#i almost cried in a store once bc my friend's mom asked for my opinion on what brand of spaghetti was better

[matamisin]

Consider: Mina is a genuinely happy and positive person, but everyone has bad days (especially people who have been thru trauma, like seeing your loved ones regularly beaten to a bloody pulp). The thing is that Mina just. Refuses to show that trauma has actually been effecting her. She starts suppressing negative reactions to situations bc she wants to "stay strong." Beginning of the year? She cried when they got rescued from USJ. End of the year? "Lmao guess we survived another one! Ha! Ha! :)"

oh my god like millennial humor?? if yeah then lmao mina please

if not ahhh Mina baby you have feelings too that you gotta tend to!\

Alright- All (or at least all the angst headcanons I received) are answered below the cut! Please be careful, there are some, well angsty things in there!

TW: Eating Disorder, Gore/ Graphic Depictions, Homophobia, Depression, Suicidal Tendencies/ Self harm mention, Death, Possible spoilers to those not caught up with the BNHA manga- Please ask to tag if I missed any!

(looking at all these warnings made me realize omfg YALL DID NOT HOLD BACK IM CRYING ASK AND THOU SHALT RECEIVETH I SUPPOSE)

a-single-eyelash asked:

Denki accidentally hurt someone as a kid, say a sibling or good friend, with his quirk. It made him hate his work, until he saw a hero with a similar work to his. This is what made him think that not only is his quirk cool, but also that he can become a hero. Well until, he hurt Sero. His boyfriend, got electrocuted by him on the battlefield. (Sorry this is an idea I’ve had for a fic)

O H

BRUH THAT HIT ME LIKE A TRAIN COMING OUT FROM BEHIND THE BUSHES I THOUHGT THERE WAS GONNA BE A HAPPY ENDING THIS IS STILL GOOD THO 

anonymous asked:

Bakugou is still sad, Sero is suicidal (Read to may fics about it man), Kami is legitimately afraid he’ll disappoint his parents, Tsu feels to normal, Kiri feeeeeelsss way to useless, and idk maybe Aoyama feels ignored. My own angsty headcanons.

Ah, yeah I can see how those can play into those characters!

anonymous asked:

Sero’s fight or flight response with a villains ice-like quirk (if your for that headcanon) OR Sero overwhelming his quirk trying to rescue a goddamn building of people

OH YA I AM FOR THAT

Also NO STOP HAVE I GOT SOMETHING IN STORE ABOUT COLLAPSING BUILIDINGS

anonymous asked:

Ashido + Bakugou bond over their quirks being destructive and not really knowing how to use them to actually *help* people

oh wow, I’ve never actually seen it that way.

But how about this: while they vent to each other about how their quirks can’t help people, the other is like, full on giving them descriptions of how their quirks actually CAN but they just never realized and they’re opening each other’s eyes while having their own insecurities knocked down

anonymous asked:

Omg your angst au is so angsty it’s beautiful

AH thank you haha!

anonymous asked:

Angsty headcannon boi-  Sero was bullied in middle school for having wonky teeth and actually had braces. Which is why he has such a pearly white smile now.  Sero was the last in his class to get his quirk and when he did he was laughed at because it was a ‘useless quirk’

n O ANON IM SOB

IM CRYING LEAVE HIM ALONE ILL SQUARE UP WITH THOSE BULLIES

anonymous asked:

Angst head cannon.  Sero flinches whenever kirishima hardens.  Sero’s parents are majorly homophobic and are actually quite strict. So whenever sero isn’t with bakusquad he tries to revise but it doesn’t work and he’s scared to ask for help.

Aw, man that’s heart wrenching to have parents so unsupportive- I feel it :( He’s just in a constant worry state whenever they’re around

anonymous asked:

If you’re still accepting the angst hcs… i think kaminari gets like really overcharged whenever there’s a storm and since they moved to the dorms there’s nowhere for him to release all the excess energy. So he just kinda hides away in his room in pain.

Aw, that’s terrible!

I dunno.. I feel like that one day when someone finds out during a storm, they’ll like, ask the teachers about “where someone could discharge a lot of energy askingforafriend” and they immediately know who they’re talking about and they’ll ask Powerloader and Mei and others in their department to build something for him to discharge all the excess AND be able to utilize it somehow :0 just a thought!

anonymous asked:

My headcannons: Sero is anorexic Bakugou has PTSD Kaminari has depression Kirishima had self-esteem issues Ashido is perfect (canon)

Oh that last part- she is, she is *clap**clap*

Though.. I will say that just because the others are haunted by those- it doesn’t make them less perfect. It’s their struggles that they learn to cope with and grow from, and it makes them, well, them. Not a definition of perfect can define that :’)

(sorry just speaking from my thoughts cause these hit close to home ahhh)

anonymous asked:

Lmao i sent a lot sorry if their not the best but hopefully some heart strings will be pulled

NONSENSE ANON ALL MY HEART STRINGS WERE PLUCKED BY ALL THESE AND NOW ITS YALLS TURN

transcandydemon asked:

