#i am a guapoduo enjoyer actually

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Writing more Roier angst hurt/comfort because I feel like it. Anyway, here's how Cellbit and Roier deal with emotions through redirection and a nap:

Roier is trying not to cry. He's been trying not to cry for days now. He's failed at the not crying part, actually. He's been trying not to cry in front of people, instead forcing a smile or at least a non-sad expression. Roier is supposed to be the ray of sunshine everyone wants him to be, the sunshine needs him to be, sunshine everyone expects him to be. He's already had his grief. It isn't fair of him to cry now. The breeze keeps his hair out of his face and makes the tears streaking down feel cool. Roier sits on the edge of the garden balcony. It made him feel hidden, even if he really wasn't. High above the ground, it felt safe.

There was suddenly a presence next to him, sitting with him. It's Cellbit, and Roier smiles through the tears. It was nice to have his husband around. Cellbit wrapped his arm around Roier, and Roier leaned his head into his husband's shoulder. He was grateful that Cellbit agreed to love him no matter what because he was pretty sure he looked like absolute shit. His eyeliner is definitely running, his hair is a mess, the dark circles under his eyes are easily noticeable, and a bunch of other things. Cellbit's hair is running through his dirty hair.

They don't talk for a few minutes, and then Cellbit asks if Roier wants to move to their bedroom. Roier nods, and they get up, hand in hand. Cellbit sits down in the middle of their bed, and Roier lays with his head in his lap. Cellbit's hand is back in Roier's hair. Sometimes, it's nice to just relax like this. There's a soft sigh from the brunette's lips as he describes the day he's had. Apparently, the only reason he's here is because he was getting too pissed off to keep working. Roier gives his best assurances, but they're hollow as even he doesn't really believe them.

With the hand in his hair, Roier feels sleepier than before. It's a welcome feeling, as he closed his eyes for just a moment. Cellbit is still talking, but it's just noise for noise sake at this point. He's talking about how he's glad to have Roier and that he's trying to use what he's learned in therapy about redirection and stuff like that. Roier finds it interesting, but he's getting sleepy, so he doesn't really talk back. He's proud, though. He leans up to kiss Cellbit before leaning back to welcome sleep for the first time in a few days.

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Do you guys think Cellbit has thought of joining Roier in their bed for as long as it takes for him to awake again?

Do you guys think Cellbit has to shake that thought out of his head because people need him? People need Roier, too. That's why he hides sadness with smiles and jokes. Cellbit is needed. He'll figure it out. He always does.

Do you guys think Cellbit doesn't sleep at night, instead, using the quiet hours to stare at Roier? With him hoping for any movement other than quiet breathing. Hoping–waiting–to see the dark brown-red eyes, he adores so much flutter open. They don't. Not yet, at least.

Do you guys think Cellbit counts the minutes, hours, maybe, that Roier is asleep for in the back of his mind? Do you think Cellbit let's part of his mind count even while he's looking for answers?

Do you guys think Cellbit still offers up all his affections to Roier? Even if they won't be returned for a while?

Do you guys think Cellbit explains everything that's happened to Roier? Even while knowing that he'll have to do it again once his husband is awake?

Do you think Cellbit cherishes the moments when Roier mumbles softly in his sleep? Do you think Cellbit tries to understand every dream-addled word?

Do you guys think Cellbit fears Roier won't wake up again? Do you guys think Cellbit entertains the idea it might be better if Roier just stays asleep?

Do you guys think Cellbit lays down next to his husband and promises him the sun, the moon, and the stars because he can't promise everything will be okay?

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I thought I ran out of ideas already, then I remembered I could always write about Guapoduo/Spiderbit. Anyways, here's Roier waking up:

It's always a struggle to open his eyes after letting the realm of sleep keep him for so long. Roier was content to keep laying in bed for just a bit longer. What's another hour or two to a whole week? If he doesn't get up, then nobody can question him either. It's a win-win, maybe. He could tell it was probably the middle of the afternoon judging by the light hitting his closed eyes. It's calming being alone and just waking up. It would be better with Cellbit here, but it's okay. Roier wouldn't cry. He just woke up. He just woke up, and he wouldn't cry. He hasn't even gotten up yet. Maybe going back to sleep isn't a bad idea.

Honestly, Roier isn't sure if he fell back asleep or not, but something caught his attention. It was Cellbit's voice, and he was yelling about forgetting something in the castle. He kept his eyes closed still as Cellbit came into the room. Cellbit calmed down as he walked over to the bed and pressed a kiss to Roier's cheek. A smile spread on Roier's face as he leaned up to return the kiss. The first sight he saw after opening his eyes was a surprised, wide-eyed Cellbit. His husband immediately moved to pull him into a hug, followed by kisses being peppered on Roier's face.

After the moment of pure affection, Cellbit asked Roier if he's okay and ready to get up. He doesn't know how to respond, so he goes quiet. A kiss was left on his hand, and Cellbit told him it was okay to not be ready. Roier nodded, but he explained that he didn't want to sleep anymore. He thinks he's the luckiest man in the world to get such an understanding husband. Cellbit sat with him for a while, forgetting whatever he forgot earlier, and told him about what's been happening since he fell asleep.

When Roier gets up, it's late, around dinner time. He and Cellbit held in hands as they made dinner and ate. It's not completely awful being awake, Roier thinks, as he gets to see his husband and feel the warmth of Cellbit's hand in his own.