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Been thinking about @crystallizsch ‘s snake hair art lately
#I like snakes in theory but if someone were to hand one to me or something I think I’d have a seizure#like that’s so cool from a distance! please keep it that way!#so in comparison snake hair??? a banger concept just stay at least a snake’s length apart from me#i might cry#but also the idea that they’re just little guys who are somewhat of an extension of Jamil is adorable#so you can see my problem#it doesn’t help that I loath this man (affectionate)#jamil viper#twst jamil#twisted wonderland jamil#yuusona#twst yuu#twisted wonderland yuu#twisted wonderland#twst#my art#traditional art#sketch#okay to reblog#reblogs encouraged#snake man 2: the snakening
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Nona added in the spirit of truth: "And I can't help chewing the ends with plaits. I want to steer clear of Temptation."
feat. Noodle(s) and a mustache r--
coloured contacts & silly faces test for summer!croptop!Nona (aka "it's too hot to wear three layers on public transit right now, ayfkm?")
#hair is my own#it's hip-length which works for Nona but the right half is also blue#Nona can have a little dyed hair as a treat#no wait Nona i didn't mean you could eat it--#we love our nono#nona palona#nona the ninth#the locked tomb#cosplay#cosplay test#gpoy#nona#tlt nona#nona tlt#worm with problems#free mustache rides#the locked tomb cosplay#tlt cosplay#featherbreak cosplay
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#hi im j here 2 talk . saw this cow yday so i drew her and now u get 2 say hi#but omffgg my gd i dont know if any of u relate but i feel like my ability to socialize w others#specifically online and speciifically in interest-circles has gotten so much harder for no reason whatsoever#like im just becoming more self conscious ab how i portray myself and its so weird bc like . LIKEE I DONT KNOW like . ok#people r super njce . always super nice and reach out to me and talk w me or i reach out first and they respond and r soo sweet#and something happens in my brain where like . i feel like im suddenly like . inserting myself where i dont belong (not true) but why am i#the bus driver all of a sudden . in all of these situations . me when i just show up like hey#i think i j feel annoying >__< . and i dont want to bother other people but said people r literally never bothered ykwim like Will Reach Out#and im the one that pulls back but 4 no reason . i cant even think ab why i do that .why am i doing this 🧨#so many ppl i want to genuinely befriend in all of these spaces but im self sabotaging soo frwaking bad#literally rn thinking of some dms i left on read bc i panicked or mutuals ive talked w before who im nervous 2 be familiar w . hrmm#anyways . i kind of wish i had the ability 2 just talk to new people and not actually gaf ab the outcome#HELPP .. early tmblr or wcf or devart where u have thirty million friends 2 now where u r too scared 2 say hi to an almost friend .#me problem though . if not alr clear HEJAHHAAHA i think part of my reluctance also stems from the fact that i know i get this way#and so i dont want 2 rope someone else into that insecurity so i try to keep it at an arms length until i fix it#but i think i also know its a longer & more introspective thing to work on so i do need to just try anyways
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Themes vs Realism
Saw an old debate about how isolated the Encanto is and it got me thinking about my own headcanons.
I watched the movie, saw the windows and wine glasses and thought “Oh! They must have trade, glass requires a specific sort of sand and while glass blowers would be relatively common, the odds they had somebody who knows how to make glass frit are pretty low”. And I can back up that argument with research and facts, buying glass is getting more expensive because we’re running low on sand with the right chemical composition, glass frit production would be more likely to happen in towns near silica rich beaches, where as Alma’s hometown looked like it was in the middle of the forest. Nowadays, not every country in the world has the right sand, when I worked with glass blowers they imported their frit from I think a family in Sweden(?) that are like one of the last few people making frit. So glass is actually a very big deal! I digress. Basically, realistically, the fact that they have glass means that they must have some trade.
But that’s completely irrelevant to the movie, isn’t it?
