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crystalkleure · 3 years

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Located my Pokemon Ranger game cartridge, dusted it off, and promptly plowed through the whole thing in one day. Now, why can’t I summon that kind of focus on command for things that are actually useful?

Anyway, I wanted to replay that thing to laugh at the Go-Rock Quads doing dumb shit like setting an important security password as “60” and filling their own currently actively in-use factory full of literal living bombs as an intended safety precaution, but holy shit I forgot there was so much Actual Plot in this fucking thing. I got sucker punched with like, Feelings and Emotions and shit right at the very end. Those last two main-game missions, man. What the fuck. I am SAD.

Spoiler alert but holy shit the Quads are actually Babie™️. I mean yeah, they’re idiot chaos demons who keep making things explode and it’s awesome so obviously I already knew that, but. They aren’t just doing ridiculously overblown ultraviolent bullshit because they’re obnoxious fucking dumbasses...it’s out of desperation.

Their dad's the Actual Malicious Asshole who's just on some assmad vengeance quest to Destroy exactly One (1) old rival of his and fuck up the whole world as collateral, and the Quads are just blindly doing whatever he says because, uh. Billy said something to the effect of Daddy Dearest will not love them anymore if they don't. They gotta be Useful To Their Father and thus Succeed at Doing Violence Real Good or they’ll get straight-up disowned. Bruh? What the fuck??

Like, they’re not even aware of the point to all of the Violence being done. Clyde says so. They are totally in the dark about Gordor’s actual Big Evil Master Plan. They have no fucking clue WHY their dad wants done what he wants done, they just know that they gotta Help Him Do It. Because they’ve been made to believe they are not worthy of his love if they are not useful enough to him. Dude. What the FUCK.

And Garret, the famously Stoic and Calm one, straight-up has a fucking breakdown when you defeat him for the second [and final] time. He started fucking stuttering and wheezing and shit. Because Daddy Won't Love Him Anymore Because He Keeps Getting His Ass Beat. Like, explicitly. My guy had an Actual Literal Panic Attack because his dad was “already losing faith in him” after he failed to protect the factory [...from you, the player], and now he’s gone and failed AGAIN so the thin ice he was standing on just shattered and he freaked. He lied and tried to play off the shaking like he was just Really Fucking Angry, but he was actually scared. The little 💦 effects above his sprite give it away, they weren’t the Pissed Off Steam Cloud effects. The 💦 show up to indicate a character is either sweating profusely or crying. Holy shit I am so sad.

And the whole point of Billy blowing up their own base after losing to the player was that he felt they had nothing left to lose after failing that final time. Potentially killing the ranger that wrecked their lives was just a nice satisfying bonus. He destroyed their whole hideout in fucking despair, and the Quads all ran off to start a whole new life somewhere else so they didn’t have to face their father because they didn’t want to hear him disown them. They were 100% certain that was what was coming and they just couldn’t bear to actually endure it. What the fuck...

Oh. Also. At the very end, right before the Final Boss Fight with Gordor, there's a Go-Rock Grunt you HAVE to beat before facing him, so you have to listen to what he says. [Actually, there are three grunts there, but the one on the mid-right is the only one that matters here.] This specific grunt complains about the fact that he ought to be a higher rank in the team because of his consistently excellent performance, but claims the reason that hasn't happened is...the boss favors his own kids too much. That grunt laments how it's impossible to truly rise to any significant and respected rank in the team if you're not one of the Quads. And this is RIGHT after Billy lost his shit and blew up the base. You hear that grunt say that shit RIGHT after THAT happens. The rest of the Go-Rock Squad thinks Gordor absolutely adores and even spoils his kids, and yet his kids don't feel like he loves them at all...it is highly evident that they are CONSTANTLY fighting for Any Scraps Of Affection from him by just continuously trying to outdo themselves via Extreme Obedience Overkill. These kids are not cherished, they are just the most Desperately Doggedly Obedient and thus useful.

Also! Also! The Quads are fucking attention whores. Like, that's the root of their whole entire Thing. "Hey! Hey!! Stop!! Look at us!! Remember our names!!" etc.; they're a loudass rock band for one, and they like to blow shit up which is also Loud, and they do obnoxious shit like band practice in the parking lot of the Dusk Factory at 2AM which bugs the Fall City locals when they're trying to sleep [according to one instance of an NPC bitching]. These guys Demand All Of The Attention. Positive OR negative. They’re just craving the acknowledgement. And that is...exactly how chronically emotionally neglected children would behave.

I am SO FUCKING SAD.

#AGONY. PAIN EVEN.#The Quads have always been my favourite Ranger characters by FAR...My heart. It hurts.#Pokemon #Pokemon Ranger #Go Rock Quads #I am...disturbed; actually; by the fact that I did not remember so much of the endgame. Because the Quads ARE my favourites.#I was never able to complete this game when I was little; I couldn't get past the stupid flashing floor tile puzzles in the Go Rock base #You know. Those puzzles that you can't even SEE a huge chunk of because they don't fit entirely on the screen.#So you can't get your rhythm and timing down and if you mess up even slightly even once you get chucked back to the beginning.#THOSE floor tile puzzles. They frustrated me to tears when I was young and the stupid background music in that area STILL makes me shake.#Anyway that's important because when I was older I finally looked up a guide on YouTube for that part so I could FINALLY --#-- experience the last part of the game I'd never seen before. I remember doing that! I remember following that video and beating the puzzle #...But everything after that? Black void in my memory. That doesn't make sense. I was so hyped to Unlock The Rest Of The Content --#-- pertaining to my Big Favourite characters. I would have been overjoyed to finally see it. I should have remembered every detail of it.#But I didn't. I still don't. I have no memory of that first time. Aside from a very; very vague little bit of a memory of the final --#-- boss fight[s] against Gordor and the dogs. THAT's faint but it's there. And yet somehow I forgot my favourite characters entirely?#There was even persisting visual evidence that I DID indeed beat the game. Before I started a new file I could see my old one was Rank 10.#In hindsight I know I've lost time like this in various instances throughout my life. I black out sometimes.#It's distressing to realize yet another time it has clearly happened. Especially now that I think I've finally realized what causes it.#But I don't have medical care so I can't get an evaluation + diagnosis. Which is bad because it's kind of uh. Severe and Overwhelming.

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pbandjesse · 3 years

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I didn't have to be so stressed about today but it was actually awesome. Like it still wasn't perfect but it went super well.

I think it helped I got to sleep in a little but. I didn't sleep poorly, though I woke up cold a few times. It was okay. I woke up at 8 and didn't have to get out of bed until like 840. I honestly probably could have pushed it later but I enjoyed laying in bed and hanging out on my phone.

I got up and got dressed and felt good. I ended up not liking the material of this shirt so it will get donated. But I looked cute at least.

I would leave here and go get breakfast and get to the museum at 930. I ate my hash browns in the car. And headed in when I saw John was there.

We chatted about leading the program. I would jokingly say all morning before the kids got there, that this was going to be bad and to not have any high expectations. But really I was mostly joking. I knew if no one watched me it would go a lot better. And I was correct. It was not perfect but it would end up being really good!!

The kids got there on time. But we would start the program like five minutes early, which is the only thing that confused me a bit. The clock on the wall was fixed so I didn't get to confused but for some reason my coworkers didn't hear me and didn't come over when they should have. But it was fine. I got their attention.

The kids were lovely though and had great questions. I didn't talk in circles and had a much better time going through the steps and it was a lot of fun actually. I know it will keep getting better. I am going to make a point of watching tomorrow's intro. See if that helps me even more. Cause like yes I have seen it s ton over the years, but really paging attention this time will be good.

I had fun though. And this was a really sweet group. There was an overlap cannery but it didn't affect us to much. It all worked out. And when my program was done, just about on time, I took them to do a scavenger hunt.

I find the scavenger hunt a little anticlimactic. Like they do it and then it's done. So to make it more fun I give a prize at the end. But the prize is just random nonsense from my pocket. In this case it was a key, a marble, a single die, six cents, and a plastic ring shaped like a bat.

The kids seemed to think this was funny. I had them break into small groups and everything seemed to be going well until a single little girl came up to me and told me she had no partner. And no one wanted to work with her.

She wouldn't make eye contact and it was just silent, huge tears rolling down her cheeks. I felt terrible. I would end up walking with her until her teacher saw and took over. Poor sweet girl. She would end up winning the whole thing and got to pick the prize she wanted and that made me feel better and she seemed better for the rest of the day. Also became my best friend.

After lunch we had the assembly line. And they did a great job. It can be hard for little hands to weave but they did good and it was fun hanging out with them.

We finished up with taking pictures in the car. And then it was time to go home. Lots of waving and laughing and then they were off.

I chilled at the front desk with James while we said goodbye to the kids. And I went to clean up the classroom. I did kind of a half assed job. But I got it reset for tomorrow, even if it wasn't swept that well.

Hung out in the break room with my coworkers. We did some cleaning up but soon we were all parting ways and heading home.

James told me not to wait because they were going to the bike shop. That was alright with me.

There was a lot of traffic on the way home. I swear I hit every red light. But I got back here and had a sandwich and felt a lot better.

I hung out with Sweetp. I played pokemon. And once James was home I would do my knitting. And they would make up a very cheesey dinner. I had mad and cheese and they had cheesey bagels. And once we were done, after some resting, we would do some prep for the puhtok workshop this weekend.

I'm going to teach the ROTC boys to make little bags with a sewing machine and a blanket stitch. I hope it works out the way I imagine it will. I only finished half the blanket stitch so I can show them in person. But so far so good. Just have to find my sewing needles and a few little things. But we got all the fabric ready.

Now we are in bed. I got a shower. James played the guitar. We had a snack. And now I am ready to sleep.

Tomorrow should be a chill day at the museum. I have two programs but no Ieading. So I am hoping it's a good time.

I hope you all have a good night and have fun tomorrow!

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random-mha-thoughts · 4 years

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Gamer’s Boy (Bakugou x Reader)

Pairing: Bakugou x Reader

Someone messaged me on my Wattpad: “So I've been playing a lot of Pokémon on my 3DS here lately and I got to thinking about how Bakugou would react to playing it So maybe reader-chan introduces Sparky to Pokémon and tries to teach him how to play. Knowing Bakugou, he gets really frustrated with too many wild Pokémon attacking him in the tall grass or when a Pokémon outright ignores his orders. It's just an idea and you can adjust it as you need or want. I really enjoy reading your writing so I know it'll be awesome! Thank you”

Genre: Fluff

Word count: 893

Tags: @yuki-osaki @liviitehe @iamsoftsodonttoucheume-blog @bunnythepipsqueak

a/n: Guys I’ve been awake for almost 20 hours only on 3 hours of sleep, I’m ready to pass out so this is gonna be a short one. Also just a note, the last Pokemon game I've ever played is Pearl. Yes I'm a boomer, I'll take all the comments go on.

"You're always on that stupid thing, why don't you ever study?" Bakugou grumbles, eyeing my spastic thumbs.

Bakugou sounds a lot like a parent: he does the cooking, barks at me to go to sleep at 9 pm sharp, and nags at me constantly. Part of me thinks he might be an old man or something.

"I'll get off in a few minutes, let me just level up a little more." I barely look up at him, focusing on a pokemon that just appeared out of the tall grass.

My boyfriend roll his eyes and groans. "You said that five times already, hurry up!" The top of his pen taps impatiently on his notebook. "If you don't put it away now, I'm taking it from you."

"You sound like my dad," I mumble under my breath, do a quick save, and close it.

"No wonder you need my help, you can't focus." He flicks my forehead.

"But it's fun! It's not my fault they purposely made it addictive." I reluctantly open my notes.

"What's so fun about it? It's just stupid little monsters fighting each other, but you and Phone Charger play it nonstop."

I gasp as if he's sent me a personal insult. "They aren't stupid! They're my babies! My loyally trained babies who beat up everyone else's babies."

"Oh please, just do your work, dumbass." Bakugou forcefully pushes my head down to focus.

"Maybe if you play it, you won't call it stupid." Sticking my tongue out proves just how childish I am, if it isn't already obvious.

"Yeah, okay." He places his large hand down on my notebook. "If you get in the top half of the class with your exam grades, I'll play your dumb game with you."

If I had ears and a tail, they'd be perked up right now. "Really? It's a deal! Don't go back on your word!"

"I won't, dumbass, now focus already!" He thinks I don't catch the amused lifting of his lips.

"I don't know how you did it, but you did." Bakugou has a blank face on as he peers over my shoulder at my exam sheet.

I couldn't stop smiling from the moment I received the paper. Catching him off guard, I throw my arms around his neck. "It's only because of you, Sparky. Thank you!"

His warm arms hug around my waist. "If you weren't you, I'd destroy you for calling me that." He pulls away and pokes the center of my forehead. "It wasn't just me, you actually used your brain for once dumbass."

Immediately, I place a kiss on his smirking lips, only to chuckle at his slowly blushing ears. "I'm not just happy about the grade. I hope you remember what you promised."

I know he's resisting the urge to groan. "Yes, I promised. Let's go."

"WHAT THE HELL! WHY DOES THIS KEEP HAPPENING?!"

"Babe, that's the whole point-"

"IT'S ANNOYING ME!" If anyone walked into this room right now, they would see the massive vein poking out of his forehead.

"Don't break my DS!" I snatch it out of his hands when I notice his hands tightening around my handheld device. "You're supposed to find pokemon in the grass, how else are you gonna level up enough to beat the gym leaders?"

"I'm just trying to get to the next town, why do they have to come up when I'm just going through?!" He pulls at his hair angrily and positions his head on my shoulder.

"Okay, yeah, that's annoying sometimes, but who can get mad at a little extra training?" My fingers move over the buttons reflexively. I've done this so many times it's become second nature, I would understand how frustrating it must be to play when you're starting out.

"Why do they listen you when you tell them to do stuff?" he grumbles.

"They must know who's playing," I tense him. "They know you don't like them either."

"Why wouldn't they listen to you anyway?! I caught one in that ball thing, that should've told them I'm the master!"

"They have personalities you know. Some of them are just unruly or jokesters." The wild pokemon faints with a final attack. "Besides, you wouldn't like it if you were stuck in a cramped ball all day until you're needed."

Bakugou groans. "It took a couple of those stupid things to catch them. They're rebellious little beasts."

I open the menu to the pokemon I have in my bag. "Look, I named this electric type Denki because he still doesn't listen to me."

"Hmph. Why don't you name one after me?"

I turn my head only to meet with a pouting Bakubaby. "Because I haven't found one that's cute and fluffy enough yet."

"Can't wait to see it. He won't be as cute as me though." His arms envelop me from behind and he pecks my cheek. "I dunno how you do this all day babe, I'd get so fed up."

"Obviously."

"Shut up. I'm not used it like you are."

"I think you should call it my second quirk," I smile brightly at him.

He chuckles at me, his chest rumbling against my back. "No babe, I think that's your talent. I'm proud of you, I guess."

"I'm gonna be the ultimate pokemon parent! I wanna be the very best-!"

"DON'T EVEN START THAT!"

#Bakugou x reader #bakugou fluff #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #bakugou katsuki #bakugou imagine #bakugou scenario #gender neutral reader #request #mha bakugou #bnha bakugou #mha x reader #bnha x reader #mha fanfiction #bnha fanfiction

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your-dearest-antego · 4 years

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Tagged by @errorpaige

Rules: Answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you want to know better whoever you like!

1. Name/Nickname: Antego its a personal name and i get it sounds weird so most folks just call me Ant or Anty and i love it!

