#i also have 4 insects left to get lol

[mangostar]

FINALLY got the mahi mahi! now i got 2 fish left this month

[squarebracketsmileyface]

you mentioned before that tim and brian would have a hypothetical kid named jesse down the line, if jesse is going to be canon, what is he like and what is his relationship with his parents and sister?

Honestly I haven't thought much about Jesse simply because he's so far in the future and I've been very preoccupied with Birdie and Tim, but I have put at least a little thought into his relationship with his parents and sister. Well, mostly his sister lol.

He adores Birdie from the get go, is absolutely fascinated by her and constantly wants to be held by her. He'll fuss when she leaves the room etc. he's such a big sisters boy (is that a word? Like mummy's boy or daddy's girl? Whatever) he adores her, and she adores him back, constantly brings him bugs to look at and all that. He did try to put one in his mouth a few times when he was a baby though so she has to keep the bugs just out of baby-arm's reach 💀

She's also his number one defender when he starts school. They're both autistic and very weird with it (Birdie with her insects and Jesse with I think it was lizards? Reptiles and lizards and stuff like that I'm pretty sure?) so unfortunately Jesse does get bullied a bit... Until his big sister brings in the insect the kid bullying Jesse is most scared of the next day and just sorta follows him around with it, telling him facts about it while he's crying because she's chasing him with some terrifying creature in hand. She threatens to put it on him if he picks on Jesse again (even though she definitely wouldn't because the insect could get hurt that way) and yeah, Jesse doesn't get picked on again. After that he doesn't get bullied again, sorta? just that kinda mean "leaving that person out and not choosing them in PE etc" kinda bullying? That's still bullying but he's not getting physically bullied or insulted by his peers so?

He's got a couple of good friends though, and he has absolutely no qualms about spending lunch with his big sister. For the sake of me loving these two, they're at a very small school which has like, reception to year 11 —about 4 to 16 year old— kids all on one school, tho reception to year six —about 4 to 10/11 years old?— probably have their own playgrounds so they don't get kneed in the heads by older kids 💀. This is because I don't know how US schools work and I can't be bothered to work it out so I'm going with UK school age ranges and year names and all that. Basically Jesse and Birdie's primary school and highschool are the same place and Birdie can go onto the primary school playgrounds at lunch without getting yelled at by teachers (pretty sure you can't do that at UK schools either, even when primary and high school are on basically the same land, at least you couldn't at the schools I went to, but anyway)

When it comes to Jesse and his parents I've thought about it a lot less unfortunately 💀

I have thought about him and Tim a bit? Tho that was mostly me thinking about Tim and Birdie and coming up with something because of that. Anyway, Tim is a very anxious parent, he's lost so many people in his life and really struggles with not being able to see Birdie at all times, he was a major helicopter parent because he was constantly catastrophizing about something awful happening to her if he left the room for even a moment. And obviously he gets better with this over time, therapy works wonders so he was a little less of a helicopter with Jesse, but when Birdie moves away for University he really struggles with panicking about if she's okay. She phones him most nights to chat, but between those times he's gotta do something with his anxiety.

So, he puts all his focus into Jesse. Jesse's like, idk still under ten when Birdie's 18 and off to uni, so he's still living at home (duh) and Tim can just dote on him. So he does. Tim bakes with Jesse whenever he wants, let's Jesse help with making his dinner (even though it slows the process down exponentially), is happy to let Jesse stay up ten minutes longer whenever he wants (this isn't as bad as it could be though because in his head Tim's set Jesse's bedtime at like, half 8 at latest and he gives Jesse his "ten more minutes" at 7:20pm so like, Jesse's only feeling like he's going to bed late y'know?)

Jesse loves his dad's, absolutely adores them. Not as much as he adores his sister, but still a lot.

Also I keep thinking about giggly, bubbly, grinning baby and toddler Jesse sitting on Brian's lap while Brian does wheelies and spins in circles in his wheelchair. Jesse's definitely a "spinning in circles" autistic kid and his favourite way to spin is sitting in Brian's lap. Only issue there is Brian getting dizzy and not being able to do it for as long as Jesse wants lol.

[atamascolily]

Lily liveblogs: Thunderbolt Fantasy 4x05, "The Demon Court Nobles"

"Have fun storming the castle!"

picking up from where we left off last week with the road trip through the Wasteland of Spirits and Juan Can Yun and Dan Fei asking "Are we there yet?"

Shang: Don't make me turn this expedition around!

they want to stop and rest in a crevasse and Shang thinks this is a bad idea but they do it anyway

they are attacked by evil vines and NOPE it back out into the sandstorm, lololol

Wasteland of Spirits is Tatooine from Star Wars, confirmed

I don't know why Shang thought he could just let these kids go off by themselves, thank goodness he got smacked by plot or else they'd be toast.

meanwhile, in the demon realm, Chao Feng's sole surviving officer freaks out and runs off... straight into a han jiao's mouth and is devoured on camera with lots of blood and gore. OM NOM NOM.

Chao Feng also freaks the fuck out, but is saved by Mu Tian Ming. When Chao Feng asks why, she's like, "I dunno, seemed like a good idea at the time". beautiful cinnamon roll, too good for this world, too pure.

Instead of thanking her, Chao Feng yells at Tian Ming for taking Lang away and says it's all her fault; Tian Ming does not slap her across the face, but says that that might be true if Lang came here by chance, but she thinks he has a purpose. AND SHE'S RIGHT.

I hope Chao Feng has a redemption arc, but I fear for the worst for Lang and Tian Ming and everybody else as soon as she finds herself on more solid ground. (you just know Azibelpher will LOVE her scheming little mind)

The Order of the Divine Swarm arrives at Azibelpher's castle and Ba Wang Yu decides to storm the gates while Hua Wu Zong turns invisible and slips inside in the chaos. Lin, disguised as Piao Miao, opts to wait outside and watch.

this pays off when Xing Hai shows up with Lang and he immediately switches back to his normal form to surprise them.

Lin immediately picks up that Lang is part demon (the horn kinda gave it away, lol) and turns him temporarily invisible so he can sneak into the castle. He then turns his attention to charming exposition out of Xing Hai and plays her like a damn fiddle.

elsewhere, Ansaato is skittering around the Demon Court on his little insect legs (complete with sound effects) and is pissed that Azibelpher is early for their meeting (and apparently in the flesh???)

the other nobles show up, including Parasol Lady my beloved, but unfortunately, we don't get a good sense of their personalities in their brief back and forth. Other demons include: Covid Safety Protocols (wears a mask); Megamind (turban, big head); and Blue Enforcer of the Status Quo. I thought Megamind was going to be an evil advisor based on his character design, but he's just a guy, I guess??? At least there's nothing much to distinguish him here.

the demon king is a shadowy figure hidden behind a screen and HMMM THAT SEEMS FAMILIAR WHERE HAVE I SEEN THAT ONE BEFORE, but he's got a new VA, so he's probably not somebody we already know. Probably.

(can you tell I'm still scarred from last season's reveal, lol)

turns out that the statue macguffins are seals that allow you to summon demon gods if you get a quorum (4). There are 8 total, one for each demon noble and the king.

everybody is freaked out that Jia Li is dead and her seal is missing. Azi plays innocent, lol.

Lin finds all this out from Xing Hai, so he'll probably start collecting them now because thieves gonna thieve. Lang is also collecting them, but he's the only one at this point who doesn't know what they do, and this is probably all part of Azi's plan to awaken the demon gods and start the War of the Fading Dusk in earnest.