The movie is all about healing from generational trauma, Encanto being completely isolated is better for the movie’s themes. It’s like how we all love the deleted scene where Bruno argues with Alma and says “I wish I was dead” but the writers cut that scene because it gives Bruno confronting Alma on Mirabel’s behalf an extra bit of punch if he was never willing to do so before. Realistically, a deeply unhappy, almost forty adult who is as blunt as Bruno would have had that argument with Alma; thematically, Mirabel’s mysterious Tío couldn’t muster up the courage/passion to confront the movie’s antagonist until he was doing it for love. Realistically, it is actually necessary for Pepa to control her emotions because she can create hurricanes and that sorta disaster could wipe out the village; thematically, Pepa needs to be allowed to let her feelings flow through her without anyone snapping at her about it. Realistically they must have trade; thematically, they must be completely isolated.
There isn’t really a good way for canon to bridge this gap as far as I can tell, in story telling themes usually take precedence over realism, especially in a fantasy setting. But for a lot of people (like me) the funnest thing to do when writing fanfic is throw in a dash of realism and see what comes out of it. Obviously, the way you want to reconcile this is absolutely up to you. I personally care more about the movie sticking to themes than I do it being realistic or conforming to my background knowledge, I’m fully expecting to have most of my head canons disproven when they release more material. That said, for the sake of fic, I think asking questions like “Where are they getting the raw materials to build that” is a great launching pad.
I don’t know how to word my conclusion. That year I spent working with glass blowers is going to butt heads with my suspension of disbelief for the rest of my life? Realism is great for fanfic but not so much in short stories like movies? My head canons will never be canon and it’s better that way?
#encanto#encanto headcanons#encanto meta#foggy rambles#fanfic meta#kinda proud that I managed to keep this one a reasonable length#still putting in a cut because manners#I can also connect this to how I like the idea of Bruno being Demi and doesn’t have a very cis relationship with gender#because that’s what’s most fun and has the most emotional resonance for me specifically#but I won’t be bothered if they make him cis and gay#well… I’ll be bothered if I am then attacked because my pre-existing stories feature him as bi#and I am so tired of being told making a character bi is queer erasure#but that’s a fandom culture problem and this is a post about reconciling canon themes with personal head canons#so I’m saying I won’t get huffy when the canon characters inevitably diverge from the versions in my head#I managed to put all the rambling in the tags :)
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a reunion
Ardwin grabbed the fancy hourglass and used the power of Gay Yearning to yeet herself directly to the void ASAP after MSQ, haha
(p.s. there is a sequel (nsfw))
#ffxiv#wolzero#ardwin tag#ardwin pics#dawntrail spoilers#i have been personally referring to the second picture as 'squenix gave us tongue bones and i am making this everyone else's problem'#also i am very glad we got the doohicky because it's a significant improvement over the previous plan Ardwin had in the works#which involved getting her reaper avatar to sort of reverse-summon her#and had not been implemented yet only because she hadn't figured out a good way to get back afterwards which would have been A Problem#never underestimate the lengths Ardwin will go to in order to smooch her partners.
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I think I may have come up with the best worst tma time travel “fix-it” au (imho)
Inspired by Ketakoshka's 'dread spawn' idea in their dread child jon series, Dribbledscribbles' origin story for the dread powers and extinction entity interpretation in their extinction!jon fic (and some more of the latter in their post-eyepocalypse fic too), as well as my own love for making unholy (aka fun) fusions of things and sandboxing eldritch interactions with the 'mundane' . . .
. . . I have created a post-canon, Somewhere Else, time travel ""fix-it"" story that I think might be unique (at least I've never seen any fics like it– but if I'm wrong then please please share the link!! or dm me if it's your own work hehe but no pressure!!)
(mag 160+ spoilers after this point!)
(i'm about to wax poetics here (hopefully coherently)—so you can read the story-ramble OR you can scroll to the TL;DR at the bottom to skip it & spoilers to read the nutshell & see if you're interested :3)
so get this...
The big Change happens right? But this time the Extinction is a bigger player in the game than canon, and ultimately deeply marks Jon throughout the eyepocalypse.