3. Star sign: Leo

4. Height: 6′

5. Time: 8:11pm (local time)

6. Birthday: right at the end of summer

7. Favorite Band: oof favorites are a hard thing for me bc my interests and obsessions are always changing and im seriously blanking on any band that i could call a favorite?? sorryy

8. Favorite Solo Artist: easier pick this time im going with Jacob Collier. That dude is on another level in terms of how advanced he is in music theory

9. Song Stuck in My Head: My Life is Better With You by Montaigne its so catchy and full of love

10. Last Movie: i did an annual rewatch of lord of the rings and the hobbit

11. Last Show: just watched the new episodes of dc super hero girls its such a cute show and doesn’t require a lot of emotional investment so was perfect to have on while doing chores

12. When I Created This Blog: emmm 6? 7? 8 years ago? i wasn’t blogging much in the beginning so i really do not remember

13. What I Post: shitposts, aesthetics, cat, dogs and activist stuff

14. Last Thing I Googled: “MisFire” she is this suuuuper awesome beatboxer with a really hypnotic rhythm - if you’re into that sort of thing lol

15. Other Blogs: this is my only tumblr blog but i do have an amateur photography blog thing on insta

16. Do I get asks: mmm pretty rarely idk if im all that interesting to get asked stuff tbh

17. Why I Chose My URL: idk it sounded kind of cute and my last url was self deprecating and i am trying to do that less

18. Following: 252

19. Followers: 563 but pretty sure there are lots of porn bots in there that i am too lazy to do anything about

20. Average Hours of Sleep: i’ve had chronic insomnia since puberty but i manage it with sleep aides and get usually 8 hours of light sleep :/

21. Lucky Number: the number 3 has never done me dirty

22. Instruments: piano, ukulele, electric guitar, acoustic guitar i am all extremely mediocre at playing and i also have a couple violins that stare at me in the corner that im sooo intimidated by to start playing

23. What I Am Wearing: a long hoody and these baggy harem pants over these cool leggings

24. Dream Job: full time music producer maybe? ttrpg actual play story telling? one or both of those

25. Dream Trip: i want to travel literally everywhere but top 3 would probably be ireland, tokyo and titan, one of saturns moons (you can basically FLY there)

26. Favourite Food: killing me with this faves... lol ill go Asian in general but im very white so you can tempt me with basically all cheese

27. Nationality: USA

28. Favourite Song: None currently...

29. Last Book I Read: currently reading Stone Butch Blues (highly recommended) and Homer translated by Emily Wilson (also recommend)

30. Top 3 fictional universes I would love to live in: (assuming i get to participate in the cool stuff in these universes) sense8, the owl house and pokemon. oh to grow old on my poke ranch with my mons. just vibing...

Thank you for asking! I will tag @join-me-in-the=bog @adobabe @wellwrittenword @kattherippa @redwoodfox @cleverbabygh0ul @chloe-the-fool @anna-da-gamer @shit-man-imreally-gay @mightybeaujester @dyslexicorn

If I haven’t tagged you feel free to pick this up on your own! And if I did tag you then no pressure!

#paige i am SO sorry its taken ages #but thank you thank you for tagging me #you are very sweet

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surveys-at-your-service · 4 years

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Survey #326

“life by life / waste to waste / i'm the harbinger: the master of decay”

When you get married what do you think you’ll put most of your focus and money into? Do you mean like, for the wedding? Probably the venue. Or possibly the photographer. Have you ever had a teacher that also taught your parents? No. What’s something you complain about frequently? My legs. Are you afraid of falling in love? Very. Are you close to any of your aunts/uncles? Not very. Do you hate it when people smoke around you? Very much so. Do you own anything that is special edition? Yeah, things like DVDs. Do you have any funky bookmarks? I have this one meerkat bookmark where the image moves when you tilt it. Did you ever watch Pokemon? Hell yeah I did. Are there more females or males in your family? Females. Does anyone in your family snore loudly? My mom does due to having gerd. Dad did too when I actually lived with him. I wouldn't know nowadays. Do you own a camera tripod? Yes. Did you ever believe in mermaids? No. Have you ever purchased alcohol? Yes. Any essential quirks/interests/other you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner? Similar interests, like being a metal fan and gamer especially, as well as a serious animal lover for sure. Any romantic gestures you really like? Okay if someone did that little bow thing while reaching out for my hand to dance, I'd melt, lol. I also appreciate love interests holding open doors, SHOWING INTEREST IN HOW I FCKN FEEL, asking permission before doing anything in sexual exploration, stuff like that. Any sexual fantasies? Are you daring enough to share one? Yep, not sharing those lmfao. Have you ever been in love? Twice. What is your favorite/least favorite word? My favorite is "serendipity/serendipitous," and my least favorite is "retarded." Have you ever been skinny dipping? No. If I actually had a body I was confident in, I probably would in privacy tho at night lmao. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character? Oh yeah. What is your favorite thing to do? Probably RPing with my favorite OCs when I'm in a really creative mood and during a great scene. Did you go to your senior prom? Yeah, I did. Prom's honestly pretty damn overrated, but I did it and his senior prom anyway. It's the picking out a beautiful dress and taking pictures that I loved. What did you do after graduation? I don't remember. We probably went out to eat or something. Favorite home cooked meal growing up? Spaghetti. What item most embarrasses you to purchase? Nothing, really. Do you give cards to people for holidays or events? No. Name the coolest thing about one of your grandparents. Uhhhhh idk. Name two things you put whipped cream on? I hate the texture of whipped cream. Do you ever eat peanut butter straight from the jar? Sometimes if I want a snack but am trying to be healthy-ish, I'll eat just a scoop. What was the last pill you took for? Pain. Do you prefer your clothes loose or close fitting? Loose, 100%. Favorite thing you’ve ever painted? Meerkats grooming. I did it in high school on a large piece of burlap. Are there any songs that remind you of your mother? "Take It Like a Woman" by Alice Cooper, for one. How did your elementary school teachers describe you? Very smart, sweet, friendly, and nice. Game you were best at in PE/gym? Pf, none. Obsession from childhood? Dinosaurs and Pokemon. Best way for someone to bond with you? Let's talk about deep stuff regarding the world or about how awesome animals are. Top 5 favorite Vines? Oh boy. There are just way too many. I'll try to name a few: 1.) the "I can't find my berries" saga guy; 2.) *in drive-thru, asked what he would like to order* "I wanna FUCKIN DIE"; 2.) "i cOUldA DROPpeD my CroISSAnt"; 3.) "it's Wednesday, m'dudes"; 4.) "a d a m"; 5.) "I WON'T HESITATE, BITCH." God, I miss Vine. What is the first meme you remember seeing? Holy cow, I have no idea. Sci-fi, fantasy, or superheroes? Fantasy. Favorite tradition? Dressing up for Halloween, even though I don't do it anymore... Talent you’re proud of having? Writing. Favorite website from your childhood? Webkinz was unbeatable. I was obsessed. Any good luck charms? I don't believe in those. Favorite potato food? French fries. Tell me the color of your eyes, without using the name of a color: Uhhhh a cloudy sky right before rain? Ever been through a goth phase? Goth is my fucking AESTHETIC. I wish I could afford a truly gothic wardrobe, because you bet your sweet ass it's all I'd wear out. Can you remember your first phone? If so, what kind was it? I think so? It was a Blueberry, I believe. Who is your favourite character from Alice in Wonderland? Obviously the Cheshire cat. What is your favorite type of YouTube video to watch? Lately, it's been tarantula and snake channels/pet YouTubers. I still think my overall favorites are let's plays, but right now it's just stepping back a bit. What’s the next project you are excited to start? I have this pretty cool drawing I wanna do of a morbid meerkat doing a big toothy smile, doing a peace sign (but his fingers are syringes) with a crown blinking over his head. Inspired by the "Professional Griefers" lyric of "lab rat king." I just really wanna make it perfect and am procrastinating in fear of failing... Have you ever experienced a miracle? I don't think I believe in miracles. What are your top three names you like for a daughter? Alessandra, Justine, and Chloe, to name a few. Which did you like better: high school or college? High school, at least in most ways. What is the theme of your bedroom? It doesn't have a theme. My interests just kinda threw up everywhere, haha. Have you ever lived in a dorm? No. Were you raised religious? Yes. Do you do your own taxes, or do you hire a professional? I don't have to do taxes yet. What was the very first thing you ever saved up to buy with your own money? Venus was the first big thing, I think. Describe your favorite Christmas ornament: I don't know what that would be, honestly. We have so very many. What jobs did your parents have when you were growing up? Dad's always been a mailman, and he also had a second job as a carpenter for a while. Mom worked with special needs children at my elementary school as a teacher assistant. She also worked at the hospital at one point, doing some computer work. I don't remember her actual position. Are you taller than your mom? We're the same height. Would you marry someone if they were unable to have sex? Sure, that's not a big deal to me. Last reason you went to the ER? For myself, a suicide attempt/overdose. What was the last word document you typed? This survey, actually, so I could save progress as I combine them. What’s something you don’t think people take seriously enough? Global warming. Have you ever dated someone who had a child from a previous relationship? No. Is there any drama currently going on with your family? No. What was the last fruit or vegetable you chopped/sliced up? An apple. I wanted apple slices with peanut butter. What is your favorite Hostess/Little Debbie snack? Holy SHIT that is impossible. Maybe the devil cakes, but I really don't know. I love most of them. Do you/your family buy loaf from the bakery or bagged on the shelf? Bagged. White, wheat or other? Mom buys white bread, but my favorite is pumpernickel. What was the last non-fiction book you’ve read? (Not a school textbook!): I ain't got a clue. I don't really read non-fiction. What color are your headphones/earbuds? These are blue. Would you be embarrassed to find out you snored loudly in public? Yep. Thankfully, I don't snore. Do you feel guilty about killing bugs? Yep. How do you feel about coconut? Not a fan. ^ Ever cracked one open? Ha, I've always wanted to. Who did you last worry about and why? My mom. She's getting a CT scan ASAP due to chronic headaches and stomach pain, so I'm worried her cancer might be re-emerging. When was the last time you ate/drank something gross just to be polite? I don't know; I struggle to do this. If I don't like something, my face shows it. I can't help it. When did you last make up a baby’s bottle? Never. Do you have any framed black & white photos in your home? Who are they of? No. What’s the most expensive thing your car needed to get done? N/A If you had a thousand dollars to spend on a pricey brand you like but can’t really afford (until now of course), which ONE brand would you chose? I don't know. Real talk, I find most luxury brands to sell pretty ugly stuff... Do you like candy canes? Yeah. Do you still talk to any of your old teachers? Yes; one is my landlord. What color was the dress you wore to your senior prom? It was black. Ever go to another school’s prom? No. Do you like burning candles or incense? I love incense. Do you ever venture into the woods? What do you normally do in there? When I used to live in the woods, I did every now and then to take pictures. Does your significant other ever make you mix CDs? Single, but that would be so romantic. /swoons How did you dress your freshman year of high school? I was this emo/metalhead/goth creature. What is the best present you have ever received? My dog Teddy. <3 What is the best present you have ever given? I put the most effort into a scrapbook thing of well over a hundred reasons I loved my then-boyfriend Jason. Even though we're done, I honestly hope he still has it, just to remember. What is the best surprise you have ever had? Sara's parents paying for a flight up there to be with Sara for her birthday. Have you ever been robbed? No, thankfully. Ever kiss someone on the first date? No. Ever sleep with someone on the first date? Definitely a nope. Ever give someone a wrong phone number on purpose? No. What’s the strangest thing you have ever witnessed firsthand? I have no idea. It's... very morbid, but possibly dogs twitching after being euthanized. Seeing Teddy do it was such a strange, painful experience. Like there was still life in there... even though I know it was just his nerves doing their final hoorah and he was already dead. Ever seen a psychiatric ward? I've been in a mental hospital five or six times, so I'm uncomfortably familiar with them. What is the last thing you did that you didn’t want to do? Group therapy. I'm really burning out on it. Thankfully, I don't have it on the weekends. What is the last thing you convinced someone else to do? I dunno. If you could live in a different time, would you? When? Nah. Do you prefer to sleep alone or with someone else? Sleeping alone is more comfortably physically, but I usually prefer sleeping with a partner because there's this amazing feeling of safety, love, and companionship. How many pillows do you sleep with? Two. Do you prefer cold air and blankets, or warm air and no blankets? Cold air and blankets by ten miles. I can't sleep if I'm even remotely hot. How often do you dust? Sigh, not as much as I need to. What is the most "extreme" activity you have ever done? I haven't done very much that fits that description... so idk. Dr. Pepper or root beer? Dr. Pepper. I hate root beer. Last room you cleaned? Mine. Last thing you did that made you feel like an adult? Checked into the doctor's office by myself, haha... Talk about sad. What’s your favorite picture of your mom? Dad? It's not my business to actually share those pictures, but I can describe them. I fucking ADORE this candid photograph I took of my mom laughing; I will forever cherish it. It's morbid to think about, but it's absolutely a picture I'll frame of her once she's passed away. I don't have many pictures of Dad, but I do really like this picture we took together at Red Lobster once. Are you subscribed to anything (Magazines, monthly boxes, streaming sites, etc.)? Mom pays an Adobe Creative Cloud photography bundle subscription for me, but that's it. Last TV show series you finished? Fullmetal Alchemist with Sara. It was a rewatch for me, but she'd never seen it. What’s something exciting that’s happened to one of your friends recently? A childhood friend got engaged a few days back. Do you have any board games? If so, where do you keep them? We have a few somewhere. What were the last things you glued together? I don’t recall. What are your friends’ pets’ names? I'll just use Sara here since she's my best friend. She has two family dogs, Buster and Beesly, a cat named Winter, four ball pythons named Martha, Crowley, Little Dot, and Jane Marie, and Doris, a bearded dragon that I personally adore most. :') What all did you do today? I played World of Warcraft early this morning, but not for very long. I've been in a phase of being very uninterested in it lately. I've mostly just done surveys... lots of surveys. I'm just in the mood to. I've also been listening to music and watching John Wolfe play Amnesia: Rebirth periodically. If you live in a house, how many floors does it have? If you live in an apartment building, how many units does it have? It's just one floor. Would you like to live in a world with mythical creatures, even if they turned out to be evil or dangerous? Honestly... I probably would, haha. Are you scared of heights? Yes. When was the last time you lost something of great sentimental value? Did you ever end up finding it again? Never, I think and hope. What food do you find to be the most filling? Is this something you eat a lot of? Eggs or oatmeal. Not really. What do you think of people who purposefully train their dogs to fight or to be aggressive? They're fucking garbage human beings. If you suffer/have suffered with acne, do you squeeze your spots or do your best to just leave them be? Ugh, I was so bad (and still am if something pops up) about picking at it. Does your father have any hobbies? What are they? Sure. He loves sports, fishing, idk if he still plays video games, fantasy football... and I can't forget playing with his grandkids. It's hard for me to know all of them when I don't live with him and see him rarely. What did the last face mask you wore look like? It was just a white cotton one. Is there a specific song that you always request at parties? What is it? I don't go to parties. Would you rather read poetry or write poetry? Write it. Have you ever had any really infected injuries? I've had infected piercings as well as a badly infected pilonidal cyst. Is there any band out there that you like every song by them? No. Are you popular on any websites? No. What was the last song you listened to? Aaaaand now I'm hooked on "NIHIL" by 3TEETH. Are you currently texting anyone right now? No. When was the last time you played jump rope? Yikes, probably not since I was a kid. I used to love it. Who was the last person you offended? I dunno. What’s the earliest you’ve ever had to wake up for work? Not early. Do you know anyone who has changed their first name? I know trans people who have, yes. Do you know anyone who has been on life support and survived? No. At least, I don't believe so. Do your parents have a strong relationship together? They're divorced, and Mom at least can't stand him. Dad doesn't really care. Do you ever feel like you’re sharing too much about yourself online? Oh, I absolutely used to. I still might, idk. I've tried to reel it back some. How many windows are in the room you’re in? Eight, but they're just small, vertical rectangles stacked together, so it's not as revealing as it sounds. What was the last necklace you wore? My spiked choker, I think, for pictures. Or maybe the one I have with a bunch of big silver skulls. Do you think there are more dimensions than what we’re able to perceive? I don't think so, no. Does anyone in your family have schizophrenia? My half-sister on Dad's side that I've never met. Have you ever been in an abandoned house? A shack, yeah. Do you like art? I positively adore it. I could NOT imagine life without it. How about theatre? I don't care for it. Have you ever made breakfast for someone? Yes, for Sara. Do you talk to your crush? If you have one. Yeah, she's my best fren. If yes, what do you usually talk about? Nowadays I ask her almost daily how she's doing in regards to her progress of recovering from both serious physical and mental stressors. I try to always be an available ear if she ever wants to vent. Would you rather read or watch a video about something? Watch a video. In what ways have you fulfilled some of the hopes and dreams you had as a teenager? I've fulfilled none of those. What’s one stressful thing you’ve been trying to deal with lately? How have you been dealing with it? Inexplicable, chronic boredom/serious anhedonia. I've just... put up with it. I get pleasure out of essentially nothing most days, and it sucks big time. I just try to distract myself and force myself to do things I usually love, though I've been bad about actually succeeding in making me do said stuff... Is there a regional chain of store/restaurant/etc. in your area that you feel very loyal to? MOTHERFUCKIN BOJANGLE'S, BITCH. You think YOU have good fries somewhere? Oh hunny, sit down. Oftentimes, people warn us against getting tattoos or body modifications or dying our hair unnatural colors because we could be judged poorly for them. But has a more “alternative” look ever worked out in your favor? Well, I like myself better with my piercings and tattoos, and that's all that really matters to me. Do you have any daily routine/habit of that you’re really proud of keeping up? No. .-. Pick one of the following activities to do in a forest (assume you would be equally good at each one of these): Foraging for mushrooms, identifying trees, searching for specific types of bugs, trying to build something out of fallen branches and logs. Searching for bugs w/ my camera!!! But that all sounds fun. What’s the hardest class you’ve ever taken? My most recent math course that I failed horribly.

