#i HATEEEEE when authors do this

[titsthedamnseason]

now what the hell-

[amyreads]

First off I just wanted to say thank you for infamous!! I can’t even pinpoint what it is but it has taken over my brain for the last week since I discovered it. Your writing/character development is amazing and you really are just a spectacular writer- you really know how to set up a scene and make it feel authentic. I absolutely love how open you are to hearing your readers wants/suggestions and it’s amazing that you’re already planning on doing POV chapters/bonus content, but I just want to make sure you don’t burn yourself out! Obviously you know what you can handle more than anyone else does, but I have seen IF authors get burn out and over extend themselves by trying to create extra content that will appease their readers and I would hateeeee to see that happen to you and Infamous! I am planning on supporting your Patreon as soon as it drops and I will obviously soak up any content I can, but I would rather not have any bonus content if that means you can focus solely on the book itself so you don’t have too much on your plate!! I hope this doesn’t come across as rude, as I said you know what you can handle and I’m grateful for anything you decide to create and share with us!! But I just wanna make sure you don’t get overwhelmed will all the extra stuff too ❤️

Thank so much :,) First, I'm glad you like Infamous and it always surprises me when someone likes it shjsjsj and it makes me happy! Secondly, it's very sweet of you to look out for me that way. It's true I have taken a bit of a step back from answering questions on the main blog. I used to answer so many in one day but I feel like being so open has left me vulnerable to a bit of entitlement from rude anons. Trying to keep up the pretense of a very active blog has left me a little drained and made me realize I created Infamous for one thing: to write! So I've started prioritizing my space to just write Infamous without feeling like I have to be active all the time on the blog. I have a lot of fun talking about Infamous on amyreads because I feel like there's no expectations here. I can just chat casually about it without feeling like people will take my word as law and then start having OPINYUNS about it nshsids ofc this is about like....0.5 percent of the people on the blog, everyone else has been so lovely and great :,) but even the negative minority can feel so loud because my brain just latches onto every bad thing about me. yeah yeah

As for the bonus content, you're right! I do need to be careful ahh I think it helps that I *want* to write these POV chapters so it doesn't feel like much of an obligation. I've had a lot of fun being able to focus on one scene that's already written and I can just remix it. But yeah, I will make sure to be a bit more mindful of my own limits <3

and it's not rude at all! I really appreciate it, it's nice to know there's someone out there thinking of me! As for saying no...HSHDBSDH it's very hard i hate disappointing people but omg ur right, i have such a hard time putting my foot down i don't like the idea of someone upset at me hshhsdbsdh

once again, thank you :,) this was nice to read. i hope you like whatever i have planned for the story :>

[petalpathic]

august something something 2023

okay i’m freshly motivated and ready to start feeding you guys!

so i don’t like making promises and telling you “this will happen on this day” because i can’t predict how i’ll be feeling that day and will probably be setting everyone up for disappointment. i don’t want to be that person who doesn’t keep their word!

so this is a less formal version of that.

for a while, as is evident on my blog, i was in a slump where i just didn’t feel the same spark with this project as i did when i started it, but i think im back.

i hateeeee planning! i found that out! i think it’s one of the reasons i got so worn out with this project, just the constant planning and seeing author advice saying stuff like “this is how you should do this”, i realized i write much better when im not thinking about what im writing and where it’ll end, if that makes sense. Obviously some stuff needs to be planned, i just don’t love planning Everything.

so heres the deal,

demo - i want to write a really good chunk of it to be released, like prologue + episode 1, prologue will probably be pretty short, but episodes will be split into acts (probably 3).

character boards - nobody asked for one but its fun for me ok, probably won’t be released until after the demo so you know some of the characters that haven’t been mentioned on the blog.

intro - there is something missing in the intro i just can’t figure out!!! i will be tearing my hair out trying to make it look good and less lacking

that’s all i can think of rn 😕 ill come back if i think i forgot something

tysm for almost 300 notes on the intro ull make me cry

[latinozevran-archive]