So when the finale happens, since Jon is now connected to the epicenter of the whole show, his 'death' and the panopticon's destruction has the simultaneous effect of baiting the Dread Powers into the Hole (via his voice in the spools of tape)– and also killing everyone trapped by the Dread Powers in the world via Jon the walking detonator thanks to being entrenched in the Extinction's influence. —Combining both his best and worst plans and realizing his worst nightmare: killing everyone and spreading the Powers to an unknown number of worlds to wreak even more havoc.
How did this happen?
Simple—but first some backstory for context.
The Extinction was more of a 'lurker', much less "outgoing" than its 'siblings'. And when it was "grandiose", well. . . it tended to leave no survivors. Thus its unrecognition by those like Robert Smirke or Jürgen Leitner.
To go back even further, the Dread entities were originally one cohesive entity with many faces and limbs. Its faces reflected the same developmental complexity as the sources of their manifestation. So those with the most diverse species feeding them held the widest capacities. Namely: the Hunt, End, and Extinction. But being a singular entity, it didn't mean much.
But as human species' family lines develop and grow more complex cognitive ability, more esoteric Dreads developed, and more faces become more complex. And the Extinction was right there from the beginning as more species died out one by one. Quietly. (...maybe? 👀)
Over time humans discovered the Powers and bonded with them, then started to classify them. From here, the Dread entity fragmented into Dread entities.
They developed their own 'consciousnesses' distinct from the hive 'mind' they once were. And, eventually, sapience. Self-awareness. Desires. Personalities. But they were still connected, part of the 'system'.
The Extinction and the Web (newer, but always sapient) are a quirky pair, the Web seeking control over everything and the Extinction seeking ultimate entropy and change upon its catastrophe.
It's hard to distinguish the Extinction exactly, its work misidentified for others with few under its own unique umbrella. Things 'unique' to it get missed due to being a misnomer and not getting clocked. (But that is the nature of the Dread Powers after all.. being a fragmentation of their original singular mass.)
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The Extinction represents the fear of disaster that will bring about the end of everything—everything you know, love, need to survive. Everything you built, worked for, hoped for. The destruction of stories and of life, of the very history written by your land—your home.
Your community. Your society. Your species.
You.
Annihilated in totality.
The Extinction represents the fear of those that come after you to replace you—worse than you, different from you. Leaving you and your history and stories (the driver of your continued existence) forgotten forever. The fear of life moving on after you, ignorant and apathetic. Your story meaningless, irrelevant.
Your community's story. Your society's story. Your species' story.
Your story.
Erased and written over.
The Web represents the fear of being controlled, fate being out of your hands—by malevolent authorities out of reach, by abusive companions or relatives, by invisible forces far beyond the human comprehension. Spinning, winding, twisting, pulling each decision in your life made for you. Until destruction of the self by your own hand.
Your struggle for change futile. Your feet following the same path. Your fate determined for you.
You forfeit control—your feet march you to your bitter demise.
The Web represents the fear of being conspired against. Scheming, plotting, planning your downfall. The loss of everything you hold dear, worked for, bled for. Spinning, twisting, scripting lies about you. Your credibility falls to pieces, your world shatters, and your story distorts.
You are kept alive by the spreading of your story. And the people have decided to trust the manufactured tale.
You are forgotten—twisted into an image of something wrong.
...
Sometimes they're at odds. Where one seeks to manipulate the threads of everything endlessly, the other seeks to destroy it all so thoroughly, with such finality, as to mutate it– the schemes, the pawns, the gameboard itself.
Sometimes they're complementary. Where you watch as you lose everyone you cared for one by one, spiraling down a path darker into entropy, the irreversible nightmare, and wondering if you ever really had free will in the first place– if anyone did.
What if the end for you really was just another game to them? What if this wasn't their first round? What if you're just the next step in the grand scheme, larger than even your own universe?
Alright, now with that out of the way, let's bring back the question.
How did the Extinction change Jon, and how did this cause the altered result of the finale?
