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hotwings0203 · 3 years ago

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Bully!Dabi pt. 3

Tags: @shikamaruscumrag @pinkiy13l @an-ambivalent @luno614 @sukunasleftkneecap

Tw:dubcon, noncon, bullying, manipulation, Russian roulette

“Doll? Come on out and I won’t hurt you too bad.”

You wait with bated breath as he walks right past your hiding place behind some crates, blue fire licking up the sides of his body and held in the palms of his scarred hands.

He’s mad, you know he is. He’s teasing you, of course he is, why else wouldn’t he just turn on the lights and pounce?

No, this is another punishment of sorts. A punishment for escaping your previous punishment from being locked in your room.

Another lash of burning cobalt strikes against a wall about 10 feet away from you, and you curse yourself internally. If only you had just stayed in bed a couple days more, if only you hadn’t snuck out when he left, if only, if only…

“Baaaabbyyyyy”

It sounds so wrong and uncharacteristic coming out from his gravely voice.

You huddle your limbs even closer to yourself, paying no mind to the cramping in your knees from being squished for so long.

It’s been about 25 minutes or so from what you can remember. It’s hard to remember anything that happened this bland morning anyways when the climax of your life was seemingly taking place here, after you entered the wrong room.

You had honestly just wanted a peek outside of Dabi’s room and maybe a drink of water, nothing more.

Or so you tell yourself.

But can you really be blamed? Who else wouldn’t have run out the moment they got a chance after spending almost two weeks in the same shitty room, being used as fuckmeat and only given bread scraps and salty cum as meals.

It didn’t matter how close he held you at night, how his strokes seemed to brush up against all the right places, how he tried catching your eye every time he wanted to talk about anything (which you would never really indulge in, only giving him a soft grunt or a nod). He was a monster, a demon in disguise that was keeping you against your will in his clutches.

A loud crash closer than before hits your ears, and you stifle an impending whimper. You can tell he’s roamed closer than before, finding nothing from his earlier place in the front of the storage room.

“I’m getting pretty fucking tired of repeating myself doll. You must be even more of a masochist than I thought since it’s like you want me to fuck you up even worse than I did before.”

His words are quiet but they do enough to cause a loud beating in your already-pacing heart, so loud in fact that you fear he can hear it racing a mile a minute.

You wonder if anyone is nearby, if they even remember you’ve been missing for a while now.

“Y/N”

“Come out, pretty girl. You know I miss you”

But you don’t miss him.

What you do miss, however, is not being chased into an empty storage room and hounded like a fucking dog. You miss joking with Twice, painting your nails with Toga, making Shigaraki chuckle.

All of a sudden, the crate next to you is covered with hellfire. The flames that are thrust from Dabi’s hands are so wild that they seat through your shirt and prick your skin.

You scream and scrabble backwards, the light of his fire illuminating his face leering up above you in the dark like a ghoul from a children’s book.

You clap your hands over your mouth, ignoring your bubbling skin as fear overrides premonition, but the damage has already been done.

It’s eerily quiet for a minute. Then, he whispers,

“Found you”

Even in the pitch black room you can practically see him lunging towards you, and you scuttle backwards on your hands and feet in terror. His hands miss your bare feet by a few inches, and he snarls before making another swipe.

“Fucking bitch, this is the thanks I get for taking care of you, bathing you, feeding and fucking you?”

You yelp as he lights up the floor on both sides of your trembling body, and you see his figure once more as the blue fire shows the sick grin twisted up on his face.

“Leave me alone,” you sob, clambering up on your feet and running backwards as he advances on you. The smoke from his quirk is filling the room, and you erupt in hoarse coughs as it’s filtered through your aching lungs.

Everything about him is toxic.

“Nah. That’s not how this works sweetheart. You see, I take care of you, and in return, you do whatever the fuck I say when I say it.”

He raises his palms to you and you flinch, covering your head and colliding with the wall behind you. You’re too scared and tired to evade him again as you feel his body cover you and brush against yours as you shake in place, your arms still above your face.

He cooes at you. “There there, my stupid little bitch. You were scared daddy was gonna hurt you, right?”

His stitched palm caresses your bitten bottom lip and trails up to your tear-stained cheek.

After a moment of you saying nothing, he slaps the side of your face, hard, and you gasp in pain. Now it wasn’t just your stomach that felt on fire.

“I asked you a question, you brain dead whore. Are you scared daddy’s gonna burn you? ‘You scared he’s gonna beat you black you blue? ‘Scared he’s gonna cut a gaping hole in your burnt tummy and fuck the gash?” He leans in and lets his raspy words settle over your ears as he tenderly brushes your hair away from it. He softly kisses the shell of you ear, and when you sob quietly he wraps his arms around your middle and hugs you close, paying no heed to how you uncomfortably squirm when your raw torso burns from the contact.

You squeeze your eyes shut and try not to inhale too much, lest the smoke embedded all over his body gets too close for comfort in your system.

“Y-yes daddy. Please don’t hurt me, I was…a bad girl.” You cringe when the words are wobbled out, but you know it’s what he wants.

To humiliate you, to hurt you. Who was he kidding when he said he loved you?

Dabi, however, feels butterflies in his own stomach.

See, this is what you need. To answer to Daddy, to submit to him so that he can take care of you. That’s why you stayed so long in his room, right? It’s cause you knew it would make him happy if you listened to him. You let him make love to you, and treat you like his little girl because deep down, you know this is where you belong.

So why are you fighting him? You never raised a complaint for a week and a half, you only stayed quiet and kept your eyes shut when he asked if you were okay. That means you liked it, right? No real opposition, after all.

Except for now.

Dani is honestly disappointed in you right now, you were doing so well…so why’d you have to go and ruin it?

He might’ve softened from the way your body shakes and your sobs are muffled by his smoke-scorched jacket as you press against him for comfort, but the image of you turning around and running away when you saw him earlier hurts him too much.

It angers him.

Why the fuck were you so scared? Hasnt he shown you enough that he loved you? What, does he need to fucking spell it out for you?

Why were your eyes filled with such terror when he caught you? Did you turn away from him and run because you thought he was going to make you look like him, all burnt up and hideous?

Honestly, he would never, but if you’re so hellbent on making him the bad guy, then fine, he’ll play the bad guy.

Anything for his precious little girl.

And so he tightens his arms around you and chuckles cruelly when you whine at the lack of air.

“Well, you were right. I am pretty pissed, I mean I told you to come out and you didn’t listen right?”

“S-sorry,” you weakly choke out.

He laughs even more crazed now, crushing your ribs so tight he could actually hear your breath wheezing out of you, could feel your weak little punches against his back.

“Sorry isn’t going to cut it. No no, I want you to beg for your fucking life now.”

Your eyes widen as his arms begin to warm up and become unbearably hot.

“Dabi, no, no please!”

You writhe in pain as he cackles above you, savoring the choked breaths that emit from your wetted lips.

As soon as you begin to see spots, he releases you, and flings you against the corner of the room.

You go flying and bang your head against the concrete wall, his voice muted and swimming around in your ears as you fight for consciousness.

He saunters towards you in all his flaming glory, hands in his pockets as if he were walking out for some fresh air. He crouches in front of you and lifts your head with the pads of his fingers.

“Awww, my poor little girl. That had to have hurt, huh? You’re bleeding,” he cooes and blows a strand of hair away from your eyes.

He’s not lying, you can feel hot blood trickle down the side of your head as your vision sways.

“Stop this,” you pant. “I get it, I’m sorry- you were right and I was wrong, I shouldn’t have ran. I’ll listen to you from now on-“

“-But you said that last time, didn’t you?” He cocks his head and with the light of his turquoise fire against the shadows of the room, he looks like a being from hell itself.

“Remember? When you sucked me off like the dirty whore you are? Remember that you stupid cunt?” His grin becomes more reminiscent of a wolf baring its fangs, and you’re rendered silent in complete terror.

He takes your silence as an encouraging factor to continue his fun.

“You ever played Russian Roulette, Y/N?”

You have enough sense to quickly shake your head, a sinking feeling in your stomach forming at his implication.

“Me neither. But I kinda wanna try it right now. So, back against the wall. Stand up straight and spread your legs.”

You look at him incredulously. “You can’t be serious Dabi.”

He raises an eyebrow and a fire grows in the palm of his hand. “Wanna find out? Oh wait, you already are- now do what I said otherwise you’ll have one less leg.”

You don’t need more motivation to act on his orders.

Taking a deep breath, you hesitantly spread your legs and place your palms flat against the wall.

“Spread ‘em more. That shouldn’t be anything new to you.”

You wince at his dig but continue to widen the stance between your legs.

He smiles at your compliance.

“Good. This should be fairly easy, I mean the room is already dark enough to count as having a blindfold. Whatever you do, just don’t move.”

You wouldn’t know it, but he’s sincerely saying it for your sake. He’s glad for the safety of the dark, because he doesn’t want you to see the way he hastily wiped his sweaty palms on his jeans as he prepares himself for his next move.

The room goes dark, his fire has been put out.

You inhale softly, blood pounding in your heart as your hands shake in anticipation.

Then all of a sudden, a fireball comes barreling right towards you, in between your parted legs.

You shriek and jerk, but luckily you’re saved from being singed.

“I told you not to move, babe.” He clicks his tongue and rubs his erection absentmindedly.

A second, then third bolt of fire comes at the side of your head, singing your hair and then dangerously close to your already burnt stomach.

At each one you sob and do your best not to move, not to take in Dabi’s utterly emotionless face as you wail for mercy.

The last one comes so powerful that as it strikes the wall next to you, flecks of ash sting your cheeks and lips.

Your knees are jelly, your mouth is aching from begging for your life as he wanted.

But you know he’s done when he lets out a loud yawn and groan as he stretches his arm and flexes his fingers.

“A-are we done?” You sniffle.

He says nothing at first. You just hear him ask a couple steps towards you, his boots echoing in the room. You assume he stops in front of you because you can feel his body in front of your kneeling figure.

His hand descends and feels around until he reaches the top of your head. Stroking softly, he twirls locks through his fingers and gently shushes you until your hiccups subside, and you lean your forehead against his thigh.

“‘You happy it’s done? You did so well for me, sweetheart.”

“Yes Dabi. Thank you,” you utter softly, knowing it’s what he wants to hear.

“Yeah? How thankful are you?”

You still at that.

He starts to unbuckle his belt.

You pull your head back, and he pulls his pants down.

“Dabi-“

“Shhh, don’t ruin this. Just keep your mouth shut and let your body do the talking. Show me how grateful you are that I spared your fucking life.”

The gentle way he handled you clashed with his harsh words, and you have a moment of whiplash.

He kneels down in front of you and lets his hands wander in the dark until he meets your torso.

You hiss at the sensitive flesh, but he doesn’t stop. He just moves his hand under your shirt and higher, pushing your bra up until your tits spill from the bottom of it.

He bites his lip as you whimper from his touch, his thumbs swirling around your nipples and prodding the squishy flesh.

Dabi gets more eager when you throw your head back at one particularly rough squeeze and shuffles even closer, his pants and underwear at his knees, member bouncing out in the open air.

“Take your panties off,” he rasps, furiously stroking his cock.

You surrender and slowly pull your sweats off, and then your panties as you hear him lightly panting in eagerness.

The second he hears them drop to the floor he lunges for your feet and yanks your forward, catching you in his lap as you yelp.

It’s pitch black, but he can feel you clear as day.

The tickle of your hair hanging in his face, your sweet smell clouding his rationale, the melodious sounds of fear and pleasure mixed with pain make his prick stand painfully at attention, weeping at the slit for your pussy.

He doesn’t even bother taking your shirt off in impatience, he simply barks at you to hold the hem up so he can feel your breasts bouncing against his face when he motorboats them.

You, however, shakily hold his hand at your waist when he pulls you forward until your bare hole presses against his length, coating it with light juices.

“Oh fuck, doll, your pussy’s practically begging me to fuck it. ‘You like having your life in danger? No wonder you keep fucking up,” he groans as he moved beneath you, letting his hips rock back and forth to gain friction from under you.

“Wait, go slowly-“

“No the fuck I won’t,” he interrupts. You have enough sense to bite back any retorts from the subtle growl in his words.

He lifts you up from underneath your ass, and you raise your hips in compliance as he grabs his dick, circling it around your swollen nub and then pressing it against your entrance.

You breath shakily and run your hands through his hair, not so much in a loving gesture but tightly in futile hopes to deter him in any possible way.

He takes it either way as you wanting him equally, and without further ado he slams your hips down on his whole length.

You howl in pain as he begins bouncing you, pressing down on your shoulders and forcing your poor cunt to envelope him fully at each stroke.

The room is filled with the lewd sounds of your ass clapping on his dick, the mixed fluids from both of your bodies and the harmonies of his low grunts and your high pitched whines.

You can feel his dick twitch violently inside of you as he nears his climax. He flips you over on your back and starts pounding into you, laughing cruelly in your face as you cry out from the intensity of his strokes.

“D-Dabi! Pull out, I’m not on birth control!”

“Good.”

You open your eyes to stare at him in horror, barely making out the marred features of his face.

“I’m gonna fill you up with my babies. You’re gonna be plugged with my cum from now on, ‘s the only way you’ll stop running.”

“Get the fuck off me, this isn’t funny-!”

He grabs your rising fists and pins them back against the floor, crushing your wrists in the process.

“Who said I’m laughing?” And he isn’t laughing anymore, no, on the contrary he looks the most serious that he’s ever been, and that terrifies you the most.

The upper half of his body is suspended in midair above you as his pelvis smashes against your clit in a steady rhythm.

“‘Bet you’d like that, bet you’d like having all your holes stuffed with my kids. They’re gonna grow up and know how slutty their mommy was, they’re gonna watch and learn how Daddy earned his name. You think they’ll cry when they hear you scream for me?”

You want to rip out your ears from the filth pouring from his mouth, but unfortunately your hands are trapped under his grasp.

All you can do is chant “no, no, no,” under your breath as he’s pushed over the edge.

“Or maybe I’ll tie your legs against the barstools outside and let every man out there have his way with you. You missed them, right? I’m sure they missed you too, I’m sure they missed the way you’d fuck them the second they made you laugh,” bitterness seeps into his voice as ropes of cum shoot out.

He moans loudly in your ear and collapses against your body, sweat intermingling in the cervices of your entangled limbs.

It takes around three minutes for you both to catch your breaths, and for him to shakily raise himself on his elbows to peer down into your ruddy face.

“Clean yourself up. You’re going back to my room. And this time, if you try to run we’ll repeat this entire process again, but I’ll actually let everyone have their way with you. It’ll be like an orgy version of Russian Roulette, well all place bets on whose kid it is.”

You don’t miss the rest of the League, anymore

#tw:noncon #tw:misogyny #tw: bullying #Dabi smut #mha dabi #yandere dabi x reader #yandere Dabi #Dabi mha #dabi oneshot #dabi imagine #bnha dabi #bnha yandere #bnha smut

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incorrect-miraith-quotes · 4 years ago

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(A/N yes, this is an incorrect quote acc but I can write actual good stuff too 😳)

Drinks and Sunsets

7:00 AM (3 hours before the match starts)

“Renee!! Wake up please, there is breakfast!” Natalie shouted at the closed door infront of her. Renee had fallen asleep at an ungodly time trying to find out more about herself and well, it didnt work out the way she wanted. She groaned, squeezing her eyes tight while moving her arms up. She stretched and eventually popped her shoulder which caused her to scream but not really scream if you understand what I mean. She cursed at herself for not going to sleep earlier knowing that there was a game today. She sat up, shading her eyes from the window that shown the bright sun. Her head turned to the door when she heard knocks coming from the other side. “someone’s there” Renee’s voices whispered, echoing throughout her ears. “No shit sherlock,” She hissed.

“Wra- I mean Renee~ wait no- sorry. Renee are you gonna eat?” Elliot sputtered, clearing his throat. “Depends on what it is,” She sighed. “It’s uH..pancakes I think? I dont know, Ramya was chosen to be the one who cooks today. They looked..burnt,” He explained, shuddering from the thought of Ramya’s pancakes. “I guess, give me a minute to get dressed and I’ll head out. Wait for me?” Renee asked, getting up and walking to her dresser. “Uh..yeah, yeah I’ll wait for you. Dont worry about a thing..you worried cause I’m not..haha..ha..,” Elliot trailed off, sliding down to the floor until he hit his arse on the concrete. Renee chuckled to herself in his stupidity and got dressed. She wore a black tank top with short grey shorts and her black sneakers with her ankle high socks (black of course). She unlocked her door and peered over to the tall man crouched next to her door, falling asleep.

“Wake up Elliot, I thought I was the one to wake up hm?” She flicked his forehead, causing him to rub the spot where he was hit. “Ow ow ow- Why??” Elliot questioned, confused as to why he was hit. “You were gonna start drooling so..anyways, breakfast?” Renee pulled him up, almost falling backwards. “I mean that’s why I’m here right? Right? i hope Im right..,” Elliot trailed off again, starting his journey towards the kitchen with the small woman behind him. Everynow and then he would peek back to make sure she was still there and not inside a portal. “You’re safe with him” Renee looked up at Elliot, the voice echoing throughout her mind. “You like him dont you” Renee looked up at the ceiling and scrunched her face in annoyance, internally screaming at the voices. “I don’t, you guys always assume things,” she whispered, looking at the random framed pictures hung up on the wall. “Elliot!” Renee shouted at the still walking man. He jumped slightly and flinched, “y-yeah? What’s up?” “Kitchen is right here doofus,” She nodded her head towards the room, “How did you manage to miss this big ass room??” “I guess it was an accident, never done that before haha,” He sighed and apologized. The so called pancakes were sitting on a top of a white ceramic plate, getting colder by the minute. “I wouldn’t even dare to try them..I mean you could but- It probably wouldnt be good..,” He walked over to the counter, “If you want, I can cook somthing up for you?” “That would be nice thank you and uh..can you make me some coffee? You know how I like it already,” She sat down at the large dinner table, laying her head down. “Yeah I can do that for ya, anything you want in particular?” Elliot asked but was met with silence. He peeked over and saw she was sleeping soundly with her head in her arms. Elliot took off his sweater and draped it over her shoulders then went back to the kitchen.

8:37 AM (1:30 hours before the match starts)

“Breakfast is ready Renee,” he shook her gently until she stirred, “Mornin’ beaut- I-I mean um..sleepyhead..? Yeah..that’s the word..sleepyhead.” “Mmm..mor-“ She clears her throat and rubs her eyes, “morning..sorry I fell asleep I just didn’t get enough sleep last night.” She looked down at the scrambled eggs and toast that were neatly placed onto the plate infront of her. “It’s fine, I didnt wanna bother you because I thought you’d kill me,” He admitted, taking off the apron that was tied around his waist. He placed it on the hook next to the fridge where a stickynote was left by Octavio not to touch his jello. The only person he let touch his stuff was Natalie. Renee picked up the fork and began eating. “You should date him” “No,” She whispered, furrowing her brows as she picked up a piece of egg with her fork. She watched as the tall man made her coffee just the way she likes it; black with a little bit of sugar and creamer. She was never one to like sweet coffee like everyone else. He poured the jug’s contents into her prefered mug. He added the little things she liked and carried it over to where she was sitting. She thanked him with a small, almost unnoticable, smile. Renee sat there with her cup close to her nose, smelling the bitter coffee aroma. She cooled it before sipping it slowly, enjoying the taste of her morning coffee.

“Hey Elliot, do you know what time it is?” She questioned the other who was washing the pan. He checked his phone and replied, “8:52” Renee stood up and brought her plate to the sink after she was done eating. “Could you wash these for me? I need to freshen up in my room,” She handed him the plate, “thanks.” She started making her way towards her room; which consisted of one right and a lot of walking straight. But she never got tired of it since she was happy she lived comfortably with her friends. The 2 rooms that were next to hers were Natalie’s and Ajay’s. The boys were on the opposite side so in front of her was Elliot. The hallway she lived in held 6 legends at a time 3 girls, 3 boys. Renee’s hallway had Ajay, her, and Natalie and then Octavio, Elliot, and Tae. The others had their hallways, some with empty rooms for future legends. Natalie was never really in her room since she was always with Octavio. It was weird, seeing two polar opposites living together. Then there were Ajay and Tae, she managed to make friends with him. I’m pretty sure Tae is still annoyed but is warming up to her.

“Oh! Youre awake finally,” Natalie smiled, walking out of Octavio’s room, “You never woke up so I had to get Elliot to help me..” Renee stood there at her door with the key in the slot, “Yeah, Ive just been...thinking.”

“Hm, well I hope you get some more sleep. Oh and goodluck with the match today!”

“You arent participating today?”

“Non, Ive been feeling unwell for the past few hours”

“Why aren’t you in bed then?”

“Well, Tavi was getting Ajay but he hasnt come back yet”

“You should be resting Nat..”

“Im okay I swear! Pas besoin de s'inquiéter,” She smiled softly and weakly. She was still in the large shirt Octavio gave her to sleep in and pajama pants. She had a small nessy plush tucked into her elbow, being squished tightly. “Chica! Get back in the bed right now or else im going to llevarte allí yo mismo,” Octavio came back with soup and meds, shouting at the sickly girl. “Ah, Tavi.. Je suis désolé I was just wondering where you were.,” She hugged the plush closer to her fragile body. “Come here conejita, lets get you better,” He lifted her up into his arms, still carrying the supplies Ajay had given him, “When you are done being sick I am going to....”