[look, if you put a sleeping demon god in the first episode, it had damn well better wake up by the last episode, I'm just saying].

also Lin has decided to torment Xing Hai by speculating he might be a demon, too because he's not affected by the demon realm the way a normal human should be.

he's trolling, obviously, but it's funny because he uses the same phrase Shang does: "no matter what anyone chooses to call me, it doesn't matter because I know who I am"

I've said this before and I'll say it again: Shang and Lin are opposites, complements, parallels, and foils, and also archetypal, and this extends to their backstories as well, which means it's unlikely that we'll see parents for either of them.

Xing Hai is objectively speaking a terrible person but I feel so bad for her because her shitty kind-of ex being a demon would solve a lot of problems for her because demons are supposed to be shitty to each other. So she's actually really into this, and while nothing Lin says is an outright lie, it certainly isn't the full truth.

{Xing Hai being in love with Lin is mostly subtext in the show itself, but it's in the light novel, and also there is a delightful series of social media posts where she fantasizes about what to do with him when he's theoretically under Seven Blasphemous Death's control and one of them is marrying him in a Western-style wedding with Azibelpher as the minister. And even then they're STILL not the most toxic het couple in the show by a wide margin!!!!}

meanwhile, Ba Wang Yu murders everybody and walks into the castle and Lin tells Xing Hai that Azibelpher isn't there because otherwise some would have stayed back to defend their master.

[this is why Azi was at the meeting early, lol]

Cut to Lang Wu Yao wandering around the empty castle, only for Spider to sneak up on him with chains, believing him to be Azibelpher.

.... you know what, he's not exactly wrong, Lang really does resemble his dad and the portraits are everywhere because Azibelpher lives in a gothic castle and has decorated accordingly

I really hope Wasp and Spider team up with Lang since they all hate Azibelpher, because the alternative is that Lang kills both of them next episode and I want to keep them around for as long as possible.

this episode is so fucking funny and I laughed so hard, twenty minutes just FLEW by, can't wait for next week

[ladsofsorrow24]

a get to know you better meme

@loquatenjoyer69 tagged me so... why not. 🤷 thanks crow! <3

do you make your bed? not really, i just fix the bed cover if it's all over the place, but other than that, i left it how it is

what's your favourite number? 4? and 9? idk i don't have any superstition about numbers but 4 and 9 just look nice to me hehe

what is your job? the only job i have these days is drawing comm, so... nope i'm unemployed... 🥲

If you could go back to school would you? nah... not really. i like learning new shit, but i don't like following rules

can you parallel park? i am afraid of driving.

a job you had that would surprise people? customer service. i am a pretty volatile person.

do you think aliens are real? kinda? never saw them but this world is weird as it is, aliens just make sense. but i don't think they wanna come to earth tho humanity aren't as interesting as hollywood make us to be

can you drive a manual car? i am afraid of driving, and the only car i know how to drive is auto. even then i am still scared.

what's your guilty pleasure? idk i always feel guilty about anything i like lmao

tattoos? nope. first, because of religious reasons. second, i'm scared of needles.

favourite colour? lately, it's red and black. blue as an accent color is nice too. i always say my favorite colors is the spectrum between red to blue

favourite type of music? i like rock and metal... pop is good but most of them are pretty predictable to me. jazz and orchestral is pretty damn good too but it doesn't inspire me much compared to rock and metal tho

do you like puzzles? played windows solitaire until level 100+ so i think i can say yes to this haha

any phobias? fucking... cockroaches. or any insects really, i can't stand em, if i look at one somehow i can just feel em crawling on my skin... 😖

favourite childhood sport? i like badminton... i miss playing em. also cycling... i love that, but i can still remember getting into too many accidents lol so i try not to like it too much

do you talk to yourself? all the time. sometimes it's two to three voices talking at the same time. and the other voices will code switch from my native tongue to english because ofc my brain just love doing that... for no reason 🙄

what movie(s) do you adore? oh so many of them... Happy Together, Gonin, Sympathy for Lady Vengeance, Mad Max Fury Road, Ghost in The Shell, End of Evangelion and many more but i forgot...

coffee or tea? really love coffee before... but i got hospitalized for one day from drinking too much so nowadays i don't really drink em. not really fond of tea, it taste too... clean to me.

first thing you wanted to be growing up? an artist. look where i am now. lol

tagging @righteousdelusions @b1uetrees @yayee-prsp @rose-colored-sd if you guys wanna do it too

[sporesgalaxy]

it had four long legs and a very sharp stinger thing(?) And it had big wiggly antenna that looked like another leg and a grass hopper like head.

like this. im in the southeast us btw also it was at night

also gn!

Hmmmmmmmm could it have been a Straight Lanced Meadow Katydid?

Im glad you mentioned the grasshopper-like head! Grasshoppers, Katydids, and Locusts are all grouped together, and many of them share that distinctive head. It really narrowed down my search lol!!

Grasshoppers & Katydids tend to fold up their back legs so that it looks like they only have 4 shorter legs (see the locust on the left below), but I have seen some pictures of the straight lanced meadow katydid where it folds up some of its forelegs very tightly too (right, below)!

(Also as you can see on the right, the staight lanced katydid's ovipositor can get much longer apparently!)

Anyways, if my guess looks totally wrong, I'd advise you to look through the pictures of Grasshoppers & Crickets on insectidentification.com to see if you can find your critter

[rakkikuroba]

Some of the hardest boss in RE in my opinion and my experience.

No note for Neil or Alex because I struggled more with Pedro that with them lol

12. Mr X. I was too horny to really concentrate on the fight.

11. Lisa Trevor. Giving Barry his gun back for her to just punch him out of the platform made me so fucking angry. Also the Tyrant killed him during the last fight when I was trying to keep everyone alive :)))

10. 20h of gameplay to spent 10min on the last bad guy?? i didn’t like RE4. And I certainly didn’t like the fight against Saddler.

9. Wesker. I have something like 10 tries and 5 of them are me trying to figure out how im supposed to kill the fuckers while struggling with keeping ammos. Sheva was really fucking useless.

8. Jack Norman. Jack is in this because he is honestly the most fucked up BOWs bro could teleport and make illusion of him. Overall it’s was pattern recognition (thx autism) that beat his ass. Also he is terrifying? And Chris was absolutely useless.

7. The Haos. I didn’t have bullet anymore so I would wait for Piers to attack for me. It was long because the bot in RE6 are useless and they kept not healing me while standing right next to me?? And the Haos’s kind of the only memorable boss in RE6 because Piers dies right after :(

6. Jack Krauser this time. (To explain i played the og) COULDN’T THEY TELL ME SOONER I NEED TO USE MY KNIFE??? Leon went kaboom so much because of this

5. Nemesis. Not even going to specify which fight. The two last one. Carlos was useless "Careful more zombies coming" I KNOW IT’S THE 6TH TIME YOURE TELLING ME I CAN’T SHOOT NEMESIS WHEN HES RUNNING ON FUCKING WALL. And i couldn’t figure out how to shoot bro with the big gun.

4. Excella and the cadavers. GUESS WHO ALSO WAS USELESS DURING THIS FIGHT?? SHEVA!! (At least she helped with Jill because i just shot Jill without thinking lol.

3. William but only with Leon (?). Like i spent so long trying to correctly shoot him without him throwing shit at me and with Claire I did it in under 10min??? Then he beat my ass again in Darkside Chronicles. I didn’t feel very sad for him very long…

2. Alexia. Alexia is a pain in the ass. And a naked one. Im at the very end, I have 10 ammos left, Claire’s mourning, my health bar is red. And you’re in a very small space AGAIN. She sends little insects that one-shotted me and then when you finished phase 1 you get phase 2 where she fucking flies and you have to shoot her except she flies and dodges and sends fireball. Almost rage quit (then 5min after Chris get his ass whooped by Wesker)

Special mention for Pedro, ily you’re not on this list because i didn’t beat you with Claire the first time i played lol.

