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itsatorchwoodthing · 8 months ago

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what pains me is that it’s basically impossible to be up to date with all doctor who/torchwood lore because of the audiodramas - like, i adore them and im so grateful they exist but it’s impossible to listen to all of them so i’ll never know every single piece of lore or the complete timeline

#it’s like buying infinite dlc for a game you already payed 60€ for #i WANT to know but i dont have the time or money to spend on it #torchwood #doctor who #rant #big finish

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microtyalm13 · 10 months ago

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everything about Gavriil feels suffocating.

how his presence alone can be almost overwhelming, how his massive body cages you everytime without a chance to escape. you wouldn't dare to try anyway, knowing that you don't even have a say against a creature of his caliber. he will find you. in your dreams, in your nightmares. in your room.

how he will be intense and vague about everything just for the sake of it; to confuse you further, to see the conflict of emotions in your eyes merge with arousal. eventually your hesitance turns into acceptance, a desperate need to feel his hands all over you. and he will be oh so grateful to fulfill that desire.

how his thick tongue pushes past your lips and into your mouth, reaching almost the back of your throat, relishing in the muffled little sounds you make. your drool mixed with his saliva drips down your chin, and your hazy eyes look up at him when he finally pulls away, giving you a second to breathe.

how his hips are slamming into you relentlessly, your wetness and lack of resistance allowing him to move almost effortlessly. forced to hold onto him for dear life instead of pushing away. all of your morals and principles are being tossed out of the window every single time he comes to you. he has you where he wants you, and will not stop until he feels like you can't take it anymore.

and how in the morning he vanishes away, leaving you guessing: was it just another wet dream? but the cold stickiness between your legs tells you more than you need to know.

#yes bringing this back bc at the time i didn't tag it properly #okay im gonna complain in here now.#need... to... draw... something... but i dont... have the strength..#drawing on my phone is so exhausting but i have no other option #bc i think my traditional art is not very polishedddd and i dont want to answer asks with ittttt #but maybe i will #bc i think i'm really getting to that burnout #and giving how my bday is getting closer and closer....#i dread it. but hey. cake. money. i'll get a new piercing #i WILL cry ofc but hey. maybe someone will buy me tea as a gift. who knows.#i just want to spend some time with someone yknow:(#just... talk. about anything. sit beside eachother and stare off into the waters #i hope the snow will melt soon because i want to go out more even if by myself #gonna find a job when summer comes... maybe talking to colleagues and all that will help... everythings gonna be fine.. i hope #i just need friends. god.#microtya's kids #microtya: gavriil #monsterfucker #monster fucker #monster x human #monster boyfriend #monster lover #teratophillia #god x human #monster smut

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sonknuxadow · 2 months ago

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i genuinely dont get how so many people are uncritically excited for The Movie and have no issue with anything going on here i feel like im losing my mind a little bit . the trailers did not look good to me at all is everyone excited about it posting from an alternate dimension or something what are people seeing in this movie that im not .

#and i say this as someone whos standards are usually not that high and can have fun with most sonic media and liked the first 2 movies......#all i can feel is disappointment at how bad a job theyre doing at adapting sa2 and the disservice to certain characters/concepts #(obviously thats just based on the trailers i havent seen the movie and refuse to spend money on it so i cant give afull judgement #but the trailers certainly dont give a very good impression of the movie to me)#and before anyone says that its not an sa2 movie.theyre taking a lot of plot points and characters from sa2 #and taking a lot of stuff from sa2 and using it in the marketing and such #they cant do all that and then go ''um actually its not an sa2 movie youre crazy for expecting an sa2 movie LOL''#i also wasnt expecting an exact recreation of sa2 either i would have bene fine with changes #but stuff like having gerald be alive and take rouge's spot in the dark story trio and making him a more comedic character #is ridiculous and feels inherently disrespectful to the source material #and thats not even getting into how it feels like im always hearing about some new awful thing #that paramount or one of the actors did which just makes me not wanna give them my money or time even more #sighhh i honestly just want this all to be over alerady and for the hype to die down so ican stop hearing about the movie #but i know its going to make one billion dollars and theyre just going to make more movies after this. hell on earth .