“Lovebirds,” Renee sighed and closed the door to her room, preparing for the match ahead of her. She got her battle gear on and re-did her messy bun into a neat one. Her kunai rested on the counter, untouched in its holster. She picked it up and unsheathed it, smiling at the small sparks of void that emitted out of it. She put it away and hooked the holster to her belt. “You know you wanna be like them, you cant deny it” The voices teased. “You guys really want me in a relationship huh,” Renee flopped backwards onto her messy bed. She didnt have time to make it in the morning but now she can. She checked her phone and scrolled through her social medias. Elliot made her download them and every now and then, Elliot will make her post a picture or something. She always got tagged in fanart and random posts about her in the matches. She would occasionally like some and they would freak out and thank her. She scrolled through her tagged until she came across one post. It was fanart of her and Elliot, sitting together with their hands intertwined watching the sunset. Renee blushed slightly at the art. She saw that Elliot had already liked it, but seeing as he likes all posts that he got tagged in, it wasnt weird. She hesitantly liked it and turned off her phone. “Maybe I do like him” Her thoughts were interupted when someone knocked at the door.

9:34 (couple minutes until the match starts. The ship still has to arrive at the arena, World’s Edge)

“Renee! Get yuh ass over here ‘cause the match starts soon!” Ajay’s voice boomed through the door. Her footsteps could be heard on the other side as she walked away. Renee stood up and stretched while walking towards where Ajay just was. She opened the door to see Elliot walking out of his room. “Oh hey Ren..can I call you that? Im gonna call you that..anyways, hi. Wanna walk together?” She nodded, “Okay cool, lets start heading over before everyone leaves without us.” They walked in a comfortable silence over to their friends. Octavio was in a corner moping since he didnt have his love interest with him while Crypto spied on him from another corner. He was still mad that Nat rejected him a few weeks ago to be with Octavio. It was crazy hearing that he was sulking around in his room for hours on end. But back to the main girl in this story, Renee sat down on one of the couches that sat in the middle of the room. Everyone was ready to board the dropship to head over to the arena. Here is what was going around, Gibby and Ajay were laughing together,Octavio was..unenergetic for once, Tae was in the corner, Loba was fixing her nails while Rev watched her on the wall, Alexander was playing around with his gas, and lastly Ramya was chewing gum while playing on her phone. It was always bustling in the living space because its where everyone socialized other than the bar. A small yet loud alarm was sounded to let all the legends know it was time to board the dropship.

“Woo-hoo! It’s finally time to go,” Octavio said unenthusiastically. Everyone walked in one-by-one or in pairs. They all strapped up in their skydiving equipment and was prepared for the long drop ahead of them. Renee stood next to Elliot’s room in the ship while the others either went to their rooms or sat in the middle. (Reference back to the season 3 trailer for room placement) Renee was flippping her kunai peacefully while Elliot rambled about something in his room. She enjoyed listening to him talk about nonsense while the quiet humming of the ship was surrounding them. It was peaceful, atleast to her. It blocked out most of the voices and when she was around Elliot they seemed to shut up and occasionally tease her. The drop ship shook a bit and Elliot tripped a little but caught himself. Renee didnt mind turbulence since she didnt really care about anything really, she tenses up a bit sometimes but thats about it. Her scarf end swayed as the ship lowered slowly. Suddenly the screens flashed on and displayed everyone’s banners. Everyone gets a chance to customize and submit their banners to headquarters. The teams were as listed,

Lifeline, Crypto, and Gibraltar

Octane, Caustic, and Bloodhound

Mirage, Wraith, and Loba

Revenant, Pathfinder, Bangalore

Rampart

Everyone stood on their respective platforms also known as where the screens flashed their names. The champions were shown not even a minute later, Wraith’s team was shown and she said a voiceline to taunt her enemies of the day. The metal shifted under their feet and lowered slowly, revealing the bright, cold arena. Everyone at this point was used to the cold though, they were glad it was world’s edge because kings canyon during those months was scorching. Comms were switched on and everyone tested out the mics. Everything was set up and ready to go so teams started dropping towards their locations. Wraith was jumpmaster and pinged on the map, Fragment West. Everyone knew both of Fragment was dangerous and it was hotdrop that game too. You can bet that there were multiple death boxes surrounding the small yet large area. Wraith was already kill leader with 7 kills from the popular spot. Bullets were heard in the distance and Wraith portaled to gain some speed while Loba teleported and Mirage had to run. He wasn’t a running person for long distances so he just took wraith’s portal.

“W- Wait up you two! I dont have a movement ability!!” He cried out to the two girls. The two looked at eachother and giggled while looking back at the energy drained man. “Danger move” Wraith looked around and pinged an enemy and phased away out of danger. Again, Loba teleported away and Mirage was left alone to run away. They hit him good but he managed to get behind cover. Wraith lended him some shield cells and syringes and shot at the other team with her sentinel. The other team was Octane’s team and they were stacked; Octane had gold armour while his teammates had red evo. Octane also had a peacekeeper that he got from a carepackage just next to them. It was a long fight, from gas being thrown on them to the ring closing in on the two teams. They had been fighting for so long they didnt even realize that there were only 3 teams in total left. Wraith’s team, Octane’s team, and lastly Pathfinder. I would say Pathfinder’s team but his teammates died and the banner timers ran out, he was left solo.

“Everyone try to watch your backs, the robot could try to ambush one of us,” Loba turned to face her teammates, occassionally looked up and around for the tall simulacrum. “Spotted him, up there. He has a longbow and what seems to be a flatline on his back. I could snipe him down if that’s what you want,” Wraith calmly called out, pulling out her sentinel and charging it. “Go ahead beautiful,” Loba replied. In an instant, a loud, charged sentinel bullet was shot and killed the robot up on the hill, instantly eliminating him. Now, it was just Octane and Wraith’s teams left to fight. “Nice kill Re- I mean,” He cleared his throat, “Nice kill Wraith..” Wraith smiled and thanked him silently while eyeing down the other team. Seconds went by and both teams rushed eachother. Bullets whizzed by eachothers heads and occasionally hit their shoulders or legs. Octane’s team was low on meds while the other team was low on ammo. Another minute of fighting passes and Wraith’s team is deemed the champion. When they were back in the drop ship everyone congratulated them for winning even though they were in a tight spot. There was an after match party happening in an hour so everyone went back to their rooms to clean up after a long day and get dressed. Renee was first to her room to take a shower while the others stayed in the kitchen or hallways sparking conversations with eachother. While Renee took her cold shower, Elliot decided it was be such a good idea to just waltz into her room to ask her a question not knowing that she was relaxing without voices for once.

“Hey Renee! I was just wondering if you wanted to match for the uh..,” He paused, looking around, “Renee? Where are you??” He looked around the empty yet messy room. Clothes thrown everywhere and notebooks and hairties were strewn about. Her messy bed showing how much she slept that night, which it wasn’t much. He began to worry about her well-being and if she even actually took care of herself. He heard the loud shower running so he went and knocked on the bathroom door. But before he actually knocked, he thought about the things that could happen if he knocked on her bathroom door when she didnt even know that he was in her room. He’d be killed. Before he knew what was coming he accidentally knocked on the door infront of him like a reflex. He heard the girl inside gasp loudly with a few things dropping. He startled her, which was a first for him. He was in shock and did not want to move. “She’s like a T-Rex, if I dont move she cannot see me-“ He was cut off when the door swung open and a semi-dryed off Renee was standing in-front of him. She had her body wrapped with a towel and her still damp hair dripped along the floor and her scarred shoulders.

“How are you in here and what do you want,” She said firmly with an annoyed face. “One, your door was open, two, I wanted to ask if you wanted to match outfits for the after match thing..,” He sighed looking away, “Nevermind, it was a dumb question of course you dont.” He turned and apologized but before he could leave the room Renee stopped him. “Who said I didn’t want to? I wouldn’t mind matching with you,” She stepped over to her closet and sifted through the dresses section, “What color or style were you thinking of?” Elliot was astonished that she actually agreed to do anything with him. “I was thinking accents of purple..? I think it would look nice on both of us,” He sat down on a nearby chair in her room, looking away from her slender body. “Fine with me, now turn around,” She made sure he had his eyes closed and was turned around in order to change. She dropped the towel and peered back just in case. “You want him to see you” “Tell him to turn around” “Let him touch you” The voices were surrounding her but she managed to ignore them. When she finished getting dressed she had Elliot turn around.

“Wow..,” Elliot had no words for the sight in front of him. She wore a long black dress that had a slit on the side with a fluffy, purple boa draped over her shoulders and she was wearing heels making her as tall as him. She played with her hair a bit out of embarrassment while looking away. “You look..amazing,” Elliot was admiring her features that he acted like he’d never seen before, “I just- have no words.” “I dont look that good relax,” Renee walked over to her dresser and put on a necklace that had a purple gem in the middle. “Are you going to just stand there and not go to your room and get dressed?” Renee peered over at him from the mirror. “Right..right yeah, Ill be back to ‘pick you up’,” He opened the door and quietly shut it behind him. She sighed and thought out loud, “What am I going to do about him?” She put her hair in a half bun-half hair down sort of style and finished her look with mascara and a slight tint to her lips. She slipped on short black gloves and grabbed a clutch that had small purple accents on it. “He will like it” “For once you look nice” “People are going to judge you” “Nobody will approach you” “People are going to hate you” The voices started off nice but went downhill and piled hate after hate onto her. She pushed them away and mumbled to herself that tonight will be a good night. Light knocking was heard and she went to open the door, her heels clicking with every step.

“Ready to gooooo-“ He looked her up and down and smiled, “You’re beautiful” He tucked a stray strand from her hair behind her ear, “Let’s be on our way before the limosu- limosio- limo gets here.” He held out a hand and she gladly took it. They held hands for most of the way until Renee let go to check her clutch for something. She pulled it out and checked it before slipping it back in. It was her Apex ID, aka the only way to get into Apex events. You can be one of the legends but they wouldnt let you in without it since people knew how to look almost identical to them. She didn’t regrab his hand after that, she wanted to make sure no one saw. When they got to the front of the building everyone was in their formal attire. Octavio was wearing a green suit top with tailored shorts to go along with it and Natalie wore a white party dress that had orange and blue accents, Anita was in a classic suit talking to Loba who was in a short gold dress, Crypto was in a white suit with green accents, Rampart was in a blouse and office pants, Gibby was in a suit while Ajay wore a long blue dress, Bloodhound wore their goggles along with a suit that had a red cloth in its pocket, and Alexander wore a plain black suit. Revenant doesn’t dress up he said. Pathfinder simply went as himself for the night. After a couple minutes of waiting the limo drove up to the curb of the building. Everyone piled in close together and began conversations with eachother. Elliot and Renee sat really close together due to the limo being quite small for a bunch of legends. Some minutes pass and Renee’s eyes are starting to close. She finally let the sleepiness take over her and her head softly fell onto Elliot’s shoulder. He looked over at her and smiled. Most of the legends eyed them and mouthed for him not to move one bit or she would murder him.

“Elliot..,” Renee mumbled in her sleep, “I..love you..” The small sentence was only heard by the man allowing her to sleep. He tensed up but relaxed as her arm draped over his. The limo pulled up to the event center and a red carpet was dramatically rolled out for the legends. One-by-one everyone was walking down the red carpet either together or solo. Im guessing you can guess which ones walked solo. Elliot nudged Renee and she slowly opened her eyes. She yawned quietly and her eyes met his. They looked at eachother and then she backed away, standing up. She turned away and quickly walked out of the limo and Elliot followed shortly after. Elliot caught up and walked beside her while she covered her eyes from the flashing of the cameras. He enjoyed all the attention on him but Renee never did. He realized what was happening and walked directly infront of her, taking the spotlight. The taller put his hand behind his back and Renee allowed herself to grab and squeeze it lightly. He led her somewhere private and sat her down on a wall away from everyone else.

“You okay? I know you dont like the atten- attentin- eyes on you,” he knelt down, matching his eye level with hers. “I’m fine, you dont have to worry about me so much you know,” She sighed and leaned back slightly, “Let’s just get back to the others before they think were fucking or something.” Elliot offered a hand but she declined, pushing herself up from the wall. She swayed her hips with every step she took towards the doors. Her dress flowed down neatly from her waist down to the carpeted floor. He watched her walk away as the boa she wore bounced with her strides. “W- wait up Renee!” He yelled, fast-walking towards her but she was already through the doors. When he made it through, it was bustling with legends from other ports and random game organizers. There was loud music playing from speakers up above and most of the legends were by the bar including Anita and Loba. Others were either on couches or talking near walls with each other. There were people dancing in the middle of the room where flashing lights and more sparkled along the area. His eye caught the bright purple boa from across the room.

“Hey Ren, glad I finally found you,” He sat next to the now relaxed woman, “Let me guess, appletini?” She gave a side-glance towards him while she sipped the drink he guessed. It was her usual at the Paradise Bar so it wasn’t weird. Minutes went by and the found themselves laughing at eachother from stupid jokes and random stories. A slow-dancing song played on the speakers and everyone got with a partner.

“Wanna go dance with me Ren?” Elliot grabbed her hand, pointing to where everyone was partnered together. “I can’t really dance Elliot, I dont know if I could do it,” Renee responded back to him, covering her face with her boa. “Oh, come on you can’t be that bad at dancing. It’s not that hard, come on I’ll teach you,” He grabbed her hand and pulled her off the seat to take her over to everyone else. He brought her to the dance floor and held her close, guiding her hands to where they were supposed to be. He placed her hands on her lower waist and swayed side-to-side with her. “See? I told you it wasnt that ha-“ He winced as she stepped on his foot, “It’s fine, I forgive you since you’re a beginner.” She apologized anyways and held him closer. As the song came to an end everyone seperated except for them.

“This is nice,” Renee pulled away from his arms, “Want to go somewhere more..quiet?” Elliot’s face contorted to a confused yet happy expression. “I know just the place Ren!” He grabbed her hand and practically sprinted out the doors with her, bringing her to a cliff just off the side of the road. He sat down far away from the edge and patted the spot next to him, signalling for her to walk over and sit next to him. The sun was setting and it was the most beautiful thing that Renee had ever seen. “Oh wow Elliot..I never knew about this spot,” She couldn’t stop gazing at the orange and red hues surrounding the hot ball of gas. “My mom would take me here sometimes, from the sunset, the sunrise, and the stars oh my god the stars. She’d make them so amazing but one day she got so sick and she couldn’t take me anymore. So everytime we get to come here I come out here, to escape the whole legend thing and relax by myself. But now, I see two pretty things infront of me..the sunset and well, you,” He gently grabbed her hand and her reddish face was hard to see in the dark. She turned her head towards him and he smiled softly. “This reminds me of something I saw today, a post with a drawing of us. There’s just one thing missing to complete the scene I believe,” Renee saw him thinking and it looked like a lightbulb just turned on in his head. He leaned in and so did she. They closed their eyes and-

kissed

The scene matched the vibe of the social media post that Renee had randomly come across. It was a strange feeling to Renee, for she had never felt this way towards anyone before. Atleast, not a time that she could remember. Elliot had a goofy smile plastered on his face afterwards. She grinned and leaned on his shoulder as they gazed at the stars that started to peek from the horizon. “Alright yuh lovebirds, get yuh asses inside before we leave without yuh guys,” Ajay leaned against the door, watching them. “Oh, alright. We’ll be right there Ajay,” Renee looked over her shoulder to the other girl and smiled softly. Ajay nodded and closed the door behind her. Elliot was the first to get up and then offered a hand for Renee to grab. She gladly took it and he hoisted her up to her feet. She brushed off any dirt that may have gotten onto her dress. As they went back inside, no one really looked at them apart from quick glances. Anita signalled to them over at the entrance that they were leaving the event. They held hands as they rushed over to the group, not wanting to let go of eachother. Anita counted them and led everyone back to the limosuine so they could pile in the same way they did when they arrived.

(Back at the Apex Dormrooms)(Specifically Elliots Room)

The two were sitting on top of the bed in Elliot’s room, talking. Everyone had just got back to the dorms and they had rushed out so they could get some privacy. “So..what are we now?” Renee turned towards Elliot, who was fidgeting with his hands. He looked up and shifted into a more comfortable position to look at the girl next to him. He looked back infront of him and flopped back onto his bed, staring at the ceiling. “Whatever you want us to be, Ren,” His eyes glanced at her features from the angle he was in.

“I want to be...more than friends-“

“Best friends?”

“No-“

“Best best friends..?”

“Elliot-“

“What?”

“I want to be together, as in I want us to date and do things that couples do,” her head turned towards him. “A-are you sure?? I-I-I mean I dont think Im that bad at being a boyfriend but are you really sure you want to be in a rela- rele- be with me???” He stammered, not knowing what to say. “Yes,” was all she had to say when Elliot pulled her in close to lay down next to him. He kissed her cheeks and her forehead multiple times before stopping to stare at her beauty. She giggled and smiled then held him down into a cuddle position on the bed. “This is what I’ve always wanted, despite me acting like I never did,” She admitted, tracing circles on the others chest. “Did you want to sleep here for the night? Or..we’re you going to go back to your room?” Elliot asked, but got no response from the other. Renee was fast asleep in his arms, snoring softly. Elliot smiled a loving smile and kissed her forehead lightly then fell asleep quick with the warmth she amitted.

E X T R A

Octane walked into Elliot’s room, knowing it was unlocked and because he was his best friend. He had his phone in hand, ready to ask a question about the future match. His eyes darted towards the bed after noticing that the lights were off. There, he saw his best friend with the stone cold girl, who never really showed emotion. He gasped quietly and opened the camera app on his phone. He snapped a picture but before he knew it, the flash went off and lit up the entire area of the man’s bed. Renee groaned and covered herself more with the blanket that was draped over her and Elliot. He quickly stepped out of the room where the couple rested and snickered at the photo he caught. His first thought was to post it, his second? To post it and then print it and frame it. He didnt want to seem like a bitch so he decided to post it with the caption, “Found the lovebirds mating LOL” Within a matter of seconds, the post flooded with likes and shares. Which meant that all if not most of the legends would see it. You bet that Elliot and Renee we’re furious when they both came across it the next day..

THE END

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Hope you guys enjoyed this as much as I enjoyed writing it :] <3

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arhvste · 4 years ago

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TSUKISHIMA KEI - IMPOSSIBLE AND INSUFFERABLE PART 2

part 1

here it is the moment you’ve all been waiting for, hara getting relentlessly bullied part two of impossible and insufferable

i had fun with this guys and you’ll be able to tell later on in part 3 when our precious little hara gets taken down a few pegs also disclaimer i’m not a sadist but it’s obvious i enjoyed violating hara because it’s what he deserves periodt 😌💅🏽✨

THIS HASNT BEEN PROOF READ YET I APOLOGISE FOR ANY ERRORS I’LL FIX THEM TOMORROW PART 3 IS BEING UPLOADED IN A FEW MINUTES!!

It had been a whole week since the messy break up between yourself and Tsukishima and somehow everyone knew about it. This confused you slightly as you hadn't said anything and you knew your now ex wasn’t the type to start gossip so you just assumed people had figured it out themselves.

Hara was closer to now more than ever. He was there for you from the fight you had with Tsukishima to the present time. At first you were skeptical of keeping him around, after all he was technically the cause of your breakup, regardless you felt needy and wanted some kind of support system.

You did your best to act like you were over it. There was no way in hell you were going to let anyone see that the breakup had hurt you deeply. Especially not Tsukishima. You had mixed emotions about the middle blocker. You were angry at him for cutting you with his cold and harsh words, but having thought over the situation practically everyday, you could see where his frustration had grown causing you to feel a slight sympathy for the boy. You absolutely were not going to apologize though. Why should you? Tsukishima had made it clear whatever was between you was done and he wanted nothing to do with you anymore.

That's what he had tried to convince the both of you to believe anyway.

Forcing a fake smile on your face, you would go about your day avoiding your ex and the rest of the boys volleyball team as much as possible. You wouldn’t call yourself a stealth master, but you did mentally praise yourself for not having any run-ins with the boys on the volleyball team. You just knew you’d feel a wash of guilt if any of them were to approach you and that's the last thing anyone wants when they’re trying to move on.

Taking Daichi’s advice was something Tsukishima wasn’t sure if he regretted or not. On one hand, he had finally confronted the pent up emotions he had for so long and he had finally seen your reaction towards them. That was also something that was a con in his eyes though too. Yes, he had received responses from you but in all honesty they weren’t ones that he wanted.

Ideally he wanted you to curb stomp Hara the bastard right there and then but to his disgust you had stood up for the boy. Where the hell did this Hara even come from? Tsukishima hadn’t heard of him until Y/N started hanging around him. Sure he wasn’t one to care and remember little things about every student but he is an observant individual who had a rough idea of who people were and where they belonged. And Hara did not belong with you.

Because the situation had turned out the way it had, Tsukishima did his best to “get a grip” like Kageyama had complained he hadn’t been doing recently. Nobody on the team dared ask Tsukishima any invading or personal questions. They had learned by now to let him keep it to himself and let him do his own thing. Yamaguchi was an exception of course. The two had been friends throughout their childhood so of course Yamaguchi felt the need to ask his friend if he was okay and offer his support at least once. Tsukishima thanked him and stated he was fine and gave no other details to his childhood sidekick.

Tsukishima’s performance had been improving so the team could only assume that when the blonde megane said he was fine he meant it so nobody could complain. Daichi made sure to keep a close eye on him though. Sure his playing was beginning to reach the standard he would usually play at, the captain knew better than to ignore the fact that no sane person could magically heal over a heated break up overnight.

It had now been 5 weeks since the famous break up and Hara had made it clear he wanted to be more than friends with you. You didn’t accept. You also didn’t reject either. You felt like it was too early to get into another relationship right now as you knew you had yet to completely heal from your last no matter how fast you tried to. Times a healer after all.

Hara understood. He said he did. You took his word for it and he continued to be there for you just like before.