Todocanon; todoroki has constant nightmares of the boiling water incident and of his father hurting him or his mom which causes him to not get as much sleep ie his calm attitude and how he’s not quick to get into conversations because of exhaustion

oh ya, such a traumatic past is def something that could still be haunting him in his dreams :’( but when the others notice, they’ll make sure to check up on him and try to find ways to help reduce nightmares or at least comfort him whenever they’re in his dreams

anonymous asked:

Deku head canon : deku is super jealous of kirishimas and bakugoa relationship since hes been trying to get close to kacchan for years and kirishima managed to do it within days

D’: He probably would feel that- jealousy’s very strong! But ah, in my personal opinion, i think he’d feel that, but after time learns that maybe it was best that he stopped dwelling on it and moves on, and learns to accept and be happy that he and Bakugou could at least be acquaintances that could eventually work well :’)

anonymous asked:

Denki headcanon: where he wants to be as close to bakugo as kirishima is and he tries so damn hard but takes bakugos insults to heart and he really does get torn up and upset about it(ex: the sports festival scene )

Oh wait which scene? Dunce face or?? :0 but yeah, I feel like he’d take it to heart at times. (but my bakukami heart tells me to say that when Baku realizes he gives him a good ass pep talk and beings hold back on his insults, or reassures Denki)

anonymous asked:

Bakugou could have PTSD and nightmares

Oh same headcanon! :’D Ah, but poor Bakugou. I’m sure the others would take it into mind and be aware of it and help him subtly so as to not provoke him, :’(

violetsare-tblue asked:

Bakugo: because of his inferiority complex, feels like he needs to prove himself over and over or he’ll be just the victim again  Iida: his left arm is completely numb. He isn’t paralyzed and he can move it. He just can’t feel anything in his hand or arm. Makes holding hands with someone feel empty and useless  Sero: he is so scared of being worthless as a hero and a person. He doesn’t want to be left behind by his classmates so he overworks himself and comes to school with random bruises

Oh mmhmm, I definitely see the Bakugou one! Especially after what he said during his fight with Deku, it def shows :(

Aw, Iida probably still looks back at his actions back in the Stain arc and regrets the errors of his ways. Luckily, I’m sure he’ll find someone who helps him through it and reminds him that mistakes don’t define him :’)

:’( Serooo MAKING ME CRY

casua-aria asked:

I have this Sero headcanon where he was the disposable (like how when tape dispensers run out and become disposable) friend in groups throughout his childhood, but now that he goes to UA, he has true caring friends that would never do that to him.

D: !!

That’s so sad- he must have thought his quirk was just life taunting him for being “disposable” hence the tape quirk :( but heck yeah, once he meets the students of UA he definitely begins to see that he wasn’t the problem in the past, but rather those that he was “friends” with!

anonymous asked:

Sero remembering very clearly all the pain that happened when his arm got cut off, maybe being a little scared of Kirishima for a few days after he first wakes up? Idk

OH YEAH THAT ONE HURTS

Like maybe.. once he’s able to respond again, he flinches and has an anxiety attack when he sees Kirishima because the sight of him just sends a flood of the memory to play in his head OOF

anonymous asked:

A personal favorite that nobody’s really thought of: a villain cuts off one finger from each of Ochako’s hands so she can’t use her quirk

OH MAN THATS BRUTAL OMG

That’s so dark!! I feel like a villain would do that should they get a hold of her and, mm maybe wanna rile up someone close to her to lure them in

meptoonzart asked:

Kirishima traitor

b R U H ID CRY MY EYES OUT IF HORI MADE HIM THE TRAITOR

                                                                                                                             Anonymous said:                                                                 

I have a lot of angsty headcanons about Kaminari specifically so I’ll just spam you with those. He attracts electricity, so he often gets struck by lightning and has almost died from it twice. Kaminari knows people think he’s the traitor and it eats him up inside every day. He’s been ‘propositioned’ by quite a few creeps because he’s pretty and his quirk is, well, what it is. He has nightmares a lot and it causes power outages, he’s terrified his classmates will hate him for it.(1/?(Idk2maybe)            

Sero got into a fight with someone after the sports festival, because how the hell did he make it into UA’S hero course, and Kaminari happens to be with him and he actively threatens the dude who started the fight with his quirk. No one bullies his friends. His overuse of his quirk is slowly killing him, he hasn’t told anyone that it’s destroying his brain. Bakugo reminds him of living in an abusive household but he doesn’t know how to say it so he laughs it off.(2/?(Okaymaybe4wearegettingthere)             

Kirishima and Sero are the first to find out about both the frying brain and the abusive household, and Sero asks Kaminari if he wants to go try something. Kaminari says sure and Sero reserves a training ground for them, and Sero swings around with Kaminari and he hopes it works for Kami the same way it does for him. Sero is smiling because he doesn’t know what else to do, but swinging through the air helps him feel better and free. It helps. But there’s always, always the anxiety (¾)  

the anxiety of ‘Maybe today is the day I fall’, but he doesn’t realize that Kaminari is helping him stay grounded. He won’t fall. Not when he gets to see Kaminari fuller of life than he’s ever been. They land on one of the buildings in ground Beta, and laugh like idiots as it starts to rain. Kaminari’s dying, Sero is a mess, and they just sit there for hours, past the end of their reservation, talking through their anxieties. Kaminari is scared to die. Sero is scared to lose him. (Okay1more4/5)        

