#i also forgot some ppl on the taglist last time

[pray4jensen]

Faith

deancas, coda, 15.02

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There are about a million signs that the world is ending. Cas can see them in the water, can feel them in the wind, rippling through the very earth.

But the biggest sign is Dean.

He doesn’t believe in free will anymore.

So, You asked what about all of this is real? Cas says to him and Dean pauses to listen.

We are.

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Maybe it’s because Dean’s heart is broken.

He fights like he isn’t sure what’s worth fighting for. He hunts ghosts not because he wants to but because he’s angry. When the day is over, they go back to the school, Dean’s shoulders just as tense as when they first left.

“It won’t be long,” Sam says, fingers brushing over his wound, and Cas feels a sudden rush of admiration for him, he who tried to kill God. “We’ll let the townsfolks know that the gas leak is fixed in the morning. Do one last sweep for ghouls and clear out before the real FBI gets in.”

They nod and go their separate ways.

Pretending as if there won’t always be ghosts now.

-

It’s not that Cas needs sleep but the events of last week are enough to make him crave it.

When he enters the gymnasium, there are already mats out, strewn helter-skelter, and soon enough, Sam will no doubt herd the rest here, the one safe place from which to watch over.

Cas takes his place among them.

He pulls his trench coat over his legs and closes his eyes.

But sleep doesn’t come easy.

-

It’s somewhere between the point where Cas’ mind is already drifting that his phone lights up, vibrating across the floor right into Cas’ outstretched hand.

The number on the screen is Dean’s. For a moment, he considers answering it.

But in the end, he doesn’t have to because it stops ringing altogether.

Dean sends him a text.

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Dean 8:46 p.m.

             where r u

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[starglitterz]

due to the tagging limit in posts, i'll only be able to reblog the main cynosure post and tag you in the rb if you'd still like to be tagged :D i hope that's okay w yall :)

taglist pt 2 (open); @clouds-rambles @siluc @zyamq @aestherin @afchicken @kasanodamarryme @xioseu @almond-adeptus @caeplaysrazor @yanfeishere @lunavixia

usernames in bold could not be tagged :( if you'd like to be added to/removed from the taglist, send me an ask!

cynosure.

─── series masterlist !

cynosure

noun; a person or thing that is the centre of attention or admiration.

summary; you and xiao are genmates under the famed streamer company genshin impact. the chemistry between the two of you is undeniable, and your fanbases absolutely love your collaborations. but when you both start meeting up offline more and more, your connection starts to deepen past just harmless flirting and playful banter. with these real feelings starting to affect both your job and reputation online, how will you two react when your relationship becomes the internet's cynosure?

pairing; streamer!xiao x fem!reader

genre; modern au, fluff, crack, angst, strangers to lovers

status; ongoing !!

warnings; all characters are over the age of 21, swearing, detailed warnings will be specified each chapter

updates; erratic, will try my best to upload new chapters as much as possible, but at least 2x a week tho!

taglist (closed); @noirkkat @bookuya @ohmykazuha @glazelilyy @oreoz-unfortunately @tiny-aroace @xiaophobic @test-tube @jiinghe @storytravelled @mirikusashes @ben6ett @oliviasslut @bluexiao @lunachelly @aelatus @mimion @akiiyukii @angelhxneyy @give-xiao-almond-tofu @abyssheart @xuanya @normalisthenewnorm @viagiraffe @fuhuashandholder @astersg4rden @dilucbar @nachotrash @childe-support @cynokine @axerrri @ventirain @kait-is-always-late @hushyouu @celestair @rim0na @indecisivehusky @nurserinnn @ariesreii @saving-for-xiao @hellokittykuroo @auradragon199 @xiaoszn @ayaka-wrld @almondto-fu @berryqueue @chichikoi @yunaholics @yoimimi @http-mewchuu

usernames in bold could not be tagged :(

additional info: all parts & any asks relating to cynosure will be tagged under [📱] ━━━ cynosure ! .

please reblog ! it helps a lot :)

# chapters:

character profiles !

one ! - welcome to the internet!

two ! - can i put my minecraft bed next to yours?

three ! - news 39

four ! - stay with me

five ! - irl fps!?

six ! - fly to the moon

seven ! - bubble tea

eight ! - this is how to be a heartbreaker.

nine ! - i need a vacation

ten ! - raise your glass!

eleven ! - morning after dark

twelve ! - you know i'm just a flight away

thirteen ! - love taste

fourteen ! - blushing!

fifteen ! - cynosure.