It wasn’t like you disliked Hara, in fact you were fond of him, but you still loved Tsukishima and you regretted not telling him when he had questioned it before. It didn’t feel right to jump ship just yet.

People noticed you and Hara spending a lot of time together and had taken it upon themselves to assume you were a couple. Rumours spread like wildfire to your dismay and you insisted to others that you were still in fact single and not ready for a relationship.

The thoughts of these rumours getting around to Tsukishima scared you more than you thought it would. If he were to hear about them, it would only prove the point he had made about you using boys as test subjects. He knew that you weren’t actually like that, it was a vile comment spat out in the heat of the moment, but you knew if these false assumptions were to reach the ears of your ex, he would consider his spiteful comments to be a reality more than an empty insult.

The rumours did in fact reach Tsukishima’s ears and unhappy wasn’t a strong enough word. It had been over a month so why was he pissed? To him a month still seemed like a short time. He knew you weren’t the type of girl to jump from boy to boy so when he accused you of doing just that his insult didn’t actually hold any weight to it but you had apparently just proved him wrong. And if there’s one thing the middle blocker can’t stand more than irritating people, it's being wrong.

After the news reached him Tsukishima began to slip into faults at practice again and this didn’t go unnoticed by Daichi who was still keeping a close eye on him. Not wanting to try and force him to open up, Daichi decided to keep Tsukishima again after one practice.

Once everyone had left, the third year took Tsukishima to come and sit down on the bench where their first pep talk leading up to the fight had happened.

“Listen, you’re a valuable player and a good all-rounder, I am concerned for you still though. Are you sure you’re okay?”

Tsukishima sighed and looked at Daichi with a blank face.

“If you’re referring to L/N, I can assure you I’m fine. She’s out of my life now she isn't of concern to me anymore. She’s not a distraction to me and most certainly isn’t something I can say I particularly care about.”

Daichi sighed and knew this conversation wasn’t going to get very far.

“If you insist. Just make sure you get lots of rest okay? We have a practice match against Date Tech coming up soon and I like to show off the teammate who blocked one of Ushijima-sans famous attacks.”

Tsukishima offered a slight small smile of gratitude towards his captain and bid him goodbye shortly after.

Daichi still wasn’t satisfied with what Tsukishima was telling him. He knew he did still care for you, he could tell by the sudden lack of focus and a slight rise in snarkiness when rumours about Y/N and Hara came up.

Sighing to himself, Daichi knew he only had one more option he could think of left. The absolute last resort. Pulling out his phone, the captain sighed again in defeat as he messaged the only ones he knew Tsukishima might listen to. They had changed the blonde’s opinion before surely they could do it again.

“Hey, it’s Sawamura, I need a favour.”

“Oya?”

part 3

#haikyuu!!#haikyuu #tsukishima x reader #tsukishima kei #tsukishima x you #oneshot #fanfic #haikyuufanfic

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crystalninjaphoenix · 6 years ago

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One Short Day

A JSE Fanfic

Yay, I wrote something that isn’t connected to pain for once in my life! Or at least, the most you get are hints and maybe a moment. I was planning on working on something else, but...I don’t know, I just felt like I needed something softer, and I’m sure there are people who need that too. So behold, an attempt at mostly-fluff! I just wanted to write the boys having fun out on the town, simple enough ^-^

It was rare that there was a full day they could all be together. A day where Schneep wasn’t working, Chase wasn’t recording, Marvin didn’t have a show, and Jackie didn’t have to bolt off at the last minute to do heroic vigilantism. A day where they could just do whatever they wanted, all of them, together.

They met up at Jackie’s apartment building. Naturally, JJ arrived first, then Schneep and Chase at about the same time. Just when they were starting to get worried, Marvin showed up, sprinting up to the group and skidding to a halt beside them.

“Late again, I see?” Jackie said when Marvin finally caught his breath. “Maybe we should just tell you we’re meeting thirty minutes earlier than we actually are.”

“Gimme a break.” Marvin rolled his eyes. “My phone was out of battery so I couldn’t check the time, then I got distracted.”

Jackie raised an eyebrow. “With what?”

“Um...” Marvin looked away, embarrassed. “I may have started playing Plague Inc...for an hour...or more.”

“Dude. Set a timer next time or something,” Chase said. “Ask JJ if you can borrow one of his watches if you have to, I dunno, anything.”

“Enough of this, we are wasting minutes,” Schneep said, checking his own watch. “Jackie decided what to do, what is it?”

Jackie immediately brightened. “Okay, so, we all know JJ hasn’t seen much of the town.” Everyone nodded. “So I thought we could give him the grand tour! Get lunch, go to the park, and I think the fair is open tonight so we can finish with that. That good with everyone?”

“So we’re just gonna walk all over town?” Chase asked. “Only two of us can drive, and none of us have a car right now.”

“Toughen up, Chase, walking’s good for you!” Marvin teased. “Right? Schneep, you’re a doctor, tell him I’m right.”

“He’s right,” Schneep said.

“See?!”

JJ snapped his fingers for attention. I thought we were wasting time? I certainly can’t lead the way, so I’ll ask one of you to.

“Right!” Jackie started off. “C’mon guys, lunch is waiting for us!”

They ended up at a local restaurant near the center of town called Kassie’s. It was a quaint little place, and since it was a warm day they decided to sit at a table outside. The chipper waitress gave them a plate of free fries, then took their order, and headed back inside.

“Is it just me, or is it kind of hot today?” Chase asked, fanning himself with some of the napkins.

“No, it’s not just you. God, I’m dying,” Jackie agreed.

“Jackie, you are not only wearing long sleeves, you are wearing two layers of them,” Schneep pointed out with a smile.

“Oh, you’re one to talk, Mr. Sweater-all-the-time!” Jackie rolled his eyes. “What about Jays? He’s got that vest/dress shirt on.”

JJ looked aghast. You four can run around and show your arms all you like, but I’ll have you know it isn’t proper for a gentleman!

“Are you implying we aren’t gentlemen?” Marvin asked, right before tossing a fry into the air and catching it in his mouth.

JJ raised an eyebrow. Indeed.

“I don’t care, it’s hot. I’m taking this off.” With a few flailing arms, Jackie pulled his hoodie over his head and tugged it off, revealing a Marvel-themed T-shirt underneath. “Ah. That’s better.” He looked around to see the others staring at him with wide eyes. “What?”

“Holy shit, Jackie!” Chase yelled. “Your arm!”

“Wh—oh fuck I forgot I was wearing short sleeves today.” Jackie looked down at his left arm. “Yeah, okay, I got scars, you can look all you want.”

“So that’s why I’ve never seen you in T-shirts,” Marvin realized. “Jackie, what the fuck happened?”

Jackie frowned, then coughed awkwardly. “Y’know...I’d rather not talk about it right now. Maybe later. Besides, Schneep already knows the story. ‘S how we met.”

“Honestly, you three are making mountains out of mole hills,” Schneep said. “Is fine now. You should see his torso, now those are scars.”

That only made the other three look more worried. Jackie sighed. “Look, guys, we’re having a fun day. We’re gonna have fun, and not gonna get all concerned, though I do appreciate it. And you—” he glared at Schneep “—need to stop saying that, ‘cause it makes it sound like I lost some epic battle instead of just having top surgery.”

Chase and Marvin relaxed in unison. “I’m still convinced you have, I dunno, fucking bullet scars or something,” Marvin muttered as Chase pulled the remains of the fries towards him.

“Oh yeah, but Schneep’s talking about the surgery. He’s done this before, and it’s no longer funny!” Jackie looked pointedly at Schneep when saying that last part, who just responded with a massive grin.

JJ was the only one who still looked concerned, but now that was paired with confusion. He looked around at the others. What is top surgery?

You could almost hear the hiss as the others all inhaled sharply in unison. They’d all forgotten for a moment that JJ didn’t know. Schneep cleared his throat. “Jackie, would you like to explain?”

“Right yeah. God, where do I start with this?” There was a slight pause in the conversation as the waitress returned with their food. The moment she was out of earshot, Jackie started up again. “Alright, so...” he leaned forward, hands clasped together, eyes wide and nervous. “You know how I call myself Jackieboy Man, right?”

JJ nodded. A moniker I never understood, but yes.

“Well, I didn’t always call myself that. Neither did anyone else. Because, well, they all thought that...I was a, uh, girl. Even I did. For the longest time I just sort of...accepted it. I only started to figure it out in high school. I got my first job, and one of the customers called me ‘that nice lady,’ and hearing it...just sort of surprised me. Like someone gave the wrong answer to a really easy test question. So...I started thinking, and eventually I realized that I wasn’t...actually a girl. That was when I renamed myself.”

JJ didn’t look any less confused. Why would they not understand that? Wouldn’t they be able to...see that you are not?

Jackie winced. “Well, no...you see, I...fuck.” Jackie put his head in his hands, took a deep breath, then looked up again. “I was born...in the wrong body. Top surgery is...it’s to get rid of the parts I didn’t want. Are you...are you getting this now?”

After a moment, JJ’s eyes widened. He nodded hesitantly.

“Okay. Good. Great.” Jackie sighed. “I don’t know if this word existed in the twenties, but nowadays we have ‘transgender’ as...a thing. When someone is something other than what their body is born as. I’m still a he. Or, just, anything but she, really. Literally call me anything but a girl. And please, don’t ask about what my name was before. Or what’s...down there. Those questions make me...really uncomfortable.”

My good man! JJ signed. Why would I do such a rude thing? And to my dear friend, nonetheless.

Jackie’s shoulders slumped. He leaned back in his chair and exhaled in relief. He’d been dreading this conversation, but better to rip the bandaid off now. “Thanks, man. I...appreciate your understanding.”

JJ smiled. No trouble at all, Jackie! I may not fully grasp the concept, but that’s no reason to disrespect your wishes.

“If you want, I can answer questions. Just...later. And as long as you get I don’t represent everyone who’s trans.”

JJ nodded and gave a thumbs-up. There was silence for a moment, before Chase broke it by saying “Hey, guys, I made a Jenga tower out of fries.”

Schneep rolled his eyes, and immediately knocked over Chase’s tower.

“Aw you bitch!” Chase gasped. “You didn’t even play the game right!”

“Fuck your games. Actually eat the food like it’s supposed to be.”

“You’re just jealous cause you got a salad instead.”

“Maybe I am! Did you think of that?!”

“Dude, I just said I did!”

The rest of lunch was covered in the blanket of familiar banter. Jackie smiled to himself. God, he was so glad nothing changed.

About two hours later, the boys had made their way to the southern part of the city. That was where the park was. It had an official name, but everyone just called it “the park” because there was only one of them and it was shorter. The park itself was pretty big, with trees, paths, flowerbeds, and two playgrounds at either end.

Since it was the middle of the afternoon, there were quite a few families with young children hanging around, parents watching their kids climb all over the jungle gyms and pushing them on the swings. While Marvin and Jackie walked ahead, pulling JJ with them and talking his ears off, Chase and Schneep hung back a bit. Chase was staring at the families on the playground.

“Chase? Are you okay?” Schneep asked gently.

“Yeah...yeah, I’m fine. It’s not a down day.” Schneep gave him a Look. “No, really! It’s just...y’know, seeing all the kids kinda bums me out. You know?”

“Of course I do, Chase,” Schneep said. He was probably the only one of the boys who did. “If you are feeling upset, you can go home.”

“No! God, no, that’s not what I meant at all. This has been good so far. I don’t want it to end.” Chase frowned. “Now I’m just...man. I’m starting to lose it.”

“Chase.” Schneep grabbed his hand. “If you are not enjoying yourself, we can always go do something more quiet. We would hate to push you to do something you are not up to.”

Chase considered it for a moment, then shook his head. “Nah, it’s not too bad. It helps that you guys are here, I think. But I’ll let you know...if it gets too much.”

Schneep gave him a long look, before finally judging that everything was alright. “Okay. You have to do that, or I am going to break into your home at night and yell at you for lying.”

“Okay, okay, I get the idea,” Chase laughed. He looked down at their clasped hands. “You’re not worried people are gonna think we’re a couple, then?”

“What? Oh. Is there no such thing as regular hand-holding in this country?! Besides, it should not fucking matter. Also you are not my type anyway.”

“Yeah, you’re not mine, either. You’re a guy.” Chase and Schneep both had a good laugh at that.

Marvin looked over his shoulder at the two of them. “Are you two gonna walk fast or what?”

“Or what,” Chase said with a smirk.

“Oh, you’re hilarious. A fucking comedic genius. Hey guys!” he said that last part to Jackie and JJ. “We’re gonna slow down so these two assholes can join us.”

“Marvin, how dare you,” Schneep said, mock-offended. “At least be more creative in your insulting us.”

“No.” The two mini-groups merged together to form the main group once again. “So what’re you two talking about?”

“Chase is worried that hand-holding makes a couple,” Schneep tattled.

“Bullshit,” Marvin stated. Jackie went “yeah!” in the background. JJ frowned at the use of language, but nodded. “What makes a couple is the kissing. And romantic interest in each other, which leads to the former.”

“You say, having not been on a date in at least five months,” Jackie muttered.

“Shut your stupid face, you...lovely person.” Marvin pulled his wand out of his pocket and twirled it, like he did when he was nervous. “We’ve all been kinda busy lately.”

“Yeah...that’s true,” Jackie sighed. “But maybe if you went out more, you could find someone you could go out with. Just once, if a commitment isn’t your thing right now.”

Marvin frowned. “Why in the wide world of wingmen would I go on a date once deliberately?”

“A night of fun?” Schneep suggested.

“With a complete stranger that I have no interest in? No. I need to have some intrigue in whoever they end up being.”

“None of you are gonna get anywhere with him,” Chase said. “He doesn’t get one-night stands.”

“Damn right I don’t! There’s no point!”

And it just seems improper, JJ signed. If you aren’t going to court someone, don’t approach them at all.

“Marvin! You have an ally!” Jackie gasped.

“Good. Finally, someone who agrees with me.” Marvin held up his hand and, after a moment of figuring out, JJ high-fived it. “Yeah! There we go, you got it!”

Jackie checked the time on his phone. “Alright, it’s starting to get a bit late. If we want to get enough time at the fair, we’re gonna have to book it to the eastern side.”

They didn’t actually run the whole way there, despite Jackie wanting to. By the time they got to the fair the sun was starting to set. They bought tickets and headed inside, where the Ferris wheel and the roller coaster towered over the smaller rides and the carnival games. It was a weekday, but it was one of the first days the fair was open, so the fairgrounds were crowded but not packed.

Chase gasped. “Games. We can do the games first.”

You do realized they’re all rigged, right? JJ asked.

“Who cares? They’re fun! Games now.”

Soon, the others started to suspect that the reason Chase was so eager to play games was because he knew he would win every time. The dude was scarily good. A combination of sheer luck, skill, and fuck-it-let’s-take-a-chance-ness led to many more victories than the others, something Marvin and Schneep immediately called him out for.

“You are cheating, I am sure of it!” Schneep huffed, folding his arms.

“Nah, just have a knack for it. And, in this case, practice.” Chase tossed one of the wooden balls back and forth while he waited for the carnival worker to hand him his prize. “Ya gotta aim for a bit above the spot where the third jug sits on top of the other two, then throw hard. It’s a bit of an arc.”

“No, you’re a cheater,” Marvin asserted, muttering darkly.

“Aw, c’mon! Here, will this make you less salty?” Chase accepted his stuffed prize from the worker, then handed it right over to Marvin. “I got it for you! You like cats.”

Marvin glared down at the plushie. “You’re lucky it has a cute face,” he said.

“See?!” Chase smiled. He was actually having a good time. It was a good change of pace from the park.

Eventually, everyone had a prize except for JJ. They were running out of games to play, but then Jackie spotted one of those ‘find the ball under the shuffling cups.’ “Hey guys, you up for that one?”

JJ brightened. I’m actually quite skilled at those!

“Well, then, let’s go!” Jackie pulled him over, the others in tow.

The carnival worker was calling out the rules of the game. “You get one, you win one of these lovely roses, you get two in a row, you win one of these tiny fellows here, and you get three in a row, you win one of these adorable penguins! Step right up, step right up!”

“Hey!” Jackie waved to get the worker’s attention. “We want to play!”

“Well then, young sirs, the rules are simple. Keep your eye on the ball, see right here, right here, it’s under the middle cup. Now watch as I take the cup this way, then that, then this and oh look at that! It’s goin’ fast, it’s goin’ fast don’t lose it don’t lose it! Now, which one is the ball under?”

Jackie was fairly sure he knew where it was, but he turned to JJ anyway. “So, which one?” he asked.

JJ bit his lip, then reached forward to point at one of the cups...only for the worker to slap his hand away. “I’m sorry sir, please don’t touch the cups. To prevent tamperin’, see? Just tell me.”

JJ looked a bit stunned at the worker’s aggressive tone. But he signed It’s under the left one.

“Excuse me?”

“He says it’s under the left one,” Marvin jumped in.

“...ah, I see.” The worker lifted up the cup to reveal the ball. “Seems you were right. Do you want to try again?”

The boys glanced uneasily between each other. The worker’s tone had dropped from the polite-carnival talk to one that was a bit...short. She was also talking much slower than she was before, drawing out the vowel sounds. “He can hear you perfectly fine,” Chase said. “He just can’t talk.”

“Mmm...I see...” The worker pursed her lips. “Do you want to try again?”

They all nodded. The worker was silent this time as she shuffled the cups, faster than before. When she stopped, she looked at Jackie. “Which one is the ball under?”

Jackie had a vague idea where, but he wasn’t sure. “JJ, do you know?”

The left one again, JJ signed, less enthusiastically.

“The left,” Jackie translated.

The worker frowned as she revealed the ball under the left cup. “You boys aren’t cheating, are you? Those weird gestures seem like symbols.”

Marvin laughed bitterly. “Yeah, they’re symbols alright. They stand for words. Do you not know how sign language fucking works? He’s telling us the answers ‘cause he’s the best one at it. Now let’s do this one more time.”

The worker shuffled the cups impossibly fast. Once more, she asked Jackie where the ball was. This time, he had no idea, and just looked at JJ. JJ, in turn, stiffened a bit, eyes hardening. It’s under the right one, though I wouldn’t put it past her to sneak it up her sleeve.

“Right,” all the boys said in unison.

The worker reluctantly lifted up the rightmost cup to show the ball sitting underneath. “Congratulations,” she said dully. “You win one of the big prizes. What color do you want?”

Turquoise, JJ signed. “Turquoise,” Jackie translated.

They walked away from the booth in silence. After a few moments of walking, Marvin said, “I could totally put a curse on her.”

“No,” Jackie said firmly.

“Just one little spell. She can lose her voice for a week.”

JJ shook his head, then tucked his prize under his arm so he could use his hands to sign. Revenge is never the best answer.

“It’s what she deserves!” Marvin snarled. “She was making that difficult on purpose. I saw her, she was going much slower with the customers before us. JJ, I’m so absolutely sorry on her behalf, cause god knows she’s not gonna fucking apologize.”

It’s okay, JJ insisted. Believe it or not, I’ve faced worse, especially in my day. They were much less friendly back then.

“I am sure you are not using that word in the correct meaning,” Schneep mumbled.

Marvin shoved his hand into the pocket containing his wand. “One hex. Come on. Just one. I won’t even make her ears fall off or anything.”

Everyone refused to let Marvin curse the carnival worker, and he reluctantly relented. At this point, they’d finished with the games, and all that was left were the rides. They took turns, one or two of them sitting out to watch the accumulated prizes while the others spun and flew and then stumbled off the rides. After trying most of the rides out, they took a snack break for ice cream and cotton candy.

“I think the Ferris wheel is the only one left,” Jackie said. “Unless we want to catch that sideshow thing. There’s supposed to be magicians—”

“Fake,” Marvin interrupted.

“—clowns, animals, and they advertised a knife-thrower—”

Schneep nearly choked on his ice cream. “No.”

“Okay, got it. No show then.” Jackie nodded. “But I’m not too sure about the Ferris wheel. I know at least one of us is afraid of heights.”

“Yeah, uh, me.” Chase bit his lip. “But I think I’ll be fine if I don’t look over the edge. Unless someone else doesn’t want to go on it, then I’ll stay off with them.”

“I’m good,” Jackie said. “Schneep? Marv? Either of you scared of heights?” Both of them shook their heads. “Alright. JJ?”

JJ signed, A bit, but after all these dizzy rides, I’ll take something calm like the Ferris wheel, if you please.

“Alright. Guess we’re going on the wheel, then!”

Night had truly fallen by this point. The Ferris wheel wasn’t exceptionally tall, but it still rose above everything else in the fair, providing a fantastic view of the colored lights below. Instead of having the traditional two-person seats, this wheel had booths that could fit up to eight people, so all the boys fit into one just fine. The wheel turned, and the booth turned with it. Chase squirmed, resolutely not looking over the side. Jackie and Marvin did the exact opposite, practically leaning out of the booth to look down below.

JJ tapped Schneep, signing something real quick. Schneep nodded, then yelled “Can you two stop that?! You are going to fall out of the fucking side, and you are making Jamie nervous.”

“Oh, sorry.” Jackie sat back down.

“Aww,” Marvin groaned, but pulled back into his seat. “I hope you know I do this for you, JJ.”

JJ smiled. Thank you, it’s appreciated. And I’m sure your body feels the same way, having narrowly avoided a fall to great injury.

“Nah, I would’ve been fine.”

The wheel stopped. Their booth was right at the top. “Oh, fuck,” Chase muttered, covering his eyes with his hands.

“You know, you didn’t have to come,” Jackie said quietly. “We would’ve been alright letting you stay down on the ground.”

Chase peeked between his hands. “I know. But...it’s really nice up here. Quiet. And with just you guys. As long as I ignore the distance from the ground, I’m good. You’re my friends, you know, and you make everything better.”