Sero promises Kaminari he’ll be there, he’ll do everything he can to help keep him alive as long as possible, and he asks Kaminari how long he has from his last estimate. Kaminari laughs, starting to cry. Six years. Sero tells the Bakusquad, and they promise him that they’ll be there when the time comes. Not villains or Dadzawa could stop them, and finally it does. For only being a hero for three years, he’s made history for kids who have terminal illnesses (ranoutofspacedammit)      

 And the drawbacks of quirks come more into light. Kaminari may not be a great student or hero, but he brought hope to a lot of people, and everyone will miss him. They can’t hear thunder crack without thinking of him, can’t see the golden sunrise without thinking of his smile. Can’t even bear to look at the classic lit section in a bookstore. He saved people and raised awareness, but he wrecked their hearts as well. (Somehow this turned into a near-fic I’m so sorry Hope you’re doing well(Done))       

ANON OMG THANK YOU FOR THIS BASICALLY FIC IM CRYING THERES SO MUCH I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START CRYING   

iamnootthedabmast-r said:                                                                     

Heard you want some angsty headcannons- so Kaminari tends to stay up due to his quirk and he likes to stay in the dormitory lobby, so he just sits on the couch on his phone or just sits there in the dark- but this leads to him finding some secretive angsty stuff about other people in the dormitory for ex; Bakugou comes downstairs and just starts cooking cause he has terrible night terrors and Kaminari just quietly witnesses as Bakugou cries silently while he eats. (Part 1)    

(Part 2) the next morning Kaminari kind of wants to try ask or comfort him but feels rude and awkward so he also kind of struggles with the knowledge of knowing that everyone in his class is a little to a lot of broken.  So yeah, sorry if it’s a little confusing- in awkward when it comes to writing what I want to write…

DUUDE THIS IS SUCH A SAD CONCEPT IF YOU WRITE IT I WILL LEGITERALLY PERISH ON SPOT

                                                                                                                             Anonymous said:                                                   

May we… suggest directly… angsty oneshots? Please feel free to ignore this if you preferred hcs

 (lmao sorry, im not caught up with the manga or anime to know what the first part is referrring to :’D) but ah yeah I’ve seen that headcanon, not too sure how to feel, but it’s out there!                   

[wetookanoath]

hi i just want to let you know youre amazing for writing the cap au cause i have been craving one for forever! I was also wondering what are your headcanons for shane and ryan before the war?? I like to think that ryan dragged shane to supposedly haunted places and shane would only go bc it was fun to be w/ ryan. also ryan would get into many fights with bullies and shane would always be there to save him :D

KNDKNIWENFIR, Nonnie this is so sweet! Thank you so much for your kind words! Now, about your question–

Ryan, being a mixed moc, would had probably been bullied because of this, let alone the fact that he was sick almost all the time and poor. Shane, on the other hand, is the younger of two, from a family of polish immigrants. He has worked since he was a teen and met Ryan while going home after helping in a lil store near their neighborhood.

First meeting: 

like in the MCU canon, Shane was walking home when he saw three kids in a fight with another one, younger and smaller than them. 

He recognized the bigger kid as the school’s bully who he already hated, and even though he doesn’t know how to fight and isn’t that intimidating, God knows what possessed him that was able to talk his and the kid’s way out of the situation.

At first, Ryan wasn’t very grateful, saying he had them on the ropes, but hearing Shane’s easy laugh and “you sure did, bud” that sounded way too honest, kinda made him accept his hand when offered.

Ryan found out Shane worked at the corner’s store, he started to go more often for his mom’s errands to talk to his new friend. They became inseparable growing up, constantly in each other’s places, becoming good friends with their respective brothers.

As teens, they would use their free afternoons to go “ghost hunting” to old and abandoned places, constantly getting into trouble, having to call Finn to rescue them. 

Shane had to buy his brother a cigs box to shut him up, otherwise his parents would had killed him that one time they accientally broke a window at Mr. Pearlman’s old basement.

Finn only said he was going to rat them out joking, but accepted the cigs anyway.

Instead of “punk”, “jerk”, they called each other “little guy” and “big guy”.

Shane is almost two years older than Ryan, they aren’t in the same classes but he always waits for him after school and they walk each other’s home. Since Shane’s house is just around the corner from Ryan’s, he walks the rest alone.

They stay at each other’s on the weekends, and when Ryan’s mom has to work the night’s shift at the hospital, he stays with the Madejs, which makes Shane’s mom the happiest because she adores him.

When they stay at Ryan’s, Linda has to take away their lights or they will stay awake, telling horror stories and giggling like lil shits about everything under Ryan’s covers.

Shane thaught Ryan and Jake how to make blanket forts and they are always building one when he stays over.

Linda also adores Shane and cried when he moved out his parent’s house, even when he wasn’t going too far.

Shane and Finn lived together in a small apartment near a fabric where both worked when Shane was 19 and Finn 22, this allowed their parents to open a little drug store where Ryan worked until he became Captain America later on.