The Web has been there since the near beginning, pulling Jon along and guiding him to his next milestone in the plot. She had known the world would come to an end one way or another, and wanted to bring it about on her own terms so that she—they all—could escape it.
So when the Web saw what the Eye was doing, she had an idea. So she aided their acolytes, seeing her sibling as the perfect way to bring all of them together for the final step. And the Web set her own card onto the board: Jon.
Jon had a natural disposition for the Eye; from stubborn curiosity to the reckless pursuit for answers to even the coldest cases. Whether he knows it or not, his mind is a gaping maw for horrible knowledge—chasing after experiences disguised as answers to his burning questions so dreadful they leave scars on him like sigils of a looming doom.
While he has no affinity for the Web's machinations, he is still hers. She has no issue with guiding agents from across the court, she knows how to share. Especially when it benefits her. Jon archives each event, every little detail, with such care and readiness that he makes the perfect vessel to pull them in—to guide them out. He'd flourish best as her tool in the Watcher's sphere.
After the Watcher's Crown and the Dread Powers came into the world, the Extinction started to make its presence known. It seeped into other Domains and fed on the people's dread for permanent catastrophic change, on their fear of ruin and total desctruction. And as Jon traversed them and lived through their fear, so was he marked by the Extinction.
It seeped into his skin like oil and burned through his veins like acid. It tainted his trails with the radioactivity of human hubris and greed, twisting and mutating both the mundane and Dreadful as he passed. It closed its grasp on him with the tightness plastic rings and infected his Perceived routes with the stench of mountainous landfill and the thickness of city smog.
The Web and the Extinction had a complex relationship, but in this moment they guided the Archivist in synchronous song like a soldier being led to his final mission: dropping the nuclear bomb.
Did Jon know?
...
No.
The twines of manipulation layer labyrinthine over everything, above and below and through every angle and dimension. Even the Nigh-Omniscient Antichrist and his All-Knowing God will never fathom its depths.
He might never know that he helped start the Extinction's ritual: Raze the Earth.
Or that both the Web and the Eye knew and did nothing. (honestly, the latter's only there for the show)
So when Martin stabbed Jon and Melanie lit the gas mainline, the threads around the world snapped and the glowing light of humanity's greatest sins exploded over everything—
—and they prayed—
—and they wept—
—and the Dreads rushed out torrentially. (pulling a few strays with them)
Now for the part you were all waiting for (well I was)—the Heart of this AU
The Dread Powers and the ones who were dragged with them were transported Somewhere Else– a parallel world in a parallel universe. But they were. . . Changed from their previous/original selves.
The tag-alongs—Martin & Jon of course, but also Annabelle Cane, Oliver Banks, Simon Fairchild, and Arthur Nolan—replaced their parallels at birth, and gained partial or full amnesia to their past lives. But their personalities are altered, reflecting some aspects of their pre-finale personalities.
Except for Jon. Jon, the Pupil of the Eye, the Warhead of the Extinction, the Spools of the Web, the Archive of the Dreads and linchpin to their escape. . . was significantly destroyed in the center of the storm. He got it and so much worse—a stick so short its existence was inverted.
While they did get reach the new universe, they had to reconstruct their linchpin/Archive that they're still connected to so that his total destruction doesn't tear them apart as well (being an Extinction avatar that's now deeply connected with them, he's capable of "taking them down with him").
When Jon was reborn, he was literally thrown into the world like a meteorite, landing with an explosive blast that rendered the surrounding area a lifeless wasteland in moments. High radioactivity and a deathly curse left few flora or fauna returning before wasting away soon after. Those that 'survived' did so by being infected by the Extinction or Corruption.
It would permanently remain uninhabitable, and it would take months before the withered stillborn spawn of the sapient eldritch Dread Entities would crawl out of the jagged crater on its own, none the wiser to its tragedies.
TL;DR
The Web manipulated Jon's attempt to put a stop to the Entities' reign, utilizing the Eye's easy influence to help the Dreads escape the world and into a fresh new one before they were also destroyed in the Extinction's "Raze the Earth" ritual (set up by using Jon to weave toxic-filled veins throughout the world he was traversing that'll explode at once 'grand finale' style).