#survey #surveys #questions #lyrics: ''master of decay'' by 3teeth

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Your hugs feel like home

Brie Larson x Reader

Summary- Reader has a bad day and Brie knows what to do.

Your day was just horrible and your boss is a huge douche. Everyone was making you angry now you are happy to be home. Brie is at home and she is happy to be back home, she has been gone for weeks. You walked into the apartment and walked by her. Usually, you would kiss her and talk but you went to the bedroom and flopped on the bed.

Brie was reading a book but she stopped and went to the bedroom, to check on you.

”Y/N, what's wrong?” Brie asked.

You turned around and you don't sit up.

”Worst day ever! I'm glad this day is over but I still feel like crap” You sighed.

Brie starts to take off your sneakers and socks.

”Sit up,” Brie said.

You sighed and sat up. She kissed your head and she helped you take off your jacket and sweater.

”Get comfortable. Do you want to talk about it?” Brie said.

”Not right now, maybe later,” You said.

You frown. Brie sets up the bathtub and adds bubbles, you and Brie start to get undressed then get in the bathtub.

”Come here, babe,” Brie said.

You have your back against Brie. You feel her arms around you and you tilted your head and she has her chin on your shoulder.

”This feels really good,” You said.

”It will be okay. Whenever you want to talk about it, I will listen. Now let's just relax and enjoy the moment” Brie said.

”I’m just glad you are back home. Those weeks without you I hated it” You said.

”I hate being away from you too. Next time, I will bring you with me and I mean it” Brie said.

”I take you up on the offer,” You said.

Your fingers and her fingers linked together. Then she starts to massage and clean your back.

”Oh wow, Y/N you are so stressed out. Your shoulders feel like boulders, you definitely need a vacation for like a year” Brie said.

”I definitely need a vacation,” You said.

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Brie puts on your favorite pajama shirt. Sometimes she wears your shirts to bed, she took half of your hoodies and shirts. She keeps it her side of the drawer and closet.

”When am I getting my shirt back?” You asked.

”Mhmm, tomorrow of never,” Brie said.

You and Brie laughed.

Brie grabbed the pillows and blankets then set it up on the couch. She went to grab the food and drinks from the kitchen. You sit next to your girlfriend, she covers herself and you with the blanket.

”Comfortable?” Brie asked.

”Yeah,” You said.

She gave you a peck on the lips. You and Brie start to watch the order on Netflix. In the middle of the episode, you and Brie start to throw popcorn at each other to see who can catch it with their mouth.

”Let’s cuddle. I really don't want to watch tv right now” You said.

”Whatever you want, babe” Brie said.

Brie pulls you on top of her. She turns off the tv and she wraps her arms around you then her leg is around you. She starts to play with your hair and you sigh.

”I love you, Y/N” Brie whispered softly.

You smiled to yourself.

You and Brie fell asleep on the couch, holding each other. You did drool a little bit on her shirt. Her leg is wrapped a little tight around you.

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In the middle of the night, you and Brie woke up. You and Brie had a midnight snack in the kitchen. Later, you and Brie went to the bedroom and tried to sleep.

”Babe, are you sleeping?” You asked.

”No. I can't sleep anymore, what about you?” Brie said.

”I can't sleep either. What you want you to do?” You said.

You and Brie are lying in bed in the dark. Brie gets out of bed and turns on the light, you watch her get back into bed but she is sitting down.

”I actually got two new games for Nintendo Switch,” Brie said.

”Show me,” You said.

You sat up and you watched Brie get the games and the Nintendo Switch.

”I got Luigi's Mansion 3 and Pokémon Sword & Shield,” Brie said with a huge smile on her face.

”Awesome!” You cheerfully yelled.

”Let’s play Luigi’s first,” Brie said.

”Let’s do it then we play pokemon,” You said.

She nods. Brie sets up the game now you and Brie play together Luigi's Mansion. You and Brie are having a good time playing the game. Then you two get stuck in the game, you and Brie check online of what to do.

”No! Don't go there” You said.

Brie died in the game now have to start over.

”Ugh!” Brie said.

”I told you not to go there. Now we have to start over again” You said.

”As if you can do better than me” Brie scoffed.

”Oh, I can and I can beat the level,” You said

She gave you the controller then she watches you play.

Now it's 3:47 am now you and Brie are playing Pokemon.

”Who did you pick as your Pokemon starter?” Brie asked.

”I want three. So, want to trade and reset?” You asked.

”Yes. Because I fell in love with Scorbunny and Grookey” Brie said.

You and Brie reset the game and traded Pokemon many times. You are lying on your stomach across the bed and Brie has her legs on your back.

Brie gave her Pokemon nicknames but you didn't give them nicknames. You and Brie now have all three starter pokemon.

”Wanna battle?” Brie asked.

”You are going down” You joked.

”Okay, whoever loses the battle has to um... Has to cook dinner for a month” Brie said.

”Deal,” You said.

Now you and Brie are having a pokemon battle. It was a draw but you and Brie are having another Pokemon battle. You won and Brie pouts. You turned around and Brie gets on top of you.

”You cheated,” Brie said.

”How?” You asked.

”If you didn't use the super potion then I would have won,” Brie said.

”You didn't say anything about using potions,” You said.

You and Brie smiled at each other. She bends down and she starts to kiss you.

Now it's 6:50 am, you and Brie just went straight to bed holding each other.

#brie larson x reader #brie larson imagine

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hollowphobia-casual · 5 years

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The Amazing World Of Friendship Part MMXIX, The Return Of The Rising Awakened Empire

It’s that time of year again! The time I let down my defences and expose my emotions bare to all my friends so that I may thank and gush all over them, because despite my cynical hate filled shell, deep, deep, deep, deep, deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep down I’m actually someone who just wants to be loved, maybe.

But joking and honest truths disguised as jokes aside, there is something I would like to say, most of the time.., I feel like I have imposter syndrome, not regarding my art and my work, but with my friends! I have SO many wonderful friends and I honestly love them to bits and yet every year due to work, time zones, time schedules or just my inability to start a conversation I don’t get to talk to them or they go neglected for ages and I hate that so much about myself. My friends, all of them, are such wonderful people and they deserve so much better than what I give them, I love you guys, so very much..., I’m sorry for being such a terrible friend.

THAT SAID! It’s time to embarrass these lovely losers by letting them know just how much I care, kukuku.

@articbleu [Twitter]

Hah! Speaking of friends whom I’m constantly feel like I am neglecting, where do I begin without feeling like I’m treading over the same ground? You are one of the many artists whom I consider an inspiration, your dedication, drive and sheer will is aweing inspiring, like, I dunno if I can ever get over how much I think about it, I remember a time where we were both almost at the same level and now you are off doing who knows what, last I checked, you were studying in Korea, which is awesome, I’m so happy for you. But when ever I’m working and I feel like I can’t achieve, I look to you and tell myself, I can do better. I dunno if we’ll ever talk like we used to, so much time has passed since we last spoke, I dunno if we are the same people and there are times when I look back on my past, things I said that I regret and wonder if maybe you shouldn’t be my friend, not because I hate you, but because there are better people than me, who are more deserving of your attention, admiration and so much more, but regardless of what comes and what may happen, you have been or are, my friend and I love you, please, keep shooting like the star you are!

@nightmargin [twitter]

Okay, imagine this, so you met this cool girl who likes to draw weird, amazing and beautiful things on Deviantart, you enter a character tournament two with them, you chat about anime and stuff, then just a few years later THEY RELEASE ONE MOST ACCLAIMED INDIE GAMES KNOWN, like Whaaaaa-, there is not a day that goes by I don’t see One Shot stuff like, wha-, I dunno.., and she’s still making stuff it’s fucking incredible, WHY ARE MY FRIENDS SO TALENTED.., hah, go damit didn’t want to be melancholy.. ..,But like, shit, I just want to support my friends and let them know how much I give a shit, just how impressed I am, how happy for them I am but truth is I hardly get to see them, which is not your fault, you are making games, doing art, and having to be a social media presence, it’s exhausting, I understand, I just hope you know that I care still, that when I see your characters around the web, in fanart, in VRchat and other places, it makes me SO happy, I just want to hug you and let you know that you are doing an amazing job and that I couldn’t be more proud of you, I hope you know that.

@doodlediddy @doodledittydaisy [Twitter]

AAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!! Okay so, this is a friend where neither of us are to blame for staying out of touch because, HOLY FUCK YOU HAVE A BABY! AAAAA, you made a little person and they are so cute! On the rare occasion I go onto the hellsite that is Facebook, I get to catch glimpses of you and your lovely child, whom I terribly do not know the name or gender of A+ friendship right there, but yeah, GURL, you have an infant and they are precious, I don’t blame you for a second for not being in touch, it feels so weird, not too many years ago you were talking me off the ledge and then you got married, then you got baby fat AND NOT IT’S ESCAPE! I’m so happy for your family, fuck, that’s so weird, it’s YOUR family, not your family, YOUR FAMILY! AAAAaaaaa!

@mistercrowbar [Twitter]

I MET HER!, I MET HER!, I MET HER! No you guys don’t understand, I MET CROWBAR AND IT WAS FUCKING AWESOME! We looked at beautiful lakes, we watched netflix, We ate burgers, looked at destroyed cranes, went to Ikea, watched more netflix, bought DnD stuff, ate more burgers, tried a beaver tail, more netflix, talked about lobsters and my little pony, looked at fossils, got mad at the ocean, yelled at drivers, more netflix… It was great, I loved it, would sleep on the floor again, 10/10. But Okay so I know that many people would think of Crowbar as intimidating, she’s not an emotionally open person I know, but to be honest it just makes friendship with her special, getting to know her on a level where you can read her is something that is truly treasurable and I’m so lucky to have that, she’s a unique person to love and that’s what's so great about her, she isn’t like everyone else, I wouldn’t change her for anything in the world…, okay maybe I’d allow her let me hug her more so I can tell her how great she is and she can’t flee, haha. I know I get on her nerves sometimes and I’m probably not the best friend on her list, I mean, I’m guessing, but considering how I measure up to some of the other people she knows, I can easily see that, I mean who knows thow, maybe I’m not a tier friend and maybe just a different friend and I just.., haha, I dunno why I obsess over this, how important I am to my friends, maybe because I just want them to be the happiest they can be and when I know I’m depriving them of joy, I question myself. But I am happy for what happiness I do bring to her, the moments I’m useful, when I am needed or just enjoyable company, those are the best moments for me, I’d give anything just to hear Crowbar laugh once every day, that’s how important of a friend she is to me.

@valbey-the-girl [twitter]

THIS ASSHOLE! Has been with me since I can remember, which probably annoys him, because I’m not the easiest person to friends with, specially of late, my mood has been all over the fucking place, I’m happy, sad, depressed, angry, frustated and yet he doesn’t complain…, that I know of.., and in return.., I send him lewd christmas gifts that make his parents question him and his life choices. Haha, friendship. But honestly, I like that about him, he’s one of the true people I know that makes me feel like we have a ‘normal’ friendship, we are not overly affectionate, we can speak openly to one another and we don’t like all of them same things and all I want to do is make him laugh and find a game that I’m good at and that he sucks at, because god damit, he seems like he’s an expert at everything, fuck you! I know times right now are tough for you, I can’t imagine it’s easy, shits going down at home, work and there is some asshole asking if your free once every Saturday so you can pretend to be a dwarf, just know if you need anything, you can always ask me, you’ve been there for me, don’t forget I’m here for you.

@dansome0203 [Twitter]

Don’t say how you are terrible friend because you haven’t been talking to him much, you say it every year, Don’t say how you are terrible friend because you haven’t been talking to him much, you say it every year, Don’t say how you are terrible friend because you haven’t been talking to him much, you say it every year,... -checks Script- “I’m a terrible Friend..” FUCK. -inhale- The man I look to for inspiration on cute girls and large boobs! God, I only really got to know this guy at the tail end of my Deviantart carrier before the big move to Tumblr and even then it was less a ‘WE ARE FRIENDS SWORN TO A BLOOD OATH’ and more me oddly poking him now and again, trying to start a conversation failing miserably, a tradition that would continue for about…, nine years…, nine years.. God I am a terrible friend. But enough about my inability to simply converse with people, what can I say about this Dan, he’s fucking great to start with, on the odd times I do actually get to talk to him I know he is nothing more than a chill dude who creates a lovely and warm atmosphere around him that draws people in, he has a fantastic sense of humour which is only equaled by his creative flair, no I’m not talking about the boobs, but more his designs for his characters, colour choices and so much more, I am honestly not joking when I say that I look at this guys work for inspiration from time to time, because I find his designs just that appealing and insightful. I would love for nothing than to just sit in a call with this guy and talk shop, or talk, or anything…, I wanna love you Dan, let me love you!