For the fat T-Abyss zombies. You were a pain in the ass because you could one shot me (the most annoying part was the hundred of other zombies who kept spawning)

Not special mention for Simmons. Because you just couldn’t take a hint and kept coming back in another animal, lion, t-rex, fly??? Not even the same animals group?? I can’t remember who else i fought in Re6 because it wasn’t rememberable.

For the little guy in re4, can’t remember his name. Annoying but kinda cathartic ?

And for the OG tyrant, eat shit. But good job killing Wesker lol

Who else did we fight? Do we fight a boss in RE0? I don’t think we did? I mean the plant but not really we exploded it. The plant? I can’t remember the name of the guy im too tired it will come back tomorrow.

1. THE FUCKING TYRANT IN CODE VERONICA. MY SWORN ENEMY. THE VIDEO GAME ENEMY I PROBABLY SPENT THE MOST TIME TRYING TO BEAT. Im not even kidding it took me 3 days to beat his ass. I was in tears when i finally pushed his ass out of my plane. He’s the fucker i don’t want to see in the Remake lol.

[nymeriaaa]

tag game: get to know me!

thank you so much for the tag @svintsandghosts ! ♥

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1. Birthday? 22nd oct

2. Favorite color? green or purple, depends on the shade

3. How tall are you? about 5’3

4. How many pairs of shoes do you own? id say about 12 but i only wear like 3 pairs lol

5. Favorite song? currently it's regular by nct 127 buuuut don't ask me my all time fave coz like... i couldn't choose. it would probably be an mcr or green day song lol (or treasure by ateez)

6. Favorite movie? um well i love edward scissorhands and the lotr trilogy. oh and the harry potter movies too! school of rock... horror would probably be the descent part 1 only... ahh don't make me choose seriously i could list so many 😩

7. Who would be your ideal partner? idk... just someone who loves me for me and is kind, loyal... accepts the fact that i have many kpop boyfriends who will always own my heart 🙄

8. Do you want children? not really but i'd definitely compromise if i met the right guy and he wanted one

9. Have you gotten in trouble with the law? nope

10. What color socks are you wearing? none

11. Favorite type of music? pop punk/post hardcore/"emo", and kpop lol

12. How many pillows do you sleep with? ok so 2 for my head, 2 on the other side of the bed, my boomerang pillow and a big square/european one as well... so 6 lol

13. What position do you sleep in? i fall asleep on my side but when im just chilling in bed i can lay on back too for a bit

14. What don’t you like when you’re sleeping not having the fan on, i don't care what temperature it is. my fan stays on. (im keeping this answer cause same 100%)

15. Have you tried archery? nope

16. Favorite fruit? watermelon, blueberries and mango

17. Are you a good liar? no unless it's at work and i have to come up with an excuse to get out of going to another store or to not send one of my staff to another store... then im a brilliant liar. oh im also really good at lying about why i can't hang out or go somewhere if im not feeling up to it (which is most of the time lol)

18. What’s your personality type? istp. im very shy and the biggest introvert unless im comfortable around you, and awkward as fuck lol

19. Innie or outie? innie

20. Left or right handed? left

21. Favorite food? sushi. japanese good in general is just 🤌 delish

22. Favorite foreign food? oh well i just answered that in the question above? japanese. chinese, thai, korean and vetnamese are amazing too!

23. Are you clean or messy? both but trying to fix bad habits and keep my room clean and organised but it's hard when your mental health sucks sometimes

24. Most used phrase?

probably what the fuck and the word cunt in general. oh if you ask sandra my 2ic it would also be i don't care 😅

25. How long does it take you to get ready depends but if its for work about 30/40ish mins

26. Do you talk to yourself? of course

27. Do you sing to yourself? yes lol

28. Are you a good singer? hell no

29. Biggest fear? this is stupid and lame but spiders/insects/bugs/creepy crawlies... just all of that 😬

30. Are you a gossip? not really, maybe a little at work but it's more just complaining and bitching about our shitty area managers lol

31. Long or short hair? for me? long hair. but i like both on other people

32. Favorite school subject? um... none? lol like i didn't have any one subject i was really good at compared to others i was just kinda average in everything but really really bad at maths and science

33. Extrovert or introvert? introvert

34. What makes you nervous? yeah people, public speaking... there's more but ill leave it at that

35. Who was your first crush? his name was matthew it was in year 3. i found out he passed away a few years ago and he had a wife and kid so that was sad

36. How many piercings do you have? just my ears (which have kinda closed up lol) i used to have my lip done too many years ago

37. How many tattoos do you have? one but wanting more!

38. How fast can you run? no ❤️ (lol same)

39. What color is your hair? purple atm but it's faded so i need to redo it

40. What color are your eyes? hazel

41. What makes you angry? so many fucking things. work makes me angry (not my team in store but mostly everyone else) i could rant about my workplace for a whole fucking month i swear. when i see people talking shit about people/artists i love. people who play games and toy with other people's emotions and use them... im gonna stop but i could list a lot

42. Do you like your name? yeah

43. Do you want a boy or girl as a child? none but if i were to have one... i guess a boy... idk

44. What are your strengths? um im friendly and welcoming, kind. i think overall im a good person and that's a good thing... lol

45. What are your weaknesses? shy, ignore red flags and forgive people too easily. scared of confrontation due to being shy so i don't speak up as much as i should especially when it comes to my beliefs and i guess in that sense i can be a bit of a pushover... but only in certain scenarios. i definitely need more confidence

46. What’s the color of your bedspread? black and white atm

47. What’s the color of your room? black, grey and white wall paper on one wall then just a neutral, off white colour the rest

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Tagging but no obligation; @alphadisaster @septicrebel @jin-neck-shaft @hyuckilstan @saynofakke

[rosenecklaces]

Elain and Azriel for the ask game

Hii bestie tsm for the ask 💓

- For elain

First impression: she was just like me fr LMAO No but in all seriousness, I don't know if sjm intended to write a typical young girl with no job that just isn't fan of doing stuff but... that's me? I have getting better tho but when I started acotar almost two years ago I don't particularly hated her because I am just as lazy and kind of "in the clouds" ( tho we don't know if she and nesta took care of the house/cleaning so there's that)

Impression now: Azriel better square the fuck up or I make her my wife. I love the gradually little glimpses of who she is that we had been given, I am delighted by her grow and who she had become since the first book to acosf. I am glad I didn't gave up to read the rest of the series because GOD I needed an unapologetically soft and kind character that isn't a pushover and actually haves narrative relevance, is surprising to find (for me) esp. in a fantasy book series

Favorite moment: All? Lol genuinely practically all she does and says I'm like "yes queen get into it". But if I have to choose 100% the killing of hybern and "don't you touch my sister", the headache powder scene and the "come find me when you wish to begin" it was hot as hell + omg "and that makes him entitled of my attention?" The way I GASPED I was clapping and screaming like crazy I swear, also when she confronted lucien and called him out for his betrayal and left him GAGGED god I was smiling like crazy

Idea for a story: I'm into creepy shit and I think seer elain have potential for some spooky and gothic kind of stuff. "mother nature" elain is also an idea I'm interested in. Would love if she haves some weird extra connection to the cauldron/the mother too

Unpopular opinion: OH fuck I have a lot of those but gonna try keep it basic= She wouldn't have kids on her own but she would adopt, I see she+ az are more of the adopting side. She's morr chubby than her sisters and her arm are way stronger that you would think (this woman is a gardener full time c'mon) and I feel, in her mind, she is way more "rude" and the only think stopping her from insulting someone in their face is her self control and education, she is big lover of nature and animals but insects is a no no for her ( especially when they eat her flowers!) She likes parties and knowing new people but her social battery can get drained easily

