'm tired of myself most of all but with so many other things, too.

Fuck I'm so exhausted but I have to keep going. I need to keep going, and it sucks. Hopefully, one day, we'll look back, and this will be a merry to laugh at, at how dramatic I was. Or a memory to smile at and be proud of how far I've come, but right now, I just want to cry and scream. And we're going to feel ok about it.

[ashanddoodles]

just a long rant about things going on in palestine right now because if i don't put my thoughts down somewhere i'm going to go insane.

tw // talking about graphic shit obviously, it's a genocide

i feel so sick. i'm so fucking tired of seeing dead kids over and over and nothing being done. i can't physically do anything to help these people who are starving miles and miles away and it makes me so angry. people tell me i'm being too obnoxious, too dramatic, too upset and that it doesn't effect me. but how the fuck am i supposed to see the remains of someone who has been run over by a tank and feel nothing? how many children's bodies with their guts spilling out do we have to see to be taken seriously? how many nightmares of this happening to my own family do i have to have before people understand? these are all living breathing human beings being torn apart all because of greed and disgusting politicians. i'm so angry and confused and hurt and frustrated. my government and my country is actively sending my tax dollars to bomb humans. they're deliberately fucking up any aid and any protest in favor of palestine. my fucking money is being used to drop bombs on LITERAL FUCKING CHILDREN and I'M the dramatic one?! and it's been going on for months. we're literally witnessing another holocaust and yet i am supposed to shut up about it. "you're queer, they'd kill you" is what they tell me. it's so fucking stupid because people in my own fucking country want me dead but that doesn't mean americans should be wiped off the face of the earth. my compassion isn't transactional. i don't give a shit if someone is homophobic, i still don't believe they should be massacred. and queer palestinians exist. not all of them are queerphobic. and what about all the rich ass pieces of shit who do nothing? oh let's worry about the met gala. let's worry about the superbowl. let's worry about all this superficial bullshit while people are literally fucking dying.

fuck israel, fuck the usa, fuck biden, fuck netanyahu, fuck rich bitches who do nothing to help, fuck every disgusting ass piece of shit who's been neutral this entire time, and fuck all the corporations funding it. i hope you're all haunted by every life lost and you never feel another moment of peace or happiness for the rest of your miserable lives.

i'm so done. so fucking done with all of this but what can i do? i am quite literally on the opposite side of the world.

[gryficowa]

Poles: Why didn't anyone help us? We were left to our own devices

Palestine: **Need help**

Poles: What? This is our problem, not our war, so fuck off

And these are the ones who say they would fight the Nazis and save the Jews

And now, when they can do something, they behave typically: Not my problem

How can I feel a bond with this country that treats the Warsaw insurgents like shit anyway? How can I feel a connection with this swamp (Yes, I live in Kashubia, I know, it's a swampy area, but it's about something else), where discrimination is constantly explained by your "Opinion"? Well, how can I feel anything about this country?

I feel a bond with being Kashubian, but not with being Polish, I tell people abroad that I am from Poland, because who knows where Kashubia is located? Americans often do not understand where Poland is located, let alone Kashubia

People in this country treat you like shit when you fight for your rights because you are only "ridiculous"

Any fight against fascism is treated as unglued, and the worst thing is that people from my age are also rotten here and it tires me

You see a lot of shit in Polish comments like racism, anti-Semitism, Islamophobia, etc.

But when you point it out, "You're exaggerating" and they call you "Julka from Twitter"

Since I was a child, during history lessons I heard about "Poland is tolerant" and other shit, this country does not deserve independence if it does the same as those who attacked it, it is no different from Israel which attacks Palestinians, this country is rotten, no it can already be changed and that is a terrifying thought

So what if I'm attached to my lands if they belong to a country that stinks from a mile away?

Hardly anyone talks about Palestine because it's "None of his business", no one talks about what happened in 2020, when LGBT+ people were attacked on the street for their mere existence, because the president called them an ideology, not people, people don't think about people who were trapped on the Polish-Belarusian border, I regret that I am not Czech, because they have a similar culture to us, but people are kinder and more open, but no, I had to be born in Kashubian lands, which are connected to a shitty country that pretends to know its history, but knows shit about it

I'm just fed up with my own people, Poles have stopped being who they used to be, and that's the worst of it all, the rebirth of fascism is most visible here and it hurts

[waitfuckitsnotjustptsd]

whoa yeah i just saw a post reminding people to get some damn nutrition and started crying

i have had some pretty serious eating problems for several years. it's a lot better now than it used to be, but the urge to skip meals is still there in the back of my head

and it breaks my heart when my girlfriend, knowing this, asks me in that tiny voice she gets sometimes and with big blue pleading eyes to "please eat something." i don't want to hurt her. it takes precedence over not wanting to hurt myself. i don't know how i got lucky enough to find someone so kind and good and bright after everything the world has thrown at me, seemingly because i deserved it (i didn't)

a close friend of mine always makes sure everyone in the group gets enough to eat when we're all hanging out because he's seen too much of the world and knows what hunger does to people

it's strange, being in recovery from so much and still being expected to be a productive normal member of society. how am i supposed to act like everything's just peachy when there are so many others suffering like i have? how can i stand to eat anything when there are kids starving to death in Palestine and Somalia and Congo and Sudan and right down the fucking street from me here in the country that hosts some of the richest people in the world? how can i get a normal job and go to work day in and day out, force myself to be another cog in the death machine that is Amerikkka?