Jon, now deeply binded to the Entities' purest forms and still an Extinction time-bomb, was mostly destroyed during the trip to Somewhere Else and the Entities had to reconstruct him so his death wouldn't destroy them too. This led to Jon being reborn a near completely different being (with some of him preserved) as functionally the direct spawn of the Dread Powers, replacing his parallel counterpart from the new world.
#yes i made him So Much Worse ur welc <333#if you couldn't tell this is my favorite self-indulgent au#i love jon he's my favorite ragdoll /aff#so sorry for the length i honestly thought it'd be shorter :8#i have a name for this au but it's also the name of a collection of au's so lmk if you have a name for this one specifically!#i'd love to hear any thoughts!#don't be shy but don't feel obligated#tma#tma au#yafc au#yafc-j au#tma time travel au#tma somewhere else#it's not really a 'fix-it' au i'm just used to that being part of the name lol#ig it'll depend where the au goes whether it's a fix-it or just me using jon as a sandboxing dummy#tma jon#jonathan sims#tma entities#jonmartin#to-be#(sorry for the clickbait jonmartin consumers they're not in this post just the au hehe)#tma writing#my writing#god i'm probly gonna cringe at the mess of these tags later but whatever i'm too busy riding my high to care atm#future me's problem#my post
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Trying to finish something I was supposed to do ages ago--spinning a contrast color for this sock yarn. The fleece (southdown babydoll) had a pretty wide range of grays, most of which I blended together. But I intentionally left the darkest gray out of the mix so that later I could spin up just that, and have a dark gray for the toe and heel. So, now I'm doing that.
One thing I did not realize until now (due to intentionally avoiding working with the darker gray locks) is that they are all much shorter than the other colors of gray, and a lot of them are way finer too. That's not ideal, so I might not use it for the toe--it won't be as hard-wearing of a yarn and the toe/ball of the foot is what wears out the fastest on my socks by far, so. It's fine though, I just want some kind of decorative element that uses the fact that this fleece had lots of nice colors.
I'm also not that surprised, I guess. The longest locks were always the very light gray ones. Hard to know why without seeing the sheep though.
#spinning#handspun yarn#southdown#hand combed top#sock yarn#ive been trying to work on the hat but i need to frog and debug and also come up with some new peeries#and all of that requires brain which i do not have#and i realized actually i just wanted to knit socks and not think abt stuff#the distaff spinning... i am also having problems with#holding it is killing my hands. didnt realize quite how much until i switched to spinning this#which is not usually painful unless my hands are already fucked#so while i love that distaff i dont think i can really use it RIP#next model i might try one of the longer ones that can be held in place a variety of ways rather than exclusively held in the hand#i dont know what theyre called but ive seen tons in paintings of spinners. usually like the length of an arm maybe ?#could work better. we'll see#supported spinning
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is this the equivalent of a work pizza party
#im not trying to be ungrateful and so on and so forth nice gesture etc#this is coming from our head chef who is technically one of our managers but not The Manager#and its like whatever but. do you get me#anyway i dont think the shelf would even be a help to me my brother in christ i can barely fit my huge ass coat in there.#a shelf will not help this problem#ive also been thinking more and more that its really kind of stupid for me to have a locker on the 63rd floor when i work on 15#like if something happens i gotta take my ass up to 63 to get my stuff???#but its whatever. ive gotta get out of here but its fine#by the way these are like half size lockers. not the full length ones or whatever#whatever its fine in the torture chamber and none of this really matters anyway. thank you for listening
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your room was square
i once noticed from there
in your bed, as you slept
and i held my breath
everything had its own place
and i wondered what space would i take
in the order you kept