Gwyn Graham

And right of the gates… I FORGOT WHAT THERE TUMBLR USERNAME IS GOD DAMMIT! So for once me being a bad friend is entirely my fault!, we’ve always had a rocky time zone/schedule conflict even when we use to play DnD with each other, because life sadly, is not easy, fuck I wish it was. But also sadly I dunno what you’ve been up to, I dunno how you have been. I hope you are well and happy, did you get date? Are you on the lamb for murder? Who knows, but I like to think you are happy, I hope you are, I wish that you are.

@taplaos @tapliciousart [Twitter]

I bought three shirts from you and my father ignored the washing instructions so they are now basically ruined.-sigh- That said they are some amazing fucking shirts, so gonna try and be less of a downer here, but yes, like most of my friends, I am terribly out of touch with this wonderful person, HOWEVER, they have been fucking busy, designing some of the sickest Pokemon related merchandise I’ve ever seen, two things immediately come to mind when ever I see their amazing work up on my twitter, one… Why have Nintendo/Game Freak issued a take down notice and second, WHY HAVEN’T THEY HIRED YOU and I don’t mean that in a fanboy sort of, I love you pay attention to me sort of way, I actually mean that, your designs are so appealing, humorous, creative and at the same time, family friendly, like, there is such a demand for Pokemon related merchandise and you are just popping it out like nobody's business, christ, you are too good at this, it’s why I really need to sit down and talk to you about helping me design T-shirts at some point. Honestly, if you haven’t, go check out their stuff, seriously, do it, DO IT NOW!

@tuz-ohtopia @dm-tuz [Twitter] [Patreon]

When I started out I was ‘aware’ of Tuzzy, but I didn’t really know him, it wasn’t until I started getting involved with DnD that I started to know him and that was because he was the DM of my two other friends, so sadly I can never say that me and Tuzo have had the strongest of friendships. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not saying I dislike Tuzo, I think the guy is great, the times we’ve actually spoken it’s been fantastic and talking shop with him was always a highlight, but it just.., amazes me, how I guy I barely knew went from a simple background presence to almost being everywhere I look. For you who don’t know, Tuzo is now a DM for hire and even has a Patreon where he offers up custom monsters, tiles and such, it’s so amazing to see how far he has come, it’s great, even if he has an unhealthy obsession with a lesser version of DnD, haha. I’m so proud of him and his unbound campaign is so enjoyable, experiencing it though his players is incredible and the assets he creates are outstanding, I just wish I had his time management, because I can not create assets to the same level or detail he does. This man has inspired me as a DM, an artist and a creator, and I don’t know if he is even aware that he has done that, Tuzo, keep doing what you're doing, because it’s amazing.

@nickala [Twitter]

Nicki’s Twitter describes her as a wannabe concept artist and an actual scientist and I’m probably the reverse haha, a wannabe scientist, god I love Nicki’s job, I really should talk to her about it, but then again I dunno how much of it she is allowed to openly discuss, she is after all handling human remains, so… I’ve mentioned it before, but I love Nicki, she makes life, make sense and it’s great, but more importantly than that, she’s just.., fantastic, funny, caring, but human. Like she feels so relatable with how she expresses herself, everything comes with a little frustration, a little guilt and honesty, which might sound like a weird thing to admire, but there are so many people these days who want to be fake, they want to be these, ideal versions that don’t exist, trying so hard and it becomes, exhausting and almost impossible to talk to them, because they wear a mask and you don’t know what their true intentions are. But not with Nicki, they talk and you can feel that raw emotion, it’s so satisfying to read text, to hear a voice and just know the complexity of a person, it’s refreshing and I cherish it.., even if I don’t talk to them that often.., I’m a sham of a friend -cries-

@mortooncian-art [Twitter]

I just met this lovely gal this year and…, I’m as bad with talking to them as I am with Dan…, I hope it doesn’t continue for about nine years…, I don’t want to be awkwardly skirting conversations at 37.

Sadly I can’t say much of them as a person, mostly because I’ve only really gotten to meet them this year, the aforementioned being a terrible person/friend, but I can talk about what drew me to them, because I was always aware of Thren? Mortoon?...uh.. Oh god I dunno what to call them..FU- I had always been aware of them since Deviantart and their art was appealing I just never made the leap to try and talk to them, because COWARD, it wasn’t until sometime last year, I can’t recall who but someone was reblogging their work, I believe it was Dan or Calien, it was from his DnD session and her little tiefling was just.., so..fucking CUTE! I loved her and wanted to know so much about her and looking into her work I found more and more cute loveable characters, and I dunno how to describe it, but her art just has this beautiful, cute and sexy charm to it that makes you just want to.. LIKE AND REBLOG IT… So after that, I just wanted to get know her, it seems so stupid thinking about it, liking someones art you think to yourself, hey I want to know this person on a personal level and maybe talk to them! And then, you get it and you clam up due to your social awkwardness and inability to manage a time schedule, haha.. But yes, I’m so glad I’ve been given a chance to talk to her, maybe if time allows it, I won’t screw it up in getting to be her friend.

@clauseart [Twitter] [Webcomic]

Yes, my fellow british artist whom I constantly compare myself against to measure my self success and my constantly conclude my lack of value… ...That’s not a joke I really do do this. Enough about me, I’ve mentioned it before with a few.., or most.., artist here, met on DA and look at where they are now, this girl, this them, this BEAST, started out with a crazy pinwheel and appearing in almost every OCT (Original Character Tournament) you can think of and now, they have an amazing webcomic about an amazing buff ginger and a kid whom I dislike (I’m sorry, I just wanna punch him,). Also a DnD character who seems from a distance seems like the drunk aunt who hates her family children.., I dunno I know nothing about their character and I really should ask someone, but if I’m right I want a gold star. But regardless, I am so proud of them, their creativity and artistic skill seems to have nothing but skyrocketed since the end of the OCT era of our lives and the dawn of tumblr, not to mention the just general progression of their comics, which I will leave a link to and if you don’t read this super funny and amazingly well drawn comic I will.. I really want to say more about them, I do! Sadly, I consider myself a friend, but I dunno if I even have that right, our friendship was very, distant, not in a negative way, but more like someone you chat to in a tescos (For any curious americans think Walmart), and now, I feel like I’m just a one man cheer squad. And honestly, I am okay with that, I get to see them improve and feel proud for them and they have a wonderful life as it is, what's more to want?

@lou0 @hunnylou0 [Twitter]

Lou has been one of my longest…, acquaintances? Okay I’m not saying that Lou isn’t a friend, I mean, I consider her a friend, but I’ve known her since I rejoined DA under the name Clockworkable, since then she’s been a source Joy, laughter, inspiration and to some extent a free expression, but, I could never feel like I was her equal or at least a friend, we were never close, despite how I tried to be.., she’s a difficult person to talk to, which isn’t her fault! Nothing ever seems to go her way, which.. Pisses me off so much, because she’s just a nice, beautiful and kind person who just deserves nothing but affection and I’d love to give it to her, even if it’s just a hug. But I know it can be hard.. That said, I’ve gotten the chance to really talk to her, getting to know her, the true her and it’s as wonderful as you’d think it would be, she is a true expression of her art, joyful, cheeky, funny, playful and kind, sweet, brutally honest, but that’s never a bad thing in my books. I dunno even now if I’m a good friend to her, I dunno if she’d even think of me as one, but I am happy that I’m a little bit here for her, more than I was before, I just want to make her happy.

@sunshinedrago [twitter]

Don’t be friends with this woman, it starts off small like “Oh, would you like to play Final Fantasy XIV?” and then the next thing you know your talking to scottish fairies and questioning your life decisions. I met this crazy spanish.. “ITALIAN!” Italian woman about three.., maybe four years ago? I can’t even remember how we met, like I know we met because we needed someone for a DnD game, but I can’t recall if it was me she contacted or someone else, haha, I’m getting old. Either way it doesn’t matter, because I’m so happy that I did, she’s encouraging, kind, sympathetic, honest and joyful, but more importantly realistic and down to earth, this woman is not a pity party and has introduced me to some of the most important anime and shows I could imagine, as well as help fueled my addiction to some games, a few years back I’d never played an MMO and now look at me...a broken shell of my former self…, obsessing over loot drops and glamorous for a fictional 3D bunny girl…She’s also one of my more active and talkative friends, which helps with my crippling depression haha, I dunno what else to say, It’s not like there isn’t a lot to say, just that I’ve said it over and over again, she’s a great friend and someone I wish I knew sooner, she feels like a friend I’ve always had, but I only met three years ago. Yeah.

@jabbage [Twitter]

What can I say, Smart, dedicated, driven, focused, talented, learned and amazing… ...Yep…, not just saying that because I am terrible friend…, not another example of not staying in touch with people, made worse by the fact they live in england…, nope…, are you buying it yet? I want to talk about how they inspire me, how they fuel my motivation, but sadly I have to just slap myself and twitter, because GURL never appears on my dash, but just.., THEY’VE WRITTEN SO MANY STORIES! H-how! I just.., I can’t get one webcomic done, I am so proud of her because of this, I should just be able to say that, but I don’t want to, I mean I do, I am proud, but I always want to talk about them as a person, I wanna mention times they’ve made me laugh, made me smile, but there is only a fleeting moment in a minecraft server sometime ago and… I am so sorry, for being a bad friend, but you don’t really need me to enrich your life.., JUST LOOK AT ALL YOU’VE ACCOMPLISHED! You are so amazing, one woman army, just AAAAA, so great! I love it, I love you, keep being amazing!, don’t stop! Burn bright, burn far and burn hard! Go!

@flunafloon [Twitter]

I can’t say how much of a bad friend I am again.., please, she deserves better than me, here is the link to her Etsy store.

@daco-taco [Twitter]

God I have a bleeding heart.., I say because I don’t really know Daco, hell I dunno if I even register as ‘friend’, I’ve followed them since Deviantart and I loved their art, for the most part I was content to be just that and then…, I just saw them upset, and fuck me, haha. I hate that I hate people being in pain so much I dunno why it destroys the core of who I am.., so now I’m in a discord server, or trying to be, feeling constantly judge, because I want to make someone happy and I dunno if I am even doing the job. Haha, what does that say about me?

Charanty

I want to say a lot about charanty, I want to say we were great friends, I wanna say we talked from sunrise to sunset, I want to so badly.., dumb ideas we had, silly jokes we shared, moments of confusion, anger, tears.., bliss, regret.. But sadly I can’t, not that I don’t like them, no no, Charanty is amazing, but like something truly amazing, they are never around all the time, which sucks, because they are truly amazing, creative, beautiful in their mannerisms and perfect in their imperfection. I wish I could enjoy them more often.

ChubbuChu

I have many friends whom I want to be happy, Chubbu probably more than anything and sometimes I blame myself for their sadness, I know I am not the root cause, but I can still blame myself for moments of silence, moments of stupidity and overall not trying harder. Chubbu is.., affectionately irrational and down to earth, the best of times they are infectiously fun to provoke, play with and tease, while at the same time being caring and hopeful, I’ve only had the pleasure of knowing them for this year and even still it feels like I’ve known them longer, but I can’t wait to get to know them more as time goes on, I hope I do, I wish I do.

@hypertronic [Twitter]

Hyper…, Hyper.., “Your a terrible friend again aren’t you?” I mean.., YES, okay so Hyper started off as someone who was a fan of one my characters and since then I’ve had the pleasure of being taken out of the limelight and watching them grow into an amazing artist and COMIC CREATOR, AAAAA, so Park Of Plutonia, Hyper’s comic was a silly little RP group that was on DA, but look at it now! The amazing world she had hidden away in her head, now for you to read and I really recommend you go read it, especially if you want something different and unique, I really want to say more than just ‘go check out her comic’, I really do.

Mon

-breaths- “You were a bad friend again” GOD DAMMIT, YES! You know the saying never meet you idols! Because all you will do is upset them and make them judge you, HAHAHHA, SO! I became aware of Mon thanks to a small show I’m pretty sure NO ONE has heard of called Critical Role, they drew fanart for it quite regularly and I loved it! I even commented on their stuff from time and time, but there wasn’t much to it. Then I had a friend drag me into the world of FFXIV and to my surprise I met Mon…, after like a week or ten before I realised who she was, how would you describe Mon as a person? Like a rabbit doped up on sugar and caffeine, especially when she’s tired, cause then it’s like x2, what I’m saying is Mon is excitable and positive, which sadly doesn’t really gel well with my down to earth, grumpy I hate everything because I can’t act cute attitude that I’ve cultivated. So despite how much you’d think we are friends and how amazing and creative she is, we clash a lot, and honestly I feel like I am just WAITING for the moment, where she declares she has had enough of me and just throws me out of the friendship circle, because…, I know that not all people gel and sadly as much as I want to, I feel like I’m bringing her nothing but pain and I don’t want to do that, she’s creative and amazing, as well as so positive, she doesn’t need someone like me hurting her all the time.

@spookydraws, @spesiria, @totalobelisk, @ssksscrapboard, @horrorjuice, @riyamilea

“More friend’s you have trouble staying in contact with?” Mmm.. “Amazing wonderful people who you’d love to talk to for days on end, but you are always just too busy for them, too involved in yourself to even say hi?” Yeah.. “Are they even your friends anymore? Are you worth anything to them, I think at this point you should do them a favour and unfollow them, because in the schemes of their lives you aren’t exactly making an impact are you? If anything you slow them down, maybe you are just slowing everyone down? How many more of you ‘friends’ are going to be added to a stockpile of names you can just gush over, because you don’t know them as people anymore, they don’t impact your life and they probably haven’t had a second thought about them?” …, I just think they are amazing people who need to be recongised for how talented and beautiful they are, life is hard and the voices in our heads can be fucking disgusting to us, so everyone just needs a moment, a person to just hug them and them, I love you, I dunno if you even know me but you are so important, don’t forget how important you are and just how meaningful you are, I’m probably just a stranger to you, but you have never for one second not been important to me in some way, I hope you are happy and that you live every second of your life knowing that you are loved by atleast one person. Cause in the end, that’s all we really want isn’t it, we just want someone to tell us that they love us, that we mean something to them, that we are important.

@phantomdotexe [Twitter]

The living definition of too kind for her own good, it’s both your best quality and your worst quality. An amazing talented person who’s managed to influence a small cults worth of people under the ideal of one uniform symbol and then gets upset how she hasn’t done anything with it. I love you to bits, your drive, your kind nature, but at the same time I worry for you, you have so many self defeating thoughts and worries, all stemming from your lack of respect for your own skill and your ability to try and please everyone at once, which can especially be seen with the ‘everyones opinion is valid’ If you made short stories based on your vision or merch, you’d make money in no time, but as it might contradict with someone else's, you don’t. Now I know this is meant to be a ‘I love my friends’ thing, but the truth is I do, I love you so much, but at the same time I have to tell you, you need to stop fretting, you always worried about other people, asking when they are going to bed and such, but then you are equally as bad of the same thing, burning the candle at both ends, rather than trying to resolve any of your problems. As someone who cares, let other people worry and focus on yourself, see you strengths for what they really are and go and make bank.

Plasma-Dragon

Only had the pleasure to speak to you twice on live streams, mostly knew you for your art, I dunno what I can really say? Here, you’re a new friend and I can’t wait to get to know you more… Man this was short.., fuck.., I really wanted to say something else…, uh.. .. .... ....shit

Lady Violi

Man, I wish I drew more personal projects like you did, haha, Okay so, a bit of honesty, when I first saw you on DA I have to be frank and say I didn’t think much of your art back then, but I am so happy to see not only was I proben wrong, but your art had grown incredibly sicne there, no just in scale and scope, but in detail, colour, it’s fantastic, is there places it could use improvement, yeah, but no one is perfect, but that’s enough about you creatively, what about you the person!