Favorite relationship: Tamlain :)... could you imagine LOL, obviously elriel they are my 4 lifers. I also like some morlain and vasslain and casslain on the side,nice and cute. I like the archeron sisters messiness and their moments, little but good for my heart

Favorite headcanon: she's bi but tbh half the characters i like I see them as bi sowrry. I like the dusk theory a lot and I'll forever be a believer of it. I think her seer powers are just the tip of the iceberg and she actually haves mind powers (Jean Grey type of powerful) and I think she knows of her charms/how people views her and use it as an advantage she definetely could kill a person and get away with it ( gaslight gatekeep girlboss 💅)

- Azriel

F.I : 100% tought he was gonna be the typical "mysterious bad boy that doesn't give a shit and is cold as ice" I was so ready to ignore his ass, then he started to talk and do some stuff in his first pages and I was like "hmm, maybe your just like me fr.." and OH. MY .GOD I was RIGHT

I.N: He couldn't get over his crush of allegedly 500+ years? he didn't like to lost his breath in meaningless convos? he loves knifes and daggers and doesn't like to be touched by sweaty people? he hides his emotions because God forbid people realize you can FEEL? he's honest but also polite? his touch starved? like-, the online fandom tricked me... he isn't some sexy mysterious god he's just me but more baddass and a hot emo 🤷🏽‍♀️. He's everything to me now, he's like a brother to me he's my lost twin he's an emotional represed emo too weak for a woman's touch and I love him so much if sjm ruins him if someone speak ill of him if anything (more) bad happens to him I'm going to kill everyone in this room and then myself — I'm very normal about him yes.

F.M: as with elain love them all. In my top there's his moments with the archeron sisters, defending feyre and understanding nesta, the seeing and befriending elain slowly. The "im getting her back" whole scene, fucking hell that was awesome. carrying elain while injured and gotta ad the putting the necklace in elain, man's hands where SHAKING love that for him. Bonus the "I don't know what your talking about" to rhys when he knew damn well he catched him in the act, "what if the cauldron was wrong"+ knowing he would win in the BR, Slayyyyyyyyyyyy king

IFAS: hmm, gonna go with him finding his his step bros and killing them for what they did 🤷🏽‍♀️ give me vengeful azriel the bastards deserves it. As with elain, him as a high lord of dusk could be so nice. I also wish SJM didn't had ruined his+ rhys and cass relationship with the illyrians, she did awful making him hate his own people it could had been interesting exploring his illyrian blood more

Unpopular opinion: OH BOYYY AHAH. I don't believe he's a crazy sex casanova that had lovers left and right 24/7, just don't see him this much sex drived as cass/rhys, I do think he has various lovers but the number is exaggerated/no one really knows if those where different people or a same group he trust on. I REFUSE, you heard me, REFUSE to believe he has decades pining for Mor, that was 100% exaggerated and the way he felt for elain so naturally and kinda quick makes me think he has not being that crushing in mor for a good while (he also knew she likes women there's no way the spymaster couldn't know, of course he wouldn't tell anyone something so private of mor). He's older than cass and a little bit older than rhysand/same age (he gives me oldest daughter syndrome is all). For me shadowsinger is some kind of person that can literally heard and feel stuff others can't, I do think he can heard messages from the wind/any elements with vibration (like a BAT :) ) of course the shadows are a plus to detect stuff and protection but shadowsinger seems like a more highly sensorial power of a fae. He's an introvert and hate loudlyness ( sensible to big noises) except if is a family gathering

FAV.R: ELAINNN, elriel 4lifers friendship and romance and sluttyness in one package mwahh Delicious. I also like his dinamic with Cass and Rhys (AS BROTHERS AND BESTIES don't get it twisted), I kind of have a crackship of him and Varian yah, he seems like his type for some reason. I also think azriel could had a crush on Helion (well who wouldn't is the real question) and yeah bi azriel all the way idc

FAV.H: His shadows being from Hel and maybe he's connected to it so that's why they came to him ( maybe koschei knows and sees him as worth having by his side?). I like to think he is indeed into poetry, his mom likes it a lot and he picked it up from her, which gets me in the next point that is about him being a fae nerd lol, I feel he would had read a lot about bodies functions and anatomy for his torturer job, a lot about the other courts and stations, temperatures all that stuff, survival stuff for rough missions, how to cook without much resources, rosehall must be a place with a big garden so I love thinking he even gave elain advice when they talked about her plans, overall this guy reads a lot and loves to do so but mostly about practical stuff/poems and philosophy ( he's a workaholic but that's canon I think). I see him as more slim in body than cassian and rhys, kind of a little waist & big shoulders like rhysand but his arm and legs are more thick (since training) also larger, he's taller than Cass. I'm an azriel with big nose and curly emo haircut truther all the way. He doesn't know how to sing and haves a BIG sweet tooth

[outtox1cated]

Good morning. I know it's 4 PM but I still feel like I just woke up and I want to talk about a weird dream I had

I was in my room doing whatever, then I heard a loud noise from the room located under the house that used to be connected with the basement. I quickly ran there to see what happened, but seemingly nothing fell or broke there. I looked around the room and found 15-20 tiny slugcats under a chair. They were realllly small, none of them were bigger than my palm. At first I got really excited cuz... scugs, then tried to figure out where these little critters could have come from, so I asked them about it. They could not speak any human language obviously, but they understood me. One of them started drawing on the floor with its spear, explaining where they came from and how they got here. Based on the drawings, the slugcats were running away from something and they found an artifact that looked like a fusion of a lantern and a singularity bomb, and it activated an arch(?) that opened a portal and sent them to Earth. They wanted to get back to their world because they have unfinished business but I don't know what that is. Since the portal was somewhere in my house (this sounds really weird out of context lol), the artifact for it can also be here somewhere. I started searching for it and I found the artifact but I cannot remember where and how. I also realized that the portal was apparently just a regular ass window in the room under the house. Before the slugcats left, I gave them a tulip as a gift.. for some reason? Then the dream suddenly switched to me being attacked by a blood-sucking flying insect that doesn't exist in real life and I felt bite me.. MY BRAIN RUINED MY FUN AND WHOLESOME DREAM AGAIN AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

096 of 2024

created by joybucket

1. When was the last time you went to church? Before I left to my vacation in Poland. I've started going to churches recently - not for holy masses, but just to find peace. I like how quiet churches are when there's no one there.

2. If you could trade hair with any one person, whose hair would you choose have, and why? No idea. This is such an interesting question, though.

3. How many pairs of pajama pants do you own that have animals on them? None.

4. If you own any pajamas with animals on them, what animals are they? N/A.

5. If you wanted to get a dog that looked like you, which breed of dog would you get, and why? Azawakh, hands down. They're long and narrow like me lol. They also have long limbs like me.

6. Do you have a hard time letting go of things? Very much so. I'm much more emotional than I show.

7. When was the last time you experienced a miracle, and what was it? In 2021, when I was brought back to life after massive brain haemorrhage and I came back to almost full mobility, just my hand is beyond repair.

8. When was the last time you colored in an adult coloring book? I don't think I ever did it.

9. How many cellphones have you owned in your lifetime? Like, 10? It's only an estimation :P

10. Name one celebrity who is the same age as you. Emma Watson for a woman, The Weeknd for man.

11. How old were you when you had your first crush? I don't know, 20 something? It wasn't fully romantic anyway.

12. Was your first crush on a male or female? Male. I pretty much have feelings only for guys.

13. Do you think you look better with long hair or short hair? I used to have long hair in the past and I liked it, now I have short hair, but I have no idea which ones I look better in.

