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I can't quit you - Part 2

Alright here is part 2 of my little Lellinger story☺❤

I hope you like it😘❤

I can't quit you, can I?

I love Andreas Wellinger and now everybody knows. I have been sitting in our hotel room for about an hour and a half now. I locked the door and didn't know what to do with myself. My feelings are over the moon, I have finally done what I have been meaning to do for months now. But my mind says something is wrong. I'm worried Andreas didn't want the fans to know. But on the other hand he did kiss me back. I smile thinking back at the look in his eyes when I kissed him.

My phone has been ringing ever since I left Andreas at the hill. The first phone calls were from Schuster. He is probably going to kill me when he finds me or worse. Kick me out of the team. But the last half hour the calls have been from Andreas, but I didn't pick up. I don't even know why I didn't. I love him. I really do, but something is holding me back.

Suddenly I hear something outside the hotel room's door. I fear it's Schuster, so I stand up and head towards the door. I hear two soft beeps and a click. The door lock clicks open and Andreas opens the door. I sigh and feel relieved it's not Schuster. I wouldn't have been able to cope with him right now.

"Why on earth haven't you been picking up my calls?" He asks as he closes the door behind him. "Did you shut down your phone or what?" But right away my phone rings again. I close my eyes and turn away. Andreas walks over and picks up my phone from the table.

"It's coach, why don't you pick up?" He asks. I sit down on the bed and look at floor. The phone stops ringing for two seconds, but it starts ringing again right away.

"Stephan why aren't you answering your phone?" He asks again. "Look at me!" He shouts at me. I look up and see the confusion on his face. I feel the tears welling up in my eyes and shake my head.

"Stephan what is going on?" He asks. The phone stops ringing and starts again after a few seconds. Andreas picks up the phone. "He'll call you back later. No, I. No. No, I'm not going to give the phone to him now. He'll call you back." He says and hangs up.

"Now I want you to tell me exactly what is going on, because I am loosing my mind right here." Andi sits down next to me. I look at him and I feel like such a fool.

"I'm sorry." I say. "I never should have kissed you earlier."

"How do you mean? Stephan what is going on? I thought that was what you wanted. You had been talking about it for such a long time. You didn't want to hide anymore and now that we've, well exposed ourselves, you are starting to doubt yourself? What is going on?" I look at him and see the desperate look on his eyes. How could I hurt him like that.

"I..." I start to say, but something is blocking my throat. Andi looks at me. He looks so confused and worried. I can't quit you, can I? "I love you." I whisper. "But..." I stop and I feel the tears pressing in my eyes again.

"But what Stephan?" Andreas says. His expression is changing and he looks scared now.

"Schuster'll kick me out." I look at the carpet again. I found the pattern in the blue carpet an hour ago. It calmed me down back then, now it gives me more anxiety.

"What are you talking about?"

"He told me Welle. He told me that if I'd even consider making our relationship public, he would kick me out."

"How do you mean? Did he threaten you?"

"Well yes. The reputation of the team is more important apparently. I don't want to hide anymore Andreas. I can't quit you, can I?" I say and feel so extremely desperate. At this point I don't know what to do anymore. I see the pain in Andreas' eyes and yet again I wished I never would have kissed him.

"No. We've hidden this long enough Stephan. Schuster must understand that by now." He says. I put my face in my hands. I can't take it anymore it's enough. "Hey, come here." Andi says and puts his arms around me. I lean onto his shoulder and feel a tear run down my cheek. I feel guilty. So god damn guilty. I might have ruined everything between us. I just don't want to quit him. I can't.

After what feels like hours Andi kisses my hair. I look up and he gives me a small smile.

"I'm going to call Schuster." He says and I swallow, but I nod. At some point I'm gonna have to face him anyway. I can better just get it over with now.

"It's okay." He says. I grab his hand and he gives it a squeeze. I nod again and Andreas stands up. He grabs the phone from the table.

"Do you want me to put it on speaker? You don't have to say anything, but just so you can hear what he says." Andi asks me.

"Yes that sounds good." I say. I feel my heart is starting to beat faster. I take a deep breath and close my eyes. Andreas calls the contact and puts the phone on speaker.

That loud beep calls once. I take a deep breath. Twice. I hold my breath. Thrice.

"He's not gonna pick up." I say, but right at that point there sounds a small click.

"Schuster." It calls in the room. He sounds sleepy. I wonder what time it is and look at the digital clock on the wall. 01:43. Explains a lot.

"Yeah it's Andreas."

"Wellinger, god, where is Stephan and what in earth is he doing?"

"Stephan is here with me. We're in our hotel room."

"Good. I'm coming right now. I want to speak to him about wh"

"No." Andreas stops him. "No. We'll meet you tomorrow." Coach is silent.

"Stephan won't talk to you today. He needs to sleep too anyway." Andi says.

"Fine." Schuster says. "I'll see you at 10:30 tomorrow morning."

"Alright." Andreas says and I hear another click and the phone starts beeping again. Schuster hung up.

Andreas looks at me. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah I'm fine." I say and look at the ground. Guilt is the inky thing I feel.

"Come on, let's take a shower." Andi says.

"Do I smell that bad?" I ask him.

"Yeah. Yeah you do." He says and we both laugh.

I get up and follow him into the bathroom. Andreas doesn't bother to turn on the lights, so I leave the door open a little, so some light can get into the bathroom. I hear Andi's belt hit the floor and the soft sound of his t-shirt as it hits the ground. He steps into the shower and turns it on. I start undressing too and get into the shower with him. Usually when we've taken a shower together it was in quite a different situation. Even the evening before had been quite heated or the shower itself got heated, but not this time. Our bodies touch in the shower and I put my arms around him.

"I love you." I whisper into his ear. "I love you Stephan. I really do, we'll be alright." He says as he softly caresses my back.

We stand in the shower for a long time. I feel the water is getting colder and Andi turns off the shower. He steps out first and hands me a towel.

Andreas leaves the bathroom and I follow. He quickly dries himself and walks to the bed. I manage to smile at the sight. He doesn't bother to put on any clothes and lies down in the bed pulling the blanket just over his hips. I throw my towel on the ground and join him in the bed. The things I'd do to him normally flash my mind and I smile again, but I'm not really in the mood for that kind of stuff right now.

Andreas turns off the lights and takes my hand. I give him a small kiss and crawl a little closer. Andreas puts his arms around me and I relax a little. It feels nice. His stomach against my back. Now I get why Andreas loves it so much when we lay down like this. My arms wrapped around his waist. I feel safe.