i don't know man. i remember the lady who put vodka in her daughter's soda to keep her convenient because they were homeless and she couldn't deal with the sound of crying. i remember pushing my body way past its limits for too long and denying it everything it needed, wouldn't even wash it gently, because nobody had ever shown me how to be kind to myself. i remember the 19-year-old kid i met in jail whose mom got her hooked on meth when she was 11 and then died a few years later, leaving her all alone in the world except for a 40-something-year-old creep who just wanted to use her body (fuck you Dusty, wherever you are i hope you're fucking suffering and i'm glad you're too dead to hurt any more kids). i remember the people who got arrested on purpose just so they could have three square meals a day and a shitty bed to sleep on for a little while. i remember

too much i think

i just hope i can do something about it someday. i hope i can start making enough money to bring stacks of pizza boxes to the long line of tired folks behind the homeless shelter, like that one person used to do on Monday nights back when i was the one waiting in line. i hope i can have a little extra cash in my wallet someday to give to the ragged people i see sheltering in corners and bus stops, like my dad and granddad do

but first i have to get myself somewhat stable, and that means getting enough food to start

[espresshadow]

Cool, so what you're voting for is more genocide.

Voting isn't the end of activism, it isn't writing a fucking love letter to the candidate you put a bubble next to, it's not implicitly signing off on every policy decision they've ever made or will ever make. And holy shit, it's not *voting for genocide.* You just do not understand the system at all if you think that's how this works.

If I have to see one more of these posts as someone who literally fleed Florida and will not go back, I will lose my shit. Voting is (for most people) free and piss easy and makes things materially better than just letting the insurrectionist fash win. You are not helping Palestinians by abstaining from voting, you're just helping your own ego.

Sorry it hurts your feelings to vote for a candidate you would rather punch in the face but the absolute fact is that if Trump wins things get WAY worse for EVERYONE basically immediately. This is just not that hard to understand.

I'm sorry for my tone. Joe Biden is absolutely a monster and will go down in history with blood on his hands, and I don't blame you for having this reaction — because voting in America so often *is* tied to identity, and what's happening in Palestine is so horrific. But you have to understand that EVERY US PRESIDENT HAS BLOOD ON THEIR HANDS. Welcome to being an American. There has not been a good choice for president in the time any of us have been alive or possibly ever. Voting isn't about you. It's about reduction of harm. I am tired of the popular sentiment that we should just throw the whole country to fascists for free, making the whole world worse, because the president is a monster. You're right. Go vote anyways.

Every US cycle the dems' best argument for voting for them is "at least we're not trump/whoever the fuck thr repubs are running" and it doesn't help that the dem incumbent actively supports genocide, is doubling down on harming refugees and immigrants, refuses to do anything to support reproductive or LGBT rights.

I'm still voting in my local elections because that shit might actually make a shred of difference, but I have yet to see any reason to vote for biden

[jyndor]

just AGGH I gotta rant for a minute

I just saw someone else say this and I have to say, at this point just say you don't actually listen to palestinians and read what they've said and maybe, just maybe, you need to do some work on yourself to not be so racist, and also you need to examine your politics and actually understand why you say you're fighting for what you're fighting for. because I have seen too many so-called progressives clutch their fucking pearls over things they don't really want to understand or engage with and CHANGE THEIR MINDS ABOUT WHOSE RIGHTS THEY SUPPORT to have much more patience when people hem and haw about things that should be NON-NEGOTIABLE.

the amount of liberal cis women who have turned their backs on trans people because they don't like the terms "birthing person" or "people who are pregnant" or they've been tweeted at by a mean trans person or whatever the fuck. or white people who get hurt by "black lives matter" because the slogan doesn't include the "too" at the end of it like that isn't fucking obvious to ANYONE with a fucking brain

like of course there are arabs who have said antisemitic shit, arabs are people and people can be antisemitic. And I bet you there's a person who has said from the river to the sea and meant that jewish israelis should get out of palestine, in fact I know there are people who have said that and similar antisemitic shitty things.