Fun fact: only Shane’s parents, their neighbors Richard and his partner Mina, and their neighbor Susan were the only ones to know about Ryan’s “change”.

Shane’s mom fixed his Captain America suit. It was originally too thigh, and she fixed it for Ryan and told him to wear red boots for the show, not the blue ones they had given him at first.

Finn gets married at age 23, Linda dies of TB that same year, Shane moves to Ryan and Jake’s after a long, long, loooong while convincing him that it was for the best of the three of them.

Jake moves to New York with other relatives to attend medic school. Ryan decides he is better away from them, it gives his uncles more chances to raise Jake properly. 

They write each other constantly.

He and Shane visit Jake at least twice before the war. They didn’t had much to spend, but it was during one of those trips when they spend all their money in Coney Island and had to borrow from Finn to get back to LA.

Shane’s mom always got Ryan horror books, he took his favorites with him to boot camp and then his Captain America tour, and then war.

When the States joined the war, Finn was drafted and his parents tried to persue Shane and Ryan to not enlist. Regardless, Ryan’s belief in doing the right thing and standing by his country isnpired Shane to follow him to their sure death.

Even thought he was totally healthy and so, Shane is lazy and hated to work out, yet he accepted to do so with Ryan before their got enlisted.

He knew Ryan wouldn’t be accepted, and he knew he was going to be taken. A part of him was prepared for it, the other was scared shitless of going alone.

When Ryan is first rejected and Shane accepted, they got drunk together with their other neighbors who were going to boot camp by draft or enlistment.

They cried together later, they never talked about it.

Boot camp was, by Shane’s opinion, the worst that could had happene to him (ha…). But he met Helen there, and they hit it up because he was reading her favorite book.

They never told this to Ryan, and none is sure as to why they didn’t. Ryan found out in the future, when Helen was older and still in her head, as she was telling him about how she had to give Shane’s things to his devasted mother who had lost both her children.

Helen and Shane often borrowed each other’s books and bothered Ryan about he didn’t knew how to dance or talk to Helen.

Once, they made a competition to see who could do more push-ups with one arm. Of course, Helen won.

Another time, when Ryan was away in a mission, Shane took Helen dancing and charmed the rest of the soldiers. Ryan was a little jealous of this, but wasn’t sure as for who he was jealous. 

What he didn’t knew was that there was seriously no bad blood between them, and Shane was able to tell Helen he was in love Ryan but knew it was not his place to intervine.

Helen confessed to him she was into woman, too. Later after the war, she married fellow Agent Dan Carter, who died many years after and stayed the rest of her life with her girlfriend, Angie, who Ryan almost didn’t met after waking up in the future.

Ryan kept trying to enlist, each time making Shane angrier at him lying in the form and wanting to expose his life that way. They constantly fought about it and once Ryan told Shane he didn’t understood because he didn’t took it as serious as him, Shane didn’t came home for almost a week after that.

Ryan never apologized, not in that life time at least. He was able to, many years later, when Shane didn’t had the same charming smile anymore.

They lived in a very poor neighborhood, often known for being the part of the city were immigrants, poor people, lgbt people and sex workers lived. So all their neighbors lowkey asumed they were together.

They weren’t, but they did kiss while drunk a few times, and other more when one of them would lie to be drunk.

Ryan wishes they would had been.

He both laughs, and sometimes cries, when he reads that on the internet, when kids like him who weren’t allowed to be at that time express how important is it for them that Captain America is also bi!

Shane was always dancing the house while cooking or making cores. They had a neighbor who was a sex worker, and she always had music loud enough for everyone in their building, so he would open the door to listen better.

In nights when shit wasn’t so bad, they would go “ghost hunting” to old fabrics and whatnot, constantly chased off my dogs or angry men calling them out for transpassing private property or whatnot. Shane found it somehow funny.

His last night in the country, he slapped himself mentally to not cry when they slept in the same bed and Ryan made him promise to get back in one piece.

Ryan wrote him often while in the country, Shane always asking in his own letters why he kept getting his letters with stamps from other states. Ryan said he was working with a insurance company, he just didn’t say as what.

The first time Shane saw a poster of Captain America, he recognized Ryan’s jaw and lips. He was captured that same night.

[pixlladi]