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obsob · 2 years ago

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drawings ive done this week for a competition!! probably the most ambitious thing ive drawn in my new style but im very happy with them! :3

#mine #original #u hve no idea how small my brain is now #i will probably take th rest of the week off ough #i hope everyone is having a good time #im having a medium time but. i am getting there #ive ordered new prints!!!!! should be getting here next week i thnky #i need 2 order more business cards. my favourite thing to spend money on #its actually beginning to get sunny and warm so i will sit in the garden and read!!#im reading like. a murder mystery thing. its Just Okay #i read 'in memoriam' by alice somebody recently and OH BOY #i dont rlly know what im in the mood for book wise after this one....i might read the ninth rain ? ive heard good stuff abt it #part of me wants to read warrior cats bc i never read it as a kid but i think i'll b rlly autistic abt it so i am resisting currently #also i had porridge for breakfast this morning n put frozen blueberries in it n it made it purple....truly there is love in the world

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bonksoundeffect · 2 years ago

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The born in Eastern Europe curse of knowing you were doomed from the start

#being told growing up that the west was an utopia thats got their shit together #and you spend your whole life dreaming of escaping your home country and finally getting to *live*#but then you grow older and maybe you travel a little and even study abroad and you read the news and you realise #that it's all a lie #no one got their shit together and the west is just as much of a shitshow except they have money and hide corruption better #and you're left with nowhere to go #double whammy when you're also queer #its just one of those days when you talk to your aunt who worked at a factory during soviet time and listening to her experiences #and realising that the cycle did not break the cycle is looming over your heaf #and also knowing that as a queer person you will be alone for it #personal #anyways fuck bulgaria this country will be the death of me and yet i dont want to die on foreign soil #i grew up here and yet i dont wanna grow old here too

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seventh-district · 1 month ago

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#Seven’s Public Diary #vent #vent post #cw negative #cw health issues #‘You’re such a heartless and hateful person.’ well have you ever considered that i’m not really a hateful person and i just hate You #like. call me whatever you want to i guess. im definitely selfish and probably heartless but hateful? idk abt that.#i only feel like i hate people that have given me good fucking reason to. sorry i dont have an infinite supply of tolerance & forgiveness??#but im a wee bit fucking stressed so you’ll have to forgive me for being a bitch. well no one Has to forgive me. do whatever you want #‘That 10-day old pasta salad is making me feel sick.’ MF that was made TODAY. IT’S FRESH AND THERE’S NOTHING WRONG WITH IT #if you feel sick how about you look down at the fifteen empty beer cans on the floor next to you and ask them what they think did it #dumbass. whatever man i have bigger problems than your self-induced tummy ache #i feel sick too but i know it’s my fault so i’m not bitching about it. i gave you fresh food while I ate the old stuff to keep from wasting #food. because you act like you’re fucking allergic to leftovers. and yeah it had probably gone off and that’s why I feel sick #but what you ate tonight was fresh as could be so we’re sick for two Very different reasons. and i know how to admit when it’s my fault #everything is my fault. my teeth and gums hurt and that’s My fault for not taking care of them. apparently 3 root canals wasn’t enough #for me to learn my goddamn lesson. i never do. so i’ll have to spend more money on that soon and thats My fault. the dog’s teeth need #cleaning too and that’ll come out of my pocket and i guess that’s My fault for not taking care of him either #i think i have another goddamn UTI and that’s definitely My fault so another $100 trip to urgent care it is i guess!#my Random Nerve Pain has moved to my hands so i can’t use them too much or it fucking hurts and i guess that’s my fault???#my neck pain is back and thats my fault for not clearing my bed off enough to sleep in a comfortable position #my eye keeps twitching and i guess that’s my fault too. i don’t know anymore i just wanna throw in the towel man im so tired #god the UTI tests i wasted money on are arriving tomorrow and if they’re packed in a way that shows what’s inside then i’ll have to explain #That to whoever brings in the mail. great great something else to worry about all night #the living room floor is caving in so now there’s Two room’s floors that need fixing so that’s super fucking fun! 😃#i need to talk to my bank and i need to talk to a tax professional and i need to learn to drive and i need to get an autism diagnosis #well i don’t Need the last one but i want it so bad. but im scared. that i’ll go to all this trouble and they’ll say i don’t qualify #and god it’s NYE now. Besties i’m not gonna get that NMbD NYE fic ready in time. i just can’t make myself write these days. i’m sorry.#i doubt anyone is gonna be That disappointed but I Am. in myself. 3 fucking years now i’ve failed to finish it. w h y. i Want to write but #there’s just too much on me rn. but when is there Not. sigh. idk what i’m gonna do but something needs to change. in my life. soon.