“Oh, Chase,” Marvin gasped. “That’s...really sweet!”

“What? Didn’t think we where friends?”

“It’s...always nice to be reminded.” Marvin smiled softly.

Well then consider this your reminder, Marvin! JJ wiggled his mustache happily. I consider you all my friends, maybe even family. You are all wonderful people and I love having you in my life!

“Nooo, stop.” It was hard to see in the dark, only lit up by the lightbulbs on the Ferris wheel, but it was possible that Marvin was actually blushing.

“You know what? I love you guys.” Jackie grinned. “Not afraid to admit it! Best friends I’ve ever had.”

Schneep cleared his throat. “Yes, I feel the same. You are all great people, and I am fortunate to have met you. I...love you as well.”

“Aaaahck!” Marvin appeared to be trying to fold into himself. “Too much love! Fatality!”

Chase chuckled. “Marvin! Accept our love!”

We love you, Marvin! JJ signed eagerly. Now you have to say it back!

Marvin made a strange sort of groaning exhale before inhaling deeply, calming down. “Yeah...I—I love you guys too. God, I love you guys so much. You should all know that.”

“There we go!” Jackie said, triumphant. “Marvin, you are, truly, the emotionally constipated one. And I thought Schneep was the worst.”

“Excuse me?!” Schneep gasped. “I assure you I am very love-sharing. I just do not use words too much because they are complicated.”

“Understandable,” Chase shrugged. “I can barely speak half the time, and I was born in English.”

I thought you were born in Ireland, JJ signed, amused.

“Oh, you know what I mean!”

The Ferris wheel started lowering, stopping and starting as it let passengers off. The boys stepped out of the booth and onto land once again.

JJ yawned. I must say that I’m rather tired after all this. I think it’s time we go home.

“Yeah, I’m starting to feel it,” Jackie agreed.

“You all are weak!” Marvin countered. “I’m good for another couple hours.”

“Watch you crash immediately upon entering your room,” Chase laughed.

“Oh, shut up.”

“I think JJ is right,” Jackie said. “It’s time to go home.”

Schneep nodded. “Yes, I could stay up longer, but I have morning shift tomorrow so I should not push my luck. I will see you all later?”

“Oh yeah.”

“Course, dude!”

“Definitely.”

Count on it!

With that, they left the fair. Eventually they split up, each heading their own separate ways until they eventually got to wherever they were staying that night. Some went to sleep immediately, some stayed up a bit later, but eventually they all went to bed.

And when they decided to do it, none of them had trouble for once.

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fatrainbowmermaidunicorn · 6 years ago

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Let’s Not Fall In Love (Park Jimin x You ONESHOT)

A/N:This request is written with inspiration from Big Bang's Let's Not Fall In Love and this line from 5SOS' Lie To Me:

"And I know that you don't But if I ask you if you love me I hope you li-li-li-lie Lie to me " 😢😢😭😭

Angst, angst and angst all over. And oh yeah a lot of implied smut but nothing on real smut since I still dont think I'm good at it :( I am sorry about that. I dont know if this is what you have in mind anon but I really do hope you enjoy it 😘

anddd REQUESTS ARE STILL OPEN!

MASTERLIST

"Don't fall in love with me,"

Those are the last thing that came out from Jimin's mouth before he crashes his lips into hers, hands busy holding her up so she can wrapped her legs around his waist. And as Jimin walked them into his bedroom, everything else doesnt matter as the two of them engulfed themselves in each other's passionate embraced.

Y/N and Jimin are friends. Well, not really close friends, but yes, friends. But there has always been some undescribable sexual tension between them even from the moment they were first introduced to each other by their mutual friend, the one and only Kim Taehyung.

Years of being friends with Taehyung, Y/N never once said yes to his millions invite to hang out with his group members until that fateful night. After a week of being holed up in her room after a disastrous breakup with her long time boyfriend and after swearing in every way possible that she will never ever fall in love and cursing every male she sees, Y/N finally agress to Taehyung's invite.

She has seen the six boys in pictures, obviously who hasnt? They are known worldwide, and heard a lot about them from Taehyung but he didnt imagined them to look this... this beautiful in real life.

Especially Park Jimin.

With his soft blonde hair falling lightly into his eyes as he smirked and swirl his drink, obviously eyeing her up and down as Taehyung introduced them, Y/N feel her whole body tingles under his domineering gaze and she suddenly felt the urgent need to know this man.

And that's percisely what she did.

What started off as countless innocent dinner and hangout sessions with the whole group slowly turns into nights of hanging out together, just the two of them. Y/N can feel Taehyung giving them curious looks whenever they excuse themselves to be alone or when Y/N quietly ditch him to spend the night with Jimin instead. It didnt get past Taehyung the subtle touches and meaningful looks the two of them gave to each other, sharing emotions that was never spoken, making him worry.

"Be careful Y/N. Jimin is not the kind of man you should fall in love with, and I know you. You are the kind of girl who falls in love, no matter what you say," Taehyung followed you around your apartment as you start to put away your newly bought groceries.

"Okay, first of all, I dont know what you are talking about. Second, there's definitely nothing going on between Jimin and me and third, I'm not that easy. I have given up on men remember?" She rolled her eyes. Taehyung ran his hand through his hair and sighed.

"I know you are not easy Y/N. But... I just care about you. You are my best friend. And I know Jimin. And I definitely know the looks you two gave each other,"

"Tae," she turns to him and shake his shoulders. "Its sweet that you worry about me. But nothing is going to happen between us. I promise,"

Taehyung groaned. "Fine. I'm trusting you on this Y/N. I just dont want you to get hurt again after what that asshole did to you," Y/N cringe at the reminder of her ex boyfriend. "Just... just dont fall in love with Jimin, okay?"

Y/N smile and kisses his cheeks. "You are very sweet Tae. The best best friend ever,"

"Just promise me Y/N," Taehyung pouts, making her chuckle.

"I promise I wont fall in love with Jimin,"

/////

It hasnt even been a month and Y/N has already broken her promise to Taehyung. A little dirty dancing on the club's dance floor, a little too much to drink and a few suggestive whisper from Jimin to her ear as he grind into her leads to the two of them stumbling outside the club flagging down a cab, making their way to her apartment, lips attached to one another the whole way there.

Y/N fumbled with her keys as Jimin keeps on kissing her neck. After finally opening the door with much difficulty, the two of them tumbles in where Jimin immediately turned her around and pinned her against the wall, kissing her lips passionately. He slowly trailed down to her jawline, neck and collarbone, leaving red and purple marks that will surely show tomorrow making her moan out loud.

"Y/N..." he hissed slowly, which is only answered by another moan. "Y/N, I have wanted to do this for so long," he whispered between kisses which is now slowly trailing down to her chest.

"Nghhh,"

"Do you want me? I need to hear you say it princess," Jimin's voice husky and needy, breaking through her hazy mind as his kisses trails back to her jaw and lips.

"Yes.. yes Jimin. I want you. I want you so bad," Jimin suddenly stopped and cupped her face between his hands, making her look at him. With dark eyes glazed with lust and want he rubbed her bottom lip with his thumb.

"If we do this I need you to promise me one thing,"

"Wh..what is it?" Y/N stutttered. She wants him so bad for so long and after tasting him, there is nothing she wouldnt agree on just to have him tonight.

"Dont fall in love with me,"

Y/N was surprised. At the back of her mind she could hear Taehyung's warning repeating itself. It scares her a little why Jimin himself is saying this to her in the middle of something so passionate. Something so intimate. Jimin leaned in and start to kiss her earlobes, slinking down to her neck, making her moan and lose all rationality again.

"Do you promise?" He whispered as he brings his head up to her ears again. Consumed with want, Y/N couldnt think straight. Afterall, its impossible to fall in love with someone just from one night of passionate sex right? And she wants Jimin so bad, she felt like dying. Afraid that he would stop if her answer is the opposite she rapidly nodded her head.

"Yes Jimin, yes!"

"Thank God," was what Y/N was sure she heard as Jimin suddenly kissed her hard after listening to her answer. Tounge and plump lips asking permission for more as they lick and pulled her bottom lip. His hands are busy holding her up so she can curled her legs around hjs waist, grazing against his hard erection and making her already short dress bunch up higher around her waist, exposing her white lace panties that's already damp from all his ministrations. He quickly carried her back to her bedroom and threw her on the bed before he crawls over her, dark obsidian eyes looking deep into hers.

"You are mine tonight princess,"

Y/N wake up smiling the next day as she traces Jimin's handsome sleeping face beside her. What happened last night makes her blush but she still couldnt get her eyes off how beautiful he is, even when he's sleeping. A different kind of feeling start to bloom in her chest but she quickly shakes it away after remembering both Taehyung's and Jimin's warning.

"Done staring at me?" Jimin's raspy morning voice break her thoughts and she blinked to see Jimin, eyes wide open, smiling at her. She ducked her head and blushed harder.

"I dont think you have anything to be embarassed about after last night princess. You were quite the-" Y/N's eyes widen and she quickly slapped her hands over his mouth to stop him from finishing off his statement. Jimin laughs out loud.

"You are so cute," he said as he scoot up, leaning against the headboard, making the blanket that's covering his body slid down to his waist, revealing his toned and chiseled chest, now littered with purple and red marks. Y/N felt her face heat up in embarassment once again and tried to rolled away, getting off the bed but Jimin managed to pull her before she can escape, making her fall on top of him.

"I dont think we are done yet princess," his voice husky as he nibbled her earlobe, making Y/N close her eyes and moan, enjoying the sensation. Jimin slid off the blanket that is wrapped around her, revealing her naked body before eyeing her up and down.

"You are so beautiful," he said against her lips before capturing them with his, hands adjusting her so she straddled his naked hips, his now hard erection grazing her wet hot core. "Ride me princess,"

/////

Jimin buttoned up his shirt from last night after a warm shower, turning to smile at Y/N who is still wrapped up in the blanket on the bed, looking at him.

"Hey, do you... maybe uh want to grab some lunch?" Y/N hesitantly asked as she scooted up her upper body so she is now leaning against the headboard.

"I would love to but I cant today. I have to get back to the dorm," Jimin flashed her an apologetic smile.

"Oh? But Tae said you guys had a free day today?"

"Yeah we do. I need to get ready. I have a date this evening," Jimin said so casually as he tried to patted down his messy hair in the mirror. Y/N felt her chest tighten at his words.

A date? After they just...

"A... a date?" Jimin turned around to face her, giving her a questioning look.

"Yeah. Why?" He cocked his head before his eyes widen after seeing the expression on her face. "Shit Y/N. Did you perhaps thinks that we are together now or something? I thought I already told you-"

"No, no," YN waved her hands around, trying to surpressed the hurt she felt. She knew he had warned her beforehand, but she thought last night would mean something to him. "Just surprised is all. I just didnt know you had plans," she gave him a tiny smile, hoping it would cover the pain she is suddenly feeling. Jimin released a deep breath, feeling relieved.

"Thank god. I thought for a second there you actually thought there's something more between us other than just sex," he laughs. Y/N felt her heart cracked at how casual Jimin is. Just sex? Is that what this is to him? Dont their friendship means something more to him than branding her into just another girl he fucked? Jimin lean in and kiss her forehead, something that feels intimate to Y/N but she knew its just an innocent gesture that doesnt mean anything to Jimin. "I have to go now, I'm late. See you around and maybe we can do... this again sometime," he winked before heading out the door.

Y/N heard the front door clicked, indicating Jimin has left her apartment. She felt her chest tighten more and more as she look around her room that is littered with evidence of last night's lovemaking, or according to Jimin, just sex. Y/N closes her eyes and scream out her frustration at the top of her lungs, throwing her pillow across the room, hitting the things on her desk.

They warned you Y/N. Do not fall in love with Park Jimin.

/////

Despite the pain she felt that first time they slept together and Jimin just left for a date, Y/N keeps on going back to him. Everytime he looks her way or when his hand lingered a little longer on her thigh...

Park Jimin is forbidden and a sin. But he's a sin that Y/N is willing to go to hell for.

And that is how she ended up between the sheets with Jimin countless of times where he will wakes up the next day and move on with his life, meeting girls and flirting with everybody he sees. Sometimes it hurts her to see a fresh batch of love bites littering his body when they get together. Love bites that doesnt belong to her. But she wanted Jimin so bad, she's willing to just close her eyes and pretend she didnt see them as she basked in his kisses and passionate touch for the night. To make things worse, well at least worse for Y/N's heart that is slowly falling for him, Jimin will care for her, showing her how concern he is and worry about her. Always cleaning her up and tucking her in, even makinh breakfast on days he didnt have anything else plan. Jimin would listen to her if she had a bad day at work or at class, and gave her tired feet a good rub when she needed it. Y/N knows that sex aside, they were first and foremost, friends. And friends take care of each other.

And that is all she is to Jimin. Friends. Maybe with some extra benefit.

And she needs to get that into her hopelessly love sick brain.

"You are sleeping with him arent you?" Taehyung sudden question took her by surprise, making her almost choked on her pancakes.

"Who?" Y/N tries her best to feign ignorance. But Taehyung knows better and rolled his eyes.

"Park freaking Jimin. Who else?"

"Wh..what? Why would you say that?"

"Well... maybe because he always comes back from your apartment with last night's clothes and butt tons of hickeys that always give our stylist a hard time to cover up everytime we had a shoot the next day?"

"He...hey. why do you assumed its me. Jimin meets a lot of women-"

"That's right. Jimin does meet a lot of women. Its who he is," Taehyung cut her off, his eyes now soft as he looks at his best friend's face. "Y/N... I warned you and I dont want you to get hurt,"

"Tae," Y/N reached out to hold Taehyung's hand across the table, pushing her plates of pancakes to the side. "I'm okay. I know what kind of relationship me and Jimin have. We are something like... friends with benefit?" She hesitates. "A lot of benefit actually," she chuckles, trying to lighten the mood.

"But Y/N. I know you. You are the type of girl who wants a real relationship. You want breakfast in bed and cuddles. Ice cream dates and flowers. Late night texts and video calls. Not some fuck me and leave me kinda relationship," Taehyung's furrowed his eyebrows in worry.

"Tae, dont worry about me. I'm a big girl, I know what I'm doing," she poke her now limped pancakes. "You had warned me. Even Jimin himself had warned me. I know what I'm doing okay?" Taehyung sighed.

"Fine. If you say so," his expression turns serious. "But Y/N. You know I'm only saying this because I care about you right? You are my best friend and I dont want you to get hurt," Y/N smile at how cute Taehyung is. Always taking care of her.

"I know Tae. I know. And I'm glad to have someone like you on my side," and if only my heart actually listen to you before falling helplessly in love with Park Jimin.

/////

As days passes by, Y/N's heart grows fonder of Jimin and she felt like he is changing too. He starts to spend more extra time with her now. No more immediately leaving the apartment after their morning quickies, but instead he takes her out to eat, or cook breakfast together jn her tiny kitchen. Some days, they even skip the sex and spend the night cuddle up in a blanket, watching a movie until they fall asleep. With all the changes in his behavior, Y/N starts to feel a sense of hope.

Is Park Jimin falling in love with her too?

God, she hope he is, because she's not afraid to admit it now. She is hopelessly in love with Park Jimin.

But dreams are what it is, a dream. After Jimin suddenly cancelled his plan to come over one night, of course without any further explanation, Y/N decides to finally join back the real world and went out to dinner with her girlfriends at some fancy restaurant. The night went well, they talked about everything and laughing so hard until her mouth hurts, well that is until one of her friends point to a table behind her.

"Omg, that's BTS' Park Jimin!" Y/N felt her heart beats faster at the sound of his name, a smile starting to formed on her lips. "He's on a date! Omg! And she's beautiful!"

Y/N's smile immediately dissapeared after that. A date? She knows Jimin met up with other woman while he's sleeping with her. Heck, he even sleeps with other woman while he's sleeping with her. But she thought his feelings changed this past few weeks. Doesnt he treat her better now? More special? Why is he still going on dates?

"Hey, that's the girl from the new girl group isnt it?" Another friend ask. Y/N downed the rest of her drink, feeling she needs all the liquid courage she can have before she turns around and look at what her friends are gaping about. True enough, the moment she turns around, Jimin is sitting in the table just right behind her, devastatingly handsome with his blond hair styled neatly and dressed in a slim fitted black suit with a white shirt underneath. Y/N suddenly felt a pang of possesiveness and jealousy but she knows there's nothing she can do about it but stare. Jimin finally caught her staring and the moment he did, he smile at her and raised his glass, indicating a greeting. As if she is just a friend he saw while being on a date.

Wait. That is exactly what's happening. Jimin is on a date. And Y/N is his friend.

Y/N felt her chest tighten and turned back around immediately. How can Jimin act this way? Does she really meant nothing to him?

"Holy crap. Did Park Jimin just raised his glass to you Y/N?" One of her friends exclaimed.

"N..no. I dont think so,"

"He obviously did!" Another one cut in. Y/N didnt know what to say until she remembers that they know about her and Taehyung's long term friendship.

"Urm maybe. Taehyung introduced us once. I didnt think he would still recognized me though," she gave a sheepish smile.

"Oh yes. I forgot about that. Damn you are one lucky bitch Y/N. That best friend of yours is extremely hot. Arent you ever going to introduce Taehyung to us?" And just like that the conversation switch from Park Jimin to Kim Taehyung's level of hotness and Y/N has never been more grateful.

Y/N peeled off her dressed and hopped in the shower, putting on her comfiest nightie once done. A night that's supposed to help her relax and forget turns into a disaster. All because Park freaking Jimin decides to date some extremely beautiful girl idol and bring her to the most expensive restaurant in town. Trying to drown her thoughts in the drama series she's currently watching and failing miserably, Y/N dragged her pathetic self into her room, ready to just sleep when someone knock on her front door. Without thinking much, she went and opened it, assuming it must be her best friend. Taehyung do love to show up unexpectedly in the middle of the night anyway.

But what stands in front of her is not Kim Taehyung, but Park Jimin. Still dressed in the suit he wore to the godforsaken date and leaning against the door frame, a smirk on his face.

"Hi princess," Y/N rolled her eyes.

"What are you doing here Jimin?"

"Well," he straighten up, but the smile still not leaving his beautiful face. "I cant get over how gorgeous you look when I saw you at the restaurant just now. I swear princess, every guy in there is just staring at you. And it makes me angry,"

Y/N suddenly felt heat blooms up in her chest at Jimin's sudden show of possesiveness. Is Jimin jealous?

"Why does it matter to you if they look at me? You have your idol princess with you there right," Y/N hate how childish, petty and jealous she sounds but that is just how she feels. Jimin chuckle and steps inside her apartment, closing the door and locking it.

"She's beautiful isnt she?" Jimin asks, anger start to rise in Y/N with his question. "But I dont simply take girls home on a first date Y/N. You know that. And seeing you there... if gives me a problem that I think only you can help," he whispered huskily as he steps closer to her. Y/N felt like crying. Is that all she is to him? A place to satisfy himself? Y/N pushed him away and walked off.

"No. Im not doing this tonight. Im not going to sleep with you just because you get horny after your date and is not able to fuck her Jimin!"

"Oh come on princess. Isnt that what our relationship is about? Helping each other?" He pulls her arm, closing the gap between them once again. Y/N blinked back the tears that threaten to fall. Jimin is right. When they first agreed to this... this friends with benefit arrangement, that is what the two of them had agreed upon. To help each other released their sexual frustration whenever they need to.

Well, that was before she fell in love with him.

Now, every touch, every kiss from him felt different. Even the way he smile at her makes her heart flutter. She doesnt just want him physically, she wants him emotionally, she wants all of him. The good, the bad, his flaws and his mistake, everything.

Jimin starts to give butterfly kisses from her ear down to her neck before capturing her lips with his. "Dont tell me you dont want me tonight princess, when your body is telling me otherwise," he whisper as he nibbled her ear, his warm breath sending her shivers. Everything about Jimin is intoxicating. His scent, his voice, his taste... it makes Y/N forget everything else. With nimble hands Jimin pushed down the straps of her nightie off her shoulders, making the skimpy outfit fell to the ground, leaving her bare to his eyes.

"You are beautiful. Always so beautiful for me," he said againsts her lips as he captured hers with his and lead her into the bedroom.

Y/N woke up to the smell of waffles and coffee the next day. As she rubbed her sleepy eyes and padded towards the kitchen, she giggled as she is greeted with the sight of Jimin in her flowery apron, setting the table with the breakfast he successfuly prepared without burning the kitchen down.

"Oh, you are awake," he leaned over and kissed her cheeks, making Y/N's heart swell. "Come, eat," he smile and lead her to her seat. That's the thing about Jimin. He confuses her. One minute he acts as if their relationship means nothing but sex to him, and then he suddenly acts all sweet and acting like the perfect boyfriend. Y/N wishes nothing more than to understand what's going on in that brain of his. To understand him. To know him.

"I have the day off today. Want to spend it together? We can eat delicious food and catch a movie. Maybe take a walk in the park later in the evening?" Jimin suggested between shoving waffles in his mouth. Y/N couldnt help the smile that blooms across her face. Of course she would love to spend the day with Jimin. She would agree to anything as long as its Jimin.

"That sounds great,"

The day went amazingly well. They had fun, talking and laughing. Despite having to wear masks and hide out from one shop to another in order to avoid Jimin's fangirls, the rest of the day went smoothly. As he drops her off at her apartment he leans in and kiss her on the cheeks.

"Thanks for today. I needed that. Work has been crazy," he smile.

"No problem. I had fun too," she fiddled with her hands. "Do you... do you want to come in?" Jimin laughs.