there are so many things going through my mind. things that could cripple me if i don’t let them out. things that could throw me into a heap of depression and things that could cause me to relapse. things that i’m going to be telling you. first thing that’s been stressing me out that isn’t super huge of a deal compared to the rest is that for a week and a half in November i’m going to be running the store i work at because the manager will be in another country. i’m super anxious because i literally have no clue what the fuck i am doing. second thing on my list is pretty personal and not many people that know me know this. also it’s kind of triggering and i’m not joking or saying that as a meme i mean it literally. my stepdad got full custody of my stepsister yesterday and while that may seem great, it also means that i may not get to see her soon. my mom is kicking him out before the end of the year. now i know you’re wondering, “why is she kicking him out when you guys have worked so hard to get your sister to live with you?” well my stepdad is an asshole. he has beat my mom on many occasions. leaving her with bruises that look gnarly as fuck and not in a good way. i went camping for a weekend with my dads side of the family and when i came back? she had a big softball sized bruise on her thigh and she had two more on her arms. i only noticed the thigh one because we went out on the lake and her swimsuit didn’t cover it. when i asked her where she got it she said “oh i don’t know” and she quickly changed the subject. now seeing as how she never really told me he beat her, how did i know? well around the fourth of july we went to a party where all the adults got blitzed because yknow when you have kids that can drive, automatic DD. well when my stepdad was ready to go he told my mom that we were leaving. she wasn’t ready to go and instead of him just leaving on his own he decided that they were going to have a full blown screaming match at this friend of theirs house while the party was still going. not only did he do this but he also yelled at anyone who tried to intervene including his bestfriend’s and his friend that’s my age that he basically treats as his own son. it got so bad that my mom just started walking home so i got in her vehicle with my sister and younger brother and took off after her, picked her up and we just went home. she cried the whole way while holding my hand. this wasn’t the only time this has happened over the summer either. a few days later there was another party but this time it was for a friend of ours’ birthday. when people started leaving he started getting angry for no reason. now the main thing he likes to yell at my mom for is that she smokes weed. (my opinion is that people can smoke it as long as they do it in a safe environment and don’t drive while high bc impaired judgement leads to car accidents and don’t even argue with me on this one because i lost multiple friends due to them being in a car where the driver was high) and so while he’s allowed to drink himself to oblivion and smoke so much that he has to do breathing treatments, she isn’t allowed to smoke weed once or twice a day. she doesn’t do it for fun she does it because he causes her so much anxiety and stress that if she didn’t, i know she would have killed him by now and when i say that, i’m not kidding. one time i witnessed him hit her right in front of me. they were arguing and my younger brother who is 10 was sleeping on the couch but when they got loud he woke up and started crying. (he doesn’t like when they fight for obvious reasons) and so my mom was bent over, trying to calm him down when my stepdad told her to “get away from his son” and when she told him to leave her the fuck alone he smacked her across the face. let me repeat that for you: SHE WAS CONSOLING HER CRYING CHILD AND HE SMACKED HER ACROSS THE FACE IN FRONT OF ALL THREE OF US. MY SISTER (his daughter who is 16) MY BROTHER (my half brother that is 10 YEARS OLD) AND ME (her eldest daughter that’s 19) and then when i realized what he did i go “did you just hit her?!” and he goes “yes” and i go “do you want me to hit you? because i will” and he goes on a rant about how if i “don’t want to see this then i need to move out” do you understand how hard it is to not beat the living shit out of someone who you know hits your mother and has the audacity to tell you that if you don’t like it to leave? i saw red and i started shaking and my sister had to drag me out of the room because i was ready to go to jail for murder that night. i had to lock myself in my room and punch things to keep myself from killing him. my mom ended up locking herself in a room so he couldn’t get to her and my sister took my brother to my room so that he couldn’t take them and leave while drunk. not even a month ago it got to the point that my mom told him that she had no love for him left and that he killed any emotion she had for him except hatred. she even told him to leave and my sister convinced him to leave (she had gotten her permit two days prior and drove for the first time legally to take her dad to a friends house) a few days later my mom took him to a public place and told him “the day you get permanent custody of your daughter is the day i can kick you out” yesterday was the day of court and today he’s still here. my sister went with them for the court because she had to for the custody battle and afterwards she went with him to work and while they were working, he told her that she needed to stop hanging out with me. i wasn’t allowed to pick her up from school, i wasn’t allowed to take her to the store to get fucking tampons. not only am i livid that he told her that, but she agreed to it and is 100% on his side. she says it’s not just because he is her father but the friend that’s like a son that i mentioned earlier? he evidently has been telling her “all that’s been going on since she was gone” bull shit. he isn’t living here how the fuck would he know anything but my stepdads side of the story? he doesn’t see what i see or hear what i hear. and she hasn’t been here with him almost every day for 10 years. she hasn’t heard all of the names he has called my mother. she saw him hit her. and she doesn’t think my mom has any reason to kick him out. SHE TOLD ME SHE WILL LEAVE WITH HIM IF HE GETS KICKED OUT. i’m not mad at her. i feel completely and utterly abandoned by the one person i feel as though i can confide in. the one person i’ve told every thing that i’ve ever experienced or done to. she knows the little details about me that i have never shared with anyone. for fucks sake she’s the only person that’s ever seen me completely naked (other than my parents bc obviously they saw me naked when i was a baby and shit) she is my rock. my diary. my other half. she is my ride or die. my partner in crime. she is my sister blood or not. marriage or not. and she’s willing to just drop me like that. she’s willing to leave me and never see me again. because that’s what’s going to happen if she leaves with him. he’s not going to want her to even think of me again and she’s going to listen to him because he is her father. but what about me?

[threemoonsareshining]

i think you're such a cool person can you do as many as you'd like of the get to know you asks? i couldn't choose! i'm just desperate to know you lol

Hi anon! There are a lot of asks and I’m not that cool but I’m sad and bored again so I’ll do as many as I can.