idk i mean some things i think its just silly not to interpret as gay but when i say it is really not an option w sgrs if u want to comprehend what is happening at all in the plot itself like it is subtext in the sense that it is never voiced explicitly I Am Gay and In Love With You but it is text in terms of its relevance and importance like to miss the themes of someone being like my whole life feels so much like a performance that when i am on stage i finally feel at ease that having to visibly perform gender roles and heterosexuality and being more comfortable with femininity is not just acceptable but actively expected of me and every single character relationship being so heavily influenced by sukeroku and kikuhikos feelings for one another being clearly clearly romantic in nature that it wasnt just a matter of kikuhikos lack of interest in miyokichi but him only showing warmth and affection to sukeroku and his ultimately pushing sukeroku out of his life as a complicated act of self destruction and that rejection being paralleled with his breakup w miyo and then the two of them getting together right after that despite not appearing to have almost any feelings for one another bound initially first and foremost by their being in love with and left behind by kikuhiko which was obviously not a stable foundation for a relationship lmfao thus being crucial to THEIR own relationship dynamics and the brief period where kiku and sukeroku live together again raising a child where they both literally and metaphorically are rarely performing being like the most peaceful moment of their lives falling asleep holding hands when im with you everything is fun i notice things i never did before and want to share it all with you if i could stay by your side forever listening to your rakugo it would be so easy sometimes i hated you but then.. sometimes i loved you when things were hard for me your rakugo was my comfort the good the bad everything i felt came from your rakugo and i cant do without it now come back to tokyo im not telling you to do it for the art or the audience i want you to do it for me sukeroku voice i wasnt gone that long when did you get that look in your eye [tender smile] like idk what else could possibly be enough to convince literally what else would it take short of an on screen kiss in addition to 2 extremely awkward ones shared between the 2 of them and miyokichi deliberately inserted into the story by kikuhiko himself

[andorerso]

tag games

so i’m just gonna catch up on all the tag games I’ve been tagged in that I haven’t done yet (and there’s a few, some from months ago whoops) and just dump it into one big post because why not

thanks to everyone who tagged me <3

Rules: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better

tagged by @incognitajones and @cats-and-metersticks 

Nickname: Sissi

Zodiac: Sagittarius

Last Movie I saw: Venom

Favorite Musicians: I don’t really have favorites, only ones I really love, like Lana Del Rey, Marina & the Diamonds, Adele, Britney Spears, etc

Song stuck in my head: actually nothing right now

Other blogs: not ones I’m active on anymore

Do I get asks: not that often

Amount of sleep: around 8 hours I get

Lucky number: I don’t really have one

What I’m wearing: black sweats, a black shirt, and a black sweater

Dream Job: author

Dream Trip: France, Italy, England

Favorite food: FRIED CHEESE

Play any instruments: I used to play the flute in elementary school

Favorite song: I don’t know if I have one, it always changes, but right now I’m really into Supercut by Lorde and Shallow by Lady Gaga

Random fact: I love zombie movies even though I’m terrified of zombies

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: Purple candles, red lipstick, dark chocolate, a cup of coffee, book shelves, old castles, rainy weather

Name your top 10 favourite characters from 10 different fandoms and then tag 10 people!  

tagged by @lovethyblakes

in no particular order:

Cassian Andor - Rogue One

Wynonna Earp - Wynonna Earp

Yennefer of Vengerberg - The Witcher

Hürrem Sultan - Magnificent Century

Alice Cooper - Riverdale

Richard Gansey - The Raven Cycle

Rose Calloway - Addicted Series

Anne Boleyn - The Tudors

Katherine Pierce - The Vampire Diaries

Ron Weasley - Harry Potter

Fanfic questionnaire��

tagged by @thestarbirdfromtheashes

1. What was the first fandom you ever wrote fic for? Tragically enough, it was Twilight yikes

2. What was your very first ship? It was either Ron & Hermione or Piper & Leo from Charmed. I’m not sure because it was around the same time

3. What fandoms have you written for, and what were your ships in the fics? Twilight - Alice & Jasper (listen, at least I hated Edward & Bella a LOT) Supernatural - Dean & Ruby 1.0 (because the second Ruby sucked) The Vampire Diaries - Stefan & Katherine (and one Damon & Elena fic which I deny now), American Horror Story - Tate & Violet (this is one I regret now because yikes, they were problematic AF and I was a stupid teen) Reign - Mary & Francis and Kenna & Bash, Pretty Little Liars - Spencer & Toby, The Raven Cycle - Blue & Gansey (and one Ronan & Adam fic), Dishonored - Corvo & Jessamine, Magnificent Century - Nurbanu & Selim, Magnificent Century: Kösem - Kösem & Halime, The Witcher - Yennefer & Triss & Geralt, Game of Thrones - Arya & Gendry, and now Rogue One - Jyn & Cassian

I also wrote a fic for my friend’s OCs once

and wow, I wrote for a lot more fandoms than I would have thought

4. What ships do you tend to gravitate to? I definitely have a few tropes I’m weak for, like: partners in crime, power couple, forbidden love, tragic love, enemies to friends to lovers, couples who make a great team, couples who are opposites but also similar, couples who challenge each other, exes who still love each other

5. Current OTP(s)? Rebelcaptain is the biggest and most important <3 Other than them, Dean & Cas, FP & Alice, and Wynonna & Doc