# extras:

playlist !

guide to this au !

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[painandpleasure86]

Gimme your comfort, I suffer of love (deazello week 2020)

A/N: Hi ppl! Another fic for this ship week hosted by @roger-taylors-car !! Now taking the prompt "cuddles" and "secret affair"

The name of this fic it's based in a gay love song from the argentinian rock band Los abuelos de la nada. The original phrase is "Dame tu consuelo, yo sufro de amor".

Summary: the day after the tea time, Joe haves an audition and he will tell how it was to John.

Word count: +2500 (my longest fic for now)

Warning: the things are spicy, so... Don't interact if youre a minor. Don't throw hate if you don't like this kind of writing pls.

Permanent taglist: @warriorteam1924 @toomuchlove-willkillyou (sorry if you're uncomfortable with this kind of writing).

If you liked it, please reblog! That will help me to reach to more ppl :3

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When they finally ended the tea time and the men greeted, the older whispered in the ears of the younger "you can come home when you want…  I barely left home lately".

Joe just can nod but both knew the real response.

They already started a new chapter in their life...

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Monday morning. He was preparing for a casting that he will have after that day. He passed in front of the door of his neighbor to see if he was there. He wasn't. "Well I'll try when I come back of the audition" he thought.

Joseph watched to his son walked sad in front of the porch of John's house.

"Joe, come here! John isn't your friend, it's just your neighbor and he don't like to be bothered!"

The young man was approaching to his dad's car.

"Let me be act like I want. I'll turn 22 this year! And John really liked me."

"He just was polite and kind with you." replied his father.

Joe knew that he didn't just was kind and polite with him. But that isn't something that he can say to his dad.

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The audition was a failure. Was a big opportunity to make detach his career, but they rejected him for being "too old" for the role. But that was a excuse, because a famous young star also auditioned for that role. And had his same age. "If you reject me, at least be fucking sincere and told that was because that guy was also in the audition" he thought dissapointed. He was so sad and almost crying in his dad's car.

"Joe, relax. You know that you will still have your  job in the dance studio if your acting career haven't success." said Joseph, trying to cheer up his son.

"I know. But I want to act. I'll pull myself together, because I know that I should do better…"

Joseph smiled.

"That's Queen." noted the man.

"Yeah, you can see why I love that band, dad?"

And a smile appeared in his face.

"I see." added, watching to the road.

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 When they came to his house, he was to the door of his neighbor.

"Dad, come home. I'll try to speak a little with the neighbor."

"Okay Joey. You're an adult anyways." he sighed resigned and entered to the house.

Joe took the doorbell.

"Yeah?" someone asked for the intercom.

"John it's in home now? It's his new neighbor, Joey".

"YEAH! I'll call him".

That voice was Laura. She was happy for listen that American accent again.

He watched to the old man came to the main door.

"Joe!"

"Mister!"

"Call me John please" 

"Okay John".

And both hugged.

Both started to walk to the house.

"How are you Joe?" asked the bassist.

Trying to lie, Joe replied "fine".

"No boy, you aren't fine. You don't fool me".

"I could do it, I'm an actor...well, a bad try" said Joe watching to the sky and sighing.

"Oh now I understand your low. An audition was wrong no?"

"Exactly" and Joes eyes started to be full of tears.

Both stopped to walk. He started to cry in the shoulder of the old man. This one puts his left hand over the head of the young, caressing his hair. With his another arm, he hugged him. Joe hugged to the man in response.

"You will have success Joe, don't give up". And give to the young man a little kiss in the head. He couldn't contain his reaction.

Ronnie and Laura appeared when both men were hugging.

"Oh it's Joe again. What's up?"

"Oh hi Joe!" exclaimed Laura excited.

The men left the embrace and watched to the woman and the girl.

"He failed a big audition I think" replied John.

"Oh he needs a cup of tea and some muffins" told Ronnie.

Still sobbing, Joe responded "I'm lactose intolerant, but thank you sweet lady… and hi Laura" trying to smile.

Ronnie and Laura blushed again for the kindness of the young man.

"Come in then" replied Ronnie and both men entered to the house.

"Ugh girls why you're inopportune" thought John.