"Why are you so nervous around me? That is so cute," he pinched her cheeks. "But no. Not tonight. I have to go back to the dorm or Namjoon hyung will kill me," he laughs again.

"Okay then," Jimin was about to walk away when he turns back around.

"Oh, dont forget about tomorrow. Tae asks me to remind you that we are going to that new club tomorrow," he reminded her. "See you there?" Y/N nodded.

"Sure. Goodnight Jimin,"

"Goodnight princess," Jimin gave one last smile before walking away, leaving Y/N with a stomach full of butterflies. She wish everyday is as beautiful as today.

The club was crowded, filled to the brim with young people dancing, grinding against each other and drinking well. Y/N finally found Taehyung and the rest of the boys in the VIP area after much difficulty, but as she approached them, she realized that Jimin and Jungkook is missing.

"Before you ask," Taehyung said, knowing exactly who Y/N is looking for and points towards the dance floor where the two man is dancing with some girls, showing off their dance move. Y/N felt her heart is about to burst when she sees the way Jimin stick himself to one of the girl's back, grinding his hips into her ass as one of her hand held around his neck, head leaning against his shoulder. Yesterday was wonderful, they had an amazing day together. Why is he doing this again? Does she really meant nothing to him? Nothing at all?

"You okay?" Taehyung asks, concerned. Y/N averted her gaze from Jimin and smile at her best friend.

"Yeah, yeah. I just need a drink," and drink she did. Glass after glass. Especially when Jimin brought the girl he was dancing with back to their booth, where she sat on his lap the whole time, face buried in his neck, kissing and biting him. Jimin only give Y/N a winked when he first saw her and continue to basked in the girl who is pratically dry humping him in the booth. While the other boys didnt mind them, most probably used to Jimin and his playboy ways, Y/N couldnt stop herself from looking at the two.

Why are you doing this Jimin? Arent I enough? And why are you torturing yourself Y/N? Look away. Look away!

Y/N finally gets up and tumbled to the dance floor, a little drunk, once Jimin starts to make out with the girl, not even a trace of shame or guilt on his face, and decides to find herself a man. Being drunk is a plus point as she starts to dance and grind against the men that showed interest in her. She turned her gaze to the booth and even in her drunken state, she can feel her heart burst and crack as she sees Jimin take the girl's hand and lead her to the exit, waving his members goodbye. A sure sign that he is taking the girl home. Taking her home and doing things that he should be doing with her.

Maybe its the jealousy. Maybe because she's hurt. Maybe because she's just drunk.

Maybe because she just love Jimin so much she's willing to self distruct.

Y/N turned back to the mam she's dancing with and whisper in his ear. "Take me home and fuck me tonight," And the man's smile stretched across his face as he leads her out and she gave a drunken wave goodbye to a worry Taehyung before willingly following him out.

Y/N wakes up the next day, naked, dirty, alone and feeling like shit. Her head is throbbing from a massive hangover and it hurts even more when she realizes she had slept with some stranger just out of spite. Just because Jimin hurts her. For the millionth time. And he doesnt even know. After a hot shower, a nice breakfast and a cup of coffee to help heal her hangover, Y/N wrapped herself in her blanket and waste the whole day away just watching TV, although she cant focus on anything she's currently watching.

Her thoughts are only on Jimin, Jimin, Jimin.

Did he slept with that girl last night? Did he stay the night? Did he cook her breakfast? Did he feel that she is better than her?

With her head filled with Jimin, unexpected tears finally rolling down her cheeks, Y/N fell asleep, only to be awaken by a knock on her door. Still in dazed and not fully awake, she opened it to find Park Jimin standing in front of her, smiling.

"Jimin?"

"Hey princess. Just coming to check on you. Tae said you were pretty drunk last night," he chuckles at her dazed expression. "Looks like it hits you hard,"

"Why do you care? Arent you busy last night?" She snapped.

"What's with you? I came because I'm your friend and I dont want you to be hangover alone," Jimin raised his eyebrows at Y/N's biting tone.

"Oh now you care?"

"What is that supposed to mean?"

"You didnt care much when that girl from last night was busy dry humping you in the club last night," Jimin sighed.

"Seriously Y/N? This again? Are you going to be like this whenever you see me with another girl?" Y/N didnt answer and turned away. How is she supposed to answer that without revealing her real feelings for him? Jimin pulled her hand, not satisfied with her silence, making the wide collar of her baggy tshirt slipped down her shoulder, exposing the many marks on her neck from her night with the stranger.

"Did you bring someone home last night?" Jimin questioned as he eyed the marks all over body, knowing immediately that those marks didnt belong to him. Y/N hastily pulled back the collar, covering herself up.

"Even if I did, why do you care?" Jimin gave out a sarcastic laugh.

"You were just a second ago giving me shit because I fucked another girl and yet you did just the same thing last night princess, and you ask me why I care?" he snarled, pulling her closer to him, his grip tight on her wrist.

"Do you think you are the only one who can satisfy me Jimin? Guess what, you arent," Y/N spat back. She and Jimin had never fought to this extend before. They never talked about their relationship or what they do with other people. Plus, Jimin has never put a claim on her, never been this possesive and it feels good. Jimin felt anger start to consumed him. He dont understand why, but he just didnt like it. The thought that somebody else has touched what used to be his. Knowing that somebody else has touched her in the ways he did.He steps closer to her, making her walk backwards and fall onto the couch. He crawls on top of her and held both of her wrist on top of her head as he nuzzle her neck.

"You think he can do it better than me princess? You think he can fuck you better than me?" Jimin's words are cold as he left his own marks over the ones already on her neck. "Tonight you are going to learn to whom you exactly belong to princess,"

/////

Y/N rolled to her side as she look at Jimin's back. Jimin had made love to her four times that night, proving to her to whom she really belongs to. She traces his soft hair with the pad of her fingertips and kiss the back of his neck. Jimin is so beautiful, she felt like crying. She wants him so bad. She wants him to want her. She wants him to love her, just as much as she loves him.

"I love you Park Jimin," she softly whispered as she heard Jimin's steady breathing, indicating that he is asleep. "I know I promise I wont fall in love with you, but I did. I did Jimin..." she nuzzled his neck. "Why wont you love me back Jimin, when I love you so much? What do I have to to make you love me?" She mumbled as she buried her face in his neck and tighten her arms around his waist.

Little did she know that Jimin is wide awake and heard every little thing that she said.

////^

Y/N didnt know what she did wrong. Every since that night it seems as if Jimin was avoiding her. He was fine the next morning. Eating breakfast together with her and went back to the dorm, but after that, there is no more calls or text from him. He didnt even join the boys whenever she went to hang out together with them. Even Taehyung cant answer her question as Jimin never said anything about it to anybody.

Feeling restless as it has been two weeks without hearing anything from Jimin, Y/N takes the drastic measure to just showed up at the dorm unannounced, surprising even Taehyung.

"Y/N? What are you doing here?"

"I'm here to see Jimin, Tae. I'm pretty sure he's avoiding me and it drives me crazy because I dont know why," she pulled at her hair. "He's home right?"

"Yeah he is. But I dont think you are going to like what you're going to see," Taehyung mumbled.

"What do you mean?" She asks, cocking her head as Taehyung open the door and let her in, only to be greeted with the sight of a girl leaving Jimin's room, in obvious last night's clothes. Make up smeared and hair messy, as Jimin stand by his door clad only in his boxers saying goodbye to the girl. Y/N patted her chest, trying to calm herself at the sight.

Calm down Y/N. You and Jimin are just friends. There is nothing between the two of you. You have no right over him. No matter how posessive he is over you the last night you were together. You are him and not in a relationship. Remember that.

"Y/N? What are you doing here?" Jimin only now realizing her presence that has been standing there like a statue. It hurts her to see how calm and composed he is eventhough he knows she saw what goes down between him and the girl just now.

"We need to talk. Can we do it in your room?"

"Yeah sure. Come on in," he motioned towarda his room and closes the door once they entered. He picked up his shirt and puts in on before turning to her. "So.. what's up?"

"What's up? That's what you are going to ask me?" She raised an eyebrow. "Why are you avoiding me Jimin? What did I do?"

"I'm not avoiding you,"

"Please Jimin, dont treat me like a fool. We both know you are avoiding me. I just dont know why," she plead. "Dont you think our friendship means something enough for you to at least tell me why?"

Jimin sighed and ran his hand through his hair, as if contemplating something that is extremely difficult for him. After choosing his words carefully, he opened his mouth.

"I heard what you said that night," his voice is barely above a whisper, but still, in the silence of the room, Y/N heard every single word, making her heart beats faster.

"What?"

"I heard you. That night. When you told me you love me,"

"Jimin, I-"

"You promised me Y/N. You promised me that you wont fall in love with me! Why do you have to ruin everything?"

Ruin everything?

The feeling of nervousness and being scared that she first felt turns into anger and hurt. Is her love really that unworthy? Is loving him means its ruining everything? How dare he!

"Yes, I love you Jimin! Why are you so afraid of it? Why are you so afraid of being loved that you have to go to the extend of avoiding me because of it?!" Y/N's question took him by surprised. He didnt expect her to actually ask him back, or to just admit it.

"I dont want to hurt you Y/N. I care about you. And you loving me is only going to end up with you being hurt!" Y/N closes her eyes as an effort to stop the tears that is prickling her eyes from rolling down. All this while she thought Jimin would at least have a little feeling for her. A tiny bit. But hearing what he's saying now, it just showed that he really doesnt love her at all.

"I know you felt it too Jimin. Maybe you dont love me like I love you, but you cant be this heartless! You cant be this cold. I know you! I can feel it in the way you touch me, smile at me, look at me! I know you felt something too Jimin, and that's why you are so afraid of it!" Y/N's chest heaved up and down from her heavy breathing after she finally lets out everything she's feeling. Jimin rubbed his temples.

"No. I dont fall in love Y/N. I never have and I never will. Not with anyone else and not with you!" He raised his voice, hoping Y/N would understand him. Why is she making things conplicated? "Everything you just said... its all in your head. What we have between us is just amazing sex and there's nothing more to it. You know that when you agreed to this. Dont trick yourself to think otherwise," he sighed. "I do care for you Y/N. You are my friend. But that's the extend to this relationship. You are my friend, and we have sex. That's it. So plesase, please Y/N. Dont try to have me. Dont expect too much from me. Please, dont do this," Jimin sat down on the edge of his bed. Y/N just stood there, whole body shaking as she tries to control herself from breaking down in front of the man she loves.

"I really like you Y/N. But I'm sorry, I cant love you. I want you to stay. I really want to ask you to stay by my side, but I cant do that if you love me," he said softly.

Tears that cant be contained any longer finally rolls down her cheeks. There is nothing left to say. There is nothing she could say.

"You are a selfish bastard Park Jimin," and she ran out.

/////

"What exactly is going on with you and Y/N, Chim?" Taehyung took a seat on Jimin's bed, a week after Y/N ran out from his room. Jimin groaned.

"Do we really have to do this Tae?"

"Yes. We do," Taehyung looked at his best friend. "I dont want to intrude Chim, but Y/N is my best friend and she's not talking to me. I just need to know what happen," Jimin kept quiet as he fiddled with the pen he's holding. There is no point in lying to Taehyung. He is his best friend and he knows him well. If Jimin didnt tell him now, Taehyung will still find out sooner or later. "Fine, if you dont want to talk then I will,"

"She fell in love with you didnt she?" Taehyung's words took Jimin by surprised.

"How do you know?"

"She's my best friend Chim. We have been friends for years. I already knew this would happen from the moment the two of you lay your eyes on each other. She's pure. She's the kind of girl that yearns for love," Taehyung shakes his head. "I already warned her multiple times about you to be honest, but she didnt listen,"

"That's the thing Tae. I warned her too..."

The two boys kept silent for a moment before Taehyung speaks up again.

"Do you really not feel anything for her? Is she really just another one of your girls?" Taehyung raised his head and questioned his friend. Its something that has been lingering too long in his head and he needs to know the truth now.

"I dont know Tae. I care about her and I like her. But I dont know if its enough to say I love her," Jimin takes a deep breath. "But one thing for sure, Y/N is not just another girl to me. She's special, but I dont know if I can give her what she wants Tae and if she stays with me, continue to love me, she will only end up getting hurt,"

"It sure sounds like she is more than just a friend to you Chim,"

"I dont know. I really dont know Tae. I hate it when another man touches her but I dont want her to belong to me either. I have never been in love Tae. I dont know what I'm feeling right now,"

"Well, you better figure it out fast Chim, because she has been rejecting this for a while now, but I think you really broke her heart this time that she finally agrees to the arranged marriage her family has been planning for her,"

"What?!"

/////

"Is it true?"

Y/N quickly pushed the door, hoping to slam it right in front of Jimin's face but he is quicker, and using his strength he pushed it back and enter the apartment.

"Answer me Y/N. Is it true? Are you getting married?"

"Why do you care Jimin?" Y/N finally opened her mouth and he heard how hoarse her voice is, as if she's been crying the past one week, which is most probably what she did. He finally took a step back and look at her. Y/N look tired and pale. Her eyes no longer sparkles, lifeless as it looks at him with dark circles all around it. Jimin felt his heart clenched but he still doesnt know what it means. Does it means that he loves her? Cares for her?

"Just answer me Y/N!"

"Yes! Yes! Is that what you come here to hear? That I will be getting married and be out of your way?" She yelled. "Well congratulations Jimin. Im getting married soon and you wont have to deal with me anymore!" Jimin step closer to her and held her hand.

"Y/N, that is not the reason why I asked you. That's not it at all,"

"Then what is it Jimin? What is it?!" She screamed as her tiny hands keeps on hitting his chest, tears rolling down her cheeks. "Stop doing this to me. Stop confusing me!" Jimin grabbed her hands and hug her tight, halting her movements.

"I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry Y/N," Jimin, not knowing what else to say to calm her down whisper as he buried his face in her hair, inhaling her scent. He kiss her hair and softly her forehead, then her wet eyelids and both of her cheeks. He wiped her tears with his thumb and keeps on giving butterfly kisses all over her face, all along repeating his chant of I'm sorry to her. Y/N raised her head and look at Jimin's face. He is so beautiful, she loves him so much that her heart hurt.

"Kiss me Jimin. Please just kiss me,"

Without saying anything, Jimin connect his lips to hers, pouring every feeling the two of them felt but is never able to say to each other into that one kiss, as Jimin slowly starts to carry her into her bedroom without breaking the kiss.

"Jimin," Y/N can only moaned his name as he rips of her blouse and start to kiss all over her body. Y/N heard the faint sound of his belt being taken out and finally felt the leather being wrapped around her wrist as Jimin hooked the ends to the bed's headboard, restricting her hand from moving.

"You have been bad to me Y/N. Agreeing to marry someone else, agreeing to let somebody else touch you. You are going to take your punishment like a good girl, okay princess?" Jimin smirked as Y/N can only moan as an answer, and he capture her lips with hers again.

Jimin rolled of her, sweating and panting as he reached up to finally released the leather from bounding her wrists, rubbing and kissing the redden marks on her hand softly with care.

"Are you okay?"

"Yes. I'm okay Jimin. Please just cuddle me," she looks at him with glazed eyes, voice soft and tired. Jimin hugged her, her naked back pressed to his equally naked chest as he hug her tight. "Please stay Jimin. Stay tonight. I dont want to be alone. Dont leave. Please dont leave me again,"

"I will stay princess. I promise I will. Just clkse your eyes and sleep, I will be here when you wake up," Jimin hushed her as he kissed her hair, as the two drifted off to sleep.

But Y/N woke up the next day in an empty apartment, no traces of Jimin left anywhere, making her heart break to its final pieces as she screamed and cried her eyes out.

/////

"You look beautiful sweetheart," her mother smile and kiss her hair before leaving her alone in the room. Y/N stare at her reflection. It shows a beautiful girl, dressed in her white wedding dress, hair and makeup perfectly done, with a bouquet of flowers in her hand.

Its her wedding day.

And she dont even recognized the girl in the mirror.

When Jimin left after promising that he would stay that night, Y/N's world shattered. Nothing matters to her anymore. She goes through life like a zombie, doing everything just for the sake of it. Now three weeks later and her wedding day is finally here. A day where every girl dream about, but Y/N only feels like dying.

"Y/N..." Y/N look through the mirror and saw Jimin standing there, smiling at her. She quickly turns around, afraid that she's only dreaming. But she wasnt. Jimin is really standing there. In front of her.

"Jimin,"

"You look beautiful. You are going to the most beautiful bride princess," Jimin smile but she can hear his voice shakes.

"Why are you here Jimin? Why are you doing this to me?" Tears are cascading now her cheeks again and she dont care. She doesnt care aboit anything anymore.

"I... I wanted to see you one last time. And to see myself how beautiful you would look on your wedding day," he smile as his eyes went to the floor before flicking up to her face again. "And I was right. You look beautiful. Ethereal even," Jimin smile and gave her a bow before turning around, ready to make his exit when her voice stopped him.

"Say it Jimin," her voice hoarsed and scratchy from all the crying. "Just this once, tell me you love me. Tell you love me and I'm yours. Tell me you love me and I will leave everything for you. I will give up everything to be with you," she whispered.

Jimin just stood there in front of her, tears rolling down both of his cheeks. Those three words that she so badly wanted to hear are at the tip of his tounge, just waiting to come out, but he cant. He cant do it. He dont even know what's stopping him, but he cant do it.

Park Jimin dont fall in love. And its going to stay that way.

"Please Jimin..." she's begging now, her tears are ruining her perfectly finished makeup. "Please dont do this. I know you felt it too. Please dont let me go. Please Jimin," she cries in desperation. Her heart ache so much that no words can explain the pain she's feeling. She feels like running, stomping off, throwing things, punching a wall, maybe even kill someone, anything at all to subside the pain in her heart. Jimin finally takes a deep breath and opened his eyes, walking slowly towards her. He reached out to carressed her cheeks and she leaned in into his touch that she had missed so much.

"I already told you Y/N. Lets not fall in love," his voice a soft whisper. "I already warned you, dont fall in love with me,"

"Ji...Jimin..."

"I'm not the kind of man to fall in love with anybody Y/N. Not anyone... not even you, someone who is special to me," by the time he finished his sentence Y/N felt like she would collapsed. She cant believe what she's hearing right now.

"You are lying," her voice shakes. "You are lying! You wouldnt be here if you didnt love me!"

"I'll be lying if I told you I love you Y/N," he tried to smirk, to make his words seems more truthful but it looks so staged, so forced in her eyes. He leaned in closer and with one last tear rolling down his cheeks he kissed her forehead. "I'm sorry. Forget about me and live happily with him,"

Y/N pulls his hand and with tears in her eyes asks him one last thing. With determination Jimin answered and walks away, not once looking back at Y/N who crumpled down on the floor, her beautiful white dress puffed up all around her, suffocating her in her tears.

Jimin walks quickly and exited the building and as he reached and close the door, his limped body slide down the wooden door, not even an ounce of energy left, his head in his hands as his body shakes from uncontrolled tears and unbearable sadness as he remembers his last words to her.

Y/N pulls his hand and with tears in her eyes asks him one last thing.

"Then just lie to me. Lie to me and tell me what I want to hear. Lie to me one last time Jimin,"

Jimin looks deep into her eyes and opened his mouth and whispered,

"I love you Y/N,"

With determination Jimin answered and walks away, not once looking back at Y/N who crumpled on the floor, her beautiful white dress puffed up all around her, suffocating her in her tears. Jimin felt his heart breaks into tinier pieces with every step he takes away from her, for to him, his last words to her is the furthest thing from a lie. It was the truest thing he could have ever told her.