Well like I said I didn’t think much at first, but as time went on I became a little intimadated by you, probably cause of my own guilt more than anything else, but, doesn’t really matter, I’m just happy we actually talked, because discussing things with you is always a high light of my day, I’m so eager when your online because have such a nice easy and approach manner of conversation that’s infectious to me, and I love it.

And the best part! It’s only been a year since we started talking, I’m so excited how we’ll grow in friendship as time goes on, I know it’ll be worth it!

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And.., that’s it, If you actually read through all of these and not just your own, I’d be surpruised, but I’m happy I wrote this, even if my arm hurts, things needed to be said, apologises needed to be made and love needed to be shared, thank you all.

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I want to know all the answers from your 100 question meme

Something you find romantic? Answer whichever #'s you feel comfortable answering; I want to know all your inner musings 😝

cat why do you do this to me

i’ll be sticking them below a readmore, then!

1. Is a kiss considered cheating? Yes! Unless you’ve communicated with your partner that it’s okay.

2. Have you ever faked an orgasm? Nope

3. If you could have one superpower, what would it be? Hmmm this is a really hard decision. I usually say telepathy, but I like shapeshifting, too. I loved the Animorphs books as a kid, even though I didn’t read them all.

4. Do you think you are going to be rich in 7-8-9 years? Monetarily? Nah. But I like to think I’ll still have strong, rich friendships and I think I’ll have enough money to live comfortably alone.

5. Tell us some funny drunk story. I just don’t really have one rip. Drunk people are hilarious but normally I’m the DD. I’ve got several pleasant stories, though! There was a time me and my best friend went to a pub and drank cider and played board games and video games until closing time. Afterwards we stopped at an Insomnia cookies, a storm caused the electricity to go out, and we got a half dozen cookies for free. (well, I felt guilty, so I left them a very large tip.)

6. Why are you no longer together with your ex? I was going through college, it was long distance, and I felt he deserved better. We keep in touch, though.

7. If you had to choose one way to die, what would it be? Well, painlessly, of old age, in my sleep, of course. But if that’s not an option, out of all the ways of dying, freezing to death seems the most humane. You just get tired, cold, and sleepy, and then you just...don’t wake up.

8. What are your current goals? Graduate, mostly. Long-term I’d like to live with friends in a big house and my cat, and have enough free time to garden and craft at my leisure, and have the ability to travel wherever I’d like. I’d like to work on a game or movie I’m really passionate about, and I’d love to become a director someday.

9. Do you like someone? I mean, I like a lot of people, but I assume this means romantically. So, kind of? I find a lot of people attractive and have a ‘if they wanted to date I’d be down’ feeling, but I don’t have serious feelings for anybody specific.

10. Who was the last person to disappoint you? Hmmm I have a terrible memory. Myself, perhaps? I have a really hard time with getting up when my alarms go off. Sleep inertia’s a big problem for me. This has led to me being late to classes and rushing to get ready, which is stressful.

11. Do you like your body? Ehhhh. I guess. It could be improved, like by not having health issues.

12. Can you keep a diet? Ha! No.

13. If the whole world listened to you right now, what would you say? I hope you have a wonderful day. The universe doesn’t care about us so be excellent to each other!

14. Do you work? Constantly, every day. I work to learn new things, accomplish school assignments, make money, feed myself...All my life is is working, right now.

15. If you could choose only one food to eat to the rest of your life, what would it be? Salad! Because anything can be a salad. Tuna salad, fruit salad, salad with salmon...

16. Would you get a tattoo? Oh, absolutely. The only reason I don’t have any is because of money. I have like five small ideas and one very large one that i’d like across my back.

17. Something you don’t mind spending all your money on? Food, my family, and my friends.

18. Can you drive? Yes. Do I have a license? No.

19. When was the last time someone told you you were beautiful? Probably sometime in the past month by my mother, but she’s just about the only person who does.

20. What was the last thing you cried for? asdfjal;ksdjfs it was Treasure Planet. Jim and Silver’s relationship is just [clutches chest] so beautiful.

21. Do you keep a journal? Sort of, sporadically.

22. Is life fun? Yes!

23. Is farting in front of people irrelevant? I mean, I prefer you excuse yourself, but more or less yeah.

24. What’s your dream car? My sib got this really nice Prius used at a good price, and it has a lot of room and it’s a hybrid, so Nice. I don’t tend to pay much attention to cars, as long as they’re comfortable and low-waste.

25. Are grades in school important? I admit that they’re important to me, but that’s something I have to unlearn. My worth isn’t determined by other people.

26. Describe your crush. Ugh. I’m bi, guys. I get crushes on people all the time, every day. Saw this really pretty redhead in the cafeteria over a month ago, and I saw her again yesterday. She’s a couple inches taller than me and has really pretty curly hair, but I didn’t really, like, stare, so I couldn’t describe her face well past ‘cute nose’.

27. What was the last book/movie that really impressed you? Nothing jumps to mind. I guess I’m still falling over myself after seeing Mad Max back in like 2015, that was just the coolest experience ever. I find delight in just about every movie I watch, though. The second Jumanji-sequels movie was just as fun and amazing as the first. Klaus was just incredible in so many ways.

28. What was your last lie? I...really just do not remember. Probably telling myself “I’m gonna do my laundry today” a few days ago? Whereas I DID do my laundry today so HA

29. Dumbest lie you ever told? I saved this question for last and it’s late and I honestly can’t remember anything, asdjls sorry. My memory’s awful y’all.

30. Is crying in front of people embarrassing? Oh absolutely. I mean it wouldn’t be if they weren’t uncomfortable with it, but they always are.

31. Something you did and you are proud of? I did my laundry today? washed dried folded and everything. I also braved the nighttime neighborhood around my school to solo a Pokemon raid, which was cool. I’m proud of my animation done at the end of the last semester, and of how my teddy bear modelling is doing this week.

32. What’s your favourite cocktail? How am I supposed to choose this? How can you ask me to choose this? I’d have to line them all up and try one by one, honestly, before I could tell you.

33. Something you are good at? I’m pretty good at drawing anatomy and expressions, I think. I’m good at baking/cooking, although I lack creativity in the kitchen. I also think I’m a pretty good listener, and a good friend?

34. Do you like small kids? Most of the time!

35. How are you feeling right now? Frankly, a little drained with all these questions, but determined to finish them. I’m a little hungry. I’ve got a lot on my mind, and wish I was doing homework, but I also can’t get myself to do it right now.

36. What would you name your daughter/son? Not sure! Every once in a while I’ll be like “ooh, that’d be a great name” and then don’t remember to write it down. Besides, I plan on adopting, and most kiddos already have names.

37. What do you need to be happy? Money, friends, family, good food, and a place to explore.

38. Is there some you want to punch in the face right now? Not particularly. No one other than, well. The rich people I’m pretty sure everyone knows I dislike.

39. What was the last gift you received? Well, anything my mom cooks for me is a gift, but the last Proper gift was from my friend @ wefflebugs , who got me a blu-ray copy of Into the Spiderverse and some coffee for Christmas c:

40. What was the last gift you gave? I gave my sibling @ aconfusedbird a keychain of one of the two Bubble Bobble dragons and kept the other for myself, for their birthday. Handmade from Perler beads. We’d play that game for ages as kids, and we always fought over who’d be the blue one.

41. What was the last concert you went to? I think it was The Shins? They were so awesome!

42. Favourite place to shop at? Well, I quite like Target. But I also adore small resale shops. They always have some really awesome things hiding there.

43. Who inspires you? Oogh, a lot of people. Like a million and a half artists I’ve met online, ones I only know their screenname for, inspire me to get better at art. James Baxter and Sergio Pablos inspire me to get better at animation. Wefflebugs’ art always has such lovely colors, which I adore. featherdragon15′s art has gotten a lot better lately, and that inspires me to keep working hard too! Not to mention they’re working for nasa which is rad af, and also inspires me to keep working toward my dreams. My sibling aconfusedbird inspires me a Lot in a lot of personal ways, like to be more kind to myself and to keep moving forward. My mom inspires me to keep gardening. roachpatrol/roach-works inspired me to get into welding, lizardlicks inspired me into wanting chickens and a small homestead. My teachers inspire me to keep working hard in school.

44. How old were you when you first got drunk? 19, I think? I’ve only gotten properly drunk once. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to eat another boiled peanut, but other than that it wasn’t a problem lol.

45. How old were you when you first got high? I haven’t, actually. I don’t have a reason not to or anything, but it’s just never felt like the right vibe yanno?

46. How old were you when you first had sex? I guess it really depends on your definition. Personally, I’d say I haven’t yet.

47. When was your first kiss? Well, I played spin the bottle when I was seventeen, which was technically my first kiss, but if that doesn’t count then it was about a week before I turned eighteen, and I kissed the guy who’d become my first boyfriend.

48. Something you want to do until the end of this year? Play video games....I wish I had infinite time to play video games and watch movies and draw and just...enjoy my time on earth, you know? Without feeling like it had a deadline.

49. Is there something in the past you wish you hadn’t done? I try not to live with regrets.

(50 is ‘post a selfie’ but im on a computer)

51. Who are you most comfortable around? Either aconfusedbird or featherdragon15, i think.

52. Name one thing that terrifies you. asdkfjal;sdf i’ve been listening to too much magnus archives and got recommended to ‘not be too scared of one thing’ if i want to avoid the creatures, so uh. hard to decide. I guess I’m scared of...hm. people who just lack the ability to create bonds with people? people who don’t care about other living things. humans can be fucking terrifying.

53. What kind of books do you read? Oh, just about anything. Fantasy, realistic fiction, romance, mysteries, thrillers, scifi...all are great. I didn’t used to enjoy nonfiction but it really depends on the nonfiction.

54. What would you tell your 12 year old self? You’re going to have a best friend someday, and it will be everything you wanted. Things with your mother will improve when you’re in your last few years of high school. You’re going to become a great artist.

55. What is your favourite flower? Not sure! I like many. There was this one flower i found in high school that smelled incredible, but I’ve no idea what it was. I should find it again.

56. Any bad habits you have? ...Well. Not waking up when my alarm goes off is pretty annoying. My procrastination in general’s frustrating. And, well, just between you, me, and the rest of the internet, (tw: self harm) my trichotillomania causes me constant distress and anxiety.

57. What kind of people are you attracted to? People who want to learn new things, are kind and compassionate, respect me, and have a good sense of humor. Someone I can be adventurous with.

58. What was the last thing you cried for? Well, i answered a similar question earlier, so I’ll answer for the second most recent time I cried. I was in Pennsylvania, the day I had to fly home, and when I went to check in for my flight, all the seats were taken, and I needed to pay for an upgrade if I wanted to guarantee a spot on the flight. This wouldn’t be a huge problem, except that for both of my flights to get home, an upgrade cost $70. And seventy dollars was a big chunk out of my budget for, you know, food. So I cried out of stress and frustration with the airport companies for charging me seventy bucks for ten more inches of legroom that I didn’t want nor need.

59. Is there something you don’t eat? Some food that truly disgust you? Not really! In terms of what’s normally accepted as “food” in American society, that is. I don’t care much for worms or insects. Other than that, I’m interested enough to try almost anything once.

60. Are you in love? In love? No. Am I full of love? Yes, for many, many, many things.

61. Something you find romantic? Oh man, anything could be romantic if done by someone I care for. I think gentleness is romantic. Quality time is my love language, so if my partner cancelled plans to spend time with me, that’d be romantic. I find romance in trying new things and going to new places.

62. How long was your longest relationship? Four months or so. It’s the only relationship I’ve been in, though, and I hadn’t intended for it to go past summer, so that was longer than I’d even planned on haha.

63, 64. What are 3 things that irritate you about the same sex? Opposite sex? Uhhh kind of hard to answer this one. I mean, i hate the culture in which men are raised to be, but I’ve heard that ‘male’ and ‘female’ brains aren’t particularly predisposed to anything in particular? Like, both men and women are capable of emotional intelligence and compassion, it’s just that our culture doesn’t encourage it in men.

65. What are you saving money for? Food, college. I might treat myself to a school trip to Disney, but I don’t think I have the budget rn. As a student I’m kind of coasting by on the bare minimum rn, I don’t have anything i CAN save up for.

66. How would you describe your bad side? I mostly just avoid you or try to not spend time with you.

67. Are you actually a good person? Why? I think I am. I care about other people and try to make other people’s lives easier and happier. I try every day to become more sensitive to other perspectives. I do what I can to benefit the earth for those who will come after me.

68. What are you living for? Ooh, deep stuff. I’m living for helping other people. I’m living for my friends and family.

69 (nice). Have you ever done anything illegal? Pfft, guys, jaywalking is illegal. So yes. I’ve also drank while underage before. But nothing really big, no.

70. Do you like your body? Wait a second. This was number 11, too. Well, I guess I’ll change it to What don’t you like about your body? Which is my under-chin. It’s kind of a double chin, kind of not. But while most things I could change about my body, I don’t think I could change that without surgery. And yeah, I’ve thought about it. Not that I have any of the cash for it. I also wish I didn’t have (tw: self-harm) trichotillomania, so I’d have more eyelashes and eyebrows.

71. Have you ever made someone feel bad about themselves intentionally? I think I probably have, to douchebags. Like “hey, that’s inappropriate”.

72. Ever sent nudes? Nope!

73. Have you ever cheated on someone? God, no. Big #1 no no for me.

74. Favourite candy? I RECENTLY DISCOVERED TAKE 5′S AND REESES HAVE COMBINED INTO ONE GLORIOUS CANDY BAR, SO, THAT.

75. Is there a blog you visit every day, or almost every day? Tag it! Agh, okay. @ aconfusedbird, @ busket, @ loreweaver-universe, @ orange-plum. The four blogs I don’t actually follow, but whose blogs I visit every day. It changes around every few years. It used to be a different bunch back when I first got on tumblr. I really have no idea why I haven’t followed them. Habit, I suppose? Also, it still won’t let me tag my sib for some reason. (nvm I removed the tags, i don’t want to bother them)

76. Do you play any computer games? What is your favourite game? lmao uh, that’s kind of an understatement. I can’t list all my favorite games, but I’m very fond of The Last of Us. I have played. So many video games. I’ll chat about them anytime!

77. Favourite TV series? Avatar: The Last Airbender, I think. It’s really hard to top that.

78. Are you religious? Does God exist? Not really religious, no. I do think that there’s probably a god out there that sparked the Big Bang. I don’t really follow the Christian God because despite what every church service said, I never felt like He loved me. Jesus was a super cool guy, though. If there’s a god out there, I think they pretty much keep to themselves. Maybe have some fun watching creation, but don’t really interact with it at all.

79. What was the last book you read? Did it impress you and why? asdkfj;as i don’t remember. probably my textbook Directing the Story by Francis Glebas? It was a pretty cool book about moviemaking.

80. What do you think about vegetarianism/veganism? I’ve reblogged a lot on the subject. I respect those who practice it, but it can cause a lot of environmental harm. In theory, it’s not bad!

81. How long have you been on Tumblr? Like eight years or so? Maybe nine? wild. I visited blogs daily before the number got high enough i was like ‘okay i’ll just make an account’.

82. Do you like Chinese food? Oh, yes!

83-85. McDonalds or Subway? Vodka or whiskey? Alcohol or drugs? Subway, whiskey and alcohol.