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The men were in the living. Ronnie asked to Laura to help her with the tea, despite the girl would prefer stare in front of Joe, contemplating his beauty.

"Was a big audition no?"

"Yeah… but that motherfucker quitted me the role. For God's sake, you already have a lot of work and success, why you need something like that?"

"Like I said, you will have success, perhaps this wasn't your time, huh?" the elder smiled kindly and puts a gentle hand over the left lap of the younger for a moment. This one started to feel nervous but great at the same time. His reply was a shy smile and a "thank you John".

When both men were talking about some things, the girls came with the tea. Laura, by her insistence, was the one to give the tea to Joe. "He-here's the tea, Joe" said the girl, without watch to the redhead. Her cheeks were fire.

"Thank you Laura" and give to the girl a little kiss in her right cheek.

The girl was so excited for that little kiss. "Oh will be with you in some years my beautiful american boy" she thought smiling, meanwhile was going to sit.

When Ronnie came, Joe said "Thank you Ronnie for the idea of the tea… sorry for that scene in your porch."

"You will have your opportunity Joe, you should add more artistic skills, to have more opportunities. You told us that you also know how to dance… what about learn an instrument?" And she watched at John, that was drinking his tea and opened widely his greenish eyes.

Gulped his tea and, leaving his cup in the tea table, he said "I could teach to him something" and watched to the redhead smiling. "What you think, Joe?"

"I love that idea", responded the young man.

After a lovely chat with the women, the men were going to the basement, where the music things were.

Laura said to her mother when they were alone "that guy really likes me"

Ronnie replied, smiling "my dear, he's only kind with you. He knows that you're a child to him. Surely he should be interested in someone near of his a-"

"MUUUUUUUUM LUKE WOKE OF HIS NAP AND FELL FROM HIS CRIB" irrumped Joshua in the living room.

The woman was upstairs running… she can hear her little son crying.

Laura, meanwhile, was daydreaming in the couch...

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The men were in the basement. A place with old things, but also all his basses, amplifiers, another instruments and the album certifications. "This place it's the only one that contains my 20 years playing… well I still do it. We are ending a final album, but very slowly. After that, no more music industry for me. At least, playing a bass." he said to the young man. After a little tour, they sat in a couch that were there. Joe cuddled to John and started to cry again. The old man hugged with his right arm and with his left hand caressed the hair of the young man.

"Finally alone" he said and give another kiss in the head of the another.

"Thank you for comforting. Really. I didn't thought that you were that kind, lovely and… beautiful man. I could be here forever. Hugging you, feeling your heartbeats, smelling your parfum… I found paradise in your arm" confessed Joe, blushing his cheeks a little. He hugged to the elder tighter.

"I'm feeling honoured that I can make feel of that way to someone like you… God, I just knew you last Saturday, but… y'know… you makes me feel things that I didn't thought that I'd feel again" Leaving partially the embrace to smell Joe's parfum, he murmured "your smell it's also nice" and his self control was taken… he started to kiss that soft neck. And the young left go a little moan.

For a while, both forgot their problems. They started to loose in lust waters.

To Joe was the first time with a man. He left his will to the another one.

"Gosh, my dreams are becoming true…" said Joe meanwhile the elder was kissing his neck and caressing slowly with his left hand since the neck until the thighs. Right hand, to press that guy's head over his. "Make me yours, please". 

The another, approximating to the boy's ear, whispered "of course, my sweet boy" and pressed the young's bulge. A deep sigh.

The elder then sat in the lap of the young, opening his legs, being face to face. He continued kissing the neck, meanwhile the another pressed the head of the another with his left hand. Right hand was caressing the another's back, reaching until the pants and trying to quit the shirt that was under the pants. When he could do it, he started to caress the warm bare skin under the clothes. He was eager for feel that but with his whole body.

The man also sighed deeply.

Joe closed his eyes and started to supplicate

"Please kiss m-" and was interrupted for his lover, who was now grabbing his face with both hands and kissing deeply. Both tongues where in contact, the young sucked a bit the tongue of the elder.

The clothes started to be an annoyance.

Both quitted the sweater of the another. The old man started to unbutton the shirt of the guy. When he unbuttoned 3 buttons, his left hand started to caress the chest of the redhead. The young could feel the calluses because of being a musician.

