#i actually think it’s concerning and i shoulf probs see a therapist | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

vvabbitt · 1 month ago

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buy new vape or extensive tarot reading on him with a powerpoint and healing crystals advised??? its 55% off until the end of the month i feel like this will heal me i need someone to stab me in the heart cause my dumb brain has a hard time accepting that people will lie to me so i keep referring back to all the verbal love and attention i received like the dummy i am bitch !!! he **lied** but i am soft and sensitive about it so if she can just confirm with tarot and give advice on moving on faster that would help

#beat me down so i can build myself back up #i actually think it’s concerning and i shoulf probs see a therapist #but i have a fantasy to relax and it involves just him hitting me not to seriously damage me but until im crying #psychologically my emotions are in such pain that the idea of physical pain inflicted by him brings some relief #i can be self aware thats not normal but it also creeps me out that it actually helps me sleep at rhe idea of him just slapping me #just to switch from emotional hurt to physical #kinda like how self harm works #this isnt the first time i have the fantasy of being physically hurt as a comfort fantasy but its new for him #i worry about myself

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