6. Former OTP(s)? Blue & Gansey - The Raven Cycle, Mara & Noah - Mara Dyer, Spencer & Toby - Pretty Little Liars, Daisy & Ryke - Addicted Series, Violet & Tate - American Horror Story, Katherine & Stefan - The Vampire Diaries, Alice & Jasper - Twilight, Ron & Hermione - Harry Potter

7. What are the ships you will always love? Rebelcaptain, Triss & Yen & Geralt, Dean & Cas, Blue & Gansey, Roy & Riza, Bonnie & Damon 

8. What do you think have been some of your best fic ideas? I really like that one fic I wrote where Jyn and Cassian agree to get married if they survive the war, it would be cool to actually write a follow-up to that one day lmao. I’m sure there were others but I can’t remember right now, especially because my ideas tend to be not very huge or groundbreaking. I usually just want to focus on character and relationship exploration in fics, with no fancy plot.

9. What kind of fic do you most love to write? I love to write heavy angst with a sweet happy ending lmao. I also tend to gravitate towards “taboo” or “dark and fucked up” topics. Even though that’s something I haven’t yet explored with Rebelcaptain

10. What do you dread writing? Definitely action and descriptions lmao. I’m so bad at those. Also fluff, sometimes. That depends.

11. What is a fic you would love to write one day? Ugh so many. For example, I’d love to write a follow up to the marriage pact, and I have a soulmate au in mind but with a twist.

12. What’s a fic you wish someone else would write? I actually don’t know lmao

Get to know me better

tagged by @thestarbirdfromtheashes​

Relationship status: single

Favorite colors: purple, red, black

Three favorite foods: FRIED CHEESE, tiramisu, carbanara

Song stuck in my head: nothing right now lmao

Last song I listened to: Halsey - Devil In Me

Last movie I watched: Venom

Time: 17:33

Top three shows: Wynonna Earp, Magnificent Century, The Good Place

Books that I’m currently reading: none right now, rip

Last thing I googled: bobcats

How many blankets do you sleep with: one

Dream trip: France, England, Italy

Anything you really want: to publish a book

rules: 15 questions, 15 mutuals ~

tagged by @incognitajones

are you named after anyone? nope

when was the last time you cried? I think last night at a fic lmao

do you have kids? no, and I don’t want any

do you use sarcasm a lot? too much

what’s the first thing you notice about people? I have no idea, their hair I guess

what’s your eye color? dark brown

scary movies or happy endings? can’t I have both? (though I don’t particularly like happy endings for scary movies lmao)

any special talents? idk what counts as that

where were you born? Serbia

what are your hobbies? writing, reading, video games

have you any pets? a cat <3

what sports do you / have you played? I hateeeee sports, I used to dance but I was terrible, and I used to go to the gym but we moved and now it’s far away. I do pilates though which is just enough for me

how tall are you? 169 cm

favorite subject in school? history and english (as a foreign language)

what’s your dream job? author

[yeolkisses]

All the evens

Wkbpwbjpe Maddy you’re trying to kill me I swear (but thank you this kept me busy lol and it was fun to do)

2 - do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?

Yessss I love it. Cold air is a blessing.

4 - how do you take your coffee/tea?

For coffee, I put a ton of creamer in. Tea is just a no for me.

6- do you keep plants?

Yes! A bonsai, a couple cacti, and an aloe vera.

8 - what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?

Does writing count??? I’m not very artistic 😅 but I consider myself a decent writer and poet. I feel like words are the easiest way to explain yourself so others can understand you better. It’s specific. Painting and drawing, etc. are also good too of course, I’m just not any good at them 😂 and I feel like they’re a bit more questionable. They have different meanings to people. But that’s what allows people to connect over them; seeing different viewpoints of the same thing. It kind of shows what type of person you are.

10 - do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?

My side or my back. I can’t do stomach 😂 it’s just too uncomfortable for me.

12 - what’s your favorite planet?

Hm. I don’t really know. I guess Neptune or Uranus??? They’re pretty.

14 - if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?

TBH I don’t even know who my best friend is anymore lately Well it would probably be a bit of a mess 😂 but messy in an organized way??? We’re pretty tidy people, at least when it comes to our rooms, but we (or I, at least) am still a little bit cluttery. I think it would look nice. Not necessarily modern, but just kind of homely.

16 - what’s your favorite pasta dish?

Spaghetti & meatballs OR chicken alfredo. Probably spaghetti and meatballs though.

18 - tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.

God they just brought it up today. I swear I’m not as stupid as they make me seem though!!!!! So one time at lunch (like YEARS ago) they were talking about sports and I wasn’t really paying attention (because I’m not a sports person) and they asked me something and I think I said, “I’m not into baseball.” And of course with my luck they were talking about football. So :)))) There are always exaggerations about how I must think a homerun is in basketball, etc.