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batsysims · 6 years ago

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didnt wanna do an actual Simself Edit™ so have an arrested development reference

anyways

i was tagged by @0cherub & i tag any1 who hasnt done this yet bc who doesnt like answering 125 questions abt themselves oh also @flavortowne im forcing you to do this sry

get to know me tag

1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME? its batsy dont worry abt it

2. WHAT IS YOUR NICKNAME? its batsy dont worry abt it

3. BIRTHDAY? september 15

4. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BOOK SERIES? what?? are books

5. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ALIENS OR GHOSTS? ye both

6. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE AUTHOR? ummmm idk lmfao i havent “read” a “book”” in like 5 years

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE RADIO STATION? 35 & 36 on sirius are like basically the exact same station but that doesnt mean i dont constantly alternate between the two whenever im near a radio

8. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLAVOR OF ANYTHING? pink is a v trustworthy flavor

9. WHAT WORD WOULD YOU USE OFTEN TO DESCRIBE SOMETHING GREAT OR WONDERFUL? *owen wilson voice* wrow

10. WHAT IS YOUR CURRENT FAVORITE SONG? what kinda question is this wt f ive currently reobsessed myself w marina and the diamonds so honestly any of her discography

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WORD? idk any words :^/ sry

12. WHAT WAS THE LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? wheels on the bus im exhausted

13. WHAT TV SHOW WOULD YOU RECOMMEND FOR EVERYBODY TO WATCH? man in the high castle. man in the high castle. man in the high ca

14. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MOVIE TO WATCH WHEN YOU’RE FEELING DOWN? clerks al;dksfjf

15. DO YOU PLAY VIDEO GAMES? almost exclusively sims and fallout but every once in a while some indie game i find on steam so. yea

16. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? never doing anything in my life and having nothing 2 look forward to!! yay

17. WHAT IS YOUR BEST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? probably my resiliency, maybe?? idk

18. WHAT IS YOUR WORST QUALITY, IN YOUR OPINION? my habit of allowing bad things to happen to me lol

19. DO YOU LIKE CATS OR DOGS BETTER? cats but im sorta kinda indifferent 2 both i think i might 1 of the 5 ppl on earth who dont like having pets

20. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON? summer and fall

21. ARE YOU IN A RELATIONSHIP? yea

22. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU MISS FROM YOUR CHILDHOOD? not being lazy lmfao

23. WHO IS YOUR BEST FRIEND? @flavortowne eye emoji

24. WHAT IS YOUR EYE COLOR? blue

25. WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR? its natural brown but im thinkn abt going either red or blonde again

26. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU LOVE? like 3 ppl irl and everyone on discord u guys legit

27. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU TRUST? my person and @flavortowne eye emoji

28. WHO IS SOMEONE YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN? tom hardy. what is his end goal

29. ARE YOU CURRENTLY EXCITED ABOUT/FOR SOMETHING? tbh going 2 basic lmfao im!! lame

30. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST OBSESSION? as of right now,, spiderverse lol

31. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TV SHOW AS A CHILD? teletubbies was fckn legit and so was old school spongebob

32. WHO OF THE OPPOSITE GENDER CAN YOU TELL ANYTHING TO, IF ANYONE? my person

33. ARE YOU SUPERSTITIOUS? im not superstitious,,, but i am a little stitious

34. DO YOU HAVE ANY UNUSUAL PHOBIAS? i cant deal w fishing poles idk

35. DO YOU PREFER TO BE IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA OR BEHIND IT? in front babey

36. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE HOBBY? sims or stitching play foods 4 the kid to use on her play kitchen

37. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ? stop asking book questions

38. WHAT WAS THE LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? spiderverse yeye

39. WHAT MUSICAL INSTRUMENTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? piano & i try 2 pretend i know what im doing w a ukulele

40. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ANIMAL? stingrays :^)

41. WHAT ARE YOUR TOP 5 FAVORITE TUMBLR BLOGS THAT YOU FOLLOW? legit all my mutuals

42. WHAT SUPERPOWER DO YOU WISH YOU HAD? i had an oc that could read ppls memories like a scrapbook if he touched them and i always honestly thought that was. cool

43. WHEN AND WHERE DO YOU FEEL MOST AT PEACE? in my house!! the door b locked bitch!!!!

44. WHAT MAKES YOU SMILE? toddler being an idiot toddler

45. WHAT SPORTS DO YOU PLAY, IF ANY? its not really,, a sport,, but i bike

46. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DRINK? cream soda in those glass bottles is top tier non-alcoholic beverage

47. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A HAND-WRITTEN LETTER OR NOTE TO SOMEBODY? i wrote a letter 2 my person telling him he was an idiot and by the time it was mailed 2 his house i was already living there lol

48. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? nah

49. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? either ppl blowing vape in my face or holding something so close to my face i cant see i just go ballistic

50. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN TO A CONCERT? nope unless u count a sesame street liveshow like 10 years ago

51. ARE YOU VEGAN/VEGETARIAN? nope!

52. WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE, WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP? a cop lmfao

53. WHAT FICTIONAL WORLD WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE IN? this is horrible but the setting of new vegas i just feel like id be at home there, w the radiation and constant danger and dehydration

54. WHAT IS SOMETHING YOU WORRY ABOUT? the kid

55. ARE YOU SCARED OF THE DARK? only when im looking in the mirror adlkfj start thinkn abt a different face showing up instead of mine idk

56. DO YOU LIKE TO SING? yea

57. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL? skipped a whole year adlfkj

58. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PLACE ON THE PLANET? this is basic but i miss the tri-state area

59. WHERE WOULD YOU LIKE TO LIVE? this is basic but i miss nj

60. DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS? yea :^/ a dog, a cat, and uhhhh 14 fish

61. ARE YOU MORE OF AN EARLY BIRD OR A NIGHT OWL? night owl but honestly im just always tired

62. DO YOU LIKE SUNRISES OR SUNSETS BETTER? sunsettttt

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO DRIVE? i do

64. DO YOU PREFER EARBUDS OR HEADPHONES? headphones. they just work

65. HAVE YOU EVER HAD BRACES? nah but i need em

66. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE GENRE OF MUSIC? i listen to everything tbh

67. WHO IS YOUR HERO? michael cera

68. DO YOU READ COMIC BOOKS? i used to read them religiously but not so much any more. i am reading the TAZ graphic novel tho

69. WHAT MAKES YOU THE MOST ANGRY? having to repeat myself 20 times. or being an idiot when i wanna start a new hobby

70. DO YOU PREFER TO READ ON AN ELECTRONIC DEVICE OR WITH A REAL BOOK? idk how to read

71. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL? honestly i had a blast in econ and my law enforcement class

72. DO YOU HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? a bro, another sibling, and a half-bro

73. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT? food lmfao

74. HOW TALL ARE YOU? every time i measure myself im 5′2″ but the government insists that i am 5′3″ so w/e

75. CAN YOU COOK? yeap

76. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU LOVE? alcohol, bike riding, wearing stupid makeup

77. WHAT ARE THREE THINGS THAT YOU HATE? ppl holding me back, bird box, when my nail breaks before i can file it so its all oglee

78. DO YOU HAVE MORE FEMALE FRIENDS OR MORE MALE FRIENDS? uh idk?? i dont have,, many,,,, friends

79. WHAT IS YOUR SEXUAL ORIENTATION? bi

80. WHERE DO YOU CURRENTLY LIVE? sc :’^(

81. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TEXTED? my brother

82. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED? 2 nights ago the kid pistol whipped me in the chin w her phone and it just hurt so bad it legit made me lose it

83. WHO IS YOUR FAVORITE YOUTUBER? ok this is dumb as shit the kid is obsessed w Blippi and i have a mom crush on him afdslfkjs

84. DO YOU LIKE TO TAKE SELFIES? ye

85. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE APP? i am currently obsessed w L.O.L. Surprise! Pop but all in all probs Pocket Camp

86. WHAT IS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR PARENT(S) LIKE? bad as parents but theyre fine now that im an adult and they have a grandkid they can like

87. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOREIGN ACCENT? i dont like a majority of them lmfao but idk maybe uh?? irish

88. WHAT IS A PLACE THAT YOU’VE NEVER BEEN TO, BUT YOU WANT TO VISIT? rly wanna go to nevada but im moving to the mojave soon anyways so

89. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NUMBER? 15

90. CAN YOU JUGGLE? nope

91. ARE YOU RELIGIOUS? i was raised christian but i dont rly give a shit abt any of that

92. DO YOU FIND OUTER SPACE OR THE DEEP OCEAN TO BE MORE INTERESTING? outer space my dood the ocean is dumb and scary

93. DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF TO BE A DAREDEVIL? im jus livin my life

94. ARE YOU ALLERGIC TO ANYTHING? i mean. im lactose intolerant but thats abt it

95. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? nope

96. CAN YOU WIGGLE YOUR EARS? no

97. HOW OFTEN DO YOU ADMIT THAT YOU WERE WRONG ABOUT SOMETHING? when im wrong abt something

98. DO YOU PREFER THE FOREST OR THE BEACH? forest ig bad choices

99. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIECE OF ADVICE THAT ANYONE HAS EVER GIVEN YOU? i dont think i was ever given advice, ever. maybe thats why im like this

100. ARE YOU A GOOD LIAR? idk i try not 2 lie unless its like. an obvious exaggeration for the lols

101. WHAT IS YOUR HOGWARTS HOUSE? wtf idk ok i just did one of those quizzes & im a slytherin?? what does that mean

102. DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? yeah

103. ARE YOU AN INTROVERT OR AN EXTROVERT? more of an introvert but im ok w going out there if i gotta

104. DO YOU KEEP A JOURNAL/DIARY? i keep one for the kid but thats abt it

105. DO YOU BELIEVE IN SECOND CHANCES? nah. unless it was something stupid like burning food like im not gonna ban u from the kitchen

106. IF YOU FOUND A WALLET FULL OF MONEY ON THE GROUND, WHAT WOULD YOU DO? if theres an id i guess mail it 2 the address on there?? idk ive never just. found a wallet. i think this happens a lot less than all the hypotheticals make it out to be

107. DO YOU BELIEVE THAT PEOPLE ARE CAPABLE OF CHANGE? if theyre dedicated to it. i dont think ppl can just do it over night and i dont think its ever a 100% change

108. ARE YOU TICKLISH? dont touch me

109. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A PLANE? Yep

110. DO YOU HAVE ANY PIERCINGS? 2 in both ears but thats it

111. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU WISH WAS REAL? spidr...mna

112. DO YOU HAVE ANY TATTOOS? no :^( once im cleared for them tho deffo

113. WHAT IS THE BEST DECISION THAT YOU’VE MADE IN YOUR LIFE SO FAR? i hate that this is the answer but enlisting adlfkjs

114. DO YOU BELIEVE IN KARMA? yeah ig??

115. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES OR CONTACTS? glasses

116. DO YOU WANT CHILDREN? 2 late

117. WHO IS THE SMARTEST PERSON YOU KNOW? we all b stupit

118. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING MEMORY? idk?? i get embarrassed but also get over it quick so like. idk

119. HAVE YOU EVER PULLED AN ALL-NIGHTER? yea

120. WHAT COLOR ARE MOST OF YOU CLOTHES? black & red

121. DO YOU LIKE ADVENTURES? mhm

122. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON TV? i was on nickelodeon back when they had those cuts to the Live Studio Audience™

123. HOW OLD ARE YOU? 21

124. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE QUOTE? “I wish there was a way to know you’re in the good old days before you’ve actually left them.”

125. DO YOU PREFER SWEET OR SAVORY FOODS? savory i almost never eat anything sweet

#get to know me tag #now that ive posed this i wanna get back in2 making pose packs sigh

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diaryofsecrecy · 3 years ago

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It has been the most exhausting year of my entire life and I will be surprised if I ever top it...

Brent was having a hard time adjusting to the altitude when we 1st came out here, (July 8th 2020) But as time went on he got better as expected. Then suddenly he got worse and worse, Eventually he lost the job that he got because he was calling out so often throwing up and experiencing extreme nausea. Because of covid, the doctors were booked for weeks (new patient) so it was just kind of a waiting game until we finally decided to just go to the ER. They did a full blood panel and decided that he needs to see a GI doctor because everything else is normal. So, That was booked 2 weeks out and he was sent home with nausea medication for one week...

Of course we were going to try to buy or rent so I was freaking out about money and working as much as I possibly could... But then I too had to go to the emergency Room because I had extreme abdominal pain resulting in an emergency appendectomy😖

The day after my surgery, I am home, when my dad comes in with my older sister.

To my knowledge, my older sister was diagnosed paranoid schizofrantic. She has been Homeless for the last 11 years, And on drugs. She recently was beaten so badly that she was left with several brain injuries on top of it all, And while she was healing at the hospital somehow they didn't notice her walk out. We were just about to get her placed somewhere safe...And they lost her.

Anyhow dad walks in with my sister who I guess called him from a coffee shop when they told her that she couldn't sleep there anymore (after a month of being missing again) Dad had to go back to work so then it was me & her for the next 2 days, As you can imagine, not the rest I needed post surgery... then, I had to go back into the hospital because something wasn't right. I was there for 3 more days, 2 days alone because ben was so sick that it was worse with him being there than me sitting by myself in pain and nausea of my own.

Fast forward a few more months, tragic accidents led to 2 separate deaths of my parents dogs. Both events I happen to be present, so get blamed & am no longer welcome at mom & dads.

(Still healing from sugury, brent still very sick)

We get an apartment, and I start working as a nanny for my aunt twice a week while working at Massage Envy the other 5 days.

At this point, I am tired. I am horney, and lonely, and Absolutely. Fucking. Miserable.

I am begging ben to keep up with drs. but he has lost hope of getting better, and I have no way of helping him when I am already worn too thin.

After 9, Long, long months, he eventually, with my consistent pushing, nagging, most likely not always kind remarks, he finds out his hormones are completely off, which I knew would be the case, his dick hadnt worked for the last 3 years properly..

Anyway. He blames his addiction medication rather than continuing dr. Appointments... he gets on testosterone with an outside company(pay out of pocket kind of subscription company...rather than checking insurance, or figuring out what causes low testosterone and fixing that first). I was working and had no influence in any of those choices that effect us both as they have for at least 2 years. He hasnt touched me for so, so, long.

Month 3 of his medication that seems to be working (only reason I know is there was a ton of porn in my google history, he had declined all advances, except the rare, 3 times he allowed a blowjob then left immediately after for the gym or literally anything else rather than make it romantic at all.)

Month 4, he forgets to make a payment at all, so now we owe $250 rather than the normal $100. His meds get sent, then FedEx loses the package all together so, he is sick and I am house sitting in a dream home, alone for 2 weeks straight that originally was going to be our getaway to focus on Us.

At this point, brent and I havnt slept in the same bed for 2 months. At first cause he says I'm mean and he wants to not be near me, but now its cause hes "more comfortable out in the living room..."

A month ago when we last had a conversation about our relationship he said he wants space and a break from me all together. I'm too much.

I am the problem..?

When trying to understand what he means, he shuts down the connvo, saying he cant talk about it anymore. It's been 30 days since we have made any verbal progress. Our fighting has stopped though, and I'll tell you why...

Rewind 1 week before house sitting;

1 week after brent and I had an awful fight where he told me we should take a break, I stay at my parents & My mom offers for me to join them at a graduation party of a kid I used to babysit.

We were sitting in the back of the dining room, out of the way, when I saw someone i slightly recognized in the hallway. Not sure from where, but he was the kind of guy that you couldnt stop looking at. He was clearly into fitness, his shirt couldnt hide the muscular features he had been perfecting either, despite him dressing nothing out of the ordinary. He had beautiful ink crawling up his leg, an artform that would only mean something to someone who is more spiritually awake. But more noticable about anything was that smile.

God that smile. His face was scruffy, as if he had been away, but regardless, the smile he had influenced his entire ora. His eyes smiled, his walk... smiled. He had some kind of thing about him that was a physical draw I had never known for myself before. Dont get me wrong, i have been woo'd by many men so far in my life, from all stages in life, but This one was just, different. He was making his way around the room, & I could hear his voice over my mom who's talking beside me. I had literally been blocked out by my ever wondering thoughts of this random stranger whom felt familiar.

Then, he was there, at our table?

He was so easy to talk to, not even sure how we started now, but all I know is I was not nervous despite my very physical attraction to him.

He spoke of traveling, and adventures hes been on. This guy had a whole other life in the military at one point and now was traveling, working for a company that sends him around the US.

This guy had Hope's and dreams and somehow we got to talking about that kind of thing at a graduation party?

When I left that day, I thought about him. Not just him specifically, but men like him. Had I chosen Brent wrongfully? Does brent even like who I am anymore, what does he want going forward in his own life? How do I even fit into that? He understands my need for adventure but his actions say that he doesnt want to come along. My mind was loopy after that because for the first real time I questioned, what if there was someone who wanted to see the world, Who liked my sad music, and my emotions being in everything I do? What if there was a women more interested in the simple home life, having a couple dogs and living a small, comfortable life? Are we doing one another a disservice by occupying oneanother's lives? How could I ever bring that up with Brent at all without making him feel so inadiquite after a year of terrible sickness and defeat?

Well, when I went to that big, gorgeous dream home the following week to house sit for 2 weeks... begging him to come see me, I grew weak from overthinking. I cried, I cried so much the first 3 days.

I cried from a place of such sadness, anger, bitterness, defeat, they were so strong. My mind was cloudy, drunk, stoned, tired.... I found myself writing a suicide letter.

My plan was to disappear, I knew I'd find a firearm in the home & allow someone to find my remains eventually in the hills where I'd walk far enough.

I prepared by cleaning the litterbox, laying out several bowls of water for the dog and cat, and watered all the plants heavily. I transfered brent all the money in my bank accounts, and as I waited for the sheets to come out of the dryer I balled my eyes out, reading the last conversations I had had with my family members. I thought to myself how the kids would take it, what different life choices they would make having been close with someone before their passing. At this point, I needed something, but I needed it from someone who doesnt know me in my life right now, but the me that was worth saving. The me I still recognized.

I called an old friend from 2nd grade. Hadnt talked to her in years and years, didnt known her life, her schedual, her name(which had been changed). But she talked me down. She saved my fucking life. It took a person who knew my soul years ago, to remind me I am not alone.

I dont blame my parents, or who I thought would be my future husband. I had talked with my aunt earlier that day and she couldnt see it either. I had become this fake shell of a person and it took considering an actual murder of myself to make me see that if I continued this path, I would die eventually and nobody in my life would ever see me preparing for it.

That night, I invited a complete stranger over and we fucked like rabbits. 4 times. He got to do things he'd never done before, and I begged him to. Sounds cold, sounds unapologetically disgusting that I'd do something like that, but quite frankly, I FUCKING needed it. I needed someone to see me, even if he didnt see my current life nor care about me as a person... he saw, touched, kissed, sucked and ate me up. For the first time in at least 2 years, i felt satisfaction when I walked him to the door and watched his car drive away.

It was like a sigh of relief, an inch I could not reach for the longest time, gone. Finally.

The following days, brent began putting in more effort. It has been 3 weeks and I'd say he has been kinder to me than he had in a while (probably the lack of testosterone) but also, I havnt seen much of him in general. From his point of view, it is all fine. Hes getting the space he needed, I'm being nicer since I quit massage Envy, and things are looking up....

But that is because he doesnt See Me.

My suisidal thoughts subsided after my long conversation with Scout. & that night I called my cousin as well, and learned he too had been in my shoes before. He said something that stuck with me.

If everyone has an expiration date on their life already, and we don't know when it is, you're to the point that you're life is so invaluable that youd kill yourself than flee your life and make one you want. Dont care about the people youd hurt, because suicide is just as careless as abandoning them all indefinitely.

He was so right, it put things into perspective, gave me a freedom I felt I was waiting to gain permission for.

Five days later, I noticed He had written me 5 before, on the day I had truly planned to end my current life..

He had written me at 12am, what would someone like him, a gorgeous, beefed out, big thinker, high energy, go getter be doing messaging me, a tired women who was 300lbs a year ago, (still working on getting to a normal size) and completely at a crossroads with existance.

I entertained the connvo a tad, and honestly forgot about it for a few days as I figured no way he could be serious.

He triple messaged me, and asked for my personal contact info to have real conversation?

Hesitantly, and wildly excited to even just flirt for a moment with someone who is literally everything I fantasize when I'm alone everynight....

Our conversation immediately took off. In directions I hadnt expected at all what so ever. He told me he had to admit he felt drawn to me, like he had known me in another life. That he doesnt expect me to get it, but I did. We talked about things that only my sister and I can relate to on a spirituality standard and it changed me in that instant. Suddenly i realize, I wasn't broken, I was just misunderstood. & that there are people in this world that See Me even when I am not trying. Not many, and it takes a specific Kind of person, but they do exist and when you meet them, you cant ignore it. It is as if they stain you with remembrance.

As the sexually hungry humans we are, not only did we find that morality, values, future goals coexist, but also our importance of intimacy. Not just lust and sex, well, yes that too, uff did those conversations get so, fucking, hot, but the interactions of intimacy and how they make a person whole.

I opened up to him about Brent, and where I am at in life, asking he please oversee my unfaithfulness, but that I am loyal at heart. He says with such pain in his voice how he too in a parallel position simultaneously, however, he married her 7 years ago.

Ugh.

So now I get to choose. Do I chose mortality, say no, brent and the other women deserve to understand the severity of sex, love and passion, and if they chose not to then we will leave before we act on our mutual attraction....? Or, do we say hell with it and give in to serendipity moments that our hearts crave so badly, take on the consequences and move forward. Sigh. If only there was a guideline for complicated.

Last night, as the 5 nights before, we talked for hours on the phone. His voice makes me smile every, damn, time. Perhaps because it's new and exciting, or maybe I just love to hear him go on his tangents of loving yourself despite the bad in life. I Want him. I want him when I wake, &when I go to sleep. I do not want a life without him& it saddens me to know our timing is incorrect. He asked her for a divorce a year ago, but has sat comfortably as I have despite the horror because weve both been too busy, too tired, too... afraid that life will always be lonely. Last night, he said to me, Elise, I love you. I avoided it several times but when he said it two more times, I couldnt keep it any longer to myself, Jackson, I really do Love you as well. It's scary, and faster than I'd ever say it to anyone. But I know it to be true because I Feel it. I want his love so badly. I want him to live life along side of me because with a person like him, I'd be a better me.

I am absolutely terrified. My life, my home, my family, dogs, my 5 year relationship, the unborn children brent and I have named, and the houses we'd have... all gone?

Running away with a man who says hes going to leave his wife is absolutely stupid. I'd be an idiot to think I am enough to get him through that fear of change, yet he gives me strength to want to try, so maybe I do, Him?

Ugh my brain being pulled in many ways. My heart having been in pieces so many times now doesnt know who to go to or why. I know for certain I love Brent, is this a self gratifying moment To push me back to him? Is this the devil bringing two lost people together to ruin four people at once?or is this Fate. Fate that has seen both of us individually loosing ourselves in a life we didnt want and has brought us together to lean on one another, temporarily not?

Suppose time will tell.

Last two days he has been working a ton, and told me that tomorrow he has something he needs to talk to me about.