14. Have you ever had to apply for disability? Yes, I got an official status in 2022.

15. ....and if so, what happened? I've become physically disabled after stroke.

16. What is your favorite board game? I don't know, I haven't played many of these.

17. Do you think you look better with curly or straight hair? I don't know, but I'm a guy, so maybe that's why.

18. What is one unpopular opinion you have? In metal music, breakdowns are way better than guitar solos.

19. What is your favorite photo editing app on your phone? Beauty Plus because it has cool filters, but I don't use it for selfies like it's meant to.

20. What is one video game you used to love to play but haven't played in years? 🎮 Super Mario Bros, this one from the 80s.

21. How many of your grandparents are alive currently? None.

22. What is one medication you will never take again, and why? 💊 Anti-inflammatory drugs because they might interact with my regular medication.

23. What is your favorite thing about your life right now? More time to travel.

24.....and what is your least favorite? Chronic illness.

25. In your opinion, what are three of the most disgusting foods ever? Liver, black pudding and raw cucumbers.

26. Do you believe in God? I can't say I believe, but I can't say I don't believe either. I'm rather questioning and looking for answers.

27. What are three emojis you use a lot? Green heart, blossom and laughing/crying emoji.

28. Do you keep your clothes in a dresser or a closet? I keep them wherever I have space, for real.

29. What is your least favorite household chore, and why? Wiping floors, I just hate it.

30. What is your favorite insect, and why? All butterflies, they're pretty.

31. What is your LEAST favorite insect, and why? Everything else. Just because I don't like insects.

32. Do you follow any sort of special diet, and if so, what? No, I don't. My eating habits are just messed up.

33. Have you ever had an eating disorder? Yes, I've been diagnosed with EDNOS many years ago. I don't think I will ever fully come out of it.

34. Do you consider yourself spiritual? No, I don't think so. I just think a lot.

35. Are you happy with your life right now? Why or why not? More happy than not, it seems easier to deal with things these days.

[squarebracketsmileyface]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

I WOULD KILL FOR BIRDIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANT MAMA LARK AND PAPA TIM AND BUBA BRIAN AND LITTLE BIRDIE TO JUST BE THE BEST HAPPY FAMILY IN THE WORLD GAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon I hope you know this will forever be in my brain, all my thoughts, are going to be consumed by them.

Do you think inthe everyone lives au they'd want more kids or are they completely happy with their little surprise miracle? And in that vain, do you think Tim would yeet his uterus/ get his tubes tide after Birdie is born or like, again, maybe perhaps... holding out for the possibility of another....

(Don't mind me, I'm just a fiend with baby fever and the love of projecting onto my favorite guys)

~💜

Oh dude even in the 'canon' of Sorry, It's Locked Tim does end up with another kid.

The second kid is more planned than Birdie but still not entirely planned (as in, he and Brian have been talking about it and have been a bit less careful about using protection, but it still happens a lot sooner than they expected it to lol). They name this kid Jesse and it's a little boy, so Birdie gets a little brother.

In the 'everyone lives' AU I think I'd keep this. Around the time when Birdie is sorta 12-13 ish, after Brian comes back into their lives and eventually starts dating Lark and Tim, he and Tim have a kid as well, and again, that kid is Jesse.

Also Jesse is like, obsessed with his big sister when he's a baby. Like, he only wants to be held by her, he stares at her constantly, y'know? He just really loves his big sister.

OH YEAH WAIT I FORGOT TO TELL YOU SOME STUFF ABOUT BIRDIE IN THE LAST ONE.

Birdie is a bug autistic, she fucking loves insects of all kinds. Every type of insect, there isn't a single one she dislikes. However, Tim really doesn't like bugs much (blame that on waking up in the forest, lying on the floor covered in insects and insect bites) but he tries for Birdie. Like, she wants to raise caterpillars? Sure, they can do that... Except that Birdie releases the butterflies in his room one day and he almost has a panic attack so now he's gotta explain to 3-4 year old Birdie that she really "really can't do that because papa is very scared of bugs, even the pretty ones". Birdie gets it and is allowed to raise caterpillars again, but she does ask if that means she can't dress up as insects for Halloween anymore, if Tim is even scared of the pretty ones.

Obviously, Tim says she is the prettiest bug and only bug he likes. She is very happy and proceeds to dress as a shield bug for the next Halloween. Tim is just very confused by her choice 💀

Confused but supportive dad lol

I think I also forgot to mention some of how Birdie is in 'canon' S,IL while it's just her and Tim. Because even though Tim hides MH from her, he can't really hide the PTSD kinda stuff it left him with. He can't hide the nightmares that wake him up, he can't hide how scared he is when he forgets things, stuff like that. He and Birdie have this kinda routine where if he wakes her up with his nightmare she goes and sleeps in his bed with him. So she'll wake up because he's yelled or something in his dream and she'll go into his room (wake him up if he isn't already awake) and they'll cuddle until they both fall back asleep.

A lot of Tim's nightmares pot MH are about losing people, they're about losing Jay and about losing Brian, they're about killing Alex and lying to Jessica about what really happened and then never seeing her again, stuff like that. But they're also about losing Birdie. They're about sort of "what if" scenarios where he lost her before he even knew he was pregnant, where the fight with Alex at the end caused him to miscarry. They're about losing her to some horrible accident now that he actually has her to look after. They're about the Operator coming back and hurting her. They're about the Operator coming back and Tim doing to Birdie what his mum did to him, sending her away to a mental hospital and rarely coming to visit.

The ones about Birdie are the worst for him, the others he kinda knows how to deal with, he dealt with them during MH and also, they did happen. He did lose those people. In a way that makes it less scary, because it's just reliving the events in a way and he can kinda handle that. But the dreams about losing Birdie? They fuck him up. Some days even sending her off to school after a really bad nightmare about losing her feels like too much and can send him into panic attacks all day.

On days like that he and Birdie have an agreement with the school that Birdie can phone home at break and lunch, and if Tim really needs to he can phone and ask for her outside of break and lunch. He tries not to need that one, he doesn't wanna drag her out of class in front of everyone, he doesn't want the other kids to make fun of her for it, because kids can be mean like that. Birdie doesn't really care what the other kids think. She doesn't even realise that getting called out of class like that could be something to be embarrassed by. All she cares about is "my papa is sad and scared and I can make him feel better by talking to him about bugs" because on those phonecalls she literally just talks about bugs she's seen that day and Tim's just happy to listen and remember that she's alive and safe and strangely obsessed with bugs.

ALSO kinda on the same lines as this, even tho Birdie loves Brian as a teacher, she's kinda suspicious of him when he and Tim get together. Like, not massively, but the first time Brian sees Tim have a nightmare when he stays the night, he ends up getting kicked out of Tim's room by Birdie because she doesn't trust him to know how to help. She kinda gets one of those little kid power trips about being the only one who knows how to look after her papa when he has a nightmare, like, she feels all special because just being there or talking to him makes him feel better, y'know lol?

She gets all high and mighty with Brian and he tries to focus on how funny he finds it rather than panicking about whether Tim is okay.

When Birdie doesn't come out of Tim's room again Brian cracks the door to look in and absolutely melts because Birdie and Tim are sound asleep all cuddled up together. Brian sleeps on the sofa that night and ends up all manners of fucked up because it is NOT a comfy sofa to sleep on and his back is already fucked 💀

Many many spasms were had all the next day. That poor man was not having a good time. Birdie feels sorry for him and tells him that next time he can go and sleep in her bed instead.