I remember when journalist helen thomas said "the jews should get the hell out of palestine" and she's of course not the only one, and I am not a moron, no group of people has uniformly perfect politics. I dont essentialize groups of people because thats weird as fuck. and as I was reminded on october 7th, people don't have to have my politics to be victims of violence that I should care about! and that's true and important for all of us to keep with us. yeah, a majority of israelis have really shitty politics on palestinian rights and are racist, but they absolutely have the right as human beings to live in peace.

but that's just for israelis, not for palestinians who have to be SOOOO careful with everything they say, and they have to remain so fucking pure and keep their slogans out of shitty people's mouths or they don't get to have rights. or they don't get to even express their desire for a pluralistic, democratic country that doesn't fucking dehumanize and try to erase THEM from the fucking planet. just for being in the FUCKING WAY.

like can we be for fucking real for a minute? do we drop a slogan or a political movement because some idiot who supports it says something shitty? or is shitty? are we serious about a liberatory politic or do we need victims to worry about every single fucking shitty thing that has ever been done in their name????

from the river to the sea means palestinians will be free from oppression and apartheid and have fucking equal rights under the law. it is about connecting palestinians in the west bank and gaza, it is about equal rights for all in israel/palestine.

have any of the people who say this shit ever fucking read a book???? I have to wonder because the calls for a secular one nation are everywhere in the literature! here's one!

I will say i forgot about marc lamont hill being fired for saying this a couple years back, so people have always been lying or misunderstanding this phrase.

agh I'm so tired of people not being serious about politics. grow up and open a book.

it's embarrassing.

from the river to the sea slander will not be tolerated jfc it's giving "anti-white racism"

[artistformerlyknownasbutttrumpet]

i think biden sucks shit, and that his backing of israel is morally reprehensible. i think that the wealthy ultimately have almost all of the power, and the system is corrupt and set up for us to fail. but i also know that we, as citizens, have one (1) way of making any amount of actual, tangible change, and that's voting. the people we vote in will almost definitely be pieces of shit, but again, this isn't about creating a utopia, this is about harm reduction

is my original post reductive? yeah, i'll concede to that. that's bc it came from a place of anger and fear, bc i truly fear for the livelihood/actual lives of myself and others like myself if trump were to serve a second term, and i am very tired of hearing people say that they won't vote for biden bc they can't support his actions

and part of the reason for that is bc i get it. it feels absolutely counterintuitive to vote for someone who actively supports the death of innocent people. it becomes especially difficult to vote for that person when there are so few other things we can do as individuals to stop the current atrocities from happening. we are inundated. every day we are inundated with horrors other people are going through that our country is supporting, and there is an overwhelming need to DO something, bc otherwise we're just staring at pictures of dead children and feeling guilty for not doing enough, and then feeling guilty for feeling guilty, bc our problems are not nearly as bad as what's happening to these people overseas, and how can we be so selfish, there must be something more we can do, right? but the truth is, we can boycott starbucks and click a daily button, but ultimately, we simply do not have enough power to bring a genocide to a stop on our own. and so it's very enticing to withhold a vote, bc that, at least, is something real, with real consequences. biden will feel the effects of that, and he will know it's bc of his actions in support of genocide, and that would feel like a win for us, which carries a lot of worth when we've been so powerless

here's the problem tho: it is more harmful, not just to us citizens, but internationally as well, to not vote for biden than to vote for him. trump is astronomically more dangerous of a person. he is targeting every vulnerable population you can think of, and he may very well get his way if given enough power. palestine will not be better off with trump as president. not only will they be be worse off, but now even more people's lives will be at stake as well

so if you really want to help palestine? if you want to DO something actionable that will make a difference? you have to give up your pride and vote for biden. you are NOT endorsing genocide. i think people really need to hear that. you are NOT endorsing genocide if you vote for biden. what you are doing is an act of harm reduction. people are going to get hurt one way or another, and that truth is disgusting, and some days feels fucking dystopian, but we can reduce the number of people getting hurt if we prevent trump from taking office

i don't appreciate the assumption that me making a post on tumblr when i'm upset is indicative of all i do in my personal life to advocate for change, but i also understand that it's the only image of me that you have, just as your response to my post is the only image of you that i have. for what it's worth, my assumptions about you are that, quite likely, you are a very kind person who cares about the well-being of others. why would you be upset about any of this if you weren't? i think we are, at a fundamental level, on the same side, and in that way, i can understand your point about alienation. i am just scared, friend, that's the gist of it. my country is a terrifying place to live in right now, and i'm scared about it pretty much all of the time. i am afraid for myself, sure, but i'm also afraid for every person that is at risk right now, and that is a lot of responsibility to hold in your heart at once, which i'm sure you know, because i think you're probably doing it too

i really hate that "vote for biden bc he's less worse than trump" is the reason we should vote for him, but, well, it is. trump is bad enough that yes, absolutely, we should vote for whomever is "less worse" than him. if you can't cure the addiction, you can at least provide clean needles. if you can't overthrow a fascist dystopian government, you can at least protect a few lives

the whole situation is terrible, but while i may not mean it with quite the same flippancy i delivered it with in my op, i still maintain that a vote withheld is a vote for trump. that remains true, whether we want to believe it or not

i hope things go well for you, friend. i wish you no ill, even if you wish it on me

(oh, also, general reminder to vote for congress too!)

the end ig

just letting those refusing to vote for biden this november know that donald trump thanks you for your endorsement