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vogelmeister · 4 months ago

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me with goud tbh. im not sure entirely what message i wanted to convey or the themes i wanted (although im positive identity is one of them, maybe deception and betrayal is too) and it's honestly just making me go ??? what’s the point and why does it actually goddam matter?? what would i take away from this story if i wasn’t its author.

Idk why but I'm feeling really stuck with my writing rn. I don't really have a *theme* for my story or a message I want to tell, and I keep seeing things that say you need that for a story.

I just want to write a fantasy with queer main characters. I don't even know what I'm doing.

#however i do know what goud says about me and that’s terrifying #like YES anne fleur could be a comment on americanisation but knowing me as a person �� its not really that #its more general tbh #like i used america because i do believe it’s realistic #i offhand australia a lot and use a lot of theatrical imagery of anne fleur being a performer #i just wanted to write something set in the netherlands and was queer really #but no if someone asked me what the themes or the messaging was of it idk #but like if an audience saw goud what would i want them to gain from it #asides from “don't cheat on ur gf of two years”#don’t do that btw!!!#goud matters to me but what if you don’t know my context #what will you get out of it then #the other thing that’s interesting is that the story itself isn’t really tied to the netherlands but the way i wrote it is #like it could take place anywhere really. there’s nothing country specific there. the bare bones of goud is pre universal #i just set it in the netherlands and leaned in and made it everyone’s issue #anyways prev you’re not alone here.#and im sorry for hijacking ur posr #its annoying because this is something only you can figure out and only you’re right in #also like everyone is saying- it is something that comes #like i said i just wanted to write merels backstory and something set in the netherlands #the whole anne fleur and america and desire to leave her country and merel BEING the netherlands happened on its own #i didnt set out to write that #i saw merel on her canal and went... well how #and i think while i dont know the themes or message what I do have is good because i didnt force it

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