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rinofwater · 7 months ago

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I just found a clinic nearby that does gender-affirming surgeries so top surgery might actually be a feasible thing for me in the near(ish) future

I found a job that seems to have all the stuff I liked from one of my last jobs without the extra bullshit I didn't (can't apply for it currently but that kind of job exists and that's reassuring)

Things might be starting to look up for me

#personal #i would have to use the money i saved up for college for the surgery and i dont know what kind of wait list they have going on #but i dont have enough money to get the kind of degree i want anyway here #so i might as well drop that money on something meaningful to me instead #not having much luck figuring out the getting back to therapy thing atm and im not going to assume these things on their own will fix me #but damn if they wouldn't help #and if i can get back into work i can move back in with my old roommate #(as far as i know my room's still available id just have to talk to him about it once ive got money to offer for bills again)#and with this kind of 'stay at home until there's work' job itll mean im not spending all my energy trying to survive the day #so i should still have some left over for doing the things i love doing (without having to worry about those things being able to make mone #god i havent felt this hopeful about my prospects in a long fucking time #maybe i can still make a place for myself

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wraithsoutlaws · 6 months ago

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the only real vivid memory i had of my dad for like 20+ years was being probbaly 7 years old and him showing me his newest tattoo which was his new girlfriend posing naked inside a beer bottle and there were points in my life where I thought I must have made that up its so foggy it's probably not real and having met him again for the first time since that moment I realized nope. that was real. tattoo is still there.

#very strange to live your whole life not having a father and then just having one agai. out of the blue #very strange when i know its more emotional for him but for me its just like. oh heres some guy.#anyway i dont want the mustang now i want the pontiac #i actually do vaguely remember that car from my childhood too #i dont think its running anymore tho but god its pretty #the mustang actually runs and hes put a lot of money into it #but its an 08 so it doesnt look as cool #tho he did spend a lot of time explaining the 08 model looks the closest to the older models etc etc #but he put the ugliest hood on it yeesh #anyway im not necessarily doing this just to lay claim to cars dkskxkkdkd but #you know. its possibly a perk

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gayteddy · 7 days ago

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why havent parents been made illegal yet

#-_-#me: do not ever talk to me again i mean it #my mom: ok i know you probably dont want to hear from me but i had a health scare and-#jude said ''parents when they have a health scare is charlie and the golden ticket''#finally i can message my children who hate me and guilt them into spending time / money on me!

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m00ngbin · 5 months ago

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I'm trying to pick a major that I would be the most interested in just because it would make my life so much easier and right now I have like three ideas and they all have a million problems

#like bioengineering. that sounds great right #id make good money with even just a bachelors degree #but i dont want to be stuck with that my whole life. that doesnt sound fun to me and engineering is supposed to be a miserable major #AND MINOR #and its a relatively new field so not a lot of places near me have it. and the places that DO have it are crazy expensive #i want to get a degree in linguistics because thats something that sounds fun to me. i would enjoy that #im good with english and language #but what can i really do with a linguistics degree? and im not good at learning other languages so i couldnt be an interpreter as much as i #would enjoy it #i kind of want to go for theatre tech stuff but. idk there arent really any buts but is that really realistic for me? i stopped doing tech #in freshman year because people were kind of mean. im a quitter and theyre not going to like that and i havent done anything related #in so long so really what are the chances i get accepted for that #i know people who tech for bands make pretty good money and they have fun #i lied theres four #i could do geology something but thats broad and also the best school for it in the state is UF.#im NOT going to UF. i would rather die. its a personal grudge. also they suck and barely accept anybody even though the school SUCKS AND IT #SO EXPENSIVE FOR NO REASON #i wanted to do marine bio two years ago but theres soooo many problems with that. including ticks #I HATE TICKS #“but joel. isnt it MARINE science? there arent ticks in the ocean” YOURE WRONG. TICKS ARE EVERYWHERE. also marine bio has a lot to do with #marshes and there ARE ticks in marshes. and maritime hammocks where id be spending a lot of time. you would not believe the amount of ticks #ive gotten from my marine bio and environmental management classes. its so many. so many ticks

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the-trans-dragon · 20 days ago

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It *does* hurt that I got let go without any warning (even if I knew it was a possibility, especially since it's the slow season now and they're specifically replacing half of my department with other stuff) *because* I've been looking for other jobs with the plan to do a full two-weeks notice when I found one, and I've been secretly planning this entire time to eventually leave, making things as neat and easy as possible for whoever ends up overseeing my department. I didn't want any of the extra work to fall on my coworkers, the other department managers who have their own workloads. So it really sucks that higher-ups decided that I didn't deserve any warning, and neither did any of my teammates who will now have to pick up all the slack without any guidance from me.