86. Ever been out of your province/state/country? Yes, yes, and no!

87. Meaning behind your blog name? I’ve had this one for many years now. I really like the word ‘saccharine’ -- inspired by @ saccharinesylph back in the old days -- and i couldn’t just name myself ‘saccharine’, so i needed something else. and I was pretty big into Good Omens at that time, and I was like ‘haha! saccharine, good, omens. saccharine omens!’ Plus, it feels like a very positive and comforting name, and I strive to be a comforting person.

88. What are you scared of? ok i def answered this moving on

89. Last time you were insulted? uhhhhhhhhh no idea. oh, wait! i know. i was getting graded on my performance at my job late last year and i disagreed with the grade my boss gave me. It was like ‘person shows considerable care of their community and goes above and beyond to educate others’ and i was like ‘oh yeah that’s, like, my whole Thing, my whole Goals and Personality and Ideals’ and then my boss came in and was like ‘2/4′ and i was like ‘wtf??’ Apparently she felt that i just wasn’t really applying that part of myself to my job, and i was like ‘you serious? i’m doing a lot!’ but also she’s my boss.

90. Most traumatic experience? A series of emotionally/mentally abusive things my mom did during my childhood. It’s definitely had the longest lasting effects of any trauma. Permanent anxiety problems, ptsd, my self harm, the whole shebang. Don’t worry, though, like. Things are way better between us, and she’s apologized many times.

91. Perfect date idea? Going on a hike! Maybe walking on a beach. Just spending time together and talking. Eating some delicious food. Spending the entire day with each other, then curling up and cuddling at home and watching a movie. then talking some more. lots of handholding and kisses. im a super hopeless romantic.

92. Favourite app on your phone? the internet, ofc lmao. But other than that I use Animal Crossing Pocket Camp and Pokemon Go an awful lot.

93. What colour are the walls in your room? At school a boring white, although I’ve taped some art up. At home a really pretty light blue color that I did all myself.

94. Do you watch Youtube? Who is your favourite youtuber? I do! And I like so many channels, honestly. I really like Rachel and Jun, and I really like Pop Culture Detective. I’ve seen a lot of jackscepticeye’s stuff, too. Proko, Vox, and Sinix Design are all good too.

95. Share your favourite quote. “Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don’t matter.” -Dr Seuss

96. What is the meaning of life? To be happy, enjoy yourself, and love others!

97. Do you like horror movies? Ha ha ha, not really. I liked A Quiet Place though.

98. Have you ever made your mum cry? What happened? She’s cried sometimes over how she treated us in the past. Sometimes it happens because I talk about how she’s hurt me. She always expresses regret and apologizes again.

99. Do you feel lucky or special in a way? I feel lucky with how I met my best friend. We’d had band together and kind of both thought each other as a cool person, but we didn’t really hit it off until a couple years later and she saw me drawing Homestuck fanart in Psychology lmao. The rest is history. Love you so much, Haley. I feel lucky my mom realized she was being abusive and stopped, too. Not everyone gets that.

100. Can you keep a secret? Oh, definitely. But do tell me what needs to be secret, otherwise I won’t know. For example, my sib asked me to keep their gf busy while they bought her a present, so I tried, but then she was like ‘oh, where’s your sibling? we should find them’ i was like ‘oh no, i think they’re just buying something, it’s fine’ but she was stubbornly moving toward the checkout and i was like ‘stop, i think they’re buying something for you’ so i. kinda told a secret? i didn’t tell her what the present was though.

JESUS THAT WAS A LOT OF TYPING, LMAO. IT’S THREE AM. GOODNIGHT

#axbox #omishu #about me

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Last Days of a Meat Puppet Chapter 5 - Epilogue - END

Me and My Family

by Ryan Lester Papadopoulos

Hi! My name’s Ryan Lester Papadopoulos (obviously, I just wrote that) and I’m ten years old. I’ve got blue eyes like my Mum and curly hair like her too, but my smile comes from my Dad. I’ve got blond hair, which is a little weird ‘cause both my parents have brown hair. They said it must be a recessive trait and I’d learn more about what that means in a few years.

As for what I like to do - um, well I like playing Mario Kart. My oldest brother Cameron (well second-oldest technically, I’ll go into that later) is REALLY good at it. I’ve never beaten him at it. I’m getting closer though! I’m still MILES away from beating Mum. She smokes Cameron at it most of the time, so I stand NO chance of beating her. Cameron said that when I get a bit better at the game, we should team up and take her down together. I’m looking forwards to that, I want to wipe that smirk off her face so badly!

Cameron’s a lot older than me - about sixteen years older in fact. He’s actually adopted, which he apparently tried to use as an excuse to get out of chores when he was younger. I don’t know why he thought that would work ‘cause it never did. He’s better at getting chores done now that he’s an adult, but his apartment still isn’t the cleanest thing in the world.

I also like archery and singing. I know archery’s kinda an unusual thing to try, but Uncle Ollie let me try it out. I was REALLY good at it, like I managed to get a bullseye at 100 feet after only a week of practicing. Uncle Ollie’s an expert at archery, so he’s been teaching me twice a week. He says I’m so good I might even get into the Olympics someday!

Oh yeah, Uncle Ollie’s not TECHNICALLY my uncle, we just call him that. He just kinda started coming around shortly before I was born. I think Mum wanted to adopt him into the family, but since he already has parents (though his dad sucks from what little I’ve heard about him), he just kinda became an uncle.

Uncle Ollie’s also given me some singing lessons. His voice is MAGICAL, you just can’t stop listening when he’s singing! My voice isn’t quite as nice as his, but I’m getting better and I DESTROY at karaoke.

Sometimes he gets this weird look when looking at me though, like I remind him of someone. He just smiles at me fondly whenever I catch him doing it.

I think I remind him of my technically oldest brother - I mentioned this earlier when talking about Cameron, remember? - Lester. He disappeared about twelve years ago, two years before I was born. No one knows what happened to him. He just vanished from our house one day without a trace. My whole family was completely devastated. He was declared dead a year later. Uncle Ollie came to be a part of our family around then. Apparently he knew Lester from... somewhere. I’ve never gotten solid answers on that actually. But Ollie vowed to always be there for us.

Lester was a lot like me from what my family have said. I look a lot like he did at my age, except my hair’s blond. He was a GREAT older brother. He gave some of my other siblings piggyback rides and played pretend with them, read them bedtime stories, and just generally looked after them. He and Cameron were really close too, probably because they were close in age. He was only two years older than Cameron. Apparently he and Cameron were even able to team up and end Mum’s reign of terror in Mario Kart - temporarily at least. I hope Cameron and I can do the same thing.

I wish I could’ve met him. He sounds really awesome. Even though I’ve never gotten to meet him I feel weirdly connected to him. Maybe it’s because my parents gave me his name as a middle name, maybe it’s because I’ve grown up hearing all about him, but I feel like I knew him really, really well. Like I hear stories about something involving him, and I can picture EXACTLY what happened. It’s always from Lester’s perspective weirdly, which kinda gets disorienting since I’m not as tall as him - not yet anyway. I’m getting there!

Ollie’s not the only one who acts weirdly around me sometimes. Cameron sometimes gives me these weird fond sidelong glances when he thinks I’m not looking, and Dad does too. I asked Mum about it once, when SHE gave me a similar weird look. She smiled at me mysteriously and told me something her own mother had told her: that whatever you lost, no matter what you lost, would always turn up one way or another. Often when you least expect it.

I asked her whether that applied to Lester too. And she said yes, even for him. I felt like I should know what she was talking about...

Let’s see, I’ve listed Mum, Dad, Cameron, Lester, Ollie- oh! I haven’t mentioned my other three siblings yet!

So I’ve got three more siblings - Katie, Tyrone, and Tyler.

Katie just turned eighteen a few months ago. She’s actually at college now. We all videochat with her several times a week. I miss her. She used to read bedtime stories to me when I was younger, after Cameron moved out but before I could read complicated stories on my own.

She’s also a great singer and dancer. She’s the one who introduced me to karaoke. I don’t think she expected me to be as good at singing as I am, but she’s not complaining! Sometimes she dances to songs I sing. It’s a lot of fun!

Tyrone and Tyler are both twins and the resident troublemakers. They’re both sixteen, six years older than me, but Mum often says I’m more mature than them. I can definitely see that. They’ve snuck around and played pranks before, and I have to be the mature one and stop them - mostly I miiiight have helped them once or twice. (They bribed me with Pokemon cards).

I don’t get the same sidelong glances from Katie, Tyrone, and Tyler as I do from the rest of my family. I think it’s because they don’t remember Lester as well, and I’m pretty sure he has something to do with it? It’s kinda sad actually. They loved Lester so much, but their memory of him is getting fainter with every year. Tyrone and Tyler have an especially hard time remembering him. They were only four years old when he went missing and their memories of that age are pretty faint. Katie’s not much better. She was six so her memories are a LITTLE clearer, but not by much.

I found the three of them a couple years ago huddling in my bedroom (it used to be Lester’s, but was revamped for me once I got old enough to sleep by myself). They were crying over an old family photo - the last one taken before Lester disappeared. I asked them if they were crying because they missed Lester, and they told me that was the problem. They DIDN’T miss him. Not like they should. That there should feel like there was a hole in the family, an empty place where he used to be, and there just... wasn’t. That it felt like our family was complete, and had been for a long time. Like there wasn’t someone missing, someone they’d loved with all their hearts.

I couldn’t say I knew what they were going through. I didn’t and I still don’t. I never knew Lester, however much I wish I did. From my perception, our family has ALWAYS been whole, just with the shadow of a long-gone loved one in the background. But I knew that they shouldn’t feel bad.

I hugged all three of them and told them that Lester wouldn’t want them to be sad. That he’d be happy that they’d moved on with their lives and were happy. That they had nothing to feel guilty for.

Maybe it should have felt weird to put words in the mouth of someone I’d never met, but in that moment, I was absolutely certain I was right about what he’d say. I’m still certain.

They all hugged me back and cried for a bit, then thanked me. We’ve only talked about that day a handful of times since then, but I have a feeling it’ll be seared into their memories like it was seared into mine.

So that’s my family! I don’t know what I’d do without them, and I hope I never have to find out.

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So if it wasn't completely, blatantly obvious, Lester was pretty much immediately reborn back into his own family. The Fates pretty much looked at Lester's situation and went 'yeah he doesn't deserve this much pain and misery, let's throw him a bone.'

I put in a reference to Baguette_Me_Not's own Papadopoulos Fam AU story, The Sun Can't Shine Without Darkness. https://archiveofourown.org/works/18227948/chapters/43126244 . It fit the theme of this chapter very well.

Oh, and just to be clear, Lester's Apollo-ish traits are NOT from being Apollo's son. He's Susan and Thomas's son through and through. When he did that merging thing with Apollo some of Apollo's essence kinda stuck to him, making him functionally similar to a demigod, even though he technically is just a clear-sighted mortal.

Susan, Thomas, Apollo, and Cameron figured out a long time ago that Ryan is Lester reborn. Katie, Tyler, and Tyrone have no idea.

Hope you all enjoyed the story! I'm a complete SUCKER for a happy ending, so while I might be cruel to Lester, I wasn't going to leave him in such a tragic situation permanently. The sweet cinnamon roll child deserves happiness!

#papadopoulos fam au #lester papadopoulos #trials of apollo #Last Days of a Meat Puppet #fanfiction #toa

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1 THROUGH 55 AND 1 THROUGH 30 GO GO GO

LETS FUCKIN GO

tumblr please actually make this a keep reading

55 interesting questions you should drop in someone’s inbox

1. If you didn’t have to sleep, what would you do with the extra time?

I ALREADY WATCH NETFLIX AND AGONIZE OVER MY STORY

2. What’s your favorite piece of clothing you’ve own/owned?

MY JACKETS. ANY CHEST OBSCURING, BROAD SHOULDERED, COZY JACKET

3. What hobbies would you get into if time and money wasn’t an issue?

DANCING, ID NEED TO GO TO CLASSES OR SOMETHING

4. What would your perfect room look like?

IM ACTUALLY PRETTY HAPPY WITH MY ROOM BUT IVE ALWAYS WANTED A LAVA LAMP, AND 1800 MORE PLANTS COULDNT HURT

5. Do you play sports?

6. What fiction place would you love to go to?

SINNOH REGION

7. What Job would you be terrible at?

DEBT COLLECTION. I WOULD BE GIVING SHIT TO PEOPLE FOR FREE. I COULDNT BEAR BEING ENCOURAGED TO FORCE PEOPLE WHO CANT PAY FOR SOMETHING TO PAY MORE

8. If you could turn any activity into an Olympic sport, what would it be?

SERVING. HOW MANY PLATES CAN YOU CARRY AT ONCE

9. What’s the most annoy habit other people have?

WALKING IN MY SPACE BUBBLE WHEN MY SENSES ARE OVERLOADED

10. What skill would you like to master?

A SECOND LANGUAGE

11. What would be the most amazing adventure to go on?

THE ONE FROM MY DREAM WHERE I KISSED A GIRL DYED MY HAIR BLUE AND WE ELOPED TO BRAZIL TO RAISE SHEEP

12. What’s your favorite drink ?

THAT CHRISTMAS SHIT. PEPPERMINT MOCHA AT STARBUCKS. A FRIEND GOT IT FOR ME ONCE. NOW I ORDER IT A BILLION TIMES.

13. What state or country would you never like to go back to?

I HAVE NOT TRAVELLED MUCH EVER

14. What songs do you have completely memorized?

I DONT REMEMBER LYRICS SO MUCH, BUT I COULD PROBABLY REMEMBER HOW MANY SONGS GO COMPLETELY

15. Are you usually early or late?

LATE. IM GETTING BETTER THOUGH

16. What takes up too much of your time?

GETTING OUT OF BED

17. What do you wish you knew more about?

SWORDS

18. What are some small things that make your day better?

COFFEE. SOMEONE SAYING SOMETHING NICE TO ME.

19. What TV channel doesn’t exist but really should?

QUEER EYE BUT BY TRANS PEOPLE FOR TRANS PEOPLE

20. Who has impressed you the most with what they’ve accomplished?

YOU. AND ME. ITS GROWTH

21. What age do you wish you can permanently be?

21, SO I HAVE TIME TO FIGURE OUT WHAT THE FUCKS GOING ON

22. What TV show or movie do you refuse to watch?

13 REASONS, THE BOOK WAS TRIGGERING SO I WONT RISK IT

23. What would be your ideal way to spend you weekend?

TAKING A WALK, HAVING COFFEE, WATERING PLANTS… IM HAPPY

24. What’s something in your life that’s considered a luxury?

I HAVE PERFUME...

25. Is there anything you’re too young/old for?

TO YOUNG TO NEVER DRINK. TOO OLD FOR POKEMON

26. What’s your favorite genre book or movie?

I DONT HAVE THE ATTENTION SPAN FOR EITHER BUT I SEEM TO LIKE URBAN FANTASY A LOT

27. How often do you people watch?

I THINK IM SO POLITE BUT HONESTLY, I QUIETLY SCRUTINIZE SO MANY PEOPLE ON THE TRAIN EVERY DAY AND GUESS AT THEIR PERSONAL HABITS AND SELF IMAGE.