20 - what’s your favorite eye color?

I mean…it doesn’t really matter to me?? I don’t like thinking about eyes which you already know, so I’ve never really considered a favorite eye color. But I hateeeee the colored contacts people wear, especially when they wear two different colors (one of my friend’s ex-boyfriends used to wear one silver and one bright green one and it was hideous). Anyway, if I had to choose a color, I guess I’d say brown. It’s under-appreciated sometimes 🙂

22 - are you a morning person?

It fluctuates. Sometimes I am, sometimes I’m not. Especially if the reason I’m waking up is to go to something I don’t want to do, then I am NOT a morning person at all.

24 - is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?

Honestly, probably not. I just really don’t trust people to keep their lips zipped or to not judge me.

26 - what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit?

My oldest pair of shoes rn are probably the ones I’m wearing (or at least they look the oldest since I wear them pretty much daily). They’re black and white cheetah print converse, with cheetah eyes on the side. They’re super comfortable.

28 - sunrise or sunset?

Both are nice, but I like sunsets better. It’s the end of the day, time to rest, and it just looks cooler imo. More fiery.

30 - think of it: have you ever been truly scared?

In all honesty, I don’t think so. I get scared easily, but I wouldn’t say I’ve been truly terrified.

32 - tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.

Already done~

34 - tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?

Done~

36 - which band’s sound would fit your mood right now?

Oof I don’t know. American Authors maybe? I feel really happy and free rn.

38 - tell us about your pet peeves!

Oh boy. I could go on and on. One: the sound of people chewing. It’s awful but you can’t tell them it’s annoying because that’s rude but it makes me. Want. To. Hit. Someone. It is SO irritating. Another thing: my brother doesn’t flush the toilet :)))) and that drives me insane. Another one: people who spit on you when they talk. People in band who, rather than not playing on the parts they don’t know and working on them later, just play whatever they want and mess everyone up. People who don’t put things back where they found them. People who nitpick every little thing about something that someone else did. I could just keep going on.

40 - think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you?

I’m just gonna choose the ring I wear all the time. I got it at the fair, it was only $12 😂 it doesn’t really hold much meaning, I just like having it so I can fidget with it when I’m nervous or something.

42 - do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!

I actually haven’t gotten to experience any coffee shops :/ just Starbucks lol. But once I’m on my own I think I’ll check more places out.

44 - when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?

I honestly don’t know. It’s been some time.

46 - tell us the worst pun you can think of.

I’m not good with punssss! I don’t know. I can’t think of anything.

48 - what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?

Hm I was afraid of a lot of things and I still am. I’d say pretty much the same things, more or less. Things that aren’t even closely real, things that my mind just comes up with. And now I’m actually scared of more things, I think. Realistic situations and whatnot.

50 - what’s an odd thing you collect?

I collect rocks, but I think that’s pretty normal, right?? I also collect piggy banks and hedgehog knick knacks.

52 - what are your favorite memes of the year so far?

God I don’t even know. I guess maybe the spongebob ones, the Patrick ones.

54 - who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?

Oh wow. Hm. I really don’t know. I really, truly, do not know.

56 - what are some things you find endearing in people?

Hmm…it differs from person to person I suppose. But I guess, like…the way people smile, the different ways people laugh when they’re truly laughing (even if they find it obnoxious it’s a part of them and it’s just kinda cute and funny), when a person who doesn’t usually dress up dresses up all fancy and gets all shy about it. I don’t know. Just little things I guess.

58 - who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?

Oof I don’t really know. I think Morgan would be the vodka aunt. But wine mom…I don’t know.

60 - do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?

Yessss I do. Hm, favorites…it depends on the mood I’m in, I suppose. When I was little though I really liked Shel Silverstein’s poems.

62 - do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?

Nopeeee I don’t really like juice 😕

64 - what color is the sky where you are right now?

Kind of a soft baby blue? Idk but it’s quite nice.

66 - what would your ideal flower crown look like?

Baby blue eyes and daisies, I think. Just blue flowers in general would be good enough for me 👍

68 - what’s winter like where you live?

Not cold enough!!!!!!!! Although this year it snowed more than I expected it to. Still, it’s not very cold and we don’t get much rain 😕

70 - have you ever used a ouija board?

No, and despite my belief that it’s absolute bull crap, I would never use one because I’m a wuss.

72 - are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it?

It depends, some things I remember and some things I don’t.

74 - describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns.

Oof well I’ve pretty much mentioned all my IRL friends and they’re kinda predictable 😂 so I’ll choose an Internet friend. They’re extremely sweet, and do so, so much for other people, even when they’re already so busy with their own life. They’re always caring and genuine, and put others before themselves (even though I wish they wouldn’t sometimes). They’re super patient, which is good because sometimes I can be a bit slow 😂 and just so, so amazing and beautiful and talented and hardworking and they deserve to go far. I hope they’ll keep holding on strong and keep on fighting. And I hope they truly know how much I admire them. (Damn I kinda described all of my internet friends there?????? I had a specific one in mind though I swear)

76 - is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t?