The man whispered "it's so soft… like I imagined" and tried to kiss to the another again. But this one said "lemme feel your chest too" watching right to the eyes. "Okay" and made a smirk. Half of the buttons were unbuttoned and  when his eyes watched the result, he couldn't resist to bite his lower lip. His breath accelerated a bit more. He sighed. With his right hand could feel that hairy chest, that one that just could imagine touch in his wet dreams. And the left hand was placed in the back side of the elder man's head, passing his hand through the gray hair and kissing deeply, with passion. The another had his left hand over right cheek of the guy and the right hand was ending to unbuttoning that shirt.

Accelerated breathes. When they less can notice, both were shirtless. Both could feel the bare skin of the another, feeling the warm, feeling the breath of the another being faster. Now the redhead can caress without problems the back of his lover, that thing that just lived in his fantasies. 

"Sir…"

The another listened with attention. He loved being named of that way in that moment.

"We shouldn't quit our pants… we yet have our shoes".

"Let me do it for you" and he was then sat in the floor, quitting the shoes. 

Surprising to Joe, the man started to unzip the pants. Being in his knees, grabbed the genitals through the underwear.

"This is so tight… and hard." John watched to his lover.

"DO IT. DO IT! SUCK IT PLEASE"

"Shhhh Joey, don't shout. We aren't alone." And he quitted his hand of the genitals and he started to quit the shoes and his pants. And didn't leave to the guy cooperate.

"This is your punishment".

The young stood up of the couch and murmured to the right ear of John "gotcha". And he pushed to the another to the next free wall.

"I can play that game too, sir" whispered.

And he started to kiss him and grab the bulge with his right hand. The boxers were white, that didn't left nothing to the imagination.

Watching to john's eyes, Joe said "now I can confirm the myth". Both smiled.

Moments later, he asked "Quit my pants Sir and do what you wanted to do to me before in the couch. I can't handle it anymore"

He was pushed to the wall and now the another was in his knees, quitting not only the pants, but also the boxers.

The young watched the scene, trying to not cum before his dick were sucked.

Being naked now, he saw how his dick was sucked slowly and his balls being squeezed for one of that hands.

"Do it quickly please or fuck me… you're as hard as me. This isn't funny"

The another didn't replied. His mouth was occupied.

Five minutes later he left to suck that dick and, stood up and said "wait there" and he came back with a little bottle of lube.

"How you hav-"

"Was a bottle that I never could use with my wife. So, ended here."

"Turn around please, give me that little young ass"

"But your b-"

"I'll quit myself… now. Okei. Both naked. Now, relax."

He inserted the index finger from his right hand. The young moaned hard. "Don't misfire! Don't misfire!" Joe thought trying to control himself.

"Shhhhhhh we're doing this in secret"

"Okay sir"

"Do you want another finger?"

"Please".

And he inserted the middle finger too. That hole was so tight.

"Well Joey, I quitted your anal virginity" he whispered in the left ear of the redhead and started to move faster his fingers

"Liar?" Joe asked.

"Yeah"

"That's my fave bassline of yours… your face, your body language, your fingers always made me cum…"

"I could make you cum with my fingers… but I want to fuck you now…" John quitted the fingers of the hole and asked to his lover "now go to the couch and put like a dog"

John covered his dick with lube and was to Joe.

He grabbed that hips with his hands and start to fuck to the boy. Both moaned, but not too high. The man started to move faster and faster, grabbing stronger Joe's hips … He didn't wanted to say it to Joe, but he was more eager for cum than Joe.

"I already cum"

"Me too"

And both cummed. 

Trying to recover their breath, they cuddled.

"Was great John, better than in my dreams. But next time, in a bed please"

"Ronnie it's always around here...well… Sunday morning, not. She was to the Church with the kids. Next Sunday will be in my bed and you can moan as high as you want."

"Ooooh great. But now we should put our clothes and do whatever we supposed to do here".

"Yeah, but not now. I want to rest a littl-"

Ronnie knocked the door.

"John, Joe, are you okay?" she screamed.

"Yeah sweetie, we were already done for today".

"Okay boys!" And she was going to the kitchen.

Watching to Joe, John said "that's why I said that you couldn't moan high…" and added "tomorrow, same hour. But the next time, I'll start to teach you bass. She had a really good idea…"

"So good that also can let us to have our own time alone" finished Joe, winking an eye.

An affair started that afternoon. Something that both wanted. Something that both needed.

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