#in this drawing i wanted to use the song ‘Square’ by Mitski#personally i feel like this song is about being in love and trying far too hard to be the perfect lover that you are incapable of being#to me it’s like trying to see where you fit in that person’s life and not knowing where you belong in it#but then you’re still longing for that feeling of belonging there with them#so you self-destructively go to great lengths to ‘earn’ your place with them#i feel that the self-destructive behavior of trying to be that perfect lover just to ‘earn’ their love#is exactly the ‘burning’ that Mitski describes#it hurts trying to fit in but not quite succeeding again and again and again...#this is something that i think i relate to#trying far too hard to belong with someone who is 'only sometimes madly in love with me'#and says that i 'wouldn't be their first choice'#-that person kept switching between wanting me as a friend and a lover and now i am neither#and yet therein lies the problem: if i cared less and gave less effort#perhaps we could’ve worked things out without me trying too hard to “earn” their love#but why would i ever try to care less?#the situation was doomed from the start and i lost a friend in the process#i made this illustration to reflect that the best i could. I think the square motif was particularly obvious—#the canvas itself is a square and the illustration itself has to fit in a square box#everything else i drew would have to fit within this box to maintain the “order”#the colors are all some type of blue with not too much contrast except for the text eyes and teardrop on the figure#i wanted to keep contrast low within this illustration— everything should be “fitting in" after all#for the figure itself i wanted it to be clear that the figure is being forced into that square#its body’s being forced into that half of the box and even then its head is forced downwards#it’s clearly not fitting comfortably but it’s sure trying its hardest to#also also also!!! i wanted to do more angular shapes with this drawing because square and whatever lol :P#i don’t think i was particularly obvious in communicating that in the drawing though#but anyways i just wanted to draw to help process something that happened to me a while back :0#i still think i love that person but just like how i don’t have a place in their life#i don’t think they have a place in mine and i think i’m starting to make peace with that :D#jaevyart
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i should have paid more attention to the first part of the little saurian world quest bc i am now fully invested
#0.txt#but ochkanatlan was good i enjoyed it. i appreciate that it was succinct but immersive kinda like the remuria world quest#i was kind of confused at the end but i just read people's summaries and i more or less get it now#genshin's writing can be super obtuse which is only aggravated by super long quests esp bc my attention span isn't that long#like honestly i still don't know wtf was up with the narzissenkreuz ordo and at this point idc either LMAOOO#but yeah its a shame aq/sq are so tied to the fact that this is a gacha and the marketability of its characters#bc that just lends itself so easily to ass writing. inazuma and natlan have been the biggest victims of that so far lol#meanwhile the wq's clearly have a lot more freedom to really give their stories depth#but their length and vague way of explaining things also makes them hard to understand unless you're really paying attention#idek what point i'm trying to make here. you can't win ig both modes have its problems afkjladsfj#i feel like i'm just constantly oscillating between rolling my eyes at a lot of the shit that happens in the main story vs being#completely ?????????? during a world quest#also per my last post i was super excited about ochkanatlan's ost at the entrance#but it honestly got more boring/generic the further you went in. still very pretty but it wasn't the next enkanomiya i was hoping for </3#i am excited to explore more of the area though
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TW FOR BODY HORROR
Stranger Things: Vecna's Generals AU - Character Sheets
Feel free to use these for reference, as these are the current designs and relevant information. This will override some old information posts, as their contents have been added to/tweaked/removed, but here they are for reference:
Original Master Post
Original Song List (Links still valid and playlists are updated)
Hawkins Civilians title expansion
#vecna's generals#clothing tears/lengths/details may vary depending on plot or modesty#or plain art style inconsistency and laziness bc lord knows i have a problem with that#but finally! actually legit and relevant character sheets!#apologies if the text is hard to read i added alt text in case you can't read it very well#alt text also has appearance clarification!#also also not entirely sure what counts as body horror aside from The Sacrifices' whole deal but just in case#stranger things#stranger things au#barbara holland#bob newby#billy hargrove#chrissy cunningham#fred benson#patrick mckinney#eddie munson#jason carver#max mayfield#tw body horror#body horrow cw#also the back to back posts were on accident#i've been working on these for over a week but i randomly decided to finish the next installment of possessed eddie
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me 2day in the middle of a MCR related episode VS me almost exactly two years ago in the middle of a MCR related episode