I assume it isnt good. I assume it is the first put off of many, because, I know I want to do the same. Part of me says I should block him right now, because lust, and attraction, both mentally and physically like that couldnt make a women addicted and that's a no good addiction when he has a women in his house with his last name. 😔

#latenite #life #struggle #deep thinking #bad choices #misunderstood #deardiary #confessions

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lovestill-exists · 4 years ago

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how do you think being with you will change me?

if i thought i felt stupid before..

instead of spiraling on my realizing im only a grown version of my younger self, who has the same internal struggles and the only way ive remotely changed is my perception of myself and how i dont shy completely away from grown up responsibilities..

i decided to pull a question from the { } and dating edition box and answer it here, where i can be BRUTALLY honest. i should change this blog to honestystill-exists. not sure if anything else should..

to answer this, since im seeing someone.. i should answer as if he asked me. cos i mean, i think being with me in any sense should change anyone. but dating me? oh boy. i mean to change a lot. its my gold standard. whether it’ll be a good change or not is another thing entirely:

I try and make the goal for it to be a good change, but i know im human. i already know what ive done in this relationship hasnt been very helpful or positive in your experience. ive spent the first half of our relationship reserved and the other half trying to tell you why ive been reserved.

i have definitely opened up further since then, finally getting to the part of this relationship where if you really dont like who i am by this point, you can definitely change your mind at any moment here, and that would be so damn fair. i put myself on my own standards, and i dont even meet them most days. im supposed to feel better about that day in and day out with you, who’s just this.. really talented, fun person. who puts their own pressure to be that person all the time and i wish we could both relax most days. i think we were getting there. you know, i thought of you as someone way more responsible than you ended up being haha and its not a bad thing, but i sometimes think its because of me you feel that way. and i didnt want to be that for you.

i also dont want to be the reason why broken people shouldnt be trusted or given second chances with you. i know im broken. its been my most charming chip off my shoulder. but this last chip really took a chunk. how are you supposed to be charming with the chunk of your own self worth taken out? tragically. i should be more worried you’d have liked it. but no way you could have settled for that. even i know self loathing isnt fun if you really mean it.

what i should have admitted to you is that you seemed so sure of yourself, so secure with who you are, that was the biggest driving reason why i wanted to be close to you. thats what made me want to ask you out initially. so i could at least know someone who i could learn how to be so comfortable with myself. and in a way, that worked. thats whats changed about me. im ironically more sure that im a horrible human being who finds my own kindness to be more apprehensive and try hard than i hoped it would be, but i wouldnt have any other way. you sort of highlight it. i actually really like how contrast we are with each other. but youre also so surprisingly skeptical and dark.. its been the most wonderful discovery i have of you. you fascinate the fuck outta me and i actually love it

i hope i challenge you and your skepticism. i think my being around would make you realize there are a million more different things to pay attention to in the world. but i should be more self aware that i will make it seem like being more lazy is totally fine. i like cuddles. a lot. if i can have those even more, i think in turn id hope that promotes more mellowed moments, where i can still show you how much you mean to me, even though we’re not doing much at all. i like holding your hand, feeling you there, your arm around me, those small kisses on my cheek or forehead when you're near and you just want to fuckin do that, omg i absolutely ADORE it.

Mmm, what else. i hope i can also prove that you’re wonderful and enough on your own. that you dont need to prove yourself to anyone else. that you can feel comfortable with how you think and how you hold yourself when youre around your peers and coworkers. how you can believe in your own ability, because you work hard and you know so much. I think youre always so much more capable as your own person. and you should feel assured of that fact in every situation out there.

i hope i dont hurt you. youre made of some harder stuff then guys from my past. but i do seem to make a few hits in your guard i didnt realize were there. you surprise me. i hope im paying more attention to it.

i still hope i can change a few things in your for the better, but hell. i have to get there for myself first. ive got a bit more time in this relationship, im sure

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ecmlol · 6 years ago

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Noah laughs.

“So why did you fall in love Jude in the first place? You have to know why or you won’t survive rough patches. Dealing with Patty’s dna that’s lots of patience and love.”Markus says

Markus opens the box and takes out rolling papers and a bag of weed.

Noah laughs

“ well the irony of all of this is that I love his secrets as much as I hate them. When he reveals something about himself it makes me feel special. Isn’t that crazy . All of our arguments is about his secret keeping.”

Noah watches Markus roll his blunt.

“ what else do you love about Jude “Markus say

“He has this crazy ability to seem so innocent at time. Like Life hasnt really touched him in all the bad ways that has most people. It’s weird he’s a total mess but he just so untouched in a why it hard to explain.”

“ ok what else?”

“He’s self made.He’s a hard worker. He wasn’t given anything. He’s not a spoil brat like you would think he is. I love that about him”

“What else”

“ I love how he loves me. I have never even seen him look at anyone else. He actually listen to me when I talk to him. I love the way he looks at me and the way he makes me feel when I’m with him. I swear I miss him when he’s on the other side of the arena.” Noah say with a smile.”

“ what else” Markus asked

“ I love his mind and his heart. He has a good heart and a kind soul. He’s a mess”

“Ok what else “

“I would say have you seen him he’s gorgeous and that smile is everything “noah say as Markus takes a lighter out lights the blunt he just made.

“ I get that’s how I feel about his mother”

In the kitchen

Patty and Jude are listening to the conversation Markus and Jude are having .

“ that man loves jude”Patty says

“ I know he’s just wants so much from me sometimes.”

“ he’s earned it Jude he’s your husband Jude he married you even those your like a box of returns from amazon.”patty quietly say

“ Markus I totally over reacted in there”

“ your on edge here”

Noah would have never have thought in a million years he would be getting high with his “father in law”.

Noah takes the blunt.

“ I haven’t smoke since college “noah takes a hit and passes it to Markus.

“ I’m surprised you can keep this in the living with a addiction.”

“She doesn’t have a problem with pot. She can take a hit of two and be fine but alcohol or anything hard your not going to find it here.”Markus says.

“ this whole mess has me beyond stressed out and I took it out on him. I didn’t mean too. Now he’s mad at me.”markus passes the blunt back to Noah.

“ marriage is hard noah y’all will have your ups and down. Just remember that the only way you can go when y’all are down is up.”Markus makes a lewd hand gestures which makes noah laugh and almost fall out of his chair.

“ noah?Are you high?”Jude asked

“ yes “ noah says through his laugh.

“ I have the baby monitors and Justice is playing in the dish water so pass over the blunt or I got shotgun. “ patty says then bites her lip.

“Girl get that fine ass over here.”Markus says

Patty leans down and Markus blows the smoke from the blunt into patty’s mouth. Patty kisses Markus and the pulls away.

“ leave the joint for theses two and lets go clean the house.”patty says

“ sounds like a plan baby girl.”markus takes one more hit then hands it to Noah.

“I didn’t know you..”jude point to the blunt.

“ smoke?”noah finished Jude’s sentence.

“Yeah”Jude asked.

“In college I use to play video games and take a couple of hits.” Noah offers it to Jude.

“Shot gun?”Jude says

Noah smiles.

“ so I just basically kiss you?” Jude asked as he sits in Markus chair.

Noah smiles and scoots closer.

“Come here”Noah says

Jude leans in and takes the smoke that is offered.

Jude breaths in and coughs.

“ first time ?”noah asked

Jude smiles and shakes his head yes.

Noah laughs

“ I’m sorry “jude says

“Why are you sorry I should be saying sorry not you.”noah said as he takes a hit and Jude shotguns again.

Jude stretches out and looks up at the mornings sky.

“ I made you look stupid. I front of my mom”Jude

“ huh?”noah asked

“ who marries a guy that he didn’t know could cook.” Jude starts to laugh.

Noah takes a nother hit and blows it directly into

Jude’s laughing mouth.

“ fuck You Dane “ Noah says jokingly

“ I hope so real hard”Jude says

Noah was tempted to finish the joint and get jude as high as he could just to see what happens.

“ I think we should get a box of weed and keep it in the kitchen.”jude say

All noah could do it laugh.

“ I need to apologize for something.”

“ for being a jerk.”

“Oh right. I’m so sorry for being a ass. I’m stressing about your evil twin.”

“ Because you looooove mmmmeeeee” Jude says

“ god you’re a dork when you are buzzed Danes “Noah says

“ well honestly I sorta feel like I had a great massage a few stiff drinks and you know when you tie me up and just torture me with kisses.”jude says

“ yes “noah say just loving how relaxed Jude is.

“ I wonder how long we have been sitting here”jude asked

“ don’t know . Come here”noah say

Jude who has been leaned back in his chair sits up and leans towards Noah. Jude shots guns Noah last hit and smiles.

“never thought deliberately getting high would be fun.”

“ how else do you get high?”noah asked

“ contact high.”

“ how?”

“ I was study buddy with this guy”

“Say no more I get it” noah said as he remembered one of his gamer friends who was always like that he still is like that.

“ we had a nother first “ Jude says with a goofy smile.

“ we did”noah say reaching out for Jude ’s hand.

“ I love you jude so much and if anything happens to you....”

“ you looove me”jude says with a laugh.

“ I’m being serious right now Jude’s “noah says

Jude leans over and and tries kissing noah.

“ no I need you to hear this.”

“ ok ok but you are killing my buzz. Hubby”jude says

Never in a million years did noah think he would ever hear jude say something like that.

“ I’m going to do what ever it takes to protect you jude. “

“ you’ll be my body guard? You’ll protect me me?”jude say sounding like a teenage girl for a second.

“ we are going to get you a bodyguard when we get back ok?”

“ ok”jude says as he sit back and stretches out.

“ you guys ok”patty asked

“Great he looooveeees me” jude says

“ I’m pretty sure he’s pretty stoned.” Noah says

Patty laughs

“ little weight. Are you sure your my kid?”patty says.

“ why don’t you two use the guest room to chill out before you head out” Markus says

“ good idea.Come on Jude “noah says

“Why the breeze feels so good.”jude saids

Noah leans down and rubs his arms gently up and down Jude’s arm.

“ you don’t want to come with me?”noah says sweetly .

Jude cracks one eye lid.

“ ok”jude gets up and wraps his self around noah.

“ don’t worry about Justice she is watching Cars2 her favorite “patty says

“ I can’t wait for our maybe baby.”jude say into noah back as they enter the bedroom to chill out in.

“there’s towel if you need it.”markus said

“Thanks mom this has been fun”jude says before his head hits the pillow.

“ I’m glad now sleep it off screw it off I don’t care .” Patty say as she closes the door.

“So tell me why your now excited about the baby”Noah asked

“I have never told anyone but my power ranger and teddy bears with get married and when they has kids my transformers were their babies jude says

I swear I should have gotten him high months ago!noah thought.

“ oh wow . So you wanted to be a dad?”noah asked

Noah wonders how much he could get out of a high jude .

“I wanted the whole package I want everything. House husband career kids pet you name it!”jude say curling up next to noah.

“I want everything thing I didn’t see as a kid.”jude said.

“ ah I can understand that.”

“ but I’m afraid who ever the bio dad is they will want our maybe baby. I don’t want him to take the baby“

“ yeah I fear that too.”noah says

Jude is silent for a second before he started to ask noah a question.

“ what did you think of me when you first saw me”jude asked

“ the first time I saw you I thought wow who are you?”noah

“ really I looked a mess”jude said

“You where a sexy mess!”noah

“ I want nacho.”jude says out of the blue.

“Let the munches begin!”noah says as he pulls out his phone to order off on grub hub.

Noah quickly orders fries and nachos .

“ I can’t remember the address”noah says

“ mom what’s your address “Jude yells out through the closed door.

Patty yells back with the address.

“ done food is on the way.”noah say

“ good.”jude says

“ so what did you think of me when you first saw me?”Noah asked

“ are you sure you want to know ?”

“ shot”noah say

“ I was thinking why is this guy looking at me like that “jude says

“ really?”

“Yes then I couldnt stop wonder about your lips”

“ my lips? Really”noah says touching them

“ there so big and pretty and I wonder if you were a great kisser. Then I thought you were the craziest person and you where trying to get all of us killed.

“ hahah I’m the only one that got shot thanks to you. Why didn’t you just tackle the kid?”

“ I didn’t want to hurt him”jude said

“ yeah but it’s ok to get me shot?”

“ I didn’t mean to”

“ I know I’m just messing with. So am I a good kisser?”

“ yes and they are good for other things too! I swear I have kissed a few thin lipped guys but you are the best “

Jude sits up and kisses noah.

Jude sigh and rubs his bearded face on noah neck.

“ this is nice .” Jude says

“It is”noah says

They both relax and drift off to sleep.

Noah is awakes by a knock at the door.

“ coming”noah hops up and gets the door.

“Thanks”

“No problem” Markus says with a smile as he hands off the fod

“ Dane babe wake up the foods here.”noah say

Jude sigh and slowly wake up to noah opening the bag and starting to eat the fries.

“ that smells good “jude say

“They are.Open up.”noah say.

Jude opens up and Noah feeds him fries.

“ that’s so good”jude closes his eyes and chews.

“ I know right?”noah add

They finish eating and went back to sleep.

The next day jude and Noah woke up around five am. Around the time Markus was getting up to go to work.

“ I can’t believe we spent the night”

Jude said feeling well rested.

“ wow that was crazy”noah said as he gets up.

Jude and Noah said there good bye and headed to the hotel to pack up and leave.

The drive back to Jacksonville was long but nice.

Jude and Noah both didn’t want to go back to reality.

Between Daytona and Jacksonville noah felt like he need to get something off his chest.

“ so is there anything you want to know bout the birth mother?”

“ not really.”

“ can I atleast tell you that I have been letting her stay at my apartment “

“You have?”jude says surprised

“ yes she was homeless. I didn’t want the baby to suffer.”

“ that is understandable “

“ your not mad?”

“No why would I? All the stuff I don’t tell you how can I even bat a eye when you didn’t tell me something that up until recently didn’t have anything to do with me “Jude says calmly as they drive to the airport.

Noah shrugs and decides to call his sister to apologize about not coming to visit.Then calls his dads on FaceTime.

Pop answers he looks like he’s sitting on the couch.

“Nono how are you my boy”pop asked

“ I’m good we are going back to la today.”noah say

“ oh ok wait I thought you were suppose to visit your sister “pop asked

“ yeah some things popped up and we didn’t want to get her involved in it”noah

“ what’s wrong my boy”

“ just a lot of craziness “Noah said

Noah looked at jude driving.

“ all right so that honeymoon is over?”pop said

“ we haven’t gone on one yet”noah said

“Oh ok then what was the road trip about?”

“I wanted noah to meet my mom .we will mostly go after the season is over.” Jude chimes in with.

“ hi jude how are you?”

“ I’m good wish I didn’t have to go back to La just yet”jude says

“ yeah the seclusion on a getaway is so nice.”pop says

“ are you talking to your self in there” marshal says in the background

“ when do I every talk to my self?”pop says

Pop shakes his head. Jude and Noah both hope that they get to this stage of life where they are confrontable enough to bicker at each other but still love each other.

“ come talk to our boys “ pop calls back at Marshal

“They haven’t even been married for a week and they are all ready calling us” I guess pop didn’t tell him about the presex text message.noah thought to himself.

“ there a day shy of a week”

“Has it been almost a week” noah say.

“ I guess so.”jude said

“ and it’s all ready been a little crazy”

Marshal comes into view

“ hey dad”

“ hi Nono hi jude if you’re there.”marshal say

“ I’m here Mr Salvador “

“Call me dad or marshal please”

“ yes sir sorry Marshal “

Pops smiles.

“ how was the visit to your mother jude”marshal asked

“ it was enlightening for me.”noah say before jude can say anything.

“ to my surprise it was interesting will I call her weekly. I don’t know but I will call and check on my sister.”

“Sister?”pop says

“Yes I found out I’m a big brother”Jude says with a smile.

“ congratulations “ pop say

“Thanks”Jude

“Did you ever want a siblings” marshal ask.

“I don’t know I don’t think I ever thought about it”jude said

“She is so cute” noah tells his dads

Both dads smile .

“Speaking of sisters I’m sure your sister is upset right now.”pop said

“ yeah she’s not happy at the moment “noah says

“ I guess we will be getting a call.”marshal says

“You really should keep your word Nono.you don’t get to see your sister much.”Marshal say

“ I know I didn’t have much of a choice.”

“ it’s my fault I have something going on that might put her in harms way right . I didn’t want to put her in the middle of it.” Jude says

“ are you in some kind of trouble?”pop asked

“Apparently I am we will see.”jude says

“ I don’t know how confrontable I and with that answer. Nono do you understand that mean your mostly in in trouble too.”Marshal say.

“ marshal he’s not a child he’s a married man. He understands trouble .”

“ doesn’t mean I can’t worry”Marshal say

“ so we have something to tell you guys “Jude says to change the subject

“ no we don’t”noah say

“ we dont?”

“Nope not right now”noah say

“ why not”

“ tell you later”noah say

“ ok never mind”

“ nope spill it Nono “pop say

“ we are coming to a stop and I have to pee love you guys bye”Noah says

Both of Noah’s dads didn’t look happy as they say there good byes.

“ ok what was that about?”jude asked

“I’m not going to tell them?”noah says

“Wait why!”jude says without looking at the road

“ eyes on the road Dane “noah says as Jude swerve a little because he was too busy to trying to look at noah

“ what’s the deal?”

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ts-seychelles · 6 years ago

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EP. 9 - “Call Me A Spoon Cause I Really Tried To Stir The Pot” - AUGUSTO

Ruben went home...... expected? He was inactive af. He was definitely a closer ally of mine, and it sucks that he went down the way he did, but there was really nothing else that was going to be done to save him. There was a half attempted effort right before tribal, but also people didn't wanna do it bc he was throwing his closest people under the bus, which was bizarre to me. It was just a bad move ANYWHOM. I was busy last round until tribal essentially, and just didn't have time to do my confessional where I just go and RANK how much I trust everyone lol god speed Tier 1: Top Trust 1. Augusto - He is obviously my #1. He has been giving me some antsy responses lately, and he didn't immediately tell me about the Regan idol thing and STILL didn't tell me about the OG Malabar alliance that was made that includes Nicole, but it's fine because we've got each other as our number ones, and I genuinely don't think he has that kinda relationship with anyone else, and I'm fairly certain Augusto would never vote me out. 2. Dan - Honestly the difference between 2 and 3 are splitting hairs, but Dan seems like he is going to be the most beneficial to my game in the long run. He is definitely a more well versed player than #3, and I know that he is going to tell me most things. The way I found out Augusto was keeping things from me, was from Dan, and I know that my relationship with Dan is good, we've been to finals together, and he has told me on more than a few occasions that he trusts me the most in the game, which is normally a pretty good sign. 3. Crooks - Gosh I love Alex so much. I am so happy he got to return to the game, and I'm happy he just gets to play this merge the way he wants to. I do know he's a little socially awkward, he makes some questionable game moves, and honestly hasn't made it the FARTHEST in games recently, but I do think that Alex wouldn't turn his back on me if I showed him the utmost loyalty that I could, which I'm going to try to do. My biggest challenge for the rest of the season is going to be convincing all three of these people that I am running all the way to the end of this game with them, and hopefully that'll keep me from being blindsided haha Tier 2: A Good Amount of Trust 4. Vilma - Vilma is a gem. Tbh I think she trusts me more than most people as well. I don't think I'm her top person, but I do think I'm really up there. Vilma told me about the idol, we had three alliances in common (one with Zach, power bottoms with Asya, and golden girls with Dan and Augusto), but I do actually think that Vilma is just a straight up, and loyal, player. The only problem is that I think everyone sees Vilma as that. I feel she's just a wild card in my book because she CAN do something, but my gut is telling me she's going to want to ride this out with me as long as she can, especially since I know about her idol and normally people don't fuck with people who know they have the idol Tier 3: The Average Tier 5. Asya - Y'know......... idk. We have the Power Bottoms alliance, she has been very straight up with me in PMs, and I feel that Asya wouldn't do this to me. There are too many factors in the game right now, where I feel I can at least trust that she wouldn't vote for me until the final 9, so that's that on that. 6. Ricky - Ricky also really seems to have a good connection and trust with me. The main reasons I've got Ricky here (and kinda Asya too), is because I just feel that they both aren't the MOST active, and are definitely relying on some of their earlier relationships, which is me, also they're worried about being under fire, and I think that they will be soon because both of these guys are being coupled together, but we've been on good terms on a tribe before, and honestly this entire game, but I'm just pessimistic about anyone wanting to actually work with me long term, so I get confused. Tier 4: These People Make me Feel Confused 7. Regan - Who would've thought there's a world where Regan wasn't last, but instead she was right in the middle of the pack. Tbh, with how this game has gone, Regan should be higher, but just because of our past, this is a safe place to be. Regan and I have gone AT IT in the past, and she is a very sporadic player, and truly could do anything at any time, and she can decide she doesn't want to work with me anymore. I have an alliance with her and Augusto, which is making me feel good about our working relationship, and with Augusto hopefully staying very tight, he can make sure that there's no funny business. I do know that if Regan plays an idol at an unexpected time, I should probably get a little worried, and follow suit afterwards to make sure that it isn't an idol play on me. She has actually seemed to have been playing a good game so far, and I've got some confidence that Regan is going to shake the world a little bit this game, and I'm kinda here for it. 8. Jared - So like? I know he's a slimy motherfucker and he trusts other people way more than he could ever trust me, but I like him a lot as a person and we have great talks. I made a deal with Jared and Nicole to not go after them, and I know they have relationships with lots of people, and lots of trio chats, and they probably have to keep up in all of them to seem like they don't have trios with EVERYONE, but it's just a mess. I think once Jared or Nicole goes, I'm going to be incredibly close to the one who ends up staying, but I just don't know whoever stays, I am going to try to forge an incredible relationship with. I don't mind whether it's Jared or Nicole that ends up staying, but I bet Jared going is probably better for my long term game just because he's such a bigger snake in the grass. Also I know he knows about Regan's idol, so that's something too, but my connection with Jared, in this given moment, is better than my relationship with Nicole 9. Nicole - I feel we haven't connected in awhile, which is worrisome to me because I know she plays hard. I know Nicole is threatening, and she is probably more threatening than I've even thought about her being ever. I didn't think Nicole was a big ticket player, but honey she is PLAYING. I just need a better relationship. I know her or Jared should be out of the game soon, and I kinda hope Nicole is the one that falls by the wayside because I almost trust that Jared might lean on me more. 10. Roxy - ROXY IM SORRY YOU'RE DOWN HERE BECAUSE YOU SHOULDN'T BE, but you are the biggest ORG tease I've ever ever played with. You make me feel so good in our relationships every game we've played together, but then you've taken me out of both of them (in one you attempted, but failed) without hesitation, and I don't trust you. I know we're good friends, and I honestly think that you trust me more than you trust most other people in this game, but I still don't want you here, and if the opportunity arises, I really do know I'm going to want you out, and vote for you at the first chance I can. At this point, I'm going to keep talking to you as if we're working together, but I'm not giving you any information...... i cant trust it. I hope I can see your intentions were good after this game, but genuinely, I don't know what to believe with the last two ORG experiences we've had together. Tier 5: Who? 11. Frankie - I'm almost certain you're going home next lol. Talk to people :)

Regan is so fucking annoying sometimes. Like she acts like she knows better than everyone else all the time. I care about her as a human, but don’t pass judgement on me when what I’m doing has literally no bearing on your life whatsoever. Stop acting holier than thou and go back to fucking Red Robin and get your 20% tips and continue to pass judgement on the people who might want to go out with their family for a nice meal, but not be able to tip a full 20%. If you don’t like it, don’t fucking work a job that pays $2 an hour. Jesus Christ. It’s Christmas so I’m gonna go back into my Baby Jesus lane and shut the fuck up, but Regan’s on my shit list now.