He appreciates the offer 💀

It doesn't take much convincing from Tim for Birdie to let Brian stay after the first few times he has a nightmare while Brian is staying over, rather than her causing a whole palava kicking Brian out (cos that's not as simple as just, Brian gets up and walks out of the room, he has to transfer into his wheelchair and make sure he grabs his morning meds in case Birdie won't let him back into the room in the morning when he needs them, and make sure he brings his service dog with him cos she sleeps on the bed with him and Tim, y'know? A little less simple than "get up and walk out". Also his neck is also kinda fucked up from the fall so he has a specific pillow that he always uses, which if he doesn't he always finds his neck all kinda of fucked up in the morning, so he's gotta grab that too lol)

Anyway, eventually Brian just becomes part of their whole nightmare routine and Birdie realises that teaming up with him to look after Tim works way better than doing it on her own. So she and Brian cuddle Tim from both sides and he gets extra reminded that they're both still there. Also Brian's service dog is probably trained to help with PTSD, cos no way Brian isn't also a little fucked in the head after MH, so she can task and do deep pressure for Tim. She's a bit confused at first cos usually she does it for Brian, but she gets it very quickly. Birdie is delighted that a dog can be taught to cuddle on command.

Oh shit you asked about tubes tied and stuff as well lmao. Sorry I got so distracted.

I think after they have Jesse, Tim gets a hysterectomy and all that. He doesn't wanna go through pregnancy and birth a third time, so they get that done so he doesn't have to worry about it. He jokes that if Brian or Lark wants another kid they'll have to figure out which one of them is gonna carry it.

He'd be happy to have another kid, all three of them have pretty good jobs now (Lark's the big moneymaker for the family with Tim close behind, Brian's still a teacher because he adores kids) so they could support a third kid financially, but if they want another kid, they're gonna have to adopt or go through a surrogacy thing rather than Tim carrying it like with Birdie and Jesse.

Oh yeah also the kids names:

Birdie is "Birdie Amelia Wright"

Jesse is "Jesse Alexander Thomas"

Yes, I know it's dumb but I love it. Jesse for Jessica. Alexander for Alex. Amelia for Amy. Tim names his kids so that people who were lost to MH are still kept alive in a little way (yeah yeah Jessica is still alive, but Tim has no way of getting in touch with her so nyeh). In the 'everyone lives' AU that kinda doesn't work as well so Jesse's middle name would probably be different in that, cos Alex is still alive lol. But yeah.

@pianofirepirate helped me come up with the Kids full names :]

I've ranted to them about this shit so much recently lol.

SPEAKING OF RANTING TO THEM here's another thing we came up with:

In the 'canon' of S,IL Birdie does eventually find out about MH. Probably about when she's 15-17 I think? One of her friends tells her about it, like, mentions that her dad's look like two of the guys from this old YouTube horror series and shows her a couple things that people managed to save before Tim deleted the MH channel and all that, cos even in universe I like to think MH got relatively popular, with people thinking it was a fictional horror series. It starts a WHOLE conversation at home with Tim and Brian where they have to explain that yeah all that stuff happened to them, no they really don't remember a lot of it (especially Brian), yes people think it's fictional but it's not, etc etc etc.

Tim and Brian are upset that some 'random' kid at school showed MH to Birdie, but over all it's not a world ending thing. What it does do though, is open the floodgates on jokes about stuff that happened in MH. E.g. "can't believe you pushed me off a building" jokes. Brian uses that one so often and Tim just sighs dramatically and comes back with "First of all, you fell! And also YOU'D BEEN STEALING MY MEDS FOR YEARS AND I DIDNT KNOW WHO YOU WERE BEHIND THAT STUPID MASK!" And Birdie just sits back and watches in glee. She finds it hilarious.

Though the first time Brian accused Tim of pushing him she did go "you pushed him off a building!?!?" Like, completely taken aback and they had to explain the whole thing to her and they probably showed her the video so she could see what actually happened.

Honestly I think that maybe once Birdie is like, 18 they end up putting all the videos back up. Maybe they only privated them rather than deleting them idk. But yeah I think after a while they'd just silently put the videos back up and all the lost media people rejoiced, and there's just the unspoken thing that Birdie can watch the videos if she wants to.

She doesn't.

Like, she watches a little bit of it here and there. But she never actually sits down and watches everything, she just doesn't feel like it's something she needs to do. She watches enough to know who the people being talked about by her dads are (Amy, Jessica etc etc etc) and she watches a couple entries with Jay in them over and over and over again. But generally, she just doesn't want to watch the whole thing, y'know. She doesn't watch all of MH and she hasn't seen a single TTA video.

Wait that reminds me now again (sorry, I keep fucking doing this)

That whole thing with Tim sometimes needing to phone Birdie's school and just, like, make sure she's still alive. That doesn't fully go away when Birdie gets older and goes off to college/university. Tim's always been a bit of a helicopter parent and though he gets better at it, he and Birdie do make time to phone each other pretty much every night. Mostly it's just Birdie talking about her day and what she's been up to, and Tim listening. Occasionally he'll chip in with bits about his day, but mostly he's happy to listen to her talking about her studies. (She's gonna be a bug scientist. I can't remember what they're called. But she's gonna be a big scientist, specifically working in conservation of insects).

If Birdie misses a phone call one evening Tim will definitely start to panic a bit, but he makes sure he only sends her one or two texts to check in before he forces himself to put his phone down and go spend time with Brian and/or Jesse :]

Cos while Birdie's uni age, Jesse is only like, idk 10 at most? So Tim still has a lot to do, y'know? Jesse keeps him and Brian occupied and while he's looking after/spending time with Jesse, Tim manages to take his mind off worrying about Birdie pretty well.

[fizzingwizard]

I really want another foresty world in Sims 4. Like Granite Falls. We can't really play in Granite Falls because it's a vacation world. Plus that pack is so old that it doesn't really look all that great. (Also I'm pretty sure the gameplay is bugged for me, like nearly everything else: these days certain insects never, ever spawn, even though I used to master Herbalism easily) *ahem* but i digress.

the point is I want to build in trees. TREES. with no sign of life around for miles haha. ok not miles but you get it. Windenburg has some lots that work for me, but again, that pack is old, and although I think the looks hold up well, Sims 4 began to understand over the last few years how limiting not having an open world is, and so they started to expand how much you can access from your lot/add more local activities. Windenburg doesn't have a lot of that, besides, what local activities there would be are just parties anyway.

Brindleton Bay also has some lovely lots which are surrounded by trees and would be PERFECT... except the traffic from the roads around them is HORRIFIC. It seriously ruins playing there for me. It's like here I am, surrounded by all this gorgeous nature... aaaand the fifth semi of the day just roared by. Lol. It's realistic but not what I want.

Henford-on-Bagley (i think thats its name) is of course gorgeous, and completely devoid of traffic noises. Its nature-themed background noise makes playing there so peaceful. But... it's the English countryside. The English countryside of yore. Not quite what I'm looking for, which is something more rangercore than cottagecore I guess.