#MAIN diff#is that im like. happy and not at the start of my senior year of college and having like a MAJOR breakdown due to Many Problems#also i dont have my vampire fangs on me for once….#or the skeleton gloves jamie gave me…#these things are at home. sadly.#otherwise id be wearing both#also my hair is long but in between these lengths i DID cut it into an attempted revenge era frank iero fauxhawk#also i traded out my cross pendant for a locket with a photo of both jamie AND godzilla#anywayz#me literally#newt speaks#love this fuckign sweater#i should do eyeliner again…
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#like. i have a lot of shit wrong with me and i think generally an accurate idea of that stuff#i get that#but i’m always alone. all day all the time i’m just. alone#other people are also flawed. without being always alone#in fact Every one of the biggest assholes i know has person(s) that’s intentionally and voluntarily merged intimate daily lives w them#so like. of all my known problems#i still don’t understand which is the searing neon red flag#that MUST be visible and obvious to everybody else#what about me is so bad? what about me is so much shittisr and worse to be around than other people#or is it something missing? something other people have and i don’t? because i don’t know what that is either#there’s a point where a generally positive opinion of yourself breaks down p rapidly#and that’s when you realize for just how long#and by how many people#you’ve been passed up#like you can think you’re great all you want#and that’s generally important. and can help bridge lonely gaps here and there#but you go a certain length of time where you can’t seem to get anybody else to agree that you’re#worth anybody else’s time or care in a serious and real way#and it’s like oh okay well. so in the real world i’m not worth anything then. that’s what that means#you know. like. me deciding i Am Good is arbitrary and unfounded n doesn’t mean anything#shrugggggggggggg
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@eyeless-smiles asked:
31. for one muse to choke the other
@mad-hunts replied:
perhaps egging someone like the corinthian on really wasn't a good idea after all. but in times where barton felt like he was a cold dead thing rather than a person, he wasn't necessarily known for making the best decisions. whenever he had a therapist, barton remembered the doctor actually warning him against engaging in risky behaviors like this one; because he'd divulged to her one day that sometimes he'd purposely try to initiate a fight with someone just to feel something. to channel how shitty he felt inside into physical pain, because at least that was something barton always knew how to deal with. but the other going straight for the throat changed things.
without much warning, he could feel himself being pushed into the wall by the corinthian and an impressive amount of weight bearing down on his windpipe. whatever nerve barton hit — it must've been one that was deeply personal because there was no way he'd do this over some petty insult. that might've just been wishful thinking, though, because what did he truly know about the figure? barton soon dug his nails into the other's hands after attempting to push his arm down, to no avail.
they were sharpened as usual, and due to the fact that he had no weapons, barton just prayed it'd make him at least shrink back a little. short, ugly gasps started to escape barton as he tried to scratch the corinthian's face then, ❝ aha, and here i — i thought you... you liked me. but it seems like, ❞ it took him a great amount of effort to speak at the moment, so he paused. ❝ being told you don't have the depth or the warmth to be... ❞ barton sucked in a deep breath while he kicked at the other's legs, ❝ anything more than what you are now stings, doesn't it? i would know. people have considered me to be a monster for years. ❞
he looked the corinthian straight in the eyes as his vision started to black out at the edges, ❝ i think that there is a certain beauty in darkness, though. i think you're beautiful. ❞ barton could've been saying this to get the other to remove his hand from his throat, yes, but it sounded genuine in a very twisted way. like he was feeling both a mix of titillation and panic.
The rush of an adrenaline filled heartbeat fluttering beneath his hands is tantalising to the monster. It's soothing to feel the pulse of life beneath his own palms. But it's also a cruel reminder of exactly what Barton has that the Corinthian doesn't.
Life. True, genuine life. The Nightmare was made only to imitate it. His heartbeat is fake. A command he can switch on and off on a whim. As is his breathing. He doesn't need air. Not like the man choking out beneath his palms. And the Dollmaker has the audacity to point it out. To tell the Corinthian it doesn't have the depth to experience humanity. And it hurts because it's true. Worse than the burn of sharpened nails clawing at his visage and knocking his shades askew to reveal grimacing maws.