6:31 PM okay i want Jared AND Nicole out I'm so TIRED of this like they clearly dont trust me nicole hasnt spoken to me since merge jared made me PROMISE that I wouldn't go after him, presuming in his tone that he already didnt trust me i am not liking my position. I need to go back and remember which people i told that I wanted Roxy out over Ruben bc i think more people might want to work with roxy now (which i knew would happen) and i dont want it all getting back to her because i think she thinks im one of her closest Augusto just told me that jared proposed to roxy a voting block of roxy augusto jared nicole asya ricky which makes me think even MORE that nicole jared ricky roxy asya need to GO But tbh I trust Asya, and kinda Ricky I have a feeling that Ricky wouldn't vote for me if it came down to it i also feel im lowkey playing a horrible game lmfao thank you for coming to my christmas day confessional :)

(A LITTLE LATER)

sorry...... im still going My biggest problem is that this game has been moving lowkey slow, strategically speaking and time wise, and now we've gotta wait an extra day to boot up the game again, even though no one is doing anything at 10pm the night of christmas, but whatever, that's old news and fucking frankie is probably going to go this round and then we're just going to have to wait another few days for the BATTLE to ensue, but honestly, more people going that I'm not directly aligned with is good because I just need as many insurance policies as possible I very much want to play the merge in the most cutthroat way i've ever played. I want to make those game moves and I want to get that respect. Let's be honest....... everyone knows im a fucking snake, so it isn't like this is anything new to anyone. I'm keeping loyal to my top 3 (maybe top 4 @vilma) (jk loves vilma), and then im going to wreck everyone else, and there's going to be almost nothing that's going to stop me. I'm out for blood, and it's starting with upping my social game for the rest of the game I am done with school, and I am on vacation until (presumably) the end of this game, so if I just keep up my social game, and make this game my #1 priority, im going to be in an incredible spot, but right now, im feeling like I need 2-3 people to go home before I feel super secure. The REALLY good thing is that I still have my idol, and me and my UTMOST closest ally (augusto) know where all three of them are, which is HUGE for the program, so I've just gotta make sure that I can use all this information to my advantage. I've gotta start getting in some tighter blocks, and more importantly make myself more available to people like ricky and asya, who I feel I haven't done the BEST job with, but I know they're two of the socially weaker people in the tribe.................... im just getting nervous and i want this game to GO

https://youtu.be/vmqseVAWX98

wish i didnt have to go to tribal xoxo

Roxy keeps helping me with the bransteele comp and I forgot she thinks we're friends..... i know i don't trust her, but she's good for now roxy you just got back in my good graces :))))))

(A LITTLE LATER)

Hi it's johnny im currently breaking down jared went to frankie and told frankie that me/vilma/dan have a f3 and that Jared wanted to make a big move this round..................... frankie then told augusto and augusto told us thank god, but like fuck you jared honestly. it's just horse shit because there's no good reason for him to be going after me other than our past and I fucking hate when people do that, however, i'm just anxious because I know that Vilma is safe, and Dan and Jared were on OG malabar together, and I know they've previously gotten along, meaning that the only other option is me it's just fucking annoying because jared is honestly supposed to be a friend, and in my head, i was refusing to vote for him or nicole this round because i like them both as people, and figured that i'd do something about it later when it became obvious one of them had to go, and not me initiating it myself, but now at this point i dont know what I do know is that I'm fairly confident in quite a few people not saying my name this round, and those people being 100% alex augusto dan vilma roxy, and then im fairly confident regan has my side too. realistically this should be giving me numbers, but I know that there's a lot more that comes into play than that on top of that i do have an idol, and I didn't want to play it this early, but it looks like I may have to.. the only good thing is that i know about vilma's idol and i know abotu regan's idol bc they both told me about it, and i feel if either of them knew i was in trouble, they'd consider using it on me because they're both more loyal players than they are selfish perhaps? (maybe moreso vilma than regan lol) roxy made an alliance chat with vilma augusto and myself, and roxy wants to go for ricky, which honestly, if we pretended like we were going for jared and nicole, and flushed out a ghost island advantage that either of them may have (which we're almost certain nicole has one bc she lied horribly about her visit to ghost island, according to augusto), so at this point i really really dont know. I feel im sitting on a lot of information right now, but im a scared pussy and dont really know what to do with all of this stuff that i'm being told because im quietly trying to sit on it and let augusto do all of the good work in trying to swing frankie onto our side. god bless them not knowing im with augusto i just need augusto to continue playing double agent until it keeps me safe lol also fuck you jared

https://youtu.be/oFPDXhxHgDs forgot to send last night

Johnny is a little fucking scumbag isn't he? So I'm hearing tea from Jared that Johnny approached him this morning about me and Vilma trying to steer the vote towards Nicole. That's a damn fucking lie. I never once tried to steer the vote that way. I think that Johnny is getting a little big for his britches. I could totally be getting played by Nicole and Jared rn, but I don't know why they would lie about all of this. Unless they really are trying to blindside me? Idk wtf is happening, but I just want to beat my fucking placement.

https://youtu.be/LWdipgmXYSs

This is my host chat today and idc who is offended by the following messages: I HATE THIS GAME im so annoyed why is jared doing this like why I was trying to be NICE 2:37 PM im going to be the target this round literally fuck jared i hate him so fucking much why is he such a dick i need to write a confessional 2:45 PM k i confessed my hatred and feelings im just annoyed that this is how this is going down and I just KNEW that this shit would happen with jared the good thing is that he isnt aware of my relationships 3:08 PM I feel I have the most handle on this situation though lowkey 5:20 PM okay they're targeting dan im not worried anymore lol 5:33 PM dan is going to blow up the game please dont dan please he wants to expose the fact that we know the other side is planning something I know we have six people they're trying to get out dan and they're pinning dan/vilma/i as a trio they being jared and nicole, probably asya and ricky, but they don't really have brains augusto and roxy are playing the middle hard right now to make sure that nothing happens to me specifically, but if the vote stays on dan then im not going to be bothered about it, but honestly i dont want to lose a number, and I'd rather silently push than anything so idk im trying to think ive got a little over an hour to do something about it 6:00 PM gosh this is getting messy im not okay with it im trying to swing alex right now so we dont have to go to rock 6:15 PM LMAO HOW IS AUGUSTO IN THE MIX SOMEONE TELL ME WHERE THAT CAME FROM BECAUSE I DONT KNOW omg this is getting too messy 6:22 PM ill take 12th. let's have some fun I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game I hate this game If anyone including the hosts knows what's going on I will send you on a European vacation jared doesnt even know the whole story but i am talking to jared now we're like businessmen sitting at a table Ugh I hate Jared But I am playing nice like i actually love him im going at it with jared in a good way i want him back in mine and dan's good graces ugh vilma is a lowkey useless ally Alex is such a shitty socializer i just need to put that out there like there are things that should stay in your head and he's got a lot that he keeps putting on paper LMAO ALEX IS A LEAKY FAUCET HE SAID HE WANTS A F2 WITH ME BUT HUNNI LISTEN YOU DONT GO TELLING SOMEONE IMMEDIATELY WHAT I SAID AFTER I TOLD IT TO YOU im so mad because this is just dumb survivor gameplay on alex's part because ricky was so quick to tell people that alex told him this information lmao

(A LITTLE LATER)

can we talk about me being the king of exploiting every piece of information I found out today to someone with a big mouth, so this way it would get around and i wouldn't be targeted? wooooooooo

Alright so this round has been really hecking hectic. I found a clue to the idol and highkey I wanted to share it with Jared/Nicole but I needed to reaffirm my alliance with Asya and Ricky. And then we were FINALLY gonna blindside Dan. Then Frankie told Dan. Then Dan told Johnny. Then Johnny told me despite me already knowing all of this. Then he told me he wanted Ricky out. So I told Ricky. Ricky told Dan and Johnny. So Johnny knows I spilled the beans. That's fun. And now Frankie's going home for being a blabbermouth. That's what happens when you speak huh!

Okay so basically Things became messy And I don't know who's telling the truth Either Johnny or Jared+Nicole are bullshitting me and I don't know which It seems everyone's voting Frankie now Which I guess I'm fine with But I don't even know who I'm working with next round Because nobody includes me in anything All I know is I never told anyone I wanted to vote Nicole out and the person who spilled those rumors must get out of here, FAST I'm rather pissed I feel like I don't trust anyone Where are all my real allies? Oh I don't have those Everyone's so shady Can I get voted out even though I'm immune? I hate this I didn't sign up for THIS I don't think a single person is being straight with me So from now on I'm a free agent I'm back to square one

Ricky and I called for like a half hour and compared notes and honestly, Johnny has got to go, but not right now. If that’s a big miss steak, oh well, but I do think I’m gonna make it through this vote which is exciting. If I get fucking 12th again I’m gonna kermit I think. I can’t believe I trusted the straight fraternity brother. Ugh

ok soooo i might have an alliance of 6 lets hope it works and im not the second boot again after my return lmaoo

this is a fucking mess

wowowow these people make me sooooo MADDDDTTTT just do what i want!!!!

(A LITTLE LATER)

everyone is ignoring me except johnny and augusto and ik im being voted against like 11-1 and it feels gross lol i hate everyone here and im not voting for most of them at the end. there was like 2 people i didnt message and ig that means im "inactive" or some shit

Oh SHIT I got so distracted by the messiness that I forgot to tell I accidentally won immunity AGAIN fuck my life I was trying to throw Vilma Hmm I'm trying to throw this challenge but at the same time look like I made at least some effort but suck I hope at least some people tried for real Pippa You make me laugh so hard Vilma IS THIS A JOKE I SWEAR I THOUGHT I WOULD NEVER WIN WITH THAT Fuck I'm ruining all my chances at going deep with these immunities (cwl) I hope people realise my score was bad FUCK This is the thing, I didn't want to abstain because then it would look like I'm just lazy but I wanted them to think that I actually suck. Gosh I'm failing at life I guess I should just use these opportunities to build better relationships with people but everyone knows I'm horrible at that dnn congrats compbeast <3 Vilma SHUSH

SO ITS FRANKIE BUT I MIGHT GO HOME with an idol in my pocket

Call me spoon cause I really tried to stir the pot this tribal to no avail.

#itsgametimekids

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“How is she?” He asks once they step further down the hall.

“She slept better, didnt stir nothing” Dean says looking from his brother and to the steps as they go down the stairs and into the kitchen. Sam goes straight for the cupboard, pulls out the bag of grinded coffee to make a pot.

“What are your plans for today?” Sam asks from the fridge pulling out items for breakfast.

“I was thinking of checking out the hardware store for some supplies I will be needing for the shelves” Dean says as he takes the eggs and bacon from Sam.

“How about you?” Dean asks getting a bowl from the cupboard to scramble the eggs for you.

“Im going to stay behind with y/n and if she needs to go anywhere uh which vehicle you using anyways? The Impala or the pick up?” Sam asks looking to Dean while he pours the eggs into the pan thats on the stove.

“Im going to use the pick up, so you two can use the impala” Dean replies to Sam, right before Sam could say anything to Dean is when you come walking down the stairs and into the kitchen where your brothers are.

“Morning guys” You say while getting a cup from the cupboard to make yourself a cup of coffee as the alarm from the coffee maker goes off.

“Morning y/n. Feeling any better?” Sam asks getting out of the way for you to pour yourself a cup.

“Glad you asked and yeah I am feeling a lot better actually” You reply getting the cream from the fridge and taking a seat at the table.

“Thats good to hear, what are your plans today?” Sam asks following you to the table and seats himself across from you.

“Well I was hoping to go into town and get a few supplies to get myself busy” You answer back to him and looking to Dean who has a smile on his face.

“Well thats great to hear, I'll come with you plus I really want to explore the town anyway and see if they are hiring some where or something” Sam says after taking a sip from his coffee and thats when Dean serves the food to the both of you.

“Thanks De, yeah that sounds good wouldnt mind doing that to. Naomi said something about stopping by so that I could meet her son who is also Omega” You look to both of your brothers.

You and your brothers enjoy the breakfast Dean has made along with the delicious coffee Sam has made and he always made the better coffee not to strong and not to light just right in the middle. Dean always made the strong coffee but you didnt seem to mind since there were times when you needed his coffee to go along with the morning orders back in Sioux Falls that the customers has ordered.

Now moving here you hope that business will pick up and be as successful so that you could continue on saving and having a steady some what income for the time being since either of your brothers arent currently working but willing to live off of savings for now.

Dean is the one who leaves the house first to check out the hardware store in town, as he drives away in your late fathers pick up truck you turn to Sam who is still in the kitchen washing the dishes he has agreed to do after Dean cooked breakfast.

“Need help Sammy?” You ask before taking a clean dish cloth from the drawer.

“No, thats fine. I will just set them on the dish rack for them to dry and put them away later” He answers looking away from you to rinse out the suds from the plate and places it on the rack.

“Ok well Im going to shower and get ready so that we can head out to town as well” You say walking away from the kitchen and stop just before going up the stairs.

“Yeah sounds good and after your shower I will take one next” He says while continuing on with the dishes.

When Dean parks the truck into the parking lot, he turns off the engine to get out and head on inside the store. He walks in and starts to look for the aisle where the lumber is being kept, he sees Michael helping another customer and as soon as he turns to Dean's direction he walks towards him.

“Hi, its Dean right?” He asks stopping beside him.

“Yeah, Michael?” He takes out his hand for him to shake and with no hesitation Michael returns the gesture.

“What can I help you with today?” He asks looking away from him and at the lumber thats in front of them.

“Well I wanted to get a few supplies for some shelves I will be making for the house well for the living room anyways. My sister loves it when I make something for the house but doesnt like it when I sell em near the end” He says looking from the oak lumber to the cedar lumber.

“Well you know what you want and therefore I dont need to suggest anything”

Michael says with a smile spread across his face.

He helps Dean with the material he would be needing for the shelves he would be making along with other materials such as sand paper, screws, electric screwdriver, and the finishing coat in cherry oak to go along with the house. When Michael serves Dean himself at the cash register he gives him a pretty generous amount of the discount and he looks to him

“You didnt need to do that, I would have been fine paying for full price” He says while getting his debt card from his wallet.

“No please, its not a big deal. Maybe for next time I will charge you full price for the next purchase” He says smiling to Dean getting a slight chuckle from him.

“Dean before you go um how is your sister doing?” After Michael asks that is when he sees Anna enter into the store and this is not a really good time for her to be walking in while Dean is standing right in front of him.

Anna stands beside Michael and gives him a chaste peck to his lips, Dean looks to the scene in front of him and he couldnt believe it.

“Hi my name is Anna, his girlfriend and you are?” Anna asks pulling herself away from Michael slowly to properly introduce herself.

“Hi um Im Dean, just moved here” He says politely shaking her hand and pulls away to look at Michael again who is nervously adjusting himself away from Anna.

“Dean is the brother of the Omega I was telling you about, you know the one who got harassed by Dick” Michael tells Anna basically growling the whole time he tells her, she looks to him with a questioning look on her face at his sudden retort.

“Y/n, her name is y/n” Dean says to the both of them and doesnt like it when someone calls you by your biology because you are a human being to and deserve to be treated like one.

“Y/n wow thats a beautiful name” Anna says with a genuine smile.

“Thanks my mom named her uh sorry late mom” He says as his voice gets lower talking about your mother in the past tense.

“Sorry to hear that but she still has a beautiful name” She says taking her eyes off Dean and looking to Michael who hasnt said anything.

“Well I better get going, I have things to get started on. Its nice meeting you Anna and good to see you again Michael” Dean says while pushing the gurney out the door containing his items.

“I will help you with that, Anna I will be right back. You can go wait in my office while I help Dean with his stuff” Michael says walking out with Dean, not giving her time to say anything.

When they both reach the pick up truck and get the plywood into the extended cab.

“Girlfriend huh?” Dean says to break the silence.

“Yeah we have been together since college” He answers him honestly.

“Wow” Is all Dean can muster up.

“Look Dean after that night with the whole thing that happened to y/n I caught her scent and um” He trails away and doesnt know if he should go on and tell Dean about the whole mate thing thinking he is crazy for thinking that way.

“I know, she caught it to and she says the same thing but you have a girlfriend” Dean says looking away from him and placing more items into the extended cab.

“I know, I have always believed in true mates were brought together by scent but when I got older and nothing ever appealed to me is when I settled for Anna. I know that sounds horrible believe me I know but that night I caught her scent, felt her fear and I just wanted to throw Sam out of the way and hold her” Michael says as he places the last of the plywood into the back of the truck and takes the gurney from Dean's hands.

Dean stands there letting out a slight chuckle but he didnt know what to think about all of this and didnt know what to say after he tells him all of this.

“Look we never believed in true mates either but some how it was itched into our brains because our late parents were brought together by scent. My mom was an Omega and my dad was an Alpha they were high school sweet hearts for crying out loud. You need to figure something out before you even get close to my sister. Reason why I am saying this is because I dont want anyone getting hurt especially y/n if anything goes wrong” He says looking to Michael with a stern expression but when talking about your parents is when his expression is soft but instantly changes when going off topic.

“I am sorry about your parents if I havent said it yet. I understand where you are coming from, I am the same way with my brother Castiel he is also an Omega. I protect him and fight for him tooth and nail. I will figure something out but in the mean time I got to talk to Anna about this” Michael says as he stands there with Dean and thats when they say their good days and into separate directions.

“Y/n you ready yet, Im all dressed and ready. I thought you would be done by the time I got out of the shower” Sam yells from the bottom of the stairs.

You walk out of your room after taking one glance at yourself in the mirror and satisfied even with the sweat pants you decided to wear with a simple green long sleeve and go down the stairs to see Sam in the kitchen drinking the last of his coffee.

“You sure you want to head out today?” He asks walking towards you.

“Yeah, I need to start on the plushies and open shop” You answer walking to the door, placing your shoes on along with your jacket and you take the house keys that is placed in the bowl and walk out to lock the door.

Sam opens the driver side to enter into the car and you follow seconds later into the passenger side. He starts the engine, backs out of the garage and drives away from the house.

“So where are we going first?” Sam asks once we hit the road and going into town.

“Well we are going to a sewing shop called Stitching to Heaven” You answer your brother with a puzzled expression across your face, you look to Sam who also has the same expression.

“Ok, I think I remember seeing something like that on our way in yesterday” He says keeping both eyes on the road.

When the both of you got in front of the store is when Sam parked the car, turned off the engine and got out of the car to enter into the store. You went straight for the coloured yearn and selected the colours you didnt have, you went to the section where they had the polyester filling and grabbed a few bags and last but not least selected a few fabrics.

“Well that was rather quick, I thought we would be spending the whole entire afternoon here” Sam says as he pushes the cart to the register.

“Well we could since you want to stay here all day” You smile back to your brother.

“Wow, you have got the collection there. What are you making?” The lady at the register says, she is a brunette, intense hazel eyes and you scent Omega from her.

“I am making plushies, I didnt realize I was out of certain supplies so I looked online where I can get them and it pointed me here” You answer her and you look behind but no Sam.

“Sam?” you say looking around the store.

“Hhmm?” He says appearing from the sewing machine section.

“Plushies are adorable, Im Sarah by the way. Whenever you are done you should stop by again and show me your toys” She introduces herself.

“Im y/n and this is my brother Sam. That would be good and I have Naomi who wanted to do the same for me. I will once I have extras made” You introduce her to Sam who stands a distant away from the both of you and waves with a slight smile to his face while handing the stuff to Sam after she has bagged them.

“Hi Sam.” She says looking away from the register to make eye contact with Sam while telling you the amount that you owe and back at Sam.

“Really? I thought it would be more then that” You ask while pulling cash out of your wallet.

“Initially yeah but I gave you the business owners discount since you technically have one. My dad owns the store and has added the business owners discount, after a certain amount we add in whatever amount of a percentage off” She answers you and smiles the whole time she is explaining.

“That is amazing, hhmm wonder if Dean got the same over at the hardware store” You say out loud and having a chuckle from Sarah.

“Yeah I am pretty sure he did” She answers and the both of you share a chuckle together.

Before walking out of the store, you give Sarah your number to meet up to have coffee some where or simply invite her over to have a glimpse of the finished products. Sam stumbles out of the store almost tripping over the fabric you have selected.

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