28. What’s the best single day on the calendar?

MY BIRTHDAY, SAGITTARIUS SEASON RULES BABY

29. What are you interested in that most people haven’t heard of?

I DONT KNOW ABOUT ANYTHING PPL HAVENT HEARD OF BUT IM INTERESTED IN BLACK HOLES

30. Do you relax after a hard day?

FOOD. NETFLIX. DECOMPOSING ON TUMBLR

31. What’s the best book or series you’ve ever read?

I HAVENT READ A BOOK I REALLY LOVE IN AGES. HARRY POTTER AND ARTEMIS FOWL WERE MY FAVOURITES GROWING UP, BUT CORNELIA FUNKES BOOKS SLAPPED AND HIS DARK MATERIALS WAS GORGEOUS

32. Where’s the farthest you’ve ever been from home?

IDAHO?

33. What’s the most heart warming thing you’ve ever seen?

LUCIFER WAS LIKE YOU DESERVE SOMEONE WHO CARES ABOUT YOUR BORING MIDDLE NAME JANE AND KNOWS THAT EVERY MURDER BREAKS YOUR HEART AND YOU SIMPLY DESERVE BETTER SO NO MORE MOMENTS WHILE THEYRE HAVING A MOMENT AND CHLOE IS WATCHING THIS FUCKING IDIOT AND IVE WATCHED THIS BEFORE SO I KNOW SHES GONNA KISS HIM AND THEN THEY KISS

34. What’s the most annoying question that people ask you?

ANY SMALL TALK QUESTIONS

35. Would you give a 40 minute presentation with no preparation?

YES. ID MAKE THAT SHIT RIGHT UP. SKILLS

36. What’s something you think everyone should do at least once in their lives?

GIVE ME A HUG AND SOME CHOCOLATE

37. Would you rather go Hand Gliding or Whitewater rafting?

HANG GLIDING

38. Dream car?

SOMETHING I DONT HAVE TO WORRY WILL FALL INTO PIECES AT ANY MOMENT

39. What’s something so many people are obsessed with and you just don’t understand why?

STRAIGHT LOVE SONGS

40. What are you most looking forward to in 10 years from now?

HAVING A CAT

41. What’s something you’ve been meaning to try but haven’t gotten to it?

DECORATING THE DOLLHOUSE I RESCUED FROM THE BATHROOM

42. What’s the best thing that’s happened to you all week?

IM NOT VERY FAR THROUGH THE WEEK AND I HAVENT ENJOYED MOST OF IT BUT PEOPLE SAYING ADORABLE THINGS

43. How different was your life one year ago?

NOT A LOT DIFFERENT, IM JUST LONELY IN THE CITY NOW, MINUS A TOXIC RELATIONSHIP, ONE YEAR ON T

44. What/who would you rate 10/10?

MY CACTUS JAKEN. I DROPPED HIM SO MANY TIMES AN ENTIRE HALF OF HIS SPIKES ARE FLAT SCARS. AND LOOK AT HIM. THRIVING

45. What kind of art do you enjoy the most?

GENUINELY MADE ART

46. What do you hope never changes?

MY T PRESCRIPTION

47. What movie title best describes your life?

I LOOKED THROUGH NETFLIX AND I PICK TWILIGHT

48. What website do you visit most often?

TUMBLR

49. What’s something you’re looking forward to this year?

MY BIRTHDAY

50. What’s something you’d like to unlearn?

FINDING A REASON TO CANCEL EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING

51. Where would you spend all your time if you could?

WALKING BY SOME RUNNING WATER

52. What age would you like to live to?

80. THATS MY MENTAL HEALTH ANSWER

53. What’s something you’re most likely to become famous for?

SOMETHING CREATIVE WOULD BE AWESOME

54. What’s something you’re most likely to be arrested for?

CRIMES

55. What’s something you really want but can’t afford?

A CAT

Lgbt+ ask game

What do you identify as and what are your pronouns?

I’m even a little shaken by a questioning state right now but for a while I’ve felt the best fit is the androgynous label -- I read a description of it being the purple on a pink to blue scale, both at once but not specifically either one, and something else by itself. I’m also happy with a cryptic masculine grey area. My pronouns are he/him.

How did you discover your sexuality, tell your story?

During the Puberty 1.0 nightmare, I was basically living someone else’s life, and any attraction I felt wasn’t in relation to myself. I felt disconnected from my body and gender and everything too, and I felt a lot of social pressure to experience a certain type of attraction, fit into a certain role, et cetera, and none of these feelings existed in me at all, so I used to identify as ace. When I realized I was trans, I was too caught up in the, transition safely, my life is a lie, stopping dysphoria drama to focus on this, but I had an idea I might be a gay guy judging from my gay creative writing until I caught feelings for a girl and realized this wasn’t the first time that had happened. Some bi positivity and nonbinary rage later, I am reminded that gender is a joke.

Have you experienced being misgendered? What happened and how did you overcome it?

Yes of course A LOT. Starting with my parents, who do it aggressively and maliciously. And plenty from strangers and customers, mostly after hearing my voice pre-transition. It used to hurt terribly because I was dealing with so much other stuff at the time, and one little thing could be the last straw, so I used to react strongly and harshly, to people you express yourself to anyway. On T, I’ve been so much more chill and confident, and it’s less painful to accept that some people just don’t know any better, although that doesn’t change its effect.

Who was the first person you told, how did they react?

I don’t remember, I think it was a high school friend. I vaguely remember texting someone in a bathroom during a crying session at work. My high school friends were all warm and supportive.

Describe what it was like coming out, what did you feel?

It was scary as hell. I’m sure coming out (with your gender specifically) is scary by nature because it’s a huge truth to be telling that can really change how the people you love perceive you, for better or for worse, but for me, I’m also thinking with the dread and certainty that my family would be too conservative and potentially dangerous. Coming out to my family was one of the worst, most painful things I’ve ever been through -- being kicked out and laughed at, a lot of drama, confrontations, Bible readings and being ganged up on at odd hours, trying to comfort my mom who took it as her personal failure -- I was shaking with adrenaline 24/7. I think of the “I’ll suffer through anything as long as it has meaning” comment that was about angsty fanfics, but knowing the truth about myself was a source of unshakable strength and it felt refreshing and even triumphant to say, like I was giving myself permission to exist for the first time. I came out a bunch of times, though...

If you’re out, how did your parents/guardians/friends react?

My family reacted mostly badly, my sister is a little confused but has the spirit, and my friends have been wonderful.

What is one question you hate people asking about your sexuality?

It’s more of a gender thing, but I hate it when people imply that I shouldn’t be on T or are subtly trying to talk me out of it with their questions. After all the disrespectful as fuck bullshit I heard from my parents, I’m tired of this.

Describe the style of clothing that you most often wear.

Zombie apocalypse denim? Gay Layers

Who are your favourite lgbt+ ships?

I’m not really emotionally invested in these “ships” you cool kids are talking about. I like canon, age-appropriate ones.

What does makeup mean to you? Do you wear any?

I’ve never really worn makeup. I brazenly never bothered to growing up, and if it had an effect on me socially, I was too tuned out to care. My sister always wanted to do my hair and makeup, but I wasn’t interested and wouldn’t let her, much to her frustration. I wore some for a musical once though, and I had no idea what I was doing and it was extremely uncomfortable. I felt what I know now is dysphoria and ended up using the lipstick to draw. Another aspect to this is my family forbade it (or my dad made the decision for everyone), not that it made my sister feel less pressured to wear it, so maybe it was some female presentation I could easily get out of. For that reason, I don’t have super strong feelings about it. Not understanding it probably resulted in me feeling left out a lot among my peers.

Do you experience dysphoria? If so, how does that affect you?

Yes. Before my realization, it was a numb horror I wasn’t consciously aware of, ruining nice things growing up to the point where I feel like I missed out on being a teenager. I remember it as feeling nauseous while sitting in a corner, feeling like none of my clothes ever fit for some mysterious reason. Living with my family in the closet, it defined my life, and I was obsessed with my presentation. These days, it does not bother me on that level at all, except a minor freakout now and then if I get really wild and wear feminine clothes. Or I still feel it in more subtle ways, when I default to customer service voice, or when guys my age are twice my height and I look aaaall the way up at them and wonder what gender they see me as.

What is the stupidest thing you’ve heard said about the lgbt+ community?

Trust me, I have heard truck loads of dumb shit and the winner is the Gay Agenda is R****a’s propaganda to weaken the integrity of North America. Considering what is happening over there, it was enragingly stupid.

What’s your favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?

I feel like I can be myself around lgbt+ people. I don’t feel like I have to hide stuff or put on a show, and I’m not afraid because it’s familiar territory.

What’s your least favourite thing about the lgbt+ community?

Aside from obvious problems like TERFs, ace discourse. Ace people are part of the community if they want to be and that’s enough on that, my skin is already breaking out.

Have you ever been to your cities pride event? Why or why not?

I finally went to a Pride event this year! I was surprised it was the first one I’d been to, then remembered my parents discouraged me from going anywhere, never mind to a gay where.

Who is your favourite lgbt+ Icon/Advocate/Celebrity?

I can’t think of many people right now, but Leslie Feinberg seems awesome, and some quotes from Stone Butch Blues are very validating.

Have you been in a relationship and how did you meet?

No. Technically I have been in one, but it was shitty and ridiculous, and basically platonic, and I don’t want it to count.

What is your favourite lgbt+ book?

I barely read… I read Aristotle and Dante Discover the Secrets of the Universe in high school and it was honestly so precious.

Have you ever faced discrimination? What happened?

Yes. I got kicked out (but then kicked back in again), had my stuff stolen and damaged, was verbally harassed… and I was indirectly fired by an employer, but We Will Never Know Why...

Your Favorite lgbt+ movie or show?

Queer Eye! I don’t know of many though, and some important ones, I just haven’t watched.

Who are some of your favourite lgbt+ bloggers?

My mutuals :D

Which lgbt+ slur do you want to reclaim?

I’m okay calling myself queer.

Have you ever gone to a gay bar, or a drag show, how was it?

No, but I did see some drag performances at the one (1) Pride event I went to, and they were jaw-dropping.

How do you self-identify your gender, and what does that mean to you?

I’m not sure what this question means, but I decide what fits right by what makes me feel the most alive and emotionally real and in the moment. What makes me feel the most attractive to be honest. There’s a post about dysphoria I saw going around, the things on it are basically what I use to figure things out.

Are you interested in having children? Why or why not?

I am actually! Not anytime soon, but I’m the responsible type for sure, and judging by the way I love growing plants and being around animals, I’m probably a nurturing person. I actually like kids too, lol, they’re just so high-energy.

What identity advice would you give your younger self?

You’re a boy. Go!

What do you think of gender roles in relationships?

I think people are going to have different ways of expressing themselves that make them happy, but… I don’t think they should infringe on basic human decency. When I hear “role” I think of acting a certain way because someone told you to, something I want to disagree with on the spot.

Anything else you want to share about your experience with gender?

People move out of my way on the sidewalk and take me seriously now. Privilege or self-confidence… I never want to forget what it used to be like, or get too entitled.

What is something you wish people know about being lgbt+?

That it’s simply living one’s reality. I think that trips up a lot of straight people -- that some people just come like this, and they don’t have to make it fit into their personal identity.

Why are proud to be lgbt+?

Because I worked hard to be alive and happy right now. I’m proud of choosing to get through those rough patches, take care of myself, heal, take walks, cook breakfast, learn healthy coping mechanisms, that was out of love for myself and a defiant conviction that I have a place in this world.

#chatty tag

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purplesurveys · 5 years

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What is your favourite dinosaur? Can it be a fictional dinosaur? I love Rex from the Toy Story series. Would you rather live with wolves or tigers? Humans aren’t meant to live with either...but I’d pick wolves, cause they’re kinda like dogs but just much dangerous. Have you ever forgotten what a certain kind of pain felt like? Death of a loved one. I’ve been through it once and it sucked enough that I mostly don’t remember what went on during that time. Do you prefer water from the tap or bottled water? We can’t have tap water in the Philippines as the water here is unsafe for drinking, and bottled water sometimes has a weird taste in it. I’d...pick bottled, but I’ll only go for certain brands, like Summit.

Do you actually use any of the shampoo hotels provide? Yes. If I wanna shy away from what we use at home I’ll experiment with what they have.

What do you remember the most about your childhood? My cousins, siblings, and I had an afternoon-evening schedule that we followed for pretty much a decade: we’d get home from school at around 4, watch some programs on Nickelodeon while having merienda, play outside for a couple of hours, then get back home. Nickelodeon in particular had an awesome evening schedule that consisted of SpongeBob, Fairly OddParents, My Life as a Teenage Robot, Jimmy Neutron, and Danny Phantom and then after that we’d switch to Cartoon Network to catch Pokemon. That’s what I remember the most just because we followed this routine for every damn weeknight. Do you feel as if someone has robbed something from you? I have been stolen from before. In high school someone decided it was a good idea to steal my purse, which had my retainers, mine and Gab’s first Polaroid shot together, and ₱600. Have you ever stared at the sky and wondered if it was all worth it? You will not believe how many times I do this. This is my go-to when I’m sad; then I ended up watching a video on YouTube about the fate of the universe... my main takeaways were that life is gonna disappear in like a million years, and after that it’s just nothing happening but the universe slowly dying for a really really long fucking time. It made me think that maybe nothing is worth it after all, but tbh it’s such a grand thing to think about and I’m already here so might as well maximize the fuck out of what I already have and have done. Would you rather have a pet dinosaur or have mythical creatures be real? I don’t think a dinosaur will last long in our present world, and I’m not a big fan of myths and fairytales...might have to take a pass on this one. What age did you get your first hair cut? I think I was 3. Do you have a favourite toy from childhood still? Nope. What are your thoughts on the end of the world? It’s gonna come, but it’s not coming for a very long time. Unless of course people are dumb and continue to damage the only planet that we have. Which sports do you enjoy watching? Professional wrestling, if it counts. Volleyball is also fun, but only if my team is winning :/ Would you ever have a breed of dog that is considered aggressive? Yes, except for chihuahuas. Have you ever made bread? I think we did make bread once in my home econ class in like 6th grade. I remember having to use yeast and being so confused with what it’s supposed to do. Would your childhood self be disappointed? I think she’d be surprised I made it to 21. I was supposed to be out by 12 so she’s in for a huge plot twist. Do you think in the future you'll have done yourself proud? I hope so. Did you read The Great Gatsby before seeing the movie? I haven’t checked out either material. What do you feel about movies made from books? As long as they stay loyal to the book and they don’t disappoint those loyal to the books, I’m fine. Like I love what they did with the whole Twilight Saga, but I heard that the Percy Jackson movie sucked so bad that I don’t even think of watching it. It all boils down to the adaptation itself. Has anything ever fallen asleep on you? A couple of dogs, a cat, my girlfriend. Do you have to use the bathroom? I just came from there, so not anymore. Is the above question too invasive? For me? A survey-taker? Who’s been faced with really terrible questions in the past? Hahahahahaha.

What do you feel about surgeries? Do they worry you? I DON’T LIKE THE IDEA OF SURGERIES. I’ve stayed super cautious all my life because I don’t wanna break anything in my body that will cause me to be opened up. And I’m hoping I never get a health problem bad enough that will need surgery too. Do you have a tumblr? ...I guess I do.