And then Barton tries to claim he and the Corinthian are alike.
How, when Bartons pulse thumps like a rabbit beneath his hands, and his body fights so desperately for air. His struggling is useless. The Corinthian is strong. Far more so than any mortal. The Dollmakers life is held to the whims of the Nightmare, and this brings him some comfort. Knowing that it can snuff out the very thing that Barton unknowingly flaunts so brazenly in his face.
He certainly didn't expect a compliment to come tumbling out of those lips. His mein cants to the side as a hint of confusion creases the Corinthian's brows, and the pressure does alleviate. If only slightly. Enough to feed the mortal enough air to speak. Encroaching on the Dollmakers personal space in order to bring half exposed maws closer to those tantalising dark eyes.
"You talk too much for your own good."
#((jsjshsh I have no problem with unhinged flirting!!#((corinth is like “how dare you flaunt your humanity infront of me asshole” but receives one compliment and hes suddenly like “oh :)”#((moved this to a new post too for cleanliness!#ic#mad-hunt#((also dont feel pressured to match reply length with me either!!#closed rp
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I see some ppl are already speculating that the final episode of YR could maybe be a special extended episode and not to get anyone’s hopes up (me, lmao. I’m talking about me) but that wouldn’t be unprecedented. That’s exactly what they did for Sex Education.
Obviously it’s a different production, a different country etc.
But pls I beg give me more time with these characters and let me dream while I can 😭
#young royals#young royals season 3#young royals spoilers#young royals s3#I will accept whatever they give but good god imagine a feature length finale#also the only reason I remember this is bc I binged sex ed s4 in one go bc it was terrible and I just wanted to get it over with#but then I got to the final episode not realizing how long it was and got mad bc it just wouldn’t END and I wanted to go to bed lmao#I don’t foresee that being a problem with YR tho bc I have faith in wilmon endgame so it will be worth watching every second 🤧
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Maaaaaaaaaaaan, come on.
(the post has ended up in the tags btw. I am not changing this and I need you to understand that it is just me talking to myself semi-publicly)
#Nevi Writes#things said by a guy writing a thing he doesn't even intend to be writing and it's like 10k of words now. >:[#while that's true I do want to emphasize that nobody should get excited about it right now tho okay#because like it's just. idk. I feel very much like it could end up not worth pursuing anyway. it's just a little baby wip.#(when the fuck did my little baby wips get to be 1/4-1/2 the length of my previous 'finished' stories!! what the hell)#it just feels nice to make words tho. and it does have that kind of 'ah good to catch up with these guys again' vibe which is nice.#even if the break has once again been like. on the order of days to a week maybe. I'm so bad at this taking a break business suddenly. lel.#but I don't have anything much to say about it at this point#other than I'm debating inventing a reason that presidential elections would have been moved by a couple of years between now and 2212#what is it with me and having to be so damn precise with dates in this whole narrative. am I just mad that Capcom never tries?#(yes) (so mad)#(and 2212 would actually be an election year is the problem. I want time to have passed but I also want there to be a pres. election.)#(it's fine don't worry about it)#(this is how I decided that Blucifer got bload up and then replaced also. weird reliance on mashing up IRL things and fictional explosions)#(but it's fun isn't it? got that veneer of verisimilitude. I'm good at long words)#idk this is inevitable isn't it. but I'm going to keep playing like it's not. I think I need a little more space for this one mentally.#the first one just sort of fell out of my head fully assembled and the second one did that also but with different vibes#though it did actually take some cutting things and adjusting things to make it work which Failure to Compile did not#Failure to Compile was bizarrely effortless until the mad editing dash. Outcome Unpredictable was WORK#fun work at least! but in hindsight it was definitely more work to make it flow properly.#the real job for the 3th if it happens is gonna be wrapping up threads without dropping new ones in bc that's such a habit of mine now
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