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? I don’t think I’ve ever really held hands for real with anyone but I’m pretty sure the last time was about a week ago with one of my best friends bc we were in a place with lots of people and we didn’t want to get lost 2. Are you outgoing or shy? I’m the shyest person I know (actually no, I know a girl who is even shyer than me but I’m pretty close)3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? Not to sound cheesy or anything but I really want to see this guy I had something weird going on with not because of any special reason I just want to know where things are going4. Are you easy to get along with? I’d like to say I am but actually it’s really really hard to keep in touch with me and I’m not good at making conversation at all6. What kind of people are you attracted to? First of all, I’m not usually attracted to people at all, I don’t know why and when I am I always ask myself “girl why this one exactly?” and honestly, I don’t know. There are just some persons I feel comfortable with in a specific way and  then attraction grows from there idk I’m really not used to being attracted to anyone9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? Extremely10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? A friend of mine when I was really drunk at his house waiting for my parents to pick me up. I don’t really remember what we talked about but it felt very nice.11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? it says “no da miedo hihihi” which translates to “it’s not scary hihihi”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? right now I can’t stop listening to Fiji Water by Owl City (i’m so excited he’s releasing new music!), Your Mother’s Eyes, Rythm and Blues and Take a Walk by The head and the heart and It’s only life by The Shins.13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? I like it because it feels so so relaxing but at the same time it makes me anxious because I think that the more people touch it the dirtier and more damaged it gets and as a person who spends a considerable amount of time on my hair, that is not so nice15. What good thing happened this summer? I went to a festival in the town next to mine and I got to see all my friends after a long time and I had such a good time my heart hurts every time I think about it16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? Yess (idk if it’s bc I really like him or I just want to kiss someone)18. Do you still talk to your first crush? No! Actually I saw him a few months ago after… 6 years and we looked at each other like “are you who I think you are?”. I never really talked to him, he treated me like shit and he’s responsible for many of my insecurities so I believe it’s better this way hah21. What are you bad habits? I don’t sleep, I don’t pay as much attention as I should to my loved ones, I forget to eat and shower and I scratch my face like there’s no tomorrow my friend23. Do you have trust issues? Hell yeah I do. Literally everyone I knew left me when I was like 15 or so which is, you know, a crucial stage of your emotional development and stuff so since then I’ve never got close to anyone because what better strategy than not to be invested enough in a relationship so if it ends you don’t feel so bad about it!25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? My ears for sure. They stick out so that’s why I never wear my hair up in public. I thought about getting surgery but I want to stay true to myself and stuff.28. Who are you most comfortable around? I’m not 100% comfortable with anyone but I guess my best friend is a strong candidate.30. Do you ever want to get married? I never think about that because my brain always tells me “first find someone who is actually willing to marry you and then we’ll think about it”31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? It’s long enough for 6 ponytails if you put your mind into it34. Do you play sports? What sports? Sports are bad and I hate them36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? I liked this guy for like 6 years and I literally never spoke a word to him but I think the way I looked at him made it pretty obvious (I guess that’s why he avoided me all the time)37. What do you say during awkward silences? I’m the Queen of awkward silences and I’ve learnt that it’s ok to not say anything. Or I’ll just sigh a lot.39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? Don’t make me think about shops rn bc I spent the whole afternoon trying to find something to wear to the 5 million Christmas dinners I have and everything was either too expensive, too ugly or just looked terrible on me so yeah I’m pretty mad40. What do you want to do after high school? I wanted to study something arts-related like filmmaking, music or dance, you know, the only things I actually used to enjoy but instead of that I decided to study economics because I hate myself41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? I think this depends on the circumstances but in my opinion and taking into account my own experience I’ll always give a second chance, maybe not immediately but eventually, I will.42. If you’re being extremely quiet what does it mean? It means I’m being me haha43. Do you smile at strangers? I try to but it’s scary45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? I have no reason to get out of bed in the morning besides the fact that if I stop doing the things I should do I’ll never be able to catch up and everyone will go on with their lives while I stay the same and become mediocre and that’s just inconceivable to me. So basically I don’t live for myself but for the expectations people have of me.48. Have you ever been drunk? Yes and I wish I was rn honestly49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? Yes and since I don’t want to tell anyone I won’t say what it is52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? I wish I wasn’t worried about literally everything because it’s so tiring and it keeps me from thinking about more important stuff64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? About a month ago I was at this party and everyone was telling me one of my friends I had been talking to for a while wanted to hook up with me and I kinda wanted to too but I’m too shy and anxious to make any moves so I got drunk, and  after avoiding him like 6546 times (bc I was really worried I would look stupid not bc I didn’t want to) I finally kissed him in front of an entire crowd of strangers and all my friends found out about it right afterwards so it was like a public event and I felt really exposed so yeah it wan’t ideal~ but also not the worst (I cringed so much while writing this, it was so awkward my god)69. Are you watching tv right now? Not right now but I’m about to watch the new episode of Crazy ex-girlfriend 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 2, one for my head and other by my side to keep me some company (I’m so lonely oh my god)73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? A shar-pei puppy dog I have since I was born (it’s so so cute I love it his name is wrinkles)75. Favourite animal? Cats are not only my favourite animals but one of my favourite things on earth78. Favourite ice cream flavour? since ice cream is my favourite food I can’t really choose one flavour (anything but banana flavour tho)81. Favourite tv show? GoT and Mr Robot I can’t choose but there are so many82. Favourite movie? Billy Elliot86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Bruce the shark, he deserves more recognition94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? I own lots of sweaters because you can never own enough sweaters (until you run out of space in your closet which is what’s happening to me)95. Last movie you watched? Tulip Fever. Not one of my favourites but last night I felt like watching some historic drama and romance shit (love it every once in a while). Alicia Vikander and Dane Dehaan tho98. Do you tan a lot? I used to but since I rarely leave my room during the summer I’ve become The Pale Friend™ 99. Have any pets? Two cats and I used to have fish but they weren’t my thing and I decided that no more fish would die because of me (I really tried but they just didn’t survive idk why)100. How are you feeling? I’m feeling really anxious right now and I can’t sleep. Partly it’s because I’ve got a lot of papers to write and a presentation on Monday and none of them are going especially well tbh, but there’s something else that is making me feel extremely uneasy and bad about myself and idk what it is but I’d like it to stop thank you very much102. Do you regret anything from your past? I regret not being able to enjoy these last 3 or 4 years of my life because they could’ve been some of the best years of my life but I was so full of sadness and hatred I just couldn’t pay attention to anything else108. What should you be doing? sleeping since 1 am but it’s 4 am and here we are115. Do you play the Wii? Who would I be without Just dance and Animal Crossing 116. Are you listening to music right now? yes, Rainbow Veins by Owl City (how unexpected)117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? I had that for dinner and it was beautiful118. Do you like Chinese food? The other day I cried tears of happiness because my mom ordered Chinese food for lunch119. Favourite book? Memorias the Idhún120. Are you afraid of the dark? Not so much now but not so long ago I would get what now I can consider almost panic attacks because the dark made me feel so anxious. I’d stay paralysed in my bed, feeling my arms numb and I can swear I heard stuff in my head and I got the feeling that I was literally dying.126. Are you currently bored? A little (these are a lot of questions but I want to finish them now)129. What your zodiac sign? Taurus131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? This is happening right now and I don’t like him that way so I just try to keep everything the same but also I try to keep the distances so he doesn’t misinterpret things (this makes me feel so bad for him sometimes but I’m trying to make him see that not liking him romantically doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy being with him). Let’s hope it works.133. Favourite lyrics right now? “I’ve been down the very road you’re walking now / It doesn’t have to be so dark and lonesome / It takes a while but we can figure this thing out / And turn it back around”  from It’s only life by The Shins.137. How tall are you? 164cm which I think is 5,3 feet138. Curly or Straight hair? My hair is curly af and it’s very inconvenient for… life you know140. Summer or Winter? Summer because of the holidays winter because of the feeling141. Night or Day? Night145. Tea or Coffee? Tea but coffee has been saving my life these past weeks146. Was today a good day? Today was a wasted and disappointing day.150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? “Con Elodin nunca se sabe —dije—. Si no está loco, es el mejor actor que he conocido jamás” from The Wise Man’s Fear. It translates to something like “’Who can say with Elodin?’ I said. ‘If he isn’t crazy, he’s the best actor I’ve ever met.’”