Yes 😂 homework

78 - are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?

I’m on the fence actually 😕 it’s not like I hate them with a burning passion or anything but I think they’re kinda milking it for all it’s worth at this point, which usually happens with movies.

80 - what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?

3 white walls and a light bluish tealish wall (with a border of music notes in silver paint on the teal wall). I got to redecorate my room a couple years ago for my birthday and I love the color blue but I didn’t want something that would darken the room (although I keep my curtains mostly closed lol). The music notes were from a piece I played that year in the school band, it was my favorite.

82 - are/were you good in school?

I’m a procrastinator but I do get good grades 😁 I’ve never had an -A or lower. And I’m kind of a teacher’s pet 😂

84 - are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?

Definitely not. I don’t see the point in basically paying someone to stab you with a needle over and over again. If I did get one, I think it would be a clef heart or 아리엘.

86 - do you like concept albums? which ones?

I can’t really think of any specific ones (???? maybe I’m just being dumb ????) but I do like the idea of them.

88 - are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?

Ehhh, I’m not exactly an art buff, so idk what to say. I think that as long as it carries emotion and makes the viewer feel something or think of something, then it must be pretty good. The style doesn’t define what story it tells, it just helps set the mood.

90 - talk about your one of you favorite cities.

I haven’t really traveled so I’m gonna have to skip this 😶

92 - are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?

Honestly I prefer just butter on my pasta but if I’m putting on cheese then I’m going all the way.

94 - who was the last person you know to have a birthday?

Well I mean idk if it counts since I know her online so I’ll go with the closest one that I know irl. My aunt just had her birthday, it was a couple days ago.

96 - do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?

I usually procrastinate them 😅 because it always asks me when I’m in the middle of doing something and I don’t wanna stop what I’m doing.

98 - when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?

I don’t remember…but probably not 😂

100 - if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?

The past. I’d like to do some things differently. Be a better person. Make myself become a better person and have better habits. The future can still be changed but my past is set in stone. Although, if I go 5 years back, I might not end up on this site, so overall I’d rather just stay in the present 😂

[treaddelicately]

27, 28, 29 for the author asks.

27. Do you try to do most of your research ahead of writing (when research is necessary) or do you do it as things come up?

Listen, I fly by the seat of my pants AT ALL TIMES. If something requires research, generally my first draft has (parentheses everywhere) and I’ll go back and fill them in later. If it’s a huge plot point, I’ll try and work it out ahead of time, but minor details? Forget it, I’m looking that shit up right before I post it.

28. How do you make sure your plot points are there while also making them blend in with the story?

Uhhh, that’s a really good question, and that’s also why I have a beta who keeps my ass on track. I tend to get lost in the character moments and the fluff and the self-indulgent OH MY GOD I JUST REALLY NEED THIS MOMENT stuff. It’s nice to have a second pair of eyes to steer me back to the plot (I hateeeee plot. is it not enough to write shameless smut and fluff with no clear direction? No? Fuck). But, I do try to use those character moments to push the plot along. 

29. How do you plot your stories?

Plot? What plot?

Just kidding. I have to admit I’m not suuuuuuper versed in this because BWGL is the first plot-heavy thing I’ve ever written. And it’s taken literal months of mapping this story out, which is ridiculous considering it’s essentially a romcom. If I had to write something with any more moving pieces, I’d be lost. 

That being said, I write plots with friends. My favorite thing to do is screech at someone about an idea I’ve had and develop it from there. I couldn’t have written Before We Get Lost without yelling at you and @dresupi about it for weeks. Why did Clint and Darcy break up? Okay, why send them to Michigan? Is this scene necessary? etc, etc. I would be nowhere without someone to shout about all of this with, so give yourself a pat on the back.