Of course, there's a ton of other themes I want for worlds to. And we're so lacking in worlds that are based on places outside the USA. Like a lot of people, I'd really like maybe a Colombia-themed world (let's build la casa madrigal!) or a Jamaica-theme or an India-theme... So far we have (let's see) kind of Germany, kind of Hawaii, pretty spot on Japan, and somewhere vague in Central America (but vacation-only). I guess Tartosa is probably somewhere non-US too? though it doesn't have any particular local vibe. I refuse to count Batuu lol

So yeah, I really want more international variety. But I also... just want trees. And there's one world I left off on purpose, and that's Moonwood Mill. Moonwood Mill is pretty much exactly what I want: lots of forested and nature, even a mountain and a magic flower. Looks great in every season. The abandoned industrial vibe, although I like in the pack, isn't something I want for every game, but I could live with it. The problem is there are WEREWOLVES EVERYWHRE X'D I can't just play in Moonwood Mill for the pretty scenery. I have to deal with WEREWOLVES. Yeah there's probably an option to turn Werewolves off. But I don't dislike werewolves! I do like them a lot! The Werewolves pack is one of Sims 4 best! So I want to keep them. So I need a world which is similar to Moonwood Will but no werewolves. lol lol lol

[pastelvelvett]

Ask ask ask ask ask ask

4, 13, 23, 38, 45

4: Do you sleep on your back, stomach or side?

Usually on my side (specifically on the left so I could face towards the wall, idk why but it makes me feel safer for whatever reason), but I sleep on my stomach sometimes too. Never sleep on my back, weirdly enough-

13: Fears?

Mostly people related things lol. Embarassing myself in front of people, talking to people, god forbid making eye contact with people, shit like that. I'm also afraid of large insects, especially spiders, god they freak the hell out of me- Ah, and loud sounds.

23: Do you believe in aliens?

Maybe they're real idk! The universe is a big ass place, so there very well could be something out there. I'm a pretty open-minded person with most things.

38: Do you have any phobias?

Arachnophobia and whatever the fear of people judging and side eying you is called

45: Is there anyone you would die for?

Does that mean- die to protect? Cause that's a pretty hard one lol. I did notice that sometimes I instinctively get in between someone who's about to get hurt and the thing about to hurt them so if I were to react instinctively then yes, but if I actually sat and thought about it before I don't know if I'd be able to do it. And as for who, I'd probably react instinctively with family and close friends.

Thank you so much for the ask! ^^

[korrasamibottles]

Here's how I made the pigment if anyone's curious!!

1. Collected about 3 cups of leaves from the Greater Celandine. There's tons and tons of it around where I live, but I'm not certain at this point if it's a food source for insects, so I just took a few leaves from each plant rather than picking the flowers or uprooting entire plants. It's recommended that you wear gloves when handling the plant because its sap can irritate the skin (I didn't and I ended up totally fine, but I cannot stress enough that I am not a good role model.)

2. Put the leaves in a pot with 3 cups of water, 1 teaspoon of salt, and 3 teaspoons of distilled white vinegar. Since Greater Celandine is toxic if consumed, I used an old pot I've been hanging on to that was left behind by whoever lived here before. One person's trash is another person's poison pot I guess. The spoon I used to stir everything is now strictly an Ink Spoon as well. If you do this please please please be careful not to get any of the plant or pigment near your mouth PLEASE.

3. Simmered everything in the pot for about two hours, and tried to keep it just below boiling the entire time. I kept the pot partially covered with the lid, and every time I went to give everything a stir I drained the condensation rather than dumping it back into the pot.

4. Tested the depth of color with a paper strip and liked what I saw, so I strained everything into an old empty spice jar using a coffee filter.

5. Here's where I started deviating from the various sets of instructions I found online. Everyone was saying to add some Gum Arabic to the pigment as a thickener and a binder, but I didn't have any of that and didn't feel like spending money on my experiment, so I put 1/2 a teaspoon of cornstarch into the jar and stirred. Umm. All it did was eventually collect at the bottom of the jar and form a thin layer of sludge, so I ended up straining it out. No idea if the cornstarch did anything useful before sinking to the bottom or if it was just a waste of time (and cornstarch lol).

6. Another deviation. The recipes I found said to add one clove and a few drops of wintergreen oil as a preservative/antibacterial/antifungal agent, but I didn't have wintergreen oil (and again. didn't feel like buying any.) so I added THREE cloves and a few drops of tea tree oil (which also has antibacterial/antifungal properties.) We'll see how well that works. I'm keeping the jar refrigerated and so far there's no sign of anything growing in the pigment or on the paper where I painted the flower.

7. Painted!!! Used an old mug for water and an old brush that are now strictly Ink Materials because 1. I didn't want to potentially accidentally poison myself at some point in the future, and 2. if it turns out cloves and tea tree oil suck as preservatives at least I only lose that one brush. I mean I washed everything afterward but you know. I'm generally paranoid just like as a person. ANYWAY it acted a lot like regular degular watercolor paint, though it is a bit thinner and dries slower. I put down between 1 and 3 layers of the pigment depending on the spot, then used colored pencils for shading....hoping no mold grows on my pencils now......

Greater Celandine flower drawn with colored pencil and ink I made from the plant itself!!

[minniemariex]

KINNPORSCHE EP 12

okay my main points

1. chay not going to the music school was bulshit. but i get it he’s a teenager with his angsty post breakup thoughts. he doesn’t want to be in places that remind him of his crush.

2. porsche spying on Kinn was funny. until it wasn’t. loved how kinn resolved the whole thing. especially how he didn’t touch porsche when he didn’t wnat him to. but then gave him a big hug. loved it.

3. VEGASPETE talking about blood types. it was cute and funny bickering until pete touched a nerve with talking about the pets and needing love. yeah didn’t think that would go well with Vegas.

4. i don’t believe korn one bit. it’s plausible but nope that’s just a cover up. i refuse to believe it was as simple as a cover up for a friend. also how tf did he recognized porsche from his baby photos???

5. VEGAS AND HIS HEDGEHOG. no i don’t want him to be sick. sad Vegas is really doing it for me. he just wants his pet to be healthy. but doesn’t trust the bodyguards

6. pete’s run away plan and not going through with it. loved it. him comforting Vegas was one of my fav scenes in this whole ep. Bible did amazingly with his part and Build as well.

7. and then we have the scene. loved it. pete initiating the kiss?? fantastic. the ropes? wonderful. the chains around pete’s ankles? masterpiece. it was great. but also it gave me a bit of whiplash cause we went from sad to horny in a matter of seconds.

8. Kinn living with porsche and chay was wholesome until korn came. I STILL DONT BELIEVE HIM. we also got a bit about Tay and Time not being the best couple? ?? i want them to get a bit more character development but also idk how they would do that if we have 2 ep left.

ALSO THE BREAD ADVERTISEMENT IS F KILLING ME LOL

9. porsche not killing the driver (if he even is the driver) was great. Kinn telling him his parents would be proud even better. Kinn telling him HE is proud was just fantastic. the hug was everything.

10. thé ‘canon we start form the beginning’ was great. we finally got the scene for the trailer. yay

11. Kim is still in UNI??? wtf??? idk how they don’t get thrown out for absences in class.

12. chay in his bad boy era is great. first time we see his friends. kinda sad macau is jot one of them lol

13. pissed Kim is my everything. the way he just said ‘DONT’ and stared down the guy was hot AF. i want more of aggressive Kim. my other fav moment of this ep.