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Gaycoding and You: a Useless Ramble about Milkshakes and 1950s Humor

Ok lemme just start out this Disk Horse by saying that y’all are fuckin fakers. There’s no fuckin way my whole dashboard was secretly hardcore Archies Comics fans who read every motherfuckin issue and have been following the exploits of the Riverdale Crew for years. Shut the fuck up, we all read the comics casually while waiting in line at the grocery store, and now that a dude is confirmed ace, you all basically did the discourse equivalent of pullin’ an all nighter the night before the midterm. 

I’m calling your fucking bluff, you ain’t intimately aware with ANY archies comics characters. Do y’all even know the name of that old lady who’s the teacher who has to deal with Archie n Juggy’s shit? the one who looks like a pencil with a cotton ball slapped on it? Cause I fuckin don’t. For all I know, she’s one of the fuckin Pearls from Stevens Universe, and she took a teaching job in this obnoxiously idyllic suburban neighborhood because she’s a masochist. 

So now that we’ve got that out of the way let’s move on to this alleged “gay coding,” 

Aight so in all the times I’ve read dem Archies Comics, Jughead’s basically been the dude who has 2 things on his mind: burger and nap. That’s it. Sometimes hes thinking of havin a milkshake with that burger. Nice cold 1950s diner style milkshake. His favorite napping spot is a hammock under two trees. It’s probably in his backyard or by the lake in the park and he just has that hammock permanently set up. Maybe he has multiple hammocks permanently set up around Riverdale and no one takes down the Jughead hammocks because that would be rude. In the carefree high school world of Archies Comics, where girls wanna date boys and boys wanna date girls (seriously there’s fuckin PAGES detailing the lighthearted yet completely overdramatic conflicts of archie, reggie, betty, veronica, and their Hetero Drama), Jughead is the quintessential Man Who Doesn’t Give A Single Fuck. As far as we know, he’s not even aware that schoolwork and romance and jobs exist. He literally doesn’t even look once at anything that other people build whole story arcs about. This is his character, this is the comedic trope he fills. He’s the straight man to Archie’s Hetero Bullshit, but he’s also the clown who’s amusingly uninterested in things he should be interested in. like his grades. get it together, Jughead. 