[tellywoodtrash]

ishqbaaz 10.08.17 lb

plain text version here. 

ouff tell me he comes back today, i can’t tolerate this boring anymore. 😒😒😒

... how does sahil buy gifts and shit? ek toh paise kahan se aate hai, and two, how does he actually leave school and go get these things done? 🤔🤔🤔

it’s a flat package. pakka it’s a pic of shivaay and her. 😐😐😐

called it! 😎😎😎

omg how cute is sahilllll looking at her for her reaction??? 😘😘😘

ugh flashbacks killing me as always. 😥😥😥

omRi cryingggggg. ugh. my heart. 😪😪😪

oh anika. *hug* 😞😞😞

om and gauri instantly sweeping in and doing laad on sahil. so cute. 💖💖💖

god surbhi’s suchhhhhh an amazing actress, the quiet dignity with which she does scenes like this. i love her so much. 😙😙😙

um... no, it’s not rabb ka ishaara. it’s sultan’s panga with bhavya, and shivaay’s unfortunately collateral damage. 😐😐😐

dadi and her ishqbaazi nonsense. ouff. it has too many complicated rules. 😒😒😒 

omfg, i’d thought bhavya might have gone out to look for shivaay herself and was making herself useful, BUT NOPE! 😑😑😑

THEN GO OUT AND DO YOUR DAMN DUTY INSTEAD OF SITTING HERE. 😫😫😫😫

girl. you have some INTENSE issues. you should really get some therapy. and i mean that in the nicest, most real way ever. 😕😕😕

‘hum kuch nahi kar paaye’ means what? you were like 8? what the fuck COULD you have done? 😶😶😶

‘i am NOT equipped to deal with this freakout. should i go get om? 😧😧😧’

dude, you’re a cop. you’re not GOD. you can’t control EVERYTHING. 😐😐😐

ok rudra seems to be channeling his best soothing inner therapist voice. 

good job, rudy! 😚😚😚

ew, what’s this new bg music they have? do not like. 😟😟😟

waah, he yelled the tadi back into her. 😆😆😆

lmaoooo ragini! i’ve never related to you more. in time of stress = ALL TEH CARBS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😂😂😂😂

haha she’s like, shivaay’s dead, what’s the point of being thin and hot anymore? 🤣🤣🤣

girl, there’s plenty of other fish in the sea. hook another one! 🙄🙄🙄

“shivaay is okay!” “.... fuck, what???? i just ate my own weight in rice!!!!! 😟😟😟”

i love ragini so much, i can’t even. i really fucking love her. she’s fucking hilarious!!!!!!!!! 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

lmao pinky is getting bhanak of ragini’s crazy. and she’s notttt happy. 😆😆😆

oh man, thisssss songgggg. my heart. i can’t handle. 😥😥😥

ok stop showing my flashbacks from the wedding from hell and reminding me what a beastly baagad billa he was. only scenes where he was a sweet, loving billu, please. 😌😌😌

lol roke na ruke naina was HIS daydream, how is SHE remembering it? 🤔🤔🤔

DUDE, you know he’s OKAY. why are you crying over his (ugly) clothes like he’s dead???????? jesus. 🙄🙄🙄

ok, awkward phasing out of the song. editing dept, srsly, what’s your damageeee? 😒😒😒

again. he’s literally been gone like an hour rn. could you just... CHILL. 😣😣😣

lol ragini’s nautanki. 😆😆😆

holy shittt, she did THAT. what a piece of work you are, nagini! 😗😗😗

girls, girls. this could be a good bonding experience for you. 😌😌😌

“woh kitna handsome hai, agar uske face pe scar aa gaya toh?”

trying to paint ragini as evil and superficial, but honestly same. that face is pretty much the only thing he has going for him, kyunki personality aur dimaag toh hai nahi bande ke paas. 🙄🙄🙄

shivaay ke baare mein ok, sahil ke baare mein aise kaise bol sakti hai??? 😤😤😤

“... tumhare kaan ke neeche itne zor ki bajaongi ki do saal tak seetiyaan bajti rahengi.”

lmfaooooooooooooooooooooooo amazinggggg. i love gundiiiiii anika so much! 😂😂😂

daaaaaaamn anikaaaa, tu toh badi sherniiiii nikli. 😏😏😏

i’m really glad that they’re showing gauri as capable and... like... valued. just as much as anika, and not being overshadowed by her. 😌😌😌

(please note, i mean to the family. not in the show itself. in the show, she still needs to be treated as waaaaaaaaaaaay more important. 😤😤😤)

god, bulbul is so amazingly sweet and soothing. i love her sooooo much. what an angel. 😇😇���

‘what a good bahu! i think i might fall in love with her for her amaze bahu skillz!!!!!!!!’

hate such stupid scenes. love her for who she is, not what she does for you and your family, asshole! 😒😒😒

whooooooo boy, infighting within pinky/ragini alliance. 😆😆😆

my god pinkyyyyyyyy. priorities!!!!!!!!!! 😑😑😑

ragini’s evil emile is amazing and i love it. 😈😈😈

thissss fucking boss of bhavya’s is such a fucker. matlab, who just IMPOSES a decision like this, saying you have to become bali ka bakra??? 😠😠😠

lol media be like “yeh lo, yet another wife. i’ve lost count of what number we’re even on with this dude.” 😆😆😆

