#i am a shauna stan first and foremost so I'm interested in her relationships with everyone

[lheautontimoroumenos]

a lot of people are talking about the relationship between nat, travis and javi after 208 and definitely it is heart breaking and is gonna inform the relationship between nat and travis so much (whoever wrote like how could they throw it away how could they keep it, I'm still crying, thanks).

But I'm also really excited to see how shauna's gonna react. We haven't seen much of it as of late but in season 1 shauna and javi had a really sweet relationship. She shielded him in 102 when his dad was in the tree, he whittled her a little wolf, she gave him her knife, she gave him part of her journal.

Shauna cares, so much even when she doesn't want to. She says she never wanted to be a mom but in her dream she clearly loves that kid, and she cared for javi and she cared for jackie. She says it word for word in her police interview, she doesn't want to, she tries her best not to, but she loves so hard.

They've drifted away though, javi's been gone for so long and he came back but he doesnt speak and shauna has so much other stuff on her mind (the baby and jackie are dead, how can she have any kind of relationship ever again) she wouldn't be of much help.

But now he's dead, 100% dead, not just lost in the wilderness, but really dead. And they're gonna have to eat him but before that, shauna's gonna have to slit his throat and skin him and cut him into pieces. Just like riding a really gross fucked up bike. The first time she's going to do it on a human being is gonna be on a child. And she's a child too! They're all just kids!

Jackie's necklace is a sign of love given from one person to another despite it all, i choose you, it chooses you but i love you, and even if it doesn’t save you because nothing can, it matters.

Shauna's knife serves the same purpose but it's made clearest with javi. She gives him the knife and he gives it back with a gift, with love because that's all they can give to each other. Love and violence. Love through violence. And javi never had jackie's necklace but he had the knife, he had shauna's love. And isn't that just the same?

the very knife that javi used to make a gift to shauna will be used by shauna to make javi a gift to the others.