At least, that’s the impression I get from all those years casually readin Archies Comics while my mom loads the veggies on the conveyor belt. Who tf knows, maybe Mr Happy Meal Crown batted his eyelashes at Reggie and blew him a kiss like a big fat flami- aw who am i kidding, the only reason Jughead would bat his eyelashes is during Masochist Pearl’s class cuz he’s bored and wants to sleep. 

Anyways, Jughead’s character out of the way, we need to talk about this weird-ass idea that every single example of a male character refusing to date women is Gay Coding. 

Now I’ve mainly read only the Classical Literature that my middle n highschool teachers gave me to read, and not much else, but BOY HOWDY did I read the SHIT out of those. You’re talking about a girl who cried her ass off at the end of Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein, in a hotel lobby where people were starin at me like I was a weirdo. Point is, I paid more attention to those verbose messes than most ppl my age, cause I’m a nerd. 

And let’s get something straight. Lack of APPARENT attraction to a character of the opposite gender ISN’T gaycoding. And no I’m not saying this because of modern-day conceits like “someone not attracted to the opposite gender could simply not be attracted to ANY gender”, no you wet blanket, listen to me. 

If Mr. Hooke isn’t interested in marrying Ms. Fairweather, there’s three main reasons for that, and you can usually tell which one it is right off the fucking bat: 

- Hooke is Gay as Shit, and in love with his assistant, Sir Appleseed. You can tell because he’s always seen hanging out with Appleseed, and the two of them spend a lot of time together and regularly express affection for each other with words of praise. Also Appleseed’s like a decade younger and he’s very pretty. Very very pretty. A paragraph is written about how Appleseed has a lithe yet muscular body and nice abs. Any modern reader will giggle at how obnoxiously gay this is. People will debate at length on whether the author intended Mr. Hooke to look like such a fuckin flamer. 

- Hooke is straight, but he’s a misogynist intellectual who sees the advances of Ms. Fairweather as a distraction from his Deeply Important Work. Whenever someone mentions Ms. Fairweather or women in general, he speaks at length about how he refuses to give in to their succubus wiles, and how he has a greater purpose. He may also mock Fairweather’s perceived shallow desires. The modern reader soon starts to feel intense hatred for Mr. Hooke, because the dude is so fucking obnoxiously CONCEITED, SHUT THE FUCK UP, but victorian guys probably deeply respected the dude for his chosen celibacy. 

- Hooke is just a weirdass loner introvert. People confusedly ask him why he won’t marry Ms. Fairweather, and he just kinda ignores the question. He doesn’t seem to have a single opinion on the woman’s advances, and seems almost oblivious to them. The intent of the author was, of course, to portray Mr. Hooke as an eccentric man, and also maybe to push the idea that women are a drain on mankind’s intellectual pursuits. Or maybe the author just wanted to show how “weird” Hooke is for not wanting to get married. Either way, the modern reader will start desperately wanting to shake said author by the shoulders and shout “YOU WROTE AN ASEXUAL CHARACTER, YOU NITWIT!!!” 

The point I’m trying to make here is that merely not wanting to date the opposite gender isn’t gaycoding, it’s too fuckin ambiguous for that. Either the character’s gay, or they’re straight and also illustrating weirdass misogynistic cultural standards, or they’re just a fuckin weirdo, in a way that was probably meant to imply neurodivergency, let’s be real, but any modern reader would unanimously agree it’s probably just asexuality, written from the perspective of people who don’t realize that’s a thing that can exist, and it isn’t a weird nameless “fuck marriage” disorder. 

Anyways, 1950s is a bit different. In the context of Post WWII Oldies, specifically comedic comic books set in a suburban high school, if a dude doesn’t want to date, it’s more likely that the authors saw him as someone who was too dumb, ugly, lazy, or nerdy to ever get with a girl, so they made him uninterested in women just because it’s not very funny to see a dude get sad bcs no one will date him. We can feel better if we imagine they’re just uninterested. And That’s Jughead. He’s not coded gay, he’s coded as a nitwit food-obsessed lazeball, and if we’ll be honest, the original writers PROBABLY wrote him with Stoners in mind. 

Jughead’s not running through a literal maze of women to get to his precious delicious milkshake because he’s gay, my dudes. He’s doing it because he spent all morning fuckin Blazing it, and he’s got a fierce case of the munchies, and munchies waits for no girl. He’s got that in common with Norville Rogers, AKA Shaggy from Scooby Doo. WE HAVE SEEN THIS TROPE BEFORE.

Point of the matter is, when the writers made him ace, it’s because they decided maybe Jughead should be more than a cheap stoner joke who’s friends w/ Archie. He’s still a stoner joke, of course, but now he’s a stoner joke that also cleverly doubles as an example of the ace community injoke about cake. You know the one I’m talkin about. 

And that’s all folks.