#i also keep avoiding the edit fase

[mcissuwu]

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most of my writing comes from daydreams, so i know exactly the emotion or underlying feeling i want. and i want to perfecly replicate that on my first draft so ill remember it later; so i remember what i wanted to do with the piece.

but im not that good yet, so the only thing i can do is explain as simply as possible, taking parts off the scene i wanted just so i could put it on paper(which could erase them from the story,bcs the next time i look at that draft ill forget about those small nuances); or i could actually try to focus on writing them but my brain goes blank if i try to deeply think of smt for more than 2 mins.or i just dont write it at all.

i know ill get better.bcs ive gotten better since the last few months i started(before, if i DID finish smt it would take me days), but this fear of not being able to encapsulate the main vibe of the thing in my first draft is drifting me away from even starting.

i want to get better at emotions/setting the atmosphere SO bad but theres a barrier inside of me that doesnt let me take that step.

and it feels like smt that cant be changed, bcs ive always been bad with words.and yes i know i just said i started a few months ago but im just complaining.thank you for reading hehe.