WHO CARES WHY HE WAS ANGRY WHEN HE LEFT HOME? LIKE... HOW IS THIS RELEVANT TO REPORTING THE STORY????? 🙄🙄🙄

“MRS. OBEROI, KYA AAPKA JHAGDA HUA THA MR. OBEROI SE?” “AAP DONO KE BEECH *EXACTLY* KYA HUA THA?” “haan actually, nahaane ke baad, maine geela towel bed pe chod diya tha. issi baat pe bhadak gaye the...” 

yaaaas bhavyaaaaa, use your authority to protect anika!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

and gauriiiiiiiii calling out pinky???????? HOLY SHITTTT! 😧😧😧

HELL YAAAAS GAURI, YOU’RE THE BAHUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!! OWN IT, GIRL! 😎😎😎

i honestly have never loved bhavya more than i do right now. welcome to the gang, girl. welcome to the fam. they’re all batshit crazy, try to hold on to your sanity, pls. 😊😊😊

OMFG GAURIIIIIIII KA EK JHAAAAANP AT RAGINI FOR DARING TO JATAO HAQ ON BADE BHAIYYA. AMAZING. 

“gaon basa nahi ke bhikaari aa gaye!”  “chup kar, apni angrezi apne paas rakh!”  “tumhaara apna koi ghar baar, maa baap, KHET KHALYAN GAI BEL KUCH HAI KI NAHI???” 

ok. i...  words cannot describe how much in love with gauri i am rn. *pushes aside omkara to marry her myself* 😍😍😍😍

BHAVYA GETTING IN ON THE THREATENING TOO! OMFG I LOVE THESE FUCKING GIRLS SO MUCH. *sobbing, overwhelmed with love* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

anika has had enough of the yelling. pft. it was so much funnnnn. 😒😒😒

oh svetlana, girl. what have they doneeeeeee to you? pleaseee, you used to be so badass. 😟😟😟

oh no, gauri is here to force religion on anika. godddddddd. i hateeeee. 😤😤😤

ughhhh, is this the start of anika turning dhaarmik track? lorddddd. 😣😣😣

fwding this svetlana and the psychic nonsense. 🙄🙄🙄

where the f is pinky even going right now???? 😐😐😐

HONESTLY WOMAN, WHAT ARE YOUR PRIORITIES RN? BETA MISSING HAI, LEKIN IN MADAM KO JASOOSI KI PADI HUI HAI. 😯😯😯

lollllllllll, pinkyyyyyy finding jhanvi here! 🙃🙃🙃

OMG TELL ME SVETLANA OVERHEARD THEM TALKING AND KNOWS TEJ IS ALIVE AND KILLS HIM FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!! 😯😯😯

svetlana, girl, you didn’t need a PSYCHIC to tell you that burning everything from an ex is the best way to break his evil hold over your life. i coulda told you that! 😊😊😊

tell me she has digital copies of whatever it was?????? 😧😧😧

OMG YAAAAAAAAS SVETLANA KNOWSSSSSSSS!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAS MY BADASSSSSS EVIL BITCHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! SHE TOTALLY STILL HAS THE DOCUMENTS AND PROOF! I FUCKINGGGG LOVEEEEEE HERRRRRRR!!! 🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽🙌🏽

greatttttttttt. Star Plus Bahus and the Power of Prayer™ special tomorrow. oufffffffffff. 😤😤😤😤

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Also I know your not being harsh at all in your other response because i completely agree it can't be cheating unless it's consensual and when it comes to topics like sexual assault especially if it's not a woman people don't take it seriously and i guess Im most worried about that, I do kinda rush the way i send asks and I'm gonna read over them more before clicking send, also yeah I consume a lot of media that don't appeal to me and certain things I thought I wouldn't like that I've ended up loving, I kinda spoil things for myself to see if I'll like it, it's hard with books to find spoilers sometimes so I'll just go on reviews Ive read because I need to get into the right headspace to read certain topics that are heavy like all your perfects (I learnt my lesson with iewu because the domestic violence aspect I was not expecting at all and I wasn't ready at that moment to read it)

okay good! i felt bad and didn’t want to make it seem like i was accusing you or anything - i was stating A truth but not trying to warp YOUR truth and didn’t want it to come off twisted or confrontational or anything like that. i don’t even think your ask came off saying that, especially since i knew what you meant, but i figured clearing up that gray space never hurts. but you’re all good :)

i’m actually kind of completely the opposite lol. i hateeeee spoilers of any kind and a lot of times won’t even read the summary or will try to wait and forget it before going into a book. i love to be surprised in as many ways as possible while reading. i’ve been on a sad book kick lately so i was in the right mind space when i read all your perfects because it was what i was looking for but even so, with such heavy topics that’s why i like storygraph for having an in depth content warning section on books that anyone can contribute to, and i’m glad to see the trend of authors putting content warnings at the front of their books slowly becoming more mainstream. it’s a good way for me to know, without being spoiled, what i’m getting into and/or if their are any sensitive topics i should either prepare for or just completely avoid by not reading the book

