#i also wrote a post a while ago about logan disguising as deceit

[logically-asexual]

also the idea of this last fic i posted is like. deeper than just “logan disguises as virgil and let’s see what happens”

like when virgil ducked out it was pretty much just a device that was possible within the canon of the show to allow the story to unfold and for thomas to explore the positives of anxiety. but it’s not something that just happens in real life. or i don’t know. maybe there’s times that you block out an emotion so much and are so deep into the repression and denial that you can think that you don’t have it but that’s not likely and probably not what they were trying to portray. evidenced by how when they ask “that’s something you can do?” logan responds “for this video, i guess.”

but deceit disguising as patton is something very clever because you can see it as more than just the characters. you can see thomas defending himself from the shame of lying by disguising his motives. the method is the lie but when patton proposes it the motive is concern for a friend’s feelings, which thomas might consider a good enough motive. however if janus proposes it the motive is selfishness and self preservation, which thomas absolutely isn’t open to.

so logan isn’t heard as logic because his propositions are taken as some. strict instructions coming from a stern serious person who thomas almost doesn’t identify with. logan disguising an idea as coming from anxiety instead of The Teacher means more than just “logan dresses up as virgil”. it reflects a probably maladaptive response that many with executive dysfunction have, where you can only get things done when the deadline is pressuring you and panic is the only thing that fuels you. you can only make yourself something you’d consider otherwise boring or stressing when you frighten yourself into doing it with threats of missing the deadline, wasting time, ruining your future, etc etc.

i just wanted to point out that i just. really like this concept as part of thomas’s journey of distancing himself from the serious, teacher side of his personality. he will still need to do something’s that are usually this side’s responsibility, but they wouldn’t get done if the impulse doesn’t come from a place within himself he listens to and considers important.