14. Kinn and porsche eating insects and Kinn being like UGH was gold. but of course the uncle must’ve fucked everything up. the way porsches whole posture changes when he realizes his uncle is next to him. straight back and the calm. loved it

15. I KNEW KORN WAS LYING also 5 mln for info? nope bitch he gonna find it by himself. also wouldn’t porsche remember korn?? or did he just block the memories of his parents as he said he does to cope with the trauma?

i’ll wait for the meta writers to find sth xD

so yeah. we got a lot. and i loved it very much.

i bought the VIP for these last 3 eps lol

see y’a next week

[workofheart]

proof

with whatever happens from here, our names will last far beyond our years

for my armin angst anon :) thank you for the request, i honestly love angst and write it all the time outside of fanfic so idk why i don’t do it more often!

pairing: armin arlert x reader

wc: 1.5k

genre: angst, fluff (happy end)

a/n: takes place somewhere just before the events of season 4. also, hi guys! this is lowkey word vomit and i’m a bit out of practice so if this doesn’t seem like me, that’s why lol

they say that time heals all wounds, but in your case, time does nothing but prolong the constant sting in your throat. it denies the sinking acceptance your weary heart pleads for. because as long as you have time, you don’t have to face the truth.

so what if you love him? so what if it’s been years? so what if no matter what you do, you can’t let him go? it’s not like it’s going to change any time soon. but even if it did, even if you had the choice to move on, you’re not so sure you would. he’s the last bloom of the season left that you pick out of selfishness, the butterfly you’re blessed to catch yet hate to let go. 

because if not him, who else?

armin is everything. he’s your reflection and your opposite, late nights and early mornings, kind and then cruel across his commitment to morality. he’s there on good days and bad days, with a smile or sympathy. if you’re lucky, you get both.

he’s brutally imperfect, perfectly human, and so easy to love.

but when standing against the end of humanity, there’s no room for childish fantasies like yours.

you love him so bad it hurts. he’s at the forefront of your mind at all times, even when he’s standing right in front of you. you think of him visiting that girl in the basement, day after day, frozen in her cowardly crystal as she hides from retribution. he waits, staring, and she occupies his mind when you desperately wish it could be you. what is it about a criminal that intrigues him past rationality?

yet the worst thought is that one day, you might not feel so strong. 

it’s something keeping you around. it’s something to imagine on nights when the sun hangs in the sky as low as your hope for the future. he’s something to bet on and pin your fleeting dreams to. however long this feeling lasts, you hang on with all that you can, because waiting at the end is the inevitable sting of loving someone who doesn’t love you back.

it’s a realization you’re not ready to come to yet. for now, a little voice convinces you that there’s a chance. and a chance is enough, isn’t it?

you’re sitting by the docks, feeling the afternoon sun sear your skin, when gentle footsteps knocking on the wood alert you to his presence. when you crane your neck up to see him, he stretches his arms behind his head before sitting down next to you. it’s not surprising, considering armin makes a point to show he cares for all of his friends, but you still wonder if maybe how hard you were thinking about him somehow drew him in. you try to resist the heat burning at the skin of your cheeks fueled by his mere appearance.

“it’s a really nice night, huh?”

he sighs as he lowers his palm to the edge of the wood and throws his legs over, cementing his place beside you. you cling your knees close to your chest while your head rests upon them for support.

“yeah. i didn’t know it could be this pretty.”

tender rays of sunshine brush over his blond hair, making it shimmer like gold. it’s tentative, as if the great light source that keeps your world turning is even too afraid to touch armin arlert.

“me too, but i think i always hoped for it. expected it, at least,” he says with a nod. nostalgia swims in the pond of color in his eyes as he looks out across the water. “but that’s how it is when you’re a kid.”

you want to laugh. when you were a kid, you certainly weren’t concerned with the existence of an ocean beyond the walls. something tells you armin didn’t just expect it out of naivety.

“oh, please,” you say with a roll of your eyes. “you don’t give yourself enough credit. you practically know what’s going to happen before the rest of us have even started thinking about it.”

he lets out a breath of shy laughter through a smile. he’s too modest. “yeah, maybe.”

the blunt edge of your nail scratches at the fresh, amber wood to your side. you press a little more, digging it out like a miniature canyon while silence fills the air. armin opens his mouth and the proximity allows you to hear a rushed intake of air, like courage, filling his lungs before it hitches in his throat. it pauses there, contemplating, before he lets it out in faltered attempt to seem like it went according to plan.

but he swallows and tries again, because armin knows the world will always give him a second chance.

“speaking of… i wanted to talk to you in the first place because, well,” he cedes, rubbing his eyes, “i kind of get the feeling something big is about to happen.”

he chews at the corner of his lip, eyes darting to the side to gauge your reaction.

your head tilts in curiosity. “really? what makes you say that?”

you watch as he fiddles with his fingers in his lap. his nails run along his cuticles, the natural folds in his palms, gathering his thoughts in preparation to set them all out.

his fingers tug through his bangs to soothe his tired roots. “well, it’s been a long time coming. with eren gone, sending notes, arranging plans. it’s coming to its climax, i think. and once it starts, it’s not gonna stop until it’s over.”

bright locks fall in front of his fact when a light gust of wind blows by. his cheeks are smooth and soft with a slight pink tint from the heat of the day, and his lashes are long and wispy, like the wings of an insect. you have to pry your gaze away though your heart pleads you for a second longer spent admiring.

“i really care about you. i just wanted you to know that.”

you’re not sure you hear it right at first. swept away with his image in the hazy evening, you almost miss that he’s talking to you directly. he cares about you. your pulse stutters.

he cares about you.

you blink, swallowing the apparent dryness in your mouth. “i care about you, too.”

after all this time, you should be used to it. the way how he cares will never be the same as how you care, it shouldn’t hurt you, but you still feel your eyes sting and throat tighten. you can’t help it.

you can’t look him in the eye. instead, you avert your attention to the place in the wood you’ve been indenting your nail. the pressure helps distract from the tears gathering along your lashline. it slowly forms the shape of your initial, a diminutive mark on the expansive docks soon to be walked over by thousands.

“is something wrong?”

your immediate reaction is to dismiss. the words are already slipping off your tongue, excuses that it’s the sun in your eyes and denials that you’re just tired, but they get stuck at the end. is it because the opportunity is here? something pushes them away from the edge as they desperately rock themselves back onto the safety of the cliff with flailing arms and wobbly legs. 

hundreds of scenarios rush through your mind, of him getting up and leaving, of awkwardness, of anger and anguish, and yet it’s not enough to derail you. you can’t sit in your itches any longer. if the world is ending soon like he implies, then so be it, because god knows you’d take his word over anything.

“i’m sorry,” you sniffle, voice frail and barely above a whisper. “i just love you.”

you brace for impact, but it doesn’t come. the only sounds are the sawing of your nail, the squawks of distant birds, the waves crashing gently on the shore how they always do at dusk. then his fingers wrap around your wrist, still moving against the wood, to grasp your attention. his eyes are warm and inviting as you slowly lift your head to find them.

“i love you, too.” 

a sad smile tugs at your lips. he doesn’t get it. honesty has never hurt so much. “no,” you confess with a sorrowed tinge, “like i love you.”

his eyes crinkle up like crescents. the grin adorning his cheeks is like a medallion, glowing and bright and entirely juxtaposed from the ache of yours.  “i love you” he presses, eyebrows raising in emphasis. 

“but…”

“but, what? you really doubt it?” he smiles with a breath, eyes crinkling shyly as he looks away. “i thought it was obvious.”

his thumb presses small circles into the back of your palm before letting go and brushing it away from where your hand covers your mark. his nail is much wider and blunt so it doesn’t take long for a faint ‘A’ to appear beside yours, a shade just lighter than the surface.

“if you think you were being obvious, you should have caught on to me earlier,” you laugh.

a coy smile pulls at the corner of his mouth, pressing a dimple into his skin. “maybe i did.”

“you did not.”

“okay, i didn’t. but,” he pauses, holding up his index finger, “i always hoped!”

it draws an airy, relieved laugh from your chest. armin leans down and blows the dust across the wood and sweeps away the extras with his hands.

your initials sit carved into the docks of your home with love, together. no matter if you are unable to return, they’ll still be here. if no one else is around to remember today, at least these letters will be imprinted with a story.

it’s proof of life, proof you lived, and most notably, proof that it was with armin arlert.