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85 Questions

I finally managed not to forget to do this and it was fun. Thanks for tagging me @cats-and-metersticks! :)

Rules: Answer these 85 statements about yourself, then tag 20 people

last

drink - elderberry juice

phone call – my dad

text message - my sister

song you listened to – Old Money by Lana Del Rey

time you cried – I think I cried a bit last night reading a fic (it wasn’t even that angsty but I got way too into it lmao)

ever

dated someone twice? – no

kissed someone and regretted it – hmm, sorta

been cheated on – yep

lost someone special - yes

been depressed – also yes, thankfully not anymore

gotten drunk and thrown up – never, I can hold my liquor 

fave colours

purple

red

black

in the last year have you…

made new friends – yes

fallen out of love - wasn’t in love to begin with

laughed until you cried – yes

found out someone was talking about you – I don’t really remember, possibly

met someone who changed you – no, I don’t think so

found out who your friends are - I already knew that

kissed someone on your facebook friends list - nope

general

how many of your facebook friends do you know irl – all of them, I think

do you have any pets -  a russian blue cat, her name is Sophie and she’s beautiful and is currently begging me to give her food (I tried to take a picture but she won’t let me)

do you want to change your name - nah, I like it

what did you do for your last birthday – I slept over at my best friend’s house and got drunk with her fiancé (she’s pregnant so she couldn’t join us but she was there too)

what time did you wake up today – around 10 I think

what were you doing at midnight last night – I was reading this multichapter fic, I finished it around 3 am

what is something you can’t wait for – I’m excited to meet my godson, there’s only about a month left till he’s due

what are you listening to right now – nothing because I’m just taking a break from writing and I never write with music, I cannot concentrate

have you ever talked to a person named tom – I might have? I don’t know, it’s not an existing name in my country but maybe on the internet though

something that’s getting on your nerves – people who just refuse to see things from the other person’s perspective

most visited website - tumblr, twitter, ao3

hair colour – naturally dark brown but I’ve been dying it red for years

long or short hair – pretty long right now, actually I think it’s the longest it’s ever been

do you have a crush on someone – unless celebrities count, I haven’t in a while

what do you like about yourself – I’m the survivor type

want any piercings? – no

blood type – this is embarrassing but I don’t know

nicknames – my sister calls me Sissi

relationship status - single

zodiac - Sagittarius

pronouns - she/her

fave tv shows – Wynonna Earp, Magnificent Century, How To Get Away With Murder, The Tudors, any historical drama

tattoos – not yet but I’ve been thinking about getting one, probably not anytime soon though

right or left handed - right

ever had surgery - nope, though I will as soon as I can gather enough money for it

piercings – nope

sport – I hateeeee sports, I’m the clumsiest bitch ever and I have bad P.E. memories

drinking – not excessively but I do like to

i’m about to watch – nothing, I’m gonna go back to writing

waiting for – coffee time in an hour

want - to successfully pass my french exam

get married – probably

career – I’m in college right now studying to be a translator/interpreter, but my dream career is definitely being an author

which is better

hugs or kisses - I’m really not a fan of hugs so definitely kisses

lips or eyes - both? eyes? maybe

shorter or taller - taller

older or younger - OLDER, listen I have a kink... maybe...

nice arms or stomach - stomach

hookup or relationship - both, I mean I don’t think I can compare the two and it really depends

troublemaker or hesitant - hesitant with new people, troublemaker with old friends/people I’m comfortable around

have you ever

kissed a stranger - twice, kind of regretted it both times

drank hard liquor - oooooh yes

lost glasses - I don’t have glasses

turned someone down - yup

sex on first date - nope but I’m not nesseccarily against it

broken someone’s heart - yes

had your heart broken - also yes

been arrested - oh no, and I wouldn’t ever like to

cried when someone died - doesn’t everyone normally cry when somebody dies? if it’s someone close to them at least... anyways, yes

fallen for a friend - sorta? depends on what we mean by friend

do you believe in

yourself – sometimes

miracles - yes

love at first sight – not at all lmao

santa claus - obviously not

kiss on a first date - sure, but not with everyone

angels - that’s a complicated question with a complicated answer but let’s just go with yes

other

best friend’s name - Niki (which is funnily enough my name as well, yes we have the same name)

eye colour – dark brown

fave movie - I’m not a huge movie person, I don’t know if I have a favorite... maybe Silence of the Lambs or Gone Girl

fave actor – there’s so many but Natalie Dormer has been consistently my favorite since I was 14 so her