Would you rather have an open book shelf or one with doors? Open. If I were a bigger bookworm and had more books, I’d want to show off my collection. Do you need a large or small place to live comfortably? Large. Would you ever consider moving to another country? I am very actively considering it and have been since I started college. Have you ever dropped everything and reevaluated? No. I’m too busy to do that. Do you play minecraft? if so, feelings about servers? I don’t play Minecraft. Do you long for easier times? It would be nice to get them once in a while. Do you believe that life gets easier or we just get stronger? Latter. Does it weird you out to think that humans are just more advanced animals? No? It’s cool to think about, but it’s not weird. Do you ever wonder why religion came about? Yes, not out of curiosity but of exasperation. Would you ever consider shaving your head? If it’s for a cause or if I got paid for it lmao sure. Would you rather belong to a cult or a religion you feel is wrong? Horrible question. Have you ever considered murder? For rapists and people who torture dogs, yes. Kill a man or a woman? ?????? Would you like to live in a realm where the zombie apocalypse is possible? Sure. That’d make my Walking Dead dreams come to life lol. I don’t think I’d last very long. Are you afraid of any animals? Reason? Cockroaches. They’re UGLY and run fast and can survive without their heads for a whole week AND SOME OF THEM CAN FUCKING FLY ugh I’m squirming just typing these out. Someone knocks on your door three times right now, do you answer? I look outside the window first then open the door. Do you read creepypastas? No. But I often read AskReddit threads about creepy/paranormal stuff. Can you sleep afterwards? It’s what I read to fall asleep.

#survey #surveys

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pbandjesse · 3 years

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I have finally. Finally. Made it to the end of work. I have tomorrow off. It will be over entirely to quickly. But it will be okay.

Today was an excellent day though. I slept okay. And when I woke up at 7, James said I could sleep a couple more minutes. But I got up and got ready. I had to change my top because the pants I wore were lower the. I thought and I didn't want skin out. So I was slightly frustrated but it was fine.

James took me to get breakfast. And then we were at the museum.

It was a lot of fun. It wasn't horribly busy, and I only gave one real tour but I would give a lot of single rooms and half tours. It was pretty constant actually. And I had a blast.

We had volunteers there today cleaning and repairing machines. I love talking to old men and making them my best friends so I would end up doing just that. They always love that I know about metal working and building. And having navy and union facts always helps. I had so many laughs today. My favorite guy was named Dale. And then there was another who told me when he was a teenager he would deliver logs to a copper refinery that they would burn to get the oxygen out of the casting process. Amazing.

I also just had excellent guests. One guy who looked like an actor I like. I got to brag about my mom, because she knew about dark shadows and I got to be like. Oh yeah that's my mom she's the coolest. And talk about my dad and construction. I always feel like that kind of thing gives me a little bit of clout? Makes people know I know.

I had some fun conversations with people for the farmers market too. I am trying to do a bit of outreach and finding new venders to apply and I was able to give info to two different people today! One who makes stained glass and one who makes perfumes and textiles. Super cool. And I just had lovely conversations with them and got to share all my fun facts and knowledge.

I also got to walk around showing the new security guard the musuem. He was a sweetheart and was really excited about the museum and I wanted him to feel super welcome. So I showed him all around and told him lots of things. He would buy himself a t-shirt later and I just thought that was so sweet.

I watched the desk for a bit so James could go get lunch. I am not super comfortable with the register but I sold one set of tickets. And James came back before I was off talking to people again.

I forgot to take a break. But I held myself together. For the last half hour of the day we had a dad and adult son come in who had been here yesterday but wanted to see some machines. So I quickly ran them around turning things on and telling my stories. They really seemed to love it and that was awesome. I think I did a great job today and that was just a really awesome feeling after yesterday not being my most ideal and successful program.

I did get next week's schedule and I'm doing 3 canneries at least, with me leading one. Which is the first one. I wish it wasn't the first because I think I could benifit from seeing another. But it's okay. I will be alright.

We finished up the day. I finally ate my sandwich. And soon we headed home.

James ordered us pizza and we would pick that up on the way home. I was very tired all of a sudden, not shocking. Stanley had asked me earlier if I was okay because I was sort of zoning out.

I was very glad to be going home. When we got back the Pokemon plush James got me came. It's of my Squishie!! I love them very much. Both James and Squishie.

I would lay on the couch and play pokemon for a bit. I caught five new Pokemon. And then had pizza. James would edit their podcast and I went to lay in the hammock. James headed to the theater to do an hour of work. I took a bath. And was comfy in bed by the time they got home.

I am ready to brush my teeth and get ready to sleep. I hope you all have a great night. And that tomorrow is restful and soft. Love you all. Goodnight!

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incorrectsmashbrosquotes · 6 years

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A Smash Kid Halloween Pt 2: Night of the Living R.O.B

After the group finished their candy rounds and split up, Dark Pit’s group cut through the dark woods to get to the graveyard. For about a solid hour, they’ve just been lying in a circle staring up at the sky.

“You guys ever wonder why some of us can’t touch our hands over the top of our heads?” MegaMan asked.

And questions. They also asked questions

Dark Pit shifted his gaze to the right, where he saw MegaMan in his Phoenix Wright outfit and the open spot where Bowser Jr was sitting until he said he went to use the bathroom. He sighed. “Maybe because some of us are built different.”

Dark Pit came thinking that this would be somewhat thought provoking, or somewhat scary. But so far, the only thing they’ve done tonight was go to a lot of homes and get candy. Now they’re in a middle of a graveyard, asking questions. Most of which didn’t require much thought.

“If Ditto turned into the Ice Climbers, would he turn into one of them or both of them?” Leaf asked.

Dark Pit looked to his left. Leaf had changed her Attack on Titan soldier outfit to an outfit resembling the Platelets from Cells at Work. Beside her was Blue, who was sporting an Ike outfit with his roller on his back, and Young Link in his Skull Kid outfit, who from his viewpoint fell asleep.

He was about to answer her question with a sarcastic response, but paused. No matter how he thought about it, that was a good question. This was one of the questions that he had to think about.

“Okay, D.P. Your turn.” Blue told him.

Dark Pit looked at the Inkling. “Uh…I haven’t thought of a question yet. You can go next."

Blue shrugged and sat up. "You ever wonder…what’s going on at our homes? Like, do they notice we’re gone and are freaking out about it?”

“I can tell you that.” MegaMan told him. “Red and I asked Master Hand about that a while ago. He said he and Crazy already took care all of that.”

“How?” Leaf asked.

“Dunno. Crazy Hand said not to think about it too much.” MegaMan said. “They probably have clones or something.”

A few seconds after he had said that, Dark Pit rose up and stretched. “Oookay, this was a slightly fun thing we did. I’m gonna go to the candy site or whatever.” He then walked off to the woods.

Blue, Leaf, and MegaMan all exchanged worried glances.

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“They probably have clones or something.”

Those words echoed through Dark Pit’s head as he walked through the dark woods with his arms crossed. He flinched during every step since for Pit’s costume idea (KO and TKO), they had to be barefoot for it. “Tch! Stupid Pit. Making me walk around a forest with no footwear. Not knowing that this hurts a lot.” He muttered.

“Yo, D.P. Everything cool?”

Dark Pit turned around and saw Leaf and Blue standing behind him.

“…Peachy.” Dark Pit answered.

“It’s just…you stormed off after what MegaMan said and-” Blue started.

“It’s fine.” Dark Pit told him, in a slightly angrier tone. He turned around again.

“D.P. Be real with us. Is everything fine?” Leaf asked.

“……” Dark Pit sighed and turned back to them. “Loo-”

He was about to speak before MegaMan came running to them. “Guys! Something happened!”

……….

“So what happened exactly?” Leaf asked as the four of them walked through the graveyard.

“Well, Young Link and I were chilling at our graveyard spot while you two left to find Dark Pit. He said he noticed Bowser Jr. has been gone for a long time, so he’d find him. He went searching, but a few minutes later, I heard a scream. So I went to check it out. That’s when I found…” MegaMan led them to a spot in the grave yard. Young Link was seen lying on the ground. “This.”

Blue and Leaf gasped. Dark Pit raised an eyebrow and walked over to Young Link and nudged him with his foot. “You sure he didn’t just leave him here for the sole purpose of you getting scared?”

“W-What do you mean?” MegaMan asked.

“I mean, he conveniently left his car here, and got Young Link to join in on this too.” Dark Pit told him. He then kicked Young Link. “Wake up, Elf Shrimp!”

Young Link sat up and rubbed his head. “Ow…what happened?"

"Don’t play dumb. You and Jr. tried to scare us.” Dark Pit told him.

“Huh? All I remember was looking for B.J, then something bit…or maybe stung me?” Young Link told him, pointing to his arm.

“Riiiight. And you’re gonna turn into a zombie.” He replied with utmost sarcasm.

MegaMan turned around. “Oh, its R.O.B!”

Behind them, R.O.B was slowly moving towards them, shuffling ever so slightly, as if his wheels weren’t working right. And the noise he was making made it seem as if he was malfunctioning. Not to mention how…off he looked

“Isn’t R.O.B supposed to be in sleep mode?” Blue asked. MegaMan looked again and his pupils shrank.

“Uh, guys? Correct me if I’m wrong, but R.O.B is the last of his kind, right?” MegaMan asked.

“That’s what it says on his description at the boxing stage.” Leaf told him.

“Then why are there more than one R.O.B?!” MegaMan asked.

The others turned around to see that they have been surrounded by about 50 R.O.B’s.

“This is…unsettling.” Dark Pit admitted. “Run!”

The group ran into the forest. Dark Pit knew that running into a dark forest in the middle of the night while zombie robots were chasing you was a horrible idea, but he was in the heat of the moment.

“Dude, why are there zombie R.O.B’s? Didn’t Fox say they were all destroyed a long time ago?!” Blue shouted.

“I don’t know! I wasn’t there!” Leaf shouted back.

“Calm down! We just have to keep running and tell everyone to meet back together. Then, we tell the Hands about this and they’ll know what to do!” Dark Pit reassured them.

MegaMan turned around and noticed Young Link was slowing down. He then fell. “Little Link!” The ran back to check on him.

“Guys…I don’t feel so good…."Young Link told them.”

“Wait, didn’t he say he got stung earlier?” Blue asked. The exchanged worried glances.

As soon as they put their attention back to Young Link, they saw robotic armor slowly begin to cover him from the spot where he got bit. When he glanced up them, he had R.O.B’s face covering his eyes, and had cyber-genetic parts on his arms.

“Farfetch’d Unknown Charizard Kingler!” Leaf shouted as they all screamed. Blue then beat the now Zombie Young Link with his roller until he wasn’t moving and was covered in blue ink. They looked over at Blue.

“What?’ Blue asked.

”…Nothing, lets keep running.“ Dark Pit said.

The four of them ran deeper into the forest as fast as they could. Soon, they had to give into exhaustion and take a minute to catch their breath. They hid behind a few trees.

Leaf glance out from behind the tree. "I don’t see them…” She then turned to Dark Pit. “Don’t you have arrows or something? Can’t you shoot them?”

“If I had arrows, I would’ve been shooting them for a while now. He wouldn’t shut up unless I promised not to bring my weapons.” Dark Pit groaned. “Where’s Ivysaur?”

“I am NOT going to subject my Pokemon to fight zombies!” Leaf told him.

“I’m trying to call the others. Lucas’ signal is being jammed, and I called Meggy’s group, and I just heard screaming about a ghost.” Blue told them

They all stopped talking as they could hear the distorted noises of the R.O.B’s slowly approaching. They peeked out and saw Bowser. Jr, who was now turned into a zombie cyborg that fused with his clown car, hovering next to them.

“Bowser’s gonna kill us.” Leaf said.

“You mean if we get of this or if we get turned into zombies?” Dark Pit asked

“…I’ll hold them off.” MegaMan announced as he rose up. “I come loaded with weaponry. As long as I don’t get bit, I’ll be okay. I don’t know how I’ll survive, but-”

Blue shoved him from the tree. “Dude, less emotional speech and more shooting!” He whispered.

MegaMan glared at him for a moment and ran out firing his Mega Buster. The three watched from the tree.

“OBJECTIO-”

MegaMan didn’t get to finish his battle cry as a creature suddenly swooped down and grabbed him, flying back into the sky. The three stared off into the sky with pale, terrified expressions as the creature flew off with MegaMan, his incredibly high pitched screams filling the night sky. They glanced back at the robot horde that was slowly approaching.

They took off running again, soon hitting a wall they couldn’t climb over. It kept climbing into the sky. As they turned around, they saw the horde slowly approaching

“Fishcakes! D.P, can’t you just fly us over?!” Blue asked frantically.

“This is a literal mountain! I can’t fly over it and carry the both of you at the same time!” Dark Pit shouted.

“Then what do we do?!” Blue shouted back.

Dark Pit looked around. They were surrounded from all sides and the horde was getting closer. Escape seemed impossible.

“G-guys…” Leaf said. The two turned to Leaf, who had tears in her eyes. “I-If this is how we go out…I want you to know…You guys are awesome!!”

“…My only regret was that i didn’t get his by all of the Final Smashes. Those seem pretty cool.” Blue said, accepting his fate.

Dark Pit looked at the two, then looked back at the horde. “Guys…since we’re about to get turned into mindless drones, I need to say something…”

“We already know you’d rather be doing anything else then hang out with us! You don’t need to say it.” Blue told him.

“No!” Dark Pit shouted as tears welled up in his eyes. “I wanted to say…you guys are my best friends! You two, MegaMan, Ness, Lucas, Meggy, Villager…all of you guys! I even think Pit is tolerable from time to time! I act all cold so that I wouldn’t get attached, but I can’t! All the times we did stupid stuff together! All the times, you’d drag me into whatever you guys were doing…I actually enjoyed myself!”

Leaf and Blue looked at Dark Pit as he was pouring his heart out, tears now rolling down his face. The R.O.B. zombies lunged at them.

“The truth is….” Dark Pit said, the R.O.B. zombies now only a foot away from them, “…I LOVE YOU GUYS!”

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Dark Pit had his eyes closed, preparing for the bite. But the bite never came. He opened an eye and saw the R.O.B’s and the two cyborg zombies had all stopped moving. The R.O.B.’s then fell apart piece by piece. The robot parts on Bowser Jr. and Young Link fell off as well.

Young Link and Bowser Jr. fell to the ground. “Ughh…what are we doing out here?” Bowser Jr. asked.

“They…just broke?” Dark Pit muttered to himself.

“You…”

Dark Pit glance at Leaf and Blue, who both had sparkly eyes.

“You love us?” Leaf asked. Bowser Jr. and Young Link both shot up and did sparkly eyes as well.

“He what?” The two asked.

Dark Pit blushed. “No. I didn’t say that."

"Yeah you did.” Blue told him. “I recorded the whole speech.” The blue Inkling pressed a button on his phone, playing back what Dark Pit said moments ago.

“I LOVE YOU GUYS!!”

A smile grew on all of there faces hearing Dark Pit say that about them.

Dark Pit blushed even more. “I-I didn’t mean it, you idiot!”

But it was too late. The four of them all tightly hugged Dark Pit. “You do care!”

“No I don’t! It was in the heat of the moment!” Dark Pit shouted.

“Too late. We already know you’re a softie.” Leaf told him.

“Grrr…whatever!” Dark Pit huffed.

“But this does raise the question.” Young Link said. “Why were there more R.O.B’s when Mario and the others told us that they were destroyed?”

“Yeah. And why’d they attack us?” Dark Pit added.

Bowser Jr. looked around. “Where’s MegaMan?”

And as if to answer his question, MegaMan fell out of the sky looking pretty beaten up.

“The heck happened to you?” Leaf asked.

MegaMan pointed upwards in response. The group looked up and saw a long, green dragon coming down towards them. Leaf was the only that was smiling. She threw her PokeBall, and Ivysaur came out.

“Ivysaur, let’s catch a Legendary Pokemon.”

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